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How to say 'I love you' without saying 'I love you' | Chae Hyungwon pt 3
part: 3 of 3
other parts: pt 1 || pt 2 || pt 3
pairing: chae hyungwon x reader
genre: fluff, and LOTS OF SMUT
word count: 7.6k words
note: so. the smut is here. can you believe i had a dream about hyungwon doing this SAME thing here, in my dream? i will RIOT
How to say 'I love you' without saying 'I love you’.
It’s an hour after you arrived, that there is a knock on your dorm room.
When you open the door, Hyungwon stands in front of your door, and you honestly have already missed him so much that you want to hug him.
“I just arrived.”
“Didn’t you want to change and get some rest first?”
“I… I didn’t want to wait a single moment after I came here, so I washed up before we headed out.” He mumbles, a sheepish smile on his face as he motions for you to step outside.
Awww!!!
“Where are we going, Hyungwonnie?” You ask, taking your wallet and bag before you follow him out to the hallway.
“This will be our first date, so we have to go somewhere nice, right?”
You can’t hide the big goofy smile on your face, and it looks like Hyungwon is really proud of himself.
“I didn’t know you were so romantic.”
“Like I said, there are a lot of things you don’t know about me.” He has to say, reaching for the back pocket of his jeans and handing you a single white rose.
A grin forms on your face while you accept the flower look at him, dumbfounded. “Where on Earth did you get the time to plan this?!”
“[Name]-ah, the flower shop near the restaurant next door doesn’t close until 10, did you think I would come to our first date empty handed?”
“I swear, I’m at a loss for words.” You have to say, watching him give a thumbs up and hurry to grab your hand. You hadn’t had a chance to imagine what Hyungwon would be like when he was dating someone, so every little thing he was doing came out as a pleasant surprise for you.
It’s nice to walk freely in the Seoul streets at this time of the night when there are only a few people around and you can wear masks. Hyungwon seems to be at ease as well, and you’re not surprised when he takes you to your favorite cafe a few blocks from the building.
“I think I found another reason to love this cafe even more,” he has to say, as you two enter one of the private booths. “I always loved this place because I can eat in peace here, but now I can come here often on dates with you.”
“You’re so cheesy, Are you really the Chae Hyungwon that hugged me just a few hours ago?”
This makes Hyungwon’s cheeks flush a little - you’re so glad he lowered his mask! - and you have an idea of why, even before he speaks next.
“Well, are you really the [First Name] [Last Name] that... kissed me a few hours ago?”
It’s adorable, the way he said it in a pouty way but hesitated a little in embarrassment. It makes you wonder if things between you and Hyungwon will continue to be like this.
You take a few minutes to decide what to order, and the food arrives in a little while.
Because Hyungwon had already eaten so well at the barbeque during the shooting, he simply had a drink. This meant that his focus was on you and just you. And for the first time, you become a little self-conscious because you’ve caught Hyungwon staring at you multiple times before, but this is the first time he watches you after you knew he had feelings for you.
“Why do you keep looking at me like I’m some kind of seafood pancake?”
Hyungwon chuckles, stirring the ice in his Iced Americano. “I have something I’m curious about.”
“Yes?”
“When did you start to like me?”
The sudden question makes you almost choke on your strawberry drink. Well, you had expected this question - And you were going to ask this from him as well, but jeez, Hyungwon really wastes no time.
“I’m asking because you started crying when you found out I liked you.”
You suddenly want to dig a hole and crawl inside and never come out again, and for some reason, this feels so much more like old times when you two had wholesome conversations till Hyungwon’s manager calls him.
There were a few occasions when he stayed past the scheduled time, even though he had to pay a lot of his money for the late fine rule Monsta X has.
The sudden thought makes you giggle.
“What, what?”
“Nothing, nothing! And you’re right! I did like you before too, but I didn’t realize it until you were going to confess to me, and that scared me so much because of Dawon, and also because… I’m just a writer for the company, that’s all..” You look up from your plate of food and you see that Hyungwon is looking at you, eyebrows a little furrowed.
“But when I went back home to Incheon, my mom said this was all happening because I was being a whiny baby and I should just let you forget me if I was going to keep on crying and not doing anything about it.”
Hyungwon bursts out laughing, and he actually chokes on his drink. You have to get up from your seat and pat his back multiple times before he is able to drink some water.
“That wasn’t something I wanted to show you during our first date…” He mumbles, shaking his head. “So, I have your mom to thank for this, huh? Was she the one who also asked you to ki-”
“Nope, that was Minhyuk’s idea.”
Hyungwon’s eyes go wide again, ears going red once again.
“What?! How does Minhyuk know?”
“Because,” you start, “He knew we liked each other and he was trying to get us together, not get in between us like you thought and blamed me for!”
This makes Hyungwon put his face on the table, like he was really regretting his actions. You hear a whiny ‘Uggggggh I’m so stupid!’ before he lifts his head up and sighs.
“About what you said earlier,” he starts instead, “When have I ever treated you like you’re just some staff member? You should have known that I wasn’t treating you with simple polite smiles and greets like I do with the other staff. You’re the only person I go for meals with, and the only person I buy strawberries for when you do a good job with work. So don’t ever say something like you being ‘just a staff member’. I’ll get mad.”
His words sound so sincere, like he is genuinely baffled that you would remain oblivious to his feelings.
“Fine, I won’t. I promise. Now tell me when you started liking me?” You smile, eating some food while Hyungwon seems to ponder about your query for a moment.
“Do you remember that time we shared the same schedule in Inkigayo with Shinee-sunbaenim?”
This makes you gape, looking at him in utter disbelief.
“What-”
“When Minhyuk gave you the signed copy of 1 of 1, you looked so pretty when you smiled.” Hyungwon grins, hand rubbing on the nape of his neck. “You smiled so brightly, and I wished I was the one that earned such a pretty smile from you. I knew I liked you since then.”
“But Hyungwon-ah, that was… That wasn’t even long since I started working for you guys!”
This earns a big grin from Hyungwon, nodding as he speaks. “I’m good at keeping secrets.”
“Why didn’t you tell me? It’s been four years…”
“I liked you since then, and I can’t keep my eyes off from you… But because I’m a celebrity…”
This makes you mumble a little ‘Ah..’ giving a nod. You’re not sure what he is implying by saying that, but the fact that he’s here with you right now, looking at you with so much love in his eyes… It really doesn’t matter.
“I really wanted to be sure what kind of feelings I had for you. I just know that whenever you play with Jooheon or Minhyuk I get mad jealous. I guess you never noticed that I always take you for breakfast the next day after you do that, so that I can get you to look at me.”
You never noticed that that happened as a pattern, so your mouth is hung agape while Hyungwon bursts out laughing.
“That’s why I know you like me. You’ve been giving me happier smiles after I started to sing for you.”
“Because you sound so dumb!” You two burst out laughing together in unison.
“That really made me think you liked me too, so I got the confidence to ask you out.”
“But I’m just surprised you like me, out of everyone…”
“You’re not going to start saying something like you not being pretty enough for me, like the girls in dramas do, right?”
He completely read your mind!
“It’s true, though, you have to admit I look mediocre compared to you.”
“Shut up. I just told you I fell in love with you because you looked so pretty when you smiled.” He says, which in turn makes you clench your hands at the butterflies forming in your stomach; It’s the first time he said he loves you, not just that he likes you!!!
“I don’t believe in liking someone just by looks, even if I just said that. My heart just grew to like you more and more everyday after I got the chance to easily hang out with you often. It’s not just the looks, you should know this well, [Name]-ah. You’ve seen my face for years but you didn’t feel a thing for me until recently, right?”
“Heheee,” you find yourself nodding, which makes Hyungwon smile back at you.
You can’t help but to look at Hyungwon so fondly. You two barely made it, if anything, and you can’t stop smiling at how happy and how normal it feels, to look at Hyungwon and have your heart racing.
“Yah. Stop staring, you don’t even look at me that much when I’m shooting something.”
“True, I’m always looking at Joo because he’s so cute!”
“Hey!!!”
---
Hyungwon is an absolute gentleman.
The first time you learned this was when he dropped you at your door after your first date, a gentle hand at the small of your back until you reached the company; after which he maintained a little distance.
Because he has different schedules every day, you don’t get to go out to eat with Hyungwon as often as you would like. You still find him hanging by the lounge having lunch with random members occasionally.
The lunch thing becomes a little too frequent as the days pass by, and Hyungwon lets you know that he told the rest of the members beside Minhyuk, and they had decided to help him out, getting out with him with lunch as the excuse.
Today it’s Kihyun and Minhyuk seated in front of you while Hyungwon seats by your side.
“Until how long do you two plan to hide from the company that you’re dating?” Kihyun wants to know, out of nowhere, dipping some fish into the soy sauce.
Both you and Hyungwon hiss, eyes widening that the topic of you two dating is even brought up.
“Heh, you think no one will notice where Hyungwonnie always disappears as soon as his schedule is over every night?” Minhyuk adds more fuel to the fire. “Or not even notice Hyungwonnie entering [Name]-ah’s room every ni-”
“Shut up, you’re gonna give everyone the wrong idea if you say stuff like that!” You hiss, shaking your head. Hyungwon doesn’t say anything, looking very embarrassed and avoiding eye contact with you. His action makes you feel flustered, recalling all the nights he stopped by your room before he went to sleep, just to laze on your bed and kiss you till he’s too sleepy to continue - or gets a call from a manager.
Both of your reactions make the matter only worse, making Kihyun’s eyes go really wide, turning to Minhyuk who has a knowing smirk on his face. That little idiot. He knows nothing and always acts like a snake.
But then again, he adds that spice to variety shows that you, as a writer, always get pleasantly surprised at. So you can’t say you hate it.
“You two are adults and all, but-”
“Ah, please stop!” Hyungwon begs, tapping his chopsticks on the table and creating a little ruckus to interrupt whatever Kihyun was trying to say.
“Kihyunie may be stupid but he has a point this time, kids.” Minhyuk says.
“Who are you calling stupid?!”
“Who are you calling kid?!”
---
It’s a couple nights since then, and Hyungwon finished his practice ‘early’, so he pops into your room at 01:39 am.
It’s actually quite an ungodly hour of the night; you would have been sleeping at this hour if you hadn’t started dating Hyungwon. But even if he pops by for only five minutes, it is worth every second and the amount of coffee you’d have to drink the next morning while you doze off.
“Finished everything?” You ask, smiling up at Hyungwon who is wearing a sky blue sweater, and gray sweats. His hair is still a little damp in some places, like he had used his hair-dryer in a crazed frenzy.
The male nods, closing the door behind him and tightly locking the door. You hurry towards him, and you’re able to see the way he breaks into a smile right before he embraces you.
“I was drained out last night, that’s why I couldn’t drop by to see you.” Hyungwon lets you know, his nimble fingers carding through the locks of your hair softly.
“You must be so tired.” You give a little pout, patting his hair. The male glances at you, smiling at the cute action and giving a little nod.
“I have a really early schedule tomorrow morning, but I’ll have the rest of the day off. Can I come to you then?”
You nod, standing on your tippy-toes, and then pulling on the collar of Hyungwon’s shirt - he’s that tall, yes - and pressing your lips to his.
It’s so gentle; from the way he kisses you, the way his lips graze on your bottom lip, the way he softly licks your bottom lip and has both his arms around your waist. You can feel the heat from his body and every warm breath of his, and you end up sighing into the kiss which makes Hyungwon move a little for air and look at you.
It’s a little embarrassing so your cheeks are flushed but Hyungwon breaks into a grin, pulling you for a hug this time.
“I’ll meet you for lunch tomorrow.”
You give him a wave, watching him pull down his hoodie as best as he can and running across the hallway to his room.
The next day, there is a downpour. You get a text from Kihyun that the boys are in the recording studio for their schedule and you’re thankful that he didn’t have to go somewhere far away and would be unable to come back in time for lunch.
Since you and Shownu share a similar diet plan, you’re having lunch with the male when Hyungwon finishes up his schedule and finally sits down beside you. He looks like he had a long day, as he does not talk much while he eats black bean noodles in a jiffy.
“Good luck!” Shownu gives you a suspicious thumbs up, which makes you very confused while Hyungwon hurries to lead you back to your room. You still had some pages of work left to write up, so you find yourself sitting by the headboard of your bed while the male reads some manhwa from his phone.
This is actually quite a common occurrence recently; doing your own thing but with each other’s company. You like the way you would snuggle beside Hyungwon and kiss his cheek while he’s reading some documents, and he would give in and pull you to his lap so he can kiss you better.
And the other days are like today, where Hyungwon is the one who comes up to you, peeking at your laptop, playing with your hair, and trying to distract you with soft kisses.
If anything, it is working, and you can’t ignore the way he mumbles your name and looks at you like a little child waiting for playtime.
“You’re a grown-up, yet, you act like a kid.” You comment, putting away your laptop for the day and opening your arms. Hyungwon smiles, watching you lie on the bed, facing him.
“I have some good news, [Name]-ah.”
“What is it?”
“One of the songs I wrote is going to be on the upcoming album!” He says, hugging you tightly. Your eyes go wide in surprise, and thinking about all the times he had been complaining about how much revisions he had to do feels worthwhile. You grin, giving him a kiss on his forehead.
“I can’t wait for it, Hyungwon-ah.”
“I just recorded it earlier today.” He lets you know, “I can’t wait for you to hear it.”
“I’m so proud of you.” You let him know, genuinely. You smile at him fondly, and it looks like he could see your sincerity in your eyes, before he pulls you to him and pecks your lips.
Minutes change to hours, and it’s already evening when you two wake up from a nap you didn’t even realize you two had drifted off to. Hyungwon stirs in his sleep, one eye opening when you pull his arm off from you and get up to drink some water. When he realizes he was still in your room, he sits up, pointing at the water bottle now in your hand. You bring the bottle to him, watching him take a couple of sips.
It is while he hands you the bottle that the rough fabric of your sweater rubs against your nipple, and you drop the bottle to the floor at the sensitive feeling.
“What? What’s wrong?” Hyungwon looks at you, alarmed, when he sees you bending down to pick the bottle up in a hurry. “Are you okay?”
You give a nod, taking a step back.
“Why are you acting weird out of nowhere?”
How do I tell him that this is a totally normal thing for girls when we don’t wear a bra? You look at him panickedly, taking a step back when he gets off from the bed and comes towards you. The action makes you flinch again, and you can’t help letting out a little ‘ow’.
“Yah. What’s going on? Are you hurt?” He asks, grabbing your wrists before you can flee with the excuse of getting snacks or something. By now, your face is all sweaty and completely red from embarrassment, and you can’t help but pray that Hyungwon does not notice.
“I’m fine!” You say, and your words and actions are probably not matching because Hyungwon furrows his eyebrows at you, while you feel your eyes getting a little teary from the embarrassment.
“You… Why are you crying?”
God damn it, Hyungwon sure is persistent.
“I told you, nothing is wrong-”
“Yah. You obviously do not look fine. We already had such a big misunderstanding because we couldn’t say what we wanted to, so I don’t want something like that to happen again. We barely made it to this point now, so if you don’t tell me why you’re crying right now, I’m going to get very angry.”
You appreciate that he is thinking about your benefit, but you can tell there is no way he would let go of your wrist unless you tell him the truth.
And that is why you smack your face to his chest, and just take a deep sigh while Hyungwon wraps his free hand around your waist, almost out of habit.
“It’s just a random girl thing and this does not mean I’m horny or anything, okay?! But my… nipples… are hard so it’s ...sensitive.”
There is no response, and you wonder if Hyungwon even heard what you said. Your face feels like it’s on fire as you continue to talk, if only to break the silence.
“It’s just something that happens to girls when we’re not wearing a bra, that’s all… That’s why I kept saying I’m fine…”
Still, silence.
You’re very embarrassed, especially because Hyungwon had instinctively pulled you closer to him, so your chest was already pressed against his. When you move a step away and look up at Hyungwon, you’re absolutely startled to see that his face is completely flushed red, eyes unblinking and just looking at you while you take another step away - and yet, he does not let go of your wrist.
“Yah, what are you saying!” He finally reacts, letting go of your wrist and looking away from you. “Y-You didn’t have to tell me all that!”
“You made me say it though????”
Hyungwon moves another step away, eyes on the floor, mumbling something inaudible under his breath.
“Yah, just ignore what I said, let me just go and change, then it’ll be f-” Your sentence is interrupted when Hyungwon grabs your wrist once again, shaking his head.
“What-”
“I-I’ve wanted you for ages, and now that I finally have you, you… you should stop saying things that make it impossible for me to h-hold in what I feel for you,” he mumbles so quietly that you barely hear him, “Because it’s really, really hard for me.”
Despite how startled you are at his confession, the look in his eyes is so vulnerable, his ears and cheeks still so bright red while he lets go of your wrist, this time in favor of intertwining your fingers with his.
“If you…” His voice trails down, taking a step back and pulling you along, up till he is seated on the bed. He does not look away from you for a single second, then pats his lap, looking at your every action. You feel flustered but do as he instructed, seating yourself on top of his lap and watching as he leans against the headboard before he wraps his long slender arms around your back.
Hyungwon’s lips meet with yours, and this is the first time since the very first kiss, where all the gentleness is gone and he is kissing you like he might go crazy if he didn’t. You gasp when he lightly bites on your bottom lip, using the opportunity to slide his tongue in your mouth.
Your heart is racing like crazy, and it does not help that he has his hands under the fabric of your sweater, warm fingers gripping your hips and back as he kisses you deeper. Your lips are trembling when he pecks your lips softly once before he moves away and looks at you, wordlessly. You wonder if you should say something, but as soon as he glances at you, he pulls one hand up to clutch your cheek, face moving towards your neck and pressing his warm lips on your collarbone.
The new action makes your eyes wide, pressing your lips tight together as he kisses your neck, peppering soft pecks on both sides of your neck, his tongue and lips working together and softly sucking at the skin enough to leave a bruise.
This earns a gasp on your side, and Hyungwon looks back up at you, and you’re even more startled when you see that his eyes have darkened a little, watching you with hooded eyes that feel almost too sinful to look at.
“Hyungwon-ah…”
“I won’t stop unless you ask me to.” He says, and you don’t have time to respond - to even say you don’t want him to stop - before his lips meet with your neck once again, another peck on your collarbone until Hyungwon runs out of your exposed skin.
“Take it off.” He orders, pulling at the hem of your sweater. Your thoughts are traveling a mile a minute up till then, going blank when he says that and looks at you, light tugs of your sweater continuously reminding you of his request. You look at Hyungwon with wide eyes, the embarrassment from before replaced by the one due to his order. You lower your hands from around his neck, hesitating a little in embarrassment.
“Do you want to stop here?” He asks when you pause, a little smile forming on his face when you shake your head in response. “Then, are you embarrassed?”
When you nod your head, Hyungwon pulls his hands away from the bare skin of your back, before he begins unbuttoning his own shirt.
With every button that comes undone you become more impatient, watching him discard the shirt, looking at you with longing in his eyes while you slowly run a hand over his bare skin. You feel a little relieved that his skin is just as warm as your felt, and you lean in a little to kiss his lips.
Hyungwon holds your arms while you have your clutches on his cheeks, kisses becoming more and more desperate until he moves you away and takes a deep breath.
You reach for the hem of your sweater again, this time pulling it over your head and throwing it away. You can’t get yourself to meet eyes with him just yet, still feeling embarrassed about showing your bare body to Hyungwon for the very first time. When there is no reaction from his side, you finally glance back up at his face, and find him looking at your newly exposed skin with lustful eyes. He reaches a hand out to grab one of your breasts, giving it a squeeze that makes you gasp. Hyungwon tilts his head up to kiss you once more, both hands grabbing your mounds and thumb rubbing against your nipples. You bite your bottom lip as he presses a soft kiss on one of your breasts, and when he licks your nipple, you let out the first moan.
This makes Hyungwon jolt up his head in surprise, watching your face as your chest heaves up and down. You think there’s a smirk on his face when he kisses the other nipple, softly sucking in such sinfulness that makes you tilt your head back, clutching a chunk of his hair in failed attempts to hide your moans. You can feel your core getting wetter with every little action of his lips over your sensitive buds.
“Hyungwon-ah, please…” Your voice trails off and he finally lifts his head up, looking at you with hazy eyes, and when he leans in to kiss your lips again do you notice Hyungwon’s hard on pressing from where you are seated on his lap. You mumble his name again impatiently, watching as he softly wraps both arms around your back once again, kissing your lips as he leans forward, making you slowly fall back down onto the bed with a little ‘oh!’.
It’s a different kind of feeling when Hyungwon gets on top of you, hands pulling down your sweatpants to expose your bare legs and panties that are getting wetter with every one of his ministrations. You’ve started to get used to Hyungwon staring at you in general, but this is the first time he looks at you with his lips parted slightly, eyes dark from lust as he kisses your thigh, another hand raking his nails on your skin and not even letting you catch your breath.
“Hyungwon-ah.” You mumble, watching him lift his figure from over you in favor of unbuttoning his trousers, and god damn. You thought you might end right then and there; watching the way his eyes never leave yours while he throws the clothing and presses the visible bulge in his boxers against you.
It’s so, so close, and your moan comes out as a whine as he bucks his hips against you once again. A faint smile forms on his face, affectionately kissing your cheek while he presses his chest against yours.
“[Name]-ah.”
You hum, eyes still closed at how painfully agonizing it feels as he grinds against you. You can barely hold yourself, and it seems like Hyungwon felt the same way, lifting the side of your panties and sliding a finger inside your wet cunt.
Your eyes fly wide open at that, a loud gasp leaving from your mouth. Hyungwon’s face is so close to you, his warm hot breath on your face as he watches your every action. While one hand holds his weight over you, the other pulls your panties down enough so he can easily rub his long, nimble fingers over your clit.
When you let out a moan and close your eyes, Hyungwon softly calls your name once again. You open your eyes, chest rising up and down like crazy now that he has inserted another finger and is rubbing on your clit so maddeningly slowly.
“Hyungwon-ah, please.”
“[Name]-ah.” He presses a kiss on your neck, two fingers knuckle-deep inside you while his thumb roughly rubs on your nub. Your legs have started shaking a bit, especially now that he bends his fingers inside your cunt, as if trying to find something - and he does, such a sweet spot that has your moans increasing in frequency and has Hyungwon watching eyes full of lust and confidence that he is the only one who can see you melt under his touches.
You actually have tears in your eyes when he removes his fingers, coated heavily with your warm fluids. Hyungwon uses his thumb to part your lips, putting his fingers in your mouth and watching you suck all of the juices clean. The bulge in his boxers become more prominent, and you can tell he is holding himself as best as he can before he settles between your legs.
You don’t have a moment to even sigh, before he wraps his arms around your thighs, opening up your pussy up for him to stick his wet tongue inside.
“Oh, Hyungwon-ah.” You moan out his name, once again making him lift his head up and look at you in utter bafflement and thirst.
“You will drive me crazy before I can.” He lets you know, sighing before he licks your clit, tongue rolling circles around the sensitive little spot and making you moan nastily once again. Hyungwon moves his tongue inside your warmth, licking off all your juices and holding your thighs tight apart when you make the slightest hint of closing your legs.
As if his tongue isn’t sinful enough, he lets go of one of your thighs to scissor his fingers inside your heat. You feel a foreign ache in your abdomen, one that knots harder and harder each time Hyungwon sucks on your clit, rubbing his tongue over and over until you’re moaning his name so loud that he has to warn you to be quiet or he would stop.
So you try your best to do as he said, grabbing two handfuls of Hyungwon’s hair and mumbling his name, arching your back in pleasure at how warm his tongue is.
It’s when Hyungwon starts to curl his fingers deep inside you with a simultaneous harsh suck on your clit that you come undone, all over his face, electricity surging through your veins like crazy. Despite your embarrassment, he licks you off clean, sitting up and using the back of his palm to wipe off your juices that had dribbled down his chin.
The entire scene is so scandalous and so seductive that you sigh, sitting up to meet eyes with Hyungwon before pulling him close to kiss him.
“Hyungwon-ah.”
“Okay.” He nods, and you’re not sure how he exactly read your mind, but you’re relieved when he gets off from the bed, pulling down his boxer pants. His erection is hard, and pulsing, and when he makes his way to the bed, you stop him, getting off from the bed yourself and dropping on your knees in front of his length.
Your sudden action, paired with the way you wrap your fingers around his length makes Hyungwon gasp, eyes widened when you look up at him. The tip of his length is already oozing from desire, and you lick off the juices, the sweet sound of his first moan of the night almost driving you insane. You need to hear that again.
And again.
And again, you run your tongue on his length, and you can already tell that he is impatient, in the way he has grabbed a chunk of your hair and guides your mouth to his tip.
You grab the end of his length, palming it gently as you take him inside your mouth, the sound of your saliva rubbing over his length earning a guttural groan from Hyungwon. You take him in as much as you can, bobbing your head back and forth and sighing at the way the base of his cock reaches your throat. This earns yet another groan from Hyungwon, his grip on your hair tighter as he bucks his hips in motion with your sinful mouth taking his length in.
“[Name]-ah.” He mumbles in a moan when you rub your tongue on his tip, much like the way he had been ravishing your clit just minutes ago. The thought makes you moan while you take his length in again, eyes going up to see Hyungwon’s face redder than you had ever seen it before, his entire body trembling as he clutches your hair tight and fucks your mouth like he was going insane.
And that’s exactly the way he felt, and you could tell in the way you can feel his cock throb in your hands, each time his length goes deep inside you while you rub the base.
“[Name]-ah, you’re so-” His words halt when you take his entire length inside slowly, and it takes all of his willpower to not tremble and buck inside you, a loud moan escaping through his beautiful lips and you can’t help keep your eyes locked with his. And he tries his best to watch you, but with every time your tongue rubs at the bottom of his cock each time you take him in, his eyes shut tight, a mixture of groans and moans filling the entire room until he lets go; coming undone all over your mouth.
“[Name]-ah.” He sighs, catching his breath as he watches the way you open your mouth to take in the liquid the oozes out of his tip, licking everything off his tip and rubbing your tongue over your lips to lick off the remains. Hyungwon watches you in what feels like a daze, eyes filled with lust while he gives you a hand and pulls you up.
You think he was about to say something before you press your lips to his, bodies in contact and tasting each other’s fluid in each other’s mouth. The thought itself is enough to drive you crazy, and the way his hands slowly grabs your ass and you feel his length rubbing dangerously close to your wetness makes you moan into his neck.
It felt like Hyungwon thought the same, his kisses so desperate as he leads you towards the bed, making you sit down and lean back as he kisses you till you’re laying on the bed again,
“You’re still not asking me to stop.”
“I don’t want you to stop, Hyungwon-ah.” You say, spreading your legs enough just to feel his tip rubbing on you once again.
Hyungwon looks at you, lips parted a little before he sinks a finger inside you, as if to check just how wet you were. Satisfied with the warm wetness pooled in your core, he gets off from you and reaches for his earlier discarded trouser pocket. You are absolutely baffled when he pulls out a wallet and takes a square-shaped packet before he makes his way on top of you again.
“You had planned this long ago, didn’t you?” You can’t help but ask, and Hyungwon shakes his head, chuckling and kissing your cheek.
“No, I really didn’t expect this to happen today, but since we’re guys, we get a big stock of these and we’re always asked to carry one wherever we go.” He laughs, pecking your lips. “I only did this starting from when we were going out, because I wanted you so bad and I didn’t know for how long I could keep my cool.”
You smile, hands on his cheeks and pulling him into a kiss. “You don’t need to anymore. I want you too, Hyungwon-ah.”
Hyungwon sighs into the kiss, and when you rub your tongue on his lips, he pulls himself up from you and you whine at the loss of contact. You watch as he grins at your action, trying his best to take the condom out and sheath his hard, throbbing cock before he looks at you once again.
You open up your arms, and watch as the male comes to you, pressing a kiss onto your lips before he rubs his tip on you once again. You let out another impatient whine, looking at Hyungwon who has his eyes on you as he very slowly inserts his member into your wetness.
You both gasp at the foreign feeling, and Hyungwon intertwines your fingers, resting your hands on the bed as he presses his entire body on yours and leans in to kiss you again.
“Are you okay?” He asks, and his voice is so gentle that the little tears forming in your eyes from his length - god is he big, you didn’t realize until he got inside you - streams down from the corners of your eyes.
“I love you.”
The worry in Hyungwon’s eyes goes away when you tell him that. It’s the first time you had told him that, in response to what he said on your first date and told you he was in love with you.
Such a beautiful smile forms on his face, eyes so full of affection that he loosens one hand free to press it on your cheek, pecking your lips again.
“Hyungwon-ah.” You call softly, and he nods, making him prop one arm on the bed while the other pins your wrist down. Lifting his weight up, he removes his length from inside you, only to buck into your hips and have his tip reaching all the way to the hilt so fast that it has you moaning instantly.
“I love you too. So much.” He says, eyes never leaving you, even for a second as he plunges his length in and out of you. He groans in content at the way your warmth feels, even through the sheath of the condom he has on.
You wrap your free hand around his neck, pulling him even closer. Hyungwon sighs at the contact, a hand reaching to clutch on your breast, and you let out a little cry at the way his squeezes match each of his thrusts. You unconsciously find yourself clenching your walls, the new tightness making a throaty groan escape from Hyungwon’s lips. When you open your eyes, you see Hyungwon biting his bottom lip as bucks his hips and pushes his length inside you, head tilted a little to the back in pleasure while you continue to clench around his member.
You two’s moans fill the room, the sound of sweaty skin slapping together making you wetter and Hyungwon to push inside you with hooded eyes, so you sink your nails into his back; earning another groan from Hyungwon.
“On all fours.” Comes his second order of the night, and you’re whining a little when he pulls his length out of you. You sit up, turning around, hands and knees on the bed. The excitement you feel at not seeing what Hyungwon is up to is insane, and when he presses on your back and pushes his length inside you again, you can’t help but mewl a little.
“Hyungwon-ah!” You cry out, feeling embarrassed when he holds your hips with one hand and uses the other to rub at your clit. The pleasure you feel at being so, so filled up like this makes you unable to control your moans, and you can feel Hyungwon lean in a little, pressing his body closer to you as he thrusts his cock in and out of you. The way he flicks roughly against your sensitive nub has your moans increasing in frequency, his length mercilessly pushing through your folds so much that you press your face to the bed to tone down your voice.
“[Name]-ah.”
You can barely hum in response, legs feeling like it might give out any second. When you don’t respond properly, Hyungwon takes out the fingers inside you, and you lift your head up, whining a little.
“I want to see you.” He whispers into your ear, removing himself from you again, one hand resting on your ass. “Come on top of me.”
The tone of his voice is a little impatient but also stern, and it makes more heat pool at your wetness. You didn’t even realize you liked this kind of thing until today, and you nod, hurrying to get on top of the male who is breathing heavily and waiting for you. His erection is hard and you wrap your arms around it, guiding it inside you while Hyungwon has his eyes shut tight. You take a moment to sigh at how good it feels, and Hyungwon begins to thrust in and out of you again.
Your eyes shut tight, leaning on the bed for support. When you open your eyes, Hyungwon is watching the way your breasts go up and down with every thrust of his. Suddenly, you feel embarrassed, so you lean in to kiss his lips, closing your eyes and sighing when he wraps his arms around your body. He feels so warm, and he tightens his grip on you, his thrusts increasing in pressure and frequency.
You sigh out loud on his neck, kissing and sucking on his warm skin, and Hyungwon lets out a little groan when you clench on his length once again.
“I won’t last long if you keep doing that.” He mumbles into your ear. You give a deaf eat to what he said, because you liked feeling so filled up while he continues to fuck you and hold you so tightly. Despite what he said, you’re the one that doesn’t last long, the knots in your abdomen coming undone as you come while Hyungwon continues to pump his length inside you desperately. His thrusts become slower and sloppier, and from the loud groan he lets out while he sinks his nails into your ass, you can tell that he has reached his high as well. You lift your ass up and down to help him ride out his orgasm, until he wraps his arms around your waist and pulls you to the side, still connected.
There is silence save for the two of you gasping and catching your breath. His grip on your body is still tight and you can feel his warm breath on your head as he rubs one hand over your bare back. The electricity you felt a little while ago dies down, and you finally lift your head up to face Hyungwon, who is watching you and smiles when you meet eyes.
“Wait a bit.” He says, kissing your cheek and then getting up. You feel a little hollow when he gets off from you, tying up and discarding the used condom into the wastebasket. When he climbs onto the bed, Hyungwon notices the way your juices have oozed out of your wetness, and you put your hands over your face in embarrassment as he continues to just stare at your womanhood without a word.
“Yah, stop staring!”
Hyungwon doesn’t say anything, but instead leans down, tongue licking off all of your wetness and making you gasp in surprise. You blink at him in surprise when he finishes off, then comes back to hold you in his arms. The way he holds you tightly and runs his fingers through your hair softly makes you think back to everything that just happened out of nowhere, something you had barely even thought of even though you two have been dating a while.
"I'm gonna have a hard time covering this up tomorrow, huh?" He says, rubbing a hand on the spot on his neck you sucked earlier, which has now turned into a little bruise. He then leans in and notices the hickeys he left on your neck and chest, and gives a content grin.
The way he’s smiling at you with nothing but love and affection makes you wrap your arms around his neck, pressing your face to his warm, bare chest.
“This is the first time I’ll ask, so please. Stay with me for tonight.”
You wonder if he will get upset at you for saying this, but Hyungwon only chuckles, grip on your body getting a little tighter and pressing a kiss to your forehead.
“Mmhmm. I won’t leave you.”
“If you say things like that I’m not gonna be able to let you go even tomorrow.” You say, the two of you laughing together.
Even when words are not being exchanged, the warmth you two shared as you cuddled together under the duvet of your bed makes your heart feel safe and cozy. You almost drift off into sleep once again, but you can hear Hyungwon mumbling a little as he begins to doze off.
“I love you, [Name]-ah. I’ve always loved you.” He mumbles, and you smile, thinking back to how much you two cried in mutual pining.
Really, there really is no way to express that you love someone without saying it first.
And as Hyungwon continues to mumble as he falls asleep, he looks so beautiful and you fondly smile, feeling so glad you finally got the courage to tell him how you felt.
“I love you too, Hyungwon-ah.”
- end
#hyungwon#chae hyungwon#monsta x#monsta x hyungwon#monsta x smut#hyungwon smut#hyungwon fluff#peppusae
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Chapters: 5/5
Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Kim Taehyung | V/Reader, Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin
Characters: Kim Taehyung | V, Jeon Jungkook, Park Jimin (BTS), Choi Youngjae, Kim Yugyeom, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Min Yoongi | Suga
Additional Tags: scum’s wish inspired, Angst, Smut, jikook fluff, Suffering, hyung line are lecturers, here’s the taehyung smut that i’ve been craving oops, how does one tag, development centric
Series: Part 1 of We crave the things we’ll never have
Summary:
❝It hurts me too, I don’t know if I feel numb, or if I’m feeling so much pain at once that I’m not even aware anymore.❞
or;
college au where you love jimin with every fibre of your being, but he’s in love with someone else.
and only taehyung understands your pain because his heart beats for jungkook; the very object of jimin’s affections.
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✾ ✫ ❦ technologically in love | android! au — @jungshookz
✾ ✫ close to you | bad boy! au — @hollyhomburg
✾ ✫ ❦ baby, you can drive my car | mechanic! au — @/jungshookz
✾ ❦ suit & tie | office! au — @/jungshookz
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✾ first snow | established relationship + christmas! au — @sunyoonandstars
✾ winter wonderland | established relationship + christmas! au — @midnightbts
✾ ✫ please . . . love me | confessions! au — @thatmultifandomhoe
one-shots
✾ all i want for christmas | ceo + single parent + christmas! au — @hayjeon
✾ ✫ we own the night | childhood friends! au — @/midnightbts
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✾ ✫ black & white | college! au — @akinnie75
✾ churro chumps | college! au — @cinnaminsvga
✾ hug-o-gram | college! au — @/cinnaminsvga
✾ ❦ mixtape | college! au — @jungblue
✾ need a hand? | college! au — @cupofteaguk
✾ so i heard you like bad boys | college! au — @scriptaed
✾ s.u.g.a | college! au — @bangtanfancamp
✾ ✫ the redmail | college! au — @/scriptaed
✾ ✫ ❦ tsundere | college! au — @dovechim
✾ ✫ promises | complicated relationship! au — @anon-luv
✾ eight | confessions! au — @/cupofteaguk
✾ a boy like you | coworkers! au — @/cinnaminsvga
✾ ✫ romance is dead | established relationship! au — @dinoyoongi
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✾ ✫ vogue | fashion designers! au — @gukyi
✾ a heart full of love | high school! au — @/gukyi
✾ ✫ love lyrics | high school! au — @glassbangtan
✾ better place | hogwarts! au — @/cupofteaguk
✾ interconnection | hogwarts! au — @/gukyi
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Seasonal Playlist Tag?
Okay, so @jour-de-printemps tagged me in a playlist thingy with the season of SPRING. I got carried away and here is 40 songs lololol. Some of these are about new beginnings and growth and spring themes, so some of them are happy and some are sad, but most of them I picked based off the music itself. anyway, half of them are BTS sorry not sorry.
River by Eminem (Feat. Ed Sheeran)
Scared To Be Lonely by Martin Garrix & Dua Lipa
Castle on the Hill by Ed Sheeran
Anna Sun by Walk the Moon
Happier by Ed Sheeran
She’ s No You Jesse McCartney
Back to the Start by SoMo
Thunder by Boys Like Girls
Different Colors by Walk the Moon
One Foot by Walk the Moon
Dive by Ed Sheeran
Thief by Ookay
Better with You (Tep No Remix) by Jesse McCartney
I Think I’m In Love by Kat Dahlia
Two Ghosts by Harry Styles
Grace by Lewis Capaldi
So Far Away by Agust D (Feat. Suran)
I Need U by BTS (Literally every song after this is BTS)
Just One Day
Run
Begin
Spring Day
Intro: Serendipity (Full Length Version)
DNA
First Love
Awake
Like
For You
Outro: Her
Butterfly
Come Back Home
Coffee
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Paradise
Let Go
My Time
Moon
We Are Bulletproof: the Eternal
Trivia: Seesaw
Answer: Love Myself
Magic Shop
Epiphany
Honorable Mention: Epilogue: Young Forever. I cant decide if this is a spring song or a summer song lolol.
Thanks for coming to my TED Talk
I tag @saturnmyg, @99020448, @zerotexas1975, @peppusae, @lamourche for the season of FALL :-) (you do not have to do this many I swear I think Mari did like 15)
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A pupusa... but like, the insides are made of cheese and pepperoni. Peppusa.
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Ambivalence
read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3e9uYjQ
by peppusae
Tendou feels bad for bailing out from being your fwb, so... He introduces you to Semi Eita.
Words: 2430, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English
Fandoms: Haikyuu!!
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Categories: F/M
Characters: Semi Eita, Tendou Satori
Relationships: Semi Eita/Reader, Tendou Satori/Reader, Tendou Satori/Reader/Semi Eita
Additional Tags: Glorious smut, there's some tendou, there's gonna be a LOT of semi smut, i'm always horny for tensemi porn
read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/3e9uYjQ
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Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Kim Seokjin | Jin/Reader
Characters: Kim Seokjin | Jin, Jeon Jungkook, Kim Taehyung | V, Park Jimin (BTS), Kim Namjoon | RM, Min Yoongi | Suga, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope
Additional Tags: happy birthday jin!, Crack
Series: Part 5 of You are my lake
Summary:
this is what happens when you try to combine soulmate au with crack
happy jin day!
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[kth] lavender honey ch. 6
note: this fanfic has multiple chapters, so please look forward to more!
lavender honey: kim taehyung x reader
genre: crack, fluff, college au, smut
word count: 3k words
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lavender honey
ch 6: in which... sad things happen.
There's a saying that too much happiness can actually be unhealthy for you.
And there are no truer words… not when you get a phone call from your parents and you pick up the call to hear the very worried voice of your Mum, telling you and Namjoon to come visit your sick grandfather as soon as you can.
And so, you find yourself in Namjoon's car, to head to Ilsan. Your fingers are trembling while you type out and tell Taehyung you have to cancel the plan for the weekend.
“Your Grandpa is sick, I don't know why you're apologizing that you can't accompany me. You don't have to apologize for that, [Name]-ah.” He has to express, when he calls your number as soon as you send him the text.
You can only give a nod, one he wouldn't even see, and mayhaps he noticed something off about your response (or lack thereof), because he hums in acknowledgement at you.
“I'd really like it if you can… keep me updated.”
“Okay.” You agree, a little touched at his words. Another call is approaching your phone so you say bye to Taehyung, before picking up the call from your Mum.
“Mom says to hurry.”
Namjoon accelerates the car in response.
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There's something new you learn everyday.
Sometimes, what you learn is very little. But on the other days, you learn a lot over a short time.
That's what life is.
Today, you understand the value of family.
Namjoon holds your hand tightly while you watch the ECG system, the heartbeat rate of your only living grandparent dangerously dropping with every passing second. He lies still, and you try your hardest to watch and tell apart the rise and fall of his chest, but…
It doesn’t happen anymore.
Beside your grandpa's ear, you can see your uncle reciting soothing prayers, and the tears forming in Namjoon's eyes are unbearable for you.
So you give your grandpa's hand a squeeze and step outside, feeling your lips trembling when you feel your phone vibrating in your pocket.
Jungkook..?
“Noonim?” He asks, voice soft when you don't respond.
“Hello.”
“Noonim. Where are you?”
What's the best answer for that? Was there a way you could cut the call and text him instead? Because saying the single hi had taken everything ounce of energy that you had.
“... Ilsan.”
“Noonim… I…”
“My grandpa is sick. Can I text you back, Jungkookie?”
It’s almost like you can hear his nod, as he stutters out a ‘Y-Yes, okay!’ before you hang the call.
It's right after this call when Namjoon steps outside and takes a seat next to you. It's rare, to see him like this as he holds his hand towards you while he takes his phone out as well. So you let him, watching as he makes his call, and it reminds you that despite the bantering and slight distance you two had after you two had started growing up, this was still the same Namjoon who would build sand castles with you when you go to the beach, even though he would have preferred to swim, instead.
The growing up had put some distance between you two, but you realize that you two needed each other as much as you did when you were little and needed a partner to play hopscotch with.
So it's difficult to watch as he squeezes your hand, to hear him say ‘Yes, Professor Yeon? I'm afraid I can't assist you over this weekend. My grandfather passed away so I'm out of the city.’
And this pains you as you watch the slightly scrunched up face of his as he listens to probable condolences that his professor sends him.
“Joon… Did they confirm it..? Grandpa really… passed away?”
“Just minutes ago.”
You feel your heart crumbling, wishing you didn't step outside and had stayed with him to the end. So you let Namjoon wrap his arm around your shoulder and hold you tight while you hear and feel his sniffs reverberate through his chest.
The funeral is to be held on the same day, 6 hours after your grandpa left the world. You worry about Namjoon, because he has spent a big chunk of his childhood with Grandpa and joined him when he tried to disassemble and reassemble machines.
You don't have any such memories with Grandpa and maybe that's why you aren't able to shed tears, even though they prickle at the corner of your eyes.
And you aren't sure if the tears were actually because you were grieving, or if it was caused by seeing Namjoon so vulnerable and shedding tears.
… It's quite cruel of you, isn't it?
You had messaged both Taehyung and Jungkook, and the two of them had sent you their condolences. The elder had made a call which you refused to take, and you had seen Namjoon rejecting a call from Taehyung as well.
There are many people coming to see grandpa one last time before they put him in his coffin. A lot of people give you their condolences as well, and family members you hadn't met in years also give your shoulders pats, while Namjoon not leaving your side makes you able to control your trembling lips.
It's a few minutes to 5pm, the time when the funeral begins. A man comes up to where you and your family are huddled by Grandpa's still form, and you're confused when you see a lot of your aunts - and even your mom - starting to sob, when this man brings a big piece of white cloth with him.
“Namjoon, what's going on-”
And you slowly understand. You slowly understand, when you watch the man placing the cloth over Grandpa's face, and you realize that everyone was crying harder than before because this was the final time, that they will never ever see grandpa’s face again.
You will never see Grandpa again.
You had felt Namjoon's grip on your hands tighten, and this is the moment you break down.
All the tears that hadn't wanted to come down.. All the sadness that had been building up ever since the phone call from your Mom… And everything in between comes down into big baby sobs, and the tears are endless, even when Namjoon turns to you and gives you a little chuckle, through his own tears.
“You're gonna cry now, baby sis?” He asks, and it makes you cry as hard, thankful when he wraps his arms around you.
“Hyung!”
The deep, familiar voice makes you lift your face off from Namjoon and glance at the doorway, where Kim Taehyung stands, hair disheveled and bow tie undone - he had clearly ran a significant distance - and seeing him making his way to you two makes the tears stream down from your face even more. So you find the safety of Namjoon's chest once again while you bawl your eyes out.
“Ah, Taehyung-ah?”
“Hyung. I'm sorry, I wanted to make it in time to see Grandpa’s face as well, but I got late.”
Your sniffles get louder when Taehyung refers to your Grandpa as his as well, then places a hand on your shoulder, the other one on Namjoon's.
“I came to join the funeral, if you'll let me.”
“Thank you, Taehyung-ah. Sincerely. You can.” You hear Namjon respond, and he moves away a little, and you refuse to face Taehyung so you turn away while the two probably exchange embraces.
“[Name]-ah, let's not cry too much.” Namjoon pats your back softly, still patting your hair.
“Hyung, if you will let me…”
You start to walk away, maybe go to see your Mom instead and just wanting to hold onto someone and cry. But turning around was a bad idea, because you see your uncles carrying the coffin out towards the entrance of the cemetery lands.
And you’re about to walk off before your crying gets loud, when you feel a strong hold on your wrist - one that was definitely not Namjoon.
It baffles you. His grip is so tight but it feels so careful, so delicate that it makes you glance to face Taehyung, who looks at you with doleful eyes. And his eyes are so sad that it makes you turn away again, his grip tightening before he pulls you towards him.
“My heart sinks each time I see you try to hide your face from me.” Taehyung admits, both his arms wrapping around your back and pulling your face to his chest. “If you want to cry… Then, I want you to cry in front of me.”
It's hard not to let it all out when someone says something like that. It's hard no to bawl your eyes out and cry, not holding in your voice which you'd been trying to even while Namjoon was around.
And Taehyung is so careful with you, hands patting your head and pressing soft pecks on your head, humming to you and allowing you to soak the entire front of his shirt and half of his undone bow tie as well.
It must have taken a long time. Taehyung holds tight to you and waits for you like that, and when you move away from him, you’re slightly alarmed to see that most of the guests also have left from the waiting room to join the ceremony.
“God, I look terrible.” You say, wiping your face after you calm down a little. Taehyung watches as you reach for the pack of tissues and reaches a hand to card his fingers through his hair.
“I look worse, I ran all the way here.” He says, finally tying the bowtie which had been loose. “When I found out, I just…. I really wanted to come and attend the funeral with you. Uh, and Namjoon-hyung, too. So I took a train and came here, and I forgot that I didn't have cash on me so.” Your thankful smile turns into sigh at how stupid Taehyung can be, under pressure. He's silent as he watches you while you pat your hair and neaten it a little.
“I've been wiping my face nonstop but the tears just keep coming. That's funny, isn't it?”
He doesn't respond, instead reaching his hand out for you. And you can hear Namjoon calling to you, asking you to join the ceremony and Taehyung isn't family but he feels even closer than that, so you make him sit beside you.
And maybe you're selfish like that.
You'd argue and mock him every chance you get, but now, as he had traveled cities for you and Namjoon's sake… And wouldn't let go of your hand to console you while you cried as the funeral progressed...
You're thankful for him, and your tears have dried out by the end of the ceremony where Namjoon asks Taehyung to stay over.
“Mom. This is our friend from college, Taehyung. He came to visit us and join the funeral.” Namjoon turns to face the male who looks a little flustered at the way your parents watch him. And you don't realize just why he looks red in the face, until he waves his hand a little, and-
Oh.
You still had his hand in your grip, after all.
So you let go, and Taehyung turns to you, a little baffled, but turns to look at your parents when you nod at him.
“Yes, thank you for coming to join us even though this would have taken away your entire weekend, especially if you stay over.”
“I don't mind.” He hurries to respond, looking from you to Namjoon, then back at your parents, who are smiling at the male. “I just. Really like these two siblings, that's why. I hope you can find some healing by spending time with your family and understand that Grandpa is at a better place than he was, earlier.”
Your Dad gives Taehyung a nod as he says ‘Yes, it'll take some time for things to fall back to its place, but we will try our best’, and your Mom pats his hair. You think she likes how fluffy his hair is. You definitely thought his hair was adorably fluffy. But that's a whole other story.
“Would you mind?” He asks, when your parents leave to greet the other attendees.
“When was the last time you cared about what I think?” You ask back.
Namjoon sighs, but he has a smile on his face. “I guess she's cheering up after you came. Thanks for visiting, Taehyung-ah. Stay over so we can drive together tomorrow evening, yeah?”
“Anything for you two, Hyung.”
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Your house in Ilsan is huge.
Your family isn’t exactly royal, but their wealth is considerably above the average well-off standard.
Your favorite is the balcony. It extends out as a narrow hallway, widening afterwards and forming a big circle.
You missed this place.
So you stand at the center, and it’s almost half past one in the morning when the wind blows cooly against your skin. It’s so familiar, and feels refreshing against the two lines of tears on your face that have dried down.
The door to the balcony slides and you turn to see Kim Taehyung, wearing one of Namjoon’s pajamas - they have Ryan on it, and is probably three sizes too big on him - and he gives you a wave before he walks to you.
“Hi.”
“Hello, Taehyungie.”
“I honestly can’t remember a time when you’d called me that name.” He says, joining you and resting his arms on the cement railing. “This you is so new to me.”
“You talk as if I’m a horrible person unless I get vulnerable.”
Taehyung smiles, waving his hand to dismiss your statement.
“So you messaged Jungkook too?”
“Yes.”
There’s a moment of silence before he says ‘I see’, and you really wished you knew why. Was he feeling lonely? If you think about it, everyone really was pairing up, in your squad. There’s definitely something going on with Jimin and Yoongi, and Seokjin and Namjoon were showing some progress too. Hani has a boyfriend from senior year, and you like how well Hoseok gets along with Hyojin…
And now that you’re going out with Jungkook, you realise that Taehyung might feel a little lonely. Was that why he has such a distant look on his face whenever he talks about the younger male? Because you were dating his game buddy and he realises the weight of being the only one not paired up with someone?
“Taehyungie…”
“Yeah?”
“Don’t you ever think about dating? Is there someone you like?”
“The fuck is that out of the blue question?” He raises an eyebrow, and - jeez, he has very attractive eyebrows, they’re just so thick.
“I’m too busy reaching high notes to acknowledge your bullshit.”
“What does my question have anything to do with you reaching high notes? Your comebacks are starting to get sloppy.”
“You clearly haven’t heard me reaching a perfect high note.”
You smile, knowing that, even under a sad situation where you’re here at Ilsan for family issues, he can make you smile. It’s nice like this, because it feels like Taehyung feels that way as well, if the beam on his face as he looks down from the fifth floor of your house is any indication.
“Then, let me hear it once.”
“Maybe I’ll do a collaboration with Jungkook. He has a nice voice, you know?”
“Ah, he does?” You ask. You think back, how did he and and Jungkook become friends in the first place, despite the grade difference?
More importantly, how did you and Taehyung become friends, even though you two had different majors?
And most important of all, when did you two become such close friends that Taehyung would spend his money and travel all the way to console you?
“How do you not know this, I thought you two were dating..?”
“We haven’t…. Made things official, yet.”
“Hmm.”
“He asked me out for the weekend but I cancelled because I had to go with you for the library book collection.”
This makes Taehyung’s jaw drop open, as if he couldn’t believe he was hearing right.
“What? I mean. Why? I told you, right… If you didn’t have to go, only…”
“It doesn’t matter, Jungkook and I could go out any other day, too.” You wave your hand, and Taehyung hums in response.
“Didn’t take you for someone who has a Noona kink.”
“Shut up.” It’s not a Noona kink, it’s actually a Noonim kink, get your facts right, Kim Taehyung.
“You’re weird.”
“Did I.. say that out loud too..?”
“Yes you did, you applebot.” You scrunch your face in response to Taehyung flicking your forehead. “Now go get some sleep. You had a long day.”
You nod, following him back inside, and he pauses on his way to the guest room, glancing at you one more time when you make your way to yours.
“Hey, [Name]?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m sorry if I made you uncomfortable by hugging you today. I know I’m not Jungkook, but it just felt like the right thing to do, so I had to hold you as tightly as I could.”
Now, why did your heart sting, at those words?
Why is it paining you, to see the lorn look in his eyes, as he looks straight into your eyes?
It kinda hurts, and you actually ball your hands into fists, shaking your head.
“You don’t need to be Jungkook. I needed it. Thank you, Taehyungie.”
The expressionless nod he gives before he heads into his room before you could say anything back to him makes you unclench your fists.
Because, really, you wondered if you would have felt calm easier if Jungkook was the one who came instead, if he was the one who held your hand during the funeral, if he was the one your Mom looked at with swooning eyes.
It’s hard to picture Jungkook in a position like that, but it seems natural for Taehyung.
Was it because he and Namjoon are good friends, or if he’s just naturally good at socialising, which isn’t Jungkook’s best feat?
Taehyung’s words repeat in your head over and over until you fall asleep in the comfortable and warm comforter of yours, in your bedroom.
‘My heart sinks each time I see you try to hide your face from me.’
‘I know I’m not Jungkook, but it just felt like the right thing to do, so I had to hold you as tightly as I could.’
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[kth] lavender honey ch. 5
note: this fanfic has multiple chapters, so please look forward to more!
lavender honey: kim taehyung x reader
genre: crack, fluff, college au, smut
word count: 3k words
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lavender honey
ch. 5: in which you learn that jungkook is the human embodiment of uwu
When you're packed and ready to leave the lecture hall, you see find that Jungkook is already outside, waiting for you.
“Did you… Race here right after class..?”
Jungkook has such a sheep grin on his face while he scratches the nape of his neck, and you want to yodel like Tarzan at how freaking adorable he could get. Was Jungkook always this cute or was this exclusive to people he likes?
“Uh. Yes, Noona.” He confesses, and you find yourself pouting while you punch his arm lightly.
“Sweetie, you didn't have to.”
Your form of endearment makes Jungkook's eyes widen, face exploding into a bright red while he raises both his hands to his ears and you could have sworn you saw them twitching.
What in heckles, how much cuter could he get?!
“L-Let's… Go, then, Noonim?”
So, Jungkook can be adorable when he wants to, and also be a sexy beast during the other times.
What a catch .
So you nod, the two of you dressed in your matching clothes and walking so close to each other that you can feel every time his arm lightly brushes against yours. And there's your subconscious friend Minji who is silently screeching each time, because you've never had a date who made you feel so soft like a marshmallow as Jungkook did… And the actual date has barely even started.
Minji is up for some good shit.
“Where do you plan to take me, Jungoo?”
This new nickname makes him freeze in his tracks, looking at you with baffled, wide eyes while you innocently stare back at him.
“T-That name…”
“Why?”
“Why… I mean, the name is c-cute and everything but… Why ?”
“Because you're so adorable and I feel like a pile of goo when I'm with you.”
“ Noonim .” You hear him mumble under his breath, and you can hear Minji letting out a big gasp, which she has been doing each time Jungkook called you the extremely formal version of Noona.
Jeez, who knew you had a Noona kink…
That too, for the formal version.
Bajeez, Jungkook was really good at unleashing out inner beasts of you that you never knew existed.
Next thing you know, you'll find that you have a daddy kink for J-
You shake your head to get rid of the unnecessary thoughts flooding through your head. What a hoe, you're supposed to be on a soft and innocent date with the baby Jungoo, not on a smash fest with Mr. Jeon.
Oh shit, that sounds hot-
“Noona, we could take the bus out to the city if you like, or we can, uh,” Jungkook interrupts your thoughts, “Maybe. Um. If you're okay with it…”
“Yes?”
“I think you know that I own a bicycle, right?”
“... Oh.”
“If you're more comfortable with taking the bus, we can-”
You raise both your hands and shake your head. Getting rid of an opportunity to ride on Jeon Jungkook's bicycle? With the boy himself?
No way are you missing this golden chance. You may be dumb but not that dumb.
“No, I think it'll be romantic, so…” Your voice trails off, when you see the amused expression on Jungkook's face as he breaks from his nervous expression into a big smile.
“I thought exactly the same, Noona. I'm glad we think alike.”
And that's how you find yourself holding onto Jungkook’s torso for dear life as he races across the bumpy streets of Seoul as if he's having the time of his life back at his hometown, Busan.
“[Name]-noona, I used to have a lot of races with my Hyung and I still have a winning streak ongoing with him.”
You don't say.
“Ah… Noonim, do you get scared when I drive fast?”
Oh shit, did you say that out loud…
… Yes you did.
“Don't worry, Noona. I may drive fast but I do drive safe. Besides, this is an excuse for you to hold on to me tighter, isn't it?”
What a brat. You pinch his waist for good measure, and he lets out a sound that feels like a combination of a chuckle and a yelp.
But despite saying that, he bikes noticeably slower after that, and you're able to smile and enjoy the feeling of cool air gushing on your face while you hold on to the younger boy tightly. And it baffles you sometimes, that you're actually out on a date with this 18-year-old boy who, if you really think about it, is just so young. Jungkook's smiles are so innocent and full of childish curiosity that it really makes your heart soft, and question what on Earth he found attractive about you enough to ask you out on a date, like this.
“Jungoo, how do feel about the fact that I’m older than you?” You ask, as you watch him park his bike and put the keys in his jeans pocket.
“Actually, Noona, my - Oh.” He pauses, reaching his hand out for you when a car passes by in front of you two. You feel a little giddy when you place your hand over his, and his grip tightens a little as you two watch both sides of the road and hurry to cross. “Ah. Before that. Noona, you like animation movies, right?”
“You bet I do!”
“There’s a movie I’d like to see, with you. Should I get the tickets for it?” He asks, as he stands in line for the ticketing queue, both your fingers still intertwined. You’re pretty sure your hands were sweating like crazy, but Jungkook doesn’t seem to mind, instead beaming when you give him a big nod.
So mayhaps, Jungkook likes that kinda thing, you know… The sweaty-
Minji’s voice gets torn apart when the younger boy lets go of your hand, a sheepish smile on his face as he digs in to take out his wallet and say hello to the lady at the ticketing counter.
And it’s somewhat amusing, to see the boy taking the lead and purchasing the tickets, handing you one before he stuffs his one messily into his pocket… And then his face reddening when he realises you’ve been watching the entire time.
“Noona… Don’t stare at me that much…”
“Yah, you say that, but you keep staring at me when I eat at lunch!”
“That’s because I… I just!” He sighs, shaking his head before he stuffs his wallet back into his pocket. “It seems like we have some time to kill before the movie starts… Are you hungry? We can have some drinks!”
“We can, but I’m not letting you pay for everything.” You squint your eyes at him, marching towards the cafe inside the building.
“B-But! Noonim, I have to!” Jungkook protests, jogging to meet up with your pace. “I’m the one who asked you for this date!”
“And I’m the one who agreed!”
“That barely makes any sense, Noona…”
“All the more reason why you should listen to your Noonim .” You exaggerate on the last word, and you can see Jungkook purse his lips, blinking at your actions in wonder. You give him a pat on his shoulder and say ‘It’s fine, why don’t you give me a treat on our next date?’
This has Jungkook’s eyes going wider and a silent moment passes (with Minji screeching in the background though) before he raises an eyebrow at you.
“... Noonim, so you do want another date with me, don’t you?”
So this is why Minji was yodeling and putting even Tarzan to shame…
“Don’t be too cocky.” You warn with a smile, tugging onto Jungkook’s ear, and he lets you, a smile dancing on his lips.
And you know it’s exclusive for you, because you’d seen Hoseok getting karate kick to his neck when he had made the mistake of grabbing Jungkook’s ear just a week ago.
So maybe, having this authority over Jeon Jungkook isn’t such a bad thing after all…
You shake your head to stop Minji’s voice from laughing like an evil scientist, and the two of you head to the food court. You give the boy a pleased smile when he listens and goes to find a seat while you order some pudding milk tea for the two of you.
“Ah, is this your preference for outings like this, Noona?” He asks, when you bring the cup to you. You nod in response, looking at him with expectant eyes as he sticks the straw inside and takes a big sip.
“Oh.”
“Do you like it?” You ask, taking a sip from your own cup and sighing to hold down your foodgasm at how good the pieces of pudding taste combined with the milk tea tasted like.
“Noonim.”
“Yes..?”
“This tastes like you.”
W h a t.
It takes a moment for Jungkook to realize how wrong his words sound like, and he gets up on his feet with his doe eyes wider than you’ve ever seen them before. He begins to flail his hands around, shaking his head as he says ‘What! I didn’t mean it like that oh my God, I’m so stupid, I meant that it just tastes so light and easy, just like you are for my heart and I just!’
Jungkook stops creating a fuss when you giggle at his antics, and you motion for him to sit down. The boy looks very flustered, bowing down to apologize to the other customers for being a bother, and then he sinks down on his seat.
“It's fine, you cutie. I know. Now,” you watch as he visibly relaxes, taking a sip from the milk tea, and his ears are still a little red, reacting to your out of the blue nicknames, “You still haven't answered my question about what you think of me being older than you.”
“I think it's… It’s very attractive.” Jungkook confesses, placing his drink on the table, a sheepish smile on his face. “It's very attractive for me.”
“Oh-”
Minji is currently rolling on the floor and screeching as if her ass is on fire.
“Actually, Noona, my Mum is also two years older than my Dad.” He begins to explain. “I think that made me be very open to the age difference thing, so I don't feel weird at all… In fact, I think I like that you're someone I can learn from, so… In the end, I found myself always finding older women attractive, and then I… met you.”
“Jeez,” you sigh when you see the beam on his face. “You're too cute it hurts me.”
“Ah, Noonim, you give me way too much credit.”
And it's soft like this. Minji is really calm now, actually, she's probably living in Bali and dancing soft hula because Jungkook is just that good, talking about his adventures in Busan while you talk about the fun you had with Namjoon during your childhood. And it’s so endearing, the way his eyes widen and he stands up with a jolt, exclaiming that you two would be late for the movie and then hurries to drag you to the theater.
The movie is called ‘Grave of the Fireflies’ and it's one of your favorites. Jungkook had been so excited while he holds your hand and shares the popcorn with you, that you didn't have the heart to tell him that you'd watched the movie years ago with Namjoon and some of his school friends.
The movie is beautiful, just as you vividly remember with the tear-jerking events and Gin being your handsome, first crush just as it had been when you were younger. When you turn to glance at Jungkook near the end, you'd seen his teary eyes which he made sure to wipe properly when the movie ends.
And really, just like he had asked and you were looking forward to, he is up for overanalyzing the movie with you.
“I love sad endings so much.” He confesses, as soon as he exits the theater. “They’re much more realistic than those sappy and cliche happy endings.”
“That’s true! A movie isn’t a good movie if it doesn’t make me cry.”
“I agree with you, Noonim! The ending of the movie was very abstract, though, what do you think was the message when Hotarou said ‘Let’s go?’”
“I think she was referring to the happy parts. Like, the ending is bittersweet and she admits she’ll be sad for a long time, but because of the memories that will refresh even more, now that Gin is gone, she can think about him and be happy that she has such memories with him.”
“That’s what I thought, too. I don’t think she said it in a moving on sense, either, but she meant she was going to take what she received thanks to Gin and that she’ll go on with her life.” Jungkook shares, the two of you so engrossed in your discussion that he’d gotten on his bike and you’d climbed behind, and he only pauses when you wrap your arms around his torso. “Ah. You’re… You’re holding on to me again…”
“That I am, Kookie.” You give his back a little pat, and you hear the soft exhale of his and you can also almost hear his big grin, even though he wasn’t even facing you.
The ride home feels so fast, just like how quickly the popcorn disappeared at the theatre. Jungkook parks by your gate, walking you to your porch where you turn to glance at him, feeling a little sad that the day has come to an end like this, so fast.
“Noonim. I had the best date ever today, thank you so much for coming along with me.” He says, his hand in your grip now as you feel slightly shy at some of your neighbors shooting you glances. “Can I interest you in another date this weekend, if you like?”
And Jeon Jungkook is so sweet. He still looks a little nervous, but he has contrastingly become much more relaxed than he had been when you two first saw each other earlier this morning on the porch.
And you badly want to say yes, but you had to go out of the city with Taehyung for the book collection, you'd hate cancelling on him. Not when he had even spared you from library duty and allowed you to go out with Jungkook early today.
And besides, time with Taehyung is never boring and a chance to visit many cities at once is rare, after all. So, you give a little pout to Jungkook in response, and he watches you as you let go of his hand and take a step on the porch before turning to face him again.
“For library duty, Taehyung and I have to go to visit some other cities during this weekend. I’d go with you if I didn't have to.”
“Ah… Yes, you and Taetae-hyung work together, right?” He asks, face dropping a little. There's something about his expression that you can't understand, because he doesn't look upset or angry that you had to turn down his date offer, but Jungkook looks more… sad, if anything.
Okay, but why would he be sad tho, Jungkook seems like the tough guy who would get jealous and try to watch out to see who tried to flirt with his girl.
That sounds kinda hot.
Oh shit, did you just call yourself his girl?
For cripes sake, Minji needs to quit laughing at what a loser you are.
There's a running doleful look in his eyes when you respond with a nod. You're not sure if it makes you feel better that he doesn't pry further, simply giving a nod and a salute which dismisses his straying pensive glance and replaces it with a beam instead.
“Then, we can go some other time, Noonim. So, enjoy your weekend!” He says, reaching a hand out towards you, which you accept instantly. And his hands feel so soft that you can't help but look at him with a goofy grin on your face; one he replicates with his cheeks red from the contact of your intertwined hands.
“I don't want to leave you just yet.” He admits, glancing at the front door of your house which you're standing in front of.
“Me too… Why don't you come in, then?”
This makes Jungkook's eyes widen and you can see how flustered he is from the way his ears go red while his lips part open like a very shook goldfish.
“S-Some other t-time! This is our first date, Noona!” He whispers, as if he was hyper-aware that someone would be around to hear him.
“Well, I don't see that problem with-”
“Ah, Noonim, seriously.” He shakes his head, giving your hands a light squeeze. You look back as he continues to smile at you, and then he leans in, softly giving your cheek a soft peck and his nose lingering on your skin for a bit and it's such a soft gesture that has both you and Minji lowkey screeching together.
“Please invite me in after another one of our dates.”
And you take a moment before you nod, cheeks flushing when you wave at the male who walks back to the gate and gets on his bike. And it's so endearing to watch him wave at you with both hands as he turns around to look at you and you have to yell, ‘Yah, Jeon Jungkook, watch the road while you bike!’ really loud before he would listen to you and then holds onto the handles like should have from the start.
So you sigh in contentment, getting inside your house and taking off your shoes.
And you're about to climb upstairs to your room when you hear a loud ‘Well, well well. Look who's home after her cute wittle dwate!’ from the living room.
“Hi, Joon.” You respond, getting inside the room, and you're baffled to see Namjoon sitting on the floor, playing cards with Taehyung.
“Hello. How was your date?” He asks, watching you take off your socks and stretch a little.
“It went very good.”
“Is that seriously all you'll tell me?” Namjoon wants to know, and you shrug, taking a bottle of water from the cooler. “Did Jungkook treat you like a man, like he should-”
“Hyung, why are you pretending like you didn't have your face stuck on the glass window ever since you heard Jungkookie's bike rails outside the porch?”
This makes both you and Namjoon gasp, and you squint your eyes at your brother, who gulps in response.
“You can't blame me, okay? It's the first time you've gone on a date with someone who I actually can trust on, but the world is a cruel place and if I don't look out for you when we live away from our parents, then I don't know who else will.”
“It's a sugarcoated way of hiding the fact that he's been stalking you.”
You agree with Taehyung this time, which is a very rare case, if you think about it. You and Jungkook had a lot of things and ideas, and opinions in common, so they wasn't much room for discussing one thing for a long time.
And when you take a seat on the sofa near where the two are and tell Namjoon about your date, Taehyung listens as well, butting in only when you gush about how you and Jungkook share so much opinions in common that it scares you.
Because Taehyung has opposing views with you, unlike Jungkook.
Taehyung has things to argue and point out, unlike Jungkook.
Taehyung does not overanalyze the movie and related things with you, unlike Jungkook.
Instead, he just shares his opinions… Which are very different from Jungkook's.
“It sucks. It was cute when Gin instinctively grabbed that kid’s hand to stop him from falling but it seems very unrealistic because….Hotarou freaking grew up and spent her childhood with him. He reacts as if it's his first time to see a human fall and he breaks the fall, but I'm sure it wasn't.”
“You…” You find yourself at a loss for words. You aren't sure if what Taehyung mentions makes your heart feel something, but it definitely causes you to think far into how much in common you have with Jungkook… and how little you have that, with Taehyung.
And sometimes, you hate when he points out something logical in between his arguments, and you understand it. And even now, you know what he's saying makes sense, but you decide not to acknowledge it, watching in bafflement as he goes on.
“Think about it. She had been an adventurous child. I'm sure she would have gone exploring and climbed trees and stuff. Do you really think she would not have experienced at least one fall? And Gin wouldn't have reacted like that at the end of the movie if he had been used to not reacting at all when she was younger.”
“I must say, Taehyungie does have a good point.” Namjoon offers.
“Shut up! How would Gin know that the kid was a human! Even some goblins look like humans!”
“Are you seriously going to bring that up? Gin is a ghost, he’s lived with the other spirits for God knows how long. He can differentiate human kids and non-humans well, and if he can’t after all those years in the forest, that’s a big fat hole in the plot of the movie, then.” Taehyung has to express.
“When I asked about overanalyzing movies with me, this is not what I meant. God, I'm so glad I went with Jungkook instead, who at least appreciated the movie like I do, and did not go around ruining my childhood along with it.” You stick your tongue out at the male before you retire for the night and head upstairs to your room.
… You come back downstairs after five minutes though, get the DVD of the movie you’d watched today, from the TV rack, and both Namjoon and Taehyung eye you in bafflement while you take the DVD and storm up to your room again.
You were going to find something about the movie which will show how invalid Taehyung’s point is, even if it means rewatching the movie five more times.
Which… Might be dramatic, if you think about it, but oh well. Drama is your middle name, after all
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[kth] lavender honey ch. 3
note: this fanfic has more than one part, so pls look forward for more!
lavender honey: kim taehyung x reader
genre: fluff, crack, college au, smut(?)
word count: 3k
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lavender honey
ch 3: in which taehyung despises knowing the sexual orientation of dead ‘literists’
"Hey, Taehyung, do you think Shakespeare is gay?" You ask, slipping into the seat beside him at the counter the next week.
Honestly, you're ready to change your dissertation topic from 'Kim Taehyung's various facial features' to 'William Shakespeare's sexuality' now, and you feel a surge of pride as you lean against the swivel chair and exhale in content at your new discovery.
It's a warm Tuesday evening, and the library is lined with dozens of students, most of them having their laptops turned on and typing like crazy. Perhaps they were those students who had an assignment due midnight, and you smile, glad that you had actually handed your work in a little earlier this time. Good job, you're actually patting yourself for a job well done as you take your seat.
Taehyung, however, does not smile.
In fact, his face scrunches up a bit as he stares at you with a questioning look.
"What sort of black magic are you doing again to twist my otherwise perfectly normal life, [Name]?"
Black magic. Apparently, Taehyung watches way too many movies.
"No, I'm serious. Am I the only one who thinks this way?" You wonder out loud, reaching for the thick paperback inside your backpack. "Look at this."
Taehyung moves a little closer to you in his chair, the rolling of the wheels making a few heads look up from their laptops and stare at him. The male hurries to give a sheepish smile, waving it off before he turns back to look at the book on your lap.
Look, this is what double standards are like. If you'd done the same, you swear the girls who are seated at the desks would have glared daggers at your fragile being, but it's Taehyung, and Taehyung's a hot dude.
Hot dudes always have it easy aka girls giggling like they've just discovered the kind of boxer briefs Jungkook wears.
Not that you've ever considered this before.
Anyways, back to the issue in hand-
"'Shakespeare's sonnets'? What's a sonnet, and what about it?" Taehyung wants to know, taking it in his hands and flipping through a couple of pages.
You kinda wanna punch him for being uncultured enough to not know what a sonnet is, but the fact that he asked what it is makes you forgive him (it's not his confused expression that looks so cute that forgives him, nope).
"A sonnet is a form of poetry which has fourteen lines," you explain, "It usually has like ten syllables per line, but I don't think that matters to you-"
"I'm surprised that you're actually using that brain of yours, for once." Taehyung muses, and you poke him in the waist, which in turn makes him chuckle and turn back to the whitish-yellow pages of the poem book. "Because you're right, it doesn't matter to me."
"Rude." You hiss. "So you see. Good ol' Shakeypakey here wrote 154 sonnets, okay? So, it was split into two parts based on-"
"Wait, did you just call a dead literist 'Shakeypakey'?" He asks, horrified.
"There is no word in the dictionary called literist. You can, instead, use-"
"That is beyond the point here, [Name]!"
"Listen," you hiss, snatching the book back from his clutches, "He has written 126 sonnets about a young man - a very fucking attractive man - and the other 28 sonnets are about a woman. Literally, he wrote at least 5 times more sonnets about the pretty dude."
"...So?"
Oh my god, there's a limit to beings freaking clueless but Taehyung likes climbing higher pedestals. Even The Himalayas would be ashamed. You shake your head in frustration.
"So! Why else would he be so obsessed with writing like 82 percent of his sonnet book about the man if he's not gay?"
Taehyung blinks at you in shock for a long moment, not moving a single muscle. You wonder if he was actually contemplating your reasoning, but then again... Taehyung was Taehyung, after all.
"Did you... do that math... just to..."
"Yes I did the math, so what? It makes so much sense. Maybe he's not gay, maybe he's like bisexual? Because even the sonnets about the Dark Lady was kinda kinky too so I think he has a lot of heterosexual shades too. Who knows."
"This is information I could live without, [Name]." Taehyung finally sighs, moving away from you and sighing. You watch as he begins to clear up his desk space, appalled that he wouldn't understand your very detailed reasoning.
If this is his reaction to your newfound discovery of Shakespeare's sexuality, then you sincerely hope Taehyung will never see your browser history with multiple search tabs of 'kinky Shakespeare'.
Plus that one meme you found of the poet's face cropped out and stuck to the ass of-
"I'm going to go put the books away." Taehyung announces, interrupting your fraying thoughts by picking up the handful of books that have been returned earlier.
Oh no you don't-
"Shakespeare was probably from a Victorian-ish era, you know? Those times when ladies wore metal frills on their skirts to make them more poofy and shit." You hurry to say. "His mama might have stabbed one of the metal frill shit into his ear if he said he was gay. Maybe he was in a polyamorous relationship, maybe he was the one who invented the idea-"
"Oh my fuck, shut the hell up." Taehyung hisses, standing up and stomping away. You blink at him as he takes the trolley of books, quickly making his way to the shelves and starting to put the books away.
Talk about being narrow-minded.
>
"So, your brother is Namjoon, right?" Taehyung asks the next day, slipping by your seat during lunch.
The cafeteria is excessively crowded, the jet line filled with students seeking a second helping of the ice-cream sandwiches they're handing out for free. According to Jimin, it's on occasion of Ice-cream Day, which you think is the stupidest invention that ever exists.
"Yes, but," you warn between gritted teeth, "Stop talking about it. I'd rather most people don't know. I'm not gonna be that one sister that the girls suck up to so that I'd help them get brownie points with Joon, like back in high school."
"You have a good point... It must have been hard for you, right?"
This makes you soften up a little, nodding back at the male who frowns sadly at you. So, even if Taehyung enjoys annoying you, he can be nice if he wants to.
"Oh, there's Jungkookie! Yah, Kook-ah, come here and sit with your Noona!" Taehyung yells from beside you, and the said brown-haired male's eyes widen as he pauses in his tracks, blinking at you two in surprise and his face going very pink.
You can't blame him, you must be at least two shades redder than he is.
You take it back, Taehyung is not nice at all.
"Over here, Kookie!" Jimin greets, patting the seat beside him. Yoongi lets out a small grunt beside you, and you sigh, giving your best smile to the freshman and motioning for him to join you lot.
Jungkook looks hesitant, quietly nodding and taking a seat right in front of you. Taehyung is paying for this later. Wait till you hide his library card. He's gonna suffer. And you're gonna be the one ugly giggling inside.
"So, Kookie, we were talking about how we can help Joon-hyung and Jin-hyung get together. Do you have any ideas?"
"Ah, so they do like each other. I always thought that too." Jungkook blinks in surprise.
"Even the kid knows. Why is it that those two little shits are the only ones who don't know how they feel about each other?" Yoongi lets out an exasperated sigh. "If they got together, Namjoon might stop writing depressing songs and start working on more brighter songs."
"Maybe they can go to a carnival. Seokjin-hyung has a thing for alpacas, right?" Jimin asks.
"That's a weird animal to have a kink for, but I'm not judging-"
"Shut up." You hiss, elbowing Taehyung, and the male doubles over, laughing and being proud enough to have elicited out a reaction from you. Jungkook watches the exchange in silence, and when you meet eyes with him, he looks away, turning to Jimin instantly and saying 'So? What about alpacas?'
Weird.
"Well, they can go to a carnival, Namjoon-hyung can play one of those dart games, or those ball-throwing games. He wins an alpaca plushie, and he gives it to Seokjin-hyung and tells him how he feels."
"That's like an unarmed battle with a bunch of sirens. Joon can't win no matter what he tries, he's not the most athletic nut in the world." You state.
"Si... Sirens?" Taehyung chokes, an eyebrow raises in confusion.
"Yeah? You know, those pretty fucked-looking female sea creatures that try to seduce idiots like you to get you into the sea and st-"
"I know what a siren is, you dolt," Taehyung sighs, "I took five weeks of Greek Mythology in my freshman year. I remember writing 'Sirens' in Google search and having nightmares."
"Then, why are you looking at me with that face?"
"... What face?"
"It looks like a fuck face minus the innuendo-inducing expression that you use. It's that face you make when you're confused to the level where you don't even know what speaking is, and you look like you accidentally ate ruined kimchi from a ripoff Korean-wannabe shop."
"I do not. And that's really specific, has that ever happened to you?"
"Down at Lindsay's Korean Meals stand a few blocks from the library. I had food poisoning for days."
"That's kinda sad. Was it recent?"
"Nah. I missed like four classes of Advanced Psychology classes near the start of the semester, remember?"
"Oh, then?"
"Yeah. Food poisoning is sad."
"Yeah. Please take care when you eat out, okay, [Name]?" Taehyung smiles at you, and the gesture is so soft that it makes you smile back like an idiot until you hear the sound of throat clearing.
And that's when you remember that Jungkook is staring at you two, and his expression is hard to read, eyebrows furrowed and lips pursed a little as if... as if...
Wow, you really shouldn't be a language major after all, if you can't describe something as basic as an expression.
Another, more defensive side of you pipes in, claiming that it's fine, reading expressions are the tasks of psychology majors, which you clearly aren't.
It's while you have this debate, that Taehyung - who seems to have noticed the way Jungkook is playing around with the bowl of grapes in his tray - coos 'Kookieeeee, what's wrong?' in a sing-song voice.
Jungkook does not respond, eyes hard and now looking at you, and both the angel and devil on your shoulder that's having the language vs psychology war together stops, making you gulp.
"The heck is this tension here? Let me do some mood-making here with my funny humour that no one can get enough of." A loud voice has to say, and all three of you look up and see Seokjin holding his tray proudly, a smiling Namjoon beside him.
"No thanks, Hyung." Yoongi speaks, picking up his almost-empty tray of food and standing up. Jimin, seeing this action, scarfs down the rest of his kimchi and rice, following the older male a couple steps behind after saying a hard-to-decipher 'bye guys!'
"Well, it's okay. Jimin might get offended if he was here to witness this amazing question that I have for all you earthlings."
"But Hyung, you're an earthling too. Or, are you an alien?" Taehyung has to butt in, and you hush him, glancing at Seokjin so that he would say whatever he has to say and get it over with. Namjoon takes the now-free seat beside you, and all eyes are on Seokjin who plops his tray beside Jungkook's, hands on his hips and puffs his chest out with a big smile.
"If Jiminie eats a mochi, does that count as cannibalism?"
"Oh my god, please stop, Hyung." Taehyung mumbles, while, beside you, Namjoon is cracking up like the loser that he is.
You think you hear Hani and Hyojin giggling, while Jungkook just stares at Seokjin as if he couldn't believe what the male had said.
"This story won't be fun without my jokes-"
"YOU CAN'T JUST SAY THAT OUT LOUD."
>
You're in charge of putting away the books for today, and the trolly is lugged to the side while you look up barcode numbers and do your job in peace.
But there's a being that taps your shoulder, and no one should really blame you for being scared and starting to scream. The light above the philosophy aisle is dimmer than the other isles, so it makes you wary of beings other than human.
But there's a hand that covers your mouth, muffling your scream. God. What a sucky way to die. It's kinda kinky if you think about it, but why is a stranger making you die at the philosophy aisle, at least let you move over to the language aisle, it's literally only three rows away for crying out loud-
"Noona, it's only me." The voice says, and you turn around, seeing Jungkook smiling at you with a fond expression, looking highly amused when you hide your face in embarrassment.
"Kookie, what are you doing?!" You hiss, punching his arm and taking a couple steps back - the kid was standing way too close for comfort.
"I wanted to say hello." He shrugs, watching as you pick up a book and place it back on the shelf. "Extra-credit, right?"
You give him a nod, waving the cardholder you have around your neck. The picture of yours had come out good, you had every right to show it off to the hot freshman, okay?
Jungkook takes hold of the card, smiling down at your beaming picture, and - wait a second, his finger just touched your left boob, rip virginity - he comes so close to you that it makes you slightly intimidated as you nervously look up at the male.
And wow, this must be what interactions with angels feel like; you can see the scar on his left cheek, his pretty doe eyes, and the slightly chapped lips of his from this close, and he-
"Noona, do you want to go out with me sometime?"
"Sure, I- Wait..."
"To see a movie and eat and stuff. You're majoring in language, right? I'm sure we can have a lot of discussions about the movie after it's over."
Wait wait wait pause rewind-
Hey, now that you think about it, dissecting a movie and over-analysing it sounds like fun...
"I mean, well, of course I wouldn't mind going with you, Kookie, but do you mean..."
A platonic going out, or-
"Definitely not a platonic going out."
Shit, did you say that out loud?
"Yes you did, Noona."
"Oh."
"This is probably selfish of me to ask, but, remember that really boxy white shirt you wore once with that blue skinny jeans? Do you think you can wear it for our first date? I really liked it, but for some reason, you didn't wear it after that one day."
Yes, because Namjoon accidentally splashed ketchup all over it when you both had gone to KFC for chicken and fries later that day.
But you aren't going to tell Jungkook that, of course.
"Um. Sure, okay, I'm good to go." You tell him, and you can feel your cheeks flushing in embarrassment while you aggressively take a stack of books and stuff them back on the shelf.
"I'll message you, then?"
You give him a thumbs up, too flustered to look at his face, and Jungkook responds with a small laugh, hands clutching on the hanging straps of his backpack before he quickly runs away. And only after he does so, are you able to let out a huge breath you weren't aware you were holding.
Dragging the now empty trolly, you make your way to the reception desk. Taehyung's laptop's lid is closed now, and he has his chin rested on his hand as he watches you make your way back to the desk and take a seat.
Wordlessly, he reaches a hand out and presses his hand on your cheek. You are about to protest, when he moves his hand back and raises an eyebrow at you.
"You're quite obvious, Ms. Kim."
"Shut up. I just accidentally bumped into Kookie when I was putting the books away, that's all."
"I know."
You expect him to tease you, but he doesn't. Even when you finish up work and Namjoon is waiting to pick you both up and drive you home, he says nothing to your brother.
"Hey, Joonie?"
"Yes, my dearest little sister to whom I will share half my food, half my world, half my milky way, and half of everything I have to offer?"
"You're buying me the same exact white shirt you poured ketchup over. I have a date and I need it."
"Oooh, did the freshman kid finally make a move on you?"
"Shut up. We're driving to the mall and spending half of your allowance. You'll do that for your dearest little sister for whom you said you would give half of everything to offer, right?"
Namjoon has nothing to say while he digs in to see how much cash he has on himself.
Serves him right.
And you find it oddly uncharacteristic, the way Taehyung wordlessly waves goodbye to the two of you and leaves, when Namjoon stops by the younger male's apartment.
read next: ch 4
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BTS fanfiction masterlist
Completed
Kim Taehyung
Things We’ll Never Say [angst, smut, college au 4 chapters ; ao3 / wp / tmblr + epilogue]
Sorry, Honey [(heavy)angst, slice of life ; wp / ao3 / tmblr]
Park Jimin
Constants [heavy angst,slice of life ; wp / ao3 / tmblr]
Min Yoongi
(So) Far Away [angst, soulmate au, oneshot ; ao3 / wp / tmblr ]
Jung Hoseok
Lilies in your Hair [smut, fluff, angst, nsfw, oneshot ; ao3 / tmblr]
Jeon Jungkook
Audio Track #7 [fluff, slice of life(?), oneshot ; ao3 / tmblr]
How Do You Fix A Broken Heart? [angst, oneshot ; ao3 / wp / tmblr ]
Taste [slice of life, fluff, 32 chapters ; ao3 / wp]
Strokes of Serendipity [mature/angst/fluff ; ao3 / wp]
Kim Seokjin
Berry Hunt [fluff, oneshot ; ao3 / tmblr]
The universe in our hands [soulmate au, crack, fluff; ao3 / tmblr]
VHope
When It Strikes 4 O’clock [fluff, oneshot ; a03 / wp / tumblr]
Kim Namjoon
Fluere [smut + fluff, oneshot ; a03 / tumblr]
Ongoing
Kim Taehyung
Lavender Honey [fluff + crack, chaptered ; ao3 / wp / tmblr pt 1, 2, 3, 4]
VHope
Moonchild and his Sunshine Prince [college au, fluff ; a03 / wp]
Oneshot Collection
Cascades [fluff/angst soulmate au bts oneshots ; ao3 / wp / tumblr part 1, 2, 3]
#bts#min yoongi#jung hoseok#kim namjoon#kim taehyung#kim seokjin#park jimin#jeon jungkook#jeon jeongguk#oneshots#angst#fluff#slice of life#fanfiction#bts fanfiction#bts angst#bts fluff#college au#masterlist#peppusae masterlist
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Chapters: 5/5
Fandom: 방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Kim Taehyung | V/Reader, Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin
Characters: Kim Taehyung | V, Jeon Jungkook, Park Jimin (BTS), Choi Youngjae, Kim Yugyeom, Kim Namjoon | Rap Monster, Jung Hoseok | J-Hope, Kim Seokjin | Jin, Min Yoongi | Suga
Additional Tags: scum's wish inspired, Angst, Smut, jikook fluff, Suffering, hyung line are lecturers, here's the taehyung smut that i've been craving oops, how does one tag, development centric
Series: Part 1 of We crave the things we'll never have
Summary:
❝It hurts me too, I don’t know if I feel numb, or if I’m feeling so much pain at once that I’m not even aware anymore.❞
or;
college au where you love jimin with every fibre of your being, but he's in love with someone else.
and only taehyung understands your pain because his heart beats for jungkook; the very object of jimin's affections.
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“All it takes is a signature.”
Sugar Daddy!Au with Seokjin
I was tagged by @jeonjunggoober for the “Bias Moodboard Tag/Challenge”
I figured that while I was doing this, I might as well kill two birds with one stone by creating a moodboard for a Seokjin oneshot in the distant future!
I tag: @jupitermyg @gimmesumsuga @kpopfanfictrash @daydream-hobii @kainks @peppusae @miinyoonji you should do this if you can find enough yoonji pictures
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Hello Hello! Welcome to my first BTS Podcast!
Listen to it Here!
This is hopefully going to be a weekly thing, and I wanted to start with an introduction podcast!
Please enjoy the fact that I said “Sugie” instead of suga or Yoongi cause my brain couldn’t decide which one to say
In this podcast I talk about:
A get to know the author section! I talk about me as a person, my writing style, my motivation, my revision process, and my connection to poetry!
Questions About My Fics: I summarize a couple fics in 10 words or less, I read some of my favorite lines from my fics, I spill which friends I spill my fic secrets to, and my connection to the characters I write!
Questions about Meadows and Maybe Ever After: Hint hint, we get a MEA spoiler in this section!
There is a section for the fics that I read and I mentioned the following as some of my favorites depending on the category:
Petrichor by @donewithjeon
Fireflies by @sugaxjpg
A Wish Out of Water by @jimlingssSoul Meiteu by
@bang-tan-bitch (god I love them so much bye)
Things We’ll Never Say by @peppusae (lmao this is the long one pls read it)
Call Me Mistress Series by @jeonjagiya97Sweeter Than Sweet by @gimmesumsuga
Tales of Greyria by @cutaepatootie
Long Live the King by @remembeo
And after my conclusion, I’ve included a bonus fangirl segment of my live reaction to Fake Love :’)
Please leave your thoughts about this first podcast, and send in things you would like me to talk about next time! Thank you for listening!
#kpopwonderlandtag#bts#bangtan seonyeondan#Kim Seokjin#Min Yoongi#Jung Hoseok#Kim Namjoon#Park Jimin#Kim Taehyung#Jeon Jungkook
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girl what doc is it i wanna be addicted too
It’s a Kim Taehyung fic called Things We’ll never Say by @peppusae and I am so in love
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