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thetriplets3 ยท 25 days
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#10 matt ๐Ÿฅน
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this jumps back and forth from third to first person i didnโ€™t specify when but it just makes sense in my head writing it this way sorry if that bugs you
ps. white cat is you, orange cat is matt
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i huff as i yank my hoodie off and chuck it at the end of the sofa for what felt like the 100th time in the last hour, nearly smacking chris with it, leaving me in my tank top.
โ€œfor fucks sakeโ€ i grumble, too focused on how warm i am to think anyoneโ€™s paying attention.
โ€œeasy now. watch were youโ€™re throwing things youโ€™re gonna take my eye outโ€ chris overexaggerated.
โ€œitโ€™s a sauna in here i feel like iโ€™m gonna combustโ€
chris chuckles and shakes his head, turning his attention back to the movie that took ages for us all to agree on watching. chris and nick were far too engrossed in the movie to care about the antics going on in the corner of the sofa. little did you know matt has had his eye on you all night watching as you fuss with your hoodie, being too distracted to pay attention to the movie. when you all sat down to start the movie matt kept a slight distance between you two sensing something was bothering you, unsure if it was something he did or if you were just overwhelmed and couldnโ€™t get comfortable. either way he didnโ€™t want to make it worse for you. seeing how much youโ€™ve been fidgeting in the last hour finally made him pipe up.
โ€œsweetheart is something bothering you? you havenโ€™t been able to sit still for the past hour. please tell me so i can help youโ€ matt asked just loud enough for you to hear but not loud enough for his brothers to hear, not wanting their yelling for him to shut up to make you more uncomfortable than you already are.
โ€œcanโ€™t get comfortableโ€ i mutter.
โ€œis the hoodie not comfy? you can have mine if you wantโ€.
โ€œsโ€™okay iโ€™m just annoyed iโ€™m warm with it on but after a while iโ€™m cold without it then i get too warm if i put it back onโ€ i exasperate. โ€œi canโ€™t decide if iโ€™m hot or coldโ€
without a word matt reaches towards me and places the back of his hand on my forehead. i look up at his hand before looking at him inquisitively.
โ€œyeah youโ€™re hotโ€ he says with a stupid grin on his face and a little chuckle.
โ€œi already knew thatโ€ i quip. โ€œiโ€™m warm? what does that mean? do you think iโ€™m sick?โ€ i start rattling off questions, dreading the thought of being sick.
โ€œi actually have no idea how to tell by your forehead. my mom used to do that to us figured iโ€™d give it a shotโ€
โ€œwell iโ€™m still hot and cold and itโ€™s really starting to piss me off if i canโ€™t get comfortableโ€ i huff.
matt holds his finger up to me letting me know heโ€™ll be back. seconds later he returns with a ringed it wet rag he ran under cold.
โ€œscooch over iโ€™m coming inโ€
i make room for him to lie down before placing half my body onto of his with my head on his chest. his hands delicately gather my hair and brush it over my shoulder, clearing my neck. he places a kiss to my head before placing the cool cloth on my neck letting it rest there for a while before gently rubbing it across my bare back, cooling me down. when i got cold he pulled a fuzzy blanket lover top of us, hugging me closer to him as his one blanket covered hand rubbed across my back keeping me warm. he kept this up for the rest of the movie, cool cloth and blanket for whatever you were feeling.
โ€œthank you matt. i love youโ€ i whisper, giving him a squeeze.
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It wasn't supposed to end this way;
With heavy betrayal hanging in the air.
One year and a single day,
This isn't something I think she can bear.
๐Ÿ–ค
A thousand promises broken.
Trust isn't a common currency here.
Soo many feelings unspoken,
And that's how it'll remain for the next seven years.
๐Ÿ–ค
You wanted power,
You wanted safety and revenge.
You achieved it all with your soul devoured;
A black heart, unable to repent.
๐Ÿ–ค
I didn't want it to end like this;
With him betrayed and you broken.
I had put all my hopes on a kiss,
But you chose the choices you've chosen.
~๐Ÿ–ค~๐Ÿ–ค~๐Ÿ–ค~๐Ÿ–ค~
~My pov~
Hello loves, my exams are finally rounding up and I can breathe. I have soo many poems I wanna share with y'all and insha'Allah I will. This is inspired from the first book of the folk of air series; CRUEL PRINCE๐Ÿ–ค
Hope you like it. Tell me if you'd like poems from the remaining books yeah?
Next poem: Juggler
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Hiiii I just read your fyodor fic and I love it๐ŸŽ€ and I would like to request fyodor x reader based on "spiracle" by flower face, I think the song fits him perfectly. Maybe you can write it from reader's POV, she's a little obsessed with Fyodor but it's one soded kind of. Also can you make it a little angsty please
And sorry for my bad English it's not my first language
๐–ฒ๐—‰๐—‚๐—‹๐–บ๐–ผ๐—…๐–พ
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๐–ฏ๐–บ๐—‚๐—‹๐—‚๐—‡๐—€: ๐–ฅ๐—’๐—ˆ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—‹ ๐–ฃ๐—ˆ๐—Œ๐—๐—ˆ๐—’๐–พ๐—๐—Œ๐—„๐—’ ๐—‘ ๐–ฒ๐—…๐—‚๐—€๐—๐—๐—…๐—’ ๐–ฎ๐–ป๐–พ๐—Œ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–ฝ! ๐–ฑ๐–พ๐–บ๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—‹.
๐– /๐–ญ: ๐–จ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—‹๐–พ๐—Š๐—Ž๐–พ๐—Œ๐— ๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐—†๐—Ž๐–ผ๐— ๐—ˆ๐—†๐—€! ๐– ๐—…๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐–จ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ ๐–ฅ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐–ฅ๐–บ๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—ƒ๐—Ž๐—Œ๐— ๐—‰๐–พ๐—‹๐–ฟ๐–พ๐–ผ๐—๐—‚๐—ˆ๐—‡! ๐–ณ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐—„ ๐—’๐—ˆ๐—Ž ๐–ฟ๐—ˆ๐—‹ ๐—‹๐–พ๐—Š๐—Ž๐–พ๐—Œ๐—๐—‚๐—‡๐—€! โ™ฅ๏ธŽ ๐–ก๐—๐— ๐—๐—ˆ ๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—‹๐—’๐—ˆ๐—‡๐–พ ๐–พ๐—…๐—Œ๐–พ ๐—Œ๐—‚๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—‚๐—‡ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—‹๐–พ๐–บ๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—‹๐—Œ ๐–ฏ๐–ฎ๐–ต, ๐–จ ๐—๐—‚๐—…๐—… ๐–ป๐–พ ๐—Ž๐—Œ๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–ฝ๐—Œ ๐—…๐—‚๐—„๐–พ, "๐–จ," ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ "๐–ฌ๐—‚๐—‡๐–พ," ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐–จ ๐–บ๐—† ๐—‡๐—ˆ๐— ๐—๐–บ๐—„๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐–บ๐–ป๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐— ๐—†๐—’๐—Œ๐–พ๐—…๐–ฟ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—…! ๐–ค๐—‡๐—ƒ๐—ˆ๐—’!
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๐–ฑ๐–พ๐–บ๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—‹๐—Œ ๐–ฏ๐–ฎ๐–ต: ๐–ณ๐—ˆ ๐—Œ๐–บ๐—’ ๐–จ'๐—† ๐—ˆ๐–ป๐–พ๐—Œ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—…๐–ฝ ๐–ป๐–พ ๐–บ ๐–ป๐—‚๐— ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐–บ๐—‡ ๐—Ž๐—‡๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—‹๐—Œ๐—๐–บ๐—๐–พ๐—†๐–พ๐—‡๐—.
๐–จ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—†๐–บ๐—‡, ๐–ฅ๐—’๐—ˆ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—‹, ๐–จ'๐—† ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—†๐—‰๐—…๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—’ ๐—‚๐—‡๐–ฟ๐–บ๐—๐—Ž๐–บ๐—๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐—๐—‚๐—†. ๐–ถ๐—๐–พ๐—‡๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐–จ ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—† ๐–จ'๐—† ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—†๐—‰๐—…๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—’ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—Œ๐—‚๐—‹๐–พ, ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—Œ๐—‚๐—…๐–พ๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ, ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—…๐—‚๐—‰๐—Œ, ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ๐—Œ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—†๐—Ž๐—Œ๐—'๐—๐–พ ๐–ป๐–พ๐–พ๐—‡ ๐—€๐—‚๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—ˆ ๐—๐—‚๐—† ๐–ป๐—’ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—€๐—ˆ๐–ฝ๐—Œ ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—†๐—Œ๐–พ๐—…๐—๐–พ๐—Œ. ๐–ง๐–พ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–บ ๐—†๐–บ๐—‡ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–ผ๐—‹๐–พ๐—๐—Œ, ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–ผ๐—‹๐–พ๐—๐—Œ ๐–จ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ๐— ๐—๐—ˆ ๐–ฝ๐—‚๐—Œ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ๐—‹.
๐–ณ๐—๐–พ ๐—Œ๐–พ๐—‡๐—Œ๐–พ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—๐—‚๐—ˆ๐—…๐–พ๐—‡๐–ผ๐–พ ๐–จ ๐—Œ๐–พ๐–พ ๐—‚๐—‡ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–พ๐—’๐–พ๐—Œ ๐–บ๐—Œ ๐—€๐—ˆ๐—‹๐—€๐–พ๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—Œ ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—†๐—ˆ๐—ˆ๐—‡ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐—Œ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–บ๐—‡ ๐—Ž๐—‡๐–พ๐—‘๐—‰๐—…๐–บ๐—‚๐—‡๐–บ๐–ป๐—…๐–พ ๐–ฟ๐–พ๐–พ๐—…๐—‚๐—‡๐—€. ๐–ก๐—Ž๐—, ๐–จ ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—‡'๐— ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—‡๐—„ ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐–พ๐—๐—Œ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—Œ๐–บ๐—†๐–พ, ๐–จ ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—‡ ๐—ƒ๐—Ž๐—Œ๐— ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—… ๐—‚๐— ๐—‚๐—‡ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—‚๐–ผ๐–พ ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—‡ ๐—๐–พ ๐—’๐–พ๐—…๐—…๐—Œ, ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—‚๐–ผ๐–พ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–บ๐—‡๐—€๐–พ๐—‹ ๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐—†๐—‚๐—‡๐–พ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–บ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐–ฟ๐–พ๐–บ๐—‹. ๐–จ ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—‡'๐— ๐–พ๐—‘๐–บ๐–ผ๐—๐—…๐—’ ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—… ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐–จ ๐–ฟ๐–พ๐–พ๐—…, ๐—ˆ๐—‡ ๐—ˆ๐—‡๐–พ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐–จ'๐—† ๐–ผ๐—ˆ๐—†๐—‰๐—…๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—…๐—’ ๐—‚๐—‡ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐—๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—†๐–บ๐—‡, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐—ˆ๐—‡ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—ˆ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ, ๐—๐–พ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐—Œ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–ฟ๐–พ๐–บ๐—‹, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐—€๐—ˆ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐–ผ๐— ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—€๐—ˆ๐–ฝ๐—…๐—’, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐–ฟ๐—ˆ๐—‹๐–ผ๐–พ๐–ฝ. ๐–ง๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ๐—Œ ๐—Œ๐—๐–บ๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐–บ๐— ๐—†๐—’ ๐—๐–บ๐—‚๐—Œ๐—, ๐–ผ๐—…๐–บ๐—๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐–บ๐— ๐—†๐—’ ๐—‚๐—‡๐—Œ๐—‚๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—Œ, ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐—‚๐—‡๐—€ ๐—†๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐–บ ๐—‹๐—Ž๐—Œ๐— ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐–ฝ๐—ˆ๐—‰๐–บ๐—†๐—‚๐—‡๐–พ. ๐–ณ๐—๐–พ๐—‡ ๐—…๐–บ๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—‡๐—‚๐—€๐—๐—, ๐–จ ๐–ผ๐—‹๐—’ ๐–ป๐–พ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—Ž๐—Œ๐–พ ๐—๐–พ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—‡๐—ˆ๐— ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—‹๐–พ, ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—ˆ๐—‡'๐— ๐—‹๐–พ๐–ผ๐—‚๐—‰๐—‹๐—ˆ๐–ผ๐–บ๐—๐–พ ๐—๐—๐–พ ๐—Œ๐–บ๐—†๐–พ ๐–บ๐—†๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—‡๐— ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ ๐–จ ๐—Œ๐—๐—ˆ๐— ๐—๐—‚๐—†. ๐–ถ๐—๐–พ๐—‡ ๐–จ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—‡๐–บ๐—…๐—…๐—’ ๐–ฟ๐–บ๐—…๐—… ๐–บ๐—Œ๐—…๐–พ๐–พ๐—‰, ๐—†๐—’ ๐—†๐—‚๐—‡๐–ฝ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐–ฟ๐—‚๐—…๐—…๐–พ๐–ฝ ๐—๐—‚๐—๐— ๐—‡๐—‚๐—€๐—๐—๐—†๐–บ๐—‹๐–พ๐—Œ, ๐—‡๐—‚๐—€๐—๐—๐—†๐–บ๐—‹๐–พ๐—Œ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐— ๐—Œ๐—๐—ˆ๐—Ž๐—…๐–ฝ ๐–ป๐–พ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐—๐—๐–พ๐—’ ๐—๐—‚๐—…๐—… ๐—‡๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐—…๐–พ๐–บ๐—๐–พ ๐—†๐—’ ๐—†๐—‚๐—‡๐–ฝ.
๐–ก๐—Ž๐— ๐–พ๐—๐–พ๐—‡ ๐–บ๐–ฟ๐—๐–พ๐—‹ ๐–บ๐—…๐—… ๐—ˆ๐–ฟ ๐—๐—๐–บ๐—, ๐—๐–พ ๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—†๐—’ ๐—ˆ๐—‡๐—…๐—’ ๐–ฝ๐–พ๐—Œ๐—‚๐—‹๐–พ.
๐–จ'๐—† ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—…๐—ˆ๐—๐–พ๐—‹, ๐–ป๐—Ž๐— ๐–บ๐—…๐—Œ๐—ˆ ๐—๐—‚๐—Œ ๐—ƒ๐–บ๐—‚๐—…๐—ˆ๐—‹.
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Against All Stereotypes
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Summary: Who would have thought of a Nerd and a Popular Girl being friends?
Paring: Peter Parker x Reader
Warning: yelling, kissing, fluff, stereotypes?
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First day of high school! You can imagine most people would be excited, at least thatโ€™s what all the movies and TV show say. But when you walked a day in your shoes, no one would be exciting about first days (especially at school).
Now, walking through the front doors was an adrenaline rush, donโ€™t get me wrong, but once you got inside, you realized just how diverse high school can be (like you needed one more thing in your life right now).
No one truly knew how or why people tended to be so stuck in their own little groups, but thatโ€™s just kinda how high school worked. Every group came with their own set of rules.
The Gossip Girls made a rule with the Pretty Perfectionist that they wouldnโ€™t cross paths, between the two groups there was a lot of diversity (even though they were basically the same, but donโ€™t say that to their faces. They will get offended).
Now the Nerds and the Jocks on the other hand, they were two totally separate people. Nerds were the ones everyone stayed away from, but the Jocks, now they had a different story. The Jocks were pretty much who everyone wanted to be, and if you were a Jock, oh man would you get girls. And of course, like any high school movie clichรฉ ever, the popular girls (meaning the Pretty Perfectionist and the Gossip Girls) went for the Jocks. Common knowledge of course.
The nerds, well, you can imagine how that went. Every single Nerd, for the most part, was sure they were in love with one of the popular girls, and all ended up getting rejected.
And then you had your common denominators, which was a horrible name. The common denominator consisted of the kids who werenโ€™t popular but wouldnโ€™t be considered nerds. There were several different groups of people within the common denominators, but everyone just referred to them as a whole (it was just easier that way).
You just so happened to land in this โ€˜common denominatorโ€™ group, but that didnโ€™t last for long.
You quickly made friends with a lot of the Pretty Perfectionist (thanks to your looks), and started hanging out with them, becoming one of them yourself. You never liked to refer to yourself as a perfectionist, but you werenโ€™t gonna deny that you were pretty.
You had self-esteem, self-confidence, and bit of an ego. Which was good, but honestly sometimes it wasnโ€™t.
In middle school, you were always referred to as different, which wasnโ€™t necessarily a bad thing. You just called yourself unique. You didnโ€™t care about what people thought of you, what you looked like, who you dated, or boys period. But after hanging out with the Pretty Perfectionists, all that sadly changed.
Were you proud that you had become a snobby know it all, who cared about what other people thought and what you looked like? No, as a matter of fact, you kicked yourself every day for letting yourself go. But no matter how hard you tried, there was nothing you could do about it. That was who you were now, and you werenโ€™t sure if anyone could ever change that.
You were walking to your first class of the day with Liz, one of your best friends, zoning out as usual. You zoned out a lot (especially since it hit you that you had changed), which the girls thought was really weird. Most of the time when they talked to you, they had to repeat themselves because guess what you were doingโ€ฆ overthinking and zoning out.
After realizing that you had forgotten your notebook (because who remembers those?), you dashed away from Liz, quickly picking up your pace as you neared your locker. The thing about running, in your chase just quickly walking, in the halls was that no one payed attention, leaving them to bump into you. Stupid phones.
Following one extremely hard blow, you were falling, slowly but surely falling to the ground. But before you could hit it, someone caught you.
As you looked up, looking into the chocolaty brown eyes of non other then Peter Parker, you realized your situation. Everything had happened so fast. You didnโ€™t really have time to realize that you had fallen until you locked eyes with Peter as he helped you stand back up.
โ€œThank youโ€ you said, still staring straight into his eyes. You were quick to notice of the light red that was now displayed on his cheeks.
โ€œItโ€™s no problem really, Iโ€™m just sorry I bumped into youโ€ Peter said, rubbing the back of his neck. He quickly realized that he hadnโ€™t actually told you his name, considering this was the first time you had spoken.
โ€œIโ€™m Peter by the way, Peter Parkerโ€ he added as he lowered his hand, stuffing it in the pocket of his hoodie were he had recently played the other one.
โ€œI knowโ€ you said, making it known to him that you were well aware of who he was. He looked shocked as you revealed that you knew him. He wanted to ask you your name, but quickly stopped when you answered his question before he could ask it. โ€œIโ€™m Y/nโ€
โ€œCan I ask how you know my name? Or is that weird?โ€ He asked, still shocked a popular girl knew his name and was talking to him.
โ€œNo itโ€™s fine, Iโ€™ve seen you, Ned, and Mj in the halls before. They tend to say your name a lot, and your not the best whispersโ€ you told him as you giggled at his stunned reaction.
โ€œI just donโ€™t ever talk to you because the girls donโ€™t really want me talking to guys, no offense, but especially Nerdsโ€ฆ which is what they call you and your friends. Iโ€™m pretty sure if they saw us talking right now, they would have a heart attackโ€ you added the last part with another giggle, seeing that Peter was laughing at your comment about โ€˜the girlsโ€™.
โ€œWell, I donโ€™t really wanna give anyone a heart attack, and donโ€™t wanna get you in trouble with themโ€ฆโ€ he was still laughing, but you could tell he meant what he said.
โ€œItโ€™s ok, Iโ€™m not scared of them honestly. Spend a day with them youโ€™ll realize just how stupid they are. They probably havenโ€™t even noticed Iโ€™m goneโ€ you said as you motioned Peter over to your locker so you could grab the notebook you came for.
You and Peter talked all the way to class, after finding out you had the same class in the morning (how had you never noticed him before?). You made sure to let Peter go in the class first, you coming in 30 seconds later, to make sure Liz didnโ€™t suspect anything (not that she was smart enough to anyway).
Class went on for what felt like an eternity, but in reality it was only 45 minutes. After class, Liz headed off to her second class and you went to find Peter (you pretty much had the same schedule, only two classes that were switched, but the rest in common).
The rest of the day was boring, even though all you could think about was Peter, and the homework you had no idea how to do. Thankfully Peter had given you his number. Oh thank the lord for Peter Parker and his ability to listen.
You called Peter after school, asking him questions about himself as you worked on your homework over FaceTime (which for him was letting you stare at his ceiling as you talked).
โ€œSo, Iโ€™ve been meaning to ask, why are you so afraid of the โ€˜popular girlsโ€™?โ€ You added, making sure to add air quotes to popular girls.
โ€œOh, Iโ€™m not afraid of them, Iโ€™m justโ€ฆ i donโ€™t know, theyโ€™re popular?โ€ He said, making more of a question then a statement. At that you laughed which, even though you couldnโ€™t see it, made Peter smile.
โ€œOh really? Is that so? What an amazing and detailed answer Peterโ€œ you gave him fake applause, making him brush out laughing, causing you to laugh as well.
The rest of your FaceTime call was much of the same. Youโ€™d ask him a question, heโ€™d give a dumb answer, and youโ€™d both laugh. Peter was a funny guy, even though he would never admit it. Peter only made jokes around people he knew and trusted, knowing he wouldnโ€™t be judged for it.
From that day forward, you and Peter started to hang out, and quickly become best friends (even if Liz, Betty, Emma, Grace, and Hannah, the popular girls, were against it).
As time went on you told the girls about Peter, feeling comfortable with the fact that they were gonna freak out. And just as you thought, they freaked.
โ€œWHAT?!โ€
โ€œYouโ€™ve got to be kiddingโ€
โ€œWho?โ€
โ€œWait! Not the Nerd!โ€
โ€œWhen did you start hanging out with him?โ€
The entire caffeine went silent, turning to look in the direction of the table you were sitting at.
โ€œGuys! I told you know to make a big deal out of this!!โ€ You said holding your head in your hands as you looked down at the table, questioning why you had expected them to be normal about this. I mean, you knew who you were talking to.
โ€œHow do you expect us to not make a deal out of this?!? Your hanging out with- with a Nerdโ€ Liz lowered her voice as she spoke, getting more quiet with every word. Everyone eventually lost interest, turning back to their own tables, bringing back the normal loudness of the caffeine.
โ€œOk, you know whatโ€ฆ I canโ€™t do it. If you guys are gonna make such a big deal about who I hang out with, Iโ€™m leavingโ€ you said as you got up and walked over to Peterโ€™s table (which was on the other side of the caffeine, thank the lord), plopping down right beside him.
Ned was the first to speak. โ€œSoโ€ฆ that went wellโ€
โ€œIf you call getting yelled at by people you knew would do that, after you telling them you hang out with people who arenโ€™t them. Then sure, it was greatโ€ you stated sarcastically, leaning into Peterโ€˜s arm, him grabbing your hand under the table, rubbing his thumb gently across the back of it as you intertwined your fingers.
โ€œI know they can be jerks, but honestly a scene like that? Like if I told you I was hanging out with one of them, would your first reaction be โ€˜WHAT?!? ARE YOU CRAZY?!โ€™? Like I just donโ€™t understand whatโ€™s wrong with them!โ€ You asked, placing your head on Peterโ€™s shoulder.
โ€œIโ€™m so done with themโ€ you mumbled, making your statement only audible to Peter.
You went to Peterโ€˜s apartment after school, venting about the girls the whole way. For some reason you always felt better after venting, but then again, didnโ€™t everyone?
After doing what felt like 7000 pages of homework, you and Peter decided to watch Star Wars, which you had only seen once before when Peter wanted to have a Star Wars movie marathon with you, Ned, and Mj, who ended up falling asleep.
The breeze in the room had given you chills, running down your spine as you grabbed a blanket. But Peter, noticing that you were cold, gently pulled you closer to him, throwing the blanket over the two of you once you were settled.
โ€œThis better?โ€ He asked, looking down at your little face that he wanted so badly to kiss.
You were quick to respond with a small nod, your eyes leaving Peterโ€˜s for a split second to examine his lips, which didnโ€™t go unnoticed by him. He blushed slightly but smiled. You just looked so adorable in his arms, it was hard for him to not give into his urge ๏ฟผkiss every part of your face.
You had so many butterflies in your stomach, it would have been impossible to count them. But non the less, they only multiplied when Peter finally gave into his urge, softly kissing you. You were surprised at first, but quickly got used to the feeling of his lips on yours and kissed him back.
When you pulled away, an interesting silence fell over the room, but you were the first to break it.
โ€œWho would have thought Peter Parker knew how to kiss?โ€ You asked, sounding completely genuine, which made Peter chuckle under you.
โ€œYea, well who would have thought one of the most popular girls at school would kiss a Nerd?โ€ He replied, smiling like a dummy.
โ€œDefinitely not stereotypicalโ€ you added, looking deep into Peterโ€˜s eyes. You could get used to that.
โ€œBetter yet, who couldโ€™ve thought about a Nerd and a popular girl being boyfriend and girlfriend?โ€ Peter questioned, smirking.
โ€œIโ€™ve never heard of such a thingโ€ you answered connecting your lips once again.
Who would have known that the day you told Liz, Betty, Emma, Grace, and Hannah about Peter could result with the beginning of you and Peterโ€˜s relationship?
Not stereotypes, that for sure.
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AN: So my idea for this was to write a five-part anthology about the five elements. I wanted to write a story that made the reader feel like they are the main character. There is no gender or descriptors so anyone can read it. I know it's not the traditional book style, but I think it could be fun. I Serve as sort of the narrator of the story, addressing the reader directly. So let me know what you guys think of the first chapter? Would you want to read this?
I'll have someone else edit and stuff cause I suck at editing lol
Chapter One: Earth
Deep in the heart of the forest, in the dead of night, there is a calm clearing. Despite the lack of trees, the moonlight does not dare encroach upon this land. It is still, lifeless. If not for dirt, it would be barren. Nobody treads there. There are rumours that those who do, do not come back. Of course, rumours are only whispers, cautionary tales of those who wish to keep life's secrets for themselves. Greed. One of the seven deadly sins. It is prevalent in our society.ย 
A ghost story perhaps. Something told by the ancestors, a way to keep their offspring in line. Those who stray too far from the path, get left behind, swallowed by the darkness. It is all-encompassing and absolute. The dark is thy mistress, tempting and full of allure. But the light, the sun, is thy warden, commanding and steadfast. Too quick to outrun, but shortening by the hour.ย 
With the day comes warmth. It smells of crisp leaves and morning dew. The sound of laughing children, joyous and light. Church bells ringing, loud and clear. Everything is as it should be. Everyone is accounted for. But as the warmth fades, the town turns in on itself. It is cold and uninviting. All the houses are shut tight, the doors lined with fresh sheered wool and dawned with sheep's blood. There is no more boyish laughter or girlish giggles. The only sound to be heard is the gentle snores from the mouths of the sleeping. And the ambient crackle from the fires within. It is night.ย 
And so the story goes, on and on until it reaches its conclusion. A raging crescendo, swelling in time with the unsteady beat of a heart. It trips and falls like a babbling brook, bending and weaving like the roots of a great tree. Each branch reaches for its own denouement. Stretching and leaping over roadblocks and barricades. A graceful dance, that's calculated and fluid. But a great tree, built on unstable ground, cannot fly towards the sun. It is destined to crash and burn, leaving only a stump in its ash.
Those who can count the rings of the dreaded stump can bare witness to its stories. With each ring, the tree grows older and wiser. A data farm of mystery and wonders. The old stump in the middle of the forest. The one that stands on barren ground. You mustnโ€™t make a sound if you wish to hear the whispers. They tickle at your ear, luring you in like a siren lullaby.ย  So do not disturb the silence, breathe lightly of the air, but hold it in your lungs. Your feet cannot touch the ground, nor may your eyes see through the shadows. Do not taste the air, or smell the decomposition.ย 
To travel with your mind, one must first give up their body. Exist beyond your senses, and push past your infantile, mortal husk. These games are not for children. Although the rules are lain before you, do not deceive them. They are subject to change at a whim, cracking and breaking under pressure. You should do well to guide them and keep them by your side at all times. For once a rule is lost, it cannot be found again. If not written in stone, then forge them in blood.ย 
A single apple, atop a dying tree. It is plump and red and full of life. A tiny leaf for garnish and a heavenly sent for good measure. But looks can be deceiving. It is repugnant in taste, a single bite may cut a life short. So, bite the apple. End your mortal qualms, and ascend into the plane, devoid of substance. Leave behind what you know, to gain what was lost long ago. You, brave adventurer, are the chosen one. On this journey, you must walk alone. Do you dare to venture into the unknown?ย 
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โ€œcโ€™mon, megumi. tell me whatโ€™s botherinโ€™ ya.โ€ satoru pouts at megumi, his arm thrown around the boyโ€™s shoulders. you watch the scene unfold with a tense smile.
megumi was exhausted from school, training and so much more. the teenagerโ€™s patience was wearing thin. especially with satoru almost pressuring him into telling you both whatโ€™s weighing on his mind. when all he wants is to be left alone at the moment.
the tone satoruโ€™s using to talk to megumi only pisses the high schooler off more and more. itโ€™s fatherly. like heโ€™s still the little child satoru took in and cared for. it pissed megumi off, along with everything else;
โ€œyouโ€™re not my dad, so stop fucking acting like you are!โ€
you freeze. satoru freezes. megumi freezes. time freezes. the silence was deafening. no one was moving. your eyes flicker over to satoruโ€™s and your heart shatters in a million pieces.
satoruโ€™s hurt. so hurt. itโ€™s visible and heโ€™s not hiding it โ€” not hiding it like he usually would behind a wide grin. his blindfold and glasses arenโ€™t there to hide the way his face falls either.
โ€œi know.โ€ satoru whispers. his voice lost its cheery tone, his eyes have lost their spark. the sorcerer slowly distances himself from megumi. a bitter chuckle leaves his lips. a futile attempt to hide his shaky voice, โ€œi know.โ€
all you could do is stand there in shock. megumi doesnโ€™t know what to do after his little outburst either. and satoru. . . well, satoru is the first one out of the room. you hear his breath hitch as he walks past you. you see his eyes twitch. the strongest, in tears.
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HE DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO HE DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO HE DIDN'T WANT TO LET GO!!! -screams-
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THE GRUDGE (or: the 7 things luke castellan hated about you)
read part two GET HIM BACK! (or: the 7 reasons you want revenge on luke castellan)
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pairing: luke castellan x child of nemesis!reader (gender not specified)
word count: 8.5k
summary: luke hated your guts. he really did. he just hoped that no one could tell how, even after all this, you're still everything to him.
warnings/disclaimer: luke's POV. spoilers for the lightning thief and season 1 of pjo. some heated make-out sessions but no actual smut - MDNI / 18+. mentions of blood + death + alcohol. luke is 19 during tlt but i wrote this with him + reader being 21 by the end of this (this is important for the next part lol). anyways, luke + reader share clothes and lots of intense emotions they maybe possibly don't process in the best way. lots of ANGST - it's a greek tragedy fr!
author's note: welcome to my new hyperfixation! this fic is LONG but i hope she's worth it โ™ก
โ™ช: the grudge by olivia rodrigo
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(i. you have a sharp tongue)
fourteen year old luke was overwhelmed when he first stepped into the hermes cabin. it was loud and overcrowded and no one really seemed to care that they had a new cabinmate. the head counselor showed luke to an empty bed at the back, told him to get settled in, and left without another word. luke dropped his backpack before collapsing on the mattress. it was so thin that he could feel the springs dig into his back.
"you'll get used to it."
luke sat up to see you climbing through the window.ย 
you had a band-aid stuck on your chin, chipped nail polish the color of blackberries, and leather combat boots that looked way too heavy to be wearing in the heat of summer.ย 
โ€œthe shitty mattress?โ€
โ€œi meant the whole chaos of cabin 11, and the way things work around here in general. if you can get used to the shitty mattress, all power to you.โ€ย 
your tone was friendly enough, playful even. you smiled at him so comfortably it made luke nauseous.ย 
โ€œgood to know.โ€ he tried to smile back at you, but his heart wasnโ€™t in it. โ€œiโ€™m luke, by the way.โ€
โ€œyeah, i know. iโ€™m โ€”โ€
โ€œy/n!โ€
you seemed entirely unfazed as the blond who called your name stormed over to you. you rolled your eyes, something only luke could notice, before turning to her.
โ€œsomeone stole my candy.โ€
โ€œiโ€™m very sorry to hear that, maddy. gotta be careful around here.โ€ your voice dripped like poisoned honey, deceptively innocent and sweet.
maddy was not having it. she huffed at you. โ€œit was you, wasnโ€™t it?โ€
โ€œthat depends. did you cheat at poker last night? again?โ€ย 
some of the chatter throughout the cabin paused, heads turning to listen in.ย 
โ€œwhat? n-no!โ€ย 
โ€œthen you have your answer, maddy.โ€ you exaggerated a sigh, as though you had already won the fight and were annoyed that she came back for more. โ€œnow, if youโ€™ll excuse me, i have a new camper to show around.โ€
chiron had already given them a tour, but luke didnโ€™t protest when you grabbed his hand and pulled him out of the window with you. your hand was warm in his as you dragged him along to the corner of the cabin where a poorly made ladder waited for you.ย 
โ€œcome on.โ€ you started climbing, and only stopped to look down when you realized luke wasnโ€™t following you. โ€œbest view of camp. trust me.โ€
a shiver passed through luke. trust didnโ€™t come easy to him. he also didnโ€™t particularly want to return to a stuffy cabin where all he would do was count reasons he did not want to be there.
ย so, luke followed you. he sat down next to you on the roof and looked out at the sun shining on his new home, but he couldn't help but be slightly bitter. the gods had gotten all of you into this life of endless danger and battles and monsters, and this was all they had to offer in return: a summer camp.ย 
it just didn't seem fair.ย 
there was something else he noticed then. what was it that chiron had said? camp half-blood was supposed to be a safe haven for all demigods.ย 
โ€œi donโ€™t get it. there are only twelve cabins, but arenโ€™t there, like, a million other gods?โ€
you straightened your posture then, and turned to luke with a newfound interest.ย 
โ€œcamp half-blood only has cabins representing the twelve olympians. apparently, theyโ€™re the only ones important enough to have children worth recognizing, and they canโ€™t even do that half the time,โ€ you explained, impertinence laced throughout your words. it seemed like something you could never quite get off your chest.ย 
everyย  demigod knew that the gods didnโ€™t appreciate sarcasm. theyย  didnโ€™t particularly like being called out on their bullshit, either.
you didnโ€™t seem to care; you even rolled your eyes up at the sky, as if challenging zeus himself.ย 
โ€œanyways, thatโ€™s why the hermes cabin is so crowded. it takes in campers who are unclaimed or whose parent doesnโ€™t have a cabin at camp. like me.โ€
โ€œso, whoโ€™s your godly parent?โ€
you fiddled with the leather cord on your neck. it held a few clay beads like the other campers, but there was one silver charm he noticed only you wore โ€” scales, by the looks of it. you clutched onto it.
luke realized that, despite your own advice, maybe you resented having to get used to the way things worked around here, and having to hide your resentment. maybe that was worse than having to sleep on an uncomfortable bed for the rest of your life.
"nemesis. goddess of revenge."
"that's....hardcore."
you scoffed and moved on to twisting the silver ring on your index finger. "a lot of people take it that way, and i think it scares them a bit.โ€
โ€œso thatโ€™s why youโ€™re extra nice to new campers, huh?โ€ย 
โ€œno, i was just in a good mood today.โ€ you smirked.
โ€œguess i was just lucky, then.โ€
luke couldnโ€™t help but smile at your laugh โ€” sharp, biting. you nudged your boot against his sneaker, which shifted you closer to him, shoulders practically touching.ย 
โ€œwhat people donโ€™t understand is that it's more about balance, you know? you do good things, and good things happen to you. at least, they should. you do bad things andโ€ฆ.โ€ you pulled out an outrageously big bag of candy, dropped it between you and luke, and winked at him. โ€œyou face the consequences.โ€ย 
โ€œthat makes sense.โ€ luke leaned over to grab a handful of gummy bears. โ€œlike karma.โ€
โ€œyeah. exactly.โ€ย 
you bit the head off a red bear, both of you chewing in silence before you added:
โ€œby the way, iโ€™m sorry about your friend.โ€ you swallowed and caught lukeโ€™s gaze.ย 
chiron warned him that word would travel fast around camp about what happened to thalia, and luke had prepared himself for anything โ€” anything but your reaction. there was no pity in your eyes; instead, there was a hint of rage, as though thalia had been your friend, too.ย 
โ€œshe deserved more.โ€ย 
lukeโ€™s eyes caught the glint of a knife strapped to your belt. he took another handful of the candy you stole, and he thought about the fire and fearlessness behind your words, and, despite everything, it felt right to be with you then and there.ย 
โ€œyeah,โ€ he finally whispered back. โ€œshe did.โ€
we all do.ย 
neither of you said those words, but the suggestion was there, and it felt like a promise.ย 
(ii. you hold on to every stupid, little detail)
โ€œslow down, tiger.โ€ย 
your voice echoed throughout the arena, and if luke had been fighting a real opponent, it might have gotten him killed. instead, he just stopped mid-swing, sparing another straw dummy from losing its arm.ย 
โ€œleft hand,โ€ you noted as you walked past him towards a bench. โ€œyou, my friend, are in need of a break.โ€
luke loosened the grip on his sword. the only time luke fought with his non-dominant hand was when he had overworked the other. he must have switched an hour ago, but judging by how heavy his arm felt, it could have very well been two.ย ย 
his curls were stuck to his forehead with sweat, his shirt soaked through. he could feel a dull pain behind his eyes, and luke was worried that if he stopped to catch his breath, he would pass out. or, even worse, have to face the reality of the shitty news heโ€™d gotten early that day.ย 
โ€œcome sit with me,โ€ you urged. โ€œyouโ€™re exhausted, tiger.โ€ย 
luke bristled at your nickname for him.ย 
sure, luke loved that there was something only you called him, a secret kept between you in plain sight, but it was also a reminder that it was harder to hide behind the hero act when you were around.
everyone else at camp figured the nickname was a playful attempt at calling him strong and charismatic. the truth was that luke once told you that his favorite cereal as a kid was frosted flakes and that he would dream of playing sports as well as tony the tiger. for better or for worse, like most things, you wouldnโ€™t let it go.ย 
case in point: if it was anybody other than you trying to get him to take a break, luke could have just brushed them off with a charming smile and continued swordfighting until his arms fell off, but in the two years since meeting you, luke had never met anyone as stubborn and convincing. like him, it seemed you were willing to fight and shed blood to get your way. luke was never really in the mood to make you bleed, even when feeling like he could burn the entire world down, so he usually gave in to your demands.ย ย 
as soon as he sat down next to you, you handed him an orange flavored energy drink โ€” his favorite. anything other than water was hard to come by at camp without the enchanted goblets in the dining pavilion, or the right connection in the hermes cabin. he ran out of his stash the other day, but you must have noticed and gotten one of the stoll brothers to smuggle more in.ย 
โ€œthanks,โ€ luke said, ignoring the jolt of electricity that passed through him when your fingers brushed together briefly.ย 
ย the two of you looked out at the sword arena, and all the straw dummies that luke had destroyed. you wait for him to take three big gulps of his drink before speaking again.ย 
โ€œi guess chiron and your dad decided you werenโ€™t ready for a quest.โ€
luke exhaled sharply. โ€œhow did you โ€”โ€
โ€œthe only time youโ€™d skip out on capture the flag is if something really shitty happened.โ€ you looked down at lukeโ€™s clenched fists, and that seemed to be all the confirmation you needed. โ€œyou promised annabeth you'd be there, and it's not like you to let her down."
fuck. he had completely forgotten that tonight was annabeth's first time as team captain. this entire week, she had been prepping a winning strategy. it wasnโ€™t like annabeth needed him to win, but luke was her big brother, and he should have been there. you were right โ€” he had let her down.ย 
the realization made lukeโ€™s day go from bad to worse.ย 
"i told her you were helping a new camper with an emergency. she didn't believe it, but she adjusted her strategy and we still won.โ€
โ€œwell, thank the gods everything worked in the end,โ€ luke grumbled.ย 
โ€œdonโ€™t thank the gods,โ€ you quipped. โ€œthank annabeth chase for her brilliant mind, and me for covering for your sorry ass.โ€
when luke didnโ€™t indulge in your usual playful banter, you moved closer to him and brushed some curls away from his eyes. your skin warmed his forehead, and the small gesture made him feel better than he had all day.
โ€œlook, iโ€™m not going to give you some bullshit inspirational speech about how the gods donโ€™t get to define what a hero is, or how you donโ€™t need a quest to prove that youโ€™re worthy of being one. weโ€™ve each been through that before, and i have a feeling this wonโ€™t be our last time, either.โ€
โ€œthen why are you here?โ€ the question came out harsher than luke had intended it to.
โ€œbecause sheโ€™s trying her best to hide it, but annabeth is really hurt that you didnโ€™t show up for the game. i figured the least you could do is suck it up, come to the campfire, and make her those signature luke castellan sโ€™mores. you could probably use one, too, since you havenโ€™t eaten anything since breakfast.โ€ย 
you were right, again. luke was exhausted, he was furious, but most of all, he was starving.ย ย 
later that night, luke sat next to annabeth and vowed to make her as many sโ€™mores as she wanted. youโ€™d gone to sit with the hephaestus kids, trying to convince beckendorf and nyssa to join your cabinโ€™s post-campfire party at the beach, even though they had to work in the forges early the next morning.ย 
when chiron made his weekly speech, congratulating the winners of capture the flag and thanking the gods for keeping everyone safe, you and luke caught each otherโ€™s gaze from across the fire. you rolled your eyes and luke bit back a smile as you turned back to beckendorf. he noticed your knees were practically touching. did you sit that close to everyone?ย 
luke was looking at you for so long that the marshmallow he was roasting fell into the fire, despite annabethโ€™s warnings. she handed him another one.ย 
"you should tell her how you feel," annabeth said. "stop being a coward."ย 
whether it was the smell of burnt sugar, the heat of the fire, or annabethโ€™s comment, luke started to feel dizzy. he did his best to shake it off, asking annabeth for a play-by-play of her strategy earlier that night, but he couldnโ€™t quite get rid of the thought of you.ย 
(iii. you don't care if your clothes are stained with blood)
โ€œi justโ€ฆ.i canโ€™t fucking believe you, luke.โ€
โ€œi donโ€™t get why youโ€™re so upset โ€” youโ€™ve never cared about quests before.โ€
luke was hoping to break the news to you after capture the flag. unfortunately for him, word travels fast around camp.ย 
annabeth had the two of you scouting the east side for the flag, while she and some other athena kids took the west. you hadnโ€™t found anything so far, which meant that youโ€™d spent the better part of an hour bickering over lukeโ€™s choice of companions for his quest. a choice that included charles beckendorf and chris rodriguez, and purposefully did not include you, much to your fury.ย ย 
before you could continue arguing, luke heard the sound of footsteps approaching. he looked over to you, and you already had your shield and sword at the ready.ย 
a few red defenders emerged from the trees. one charged at luke, but you stepped in so he could deal with the other two. one of his opponents went down fairly easily, but the other put up much more of a fight. metal clashed behind him as you kept fighting as well. you might not have been as skilled a swordfighter as luke, but he knew that you could hold your own, at least until he was finished with the person in front of him.ย 
luke parried his opponentโ€™s strike, causing them to take a step closer. he was preparing to disarm them, just as he heard you yelp and stumble to the ground. it only took a millisecond of his attention, but it gave his opponent the opportunity to elbow him in the face. luke felt a crack upon impact, and pain radiated from his nose; he powered through.ย 
he had to finish this fight, and he had to do it fast. you needed him.ย 
his ears were ringing as he finally knocked over his opponent, kicking away their sword and keeping his foot on their chest. luke turned around to see you having turned the tides, the blade of your sword dangerously close to your opponentโ€™s neck.
you locked eyes with luke, and you both understood โ€” it was time to go. the two of you ran through the forest, as far away as you could before having to stop and catch your breath.
luke removed his helmet to get some air, and dropped his weapons. you did the same. you looked at him, brows furrowed.
โ€œyour nose.โ€
luke licked his lips, tasting blood. the triumph of winning that last fight overshadowed the ache of his potentially broken nose. in fact, he liked the image of a ruthless warrior emerging from the glory and gore of battle, that even though he did not bleed ichor like a god, he still had power.ย 
you, on the other hand, didnโ€™t look impressed. instead, you stepped forward and offered the sleeve of your shirt to wipe away the blood.ย 
โ€œyou donโ€™t have to โ€”โ€
โ€œi know you think youโ€™re a badass walking around all broken and bloody, but you shouldnโ€™t deny your admirers your pretty face,โ€ you teased.ย 
it was no secret that luke had numerous admirers around camp, a fact you loved to tease him about. he was sure that you relished in how flustered that made him. all you had to call him was pretty boy, and luke could be reduced to a blushing mess.ย 
it was pathetic how much power you had over him.
โ€œbesides, i wouldnโ€™t have gotten out of that last fight if you hadnโ€™t taught me that disarming technique earlier. i owe you. itโ€™s what we do. we take care of each other, right?โ€
he couldnโ€™t argue with that.
a few moments of silence passed as you cleaned his face. something shifted as you worked, the flirtatious grin fading away. when you pulled away, your sleeve was stained a dark crimson.ย 
โ€œjust tell me honestly,โ€ you finally murmured. โ€œwhy don't you want me to join your quest?โ€ย 
luke was genuinely taken aback by the softness of your voice, now devoid of its usual fire. you wouldnโ€™t meet lukeโ€™s eyes, but being that close to you, he noticed they were slightly glazed over.
he had expected you to be angry at his decision. he expected you to yell and argue and try to change his mind. luke hadnโ€™t expected you to be so hurt. so broken.ย 
he hadnโ€™t planned on it, but luke decided to tell you the truth then.
โ€œlook, karma, if you come with me, my heart wouldnโ€™t fully be in the quest. iโ€™d be so caught up inโ€ฆ.well, you.โ€
a pause.
โ€œis that a bad thing?โ€
โ€œnot usually, no.โ€ย 
you smirked a little at that, and lukeโ€™s heart skipped a beat. it also made his decision even clearer.ย 
โ€œbut i need to be focused for this. i needโ€ฆ.โ€ he let out a deep sigh. โ€œi need to prove myself. this is my first real chance, and i canโ€™t fuck it up.โ€
you met his gaze and smiled brightly at him, your signature spark of confidence returning.ย ย 
โ€œyou wonโ€™t.โ€
you reached a hand up to play with his necklace. luke hadnโ€™t noticed how close youโ€™d gotten until your fingers started tracing over those four clay beads. it made his entire body burst into flames.
โ€œiโ€™ve been wanting to do something for a while. and, aphrodite save me, it might be really stupid, but โ€”โ€
luke took a lucky guess as to where you were going, and crashed his lips against yours. aphrodite knows that he'd been wanting to do that for a while, too.ย 
he often got drunk on the adrenaline of battle, the glory of winning, but nothing was quite like the rush of kissing you for the first time.ย 
it was messy and urgent, both of you aware that, at any moment, you could be interrupted. your noses were bumping together, teeth clacking against each other. the metallic tang of blood lingered on lukeโ€™s tongue, but neither of you seemed to care. you even bit his lip slightly, as if you wanted more. armor sat heavy and cold between your chests, preventing you from getting closer. luke had never loathed the protective gear more.ย 
he made up for it by lodging one hand underneath your jaw, and snaking the other beneath the celestial bronze, beneath the cotton of your shirt, admiring how your pulse quickened under his thumb when he grazed the soft skin of your stomach. you tangled your hands into his hair, nails scraping against his scalp. he groaned and felt you smirk against his lips.ย 
luke had kissed a few people before, sure, but never like this: like a knife to the gut, and if you pulled away, luke would surely bleed out and die.ย 
it wouldnโ€™t be a heroโ€™s death, in the traditional sense, but at least heโ€™d die happy.ย 
how many heroes could claim that?
when luke ran out of air, feeling like his lungs were burning, he had to pull away.ย 
you glanced down at lukeโ€™s kiss-bitten lips, then back to his eyes. luke flushed under the intensity of your gaze.ย 
โ€œjust promise me something, tiger,โ€ you whispered, voice hoarse.ย 
โ€œanything.โ€
โ€œcome back alive.โ€
luke leaned forward and placed another kiss on your lips, this one much gentler than before.
โ€œi promise.โ€
(iv. you love like a scar that won't fade)
the nightmares were getting worse.ย 
luke woke up in a cold sweat, taking gulps of air in an attempt to steady his breathing.
โ€œluke.โ€ย 
your whisper did little to quell the pit of dread growing in his stomach, but it did enough to bring him back down to reality.ย 
he was at camp half-blood (fuck the gods of olympus), in the hermes cabin (fuck you, dad), in a bed next to yours (fuck, if he could tell you what โ€” who โ€” was going through his head, he would).
โ€œiโ€™mโ€ฆiโ€™m fine,โ€ he murmured back, voice catching slightly on the lie.ย 
like clockwork, you shifted from your bed to his, slipping under the covers. it didnโ€™t matter that it was a hot summer night, and the minute your legs touched his, he could feel himself starting to overheat.ย 
your thumb brushed over the thick edge of his scar, up his cheekbone to the corner of his eye. it had been a year, living with this reminder. a reminder that he had failed, just as much as his father and the olympians had failed him.ย 
luke tried to pretend that he didnโ€™t come back from his quest as a shell of who he once was. after all, it was meant to be his shining moment as a demigod, meant to gain him all the glory and fatherโ€™s praise he once wished for.ย 
what a fucking joke.
every morning, luke would crawl into a different skin. he welcomed new campers and taught sword-fighting. he laughed with chris and his other siblings and strategized with annabeth for capture the flag. he would be the easy-going, charming, skillful senior counselor who respected the gods and honored them in everything he did.ย 
again: a fucking joke.
nights were different, though, with you so close to him, you who could always see right through him.
every night, luke was a fourteen-year old boy again, with so much rage and resentment he didn't know what to do with it.ย 
of course, you were always you - a bleeding heart underneath layers of armor. you didn't care about fate, or the gods, or the titans. you cared about justice, you cared about what was right and fair.ย 
most of all, you cared about luke.
โ€œyou were screaming,โ€ you told him, voice barely cutting through the soft snores and sleeptalkings of your other cabinmates.ย 
โ€œsorry,โ€ he managed. looking at you in the dull moonlight, luke noticed the deep shadows under your eyes.ย 
โ€œitโ€™s fine. you justโ€ฆ.you scared me, tiger.โ€ย 
your hand still rested on his cheek, and for a second, luke hoped you would kiss him, but you didnโ€™t. instead, you told him to try and get some sleep, and sank further into his bed before closing your eyes.ย 
for the hundredth night in a row, luke hoped you couldnโ€™t hear his heart hammering in his chest as you fell asleep next to him.
since coming back from his quest, luke didnโ€™t have it in him to suggest being anything other than friends, and you didnโ€™t push it. there had been a few....moments between you, sure, but nothing more.
luke thought you might have changed your mind, because who would want to be with a bitter, worthless, wannabe hero? then again, that voice haunting his dreamsโ€ฆ. luke could change that.ย 
but, at what cost?
(v. you protect people as ruthlessly as a starving dog)
luke could hear you talking to percy jackson outside. though he couldnโ€™t quite determine what was being said, as much as he tried.
you entered the bathroom and instantly caught lukeโ€™s eyes in the mirror. you were wearing your faded pyjama shorts with cartoon crows, and a flannel shirt that luke had a sneaking suspicion might have been his. you smiled at him before setting up at the counter, one sink between you.ย 
โ€œwhat was that about?โ€ luke asked after spitting out a mouthful of minty toothpaste.
โ€œoh, nothing.โ€ you were searching through your toiletry bag for something, and seemed to come up short. โ€œhey, do you have any extra dental floss?โ€
luke threw some over to you. as you effortlessly caught it, he noticed your knuckles, bruised and bloodied.
โ€œwhat happened?โ€ย 
you finished flossing and briefly examined your hands before pulling out your toothbrush.ย 
โ€œitโ€™s not a big deal,โ€ you assured. โ€œsome ares kids were picking on percy, and then they started pushing him around, like, really pushing him around, soโ€ฆ.โ€ย 
โ€œ....you decided to send them to the infirmary.โ€
you squeezed some toothpaste on your brush before continuing. โ€œi donโ€™t need you to lecture me about how i shouldnโ€™t be fighting with other campers because iโ€™ve been here longer and i should be a good role model. you know what a good role model does? not let kids beat up other kids and think the worst punishment theyโ€™ll get is no dessert for a week.โ€
luke watched carefully as you jammed the toothbrush in your mouth and brushed with such force, he was worried your teeth might dislodge. he knew that you would shed blood for someone you loved, and that you didnโ€™t particularly care if you had to break rules in doing so, because you believed that what was written was not necessarily what was right.ย 
in fact, luke loved that about you.
no, it wasnโ€™t the fighting that luke cared about โ€” it was who you were fighting for.ย 
percy was a good kid, he really was. luke just didnโ€™t want you getting attached.ย 
โ€œi wasnโ€™t going to lecture you. iโ€™m guessing chiron already did?โ€ย 
you nodded and spat out what looked like a combination of toothpaste and blood. you rinsed your mouth until the water lost its pinkish hue. once you were done, luke continued his train of thought.
โ€œi just didnโ€™t realize you cared so much about him.โ€
โ€œabout percy?โ€ย 
luke could tell that he didnโ€™t have your full attention. you were packing your stuff back up, accidentally tossing lukeโ€™s dental floss into your bag, but he had more pressing matters to deal with.
โ€œyeah. the kidโ€™s only been at camp for three days, and youโ€™re already acting like his guard dog.โ€
you finally turned to luke and glared at him.ย 
โ€œmaybe. but percyโ€™s sweet and he doesnโ€™t seem like the type to put up with bullshit. heโ€™s been through a lot, and annabeth seems to like him, too. as far as iโ€™m concerned, percyโ€™s one of us, and iโ€™m not going to let anyone push him around.โ€
luke raised an eyebrow at you. โ€œheโ€™s sweet?โ€
โ€œyeah. like, just now, he gave me some blue raspberry jelly beans as a thank you. said his mom used to work at a candy store. he also wanted me to apologize to you for him. he feels bad about beating you in sword-fighting earlier.โ€ย 
you scoffed, like you resented luke for having to apologize to him on percyโ€™s behalf. you definitely did not appreciate that guard dog comment. luke clenched his jaw, seething over what you had just said.ย 
satisfied with his reaction, you gave luke that nauseating smile of yours, tilted your head towards the exit. a truce, because you never liked to fight with luke for too long, and a order, because you knew luke would always follow.ย 
the two of you began walking back to your cabin in the warm mid-june air.ย 
โ€œi wouldnโ€™t say he beat me,โ€ luke huffed. โ€œit was beginnerโ€™s luck.โ€
โ€œsure, tiger. it was beginnerโ€™s luck that disarmed the best swordsman weโ€™ve had in the last 300 years.โ€
you nudged lukeโ€™s shoulder with yours, but he recoiled from your touch.ย 
โ€œare you trying to make me feel worse?โ€ luke tried his best to avoid snapping at you, keeping his tone measured.
โ€œiโ€™m just saying that maybe the kid has natural talent and that doesnโ€™t make you any less talented. thereโ€™s no need to get jealous.โ€
luke resisted the urge to growl at your suggestion.ย 
to be clear, he was not jealous. itโ€™s just that luke had spent years of blood, sweat, and tears getting to where he was then, and percy jackson had just gotten to camp.ย 
and, to be even more clear, luke was not jealous of how you were already defending percy with your whole body and your whole heart, the way you did for him.ย 
by then, you reached the front of the hermes cabin. luke could already hear the commotion of what he would need to deal with as soon as he walked in. the burden of being head counselor, one he approached with an elastic smile that could snap at any moment.ย 
you tugged on lukeโ€™s sleeve before he could open the door.ย 
โ€œhey. are we okay?โ€
luke looked down at your fingers grasping the fabric of a sweatshirt he was just realizing was yours. your nails were painted a dark red, now chipped after a week of wear. you had begged luke to paint his nails then, and once again, he gave in. he even started to like the purple you had chosen just for him, so deep it was almost black. the same color you were wearing the first time you and luke met.
he smiled at the memory โ€” a real smile, no plastic โ€” and then smiled back up at you.
โ€œweโ€™re fine, karma.โ€ and he moved to enter the cabin. luke could hear the threat of an argument bubbling up, what sounded like a petty one over a prank gone wrong.
โ€œwait.โ€ you tugged at his (your) sweatshirt once more. โ€œthereโ€™s something i wanted to talk to you about, about tomorrow nightโ€”โ€
โ€œannabeth called a meeting during free time.โ€
โ€œyeah, i know, itโ€™s just โ€”โ€
โ€œsheโ€™ll run through strategy for capture the flag then.โ€
โ€œone of the aphrodite senior campers asked me to the campfire,โ€ you blurted it out, and luke decided to ignore the sound of a fight breaking out from behind the wooden door.
what in the name of hades were you talking about?
โ€œthey asked you out? likeโ€ฆlike aโ€ฆ.โ€ luke didnโ€™t even want to speak the word, scared it would make it real.
โ€œa date,โ€ you said casually, as if that one word didnโ€™t rip lukeโ€™s heart in a million pieces. โ€œi said yes.โ€ an admission that took all those pieces and set them on fire.ย 
sure, in the seven years since you and luke met, youโ€™d each talked about boys, about girls, about dating and kissing them and going further. but there was something about this one that felt different. something about the way you told him.
โ€œbut, listen, i wanted to let you know itโ€™s not โ€”โ€
โ€œgood for you,โ€ was all luke said through gritted teeth before someone started calling his name again, louder and more urgently, and he had to duck inside.ย ย 
(vi. you taste like burning cherries and righteous anger)
your team had won capture the flag, of course. the biggest news of the evening, though: percy jackson was the son of the sea god.ย 
he was a forbidden child, the hero of the great prophecy.ย 
everything was falling into place.ย 
all luke should be thinking about is kronosโ€™ plan, and his role in it, and how a world without the gods of olympus was that much more in reach.ย ย 
unfortunately, for the time being, he was so consumed by you.ย 
you, from across the campfire, sporting cutoff denim shorts and fresh wounds from the game earlier. you, who had wrapped your knuckles in gauze, concealing their bruising, fixed the chips in your nail polish and stacked rings on your fingers. (for the record: luke had gifted you the one on your left thumb.) you, with dark lips that whispered too closely and laughed too loudly with a child of aphroditeโ€” jordan li.
you hadnโ€™t so much as looked at luke since congratulating each other on another win. when chiron announced his weekly gratitude to the gods at the start of that nightโ€™s campfire, you didnโ€™t punctuate your resentment with your usual eye-roll or biting remark. you were too busy giggling at something jordan said.
luke wanted to be the one to whisper jokes in your ear. he wanted to be the one you left lipstick stains on later, along his jaw and down his neck. he wanted to be the one who kissed the blade mark on your shoulder and the bruises on your knuckles.ย 
and yet, hours passed and it seemed that the thought of luke had never so much as crossed your mind. he found himself at an after hours party with a few senior campers on the beach. a lethal recipe: a poorly crafted bonfire, some contraband drinks and you in jordan liโ€™s lap, playing with their hair and pretending luke castellan did not exist.ย 
meanwhile, luke had katie gardnerโ€™s full attention. she was talking to him about the strawberry season, potentially leaning a bit too close into lukeโ€™s personal space, definitely flirting with him.ย 
luke could have done a lot worse than the head counselor of the demeter cabin, who always smelled like fresh lavender, whose eyes were the bright green of spring grass and whose lips tasted like golden honey.ย 
the problem was that luke only wanted you, and his eyes kept sliding over to where you were kissing jordanโ€™s cheek, and he accidentally called the girl he was kissing by your name, which did not make her happy.ย 
katie threw her drink in his face, told him to wake the fuck up, and walked away.
a chorus of gasps and chuckles erupted as luke stood there, diet coke and vodka seeping into his shirt. the commotion seemed to capture your attention, because you suddenly appeared next to luke, an empty bottle of cherry soda in your hand.
โ€œrough night, tiger?โ€ your voice, that nickname, made luke sick, his face twisting into a frown. you donโ€™t seem to notice or care. instead, you switched your bottle with lukeโ€™s and took a sip.
โ€œlooks like you were having a pretty good time,โ€ luke practically sneered. โ€œwhereโ€™s your date?โ€ย 
ย โ€œthey went to bed.โ€ you swallowed a mouthful of beer, grimacing at its bitterness. โ€œgods, this is terrible. you and i should go on the drink run next time โ€” we have better taste.โ€
โ€œso, are you and jordan like a thing now?โ€
you gave luke a smile he didnโ€™t quite understand, but made his stomach churn in ways only you could. โ€œwould that be a problem?โ€
โ€œof course not.โ€ he answered way too quickly for that to be true.ย 
โ€œletโ€™s get out of here,โ€ you suggested. โ€œi think katie is about this close to strangling you with a tree branch.โ€
luke glanced over your shoulder to where green eyes glared back at him.ย 
nowhere could luke find it in him to care. he wasnโ€™t even sorry. he just shrugged, took the bottle back from you, took his first sip all night. luke almost gagged (because of course you were right, and the stoll brothers had better fake ids than they had taste) but he suppressed it.ย 
โ€œno. iโ€™m good.โ€
biggest lie he ever said. like there wasnโ€™t anger caught in his throat and jealousy swelling between his ribs.
โ€œgo find jordan,โ€ he taunted. โ€œkiss them, show them a good time! isnโ€™t that the reason why you got all pretty?โ€
you narrowed your eyes at him carefully. your nostrils were slightly flared, and luke took a bit of pride in being able to rile you up.
โ€œlook, we havenโ€™t really talked lately, and i think we should.โ€
โ€œgo find jordan,โ€ he mocked once more. โ€œalmost all the aphrodite kids are here, and iโ€™m sure you can be quiet enough to sneak into their cabin and if you want a quick fuโ€”โ€
โ€œluke.โ€ you clipped his name, obviously getting to the limit of your patience with him. โ€œif you want to stay here all night and be an asshole, youโ€™re welcome to. you should know, though, that your happy-go-lucky hero mask is starting to crack and i donโ€™t know if you could deal with the fallout from it shattering completely.โ€
you leaned in close and whispered that last part, very aware of the chattering that stopped and the eyes that watched the pair of you anxiously. luke was usually good at hiding that part of himself who wanted to burn the world down.ย 
in ways you didnโ€™t realize, you were right: he couldnโ€™t risk revealing it, not now.
not yet.ย 
โ€œdo whatever you want, castellan,โ€ you spat out his last name, the combination of letters foreign in your mouth.โ€œiโ€™m leaving.โ€
luke should be proud of himself. he waited a whole two seconds before following you like a stray dog.ย 
luke didnโ€™t know if heโ€™d ever felt you that enraged by him, and it horrified him. it also made him hungry for more.ย 
โ€œiโ€™m not sure that jordan would want the two of us alone together at night,โ€ he shouted after you, words echoing into the starless sky.
โ€œgods, enough about jordan!โ€ luke practically ran into you with how fast you turned around to confront him. โ€œi was helping them with that stupid aphrodite tradition!โ€
โ€œyouโ€ฆ.โ€ luke faltered, all the snark leaving his body. โ€œwhat?โ€
luke remembered silena beauregard once explaining the rite of passage to him: to prove themselves, a child of aphrodite had to make someone fall in love with them, and then break their heart.
โ€œwhyโ€ฆwhy would you agree to do that?โ€
you had reached the dining area by then, and you sat on one of the steps leading to the pavilion. luke stayed a few feet away, looking at you cautiously.ย 
โ€œjordan and i are already friends, and they figured a fake relationship would be the way to avoid anyone from actually getting hurt in the process.โ€
โ€œyou seemed soโ€ฆso into it, though,โ€ luke stammered, the memory of you in jordanโ€™s lap, laughter bubbling from your lips, still fresh.
โ€œitโ€™s called acting, dumbass.โ€ the camp didnโ€™t rely on electricity, but there were enough torches around that luke could see you roll your eyes. โ€œanyways, i was trying to give you a heads-up last night, but you wouldnโ€™t listen.โ€ you took a deep breath. โ€œand, honestly, i didnโ€™t push it becauseโ€ฆ.i figured i should test a hypothesis.โ€
a hypothesis? youโ€™d known annabeth for too long.
โ€œwhat hypothesis?โ€
you hesitated.ย 
โ€œit doesnโ€™t matter. fuck, this was stupid,โ€ you muttered, and without another word, stormed through the dining pavilion, a short cut to the hermes cabin. your footsteps fell heavy against the marble, and lukeโ€™s not far behind.ย 
โ€œwhat hypothesis?โ€ he asked again.
nothing but rushed footsteps.
โ€œwhat hypothesis?โ€ luke finally yelled.
third time was the charm, because you stopped in your tracks and faced luke once again. a fire burned in the bronze brazier, where campers were forced to offer up portions of your food to the gods at every meal. its roaring seemed to captivate you, and the flames danced across your face, illuminating all your curves and edges.
โ€œiโ€™m angry at the gods,โ€ you stated.ย 
this caught luke off guard. from the day the two of you met, luke knew you shared that feeling. youโ€™d gotten quieter with your rage as youโ€™d gotten older. luke supposed he got better at hiding it himself, as well.ย 
โ€œiโ€™m angry at the gods for letting bad shit happen even if they can stop it, and for building this world in the fucked up way they did. iโ€™m angry at your dad for the way heโ€™s treated you, but โ€” you, luke castellan.โ€ you finally met lukeโ€™s eyes with a gaze so sharp, luke almost felt himself bleed. โ€œiโ€™m also angry at you, and not just for your bullshit tonight.โ€ย 
your admission felt like a punch to the stomach, and luke was left with no air to breathe.
did you know?
โ€œyou havenโ€™t been the same since your quest,โ€ you continued, words slow and deliberate, the way you spoke when you were worried your voice would shake. โ€œand iโ€™ve come to terms with that in the past few years, but youโ€ฆ.youโ€™ve never tried to ice me out before. youโ€™ve been acting distant since december, and itโ€™s been driving me insane. do you realize how much i miss my best โ€ฆ..โ€ you swallowed the word friend. โ€œhow much i miss you?โ€
luke hesitated, because what could he say? i know iโ€™ve been distant, but iโ€™ve been busy trying to start a war between the gods. sorry babe!ย 
would you hate him, if you knew?ย 
you had to have known that, despite the distance, luke missed you. for tartarus sake, in the last two days, heโ€™d driven himself mad at you calling a fourteen year old boy sweet, and he was about to combust at the image of you dating someone else, with little care as to the collateral damage.ย 
"you can't just avoid me, makeout with katie fucking gardner, and thenโ€ฆ.โ€ you trailed off, hiding your face in your hands. whether it was to hide embarrassment or tears, luke wasnโ€™t sure.
a smirk spread across lukeโ€™s face at the revelation that he hadnโ€™t been the only one jealous at the bonfire that night. it lit luke up with the confidence he needed to not completely fall to his knees in front of you, beg for your forgiveness for everything heโ€™s done.
โ€œwhy do you care if i make out with katie fucking gardner?โ€ย 
as he waited for a response, luke walked towards you until your back hit one of the marble columns.ย 
โ€œwhy do you care if iโ€™m with jordan fucking li?โ€ you clenched your jaw and looked right through luke. a clear indication that you wanted him to break down first; it wouldnโ€™t be you who yielded this fight.
โ€œbecause i want to be the one youโ€™re with.โ€ at that point, luke was so close to you that he swore he could hear your heartbeat. he reached out and played with the hem of your shorts. โ€œwhy do you care if i make out with katie gardner?โ€
โ€œbecause.โ€ you drew in a sharp breath when lukeโ€™s fingers brushed underneath the denim, across the warm skin of your thigh. you closed your eyes. โ€œdonโ€™t make me say it, tiger.โ€ย 
the desperation in your voice made luke want to do unholy things with you, to you. luke knew you didnโ€™t think of him as a saint, and you never expected him to be one. the reality was that you werenโ€™t much better, either. what was essentially an altar to the gods burned bright next to you, but it seemed neither of you had ever cared less about it than in that moment.ย 
luke would watch olympus fall. he would dethrone the gods and watch their glass castle shatter and find glory in a new world. in the grand scheme of things, he was willing to lose this battle.
in fact, he would have rather betrayed the titan lord himself than waste another second not kissing your lips.ย 
so, he kissed you, and you kissed him back with such force, such hunger, it was ungodly.
no, you certainly werenโ€™t a saint โ€” but you were divine, in the most brutal, intoxicating way. in the way you shuddered when luke lodged a leg between your thighs; in the way you threaded your fingers through the belt loops of his jeans to bring him closer; in the way the metal of your rings burned through the skin of his hip, right to the bone, which made him shudder, and you smile triumphantly against his jaw.
the more he tasted your smirk flavored by cherry soda and the ashes of nearby flames, the more he felt your feral teeth against his neck and your wicked nails digging into his shoulders, the more you tugged on his curls, the more luke thought: maybe.ย 
maybe you would give into your seething resentment, live up to those eye-rolls and snarky comments that got you in trouble with chiron, on the edge of hot water with the gods. maybe you would join the titan army. maybe, just maybe, this time, you would follow luke.
and yet โ€” maybe wasnโ€™t enough if it meant he could lose this. luke wouldnโ€™t risk it, not until he kissed every battle scar and bruise on your body, and you did the same to his.ย 
โ€œwait.โ€
it was the last thing luke wanted to do, but he complied. he took the opportunity to appreciate the chaos he created: your shirt in disarray, your lipstick a mess, your chest heaving and desperate to catch a breath.ย 
โ€œi promised jordan that weโ€™d keep up our charade for a week, two at the most. do you think we could keep thisโ€ฆโ€ you tightened your fist around the fabric of his shirt. โ€œa secret until then?โ€
luke responded by pressing his lips to yours once more, because there were definitely worse secrets to keep.
(vii. you wouldnโ€™t hesitate to make him bleed)
luke had just left percy jackson to die.
he should be leaving camp, now, but he needed to see you one last time.ย 
the universe works in mysterious ways, because you were out on a run through the forest, and you crossed paths before he even had time to wonder where you were.
โ€œhey, tiger.โ€ you smiled as if this was a regular afternoon. the two of you would teach your afternoon activities, sneak away during dinner so luke could kiss you in that spot that made you gasp. โ€œwanna join me? i was just wrapping up, but i could be convinced to go longer.โ€
for a second, he was tempted to. very tempted.ย 
โ€œi donโ€™t have much time.โ€
you seemed to notice lukeโ€™s sullen mood and you dropped your playful demeanor.ย 
luke explained: the messages from kronos in his dreams, him stealing the lightning bolt and helm of darkness to start a war between the gods and framing percy. the plan to destroy olympus that luke had pledged his life to.
percy was surprised at what luke had done, and luke could imagine that the rest of camp would be, too. luke was the golden boy of camp half-blood, everyoneโ€™s big brother.ย 
you, on the other hand, didnโ€™t express any sense of shock.ย 
โ€œluke.โ€ you said his name like you werenโ€™t quite sure it was poison. โ€œiโ€™m going to give you five seconds to tell me that youโ€™re joking.โ€
five seconds of silence passed. you took a few steps back from luke.
โ€œiโ€ฆ.i should have told you sooner.โ€
โ€œyeah,โ€ you scoffed. โ€œyou should have. but, you didnโ€™t. did it feel good, having the titan king whispering sweet nothings in your ear? all the lies about how this war is the only way to get the glory you so desperately want? itโ€™s fucking delusional.โ€ย 
โ€œitโ€™s not delusionalโ€”โ€
โ€œyes, it is!โ€ you glared at him. โ€œyouโ€™re on the wrong side of a war you made the mistake of starting.โ€
luke straightened his posture, thinking about how hypocritical you were being.ย 
โ€œisnโ€™t this what youโ€™re all about? revenge, karma. your mom will probably join us, too. donโ€™t you want to see the gods finally get what they deserve?โ€
โ€œnot like this. i canโ€™t believe how desperate you are, to believe that kronos is going to make everything right. itโ€™s pathetic,โ€ you spat. โ€œiโ€™m not saying the gods donโ€™t deserve to be taken down a notch. their fucking obsession with power and gloryโ€ฆ.itโ€™s sick and twisted, but i donโ€™t think your titan king is any better. i donโ€™t think you are any better.โ€ย 
โ€œitโ€™s time that the gods fall. this is the only way, even if it isnโ€™t perfect,โ€ luke countered. his voice was firmer now as he absorbed your anger. your mother was the goddess of revenge, but you clearly didn't understand the sacrifices, pain, and blood that was required to make the world a better place.ย ย 
luke just needed to convince you.
โ€œweโ€™ve talked about this for years,โ€ he continued. โ€œnothing is balanced! thereโ€™s no justice here, for anyone.ย  we can build a better world where we donโ€™t have to burn our scraps and throw ourselves at monsters to get attention. we can fight together like we always have. y/n, i loveโ€”โ€
โ€œdonโ€™t,โ€ you snapped. โ€œdonโ€™t you fucking dare. you should have died on your quest.โ€ your voice laced with venom. one hand gripping the knife you always kept on your belt. โ€œthat dragon should have fucking sliced through you and saved us all the trouble.โ€
something pricked in the back of his throat, down to his stomach.
โ€œyou donโ€™t mean that.โ€
โ€œi do,โ€ you promised. โ€œat least you would have died with all of us thinking youโ€™re a hero instead of the traitor you really are.โ€
you grabbed your knife, took a fighting stance.ย 
โ€œiโ€™m not going to fight you,โ€ was all luke could say. he noticed your hand tremble, and you tightened the grip on your knife to prevent emotion from slipping through your invisible armor.ย 
in that moment, you have could slice through luke, and it would hurt less than everything you just said, less than the murderous look you were giving him, like he was just another monster you wouldnโ€™t think twice about sending to tartarus.
luke didnโ€™t even have a chance to unsheathe his sword before you charged at him, but he quickly had you pinned to the ground, the tip of your own knife pointed at you. he hesitated. the blade pressed harder against your cheek than he intended, enough to break the skin and let a few droplets of dark crimson escape.ย 
โ€œplease come with me,โ€ he pleaded. you didnโ€™t answer, but you did seem surprised by the softness of his voice.ย 
a few moments passed, the celestial bronze still between you. luke waited for you to see his way, to yield to his proposal.
you didnโ€™t. instead, you took advantage of the situation. you wrapped your leg around his and flipped your position. in the process, you regained possession of your knife. without the hesitation that held luke back, you sliced through his cheek, deep. luke bit his lip to suppress a groan, tasting blood. your gaze set his whole body on fire as he waited for your next move. that was when you glanced down at his camp necklace, and the new clay bead added to commemorate this summer.
a turquoise trident.
๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝpercy told me he was on his way to see you,โ€ you realized. โ€œwhat did you do?โ€
luke didnโ€™t answer. he knew then that a choice ran through your head.ย 
and it stung, just a little, watching you sprint away through the trees in a last ditch effort to save percyโ€™s life.ย 
there was a small, pathetic part of luke that wanted you to choose him, even if it meant you would have plunged the knife into his chest.
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"you never have to worry about me leaving" w matt?
like, reader had just gotten into it w her parents and they said something along the lines of, "you're unlovable, just wait till that little boyfriend of yours leaves." or smth like that
please and thank you !! ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜Š
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warnings: bad relationship with parents arguing with parents, negative thoughts, relationship doubts, i think thatโ€™s all
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my parents and i have never seen eye to eye on things, they constantly find things to start arguments about but they never go this far or personal.
โ€œyouโ€™re insufferable how does that boyfriend of yours deal with you? youโ€™re exhausting to be around iโ€™m shocked he hasnโ€™t left you yet itโ€™s only a matter of time!โ€ my parents yell, faces red with anger.
this has gone on for so long i donโ€™t even know why they started yelling in the first place, i just zoned out, my thoughts wandering to their words.
how could my parents say that to me? if iโ€™m so insufferable and unloveable to be around why am i even here? am i that much of a burden on everyone? why does anyone keep me around? they probably just feel bad for me. does matt even love me or is it pity? is he just playing me? when will he leave me? why hasnโ€™t he yet?
without thinking i quickly stood up and made my way to my car not even thinking to put shoes on, my mind solely focused on getting out of here. silently i drive to mattโ€™s house, no music, no tears, no thoughts just feeling numb.
i could see matt watching me as i sit in my car with my head slumped against the steering wheel trying to collect myself before going inside. he never left his window, sensing something was wrong he allowed me space to come in when i was ready to.
getting out of the car i let out a sigh and take a deep breath of fresh air in as i make my way to their apartment, letting myself in. giving nick and chris who were in the living room a small hello i headed straight for mattโ€™s room. softly i knock on his door waiting for permission to enter.
โ€œcome in babyโ€ he calls out.
he had closed the blinds and turned on his LED lights to blue, knowing i prefer softer lights. he was sitting in bed with his back against the headboard, duvet pulled back, and arms open ready for me to crawl into.
โ€œiโ€™m glad youโ€™re here, i missed you, love. i was gonna text you to see if you wanted to come over and cuddle you must have read my mindโ€ he said, keeping his volume low to match to softness in the room.
with my head on his chest i stayed quiet not know what to say or how to bring it up. he knows about the arguments with my parents but he doesnโ€™t know how intense theyโ€™ve gotten and iโ€™m scared to tell him in fear that what they said will be true. he feels my breaths becoming fast and shaky as tears start falling. opting to calm me down instead of forcing me to talk, he runs his fingers delicately up and down my back for a bit before settling in my hair gently massaging it.
โ€œyou donโ€™t have to tell me anything. i just need you to calm down youโ€™ll make yourself sick sweetheartโ€ he reassures, taking deep breaths himself, encouraging me to match his breathing as he whispers gentle encouragements in my ear.
this goes on for quite a while before i feel calm enough to tell him what happened.
in the quietest voice i explain what they said, โ€œi donโ€™t even know what i did to make them start yelling at me in the first but they said iโ€™m insufferable and exhausting to be around and they donโ€™t know how you put up with me and theyโ€™re shocked you havenโ€™t left me yetโ€ i take a shaky breath. โ€œwhy are you even with me why havenโ€™t you left me already?โ€ tears pool in my eyes.
โ€œhey hey itโ€™s okay, breath baby. iโ€™m happy you feel safe with me to tell me thatโ€ he sits up straighter and pulls me to sit on his lap so weโ€™re face to face. โ€œyou are not insufferable and you are not exhausting to be around. youโ€™re the complete opposite i canโ€™t spend a second without you and when i do youโ€™re all i think about. iโ€™m with you because i love you, i love the way you care for people, how gentle you are, how giddy you get when you pass a dog on the street. thereโ€™s nothing not to love about you. iโ€™ll spend the rest of my life showing you you deserve to be loved. you never have to worry about me leaving. iโ€™m in it for the long run your stuck with meโ€
โ€œthank you matt. iโ€™m sorry i questioned our love for me. i love you baby iโ€™m glad youโ€™re here, foreverโ€
โ€œi love you sweet girl, get some rest iโ€™m never leavingโ€
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Derek: are you the big spoon or the little spoon?
Emily: i'm the knife
Jj: *from across the room* she's the little spoon
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You always joked about how you'd find out what's beneath his mask someday. Literally and figuratively.
He'd scoff at your attempts, or suggestions to lift up his sniper mask. Some of them caught him off guard, to the point he almost did it if not for his logical mind. But some of them were downright ridiculous, that he couldn't help but snort.
Maybe you already accepted it from the start, that he would never give in, but it had become a harmless jest at this point, so you might as well keep it going.
Until he gives you permission.
The thing is, it doesn't make you happyโ€”it scares you to death instead. He once bit off someone's finger when they poked it in the place they shouldn't have touched. So what's behind the mask couldn't be worth the pain.
At first, you thought of it as a warning. Yet he wasn't showing any signs of threat. He even pulled you closer, so you'd get a better view of him.
His mask stays on, but he lets you touch his face. Your hands hover an inch away from his veiled visage, before you test the water with a touch.
He doesn't flinch away, or charge at you like a venomous snake. He stays still, letting your hands cup his cheeks.
"Didn't you say you wanna feel my face?" He said as he brought you closer, causing a shiver down on your spine.
"I did," Your lips trembled slightly, "I'm doing it."
"You're not doing it right." He tugged your paralyzed hands onto his chest.
You're confused when he firmly grips both of your hands, before slowly sliding them under the hem of his hood.
"Inside, maus." He commanded you, "Tell me what you feel."
And so, you complied.
You reach into his mask, and touch his neck tentatively. For a brief moment, his muscles tense under your fingertips, before they come down relaxed.
"Oh." You murmured as you pressed your palm onto his nape, "You can certainly survive a fighter jet ride."
He doesn't give you any response, so you take it as a cue to continue.
Your hands creep up higher, until your fingers reach the soft bones of his ears. They seem small in your grasp, smaller than they should, for a man of his height. A quiet smile spreads in your lips, as you imagine the tiny shells that frame both sides of his face.
"I'm surprised you have clear skin." You commented when you caressed his cheek, feeling the texture of his skin, "I thought you'd have a problem with it since you always wore a mask."
"Not always." He replied, nudging you to roam further, "I took it off whenever I'm alone."
"Did you take care of it?"
"No."
"How unfair." You chuckled, "I want to have your skin."
He keeps his eyes on you, and you feel the need to clear your throat, before you trace the lines on his face.
"You have a big nose." You mused as you ran your finger down from the bridge of his nose, "It's crooked."
He hums, while his eyes follow your uncertain gaze.
"Why you stopped?" He called you out, and you jumped upon hearing them, "There's one place you haven't touched."
You bit your lips, trembling, as you lowered your hand, until you felt the soft lumps on your fingertips.
They form a thin line, before they split open, inviting your finger inside. Your breathing becomes labored, as he takes a hold on your hand, guiding your thumb into his mouth.
He doesn't break eye contact the whole time, and you're too paralyzed to look away. You feel the sharpness of his teeth as his lips are closing around your digit. You have anticipated the guillotine falling on the head of your thumb, yet what comes after is a soft brush of his tongue.
It was rough, and drenched with his saliva, that it formed a string at the time your thumb left his mouth.
"Kรถnigโ€”" You gasped when he dragged his lips down to your palm, before stopping on your wrist. Pressing his tongue on your pulse point, where the skin barrier is so thin, that it feels as if he's tasting your flesh.
"Scared, maus?" He muttered, his teeth scraped against your skin, "Are you scared of me?"
You stare at him, as your instinct screams at you to nod. But you shake your head, despite the tremble in your hands.
"Then you'll do as I say." He wraps his arm around your waist, leaving no room for you to run, "Take off my mask."
Your eyes widened, not believing what you just heard from his mouth. Alas, his glare is enough to confirm the truth.
He guides your hands to his mask, pushing it up in a manner that's close to unveiling a white cover. And once the mask is lifted, you have no time to admire him as he slams his lips against yours.
Your cry of surprise is swallowed by his mouth, as he pushes his tongue between your lips. You can't do anything but cling to him, as he presses your body down with his, until your back is flush against the cushion.
When you open your eyes, what greets you is a pair of eclipses. Gone was the cruel Colonel, as he's replaced by a voracious brute.
The moment he opens his mouth, you know you'll be devoured by him.
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Christmas but 10 Times better
I know itโ€™s been a really long time (over a month) since Iโ€™ve posted but I really hope you guys enjoy this because Iโ€™ve been in writes blockโ€ฆ.. itโ€™s hard
Summary: Christmas was a special time of year, but you had someone who made it even better
Prompt: them gently tilting your chin
Warning: fluff, snow/christmas?
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Your stupid alarm clock was buzzing off the walls again. It was so loud you were pretty sure your parents could here it.
You sleepily reached over to turn it off, the sound of silence filling your ears when you did.
You picked up your phone to check the time, and your notifications that you hadnโ€™t checked in 18hours. You scanned through all the Instagram, tiktok, and phone calls youโ€™d gotten, but the one thing that caught your eye was the text from Peter that appeared at the bottom of the list. You quickly tapped on it, seeing that he sent you a good morning text.
You quickly responded: โ€œhi, whatcha doin?โ€
You loved when he sent you good morning texts, and no matter how tired you were, you made it your mission to respond as soon as possible.
Peters text bubble popped up, letting you know he was typing. His message popped up not a second later: โ€œjust laying in bed, just got back from patrol so still pretty tired, and still need to shower ๐Ÿ˜ถโ€ฆโ€
You giggled as you read his sweet message, and his laziness. Peter was a pretty active guy, being Spider-Man and all, but when he got back from patrol, he was a bed potato.
You responded to his message: โ€œewwww, you still havenโ€™t showered?? You stink ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿ˜ตโ€๐Ÿ’ซโ€
If Peter hadnโ€™t known that you were being sarcastic, he wouldโ€™ve been hurt. But knowing you, you couldnโ€™t hardly say anything without some sarcastic or humorous comment being added in it somewhere. And Peter loved it.
He asked you if you wanted to come over, and of course you said yes. Both of you quickly got ready, you going a little slower then normal so Peter could shower.
But so enough you and Peter were in his room, talking about whatever you wanted.
โ€œCan we go outside?โ€ You asked out of the blue. It was a random question, but thanks to tiktok, you had the sudden urge to dance with your boyfriend in the snow, because why not.
โ€œY/n itโ€™s snowingโ€ peter pointed at the window, watching snow fall just outside of it.
โ€œI know, come on itโ€™ll be funโ€ you added getting up and tugging you boyfriend as hard as you could, trying to get him off the bed.
โ€œFineโ€ he rolled his eyes, even though you could hear the excitement in his voice. You quickly took his hand and walked, almost ran, through his apartment and out the door.
Once you made it down to the lobby, and after making Peter take a selfie with the Christmas tree, you went outside into the cold, snowy place that was New York City. After playing in the snow like children, you and Peter took some more pictures (not like he wanted to, but he would do anything for you), you finally got what you had wanted to go outside for.
Peter was always able to tell what you wanted, especially when it came to things that involved him. So it was without a doubt clear to him that you wanted to dance with him in the snow, because honestly what girl wouldnโ€™t.
Knowing Peter he was going to do whatever made you happy, so he took your hands in his, making you blush.
โ€œMay I have this dance?โ€ He asked, gently bring your hand to his mouth and kissing it.
โ€œIโ€™m flatteredโ€ you started, the blush on your cheeks becoming more evident by the second. โ€˜Never gets oldโ€™ Peter thought
โ€œI would be honoredโ€ you added in a horrible british accent, causing Peter to laugh.
Peterโ€™s hands met your waist, your arms snaking around his neck. He slowly began to sway you back and forth, his eyes never leaving yours. You stayed like that for awhile, until the temptation became unbearable and you finally kissed him. It was a quick little peck, but it was special.
Peter smiled so bright, you were sure the whole block could see it. He gently filled your chin up, making it easier for him to kiss you, pulling you into another kiss, one that lasted much longer then the last.
The tree swayed in the wind as you walked back to your apartment building, hand in hand with your boyfriend. The wind made its occasion gust as the snow continued to fall. As the sun began to set and the lights on the buildings slowly turned on, still walking hand in hand with your boyfriend, you looked all around you, taking in the beautiful city.
Christmas was always a special time of year, but you were just thankful that you had someone who made it ten times better.
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prompt: forced throuple au; Ghost decides that you and Johnny are his (part 2; ghoap x reader) part 1
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The hard part is admitting to himself that he doesnโ€™t know how to function on leave without Ghostโ€™s voice in his ear.
Johnnyโ€™s two days into his annual leave when that stray thought crosses his brain. Out with chums even, packed into the booth of an old pub in his hometown, the leather well-worn and a match on the telly that he half watches while one of his mates goes up to the bar to order another round for them. In between his third and fourth pint of lukewarm mild, he thinks something like, wonder what Simonโ€™s up to.
The thought comes and then keeps coming. Keeps cropping up when he least expects. At the pub (wonder what Simonโ€™s up to), in line at the grocery store (wonder how Ghost takes his steak), drowsily puttering around the kitchen while making breakfast (no way he wears the mask at home), listening to some guy in front of him hack up a lung at the dry cleaner (Ltโ€™d do his fuckinโ€™ head in if he was here), and even in the shower with his head tipped back, rinsing out the suds (wonder if heโ€™s got a girl tucked away at home).ย 
Is it so unusual? Johnny canโ€™t remember a time in his life when someone lived in his head night and day, but Ghostโ€™s presence feels like an extension of his own these days. Heโ€™s cycled through girlfriends without a care in the world, without contemplating their existence for half as long, but they never cradled his life like a small bird in the palm of their hands and returned it safe and sound, did they?
Still, he feels it like a knot in his chest. Dreams about Ghost even; wakes up hot and hard, and scrubs his hand down the side of his face when he sits up in bed. Phantom memories of a body heavier than his weighing him down (just the duvet) and a thick hand curling around his dick (his own hand wrapped around his shaft, rubbing one out in his sleep).ย 
He shakes it off, but it follows him out into the real world. Looking at the door of a coffee shop and thinking absentmindedly, Ghost would have to duck under that.ย 
Johnny puts it out of his mind. As much as heโ€™s able to, that is. Chalks it up to some kind of hero worship. Heโ€™s worked with superior officers beforeโ€”plenty of times, hundreds of timesโ€”but there are few men of Ghostโ€™s calibre, both in skillset and mystique. Not to mention the sheer size of the guy. And what is Johnny if not a moth to a flame?
Better not to ruminate. He casts the memory of seeing Ghostโ€™s dick in the showers after their last mission (monstrous thing, uncut, pubes darker than the hair on his head, more than a mouthfulโ€”itโ€™d give him lockjaw) out of his head. Doesnโ€™t think about it. Laughs at a mateโ€™s joke at the pub when he didnโ€™t catch a word of it to mask the way he perked up at the sight of a wide-shoulder man until he turned around, giving Johnny a proper look at his face.
Heโ€™s not ready to think about it. Might never be able to really look at why he eats it up, why he struts around with his chin cocked just a bit higher than usual because he knows everyone else is watching him with equal parts envy and curiosity for being Ghostโ€™s favourite.ย 
Then, one day, he meets a girl.
Johnnyโ€™s not winning an award any time soon for worldโ€™s best son, but he knows a thing or two. The first thing being chocolates and the second being flowers. His sisters handle the rest; they fuss about the party, get a gift certificate to the spa, send out the invitesโ€”all that fun stuff. Heโ€™s sent off for the bare essentials. Practically kicked out of the house by his oldest sisterโ€”nearly brains himself on the asphalt and tugs his windbreaker on when itโ€™s thrown out the door after him a second later, grumbling about being the errand boy.
He picks up a box of chocolates from the corner shop (not fancy enough, his sisters will probably bitch, but thatโ€™s a problem for later) before heading down the road to the florist. Thereโ€™s a bench out front stacked with tin flower vases, the only spot of colour on a dreary spring morning. He spends a couple minutes chatting with the cashier and flirting a bit halfheartedly (he thinks maybe itโ€™ll be worth it if it gets him a discount, even five percent off) until the florist comes out from the back.ย 
โ€œJesus, who gave ye the right?โ€ Johnny breathes, horse blinders on, vision narrowing on the object of desire coming out of the back in a linen apron and simple t-shirt underneath, scissors poking out of the front pocket.ย 
โ€œThe right?โ€ she repeats back, blinking.
โ€œTo leave the house lookinโ€™ so fuckinโ€™ gorgeous. Glad I wasnโ€™t driving when I passed you byโ€”woulda been in a twenty car pile up.โ€
Sheโ€™s not impressed in the slightest. Itโ€™s thrilling. By that point, the cashier is long forgotten. Probably not the best impression heโ€™s ever made, but heโ€™s made worse ones. Itโ€™s not every day he comes across an angel. Hard to be polite in front of a real life miracle.ย 
He wears her down over the week though, showing up each day for a new bouquet. His mamโ€™s never liked him more, so at least thereโ€™s that. His sisters side-eye him whenever he ducks out of the house to head down the road to the floristโ€™s, but even they know better than to bring it up and risk pissing off their mam. He interrogates her about flowers and her job, makes his presence unavoidable, a week long siege that ends with Johnny taking her out to dinner and then letting her take him to bed.ย 
He wakes up nestled in her cozy apartment above the flower shop, stretching out and making himself right at home. When she trades in her linen apron for a terry cloth robe and stands expectantly by the door, Johnny just grins. Shows all of his teeth.ย 
โ€œAre ye just gonna use me and kick me out?โ€ he pouts. Folds his hands behind his head and digs a foot into the sheets, trying to sink into the mattress. Little king in his castle.ย 
โ€œYou know, you donโ€™t have to pussyfoot around with me. Werenโ€™t you just trying to get laid?โ€ she asks, brow arched. The disbelief thick in her voice makes it clear what she thinks of him.ย 
โ€œNoโ€™ just some playboy, hen,โ€ he scoffs. โ€œI have feelings too.โ€
Her other eyebrow lifts. Heโ€™s tickled pink.
He plays the part well, he supposes. Lounges in bed and eats grapes all morning while she stares at him from the kitchen like he might dissipate at any moment. Heโ€™s used to leaving a false impression, like a lake that someone builds their house next to until years go by and someone says I think this was once a meteor.ย 
When she comes back to bed around mid morning, Johnny wastes no time pulling her up onto the bed until she plants her cunt over his mouth and sinks down onto his waiting tongue.ย 
Candy sweet pussy, he thinks blissfully, then says it out loud because he can never keep his mouth shut. It must tickle because she yelps and nearly pulls away from his face altogether, but he wrenches her back down, fingers digging into her ass cheeks a bit too forcefully. Heโ€™ll pay for that later.ย 
In the aftermath, when she collapses beside him in bed and rests her head on his chest while he plays with her hair, he itches in his skin to message Ghost. It perplexes him. They never text, he and Ghost; they donโ€™t call, they donโ€™t write, they donโ€™t email. For all intents and purposes, their relationship ends at the perimeter around base, dissolves to nothing. Itโ€™s not Ghostโ€™s fault he trickles into Johnnyโ€™s dreams sometimes.ย 
A week goes by. Calm the mind. He thinks of Ghost and his fingers tremble and the phone stays silent and he lets the thought go. Steady. Breathe in and out. His caryatid girl slips in and out of his sheets, hesitant always like he might leave. Johnny doesnโ€™t know if she wants him to, wants to feel vindicated in her assumption, but of all her wants, that ranks the lowest in his mind.ย 
He spirals deeper into it, infatuated. Sheโ€™s sweet but snippy, candy sweet with a sour kickโ€”everything heโ€™s ever wanted in a girl. Ever unimpressed, watching him with a small, hidden smile, amused despite herself.ย 
Johnny wonders if this is the universe waving its hand in front of his face. Yoohoo, missing something?
He looks pointedly away.ย 
Itโ€™s new, but maybe heโ€™s like every other military man in the world, unable to go with the flow, dissatisfied with seeing where things go. He needs instant gratification, everything now-now-now, the certainty of commitmentโ€”he spills blood with everyone he knows, so why would his girl be any different?
Returning back to base is harder this time around. The last day of his leave is an exercise in restraint, tempered only by her smile when he sees her off at the door to her apartment, reluctant to leave.ย 
โ€œCโ€™mon, promise me youโ€™ll call, hen,โ€ Johnny mumbles into her mouth, catching her answer with a languid swipe of his tongue. His arms press her tight to his chest, digging his hands into her back pockets and giving a good squeeze, relishing in the way she squeaks. โ€œHowโ€™m I gonna survive without ye, huh? Theyโ€™re gonna have to jumpstart my heart after it gives out from missing ye so bad.โ€
โ€œSo dramatic. You have my number,โ€ she says when he finally pulls back enough to let her speak.
โ€œNo, please, baby, pleaseโ€”promise meโ€”โ€
โ€œOh my god, alright, fineโ€”Iโ€™ll call. Now get going already.โ€
The drive back to base leaves him feeling bedraggled, lost. When he gets in, itโ€™s straight to the barracks, an hour long nap before reporting to Price, dragging his feet the whole way over. Moping, for lack of a better word, until he rounds a corner and nearly collides with someone that stops him with a single hand on his shoulder.ย 
When he looks up to eyes rimmed in black paint, the world lightens. His shoulders lift.ย 
โ€œWipe that smirk off your face, Johnny.โ€
It takes Johnny awhile to bring her up with Ghost. Something keeps holding him back, choking him when he tries to say it outloud. He blames it on uncertainty (had to be sure she was the one, Lt, ye ken?) but he feels the truth at the core of him. When he does finally muster up the nerve to pass his phone to Ghost where her photo is front and centre, no mistaking his intentions, he waits on tenterhooks for a reaction.ย 
Only breathes out when Ghost asks to meet her. He can do that.ย 
โ€œAye, Lt. Just for you.โ€
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nadvs ยท 2 months
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cam girl (part ten)
pairing rafe cameron x female reader
rating explicit 18+
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summary you work two jobs. by day, youโ€™re a maid for the cameron household, where rafe degrades you any chance he can get. by night, youโ€™re a cam girl, hiding your face so nobody can recognize you. when you discover your new subscriber, the filthy-mouthed man obsessively paying you to do everything he can think of, is rafe, youโ€™re not sure what to do next.
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Rafe is on your mind constantly. At this point, youโ€™ve accepted it. There was something about the way he looked at you in his car last night. Possibly. Hopefully.
You stand in a quiet aisle, eyeing merchandise while you hold the charm on the necklace he gave you, the metal warm under your fingertips.
Youโ€™d never been in a sex shop before. The guys you hooked up with before Rafe were nowhere near as kinky as him and you bought all the stuff you needed to be a cam girl online.
But seeing all the possibilities makes your stomach twist with excitement. You want to try absolutely everything with Rafe.
Youโ€™ve been thinking about coming here throughout all your classes today with one thing in mind. Rafe loves to use toys on you, but youโ€™ve never used anything on him.
With Rafeโ€™s need for control, you assume he wonโ€™t be all that open to using a cock ring, but you want to do something special for him. Maybe you can introduce him to something for a change.
You find a vibrating ring that you know will fit him, then decide to send him a photo of the toys in the aisle behind you and text him: this is a great place to meet guys.
Before youโ€™re even at the register, your phone buzzes.
Rafe: dont joke like that
Rafe: buying something for yourself princess?
He sends you $100.
You reply: something like that :)
You check out at the register and head home, already looking forward to tonight. Your phone buzzes again.
Rafe: when can i come over?
You smile at your phone.
You: what about our cam session?
You get a notification that he sent $1000. The alert makes you wonder if he thinks youโ€™re just doing all this solely for the money and gifts.
Youโ€™d do it all for free.
Rafe: i wonโ€™t wait that long
Not just canโ€™t. He wonโ€™t.
You reply: like 8ish?
Rafe: ok
It starts to rain close to 8 and when Rafe arrives at your place, his hair is wet and his face and jacket are peppered with raindrops.
โ€œIs the valet not working today?โ€ you joke, knowing full well he had to find street parking on your busy road.
He breathes a chuckle, stepping into your apartment with his usual ease. Youโ€™ve noticed that he walks into every room like he owns it.
Rafe shakes off his jacket and places it on the back of one of your kitchen table chairs while you grab a clean hand towel out of your hamper.
โ€œSorry this towelโ€™s not a million thread count,โ€ you tease, meeting him to dab the towel over his face.
His blue eyes search your face with a hint of something new. Confusion?
You realize you didnโ€™t even think about it; you thoughtlessly started to dry him off. It was such a mechanical response. Your impulse is to take care of him, make him comfortable.
Itโ€™s official. This man is not just a fuck buddy to you anymore.
โ€œWhat?โ€ you ask, knowing you need to crack a joke to break the tension. โ€œIโ€™m just drying off my seat.โ€
โ€œOh, my God,โ€ Rafe groans, trying to act annoyed, but you know heโ€™s not. You laugh and lower the towel, squeezing the cotton in your hands.
โ€œWhatโ€™d you buy?โ€ he asks, clearly eager.
โ€œIโ€™ll show you later. I wanna hear what you have planned,โ€ you say. โ€œYou always have something planned.โ€
โ€œYou first,โ€ he says.
โ€œRafe,โ€ you whine, dropping the towel to rest your hands on his firm shoulders. โ€œCanโ€™t I surprise you for once? What do you want to do to me tonight?โ€
โ€œI wanna see what you bought,โ€ Rafe solidifies.
You suck your teeth in frustration, looking up at him with doe eyes.
โ€œPlease?โ€ you breathe. โ€œIโ€™m always the one waiting. Why donโ€™t you wait for once?โ€
Rafeโ€™s jaw tightens and he shakes his head in disbelief like he canโ€™t believe heโ€™s giving in, but he gives in.
โ€œYou ever been tied up?โ€ he finally asks, his voice so deep that it reverberates through you. The air is suddenly thick and any impression of humor that was floating between you has been dismissed by his words.
โ€œLikeโ€ฆ bondage?โ€ you say in a short breath, mulling it over as blood rushes to your cheeks. โ€œNo. I havenโ€™t.โ€
He closes the already minuscule distance between you, cradling your jaw in his cool hand.
โ€œI want your hands tied up while I fuck you,โ€ he says. Your mouth goes dry. Just when you think he canโ€™t get any fucking hotter.
Rafeโ€™s hand drops and you hear his belt unbuckling while his hot breath spreads across your cheek.
โ€œWhy the fuck are you still dressed?โ€ he rasps. Youโ€™re reeling as you strip down to nothing but the necklace he gave you. You hear the clang of his belt buckle falling onto your kitchen table beside you.
Rafeโ€™s hands drag over your hips, pinching down when he turns you to face the other way. Heโ€™s still in his boxers, his cock jabbing against your ass. His warm chest is pressed on your back, rising and falling.
โ€œYouโ€™re always the one waiting?โ€ he mutters. The belt buckle drags off the table top, and when you feel him roughly grab both your wrists and wrap the thick leather around them, the familiar need for him between your legs aches.
โ€œYouโ€™re always waiting,โ€ he repeats with a scoff. โ€œIโ€™m the one whoโ€™s always fucking waiting.โ€
You want to know what he means, but the belt is suddenly tight around your wrists, your chest jutting out. Rafe pushes you by the back of your neck so that your front is down on your table, your cheek flush against the hard plastic.
โ€œSpread your legs,โ€ he orders.
The muscles in your thighs are strained and your hips burn against the hard table from the way he has you bent over. He couldnโ€™t even spare the few seconds to go to your bedroom.
You feel his tip press against you, making you wonder which hole he wants to fuck.
โ€œBeg for it,โ€ he orders. His fingers tighten around the back of your neck. Your arms are already burning from being bound like this.
โ€œPlease fuck me,โ€ you moan, lips flanged from how hard your cheek is being pushed against the table.
โ€œSay my fucking name,โ€ he tells you.
โ€œPlease, Rafe,โ€ you obey. He groans in response, hands settling on your hips.
He stretches your cunt out so fucking slowly that you want to scream. You push back against him, and you swear, he laughs at your desperation.
Rafe finally bottoms out in you, his hips against your ass. He puts his hand over your bound wrists, starting to drag out again.
โ€œThis pussy is fucking mine,โ€ he says. As if you need the reminder. He owns you completely.
When he picks up the pace, driving into you, your breath hitches. With every thrust, your hips grind against the hard table, making you ache in pain.
โ€œOw,โ€ you snip before you can stop yourself.
Rafe immediately pulls out of you, making you writhe in frustration.
โ€œWhat hurts?โ€
โ€œNothing,โ€ you lie, wanting him more than you want the pain to stop. โ€œKeep going.โ€
โ€œWhat hurts?โ€ he repeats sternly.
โ€œMy hips,โ€ you admit. โ€œIโ€™m fine, itโ€™s just โ€˜cause of the table. Please just-โ€
โ€œIโ€™m not making you cry again,โ€ he snaps. He cups a hand on your shoulder. โ€œGo to your bed.โ€
โ€œRafe, itโ€™s fine.โ€ You feel oddly ashamed, like youโ€™re not doing your job pleasing him how he wants you to.
โ€œGo,โ€ he mutters. His hand pulls you up and you have no choice but to let him push you into your bedroom.
Your wrists are still bound at your lower back when he bends you over your bed. You sink onto your stomach, feeling Rafeโ€™s fingers spread you open before driving his cock into you again.
You squeeze your eyes shut as he relentlessly pounds in and out of you. Your arms strain against the constrictions of his belt, the sensations so fucking perfect.
โ€œShit, Iโ€™mโ€ฆโ€ he groans, and you know heโ€™s close, so you try to tilt up your hips so he can get as deep as possible.
Rafe shakes through his orgasm and you think how you could never tire of this feeling, of being the one he finishes inside of and reaches this feeling with.
Heโ€™s panting when he pulls out of you. Your wrists burn against the belt as he loosens it. His hand smooths over your ass before he spanks you and collapses beside you.
โ€œShow me what you bought,โ€ he says. โ€œIt better make you cum.โ€ You tilt your head to meet his gaze.
โ€œHave an open mind, okay?โ€
โ€œDamn, what the fuck is it?โ€ Rafe asks with a curious laugh.
Youโ€™re sore as you get up on your knees and shift to grab the white ring you already took out of the packaging and placed in your nightstand.
When you settle back on the bed and hold it out in front of him, his brows furrow.
โ€œIs thatโ€ฆ?โ€ He canโ€™t finish the sentence, his tone apprehensive.
โ€œIt might feel really good,โ€ you say with a small smile. โ€œI got a vibrating one.โ€
Rafe sits up, glancing down at your purchase before looking up at you again.
โ€œCome on,โ€ you laugh. โ€œYou surprise me all the time. I canโ€™t surprise you?โ€
He clears his throat.
โ€œI donโ€™t know,โ€ he says simply, blinking fast. It sounds like a hard no.
โ€œOh,โ€ you say. Youโ€™re shocked heโ€™s not at least a little open to it, considering how kinky he is. โ€œOkay. Sorry.โ€
You turn to put the toy away, but his next words stop you.
โ€œFuck,โ€ he breathes out. โ€œFine.โ€
โ€œReally?โ€ you ask, meeting his eyes again.
โ€œYou just look so fucking sad,โ€ he groans.
โ€œYou donโ€™t have to do it.โ€
โ€œLetโ€™s just try it.โ€ He pinches the bridge of his nose. โ€œAfter everything I do to youโ€ฆโ€ You smile in response.
Rafe sits up against the head of your bed frame and you straddle him, dipping your head to kiss him. Itโ€™s strange how with him, making out feels more intimate than sex does. As good as the sex is, nothing gets your heart fluttering quite like when his lips are on yours.
Your hands settle on his shoulders and you tug at the ends of hair as you kiss him passionately.
Rafe smiles under the kiss, your lips molding together, his tongue tumbling with yours. You feel him getting hard again.
You pull back to slide the ring down his cock and he sighs in a way that tells you he canโ€™t believe heโ€™s actually doing this before he takes you in to kiss you again.
Rafeโ€™s hands roll over your ass, squeezing and kneading as you sit on his naked lap. This is the longest youโ€™ve ever kissed. It feels crazy to realize that, considering everything youโ€™ve done together.
โ€œShit,โ€ he shifts beneath you. His cock is growing, the ring starting to squeeze around him.
โ€œHowโ€™s it feel?โ€ you ask.
โ€œGood,โ€ he breathes, eyes low. It makes your heart swell with pride. โ€œRide me.โ€
You sink down on him slowly, feeling the ring against you once youโ€™re fully seated. You find the button at the top of it to turn on the vibration.
You both exhale in pleasure at the same time. He skims his hands up to your waist, looking at you while you grind on top of him.
In the dim light of your quiet bedroom, the toy buzzing against your clit, how deep he is inside you, the way his eyes are locked on yoursโ€ฆ itโ€™s all so perfect. Everything with him is so fucking perfect that it canโ€™t be true.
The fact that you ended up here all because of a part-time cleaning job and a cam website feels insane.
Your palm is against his hot chest. He looks down at it and his dimples dip into his cheeks as he smiles smugly.
โ€œYour hands are so fucking cute,โ€ he teases. The non-sexual compliment sends you into a tizzy.
โ€œYours are huge,โ€ you retort, trying to keep cool.
โ€œWhat else is huge?โ€ he asks.
โ€œYour ego.โ€
โ€œFuck off,โ€ he laughs.
โ€œOkay,โ€ you tease, starting to sit up so heโ€™ll slip out of you. He roughly pulls you back down by your hips.
โ€œYouโ€™re not going anywhere,โ€ Rafe mutters. You laugh and start to fuck him faster, your hips rolling in circles.
โ€œFuck,โ€ he groans, head tilting back. โ€œIโ€ฆ Fuck, I need to get on top.โ€
You shift to let him settle over you, your head resting on your pillow. Rafeโ€™s hand runs up the side of your bent leg and he grabs your calf to pull it towards him, silently inviting you to wrap your legs around him.
You hook your ankles together, your entire body hugging him.
You fuck for at least twenty straight minutes, both of you sweating and panting and shaking. You knew heโ€™d last extra long with the cock ring tight around him, but this is unbelievable.
You cum twice underneath him in the span of the session, earning a string of โ€œgood girlโ€s from him. By your third orgasm, he starts to tremble, too.
When Rafe cums inside you, his name tumbles out in his groan. Not princess, not baby, not good girl, but your name, and it gives you a knotted feeling in your stomach that you havenโ€™t had with him yet.
Maybe itโ€™s because heโ€™s elated over coming down from a new level. Or maybe itโ€™s more.
He pulls out, still dripping.
โ€œSoโ€ฆ you like my present?โ€ you ask when he falls in your bed next to you.
โ€œFuck,โ€ Rafe groans. โ€œThat wasโ€ฆโ€ He doesnโ€™t seem to have the words, but neither do you. How do you even begin to describe something this unreal?
โ€œI need water,โ€ you say, unsure of how youโ€™re going to even stand up. โ€œWant some?โ€
He shakes his head in response.
You stand at your kitchen sink, leaning against the counter and swallowing down cold water. On your way back to the bedroom, you notice a lit up screen on your kitchen table.
Rafe must have left his phone here before you moved to the bed. Through pure instinct, you look at the screen. By the time you realize youโ€™re accidentally snooping, itโ€™s too late.
You donโ€™t see the contact name in time, but you do see the message.
bro where are you? too many bitches here for just me lol
A chill rushes through your body. It must be one of his buddies waiting for him at a party.
Of course. Itโ€™s a Friday night and youโ€™re pretty sure all the rich people on the island have to do is party.
You feel like an idiot. Expecting exclusivity from Rafe in the arrangement youโ€™re in was ridiculous. Of course heโ€™s fucking around on the side. Someone like him, with his sex drive, canโ€™t be satisfied by one girl.
At this point, you just want him to leave, so you collect his clothes off the kitchen floor.
Thankfully, Rafeโ€™s already sitting up in your bed when you reenter your bedroom. Surely eager to go.
โ€œHere,โ€ you say coldly, handing him his jeans and t-shirt. You donโ€™t look at him when he takes his clothes from you. โ€œAre you gonna head out?โ€
You realize when you ask the question, itโ€™s like a secret test youโ€™re putting him through. If he stays, he gives a shit about you. If he leaves, he doesnโ€™t.
โ€œYeah, I should,โ€ he says. He should. Yeah, he really should go look at and flirt with and fuck other girls.
โ€œโ€˜Kay.โ€ You start to collect some clean clothes from your dresser, covering your body with them, feeling strangely insecure around him now.
โ€œYou pissed off or something?โ€ he asks behind you as he gets dressed.
You clench your jaw. Honestly, youโ€™re more hurt than anything. But are you even allowed to be? Just because he acts like your boyfriend sometimes doesnโ€™t mean he is.
โ€œNo,โ€ you reply. You swallow down the painful feelings and turn to look at him. โ€œJust tired.โ€ You think back to your texts yesterday about how often youโ€™ve hooked up. โ€œLost count, right? I might need a break.โ€
You donโ€™t mean it. At this point, youโ€™re just defensive. Wanting to hurt him like he hurt you.
Rafeโ€™s face flashes in displeasure.
โ€œWhat - why? What the fuck happened in the last fucking minute?โ€ he asks.
โ€œIโ€™m not allowed to be tired?โ€ you respond.
He dips his head, nodding as he buttons his jeans. He seems silenced by his own anger. Your eyes sweep down his muscled body, wishing heโ€™d just hug you and ask you whatโ€™s wrong one more time and reassure you that youโ€™re more than just sex to him.
You can tell heโ€™s pissed off and you know youโ€™re not being fair, but you let him leave without any more words exchanged between you.
After a long shower, you lie in bed and wish Rafe didnโ€™t leave his smell on your pillow. You browse your phone, trying to distract yourself.
You tell yourself youโ€™ll go to sleep in five minutes over and over again. Youโ€™re working at the estate tomorrow. You need to get up early. But you know the moment you close your eyes, youโ€™ll be trapped in your thoughts. You donโ€™t want to think about him.
Itโ€™s nearing midnight when a text comes in.
Rafe: princessssssdsssss
You look at your screen in confusion. Is this a drunk text?
Rafe: ur mean
Rafe: but ypur pussy is sooo niiice lol
Yeah. Heโ€™s plastered.
Rafe: ans you have cutehands
Rafe: you akwyas smell good how the fuck is fhat possibke
You hate that your heart warms at the fact that heโ€™s clearly fucked up but his instinct is to text you.
You reply: i think someoneโ€™s drunkโ€ฆ
Rafe: yes iam
Rafe: idk what iโ€™m gona do with yiu loool
You: what do you want to do with me?
You get an alert that he sent you $69.
Rafe: that
Rafe: looool
Sex. Of course.
You: are you going to make me do every position?
Rafe: youโ€™r efreaky as fuck. i know youd like it
You: trueโ€ฆ
Rafe: lowkey ur all i think about
Goddamn it. Your heart is pounding at this point. You try to play it off.
You: oh only lowkey. cool
Rafe: donโ€™t be maddd
You: iโ€™m pissed
Rafe: we should fuck aboutt it :)
You know the answer to your next question, that he sees you as a booty call and thatโ€™s all, but you know the confirmation.
You: is that all you want to do rafe? fuck?
Rafe: YES
Rafe: what if i come over again tonigjt lol
You: i work tomorrow. i need to sleep
Rafe: you need this dick
You: omg
Rafe: do you likw this skng
Rafe: song
You: ??? what song
You canโ€™t stifle your laugh at how shit-faced he is.
Rafe: irs good
Rafe: u should giveme a lap dance
You: youโ€™re drunk as hell. iโ€™ll see you tomorrow, ok? goodnight
You think back to the way he looked when you snapped at him earlier and decide to send one more message.
You: sorry i was mean
He doesnโ€™t reply. Maybe itโ€™s better that way.
Your body is heavy the next morning. You barely make it to the Cameronsโ€™ estate. You donโ€™t see Rafe at all in the morning. Youโ€™re guessing he crashed at whoeverโ€™s party he went to.
You wonder how many bitches, as he and his friends say, he talked to last night.
When itโ€™s time to turn over his bedsheets, you take a moment to take in the familiarity of his bedroom. When you pull over a new fitted sheet, you realize just how exhausted you are.
Thereโ€™s no reason for another maid to come into this room. Itโ€™s on your list only. And Rafe is gone.
So, whatโ€™s the harm in lying down to rest, just for a little bit? Youโ€™ll do a better job when youโ€™re not exhausted.
You wonโ€™t close your eyes.
You lie on his pillow. Okay, maybe you can close your eyes for a minute. Youโ€™ll count to sixty then stand back up.
The numbers quickly melt away and you slip into a slumber.
When you wake up, nuzzling your face into the pillow, Rafe is in bed with you, his back to you.
It takes a moment to remember where you are. You sit up and he notices the movement, turning to look at you over his shoulder.
{ read part eleven here }
authorโ€™s note: shoutout to my readers for being so creative. thank you to this anon and this anon and to another reader (you know who you are) for your contributions to this chapter! ILY!
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Astarion Romance Headcanons ๐Ÿฅ€
SFW:
Side glances when you're besides him
Full on staring when you're not
Immediately looking away when you catch him
"You know the way he looks at you, don't you, soldier?"
His pinky itching towards yours when you're walking, wanting to hold your hand but unsure because, is it too much? Will you reject him?
His hands scrunching up your shirt tightly whenever you hug. He's always the last to let go.
You hold on longer and longer each time because he doesn't want to let go.
His kisses are tender and needy.
He likes the warmth of your hands.
Thinking of what tones will suit your perfume the best. He'll gift it to you after all this is over.
He'll sew the holes or tears in your clothes over the night and pretend he doesn't know what happened next morning.
When you move to kiss his cheek he will grimace in annoyance but lean in as you do it.
"Be careful around Astarion, (Tav). He's not serious about you.", the others will warn you. And Astarion will worry you'll heed their words more than his so he'll do so much to prove his love to you, not knowing that you already trust him (even if that is an objectively stupid thing to do lmao).
He started sleeping next to you from the moment you had sex but ever since you've entered the shadowlands, he ends up cuddling in the middle of the night. He misses the sun.
He likes kissing the palm of your hand or its back.
Likes to pack your bag before you leave camp.
"No one's ever going to love me like that again."
Ever since you told him that there's more to him than just beauty and sex, that he's hilarious, for instance, he finds ways to make you laugh. He loves it. He's started being a lot more sarcastic and makes more jokes just to hear your laughter. He'll never admit it, of course. Other than maybe when it's only you two.
Doesn't believe he will be able to love again if you let go of him.
"Don't be so nice to me." he says with round, needy and pleading eyes.
Thinking of ways he can show others you're together so others know you're not available.
Hiding his jealousy, terribly.
He will rip the throat out of anyone with malicious intent towards you.
"I will wait the whole of my life for you, Astarion." He doesn't believe it at first, but the longer you go on without sex the safer he feels and the more he wants you.
NSFW:
He sometimes cries silently at night, wishing he could make love to you without it feeling so tainted. He wants it so badly, but his past experience prohibits it. The pain of wanting something and being unable to have it only because of himself is too much. He blames himself too sometimes. Wishing he could give you more.
"I don't mind waiting.", you'd say.
"I do. I can't have you, no matter how much I want you.", he'd say.
When you cuddle him sensing he's upset, he will bury his face in your neck to hide his tears. The smell of you is comforting.
Needing you everytime you're tender with him.
Getting aroused when you hug during a kiss.
Wanting to kiss your skin all over, to make you cry from pleasure as you bury your face in his neck.
Wanting you to hold on to him for dear life as you climax.
When he's finally comfortable enough and takes charge of his own sexuality, he'll be so needy.
Realising that the two nights he had sex with you were nothing compared to how good making love to you feels.
When you give up all control to him, letting him do to you as he wants, the pleasure is almost too much bear. The power he feels is palpable and knowing it is you who trusts him so much will drive him near mad.
He will lose control many times so you have a safe word.
You both think of the stupidest word possible as a safe word. Something that makes you both laugh when it's used.
He likes over stimulating you, making you beg and he'll kiss you to calm you.
"It's okay, you can do it, darling.", he'll say stroking you even further and kissing your tears.
"Does that feel good, my love?"
The more you beg the more he loves it.
He likes playing with your hands, holding them in his, touching your fingers, comparing them to his while you rest on his chest, still warm from him being inside of you.
Resting his head against your chest to hear your heartbeat.
Staring at your face and body intently. Taking in every little reaction you make and replaying them over in his head throughout the day.
Staring at you longingly when you're both with the squad, failing terribly at focusing in battle or conversation.
Getting aroused when you're covered in blood.
Seeing you fighting, in general, turns him on. The smell of your sweat, your rapid heart beat, the way your body moves, all of it now only reminds him of making love to you.
Telling you to say his name whenever he's feeling good and you'll chant it as you cum. He loves how it sounds from your lips.
Resting his forehead against yours as he's close to cumming.
"Look at me.", he'll command you.
He likes when your hands rake his hair, pull his hair, tug it whatever. That slight bit of pain arouses him. Better yet, if you bury your nails into his skin.
He likes to look at you falling asleep. It's such a gentle thing. How can someone so strong otherwise be so soft around him? Why him? Why did someone like you choose someone like him? He can't believe he has you.
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