Why do I feel comfortable sharing so many details of my life in Tumblr? Do you feel that way too? I think it is the fact that you share without knowing who's gonna read it, hoping there will be no judgement or bullying.
The 2-year anniversary of my dad's dead is getting closer and closer. The 2-year anniversary of my step dad's dead was just 3 months ago and I haven't been able to cry, even though I want to. Every single day a song, a video, a picture, a conversation with a customer, a Tupperware gifted, the fucking weather all remind me of all the time I had to let them reconnect, to amend things and build a relationship. Regrets, I lost my chance.
I'm committed to use my passion for plants and gardening and this Tumblr page to heal, to release my thoughts and hopefully even help people like me, in deep grief...bad grief... to do the same, heal and learn to live with the fact that they are physically gone, but alive within us.
I planted the nasturtiums on my pictures and many more when I lost them. I was crying while putting the seeds in the soil. Maybe my tears helped the germination process, but all have bloom and reseeded and everytime I see a new bloom, I smile.
A bunch of my smaller plants and propergation projects that I sorted while moving stuff around under the grow lights. Thought I'd take some updated growth photos of them while I was at it.
Lots of Aloe's no names, Echeveria's my purple pearl named Beet Poot and a topsy turvy named Joseph Grimaldi. Also a saucer plant named Mad Hatter, my babies I love alot my Bear Paw named Fozzie Bear and my Panda Plant no name.
There’s something so sad about seeing abandoned houses and buildings being torn down. I understand it needs to be done and they serve no purpose, but it just feels like the world is moving too fast.
I remember as a kid on late night drives from a long day, we’d always pass by this old gas station, it was completely over grown and rusted but I always knew we were almost home when I saw it.
Since we are now full on in to autumn and winter, my room is back to low light only. So I did some organising with the plants I have under my grow lights.