“luz dying was bad writing” this “luz traveling between both worlds whenever was bad writing” that- SHUT UP. SHUT THE FUCK UP. ITS GREAT AND I DONT CARE.  i’ve followed this show from the beginning and i refuse to consume this ending critically. its fantastic and i love it the end

Grief & Plants

Why do I feel comfortable sharing so many details of my life in Tumblr? Do you feel that way too? I think it is the fact that you share without knowing who's gonna read it, hoping there will be no judgement or bullying.

The 2-year anniversary of my dad's dead is getting closer and closer. The 2-year anniversary of my step dad's dead was just 3 months ago and I haven't been able to cry, even though I want to. Every single day a song, a video, a picture, a conversation with a customer, a Tupperware gifted, the fucking weather all remind me of all the time I had to let them reconnect, to amend things and build a relationship. Regrets, I lost my chance.

I'm committed to use my passion for plants and gardening and this Tumblr page to heal, to release my thoughts and hopefully even help people like me, in deep grief...bad grief... to do the same, heal and learn to live with the fact that they are physically gone, but alive within us.

I planted the nasturtiums on my pictures and many more when I lost them. I was crying while putting the seeds in the soil. Maybe my tears helped the germination process, but all have bloom and reseeded and everytime I see a new bloom, I smile.

WHY THE HELL DID THEY KILL OFF THE PUPPY

the way i have to write my outline today

If I’m not listening to Taylor bc I’m mad at her WHO THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO LISTEN TO???

i know this moment was coming but i'm still in denial

the nostalgic trait in me is so severe that every new taylor album time i get sad over the past album

there's a moment when you're left speechless, a moment that you question what's happening around you, a moment of digesting what you've been told.

and then comes a moment when you can't utter a word other than no, a moment when your legs can't hold you anymore, a moment of falling to the ground while unconsciously holding your hand too tight it gets red.

and then comes the last moment of grieving ,screaming, and crying their name out so loud you taste blood in your mouth.

those short moments of loss together forms a heart still not believing, still bleeding, and still grieving.

I didn't watch him too much just here and there within the last 2 years. He was hilarious, he made entertaining videos, his friends were clearly happy with knowing him, and watching an occasional compilation video or animation involving him always got me smiling again after some rough times. FUCK cancer it's deplorable and no one should go through it. I wish his family and friends the best, I hope they all recover in time and stay safe. I hope other fans recover in time and stay safe. I hope wherever he is, he's happy and able to see the sheer impact he has left on the world.

Technoblade never dies, for he lives within our hearts.

Me cause all we’ll ever have is brokeback mountain

I miss Harry’s moustache he doesn’t look right without it

You are the most beautiful angel to exist. You shine bright, bright, bright! So bright, I can not see you.

I'm the main character of my life, it's just that I'm not the only main character of the world.

Day 14 of myy challenge. For Valentines day I wanted to make something in memory of someone lost to tragedy last year. Both me and my soul sibling loved them and cried for their loss as we grieve them. It's simple as I want to ink it later and scan it so we can both color it to give it design.The last wonderful memory we had with her was when she was playing with fans like these.

I think a lot of the meta about Orym forgets that Orym isn't just an adventurer, he is a former bodyguard. His self worth is tied up in how well he can protect people and especially his loved ones. Thats why he sold his future to a hag, because its all he had left to give in order to be able to help.

Thats also why he seems so angry after FCG's death.

Otohan has killed his husband and father. Then him. Then he is brought back and told she also killed Fearne and Laudna. She killed Eshteross. She almost kills Keyleth. Now FCG has to sacrifice himself to save them all and kill Otohan and Orym was knocked out for it.

His job is to protect people and even with the added power from Nana Morri, it's still not enough. 6 years later and his loved ones are still dying and he can do nothing but watch.

i was hoping to make a post like this under happier circumstances, but here goes.

as some of you know, everything with the cancellation and renewal campaign has happened right on top of the worst part of my mom's cancer treatment (plus the show was cancelled on my actual birthday 💀). i won't go into details, but it's been tough. lots of ups and downs, mostly downs, luckily ending (for now) on as much of an up as circumstances allow. the whole thing has been weirdly tied to the cancellation for me, kind of amplifying every feeling. the grief got mixed up, and there was so much of it - mourning the loss of the kind of future i thought i'd have with my mother and the time we might not get, mourning the end of a show that means so much to me and is such a big part of my life. different types of grief, sure, and of different magnitudes, but in one big ugly swirl. i sort of had a breakdown right at the start of february, and it was because of news about my mom, but it morphed into my brain telling me everything i'd ever written was shit and wanting to delete it all. stuff like that, spilling over.

anyway. i was holding off on writing this post to see if the show got picked up by someone else. but i still want to say it. because what also spilled over was the support and community from this fandom, and being in this space (despite the rough times and high emotions) helped me through it, because of all of you here. whether we talk regularly, or you left a comforting reply or simply a like on one of my posts about having a hard time (i tried to keep them few), or wrote a nice comment on a fic, or said something funny or nice or insightful in the tags of a gifset, or was active here (or on twt) in any way, talking/sharing/creating stuff about the show - THANK YOU.

you all helped me through all the ups and downs, and i am so grateful. thank you for being here, listening, distracting, helping me feel some joy despite the horrors. i love you and i love this incredible show and all it has brought and will continue to bring and inspire, and although it should go without saying, i'm not going anywhere. just do me a favor and give yourself a big ol' hug from me, and know that you made a difference for some random guy on the internet (but in reality for many more, and for this fandom as a whole, just by being here and being you) 💕