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lovers-in-love-around-the-world · 1 year

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Inui x reader angst

Warning: Angst, cheating, ignored, falling for someone else, falling out of love.

These days haven’t felt right anymore. You felt more lonely and sadder. Maybe it was because you would come home to an empty house and fall asleep alone and wake up to the sound of your boyfriend coming inside the house. Just for him to sleep on the couch. You had stopped getting out of bed just to ask him to come sleep with you, which he always said no too. You wanted to know who took your boyfriend’s time and attention. Even then why didn’t he just leave you. Did he feel bad for you? You didn’t know.

Your boyfriend Inupi still hasn’t come home. You were on the couch waiting for him to come home. You were tired of the lonely nights. The nights where you cry alone. Wanting to know who took his time and attention from you. Wanting to know where everything went wrong. If he ever loved you or was it just a game. You probably weren’t going to get your answer but that isn’t going to stop you from trying. You were watching a dumb show that randomly came up on the tv. You looked at your phone and saw it read 11:00 pm. Zero messages. That was then when you heard the door open. You set your phone on the table and got up to go see him. When you see him taking off his shoes and coat you lean up against the wall. “What’s your excuse today?” You asked. You guess he didn’t think that you were still up from the way he looked at you and stopped what he was doing. Even then he just didn’t say anything. “Seishu…Do you still love me?” You asked, softly. Looking at the ground. You already knew the answer but wanted to hear it from him. To know that you aren't throwing something good away. Something that died a while back. Inupi just stood there, stunned. He didn’t know anymore. Did he love you? I mean he likes hanging out with you but he likes him more. Did he even have any more love left for you? Before he could say anything you just turned around and walked away. He just looked at you confused. He then followed you after a few minutes to see you holding his stuff. You then threw it at the floor in front of him. “Leave” You say quietly. Not wanting to start crying in front of him. You needed to keep yourself together. You didn’t want him to see you weak because of him. You wanted to see what his facial expression was but you knew if you saw his face you would start crying and losing yourself. You turned away before he could say something. You covered your mouth so your sobs wouldn’t be heard unless someone really tired to listen. You then went into your room and closed the door. You then slowly slid down the door like how your tears are going down your cheeks. You heard the door shut. You thought maybe he would actually try to stay and defend himself or try to make things work but you were wrong. You wanted to know when he fell out of love. When did the flowers stop blooming and the sun just went down and never came back up? Were the flowers and sun always like this? Were they always like this? Was there never flowers and suns ever happening? Were you just playing your feelings and mind that the flowers were blooming and the sun was shining so high in the sky.

You didn’t know when you fell asleep after crying so much on your floor. You woke up to your phone going off. You groan and get up from your spot on your floor. You then headed over to your night stand. You then unplugged your phone. You saw that it read Takemichi. You then answered it. You were confused on why Takemichi was calling you. I mean it's not like it was late out anymore. It was now about ten in the morning. You were expecting to sleep so long but it wasn’t like you minded anyways. Especially since you've been staying up late just to see… You then shake that thought of your head. “Hello?” You call out. “Hey, Y/N.” You hear Takemichi from the other line say. You then heard other people talking too. You were still confused on what was going on and things. “I was wondering if you were busy today with anything?” He asked you. You think. I mean you don’t have plans anymore. I mean you were going to hang out with him today but that wasn’t an option. “I’m not busy, why?” You asked. “You want to come and hang out with us then? It's going to be me, Chifuyu, Baji, Draken, Hina, Emma, and Mikey.” Takemichi says, explaining who all will be there and things. You smile softly at this. You were glad that you had people who cared for you and liked to hang out with you. “Sure. What time?” You asked. You heard Takemichi thinking and then asking someone, which you thought was Chifuyu and Baji. “How about in two hours?” He asked. “Sounds good!” You say. “Okay. Bye Y/N. I'll text you where we all are meeting up!” he says before hanging up. You smiled before going and getting ready for the day. You knew that this was going to be a good day for you. At least you hoped it would be. Since coming from a bad night this would be a good thing for you to do to help you get over him and just be yourself and have fun. You then went off to go change. You couldn’t wait to see them all!

#x reader #reader insert #tokyo rev #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers angst #inui x reader #inui seishu #tokrev inupi #inupi x reader #koko x inupi #koko x inui #inui angst #inui x reader angst

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jojameswinter · 10 months

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Ok but imagine this…. It’s the opening scene of season 4. It’s after the time jump. We start in the newly rebuilt chateau. John B looks into jj’s room where him and kie are making out on his bed. Jj shouts at John b and John b closes the door. He walks into the nicely made up living room that doesn’t have a pull out because there’s enough bedrooms for everyone now. He walks up to a picture of his dad and has a little moment with the picture again except this time it’s even sadder because we KNOW he’s dead now. He takes two beers out of the fridge and walks out to the porch where either pope and Cleo are sat up talking or they fell asleep out there the night before (I can’t decide) he walks past pope and does the hand shake and of course says hello to Cleo too and then he walks over to the hammock where Sarah is already waiting for him. He hands her one of the beers and they cuddle together on the hammock and everyone’s so happy now. It’s just a whole parallel from the first chateau scene in the pilot and it’s just showing how everything has changed and yet nothing has really changed at all 😭😭

ANON WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME AHHHAKWEJFIJSD I'M SCREAMING!!!!!!! This would actually be so beautiful for a series end as well 🥹 I'd die for some kind of full circle moment showing us they're still always gonna be the Pogues, through and through. I could see a possible Chateau rebuild at the series end or something that they're dubbing the Chateau, but it'd be nice if they did it earlier! I think they aren't able to use that site anymore, so it would really be something else entirely. I never know what to think because they give us hope that S1 vibes will return and that they'll focus on the relationships, but then that didn't really come to fruition S3, so? We'll see lmao. BUT THIS IS BEAUTIFUL ANON I THINK YOU SHOULD WRITE IT!!!!

#PILOT VIBES MAKE ME SO FERAL #jiara #ask #my asks #lovely anon #diana answers #obx4 #the pogues #jj maybank #kiara carrera #john b routledge #sarah cameron #pope heyward #cleo outer banks

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kazamasthings · 2 years

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tekken characters react to you saying i love you

genre: fluff

characters: jin kazama, steve fox, reader

jin kazama

even though he was a shy person, jin still had his ways of showing affection. you noticed his absence and decided to go look for him. you found him pensive, on the balcony of the apartment.

"jin? babe? is everything ok?" you ask as you approach, but he doesn't answer, and you insist "jin?? jin kazama, are you listening to me???"

when he hears his full name, jin pronounces in a more melancholy tone than usual "the curse of the mishima blood will always be with me. I don't think we should be together anymore. for your sake."

"what are you talking about? why all of a sudden?" you asked confused.

"everyone close to me ends up hurt or killed. i don't want that to happen to you. i want you to have a happy life and away from such big problems. i would like to have a normal life too, study, work, have fun like a normal person, but that's impossible for someone like me. so I believe it's best to stay away." now jin's voice sounded even sadder, like someone who was about to cry.

"jin!! you know that nothing that happened is your fault! you couldn't help it even if you went back in time, so stop torturing yourself with those thoughts." no response, you continued "we know you have a good heart and are trying hard."

"good intentions aren't enough to solve my family problems. and that doesn't take you out of harm's way."

"it's my decision to stay and I won't leave you alone, jin. You can count on me for anything...I take the risks myself."

jin finally turns around and you can see the tired expression on his face "why do you have to be so insistent?" he asks raising an eyebrow.

"because I love you, jin" you hugged jin and immediately blushed when you realized what you just said. you felt jin's hand lift his chin, now you were hugging and making eye contact.

"I-i love... you... too... but I won't forgive myself if you get hurt because of me!

steve fox

you were in steve's room waiting for your boyfriend to come back with dinner, he's not the best cook but he's a really cute guy and he took care of your food. after some time, steve called you to go eat in the living room.. the smell was delicious!

"princess, this is a typical british dish. Bón appetit!" steve said trying to do a french accent which made you laugh.

"muchas gracias, cariño" after a few laughs and conversations, you started to eat. "it's delicious, steve!"

"yeah haha, I was surprised." steve looked at you and was suddenly thoughtful and far away. after a few minutes long seconds of silence, he asked "can I ask you something?" you said yes then he continued "isss how it feels to have a family dinner? well i don't remember having such a nice cozy dinner so i guess that's it."

"oh well..." you felt a little sad remembering your boyfriend's past but kept replying "it's more or less like this, but don't worry! we'll be doing it more often."

"we will. but it's kind of ironic, isn't it? I didn't have my parents present. my mother is a murderer who wants to kill me without caring about the fact that I'm her son. I don't know how to react. i would have a family..." steve stopped eating his delicious potato and returned to that thoughtful look.

"stevie, you were already prepared for this. your birth conditions were not in a loving environment, but you never needed her in the past, you don't need her now."

"yeah, I know, but realizing that you're alone is a little painful." Steve said with a small smirk because he knew how you would react.

"ALONE?! sTEVE FOX, I love you! can't you see?? you said indignantly.

"hahahahah I was just annoying you princess! let's stop talking about negative things." steve gave his biggest smile to say "...and i love you too!" the cuteness of your loved one made you smile.

"oh yes we can just stop talking and go straight to dessert" you said with a suggestive look

friends, im writing about my favorite characters 🥺 im already preparing the next one

#tekken x reader #tekken headcanons #tekken reactions #tekken headcanon #jin kazama headcanon #jin kazama #steve fox #steve fox headcanon

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dm7dragonfyre · 1 year

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Things aren't... Great. If I'm honest.

I'm so stressed out I've broken out in hives and have been having constant chest tightness.

I know it's ultimately not a big deal and it could be worse and ask that but it still feels extremely daunting and I'm having more trouble getting out of the bad headspace. This isn't even all of it.

Main water pipe from the main line to my house has been broken, HOA gave me a run around while it's been leaking constantly for weeks only for them to tell me "ok you have to fix it and pay for it" and it's not cheap. On top of my astronomical water bill that they just let rack up in the meantime.

Work is slow bc the industry is in shambles and rates are too high, we've lost a lot of great people this year and we even lost some old guard recently and everyone is terrified that we're going to lose our jobs. Meanwhile everyone left is on a hair trigger and getting very rude which of course makes the whole daily situation just so much worse

My partner has pretty notable anxiety and agoraphobia and it's been very bad recently, and we've had next to no interactions or time together recently, and a recent comment from me that showed frustration about this caused a fight, our first in 1.5 years. Given my past this is likely the trauma speaking but I'm sortof terrified that's falling apart and I can't do anything about it, and it's one of the best people to have happened to me.

And last week I had an event my mother had been working on for ages in honor of my father who passed years ago; a find set up in his name for a company that helps educate and bring healthcare to rural areas of countries that desperately need it. And it felt like a second funeral all over again, all the stuff I had buried resurfaced that I again had to put on a face for and pretend I'm put together. There were speeches. But even sadder... It was under attended according to my mom. People just didn't come. It drove home how much people just move on and stop caring and or how many of those that did are dead now too. So that's really throwing me for a massive loop, especially when I've been feeling extremely alone and forgotten.

And on a bigger level, just, life as I've known it is falling apart. We lost abortion protections. Politics are disgustingly black and white and a constant struggle when it shouldn't be this close on races. Social medias are hemorrhaging money and people. Companies in control of things I enjoy are getting corrupted by corporate greed. You literally can no longer do or like anyone without someone finding a reason why it's bad. It's rapidly becoming too expensive to exist, both monetarily and theoretically.

I feel like I'm drowning in sludge. I constantly feel like I'm just on this side of not wanting to be here anymore. Everything feels so extremely bleak and I'm running out of positive things to bolster me in the meantime. This really does not feel like the life anyone should be living and it's getting harder to find proof or even just hope it will get better.

I guess until the world explodes I'll just keep going through the motions

#personal

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juminsmysticmc · 3 years

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Sorry I know u aren't taking requests but once it's open could u do a part 2 of mc miscarriages when rfa isn't home. Thank you uvu

RFA with a MC who miscarriages while they aren’t there - Part 2 // Trigger Warnings!

Go here for Part 1 !

Mention of parental loss, depression, hospitals, pregnancy

Hey! After a long while I finally managed to write the request! I hope you like it!

Jumin

The black haired man‘s hands trembled nervously as the driver tried to bring him as fast as he could to the airport where he and his secretary were expecting to take the private jet from Japan to Korea.

,,I didn’t know,“ he whispered, making a just as worried Jaehee look up. ,,I didn’t know she was expecting. She didn’t tell me… I would have stayed if I knew… what if she dies…?“ Jumin asked her.

He seemed just so… vulnerable.

Jaehee nodded and took his hands. For the first time, she had the feeling that Jumin Han was extremely emotional.

,,She is strong, the guards are by her side now, Zen and Luciel are on their way too to support her. We will arrive there quickly and make sure that she gets medical support,“ she told him.

For a short moment, Jumin felt better, but it all vanished when a few hours later the young man arrived at the hospital where you were staying.

As pale as the white wall, closed eyes as your body was connected to different machines.

,,Is she… in coma?“ Jumin gulped when he saw Jihyun and his father next to your bed, the other three men of the RFA sleeping on the couch.

For the first time, he realized how big a VIP room was.

,,No,“ Jihyun whispered as he slowly got up ,,She was crying so much that they gave her tranquilizer and fluids. She lost the baby, but the doctor assured that if you try again…“ Jihyun stopped as he saw that his dear friend didn’t listen to him at all and instead took your hand into his, crying softly over this loss.

Days went by and Jumin tried his best to support you, who also took a big emotional loss. He took off of work and supported you.

He listened to your reasons for not telling him and the thought of a surprise suddenly made his heart grow warmer, but at the same time he felt even sadder.

But you both tried your best to handle the loss and didn’t lose hope for another baby.

Zen

As soon as he heard your pained and trembling voice, Zen didn’t wait a second longer to rush to you.

When he asked for the information about your room and entered the white cold room, seeing your pale face caused sadness to hit him.

He couldn’t hold in the tears anymore and let them flow.

All the happy memories of the news four weeks ago flashed by and as if someone let a bomb go off, they all vanished.

Zen hurried to you and just hugged you while you too begged for forgiveness in tears.

Hours went by while you and Zen laid together in that little hospital bed, your head on his arm while your face faced his chest.

His head laid on your soft hair while he hummed sweet lullabies to make you calm down.

,,Aftercare is very important,“ Zen whispered when the both of you finally laid on your own couch.

You felt a bit better... still mourning, but better.

You knew that if you lost the baby, the fault wasn’t yours or Zen‘s, it was bound to happen.

You did feel nervous and anxious about trying again, and perhaps losing the baby was a nightmare, but you also knew that after going through this hardship you would take care of your body even more.

,,Thank you for supporting me,“ you suddenly whispered, kissing Zen‘s hand when he finally finished turning off the TV.

,,Thank you for not giving up,“ Zen smiled and the both of you knew that together you would be able to face everything.

And the two of you were even happier when half a year later, the both of you found out that you were pregnant again.

,,This time I will protect you both,“ Zen smiled as he managed to make you go to sleep to rest up.

Yoosung

More days went by and still no one was able to reach Yoosung, making the RFA worry even more.

,,She lost her baby, I don’t wanna tell her that she lost her husband too,“ Seven slowly began to whimper but immediately got glared at by Zen.

,,Why the fuck are you saying that?“ he hissed and in that very moment the RFA came to a solution.

,,We need to get him here. The doctors can’t keep giving her sedatives,“ Jumin nodded and looked at the closed door.

Jaehee was there with you as you didn’t want to be left alone.

And since the only ones in question were Seven and Jumin to get Yoosung, neither of them lost more time and hurried to get him.

Thanks to Jumin and Seven, this adventure was done quickly and they tracked down your husband, surprising him with their visit and making him think that you gave birth.

He was super happy - for a short seconds, thinking about the newborn baby which would await his arrival. However, Yoosung was horribly wrong and when Seven hugged him and began to sob, Yoosung’s mood also went down.

,,I TRUSTED YOU! I… I… Seven! How could you leave her alone?! She fell and lost the baby! We were almost there! You killed my baby!’’ Yoosung yelled and hissed. His fists hit Seven’s chest more than once. However, the young man was way too weak to even hurt the red haired man.

Maybe because he was sad, but maybe because deep inside he knew who was really at fault.

,,Why did you leave her? I can understand, Yoosung, that this was very important for your career, but your wife needs a lot of sedatives to be calmed down. She is so sick and alone that the medical help can only give her medicine to calm her down while you are having fun here helping animals instead of your wife,’’ Jumin said, his poker face didn’t show any emotions.

His words hit Yoosung so hard that he finally gave up and instead broke down.

He didn’t remember how he got all his stuff or how he managed to go to the airport. He couldn’t even remember the flight to Korea or how he arrived at the hospital.

As if someone let him skip time, Yoosung arrived in your room and he just realized he was there when he saw you sleeping.

,,I’m here… and I am not going back anymore, Mc… I’m sorry,’’ he sobbed once again. His words, however, weren't reaching you since the pain and the amount of medicine was just too much...

Jaehee

For a short moment, no one dared to speak.

The other line on the phone was muted, but Zen knew that Jaehee was still on the phone since he could hear her hard exhaling through the speecher.

,,What?’’ she asked him again.

With all his might, Zen inhaled again and said these hurtful words again.

I had to decide between Mc and the baby. I chose Mc,’’ he whispered.

With those words, everything was clear.

For Jaehee, the world seemed to fall apart when she heard his words. In tears and sobs she told him that she would come as soon as possible.

,,Zen,’’ she said, before cutting the call. ,,Thank you, thank you for deciding in my place,’’

The white haired man expected everything, a crying Jaehee or an angry Jaehee. He also would have expected her to use him to vent on him, averything, but he didn’t expect her to be thankful.

And perhaps, this was the most hurtful thing he heard.

,,Jaehee…?’’ you groaned. You weren’t sure how much time passed, you just knew that you lost the baby and that you felt sick. Your head was throbbing and your lower abdomen felt… odd. Your heart was beating like crazy.

,,I’m here… I returned. I’m sorry that I wasn’t by your side,’’ she whispered, her hand over your head, slowly and carefully rubbing your head with love and care.

,,I’m sorry that you had to go through this, Mc, but I’m here now…’’ she said again. Tears were falling on your cheeks as your eyes also slowly filled with tears.

,,I’m sorry… That I lost our baby, Jaehee, really…’’ you hiccuped, but this didn’t matter anymore because you were safe and this was all that mattered to her.

Saeyoung

The red haired man never imagined that a flight from Japan to Korea could be so awfully long.

He never imagined that being over the clouds could make him feel so anxious.

Saeyoung couldn’t stop shaking his legs as he waited for the flight to be finally over.

Suddenly, the only feeling he could express was regret.

Why did he have to leave?

Why did he have to have once again secrets? Why couldn’t he be honest with himself and his family?

Was it his fault?

,,Sir,’’ someone called him.

,,Sir!’’ the flight attendant called him again.

,,Please stop moving your legs. It’s bothering the other passengers,’’ the woman in front of him begged him.

,,Really? Sorry, can you please tell them that I’m sorry and that they can be in my place if they like? Like- my wife miscarried while I was gone and I have no idea how she’s feeling.

Sorry if I seem nervous!’’ he hissed and looked outside of the window. A single tear rolled down his cheeks as he tried to stop moving his legs.

,,How did this happen?!’’ Saeyoung asked his brother when he finally arrived, his cheeks red. He himself was out of breath as he looked at his brother. Bloodshot eyes showed him that he must have cried for a long time.

,,I’m sorry, it was my fault. It was an accident…’’ Saeran confessed.

On this very night, Saeyoung promised you and himself that he would never leave you again and he held his word, even years later when you finally gave birth to a healthy baby…

ᗰᗩᔕTEᖇᒪIᔕT

20.10.2021// 20:55 MEST

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fshaechans · 3 years

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hello! could you make nct 127 reactions to you forgetting their birthday? thank you!✨✨✨

of course i can, honey✨

anon, thank you so much for asking me, you don't know how happy it made me!!

I also want to thank an old friend of mine, shout out to: @narancwia ly my dear. (she helped me with some things)

And don't forget that my ask is open! for requests and everything, this is a safe place. take care and be happy, no matter what💛

NCT 127 reacting to you forgetting their birthday 🎂

Haechan: At first, he'll think it's just a joke but after a while without any reaction from you, he starts to get worried and keeps dropping hints to see if you'll remember. When you realize that you're forgetting something, he'll end up laughing, making a drama out of it, but in the end, he'll end up accepting your apology, because he's soft hearted . (even because he's done all the drama possible)

Jungwoo: The cute little puppy is quite sensitive, so you can expect him to look sad until you remember. He would be so uneasy about the situation that he would ask you, in a dramatic and concerned tone if he did something wrong.

Taeyong: As he has a leader's aura, he will soon understand, as he knows that these kinds of things happen. In a cutely and calmly he is the one who will console you and say that everything is fine, he will let it go this time if you promise and make sure it doesn't happen again.

Doyoung: Will be shocked, you know he's organized enough to remember dates that aren't even that important and you haven't remembered his birthday? He won't soon forget. "How dare you do this to me?" it will be on his head all the time because he really can't accept it. So you better not forget anymore or you'll have to face an angry doyoung. (Don't worry, you'll be able to calm him down bc he can't resist to your charm).

Yuta: he would happily come to you, hoping you would remember that day, but you don't, and that puts him in a very low mood, but he doesn't let show that he is disappointed. He would be angry, but not really, he would just pretend to be angry, he would joke with you, making jokes like “let's break up, you forgot my birthday”. And after that, he would expect you to pamper him in every way, to make up for your forgetfulness, and that would make him happy.

Taeil: Would be very disappointed because you forgot his birthday, he wouldn't say at first, hoping you would remember as the day progressed, but he would get sadder and sadder and you would notice. He wouldn't cry, but he'd pretend to cry, and he'd say you forgot this special day for him, but he'd forgive you in when you spoil him, kiss and hug.

Mark: overreact. When you realize you forgot his birthday, he'll be stunned by it. "What? What do you mean?" , "unbelievable", "you really forgot about me, I mean nothing?", "Really?" it will be those kinds of things that you will listen to all day until he forgets.

Johnny: he will TRY to understand. But since he has a more open mind, he might not even get so angry and at the end of the day, he might not even remember. However, he will make you apologize by giving him an unforgettable birthday, it means spending the rest of the day together doing things both enjoys.

Jaehyun: he’ll not stop talking to you (although he's speechless about that situation) because he's not the type to do it, but he'd be resentful, he'd say little, he'd be flustered, still hoping you'd remember. He wouldn't force anything. Until a point in the day when he will get a little angry and give you a tip to remind you that it was his birthday and that you had forgotten.

#nct #nct reactions #nct writing #kpop writing #lovely writer #thank y’all so much #nct 127 #haechan #jaehyun nct #doyoung nct #nakamoto yuta #moon taeil #mark nct #nct johnny #jungwoo #taeyong nct #nct scenarios #pls ask me stuff

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abombihoney · 3 years

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i hope you're happy, because you managed to make EVERYONE cry

that is such a sad idea! like, knowing how the only cordy that has the memories of the host still has some gaps there and there means that vi may end up forgetting things. what would be worse is that she may forget some things she did together with the team. even worse: maybe the cordy will also forget things which, you know, is BAD in a way. like, it may end up forgetting more important things.

tho, this really shows how she's also kind. like yeah, she uses bravado and anger to deal with her emotions, but that doesn't mean she's completely bad! she's just a teen after all (which also makes the situation sadder, since of course everyone would assume that she is lying; she's just a child! no one really believes a child, they are easy to manipulate. like, she is NOT lying but nobody believes her. the fact that she ends up in such a bad situation is horrible, since no child should fear the people that were close to her. of course she can't see the queen like a kind being anymore; she doesn't understand that she KNOWS. she KNOWS what she's saying, so of course vi would feel betrayed; no one takes her seriously)

tbh i also really like how you made crow be the one who helps them in escaping. it's a nice touch, considering that the team comments on how she seems to be overworked. she could have easily overheard the discussion (since it's a tattle) which was a sign for her that hey, someone cares a little for her.

(btw, you're working on a fic? that's awesome! also sorry for this whole dump! i'm very interested) - mothposts (i'm on mobile so i can't send an ask from my account)

Good! If I had to cry so did everyone else!!!!

on the memory thing: :)

Yeah nobody ever believes kids or teenagers about anything, I remember how much that pissed me off as a kid. I never could understand why I would have to explain myself about w/e, if the adult in question had already made up their mind, but was just hearing me out "to be fair" or some bs.

which as an adult now, there is a degree of "oh this is teenage emotions/oh yeah they're a teen. teens just be like that." Teenagers are very emotional, they lash out A Lot.

The teenage years are when you start learning all sorts of shit. You learn that adults don't actaully know everything, they probably don't know much more than you. Teenagers are really getting into the concept their own personal morals and ethics, every single small issue seems huge to them! This is the first time they're dealing with stuff in a context more complex than "following the rules is good, otherwise is bad."

anyway, kids aren't stupid. adults just tend to get up their own asses so much that they forget kids are just inexperienced people. Have you ever heard of baby powder effect? i think its called?

it's the concept that someone who changed your diapers is never going to take you seriously. anyone who knew you when you were just a baby are never going to see you as fully functioning adult, and worse, as an adult of equal standing. I'm sure that when you are the mother of your entire kingdom, you might have a problem with listening to your subjects.

Yes with crow it's also that she is the assistant to the head scientist. you don't see someone you know play card with occasionally get vivisected and just, go on with your day.

i have Thoughts on Kabbu and Jaune :)

Yes! the fic i'm working on is actually just fleshing out these concepts! I'm just adding narration, concrete series of events, and slighter better drawings. I already have seven chapters outlined lol.

#y'all are gonna get a pavlonian response to me going :)#i already wrote most of ch 1 #but it need editing and also i think i'm gonna change it from 3rd person to second.#partially cause i think that second person really brings emotions and thought to the forefront of the story #and partially cause i just kept slipping into second person and wasting time correcting myself lol.#chit chat #ask #long post #mkb au

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mightyavngrs · 5 years

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half a man | steve rogers x reader

summary: you're finally able to confess your feelings to your best friend, unfortunately the outcome is one you never expected

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The moon was high, the sky clear and the air incredibly warm on that spring night. And because for the first time in a while you and your bestfriend were actually free of work you decided to go up to the rooftop of the compound to enjoy the view and perhaps star gaze for a while. You brought a blanket along to make yourselves more comfortable and to say that you were excited about the night was an understatement.

"C'mon Steve, we don't have all day." you called out for your best friend while you ran through the halls of the compound.

"Y/n, the night is a child, calm down" he said with a chuckle. You were so happy and that made his heart almost as warm as the night air.

You stopped on your tracks and simply took his hand bringing him along with you. Stargazing was your favorite thing in the world and you wanted to spend as much time as possible doing that, god knows when the next free night would come up.

And next thing you know you were finally laying down on the blanket, taking in the starry sky with your best friend by your side. So you turned to Steve to probably tell him something about how happy you were or how huge the moon looked that night but you froze when you saw his face. He looked so incredibly peaceful, his eyes shining almost as bright as the celestial bodies he was gazing at and suddenly you weren't able to keep your feelings for him a secret anymore.

"I love you Steve." you muttered cursing yourself over how impulsive that decision was.

"No. You can't." he said softly, turning his head to you, his eyes sad now.

"What do you mean i can't?" you said getting up, shocked at his words.

"You don't understand-" he started, sitting up as well, but you were quick to interrupt him.

"Well then help me understand! Cause that wasn't exactly easy to confess that and you're not helping at all!" you said, your voice louder but also sadder. You didn't mean to sound like that but his words hurt he needed to know that.

"Y/n i'm broken."

"And what about that? Everyone in this team is. Granted not everyone has spent 70 years under ice but-" and now was his time to stop you.

"No. I haven't figured out who i am yet, Y/n. I haven't figured out who i am or what i want for my future yet. And God it feels like i'm only half a man sometimes and that's not what you deserve. You deserve someone who can love you with his whole being and how am i supposed to do that if i'm missing half of me?"

"Wait so- you feel the same way?"

"Of course i do, y/n, how could i not?"

"Then let me love you! You're the most important person in my life Steve and i wouldn't even be here if it weren't for you!C'mon please give me a chance. Give us a chance. We can figure this out together." tears were streaming down your face now so he wiped them away with his hand, caressing your cheeks in the process.

"I can't take away your chance of being happy." he told you with a sad smile on his lips.

"Steve, please, i don't care about that, i care about you! Please just don't leave ok? I know you might think you're doing what's best for me but believe me you aren't-"

"I'm not willing to take that risk, sweetheart, i'm sorry" and with a kiss to your forehead he got up and left, leaving you on your own in the rooftop in the middle of a night that seemed much colder now.

a/n: this one shot came up to me the other day when i listened to half a man by dean lewis so it's largely inspired by the song. hope you enjoyed and thanks for reading :)

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anundefinedwoman · 5 years

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Waiting...

It has been ages since I've written. I have thought about it. I've thought about some things I could write about, and yet I don't do it. I get distracted or busy, or I make myself one of these to avoid doing it. Writing can be cleansing, cathartic and a way to escape, but it also is exhausting. It drains a lot out of me. Much like me, there are contradictions. It requires me to dig deep and to go inward and then think objectively as an outside observer judging my own situation and asking myself hard questions or seeing the picture from a detached perspective. I do a lot of that anyway on my own as that’s just the curse of being an over thinker, but when you are writing about something that matters, the degree in which it gets taken can confuse me, since I'm terrible at math.

I've been so sad lately and I'm having such a hard time. I'll be sitting back in my room where I have closed myself off from everyone and I have these epiphanies that come out of nowhere seemingly, or perhaps there was something that triggered it, but it was a short 'a-ha' moment that I said I want to write about. I need to dig deep and put some further thought to see if there is more to it. The thought made me sad and do you know what happened? It went away, like a dream. Like the details faded. I don't know how to draw it all together anymore and it frustrates me and makes me sadder. But I will try. Maybe some will come out.

It has already been established earlier that I was an unwanted child. I don't know the moment I understood that for the first time. I wish I remembered more than fragments. The parts I do remember involve a lot of waiting. Waiting to be picked up. Watching from a window for a car; my grandmother picking me up from daycare, a church bus to pick me up from the curbside, my mother waiting to come and see me by the window or road - if she would even bother showing. The telephone for a call that never came, the birthday or Christmas present or at least card. Broken promises, unkind words, beatings. Each abandonment - was being raised to fear and reject the world down the road. Having my life controlled by someone and knowing that I was never enough.

I was never locked away, but I was isolated. There was one child I remember I would occasionally play with when I lived with my grandparents, but most of my time was spent alone or visiting my grandparents neighbors who were elderly. They were kind to me. She taught me how to play solitaire and would give me lemon drops and tell me about her bingo adventures. Maybe some of it could be explained away as being an only child. I remember being in love with fairy-tales and make believe like Jack and the Beanstalk, Hansel & Gretel, & The Nightingale.

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I had to step away from this for two days I became so distraught and distracted. I cried for a good long time.

I've been thinking a lot about never being able to trust anyone. I get lost in thought where I'm literally lost. I phase out. I'm in nothingness. I forget everything, including what I was going to write about. This is really upsetting to me and I find myself welling up with tears at this, because this doesn't ever happen. My mind can crisscross and I can go into what I call my ‘ADHD modes’, but I don't completely forget. Writing in free thought even fails to bring forth my thoughts.

I'm not sleeping well. In fact my sleep last night was completely restless. The little sleep I did have, the dreams were strange. I dreamt that 3 people that I didn’t even know very well messaged. One was a man I met a few years back and only a couple of times. He and I attended the same church for a short while. But me and church didn’t last too long. In my dream it was an election year and they kept asking me if their posts would be a problem for our friendship. Like I said, we aren't even friends like that, and this person never even posts political things. I kept wondering how these people even knew which way I leaned politically since I never posted about political matters. Then my dream extended to news outlets. I didn't understand that and it wasn't clear.

I hardly ever remember my dreams. Ever. But I am having lots of migraines again too. I had probably 7 or 8 in the last 5 days- 3 yesterday. I take daily medication for chronic migraines. I need to make an appointment to see my neurologist since my medication isn't helping obviously, but I don't want my medication increased. I think it messes with my cognition. Fuckity Fuck.

Yesterday and last night I cried and cried. This writing assignment from the other day triggered the floodgates in me. I stay back in my room and I hid. I cry in silence. I hurt so badly my chest hurts from holding it all inside. My husband came home and napped and I cried in bed next to him as I read and he didn't even know it. Only my sniffles would have given me away. But in keeping it so quiet I literally hurt. As quickly as it comes on, I can shelf it. Something I learned how to do as a kid. 1/14/19

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