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celestialtarot11 · 5 months

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More astro notes 🤗🤍

Hey ya’ll! Grab a drink or a snack because this post is juicy 💭☕️ hope ya’ll enjoy!

I’ve noticed Sagittarius and Jupiter placements don’t often follow higher education, and in fact natives with this placement drop out. It’s as if they are meant to expand outward, and not stay shackled to a capitalist society 👏 as they should honestly. These natives work hard from a young age especially, they’re all about getting that bag. As they get older they get efficient with making money. These natives are always seeking to be efficient.

Venus in the first probably grew up around a modest family, a family that praised modesty. Depending on the aspects, the native embraces this or rejects it entirely. Venus in the 1st is here to find themselves ultimately. They are their own soulmate, and realizing this truth will help them to give to their partner/friendships 🤗 such a sweet native. But this native has the tendency to conform and fall into codependent tendencies.

Mars in the 1st…have ya’ll had leg injuries in your life? Someone I knew with this placement has a massive leg injury from work. Be careful! Mars in your chart indicates surgery/injuries. Where it falls in your chart will tell you where you’ll have injuries or surgery, and when it’ll happen.

Leo, pisces & gemini in someones big three makes for a very interesting person. Elusive, yet known. Out there yet hidden. Talking to them one on one creates pressure on this individual, because there is that feeling of wanting to run, but stay open. This native constantly battles hiding and opening up. If ya’ll don’t put down that wine glass and take off that trench coat-😤 this ain’t mission impossible. Anyway, good luck trying to get anything out of this individual 🤗 if they share to you anything, they trust you.

Libra men…please stop comparing yourself to your partners. If you’ve had a history with people looking down at you, it’s understandable why you’d continue this cycle. But if ya’ll want that commitment, that relationship, see your partner in a different light and yourself included. You can’t look at yourself the same way those people never saw you. Your partner does not want to repeat that hurt (that’s if you’re in a mutually healing relationship, not an unhealthy one) Your fears can easily distance you from your partner.

Wherever pluto aspects in the natives chart is where personal information is out in the open. For example someone I know with pluto in the 10th aspecting venus in the 4th, family often tried to separate her relationship, and was the cause of significant problems. Many people knew of the relationship and spread gossip like fire, even after the breakup people still bring him up. And it happens when it’s not even related to her, they’ll find any excuse to bring her ex up in any conversation/argument. Pluto in the 10th can signify having a relationship with the boss or coworker which eventually turns public. These natives need to be careful with where pluto aspects their planets! ✨🌀

Alternatively, Pluto in the 10th is often read as the native having an infamous career, or personal information affecting their career. While that may be true for some, look closely to the aspects and which planet its touching, and which house. Again, Pluto in the 10th touching venus in the 4th, the 4th house ruling family, that’s where a lot of the natives issues were gossiped about. Career place went by fine, only issue was putting herself out there as she liked to keep herself hidden.

Another example of Pluto bringing personal information out to the public: Pluto aspecting the natives sun. Issues with the father were widely known, because the pluto person had the father moving in and our constantly of their apartment. The father had no financial support for himself. Sun in the 3rd house trine Pluto in the 2nd, this persons travel plans were an indicator to others that they were sitting on a pile of cash. I mean, flying to these places? Damn, you must be rich. And the natives job included flying out to different locations. This caught peoples eye, and it turned into jealousy. Eventually, the native with this placement had a massive injury at work (mars 1st house) and it lead to a huge financial scare because of the debt (pluto 2nd house) . Because of the sun trine pluto aspect, everyone did not laugh at him, rather they couldn’t understand how he was still there and doing well despite the injury. Somehow to others, he was still carrying on. People put him on a pedestal shortly after the injury, and he couldn’t return to work because he knew his coworkers would constantly talk to him about the injury, and want to know every detail. In a way, people idolized his bravery and strength. So again, look to your pluto placement, aspects, other planets, houses everything! 😤

Thank ya’ll so much for reading 💗☺️ hope this was informative and cool! Please feel free to reblog, comment and like!

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antis-delete-your-blogs-pls-thx · 2 years

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UGHHHH. Re: the damn "trashy romance novels are going to normalise abusive relationships for young women" discourse showing up again.

Abusers CAN change. All of them CAN. The real question is, WILL they? That's why "I can fix him" mentalities are so prevalent, not romance novels. Everyone is actually capable of change. There is nothing that exists biologically within a person that forces them to abuse others. They do it of their own free will.

Don't get me wrong, it's difficult to change ingrained habits, especially if you have anger problems, control issues, are power-hungry, etc. But it's not impossible. If an abuser wanted to change, they have the ability. The amount of effort put forth for that varies, but it's always possible. They know that, and so do the survivors. So you get this clinging hope, like maybe one day you'll make a difference, maybe one day when they promise to be better they actually mean it.

They CAN be fixed. But most of the time, they won't. And nobody can make them. Even I, someone in literal professional training to help them get better, can't make them. They have to choose to do it. And meanwhile, people around them will suffer, whether they read romance novels or not. Because ultimately, the only thing to blame for abusive relationships is the abusers themselves.

We can certainly warn people, but unless all abusers magically get isolated from every other person on Earth, someone will always end up in their path regardless. That's why we give them the tools to get out safely and get access to counselling and healing. Prevention should focus on education about abusive behaviours, the cycle of abuse, etc, and ways to be mindful of how you treat others and how they treat you. Its main focus should be on the actions of abusers, how to avoid doing them or being hurt by them over and over. Not the actions of survivors.

You can highlight risky choices, like becoming financially depended on someone early on in a relationship, but ultimately it's not the victim's fault. Sometimes you do everything right and still get abused. I did. I never read any of those romance novels, my parents warned me about abusers, and I began to feel something wasn't right quite early. But by then I had already become attached, and so they had something to manipulate me with.

Books aren't the problem. Don't blame survivors for reading books. Don't blame survivors for writing books, especially if those books are about their experiences. Don't blame non-survivors for it, either. Blame the people who actively choose to abuse others. Blame the abusers.

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hyenahunt · 5 months

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Saga: Rivals - 9

Writer: Akira

Season: Winter

Characters: Hokuto, Seiya, Jin

Proofreading: 310mc (JP) & Peace (ENG)

Translation: kotofucius

Hokuto: …Save me, sensei. I think I’m going to die from pure rage.

[Read on my blog for the best viewing experience with Oi~ssu ♪]

Location: Soundproof Lesson Room

Hokuto: No… Just how things are? Like, how? I can’t see where you’re going with this, Father.

Seiya: Oh, I seem to have forgotten to add an explanation. This DreamFest, called Reverse Live, is part of Project-Saga.

Yumenosaki Academy and CosPro are the ones backing it financially, while Project-Saga’s originator… Its production committee, including the magazine company, handles the planning and management.

It will be one of Project-Saga’s big events — a setup for CosPro to enter the project officially and enliven it further.

Consider it a festival that comes with our raid.

All formed units that have survived and remained involved with Project-Saga are summoned to participate. Of course, that includes you, Rain-bows.

Hokuto: …How have I not heard a word of this?

Seiya: Because no one told you, I believe. Also, it was put together in haste after I exercised my authority, so they had no time to contact the related parties.

Frankly, Reverse Live is meant to be our unit’s debut show…

So it works out better if the rest of the participants would stand on stage unprepared and weak.

Jin: Shameless really is one way to describe you… You’re one of the best idols out there, Seiya-san, so could you please refrain from plotting dirty schemes?

You can win just by fighting with what you have, right?

Seiya: True. But is it not far more preferable to gain more benefit with lower cost?

Energy is limited; it is my principle to convert time and effort efficiently into money and fame.

Hokuto: You’re looking to win with ease on top of a stage designed to favor you…? This is fraud! I’ll never acknowledge it, you sneaky bastard!

Seiya: You’ve truly learned many new words without my knowledge, Hokuto. Say what you want; might is right.

Don’t worry, I will spare no effort in making a pleasant conclusion for everybody.

As a matter of fact, the more exciting Project-Saga becomes, the more benefits its participating units will gain, yes?

Hokuto: That’s not the problem — this is about sincerity.

Seiya: Of course, I have accounted for that as well. The S in Seiya stands for Sincerity, after all ♪

Hokuto: …Save me, sensei. I think I’m going to die from pure rage.

Jin: Grit it out. Anyway, Seiya-san’s explanation method is so unique it can kinda throw you off, but it won’t be too late to make judgments after we know the whole thing.

Okay, so from what I get, a large-scale DreamFest will be held from evening today until tomorrow night.

That’s a whole day and a few hours, so it’s going to be a long fight, huh?

Seiya: Supposedly, yes.

Many units have had to break up due to budget and the like, but even then, there are still quite a few of them left.

We believe the show'll have to go on for a considerable length if all these units share the same desire to stand out.

The location will be Yumenosaki Academy auditorium. It was initially booked for some hours, but I talked to the academy’s dignitaries so they’d hand it over entirely.

Hokuto: What a nuisance… There were idols and fans looking forward to those events you got rid of. Why are you so insistent to start the show tonight?

Seiya: Oh, that’s not quite so. I’m entering my late new year vacation, you see… I am participating in Project-Saga as a hobby.

So making these things happen during this period is simply more convenient, as I don’t have to readjust my schedule, is all.

Hokuto: It’s all about you, then… And as always, you’re working even on vacation.

Seiya: Yes. I don’t know about other idols, but I’m an entrepreneur. I’m not protected by Labor Law like public servants are.

I am free to work on my day off and do overtime all I want. Wonderful, isn’t it?

Hokuto: …You damned workaholic.

Seiya: Yes. My work and family keep my life fulfilled. In fact, what else must I ask for?

At any rate, I have informed you in the morning like this out of a tiny bit of kindness.

The liveshow starts in the evening, so there is not much time left either way… But now you can at least make plans and preparations, yes?

I heard Reverse Live is score-based; you'll eventually be left out of the match if you can’t score.

Plus, the more scores you have by the end of the match, the more focus Project-Saga will place on you going forward.

In other words… it will also give us more chances to fight, Hokuto.

I plan to work as Lilith for a while, so you will have the chance to fight and win against me while Project-Saga hasn’t ended.

Hokuto: …I hate your statement for two reasons.

First, the fact you don’t account for the possibility of miserably losing and getting kicked out over the entire course of Project-Saga.

Second. The fact you don’t seem to believe the slightest that I can fulfill my goal of defeating you in this “Reverse Live” thing.

Don’t look down on me, Father. I’ve grown a lot stronger while you weren’t watching.

Seiya: Fufu. I will listen to such braggings after you’ve won against me.

The smallest dog barks the loudest — I pray that I won’t have to say this to my own son.

I mean it, from the bottom of my heart… My wife and I are always waiting for you to overtake us.

Jin-kun, you have a doctor for a father, so perhaps you two never had the chance to fight on equal footing.

No matter how disgusted you were at each other, how twisted your relations became, you didn’t have the chance to cut off your ties once and for all.

Fighting it out physically wasn’t an option, either.

That’s why, only through losing your standing as an idol — in other words, submitting to your parents’ wishes… could you finally forgive and embrace each other.

It's different with us. We’re both idols; ones granted the right to stand on the battlefields named DreamFest and Project-Saga…

This is a golden opportunity. We should fight like parent and child, in a way that won’t hurt the both of us.

By doing so… I shall precede the many parents and children that exist as countless as the stars in the sky, finally embracing the son I had a spat with.

I feel we can finally understand each other then, even just a bit.

That is all I wish for.

In exchange for Jin-kun, who has no children of his own, and Akehoshi-kun, who has been deprived of this luxury forever… I shall embrace and cherish those dear to me.

I believe that’s the most supreme of dreams a single human being can fulfill.

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winns-stuff · 1 year

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LO RANT:

Each time I hear about the chapters they continue to prove my point each time. Hades really is a fucked up person, you mistreat and abuse your employees who you’ve known for a long long time.. those who’ve worked under you and have obviously formed some kind of understanding with you since they have to live in your realm and work in your corporation, along with your citizens who also deal with you on a daily basis and help keep your realm financially and physically stabilized. All of those people who’ve been there longer than punk ass Persephone and you only give her respect, compassion, understanding, and respect. You’re a fucking asshole, there’s literally no redemption with Hades and that’s exactly why I absolutely despise his ass.

See, I knew I was on to something when I said that Hades is nowhere near a morally grey character, he’s literally the worst person ever. He has no redeeming traits at least that he chooses to display, he never tries to actually fix his problems instead he gets someone else to, and whenever he’s confronted on his shitty behavior he gaslights and manipulates the person confronting him. He’s so fucking evil like I have such a deep hatred for him, he’s not even that fucking nice to Persephone literally he’s becoming borderline controlling and condescending. You can’t say you respect Persephone and then spoon feed her information like she’s an idiot, you can’t say she’s mature or an adult when you baby her like she’s 4, you can’t say that she should be the queen of the underworld if you won’t even let her help with actual situations that need to be dealt with in her realm. I mean… it’s almost as if.. We knew that Persephone was nowhere near capable or even showed any sort of leadership traits when it came to actually being a ruler.

Genuinely I never saw Persephone as an actual queen or adequate ruler of the underworld. Hell, Hades isn’t even cutting it either with his terrible communication and behavioral issues that he keeps projecting onto people he believes is less than. But the problem I have with Persephone is that there’s no record in the comic of Persephone actually trying to improve her understanding of the underworld or trying to come up with any solutions to its problems either. Like she literally just came back from the damn mortal realm after being there for 10 years and even before she got banned she’s never even had any motivation to learn about the underworld. The only motivation she’s ever had was flirting with Hades, she never asked about the realm, how things worked, what the citizens’ concerns, what additions they need to add, nothing. It’s always been about Hades and she’s only had one panel where she was actually interested in taking the realm but of course it was cut off because you can’t have romance and the female lead to have actual aspirations not revolving around flirting and being with the male lead.

This whole situation is irking to me, so many people time and time again always excuse Hades’ shitty behavior and instead try and punish the other characters for doing either the exact same thing or nothing at all. I’m so tired of this bullshit, Thanatos does not deserve to be so disrespected and unappreciated that he gets so jealous at the sight of Hades treating Persephone like a normal person to the point of actively trying to ruin her life. That speaks volumes on how badly Hades always treats him, he got desperate at the opportunity to actually be respected and noticed by his father figure Hades. The fact that this motherfucker brought Thanatos into his damn office just to talk about Persephone who was around the time still A FUCKING EMPLOYEE being queen is just so creepy to me. Like Persephone was still there to work and yet she’s effortlessly rewarded straight to the crown even though this bitch doesn’t do shit. Show me any scene or panel that Persephone actually deserves the crown because genuinely there is none, it’s creepy and weird how obsessive Hades is and how he wants Persephone so badly that he continues to call her his wife and address her like she’s basically his even though she’s already said that she wants to take things slowly. The man obviously just wants a wife he does not care about Persephone’s feeling or anything, he believes that her kindness is an invitation for him to court her and it’s really weird that no one’s thoughts of that.

Anyways that’s the end of the rant on both Persephone and Hades because they genuinely get on my nerves. Persephone is just as much to blame for Hades’ behavior too, I know there’s a few time she’s tried to correct his behavior but it seems like she really brushes it off unless it affects her in some way. Like she never sticks up for anyone else that Hades berates and insults or even try and get him to change. She just allows him to be absolutely unbearable without checking it so yeah it is partially her fault as well because as his only development the more time he spends with her the less of an asshole but instead it seems like Hades is now acting aggressively to “defend” Persephone which is really making things worse. But like I always say this is just a meaningless rant and whether or not you agree or disagree is fine with me, none of these rants hold a lot of weight since I come up with them on the spot so don’t take any of these as fact or importance, also don’t use this as fuel to go after any Hades or Lore Olympus stans, people are allowed to enjoy their characters.

#lo critical #anti lore olympus #anti lo #lo hades #lo persephone

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gamebird · 2 months

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About a month ago, I read 'Rich Dad, Poor Dad' based on a recommendation from a friend. It had some good points and bad ones.

Good points:

It is super important for me to have discussions with my kids about how to handle money, what their options are with the money I've given them, and what that means for standard of living, activities, etc.

It is very important in people's lives to have someone advising them about money, instead of just leaving them to fend for themselves and figure it out on their own.

If you already have money (like tens or hundreds of thousands of unencumbered cash), then there are a lot of relatively low risk, low labor means to put that money to work for you and generate income. It's a lot less tedious than, say, working for a living. But you have to have the money FIRST.

The various principles laid out in the book caused me to move my money around. Now instead of retiring in 4 years and leaving nothing to my kids in inheritance unless I died early, because I'd need everything to fund my retirement, I'm going to retire end of next year and leave millions, assuming I live that long. And if I don't, then there will still be a nest egg. Same standard of living for me either way.

Bad points:

Gotdamn does this guy undersell how hard it is to get your hands on enough money to start with to do this. It takes generations and he doesn't acknowledge that.

He also undersells the value and rarity of someone giving you good advice at every turn, feeding you opportunities, and picking you up when you fall ... and never victimizing or abusing you in the process.

He makes almost no mention of the severe adversities many people find in their lives, like chronic health problems, useless or abusive partners, addiction, expensive hobbies, terrible families, bad luck, accidents, legal problems, and the like. Some of these you have a little control over; a lot of them you don't; and even with barely controllable things like partners and family you don't know its bad until its already bad and its not exactly too late at that point, but it really sucks.

So anyway, I tried to get my kids to listen to the audiobook. No dice. I found it on YouTube for free. No doing. I bought the guy's Cashflow board game. Huzzah! They played it a couple times. This let us talk about things. (I mean, I'd already tried talking to them, but trying to discuss the relative merits of savings account vs t-bills vs etfs was not making much progress.)

We talked about:

What's a mortgage and why can't I just be homeless and not pay that

Why are my expenses so high

Why are children expensive

Why do I have to pay for a loan (I was surprised and shocked they only barely understood interest rates. My inability to communicate effectively about investments made sense now. I have failed as a parent. But I'm trying to fix it.) also: why is a credit score important

What the fuck why does this boat cost so damn much?!? (the boat is the most expensive piece of shit doodad you can get saddled with in the game; I talked to them about the dangers of expensive hobbies)

OH MY FUCKING GOD I ONLY MISSED ONE PAYCHECK AND I AM RUINED (because ... yeah. that's real)

What does 'yield' mean

What's a trading range

And a bunch of other things. I also talked to them about the things the game does not include, those things I mentioned earlier like accidents, addictions, lawsuits, and health problems, or the same happening to anyone you financially support or feel beholden to, like a partner or child or possibly parent. I talked to them about the mentality of 'my savings always gets wasted on emergencies so why bother having any', which is valid and real, as well as a rational reaction to a maddingly irrational situation.

An interesting thing about the game - there's no rule for or against giving money to each other. And it makes a huge difference in propelling someone from the rat race stage of the game where you're working for a living and into the cashflow part of the game where your money is working for you instead. In the two games we played, I ended up ahead early each time (half of this I credit to good decisions while my kids were making dumb ones, even after I told them they were dumb choices; half was probably luck). But each time once I had my position secured, I started giving wads of cash to them and it was remarkable how much that improved their situation.

Kind of like real life.

I also read Bullshit Jobs a couple weeks ago and it ends with a lovely piece about the social value of universal basic income. Which, yeah. We need to do that.

#mundane #all politics are fundamentally economic

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shyspider · 1 year

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I appreciate it, but I like reading your writing. I just need to work up to read *spicy* chapters. Which, because I haven't read in a while and haven't been 100% myself, I can't currently do, unfortunately 😔

Plus, my memory is shot enough that I am gonna end up rereading both books so I can tell clearly what's going on, lol. I do love authors like you who make the *spice* optional, and I do tend to take that option quite often, but I will readily admit its typically with far more /human/ characters that I do so with. History and all that, lol.

It's just been a really funky time, and a more physically taxing job is making my poor immune system laugh maniacally. With how companies tend to ask that you essentially work yourself to death, I have been making poor decisions. As in, continuing to go in to work, despite the fact that I am immediately going to bed sick every time I get home. I got sent home today because being too dizzy to stand properly still, whilst simultaneously having absolutely zero thermoregulation, is not good when working in a warehouse. Sorry for dumping in your inbox, same as when I am too excited, I am currently lacking social awareness of if this is appropriate or not.

Having said that, sorry again for just dumping all this on you, I am so far out kf it that I really don't even know if I am properly awake or not.

~Smooch

Social awareness be damned. I may overstep here, but I'll regret it more if I don't share with you something personal about me. What you said is a little triggering, because I nearly worked myself to death for a company that didn't care about my health. It sounds like you're burning out, if not already burnt out. Not trying to diagnose anything, but what you're saying sounds very familiar.

I'm going to ramble under the cut. Let's dump on each other, together.

It sounds crazy, but most of what you've said sounds like what I went through with my last job. It burned me out to where I was a completely different person. I lost interest in the things that made me happy and I stopped caring about my health. I had chronic ocular migraines, constant stomach pains, and I hated myself. I was not in a good mental space. I was burnt out.

No one gave me the help I needed or told me what to look for, or what was available to me. No one told me about FMLA, or medical leave, or mental health leave. No one told me about health programs to help my autoimmune disorder, or what a toxic work environment was. I didn't know buzzwords like 'harassment' and a 'hostile workplace'. I'd call off, but no one would cover my work, give me shit for being sick all the time, and I never wanted to kick up a fuss because I didn't think I could. I'd sob in my car, both heading to work and leaving. There were so many things I should've done. I had to quit, because it was either my life or my job. I was lucky I had some people to financially help me in between.

This may not be the same for you, but what does sound similar is that you're not thinking of yourself, first. I've made poor decisions and all those choices led up to letting myself get bad. It took 4 years to undo all that. I can go months without a migraine, now. I'm finally in remission. I see a therapist. I actually love myself and feel better and doing the things that interest me. (There are always problems here and there, but nothing like before)

Try your best to make the changes to protect future you. I don't know what kind of company you work for, but learn your options. Protect yourself. If you're able to see a doctor for a chronic condition, get FMLA to protect yourself and your paycheck. See if you are able to take a mental health leave, if you need it. See what EPA programs are available to you. Human Resources (which most companies have) is required to give you this information, but you have to request it. You said you work in a warehouse? Know your rights. My bet, OSHA will have your back.

Take care of yourself now so you don't have to spend years putting yourself back together, later. There is literally only one of you in this world, and you are precious and unique and loved. You don't need to respond. Get some rest. Listen to some music. Think about things.

#Smooch anon #Sorry this got long and personal #I probably sound like an old cursed witch “don't follow the dark path I once walked or you'll end up like meeee”#mental health has become very important to me over the years #and my old job was responsible for a lot of when I went through #Work mentality can be a dangerous thing and its easy to put your job before your needs #This goes to everyone: It is not selfish to take care of yourself

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heisen-shrine · 1 year

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Money trouble

I hung up the phone, still panicking both inside and out. It had been rejected, and not a single person from either the tax company or IRS had contacted me. I had panicked, apparently something was wrong on my taxes and I couldn't figure it out. I knew what it was but not necessarily where the problem was coming from.

My hours had been axed again as well. We didn't have enough business, so we couldn't afford to give people hours. I threw my phone down in a fit, catching the attention of Os, who had come in to see what was going on.

"Sweetie, whats happenin'?" He asked.

"It happened again....twice. and I only have a few days to get this done. And no one sent me any notice. Nothing. No one. I need this money and they don't get it!" I replied, sitting in my bed, covering my face, "I can't do this. I just wanna disappear and never come back".

He sat down in front of me, putting a hand on my knee. "Ash, how much you need?".

"Os-"

"Seriously I'll cover it".

"Honey, I love you but you can't make this go away. I could potentially get in serious trouble for this if it happens enough times".

"Look, we got time. We'll go to the tax folks tomorrow and they'll set ya right. Alright? We're gonna get to the bottom o' this. I promise".

"It's not just the taxes. Its...everything. my hours at work got wrecked...again. my next paycheck is gonna look terrible".

"Maybe try findin' somethin' else doll. You're a girl o' many talents. Hell maybe the paper will hire ya".

"Journalism isn't my thing. I'd be terrible at it. Plus nothing happens in this damn town..." I rolled my eyes, "I just don't want...HER to be right".

It didn't take long for it to click. "Your stepmama? Fuck her-"

"I hear her Os. All the time. In my head. 'You don't work enough. You don't do enough. You don't make enough. You haven't done anything with your life at thirty, while your little sister already has a career and two crotch goblins'. Like seriously...just fuck off" I sniffed angrily, "she's right. Nothing I ever do is enough. It's not enough for me to just be happy, right?".

"Babe...first off, she's wrong. And seriously, fuck her. Second, I wish I could say happiness was the end all, be all, but...it ain't. And if I could change that for ya I would, and ya know I would".

"I know...I just...don't know what to do. I don't wanna be one of those people that get up and they hate going to work. I love my job. A lot. I have fun and I'm happy...but it doesn't work me enough. And until I can find somewhere to sell my jewelry where I won't get bitched at, I'm sitting on nearly fifty dollars or more of merchandise. I'm getting pissed on, Os. I'm getting pissed on without the courtesy of even calling it rain".

"Could always go back to fast food, doll-"

"And be miserable? Again I don't wanna be one of those assholes that hates their job".

"It wasn't a happy job, but it was stable. And I'm thinkin' right now that's what ya need. Ya need stability. And I get it, ya love what ya do but...darling...it's not workin' for you. Ash I hate seein' ya so stressed over this. Ya don't get paid enough for this shit".

I sighed and hugged my knees. "I don't wanna go back to that os, it's gonna fucking destroy me. I was stuck in that shit for nearly ten years".

"And it wasn't all bad, was it?".

"It wasn't completely awful but...I can't stand how people look down on me there. At least doing what I do now I'm a little more respected".

"But you handled it...hm...only thing I can think of is to write on the side. You know...write one shots for folks or somethin'?"

"Maybe...I just...don't know what to do at this point, Os. I really really don't".

Authors note: yeah, I'm having serious financial troubles and problems have arisen with my taxes. My work has seriously cut my hours and I feel hopeless. This was a part vent, part one shot. I don't know why, but I thought Oswald was appropriate for this. I seriously feel lost guys and I have no idea what to do with myself...

#villain f/o #f/o life #self shipping #self shipping shenanigans #self shipping one shot #oswald cobblepot #financial trouble #emotional trouble #life trouble #partly a vent #the batman

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queenofwandstarot · 1 year

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Tarot Reading Meghan Markle

Question: What is happening with her marriage to Harry? Will she attend the Coronation?

Answer: The marriage is over, and She won't be attending the Coronation. Karma is knocking on Meghan's door.

Reading February 20, 2023.

7 Pentacles (R) 5 Cups (R) 6 Swords 5 Swords (R) Wheel of Fortune (R) 6 Pentacles 10 Cups (R) Fool Hierophant + Ace Cups (R)

7 PENTACLES (R) Taurus (May 11 to May 20) Meghan is reaping what she has sown. Her consistent work is without results, and she is making bad business and financial decisions, resulting in cash flow problems and financial setbacks.

Her marriage is strained and She is considering if all the effort is worth it, while thinking about bailing because things have gotten so tough.

Unfortunately, Meghan continually repeats the same mistakes in relationships, by not learning from past failures, and running from one relationship to another. She is afraid to be on her own and lacks the ability to commit to just one person. Meghan is always looking for quantity and not quality.

5 CUPS (R) Scorpio (October 23 to November 1) Meghan is full of hatred and negativity. Meghan has a reluctance to heal, as Her hurt and pain is carefully nurtured. Apportioning blame on others is paramount, while taking no personal responsibility for her involvement. She wears her trauma like a badge of honor and thinks or talks of nothing else.

The ship has sailed where family re-unions are concerned, and no amount of wishful thinking on Meghan's part will change this. Her exile from the family, or being shunned by friends due to her words and deeds, will see her continue to play the victim, not realizing that negativity attracts more negativity. Most of those who have been involved in her drama have moved on, and do not want the past dredged up again. Meghan is the Mother of Sorrows, and a deep depression is manifesting.

Meghan has concerns regarding inheritances because there may be little left to inherit, or others who lay claim to it. After the death of a loved one, surprises or family scandals will come to light.

Its time for Meghan to forgive and let go - at this stage, nobody but her gives a damn anymore - she needs to stop wasting time and energy on things that aren't working for her.

6 SWORDS Aquarius (January 30 to February 8) Meghan has put a lot of effort into making her marriage work all to no avail. She is feeling deflated, and will run away from responsibilities, possibly by leaving without notice, as she has done in past relationships.

Psychological issues need to be dealt with and can't be ignored. Meghan needs to stop carrying past hurt and negative attitudes into future relationships.

5 SWORDS (R) Aquarius (January 20 to January 29) Meghan has decided that Harry is not the right one, and is leaving him. Paranoia and suspicion sees Meghan triggering rows and causing discord wherever she goes - this is caused by psychological conditions which need to be constantly monitored and medicated.

Her marriage is very abusive. One partner may be a dangerous bully who uses psychological or physical abuse to control and get their way. It is an extremely dominant/submissive arrangement. However, those close enough to the couple will have seen the obvious signs, and sensed the tension and control in the air. If either partner has been unfaithful, or underhanded in the marriage, they will be publicly exposed.

A ceasefire will be called to allow for communications and solutions to become a reality, but only where those involved in hostilities are prepared to listen to the views of others. It has taken a lot of effort to bring things to this stage of negotiation, and it would be wise for Meghan to take this brief window of opportunity to sort the situation out as peacefully as possible before it goes beyond the point of no return. She will have to make some personal sacrifices in order to retain her integrity, and allow her to put this sorry mess behind her and move on.

Complete reconciliation will be very difficult and nobody will win, even if one party does seem to get more than their fair share, or feel they have emerged as the Victor.

In the workplace, Senior Management are aware of the conflict and hostility. Warnings have already occurred, and there will be future multiple cold and callous job losses with little notice.

If resolution and peace talks have not taken place or have failed, then all out war will be declared with Meghan being too entrenched in the situation to escape. Hostilities will be fought to the bitter end, and Meghan will pay a very high price, because pride would not let her walk away, and she did not listen to the advice of others who told her to get out when she could.

There is no escaping the damage that has been done. The fallout comes home to roost and Meghan may be shocked into realizing that she is directly responsible for the disaster and misery that surrounds her due to the consequences of her actions.

WHEEL OF FORTUNE 10 (R) Sagittarius (November 21-December 20) Meghan faces negative and unwelcome change. It will be a challenging time, and may be difficult for her to adjust to. She thought things were going well, but they have suddenly and unexpectedly fallen apart. Meghan has no control - what goes up, must come down, and Karma is knocking on her door.

Things are not going as planned because of the decisions and choices Meghan has made. She is trapped in her own shortcomings, and will use resentment and guilt to justify her situation.

6 PENTACLES Taurus (May 1 to May 10) Finances are tight, and both Meghan and Harry are relying on help from a generous friend, benefactor, investor or employer to make ends meet.

Meghan thought she married into money, but instead of changing her life for the better, it has made her feel miserable and inferior. She also finds it difficult to fit into her new social circle.

10 CUPS (R) Pisces (March 11 to March 20) The honeymoon is over, and Meghan's dream has turned into a nightmare. Meghan and Harry appeared to have it all, but its not the life she wanted. The marriage is falling apart at the seams and Her unrealistic expectations of Harry is the stuff made of fairytales.

Meghan is always chasing dreams and, even after she receives everything she ever wished for, nothing will ever be enough. She will be offered something of great worth, but will turn it down in the hope of something bigger and better. She needs to be careful, as refusing this offer will see her get nothing.

Meghan and Harry have secrets they want nobody to discover. They pretend nothing is wrong to keep up appearances, but are barely holding it together. Hostilities are fueled by resentment, anger and jealousy. It is a broken home with a dysfunctional family situation.

Family Events or re-unions may be cancelled or postponed. Old family arguments and bickering may surface causing disturbances and uneasy feelings. Meghan has been turned out of the family due to scandals and arguments. There may also be the loss of a family home which is sold or repossessed. Meghan feels alienated and alone. Her children may have never met their relatives or grandparents.

THE FOOL 0 Aquarius (January 21-February 20) Meghan is childish. She has difficulty in committing and not knowing what She has until its too late. She will lose interest in things after the initial excitement has worn off, because she is impulsive, and at times irresponsible.

Meghan can betray her partner and start a whole new life with someone else as soon as their back is turned. Meghan does not have Her own personality, doesn't know what she wants, and is influenced by those around her. She knows how to say all the right things, but rarely does the right thing. She often believes She deserves more or better than what She has, and will run from one relationship to another, rarely being single. Meghan has an over-active imagination and day dreams of flights of fancy. Meghan often runs a fine line between spontaneous and clueless.

THE HIEROPHANT 5 Taurus (April 20 – May 20) The card of traditional values and Institutions (BRF). It is associated with preserving establishments and rules/codes of conduct that promotes security and tradition. The Hierophant can signify that now is a time for Meghan to conform to convention or tradition. It’s not a time to rock the boat.

ACE CUPS (R) / Clarifying card. The card of emotional loss, heartache, divorce, fertility and conception issues. Although ties bind both Meghan and Harry together, Meghan feels totally disillusioned that a once promising relationship has failed, and she was wrong about Harry being "the one". News, gossip and rumors will cause more problems in an already volatile relationship. There will be bad or upsetting news, cancelled social events and celebrations. Meghan's constant emotional over-reacting to incidents sees people around her behaving in a negative way.

#meghan markle #harry and meghan #tarot #tarot reading

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silvanoir · 2 years

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What even is my life?

My life has become insane. I though things might calm down after my mom died but the things that happened while she was sick and then after is. Man oh man. It’s the stuff of a primetime drama.

I lost hearing in my right ear for 4 weeks. I thought it was due to loud noises in work and permanent, and was weeping over it. Turns out it was a bad ear infection, cured by antibiotic pills that were half the size of my pinky finger.

My dad has no idea that he doesn’t have life insurance. Because looking though paperwork the financial advisor found out my mom cashed it in in 2003 to pay for my college. I had no idea. He still doesn’t. He’s 84 with a blod clot in his heart (and multiple other health problems), it was decided it was best he never knows.

I went from worrying that I’d live in my car last year to .... well the opposite of that.

My mom is leaving me $20,000 in life insurance. Which sweet! I can finally get energy efficient windows in the basement (the main floor has updated windows, basement has its original thin 1960s windows, one of which is cracked). With money leftover to hire the neighborhood lawn service so I don’t have to mow in the summer heat anymore, just tend to my garden (was getting hard, physically, due to the nerve damage in my right foot, to push the mower along). Among other things I want to get fixed up around the house.

But that’s not all. Searched my parents’ old house with the financial advisor. We found my dads coin collection, which dad said I could have, and the Advisor looked the values up. Some of them go for $1,000. EACH. Too bad the collection is only half the size it once was because in the 1970′s some teenage guys on drugs broke in and stole half (to buy more drugs of course). There’s also an old Lionel Train set that might go for a lot. And one of my mom’s collector dolls still had the original price tag on it.

We were also there to get rid of old weapons. There was my dad’s gun, which he was given by a farmer in Indiana, from the 1930s (the gun is from the 30s, I don’t know when my Dad was in the Midwest). And my uncle’s rifle, from the 1960s, which my uncle told me “I meant throw that into the ocean years ago” which leads us to suspect it was .... involved in something. We wore gloves and bagged them up and were going to turn them in to the no-questions-asked gun return. But then the financial advisor, with his gloves off, had to check if the rifle was still loaded. Fingerprints, dude! Which then lead me, with my gloves still on, to take the guns and a shovel and bury them in a swamp an an undisclosed location. I am keeping my dads old hunting knife, though. Always wanted a hunting knife. I don’t hunt, just like pointy things (I also want a sword!)

But back to the money.

When the financial advisor sat me down and added up everything. What the collectables will sell for. What’s in my checking and savings (not including the house value, which I’m still paying the mortgage on). What’s in my parents checking and all their stocks and investments. It all comes to....

[above: “One Million Dollars” Dr. Evil gif]

Once my dad dies, and everything goes all to me I’ll be a millionaire. I still haven’t mentally processed it. I’ve always lived like I’m lower middle class, shopping at bargain and thrift stores and buying things on sale. Now I can afford stuff? But I still go to bargain stores out of habit? I ranted against “Those damn rich people” but now I am a damn rich person ???? (or will be in a some years). But its not yet, NOT YET! I still have to get up at 2 am to be in work by 3am at a shipping warehouse and pretend like everything is... well not the way it is? Not the way it will be?

It also feels like a Last Unicorn situation. Molly. “Why do you come to me now, when I’m like this?” Not when I was younger and had my health and ambition .... instead I’m so mentally and physically broken down. My doctors say with my health problems that I’LL BE DEAD BY MY LATE 60S. I just turned 40 this year. But I don’t have to worry about money in the future I guess ??? I’ll be able to enjoy the next 20-something years before I croak?

Also, I know there’s mutuals who are reading this who are struggling who’d probably like me to give them something, but I can’t right now. Still going through paperwork and again, I haven’t inherited or received money from anything yet! Much of it is years and years ahead. I still only have my car and bank account solely in my name, dad’s still alive. And still dealing with so much in life beside that. Someday, I’ll help you out.

Right now my brain is spinning around like it was put in the dryer.

#real life #long post

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monthyear-majo · 1 month

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1. Overwhelmed

Right now I am at a point in my life where I feel pressured to be better.

Do you ever see posts about people you used to know and notice how they are doing so well in life? Well, do you really know what's going on in their life? Probably not. But they do a great job at making you feel jealous because they have their life together better than you do. I am only 25, yet still I feel like I have no time. Is that normal? To feel like you have no time? I think it is. I mean, it can't possibly be just me. Life is just so fast and I feel like I've not done anything at all but when I see those kinds of posts from people I used to know it makes me feel like I am left behind.

I work at a cafe. I make drinks all day and come home smelling like tea. I love tea but I don't like being here for ten hours a day. I'm a full time student right now too. I'm majoring in something I thought would at least make me happy but as I grow older and realize how long it's taking me to graduate with a bachelor's degree, I ask myself if I want to be in school anyway. I'm so close yet so far. There is always something wrong with my transcript, always gotta make appointments to talk to my advisor and the problem is never truly resolved. So my graduation date gets pushed behind. I am 25 and only have an associates in which I can probably use but I'm too afraid of change to do anything about it. While my job is demanding and pays shit— I don't really want to leave.

I was clinically diagnosed with depression. a year ago but if you ask me I've had depression for years. I never told my family because having depression in a hispanic household is real taboo. Sometimes I'd bring it up to my parents and they would say it's all in my head. Duh— its a mental disorder? Anyway, they bypassed it all of the time.

Now I struggle to keep myself from wallowing in self-pity but it's kind of hard when you sometimes hate yourself. Your mind, body, and soul. Those things are important and if you hate one of them or most of them, are you even human? Can I call myself a human if I despise the three traits that are meant to make me human? Well, I have a beating heart and a functioning brain I guess.

The financial tension is also kind of insane right now. We have a shitty president who is running up again for elections this term and his runner up? An even shittier candidate who hates anyone who isn't white. Our country is in flames and we keep adding to the fire. Especially our government who make decisions based on ignorance and racism. Now? Now it's hard to afford a gallon of milk because you make 14 dollars an hour, ten hours a day for five days but you still have to pay your twenty-three hundred dollar rent by next month and your $500+ utility bills and you decide you don't really need that gallon of milk. But wait— your tuition payment is due next week and thank god you get paid on Friday! Only your boss pays you three days late causing you to overdraft on your account because planet fitness took out that damn monthly payment that you owe them for using their gym. Do you even go? The answer is no, you don't. So why do you give them 22 dollars every month? Because you don't want to go all the way up there to cancel. Stupid. You've got all of these payments to make, can't afford to help your parents with the rent (because thats the kicker! They're the ones paying the 2300 but you can't even help them with half because you don't make enough unless you quit school and work seven days a week) and all you're left with is .23 cents in your bank account. Not to mention you're 17k in debt with credit cards and loans, some of that debt shouldn't even be yours but you offer your credit to your parents because you love them and want to help them out some kind of way.

Point is, you have no money and no way of getting out of this unstable financial situation without endangering your education and social life. You work to pay bills. You live to not die but die slowly while living. How is that fair?

And then you get depressed but haven't you seen the homeless people who have no food of shelter? Don't you see that the Palestinian's are getting killed? For what? For what? What did they do? Why is America, why is Israel, why—

Because it's all about money. it's all about political power and guess what? You can't do anything about it. Maybe you can boycott, but you can barely feed yourself and you live in a country where everything is about status and power. And they are dying. And suddenly you feel like you don't have a right to be upset or depressed. You are safe, here in a worthless money-driven country and they are there, dying of starvation.

But I am overwhelmed. I work and I study and I still get nowhere. My grades are C-average and despite what everyone says about C's get degrees, you're not achieving anything.

I am typing this at work. it's slow today. I still don't want to do anything and I'm feeling a sort of anger. At myself? Probably. I am tired and I somehow just want to go home and watch my favorite pirate show.

#life #journal #entry 1

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enchantechante · 10 months

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If this is a stupid question,please Tae,I BEG!let me know.What is it about people specifically men who continuously keep trying to get women in either real estate or investing WHEN THE MAN SAYS SO?

I've seen people throw away friendships and relationships because one person decided not to get involved with RE /invest when they were told to by the other person.It is ridiculous.Why rush someone to do something that's such a big deal such as those two things? They're life changing decisions especially if you're not financially stable,taking care of family members etc.

My brother stopped talking to his ex girlfriend last year because of her not being ready to invest in real estate or start her own business.She is a Phlebotomist/EKG Tech and works at a hospital.Her mom has cancer and she takes care of her 100%. He wanted her to actually quit her job and take her money to put with his to invest.She helped my brother get on his feet when he was broke and a felon.My brother always had a I'm better than you personality especially when it comes to having more money than others or things that are expensive.I still can't believe he did that to her though.She was a sweetheart.He even said she was too big.He said if she lost 20 lbs she could be a model and guess what Tae? She lost the weight and actually does act now.Life is crazy.I think she getting married too.I saw her on Facebook and Instagram.I haven't spoke to her but I'm so happy for her.For real for real she really do deserve nothing but the best in life.My brother put her through a lot.

Me, reading this and feeling yall damn pain:

This question isnt stupid at all. Bottom line: Men and Women often get in relationships entirely too soon.

Thats why I posted that list of dating books is because ppl feel like the strength of their emotions = the length of their relationship.

If you hear nothing else I say hear this, "Demonstrated pattern of behavior is the best predicator of the future."

Most people in general just believe whatever a person says when they like them enough.

They dont watch to see if their behavior is consistent and watch how their behavior is impacting the other person as well. And how that's affecting their plans moving forward.

All these things build up into a larger problem that eventually both people can't side-step any longer.

These thing grow.

You dont just suddenly find out that your partner doesn't fully trust your plans. You dont suddenly find out they're an impatient person.

Typically its something that was always there realistically but emotionally it felt better to ignore the growing problems and continue to enjoy the good parts of the relationship.

Instead of readying themselves for how the futures being impacted and follow through on that plan.

#anon #relationships #advice #financial manipulation #christian dating

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misskittysgotclawz · 1 year

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