Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Batman - All Media Types, Batman: Under the Red Hood (2010), DCU (Comics) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Jason Todd, Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Cassandra Cain, Tim Drake Additional Tags: Jason Todd is Red Hood, tim and dick and cass are minor, Sheila Haywood (mentioned) - Freeform, Hurt No Comfort, (the hurt is emotional), when your emotionally distant dad is being an ass, rated t for jason, Bruce Wayne is Bad at Feelings Summary:

"Just because you don't trust me—"

"Why should I trust you, Hood?" Bruce said flatly. Like he was commenting on the weather. "You don't listen, you don't follow the plan, you're reckless and emotional and it—"

"It what.”

"It's going to get you killed. Again."

"Is that what you think?" He whispered, so softly Dick almost didn't hear it. Bruce turned to face Jason. "World's greatest fuckin' detective, doesn't even know how his own kid died? I should've fucking realized."

-- or Jason finally tells Bruce what Sheila did

It's very frustrating because I wanna make posts like "I think X song is about Y experience" for this one band but I only think that because I went to high school/college with the singer! So I have random context that I don't think is public knowledge!!! And it would feel weird!!!! Plus I don't know for certain what it's about I'm just making guesses! But these songs itch my brain and I wanna talk about them.

Anyway everybody should listen to No Resolution. Water Tower is probably my favorite song but they're all great.

Right, anyone up for some backstory on abusive!Serena?

Here's Troy (who, as we all know, survived being stabbed - in this version he got saved by a group of people who are actually concerned with helping people not just paying lip-service to the idea - yes it's a dig at the show amongst them Lee and Ri, and (shock twist!)he falls in love with them (also for those interested how that happened: troy lost his memories as a trauma response after getting stabbed and having to renounce his daughter to keep her save. he stumbled upon lee and ri's group (in keeping with canon since apparently they all just s tumble into one another) and though troy has no memories he feels safe around lee and that's how it starts. currently troy has his memories and his daughter back and he's)) telling his lovers about his past.

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Troy's all cuddled up with his loved ones and he knows he should talk about his relationship with Serena to them. He feels he owes them that - or maybe he needs it, too. Needs to put these things into words. Even though his throat closes up when he thinks about it, his jaw clenches. But he never surrenders.

"i, i had a wife…" he starts, in this kinda sing-song tone that means he's uncomfortable speaking about it. they nod because they kinda assumed haha that him and tracy's mom had a relationship "and i… i loved her" and he's nodding his head, his mouth downturned. and he repeats it a bit like… almost an invocation "i loved her." his voice is forlorn now and far-away sounding. "a-and…" he grimaces a bit, the next part difficult for him, he really doesn't want to say it. but he also does. "it-" shakes his head a little "it wasn't good between us. n-ot, not for a long time."

and of course they grow concerned for him, touch turning softer, maybe a whispered "oh sweetie" but quiet quiet because they know he needs to get this out. they can react after. they still looked at him softly inquisitive, hoping and at the same time dreading he'd say more about it. "she-uh- serena, she…" and he licks his lips, trying to gather the bravery to say it. he never said any of those things before. "she wasn't… patient. easy to - anger. and when she was, angry, she uh. she said things. and sometimes, sometimes she did things. things that-" he broke off and shook his head "but she loved me. she loved me and i- i understood" (and i think here ri is probably gonna reflexively close her hold on him, tightly, just for a sec bc it enrages her so, for him. saying he understands his wife being abusive from the sounds of it). "i-i'm not easy to be around---"

"no." ri again, a cold little sound and his head snaps to her, probably bracing himself for her anger at him but she just looks like 🥺 "she had no right" ri tells him. troy just swallows. and he repeats

"she loved me. id have forgiven her anything." ri needs to work very hard not to break down crying, for him. and lee is quietly listening to this, probably holding troy a bit tighter, a bit more securely but he's quiet bc if he starts speaking he's not sure he can stop anytime soon. and he thinks troy needs to say these things first. all of it. troy takes little breaths, grimacing again. His whole face tense since he started speaking, his emotions pulling at it, relentlessly. "then she got pregnant" it's softer said than anything before. it touches their hearts. "and… one day, one day we weren't careful and - she got bit. her arm…." he shakes his head. "i thought id lose her. a-and she- refused to let me cut. she.. and i didn't know what to do, i couldn't lose her, i couldn't… so" he laughed a little, void of amusement "i radioed for help. didn't really think--- but someone heard- and came. alicia." lee knows that name of course and he furrows his brows, squeezing troy gently. "she-she knew what to do. had lost her own arm so.. serena trusted her."

and he does this lip bite thing, like he's hurting and needing to put this into an expression "serena… she changed after that." he tells them how she wanted to be like alicia, help people too. and "she also.. changed her behavior towards me. slowly. couldn't always but--- i could tell she was trying. we… got better, slowly. and i-" he laughs "i was grateful to alicia, you know. for saving her, for changing her. what unbelievable luck i thought." he grimaced a grin "freak luck" Lee and Ri probably share a very concerned glance bc even though this sounds good, he doesn't. he sounds desperate. and they wish they could just take his pain away. "one day she got a call for help she didn't come back from. got robbed, got shot. they just left her there. when i found her… she was dying. i held her as she died. and i thought…. i thought how selfish of me. i'd… i'd been so…."he snarled "so happy about the change in her, i didn't even consider… i should've seen this coming. but i didn't think, didn't think beyond myself. how could i have been so fucking grateful for the thing THAT GOT HER KILLED!?"

oh what a scary ass dream with a profoundly beautiful ending to wake up from

Cannot believe I wasted $6 and 2 hours of my life just for fucking NCIS LOS ANGELES to ruin NINE GODDAMN SEASONS worth of buildup for Mac and Harm in less than 15 minutes of screentime i am LIVID

with your hands, a one-shot fic written by nogoodalone

word count: 3,915

summary: Killua tries to swallow down the lump in his throat; it never does get easier lying to Gon, but he knows it’s for the best. He doesn’t need Gon involved. If Gon knows, he’ll get worried. And if Gon gets worried, he’ll get involved. And, frankly, Gon isn’t capable of getting involved.

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an AU where Killua never admits he's an assassin and Gon can never know.

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done for the greed island server game masters event card #58, Secret Video Rental.

every time i ask people if they do any new years resolutions its all ooooo i dont like making them bc i fail or ohhhhh no i couldnt keep up wiht that and then when they ask me and i tell them about Pasta Quest (i am eating as many different pasta shapes as possible in the space of a year) or when i did Fruit Adventures (every time i saw a fruit i had never eaten before id get one and eat it and read the wikipedia article about it) theyre like hang on i forgot you can make Fun Ones i want a fun one

Make this your New Year’s Resolution. I promise it will pay off.

reverse robins of my fav trio!

"Everything dies. In time, even stars burn out."

To me, Knucklehead by No Resolution is like a Psalm

Holding onto you for dear life.

2024

DO NOT BE AFRAID OF GAUDINESS

SELF-PROTECTION TAKEN TO THE EXTREME BECOMES SELF-DESTRUCTION

SEND LETTERS TO YOUR FRIENDS

LOOKING AFTER YOUR BELONGINGS IS MORE SATISFYING THAN BUYING NEW THINGS

FIND NEW WAYS TO LIVE DELICIOUSLY

EXERCISE YOUR ATTENTION SPAN SO IT CAN STRENGTHEN

LEARN NEW POEMS BY HEART

KILL THE PURITANICAL JUDGEMENT IN YOUR BRAIN

REACH OUT FIRST

woahh 2024! cheers!

happy new year. worms are rooting for you to have your best year yet.

2024 things:

go on more walks at sunset

buy more plants

read as many books as you want

buy as many books as you want

tell the people you love that you love them more often

eat your favorite foods

look at the stars as much as you can

drink more water

pet more kitties

go to a museum or art gallery or planetarium

play in the rain

smile at strangers

get coffee and go thrifting

do kind things for yourself

learn something new

love with reckless abandon