For the Hostage Rowan au, how do the resets affect humans? Cause there’s a lot more stuff that can make you forget things then just Soul Rot, and magic probably makes that list longer. Cause I’m imagining the longer he stays, the more his mind tries to adjust by also trying to reset(unhealthy coping mechanism or maybe in this scenario it would be the most healthy option). Like have you ever not been able to fully trust your own memory? That’s what I’m thinking happens except a little more extreme, and he doesn’t notice that until he realizes that he almost forgot his own name and had begun calling himself the name that the others had called him(I’d like to say Red but he’s no longer wearing anything prominently red, maybe David forgot his name was Rowan like that one HC just kept calling him that or they call him that because of his hair and “We can’t just call you Colorful Guy, that’s that crayon guy”(Creative Brendon)). 

Knowing something is happening and knowing how to stop it are two different things. He can’t write anything down permanently and even if he could, what if he already forgot something, his sisters, his age, his parents, how could he trust himself to remember that when he almost forgot his own name. I imagine it like that one Spider David scene where he’s like “oh ok” and the next “wait a second!/Stop that!” except instead of just yelling at David he’s also yelling at himself for forgetting, and it just keeps happening, no matter what he does. Cause he can keep reminding himself of facts but he can never get rid of the doubt that he’s forgetting something (example: “My name is Rowan; I have two sisters, Samantha and Sophie- wait do I have two sisters? What if it’s three?! Do I have another sibling!? Do I have a brother!? Did I forget someone! What if that’s not their names! What if that’s not my name-wait no it is, my name is Rowan! Or is it? Dammit David!”), your mind can be your best ally or your worst enemy, and unfortunately for Rowan, it doesn’t seem to want to work with him. And when Red and the puppets do escape like in the au post-canon, he might be very disoriented and never really fully trust himself with that without someone(probably Sammy) constantly reminding and affirming him of things and therapy, lots and lots of therapy.

(Sorry I saw the question + AU and couldn’t stop thinking about it, sorry for the rambling) -J

One of the main differences between director Red and hostage Red is how they're integrated into the house. Director Red is kept an outside observer for the most part, while hostage Red is directly living with the puppets. At first, it would be a lot of crying and breakdowns, but after a while, I think he straight up forgets he didn't always live there. He still wants to see his family again, but it becomes a lot less urgent, and he talking about them like he's just forgotten to reach out in a while, though he will occasionally make omnious mentions wishing he could see them.

When they do eventually get him home, he's still convinced the whole thing is a lesson, which he plays along with for a while, until he finally just breaks down and begs for them to stop pretending to be his family. He's so convinced that it's fake and going to be ripped away from him at any second that he just wants to get it over with.

like to think no one in the cycle knows why the ink demon is making all these kids, or they just have no idea the proto-audreys or fave exist at all.

maybe some who've seen will have some vague memory, or hell, maybe the cycle has stopped, been paused, or just prolonged to make room for audrey, and only ever restarts at the ink demons choosing when he's ready to make a new one. and if he does do that, it probably throws everyone off their rhythm. henry could be dealing with alice, and because bendy got a corps back after sending a proto out, he eats it, and the easiest way to quickly reclaim that energy is to watch "the end" again, starting the cycle over with himself whole again.

and mf sends henry right back to the beginning, probably with items he shouldn't have, maybe with really jumbled up memories.

no one's really fully aware that the cycle is being purposely messed with, other than really hard dejavu, and no one sees any of the protos, or if they do, they don't remember, as the ink demon would typically keep them in his throne room.

fave tho, he starts taking out (maybe he took a few out before this, just to test the waters), and maybe in return isn't too active himself. he might not reach out to grab henry at the start of the game, because he's busy keeping fave out of trouble. leaving henry to just be uneasy and try to leave, only to then proceed to chapter two like that uncomfortable silence was part of everything.

bendy and fave playing hide and seek at heavenly toys, probably being the first time henry sees her, and bendy chasing henry down for accidentally kidnapping the demons daughter, thinking he's protecting her from him. the ink demon being active while henry looks for hearts for alice, with him trying to baby sit who he thinks is a child in grave danger, who just wants her daddy, and to go home as much as he does. he ask around, and no one else really comments, or they get killed before they can say what they think, but mostly everyone has no idea who this girl is, where she came from, or why she's there.

maybe the ink demon would straight up hide fave in vents or miracle stations to try and keep her out of sight in areas where he's stalking henry or anyone else.

or he just straight up seems calmer, not stalking henry at all, and leaving everyone who feared it confused, and maybe even more terrified as to where the hell it's at, sparking paranoia.

just--

sammy trying to summon bendy, and he gets fuckin NOTHING. no attack, none him coming from the wall, just absolute jack unless fave steps in, going "shhh, don't tell my daddy i'm helping you." and untying henry before sammy walks out n just... "WHO THE HELL IS THAT CHILD???"

What so u think of the song preview?

i personally rlly like dejavu!! and miracle!! im waiting for the full ver of the killa and quarter life bfr i can say anything tho... will be talking a lot more abt it once i hear the full songs :>

Novel Spoilers

Okay so transcended Noviel Au, but canon compliant- so now we know how exactly the novel's gonna go from here, let's assume that Noviel will appear maybe around after they tame the bone dragon(just after Javier becomes a grandmaster) but before they go to hell, so we can have a "friendly" competition between Noviel and Javier lmaooo????(Javier lowkey being more aggressive than normal bc yessss)

And at the same time, lie about the fact he got almost all his ideas from mr "knight of blood and iron" to everyone at the estate, and everyone Lloyd befriended lowkey had a dejavu meeting Noviel with Noviel being shocked about how everyone he knew in the og novel just being conglomerated in the frontera estate(the elves he made ellencia armor with, the dragon he maimed(that's still alive???) Sir Blank(who's also alive) and non-evil Alicia???) And when questioned about details only they would know he could definitely answer, bc everything Lloyd knows about the world was what Noviel experienced, so this just adds onto the respect for the ~man who mr Lloyd secretly knew about~ to which Javier, of course hates, so, so much anxncb

It would also be a perfect opportunity for Lloyd to come clean about his goals, and about his identity to Noviel(to help him build the jewel of truth) which further solidifies Noviel's loyalty to him, so when the train to reincarnation scene happens, Noviel would be the one waiting at the gate(with a lowkey short moment of Noviel paying no-respect to mr blue Frontera), with Javier in the other train cab, so Javier thinks Noviel doesn't know but ohhh he does-- and when the king of hell calls Lloyd "kim suho", Noviel isn't surprised but damn he WILL keep Lloyd's true name in mind nxnxnd

and okay okay this has gone too long, but what if, bc there are 2 Javiers that will force their way into accompanying Lloyd to Seoul, the dragon king makes it so that they have 48 hours to stay in Seoul(just bc i want the three of them to sightsee around before stealing a national relic), so headcanons on that?👀👀

 bestie you have me obsessed with this oh my godddd!!

having noviel come around the bone dragon is such a perfect moment tho??? like this is right when these dumbasses finally accept they are actually friends and care about each other, like, a lot, so having noviel come and rock the boat would be soooo good.

javier is just at this stage where he's like "oh i care about him a lot, i want him to live a long easy life and be at his side every step of the way" and then noviel appears. all mysterious and shit, hogging all of lloyd's attention, sharing all these past experiences javier had no idea ever even happened?? and like?? whispering to each other all the time?? spending so much time together??? oh he's definitely getting a bit territorial of this new, special thing he just found out about himself sajkdjksa

GAAAHH i hadn't even thought about noviel meeting these people he's already met in his own timeline! that would definitely help to soften him up to lloyd, like there is no way this kid would manage to get all of them to work with him if he was still a hooligan or a bad person in general. especially alicia not being a tyrant directly because of lloyd's actions. like that would definitely win lloyd a lot of points in his eyes.

And when questioned about details only they would know he could definitely answer, bc everything Lloyd knows about the world was what Noviel experienced, so this just adds onto the respect for the ~man who mr Lloyd secretly knew about~ to which Javier, of course hates, so, so much anxncb

ahskdhka i loveeee the idea of people asking noviel details about his adventures and being in awe of what a badass he is and sort of congratulating lloyd on befriending him and javier in the background just like "this is bullshit why is everyone so in love he didn't even defeat a hell knight like master lloyd and i did >:["

and noviel knowing about lloyd's identity before they even go to hell!!! and meeting og!lloyd!! i think he'd be a bit conflicted about it, because on one hand he did saw the man die once but also,,,, he kind of was a complete ass to him for his entire life, so. he's a bit short on sympathy for him. but i loveeee the idea of noviel immediately knowing why the king of hell keeps calling lloyd kim suho and just,,, sort of filing that info for later. (and like maybe trying to use suho's name in private? he thinks they can find a bit of common ground on not being able to use their real name in public and in a way he's right but also lloyd is very firm about being,,, well, lloyd. he's lloyd now and he's made his peace with that. which might start noviel's own process on accepting that he can no longer be javier asrahan knight of the frontera estate like he used to be and needs to find his own identity now)

and also!!!! more miscomunication!! i love that, i'm sorry, i am the bitch miscomunication is written for. javier finding out about lloyd but thinking noviel doesn't know, noviel knowing but thinking javier doesn't know and both of them trying to hide it from the other. while lloyd is blessedly unaware of it all lmaoo

and oooohh y'know noviel would silently freak out about the fate restoration thing. like he just got back to a time where things are actually ok, he didn't even have to murder anyone to save his home, he [sort of] has everything and everyone he loved back again plus a young master who actually gives a shit about the state and lloyd is telling him things might still go sort of the same way they did for him?? he wouldn't even hesitate even for one second to help lloyd in whatever he wants or needs to prevent it. he'd definitely want to jump universes with lloyd!

asjdkhajk just thinking about both of them bursting into the room at the same time and asking to be sent along with in unison, turning to glare at the other because they both believe they said it first.

lloyd kind of doesn't want any of them to come along but if he has to choose he'd definitely go with noviel but javier insists on coming with anyway much to his dispair.

this is already so long but!!! oh my god do i have headcannons about that!! i wanted the seoul arc to be way longer than it ended up being and i just!! wanted them to spend more time on what used to be lloyd's home!!

definitely starting by food, i really think lloyd would use the opportunity to fill up on all the food he missed in lorasia, everything from more traditional food to junk food. also both javiers get adicted to soda and try to sneak as many bottles as they can back with them asjdka

oh and maybe they meet someone lloyd knew as suho and of course the person doesn't recognize him but lloyd definitely does and he just,,, can't help reverting to a little how he acted back in his old life, way more softspoken and respectful, which sets all kind of alarms to javier and noviel, who get a bit over protective because who is this person who's making their master act so different, what did they did to him and do they need to maim someone.

ahsjdhka gosh i have so many more thinks i wanna touch but this is already way too long and its way too late where i'm at so!!! i'll have to make a different post for it!!

this was soooo fun, thank you so much for sending me this! i love this au so much!!!! you woke up all of the brain worms as you can see <3333

My dad has really high drug tolerance, but my mom has really low drug tolerance. Like, going into surgery my dad would need double dose of the anesthesia while my mom would need a half dose.

You would think this would even out to me having a normal drug tolerance, right? Eh, kinda. When I had surgery, there were no comments about my anesthesia being unusual. But, other drugs? It varies.

For coffee, the affects hit me right away, and then it's like I go through the entire caffeine affects in super speed. If I want to actually keep moving, I have to keep sipping the coffee or I crash. But I can't have more than a few sips or I start bouncing off the wall. Then I can't sleep for 12 hours while being too tired to do anything besides listen to my heart beat too fast.

Tea is different. More mellow, but still doesn't let me sleep for long after the effects should've worn off. And no, chamomile and similar traditional sleepy time teas do not help me fall asleep.

But Alcohol? Sure, I get tipsy fast, but I never get more than tipsy. I went out drinking with my dad and am more sober than him by the end of the night, despite being brand new to drinking and having almost as much as him.

Like, I metabolize drugs fast at first, then just kinda sit in my system? Doing just enough to keep me buzzed, but not much else.

I tried weed gummies a few times, and that did not go well. Very hard to describe. It was like I was everywhere and nowhere at once, and it hurt so much. Almost always ended with me passing out. Or in the one case I couldn't sleep, I was grumpily awake while halfway out of my mind and I hated it. No control. No relaxation. It started as a fun trip, but then it just wouldn't end even after the fun was over. Just dizziness and vague premonitions of the future that I forget by the morning. I really hate getting premonitions of the future. They are never helpful or understandable, or even noteworthy until they happen, and I get the most jarring case of dejavu. It sucks. Like looking into a mirror with a mirror behind you except they are both fun mirrors and you have a migrane. Fucking hate experiencing that psychic shit. I never feel in tune with any spiritual junk, so why should I get random visions that we know I'm going to ponder for maybe 5 seconds before ignoring? Which is hilarious because both my parents are spiritual people. My mom is a Wiccan and my dad is a philosopher. Though, I think dad likes to study spirituality more than experience it. Mom definitely claims to feel the effects of crystals tho. I think it's a problem with me being unable to let go of my control. Like, I often feel the need to be in control of everything, but especially my own mind. It makes it hard to enjoy things that are made to let you release control and just relax.

Oh, right, this post was about genetics and drugs. Uhh, don't do drugs kids? And if you do, overanalyze your experience so you can predict what will happen next time and prepare damage control. Start with small dosages so you know how you will react! And don't take a second dose if the first doesn't hit right away. Give it time. Sometimes, it will take an hour before you realize it is actually working. It probably started a half hour in, but you didn't realize because you were too focused on how it wasn't working yet.

And if your parents have very different reactions to drugs (caffeine is a drug btw); prepare for the worst, hope for the best, expect the unexpected.

Heres a list of my dreamsmp headcanons that have no impact on the actual story by any chance but hey they're all like our ocs at the end of the day right?

Contrary to popular belief, c!Wilbur is NOT smelly. He does NOT smell. Well, he does, but what he does is tries soo hard to get rid of that smell, the smell of death and rot and murky traintracks off of him constantly. Sometimes he thinks he can feel that smell just hovering over him, and he feels so dirty. So he rubs his skin with soap and water so hard that part of skin starts turning red. It's fine tho, bc he likes feeling fresh and new amd clean, and not like a walking corpse that raised from a dusty old platform.

C!tommy gets a lot of Deja Vus. Like, a Lot. Nothing too concerning, but it's a lot more than anyone in the server. No one knows why tho, but phil has some suspicions. (Is this too specific? I get a lot of dejavus as well lol)

C!sapnap loooooves using mehandi! Or Henna, as you may call. its this paste thingy u apply in ur skin as designs, then you wash it off, and you basically have your own temporary tattoo. It works best on a warm skin, and sapnap LOVES it. He used to do it all the time on Big Q and Karl.

Speaking of c!karl, you know those swirlies he has under his eyes? yeah, those are mehandi designs. Sometimes sapnap does them for him, sometimes he does it himself. Lately he just kinda stares at the mehandi in his hands, not knowing what to do with it but feeling like he should do something about it, until sapnap comes in and does them for him.

C!dream, during the early days, used to have a picture of c!sapnap and c!george in his inventory, but then had to move it somewhere else as he started getting more items. George wasn't gonna have it tho, so he kept sneaking it back into dream's inventory. Dream found out and playfully threw it away before george to tell him off. George, the dramatic that he is, play cursed him, saying he would never get rid of that photo even if he tried for as long as dream lived on. Years later, dream somehow still sees that picture, always sitting in some place around him. He doesn't know how it gets there. He doesn't know if he misses that time. He probably doesn't tho.

New members entering the server sometimes genuinely wonder if ctommy and cwilbur are actual brothers. Sometimes you really can't tell you know. They do that until they learn about pogtopia, they learn about all the stuff that went down there, and decide they probably aren't brothers as it all becomes far more tragic and painful if they really were.

Feel free to add more of yours as well! This is a bad time to brainrot about the dsmp as the server is starting to feel deader than my grandfather but atleast we have time to think about it i guess???

Spoiler!!

But I haven't read the latest chapter yet so I'm only basing on what I saw on Twitter and my imaginative mind. Anyways, those tweets in Twitter about Chifuyu getting bad vibes from Kisaki and Naoto with Mikey and Kisaki again in the reset tl. But lemme add this:

BajiFuyu and KisakiHanma slandering each other (was Hanma in the reset tl? I hope so)

The annoyance Hakkai has towards the Haitani sibs

Haitani sibs and their unexplained fright towards Souya. Like, no one knows (not even the Haitanis) why they are scared(they'll never admit this tho) with Angry. Specially Rindou. (If the war that happened in the Tenjiku war was diff from the reset tl)

Kaku's wariness towards Sanzu and his uneasiness with Kisaki. (He got passed that tho but then he saw Sanzu hold a Katana, he got dejavu-ed)

Koko's jealousy towards InuiKen's connection like, somehow these two had a kind of camraderie they once had before the reset tl. But no one knows that except Take. So everyone was just confused at first and Koko even more so.

Sano sibs getting bad vibes from Kisaki so Mikey played pranks on him then got Izana involved. And Kisaki was just there scheming trying to get out of the Sano brothers' pranking. But then BajiFuyu joined the fun so it was an all out war with Hanma on his side. Kazutora and Sanzu was in the middle playing pranks on both sides. And the rest was just tired of their sh*t.

You're not my enemy. You won't be my enemy. Why would you?.. Don't I feel hurt? I sure do! Don't I think I deserved better treatment? You bet I do! And you know I did... Will I be around? I won't. Because if you want me not feel hurt or if you want me around, It's your turn to do somethings. I don't know how long... I don't know what... I don't even know if it would work or not. I told you, I have always wanted and waited for you to do somethings. I just let you know about how I feel. Because I believed if I didn't, it would be wasted... I didn't want that. I mean how can you know how I feel if I don't say anything, right? Like how the hell I can know what you feel while you won't tell anything. ... I just got dejavu. Did we do this before? And if we did... Why the hell are you doing the same things! Why the hell am I doing the same things?! Let's try to change things. ...

Everything was up to you before. But now everything is up to you more than before! I have no idea if I would like to talk with you anymore. If you like to see what will happen, you have to try! I have no idea if I would be willing to do anything anymore. If you like to see what will happen, you have to try! I have no idea if you can fix my emotions anymore. If you like to see what will happen, you have to try! I gave you lots of things... My sincerity. My time. My secrets. My emotions. My words... And I received nothing in return. Do you think that's fair? Because I do not. Yes, yes I said "no strings attached" but you know even then you will receive something from the other side. But I got nothing, except the bad feelings. I don't believe finding a few minutes would be so hard in a day. Or even one hour in a week. I have never wanted to push you or make things hard for you... You can't deny that. Told you, every relationship has selfishness. Since I said "let's try to change things" I'll be the selfish one! This wouldn't be this hard if you ever believed in me and my words. You made it this way. And now I couldn't care less. This will not change anything tho. I don't even know why I'm typing this! I don't think you would see or even care anyways!..

Helloooo can i ask a ceo!lucas smut like you are his secretary and he always tries to get in your pants but you keep on avoiding him because he is a known playboy but he gets frustrated in the end by your rejections that's why he decided to profess to you and seduce you through wine in his condo. Also i was the one who requested a smut with jae and lucas in a poly relationship, can i be a regular anon? 🥺

I don't know if this is how it goes but can i be 💛 anon? Hehe

Of course you can be a regular anon babe, I love your request.

Lucas day post 1

Yes, boss +18 Wong Yuk-hei

Warnings: Deep description of sex (?, unprotected, agressive Lucas (Kinda)

Being a secretary has never been easy, but your boss didn’t even try to make it better. He was always forgetting about stuff, not completely doing his job or discussing with his father, the previous CEO. Nothing that he did helped the company nor you. 

And the worst part were his dating scandals. You promised his father that you would take care of him and try your best to teach him how to be a good CEO, but it was just so hard to keep ignoring his attempts to fuck you. He really tried hard for that.

“Today’s schedule is a little busy” You say looking at him and he raises a brow. “Come here and tell me” His hands tap his lap, wanting you to sit on it. You roll your eyes back and try your best not to lose it. “That’s not professional sir” You simply tell him, but he covers his ears in protest, not hearing a single thing of your words.

You throw him the Ipad on your hands and simply said “Read it yourself then” But his hand traps your wrist when you try to get out. His strong arm pulls you into the sofa he was in and skillfully he gets on top of you, trapping your body with his.

“You gotta stop pretending that you don’t want me, because it’s getting on my nerves lately” He whispers on your ear annd you push him off you. “You gotta start acting like a boss and not like a horny teenager” You simply say before leaving. 

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It was always like that, there was no day he didn’t try to get you, and therefore there was no day you didn’t reject him. So he started getting frustrated by your attitude.

It was 3:15 AM when he called you. You normally weren’t awake at those hours, but for some reason you couldn’t sleep that night. His voice really sounded desperate, sad, on the edge. That’s why you decided to go to his apartment, to figure out what the hell happened.

When you saw him, with a wine glass and a gun next to him, something gets into you, you never felt anything for your boss, but seeing him like that, made you think on things you would’ve never thought about otherwise. It’s that kind of feeling of appreciating something when you lose it, but having a chance to keep it. 

You walk closer to him and sit down on the couch he was on. You look at the gun, it looks so real, it had to be real for sure. “What happened?” Your voice sounds worried and scared at the same time. He looks at you with a dead serious glare. 

“You know, we always talk about business, but not about the real life. You don’t know how fucked my father is, or how he treats me, so you have no rights on telling me how to act” You gulp at his words and look at the gun. He laughs looking at your expression. “Don’t worry, it’s fake” He says grabbing the gusn and showing you how it had no bullets. “I wanted to see you, because I needed to look at something beautiful for a minute” He says getting your hair out of your face. 

“Are you drunk?” You ask him, rolling your eyes back. “Do I need to be?” He whispers on your ear before placing a kiss on your neck. Your eyes close for a split second, allowing your mind to travel away from your body, to forget about your responsabilities, about everything else in the planet apart from him. 

And that moment feels somehow like the feeling you’ve been crawling for since you can remember. His stupid yet perfect figure, made you feel like you were floating into some kind of universe where everything was calmed, where nothing wrong was happening, and the only sensation existing were his wet lips pressed on your neck.

“S-stop” You finally manage to say, coming back from the enchantment he had put you into. He stops, getting far from you as he stands up in front of you. He holds a wine glass, a full wine glass on his hand and drinks calmly from it. His hand throws the expensive looking glass to the white wall, leaving a red mess printed on it.

Your whole body shakes at the loud noise. “Calm down” You say looking to the floor. Almost as if you were saying it to yourself really. “Get here” He says pointing next to him, but you shake your head. “You have to control your anger” You say calmly but a smirk appears on his face. “I’m not angry” He says extending is arms before walking slowly towards you.

He kneels down in front of your sitting figure and he licks your thigh slowly whispering “Just horny” Your eyes look directly into his, feeling the lust inside of them, a lust that you had never seen in your life, not even inside the playboy’s eyes.

“You don’t know what stop means?” You say, completely unable to control a smile to form on your lips. “I can read you babygirl. I can read through your words” His fingertips caress the wet payhs his tongue left along your thighs, making you feel goosebumps with it.

You want to tell him he’s wrong, but you aren’t even sure if he is. And your thoughts completely get lost in the feeling of his fingers drawing patterns over your sensitive skin. 

“You really like playing hard to get, but I could feel how you felt during that kiss” He says, getting closer to your face. His lips repeat the said kiss, making your brain go through a beautiful dejavu. His hand holds your cheek firmly as he does. And before you can even notice, his lips are already pressed on yours.

There’s something about him, about the slowliness of his touch that makes you feel like a masterpiece on a musseum, getting finished by the artist. You feel his tender touch and don’t even recognize the boy you thought you knew. The roughness that he always wanted to give, it was pretty much non-existent. There was just pure love and care in his touch.

Even when his fingers got into you, curled inside you, pressed every spot you ever knew and more, and even when he got faster, there was nothing but love in his touch. But when his length got into you, something changed.

His thrusts were giving you the sensation of unrealness that filled the boy’s mind. You were feeling exactly every insecurity he had through the roughness of his dick stretching your walls like nobody ever did before. There was something comforting about it tho. The way he was exposed in front of you, just like you were to him. The connection that formed into the heavy air along with the moany sounds and the heavy breaths.

It was in his every move, and his every word. Although they might have sounded differently to someone else’s ears, for you, his words were so filled with that sensation, that feeling that you were thirsty of. That feeling that only sex could give yet not everyone could achieve it. 

And the way his hot cum brushed your walls, giving warmth to your shaking figure. His hands caressing your face, as both of your mouths were fully open, letting out lovely and loud sounds.

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I got to deep on this one... I mean... It’s another way to feel sex.

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Hello! I am Atiny :) I fell in love with them around the time got7 disbanded and they fast became my favourite group! My bias is San, but occasionally Seonghwa creeps up and I feel like I double bias. Anytime you want to ask questions or generally freak out over them my kpop blog is @kpopthoughtsandmusings so feel free message :)

Hey dear Atiny 😊💙

wait got7 disband??? 😭😭😭 what??? (I'll check it out later)

omg, san is so hot!😫😫😫 I watched the "I'm the one" yesterday focus on him and now my throat hurt from screaming. damn those expressions and the abs 😳😫

but my corrent bias is wooyoung he is just savage and cute I LOVE HIM SO MUCH (ever since last kingdom I liked him)

I still don't know them much but in dejavu Seonghwa looked so damn good 😍 (tho I have a fetish for sans eyes 😭) they both look real good on stage.

and yes I'd love to follow you! I was just watching this guide and some videos from the treasure area, I'm ready for more!

thank you 💙💙💙

Listen what if the elves are in bias for noviel(that dejavu feeling of knowing him in another time, bc noviel befriended them all in the other world) and the orcs are in bias for javier(who's muscles they armire and appreciate)

oh my god yeah! it makes sense, noviel already befriended them once, he would totally know how to do it again! plus the elves did fight with javier which, like it or not, would leave a slightly bad impression on them ajskdjask i'm not sure how involved they would be on the whole drama, but they'd totally talk about it between each other akshdka

but the orcs being on javier's side!! oh they would for sure be sooooo into the drama of it all!! they can appreciate a good healthy rivalry, it's always good to have a proper motivation for hitting someone something harder after all ahskjdhka and like noviel isn't as used to construction work as javier is, he still has his own reservations about certain parts of the work and he tries to learn because hey, lloyd asked him to, but it is the one thing javier can absolutely be for sure certain he's better at than him and that is mostly where the orcs socialize with them so it definitely makes them favor javier more ajsdhka

(also i just thought about javier taking off his shirt more often now that lloyd has apparently gone and gotten another knight. for totally unrelated reasons of course ajdsks)

ahskjdka also just thinking of the suggestions each group would give to them too woo lloyd lmaooo i'm almost certain both would involve some sort of hunting trip tho 🤭

rv, monsta x and maybe bvdnit if you want! hi majaa

is one got kinda long so putting it under a read more <3

Red Velvet: okay so actually i have listened to some of their bsides but i dont actually remember them that well ooops

my bias: yeri my beloved <3

first time i heard of them: my friend absolutely hated them when they debuted so then LMAO

when i became a fan: wouldnt per se call myself a fan but i liked them from red flavour

favorite (and least favorite) title track: red flavour!

favorite (and least favorite) b-side. that one they performed while promoting peek-a-boo that was really funky and 80s esque.. (i think its look but im not sure)

favorite (and least favorite) mv: im a sucker for peek-a-boo. love good murder!

favorite (and least favorite) album: perfect red velvet might be the only one ive actually listened to of theirs hehe

a concept i wished they’d try: hmmmm i feel like they have covered everything basically but i want them to go back to a cuter image but thats just me :-)

what i like most about them: they make bangers and hate men! whats not to like!!

Monsta X

my bias + bias wrecker: kihyun <3 (i know.........)

first time i heard of them: hmmm around the time i first got into kpop so like....

when i became a fan: probably around dramarama era? shine forever maybe?

favorite (and least favorite) title track: either jealousy or dramarama

favorite (and least favorite) b-side: mohae..... crazy in love.... oh my.... they contain multitudes

favorite (and least favorite) mv: cinematic gay masterpiece all in..... or beautiful for minhyuks glitter look

favorite (and least favorite) album: I remember really liking the connect: dejavu album :-)

a concept i wished they’d try: a just some guy concept. i think theyd do that well.

what i like most about them: good rap. good vocals. beautiful tits.

bvndit

Okay i have heard of them but ive never actually listened to any of their songs so lets goooo

first song youtube took me to: dumb

rate it wow okay i really like this. the song was good and the choreo was really cool. a more interesting mv might have caught my attention more tho

first impressions: their voices are really nice!!

who stuck out to me: no one particularly stood out to me, but not in a bad way!!

if i’ll watch more of them or not: ill probably keep a lookout for them in the future

stealing this utapri game from nana bc bored. im gonna try to Not say ai for most answers but its very likely that i will

1. your best boy?

hmm i dont kn- AI MIKAZE 😋

2. your least favorite boy?

camus and eiichi 🤼‍♂️

3. a character you never thought you would love as much as you do now?

hmm kinda otoya, my love for him grew a lot larger than what it was at first i started the anime for ai so i didnt pay much attention to like everything else but also reiji. i started sl before watching the anime and reiji was kinda just There for me but after watching the anime and reading about his story in the og games i just- *sob* he deserves so much better he’s amazing and i love him

4. a character you relate to in any way?

haruka and i guess cecil? 👁 ill get back to u on the second one but yeah definitely haruka shes one of my highest kins i am cringe but i am free

5. a character you think deserves more love?

CECIL ;_; he’s so sweet he deserves the world

6. a character you would want as your partner/lover?

do you even need to ask WHO DO YOU THINK-

7. a character you would want as your mentor/senpai?

reiji !!

8. your favorite ship?

me x ai JKJK harutomo <3 i also like otoharu, cesshiharu, and masaharu :]

9. a character you want to cosplay/have already cosplayed?

i think cosplaying otoya or syo could be fun but tbh i dont think id pull off a cosplay of any of them

10. favorite side character?

ringo and tomochika

11. favorite solo song?

f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f f futari no monogram :vibecheck: BUT ALSO smile magic <3 and true wing <3 and every ai song-

12. your favorite duet song?

FICTION :sob: and justice impulse <3

13. your favorite trio song?

stop theres too many good ones i cant choose just one… but up down up, code t.v.u, beautiful love, and bloody shadows my beloveds

14. your favorite group song?

GODS STAR GODS STAR GODS STAR GO-

15. your least favorite song?

i dont rlly have one i dont think,,, gmgngmgn

16. your favorite singer?

well obviously ai but also natsuki !! his singing is INCREDIBLE

17. your favorite group/trio/duo?

TRIANGLE BEAT AND QN <3

18. your favorite member of starish?

otoya <3

19. your favorite member of quartet night?

*loud sobbing* a a a a a ai mikaze

20. your favorite member of heavens?

shion and yamato are the only ones i care about

21. your favorite seiyuu/voice actor?

*heavy breathing* aoi shouta 🕺

22. favorite drama cd?

BEAUTIFUL LOVE :sob: AND BLOODY SHADOWS

23. your favorite shining live card?

hhhhhim,,,, ❤️👄❤️ i love this whole set so much and this card is just PERFECT the colors and the synth and hes so pretty and he looks so happy and nghh.;nhhhh,,,ggmggg,hhhhbngg;ngn

24. your favorite song beatmap?

(i play on pro) black dejavu, star wish, and pirates of the frontier are SO FUN TO PLAY

25. your least favorite song beatmap?

i love the song but gods star oh my god its so frustrating i played it 48 times and no fc GRRRGSHRGRGRGR

26. black dejavu or white gravity?

bold of you to assume i can decide

27. utapri merch that you own/want?

i have a whole thing of bookmarks of stuff shjfbejf i plan to buy some things whenever i have money for myself next >:)

28. how did you get into utapri?

id discovered it when i followed nana a while back and eventually i was curious as to what it was so i downloaded sl. now it has me by the throat

29. a set theme in shining live that you want to see in the future?

idc i just want pretty ai cards to collect :vibecheck: maybe smth soft tho could be cute

30. why do you love your best boy?

i was immediately drawn to him by the way he presented himself in the intro in SL and when i found out more about him in the anime i was like. sob. i love you what the fuck

not tagging anyone but feel free to do it :]

surveys 066.

What do you want more than anything else? To be honest, it was to start a life, family, marriage with kile. that won’t happen now, so I’m trying to determine what I want. I think I still want those things, but maybe I just need to find someone else to give them to me. Do you have to cross any bridges on your way home? home from what? What type of phone do you have? samsung galaxy s21 ultra Have you ever tried coconut water? yeah NOT for me Are you able to keep a lid on your temper? yes, very much so.  What colour are the blankets on your bed? uhhh all very neutral. creamy, white, gray What was the last thing you said aloud? baby hairs, yeah. Is there anybody who makes you feel empowered? uhhhhhhh not really anymore.  Does your house have a basement? it does! How many online accounts do you have? Or have you lost count? accounts of what? Which Asian country would you like to visit the most? ooooo maybe Japan Who was your first love? John Are you the type to hold grudges? not usually. though, I am sure kile thinks otherwise. What was the last video game you played? switch when I was home What's your favourite flavour of vitamin water? xxx or whatever Are there any bands/artists that get you all emotional? hearing dejavu by olivia rodrigo really made me emotional cus its exactly the situation between kile and I What do you think about double stuff oreos? the more the better Are you happy in your on t? what does this question even mean Have you ever been to a convention? (comic, Youtube, etc.) yes, homeschool, dare2share Do you have any disgusting habits? im sure I have habits that other people would not like? I guess? Can you get your favourite fruit all year around, or is it seasonal? umm most fruits you can get year round if you lower standards and raise your prices lol What brand are most of the electronics in your household? whatever kile sent us. now im going to have to figure out my brand preferences. Is any part of your body hurting right now? yes. my shoulder is getting really bad and my foot hurts. but im alright What's your favourite aunt or uncle's first name? ooooooooooooo boy. steve Do you prefer your tea with or without milk? tea with milk???? thats a thing? What sound makes you cringe? nails on a chalk board Have you ever smoked a cigarette? nope. i could understand the appeal to a degree.. but nope. If so, do you still smoke? n/a What do you think about androgynous names? i’m neutral about it. if thats what floats your boat, go ahead Do you see yourself getting married one day? i always did. I really did when I thought about kile, mostly because I just couldn’t fathom a life without him. now here I am having to figure all this out again. Idk. Maybe its just not going to happen for me. Do you get sick often? no. Who was the last person you invited into your home? uhhh, prob em? Are you of legal drinking age in the country you live in? yes How old were your parents when they got engaged? like 19ish Are your parents still together? nope. they divorced when I was 16/17 What flavour was the last ice cream you ate? phish food I think Are you health conscious? increasingly, but not overly. Have you ever done a first aid course? not yet. If so, would you be prepared to perform CPR if necessary? I could partially but by no means am I trained. Do you have any friends who bat for the other team? I did when I was working or when I was in school. Not mega close friends tho so we have lost touch. Have you ever written a letter to a politician? no. I am just not interested. Are there any songs that get stuck in your head very easily? OH ALL THE TIME. **I know you had a really tough couple events today and I’m sorry for that. Please don’t give up. things will get better. I am rooting for you. I wish we could talk. just focus on your happiness with the house. 

Maybe it's quarantine loneliness or some shit but today I went out for groceries and I ran onto one of my highschool classmates (which I used to have a huge crush on all through senior year) and when I saw him I had this enormous dejavu. But not memories, more like feelings, I remembered vividly how I felt about him and to this day I still kinda want to kiss the shit out of him even tho the last time I saw him was on a bus last year and we didn't even greet each other. So, naturally, I have been thinking about this for the last 4 hours.