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The racism my beloved Simon had to face….my baby. 🥺💔
Although painful to watch, it felt incredibly validating. It was so annoying watching some people say this show was “only about class” while dismissing the BS that Simon had to go through. The abuse was ten fold because he’s POC and S3 finally exposed that.
That being said, and on a more positive note, it was so incredibly sexy when Simon sang happy birthday to Wille in Spanish (he feels safe with him!) and when Wille admitted to fantasizing about stroking those beautiful curlssss (and then actually did it). 🥹❤️🩹
Wilmon forever. 🤎🤍
#simon the bravest of braves and the sweetest of sweets i love him sooooooo much#and apparently inspo was from irl hate comments omar has received? 🔪#oh HELL no. 🐓🤎#omar brought face heart soul and curls to this season and to this damn show and i love him and simon so much#like it wouldn’t have been that bad if he was fully white and didn’t look the way he did and i stand by that#those online hate comments were disgusting#imported? latin lover? (they were a breath away from flat out calling him a wh*re and i was ready to throw some fucking hands)#even more hurtful because simon was very obviously a virgin when he met wille and didn’t even sleep with that douchebag#who shall not be named on my blog#y’all can try to pry this interracial ship out of my cold dead hands (you won’t)#but we heal and that’s beautiful ❤️🩹#they mean soooo much to me 😭😭😭#and like i said before#no it wouldn’t have been good if simon wasn’t poc I SAID WHAT I SAID WHAT I SAID#young royals#wilmon#simon eriksson#simon my beloved 💜#i love them sooooooooooooooo much.#🤎🤍
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thinking about 4halo again and dying
they just. they used to be so sweet together. and then the election arc managed to genuinely turn them against each other (and bad is still affected by being caged in the museum) and i would NOT have been surprised if a rebellion had started within the next few weeks after their last fight and. they used to be friends and then they almost destroyed each other
and then the eggs went missing
and there are so many parallels between them, but one of the biggest parallels is how they're both protectors. they both protected the eggs (and, when he became president, forever extended that protection to the other islanders) but the eggs went missing and they had to put all of that aside. Forever was quicker to put it down than Bad was (it felt like only a very temporary truce, from Bad's end), but they put their problems on hold, because their eggs. were gone.
and another parallel. the destruction. both of them with their plans to cause ruin because then, maybe, theyll get their kids back. bad caused most of the grieving arc damage directly, and got aypierre and antoine to help him. he dug holes in the ground. he placed mines everywhere and leapt into them. he started the lavacasting process of the fed building (and was interrupted by admins, so he stopped, but philza and fit were still right to laugh at him lmaoo). he drilled a hole through the side of the federation office from a huge distance away. he has chosen to hurt his friends and himself to get the eggs back. whatever the cost.
forever destroyed the island. or he planned to destroy the island. or he was interrupted just before he destroyed the island or or or. I don't know. but it was big, and it was bad. bad enough that the feds had to step in and forcefully drug him, and kickstart the happy pills arc.
and the happy pills arc..... oughghghgh as fucking awful as it was for their characters to experience i genuinely truly think that it saved them from each other. when he was first told about forever being fucked up bad was still in the "i need to kick his butt" mindset, and was all ready for an excuse to kill forever. and then he saw forever. and the first proposal happened. and bad was angry and he was sad and upset and he was careful. forever tried to kill him. bad decided to save him. forever kept trying to marry him. forever kept taking the pills. forever was so scared of his own anger and all of the damage he could and would have caused to his family that he kept taking drugs that kept him so out of his mind he hallucinated his son was just sleeping safely at his house.
and they both tried to kill each other. and they both failed.
and bad showed phil and cellbit (and tubbo) the item scanner that dapper discovered, which could destroy him, because nothing else was working. because they needed to save forever. because bad was reminded by then that forever was a victim of the federation instead of just a mouthpiece for it. and then when forever woke up he saw bad, suffering, and so excited to see him awake.
and now they're here on opposite sides again with forever projecting his protection urges onto the fed worker in bad's basement and bad frustrated that he isn't being believed and his evil plans of giving ron lemons apology brownies is being interrupted and. look at them. soft "i hate you" and the appreciation room and bad's quiet heartbreak when he learned about forever being missing and the "i miss you" book bad got mad at because it asked him not to torture fed workers. does anyone hear me im so ill about them. do you understand they care about each other so much and the happy pills arc reminded them of that. forever realized bad is colourblind and bad assumed forever was poisoning him and then forever helped bad cheat on another colourblindness test and forever was giving bad flowers and bad was accepting them and accepted that he was colourblind despite his previously constant denial and! i don't know if im being comprehensible and i dont really care i will be honest i just need you to know i am frothing at the mouth like a rabid little beast. they are a TRAGEDY of miscommunication and external pressure but they love so so much. platonic or romantic or qpp they CARE and it tears me to shreds
#qsmp#4halo#i feel like ive talked about this exact thing like three separate times but#its one of those things that really Kills Me#and its CRUCIAL to understanding them and their relationship#they were fighting and now have found peace in hell#and forever using his care for bad as a distraction to not focus on his Own woes#and the way he's so sure bad needs help the way he was helped that at heart bad is a good person who doesnt want to be hurting people#and in a Way he's right. bad doesn't want to hurt his loved ones. everyone else? yeah. in a heartbeat. but his family...#but he's still makign the choice to do it. it's not lashign out in desperation the way forever destroying the island was#bad is hurting people with Purpose. he's putting thought into it. he's testing people and their knowledge and their motivations and he will#use them all as tools that can be bent and broken if it means they get the eggs back. he'll do it to himself too#especially to himself#ghhhgrhrgh the way theyre both self sacrificial and self destructive the Parallels the fucking parallels#i can best examine their relationship from a bbh pov and it agonizes me because i can't get all the nuance of forever's pov#because i dont speak portuguese yet :c#so best i can do is talk crazy about them like a Lure for other analyst shippers#pspspssps dont you see my ship. dont you see how canon 4halo is !!! in 8 acts#dont you want to examine them and their parallels and the way they are both so strange about relationships but they're finding a way to car#in a way that works for them#pspspsps#like me talking about qbbh vacation arc got the fandom acknowledging his sillies and directly got me a friend to talk about him to (hi kia!#maybe it will work here also#come to the dark side we have complex relationship dynamics that are frequently misunderstood and mislabelled#YOU can help change the world
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My baby's just fine. She knows all of her rhymes.
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#bea art tag#comix#Tuvok#Asil#st voy#star trek voyager#star trek voy#st voyager#Asil not wanting to speak to her dad...too many emotions...what's the point? Why should I?#This is from the timeline in my head where she becomes a priest and undergoes the kolinahr because her anguish over losing her father#is too much#I typically have all his children being adults by the time Voyager returns with the youngest having been a teenager when he left#But AAA.....oh it DOES hurt the heart good to imagine that his youngest was only a child...comes back to nearly an adult. AGH.#And it'd probably hurt a lot...Tuvok obviously values teaching as a means to bond with children (see: Innocence)#<- And his relationship to Kes in some respects though she is NOT a child. I just know that teaching mental discipline would be high on a#Vulcan parent's priorities#The thought of Tuvok missing all that childhood development...he knows it'll go fine without him. He trusts his wife and his community but#it still must hurt...to see your child grow so much without you. Even more so because as a Vulcan their childhood is such a vanishingly#small part of their lifespan. They're a child for like 18 years out of their potential 200.#happy tuvok tuesday!!!
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Free Rope MF
Rope MF is in the Kirby games, not clickbait?!?
Portrait and not dialogue:
Rope MF info-dumping about ropes (you can’t escape):
ONE LAST THING!
Thanks you guys for existing and deciding to follow for some reason!
Don’t worry I’ll make a more official thank you post later
Spoilers: Y’all gonna be hit with the neutral energy beam
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#kirby#kirby oc#waddle dee oc#waddle dee#rope MF#Stupid brainrot for my stupid Kirby OC#He’s so stupid#I love him#Someone save them from Rope MF info-dumping#Nobody wants to learn about ropes#There’s actually a font called Rope MF which is great#Also aro week started off with a bang! I went to church and almost passed out?!? Idk#It was crazy my legs were weak and my heart was pounding and I first thought “huh is this a panic attack?”#It wasn’t a panic attack because all of a sudden my ears started ringing my head started pounding and my vision was going black#I could literally not stand it was crazy but I didn’t want to pass out in church because that would be lame so I just stayed until church#was over and then I fell asleep and woke up with a cold and my jaw was hurting through out the whole thing#This was yesterday todays pretty good#From what I’ve research it either means I have a migraine or needed to be rushed to the hospital one day ago#Like I said idk#Sorry for the ramble yesterday was just definitely something alright#Also sincerely thank you so much for (Wizard) 101 followers that’s crazy I’m baffled I’m bamboozled I’m flabbergasted#whispy woods
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whatever you do, don't imagine a young J Corvin waiting every day at the end of their drive, hoping today is the day the mail carrier finally brings a letter from their very best friend
#i'm personally about to start sobbing#how many letters do they try sending#how long does that sweet gentle soul wait - I actually don't want to know#little too close to home frankly lmao#grandpa i don't CARE that something evil lives in fernweh and wants to eat me or control me or whatever - that's my bestie!!#I just did James's route and this part hurt so much worse#fernweh saga#like J is SO scared to ask MC if they can write this time & they're trying to be SO supportive--#--of the fact that the last time they tried MC was going through an incredibly difficult time in their life#but that doesn't mean it didn't hurt so badly#and like it's obviously not MC's fault bc they never even got the letters in the first place#but now I want to cry thinking about how my MC hugs James at the police station when they meet again and how he's probably like ???#my MC missed him and James is like 'weird reaction for someone who couldn't be bothered to write back'#'and shattered my little fifteen year old heart into pieces'#i'm making wild assumptions about the inner workings of J's mind here but anyway#j corvin#all i'm saying is if my best friend was ripped out of my life and I tried writing them I would be religiously checking the mailbox#probably far longer than I should but still trying to hold out hope
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i have to say that i love yuuji itadori with all my heart and under better circumstances i would be soooooooo incredibly insane for him. but alas.
#number one i am afeared for what gege will do to him i dont TRUST HIM#number two i would genuinely go crazy over him so so crazy i love him with all my whole heart#number three which is sort of like number one but i just cant with jjk anymore like. you know what i mean LOL#✿ shut UP willow#nobody cares but i just have to get this off my chest#please he means so much to me you dont understand and under better circumstances i would write so much for him#i have such a lovely lovely long fic idea for him but#I CAAANTTTTT i dont trust gege#i will be DESTROYED#should anything ELSE happen to him#i have to distsnce myself or i will get hurt LMAOOOOOO#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#just in case#vibrating over the twin reveal but i must control myself
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we need more runs with damian and his friends. and don’t say teen titans- not team, his actual friends. all the other batbros have gotten HUNDREDS of comics featured around them and their friends- why can’t we let damian have his friends back and let them interact? just have fun adventures and live like in the other batbros’ stories?? i just think it would be such a fun concept and that the writers r missing out by giving damian angst and forcing him into relationships and forcing him to make friends all over again. i would just like a run were damian has fun with his pre-established friends. is that so much to ask for?
#actually as a damian fan i guess it is#also they’d probably make damian an ahole for no reason and make a his friends hate him/be bitchy for no reason#they r FRIENDS not ppl forced on a team who hate each other!!!!#i will not live thro another tt nope nada!!!#and by tt i mean the one (2016??) where damian was on the team and they made everyone hate him/him evil(??)#i read the first one and it hurt my heart so much i couldn’t do it bc i was like ‘wtf?!!’#and also i just don’t have access to comics#damian wayne#damian al ghul#let damian have friends 2k23#damian has friends#jon kent#maya ducard#colin wilkes#maps mizoguchi#mia mizoguchi#he has more friends but i just can’t remember their names!!!!#suren darga
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"You're so pretty."
Victoria's movements are soft, half formed, as though she'd not quite thought the action out before it started. She feels her ears heat up with embarrassment. It had been happening more often lately - moving before she can think clearly, as though dealing with two separate entities within herself, brain and heart. Perhaps Jennyanydots' amused diagnosis of "twitterpated" was not too far off the mark; there had certainly been enough reasoning to back it up.
Plato blinks, slow and confused, as though being pulled from a dream. And perhaps he was; he'd been staring at Victoria for the better part of an eternity, focused, but very clearly somewhere else. He did that sometimes - disappear somewhere she couldn't quite follow him, eyes hollow and dark. Victoria wishes she knew where he went; perhaps one day he'd tell her.
The staring, she couldn't fault, however; she'd been staring at him right back.
"What?" he asks, furrowing his brow.
"Pretty," Victoria signs again, submitting to having been caught, exaggerating the movement so he'd get it. Perhaps he'd been half paying attention, and only seen the tail end. "You're very pretty."
Plato wasn't much for laughing, Victoria had come to know - smiling, yes; Plato had developed such an easy smile over the year spent with them when they could coax it out of him. Laughing, on the other paw, not particularly, though he was never able to put quite into words why that was. Perhaps he was self conscious of the way it sounded; perhaps he hadn't much in regards to a sense of humour.
Be that as it may, for some reason, that affirmation plasters bewildered scrunches between his brows and his eyes practically disappear under his eyelashes. It even gets that odd, wheezing noise he'd make when particularly amused.
The queen could only be partially annoyed and a teeny bit embarassed - he was very handsome when he smiled, afterall, one fang hanging slightly lower than the other. An in consequential flaw that did nothing, Victoria thinks, flustered, than make him even prettier.
Victoria huffs. "What's funny?"
Plato tosses the motion back haphhazardly, as though brushing the thought aside. "You're funny."
"Not funny." Victoria frowns. "I'm serious."
Plato sobers immediately, smile gone as quickly as it came - it's like a candle being blown out; a night and day difference. The temperature in the clearing seems to cool as he continues to study her. There is an undeniable feeling creeping at the back of Victoria's neck that she may have mis-stepped somewhere, but all she'd said was...
She presses on, feeling an ache begin deep in her chest. She repeats herself, motions firm. "You're very pretty."
"I am not," he says after a long moment. There is an expression on his face that is difficult to read - he does not look embarrassed or pleased, even humbly so; he almost looks as though he is about to cry.
"Yes you ar-"
"You-" he points at her firmly, cutting her off, jaw set. The motion towards her is quick and harsh as a result, unsheathing his claws in the process. He startles as she does, horrified, staring at the space that has swelled between them; he is a breath away from scratching her.
"You," He points to her again after a moment, claw carefully pulled back this time. "Are very pretty. Not me. Look." He motions to the whole of himself, as though that were enough to dissuade her feelings. It only steels her resolve further.
"You look-" she insists, touching her paw pads to the delicate skin of his cheek to demonstrate. Plato flinches as though she'd hit him in retaliation; it looks to have been a struggle for him to resist moving away, but the desire is clearly there. There is fear burning in his eyes -anger and remorse and upset - like a bird trapped in a cage of teeth, waiting for its bones to snap in on themselves after the hunter had toyed with its prey.
Victoria pulls back, tangling her paws in her lap. The ache becomes a gnawing hurt. The fear in Plato's eyes burns hotter, guilt shining just beneath the surface.
"Please." Plato sets his jaw, and the fear fizzles slowly - forcibly - last of the flame suffocated. But he does not get near her again. He is gone to that place she cannot follow. "I cannot...do not lie to me."
"I am not lying," she manages, tears at the precipice of her eyelashes. The silence grows even heavier between them
"Then," he continues at last, breath hitching eyes wide and astonished, and Victoria feels ice settle at the base of her spine. After a moment, his expression dulls again. The smile on his face returns in a flash, a plaster over a wound, but it is bitter, cool. Empty. "You are being cruel? I did not think you had it in you."
#have this half finished nonsense too idk#Plato#Victoria#platoria#my fanfic#fanfiction#plato has body and self worth issues due to years and years of abuse#You walk in another world#Everything that touches you is moonlight and stardust; turns to gold in your grasp#I could only hope that being in your presence should do the same to me#I am stupid to think so#hahaha i'm sad#about this universe i mean#idk if this requires a tw but like plato has a very poor opinion of himself#and he's not mad at victoria - not at all - he is devastated that even she (in his twisted minds eye) would be cruel#and play with his feelings because he can't tell genuineness from a hole in the wall#but thing is victoria is 200% serious and besotted#not meant to imply any abuse or anything like that - macavity is just very close to plato's surface#in more ways than one and it terrifies him that he'll hurt her like macavity hurt everyone else#and the fact that victoria could be cruel in his mind? breaks his heart
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Capcom should hire me to write Ashley because I understand her more than anyone in that entire company
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#resident evil#ashley graham#resident evil 4#re4#re4 remake#leon s kennedy#re4make#alright so this is my very mini ashley analysis I have a lot more thoughts about her#it makes me so sad that people take ashley at face value because I think there’s definitely something more to be said about her character#I do think that ashley despite dramatization bc video game is a pretty realistically written character. like she’s a young woman in an#insanely traumatizing situation#and she is CONSTANTLY disrespected. she has been kidnapped . violated insulted and the worst part of it is that she’s just a means to an end#and I do believe in my heart of hearts that president graham is kind of a shit person. IS a shit person especially politically but even as#a father??? like he’s the PRESIDENT how does he not have better security over his daughter#and ashley’s mother is presumably dead .. she gives off very. neglected and I know part of it is just the situation but she actively seems#to Expect to be hurt by other people. even leon and she feels guilty for her ‘weakness’ in their situation even though she’s actually very#helpful and resourceful several times throughout the game#idk i always think about that one scene where she’s coughing and leon tries to be kind to her and she freaks out on him like#SHE CANNOT ACCEPT KINDNESS BECAUSE SHE CANNOT PAY HIM BACK!!!!#and then at the end of everything she offers him sxl gratification because that’s the only thing she can think of to repay him#she’s been led to believe she must owe a man something for saving her and that is a very unfortunate reality for a lot of women#idk. i love ashley#she’s literally me#no kin / id tags.. do not tag as ship
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Getting up to trouble is his speciality (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Helix#ZEX#The Captain#Mixed set! :D Lots of singular doodles - one-offs or ones that apply to a few different scenes#The kiss is random tho <3 I still haven't gotten to ZEX showing off his uniform to Zelnick! I want them to!!#Him seeing his Captain in his uniform was so lovely tho <3 I love Big Love and that was so <3 Hehe#Smooch ♥#ZEX does not eat enough ;; He eats like a bird and it's highly distressing#I actually wrote in my notes that I was surprised he wasn't hurting In The Same entry as when he was experiencing hunger pangs haha#It doesn't help that he tends to talk through meals rather than eat - he's so much more interested in making connections with humans!#As far as metaphors go - killing himself for the sake of trying to bridge that gap - I mean it's apt but ZEX please#I think it was while he was talking to Wally at one point that he framed the War in a very flippant light-hearted way which was funny to me#I don't think that's the descriptor most people would use haha#Swearing <3 <3 VUX terminology <3 <3#I want a VUX glossary of terms so badly hehe I've been slowly compiling a few here and there :3 Direct translation! The dream ♫#Him getting stressed enough to swear is very endearing haha ♪ What do you mean I'm endeared by everything he does don't be silly#The next one of me deeply enjoying when he's creepy is not proof of anything! Just because I Happen to also like that!!#I do really love when he's creepy tho agh <3 <3 The mental image of him as The Hunter - casually cornering and capturing his prey <3#In that instance he was interrupted pretty quickly but the setup was there!! And it was extremely good!!!#I love how huffy he gets as well haha ''All these humans interrupting my seduction attempts >O( ...Wait O|'' lol#And finally an exchange on the board between him and Scarecrow haha so many fun faces around!!#I love him being completely baffled by a non-mechanical construct it just short-circuits his brain haha ♥#He's so intelligent but there exists things unknowable!#The image of him tapping his pen is so Incredibly cute ah <3 Where did he learn such a thing! Does it translate from his VUX form to this ♪#Anything everything ♥ Learned or known! It's wonderful
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I am super fucking pissed about Wee John in this last episode.
Why. The. Fuck. Was. He. Not. Included. AT. ALL. During. The. Escape??????????
Legitimately, where the fuck was he? I was fuming for a lot of that because he's my favorite character, so I was looking for him. While everyone was stripping the English of their uniforms and getting dressed up (at least partially) in disguise, he is the only character not included.
They make a point about Fang not getting a proper shirt, which already pissed me off enough, that he had to wear what was essentially prison stripes while everyone else was in uniform, but Wee John wasn't even there. He wasn't in the raid. He wasn't in the run down the beach.
He just wasn't even fucking there. And if it was something Kristian decided he didn't want to worry about hurting himself over, particularly looking out for his back and knees, I understand not asking him to run over and over again for reshoots. But the fact that he didn't even get dressed with them... and that's the second time he's been excluded from a plan apparently due to his size (remember that he didn't get to participate when The Revenge dressed up as rich boys for Nigel Badminton)...
It is legitimately breaking my heart. One of the things I love about this show is the love is gives to its fat characters and actors. Fang gets to have his tummy out 24/7 and he's treated like a snack by Lucius, Wee John got to have an incredible dress, Oluwande is the crew's most eligible bachelor, and we even got a delightful fat character in 2x07 who spent his whole time dressed in only some leather halters and pants...
But the fact that Wee John was singled out and left behind, and the fact that Fang was singled out and othered at that very same time... It fucking hurts. As a fat person who has loved getting to see so much love for fat bodies... it stung to see that the comedy couldn't even suspend its reality long enough to say "there are a few fat people in the Royal English Navy, so Wee John and Fang get to be dressed up too."
#Cae Has Lots of Feelings About Our Flag Means Death#Have I already cried about this? Yes. I have.#It seriously hurts so much to see the character I most saw myself in separated from the entire rest of the cast over his size again#It breaks my heart so much.#I was literally asking my tv 'But where's Wee John?' all the way from the montage of them suiting up - all the way through Izzy's death.#Because he just didn't exist onscreen again until the LuPete marriage. I almost thought they were writing him out of the show there.#I hope to GOD that Kristian was the one to decide he didn't want to deal with the labor of that scene#Because I cannot imagine how he could've felt if he had to sit there alone and listen to people tell him 'Wee John just isn't in this part.#'Just for logical reasons though. Just cuz there's no way there'd be a uniform jacket big enough for him.'#Because I would've been gutted.#Wee John is big. Kristian Nairn is big. But he is not some unreasonable size.#And it feels cruel that he keeps getting treated like it.#Sending all my love to Kristian right now. I hope he doesn't need any of it. But he has it all the same.#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD#Our Flag Means Death Season 2 Spoilers#Our Flag Means Death Spoilers#OFMD Spoilers#OFMDS2#OFMD s2 spoilers#Wee John#Wee John Feeney#OFMD Fang#OFMD Meta#OFMD Critical
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Drew and took these pics a while ago but never posted them!! The OG Zac PC, and the special lil guy that initially appealed me to Zac’s characters :)
What a guy :-)
#my art#described#dimension 20#dimension 20 fantasy high#gorgug thistlespring#also I made him trans. genuinely not for any story reasons or logic. I just like him so I wanted to ~bestow the highest honor I could~ LMAO#he’s sooooooo cute and sweet… I love a barbarian who’s also very sad and kinda pathetic (HIGHEST AFFECTION)#literally just wanna wrap him in a blanket and cradle him like a baby. <- normal thing to say i promise#WORLD SO CRUEL AND HARD GORGUG HEART SO SOFT AND LOVE. DO NOT HURT HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#fh and especially fhsy got me on a same wavelength as neverafter with like. gdi these are children. I WANT THE KIDS TO BE ABLE TO BE KIDS#BUT ALSO I love angst so much and gorgug’s portion of the nightmare forest…. exquisite#tldr I like him :) NO NO BY ALL MEANS WHATD YOU SAY ABOUT MY BOY-
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no but im thinking about how 4halo could be together while keeping their dynamic intact. forever asks bad on a date and bad is like yeah :D friendship date. several dates later bad's the one to propose and he says "will you merry me" as in like. be merry with me. feel joy forever for we're together and we have 11 children aka all of the eggs we have forcefully adopted from the other parents and i dont know what life would be like without you. you changed my life for the better. besties 4evar, forever
#and then richarlyson falls into pieces#and dapper gets to be smug#i don't super enjoy the ship when theyre lovey-lovey but oh my god its so fucking funny to be in a relationship and just Deny it#to each other to everyone else to themselves#is that a wedding ring no its a donut#made of metal#a decoration i wear that's inscribed with my bestie's name because i just like him so much :3#do you see the vision the vibe is queerbait themselves to Hell while being Actively Queer#more thoughtful examination of bad's character is that i think a relationship that actively rejects sincerity is what he'd be most#comfortable in#he's Full of compliments for the other players and eggs but he will Never say that to their faces. he uses sillytime and insincerity as a#shield. if he ever trusts someone to be like. close to them. to consider them a teammate like he considers dapper a teammate#then it doesn't matter what label it gets -qpp or genuine besties or romantic or another option i cant think of- i think that not#acknowledging that sincerity is the only way he could bear letting them into his heart#i don't know forever as well to give a thoughtful analysis but i think that giving him something low pressure that isn't a Romance might be#good for him too if only for the fact that his Romances have all failed p badly. better to just be silly about it yknow just joke around a#lil if it doesn't mean anything then it wont hurt#<- basic angst trope im not sure fits him but be rest assured i am Looking at him. studying that beast.#qsmp#4halo#qsmp shipping
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…can i ask you to share more of your thoughts on fem!jaytim vibes
hi cory!!!! yes, yes i can :) <3
most of my thoughts come from this lil snippet and my tags.
my thoughts on fem!jaytim can be boiled down to this line: “Her successor fascinates her. She kind of wants to let him dissect her, little freak that he is.”
like tim is a freak who would absolutely want to dissect and take jaye apart piece by piece just to get to the bottom of whatever the hell is wrong with her (obsessive) and jaye would let him bc she wants to know what the hell is wrong with him (affectionate).
It’s almost a scientist and their never-ending experiment, but not quite?
like the dissection, its the act, the intimacy, the trust in being vulnerable and completely open on the table for them to see, a show and a sight but not a performance, it's the ‘i’m going to take you apart piece by piece, not to fix you or change you, but just to understand you’, and 'i’m going to get my hands dirty and dig into you, and it can be voluntarily or not, it can be with anesthesia or nothing but im going to know you whether you like it or not,' paired with 'you are going to have to cut me open to get to know me, it has to be cold and violent, it has to be artful and methodological.'
but jaye started off with ‘i want to destroy you, take you to the brink, the edge of despair and fury and hatred and let you go without any catharsis,’ kind of like capturing a wild animal, testing on it, and then releasing it back into the wild with a tag to see what it will do after being changed (will it return back to it’s normal routine or will it come back for more?)
and then tim kept coming back. and that's when jaye is like alright yeah, i'll let you rip me open and give me a name (or maybe give me back my name?) and tim does, and he does it carefully, adoringly, obsessively.
and i think tim’s obsessive focus, paired with the idea of the knife/scalpel = love, is what jaye would respond to best. she was raised in violence, and probably thinks that fighting and pain is caring and love, AND she’s never been a priority in anyone’s life. so for tim to obsess and know her in ways that no one else has before (or have even bothered) is captivating, exciting, and absolutely mind-boggling, and i think jaye would get possessive, like ‘this robin, this little freak is mine.'
i, hmmm. running out of coherent thoughts after this, so um i guess enjoy? <3
#asks#felinemotif#i don't write/talk about jaytim very much; ive always been a jaydick girlie#but this was a lot of fun to think about and like actually get down my thoughts in a somewhat coherent manner#i think there's another piece here about the dissection as an intimacy that only requires the subject and the surgeon/scientist#and the idea of labelling and taking photos of the parts something about learning and teaching but also remembering#another part: once the dissection is done once tim knows all of jaye does he stay?#which i think devolves into jaye going out of her way to prolong the dissection bc she thinks it may be temporary between her & tim#whereas tim is thinking okay i know all the pieces and parts which means im the perfect partner for jaye#no one knows her better than me AND no one will get to know her like i do#(the whole dissection thing too like tim is not afraid about hurting jaye whereas bruce is bc he knew her before)#(bruce thinks “dissection” would = change bad or good while tim knows it just means learning and knowing)#like it's going to be painful before it gets better and bruce doesn't want to go through the pain of knowing this version of jaye#bc it means acknowledging what he's done or not done#and tim's a fixer at heart but to fix things you gotta know what you're dealing with#problem is tim fell in love and realized fixing things would just make it worst so#he is very content with his tall gf that could kill him with her thighs and lets him do his freaky experiments<3#okay wow i was not done with the thoughts ajfkagjbsg imma stop now#jaytim#fem!jaytim
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I LOVE ENDACOPIA SO MUCH Oh my god
#do I even tag the game name why not.. later#idk it means so so much to me it's gotten me through so much surprisingly#bit of a stretch (probably) but there is some details that reminded me of like. child abuse and it made it hit harder for me help#like. just henry. in general LMAO but there's other stuff that I made save for an analysis post but I'm like scared of misinterpreting-#something.#also mellow is rlly relatable to me I ended up retaking the name back recently#woah! woah.#I can't wait for the full release I've been neurodivergent abt this little demo for so so long#I might post fanart soon..I made gjinkas blaaaarhh#also. the line somewhere I forgot though maybe the itch.io page#where it talks about mellow trying to find a home wherever that may be...#AUGHHHH IT HURTS. it hurts my heart so bad#my feels...#he just like me fr#endacopia#I FORGOT LOL
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obsessed with the idea that in another world shen jiu would just be the cang qiong sect’s extremely bitchy second in command who acts like a royal pain in the ass to everyone but closes ranks SO fast once someone else is rude to anybody from the sect like FUCK you those are HIS annoying little brat disciples/peak lords and only HE’S allowed to be mean to them
#personal#svss#in a world where YQY and SQQ managed to resolve that ugly mess of miscommunication between them#decades later SQQ is like haha you fucking idiots. i hate all of you. if anyone touches you i'll bite their hands off#YQY: very diplomatic and peaceful and just the human equivalent of a capybara :)#SQQ: standing behind him with the ugliest murder face ever seen on an immortal cultivator waiting for the slightest reason to go off#LQG and SQQ hate each other but it's mutually respectful. like fuck you specifically but also. FUCK you specifically. won't elaborate#puts my hands on my hips why aren't there more funny fics where SQQ is just the meanest little bitch bastard ever but also#fiercely protective of cang qiong sect bc he considers it HIS#like he absolutely does NOT have a heart of gold. he's VERY MEAN. but also everybody knows he'd never do anything to hurt cang qiong sect#HE'LL HURT YOUR FEELINGS BUT HE'LL KILL YOUR ENEMIES!!!#shen jiu is so interesting to me i am poking at him constantly in my head#rotates him like in a microwave. he's a bastard but he's MY bastard#yqy coded thought process tbh
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