i was thinking about why the miscommunication trope works so well in ACOFAF but not in a bunch of other media, and then i realized

when a character in ACOFAF misinterprets a situation, they always come to a wrong but logical conclusion.

im specifically thinking about Hob and the duel, but it applies to pretty much everything. the conclusions the characters come to make sense and could very well be what transpired, they just aren’t.

miscommunication is so aggravating because it always boils down to characters being dense and stupid and oblivious for no goddamn reason, and here, we have a goddamn reason!

i hope i never stop being amazed at the power of latent learning, like wow how cool is it to practice something a little bit, take a long break so it can sink in, and then return and do it beautifully??? amazing phenomenal and so so cool

[ FAN-MADE OC ] Tategokoge

finally! i was able to post them now that i have finished making a second reference sheet for this little goober that is now up to date since i have changed a few bits in their design. with that out of the way, i'd like all of you to meet tategokoge, the deer ratatan!

also look! they got a written info for once - i guess you could say this is the first time where the post of the character i shared finally includes an actual written information about them. i still need to try and do more of these for my other OCs if i ever got around to posting them but otherwise, this is their info so far:

PLAYSTYLE tategokoge is a deer ratatan who specializes in crowd control. they use their melodium, a green bazooka/rpg/rocket launcher harp, to deal attacks that cover a wide range of area and also has a high damage, making them easily take out larger groups of enemies. their attacks also have a chance to inflict a burning status effect to chip out extra damage - that makes it so that if there's any living enemies that some how manage to tank out the damage, them getting burned will finish them off.

their weakness is that they have no regard of their safety because their main focus is to take down as many enemies as they can. they are slightly slow, and because of it they have a good chance to not move out on time to dodge oncoming attacks. tategokoge's reaction time is also delayed, making them vulnerable and become overwhelmed if a swarm of enemies comes in their way and if they are on a bad spot. their strength only shows if they attack from afar, and can only live if there is a tanker (and a healer for extra safe measure) to escort them to another place.

PERSONALITY they are an ambivert! introvert leaning, that is.

tategokoge would not hesitate to converse with others if they happen to cross the same paths as each other. at first, they are usually awkward - they often are always careful on the words they so choose as to not give off a first bad expression, but it makes them hesitant and would take a bit for them to respond something until they have an idea on what to say next. they are also sensitive, and it only takes a one mean sentence to get them to run off crying. sometimes, their worries would get the best of them, shutting themselves off from everyone else until they think it's ready to let themselves bloom out again.

I am saying all of this as a fat person btw before anyone gets on my ass abt being fetishistic. I dont care and i think u too should be fetishistic abt fat people.

Why do you think Blazblue made Celica both the Sister who raised the siblings, AND some weird time travel love interest for Ragna? Did they just shoehorn Ragna into phase shift and that dynamic just got so popular they shoved it into Chronophantasma? Did they think Ragna’s development needed to be with his family but they have their own plots so they make Celica into the Sister, but NEVER have the characters piece it together ON SCREEN in a way that changes their dynamic?

i kept meaning to answer this and forgetting bc my brain has been soup for the past like WEEK but oh my god its so weird. its very blatantly both trying to give him relevance in a side material and also tie the side material into the main story better and make it plot relevant in chronophantasma all at the same time and it just falls flat horribly and comes off severely contrived. that entire scene in cp would be so extremely improved if rather than sending ragna back in time via the cauldron he just like. idk the boundary can do a lot of shit we dont even know about. it'd be a hell of a lot better if bloodedge was a completely separate guy so that negates the weirdness of celica's attraction to him then vs now and solves the like... what. 5 separate goddamn paradoxes the existence of bloodedge as a character separate from ragna causes? the LEAST of which is where his jacket and sword come from. blazblue loves its recursive paradoxical time loops so much.

making celica the sister is such a weird can of worms that honestly would be fine IF they didnt make her also have a crush on him in her chronophantasma body. thats the fuckin odd part. sure she doesnt have the memories of the now-dead nun that raised ragna and his siblings BUT it still feels weird because don't he AND jin during the whole takemikazuchi disaster at the climax of chronophantasma look at her and recognize that it's the sister and then just like.. its left at that. ragna never acted particularly romantically toward her in the first place thank god but her lack of awareness of the situation is the weirdest part. hes his usual trying-to-be-aloof-on-purpose self about it and when kokonoe blackmails him into celica tagging along with him its literally just. "you cant fight dumbass stay behind me" thats it. yeah she doesnt know and all and remembers him-as-bloodedge from her time that she had a crush on but like. she doesnt.. have to be unaware. its a really weird plot contrivance that doesnt sit right to just have another love interest that comes off really weirdly not only for the story but for the fuckin guy writing it

shout out to everyones who's brains and nervous systems have been wrecked by stressors + the state of the internet + everything else going on. I promise we'll adapt and I promise things will be alright, focus on making good small decisions to protect your well-being like cutting certain platforms (instagram, twitter, whatever you feel like) and having a look through your follow list to see if unfollowing some people might help. try giving your brain a rest by letting yourself be bored some times. try doing a puzzle or a physical task without a podcast or music or netflix drama. consider not clicking on that expose video of someone you dont know. hesitate before telling someone off in the comments or joining in on an online argument that you can opt out of. protect yourself so you can make your world a better place. push yourself when needed. cut the onslaught of overstimulation where you can, if you want.

I am saying this as someone who's never felt at home irl, with adhd and dyspraxia, general awkwardness, chronic depression, struggles with regulation and im sure a bunch of other things. I really struggle reducing screen time because it often feels like the outside world rejects me, I'm sure some of you relate to that, but I'm taking small steps to make things easier for me in the long run and day to day. it doesnt matter if we don't reach some end goal of total and complete peace and purity or whatever, all that matters is that we're choosing to be more mindful of how we navigate this world of constant stimulation. and i fully believe in all of us :)

did u know i adore u, like did u know that

Who doesn't, honestly? I'm adorable.

I carry so much shame and sadness for my parents surrounding my disability. it's strange because I do recognize my own pain, but I also see them having to deal with this and what it means, seeing me in difficult states in a new light, seeing me require new experiences (like sitting more frequently, vocalizing my needs more in general, asking for disability accomodations). and I do feel like I've let them down, even if they tell me they didn't have any expectations to begin with, I have to explain to them that good health is an expectation (and that it's untrue that they didn't have any expectations of me, everyone has hopes and dreams for their kids). I see so much of their pain and grief and confusion and fear and guilt. My dad seems to carry so much guilt with him and oscillate between trying to accept and understand that these are my life conditions and denying that reality, saying I don't need to live in that reality if I don't want to and I can do anything I set my mind to doing. And it's just so frustrating and heartbreaking having your own struggles with disability, that are internalized most of the time, be spoken out loud by the voice of the person who put those ideas in your head in the first place, not trying to be malicious but trying to get you to succeed.

although i guess a point to me being genuinely kind of offline is i once had a job interview and they asked me what i would make as reels for their corporate instagram and i had to ask them what reels were

WELP i finished episode 1 of a league of their own. you People. Get In ON THIS. THE WOMEN. THEY ARE REAL !!!!!!

so much british wildlife is incredibly widespread and generically eurasian / even generically eurasian-american (ie red foxes) that i forget there are actually things we have that most of the world doesn't. just saw a bunch of ppl in the comments of a video of a european robin like "WHAT IS THAT :O" like..... it's a robin??? is this your first robin!!! oh my god

just got a 13k word update for a story i am obsessed with that was last updated in 2015 so, uh. yeah. don’t mind me, i’m just reading this as slow as i can to savour the fuck out of it.

if I single-handedly have to make "assisting your loved one in the shower" an established trope, with God as my fucking witness I'll do it. I will etch our names in the ruins with blood

as a fellow introvert; we are social creatures. introverts who purposefully see no one for months on end are usually just in a cycle where its been so long since they’ve hung out that it’s too intimidating for them to do anymore. i 100% feel tired after hanging out with my friends but i DO also feel happy and refreshed! tl;dr - you’re super normal lol. try to reach out to a couple people just to chat this week <3

thanks for reaching out I really appreciate it❤️ but I have to rant a bit. I allow you to ignore it!

I wish to not be a social creature because going too long without having a friend to talk to or not having someone to talk with almost daily feels bad and it's so hard to have a friend when I need one D:

i've been reaching out to people for the last few weeks or so but they don't reach back. try playing games with people but they play with their other friends or dont feel like playing. invite people to hang out but they say maybe and never give an answer or don't respond.

I don't want to bother my closest friends in our group chat too much in our group chat but the chat is mostly me sending messages with no response and even couple times saying I need a friend when I was having bad days but they didn't want to chat and I dont want to force anyone to entertain my lonely depressed ass. (especially when all I really needed was to talk about the new star rail stuff to distract me but I don't think they've finished it yet so I don't want to spoil) they live together so they always have to socialize and probably make each other tired without needing to add me to it.

so i've also been trying to reach out to new people, like joining twitch chats again for the first time in years. but that never goes well and doesn't satisfy my social needs. too many people talking at once and being the new person no one cares about and all....getting to know a new is very exhausting. but it's so hard to just be able to skip all that getting to know each other stuff jump straight into talking about a thing we both like (in this case it's star rail and cosplay and maybe art) I don't have enough already-known people to reach out to and i'm too tired to do the small talk dance until it's appropriate to jump into special interest territory. being autistic is so exhausting. I with to be one of those rare autistics I sometimes hear about that have 0 interest in social interaction at all

so as you can see, i'm trying. so hard. to the point I'm exhausting myself. it's been too much work for no payoff and makes things feel worse when the outcome isn't what I need and its constant reaching with no one grabbing my hand back. so I keep making annoying tumblr posts about it. i'm so sorry to anyone that reads my nonsense 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 this is a normal thing with me but it's usually kept to my other blog that's reserved for more serious posts like this but I tried posting here as a way to "reach out" and see if it invites any friendly friends or something but I don't think i'm doing it right...

(but I am going to a con tomorrow with someone I haven't talked to in like 2 years. but we don't have anything in common anymore so theres not much to talk about. he's the only person who responded to me after trying to reach out for like a month but I fear it will only exhaust me being around too many people and not help this gross need to have a deeper connecting socialization D:)

it's still insane to me that people think about me and talk about me while I'm not around

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