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lovelyheartclover · 3 months

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thebloodyhand98 · 5 months

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#free ethiopia #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #free haiti #free palestine #palestine #free gaza #free sudan #first aid #free republic of congo #allah #humanitarian aid #boycott mcdonalds #black manga #no matter how painful it may be #naruto #native american #black art

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insomnya777 · 12 days

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boat boys coded

#....does this make sense #it does in my head #lovers lane. dead end.#aka double life #they know it won't lead anywhere #in the long run it will only end in pain #whether it ends in a screaming match or just one too many empty promises — it doesn't matter. it still ends either way #and that's the part that really counts #but they don't do anything about it because what is there to do? your only option is to live the story #even if you know how it ends #so they go along with it #what other choice do they have?#they fall in love and they kiss and they kill and they do it all together. they follow lovers lane all the way until the end of the road #until they can't deny it anymore #their time is up #double life is over #they're running on borrowed time - delaying the inevitable #it's a dead end #and it was always going to be #and somewhere in between they may have convinced themselves that it might be different #(it's not)#(it never is)#IS THIS ANYTHING GUYS...#maybe i'm just insane #nya talks #hermitblr #trafficblr #joel smallishbeans #boat boys #smalletho

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thranduel · 8 months

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You're right. I can be better than him.

#astarion #bg3 #idk what this is just felt like dropping some more hd screenshots lol #to say i was so proud of him in this scene is an understatement #i love him so much. SO much #the only ending i'll give him every single playthrough i don't care!!!!#call me boring but i do not care #i will love him and take care of him and help him heal every single time #like do you see the pain in that second screenshot #that ruined me #like actually destroyed me #but i will never take away his feelings and genuine emotions #no matter how much things may hurt sometimes #i will never turn him into the person that destroyed him #i will never turn him into the person he despises most #i would never do that to him #i know that he can find happiness again #no matter how long it takes #and i will help him #because all he wanted was for someone to love him and believe in him #anyways WOW i am dramatic!!!!!!!!#sorry just in my feels :')#btw i'm just VERY passionate about his character arc and development and growth and i just want him to be happy #this isn't a dig at anyone for what they choose to do in their playthroughs #it's a fictional fantasy RPG do whatever you want have fun #just sharing what i personally choose to do for him and why #the writers and developers and neil put so much effort into all of astarion's endings and some of the scenes are really interesting to see #so i don't blame anyone for trying different things out #but these are just my own PERSONAL feelings about it <3 #my screenshots

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supranatra · 8 months

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Making sparda an overbearing, dominating figure with a soft spot for family and general neutrality on humans is good but i think super happy funtime guy sparda who is incredibly enamored with his family and outwardly super duper nice (almost appearing and sometimes is naive or gullible) to humans but when alone or pushed in just the right way he morphs into that nearly cruel and dark figure he was considered long ago is better. :)

#i love nice guys with darksides ig #that idea that time love space and all forms of care and feeding can only abate the true nature of an animal #that in the end he can mask it all he wants with human emotions like love and happiness but that he is still a demon and that #there are still many things he cannot let go of or change no matter how much time passes #i like to think it caused him great pain. i like to think that embracing humanity caused him so much internal grief and struggle #this is edging on implying he wished he were a human instead but I don’t think thats true. i think it came up when hu #-man issues arose like eva being pregnant or even before that bc it would have made things easier. not better per se but def easier #but he is also proud of the being that he is as well which again comes back to that internal struggle he must have experienced #idk lol #dmc0 #dmc #devil may cry #stratatata #using this as a gen tag when i say smth #ignore this im just talking out my ass fr

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donut-entendre · 1 year

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I say a lot that Wash isn't empathetic when talking about people giving him Carolina's personality, but I don't think that really explains my thinking. Empathy is too vague of a concept in discussion of character.

Wash cares a lot about people. Wash cares so much it hurts. He trains the Chorusans without being asked, on his own initiative. He doesn't leave the reds and blues at the first sign of trouble. He's traumatized by violence by his own hand that he still agrees with the logic of, he remembers what he's done to people and while he doesn't regret it, it still haunts him. He doesn't want to care so bad but he does, he cares so much that violence against relative strangers hurts. Even if it was his best choice. Even if it was his only choice.

Carolina doesn't want people to know violence like she does. Carolina wants to tackle the whole world to keep it away from the ones she loves. Carolina wants to be the one to handle everything, to keep war off the doorstep.

Washington knows violence, and well. He thinks it is something that sometimes is the best option. He knows how to make the people he loves capable of protecting themselves. So he does.

Carolina is someone who wants to protect. Washington is someone who wants to teach people to protect themselves. Carolina wants to be the one to offer shelter in the rain. Washington wants to burn the fire so hot and so bright the rain evaporates before it can ever touch them, so hot it never even comes down, so bright no one could ever get lost. And he wants to teach everyone he cares for just how to do it, too.

Just in case it ever rains.

#it may seem like i went off topic immediately. but trust me. it's a hard concept to communicate.#logical 'empathy' where you care but you don't understand. you don't share it. it's hard to articulate.#it feels stupid. why do people care so much about this temporary problem? it's so obvious to you how trivial it is.#but they still care. even if you can't understand. and you care about them. so you show them how to approach it.#maybe your answer is callous. maybe it doesn't quite grasp the complexity of the situation #but it's what you know. it's what you can offer. maybe it's just inevitable that you will cause pain no matter what you do.#very autistic of him!#rvb #rvb washington #rvb carolina #nonsense thoughts

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absentlyabbie · 7 months

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i've developed some interesting methods of handling having a relationship with my mother who made my childhood/teen years misery and committed more than a little abuse.

as an adult, we have a very different dynamic, her daughters (sister and i) have confronted her with a lot of her bullshit and the things she both did and enabled. for some she has been sorrowful and even sometimes apologetic. she's a better mother to me now than she ever was when i most needed one. so i'll never actually trust her again, and she'll never be much deeper than surface level in my life, but we have something mostly good now, and on my terms.

however, she is very definitely one of those "i don't remember it that way" and "i did the best i could" mothers in a lot of areas, and has also always been the type to (probably unconsciously) emotionally manipulate the people she's hurt into catering to her hurt feelings about it instead.

over the years i've learned to get really comfortable with just not indulging it.

is she having a bad day, seems sad and upset? i'll give her a hug, try to make her laugh. if she throws broad hints it's a surge of hurt feelings about having driven one of her children to cut her off? well i'm just gonna stand there and not acknowledge or entertain it.

"well, apparently i was a bad mother" or shit like that? i'm just gonna look at her for a second, and i might either shrug or even nod, but i'm not saying a damn thing. i'm not awkwardly, uncomfortably, painfully contorting to her guilt trip nonsense. i'm not apologizing or trying to soothe her or reassure her or minimize it.

like, yeah. you really were. you know it, glad to hear it. we've definitely had that talk.

best kindness, most generosity i can offer her in times like that is not maintaining eye contact to bluntly tell her "yeah, you were." she can go ahead and feel bad about it.

it's not on me to make her feel less bad. she should feel bad. and i am definitely not someone she gets to seek comfort from about it.

hopefully someday she'll inch past just "poor me, i'm so sad and angsty about it" towards, like, examining the whys and acknowledging what she actually did wrong and work actively to be be better. in a few places, some of that has happened.

but that's her work. her job and responsibility. she can do that shit on her own time.

i say all this to offer a shoulder of solidarity to others like me. if you maintain a complicated relationship as an adult with the parent who hurt you and did you wrong as a child, that is okay. you get to choose how and if to thread that needle.

but you don't have to accommodate emotional manipulation and guilt trip garbage. stonewall it. walk away if you need to. don't apologize. don't try to make it better. that's not on you and it doesn't have to be. it's okay.

#to her perhaps dubious 'credit'#this has shown genuine results #she has over the years pulled a lot less of that shit #of laying emotional traps to try and make me comfort her about how horrible she was to us as a mom #because she doesn't get the desired result #it's not an easy thing to make a choice to continue having a relationship with a parent like this #who caused you serious harm and painful long-lasting damage #especially not always intentionally generally not maliciously #the abuse was the abuse and it doesn't matter why #how she conducts herself now is what determines if i give her any chance to be any kind of decent mom now #and it's SO HARD at first #because that's your mom you LOVE your mom even through all the shit #you're hardwired to love your mom and you hate to see your mom hurt #instinct is to Make It Better #but that's not always the correct response it can be downright detrimental #to yourself and to her own personal growth towards being someone better #so you teach yourself to just Let Her Be Upset #she should be upset and in a case like this it may in fact be good for her #and it's just not my damn job to make her feel better and i don't mind making that plain #you grow more comfortable with it over time #hold your ground and your stance gets stronger with each step-back not taken #abuse mention

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goldensunset · 1 year

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it's all been said before but something something riku is the element of change and kairi is the element of stability cuz riku wanted to leave the island above all else while kairi didn't really care she just wanted to stay with her friends above all else no matter where she was (and of course sora was kinda in between) something something the moral of the story here being that some things in life have to change while other things are meant to last and this is why both kairi and riku are both so important to the heart of this story cuz they represent that duality. we can't stay on this tiny island forever as innocent kids. but the island and what it means to us will always be there. y'know

#of course i hope riku can learn how to chill and find peace and i hope kairi will get to have her own journey of a sort #i just mean that overall what we've got is pretty good actually #i like it #the destiny trio may change in shape here and there as their lives change #but i think they'll always be together no matter what happens #that comment from nomura about how like. sometimes you have friends when you're younger and then when you get older things change #i don't think that has to mean you guys break up as friends. not at all! it just means what it means. things are different now #you're different people you interact with each other differently now but the love is still there throughout everything #it's a really really good message honestly. that quiet sort of pain is something that i feel most media never discuss ever #it's such a common feeling i wish more shows and games and stuff would include it #anyway. destiny trio beloveds #kingdom hearts #mine: kh

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foolishnpd · 3 months

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if I'm told to stop doing something for any reason I will respect it because I am a very niceys person but also I will be seething and pissed for the next hour about it because like, don't tell me what to do??? I should have free reign to do what I want ugh

#lilyroaring #npd safe #actually narcissistic #but I listen because I'm so so nice #I am so respectful omg does everyone see how nice I am #I may internally break down and have many homicidal urges upon being told no #but it's fine I can respect that <333333333 #the pain of logic and emotions clashing is so bad #like wow I know I suck #but I continue to feel. bad.#like a stupid #a dummy #a silly even #well it's what you do that matters ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#I can scream cry internally about everything whenever I want #and it hurts nobody but myself

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irafuwas · 5 months

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BUMP OF CHICKEN - 「Answer」

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魔法の言葉　覚えている　虹の始まったところあの時世界の全てに　一瞬で色が付いた

i still remember those magic words, still remember where that rainbow began it was the moment my whole world burst into color

転ばないように気を付けて　でもどこまでもいかなきゃ陽射しさえ掴めそうな手が　ひどく冷たかったから

i went on carefully, trying not to stumble but i still had so long to go 'cause even though it felt like my hands could've grabbed hold of the sunlight itself they were cold instead. so terribly cold

本当の声はいつだって　正しい道を照らしているなんだって疑っているから　とても強く信じている

my inner voice always shows me where i need to go it doubts everyone and everything. that's why i trust it so much

心臓が動いている事の　吸って吐いてが続く事の心がずっと熱い事の　確かな理由を雲の向こうの銀河のように　どっかで無くした切符のように生まれる前の歴史のように　君が持っているから

that my heart continues to beat that i'm still here breathing that this gentle warmth has long thrummed through my chest there's a certain reason for it all and like a galaxy hidden behind the clouds like a ticket i'd lost somewhere like all the world's history before you were born you hold that reason within you

それだけ　わかっている (わかっている) 僕だけ　わかっている (わかっている)

that much i know (i know) i'm the only one who knows (the only one)

鈍く残った痛みとか　しまってしまった思いとか滲んだって消えないもので　街は出来ている

things like a dull pain that lingers, and thoughts you've shut away that's what home is made of - stuff that blurs over time but never truly fades away

魔法の言葉　覚えている　虹の辿り着いたところ転ばないように気を付けて　でもどこまでもいけるよ

i still remember those magic words, still remember where that rainbow touched down i go on carefully, making sure i don't stumble but i can make it. i know i can

無くしたくないものを　見つけたんだって気付いたらこんなに嬉しくなって　こんなに怖くなるなんて

whenever i realize i've found something i don't want to lose what words can describe how happy it makes me feel? how scared?

想像つかない昨日を越えて　その延長の明日を抱えて小さな肩　震える今　それでも笑った迷路の奥のダイヤのような　届かなかった風船のような気付けなかった流星のような　涙を貰った

overcoming a yesterday i never could've dreamed of holding onto a tomorrow that seemed like it'd never end those small shoulders, they tremble now, but still i smiled and i cried those tears were like a diamond at the center of a maze like a balloon floating by just out of reach like a shooting star i'd never noticed

だからもう　忘れない (忘れない) 二度ともう　迷わない (迷わない)

and that's why i'll never forget (i'll never forget) that's why i'll never lose my way again (never again)

心臓が動いている事の　吸って吐いてが続く事の心がずっと熱い事の　確かな理由が

that my heart continues to beat that i'm still here breathing that this gentle warmth has long thrummed through my chest there's a certain reason for it all

砂漠の粒のひとつだろうと　消えていく雨のひとつだろうと貰った　名も知らない花のように　今目の前にあるから

your reason could be a single grain of sand in the desert or a drop of rain in a fading storm it's like a flower you've been given whose name you don't know and i can see my reason right here before me now

それだけ　わかっている (わかっている) 僕だけ　わかっている (わかっている)

that much i know (i know) i'm the only one who knows (the only one)

だからもう　離れない (離れない) 二度ともう　迷わない (迷わない)

and that's why i won't let go (i won't let go) that's why i'll never lose my way again (never again)

#song tl #my tl #bump of chicken #them #lilia's pov #waaah i just think this song perfectly encapsulates how much silver changed lilia's life #and how the almost 700 years of heartache and pain he went through were all worth it just so he could find that lonely little baby #and i also love the song's message about how we all have our own reasons for living #for some of us our reason is a person and for others its their profession or even just their favorite book or show #and no matter how big or how small our reason is its something that is precious to us and should be treasured #no matter what anyone else may think

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lovelyheartclover · 2 months

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Happy late international women's day! 💟

Daily reminder that you cant be a feminist if you only care about white women issues 🙃

Tagging 🫶🏼 @zombytommy @lilywily143 @m0n1q @electronix-arts @loujitsushotsoup @magicalmousey @spinnydraws @dark-nymph3t @violottie @faegirly @vixxelle @uzibrainrot @mozzyspurt @cube-was-here @jinx-the-hunter25 @r3tr0s-posts @punkeropercyjackson @pinkpinkstarlet @bigpinkbaguette

#🎨 Clover's art 🎨#international women's day #womens day #free palestine #free sudan #free congo #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #justice for palestine #all eyes on rafah #feminism #feminists #do not stop talking about palestine #i will never shut up about this #no matter how painful it may be #important

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starfruit-baby · 2 years

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kicking my feet up in the air and biting my pillow as i think about how if Connor decides to remain a machine, he'll confront Markus later on the exact same way, during the raid, and by this point Markus KNOWS it was Connor's fault their homebase is being invaded, and once Connor shows he's about to attempt to kill him, if Markus succeeds and reverts the situation, he still tells Connor he didn't want to kill him, even if he had to do this to protect himself, even if in a situation like this it wouldve avenged some of the androids currently dying around them, he still didn't want it to come down to this

#dbh #markus #connor #ramble #rk1k #punching holes through the wall MARKUS BEING COMPASSIONATE OF THE ENEMY UNDESERVEDLY #and it doesnt matter if hes violent or not hell always say he never wanted it to come down to this about killing his assassin #like. STAND UUUP. STAND UP!!!#he never gets any dialogue that shows him angry or blaming connor as far as ive seen #which may be a flaw on me or on quantic #but on the other hand it looks so good on Markus... like his weak spot IS his own people no matter how they come #correction: the only time i recall a blamey dialogue is if connor DID deviate and he has to choose to trust or not #but its soo painful to witness it once connor let himself go and to confirm that hes beyond redemption #but i cant recall machine run getting such dialogue from markus so correct me if im wrong

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pastel-rights · 2 months

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And then I finally end it off with some doodles of them… they make me feel things.

#ringmaster doodles #sona art #( they’re very much the theme of. love in the face of the neverending march of time. )#( being immortal and knowing you will outlive the man you love because someone else deemed he unworthy of eternal life. )#( he may still have tens of thousands of years left. sure. but you know that those will go by and he’ll disappear in the blink of an eye. )#( and you’ll sit there on his death bed. wondering why did things end up like this? )#( wondering what you did wrong. and if you could have done something different. you’ll always ask yourself. )#( if he lives a life of happiness and comfort or did he live a life as gruesome and miserable as the wars on earth? but you won’t know. )#( and the more you think about it. the more you realize it. how nihilistic he was. and how he never seemed to smile even in the good times.#he always seemed to have a frown or a scowl on his face. he always seems bothered and unhappy. )#( so you wonder if it was something you did. because you know you aren’t perfect. you’re hardly good. )#( you wonder if he’s mad at you. maybe he was. but he doesn’t have the heart to stay mad. )#( and that’s love in the face of adversity. knowing that no matter how bad it gets. he loves you as you love him. )#( and you wonder why he never smiles. because he truly never does. and so you ask him. honest and true. )#( and he tells you there isn’t anything worth smiling for. nothing in this whole world. )#( but he smiles at you. it’s always small. and it’s always brief. )#( but that smile. that smile means love. )#( that hug. as flimsy as it may be. that hug means love. )#( of course. he isn’t affectionate. if anything. he detests it. he hates physical contact of any kind. you’ve noticed. )#( which is a shame. you love your hugs and your kisses and your hand holding. )#( but even if he doesn’t like it. he lets you do it. because it makes you happy. )#( and you learn that when you’re happy. he’s a little less miserable. )#( of course. not all love is equal. and not all love is fair. )#( the love from a lover and the love from the father can never equate to one another. )#( no one will love you in the same way a father or mother loves you. in the same manner. no one will ever love you the way I do. )#( because my love will remain with you. long after I disappear. )#( and as bitter as the idea of my own existence coming to an end is. knowing I did all of this for. essentially nothing. )#( that I’ve gone through all this pain and suffering and hardship just for it to all amount to nothing. for it to be fucking useless to try.#I get to die knowing that you’ll always love and be loved. and that’s enough for me… )#( … maybe there is something worth smiling for after all. )

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carnivoraformes · 4 months

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//Ship Tags Drop (romantic and otherwise). Still pending cause I know I probably haven't even begun to get everyone so bear with me because I wanted to do this while I updated it on my carrd!

todestochter

Ayato & Milou. Husband/Wife.

my love my life my pain in the ass (❤️ todestochter / ayato + milou ❤️) //

Yae Miko & Milou. Chaotic Mother/Daughter.

truly you are your mother's daughter (🦊 todestochter / yae miko & milou 🦊) //

Ei & Milou. Estranged Mother/Daughter.

it takes more than being a mother to be a mom (💢 todestochter / ei & milou 💢) //

Wriothesley & Milou. Tormenter/Tormented & Partners In Crime.

my pain amuses you doesn't it? (💢 todestochter / wriothesley & milou 💢) //

spinnenwinter

Neuvillette & Navia. Potential (?) Romantic Ship.

loving a woman made of gold and stronger than iron (❤️ todestochter / neuvillette + navia ❤️) //

Neuvillette & Furina. Potential (?) Romantic Ship.

my heart is an river and it tied to your ocean (❤️ todestochter / neuvillette + furina ❤️) //

Way More Pending ;v;

thewaywardsnowflake

Diluc & Isolde. Lovers.

you are the ice that calms my unrelenting fire ( ❤️ thewaywardsnowflake / diluc + isolde ❤️) //

ahellofalotofmuses

Dehya & Sara. Lovers.

the heart of a lioness melts only for her tengu ( ❤️ ahellofalotofmuses / dehya + sara ❤️) //

bishonenprince

Jing Yuan & Sora. Lovers.

no matter how much space may separate us i will always come back to you ( bishonenprince /❤️ jing yuan + sora ❤️) //

Wriothesley & Sora. Bad Influence.

got a real good feelin' somethin' bad about to happen ( 👿 bishonenprince / wriothesley & sora 😇) //

wolfkcst

Jing Yuan & Eivor. Lovers.

this lion only bows to the wolf that hold his heart (❤️ wolfkcst / jing yuan + eivor ❤️) //

screenviolense

Jean & Wriothesley

a girl i want to be good for ( ❤️ screenviolense / wriothesley + jean ❤️) //

#*conure screaming intensifies* (ooc) //#my love my life my pain in the ass (❤️ todestochter / ayato + milou ❤️) //#truly you are your mother's daughter (🦊 todestochter / yae miko & milou 🦊) //#it takes more than being a mother to be a mom (💢 todestochter / ei & milou 💢) //#my pain amuses you doesn't it? (💢 todestochter / wriothesley & milou 💢) //#loving a woman made of gold and stronger than iron (❤️ spinnenwinter / neuvillette + navia ❤️) //#my heart is an river and it tied to your ocean (❤️ spinnenwinter / neuvillette + furina ❤️) //#the heart of a lioness melts only for her tengu ( ❤️ ahellofalotofmuses / dehya + sara ❤️) //#you are the ice that calms my unrelenting fire ( ❤️ thewaywardsnowflake / diluc + isolde ❤️) //#no matter how much space may separate us i will always come back to you ( bishonenprince /❤️ jing yuan + sora ❤️) //#this lion only bows to the wolf that hold his heart (❤️ wolfkcst / jing yuan + eivor ❤️) //#a girl i want to be good for ( ❤️ screenviolense / wriothesley + jean ❤️) //#got a real good feelin' somethin' bad about to happen ( 👿 bishonenprince / wriothesley & sora 😇) //

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love-songs-for-emma · 6 months

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they say that "time heals all wounds" but i honestly think that upping my anti-depressants has done more for me

#.jokes #hashtag comedy #ok but actually. upping my dosage has rocked my world this last week #i hope this continues!!!!!!!#today is The Day im Feeling It #still a very tired busy guy but at least im not explodingexplodingexploding #also on a serious note. time just passes. it passes no matter what. time is not a remedy to trauma #time will go on but you may get stuck on loop. therapy. unpacking what happened to you. finding coping mechanisms that #work for you. medication maybe. these r things that help #the pain still exists. and it can be just as strong depending on the trauma. but hopefully the time between incidents/episodes lessens #fill the space where u feel capable and free with love laughter joy. fill it with little tasks that set you up to have a better time when #things r feeling bad again #sometimes ill do smth as small as writing out a phone number i need to call in the morning Just to cut out the step of googling it in the #morning. bc in the morning The Phone Call may seem monumental and impossible. but a lil bit less so if everything i need (#the number & what i wanna say) are written out before me #also also. last thing. the beginning of this is to be read exactly how the person in ''it could take 5 or 6 stores or just 1'' says it #thank u.#.txt #maria is literally just rambling. hi #personal #yes this ok to reblog. its meant to make u snort #mental health #/pos #silly hour!

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ladyimaginarium · 1 year

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