i swear to god everyone just hates me

my cd player starts malfunctioning when I turn the volume up real loud but I’m too lazy to go turn it off so I’m just listening to Lou Reed glitching very loudly rn.

It's one thing to be treated like shit, and expect to be treated like shit. But I find it odd that they take exception when you anticipate being treated like shit and react accordingly

Obsessive/mentally ill/bpd posting type beat images in my phone rn

god i just want to fucking die so bad but i can’t leave my cat

Mom beat me up with my own phone,her hands and whatever manga she insulted me, telling me how painful I am in her butt and in all her life for having a damn phone, liking anime and being shy in general and shit asked me what she did so wrong in my life.

Me, who just wanted to be loved and that my Mother just accepts me for who i am and just wanted a apology for all the bullying she and Dad gave me, telling my teacher that she never had any hope in me, burned my drawimgs cuz she hated anime, broke my Figurines i bought this year, telling me i'll never be a nurse for being like this, that im worthless, i should just dissappear and that she regrets nothing when beating me or insulting me and no matter how much i told her she doesnt want to understand and prefers my siblings over me and god, how much i got beat up for saying one thing about god, which is true cuz i lost all hope in this life and i just cant take it anymore anyone pls stop my suffering i want to die i want to die i want to die i want to die

normalize talking like Ben from “Talking Ben the dog”

they call me the yapper

once the yap starts

you never escape the yap

Is it weird that my circadian rhythm is aligned with that of a racoon?

I don't understand why I always ruin everything. Why I can't just sit back and keep my mouth shut. I want to be better, I want to change everything that I am but I can't. I want to be soft spoken and sweet and pretty. I want mothers to look at me and hope their daughters turn out like me, I want little kids to look at me and not just see a good person but an other worldly creature. I want to be beautiful and gentle like flowers and sunlight shining through the trees and kisses on cheeks and smiles after crying that aren't forced but brought to light from the love of your life. I want to be small and delicate but not fragile and weak, I want to be all of the things that I was taught I should be. But I'm not. I'm loud and rude and most times mean and borderline evil. I'm annoying and rough and all the things that aren't what everyone wants me to be. I'm a fire that's been burnt out and still too bright. I'm ugly and dark and disgusting. I'm always the villain in every story or nothing at all. I'm always going to be too much but never enough. I'm always going to be alone and unloved. I'm no butterfly, I'm not going to have some incredible change, I'm never going to become beautiful, because only caterpillars turn into butterflies and I'm just a spider spinning a web that people keep walking through

things that have happened recently in Wayne Manor:

Alfred removed all the curtains to air then out and discovered someone has been writing on them for years.

Cow shaped hooveprints were found on the hood of Dick's car

Cow shaped hooveprints were found on the hood of Jason's car

Damian decided to move out for a good two days before showing up again, and had been clingy since, weird

Tim found out he has a gluten allergy and has been in a one sided argument with Alfred over it.

Someone thought it was funny to hid every single mug in the house in Duke's closet it was not at all he opened it and a fed of the fell over and broke.

Cass fell asleep on the couch only to awake up in a completely different part of the house, her brother's fighting over what animated barbie movie to watch. They chose the twelve dancing princesses of course.

my parents say they believe in me. have hope for my future. but when i walk past their door at night i can hear them say they think im gonna fail and fuck everything up like i always do. why am i always a disappointment? i dont know how much longer i can do this.

I get cats now, meowing is so addictive