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if i think bout ichi going to jiro kasuga's grave and arakawa accompanying him Maybe At Least Once i just might explode
#snap chats#hi everyone. coping with my reality. plus it is fathers day tomorrow#ill save all THAT rambling after The Real Meat alright lemme get that juice out the way#anyway no i was just having an idle thought with fathers day coming up#an i just thought of like. Just-Got-Here ichi wantin to see his Relatively-Recently-Deceased's dad's grave#maybe arakawa wanted to ask ichi to do somethin on X day and ichi visibly is just 😬#obvi he tries to brush it off like Oh Its Nothing Sir Haha :) but arakawa's A Dad.#and grew up with a troubled childhood alright he knows when someones hiding something so he encourages ichi to tell him the truth#such comes The Bean Spillin an ichi's just 'remember how i said my dad died yeah i wanted to visit him that day 👉👈 '#followed up by the obligatory backpedaling But Its Fine I Can Do Another Day ! No Worries ! etc etc#so pleaaasse cut to arakawa making a 'deal' with ichi in that he can go that day but only if he could tag along#ichi's a great kid it's worth visiting the guy who raised him right#im gonna throw up if arakawa just gets a Funny Feeling during their visit yk what i mean#he just feels Especially grateful for jiro and what he did for ichi- doesnt exactly know why maybe ichi really is just that good of a kiddo#im gona make myself throw UP oh my GOD. crying dying etc etc#if you see me write or draw anything after this no you dont#speaking of though Personal Ramble Time i knew i shouldnt have eaten until later this is my karma <- thats not how karma works#i try not to eat in the evening and the time i do unprompted BOOM mother's home. screaming crying yelling#i still had things i wanted to do upstairs too gdi now i gotta wait til monday or like. 2AM ☠️☠️☠️#ok thats all byyyyye im gonna cope with my cringe family situation with projection 👋
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Going to check a scene from the hobbit films is like oh this an incredibly homosexual scene. what were they thinking that has to have been on purpose right. and why is it actually making me feel things. man these films could have been at least decent... I can admit the casting was solid, and the few good scenes like this show that there was some bit of heart put into them... And then it immediately cuts to the most absurd and simply made up shit and I think ah. Never fucking mind.
#thorin is dying and mr richard is putting his ENTIRE pussy into it and in fairness freeman or whoever else is also doing the sobbing#and i go alright. ok. they didn't fuck up too bad. ty mr richard for taking the gay angle nobody asked u to but by god u delivered#AND THEN. smash cut to lady elf (who they only included for a kili love interest. ok)#and legolas is also there and is?? leaving?? (he was also in some kinda love triangle. ok)#and his dad??? tells him to find aragorn???? and they play the fellowship motif????#as if we all don't know the boy was like. 10 at this point. ok#and then they start mentioning legolas' mother. (???????OK)#what the fuck was going on here i just want to talk#toadtalks#it is 2am im sorry i dont like these damn films#the hobbit#the hobbit movies#th#hobbit trilogy#👍👍as much for blacklisting than wanting ppl to see lmao#im so mean abt them rn im sorry!! i know people like them!! godspeed!! i just need to bitch
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exciting news, the convenience store had MOCHI today!! haven't had it in YEARS this is going to be my reward for finishing the gardening tonight
#or i might not do the gardening and eat it anyway#only got 5 hours of sleep last night im DYING#though it's my fault bc i stayed up until 2am scrolling instagram#anyway aaaahhhh i suffer. at least i did my Silly Little Walk at lunch
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something something how to leave quiet notes telling your friends that youre not quite okay but you're fine and dealing with it. wait a minute this isnt google. anyway
#delete later#SORRY for emotions on main#im just really fucked up ykno2#its me! the guy who never wins! riddled with guilt always!#sure it wasnt my fault but i was selfish in the beginning. someone needs to admit that.#'you were ensuring stability for your family' yeah. but it was a family i was never there for.#somewhere along the line it starts to be my fault and a lot of people died#and a lot of people have watched me die over and over and over again.#so yknow.#it's the kind of guilt that never leaves#because no one will ever forget#and somewhere deep within yourself you wonder if they resent you for dying so much and making them hurt so badly#having to bury someone you called a friend a brother a lover a father over and over and over#having to kill him with your own two hands only to see his horrible little smirking face alive and well two weeks to a month later#i suppose its only fair that im the one who gets haunted now huh#im. sorry for all this i really am#our ribs hurt and having a physical body sucks and its 2am and god i just want to feel like a functioning and responsible person for once#i dont know.#im sorry. i really truly am.#and I'm going to sleep now#vent
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can’t get enough
author’s note: this fic is part of the 200 followers event, go check it out!:)
synopsis: you might think you are too clingy, but jeonghan can’t get enough of you.
word count: 0.7k | genre: fluff, bit of comfort | pairing: jeonghan x gn! reader | warnings: none
“hello angel. what’s up?” jeonghan’s voice echoed in the phone, shushing the boys in the background while waiting for your answer. “hello, are you here?” he questioned again, not hearing your voice, only silence. “actually, nevermind. have fun!” you whispered into the device, hoping to mask the sadness hidden in your words. “i know something is wrong. please tell me?” he stated in a serious tone, knowing how you were not telling him something you wanted to. “i miss you.” you admitted. he could hear the sleep in your voice, waiting for him to come home; they were on their monthly outing with the boys, the time already pressing 2am. “i know angel, i miss you too.” he answered with a sad tone. “but don’t get me wrong i love how you spend time with the boys baby. you should.” you quickly added, scared that he might think you were chaining him to yourself. “don’t lie. you hate it. you love it more when you are here too, don’t you, angel?” he giggled, knowing how much you adored his best friends. “i will come home soon, we are just finishing up.” you smiled softly at his reply, he always listened to your worries so well, dealing with you being clingy on a daily basis. you felt kind of bad about your constant nagging, but you couldn’t help it; you missed him the moment he stepped out of the apartment. “i’m gonna go guys!” he shouted to whom you believed were the other members as you could hear the creaking of his chair. “see you soon angel.” he hung with that, leaving you in silence again.
“i’m home!” jeonghan shouted into the distance, hoping you didn’t fall asleep and he didn’t wake you up if you did. he walked to the kitchen, seeing you baking something; it was common for you to bake when bored or stressed, he knew you were anxious about him getting home safely at this hour in the night. “hmmm, what are you baking this time, pretty?” he questioned while letting out a soft hum of approval upon smelling the sweet aroma in the air. “take a guess. it is one of your favourites.” you said while turning around to smear some of the frosting on his nose. “hey! i rush home to you and you put frosting on me?” he raised a brow, but you could see the grin hiding in the corner of his mouth. however your smile disappeared; the feeling of guilt not dying down even after making his favourite cookies. “im sorry i pushed you to come home sooner. i shouldn’t have.” you whispered with a frown. he quickly took on a serious and worried expression. “no no angel i would’ve left them not long after anyways. please don’t apologise. i get it, you worry about me.” he replied while tasting the cream on his nose. “by the way this is delicious as always.” he chuckled, seeing how your face lit up at his compliment. “are you sure you didn’t mind? i don’t want to be pushy or anything, i just love you too much, hannie.” he pulled you into his embrace, slotting your lips into a slow kiss. “of course i didn’t baby. i missed you too actually, these are so much more fun when you are there.” he said while hugging you tightly. you still looked puzzled so he asked you; “what is going on in your pretty little head?” you sighed. “i don’t know, i feel like i’m too much, like too clingy, you know? am i? answer honestly yoon jeonghan!” you threatened with the spoon in your hand, to which a giggle bubbled in his throat. “you are not. baby you are too little even. i cannot get enough of you, if i could i would carry you around in a backpack all the time like a little kitten.” he grinned, kissing your now red cheeks. “okay then, i believe you.” you smiled “but hey, i’m not a pet though!” he picked you up and spun you around in the kitchen, putting you on the countertop, looking right into your eyes, his own sparkling maybe from the wine he had earlier, maybe from being so in love with you. “of course you are not a pet. you are my angel, my princess my everything.”
#wonijinjin#caratsland#seventeen imagines#seventeen#seventeen scenarios#svt imagines#seventeen fluff#fluff#jeonghan x y/n#jeonghan x you#svt jeonghan#jeonghan x reader#yoon jeonghan#hannie#jeonghan#seventeen jeonghan
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Connected ch1
pairing: chan x reader
genre: fluff, hurt/comfort
word count: ~1.3k
synopsis: upset reader comments on chans room, chan sees it and privately reaches out to reader to comfort them.
warnings: crying, brief mention of dying (like as a joke), christopher using his rizz, i think that’s all?
an: this is a repost from my recently deceased blog hyunjins-orange-slice. may she rest in peace. this was originally a request from a moot but now has turned into a full series!
masterlist * next chapter
your phone dinged with a notification. wiping the tears from your cheeks, you pick up the device.
youtube: Stray Kids is Live- 찬이의 “방” 🐺 ep.209
you clicked on the link. the screen shows the studio, chans empty chair, the chat moving so quickly you struggle to read it, and FAM plays softly in the background.
you prop your phone up on the pillow next to you, curling your body on its side, sniffling still but finding comfort in the livestream.
as the song comes to an end, chan takes his seat. “안녕하세요“ he sing songs, smiling. and you smile too.
the live goes on for a little over an hour, and by the end of it you’re feeling a bit better. but you have a sneaking suspicion that once the video ends, so will your happiness. even the thought of that steals away some of your joy.
“stayyy im going to go.” he says. “감사합니다“
he waits a moment as more comments roll in. he reads through them.
‘no don’t go!’ ‘bye channie! remember to rest and eat well!’. ‘사랑해요~~’ ‘big hug??’
you read through the chat the best you could, and you normally don’t comment. but today you weren’t having the best day and his live really helped you, if only for a moment. so you click on the chat bar and begin typing.
“chan, im having a pretty rough day today, but your big hugs always help! thank you for this livestream ❤️”
you hesitated for a moment. reading your comment over and over, wondering if it sounded too cheesy. you decided that it totally sounded too cheesy, but the live was ending and what are the odds of him seeing it anyway? so you press send.
he’s still looking down at his phone, reading the comments.
“you’re having a rough day?” he reads aloud, looking up into the camera. your stomach dropped, and the eye contact was making you blush. “i’m sorry you’re having a bad day.” he pouted. “i’m glad i could help a little.” he smiles and then stands. “for everyone who’s having a bad day, or for anyone who may want one, let’s do a hug” he spreads his arms out wide, “biiiig hugggg” he says, leaning toward the screen.
you knew the smile on your face was goofy as hell, but you didn’t care. you couldn’t help it. he sat back down and said his outro, thanking the stays and doing his signature pose, and then the screen went black.
the smile stayed on your face for longer than you expected. but then the day came crashing back to you, the same thoughts, the same fears plaguing your brain. you let out a sad sigh. you could feel the tears coming on again, so you grabbed your switch, deciding you would try to occupy your brain with video games so you wouldn’t be thinking about your life (mood).
you played for hours, your thumbs moving furiously over the joysticks, until eventually you fell into a fitful sleep. you awoke in the middle of the night from yet another nightmare, your heart beating out of your chest, your face and pillow wet with your tears. you reach for your phone in the darkness to check the time. 2am. but that’s not the only thing you see on your screen. you have an instagram messenger notification. you were instantly confused. no one ever messages you on instagram. you cautiously opened the app and clicked the messages in the top corner. what you saw next had your heart seizing. you had accepted your fate. this was how you died and honestly.. you were okay with it. because on your screen, staring back at you, was a message from bang chan. like thee bang chan. like christopher bahng himself. complete with blue check mark and all.
you sat bolt upright in bed, suddenly not sleepy at all but at full attention. you clicked on his message.
“hey this might be weird.. and im not even sure if you’re the right person im looking for. but this picture and username matches the one on youtube?” -9:04pm
“is that weird? it’s weird.” -9:06pm
“i’m sorry ㅋㅋ“ -9:07pm
“did you comment on a live stream of mine that you were having a bad day? if not, this is totally embarrassing and ignore this.” -9:08pm
“oh, you’re probably sleeping” -9:30pm
“sorry again.” -9:31pm
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you chuckled at his messages. they seemed very… chan. but then the realization hit you. do you message him back? of course you do. every stay dreams of this moment. so you should send him a message. right? yes. definitely reply. but what do you say?
‘oh my god’ you type and erase. ‘yeah that’s me’ erase ‘i’m such a big fan’ erase ‘sorry if i bothered you’ erase
damn this was hard. what do you even say to a famous person?
hands shaking, you settle on a response and type it out before taking a deep breath and hitting send.
“you found me! totally not weird. and yeah i commented on chans room. today wasn’t the best but you made it so much better. thank you!” -2:38am
after you sent the message, you couldn’t stop yourself from reading it over and over, analyzing everything you said. you had decided it was a weird message and you shouldn’t have sent it. you were about to freak out when he responded.
“i’m glad you were the right person! i’m relieved ㅋㅋ” -2:45am
“i just wanted to check in with you. make sure you’re okay. if that’s okay.” -2:45am
you couldn’t believe this. he’s so sweet for checking on you. your heart swelled. you quickly typed out a response to him, knowing his time is valuable and probably limited at this moment.
“that’s so nice of you. i’m doing okay. i distracted myself with video games. haha.” -2:48am
“well i did until i fell asleep and had a nightmare.” -2:48am
“you had a nightmare? i’m sorry to hear that.” -2:50am
“i wish i could go live every time you needed me.” -2:50am
he is literally the sweetest human and you thought you may cry.
“you don’t have time for that. you’re so so busy. one hour with you earlier helped me so much, truly. you’ve already done so much.” -2:53am
“not if you’re having nightmares.” -2:55am
“that’s not your fault tho, chan.” -2:56am
“chan?” -2:57am
“sounds so formal. ㅋㅋ” -2:57am
“well.. that’s your name. so… haha” -2:58am
“i think i prefer channie. ㅋㅋ” -3:00am
“or you can just call me your boyfriend.” -3:00am
you squealed and giggled, kicking your feet under your covers. he did not just say that.
“maybe i should just call you chrizztopher.” -3:02am
“ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ” -3:03am
“that works too. ㅋㅋ” -3:03am
“i’m sorry, but i have to go now. busy busy.” 3:04am
your heart fell a little, but you know how busy he is and you got more time with him than most people, so you were happy.
“that’s okay! thank you for checking on me. it was very kind. ❤️” -3:06am
“oooh hearts. i like hearts. ❤️❤️❤️” -3:07am
“good night. and if you have another nightmare, message me. i’ll have my notifications on.” -3:07am
you had the thought that the world does not deserve bang chan. and what did you do to deserve him? you felt so lucky.
“thank you channie. don’t work too hard.” -3:08am
and then he was gone. off to record some music, or write some music, or take some pictures, or do an interview, you didn’t know. but you fell back asleep with a smile on your face and for the first time in a long time, you slept through the night.
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Fun little glitch in the system means I just didn’t get paid this cycle (money was sent, bank never received it, both trying to fix it but have no idea what happened) & I've got. $750 worth of bills due in 4 days 🙃
Hoping the money comes in by tomorrow arvo but uh. If anyone is interested in a commission. Now’s the time I guess.
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OHHH MY GOD IM GONNA CRY. Almost 2am & I get a note that they fixed the problem. Oh my god I’m dying. Its fixed. Its there. I can pay my bills
Thank you all SO MUCH for being so understanding and kind you have NO IDEA how much it means to me & how much you all helped!!
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Ronance Fic Idea #2: Single Mom Nancy x Soccer Coach To Her Child Robin AU
hi welcome to another episode of its currently 1am and venny is self projecting, in today's episode we have the second part to my ronance ideas yipee!! here's the link to the first part [tw: mentions of torture and murder there] and sit back and relax since this one is more wholesome 🥰
edit: i started this at 2am and finished at 3:30am so pls beware there will be mistakes and i'll reread it tmrw when im not dying. im sorry who has to suffer through this now tho, may the lesbian goddesses be with you
set in a modern-ish time (I'm still not sure when this fic would take place in but definitely not the 80s) with no upsidedown or anything like that, and because of this nancy doesn't end up with jonathan.
nancy and steve were young and experimenting when steve accidentally gets nancy pregnant at 17. nancy's dad doesnt allow her to abort and practically disowns her while karen, the sweet angel she is, helps nancy with little max so she can learn how to take care of a child while still being able to go to school.
at some point steve and nancy breaks up mutually due to the fact they started to fall out of love and that raising max wasn't making their collapsing relationship better. but to this day, steve still stays in hawkins, working multiple jobs to send money to nancy for max's welfare and college. (ik he was an ass in s1 but idc, i want him to be a good dad)
after nancy finishes her college (let's say she doesnt go to emerson but another high level college in indiana), a year later, nancy gets a job and boston where her and max officially move to at the age of 23 for nancy and 6 for max.
HERE COMES THE SELF PROJECTING WOO!!
since nancy was practically away all the time due to her studies, she didnt really got to raise max that well and have a distant relationship with her. after they move to boston, nancy tries to fix her ralationship with max. and though max loves her and understands why she practically wasnt there for half of her life, she just doesn't know her own mother that well anymore, so she distance herself and nancy having a family who are also distant, didnt know what to do.
(i am totally not self projecting my own mother's neglection when i was younger only for her to try harder around my peak teen years and being absolutely successful bcs i love my mom so much and she's still trying her best)
ANYWAYS !! who else to save their relationship than Robin "I Will Love Someone And I Will Show It In Every Way" Buckley!!!
nancy is 31 now and is the chief editor for the popular boston bugle papers (hehe fallout 4 reference), whereas max is 14, starting her first year in highschool. they're relationship is still a bit strained but if not improving little by little until one day max comes home eagerly and tells nancy about a new friend she met in school that asked her to join the soccer team after seeing her kick the ball during her gym class (said friend was jane hopper). nancy was nothing but supportive of the idea and asked her how she could join.
apparently for freshmen newcomers, they have to go to this initiation with a parent or guardian just to get direct permission for their child but if not then a signed form is plausible. ofc nancy chooses the former option wanting to watch her daughter play in a school team for the first time as she was interested in sports like softball, volleyball, basketball and skateboarding but never commiting to it through a school team until now.
SO INITIATION DAY COMES !!!
nancy is sitting along the outside bleachers just people watching and looking at max with jane and all that shit when the presentation comes and the official gym teacher introducing herself. thats when the most beautiful woman comes in looking distressed and interrupts her during her introduction to the parents and children. nancy finds out that the woman was the soccer coach who only part-times as a coach for the school soccer team. robin buckley.
obv robin looked distress bcs her ass woke up late and was almost late to the intiation.
now the pining insues, nancy practically staring at robin the whole intiation and only looking away once in a while to watch her daughter beat the shit out of everyone else in the team along with her new friend like holy shit bro.
during the intiation she meets a nice woman named joyce where nancy can finally be friends with and tells nance that she's actually the mother of max's new friend. and yadda yadda plot plot.
SO thats the most of it now on to the little fun facts of the story !!
max is ginger bcs karen's parents and her are ginger but she dyes her hair blonde so dont be confused
steve is practically besties with nancy now and has the same distant relationship problems with max too, but she still loves him
"mom, why is my second name mayfield?" "bcs you decided that you wanted me to have a miserable time while i was out on the field with your dad and left my stomach. it was may at the time too" "oh-"
nancy has dated people in the past but none of them stayed that long due to nancy's distant personality and max's evil gremlin one
max def got her sarcasm from nance. who else? steve? yeah no.
robin is 28 in the fic and is not the sweet innocent robin we know 🥺 i mean she is still sweet and caring but not so innocent if u know what i mea- *gunshot*
joyce was very sweet at learning that max was a teen pregnancy and even often invites her and nancy for dinner
nancy meets jonathan and they become friends
fun fact will was there for el's intiation bcs he could never miss a soccer game for el as el could never miss any of will's award night for his paintings!!
robin and max get along well through soccer AND their sarcasm towards the boys
nancy is unlabled and doesnt care who she dates as long she likes them and can love max too
nancy teaches max all of about sexuality and gender respectfully thats why max is so open minded
nancy doesnt fall for robin at first sight, she was mostly intrigued and attracted to her but the more they talk the more she fell for her
gonna uni reverse this shit and say nancy fell first but robin fell harder
robin part times as a soccer coach and full time as a barista in a coffee shop
thats how they officially met
robin is new to boston, she only moved a few months ago from france, her parents are american tho
max loves hearing robin's adventures while traveling around europe
robin is very physical and bcs of this, she teaches nancy (indirectly ofc) how to express love through simple gestures and she starts doing this to max
when max was hugged tightly for the first time than what she can remember from nancy, she freezes and nancy thinks she made a mistake before max hugs back
max soon realizes that she loves physical affection
robin calls nancy the sweetest things and tells her that a compliment, even small, to max wont hurt
"hey max?" "yeah?" "good job during the game today, im proud of you" "........*sobs*" "MAX?!"
safe to say max and nancy's relationship started to heal and they often even joke around now, something they almost never do due to nancy's reserve personality and max's distant one
"mom pls tell me you weren't looking at coach buckley's ass today" "okay fine i wont!" "...." "*whispering* i do it everyday-" "MOM PLEASE"
robin then shows nancy the beauty of quality time love language, something nancy lacked with max
anyways thats all for now, i hope yall know i started writing this at 2am and its now 3:39am
I HAD FUN THO!!! this one was a woozy to write but i hope yall enjoyed it, maybe i will write a fic of this since i loved it sm
we'll see 👀👀
#this one's a long one#enjoy tho :)#stranger things#ronance#nancy wheeler#robin buckley#nancy x robin#robin x nancy#wlw#fanfics
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Fluffy YJ Headcanons
Hey, this is the first time I've written in 6 months theses are more like headcanons. Just got to give me a sec to get back into the rhythm again. This is based on season 1 so don't come for me.
words: 0.4k
Warning: funny...Fluff (I know I didn't think I could do it either)
Summary: Idk just random headcanons
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2) what happens on the mind link
Alright, the mind link sounds like a 2020 discord chat and you can’t tell me otherwise. With that being said, I think it would look something like this:
The-real-flash-not-fake: ughhhhh
Wally’s-left-sock: stfu
The-real-flash-not-fake: 👁️👄👁️
The-real-flash-not-fake: WHAT WAS THE REASON?
Kaldur1: It’s 2am. Can we discus this in the morning?
The-real-flash-not-fake:🍄sawarasenai🥰kimi😸wa⛓️shoujio👻na💅
Wally’s-left-sock: BAHAHAHAHA
Dwyane-the-Crock-Jonson: JAIL RN
Greengirl: im so confused
-Superman-128302: me too dw
5) how team members react to black canary randomly dragging one of them off to talk
“OUUU SOMEONES IN TROUBLEEE,” every, single, time. Especially from Rob. When it’s Rob that's getting taken away. They HOUND him. Even Kaldur gets in on the fun.
15) who are the teams favorite music artists
This but i’m Nuerodivergent >>>
Rob: Bo Burnham
Dying on the inside fr
Mad he can’t face time with his mom tonight.
Favorite song is welcome to the internet
He knows all the words and its kinda a problem
Trys to relate to unpaid intern…but it doesn’t really make sense.
Kid: LEMON DEMON MAKE BRAIN GO BURRR
This and mario cart music
Dosen’t openly listen to but it's always on the playlist.
It’s giving, singing in the shower then i sliped
Favorite song is Jaws
If he’s got headphones on, this is what he’s listening to
Artie: Harry Stiles
She loved One Direction so of course she loves Harry
Blasts it in the car
If she went to a Harry Stiles concert then she’d have 1 of 2 signs
“Harry how about I take you out to the cinema 😉” or
“You’re the only British person I like.”
Conner: Metalica (it’s really Taylor Swift but he’d rater die then admit it)
Survived the ticket master grate war, got tickets “for Meg”
His favorite song is Red (taylor’s version obvi)
New Romantics is a close second
“Hey Conner you’ve been on the computer all day? What are you even doing.”
“Take a step closer and you’ll hate you more the Jake Gyllenhaal
Kaldur: Mac DeMarco
He like how slow the music is
Allows him to relax
Cries to for the first time, every time.
Reminds him of home. That ether makes him happy or sad. :(
SOMEONE GIVE THIS MAN A HUG
Megan: Lana Del Ray
Dosen’t understand half the lyrics but vibes anyway
Its giving, i can’t understand my emotions lol
Another person that needs a hug
Fav song is Young and Bueatiful
I’m not crying you are
A/N: Whoa you're at the end! If you enjoyed then please drop me some feedback so I can continue to improve. See you later!
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actually im a classics student lets talk about the whole UA stronghold being called troy and stuff about 362
so the iliad is about the trojan war, mostly the end of a 10 year war, the same way mha is pretty much covering the end of whatever the hell is going on between ofa and afo.
in the Iliad there's a big thing about achilles (namely his rage - first word of the poem) and also patroclus, who is his "best friend" ... they are especially close. its kind of gay .
patroclus dies in book 16 (??), as a result of going stupid crazy alone on the battle field, he's killed by hector. achilles is overwhelmed with emotion, refusing to eat or do anything for a bit. etc etc - he is sad. then he redirects this grief into rage, further motivating him to kill hector.
achilles, on his way to get hector, goes apeshit and kills every (?) member of the trojan army, winning the war for the greeks
so in relation to bnha - bakugo could very much be a mirror to patroclus OR achilles, but i think in this case it's patroclus as izuku is the protagonist (as achilles sort of is in the Iliad).
as a result of bkg ""dying"" (all hyperthetical), izuku will have a moment of despair (he's a bit short on time to have a full depression) and then go absolutely fucking crazy and kill everyone in sight.
EDIT: dunno why i typed that jt was 2am and i was tired and possibly confusing achilles and izuku. ig. what i meant was bkgs death will motivate deku to release his final power, leading to them winning the war finally
if bakugo has died, then i think it is only temporary because it's a slightly underwhelming death with not enough ... pazzaz behind it? i think there are better ways for him to go and i just don't think that's now. so maybe he's """died""" and eri will sort him out
as for the stronghold being called Troy, that may possibly allude to secret reinforcements the heroes have ? or they make fake their loss to allow the villains to let their guard down and then attack
and on an unrelated notes, i see some parallels between greek gods and heroes in that they are both seen as omnipotent by the public (to a degree) but are actually not all great people, committing terrible terrible crimes (cough, endeavour, zeus),
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Hiii I read your recent Chris one and I’m inlove with it so I was wondering if you could write something about the reader being afraid of thunderstorms or other loud noises and Chris noticed and comforts her until it’s over
This might be alittle different than you asked so if so just ask for another!
Plot: your fear of thunder kicks your ass again…
It had been a hard week for the wildboyz, the city the crew had to film in was all stormy cancelling most of their filming days. The whole week had been torrential rain and blazing winds, pissing jeff off.
You sat in your cheap hotel room, flicking through your kerrang magazine before getting ready to settle down for the night. Once you finally got ready for bed you turn off your light, closing your eyes.
*CRASH*
A loud flash lights up your room and you hide under your covers shaking like a leaf. “Not now, not now, not now” you keep repeating, cradling yourself like a baby so that you didnt freak out.
*CRASH*
Another light bolted by your window the sound only becoming louder. Your breathing hitched and your body froze in utter fear.
*CRASH*
The sounds became more frequent freaking you out.
You felt completely trapped from the horrific noise, no one to comfort you like your mom used to whenever you would cry into her out of fear. “Im an adult” you reminded yourself, thinking of any other options you had.
*CRASH*
You jump out your bed and head for the door and without a single though you head to chris’ door. You guys cuddled whenever it was a cold filming day and sometimes you would help him get changed alittle longer than you would steve-o.
*KNOCK KNOCK*
It was probably 2am now but the door still flung open. A sleepy looking chris answers “You okay? Why you up so late?”
*CRASH*
You jump in fear, sweat trickling down your back. “Are you afraid of thunder and lightning?” Chris smiled, you just nodded in response, feeling like an embarrassed little child “in you get, cmon” chris takes your hand softly and leads you to the bed. He let you curl up into his chest, he lay on his side to stop you from seeing out the window.
*CRASH*
The sound was dying down but still scared the shit out of you, you let go now and just started crying into him “its okay, im here. Its just god having a domestic with his wife” he said light heartedly, stroking the back of your head to bring it closer to his bare chest.
It had been awhile since the lightening had gone off and you decided that you probably over stayed your welcome “sorry chris ill go now, thankyou for looking after me” you smile, kissing his cheek. As you stood up he held your hand “please dont leave” “what?” “What if i told you i was scared of being alone” you laugh alittle at his obvious attempt at making you stay “then i would hold you close until you wanted me to leave” he moved slightly to make room for you as you climbed back into bed, this time holding his head on your chest.
“Night sweetie” “night stupid”
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So i may have found that 24 hours was update just as i was about to go to sleep, it was almost 2am but i obviously had to read it and omg!!!!!! Im dying im kicking my feet in the air and just so happyyyythis update was everything i wanted and ever needed thank you sm<3<3 like the smut was perfect and their little awkward dance was so cute (with eddie on that one) but also reader was right they are stupid, but not for the reasons she believes, but because they denied each other so many times in the past in the hopes of protecting themselves, its truly insane that it took her (well, them) this long to get to this point but it also made so much sense and when she finally said “this changes everything” my little heart exploded, its finally happening, and our idiot babies are finally being honest and vulnerable and it was so beautiful<3 and i have a little feeling that eddie maybe took that pic at the end for himself not even remembering the prove for the bet? Idk i like to think that hes a sentimentalist and just wanted to remember that moment forever bc everything had just changed<3 i legit dont know how im gonna sleep rn with all the feelings im feeling but i’ll try haha goodnight and thanks again for this story i love it and i love you✨
i like the way you think, nonnie.
they definitely are stupid for having denied themselves, having operated under such a false sense of ‘protection’. i think that kind of situation can only for so long, and our dear idiots are finally discovering its breaking point. good for them. maybe now, hopefully, they can let themselves just be happy. hopefully.
thank you for indulging this story. you’ve got all my love <3
#thank u ily#that photo is definitely just for eddie#shhhhhh#he said ‘over my dead body will anyone ever get this picture from my stingy hands’
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also i feel like i do a lot for people and i never receive the same thing back. my irl friends r a different story because i dont reach out to them as much (cuz when i do its so dry and no one wants to talk) but my online ones? im always there for them. i always give them advice, i always sympathize for them, and i laugh at their unfunny jokes too. BUT STILL no one responds when i tell them im here for them, no one really cares abt the advice i give them even when they ask for it. no one really cares what i have to say and it will always be like that
no one cares about my presence and its exhausting. no one thinks my presence makes things a little better. people say they like talking to me but they dont reach out. just because i graduated doesnt mean i dont exist. i mean I never rlly did in school either but damn!
at work one of my managers tell me how much she appreciates me. i always try my best to be nice and i try to conversate even when i dont jnow how. all i do is the bare minimum and act busy sometimes because i have a fear of being yelled at for doing nothing (when everyone just does nothing every once in a while). i get good numbers most the time, and i truly dont know how im the only one? im usually the only one, and i dont understand how. i say the same script each time that everyone else says. im just lucky probably
and the fact i had to ask for another week off for my vacation in october made me die a little inside esp because i might need another surgery. this is why i need to work at home
its 2am, i am hungry for things i havent been able to eat for two weeks (and cant eat for at least another week) and im dying inside. i feel so alone.
i wish i had friends that talked to me all the time instead of.... oh, when they text the gc w me in it when ik damn well theres one without me
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wait random things from my dream(s?) last night before i forget:
the last one is kinda gross so if ur sqeamish go fast
a guy went into a store w the intent to buy gingerbread because what he thoight was gingerbread originally was citrus flavoured dog treats
outside the store was a machine that would prick you test your blood and tell you if you were a wizard. fting very beautiful imogens calebs and esseks. i wonder if i can dig out the artist my suhconcious based them on
witness essek/caleb cuddles that were very cute and i want to draw
suddenly im running around hyrule but hyrule looks like my elemamtry school playgroumd. divine beast on the basketball court. i dont know where i all ran too or how i went so far
big tree had its roots exposed and we had to fill it in with red and blue dyed sand
ah fuck i gotta go to work. why do i work night shift. its an exact normal day its just 2am. 2 of my friends did a department and i looked all over for them because i was done and only found someone popping wheelies in the store. dont ask.
ok this is the gross one
i was walking out w a friend and she looked at my arm and asked whats that? and there were fucking worms coming out of my body. i freaked the fuck out and tried to cut/pull them out and then i woke up. that tail end shot up to be the second closest thing to a nightmare ive ever had.
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#like 11 hrs ago i ate 2 giant chocolate cupcakes on a near empty stomach bc my pi gave them as a reward for#finishing the report i was suffering under. and bc i had nesrly zero food in my apartment#and now i feel like im dying#i have ever since eating them. bc i hate chocolate cake and iceing but if u put them in front of ne i will eat yhe them#immediately after eating them. even thinking abt the texture of what i just ate was making me physically cringe and feel ill#future me: do not eat chocolate cake. u dont like chocolate cake. its not that hard an idea to get in ur head#chocolate cake=suffering#im so tired. but my tummy is upset :-(#and its too hot#but at least my tags came so i can finally get food from the store!!#unrelated#tw food#also i was listening to a really heavey podcast before going to sleep so i was having dreams#abt formatting excel sheets containing data about mushrooms where the person who cultivated of the mushrooms was a horrible abuser#what a weird fucking thing to dream abt#maybe ill just give up on sleep tonight... ugh but its only 2am...
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wish my brain would function.....
#my meds were supposed to keep me stable#but im having so many mood swings i feel like im dying#i cant get anything done#i have to work and finish some shit for college and i just vant i slept for like 16 hours today and im tired and anxious and nauseous#and i keep going from being horribly depressed and sad and extremely hyper and euphoric every 15 minutes so i#just cant seem to focus on any task#like i can only do my chores bc work and college require thinking and my brain is in pieces#but i finished every possible chore and its almost 2am and i dont have the time to be this anxious#wish i could turn off these feelings for a while someone give me mental health pleaseeeee
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