#janus estuaries vol. 3
Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.1924
“Another Off The List: Another On"
The hard part about having too much to do
Is writing down a list
The hardest part about writing down a list
Is that it is one more thing to do
On the newly formed list
Of things to do
Now there is one more thing to do
DONE
There is one less thing to do now
On the long list of many things to do
They are good things
Careful, loving things
Groceries, Dishes, Laundry, Sleep
Taxes, Writing, Eating, Sleep
Finding rest at end of day
Finding words, to her, to say
Getting out with strangers dare
Knowing that the world doesn’t play fair
There is so much left yet to do
I wonder what comes next
I wonder if you wonder too
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.24.24
“Morning Glories"
Change of schedules; habits
Rituals – within rituals
I look to the bed like a distant forlorn lover
The wick burnt low of love
Why am I not in that embrace
What keeps me but myself
From that doorway to tomorrow
Am I afraid of the days to come?
That I will prolong, even the moon
Stop the inconstant moon in the sky
Break a habit of waiting
For a reason to rest
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.9.24
“True Love's Full Draw"
I need to stop falling in love
Let me stride towards you with confidence
And fear
But onwards towards you with intention
Building each red-string wrap of love
Sorrow may come with soldier– marched in
Rows upon phalanxes lines
So too does arrow fly loose like arrows
Pointed, not indirect in their direction
Struck and springing blushed affection
Love is not a stairwell down, nor wire tripped
Not a pothole or puddle or slippery slope
Love is an archer
Strong armed and sturdy
Loose the slings and arrows of misfortune
For amidst their adversity is the labor of love
Hammered with steel and sickled with harvest
Make each reaction, to ever action let me succumb
Greater and greater into that adoration, affectation
That we call love
I will make my love intentional,
Multi-dimensional
So that when soldiers of sorrow
Sweep across my heart
My aim will be steadfast and true
Able to beat back the blue days
A few days of silence for an evening of laughter
Is all that I am after with someone sought after
When the battle is over and clear sky approaches
If the love was worth fighting for it shall endure
A greater ascension
Renewed with intention
Will defy even gravity’s pace
As the heart, will surely race
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.8.24
"Isle of Dawn"
Leave this city of ruin
On wings and boats of light
Pluck a star from the evening
And let it steer you right
Now all the mountains are worn
Wearied to pebble and sand
Is this the bright future imagined?
Is this what our elders had planned?
Here, this is not a place we can thrive in
Survive in, or grow
With this star, fallen –crestfallen–
Through the darkness, will show
This is an isle, worth all ire, of dawn
Cresting: horizons, opportunity, hope
Will these stars take us, far from our home
Or will they lead us to green to snow?
Towards heaven and ruin, we surely go
How far from home will dreams shift and stray
Perhaps safe and home, is where we should stay
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.6.24
"Retie or Retire these Severed Strings?"
Have I been a dutiful son?
Was I a beautiful one?
A font of joy and blood
Forty days and nights, it flood
Stigmata, stick-man hanging by a thread
Echoing the words, bounced around in my head
As I lay
Dying some distant May
Did I perform my filial duty
Had I lived with grace and beauty
Should I bother to heed such bloodied roles?
The world a stage, a battle with many foes
How much blood to bleed for apologies
What’s left of me, after all of these…
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.3.24
“Resolute That The World Must Grow Kinder”
Every year I am asked to change
To be better
But I have been kind for countless years
Why must I be the one to make the stars rearrange?
It is not my year for resolution
The world and those about
Are overdue for kindness, they live without
There is no grand and violent revolution
How silly and little we seem celebrating
Once more around the track we revolve
Refusing, recycling, and re-using to evolve
Happy birthday Gaia, Earth, towards tomorrow accelerating
I am not
Going to use my time and slipping sand
Fueling fire, crooks, and stealing books with guarded hand
My deeds may never change the world, as a cosmonaut
Why not? Make a change worth counting
Loose as it may be in my pocket
Kept tight ‘round my nape in a locket
Is an obstacle of the self, worth surmounting
Why must wishes be for anything other than mundane?
There is magic and wonder in the worlds kindness, that will remain
Birthday wishes, each year I always give my best
It is time for kindness to be learned and earned by all the rest
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.20.24
“Paper Trails"
The Law only ever serves The Capitol
And the Law only ever serves The Capital
I learned as a child in the Alphabet Song
A before O, but somehow this seems wrong
They say in triplicate, in houses two and branches three
Balance the blind scales and ruling might, oh, Land of Free
Where the Price is (not) Right, but there’s one for everything
How many servants to the public Left, or Right wing?
Once a child would look for songs and be sued
Tallying the cell-days they’ve accrued
Only for Brokers and Investors to whine
That the world isn’t fair, “What’s mine is mine and yours is mine!”
What use is a system with one singular pursuit
With Constituents begging to not be refute
Businesses demanding for the use of our history
Tailor-made adverts, machine-learned; no mystery
The Capitol follows The Capital
No matter how costly the flaw
The Capital cares not for The Law
In the future that they have foresaw
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.28.24
"LOVELESS"
Soldier on dreamer, the sky, you will see someday
A single cloud to rest beneath, for you are beloved
Blue skies hold only joy, in the coming dawn-winged dove
Fallen, like city tiles or angels, Where now will you fly away?
Fluttering wings of day and night, above the dreamer walking
Whose fate is held in promised burdened hands
Monsters are roaming in man and beast, in cities and fields across the land
Is there a hero beloved by one? Someone? Anyone? Even in the making
Head up, dreamer, pride may be the fall, as was for so many wingéd
From the rivers to the streams
Restless is the wanderer who nightly dreams
Such godly gifts are these to carry ahead
Tomorrow’s dreams may shatter the soul,
Pluck pride like stripped wings
Over these sorrows, whose voice sings?
Clouds weep and wail, for flowers’ joyous toll
The waves of heart and mind flux and flow
In salvation or slumber, corrupted by journey’s end
The tortures endured, saved by tormenting nightmares by a friend
Broken winged are we, hold fast together we might fly, and go
When dreams are loosed like arrows from divine bows
Divining and dividing fates
Will honor or dreams or love be what awaits?
When old friends become old foes
Surely in silence the wind will leave ripples on the water
With lofty dreams, ambitions, hope, and other terrible passions
Worn to hide our truthful eyes, in plainest fashions
Bring to life such desires, barren from slaughter
As the wings surely fly
So the quiet silver dew whispers of morning
Dreamer, oh, Soldier, nothing shall cease the sun, you, from returning
Plead, do not make of thou this sacrifice, to spare us pained goodbye
The storm will end with tufted clouds and blue shining in the eyes
A hope --nay-- promise fluttered with fallen feathers, a loved sunrise
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.16.24
“Beat Upon My Breast"
Devour me oh, love of life pursued
When longing life to have and use
When sword is sold for metal made to wed
Like shackles that will bind me to my bed
Should such a maw as love consume
Let it be -ated and the life resume
What sweet succored, suckered pain
Do we depose to seek love plain
Blind fools we are, oh lovers, we
With visions true, eyes do oft flee
With lovers hand and killers word
No pleading bargains shall be heard
Oh, night, beneath thy chaliced moon
Grant gentle love so great to bring to ruin
With tooth and nail and bone and blood and life
From lovers anguish cease such aching strife
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.26.24
"Burgeoned-Burgundy Moon"
Quiet beasts of the night
Prowlers of the Hunter Moon
Garbed in your furs and your blacks and your whites
Stripes streaked with scarlet, with crimson blood rites
Who sang the songs to name you with such fear
Scholared madmen, pursuant of acclaim?
Ignorant to the spectered shadow in the mirror
Wipe their face, perplexed with trails of blood; How queer
Victims of the city’s streets strewn red
Pounding, pleading at the doors, party goers echo cheers, jeers
Overhead the moon hangs low like the stalker’s head
To what dark delights shall these roads lead
Blood, through the streets, the streams, like veins
Beaten from the heart of the city
Badum-badum, daylight’s rise, who remains?
Predator-prey, pray with those hands, bloodstains
Gentle prowlers, howlers to the moon
The street-beast-bloodied city’s yours
With toothy maw and snarling grin, crackle and croon
This dream has rotted from within - the dreamer waketh soon
Beneath the hunter moon who else but hunters hunt
For if the beastly-ghastly dream persists
Who else but hunters is there to confront?
When rash and bloody deeds are done and dripping from their teeth
Hunters-Beasts — Exalt. Exeunt!
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.21.24
“Rainspotting"
Out past the grocery market
Middle of the field
Hoping for a lightning bolt – Zeus!
Or is the rain alone the domain of Poseidon?
Give me a mystery with less hesitation
Not even the hostess can seat me
Let alone greet me
As they too are snobbily assessing the skies
Give us a sprinkle or misting
Something off of the menu couture
A hale winter storm
Full of sleet or of hail
With the wind roaring loud as it wails
Out of reach of my car
My umbrella too far
As the rain, spotted rain!
Crashes down
Not one single bolt
Not a sizzle nor crack
Seems to bless me
On this chilly threshold
Precipice to precipitation
One so highly anticipated
Galloping, galloping, I can’t err
No mistake to be made in the rain
It is plain that it's over too soon
With a lion-dubbed roar
With dinner and din
Not a mist or a sprinkle or drizzle
Just shy of deluge
Not to greatly misuse
As slowly it came
How quickly it left
Like a lover
Or waiter – night’s end
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.12.24
“Midwest Madness"
Not every day will be noteworthy
Not every day will bring joy
Not every day will have success
Not every day will see sun
Not every day will be entered in to a journal
Not every day will you remember–
–how happy you are to have one
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.29.24
“Silly Semi-Decade Facade”
Banana lamma-o-Rama ding dong
Carol let's will sing-song along
Fumbling, thumbing the ring wrong
Sized by eye
Seismic lie
Admit the truth, will or won't i
If it fit and you had worn
Checkbook too, and heart torn
Coat check receipt, please, I'm leaving forlorn
Hair; shorn short of opportunity, oh, lover
Failing to eat, to meet expectations, so mother
Mary, full of grace, for some other
From shore to shining sea
Over amber grass to ambergris
You've mined my heart, leave the body be
Coordinates uncoordinated, mediated not meditated
Seeking consul or counselor, get myself medicated
Wishing I would, wishing you won't, actions made are predicated
Diamond in the rough
Uncut, just as tough
Ask the same, tone and pressure equals love
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.15.24
“Lockwood Lover"
Music box dancer
‘Round and around you go
Performing – warming
My heart, each wound-up click-start
To my fits and tears will you give answer?
Rain clatters, against the window
As idle chatter
Shattering the silence after your song hence
Laments at the rest
After the song, where does this feeling go?
Tell me dancer, what care does a wolf have for a flower?
In the storm shadowed sky
Your pre-packaged song carves into my cheeks
Wind me up, dancer-doll
Spin me round, dancer, fall, new years’ midnight shower
If I close my eyes, hands held aloft
Might the rain be my partner
Have just this dance, slowly stepping, turning
Yearning for the wind and the rain to clasp
Music box dancer, playing, dancing soft
Goodbye, passerby
Before you go, wind me up
So that I might revolve once more
Dance and sing and soak in the rain
Replace the broken cracks and pain with a sigh
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.27.24
"Pick a Product and Pray"
This silica city,
A basilica to
The mighty, the few
The rest kneeling at pew
Praying for profits
For gospel
In hostel
For little more than pity
Dust kicked up
From horse hooves and wagons
Bags in the back
Roped up rodeo
Small town take town hall stocks
Building up towers to technology
Call to mass
En masse
All it takes is a shake
A walk outside
To make the Garden of Babylon
Fall like Babel on,
The kicked dust below
Do you miss the rust
The crust and decay?
How long and far from death
Have you lived?
When last did you breathe
And run
And live
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Janus Estuaries Vol. 3, 1.11.24
“Midwest Madness"
A sickness grew within me
Festering between my heart and lungs
Every time it might be expelled
I caught it before recitation, regurgitation
Center of the country, heartland
Homeland America and more than crops rot
Hearts rot on the freeways
Crosscountry, a place to pass by
Not to be
That sickness spread down streets
Corners and capillaries
Always caught in cul’de’sacs
Always close to throwing up
I am nauseous
I read that after near-thirty
Cells die faster than they regenerate
That is the line in the sand,
In our hand, life line
When we begin to die
Marked for death
But I am sick, to death
When it caught hold
Cradling my feelings, my words
It fatigues me faster than round-a-bouts
I gave up waiting for it to pass
Beneath the freeways of my organs
From me, from my center-state home
It could not be expelled and it could not be tolerated
Enumerated or exonerated but persists
Perhaps the coming year’s resolutions, revolutions
Send cries of kindness in protest to the skies
Hear the words, spit past blockade teeth
Boiling words that waited throbbing deep
How beautiful the world full of kindness
Plucked like spring flowers
Placed in cheap plastic vases
It makes me, my home; sick
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