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busycloudy · 9 months

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OMGGG HAPPY ONE HUNFRED FOLLOWERS!??!?!?!?!!!!

Sooo, for your event... I'm feeling in a devious mood at the moment,, and i have decided... to do some tomfoolery >:D *evil laughter noises*

I have begun to start a collection of silly ideas, and it is a little series between us!! To start it off, would you be willing to do Savannaclaw with a feline! mc? <3

Also, here's a flower to congratulate your journey! 🌺

Ty for the flower! And yeah,100 followers! Hard to believe am I right!? Hope you enjoy this lil' thing!

I AM SO SORRY THIS TOOK FOREVER BTW PLEASE FORGIVE ME I HAD 0 INSPO(doesn't even seem like it's part if my 100 follower event now lol)

Savannaclaw With a Feline!MC

• TW: None

• Fluff + crack fanfic per usual

• MC is gender neutral

• Enjoy!

Leona Kingscholar

Your independence is so aggravating to him(affectionately<3). Like, just let him help?!?! One time you got in a fight with some other Savannaclaw students, and he INSISTED on helping, but you refused and fought them by yourself. He had to take you to the infirmary that day, but the students were much more injured. You like cuddles? that's purr-fect(I'm so funny)because he LOVES having you as his pillow! Sometimes you'll just see him in the botanical garden and nap with him. Or if you see him in the hallways you'll just wrap your arms around him. He teases you for being so clingy, but he loves this so much. ALSO he sometimes scratches behind your ear because your purring is so adorable and he needs to hear it at least once.

Ruggie Bucchi

If you wanna be independent, you do you boo, now if it's something that you so obviously need help with but don't wanna admit it, he might help you. I feel like he's also a cuddly person(don't know why🤷‍♀️), so when you hug him after a long day a smile is instantly put on his face. When you try to pepper his face with kisses, he might just cup your face and give you a kiss on the lips instead. When you're walking around in the hallway and hear something fall near you, it's probably him. This man has tripped over your tail so much, and although most of the time it's on accident, sometimes you do it on purpose just to catch him and see him flustered.

Jack Howl

He does not CARE how much times you insist you don't need help, he is going to help you. In a fight? He either helps you or drags you away. You are going to get help with things like that whether you like it or not. He's not very used to your affection and when you randomly just come behind him in the hallways and hug him, but he isn't complaining. He might give you a kiss on the forehead in return. I think at first y'all HATED eachother (Y'know cat and dog kinda thing), but it was kinda became an enemies to lovers thing. Finds it a bit interesting when your ears twitches in your sleep(Do you know what im talking ab?). He'll ask you what you were dreaming about in the morning.

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WHY DID THIS TAKE SO LONG???Ahem, anyways, thank you @nico707 for sharing how you think a feline!MC would be like

And thank you @minty-bubblegum for the flower! This journey has been a long one, but a fun(ny) one also

#savanaclaw #jack howl x reader #leona kingscholar x reader #ruggie bucchi x reader #twisted wonderland #disney twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader

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aerinthefish · 2 years

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Dating site/famous!race au pt 1

part 2

Anthony Higgins is a famous dancer/actor

Think like Gene Kelly

Jack convinced him to download Tinder as a joke

So he does

He has actual pictures of himself on there

Some people actually do chat w him

But most just think it’s a fake account

Spot finds him and wants to ignore Anthony but decides to chat w him anyway

They become friends

Spot doesn’t think he is actually the Anthony Higgins but likes the guy regardless

“So what’s ur real name?”

“Oh it’s actually anthony but my friends call me racetrack”

“Nice to meet u race”

They exchange numbers and sometimes call while Spot is walking to the subway or race is working out

Race offers to meet up when he’s in New York for work

Spot agrees to meet at a cafe for lunch

But he asks Darcy to come w him incase Race is a serial killer

(Darcy is obsessed w race. Like knows most of his dances and belts any and all of his songs in the shower)

So it doesn’t take much to convince Darcy to come on the off chance it is race

And surprise surprise

Anthony Higgins walks into the small cafe in a hat and glasses

He knows what spot looks like cause he’s seen a few pics of him on his profile

Slides into the seat across from spot

“Sup, spot.”

“Race?”

“Yup. Sorry ‘bout the glasses. Yknow.”

“Oh dear god” spot knows who race is after living w Darcy for three years “it’s actually you”

“Disappointed?”

“Nah. My roommate is half in love with you tho”

Race is flattered

“Well, maybe you should take me to your apartment to meet him” ;)

“He’s not home”

“Even better” ;)

They don’t actually go to spot’s apartment yet

Race is in town for a week so spot decided to wait it out

Even tho he’s kinda in love w race after talking to him for months

So they meet up a few more times

But the paparazzi find them most times and they’re very obviously on a date

And race’s fans lose their MINDS

Who is this guy

Why is he with race

He obviously wants alone time w race

Oh my god is race gay?????

Nooo I wanted to marry him

Maybe he’s bi

Let’s find that guy and ask

So spot gets hunted down by paparazzi and complains abt it to race

Race freaks cause he didn’t want to make spots life hard

And he didn’t even think abt his fame when he started talking to spot cause like he’s kind of oblivious

So race ghosts him after leaving NY

And spot is PISSED

He calls race and leaves many voicemails that are not child appropriate

Race listens to them all and gets very mopey

He comes to stay at Medda’s house to bother his brother between jobs

Jack hates listening to him complain abt how sad he is all the time. Even tho he has no real clue what’s going on

He assumes spot dumped race for the paparazzi incidents

So he hatches a plan

He calls up his ‘friend’ in NY— Davey

Davey works with Darcy at their friend’s publishing house

Darcy gives Davey spot’s number who gives it to jack after talking to spot abt it (we don’t give random men our friends’ numbers)

“Hey this is jack kelly im race’s brother. please for the love of god text him. he’s insufferable”

“I do text him. He’s the one that don’t answer”

“Then why’d you dump him?”

“I didn’t? He ghosted me”

“That asshole”

Jack is pissed now because he’s had to listen to race’s Sad Songs playlist for the past two weeks

He knows he’s self destructive but he assumed race would be better at relationships

So he makes up an excuse to get race to New York

Probably like. Oh I’m meeting this guy and I want to see how you like him

Oh and he’s bringing a friend so it’s like a double date to help you get over spot

(Race has told jack many many things he loves abt spot while they were talking. He def seems like the type to gush abt his partners)

So Davey, who has met spot a few times at kath’s work parties and such, brings spot

Jack brings race

Race walks in, sees spot sitting next to Davey, and hides behind jack

“Oh god there he is”

“Who?”

“Yknow. Spot. So let’s pick a table on the other side of the restaurant”

“Oh, well, that’s funny cause that’s Davey right next to him”

“What. The. Fuck”

Que a very awkward dinner

Davey and jack are already friends so they talk, ignoring spot and race

“So” race eventually says

Spot glares at him

“Fuck you”

“Yeah I deserve that”

“You’re a dick”

“Yeah”

“Glad you know that”

And then spot asks him what he’s been doing these past few weeks

Cause he misses talking to race

Jack proudly watches his little brother stop being a dipshit

By the end of dinner, race and spot are back to talking normally

And jack knows what he has to do

“Say, race. Would it be okay if I went home with Davey?”

“Oooh, getting laid tonight?” ;)

Jack blushes—but this is just to help race get his man back, not cause he’s finally seeing Davey in person since the party they hooked up at. They’re just good friends anyway

“No, no. Davey just needs some help with…a table! Fixing a table”

“Sureee. I’ll see ya in the morning then?”

“Yep. Yeah. Bye!”

So race and spot are left alone to walk around the city

They go to the park and race kisses spot in the dark. Finally

“So, is Darcy home?”

“No he’s over at Kath’s for their scrabble night. Why?”

“Just wondering if I could see that apartment of yours” wink wink

So they walk to spot’s building, stealing kisses in the dark cold night

Spot shoots Darcy a text “don’t come home tonite xx”

“Oh god. Don’t fuck on our kitchen counter. Please. I’ll be at bill’s til tomorrow”

“Good luck ;). And no promises”

They’re kissing before spot can even close the door

“I missed you” race whispers

“Who’s fault is that, huh?”

“Shuddup”

Race does spend the night but nothing much happens

Spot is tired after a long day of doing accounting and race is jet lagged from flying in yesterday from New Mexico

So they fall asleep on the couch, wrapped around each other

Race wakes up with spot on his chest and he feels so full of love that he’s going to burst

He wants to hold spot and never let go

“Babe, I gotta get up” race whispers, slowly moving off the couch

Spot grabs his waist

“Don’t go”

“I have to pee”

Spot smiles softly. “Kay. Can you make me a cup of coffee? With cream”

Race hums and kisses spot’s forehead

He pees and tries to figure out the coffee maker before he realizes it’s already full of water and grounds and all he has to do is press start

Ten minutes later, he wakes spot up again with a cup of coffee and a fair amount of creamer after he remembered spot complaining about how Darcy had used the last of the creamer when they first started texting

“Thank you, racer”

“Thanks for givin’ me a second chance”

Spot snorts. “I don’t have enough coffee in my system to deal with a serious talk”

“Fair enough”

But they do eventually talk

Race apologizes and explains he was scared of the press taking spot from him

Spot asks him to just tell him the next time he makes a decision like that and race agrees

They don’t get much further than that talk before race is kissing spot’s neck

“You’re a heathen”

“A pretty sexy one, tho” ;)

Spot is realizing race winks a lot

They do have sex on the couch

(Darcy would have a heart attack but he hasn’t come home yet. Spot hopes he’s sleeping in at Bill’s house)

Race is very gentle, and spot tells him to not be even though he finds the thought very touching

Race curls up in spot’s arms after, tracing shapes on his biceps

“That tickles!”

“Then stop having such beefy arms!”

“You’re a nightmare”

“Just kiss me”

They get up eventually and take a shower and definitely don’t give each other blow jobs

After, spot makes race scrambled eggs with bacon because that’s all he can do without Darcy’s supervision

Race just kisses him and promises they’re the best he’s ever had

“Oh my god! Morning after dance party!”

Spot rolls his eyes “you’re the dancer here, race. Not me”

Race just takes his phone and connects it to Spot’s Bluetooth speaker

Dancing Queen turns on and race spins spot around the counter

Spot admits (only to himself ofc) that this is the best date he’s ever had

After dancing queen, taylor swift’s Holy Ground queues up and Spot almost dies when Race begins moving his hips with the beat

“Where do you even get these songs?” Spot asks to hide his blush

Race winks

“I made a whole playlist”

“Just for this?”

“Nah. When we started talking I made it in case you had me over and let me stay the night”

“Racer, that was months ago”

“Yeah”

He doesn’t even look embarrassed

Holy fuck, spot in so in love with this loser

Race stays the next night too

Spot drives him to the airport where jack is saying goodbye to Davey

Spot watches Davey awkwardly pat jack’s shoulder

“They’re worse than us”

Race rolls his eyes “Jacks been in love with that kid since they met”

“They obviously slept together after dinner that night”

“Obviously. Look at the hickey on Dave’s neck”

“Ooh, he’s got it bad”

“Now I gotta listen to jack mope”

“Karma”

“Shut the fuck up”

“You love me”

Race chokes. “How could you tell?”

Spot just laughs at his boyfriend(?)

“Hon, you made us a Dance Around the Kitchen the Morning After playlist”

“Fuck. My plans of inviting you to my movie premier and telling you I loved you in front of the cameras so I could have that expression saved forever are ruined!”

Spot can’t stop laughing

“You idiot”

Race kisses him and goes to grab jack by the collar

“Bye! I’ll send the details for the premier when I land and check that I can take you!”

“Bye, race. Send me the playlist too and I’ll add a few!”

“Deal!” Race waves as he gets in line for security and Davey sighs as he watches Jack leave

“Oh, Dave” spot says

“Don’t. It’s hopeless. I know”

(Are all baby gays this stupid? Spot wonders)

“No I was gonna say he’s in love with you. Come on, I need an iced coffee”

Davey follows, stuttering questions about jack and Spot just shakes his head

#racetrack higgins #spot conlon #newsies #livesies #boys in love #Sprace #javid #david jacobs #jack kelly #cw cursing #Sprace dating site au

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senbons · 2 years

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do u hv any general tips on writing? ive spent so long re reading ur fics to learn from them, and each time im absolutely amazed at how good it is, like, each word feels like it needed to be there including words like "really" "probably" "even" just small things like that, make it so real, and as if we're actually reading the character's thoughts. also, when it comes to fics, do you base it off your own life? or do you some research, if so are there any sites u use frequently? have a good day <3

Hmmm okay

I'll go slightly out of order (under cut bc trying not to spam dashes):

First off, thank you so so much!! Wowzers! Every time someone says they've read something I wrote more than once, it makes me so, so happy!!! And to do it with the intention of learning?! Whoa! I'm so touched! Someone once told me they learned a lot whenever I did that "commentary" on coming up tails... I planned on doing that w ch. 11 of aibg (that someone requested)... maybe I should rally? Idk, if you think it'd be of some use, lmk and I'll begin this weekend. That said, I never took a writing class apart from one memoir one, so idk much. I'm also just kind of going with the flow and hoping what I write makes sense! I don't think I'd ever have enough confidence in my writing to go into a creative lit class or anything! (funny you'd say that about not having one excessive word bc I'm actively trying to write LESS... I think I always have too many unnecessary words 😂)

(vaguely answered inspo before) I do base a LOT off my own life. Mostly conversations I'm imagining with people I like. Like I have a crush on this guy (see any other post), and a few months back I saw him in a store and we didn't speak, but saw each other. i kept imagining he would wait outside when i exited and i'd walk up to him and the first thing i'd say to him, meeting him in person for the first time, would be: "i'm going to hate myself, aren't i?" "why?" he'd ask. "for having sex with you." and that obviously didn't happen, but i imagined it over and over and am always tempted to write a ST story w work enemies based on that one fantasied-conversation. does that make sense?

The easiest ones offhand are ALL of On Pride. I did get a splinter and meet a classmate at the hospital week one of undergrad. I went to dinner with someone i liked all through law school and he always knew it and it always felt like the timing didn't work, but he also was single and then went out with someone else? but i still am positive liked me? idk (this and hospital were years apart and different people). Or in paper moon, I had a think w a guy in barbados that was similar... or had the same conversation at the cloisters in ny that they have in the church about god... So point of the story: yes, a lot of things are based off dumb shit in my life, but most is based off imagined-conversations with men. also a lot on scenes from media I consume. I'll see a movie, love one plot point, think about it for weeks, and then decide to write it down. (or these days, you guys... i did a rough outline of that whole royal!au/bodyguard!au after someone put it in an ask 😂)

That all said, I don't do research for inspiration... but when I have a question (see this answer) I just google. during oh, oh I'm on fire (worth the tag even though no one will read? 😭) I called my mother so many times to ask about the 70's (i.e. did you say fridge or icebox growing up? when did grandma stop wearing panty-hose?). So that's basically it? (i even read a book specifically for that though!). No specific websites. Sorry I can't be of more help!

And then, finally, general tips:

just write. That’s the most important. Edit later if that helps. Just keep writing.

I am a pro-outliner. But sometimes that doesn’t work for everyone. I love it because I can lay out the big things and then see where I have gaps. And when I need motivation, i already have the section basically drafted. So if I’m having to force myself (which happens — it’s work. There is always a few parts (sometimes more) of a fic I have to grit my teeth through), I already have what I want to say outlined and can just write it out and by the time I finish that section, I’m into it and can move onto the next thing. I love outlining. It helps me see the big picture too. And when I need motivation, I’ll just reread my outline.

If that doesn’t work though, then just write. And when it gets hard, see if you can just eek out one more page, even if you hate everything you’re putting down, just to get over that hurdle.

And find friends! If you ever need someone to look at your writing, let me know! I have no superlative ideas, but can always be around to talk through things/motivate!

Anyway, sorry for this morbidly long answer. I hope at least some of it was of use. And thank you for this message! It really made my day to see it as soon as I woke up!

<3<3<3

#if you were looking for one-sentence answers #you chose the wrong girl #on the wrong boring tuesday night~#<3 ty for writing #hey that cop interaction is p good right?#should i actually write it out?#personal #Answered #Anonymous

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noahhernandez · 4 years

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2/9/2015 v. 8/11/2020

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. My favorite movie is Scream, and it started when I saw the midnight premier of Scream 4 with my dad back when I was in 8th grade, then Scream 1 came on AMC late on night and I just really like it

I still think Scream is one of my favorites, but Halloween has jumped up there just because I am obsessed with all things horror really lol. I started to love Halloween because of the new trilogy.

2:Talk about your first kiss. It’s really not that interesting but really like embarrassing. It was with my first boyfriend and I had just turned 15 and we were at the school just walking around and we went into the band hall and I was like ok im leaving and he was like wait and we kissed and i was like o

the same !

3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. I never really have had intense feelings for anyone. I d k

One my exes- I mean we were dating for awhile so that’s pretty intense to me.

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. I regret… Nothing really I mean, I have done really bad things in my life, but i don’t regret them

I regret failing like 2 semesters of college lmao and almost dropping out. If i didn’t then I would 1- would have been done earlier and 2- would have already completed a year of grad school but IDK also another is wasting lots of money in 2017-2018

5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. The best birthday I’ve had was.. Idk This year was was nice I saw Iggy Azalea in concert, then I celebrated my friends’ birthday then mine and it was just everyone got to get together so ya this year my 18th

For my 21st birthday I went to Portland, Oregon and spent the weekend there and it was pretty and my first time there so it was nice despite what I think about PDX now. I don’t even know what I was doing for my 19 and 20th birthday lol.

6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. My 17th birthday because I was stuck 2 hours away from home with a bunch of nerds doing a band competition

That is still probably my worst birthday. I forget to mention that I was gone literally from like 7am to midnight. They werent a bunch of loser nerds, they were my friends, but I still wish I was just at home lol.

7:Talk about your biggest insecurity. I am skinny, but not fit. If I eat anything I get this like stomach and it makes me so sad. and ever since I got a job I work odd hours and I eat a lot of fast food and I’ve gained 10 pounds in 2 years and I guess i’m insecure about my weight

I am still insecure about my weight, and I probably weight like 5 pounds more than I did when I made this post 5 1/2 years ago.

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of. We have band banquets for band, and I only went my sophomore and junior year, and seniors give out awards to underclassmen that are just jokes really, and both years 4 different seniors gave me an award for being the biggest gossip in the entire band and I was proud of that lol

Well since then I have graduated both high school and college. I am proud that I finished college !! A BS in Psych. Proud of myself that I got promoted (in 2017) at my job; i’m proud of myself that I have my own apartment, and blah blah basically just doing regular adult shit.

9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. I like my nose because of how perfectly fixed it is. I also really like my freckles/moles/dark marks idk what they are exactly, but they’re on my face and they look great

I still feel the same way about this, maybe add my eyebrows- they’re not like clean and nice they’re just expression markers on my face that i love.

10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. I got into a fight with my old friend Angelica and that was almost 4 months ago and we used to be best friends and now we never talk.

When Janett didn’t talk to me all summer of 2019 because I told our other friend Angel something

11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I cant remember one 12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. I can’t remember one

13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. The closest thing i’ve had to like sex was being locked in a back of an SUV with a stranger drunk as fuck and naked and its embarrassing

Just awkward and nothing to which I expected.

14:Talk about a vacation. When I was 16, the high school band took a trip to Hawaii, and all my friends were in band so it was great. We did a lot of things, we toured Pearl Harbor and even played a few patriotic songs on the USS Miss. and our hotel was on Wakiki beach. I went snorkeling in some beautiful water and shit and idk just walked all around Hawaii having a great time omg we got on stage at the Hard Rock Cafe and sang with German people i miss it

Hm that was fun. But I.. went to NY with my ex and that was pretty cool because I literally love New York, and I went to NOLA two years ago (today actually) and got miserably drunk so that was fun too

15:Talk about the time you were most content in life. Probably just in the middle of junior year when everything and everyone was going with the flow

I feel like 2016 was a very content year because I remember nothing about it.

16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. Idk which one to talk about the one where I had a lot of fun and risked my life or the one where there was a lot of drama stirred up and drank myself to sadness.

I haven’t really been to a party? I have gone out and had good times. Really anytime my friends and I go out I am having a good time

17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with. I am already friends with people I want to be friends with

18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I kissed a boy on the back of the head and i told I just fell onto his head

Let me think of another one. Back in like fourth grade my friend was in a wheel chair and his backpack was falling from the back and I was trying to grab it and i was only 3 feet tall i couldnt see over or wasnt paying attention and i crashed him right into the bookshelves at the library.

19:Talk about something that happened in middle school. A girl was mad at me because idk why lol and she pushed me in the hall way and I fucking flew across that hall on the floor and hit the wall she’s pregnant now

When I was in 5th grade (which is considered middle school in my district) I was standing on the play ground and someone threw a stick at my head and it knocked me the fuck out and I was bleeding from my temple.

20:Talk about something that happened in high school. In Jr. Year I was pulling into the parking lot but I was texting and I accidentally put half my car on grass area near the side walk luckily it was 7am and only one person saw me do it lol

One summer going into our senior year we had a party at Michelle’s house. First of all we were very drunk and Coby’s parents were like we are coming over and we cleaned TF UP so fast and sat on the couch and turned on I Know What You Did Last Summer and his parents were like interesting and and left and then we continued to drink anyways- we started playing truth or dare and my friend Angelica was like I dare u to kiss Anthony (someone I had liked prior) and he wouldnt and we started attacking him and calling him homophobic and hitting him with pillows lmao- him and I are still friend-ish

21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I can’t think of something right now.

Literally anyone on grindr.

22:Talk about your worst fear. I’m afraid of having no career and being stuck doing something I hate and living paycheck to paycheck

Yeah, I’m scared of that still but I.. think just like being broke and jobless. RN with the pandemic we aren’t really working and still getting gov’t assistance, so. IDK being a real real adult scares me a lot.

23:Talk about a time someone turned you down. I can’t think of a time :)

One time in like 2016 maybe idk - this dude told me to come over and he lived far like not that far maybe 25 minutes lol far for me anyways I got to his apartment and there was a gate code and i asked him what it was and he didnt answer and it was like 2-3am and nobody was coming in or out and so i was like damn this sucks lmao

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Nothing really has meant a lot to me. Everyone tells me the same thing over and over again and its so surface level

I still can’t think of anything but I’m sure the friends I have met since this and my friends Faith, Michelle, Peter, and Alisa have said something supportive that meant a lot to me.

25:Talk about an ex-best friend. Angelica Ramirez. She was my best friend for only 3 years, but together we went through A LOT of shit. We started out senior year just fine, but she lied about a few things and made a lot of us feel like crap in October. I won’t lie, I do miss her. We have too many memories to just forget, too many funny stories and great adventures. She helped me with too much, and sometimes I think about how I cut her out of my life and I mad a bad choice. But only time can heal things and I have moved on and truly found people that won’t make me mad every 30 seconds.

Brianna Pajak, I don’t remember anything about her except she was poor and we stopped being friends because she always wanted to fight and be annoying.

26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay on bed on my computer and watch TV

I normally just suffer and cry about wishing I was healthy again.

27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. Their…!!>>>???

I must have nice hands and ur nose must be nice too! so nose and hands. lol

28:Talk about your fetishes. none

yeah I don’t have any lol not that I can think of.

29:Talk about what turns you on. Idk i really like kissing and touching and this is awkward.

30:Talk about what turns you off. bad breath by

that and ugly/rough hands, acne sorry i know it is natural but, shorter than me lol, white people, long hair on guys, and thats about it i think hm i am single yes

31:Talk about what you think death is like. I think its like idk its scary tho

um idk i dont like thinking about death because i literally want to cry when i think about it.

32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. I remember being in trees a lot

My step grandma’s a lot because my parents were working and she would watch us. She passed away about a month ago :(

33:Talk about what you do when you are sad. I usually only tell one person and that person is Alisa and I cry sometimes to her and expect her to make things better and she does thank u

I be doing the same thing, I text someone and that person could really be anyone but it happened the other day and I texted Bri and she was very helpful.

34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. I have no idea, I’ve never broken pulled strained twisted fractures or anything i have no life

I still haven’t done any of that stuff to my body. I also have burn scars but I did not feel those when it was happening. I would just say i guess my wisdom teeth coming in because I did not get them removed. I have 3 out lol.

35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Pushing potential love interests away

I have had some ‘love interests’ since this post, but it’s been about a year now since and I kind of push away the opportunity of getting close to someone. I also need to stop being a bitch sometimes.

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures. eating

I would say idk eating was a stupid answer.

37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. never

I was in love and i didn’t ‘think’ I was in love. I don’t know what you mean by talk about them, they were my partner but we broke up hehe.

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. Fireflies by Owl City reminds me of my 7th grade crush Fancy by Iggy Azalea reminds me of my two friends Michelle and Alisa idk anything else

um Idk. i rly cant think 39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. I wish I would have known that

That it’s okay to tell people you’re struggling lol . That is okay to fail sometimes (school). 40:Talk about the end of something in your life. everything is just about to start

When I ended how to get away with murder I wish I never did I love that show with all my heart.

#personal

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kim-inlaw · 4 years

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Morning anxiety;

Let's be okay talking about how we feel

Description: I had an anxiety attack first thing in the morning. Here's how it went, where it came from and how im dealing with it. Also mentions of the news and how that has impacted me.

⚠️ warning ⚠️ this will be long !! I hope you like stories/conversations.

Woke up this morning with an anxiety attack. When I have anxiety, I tremble and go into very uncontrollable shaking. (I've experienced these also when I'm not anxious, but rarely, since childhood. The teeth chatter, there are random shivers that jerk the body. Having one first thing in the morning is not pleasant, as it led to a pretty bad stomach ache.

I dont really talk about things like this, but I think talking about mental health should be normalized. Its nothing to be embarrassed about, we all have feelings and feel in diff ways.

Anywho, I woke up from a bad dream. It started off bearable (not so bad) and then something happened.

My dream: me and a few others (all women) were together and I believe we were working for this mysterious guy. It gave really dangerous and criminal vibes. I think we were working on an experiment (I was slacking off ofc and like I can barely tell what it was we were supposed to be doing) Next thing I know,, two big guys were chasing us. I think someone got murdered. They were trying to force us back to work and we refused (cause like its criminal or w.e) and as running i passed a room full of people who were also kept in the building against their will. I heard someone running in front of me shout "forget them, keep running"

Not only was the dream so faced paced and scary but i woke up feeling so bad. Not only was I in danger but I couldn't do anything to help others. I couldn't even give it a second thought.

Interpretation:

I feel that my anxiety and worry for the women in mexico and turkey and the black people in america and just all countries are going thru something rn. And its hard to deal with one situation (as I am black and live in America so the blm affects me) but having to think about the situation in mexico or turkey (as I am also a women), its scary. Scary to think that something like that can and is happening. Questioning, why is it happening? Not being able to do as much as i would like to help.

Parts of me just truly wish I could evaporate every ounce of hate and discrimination towards others in the world. Its honestly pointless to live that way. I can go on and on...

Now there's a lot that could be said about my dream. Truth, i was reading the news before bed (not a good idea at all). I saw posts on twitter about whats going on in México and its going on in Turkey (femicide) and idk i didn't go to sleep with such a peace of mind.

At a time like this, not only is being black a crime but so is being a women and its a global issue. Its always been a global issue and yet we have gone so long pretending it's not or ignoring it as its not our problem. Things like this should bother you no matter where you are!

If you can never see yourself in a position like the women in Turkey or Mexico or the black people in America rn, count yourself lucky/blessed/privileged!

Feelings

I woke up feeling unsafe even though I live in a pretty safe city ... well ny is not safe safe but I've been living here all my life so im well adjusted.

My anxiety was through the roof this morning. My heart and support goes out to everyone struggling, not just with their government but also those struggling with their own personal struggles and mental health.

What I'm did and doing now:

1. Youtube: I find that certain music does not help. Im so used to thinking and listening to music so I decided to watch vlogs on YouTube. Ones with less talking and lots of day to day sounds like cooking or cleaning. These sounds are relaxing and it feels less lonely early in the morning.

Youtubers I like:

Korean Vlogs: plan D, hyonyeo, nyangsoop. ( these are what I watch to calm me down)

Motivational/inspiring: Rowena Tsai, Coffee and Cashmere, thesoulsearch (what i watch when I'm low on energy or need to start something)

Fun personalities: Eric nam, Damon Dominique(if u like france, he can show you what it's like to live there), Connor Franta (fun to watch when bored or looking for new interests! They are really funny)

2. Radio show/ talk shows: Currently I catch myself in Korean hip-hop. After watching a Korean vlog and somewhat falling asleep to it, I woke up more by watching a korean radio talk show hosted by woo wonjae, Music High. Woo wonjae is a korean rapper at AOMG (ya kno Jay Park.?.) His voice is really lovely and I love him a lot cause I feel he has come far and continues to do well. I wont go into details but he deals with mental health struggles as well that i have related to.

Talk shows/ radio shows are great cause you're sitting in on a conversation. Sometimes it feels like you're apart of it. Its simple and takes away a lot of thoughts. Also helps when you feel lonely. Theres laughs and music so the overall atmosphere is warm.

Currently:

I'm still in bed, no walk today. Its a bit rainy and misty out but I actually don't mind. It's very refreshing and soothing.

I will have some tea with a muffin soon and enjoy a book.

I wish you to know, you can always share youre feelings with me. Thank you for reading this, if you did. Feel free to like or reblog or comment. Im happy to hear from you ♡

#honeydewnotes #honeydew: day in the life #college student #mental health #self care #honeydew to self #world issues #anxious #anxitey #feelings #feels #long reads #talk to me #lets talk #real talk

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finleytm · 4 years

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「 shawn mendes. cismale. he/him. 」i hope that #lexsquad member「 FINLEY MORALES 」adds me to the squad ! the 「 TWENTY-THREE 」year old 「 PHYSIOLOGY 」 major has been apart of the squad since 「 FEBRUARY 2020 」and seems to be the 「 OPTIMIST 」of the group.「 FIN 」is a「 JUNIOR 」 and seems to enjoy 「 READING IN THE LIBRARY 」but you can always find them at a squad party , too !

good evening ! i don’t have a single ounce of self control so here’s my second baby , finley , a soft lil artist + nerd who just wants everyone to be happy , but understands that that’s unrealistic so he hopes everyone is doing okay , at the very least.

STATISTICS.

full name : finley angel morales

major : physiology

orientation : panseuxal

hometown : rochester , ny.

height : 6′3

build : muscular , built.

BACKGROUND.

finley was born in portugal , but they moved when he was three so he only remembers living in new york ! his dad is from portugal and his moms from ny.

his parents met & fell in love when his mom was visiting portugal and they ended up moving back to new york after lil fin was born !

his parents were always that picture perfect kinda love that fin looked up to

and then when fin when in high school his dad kinda went off the wall , cheating and all this nonsense and oop , finley has a little half sister named flora. she’s 8 now and the cutest lil thing ever.

his parents separated for a year , but ended up getting back together. fin doesn’t exactly approve , and their marriage hasn’t really been the same since , but he doesn’t say anything about it.

other than that , fin was raised to be kind & respectful & positive. his mom is like this sweet , right light in his life. definitely a mommas boys.

fin is super , super smart ! goal wise , he’s in school to get his undergrad in physiology , and then he plans on going to med school to be a pediatric doctor bc he loves kids :( and has a knack for learning about the body & medical stuff. smart lil brain.

he also minors in art history literally for fun !!! no reason behind it. he just loves art and the history of art. he just didn’t see what being an art major would get him.

speaking of art , he’s very talented in art + loves to paint and draw. he has an instagram just for his art and he does commissions.

going to lex was a total spur of the moment decision + he hates being away from his family.

PERSONALITY.

soft. so , so soft. not incredibly gullible , but has a gentle nature.

looks on the bright side of literally everything. failed a test ? there’s always more. got your heartbroken ? time will heal that !

a very , very good friend ! will keep ur secrets. will call u when you’re bored. will buy u lunch just to be nice.

he’ll definitely stand up for himself if he needs to , but he’s more likely to stay quiet because he doesn’t like confrontation.

a lil sensitive. gets bothered easily but just gets quiet & will go away until he feels better.

has a super cute sense of humor. makes lil jokes and books and doesn’t generally think he’s funny but can tend to put a good joke out there.

generally a pretty ... Good Boy u know

doesn’t really smoke / drink / etc. he goes to parties but he’s only been drunk once in his life.

can be a little oblivious ! will have not a single clue you’re flirting with him.

blushes easily. easily intimidated.

a Bi King

HEADCANONS.

speaks english , portugese , spanish , & asl.

works at smithies when he’s not in class. !

wears sweaters even if it’s hot. or overalls.

has the MOST unruly , ridiculous hair in the world. it’s so cute but its so curly.

literally loves to read ? always reading. runs into walls bc hes walking and reading.

goes to the gym every morning at 6 am before classes.

wears contacts + sometimes wears glasses.

a bit of a perfectionist. organized notes. everything is in order. neat as fuck.

obsessed w/ disney movies and shakespeare.

a tall , soft , kind boy. :(

idk anymore im tired this is all u get rn.

CONNECTIONS.

i’m gonna make a page but for now :

someone break his heart , please. please , i’ll beg !

best friend / dorm mate !

a cute lil confidant kinda thing

a lil saucy fwb bc i feel like he’s only slept w/ like ... two people so i feel like this would be different as fuck for him ( bonus if he gets attached + they just wanna fuck ! )

a bad influence for him. god. get him drunk. get him high. something !

maybe ..... enemies ?

that’s all i got rn , but here’s his pinterest !

#lex.intro #please .... this is all i have to offer you ....

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abthepoet · 4 years

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All my friends are dead.

Something strange is trending in my life.

All my friends die.

At the beginning of my sophmore year in college, my roommate from freshman year died tragically in a single vehicle car crash. Her name was Allison Lynam. We called her Blake. She was sassy and funny and I wish I would've taken more time to know her.

The rain was torrential the night she died. I swear I've never seen it rain that hard ever again in my life. She drove to the store along Highway 36 in Long Branch,NJ. She had off campus housing that year and had to use the highway often. The road was terribly flooded the night she died. Im told she hydroplaned, spun, and T-boned the driver side smack into an electrical pole. Her family still decorates it.

At that very same moment, in my dorm room nearby, I was watching TV when the lights suddenly flickered and dimmed. A brown out.

I had no idea but that was my friend crashing into a pole and dying. She was 19 years old.

I know this because that accident happened near the mall. That accident killed the power to nearby businesses.

I later found out that the road she died on was so badly flooded, the police intended to close it. Why they didnt get to it in time, I'll never know. Maybe that's fate.

Then there was Jessica Blain. Jessica Blain was a firecracker of a human being. She was 100% unmistakable. One of the loudest, funniest, most loyal people and friends I have ever met. She was also an incredibly gifted singer and I was lucky enough to have Chorus with her. We, along with a small group of friends, founded a new greek organization on our campus, Alpha Xi Delta. We were paired up as Twins. (you can't have Bigs & Littles when you're just starting the Family Tree). We named the family we formed Fuck Up Your Shit. Because that's what we'd do for a friend. I miss her laugh most of all. It was loud and unapologetic. She was there for me, supportive, and encouraging without me ever having to ask. The night I officially finished college we all went out to the local gay club, The Colosseum. I got wasted, of course. But Jess was the person who when I shouted 'I have to pee' on the ride home, she stopped and knocked on strangers doors and asked to let me use their bathrooms. Nobody said yes so she held my hand while I peed on a fence instead. I remember the last time we spoke. She was at a concert with a mutual friend. We hadn't spoken much since I graduated, she was still in school.

She died in her dorm room bed on Halloween as a result of asphyxiation during an epileptic seizure. She was 20 years old. The news was broken to me that very same Halloween night as I floated along in NY on a concert cruise. The World/Inferno Friendship Society decided to host Hallowmas, their annual event, on a boat this year. Nothing like being trapped on a musical boat while you grieve. I had messaged her AIM late that night to say hi. She had an away message up. I may have sent a message to a dead person. I miss her friendship more than I realize sometimes.

That brings us to James Padden. James was a warm, snuggly bear of a guy who always tried to do the right thing and let me steal his hoodies. He insantly became my best friend in a Stepbrothers-esque manner. I met James working overnights at Wawa in Leonardo, NJ. I forget how it started now, but we were standing in front of the deli and I think I tossed him a broom or he already had one. . . I cant remember now.. . . but he just took one look at me with that mischievous little twinkle that I quickly returned and we instantly began sword fighting with our brooms. Like two little boys playing pretend and having a ball. He was sweet and silly and kind. I needed a ride, and he loved to drive. Our first winter as friends, we went out doing donuts in the snow. I barely knew him, but I felt safe. We smoked a ton of weed and had so many adventures trying to procure more. One time, we got so high driving to a Dropkick Murphys concert in NY we kept going in circles, missed almost the entire show save for the last 3-5 numbers, and had a blast. I can barely remember the night, but I remember laughing hard in that car. No one could talk to me like James. We were both insecure being chubby kids and adults, but so charismatic and grandiose that I sometimes thought we were the only two who would put up with listening to each others wild ideas and ridiculous banter. We would smoke joints and take adderall and talk about everything and anything. I miss the safety and closeness I felt with him. We were always 100% platonic, but we could nap together, I could walk into his house and jump on him in bed and wake him up. Then we would cook ourselves a breakfast feast and hit the beach. He taught me to always take the back roads. I gave him advice on the ladies. He taught me about fixing cars. I helped shave his back. He called his new pick up truck, a pick'um up truck. We could wax philosophical all damn day and not get sick of each other.

It wasnt just driving he loved, it was going fast. Like so many young white men, he had tendency to be a little reckless. The universe gave him a pass only so many times.

I'll never forget when he got his motorcycle. It was the last time I saw him. It was a bright green crotch rocket. He loved lime green. I was doing yoga in the living room when I heard this obnoxious engine rev down my street. I asked myself, who the hell is making this noise?! And it was James, grinning from ear to ear with a matching helmet on his shiny new toy.

before he left I said, 'you die on that thing, I'll bring you back to life and kill you." I remember giving him this very long and intentional hug and not knowing why I felt compelled to hang on.

When he left and hopped back on the bike, I felt compelled again and took a video of him riding away from my driveway until he was entirely out of sight.

That's my very last memory of him alive. James Padden died on Thanksgiving five days after his 25th birthday. He went out for a joyride on his bike before dinner, opened up to 100mph around a curve where he couldn't see a car pulling out around the bend in time. They called a medevac, but he died on scene. I loved James dearly and I regret drifting apart after we both left Wawa and I started a new relationship. He had stuff too, but in hindsight it never seems important.

Then there's JB. I will always remember JB for his kindness and generosity. The very first time I finally worked up the nerve to go to a poetry slam, I was alone and terrified. I had no idea what to expect. JB was the very first person to turn around, introduce himself, and welcome me. He made me feel like I belonged. Years later, when I won the title of Grand Slam Champion, he immediately offered to help coach me for national competition. Except, I didn't see the messages and left them unanswered, which I deeply regret. When I started hosting my own open mic a few years after that, JB would be one of the only people to consistently come support the show both as an audience member and participant. It was at a pizza joint and he would sometimes buy me food when I had no money. He wrote beautiful poems about his two young daughters and how much they inspired him. JB always tried to make people laugh but you could tell he carried a sadness. I did not get details, but from what I have gathered he made a choice to end his life. I wish I would have gotten closer to him and appreciated him more as a friend and person. I wonder if he felt no one cared about him and I feel like I should've let him know more.

Which brings us to Crys. Crystopher Anthony Diaz was a Scorpio with a big heart and a big personality. I met him on Myspace back in the day and started Web camming. We became friends and eventually fell into this gray area of friends, together, but not. It wasn't long before I was spending days at his place, killing hours at a time downloading music, making Wawa runs, and smoking weed with his roommate at the time, Syd. You know, the whole reason I worked at Wawa was Crys suggesting it. And Wawa is the reason I met James. Crys was unlike anyone I'd ever met. He was poetic and artistic and loved animals, especially pit bulls. He loved to draw and write and had this very out loud style that favored Earth tones. He taught me about fashion and insisted on getting dressed even if it was 1am and we were just going to Wawa because you never know who you might see. We would buy new clothes at Walmart and have photo shoots. That boy drank his weight in coffee daily. If it's one thing I'll always remember him for, it's the dancing. Dancing was a passion of his and always used to talk about wanting to form a dance crew. Eventually, we ended up living together for four years. My first apartment was with him in this piece of shit duplex rented to us by a slumlord in Keansburg,NJ. My relationship with him was always defined by our Aries/Scorpio dynamic and he never let me forget it. His birthday was October 30th, mischief night. One time, after we had moved into a new place, we decided to get revenge on our old downstairs neighbor by taking a finished lobster carcass and throwing it on his lawn. . . . . . . Keansburg had a terrible stray cat problem. 😁

I have so many memories with Crystopher. Unfortunately, towards the end of our relationship things became too tumultuous. We had too much unresolved baggage and trauma to find a healthy place emotionally together. We were so financially strained for a time we hardly ate. And then when he met his new girlfriend Laura, she introduced him to her good friend, Roxy. As in Roxcicet. aka Blues. Neither of us knew what that even was at the time. But he sure learned quick. He started using them pretty frequently as time went on, and things only got more complicated. My mental health took a nose dive. By the time I moved out our relationship was trash. I basically left. At the time, I didnt have a choice. things had gotten so bad between us, the money, the using . . . we didn't act like friends anymore.

I saw him a couple times at his new place but that was years ago. Since then, he went through a lot, including homelessness and more struggles with addiction to opiates. He reached out to me and sent me a message apologizing for everything a couple years back. I never responded. I was afraid I would let him back into my life and let the all the problems back in. I didnt trust where he was at in his life. We lost touch and stopped speaking.

His ex, who used to live with us and became my friend, messaged me and told me he died a few days ago. He was 35. I'm still waiting for information, but it may have been drug related. I'm not even sure where I'm at with how I feel. I know why we stopped talking. It was the right thing to do at the time. But he didnt deserve to die so young, having spent the last god knows how many months homeless. It's fucking with me so hard because we never resolved anything. I loved this person so fucking much and we never made peace. Of everyone I've lost, he was the closest to me. I've had a lot of people die on me but none that I lived with and shared a life with. I have more memories with him than I can handle and while I know we hadn't spoken in years and why, I still wish I would've said something. Done something. Yes, i needed healthy boundaries but he needed somebody. when is being firm too firm? If we would've helped, could it have been different? But we didn't want to help at the time, you try to be tough and draw a line. Be firm. Not let yourself be taken advantage of. But is that a defense? Did that defensiveness leave a human being who's head i used to scratch until he fell asleep out in the cold to get sicker and die?

What am I supposed to learn from all this Universe? Why do you take my friends so young and so tragically? I'm only 35, I'm too young to have this much loss.

Because these are just the major players I've lost. It doesnt include my cousin Jared, who died being reckless on a motorcycle at 21 two years ago. I was 15 when he was born. I loved that baby, he used to bite my nose. But his family lived far, so I rarely saw him growing up. Last time I saw him was at my grandfather's funeral. He didn't remember me and the nose biting.

And then there's Marcos who we used to chill with. He worked delivery for our favorite chinese food place. He was a nice kid who lived with his grandparents. We would get food, smoke weed, hang out a little. Even used to buy it off him for a while. Eventually he got into the opiates too, he even wound up being good friends with Crys and being Blue buddies. But eventually Marcos died from an opiate overdose. He was in his mid twenties.

I didnt want to include Ricky because he was more of an acquaintance for me, he was more my partners childhood friend. But god damn, in the time I knew Ricky that kid was a riot. He was loud and funny and definitely marched to the beat of his own drum. Drugs took him too.

Thanks for reading all this if you've made it this far. It's taken me about two hours to type this out on my phone. but i needed to. Thanks for coming to my TedTalk

#death #story #story prompt #grief #friends #loss #love #dying #grieving #sad #lessons #life lessons #writeblr #writing #compose

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rxnningfreetoday-a · 5 years

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A Series of Nice Things bc We Deserve Them

Set in Eliot's 'I got drunk married to a sports superstar wat do' verse, co-starring aftg's Kevin Day but honestly if you’re just looking for some Nice Eliot & Quentin content after that dumpster fire of a finale, i welcome you with open arms;; verse tag is here, the tl;dr is el accidentally marries a Very Famous Sports Guy while drunk in vegas and shenanigans ensue and they fall in love for real. dedicated ofc to @im-possiblelimits ♥

The 'what am I fucking doing for the rest of my life if magic never comes back' fear comes creeping back on him.

He and Kevin have multiple important conversations.

Kevin Day gives the best fucking pep talks ever. Eliot walks away from every hard conversation with him wondering how he got so lucky.

Eliot becomes a fashion designer

And hes fahcking BALLER at it !!!!!!!

He collaborates with Margo for a few collections; they become instant classics.

Margo models in like every show.

Eliot watches in Absolute pride.

Frankly???? El designs all his dresses for her specifically.

Routinely he either flies Quentin and Margo out to Chicago or goes to New York and crashes on Margo's couch.

Obviously Margo and Q stay in The Condo, in Eliot's old room which still houses a good portion of his stuff.

Once he starts raking in that Goöd designer cash, he gets them both stupid expensive gifts just cause.

"Eliot this bikini top is made from Swarovski fucking crystal"

"Eliot I CAN'T accept this case of Moët"

........"please just let me love you :( "

Of fuckin COURSE he gets box seats to a T Swift concert & takes Q along.

"How did you...?" "I'm making her a dress. Oh yeah, we're meeting tomorrow to consult and you're coming with." " .O."

This hurts extra good and cozy bc when Eliot moves from NY he makes Q promise him to always text him a singular emoji if he feels Bad(TM).

Eliot tells him that he doesn't care what time it is or what he has going on or even how bad Q feels, he'll drop just about anything.

El always texts back asking if hes up for a phone call. Usually he is; cue Eliot gently asking about what he ate last, how much he's slept, if he's taken his meds.

One time Q's completely despondent and Eliot starts racking his brain on what the next question should be when it just.......comes out of his mouth;;

I stay out too late. Got nothing in my brain. That's what people say...

"...I had no idea you knew that song."

Kevin totally hears him but thinks better of ever saying anything about it.

Margo however razzes the hell out of him (only lovingly)

Suddenly its Eliot taking Kevin to events instead of vice versa and everyone loves him

Eliot does some of his best sketch work at Kevin's practices.

Just practices tho, games are too high stakes and theres too many people around.

He always makes jokes at the end of the season about it being the end of the season for him too bc of that.

Eliot does try very very hard to balance attending exy games & practices and his own shit.

He's way more willing to go to a game than go to an event alone; he'd so much rather go with Kevin especially as he cuts his drinking back to almost nothing.

The exceptions tend to be when Margo (and Q) are in town. He's been known to bring them both.

Since its years later and his romantic feelings for Q are p much buried he gets a special kind of resentful about the fact that he can't just take Q to an event without it being An Issue(TM).

Even when it's the 3 of them, rumors fly. Eliot's extra conscious of his body language at that point and hates that he has to be.

He gets completely mortified one day bc of a hickey-slip that the press asks Kevin about.

"We think Q left it, what do you have to say?"

Kevin, raising his eyebrows: "No that was definitely me...."

Eliot, putting his head in his hands: "Ohhhhh my god....." -Can we get back to politics (please?)-

Q thinks the rumors are kind of funny He gets asked about it and hes just like "you've SEEN Kevin, right? Like......there's no competing with that, El's a lucky guy."

Really who doesn't think Kevin's hot?????? ofc Q’s not immune

Idk how but through sheer force of will Q and Kevin become friends

(or at least friendly-ish, which for Kevin? Fucking huge.)

Like obviously its nowhere near the level of friendship between Eliot and Q but Somethin noice happens there however many years later.

Q goes thru a bad breakup sometime down the line. Eliot asks Kevin if it's okay to fly him in.

Kevin patiently tells him that he doesn't need to ask that anymore.

Eliot's floored bc hes never actually been with a guy who was so secure????? It gives him a lot of feelings about being trusted and loved and accepted for who he is and how he expresses his affection.

Idk all I can think of is it being like Friday night and the 3 of them are on the couch together.

Q's sad and sleepy, his head on Eliot's lap, barely registering the Buffy episode El put on. Eliot's leaning against Kevin's shoulder, one hand holding his and the other absently playing with Q's hair, snarking lovingly every few minutes about the campiness.

Q apologizes to Kevin privately later on because oh god his head was just in his husband's lap and that's Super Weird, sorry....

That's probably about the time Kevin decides earnestly that Q's alright.

Idk how but SOMEHOW Eliot's left with a toddler for a minute and we all cry together in this chili's

I decided its Q's, let Q be a dad tbh. He's together with Eliot's makeup artist who was a single father before Q came into their lives.

Anyway Eliot’s sketching--like always. He hands over his notebook for color palette planning and a few colored pencils. "You wanna color with me?"

Everything's fine until bab starts Screamin.

(Gentle voice) "What's wrong?" [Screaming] "You hungry?" [No.] "Are you thirsty?" [No] "Are you tired?" [Soft affirmative noises] "Let's take a little nap then."

Eliot just picks bab up with so much care and love in his eyes, holding them gently and off on a mission to find either a guardian or a soft reclining chair.

Kevin witnesses all of this and is probably pretty sure he's never seen anything more wholesome in his damn life.

Kevin's most likely the one who suggests kids (I'm guessing he's retired)

Eliot probably would have but he just doesn't even think about it?? And then Kevin says in so many words that he'd be a good father and Eliot just about loses it

I can't decide if their kid's definitely a jock or definitely not a jock. Maybe they're a dancer?

Regardless, they're both endlessly supportive

Eliot of fucking Course joins the PTA.

His gym buddies flip their collective shits.

He's really out here advocating for good sex ed & preserving arts in schools bc hes a fuckin hero

Also family vacations to Everywhere but especially beachy places!!

#the magicians #eliot waugh #quentin coldwater #special focus on q because honestly that boy needs nice things and i'd give him all of them if i could #eliot verse || you and me could write a bad romance #eliot & kevin || light will fade & i will stay here with you #eliot said fuck canon so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

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cubansandwichfestival · 6 years

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Paul Calderon and David Zayas

Victor Padilla: Were going to talk about the Divine Horsemen and many things I definitely want to al about that and promote it on our online magazine. S tell us how you guys started, you guys started this like way back? What year was it that you actually started or go the idea to do the Divine Horseman?

Paul Calderon: 1995

Victor Padilla: 95 wow, and what was the inspiration behind it?

Paul Calderon: uh we needed a play to open the season with hah, we didn’t have one haha

Victor Padilla: So whose idea was it, both of you guys got together and created it or?

David Zayas: No, I was really just starting out I hadn’t really done much when and Paul wrote this I wasn’t going to be in it I was going to be the stage manager of it, that had to be 1995, but circumstances happened that the actor that was playing the role of Iffy which Im playing now, he couldn’t do it, so I jumped in and it was a really great experience.

Victor Padilla: Wow, tell us a little about the show and the baseline of it, the purpose behind it

Paul Calderon: Back then or now?

Victor Padilla: Well back then and then now, kind of like a recap Paul Calderon: Well back then again I was working on a novel and my wife was the artistic director of the theatre company at the time and I said listen you need a play to open the season with, you don’t have one, turn those ideas that you are working on in the novel into a play and I wrote it like in a couple of weeks and lucky for me I had great talent behind me, you know David was able to step in to take over a very challenging role, we had John Ortiz, Phillip Seymore Hoffman, and you know, we had a great experience we did a workshop and the response was great, and then shortly after it was auctioned off, it just didn’t go the way that I envisioned it, because all of a sudden the Latino characters were turned into something else, I took the rights back and shelved it. Then this past year David and my wife coerced me into bringing it back.

Victor Padilla: That’s cool, so David, tell us where your from and a little bit of your family history

David Zayas: Well my parents were born in Puerto Rico and I was born in the Bronx and raised in the Bronx and yea over by I grew up by southern blvd over there and when I got older we moved to the Soundview section of the Bronx. And yea that where I grew up. I come from a really strong influence Puerto Rican background, still am, still living in the Bronx, I’m living in the ghetto right now, things are going good got into acting late in life, joined the air force when I was 18, came back became a cop for NY for 15 years, then started acting.

Victor Padilla: So playing police parts is easier for you for or is it weird?

David Zayas: None of it is easy really, you know certain things come easy, the jargon, the police jargon, comes more naturally to me maybe more than someone else you know, but It all boils down to the specificity of what was written for you and you try to make that true as you can

Victor Padilla: Yea that’s true, and Paul tell us a little about your history and stuff which I already know but let’s talk about it hehe

Paul Calderon: I was born in Puerto Rico, I came here when I was 6 I didn’t know any English, my uncles kept stressing when I would speak to them in Spanish and they would say to speak in English but I didn’t know any English. It was rough coming here because there was no bilingual education in school back then, it was pretty tough. You know the public school in New York back then in the 50s were pretty rough you know but it gave me a lot to draw from for characters in the future.

Victor Padilla: And things are so different with school now a days you know and kids are going to grow up with hunchbacks because they’re all hunched over looking at their phones hahahha.

So David tell us a little about what your inspiration was to get into acting what and who inspired you

David Zayas: I think I was 12 when I went to see Dog Day Afternoon, and I was like oh wow I don’t know what’s going on but I kind of want to get involved in whatever the experience Im going through in this moment with this film and from there it was always in the back of my mind, I wanted to be involved somehow. You know then life takes over and you put it on the back burner and then when I was like 29 I said you know I’m going to give it a shot. Started going to acting classes and getting involved with everything that was there at the time that I was able to get involved with, I had to surround myself with people that I saw had took this seriously and was going to teach me how to have a good work ethic. I’m a good observer.

Victor Padilla: So Paul tell us a little about your inspiration and what got you started into acting..

Paul Calderon: You know I was always a movie buff, my mom was very strict and sometimes she wouldn’t let me go out especially when we came to this country. I used to spend hours and hours watching movies on tv because back then it was just movies around the clock. Then my mom and my step dad, we would go to the movies religiously on the weekends, and I remember seeing Viva Zapata, Shane, The Blob, a whole bunch of great films, and back then, before the movies would begin, they would part the curtains, and it would be such an experience I remember asking my mom “do these actors know each other?” Haha. I told her I think I wanna be an actor I must have been 6 or 7. Then it went on the backburner for years.

Victor Padilla: So David tell us about a something funny that happened during filming…

Paul Calderon: Funny moments, I have so many of them. I think filming a scene where I come out of the car with my gun running after somebody and had a woman come and put her arms around me because she recognized me and having to yell cut, and then I have the gun in my hand so it was weird and funny

Victor Padilla: So Paul tell us a funny moment

Paul Calderon: Well my wife is here so she recently pointed out this moment, I was doing Sea of Love with Pacino in 89, and we were shooting by west 86th st it was like 2 in the morning and we had a break we had a dinner break, at 2 in the morning, Pacino says, Im going to Hermes which was this famous restaurant on 72nd st and Broadway, hahah we all started running after him because he’s walking down the block to get in the cab and I push my wife to the side and start running after Pacino to go to Hermes with him hahhha!

Victor Padilla: Did she yell bring me something back hahah

Paul Calderon: She was pissed hahaha

Victor Padilla: So tell us a little bit about where Divine Horsemen is showing and how people can get tickets and stuff and where to go online

David Zayas: Well we have one more week left, from the 4th through the 27th and its at Access Theatre, on the 4th floor, tickets are $25.oo, they can visit our website: https://divinehorsemen.brownpapertickets.com, itll sell out quick so buy the tickets

Victor Padilla: Are you only doing it there are you going to start doing it out of state in different locations

Paul Calderon: The reason why we went ahead with the interview is that were open to move it to continue with it.

Victor Padilla: Now we come down to the very important question for both of you which is : What is your favorite Latino food and do you love Cuban sandwiches?

David Zayas: Where you at, are you in Miami?

Victor Padilla: No, No, I am 5 hours away from Miami but Im a Tampa boy, Im from Tampa, Ybor city area.

Paul Calderon: You mentioned the Cuban sandwiches before Victor hahahha

David Zayas: You know listen, its always been a favorite of mine the arroz y habichuelas con pernil, I don’t say no to that wherever Im at and if its done good its even better. Ive curved on that recently trying to keep my weight down.

Victor Padilla: Yea that’s a hard one to resist, any latin food lol. So do you like Cuban Sandwiches?

David Zayas: I do like Cuban Sandwiches, not a big pickle fan, and they usually put pickles in it, but I can get used to a good Cuban sandwich

Victor Padilla: Good! And Paul

Paul Calderon: Probably my favorite latin food now that I think about it is when my mom would make arroz con gandules y carne guisada.

Victor Padilla: So who in your lifetime guys has been your hero or inspiration in Life

David Zayas: That’s a very objective question, I think that it would be my father, because of the amazing work ethic that kind of brushed off on me, the responsibility. There is a lot of family members that Ive observed that have had a positive influence on me

Paul Calderon: Positive impact? Early on I can’t say I had too many. I had to get through a lot on my own. I had some Uncles that were cool guys but some of their habits were not something to emulate, so years later in life when I met someone that was a beautiful spirit I was able to learn from later on in life, he has since has passed he wasn’t an actor, he was just a beautiful spirit and I was able to learn how to work others through him you know.

Victor Padilla Speaks with Puerto Rican Actors Paul Calderon and David Zayas Paul Calderon and David Zayas Victor Padilla: Were going to talk about the Divine Horsemen and many things I definitely want to al about that and promote it on our online magazine.

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