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AM Conversations : chapter 45

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

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-one chapter is her pov, the next is his. -4k // 4.4k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

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- note for this chapter: just extra super fluff for this chapter. soo enjoy? i hope you like it haha! also, i know the song she sings comes out a year later buuuut yea, whatever lol! a few more cute fluff chapters before drama happens sooo yea. i hope you guys like it. i know not many ppl read this anymore and its okay. just know i love you guys for being loyal and reading this story after 45 chapters. your comments and reblogs and likes and asks make me so so so happy i cant explain! keep sending ideas youd like to read too :)

only one request for this chapter but its fluff so :P

Chapter 45 : Her chapter

OLIVIA

I felt myself waking up slowly but kept my eyes closed. My lips curled slightly when I heard my boyfriend’s voice from the shower and I forced myself to open my eyes. I sat up in bed and stretched but when I pushed the covers off of me, I felt a shiver run up my spine despite the fact that it was the end of june and that it was most likely very warm outside. I put my feet off the bed and moved my toes on the carpet before breathing in and getting up. The door was ajar and the closer I got, the better I could hear Niall sing. I pushed on the door slightly and leaned against the door frame, listening to his voice as the steam hit my skin and warmed me.

I had never felt so happy in my entire life with someone and even after all these months, I could barely believe we were dating. I crossed my arms on my chest and leaned my head on the frame too, staring at my boyfriend singing and dancing in the shower. After a while he turned to me and saw me staring at him. He smiled back and made a quick head movement but I shook my head slightly. He rolled his eyes with a smile and opened the glass door. His hair was full of foam and he looked cuter than ever, making me nibble on my bottom lip despite myself.

“Please?” he asked, raising his eyebrows and making me roll my eyes.

I took a few steps closer, letting my arms fall on each side of my body, and his lips curled more at my sight. When he was finally able to reach me, he grabbed the front of my shirt and pulled me his way, making me chuckle.

“No no, I took a shower last night remember?”

He smirked and raised his eyebrows at me, not letting go. “And then I fucked your brains out, remember?” he replied in a smartass tone. “Come on, you smell like good sex and sweat.”

I laughed at his words and let him pull me with him. He closed the door behind me and I held my breath as the warm water fell on me and soaked my shirt and panties. Niall smiled more and quickly moved his head back right under the stream to rinse his hair. I stared at his naked body as he closed his eyes, running his hand through his hair to make sure all the soap was gone.

Without thinking, I ran my hands on his wet chest and quickly, he moved his head up again and opened his eyes, bending down to reach my smile with his. The kiss was gentle and soft and I felt water drops fall from his hair to my cheek. A wave of well-being washed over me and I pressed my hands more on his chest.

“What were you singing?” I asked, tilting my chin up.

“Something I wrote. I’ll sing it to you when it’s done.”

I smiled and licked my lips, staring at him some more. I felt like Niall hadn’t written anything in months and I knew he was missing it. I loved watching and listening to him when he was playing guitar, or when he was sitting in front of the piano, but it hadn’t happened much until very recently. He was not the type to share and I respected that, but I was curious and interested in everything that made him happy.

“Happy Birthday petal.” he whispered against my mouth. “How does it feel to date a younger man like me?”

I laughed against his mouth and felt his lips curl against mine.

“Feels amazing.” I admitted, still amused. “Better than yesterday, for sure.”

“But not as good as tomorrow, yea, I know.”

I laughed more and felt his hands slip under my drenched shirt, reaching under my breasts slowly. I bit my bottom lip as he stared at me before kissing me again but deeper this time. I could feel my whole body throb until his thumbs brushed under my breasts. I quickly held my breath again, my heartbeats accelerating, but he just slid his hands back down to my waist.

“Mm, come on darling, take a shower, i’ll go prepare something while you do.”

“Nooo!” I complained when he took a step back. “You can’t turn me on and then leave me here alone.”

He laughed and shook his head, pushing the glass door of the shower again and getting out.

“Such a horny girl.” he just let out, clearly amused by my behavior.

I sent him puppy eyes but he just shook his head and closed the door, trapping me in the shower before blowing me a kiss and leaving.

I grimaced but decided to wash my hair and body quickly after getting undressed and when I finally got out of the shower, I grabbed a fluffy towel only to realize it was warm and I quickly wrapped it around me.

“Thanks for putting it in the dryer.” I let out with a smile when I walked back into our bedroom. “You’re perfect.”

He had put sweatpants and a t-shirt back on and I stared at his back as I tried to find a similar outfit in one of his drawers. With a sigh, I took my towel off and dressed up before rubbing the towel in my hair to dry it more. After a few minutes, he turned around and sent me a fond smile and I smiled back until he handed me something.

“This is one of your gifts.” He explained, holding out a box about as large as a book, wrapped in silver and pink paper. “The personal one.”

I felt my heart skip a few beats inside my chest and smiled as big as possible, pressing my lips together. These were the gifts coming from Niall that I preferred. Of course, I enjoyed the trips, the spa days, the jewels and the activities he gave but the gifts with a meaning meant a million times more and Niall always knew exactly what would make me happy. He gave me things I didn’t even know I needed before.

I licked my lips and grabbed it, unwrapping it very slowly as he stared at my fingers. I let the paper fall on the floor when I noticed an old picture of us in a frame. It was the one I told him to bring on his trip and my lips curled more but i noticed something at the bottom and frowned, moving the frame up to have a better look. My lips parted when I noticed what it was and I looked up in his eyes. It was a card that was part of a game Lottie had brought at the lodge. I remembered picking up that card from the “Kiss & Tell” game before rushing to the bathroom and locking myself in it. I hadn’t told anyone what was on the card except Niall. We had been laying in the dark and I had showing him right before telling him it was him I wanted to kiss, but I didn’t have the guts to. I looked down again at the card and read the words. “Kiss the person you love the most in the room.”

“I kept it and I didn’t know why. It was in my wallet all this time. I remember wondering how I would have felt if you had kissed me instead of Harry after picking up that card, you know?” he shrugged and looked down at it. “That night you said you loved me more than anyone else in the world and I said I did too. I didn’t understand back then why it was so important for me but now I do.”

He took a step closer and brought his hands to my waist, waiting until I looked up in his eyes again.

“When we fought a few months ago after my trip, I left you here to get drunk. We both went to bed mad, or at least not on good terms, and I realized how wrong it was. I want to keep this frame in our room, right next to the bed, so every time we fight or argue, we always work things out here before falling asleep. I will always kiss the person I love the most right before I fall asleep. Every single night. I promise.”

I felt myself tear up and swallowed the lump in my throat. I couldn’t talk, I knew that my voice would crack, and without thinking, I crushed my mouth against his, It hurt slightly but he didn’t say anything. He just pulled me closer and deepened the kiss. He tasted so fucking good and I felt tears fall down my face as we kept on kissing for I don’t know how long. When he pulled away, I kept my eyes closed and brushed my lips against his.

“When you said you were romantic I thought you were the type, you know, to give flowers and stuff.”

He laughed and moved his upper body back to look in my eyes.

“There’s a bouquet waiting for you int he kitchen.”

This time, i’m the one who laughed. I turned around and put the frame next to the bed on the small table and sighed as I looked at our younger faces on the picture. I wanted this house to be full of pictures of us, whether they were recent or old.

“Come, let’s go bake that cake of yours.”

I turned back to him with a frown and tilted my head.

“I gotta bake my own birthday cake?”

He laughed and grabbed my hand, pulling me with him until the kitchen and I noticed all the ingredients already out along with a big bouquets of white and purple lilacs placed in the middle of the table.

“The florist said it looked ridiculous and tried to convince me to add other flowers but I knew that’s what you wanted.” he pointed out. “Just in case though, there’s also a bouquet of roses in the living room.”

I smiled more and chuckled, loving the fact that he knew me so well, and took a step closer to him to kiss his lips.

“Aaaand maybe a few tulips next to the piano.” he grimaced before I brushed my lips on his jaw.

“How are you so perfect?”

He searched for my mouth with his and kissed me deeply again. I was not even surprised that his kisses still made butterflies hit the inside of my stomach, even after so many months. I knew it would always be like that.

“Okay, come on now, let’s bake that cake yea?” he said a little louder, getting out of my embrace and turning around to go grab the flour. “We got up late and we have a busy evening and an even busier night!”

“Niall, I said I didn’t want anything big.” I complained with a grimace, letting my head fall back on my shoulders.

“I promise on my life you’re gonna have fun! It’s just a few hours with our friends, and then i’m bringing you somewhere else just the two of us.”

I wanted to be annoyed but the truth was, I was touched and very very curious. I walked up to him as he was cracking an egg, letting it fall in a bowl and I sighed low of happiness.

“Thank you, Niall.”

He turned his head quickly to peck my lips with a light sound and I chuckled.

“Come on, read the recipe out loud will you?”

Quickly, we made the cake mix and ended up having a bit more difficulty working on the icing. I ended up a bit annoyed and searched through his fridge, taking the cream cheese out and putting it on the counter.

“We’ll just prepare the easiest icing ever and pretend we’re amazing bakers, how’s that?”

He laughed and we started working on it in silence right after putting the mix in the oven.

“Just a bit of milk.” I specified. “Do you have vanilla?”

I watched him combine everything in a bowl as I nibbled my bottom lip and added icing sugar slowly to the mix.

“You know, we’re actually a good team.” I pointed out.

I watched him dip his finger in the icing and sticking his tongue out to get a taste.

“Heyy, what about me?” I frowned jokingly before he dipped an other finger in it and wiped the icing on my cheek, making me groan.

“Come here.”

He pulled me closer and licked my cheek, making a shiver run up my spine at the contact of his tongue with my skin.

“You’re right, it tastes amazing, we’re a good team.” he admitted low. “Not just for baking.”

He took the icing again, taking more of it with his finger and putting it on my neck. I held my breath as his tongue ran on my skin and quivered again in his arms.

“I just took a shower, remember?”

“Oh shut up.” he let out, making me laugh, as he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer.

“Can I get a taste, too?”

Without answering, he brought his lips against mine and kissed me deeply but very slowly. I closed my eyes, running my hand in his hair and letting a moan escape my lips. He swallowed it and I felt his fingers slip slightly under my shirt, on the skin of my back. I laughed against his mouth when he broke the kiss and shook my head.

“I meant you know, really taste.”

“Mmhm.” he shrugged, pulling away and taking the icing bowl. “I know that’s what you meant, but you can’t taste your cake before tonight.”

“But-”

“Don’t argue!” he cut me with a smirk. “Go in the living room, i’ll join you, okay?”

I groaned and let my feet rub on the wood floor in an annoying noise as a sign of protestation. It’s only when I reached the living room that my lips curled back again. There was a literal fort made with blankets and cushions and I let out a chuckle of amazement.

“Niall?” I asked loud enough for him to hear.

“Sit down! I’m coming!”

I chuckled and got on my knees, pushing the blanket that acted as a door only to sit on the tiny mattress. I couldn’t believe he had taken the time to make a fort in his own living room and I started wondering how long it took him to plan that. He had placed his tablet on the side and when he joined me, I frowned slightly.

“Why did you bring this?” I asked, pointing it right before a smile reappeared on my face.

He handed me a bowl of ice cream and I started jumping slightly on my ass while still sitting.

“Don’t move too much, it’s not that solid.” he laughed a bit. “I thought we could watch a movie together?”

I sent him a fond smile and tilted my head again before nodding very slowly.

“Great! So I bought your favorite ice cream but added candies, chocolate syrup and caramel, the way you like it.”

“Thank you, Nee.” I let out as he sat in front of me. I moved my upper body closer to kiss him. “Thank you so fucking much.” I kissed him again. “Thank you.” Again. “Thank you.” And again.

“You also get to pick the movie.” he let out with a smile, kissing me back. “We’ll watch anything you want. It’s your day.”

I sat back and looked at him with a smirk, raising my eyebrows as his face changed.

“Now you’re scaring me.” he admitted as I laughed, grabbing his tablet. “Wait what are you doing? Isn’t the movie you want to watch on netflix?”

I held his tablet against me and raised my eyebrows at him again.

“Do you promise we’ll watch whatever I want?”

It took him a few seconds but he finally nodded.

“I promise.”

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The bar was loud and crowed but we quickly found our friends waiting for us, sitting a bit further with beer and sangria pitchers. I smiled more, a bit excited, and everyone greeted us, telling me ‘happy birthday’ for the first time in person on that day. Louis was the last one and he got up to wrap his arms around me before I hugged him back.

“Happy birthday princess.” he whispered after kissing one of my cheeks and pulling me closer. “I hope your day is perfect, that’s what you deserve.”

I laughed when we pulled away and bit on my bottom lip.

“It is, I have the perfect boyfriend and he made this day perfect.”

We sat down and I felt Niall’s hand slide on my thigh. I quickly put my hand over his and intertwined our fingers, squeezing them hard.

“What did she make you watch?” Louis asked with a smirk. “Back To The Future again?”

Niall’s smile fell and he rolled his eyes, making Louis laugh.

“Which one?”

“Louis, don’t even ask.” Niall argued, shaking his head and making me smile more.

“We didn’t watch Back To The Future.” I pointed out, leaning on the table to get closer to Louis. “I made him watch This Is Us.”

Louis’ eyes moved from me to Niall then back at me and finally on Niall before he burst into laughter, making Niall growl next to me. I squeezed his fingers tighter but I couldn’t help the smile that spread on my face.

“How was it, Neil? To watch a movie with you in it with your girlfriend by your side?” Louis teased.

Niall raised his eyebrows and nose up as he leaned one of his elbow on the table, staring in his friend’s eyes.

“The worst was actually looking at you for an hour and a half, Tommo.”

Louis laughed again and shrugged.

“Guess you’re cursed, mate, because here I am again!”

I laughed and rolled my eyes at their banter until Louis grabbed a glass and poured me sangria. Niall did the same for himself with beer and he finally sighed, the left corner of his lips raising up.

“You know, I can’t really blame her though.” Niall joked. “The girl enjoys looking at me, I just give her what she needs.”

“Oh shut up.” I let out, making him laugh more. “Now what’s so special about tonight? Why are we here anyway?”

I glanced around before meeting Louis’ eyes and he smirked, raising his eyebrows. I didn’t like it and frowned, suddenly a bit scared of what was to come. Julie chuckled and it caught my attention, making me look at her.

“It’s karaoke night.” she explained with a sigh but also a smile on her lips. “And apparently, we’re all going to sing.”

I felt suddenly extremely nervous and without realizing it, I squeezed my boyfriend’s fingers hard between mine.

“Ouch, darling, watch the fingers, they’re important.” he chuckled. “For music and for… you know.. pleasure.”

“Niall.” I whispered, looking down at our hands together. “You know I hate being on a scene. I don’t like attention.”

“You did it a few years ago and you had fun.”

I sent him an annoyed look and sighed, raising my nose up in a grimace. He was right, I had sang a song a while ago at a karaoke night and we always had a lot of fun doing those in someone’s living room, but in public it was a bit different. I was already a bit shy around my friends, so to think i would do it in front of a bunch of strangers made it even worse.

“Here.” Louis let out, pushing the sangria pitcher closer. “Drink up. I’ll go first.”

I swallowed the whole glass in front of me and filled it out again as I watched Louis get on stage and grab a microphone.

“Here’s one of the best written songs in the whole world.” he only explained as the music started.

I held my breath and smiled when I recognized the oasis song and mouthed it with him.

“So Sally can wait, she knows it’s too late as she’s walking on by My soul slides away, but don’t look back in anger I heard you say.”

When he was done and the music stopped, we all got up and started clapping. Liam even whistled loud and I let out a ‘woohoo!“ when he got off stage. He hugged me and bent down to whisper in my ear.

“Do it now, it’s worth it.”

I quickly nodded and he moved away. He extended his hand and I slapped in it before bumping my fist against his.

“Come on, you can do it.” he added as I sent him a smile.

I turned to Niall and I smiled without thinking. I watched him push his glasses on his nose and a bunch of memories of us came back to my mind. I felt so lucky to have him in my life and I chuckled.

“Just for you.”

I didn’t wait for his answer and ran up the stairs as a guy walked up to me to ask me which song I wanted to sing. I told him and he chuckled before nodding and finally left after handing me the microphone.

“I dedicate this to my best friend in the whole wide world.”

The first notes started and I kept my gaze on Niall and when I started singing, I saw him start laughing hard, his mouth wide open. He let his head fall back and clapped in his hands a few times to encourage me.

“Right from the start, couldn’t pull us apart, it just works Nobody else ever gets me as well on this earth Like rock and roll, Marshall’s and telly’s Mac and cheese, PB’s and jellies Some things are better together, and that’s you and me-e

Dude, I love you, bro, I love you Man, I love you You’re my brother from another, 'nother mother You are my favorite, I’m not ashamed to admit Cause I do, dude, I do Dude, I love you, bro, I love you Man, I love you You’re my homie, no one knows me like you know me Like the sun and the moon, all the best things comes in two What would I do without a friend like you?

W-w-w-w-what would I do? Without a friend like you W-w-w-w-what would I do? Without a friend like you?”

I smiled as I sang when I noticed all my friends were standing up and dancing together and when the song stopped, I bowed down quickly and ran back to my friends without really giving them any attention. Niall bent down slightly, his arms open, and I ran to him.. He picked me up for a few seconds and put me back down before kissing me hard, laughing against my lips.

“Good song. Thank you.” he whispered, pulling away. “Now listen to mine, yea?”

I nodded and he grabbed my hand before walking to the stage. When he was far enough, my hand slipped out of his and I just stared at him as he grabbed the microphone. He cleared his throat and licked his lips, making my heart melt in my chest. I sat down but remained on the edge of my chair as he talked.

“For the love of my life.”

It took me literally one note to recognize the song and I held my breath as I felt myself tense. I tried to remember all the words of the song and something twisted in my stomach.

“You’re a falling star, you’re the get away car You’re the line in the sand when I go too far You’re the swimming pool on an August day And you’re the perfect thing to see

And you play it coy, but it’s kinda cute Oh, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do Baby, don’t pretend that you don’t know it’s true 'Cause you can see it when I look at you

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It’s you, it’s you; you make me sing You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything”

I don’t know why but slowly, I got up and walked closer to the scene as we stared at each other. Was it possible for this love story to last forever? Could this love we felt for each other never fade away or die?

“You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well And you light me up when you ring my bell You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space You’re my every minute of my everyday

And I can’t believe, uh, that I’m your man And I get to kiss you, baby, just because I can Whatever comes our way, oh, we’ll see it through And you know that’s what our love can do

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It’s you, it’s you; you make me sing You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It’s you, it’s you; you make me sing You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything You’re every song, and I sing along Cause you’re my everything Yeah, yeah

So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la So, la, la, la, la, la, la-la-la, la-la-la”

I didn’t scream when he was done but I heard all our friends do it. He jumped off the stage and cupped my face the way he had done it after playing the song he had written for me and when his wet lips met mine, my eyes fluttered close.

“It’s been six moths but I love you as much as I did back then, maybe even more.” he whispered, kissing me deeply again. “Definitely more.”

“Thank you, Niall.” I breathed out, swallowing hard as I felt myself tear up for the second time that day. “This day is perfect.”

“This day is not over.” he added, smiling more, the palms of his hands warming my already burning cheeks. “Happy birthday Olivia, I love you.”

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spaceysp · 3 years

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Saying random stuff to feed into the hyperfixations; pick one of these statements to rant about because I wanna read :)) if u want,

How skeppy must feel with everyone meeting up cause BaD JUST COME ON ,

Opinions on bad planning to take skeppy to dinner and all that jazz ,

Skeppys newest video on the skep channel where bad and skeppy are surprisingly sweet to eachother (and how lately in general bad has been less angee with him) ,

Literally the whole discount skeppy situation , bad being literally in love,

Ride with U,,,,,hetero,,,,explanation,,,, anywhere?

ANONNNNN I OWE YOU MY LIFE ILY

im literally going to talk about all of these so im sorry but read more at your own risk

one: skeppy, i am so sorry a mf does this to you. but seriously, i can only think of a few reasons (that dont sound entirely made for fanfic) that bad keeps putting off meeting skeppy

1. (the most unlikely) theyve already met and they keep the bit going so the fans dont find out. i can get that they wouldnt want to tell at first because its their own business, but i seriously doubt they would wait very long to confirm it, because ppl honestly can put a lot of pressure and hype on the meetup (esp with skeppy’s “surprise”) so i think theyd release something just so everyone knew that it finally happened! they didnt lie!

2. bad just doesnt want to meet skeppy (actually nvm this is the most unlikely)

bad seems to be genuinely excited to meet skeppy, even claiming skeppys the one to keep putting it off, not him (which skeppy immediately disproved but) and saying over and over he wants to meet up with him, but always avoiding actually making plans (every single tweet about the meetup) so its clear he does want to meet skeppy eventually, which makes trying to figure out why he wont even harder

3. its not the right time/ waiting for a specific date

leading up to this, i was thinking that there was a pretty good chance theyd meet up on their anniversary, but that never happened rip. the issue is with this is that they guaranteed they would meet up before the end of the year, and at this point theres only one “event” left, but they still dont seem to have any plans to meet. if bad was waiting for the perfect time to do it, why not just tell skeppy to confirm a meetup date? it would get him (and maybe the fans, if they told them) off his back. another variant of this is that there is a set date, but they havent told the public, but again, skeppy seems to be just as much in the dark about this as everyone else

4. health issues

bads apparently been feeling pretty under the weather lately, with his arm and kidney stones, its very plausible (and reccomended, imo) that bad doesnt want to travel when hes having these problems. of course, skeppy could visit, but he could either not want to spend their time together sick or the plans they have could also be too straining. i think this is probably one of the most likely atm, go see a doctor bbh im begging you

5. bads nervous

this is also one of the more plausible to me. for whatever reason, bads just anxious about it, whether it wont be the same as talking online, or be super awkward or whatever, he could just keep putting it off for that (its still weird and kinda doesnt make sense but in a more realistic way this time)

i know i totally went off track but this brings me to my point, skeppys kinda just waiting for bads confirmation at this point, so seeing his friends have fun meeting up is probably just lowkey depressing and i could see him using it as more the reason they should meet up. really the only thing he can do in this situation(at least, as far as i can tell) is what he has been doing, annoy bad about it or he take advantage of bads jealousy and meet up with someone else. the other option is to randomly come to his house, but it doesnt seem like skeppy is gonna do that, maybe to respect his boundaries? if he was planning on it i think he wouldve done it by now

OKAY NUMBER TWO LETS GO

this kinda ties into my point in the “reasons why bad wont meet skeppy” thing, that bad seems really excited to meet him yet still wont?? its clear he really values any time spent with skeppy, but he also make sure skeppys having a good time too! that why he never does any actual work with skeppy around (i.e. building statues or gathering materials for such), he knows its boring so instead theyll wander around the server telling stupid stories or punching each other off stairs for 20 minutes. im sure itll be the same irl, he mentioned wanting to meet somewhere like a nature reserve or amusement park, probably to make sure theres never a dull moment or time wasted. dinner seems much more low-key, and i wouldnt be surprised if bad just wanted to have an excuse to try and impress him with a nice totally-platonic date

NUMbeR tHree *airhorns*

they really do be the best of friends! ive noticed that skeppys def been trying to halt arguments fairly quickly now, saying a lot to appease bad and move on, and while bad seems to like to start fights for fun, hes also been a lot more chill lately, im guessing because hes been oh-so desperately missing skeppy and big s was also in Baby mode (aka if bad disagreed with him hed probably just cry until he got his way((sand))) i think that vid just showed them being a lot more natural and happy to talk (plus bad usually is more argumentative when theyre competing, while in that vid they were either just hanging out or working towards a common goal)

n u m b e r f o u r

where to even BEGIN with discount skeppy. well, bad actually first came up this idea a few months ago, in either july or august on an idots smp stream when he crafted an ‘artificial skeppy’ in his snack shack that he could talk to whenever skeppy was gone. as we all know idots smp is now rip, but the idea of replacement skeppys remained, just this time they can talk and also ship skephalo. it actually seemed like more of puffys idea at first when she put on skeppys skin as a joke, which bad didnt like the first few times, but when she brought it up again he actually requested it (missing skeppy brainrot 🤔?) this could be either cuz bad wanted to bait some shippers so gave in or he thought it was a pretty funny bit so went along with it (or he actually missed skeppy that much.. surely not ??) either way i think we can agree puffy is not only a comedic genius but a top tier friend and slight wingman, and getting some good jealous skeppy content out of it is also top tier. in conclusion, love and appreciate discount skeppy, badboyhalo has only skeppy on his brain and his friends have to deal with that, hoes (skeppy) mad even though the whole bit is how much bbh is into him

NUMBER FIVE im really doing all of them

What, can be said, about ride with u. GODDAMN. im not tryna insinuate anything, but if someone told me that song reminded them of me i would have no choice but to marry them immediately. i really really want someone to ask bad what songs remind him of any of his other friends (dream, sapnap, george, ant, puffy, etc.) because there are three options

1. theyre just cool platonic friend songs and bad is just in love with skeppy

2. he cant think of any songs for them and bad is just In Love with skeppy

3. they have equal romantic undertones and bad is just Like That with his friends (even so i bet people would be picking out the most minute differences between the songs that make one more.. You Know than the other)

i know FOR SURe that if i was in bads position (where even the person who made the lyric video assumed they were gay in love) i wouldve curled into a ball and never made another public appearance again, but he really owned that shit, singing it and making unprompted references to it (”i already have a bonnie” YOU AINT SLICK SIR WTF)

i just wanna know if skeppys listened to it (i mean, hes surely at least heard of it, i know he wouldve seen it all over his timeline) and what he thonks about it. pls tell us big s do you also feel the love in this chilis tonight (ALSO when is someone gonna ask skeppy what song reminds him of bad. im waiting ((hed probably say something like a faster remix or something equally memey (((unless???)))

ANYWAY SORRY FOR MAKING YOU READ ALL OF THAT HOLY SHIT i dont wanna reread this to check for errors so it might be incoherent but again ty for letting me infodump about this it was super fun im in love with you anon

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emo-does-things · 5 years

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To Reach A Journey’s End- A Soulmate AU

Authors’ note: hey folks!! so this is the first chapter of a collaboration that the amazing!!! @ace--writes and I have been working on. Basic premise here is that it’s going to be a kind of angsty kind of fluffy highschool soulmate AU.

We don’t know how america or a lot of things in general work, so if we get things wrong please let us know (i say to the void of no ppl who will read this lol)

Fandom: Sanders Sides

Relationships: eventual LAMP, background Remy/Emile

Summery:

Fate is like a braided cord, all woven up together.

Patton and Virgil have been best friends for years. Roman and Virgil are sure that their story is hate at first sight and nothing more. Logan is happy being alone... for the most part.

That's how things are, and how they’ll stay. Or, maybe not… Their stories are intertwined, not that they know it yet, and while fate might be pulling them together, their actions decide the path they follow, right to the journey’s end.

Chapters: two | three | Ao3 link

Warnings: None i don’t think, let us know if there any to include in the future

Words: 2993

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The first time that Virgil woke up, it was in a panic. He was a sweating and panting mess, and very quickly he couldn’t remember why. The nightmare just didn’t seem to stick. Soon enough, though, he managed to calm himself down, and when he looked at the time it was 3:47am. Not a time he needed to be awake at.

The second time Virgil woke up it was also a bad and inconvenient experience. His whole body was frozen, you know, like classic sleep paralysis. Eventually, after what felt like hours, he had managed to convince his weary body to get out of bed. He went to the bathroom, and returned to his room. It was 4:52am now, he still had another hour to sleep, at least. Not that it would help him all that much.

The last time that Virgil woke up that morning was to an irritating clinking, and obnoxious sipping sound. He groaned, rolling over and pulling his covers up over his head. Why couldn’t he have an alarm like normal kids?

There was an exaggerated sigh he knew all too well, “Sweetie, it’s time to get up.”

“No,” Virgil groaned. His body had tricked him enough times throughout the night that he couldn’t believe that it was time to get up yet.

“6:34am,” Came the smug reply, from somewhere outside the door “And, it’s a school day. You know, like the first one back?”

Shit. It was. In a world where he was a functioning human being, Virgil would have jumped from his bed and started getting ready as soon as he heard the door shut. This was not, however, that world, and so instead he sat up, and pulled himself from under the covers, with agonising slowness, not looking forward to the day at all.

Once he was out of the bed, however, the general anxiety kicked in and he was scrambling for his closet. He snatched whatever came to his hands first, all of which were black, and grabbed his favourite hoodie, which had been stitched up so many times it was just his aesthetic at this point, from the back of the chair where it had been left yesterday.

He left his room to see the bastard that woke him up leaning against the wall in all his extraness and glory. Remy had sunglasses atop his head, a straw to his lips, and a fake bored expression across his face as he scrolled through his phone.

“Morning,” Virgil sighed, although that didn’t stop a slight smile spreading across his face.

“What, not good morning?”

“Not when I have to wake up to your face, dad”

He didn’t think he’d ever get used to being woken up by Remy, no matter how many times it happened. He didn’t think he’d get used to Remy in general for that matter, from the extra aesthetic that he totally wasn’t jealous of at all too ridiculous caffeinated beverages.

Remy looked up and smiled, “Good morning to you too, babe. Here, iced tea because your father would kill me otherwise.”

He shoved his phone into his jacket pocket more smoothly than any human should be able to manage with a drink tucked into his elbow, before handing the travel mug of tea over.

Virgil grinned, amused, and took his drink, “The usual, yeah?”

“Of course,” Remy grinned and stood up properly, he was still so much taller than Virgil and it bugged him to no end, “What else would I get my favourite son?”

“I’m your only son.”

Remy only winked and made his way out of the room, with Virgil trailing behind.

Down the hall and to the left, Virgil noted for the billionth time through force of habit, as they arrived in the main living area. The living room, otherwise known as Remy’s domain, was to the right. The dining hall was directly in front of the end of the hallway. The kitchen and front door to the left, as per Virgil’s repetitive observations. He didn’t need to keep track of these things anymore. He’s been in the same house for four years, he knew the layout very well by now, but you know, old habits die hard and all that jazz.

Emile, Virgil’s other dad, was cooking breakfast. Though, cooking was a strong word for what he was doing. He was making toast and cereal.

Virgil sat down at his usual spot at the table and began on his cereal, knowing the toast would take another minute or two.

“Are you how?” Emile greeted with a bright smile, “Sleep well?”

“Only woke up twice,” Virgil replied, returning the smile, “Which I think is an improvement.”

Emile nodded briefly, but Virgil could still see the worry in his eyes. He couldn’t blame him though, Virgil and sleep weren’t usually a happy combination, and he still struggled to get anything close to a full night’s sleep in their home, even after all his time here.

Remy slipped into the kitchen, throwing an arm around his husband, and soulmate “What’s cooking, good looking?”

“Toast,” Emile replied with his usual grin, then an even brighter expression took over his features and Virgil braced himself, “So! I was thinking we could watch this new show, Amphibia together tonight! One of my clients is obsessed and I need to know all of their references.”

Remy laughed, and nodded, “Alright, but remember it's going to be a school night for Virgil now. First day back and all that.”

“Oh no!” Emile nearly wailed, “It is! I forgot!”

Virgil snorted, and looked up at his parents, “It’s fine. I can make it.”

“No, no, you don’t get enough sleep as it is, mister” Emile replied only half reprimanding, “We’ll have to wait until Friday. Ugh, school! Why!”

“Isn’t that my line?” Virgil grinned.

Emile smiled back, “It might be.”

Remy, seemingly satisfied with himself and his troublemaking, sat down at the table and waited for his own breakfast. Even though everyone in the house knew he was the better cook, everyone in the house also knew that it made Emile happy when he got to make anything for them, and Virgil was sure that Remy would eat burnt AND soggy toast and pretend to enjoy it if it made Emile happy.

They were fucking saps, the lot of them. And yet, Virgil quietly hoped that he would be in love like that when he finally met his soulmate.

If you have one, a thought growled. Ok, great, thanks, he thought back sarcastically.

“So, excited to go back to school, Virgil?” Emile asked, sliding plates of toast to each of them and joining them at the table.

Virgil looked up at his father with the closest thing to a combination of both a death glare and a pleading look, “Ha ha. Very funny. Yes, I’m very much looking forward to being surrounded by people again as part of my daily life. It’s going to be great.”

“Gurl, what has your father said about positive attitudes?” Remy asked between bites of the piece of toast he had smothered in jam.

“That I should like, have one, and stuff,” he mumbled into his cereal.

“It’s ok that you’re not looking forward to the whole experience Virgil, school is pretty tough. Can you tell me one thing you’re looking forward to doing as part of it, at least?” Emile asked.

Virgil was silent for a while, pushing his cereal around the bowel and thinking.

“I guess I’m looking forward to seeing Patton every day again, instead of just texting him and meeting up,” he said at last.

Remy and Emile both smiled at that.

“Good! Speaking of Patton, when is he coming over again Virgil, we miss our second son,” Emile immediately jumped at the opportunity to ask.

“He’s busy helping his mum and stuff, just like every other time you’ve asked me this holidays,” Virgil sighed.

“Who taught you that kind of sass, Virgil?” Remy asked, looking at him over the top of the dumb sunglasses he won’t take off.

Virgil gave him the single most deadpan look he’s ever managed, but Remy only grins back.

The conversation drifts after that, along with Virgil’s attention. He enjoys mornings like this with his dads, being able to listen to them talk about whatever, without having to pay too much attention to what’s actually being said, and just kind of wake up slowly.

It isn’t long, however, before he has to leave the table, double and triple-check his bag, and head to school. He doesn't want to. It’s loud, there’s too many people, too much stress and- well, just too much everything. And this year wasn’t going to be any better. Senior year, same shit as every other year but with the added bonus pressure that this is the last one, and his choices count now.

He waited out the front of the school, checking his phone and trying not to look too shifty as most other students went straight through.

“There you are, you sneaky Vixen! Did you think you could slip past me on the first day back?” Patton grinned as he crushed Virgil into a hug.

“Opposite, actually. We agreed to meet here. Over text. Yesterday,” Virgil wheezed from the force of Patton’s hug.

“Well, I’m sorry! It’s just been so long since I’ve seen you!” Patton finally let him go.

“I saw you last week, and you have a standing invitation to visit my house. Pat, this is not that big a deal.”

“Oh, hush you, let me be excited!”

As they finally walked inside along with everyone else, Patton chattering happily in his ear, and smiling widely, Virgil made a prediction. Well, two predictions actually, and they went something like this: One, Patton was going to be the only good thing about the day, and two, everything else was going to range from bearably boring to straight-up awful.

Homeroom was the first example of straight-up awful. The teacher despised Virgil specifically, but then again, it went both ways. Attitude problems and anxiety meant he ranged from ignoring the teacher entirely, or if he was feeling up to it, sassing her, which was not something that usually got you in a teacher’s good books. At least he shared the class with Patton.

History was fine, well, that was one word for it. Boring, and uneventful were more accurate ones. The teacher droned on, and the clock ticked at a snail’s pace. At least the class wasn’t overwhelming, he supposed.

Then there was English.

Now, Virgil was actually kind of looking forward to English, in fact it was his favourite subject. The teacher was bubbly and excitable, to say the least, but Mr Terrence was always sure to keep the content open-ended.

Unlike most teachers, he welcomed alternate interpretations of what they covered, from dark and gritty to overly romanticised and fickle. As long as you could back up what you were saying he didn’t mind what you actually said. Well, as long as it wasn’t something that could get you sent to the counselor, because he did also do that when he was concerned about students. So overall, Virgil considered himself lucky to have him as a teacher for two years in a row.

He also considered himself lucky that their first topic this year would be Shakespeare. Virgil liked Shakespeare. He wasn’t certain why half the time. Maybe it was the sinister themes to the stories, or the dick jokes, maybe it was how easily you could read queer representations into it, especially with the all the plotlines that dealt with same-gendered soulmates.

Whatever it was, Virgil liked it. He liked Shakespeare.

“Macbeth was clearly about the inevitability of fate, everyone that argues that it’s about ambition and human nature are nihilists who don’t see the good in the world.”

He did not, however, like his classmates. Reason number one being statements like that.

He didn’t like more than a few of the other people in his class, but he had already figured that out in years prior, and gotten very used to disliking them. Now there was someone new, catching the class’ attention with his controversial statements.

Virgil could see that the guy was clearly new, and a perfect example of everything he gave a firm ‘no’ in the likeability collum.

From his put-together style, perfect hair and ripped jeans to his red, and white jacket with gold cuffs, this boy oozed ‘popular’ energy. Virgil felt a scowl cross his features just thinking about it.

The moment he’d seen… all that… Virgil had already known he wouldn’t like him. Hate at first sight if you will.

On top of that, he had opened his mouth because you know, class discussions about the meaning of the plays, and Virgil realised that he somehow got worse.

“What are you even talking about?” Virgil found himself arguing before he could stop it, “Macbeth is clearly about ambition and power, not to mention a warning against reaching above your station, like consider your historical context. If Shakespeare was going to make a commentary on inevitability then he would have had soul bonds actually play a role in the plot. In fact, the fact that Lady Macbeth and Macbeth weren’t soulmates supports the idea that the play is about choices rather than inevitability.”

English was usually the class he felt comfortable speaking up in, but it didn’t usually result in the whole class staring at him. They don’t usually care. Fuck, they must like this new kid already, and he’d just basically attacked him before he even knew his name.

The guy was staring at him, wide-eyed, as though he really hadn’t expected to be challenged.

“That’s a very interesting analysis Virgil,” Mr Terrence said, smiling, “Roman, do you have a refute?”

Oh FUCK, Mr Terrence was going to make them debate it. He usually liked this part of his classes- it was a chance to argue his points without it being a ‘presentation’ and with less repercussions if he was right and someone else looked stupid. Today, though, he just knew that it would not end well.

Roman, it seemed the guy’s name was, looked a little shocked both at what Virgil had said and at Mr Terrance enabling the argument.

“Well, uh,” He stumbled for a moment, but then the shining confidence that he seemed to just radiate clicked back into place, “Well, I didn’t expect anything less from the guy who looks like his ringtone is still set to “Welcome to the Black Parade”, but that doesn't mean you’re right! The fact that soulmates aren’t a big thing in Macbeth is because it’s a tragedy, not because of the lack of fate thing. It's a significant trend in all his tragedies, except for Romeo and Juliet. The popular theory here is of course that he was saying that ignoring your soulmate and choosing someone else is fated to make an unhealthy relationship and unhappy lives, like Macbeth and Lady Macbeth. ”

Oh, so he actually knew some things about the play. That also didn’t mean he was right.

Mr Terrance said nothing, looking at Virgil, waiting for his response. Great.

“That's one of the possible theories, sure. But it’s just that, a theory. It doesn't mean you're right either. He uses soulmates just like any other literary device in his plays, and you said yourself, Romeo and Juliet is a tragedy despite the fact they were soulmates. And in twelfth night, Viola and Olivia were soulmates, but they couldn’t be together because that wasn’t how soulmates worked then, and you know, homophobia, so they could only be friends, and that was still considered a happy ending, so yeah, tell me how not ending up with your soulmate was always awful in his plays and not why Macbeth is about fate, one trick wonder,” Virgil argued, more passionately than he ever had in English before.

“Ok, fine then!” Roman jumped in before Mr Terrance could do anything to mediate, not that he seemed like he would. “If you need more evidence. The witches!”

Virgil waited for him to continue. He didn’t.

“Is that it? Is that your whole point, “The witches”? Damn, and I thought you might actually be worth debating...” Virgil sighed.

He got a disapproving look from Mr Terrance for that one, but he didn’t really care.

“Oh I’m sorry Mr Doom and Gloom, I thought that maybe you were smart enough to figure out what I meant by that, but if you need me to spell it out for you-” Roman started, all bravado and large gestures again, despite the look he was now getting from the teacher

“Oh can it Prince not-so-charming, I knew what you meant by saying that, I just thought you could bring up arguments that haven't been repeated over and over. “Oh the witches represent fate” “no they were just manipulating him” and so on and so on. Forgive me if I thought you might just be able to manage something above the bare minimum,” Virgil snarked.

“I think that is quite enough,” said Mr Terrance, finally interrupting them with a look, “You have both made some very interesting points, but insulting each other is not the way to continue this debate. Instead, I would like both of you to put together a detailed list of evidence to support your argument for next week, which you can do in place of the standard homework, considering you clearly have a good understanding of the text already.”

Virgil scowled a little at Roman, but nodded. He wasn’t actually particularly upset. These debate assignments Mr Terrence gave out were actually quite fun most of the time, and far more enjoyable to him than the actual homework that covered plot and characters and all the basic stuff.

“Now,” Said Mr Terrence, addressing the rest of the class again, “Let’s move on.”

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tags :P @jellopuffs

#sanders sides #tssides #fanfic #writing #emo writes things #collaboration #sanders sides virgil #sanders sides roman #sanders sides patton #sleep/remy #dr emile picani #background remile #LAMP #polyamsanders #soulmate a #highschool au #human au #an emo original

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kyosohmastan · 4 years

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I’m bored out of my mind cuz of mandatory isolation so here’s a tag that no one asked for. 😂 A nice way to get to know me I guess!

1. What’s your favorite candle scent?

I like almost all scents. My favorite to narrow it down are cinnamon and clean sheets.

2. What female celebrity do you wish was your sister?

Taylor Swift, obviously, if you know me ya know lol

3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother?

Idk, Channing Tatum? Hahahah

4. How old do you think you’ll be when you get married?

That’s something I can’t predict. Hopefully before I’m 40 so I got a little under 20 years 🤷‍♀️

5. Do you know a hoarder?

Yes

6. Can you do a split?

7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike?

About 3

8. How many oceans have you swam in?

At least 2

9. How many countries have you been to?

10. Is anyone in your family in the army?

11. What would you name your daughter if you had one?

Avril. Because Avril Lavigne and I love her 🎵

12. What would you name your son if you had one?

Y’all are gonna think I’m real obsessed due to this answer but Kyo 😂

13. What’s the worst grade you got on a test?

Probably an F ngl

14. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child?

Spongebob or The Simpsons

15. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight?

I’ve never celebrated Halloween

16. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series?

I’ve read The Hunger Games and Twilight

17. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent?

Who wouldn’t want a British accent?

18. Did your mother go to college?

She went to medical school. Isn’t in the medical field now tho.

19. Are your grandparents still married?

Both sets are/were divorced

20. Have you ever taken karate lessons?

21. Do you know who Kermit the frog is?

Yes 🐸

22. What’s the first amusement park you’ve been to?

I think Disneyland

23. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in?

ASL (Used to be fluent but I forgot most of it), Spanish because it’d be useful, and Japanese ofc.

24. Do you spell the color as grey or gray?

Grey

25. Is your father bald?

Yes lol. He had hair when I was a baby.

26. Do you know triplets?

27. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook?

I’ve only seen Titanic

28. Have you ever had Indian food?

Yes

29. What’s the name of your favorite restaurant?

Olive Garden 🥖

30. Have you ever been to Olive Garden?

Lmao I just indirectly answered that

31. Do you belong to any warehouse stores (Costco, BJ’s, etc.)?

32. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender?

I can’t remember if my parents ever told me what they would’ve named me if I’d been a boy but (and TMI) they almost named me Cozumel because I was conceived on the beach on that island and I was like THANK GOD YOU DIDNT omg.

33. If you have a nickname, what is it?

Mady. My mom calls me Mads.

34. Who’s your favorite person in the world?

Kyo Sohma. Jk lmao. My parents tbh.

35. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs?

Suburbs. I don’t like being far away from town.

36. Can you whistle?

Nope

37. Do you sleep with a nightlight?

Not since I was little

38. Do you eat breakfast every morning?

Not every morning. Eating early makes me queasy.

39. Do you take any pills or medication daily?

Yes

40. What medical conditions do you have?

No physical conditions. I have depression, social anxiety, and basically generalized anxiety.

41. How many times have you been to the hospital?

Twice

42. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo?

Random but yes

43. Where do you buy your jeans?

I rarely wear jeans. If I do I get them cheap like at Target.

44. What’s the last compliment you got?

“You look nice” via my mother lol.

45. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning?

For like five minutes then my brain will be like “what dream?”

46. What flavor tea do you enjoy?

Cinnamon

47. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own?

About five. But I have more in storage.

48. What religion will you raise your children to practice?

I was raised as a Jehovah’s Witness so I’ll most likely raise my kids the same way if I have any.

49. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real?

I’ve always known he was fake.

50. Why do you have a youtube?

I didn’t realize this was a YouTube tag until now but I do YouTube so it works haha. I do it because I love making and editing videos and I love talking to ppl about the topics I’m passionate about like anime and Fruits Basket!

#tag #about me tag #personal

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aprillikesthings · 4 years

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Thoughts on praying. (Well, actually; on a lot of subjects, that’s just one of them, lol)

(behind a readmore for ppl who’d prefer to skip this kind of thing)

Praying is a weird thing, for me.

The fact is--I’m coming back to some kind of faith after...hm. Fourteen years of atheism? I missed religion and especially ritual, and would openly admit that in conversation if it came up. I was, in fact, a practicing Wiccan for a good year or two after realizing I didn’t believe in any kind of divinity anymore. I only left my coven after it became less important to me and I kept skipping rituals in favor of things like group bicycle rides (the drunken party kind, at night with loud music).

I started going to church again because I missed singing Christmas music. But I went to a “liturgical” church because I knew I wanted something ritual-heavy; old-fashioned in form but liberal in spirit. (An ELCA church would probably have been just as good; but I didn’t know about them--just that I couldn’t do a Catholic church and Episcopal was the closest thing I knew of that was affirming of LGBT people.)

And here I go bumping up against this again--this church fits me so well, the people in it are so good, the priest is fantastic; I keep finding out she’s friends with liberal Christian authors like Nadia Bolz-Weber and Rachel Held Evans--and it feels like fate. I mean, the first time I walked up to the building, I was greeted by a rainbow flag with parts of my fave Bible verse on it. (It’s on our nametags, too.) That might as well have been a flag saying “Hey April, this is the place for you.”

But do I believe in fate? Or destiny, or my life being guided by god? I don’t know. I still think the idea is hard to believe when so many people’s lives are shit through no fault of their own.

Anyway: prayer.

When I pray, who the fuck am I even talking to? I sometimes do feel like someone is listening. But so many people have prayed over the years and not felt like anyone heard them; so many people have poured out their hearts to god and gotten jack squat in response. It feels incredibly presumptuous to think Jesus is listening to me and not them.

But I do it anyway.

As I’ve mentioned, the Episcopal church is a liturgical one; they’re big on things like set prayer formats. The Book of Common Prayer (BCP, which I still sometimes misread as “birth control pills”), in some version or another, unites the entire Anglican Communion and is only changed very slowly over many years of arguing; some of the prayers in it have barely changed since the 1500′s. There’s a little wiggle room for each congregation, but step into any Episcopal church in the United States and the basic structure will be the same between them every Sunday: the readings from the lectionary, chanting a psalm, passing the peace, the Eucharist--there’s only a few versions of the Eucharist given in the BCP.

And I do like the set prayers. As I’ve mentioned, sometimes the collect for a given day feels really apropos. Sometimes the ones we do in church feel aimed directly at my own heart, and there I am feeling strangely exposed by words hundreds of thousands of people will be saying that same morning.

But I’ve also started, in my own uneven way, to do personal prayer. I’ve leaned heavily on Nicole Cliff’s essay called How I Pray that she wrote for The Toast (RIP), not long after her conversion. Her daily prayer comes down to (my own summation):

1. A rote prayer such as Our Father to separate this time from the rest of the day 2. Fearless moral inventory! What could I have done better? Where did I fuck up? (For Nicole this includes sometimes stopping prayer to go and apologize.) 3. Gratitude! 4. Ask for things I want 5. Pray for other people

And as Nicole points out, you don’t have to believe in anything at all for this kind of private reflection to be useful. Many books have been written about daily gratitude practice, for instance. She noted that taking the time to be grateful for her husband every day has improved her relationship with him, and that makes sense.

Nicole says her fave part, by far, is praying for other people; and honestly? That’s my fave thing as well. I did not expect that. And while I do keep a running list (in a private just-me discord server), frequently edited, of people I’m praying for on the regular so I don’t forget; I find myself doing it all the time at random during the day. I will see someone’s post on twitter talking about something hard in their life, and I’ll pray for them. A coworker will mention that they’re having trouble finding stable housing, and I’ll pray for them.

(To my eternal amusement--when I pray for people I know through fandom, I usually end up using their fandom name, not their real one; even if I know it! I figure God knows who I mean.)

They’re usually not eloquent prayers. Sometimes it’s more of a feeling than words--a weird fuzzy ball of compassion that grows and moves through me. Sometimes it feels like I’m a toddler tugging on God’s sleeve to get their attention and then wordlessly pointing at someone. Look, look! This person needs you.

And sometimes I find it difficult to pray to big-G God outside of the set prayers. Sometimes I can only do it if I’m praying to Mary. (Episcopal opinions on Mary devotion vary a great deal; from folks who pray the Rosary, to folks who think it’s Papist Bullshit.) Mary is easier. And she can pass things along. Praying to Jesus still feels intimidating to me sometimes, so I talk to his mom instead. I feel like I can be less formal with her.

I’m not going to claim this is making me an amazing person. But I do think that, whether or not anyone or anything is listening, taking a few seconds to pay attention and actively feel compassion towards other people is helping me be kinder. Sometimes. I just started, y’know, give me time.

#my life #anne lamott has a book (that I haven't read yet but it's on the list lol)#that says all prayer is some variation on three things: Help! Thanks! and Wow!#and tbh she's right

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goldenhour-goldenboy · 5 years

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Also, like, Pope would be the most skilled out of them all to handle drunk reader. Don’t even argue with me on this.

Like Fish’s sweet and fine and caring but he’s seen to much with shit faced Benny/Pope to get worry? about you? which results in him mainly replying with “Ah, they’ll be alright” to almost every situation ever.

And Will, although trying his hardest to stay away from your sick self as much as possible, would of course feel obliged to help you get through the night and into bed without hurting yourself or anyone around you but he’d do so with the most grim expression ever and you can be dead sure he’ll hold that over your head for the next 4-5 years.

And Ben ... well, Ben would try for 0.25 seconds before deciding that it’s way funnier to watch you struggle and mostly can’t help you anyway bc, you guessed it, he’s just as drunk. Also, Ben’s not really the most patient when it comes to ppl in general and drunken ppl are just a whole other level on annoying.

But Pope, oh, this is his moment to shine. Whatever you’re going through rn, chances are he’s been there, done that or at least has someone helped through a similar time of crisis and is more than calm and ready, altho amused, to help you get yourself together. He’d be so patient with you and your rambling and stumbling over both your words and feet and so forgiving when you’d cry on his shirt or ask him to pull over bc you have to throw up again and once you both made the journey home he’d be damn sure to get you a glass of water and some pills for the next morning for your headache, tucking you in once he’s changed you out of your old clothes and thrown your hair up in a make shift bun (he’s also one of Maria’s fav uncles to do her hair, thank you very much) and he’d just be the sweetest ever, don’t ask me why I thought about that.

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96xie · 4 years

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2019

a whole summary of this difficult year

2019 was full of unexpected good and bad surprises along with lessons and experiences.

january

spent good time with mocha, wayo and brian

had such a good time with guildies from our game

met up with some other ppl from the same game and didnt feel too good bc i was never good with crowds and/or groups that were already well established

tried tinder for the first time because i thought it would be nice to put myself out there for once

feburary

continued my tinder journey and actually had fun with it. it was pretty scary at the same time because it was such a new experience talking to other people and to have them notice you? because i always knew and felt that i wasnt really the desirable one.

actually hooked up with a guy from last months meetup and hung out twice. thought it was going somewhere because he, too, showed signs to progress further ((was wrong because he lied and showed red flags later))

one major red sign to me: no response after genuinely saying thank you for rides and dinner. im the type of person who always says thank you because im honestly grateful for the little and big things. he basically shrugged it off.

also, a huge liar. yah, big no

i brought him to my friends birthday bc they and himself wanted to meet each other, it was fun while it lasted but stuff happened

towards the end of the month, i cut my ties off with him for being awfully mean to me and also cut ties with my “friends” for having really bad assumptions of me.

i was frustrated with myself at that time bc his cats gave me a bad breakout and i felt super ugly. also i wasnt sad over him, but over the fact that i let myself be treated like a second option. eventually i learned that it was good that i didnt let things go further and that i only deserve the very best.

even though i was hurt, i thought it was a good experience, esp since i havent really been in the “dating game” for years. like it was a just a small step to putting myself out there once again

a week later after that a classmate asked me out and got tons of compliments from him and wondered “the universe really works in crazy ways”

march

met some cool people through the same mobile game on a discord server and they were much better than the first group.

also met this really funny dude in the same group. like he was so fun to talk to and he understood my dumb lingo

remember when my classmate asked me out on a date? it turned out a bit weird. but considering this was my first date in YEARS i thought it was a cool experience. got some carne asada fries outta him

i had the dude i was talking to call me so i could leave the date tho LOL ((he helped me lots, esp how to deal with awkward situations with my classmate. also at this point, i really liked talking to him but i wasnt rly sure if i wanted to date other guys bc i had been hurt previously)

this month was pretty much dedicating most of my time talking to him and i enjoyed it alot

also went to pubs for the first time to hangout with my coworkers. such an interesting place

april

tried rollerskating for the first time ever, ended up with a bunch of bruises but it was cool!

also tried 7leaves for the first time and instantly fell in love with mungbean

also went clubbing in sf with my friends and it was such a fun time like i had SO much fun

i got auctioned off of SAD! that phase was just a crazy ride. while there was many that dm’d me, there was only one special person that i only replied to and continued to talk to him on a daily basis

((honestly, i was scared that i was taking things a bit further with him because a part of me was like “are you ready for this?” and “have you really recovered from that guy?” or “can you give this guy your all?” just alot of overthinking))

spent 4/20 at sf with my friends, and overall had a GREAT time. took too many hits and drank so ya gorl was crossfaded. not sure if i wanna do tht again tho

unfortunately woke up with a swollen face and it lasted for a LONG time.

may

so my face is still swollen, still bad, red as a tomato and at this point i was really hesitant to meet up with the guy ive been talking to. i mean!! my skin was SO bad. i felt like i was gonna make a fool out of myself by scaring him away

but,,,, he was still willing to see me despite my appearance and : ( he was so accepting and typing this makes my heart ache bc he is SUCH a good man : (

i met up with the guy towards the end of the month in sj and first thing he does when i walk up to him is give me this great warm hug and so many smooches !!!!!!! like my heart is melting

eventually we became official !!! he got us an airbnb for the night and we jus spent time cuddling on the bed and honestly i : ( i like him so much

june

my birthday wasnt rly that like “wow” it was actually kinda annoying

my bf flew up to sf where we met up, explored the city and slept the night in at an airbnb. next day went to oakland where i introduced my friends to him!

went to my first festival with several with my friends, including ppl from our same guild from our game and it was SO fun

rolled for the first time and it was SUCH an experience. redosed like twice and ended up hallucinating which is something ill def not do again

also i really wished my bf was with me at that time : ( while i had an extremely fun time, i wish i shared that moment with him : (

july

went to vegas for my cousins 22nd bday. shit was wild

also rolled there.

also threw up for the very first time

a fight broke out at the club and that shit was fuckgin CRAZY and it was RIGHT next to our table

also used alot of my money for the whole trip in which nobody really told me about so …. i was like ok.. fuck …

also my skin was still bad during these past months so it was pretty hard masking it

like really hard. with someone with terrible eczema, its just extremely hard to hide it

august

bf flew to sac!!! he met my mom for the first time and we explored the city and stuff

and went on an ikea date! and! honestly i just really loved spending time with him :c

we also spent time with my friends! they came over also! and ate some fuckgin bomb ass waffles

and then took bus down to la to meetup with some friends from our guild towards the end of the month!

it was pretty nice to be able to stay with my bf in his apartment !!!!!

also some scalding tea but thats rly for another time

to make it super short tho: our friend that we’ve known much longer than the girl he met (less than 3 months) dropped our friendship SO quick lol

september

cousin bonding @ beach, too cold for tht doe

towards the end of the month, my bf flew me down!!! so i spent the weekend with him and like always, only had a good time with him!

AND ALWAYS EATING GOOD FOOD!

october

during this fall semester, i took online classes and one of them was a 8week class. there was a topic about mental health and how we can take care of ourselves better and i just thought it was such an important thing to cover. i feel like its not talked about enough

november

spent thanksgiving with my family down in morgan hill and ate good food! honey ham has a special place in my heart.

went black friday shopping first at walmart, lowkey disappointed in myself because i was bummed out the apple watches were sold out. the materialistic part of me jumped out oof

slept at my cousins then went to the mall! didnt get anything besides really good bulgogi fries. i hated going into stores tho cuz everything was literally crowded. hated it !!!!!!!

went to a small festival in sacramento with my friends at the end of the month and this time is 7 of us (than the usual 5)! it was sososo fun.

also took my coworker with me, it was actually amusing to see bc our group were all asian and he’s the only tall white guy

made hotpot at home and we also went out for milktea and waffles again! sooo good.

december

flew down to see my bf again and only had a good time! went to this garden with beautiful lights and ! ugh! SO pretty!

cried in his bed before my flight back, cried on the plane, cried at home and cried before i slept. i miss him

also racked up alot of hours so i could pay for my tuition and my family’s bills. kinda sucks bc im pretty tired but i gotta do what do i gotta do.

christmas was a bit lonely bc my mom went to the philippines and i dont rly talk to my brother but my kuya came the next day and we ate n watched stuff

overall, it was a whacky year. but im so glad to have met ed. he means SO much to me. a part of me was so hesitant to date him because i mean, he’s man with his life set. i dont have a car, im still in school, i have this part time job where im giving my mom all my paychecks and which the only money im keeping is just my tips (not much), i still have issues with myself and other conflicts and honestly theres much to do, learn and grow from. but he’s so supportive, understanding and loving and i love and appreciate him from the bottom of my heart. most of the time i wonder if im doing and if im being enough for him. i worry about that alot but he’s so patient with me. i laugh alot when im with him and i feel so happy.

did i mention that we are long distance? him being in la and me in sacramento. so the only thing thats connecting us is facetime. maybe once every two months will i see him in person but yep. when i had my first panic attack, i really wanted him right next to me. at that moment i felt even more sad because of course you’re gonna want you’re significant other during a moment like that. but anyways, i always miss him and i always want him next to me and i always love him. i want to hurry up and get my education done with so i can be with him. not to sound like omg im so madly infatuated with him type of thing tho. he’s someone who understands me and knows how to love me.

i hope 2020 treats me well despite all the challenges ahead of me.

#phew #old mutuals im on twtr! keep in contact with me there!

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crossroadsimagine · 5 years

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Can I have a Naruto matchup pls? I’m a straight female, 5’7”, 15, (so someone around my age pls thnx x) w/ long dark auburn hair & blue eyes. I’m fiery, blunt, sarcastic, protective & v/ loyal. I’m v/dense to ppls feelings for me. I love roasting ppl & using witty comebacks to insults. I have a short-temper (but good control) & use comebacks instead of yelling. I hate crying in front of ppl it makes me feel I’m looking for attention so I keep it in til I’m somewhere private & let it out. (1/4)😂

👻 Matched with Shikamaru

Shikamaru takes a rather passive interest in you at first because he is not one to fall head over heels for anyone and he will develop feelings for you slowly over time, it could be a matter of weeks, months or even years depending on how much time the two of you spend around each other. Because he will not push to spend time around you especially if you don’t seem all that interested in being around him, he can fall for you faster if you show an interest or curiosity in him whether in a romantic way or not.

Your fiery, blunt and sarcastic attitude is what will initially draw his attention to you, he doesn’t really like to be bossed around or told what to do but it’s something he’ll respond to every time. The fact that you enjoy roasting people, and can come up with witty comebacks to his sarcasm can have the same affect and pull him in more, your short temper can also scare or intimidate him slightly to the extent that he feels more compelled to respond to you.

When he does choose to ask you out he can actually seem rather nervous or shaken, simply because he will have taken the time to have developed a friendship with you first and the longer the two of you have known each other and been friends the more nervous he will be to ask you out. So, it will be pretty obvious that something’s wrong and he’s not acting normally when he goes to ask you out, so you can easily pick up on the fact that something’s not right.

But as soon as he asks you out and you agree to go out with him, he will go back to normal and won’t really seem nervous or awkward around you anymore though he can still seem a little uncomfortable with affectionate acts too early in the relationship but he will come around pretty quickly. You are very loyal and protective especially of those you are close to like your family and friends, doing anything it takes to protect and keep them safe.

You don’t even particularly care about what people may say about you but you won’t stand for people talking bad about your loved ones. Shikamaru is very loyal as well and while he is protective, he can be more level headed because he typically won’t get too riled up if someone talks badly of a loved one, though he can at times particularly depending on the person. But he can be sensible about the situation because if he feels like the person who is talking badly of a loved one isn’t worth the time he won’t respond, and will encourage you not to react either.

However, unless he feels like you could be in danger he won’t stop you from defending your loved ones because he’s actually very confident that when it comes to insults and comebacks you can hold your own, and can probably tear someone apart with words if you wanted to. But if things were to get physical or serious, he will step in to protect you or break things up because he really won’t like having to fight or take things to a physical scuffle unless it can’t be avoided.

He is a very good listener and pays very close attention to detail which means he knows a LOT about you because he really listens to you when you speak even though he may not always seem the most attentive. He’s supportive and comforting to you as well but he will not push or pressure you to open up to him, if you don’t want to open up or talk to him that’s okay, he’ll understand. You do have low self-esteem, low self-confidence and hate crying in front of people and don’t like to talk about your insecurities, which he won’t press you to talk about anything you don’t want to.

He is encouraging in general though because he does want you to feel comfortable talking with him if you want to, but he will also give you plenty of space and alone time if that’s what you need or want. He won’t want to confront you or make things awkward if you are upset or crying, doesn’t mean he won’t be concerned about you but he tends to give you space at least initially.

Kind of letting you cry and get your frustrations out alone before coming to you or asking if you are alright, because he will learn that you don’t like crying in front of him. You do have a very good sense of humor and you are very open minded as well; he does appreciate your humor and sarcasm and actually finds it pretty cute when you tease him or even insult him. He is really laid back and fairly lazy and doesn’t really care to go out a lot, especially doesn’t like to go out to busy or crowded areas but will occasionally.

You also enjoy daydreaming, listening to music and reading which he also enjoys and will like sharing music and books with you or reading the same book and talking about it after each chapter or so. He’s not very active but he does like going for walks with you or even going out for lunch or dinner from time to time, whether just the two of you or out with friends.

You do like singing and he will like listening to you sing but also won’t ask for you to sing in front of him or for him, he’ll also occasionally compliment you usually for your skills or talents but not too frequently because he’ll want his compliments and praise to be genuine and for you to feel like they are genuine. And he’ll feel like they won’t feel as genuine if he compliments you often, plus you do tend to become flustered by compliments so he can worry that they make you uncomfortable or that you don’t really like compliments.

He is very understanding and comforting of your insecurities and fears if or when you do open up or talk to him about things like this, he’ll try his best to help or comfort you however he can whenever he can.

You do enjoy Halloween to some extent though it’s not as though you go overboard for it, which is fine because neither will he and in fact if it wasn’t for you, he probably wouldn’t do anything for the holiday. He won’t mind Halloween decorations and can find them a bit amusing or cute but really comes across as pretty passive and neutral about Halloween.

You will go to small Halloween parties though particularly ones hosted by friends and nothing with too many people involved, which he’s not against going to either though he’s not exactly enthusiastic about it either. You like dressing up though nothing revealing which is perfectly alright with him especially if you’re going anywhere because he won’t exactly approve of a revealing costume.

He is open to the idea of dressing up for Halloween but won’t go all out for a costume either and he is also fine with some kind of matching costumes with you. But generally, he won’t feel too compelled to wear a costume unless the two of you are going to a Halloween party because he won’t see the point, but he won’t want to be the odd ball out by going to a Halloween party and not wearing a costume.

He is also open to walking around with kids who are family members or friends’ children for trick or treating, but far more content with staying in one place and being the one to hand out candy for trick or treaters.

Overall he is very level headed and supportive and will be there for you no matter the circumstances and no matter what happens, he believes the two of you can over come anything as long as the two of you are together because he really doesn’t see a future without you once he falls in love with you.

👻 Headcanons between you two

🎃 Doesn’t mind PDA but also prefers to keep things more mild and subtle just hugs and holding hands when the two of you are out in public, but he also won’t object to more than that especially depending on the situation. He is far more likely to instigate affectionate acts when the two of you are alone.

🎃 Tends to only really like Halloween for the candy and will not appreciate anyone trying to scare him, though he is VERY difficult to actually scare or even startle. But even so he won’t object to something like going to a haunted house or such if that’s something you want to do, and he can walk through a haunted house relatively unphased.

🎃 When cuddling or being affectionate with you he enjoys cuddling with you lying down, in bed or even lying on the couch or the floor. Enjoying cuddling when the two of you are watching movies or reading together, in fact he can enjoy having laid back dates at home and playing games, watching movies and cuddling.

🎃 Will like more traditional type Halloween costumes like vampires, werewolves, monsters, Frankenstein, story book characters etc. And will also prefer to go as something at least a little spooky or scary rather than something that isn’t scary at all because he will associate Halloween with scary things.

#Naruto #Match up #Halloween Match up #Naruto match up #Shikamaru Nara #Shikamaru #Shikamaru Match up

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gayoongles · 5 years

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50 questions tag

I was tagged by @mikrokosyoongs thank u bb🥺💘 1. What takes up too much of your time? currently studying + final projects😪 but usually my time is spent trying to keep up w all my kpop boys (mostly bts) hfudsihf

2. What makes your day better? listening to music, playing my cello, talking to my friends, n rugby 3. What’s the best thing to happen to you today? BLACK HAIRED TAE IS BACK (im still not over it bye) AND I GOT BTS TIX

4. What fictional place would you like to go to? uhhhh idk? maybe the hp universe but ngl I havent watched/read much lately that takes place in a historical setting besides got and I know for sure I dont wanna b there hfdjhf

5. Are you good at giving advice? I like to think I am but idk

6. Do you have any mental illness? sadly yeah😣

7. Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? no, thank fuck. id fr die 8. What musician inspired you the most? yoongi, min yoongi, suga, syub, the love of my life, and kim namjoon

9. Have you ever fallen in love? wish I cld say no hahah but

10. What’s your dream date? idk I dont rly have one hfudshf I like amusement parks a lot but also cuddling sounds like an AMAZING date idea

11. What do others notice about you? ppl always comment on my hair (bc I always have it dyed) and my height first so I guess those fhiusdfhi, personality wise tho, that im v quiet

12. What is an annoying habit you have? biting my nails. I try so hard every day to not but it ends up happening anyway

13. Do you still talk to your first love? no, thankfully

14. How many exes do you have? 5 and all of them ended up sucking yeet😛

15. How many songs are in your playlist? idk bc I have like 7483758 playlists

16. What instruments can you play? cello! and a bit of ukulele but I havent picked it up in a while so im probably rusty

17. What do you have the most pictures of? bts, but out of all of them probably jm or yoongi

18. Where would you like to go before you die? everywhere, but mostly Europe Australia and Asia

19. What is your zodiac? ima go deep bc why not so: leo sun cap moon aries rising. feel free to roast me in my asks abt that idk

20. Do you relate to it? my zodiac? lmao my sun no but my moon for sure

21. What is happiness to you? music.

22. Are you going through anything right now? umm stress bc finals r in like a week but other than that no not particularly. I did just get out of a rly bad like month, almost 2 month long depressive episode tho so its been rough bouncing back from that bc I got behind on a LOT of work bc of it

23. What’s the worst decision you ever made? not a specific decision but I trusted too easily in the past and it always hurt me

24. What’s your favorite store? I dont rly shop that much in specific stores ngl, maybe line friends tho? it was a rly cute store when I visited last month :(

25. What’s your opinion on abortion? your body, your decision. no one elses

26. Do you keep a bucket list? nah, theres things I wanna do but idc enough to write them down or keep track or anything

27. Do you have a favorite album? persona, lys tear, and dark and wild r so so superior dont @ me I won't change my mind

28. What do you want for your birthday? hfidshfi not 2 b that bitch but I always only ask for money

29. What are most people’s first impression of you? that I’m really quiet and reserved. also that im fucking short

30. What age do you seem according to most people? I got mistaken as 12 once when I was 18 but recently idk, maybe 17? probably not much younger now since I go to college

31. Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? next to me on my bed bc I always end up falling asleep while on it

32. What word do you say the most? yoongi or some curse word probably

33. What’s the oldest age you would date? 22 or 23? idk I havent rly thought of it much. except id date hyung line for sure if they fucking asked, screw age preferences in that case.

34. What’s the youngest age you would date? 18 since im only 19 lmao

35. What job/career do most people say would suit you? anything music related

36. What’s your favorite music genre? any varying kind of rock except most metal (alt, indie, classic, etc.), pop (and that included kpop), and hip hop

37. If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? um? tbh I like New York but uhh any country that it’s legal to be lgbtq+ in since my trans gay ass wldnt thrive anywhere that it’s illegal obvi

38. What is your current favorite song? dionysus and home and also bonfire by childish gambino

39. How long have you had this blog for? I dont know tbfh, maybe a year and a half? two years? bc it was a marvel blog before it was a bts blog so..

40. What are you excited for? METLIFE DAY 2 LETS GOOOO

41. Are you a better talker or listener? listener. talking takes a lot out of me mentally if im sober unless im w someone im rly comfy w

42. What is the last productive thing you did? uhh this weekend I finished 3 whole assignments dsifhi that's abt it

43. What do you want for christmas? idk? money? to get to spend time w my dad n step sisters? christmas is so far away man idk yet

44. What class do you get the best grades in? music related courses and english/writing

45. On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? 6, wld be more if I wasnt stressed out of my mine but ukno

46. What can you see yourself doing in ten years? mmm my hope is that ill b a relatively successful music producer/engineer by then but we’ll see how that goes lmaoo

47. When did you get your first heartbreak? threeee years ago I think? its been a hot second

48. What age do you want to get married? bro im only 19 I dont wanna think abt marriage

49. What career did you want to have as a child? a vet! and then I realized u had to put pets down sometimes so I said fuck that

50. What do you crave right now? physical affection lmaoo

m not gonna tag anyone bc I kinda took an break from work that I shouldn't have to do this so fhidsh anyone can do this if u want idk

#tag game #about me #not bts

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towine · 6 years

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Yo how awesome was that last chapter!! I cant believe after 39436 years they're giving us precious soumegu content again ahhhh and your works are sweet sweet cherries on top ilu

AHHH THE SOUMEGU IS KILLING ME [SHAKES YOU] and thank you so much that’s so nice of you to say!! ;-; and please, i am always open to talking headcanons. i like to think that souma realizes his feelings much later than megumi, and when he realizes, he wants to tell her quickly because he’s not one for keeping things bottled up. but they’re both such busy ppl that they don’t really get a chance to talk until circumstances push them together and their feelings come to a head and they both confess at the same time in a dramatic fashion AHHH. but it doesn’t really change much because they’ve always been close, they’re just. cute. and embarrassing really. THAT’S ALL.

so for a marriage proposal, this fic takes place oh i don’t know… 4-5 years after graduation probably? i don’t have a definitive timeline but that’s where i’m tentatively setting this. thanks for the ask! this one was fun x)

“So, I was thinking I’d take her to dinner and—”

Erina holds a hand out. “Stop right there. It’s already boring and unoriginal. Next.”

“Uh,” Souma says. “There… There is no next, that’s all I’ve got.”

She touches a hand to her chin, brows knitting in concern. “Then the situation is more dire than I thought.”

She types something quickly on her laptop, her eyes flitting over her screen as she reads something Souma can’t see through their video call.

“What are you doing?” he asks.

“Looking at weather reports for the next month. We need to wait for a day where it’s going to rain.”

“Why?”

“Erina thinks rainy days are the most romantic,” Alice chimes in, pushing in from the left side of the screen, Erina squawking in surprise when she does. “Though she’s wrong of course, because everyone knows snow is the most romantic.”

“It doesn’t really snow much in Tokyo,” Souma points out.

“Boo,” Alice huffs, pouting, before Erina shoves her out of frame.

“I don’t think there’s anything wrong with going traditional,” Hisako adds from somewhere off-screen, her voice distant and crackly through the video.

“But Megumi-san deserves better,” Erina argues. “Listen, Yukihira-kun, here is what you do. Wait until a rainy day. Then when night falls, you suddenly appear on her doorstep, drenched, ring in hand, and—”

“Sounds like a perfect way to get sick and ruin any proposal plans,” Alice says loudly, appearing back in the frame. “I have a better one. Wait until she’s about to board an airplane, then you dramatically run to her gate, begging her not to go because you’re in love with her, then you get down on one knee—”

“That doesn’t make any sense.” Erina crosses her arms haughtily.

“It makes way more sense than waiting in the rain—”

The camera suddenly shifts to the side as Erina and Alice argue with one another and an apologetic Hisako appears.

“If you’d like, I can book reservations for you at one of the finest restaurants in Tokyo,” she says, already opening her tablet. “There are many popular ones for proposals and I can organize them into a chart sorted by cost, cuisine, location, and atmosphere. Within a few hours I can—”

The call suddenly drops, and a message saying Connection Lost blinks in the middle of Souma’s laptop screen.

“Proposal ideas?”

“Yeah.” Souma drags a hand over his face, the other holding his phone up to his ear. Behind Takumi’s voice are the sounds of a busy restaurant—he feels a little bad calling in the middle of the day, but the time difference between Florence and Tokyo makes it difficult for him to find a spare moment to talk. “I tried asking others for advice but… Haven’t gotten a whole lot of help yet.”

“And you thought you could ask me because I’m Italian and surely I know the ways of romance,” Takumi finishes for him, sarcasm thick.

Souma flushes a little, embarrassment hot on his cheeks. Takumi had his own fan club back at Tootsuki and always paid more attention to class and charm than Souma ever did. He figured he was a safer bet than any for advice on his current dilemma.

There is a rustling sound, like Takumi moving or shifting the phone away. Then the distant sound of talking in quick Italian that Souma’s rudimentary understanding of it doesn’t catch. Then Takumi’s voice comes back more clearly. “Take her somewhere nice. Surely you know that much.”

“I’m not that hopeless.” Souma frowns.

Takumi huffs an amused sound. “Take her somewhere you know she’d love. Cook her dinner—all her favorite foods, the best cooking you’ve ever done. Then go out for a walk when the moon is out. A park is nice, or maybe a beach.”

Souma nods as he takes all of this in. This sounds like something he can do. Takumi seems very certain of himself, like he is nothing less than an expert.

“Then at the right time, the right moment, you get down on one knee.”

“Wow,” Souma says. “Have you proposed a lot or something?”

“What? No!” Even through the phone, he knows Takumi is blushing fiercely. “I don’t just propose to everyone, you know, it’s supposed to be special.”

“You sound like you really know what you’re doing.”

There are scuffling sounds on the other end, making Souma raise an eyebrow. Then the familiar chime of Isami’s amused voice lilts through the line. “Nii-chan has been reading a lot of romance books lately because he just started dating someone new. He’s already head over heels for him.”

“Isami!” Takumi’s voice is outraged in the background.

“Is that so?” Souma says, grinning.

“Give me the phone, Isami—”

“Good luck proposing to Tadokoro-san,” Isami says cheerily.

“Thanks! I’ll let you guys know how it goes.”

“Don’t worry, I’m sure it’ll work out.”

“Isami, I said give—”

Isami hangs up.

“How did you propose to mom?”

Jouichirou rubs his chin, a smile curling onto his face at the memory.

“She proposed to me, actually. It wasn’t anything formal at all. I didn’t keep to one place very well when I was younger, but when I met her, it was the most at home I’d felt in a long time. I still left every now and again to work jobs that were offered to me, but I’d always come back here.”

Souma listens quietly, hands cradling a mug of tea as he sits across from his dad at the dining table.

Jouichirou goes on, “After a while, there wasn’t anywhere else I wanted to go. So she said, ‘Let’s get married and stay here.’ And we did.”

“That simple, huh?”

“Yep. Then you were born.” Jouichirou reaches out to ruffle Souma’s hair, laughing when Souma swats at him.

When the laughter subsides, he asks, “You gonna do it soon?”

“I think so.”

His smile crinkles the corners of his eyes. “Good.”

“But I haven’t decided how exactly I should do it.” Souma swirls the tea in his mug, watching the stray tea leaves spin circles.

“I don’t think you can go wrong with keeping it simple.”

“I just… want it to be special. Because she’s special.”

When he gets no response, he looks up from his mug and finds Jouichirou’s grin greeting him.

“Nevermind,” Souma says immediately, starting to get up from his seat. “I’m leaving.”

“No, no, wait!” Jouichirou waves him back down. “Come on, I’m just happy for you.”

“Thanks.” He takes a loud slurp of his tea.

“I mean it. She’s a good one.”

Souma swallows, the tea burning a warm path down his throat. “I know she is.”

Megumi is running late but Souma doesn’t mind. She texts him well ahead of time, explaining that her cooking class has gone a little long but she’ll be there soon.

The kids miss you, she writes, and would love to see Souma-sensei again.

He grins at that, typing out a reply. He should have time this week to help out with a lesson or two, and he’d be lying if he said he didn’t enjoy seeing her students.

He waits on a rooftop garden where they agreed to meet, a bouquet of white carnations resting on the table he’s seated at. As the evening sky changes from pink and orange to cool purple and blue, the lights strung up through the garden blink into life like stars dangling from the tree branches.

In his pocket, his phone buzzes with a million texts from everyone he’s spoken to about his plans for tonight. It would be impossible to answer all of them so he’s long since stopped trying, but he hopes to have good news to share with them later.

He doesn’t feel scared. When every day together has felt like a journey into something new and wondrous, all he can really do is look forward to the next step. He wants to believe Megumi feels the same.

The entrance to the rooftop garden opens, and when Souma turns to look Megumi is there.

Loose strands of her hair sway in the evening breeze, and when she tucks them behind her ear Souma can see the glint of earrings, the birthday present he bought for her while he was in Paris working for Shinomiya. She’s wearing a yellow dress and white flats and her eyes light up when she sees him.

“Souma-kun,” she says, a smile spreading across her face like a warm sunrise.

She is beautiful.

He loves her. He really, really does.

“Megumi.” He grins back.

There is a little velvet box in his pocket dying to be taken out. But he waits. There is dinner first, waiting on the table set just for them in the center of the garden. And before that there are flowers and conversations because he wants to know how her day has been. Patience is difficult to hold onto when he wants to ask her right now, but there’s no need to rush.

When he holds out the flowers for her and Megumi gasps, taking them and laughing in delight, reaching out to squeeze Souma’s hand in hers, he knows they’ve got all the time in the world.

#shokugeki no soma #soumegu #caiwrites #food wars #Anonymous #filled

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ts-autumns-world · 3 years

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Episode 4: “Tua supremacy babey” - Lily O

I GET TO REUNITE WITH JINX YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

me waking up to see that im in the new tribe: https://media.tenor.com/images/93212119a4887f9fa0ad945c7ae2a5d0/tenor.gif

tbh i expected the swap since like we have 14 rn so its a reasonable number to do a swap before the merge.. but like this swap sucks not only me being the only one from og eener but its also me having to be with these 4 whites ppl. you know i don't trust white ppl except mikki SDFSDFSDFSDF so this absolutely SUCKS. and geekoffilm is on another tribe too.

URGH i hope i can team up with jinx and jude. and joey and i used to play together in CoW so hopefully, i am able to make him want to work with me again.. but monty... monty is very skeptical cause like they could just vote me off now. BUT THEN, i know that either jinx or raffy has the idol for sure, so maybe i need to ask jinx for that. or i just ask the person who i'll be up against with in the tic tac toe to throw a challenge if they are the og eener too.

much to think about bestie booth. i wanna trust these ppl so bad but i have trust issues

https://youtu.be/JrXnnD5KU0I

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naur this is the plan if we go to council

imma be like joey

you are the only cis white man on the team

you have to go.

you wanna be an ally?

THIS IS HOW!!!

so im pushing for u FEWEJFEEFJEFEIFEFIJW

heS ALWAYS SAYING HE WANTS TO BE A BETTER ALLY

ALWAYS CALLING ME LIKE JINX IM SO SORRY

ILL BE LIKE FOR WHAT??

HE'S LIKE FOR BEING A WHITE CIS STRAIGHT MAN.

IF UR REALLY SORRY ULL LEAVE!

I have to start this out by saying Giraffez, I’m so sorry! I tried my best but too many people wanted to keep us comp strong and wanted Lily O to stay. I really wish we would have had the chance to play longer together but sometimes it’s just not in the cards.

As far as swap goes, I’m really happy about my team. We have a majority from my original group which is pretty wild. I wish Chips was here and I really hope he makes it work somehow but I’m ngl I’m a little worried about him.

I was so so thrilled to see Jinx on Tua with me. I also have started talking with Captain and Jude. They both seem super nice so as always I’m hoping to avoid tribal once again.

I’d like to the think that original Llih (was that how you spelled it?) will stay together but Giraffez told me that Lily O told her that she was voting for me. Now obviously we all voted Giraffez but I think Lily O knows I was plotting. So. I hope we can stick together. But. Yeah. Your girl is worried. And excited. She is excited cause this group seems cool. But nervous because yeah I’m not ready for another vote out. Mkay. Bye.

This swap went pretty well for me all things considered. I still have a bunch of people from my OG Tribe, and the new people seem active and really nice! So, I like my tribe. Blake offered to me today to work together closely in the game which I am down for. The semi-inactive people need to stick together and all that lmao. Other than that, I am straight Vibing

Swap time! honestly its time to kick it into high gear and win this immunity challenge! make some real allies!

HELLO AUTUMNS WORLD!!!!!! So I have arrived in a swapped team with 3 of my old members! SOOO happy Mikki is here firstly since we can discuss basically anything. Blake and Raffy im also cool with but not like as close with them. Maybe a bit more with Blake. Of the new people my fav is Chris !! Already liking our chats and hope it can turn more strategic later maybe!! Ricky is also cool and funny and chips I was allies with him in Kili which is cool but probably the weakest connection of the new people so far!! It looks like we are gonna lose and if so its kinda hard like on one hand we have easy majority to vote off idk probably chips or maybe ricky or we could go against tribal linesI think Blake truly does wanna work with me tho but is just busy. Like going against tribal lines is kinda fun but maybe dumb. And chips being the 1 in a 4-2-1 swap sucks too!! Idk kind of evaluating the vibe with Mikki and will see what we think later if we lose… we would probs be safe regardless being protected by tribal lines on one side and having developed sorta good vibes with Chris and Ricky from the other side so probs wouldn’t be targeted from that angle either?? Hopefully… I did have kind of a delayed start with the new people cuz of irl stuff but yah we will see!

My opinion on swap was initially sad because I was missing out on Jinx/Jude/Joey/Captain BUT then I realize I like this tribe?? Im with Ricky still, Mikki probably is sitting at the cookout as we spesk, Chips is lowkey goody but I got my eye on him, Benj and I bond over Agatha Christie <3, Blake I knew from TDI so we have been goofin like a Goofy movie, Raffy I actually enjoy that we chat of the most mundane things, and that's everybody! I think I have a chance to survive on this tribe

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My thoughts are that I've got Ricky and Mikki at minimum. I know Mikki/Raffy got beef but I doubt they go for each other. Chips is like a level-headed Joey but I reckon one of him/Blake/Benj will be targeted if I had to guess. Nevertheless me and Captain talked during our matchup and exchanged info. My hope is me or Ricky are in Outhouse but I also hope not so we have higher odds to keep the goodies all goodie and safe

https://voca.ro/18WSqZznajDx

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I LOVE JUDE

so idk where my last confessional left off but i think it was before tribal. so after tribal, jinx’s manifestations came true, we swapped, i ended up on a tribe with no one i knew except chris, so that was kind of…nnng. but hey, gotta roll with the punches. me and jinx were paired up for the challenge which game me a bit of time to talk with them, and they gave me some insight on ppl i didn’t really know on my tribe, and also they gave me a tarot reading, and it basically said that while i’m probably gonna have to deal with some bullshit, i just have to use everything i’ve learned to get over any obstacles, and stay calm and collected through it all. i’m really really praying for this one, since we just lost immunity, and now chris is going to the outhouse, i’m afraid that i’m truly all alone now. and if there’s one thing that scares me it’s being alone. i really like mikki tho, and i heard benj was good ppl. maybe if i let them know that raffy might have the half idol then maybe they’d be more inclined to work with me, but i also really enjoy raffy’s presence, so i don’t really want him to be a target. blake and i have had a good amount of dialogue so i’m hoping that he’d be willing to work with me, to be honest. ughhhhh why why why tribal. WHY TRIBAL. in all my years of playing tumble survivor i’ve never been sent to like…and exile or redemption island ONCE. not once….ever…. please god let me get to the outhouse just one time.

First of all, lemme just say I'm so amused by how quickly my chances of no-votes went RIGHT out the door. But also thank god that it went off without a hitch! And right before a swap, no less New tribe is definitely iconic. LOVE Jinx, Captain and Jude are cool too, and then my Llih buddies are also v nice to have (shoutouts monty and joey)

Tua supremacy babey

https://youtu.be/oP7DWOnmt40

https://youtu.be/Z3_pyWTdRh8

https://youtu.be/UFshPYJ98z0

hello confessional booth... i'm here to give you um. something i hope!!!!

well since the swap, i feel like i've managed to fit in better than i expected cause ive been feeling under the weather and i don't rlly have energy to talk to anyone (which is so great that our tribe won this IC) but i rlly need to work on that more for sure..

joey wants to work with me.. like a lot. we worked together for a bit in CoW before he was voted out and he was a great ally to me back then so i think i can trust joey a little bit? and he rlly wants the pocs to go far so i think this is a good sign.

with jinx, we've been wanting to talk about the outhouse thing but jinx wants to call and i've been feeling sick so we haven't called but hopefully we can do that soon. i trust jinx a lot and i know they're gonna take care of me.

jude.. you know i like her since i saw her intro vid so yup gonna need to talk to her more!!!

lily c.. my fellow teacher pls SFSFSDFSD i enjoy our chat a lot like idt its much but every time we talk, with her, it just feels great and nice and like we just get to know each other so far so i hope we can talk game a bit more but we'll see

lily o.. we haven't talked since the day the swap happened. idk why. maybe she's busy or maybe i should dm her first so i think i'm gonna do that tmr my time if i have the energy.

and monty... PLEASE idk if i can trust monty or not. like he's a good friend of mine but my experience in orgs with them is that they tried to break the swp apart (which was smart but then mikki and i are both playing so gotta keep an eyes on them)

i'm just trying to feel good and hopefully recover soon cause i hate being sick. idk i'm scared of covid!!!!! but i haven't gone outside for a week or two methinks so we're gonna pray and see.

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missing mikki and hope she will be fine

Blake suggested starting an OG Eneer alliance to Mikki and Benj. They took them up on the offer so I guess I am in my first alliance of the game based on arbitrary reasons. In any case, they seem to want to vote out Chips which is a RIP. But whatever keeps me safe for one more round.

I don’t have an obsession with the Mr. Robinson’s Neighborhood sketch from SNL... No I clearly don’t... https://youtu.be/whfQf3Pd5bU

It’s my chronic overthinking in this swap that is going to do me in, I feel. It’s the pressure of having to actually think differently, and coming off of EVERYTHING I’ve seen in this community over the past 6 months, oh good Lord have mercy, I feel as though its so hard for me to want to not sacrifice my game, but at the same time... I feel all the pressure in the world to flip. I did have a lucid dream that if I got to a point where I consistently voted only white people at every Council, it would make my game look REALLY good by comparison, since I literally did everything I could, and no, I don’t want to hear anyone post season say this was rigged for Jinx, it’s not, we’re only going to go against each other down the road because of how this season has been set up, and it breaks my heart

https://photos.app.goo.gl/eSvSGkc4zmBfnYVP7

So here's some tea I suppose. I was a pretty big fan of the tribe swap because people talked more in general. This was particularly interesting considering their different timezones but continued ability to keep up conversation. It was pretty apparent that I was at a numbers deficit from my original tribe but my hope was that people didn't want to play like "that" and then if they did that my former tribe would throw it to keep the numbers. Apparently that is not true as Lily C went as hard as possible to win a challenge she could have convincingly thrown as an "accident" multiple times. At any rate, based on the total lack of communication with me concerning who I am voting it is evident that either the plan is to vote someone without telling me or that it is to vote me. This means that regardless of the situation I am in a terrible position and will be leaving sooner rather than later. I don't know that I've been swap screwed in the past (perhaps, I've been playing for too long) but it really stinks.

For the TL;DR watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzftXB28gBE

http://www.purplerockpodcast.com/wp-content/uploads/survivor-pearlislands-lillian-morris-no-sir.gif

As I'm writing this, I have a big gulp from... you guessed it... 7/11. I need to flip on one of the three of Monty, Lily O, and Lily C. My best option is going to vote for Lily O, I need Monty and Lily C to know I'm only doing this because yanno, things look awfully awful, and the pressure of making the right move and yet making sure I don't lose relationships is starting to get to me.

I also need them as shields because theyre the only winners in this game, and I need them here as shields for down the road heading into a merge.

I can't even believe I found TWOA IDOLS! I had to think a lot about who to give it too but I decided to do what felt like the smartest thing to do. Jinx and Captain already trust me and I enjoy Ricky but he gives semi chaotic energy. With that in mind, I had to give it to Jude as a sign of faith. Not only am I wanting her to do well, but I want to prove to her I legit want to work with her come merge 😊

https://youtu.be/vOn8Zsi0njA

https://youtu.be/UWTB-LYjbu0

for Chips: https://youtu.be/lSeDZdSEl4o

#tsaw #episodes

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legit-min-yoongi-trash-tho · 7 years

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BTS Intro Post

Title; BTS Intro Post

Genre; Info(??)

Type; Intro Post

Group/Member; BTS – OT7

Authors Notes; Enjoy! I’m soo terribly sorry it’s so late! Hope it’s what you wanted!! 😊 Also this is a rlly rlly long post with lots of facts and photos so um ye...have fun. Tbh all this post does is just prove what a big ‘ol piece of trash i am because 95% of these facts were from memory, I typed all dis shit out guys...im fuckin dead now. These are all facts from websites that I remember, certain nicknames are not necessarily what I call them but some dso. kbye 😊 x

{Requested}

oKAY SO SIT DOWN, SHUT UP, AND GET YO FEELS READY FOR BTS AKA BANGTANSONYEONDAN AKA BULLETPROOF BOY SCOUTS, AKA BEYOND THE SCENE, AKA THESE 7 DORKS WE STAN FOR SOME REASON!!

First up is Kim Seokjin {Jin, Jinnie, Mamma Jin, Princess Jin, Eomma/Eomma Jin, Pink Princess, Eat-Jin, Third Guy From The Left, Car Door Guy, Mr Worldwide Handsome, Seokjinnie}. Jin is the oldest brother, the oldest hyung in BTS and is basically their mother and let’s be honest our mother too.

Some facts;

Born in Gwacheon, Gyeonggi-do, South Korea – it looks like dis;

He’s got a papa, mamma, and hyung

He majored in film at Konkuk University

BTS be placin’ him as #1 visuals…I mean…he is gorgeous

He has the longest legs & widest shoulders (60cm)

He does this “traffic dance” which is adorable and you should go check it out, you won’t regret it

He speaks a lil Chinese (Mandarin)

Lil Jinnie usually cleans up the dorms (because he’s literally bangtans mum)

He also rlly likes Disney princesses which is adorable

He’s a v v good cook and has said he’s happiest when he’s with food (relatable jin m8)

Fave number = 4

Fave colour = blue (used to be pink, I think he still has a soft spot for it tho)

Fave weather = spring sunlight

Jin started playing Super Mario at like age 5 and Maple Story in Seventh Grade (Year 7) and he still plays them 😊

When he’s hungry his left eye blinks a lot

Fave foods = lobster, meat, Naegmyun, chicken, and greasy foods

He’s friends with Jin Hyosang (Kidoh) from ToppDogg as Kidoh was under Big Hit Entertainment but left in 2012 and switched to Stardom Entertainment

His role model is T.O.P from BIGBANG (same boi, same)

He has lots of Nintendo games and Action Figures

When he was younger he wanted to be a detective

He wears rlly strong prescription glasses but doesn’t like wearing them because he’ll become insecure (I think we can all agree that Jinnie bean would look absolutely adorable in glasses??)

He has a cute lil dog named JJanggu

He likes Alpacas

Jin can play guitar and piano

He says V is the member he’s the closest to

Jin says if he’d get a day off he would want Suga to be his servant so he an order him around

If he were a girl, he said he would date Jimin because he is shy and someone like Jimin would help him open up and be social

Jungkook and Jin bicker a lot, and a taxi driver once thought they were twins because of their nonstop bickering

He likes strawberries but not strawberry flavoured things (yO SAME THO)

He makes a lot of dad jokes (goals)

Suga is the only one who doesn’t laugh when he makes dad jokes

Jin said that looking at bugs isn’t scary, but if they get on his body, that’s rlly scary

He dieted for a year, only eating chicken breasts ☹

He is friends with B1A4’s Sandeul, they even went to an amusement park together

He’s also friends with VIXX’s Ken and Lee Won Keun

Jin sang the OST of “Hwarang” alongside V, which is Part 2 – “It’s Definitely You” (can find it here)

He was casted in Law of the Jungle in Kota Manado but left earlier than the other cast because BTS had an abroad concert that time

After BTS attended the BBMAS (Billboard Music Awards), Jin got a lot of attention (internationally) for his v good looks

Other members about Jin;

Jimin; “He’s the oldest, but he likes to whine” [after school club] / “He’s like a grandma”

Jungkook; “Jin-Hyung looks manly and he’s chic like a wolf but personality-wise, he’s carefree so he’s sloth-like (laughs). He’s really nice and he’s also a good cook, so we call him ‘granny’ between us”

Suga; “A wolf”

V; “Prince”

J-Hope; “A princess”

Jin’s ideal girl is a girl whose looks and personality is similar to that of a puppy, who’s hood at cooking, kind and takes good care of him

Summary; Literal princess, BTS & army’s mother, loves food and cooking, a beautiful man wHO NEEDS MORE RECOGNITION PLS AND MORE LINES ISTG I WILL WALK ALL THE WAY TO SOUTH KOREA FROM ENGLAND ALL THE WAY TO BIG HIT AND DEMAND THIS SHIT

Okay so next up is my ultimate bias (in case you couldn’t tell) Min Yoongi {Suga, AgustD, Yoongles, Min PD, Syub Syub, Motionless Min, Genius (self-proclaimed but I can reveal that this is a true fact m8), Min Monarch, Min Suga, D Boy, Sub-Energy}. Yoongi is the second oldest in BTS and probs the most savage human upon the planet, he often seems like the grandpa of the group but he can also be kinda childish and lively sometimes ^_^

Some facts;

He was born in Buk-gu, Daegu, South Korea – it looks like dis;

He has a pappa, mamma, and hyung

He attended/attends Global Cyber University

Yoongles is usually in charge of fixing the things Rap Monster breaks. He changes lightbulbs, fixes the toilet etc (handyman ayyee 😉 )

He is like the father or grandpa of BTS

Although Rap Monster revealed that he sometimes acts like a 5 yr old (same m8, same)

He usually scolds and nags the younger members when they make mistakes

Yoongi chose to become a rapper after listening to “Fly” by Epik High

His role models are; Kanye West, Lupe Fiasco, Lil Wayne, and Hit Boy

He has a driving license but doesn’t usually drive

Yoongi loves to play basketball and when he was a trainee he played basketball every Sunday

He is quite blunt and straightforward, a trait of many ppl from Daegu

When he was younger he wanted to be an architect

His hobbies include reading comics, basketball, playing games, and taking pictures

He writes/composes lyrics daily, and even writes lyrics when he’s in the waiting room, car, or even the toilet (dedicatioooon)

He wrote the song ‘촣아요’ (Like It) under 40 minutes

If he has a problem he usually talks to Rap Monster because their age gap is small, they have things in common, and they’ve known each other for quite some time

Fave food = meat, meat, meat (same tho)

Fave number = 3

Fave colour = white

Suga comes from a poor family, in an interview he disclosed; “After we debuted, I went back to the dorm and sat there blankly staring. I could not believe that me, a kid from a poor daegu family, would be able to make it”. (you made it bby, so proud omf)

He speaks with a satoori accent when he’s nervous and when he cries ;-;

His ideal date would be something simple, “For me, just an ordinary date...I want to watch a movie, walk and would like to eat together”

When asked which member would he bring on a deserted island for 3 years, he answered Jimin.

Suga; “Jimin. To boss around. (LOL) Just kidding. I don’t talk a lot, I’m not the fun type, but Jimin is pleasant and mature, so I think it’d work out.”

Would date Jin if he were a girl

He loves taking photos (same)

His bad habit is biting his nails (also same ;-; )

3 things he likes are; sleeping, quiet places, places with no people

3 things he dislikes are; dancing, loud places, places where there are people crowding around

Fave weather; where you can wear short sleeves in the day and long sleeves at night

He thinks his looks are 50 out of 100; “Truthfully, when I see myself I think I’m ugly” (um liess boi, ur fuckin gorgeous so like…ye)

Other members about Suga;

Jin; “He likes being attached to his bed. He has a variety of knowledge and always gives help with that knowledge. I’m fascinated as to where he gets that weird knowledge from.”

J-Hope; “Is cool. His personality is quite strong on his own thoughts. Pretends not to care when he does. Seems like he’s all over the place, but is quite careful. That kind of personality. (Ah!! Personality where he only just shows strength ㅋㅋ)”

V; “He really has a lot of knowledge. He’s quite cool on stage. Cool and amazing. No answer to him being lethargic.”

Jeongguk; “He’s like a grandpa. But his passion towards music is overflooding. He also has a lot of knowledge. But he’s still a grandpa.”

Rap Monster; “Lingers on things more than you would think. He’s really timid once you get to know him. Full of random information. Grandpa. Although he seems cool – never… no no… Wants to be loved. Likes music. Has passion and stubbornness. Says what he wants to and can say everything well in front. Has style.”

Jimin; “He talks too much in front of you. He doesn’t hesitate, and although this is my personal thoughts, he likes being loved by the members ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ”

His ideal type is a girl who likes music, especially hip hop. He says he doesn’t really care about looks. He also wants a girl who can be very active when he wants to and very silent when he wants to. A girl that will always be by his side (boy im here, sign me tf up)

He has a male doggo named Holly and she’s deffo his weakness

Summary; The lethargic turtle of BTS with a both a savage side and a cutesy side that spits literal fire that needs to be protected imo. He is a lil been who can act 5yrs old one second and then act like an 80yr old man the next.

Now we have the actual sun personified, Jung Hoseok {J-Hope, Hobi, Hopi, Hoseokie, Sunshine boy, Your Hope, Your Angel, Hope, J-Horse}. Hobi is basically literal sunshine and so sweet. He has the voice of an angel and can also rap like a gOD, he’s also the main dancer for BTS and he has major skillz m8.

Some facts;

Born in Gwangju, South Korea

He got a mamma, pappa, and noona

He went to Gwangju Global High School; & Global Cyber University

Before he debuted, he hated doing aegyo but now he’s changed his mind (and we love his aegyo obvs)

Hobi and B.A.P’s Zelo went to the same academy for rap and dance in Gwangju

In his pre-debut days, he was part of a street dance team called NEURON

He won an underground dance battle and even performed at a festival (go hobiii) 😊

Initially he auditioned for JYP Entertainment, together with B.A.P’s Youngjae and Halo’s Dino

Fave colour = green

He has a cute doggo named Mickey

Hobi hates working out and exercising (I relate)

Used to be a tennis player in elementary school and played in competitions. He once received a bronze medal, out of 3 team competitors

He rlly likes melodramatic movies and remembers watching a lot of DVD’s when he was a kid, since his father also likes movies

His role models are; A$AP Rocky, J. Cole, Beenzino, G.D

He says he is closest to Jungkook

J-Hope’s motto “If you don’t work hard, there won’t be good results”

He likes visiting the Fancafe when he has time because he needs to know what are fans saying (always there for us armies)

When having problems or worries he would share them with Rap Monster or Suga (so cute 😊 )

When he was younger he was quite famous in the Gwangju dance underground

Things he wants to steal from other members is Jimin’s chocolate abs, Rap Monster’s rap skill and his good English

His ideal date; “I love the sea, I would like to walk down to the beach and hold hands (laughs)”

Other members about J-Hope;

Jimin’s first impression about J-Hope; “The first person I met was J-Hope. He was very friendly to me, ‘Excuse me, Jimin.’. So, I remembered J-Hope the most.”

Jimin about J-Hope’s mean side; “J-Hope is bright guy, laugh a lot and has become hopeful like his name. J-Hope has good energy that effects everyone in a good way and I think J-hope is awesome. And people think he’s always nice and innocent. But, inside his smiley face, there’s an evil living there. J-Hope winds me up all the time but never stop smiling even when he does that. But you can never punch someone who looks so happy like that. One day, I was sleeping and all of sudden he poked me and shook me saying,

‘Jiiiimiiiiiiiin, wake up and play with me!!!!’

So, I woke up. But right after I opened my eyes, he just grinned at me and went back to sleep like nothing happened. So, I thought,

‘Uuuugh! I can never say anything to him cause he’s older than me!’.

And once he told me he would give me a massage and started squeezing the back of my neck, and that got tighter and tighter! He was smiling at then too! At the end, I was getting upset but he didn’t stop it. He was doing it even harder and said,

‘This will relax your muscles.’

When I was sitting down at the rehearsal room during the break, he head locked me. He hit me once and left the room so I looked at him with a serious face for a second. J-Hope, the timid, came to the room only after three seconds and gave me some mischievous hugs and said,

‘Jimin! Are you upset at me? Are you?? You are not! Aren’t you??’

Chuckling hard, he left room after 10 seconds. What should I do with him?”

Rap Monster; “There’s something he always says whenever we make a comeback or wrap up our promotion. He says that we got to make a comeback or successfully complete the promotion, thanks to the love shown by our fans.”

Suga; “I’m not good at expressing how I feel with words. But Jimin and J-Hope are good at expressing themselves. I envy them for that.”

Hobi’s ideal type is a girl who loves him, is good at cooking, and thinks a lot

Summary; he’s literally sunshine and he has one of the biggest hearts ever. Dancing machine Hobi is such a lil bean and he deserves the world, honestly 😊 alSO DESERVES MORE LINES!!

Kay so now we have the intellectual, the very philosophic Kim Namjoon {Namjoon, Joonie, Joonbug, Moni, Rap Monster, Rap Mon, Namjoonie, Leader Mon, God of Destruction, The Destroyer}. Smol dorky bean with dimples and a v v high IQ of 148. Also, literally a Rap God whose life is about philosophy, BTS, and music.

Some facts;

He was born in Ilsan, Gyeonggi-d, South Korea

He got a mamma, pappa, and lil sis

He went to Apgujeong High School

Rap Monster studied in New Zealand and lived/stayed there for 6 months. :O

He’s currently enrolled to Global Cyber University

Pre-debut he had already been performing as an underground rapper, with several tracks released informally, including a collaboration with Zico (Block B)

He’s really smart with an IQ of 148. He was previously ranked in the top 1% of the nation in his high school exams (so fuckin smart m8)

He speaks English fluently (he does so well omg ;-; )

Rap Monster’s TOEIC (The Test of English for International Communication) score was 900.

There was a rumour among the Korean fans that at the age of 15, Namjoon had a heart surgery with a 30% chance of living (but that’s probs legit just a rumour)

Hobbies include surfing the web

He’s a great supporter of Gay/Lesbian’s rights 😊 😊

He has a younger sister the same age as Jungkook but when asked if he would introduce her to him, he said N.O (ehehe)

His image before debut was a neat and quiet student

He started to write lyrics since he was in school, on his textbook

Rap Monster has composed/produced 100+ songs (y’all needa check out his solo raps n mixtape boisss)

Clothes matter to him (yo I live for his daily kim posts)

Fave food = Kalguksu (Korean knife noodles)

Fave colour = black

Fave number = 1

Fave items = clothes, computer, books

Despite Moni’s rough and tough image, he is v playful n relaxed

He likes clear weather

If he were a girl he said he would date J-Hope because he’s like the mother at the dorm

Role models; Kanye West & A$AP Rocky

Rap Monster wrote the lyrics of ‘No More Dream’ because he had no dreams when he was in school ☹

He, along with Jung Hunchul (ex member of Bangtan) wrote a Brave Brother/YG diss track called ‘Hook’ (check it out here man)

He wants to be a rich Rapper in 10 years

He has a dog, whose name is RAP MON

He would like to make a sub-unit with Jungkook

He was the first member to join BTS

He likes to imitate his members

Rap Mon said that he and GOT7 Jackson are good friends. He said Jackson is very handsome and really good at dancing

His ideal date; “It’s like the ordinary college student date. We can see a movie together, eat together, walk together. I want to have love like that. It’s because I can’t at all (laughs)”

Some of his popular quotes are; “Jimin, you got no jams” and “Team work makes the dream work”

Other members about Rap Monster;

Suga; “On the stage, Rap Mon wears sunglasses and has a powerful image but actually he likes cute things. He keeps the ‘Pocket Monster Ball’ on his bed that he received at a fansign”

Jin; “The Baby Dinosaur Dolly. He shakes his tail and crushes things

Jimin;” In the fact, he gets hurt easily”

Rap Mon’s ideal type; “Sexy, even to a brain. Someone that is thoughtful and confident”

Summary; lil dimpled smol bean Moni is all about his music and his groups and fans. He’s chilled and relaxed but has a powerful image on stage. Literally the god of destruction and could probs just look at something and it’d break (that’s what happens to me anyways)

oKAY so next up is lil squishy sinful bean Park Jimin {Jimin, Chim, Chim chim, Chiminie, Mini, Jiminie, Mochi, Sexy Mochi, Jiminie Pabo, Christian Chim Chim, Kumquat Mochi, Mang Gae Ddeok. Oh, and I regularly call him Chim Cham/Chim Chams}. Such a smol chubby lookin bean but then he turns into the personification of sin itself on stage and I literally cannot deal with it man…kills me

Some facts;

Born in Busan, South Korea

He has a pappa, mamma, and lil bro

He attended/attends Busan High School of Arts; Global Cyber University

Pre-debut Jimin entered Busan High School of Arts as the top student in modern dance, but later transferred to Korea Arts High School with V

Fave colours = blue & black

Fave number = 3

Fave foods = pork, duck, chicken, fruit, kimchi jjigae

Chim Chams used to view himself as “fat” and he was self-conscious of his looks and cheeks (which were adORABLE)

When he viewed himself as “fat” (he doesn’t anymore)…(I hope) he went into depression and starved himself T_T

He prefers sunny and cool weather

Is known for his impressive abs (*dies*)

He likes to jokingly hit the other members as a way of showing his affection for them

If music is playing he will start to dance no matter where he is 😊

When the weather is sunny and cool, Jimin likes wearing earphones while listening to music that gives a good feeling.

Jimin became interested in a singing career after watching a Rain performance

Once he wrote some lyrics and gave them to Suga. Suga said; “You called these lyrics?!” (the lyrics sounded like a children song). Suga asked him to redo the lyrics, but in the end, he still couldn’t use Jimin’s lyrics ☹

Jimin’s role models are; Rain, Taeyang (Bigbang) and Chris Brown

He is most confident in his eyes

He enjoys reading comic books. He said that comic books influenced him a lot

Jimin usually solves his problems himself. If he can’t solve it, he will share it with V and ask for his advice

Jungkook is always teasing Jimin about his height

In the dorm, Jimin in charge of the kitchen (chef chim doe??? 😊 )

Things he wants to steal from other members are; Rap Monster’s height, V’s talent and gaze, J-Hope’s cleanliness, Suga’s diverse knowledge

Jimin’s ideal date; “Sitting on the bench, drinking together… I would like to have a countryside date. We would also walk holding hands…. (Laughs)”

If he’d get a day off, Jimin jokingly said he wants to go on a date with Jungkook while holding hands together. And when Jungkook talked about his wishes, Jimin shouted; “Live happily together with me!” (fucKIN SHIP)

He felt a bit hurt when Jungkook ranked him the last in terms of looks. Jimin thinks the 1st is Jin while the 7th is Suga. (He was going to rank Rap Monster as the 7th but he changed his mind saying that recently Rap Monster got better-looking)

He has to use eyeliner while practicing the choreography, else he can’t seem to show strong expressions and he will get shy

Jimin appeared in GLAM’s MV Party (XXO). GLAM disbanded, they were under BigHit.

Jin chose Jimin as the member who has changed the most since debut😊

Other members about Jimin;

Jin; “Comes at you really cutely. It’s like being attacked by a puppy. Can’t refuse requests because he’s too nice.”

Rap Monster; “Basically kind and gentle. Is very considerate. Isn’t as timid as you would think. Likes clothes and style (same with me). But even though he responds well, there are many times where he doesn’t actually do it. Is quite stubborn. Is the effort-type.”

Suga; “Follows the hyungs’ words well, isn’t the personality where he’ll receive dislike somewhere, puts in effort to live his hardest”.

J-Hope; “Is kind, listens to his hyungs well, has a lot of greed, and has a personality where he makes sure to do his part, and he has a really good personality where he likes me the most and his faith towards me is very strong~~ ♥♥♥♥”

Jeongguk; “He’s the effort-type along with being a triple blood-type A, timid, shameless, and hates losing.”

V; “Cute. Only the amount of him losing his temper is excessive, he’s kind and a friend that’s trustworthy. I talk to him the most, and if I have any worries, he’s the friend that I tell it first to”

His ideal type is a nice and cute girl who is smaller than him

Summary; uuggggh he’s just so fuckin cute and he deserves all the love in the world. He loves the others so much and cares for them loads. He’s a squishy bean in the streets and a sinful bean on stage. Everybody needs a lil chim in their life 😊

Up next is the animal loving, sweetheart, 4d alien Kim Taehyung {Taehyung, Tae, Tae Tae, Taehyungie, 4D alien, Blank Tae, 4D, Alien, CGV, Gucci Boy, Gucci Prince, V} dis bean is crazy and extra as hECK. He’s also super adorable and his laugh is probably the best thing ever omfg.

Some facts;

He was born in Daegu, South Korea.

He has a mamma, pappa, and lil bro

He attends/attended Korea Art School; Global Cyber University

Tae Tae can speak Japanese fluently :O

Fave colours = black, green, and white

Fave number = 10

V’s favourite items are = his computer, big dolls, clothes, shoes, accessories, and anything unique (like himself lol)

It is said that when his teaser image was released 5 personal fan clubs were created 😊

He has been in the group for a while, but fans didn‘t know or hear of him until the time around his debut

He likes anything that is unique

His favourite artist is Eric Bannet

His role model is his dad. He wants to be a dad like his dad, someone who takes care of his children, listen to everything they say and encourage & advise them in their future plans (so fuckin cuuuute)

He has the same hobbies with Jin

When V has a problem, he will share it with Jimin and Jin. But he thinks it’s easier to talk to Jimin since they have the same age

Fans said V looks like Baekhyun (EXO) and Daehyun (B.A.P.). He said Baekhyun is his mother and Daehyun is his father. (it’s true tho)

V is a mood maker in BTS, along with Suga (daegu princessss)

V’s motto; “I just came up with it but let’s life coolly to the maximum. Since life happens only once, waking up at ease in the morning and working doing your best”

According to Yahoo Taiwan poll, V is the most popular BTS member in Taiwan

In the dorm V is in charge of the washing machine

When V celebrated his Birthday (131230 at MBC Gayo Daejun), he felt very happy because he able to share birthday with K.Will. K.Will’s waiting room was beside BTS’s room. So, K.Will came to him and said, “Hey, is it your Birthday today? It’s mine too! Let’s blow the candle together.”

V likes amusement parks. He especially likes the gyro drop, gyro swing and roller coasters (boi we can go together because same)

V can climb a tree but he can’t get back down (such a dork omg 😊 )

V comes from a poor family; “I came from a poor family and I never thought I would become famous.” He grew up under a family of farmers and often takes pictures of the farm they own

He revealed in an interview with ‘The Star,’ “[Being an idol is] a lucky chance that will only come once in a lifetime. If I wasn’t in BTS I would probably be a farmer. I’d be pulling out weeds from a farm with my grandmother.” (farmer tae doe can you imagine… :O )

V acted in the Korean drama “Hwarang” (2017-2017) (if you haven’t already watched it, y’all needa do so)

V sang the OST of “Hwarang” alongside Jin, which is Part 2 – “It’s Definitely You”.

If he’d get a day off, V wants to see his parents (he’s literally so cute tho omg)

V said the 3 requirements for his happiness are; family, health and honour.

V’s ideal date; “Amusement park. But nearby park is also good. I think that it’ll be nice if holding hands. My ideal is cute dating.”

Other members about V

Rap Mon about V’s cooking; “Honestly, we’d love try it. But V’s cooking is too great, we might end up crying. That’s why up till now we haven’t tried it. If V can roll the seaweed a little better, we will definitely give it a try.”

Jimin about V’s cooking, “We’ll try V’s cooking sooner or later. I just hope, V will stop stealing the food when I’m cooking.”

Jin ranked V as the noisiest member; “First, there’s V. I’m not kidding. He’ll be sitting in the dorms, then suddenly he’ll run around going ‘HO! HO! HO!’. He’s really weird. He’s like a different species. Do you know what he does alone at our house? ‘Jimin, I love you!! Oppa, I can’t! Jimin, I love you!! (Imitate V’s alone conversation). Seriously...”

Jin; “Although he seems weird, I think it’s a concept. He asks before he does something, he’s very detailed.”

Jungkook; “Although he’s a hyung, I have no answer to describe his personality.”

Suga; “Compared to his age he’s immature and isn’t able to become serious. It seems he doesn’t care what others think.”

Jimin; “He has a cheerful personality and really doesn’t notice his surroundings. He likes playing around. He’s innocent.”

His ideal type is someone who takes care of him and love only him and who has a lot of aegyo

Summary; le 4D extra alien who is suuuuuuch a family man which is so adorable is such a soft bean I can’t deal oh god. He’s v v sinful on stage tho so watch out…he’ll pull you in with his cute charms and then BAM hipthrust muthafucka

Okie dokie! Last but not least it’s time for the lil bun bun Maknae Jeon Jungkook {Jungkook, Kook, Kookie, Jungkookie, Bun, Bun Bun, Golden Maknae, Triple Threat, Muscle Pig, Jeon Cena, Ironman, Bunny, Seagull, Justin Seagull, Living Meme, Meme Child, Baby, Jungshook, Nochu

Some facts;

Born in Busan, South Korea

He has a pappa, mamma, and hyung

He went to Seoul School of Performing Arts and graduated in February 2017

He attended Baek Yang Middle School

He has an older brother named Jeon Jung Hyun

Fave foods = anything with flour (pizza, bread etc)

Fave colours = red, black, and white

He loves playing games, drawing, and soccer (football)

He has a weird habit where he sniffles a lot because of his rhinitis. He also wriggles his fingers a lot

His shoe size (U.S. conversion) is 7.5

Would date Jin if he were a girl

He likes the number 1

Said to be a very skilled cook

He likes shoes and makeup

He dislikes tasteless things, bugs, getting hurt, studying

He speaks Korean, Japanese and English (basic)

In 7th grade Jungkook learned B-boying in a club with some friends and hyungs

He knows Taekwondo (he has a black belt)

Before joining the group, he was a handball player

His favourite weather is a sunny weather with a cool breeze

In 10 years Jungkook wants to be the owner of a duck meat restaurant or a tattooist (fuCKIN TATTOOIST JUNGKOOK THOOOO

In middle school, he went to Superstar K auditions but failed to pass the elimination round

On the way back home, he received offers from eight different entertainment agencies

After randomly seeing and falling in love with future member Rap Monster’s rap, he decided to join Big Hit Entertainment (so cute)

Jungkook’s role model is G-Dragon (BigBang).

His dream, when he was younger, was to become a badminton player.

In the 1st year of High School he listened to G-Dragon’s songs and changed his dream to becoming a singer.

His motto is; “Living without passion is like being dead”.

Jungkook wants to go on trip with his lover someday.

He loves reading comic books.

Jimin says that Jungkook smiles when he swears.

About school subjects, Jungkook dislike everything except Physical Education, Art, and Music Class.

He doesn’t like bugs, but he likes cool bugs like (stag) beetles. He used to have a stage beetle when he was younger, but he didn’t take care of it well, so it died.

He said he usually doesn’t exercise a lot but started working out after seeing Taeyang and Jay Park.

The member who’s most similar to him; “V Hyung. He’s random, our comedic cords match well, and I think our personalities are similar.” (Profile written by Jungkook)

He is friends with GOT7’s Bambam & Yugyeom, Seventeen’s DK, Mingyu & The8, and NCT’s Jaehyun (a.k.a. ’97 line).

Jungkook, GOT7’s Bambam & Yugyeom, Seventeen’s The8, Mingyu, DK, and NCT’s Jaehyun (the ’97 liners) are in a group chat. (Jungkook and Bambam mentioned the ’97 liner squad in their ‘thanks to’ in their recent albums)

Jungkook’s ideal date; “Walking along the beach in the night.”

Things that he wants to steal from other members are; Rap Monster’s knowledge, Suga’s diverse knowledge, J-Hope’s positive mind, Jimin’s persistence and his effort, V’s natural talent and Jin’s wide shoulders.

Other members about Jungkook;

Suga; “Jungkook has a good memory so he can imitate us well. And I remember that when Jungkook first came, he was shorter than me. Seeing him grow taller makes me feel like I’ve raised him.”

Jimin; “I’m 2 years older than him but he keeps making fun of me for my height.”

Jin; “He’s quite bad at refusing requests.”

Rap Monster; “Individualistic, doesn’t share clothes. Washes his clothes separately. A slight timid-ness that’s like a maknae. Although he wants to seem manly, he’s actually a cutie. Although his passion overflows, it doesn’t go on long. Puberty, rebellious, but it seems cute.”

J-Hope; “He’s the maknae who talks backs a lot and doesn’t listen. Although his personality is quite kind… I also have no answer for his personality”

V; “Truthfully, he’s the same as me. I have no answer.”

Suga; “Because he’s the youngest, he’s still immature. However, he clearly shows what he likes and what he dislikes.”

Jimin; “He’s kind, innocent, and is bad at expressing his feelings. That’s why he’s cute. Jeonggukkie’s mine.”

Suga about Jungkook entering High School; “Jeongguk was the most handsome one there.”

V about Jungkook entering High School; “It’s not that the other students were ugly, but JK was most noticeable because he’s tall.”

Ideal type; someone who’s at least 168cm but smaller than him, is a good wife, good at cooking, smart, has pretty legs, and is nice. Also, a girl who likes him and is good at singing.

Summary; he’s a smol, innocent bun who is also a coMPLETE MEME CHILD HOLY FUCK NUGGETS. Hella tall bean with killer thighs and a v v disrespectful attitude on stage…I cri ever-tim ;-;

OKAY SO THAT’S BTS HAVE FUN WITH THAT INFORMATION GO NUTS, HAVE LE FEELS, BECOME TRASH. LIKE I SAID IN MY NOTES THIS POST JUST SHOWS HOW MUCH OF A PIECE OF TRASH I AM OH GODS...

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