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jameui · 2 years

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PAIRING: Park Jongseong x M!Reader

GENRE: Angst, Smut

WARNING: jerk Jongseong, smut not properly proof read, prepare yourselves for the ending, physical abuse and verbal abuse

SUMMARY: Jay has been nothing, but a bully to you. Having been the one to ruin life. Although ome day, he suddenly wants to change everything.

"Hey, Jay. Look it's your boyfriend." Jaeyun nudged the male's side to tease him, only causing Jay to glare at him, despising the whole thought of being in a relationship with another of the same sex. Jaeyun, or Jake being the person who likes to make fun of Jay, started getting into his nerves every opportunity he can get the moment Jay had told him about the freshman, which is you who gave him a chat telling him you like him with no context. You just plainly told him you liked him and left it at just that.

Although, you were totally unaware about this whole confessing ordeal with Jay, because if anything you hated his guts with all your life and wanted him choked to death, rather than having heart eyes for Jay. For context, Jay was the total reason your life was ruined in the first place. It all started when you came out to him that one faithful day you told yourself you could trust Jay, considering he was the only friend you had. Jay was disgusted by that, to say the least. He even started to hate the fact that he ever chose to be your friend and left you without a word, only being a tattletale and told your parents about it who wasn't very happy knowing about it. What once was a happy family, was now in distraught that was caused by Park Jongseong himself.

After that great scene of regret, every night when you came home from school, it wasn't the usual being greeted at the doorstep by your parents anymore. They never even welcomed you inside the house either, instead they had suggested building a very small hut at the front porch perfect for you to fit in next to the only friend you could ever run to when you're so knocked up by these maltreatment, Josh, your pet corgi. At least you were grateful they didn't throw you out into the streets.

Josh. Well, you treated her more like a sibling to you than a friend. You'd even sleep with her during occasions wherein you couldn't find yourself drifting off due to stress or from your anxiety kicking in. You truly, madly, deeply loved your only friend and family member left. You just kind of hoped none of this was happening and wished that you hadn't told Jay you were into guys. You should have known than to trust anyone, but now that it's out of the closet, why not make the most of it, right?

Nope. You were having the best moments of your life. Going out on parties, drinking 'til you drop, making out with numerous men, but the moment there was another report sent to your parents about your behavior, and as though your life wasn't already the worst, they had to send Josh to a foster home and told you that you can only have him back once you have finally started acting like a real man that you're supposed to be. That same night when you found out the reason why you couldn't find Josh, you locked yourself in your tiny hut and never came out, even for food. Your parents never cared nonetheless.

You are holding a grudge against Jay and not for only telling your parents about your sexual orientation when it wasn't his place to do so, but because of what he has done, your life had turned into a shitty whole ass life. Jay never even apologized to you due to his big ego always telling himself that he is always right.

"Jake, Jay. The poor guy's done nothing wrong, so stop messing with him." Heeseung, the mother of the group turned to look at the two, then facing Jay who only rolled his eyes exactly knowing where this was going. "And, Jay. Can you at least apologize for what you've done? It was never your place to tell his parents about him being gay. That's just wrong."

Jay raised him a brow, picking up his bag about to leave scoffing at Heeseung's statement. "He deserves his fucked up life. No gays deserve love." He left this words to them, then opting to walk away when he suddenly bumps into you after not watching where he was going. "FUCK!" He yelled as he fell on his bum, looking up only to catch you staring daggers into him before picking up the books that fell from your hands. Once you have all of them in your arms, you threw at him the thickest textbook you held right to his head, making everyone flinch.

"And you deserve a life worth of karma. Asshole." You spat out in agitation, turning on your heels to continue heading your way to your classroom, halting on your steps to move back to Jay to pick up the back you hit him with. Jay whilst on the middle of getting back up, you decide to hit him one last time. Jay was about to curse you, but you cut him through it. "Oh, Jay. I should have known you have a crush on me."

Jay chuckles in disbelief. "Says you. You sent me a private message telling me you like me."

You blinked your eyes several times, couldn't believe what you heard from Jay's mouth, you bursting into fits of laughter making your stomach hurt as you held onto it for dear life. "Fuck, Jay! You're so funny. Never knew you'd get delusional." You were still yet to come down from your euphoria, Jay left feeling confused. You sighed, wiping the stray tears from your eyes. "Sure, sure. You can keep telling your self that. Yeah, you go do that. Convince yourself more THAT YOU'RE A FUCKING EGOISTIC JERK!" You yelled, using your feet to beat him right in the middle of his crotch.

Jay felt himself lose all the air in his lungs, holding onto the cause of his great pain, groaning out loudly. "You better watch yourself, Park. It can get pretty crazier than that." You said, then leaving to get to your classroom.

Jay started bore holes into your back with his eyes, brows knitted together. "Well, two can play your game."

It was a really tiring day in school for you, having to deal with Jay (at least his friends were a little nice), a sigh moving past your lips. You were stretching your limbs to ease your tense muscles, but when you arrived home you were met with the sight of your father waiting for you at the front porch. Commonly, you would've been happy, but things aren't the same anymore and you know when that happens, you're in big trouble. "H-Hey, da—" Before you got the chance to even finish your sentence, a harsh slap to your face was delivered, your face turned to the side, the impact leaving a stinging sensation on your cheek.

"You have a minute to explain why you're still bothering Jongseong. You're cursed, I tell you. You're fucking cursed! So, don't rub it in on Jongseong." He shows you a picture of what seems to be a chat sent to Jongseong. You looked over through the side of your eyes and saw your name written as the sender of the message, your eyes widening in fear before gazing up towards your father who had an expression full of anger.

You snapped your body around, taking his phone from his hands trying to find any clue of it being fake or edited, but there were none. You could only form a sound of confusion, unable to find the right words to tell your father. "Dad, I... No, this is not me. I told you that I—"

Attempting to defend yourself to prove that it wasn't you, only gave you one more round of his palm hitting the skin of your face. You got surprised by the sudenness of the action, holding your cheek while giving your father a face of disbelief. "You even dare lie to me, child!" He yelled out, taking you by the arm with a strong grip you can't escape from as he dragged you to your own tiny hut. "A naughty child deserves a good beating."

"Dad, please. No, no! NO!" You yelled out, screaming out mantras of the word 'stop', attempting to convince your father to retreat from beating you with his own hands. You have been used to them ignoring you, but you never expected for them to go this far and it's scaring. One hit followed by another, as quick as how a second passes, endlessly hurting you, loud cries coming out from your throat, getting louder with every strike.

He would slap, punch, and kick you in whichever part he considered useless, which he always told you was your whole existence and would throw you, drag you, and even to the point of restricting you from breathing by wrapping his hands around your throat with a very tight grip. When his wife had called, he groans angrily slamming you against a wall before leaving you almost left for dead. "You would be better dead, than alive." He muttered to you.

Once he was finally out of the door, you crawled your way up to your bed finding yourself at the corner bawling your eyes out, letting out quiet sobs in fear that it would now be the two of them storming into your room to hurt you even more. After all, they do always find fun in your pain. You curled yourself up into a ball, all the comfort hidden inside that circle. "Josh... I miss you so much buddy." You uttered out between sobs, voice hitching.

The following day, you hoped you wouldn't run into any problem or trouble, but as though the world was toying with you, Jay comes out from a corner as you fastened your pace not wanting to deal with him at all so early in the morning nor any time of the day. "How's princess doing, huh?" He mocked you, following closely behind you while you tried your best to ignore him, but the older male was so persistent. "Did your old man give you a good beating?"

The way he knew immediately took you aback, halting on your steps so did Jay who was proud of hismelf with your reaction. "You... were the one who was..."

"'course. Could there be anyone else?" Jay rhetorically questions you with a smirk glued to his face fully aware of the situation he had intentionally put you through. "Spe—"

"Fine, you win. I won't bother you anymore." You told him, not even sparing him a glance, your hood over your head so he wouldn't see the state you were in. "Just... I hope you do the same." You said for the last time, then moved to somewhere far from Jay who was only getting himself warmed up. Satisfied that he's putting you in such a miserable life.

Jay was born living with hatred for homosexuals, mainly since, well for no apparent reason. For all he knew, they were bewitched or cursed; either of the two. He was taught they weren't supposed to exist and just a mutation in their genes, so as he grew older he realized these homosexuals were just jokes and was not here for a reason. In short, he thinks of them in a pretty harsh way as though they weren't humans at all.

Your retreating figure, Jay could only feel his chest swell with pride. Later on, Jay was accompanied by his friends who didn't look so happy at all with him. "JAY! WHAT THE HELL?! HAVEN'T YOU HAD ENOUGH?!" Heeseung couldn't believe Jay would go to this extent on taking his revenge on you, to the point where you would come to school with wounds and bruises on your face.

Jay only replied with a roll of his eyes, not prepared for hearing one of Heeseung's nagging again, but what he didn't expect to happen was to hear Jake agree with Heeseung. "Jay, Heeseung's right. The poor kid was beaten up half to death. Shouldn't you feel a little guilty with what you've done? This has gone too far, Jay." Jake stated out, Jay's brows furrowing watching his bestfriend tell him he was wrong when he would always support him with whatever he does.

"But, guys. He's gay. He does not deserve to have a great life." Jay blurted out without any hesitation, trying to convince his two friends that you were a person deserving to be put in a hell of a life, but the two was shocked that even with their words Jay still found it difficult to open his eyes and realize you were human and a living creature.

Jay was so fixed on his belief that it was getting out of control. It was not right to hurt a fellow human person just based on your beliefs. There's nothing wrong with gays, lesbians, queers. They're pure human with a heart filled with love, just like any normal person heart does. "Alright." This was the only words that left Heeseung's mouth, then pulling Jake closer to his side catching the latter off guard all the while Jay raised a brow in question. "Then, I and Jake must not deserve to be around a jerk like you in the first place."

Jay was confused. He didn't know what he meant, until the next words fell from Heeseung's mouth was he only able to understand why those words were delivered in such a way to hurt him. "We're dating, Jay and we kept it a secret from you because we were afraid you'd lash out on us for being into each other."

"Wha..? Guys, this is not funny at all—"

"Exactly the reaction we despised the most to get from you." Jake states out in disappointment due to his expectation that Jay would be able to understand the two of them, but no, he went on still thinking all of this was a joke; like it was a fantasy story and was unreal. "We dated for almost a month now, Jay. So, if you've got a problem with that, we'll be the one to adjust and leave your circle of friends."

Jay was speechless. His friends were dating? Behind his back? That's crazy. Jake is too straight for Heeseung nor the other for Jake. They're straight! Maybe they're just fooling with him, but Jay was suddenly brought back to the day when he caught the two almost kissing each other just a few days ago, but only thought of it as the two playing. Now, he's able to confirm that they were in fact in the middle of a kiss if he hadn't interrupt that one specific day. No, no, this must be dream. This can't be real. Jay tried to tell himself that, but this was so real. "Guys, I..."

"Jay, it's alright. You're old enough to handle yourself. We'll come back once you've woken up to reality." Heeseung told Jay as a goodbye, then left with Jake, Jay feeling dumbfounded losing his only friends with just one stone. Jay felt a slight ache in his chest, but it would be better off if he weren't around with any homosexuals, right? It's for his own good, isn't it?

"F-Fine, like I need you guys anyways." He convinced himself, but deep inside he knew he will feel really lonely and alien to the feeling of him being all by himself, missing out on the jokes Jake and Heeseung would always tell him.

He knew he was right when he was seated by himself during lunch, while he could see how much fun Heeseung and Jake was having by themselves. It looked like they were more comfortable without him around. It was as though, all this time Jay was making the two anxious and uncomfortable—For pete's sake he did make them feel anxious and uncomfortable the whole time. That was probably one of the reason why they always hid something from him and kept everything a secret from him, so he wouldn't see them in a bad way. Now, Jay was asking himself whether it made any difference if they had told him earlier.

Now, looking at the two, Jay could only think... how perfect the two are for each other. I mean, looking at them, Jay could tell they are so cute. Feeding foods together, laughing with each other, it almost seemed to Jay as if... they are the luckiest people. The most perfect couple. "Jay! What the fuck?!" Jay snapped himself out from his thoughts, then filled his mouth with his veggie salad. Why was he feeling sympathy for them? They don't... But, it's fine if it's them, right? They are his bestfriends. Surely they're an exception.

Later that night, while Jay was doing his daily studies in his room the sound of a dog collar clanging as they walked to his room took his attention, turning his head to look at the dog that just cutely made its way to his room with a cute bark after. Jay softens, leaving his chair to pick up the pup who happily wagged its tail licking the boy's face which got the dog a giggle of happiness from Jay. Maybe he was too dumb or blind to even notice the collar around it's neck as he gave it a check seeing a name engraved to the pendant. "'Josh'. Hm. Did Mr. L/N name her before he gave her to me?" Jay asked himself, fully aware that he's all alone in his house.

Just as Jay was about to put the dog back down, a paper fell to the floor as a curious Jay took it. With the dog still in his arms, he opened the neatly folded piece of paper only to find out that it was a letter. He exchanged looks with the dog who only panted with her tongue out. Jay decides to start reading the letter.

To the reader of this message, my name is L/N Y/N and my location is at (STATE LOCATION). Josh is her name and I'm her past owner and if it doesn't hurt you, can you please bring her back to me? Josh was the only sibling I had and was the only family member I could ever run to, since basically my parents had already disowned me as their child. LMAO, what parents they are, am I right? Anyways, I hope I'm not asking for too much, but I really do hope you can give her back home to me. She also helps me go to sleep after mom and dad beats me up every night. :)

Was this... how badly your parents treated you? Well, he did know about the part where they wanted to mess with you, their own child, but he never really expected they would actually hit you. Sure, he did mock you about being beat up, but he didn't know he was correct. When did it all start? Was it when he first told your parents about your coming out or the first time your mother started telling lies about you to your father?

"Y/N. I don't know what this feeling is, but I fucking feel sorry." He mumbled to himself, hearing Josh whimper when he saw a picture of you from the letter. It was a 1x1 photo of yours, the smile on your face looking problem free. Jay started to feel his walls one by one break, empathetic towards you wanting to make things right. "Fuck it. I'm doing this for Jake and Heeseung." That's what he told himself, but somewhere in his heart he knows he wants to fix what he had broke.

When the next day came, Jay chose to wait for you by the gate, Josh who was hiding inside his bag yelping excitedly. "Don't worry, Josh. You'll have your owner back." Jay told the corgi dog, only mentally slapping himself for talking to a non-human living creature.

After a few minutes of waiting, Jay suddenly felt himself grow tense at the sight of you turning from a corner with your head hung low. Yesterday night, when he wanted to give you Josh back, he chickened out due to his nervousness of facing you, since you were out on the porch, gazing quietly at the stars unable to see your face clearly. When he saw you and if he didn't know you, he would have thought you were so peaceful and lived a quiet life, but you were walking on eggshells because of Jay.

This time he was gonna make it right, he will do it. "Y/N." You raised your head up to see Jay right in front of you with a grimace on his face, a wide shock coursing through his whole body when he saw your black eye, busted lips, and bruised face, but he kept it subtle. It looked horrible. He now just realized that Heeseung was right, only fueling up more his guilt.

Going back to what he intended to do, he clears his throat, pocketing one hand, feinging his cool demeanor. "I came to give you something you want back." Jay went straight to the point, afraid that if he didn't you were gonna run away. He took his bag from off his shoulders and passed it to you with that same expression still on his face, covering the concern he felt towards you. "She seemed to have missed you a lot." Jay said, then left.

You flinched when you heard a rustle in his bag, the zipper coming undone until it came open and jumped out Josh who pounced at you happily, licking your face with so much joy. "JOSH! Oh man, I'm so glad to see you." You hugged her tighly in your arms, not ever wanting to let her go again. You don't want to lose her again, but your parents. How will they react if they see Josh was home? You can always lock your door. That way they can't get in and take Josh away from you again. But, you were wondering though how Jay found Josh and if ever that were answered, why did he give her back to you? What's his deal now?

Meanwhile, Jay hid behind a pillar wall as he could feel a smile of satisfaction creep its way up to his face when he heard a giggle full of joy emit from you caused by your long awaited reunion with Josh. It was like he just made a customer happy and it made his heart—Nope, no. She was your dog and you only deserve to have her back. Plus, this is only the result of Heeseung and Jake leaving his side.

Moving on, Jay afterwards made his way to his classroom to get away from all the prying eyes who might get the chance to witness him acting ALMOST nice to you which he despised the most to ever happen.

On the other hand, Heeseung who had the initial plan to catch your attention to apologize in behalf of Jay, since he was just a few meters behind you, but the chance was taken away the moment his eyes caught it all unfold right in front of him. Which was actually a tad bit weird. Just yesterday he was proud of himself that he was successful on making your life a living hell and now here he was gifting you a dog? Just exactly what is up? Heeseung knew he had to talk this one out with Jay.

Later during recess, Heeseung had told Jake about all that just happened this morning, the Australian extremely astonished at the out of the blue change and it's a big deal, considering he finally made a decent conversation with you rather than arguing with you and hitting you like you were just trash. A piece of unused box.

You, while still alone in your classroom, also was thinking of any possibilities that could have caused the sudden change in Jay's heart, but you doubt he had changed. Maybe he's trying to impress someone. Possible, but the question will be who? Who in their right minds would hit on a fucking douche like him? With what you consider the right answer, you sighed with your nose, shaking your head lightly until you were smacked at the back of the head, adding more pain to what you already have. "WHAT THE FUCK?!" You yelled out in disbelief, whipping your head around to see three of Jay's so-called wives. "Oh, please." You let out frustratedly, having to deal with them instead of Jay. Right now, you'd much rather have a verbal fight with Jay, than having to deal with three idiots who loves to shower themselves with compliments and bask in their own fantasy world instead of their reality.

"Why is Jongseong-sunbae giving you gifts?" You have never knitted your brows so fast before in your life, quickly taking down her accusation before she raised you a brow, picking up your pet dog who whimpered for help. You glared at the three, attempting to get Josh back, but was stopped by one of them, sitting you back down your chair. "Then, explain this."

You grunted in pain, one of your bruises in your stomach being hit by them. "Th-That's my pet dog. Her name is Josh." The one girl who was holding Josh scoffed, then started to choke the poor innocent pup by holding it by her collar, Josh whimpering loudly, using her tiny limbs to help herself up, but to no avail. "NO!" You were able to free yourself from being restraint, but once you did, you got a powerful kick delivered to your stomach which caused you to fall down to the tiled floor of the room. "LET HER GO!" You screamed out, a foot pinning you down to the ground.

The girls only laughed at your misery, finding fun in it while tears started to form in your eyes. You had just gotten Josh back and now you're going to lose her again, but now permanently. You can't let that happen. When that happens, you'd have nothing left to live for anymore. You had no friends, no brothers, no sisters, you are basically hidden from your whole family tree, in turn you had no one to call your family at all.

Soon, not longer than a few seconds, Josh was rescued by the arms of an unfamiliar man, judging by the special features on his uniform you're free to assume that he was a senior here in your school. "Going against the law again, ladies? This is an illegal treatment towards humans and animals." He said, carrying the corgi in his arms, all the while caressing its soft thin fur. "I must say, I am greatly disappointed with the three of you."

"It was Jinsoo who planned all of this." The last introduced girl confessed, Sunghoon shaking his head hung low with a small laugh.

He lifts his head up to face the trio who had given you so much trouble so early in the morning. Sunghoon tuts his tongue, putting the dog back down noticing it shake with fear in his arms, Josh running back to you where she always found it safe. "Girls, girls. Now, there's no point in pointing fingers. You all were still on it, right?" The girls replied with a guilty silence, proving himself correct. "Run along now, girls. I'll be the one to clean the mess you made." They all nod their heads and left immediately, embarrassed.

He lays his eyes on you, you getting back up with a groan, every second felt like a torture. He approached you to lend you a hand, you taking it needing any help you can get right now. "I'm sorry you got brought into this, sunbae."

Sunghoon gave a tight-lipped smile. "It's alright, Y/N. You really don't have to apologize. Park Sunghoon, by the way. I happened to be passing by and saw what was happening. As your upperclassman, I can't just stand still and watch. I must do something." He replied.

"That is true." You added, Sunghoon smiling.

"Plus, I can't handle watching a cute pup get harmed." Sunghoon told you, the edges of his lips reaching up to the sky. "Oh, and do please just look for me if Jay ever causes you any trouble again. If you need anything, I'll be at the football practice later." You reply with a nod, acknowledging his help putting a smile on your face.

Later, Sunghoon leaves after he had made sure that you were doing just fine. Even though there was only one addition to the person who you assume cares for you, you were grateful for it; it makes your heart full.

After classes, you were tired and so drained, almost able to fall asleep in your class unintentionally. Either way, you had thought of thanking of Jay who is probably now at his football practice, since an upcoming competition against another school was announced to commence in just a few days, so they need to prepare.

You are hesitating whether you should go for what your guts is telling you or not, because the last thing you would want right now is being punched to death, but at least Sunghoon will be there. Jay can't do anything under his watch. So, you finally decided to go to the field in a haste, a smile on your face while Josh happily yelped in Jay's bag. "Yes, bud. I'm happy you're back as well." You told him.

You fastened your pace on cleaning your desk and putting your things back into your bag and ran your way to the football field. All the way you had a smile on your face and thought of what you wanted to say to Jay, but you thought it would be better if it was made on the spot as it would mean it came from the heart.

You soon arrived at the place and just in time to see that the team was in a practice break. "Jongseong." You called to the older male who had his brows knitted at the sight of you, then excusing himself from the team to find his way to you. As soon as he was here in front of you, you gave him a smile and bowed. "Thank you for bringing Josh back." You thanked him, Jay only falling silent.

"Is that all you wanted to tell me?" Jay asked with a raised brow before you bent your body back up and nod your head in reply. Jay inhales deeply before letting it all out through his nose, clicking his tongue. "Alright. Then, if it's not too late I would like to apologize." Jay said, too straightforward and a straight face as though he didn't even mean it. Sure, it seemed to look like that, but Jay was honestly feeling sorry. He certainly didn't want to feel that way, but he couldn't help it. Your fucked up face and your fucked up life, it was all his fault and if he wants his friends back, he needs to make amends with the people who have done wrong. "It's not what it looks like. I just... feel like I'm too blame for your broken relationship with your family. So, if you don't mind, you can stay over at my house—"

"Oh, that's totally unnecessary." You quickly turned down his offer, cutting Jay off mid-sentence, the other male simply knitting his brows and crossed his arms.

Jay squints his eyes, whilst you only kept the smile on your face and laughed softly. Jay rolls his eyes and opted to leave, but decided to add something to his offer. "My house is always open for you. Just.. call me, I guess. But, this doesn't mean we're friends already." Jay continued, you nodding your head.

Then, what made you change your mind happened that same day during the night. "MOM! WHAT THE HELL?!" You yelled at her in disbelief, as she had took all the money you have saved up 'til today that you have planned to use on buying yourself a new phone. You have earned and deserve every penny and cash in your stash of piggy banks you owned and here you are hearing the news about your mother and father losing it all in their new hobby of gambling. "I NEVER COMPLAINED ABOUT YOU FUCKING UP MY LIFE AND HERE YOU ARE TAKING THE ONLY THING I HAD WANTED FOR MYSELF! YOU ARE BOTH SO SHITTY AND FUCKING SELFISH!" After you had lashed out on them, your father struck your face with his fist causing you to fall to the ground, head hanging low with anger rising in your blood.

"You have no respect!" Your father yelled at you, then soon started kicking you on the stomach, making you groan in pain with every strike. That's when you knew, you need to get away from this house, but in the most unexpected time so they wouldn't know you would leave and won't get the chance to even catch up about your whereabouts.

So after a few days, while your parents were asleep and unsuspecting, you decided to pack your things as silent as possible so you do not wake your parents up, although they probably can't hear you doing so. Better safe than never. Secretly, you snuck out of the house to make your way to Jay's, so they would have no idea of where you went and won't be able to chase you down. It's the least place they would be thinking of.

Jay woke up to the sound of someone knocking on his front door in the middle of the night, disturbing his well-deserved rest as he got up to check who in their right minds would go out knocking on people's door in such a time of the day. Anyone who would must have already lost their minds a long time ago. Anyways, he made his way downstairs, hearing another knock on his door. "Who is it?" Jay asked in a loud, yet tired voice, putting on his pink and blue bunny slippers.

"Jay, it's me. Y/N." Upon knowing it was you, for unknown reasons his heart made a somersault, quickly hurrying up to the door to open it up for you, startling you from the thud caused by Jay's body slamming his body on the door accidentally due to his eagerness. The door opens for you to see Jay who looked like he had just finished running a mile without stopping, you giving him an awkward smile. "Hey... did I disturb you with anything?"

Jay shakes his head in reply, your smile growing wider to become a more genuine one. "No. I was... uh, I was playing games on my computer." He excused himself, you simply nodding your head understanding. For almost about a minute, Jay couldn't stop himself from staring at your face. Now that he was this close with you, he asked himself why he had hated you in the first place. You had a literal beauty of a goddess and your eyes were so enticing that it only drew him in more. His eyes fell down to your lips as you talked, but his mind was hazy and all you said to him was just a blur. Nothing went into his head. He doesn't want to admit it, but to him you are beautiful when you smile.

"JONGSEONG!" You snapped him out of his train of thoughts making him flinch, your brows furrowing. "Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you." He blinks his eyes several times trying to process what he was just thinking, then suddenly becoming conscious of his own thoughts and widened his eyes, denying everything that had just circled inside his head. "Jay? Is anything wrong? You look like you've seen a ghost."

He shakes his head shyly, then gestured for you to get inside you acknowledging his kindness with a nod of your head. Jay flashes the lights on, you in awe with the surroundings, your mouth falling agape in shock. You never guessed Jay would keep a clean house, instead you kind of thought of him as a dirty, unclean type of guy, but this wholly proves you wrong.

You heard a rustle of clothes behind you, turning your body to look at Jay who had placed his hands in his coat's pockets. "M-Make yourself at home." He told you, then making his way up to his room to start solving his problems and his sudden panic upon realizing he was just admiring you a few minutes ago. "What... in the actual... fuck?"

He, for million of times starting this day moving forward, told himself that he only felt pity and guilt towards you that's why he was able to think like that, but why in the world does his heart always skip a beat whenever he sees you or hear you call his name in your voice? Whenever you talk with him, he felt a very unfamiliar feeling of butterflies swarming in his stomach that he always felt nervous when you're around him that he starts to sweat profusely that even Heeseung and Jake can sense that something was up and it was rather good, than bad.

Everyone seemed to have been shock that friendship between you and Jay had started to bloom, the whole campus covered in rumors about you being friends with benefits with Jay and you'd simply shut these useless assumptions, saying you were only mending the broken bond you once formed with Jay back in the days. Although, it started to become more stupid, referring to the rumors, that you weren't even bothered by it, neither was Jay and turned a blind eye on every comment about the two of you.

Days pass by quickly and each day, you and Jay started to become closer, but the latter still seemed to be uncomfortable around you and you can't help, but think that Jay still had a beef going on in his mind for you that you felt like all of this was just fake and Jay never really wanted to be friends with you in the first place. So, one day, having had enough, you started to confront him about it, face to face.

"Hyung, can you tell me what's bothering you? Is it me? Because, even before I could notice how you're avoiding me." You told him with furrowed brows and a small pout on your lips, that Jay would just want to kiss away. His eyes flickers from your eyes down to your lips that looked so kissable as of the moment. "See? This is what I meant. Do you hate me?"

Jay's eyes grew a size wider at your suspicions and stutters out a static noise as though a malfunctioning robot when he snaps out of his thoughts and starts to find excuses to get himself out of this situation. But, if he really wanted you to understand why he's been like this all this time, then he must tell you the truth. But, he was scared at the mere thought of admitting it to you and shrugged it off as just a phase, but it's already been months and this undying feeling whenever you're with him continued to spark and grew each time.

He opens his mouth to tell you another excuse, but found himself sighing in defeat. "No, Y/N. I don't hate you." He started, you crossing your arms and raised him a brow to tell him to keep going, knowing he'd still be going with an excuse as per usual. Nothing new with that. "The truth is, I... How do I put it?"

"Spit it out—"

"I think I've grown to like you, Y/N." Jay cuts you off, taking you aback at his confession, your confidence faltering almost immediately as one side of Jay's lips is lifted up to a smirk, his eyes all on you with pure admiration. "Every single time you are with me, it made my heart swell with joy that it felt like it was going to explode the longer you are with me. I wasn't trying to avoid you and I'm sorry I made you feel that way, but I always felt nervous around you, because I was afraid you'd find out the feeling I have for you that I kept as a secret. I know it's stupid, but I realized my mistakes and learned from them. Thanks to you. In fact, I haven't felt anything like this before. I didn't know it'd only take one genuine smile of yours to thaw my frozen heart."

Was he being serious right now? Or was this one of his excuses again? If it was, he didn't have to make a long ass speech for it, but the way he would blush and smile every now and then, you could pretty much tell that he was telling you the truth, but you didn't want to believe it. If you could name the best manipulator in the world, you'd say it was this man in front of you. "Jay, that won't work on—"

"When you open your mouth, it just makes me want to kiss you." Jay's words took you off guard, mouth falling shut, unable speak. "I'm serious, Y/N. I do actually want to kiss you." Your silence was too defeaning that it was too much for Jay to even wait for any words of confirmation from you, one of the older's hand finding its way up to the crook of your neck, angling his head to the side as he slowly starts to lean forward. You were frozen in your place, too shocked to even move, but kissing the ravenette wouldn't be so bad, would it?

Unconsciously, you wrapped your arms around Jay's neck and pulled him towards you, smashing your lips onto his as though you needed it so bad and have been wanting it for so long. Though it had ended for only a few seconds, Jay was grateful for every milliseconds of it.

Blood rose up to your cheeks in embarrassment, before realizing what you had just done, then running up to your room to think about what you've done, slamming the door shut while Jay stood in place with a smile glued to his face. That was the best kiss he had ever had and the first, too. "I'm inlove."

After that day, you couldn't even look at Jay straight in the eyes, for whenever you do all you could ever think of was that one kiss you should have given to some other guy as your first. Jay was the least person you could ever think of and well, last night had to happen. It was unexpected and it felt like you were drunk and you didn't like it. AT. ALL. The question is though, why does it make your heart flutter whenever you think of that time? That kiss that made your heart thump so rapidly you thought it was going to come out of your chest? Why does that one thing always keep you up at night?

Take this for example. On a night before your exams for your finals, you had just finished studying and were now reviewing for another run through. Sure it would have been easy, but then all of a sudden, Jay's soft lips is in your head, that one night replaying inside your head. Without noticing it, your face would split into a smile and start giggling to yourself, not until you grow conscious of your actions and let out a loud groan, hitting your face with a pillow as hard as you can and until you forget all about it. It turns out, this will become your daily routine every night.

To you, it is so frustrating given that it can be a possibility of you being in love with—"Sunghoon. I like Park Sunghoon." Your denial of your feelings only gave you a roll of the eyes from Jake who, then hooks an arm around your shoulders and clicks his tongue.

"I gotta say, you have a thing for Parks, huh? First, mah boy, Jay, then now Sunghoon? You're a funny one, Y/N. Let me hand it to you." Jake comments, you only groaning in annoyance shaking your head vigorously. Since the day you have started to stutter around Jay, the latter the one who's been clinging to you now. The roles have changed.

You eyed Jake who had a pursed lip smile, another groan moving past your lips as you slammed your head on the table. "Hyung, I just..." You trailed off, trying to find the right words to say, but couldn't, a simple sigh leaving your mouth. "...Fuck. I don't even know why I'm trying so hard to deny my feelings." You sighed, Jake furrowing his brows.

"What do you mean?" Jake asked with a raised brow, you looking at him in pure disbelief.

"Hyung, I meant, let's say I have feelings for Jay, but what if I'm just forcing myself to like him just because of that one kiss? What if it suddenly all fades away and we forget about each other's existence? Hyung, I don't want that to happen. Not again." You admitted to Jake who was amused with your practicality and realistic, rational thinking. Jake was able to find the problem. You liked Jay, but you didn't want to hurt Jay and yourself with just one simple mistake.

"Would it hurt you if you tried?" Jake questions, you opening your mouth to retaliate, but got none in your head and shook your head. "Then, how about you give it a shot, yeah? You're already thinking of what should be ahead of you that you're overthinking all about it. You should focus more on the present. Whatever happens next is up to fate." The foreigner gives you a light shake of encouragement making you smile, before nodding your head in reply.

When your classes had aready ended, you made your way to the usual place where you and Jay would meet with each other to walk home together. You thought it would be a great chance to tell Jay about what you feel about him or what's been leaving you confused for days. It's been eating you alive all these days that if you kept it going for another more day, you'd feel like you have already lost a battle.

While you were so deep in your thoughts, you barely noticed Jay coming up from behind you to cover your eyes with hands, a soft noise of laughter coming out of his lips. "Guess who?" Jay asked, changing the sound of his voice.

"Jongseong-hyung." You answered, Jay mimicking the sound of a correct siren button, a bitter smile creeping its way up to your face before he made a turn to face you, noticing the faint sadness in your face.

Jay furrows his brows in concern, wanting to know the reason why you had a frown on your face. "Oh? Y/N, why do you look so sad? Did someone hurt you? Tel me. I'll be the one to beat their asses up."

You chuckled all the while shaking your head no as an answer to his question. "No. Nobody. I've just been meaning to tell you something." You told him, Jay looking from left to right to check if anyone was around who could hear the conversation between you and him. He takes your hand and drags you to a place where it's not crowded with people and free from any ears that could be eavesdropping on what you and Jay are talking about. He tells you 'go' and you start with a sigh. "Hyung. Before I lose the courage I have mustered up right now for this moment, I want to tell you that I..." You trailed off, looking up only to discover that the older had his eyes already on you, eyes coming in contact, all of your confidence drained.

Jay gestures for you to continue, but your mouth remained quiet. "Y/N. 'You', what? Don't leave me hanging." The ravenette asks you in a curious voice.

You're brought back to reality and smiles. "Hey, hyung. Are you hungry? Why don't we—"

"Y/N. Finish what you wanted to tell me. No one's leaving this place until you've successfully told me what you've been dying to tell me." Jay told you with a stern voice, you gulped in fear Jay's brows knitted.

You bit on your bottom lip, head hung low. You tried to tell him, but only a laugh came out of your throat. "It's funny, hyung." You said, trying to sound really convincing, but Jay knew there is something that has been in your mind that's causing you to have problems in your life and he wants to help you resolve it. "Am I really that easy to get? All it had to take was one kiss and I'm head over heels for you." You let out.

"What? No, no. What do you mean by easy to get?" Jay asked you, then placing his hands on your shoulders. "You're not easy to get, Y/N. There's been many guys who have taken interest in you, but you chose me. The newest contender."

"That's... exactly what I meant." You said, Jay blinking his eyes several times, you unable to find the point in what he said.

"What I meant to say is, you were meant for me and me for you." Jay explained, your face distorted in disgust. "Call it cheesy, but it's the simplest way to put it. Do you want me to elaborate?" You shook your head vigorously, knowing just how 'elaborate' he can be. It'd take him a full whole day explaining himself and suddenly turn into a mini Shakespeare. That's the last thing you want to happen. "Besides that, it makes my heart full knowing we have a mutual understanding. I'll be sure to make you the happiest, Y/N and of course serenade my way to your heart before I officially become your boyfriend." You smile with a blush on your face, not even able to face Jay.

After a few years, Jay had graduated from college and you couldn't be more happier for that. Jay decided to enter a job as soon as possible for the two of you, so he can sustain for you and for himself; his priority is you. He had the goal to fix the house for whenever you decide to have kids for your own, be it a furbaby or not. Either way, he would be happy with what he has, since he got you.

Now in the present, you were seated comfortably on his bed, watching your wonderful of a boyfriend type away on his laptop, a little pout forming on his lips as he concentrates on his work. You fiddled with your fingers nervously, not knowing how to start the things you want to tell Jay. You were grateful that he was so patient with you and respected your decision of a sexual free relationship, but as your love for each other grows day by day, you start to contemplate whether what you did was right and wouldn't stop thinking that maybe Jay goes out with different people to have sex with and just wouldn't tell you. So, you've decided to swallow your words and take back the wish you had told Jay to follow.

You cleared your throat subtly, Jay still busy on working. "Jongseong. We've been in a relationship for more than a year now and I think... I.. I'm ready now." You told Jongseong, who was currently working on his office papers, with a shaking voice. When he heard what you had just said, his ears perked up in excitement as though how a dog's would when they hear that they're about to be served with food, but he thought about how sudden this all was. I mean, you did say that you wanted a relationship avoiding any type of sexual intercourse and he fully understands why you wanted that out of the picture and well, just learned to live with it.

Although hearing you right now saying those few words, he was surprised and felt as though there is something wrong. Without any hesitation, Jay looks over at you, his eyes catching sight of your anxious expression as he sighed sadly, taking a break from his work, then joined you on the bed, taking the space beside you, holding your hand. "Darling, you cannot—"

"I-I'm serious, hyung. I want you to fuck me." You stuttered out, but it was clear as day how you looked so nervous and he didn't like seeing that the most. You heard Jay sigh, as you glanced up at him from your staring at the mattress, Jay opening his arms wide open so you could get in between him for a cuddle. You complied, feeling all your anxiety dissipate as you engulfed yourself in Jay's warmth, the latter caressing your back in a comforting manner.

Jay smiles, planting a quick, but affectionate kiss on top of your head. "Y/N, is there anything wrong? You always told me if there is anything bothering you and I immediately run to your aid, so how is your problem now any different?" Jay asks you out of concern, whilst you only nestled yourself further into his care, unable to reply. "Darling." He calls you out in gentle, but almost stern voice only because he wants to help you with whatever is making you so anxious.

You heaved out a sigh of defeat, laying your head on his chest. "It's just... I'm scared that since you don't get any chance.. you know for a release, you go and fool around with other people." Jay to say the least was shocked with your words, you burying your head on his arm when he fell silent. "You can hurt me now."

"WHAT?! No, no. Y/N. The last thing I ever want to do is hurt you, again. The last time I did was like ages ago and I never want that to happen for another time." Jay furrowed his brows, pulling you closer to him. "But, that's besides the point. Y/N, listen. I would never go behind your back and fuck other people that's not you. I may look like it, but I'm a man of dignity. I don't ever want to ruin my image to you." He added before placing a soft kiss on your cheeks. "Please, remember that. And if you'd like, you can even check my laptop for any evidences, no wait, I'll give you all the gadgets I own just to be sure."

You laughed lightly at Jay who was certain with what he was saying, but you only thought of it as if he was joking. "No need to go overboard, hyung." You told him, Jay smiling upon successfully putting a smile on your face, showering you with kisses as you giggled. "But, Jongseong. I really do want to do it with you, disregarding the fact that I was overthinking over useless things."

Jay hums. "Are you sure about that, darling?" You nod your head in reply shyly, one side of his lips lifting up to the stars. "As much as I want to, unfortunately I can't. At least, not now, though. I still have a lot of office works to do that's due tonight." Jay told you, you nodding your head understanding.

You carefully moved away from him, so Jay could return to what he was doing minutes ago before he came to help you with what's worrying you so much that it's causing your brows to meet together. Feeling more relieved, you chose to sleep and wait for the morning to arrive, but you're suddenly dawned upon with realization that tomorrow you had classes and it starts at seven in the morning. Still laid on your bed, you stole a glance towards Jay who was already starting his computer works, now being on a call with one of his co-workers.

Out of nowhere, you had a wild idea appear in your head caused by your constant indulgence in reading rated 18 comics. Maybe, that's one of the reason why you suddenly had the courage to be fucked—Anyways, you were merely watching them talk before mustering up all the strength you had left in you, then as though your body had a brain of it's own, you got up from your bed to make your way to Jay. Your mind and eyes completely filled with lust, like it had taken possession over you, feeling your whole body start to heat up.

Hearing a snippet of their conversation, you could tell it was all about their office tasks, but you could only care less, sneaking under his desk with the older male too busy to even notice the movements below him. Only was he able to realize when he felt a gentle, yet warm to the touch feeling in between his crotch, telling the person he was on call with to wait a second so he can check.

He peeks under to gently take your hand away from him, making you sad a little, muting his mic. "What are you doing, Y/N? I'm on call." Jay laughs lightly at you, finding your desperation way too cute and tempting

"I noticed... erm, you were kinda stressed and I wanted to help." Jay rolls his eyes with a smirk, turning his camera off and pushed his chair away, you sitted cross-legged on the floor while Jay carried you into his arms with no trouble, as though you weighed nothing. "Jay~" You whined, but the said male didn't listen and continued carrying you to your shared bed, so he could tuck you in.

"You have classes tomorrow, darling. You should get more sleep. Plus, there's plenty of time for us to do whatever you want. Just not today." Jay winked at you, tapping the top of the blanket lightly. Then with a tone of a mother's gentle and caring voice he bids you good night and smiles with a kiss on your forehead after. "Good night, darling. I'll join you when I'm done." You dejectedly nod your head, Jay brushing away the stray strands of your hair that stuck to your forehead. With that, in a matter of a few seconds, you soon drift off to dreamland.

As of the moment, you were only dozing off only wanting for your classes to end. The teacher in front was only speaking nonsense, talking about her daily life as if it would help their students be able to pass their exams and get a higher grade. They always stray from their lesson and start gossiping about events in school, which you weren't complaining, but it will really give you a hard time to study and review, since you really didn't learn anything during the discussion. Only the fact that your teacher had slept with 20 grown up men in just one night. That is totally sick and greatly concerning.

Throughout the whole class, all you could ever do was sit, yawn, and stare at nowhere in particular. Just too bored to even do the inititiative to move your ass to find an excuse to get away from this class. This is wasting a lot of your time in learning if you ask me. You merely sighed out, hoping that would help you out of your boredom.

Just this morning, you woke up to an empty bed, knowing Jay had to leave first so he doesn't run late for his work. He does not prioritize his work nor is a workaholic, but he is simply making a living for you and him. You decided for yourself that once you graduate, you'd find a job immediately to help Jay, but that plan went down the gutter when you realized it was never that easy.

Although the bed was cold, you were certain that Jay had just left judging by the warm breakfast meal that was seated on the table with a fly cover to prevent those insects from stealing your food. A note was left stuck to the side signed by Jay.

'If food runs cold, just microwave the food, darling. Don't be shy. ;)'

You chuckled at the text, taking the food from the table to microwave it for just a minute. You really didn't find halfly warm foods any appetizing at all. It just makes you lose your appetite. In conclusion, you seem to be a picky eater when it comes to food you want to eat, but Jay's was an exception. He just makes everything taste, smell and look delicious. Like you'd practically drool by only watching it. You wished this was always your life.

Finally, the most awaited event has arrived, everyone being all giddy and happy, especially because of the amount of food there was. It was the day of their office's Acquaintance party and all were super excited, bringing all their families and friends whoever they wanted to bring. There was just so many food for everyone. Jay asked you to find a seat for the two of you, telling you he will be at the backstage since he will be performing for all the eyes present in the room. You teased him a lot about it, while he would do a secy dance in front of you, purposely making it cringey for you, so he could make you laugh. The sound was so beautiful to him, even though in your opinion you though you sounded exactly like a whale.

Anyways, you kinda felt awkward and shy around all the other people, basically since you knew no one and seemed like they were all getting along just well, but here you were all alone in a table for five with no one to talk to. If anything, you guessed you were the youngest in the room, judging by the appearances of the other people inside. You weren't saying they were old, rather you thought they were around their mid-20s or in their early 30s, so with that, you would guess all that's in their head is about work and you'd just feel out of place.

Until one cheery person came to you to talk with you when he noticed you were all alone in a distance. "Hey, there. The name's Kim Taehyung or you can just call me Taehyung. You're Jongseong's boyfie, huh, huh? Are you, are you?" He nudged you, making you chuckle nodding your head. "I knew it! Lucky! Every girl at my work always talked about him and tried to make a move on him, but he rejected every single one of them and always replied he already had a lover he is satisfied to be with and let me tell you that's the most precious thing a person could ever say." He informed you, you smiling as he talked.

"He really does?" You asked him and the other only nodded his head cutely, red tinting your cheeks. "Guess I wasn't the only proud person in this room." Taehyun laughs at you, before going on telling you more stories about Jay at their workplace.

After a few more minutes, it was announced by the emcees that Jay and his group was about to perform, so you braced yourself and prepared to watch your soon to be husband perform on stage. He did add though that they were to sing the song they were performing as well.

Soon, they were on stage and everyone started cheer in chains, including yourself shouting out your boyfriend's name, who saw you immediately in the ocean of people. Sending you a flying kiss, but one girl had stood up pretending to catch it and placed it on her chest, her friends squealing which made your eye twitch in both anger and jealousy.

You poked the inside of your cheek at how annoying they were to you, getting up from your seat and placed yourself in between them. You squealed along with them, maybe more than usual that it made them look at you. You sighed, wiping a fake tear from your eyes. "Isn't my boyfriend handsome?" You said, hoping they would get the idea.

She scoffed in disgust. "You mean MY boyfriend? Who are you even?" She acted as though she was trying to correct your statement, Taehyung widening his eyes behind the current ongoing drama happening.

You looked at her in shock, opening your mouth to say something, but only a chuckle moved past your lips, finishing with an exhale through your mouth, then glancing back at the clueless girl. "I'm literally that man's boyfriend.

She rolled her eyes at your 'stupidity' and laughed it off, thinking you were just another person who has a crush on Jay. "Liar does suit you better. Keep convincing yourself that, but you won't be going anywhere." She told you, your blood boiling at her. In your anger, you got back up from your seat and started to pull on her hair while the girl screamed in pain. "AHH! LET GO!"

"Not so brave now, are ya? Want help from someone else to defend you? What a wimp!" You degraded the female who dared try to insult Jay's boyfriend, you, and pulled even stronger, you at the advantage side as you had no long hair like this woman who's screaming like a witch.

This caused a ruckus to take place inside the venue, the commotion dragging the group of men who was on the stage checking what was going on. Jay was surprised to have caught you with his own eyes fighting with another person, getting down from the stage and to you to break off the fight. "GUYS, GUYS! WHAT IS HAPPENING?" He said, you taking her hands away from the lady, as she pointed towards you, as you hung your head low in guilt.

"He said you were his boyfriend, baby. Tell him he's wro—"

"I am his boyfriend. Is there a problem with that?" Jay raises a brow at the lady who only gasped and started to cry in her place, before facing you and took your arm, but gently, not wanting to hurt you. He takes you outside of the place announcing that everything is alright and there is nothing to be worried about. His eyes fell down to you and he could see how you were too guilty to even lift your head up to look at him. Once, you two were outside, Jay starts off with a gentle voice consulting you. "Y/N, what happened back there? Did she hurt you in any way?" He asks you, you replying with a shake of your head.

"She... told me she was your girlfriend and insulted me, telling me I was a liar and it just made me so angry. Trust me when I say I tried so hard to pounce at her and pluck every strand of her hair out. Well, I was successful, but the hair plucking maybe wasn't." You told him everything in full detail, Jay sighing in relief upon hearing your explanation and pulled you in for a warm embrace, you feeling confused.

You faced up at him curiously. "Hyung, aren't you going to defend her and tell me I shouldn't have done that?"

Jay shakes his head in reply and caresses the back of your head in a comforting manner. "I'm just happy it wasn't you who started the cat fight. Otherwise I would be very angry." The taller male said. "Come on. Let's get back inside. Everyone's still probably waiting for me." He laughed softly, you nodding your head, Jay ruffling your hair.

Soon, after the party, you and Jay pretty much went back to your respective hotel room drunk and wasted, slurring out words you can't even understand, only laughing at each other when one would trip and fall to the ground. You two were almost like children playing in the mud as you both made your way to your room.

The moment you two arrived in your room, you flopped down on the bed with you on top of Jay still laughing your asses off until your eyes met with one another and your laughter died down, admiring each other's faces as Jay lifts a hand to tuck a stray hair behind your ear. "You're so beautiful, my dear." Jay said, you leaning into his touch with a smile on your face.

Without wasting any second, you hungrily pressed your lips down on his, Jay quickly matching the same vibe, teeth clashing with each other, badly needing the heat from the other. You let out a pleasured sigh, moaning in between kisses, Jay swallowing every noise that came out from your throat. The older male groans, feeling his lips stretch into a smile, him biting on your bottom lip to as for entrance.

You set your your lips apart, Jay starting to explore your cavern with his tongue, immediately dominating over you. Your wet muscles danced together in a rhythm only both of you knew, every once in a while pulling away to take a breathe, then coming back for more. Tongues swirled with each other, your salivas mixing with each other as euphoric noises echoed through the thick walls of the room, not worried at all about the others posisbly hearing what you two were up to.

You finally pulled away to a stop, a string of viscous transparent liquid connecting both of you. You used the back of your palm to wipe your lips, then feeing something poke from under you, a smirk making its way up to Jay's lips, staring up at you with his eyes filled with a need for lust. "Did you feel a knock, Y/N? Why don't you give it a check?" He gruffed out, running his fingers through your hair, you simply nodded your head in reply. "That's a nice, boy."

It all happened so fast. The second all your clothes were discarded, you immediately went into action and here you were having yourself get roughly fucked, even though it's your first time, by Jay who was grunting out in pure pleasure, fastening his pace with every passing minute. "Do you think you can still tease me, darling?" Jay smirked, his thrusts getting more rapid.

You felt weak in his arms, Jay almost as if he was using you as fleshlight. "Too fas—AH! J-Jay..NNNAH!" You moaned out in pure bliss, your eyes rolling back to the back of your head, vibrating in place.

Loud squelching noises resonates along the walls, skin slapping against skin mixed with the sounds filling the whole room, Jay completely turning you into a moaning mess, feeling the pleasure all at once. Jay only waited for you to adjust to his inhumane size and when he received a go sign from you, well that practically led you to this. Jay fucking you into oblivion, pleasuring himself using your body as though you were just a toy to him.

Beads of sweat starts to drip down from Jay's forehead, some of his hair sticking onto his face, as he grits his teeth from exerting so much force on his thrusts, while keeping you in place with his strong, muscular arm by the waist. The constant stimulation made you excrete loud, lewd noises that only brought sensations to Jay's manhood as he continues to drill your asshole with no remorse.

Jay leans his body down towards you, coming in contact with your back as he started to shower you in kisses lavishly, then finding a good spot in your neck to use his teeth and bite to mark his property as you let out a silent gasp from the shock. You soon fall into his arms, out of strength having already climaxed for the third time from getting your prostate endlessly abused by Jay, yet the taller male still had to.

"Oh, you're still not tired, are you, Y/N? I'm still not done. We were just starting." He smirked into your skin, a shiver running down your spine, as Jay pulls out until it was only his tip inside of you, only to slam himself down to you, a boisterous moan leaves your throat as Jay does it for a few more times, before he moves back to hammering his cock in a rough pace.

"AH, ANNH! AAH! HYUNG!" You yelled out without a care, tongue rolled out from your mouth with a lewd smile plastered onto your face, body moving to the movements of Jay's strong thrusts. "Y-YES! SO BIG—AAAH!" You screamed, when Jay gave you another thrust to rile you up even more.

You felt another coil in your stomach, meaning you were close to another climax, but Jay sudden stops with no notice at all, you whimpering at the loss. Jay chuckles at you, approaching to whisper into your ear. "Darling, don't worry. I know you want more." He give your earlobe a lick, his voice causing chills to overwhelm your whole system. If you had known earlier, just how sexier Jay could be, you could have done this with him a long time ago.

Jay repositions you whilst he gets himself lying down on the bed, propping himself with his elbows, now you were the one on top of him. "Hy-Hyung, is position..." You panted out, your hands on his abdomen, the sight of your state right now, already sobered up, it only made Jay feel more turned on. He wraps his arms around your neck, pulling you down to him for a hug, his dick still buried deep in your no more virgin hole, Jay fully lying down on the bed. "Hyungie..?"

"Just relax, babe." Jay commands of you in a gentle voice, unable to comprehend everything he meant when his arms fell down to your waist, then locking you into place as he thrusts his hips up, feeling his cock dig deeper inside of you. "Fuck, shit! You feel so good, darling." Jay says out into your ears.

Soon, before you could even reply, Jay was back to his unusual speed and all you could ever muster to say was nothing, but your boyfriend's name, repeating it as though it was a mantra. You felt Jay grow bigger inside of you when he caught the look on your face, fucked dumb. "J-JAY, AAH! TOO DEEP, DEEP! AAAH!"

And for the whole night, it went on without stopping, trying out different positions every passing hour, the other people in their rooms unable to even get a wink of sleep they needed caused by the screams and noises in your room.

The following morning, Jay was the first one to wake up, finding you all cuddled up in his arms, smiling at the cuteness that is you which he owes his life with. He caresses the soft skin of your cheeks, your eyes fluttering open at the mere touch. "Good morning, darling. Did you have a good night?" Jay teases you, you only burying your head in his chest out of embarrassment, but he did receive a nod as an answer from you as he start to play with your hair. "That's good to hear."

"SIM. JAEYUN!" Heeseung's voice boomed from inside the room who had just arrived from his work, the door slamming open as his presence soon came to be known, the said male widening his eyes in fear. His lips turned pale at the look Heeseung had applied on his face. "Are you telling bad things—"

"Daddy! Father, just told us about uncle Y/N's and uncle Jay's love story." Their youngest son, Niki ran up to Heeseung to give him a hug by the leg and smiled widely up at the adult. Heeseung's anger subsides at the memory of yours and Jay's story, finding it so sweet and destined. Jay apparently had changed a lot since that day you became his.

Heeseung carries Niki into his arms, the child with his small arms wraps them around his daddy's neck. "Sorry, Jake. I thought... nevermind." Jake's expression softens and closes the photo album of you and Jay and nears Heeseung to give him a hug to assure him and get rid of his overthinking, though Heeseung was right. Thanks to Niki, his father was out of trouble.

You had just made your way down with their boyfriend, Sunghoon who gasps dramatically and crosses his arms in disappointment. "Wow. That's really offensive." Sunghoon said with a poker face, Heeseung rolling his eyes before he gestures for the man to join in on them and the male smiles jogging his way up to them and wraps his arms around them.

It had already been years and you had applied for a job as a babysitter and nanny for Niki who was now in kindergarten. "By the way, I'm so proud of your son, guys." You started, taking a place down their sofa, Niki brightening up and asks for Heeseung to let him down sp he can make his way up to you, his most favorite nanny he ever had.

Once Niki was by your feet, you took him up and held him into your arms while Niki squealed. He whispers a 'tell them, tell them' as you chuckled and nodded your head. "He was made fun today for having three fathers," You said, making the three males frown once he heard about your news, but was confused why you would be so proud about it. "But, he told them off by saying at least he had a family to live with. We were visiting the orphanage."

"NIKI! You grow up so fast!" Heeseung said as he takes him from your arms and twirls him around.

Then, the door opens with a loud creal and a small little girl comes in holding a person's hand. When she pulls the person her hand was holding onto, you saw that it was Jay as your face lights up with joy and runs up to him to give him a hug. "Hey! I didn't know you were coming for the Christmas."

Jay hugs you with his free arm and smiles widely. "I can't bare going back to the states for my work without having to see the people first before I go." He explains the situation as you slapped his arm playfully, then his eyes fell onto Niki who Jay had remembered to have only been a year old and was still small, now he was already big. "Oh my. Niki has grown so much already."

"Yeah, I mean it had already been five years since you left." Jake rolls his eyes and scoffs. "You didn't even bring any gifts for us or to Y/N at least. You broke up with him over the phone!" Jake speaks out without thinking, breaking the comfortable atmosphere in the room as you slowly removed your hands from Jay and looks at him, having the same sad look.

"Y/N, about that. Can we talk in private?" Jay asks you, you replying with a nod. Jay first tells his daughter to play with Niki for a while. Later, you were outside at the front porch, Jay not knowing how to start the things he wanted to tell you. "Y/N, I'm.. I'm sorry. I truly am."

You smiled sadly at him at his apology, remembering all those nights you had to go through in pain, crying and depressed. Let me tell you a little story. Once Jay was promoted to a higher position in his work, he was stationed to an abroad working program, so without much any choice, to provide you both with the finance he and you needed, he had to leave. There was no problem for the first year he was away, but during your birthday you had received the worst news you could ever get from Jay.

Their team had threw out a party, so obviously they were going to get pretty much wasted after that and with that being said, you already know where this was going. On your birthday, he called you over the phone and without ever considering what you would feel, he tells you that he needed to break things off with you all of a sudden, you not even knowing the reason why he was doing this, but after a few months you had seen a post of him and his newly wed wife holding their very first born.

For the whole duration, you couldn't get rid of the grief and have already thought of killing yourself due to the pain you felt in your chest. It was unbearable, that it always left you in a miserable state, as though you were back to the past where you were beated up until you were broken. "It's okay, Jongseong. I was able to move on from it already. It wasn't easy, but I was glad the guys were always there for me." You replied, clasping your hands together.

"Y/N.." Jay let out of his guilt, deep in his heart, hoping he could have done something to his out of control hormones.

"Jongseong, it's alright. I swear. I don't want to be reminded about it anymore." You told him, then stood up to get back inside the house, your lips quivering at the sudden pain in your heart, as though there were strings being pulled from inside your chest, breaking your heart even more. Maybe, one day. You hoped, there would be someone who could treat you better and hoped it comes, soon.

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