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joyboyish · 11 months

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ok im going to do my straw hats sexualities and gender post now so.

luffy - aroace! he doesnt experience any romantic or sexual attraction, but he does make/laugh at sex jokes like a 12 year old boy would. he also doesnt really understand gender so he identifies as a man cuz thats what every one refers to him as but if you used any other pronouns with him he wouldnt correct you. when ivankov was talking about destroying gender norms he thought gender norms was like a really strong pirate tbh. or when bon clay said he was gay and bigender he thought that was like an ethnicity or some shit. if you came out to him he'd be like "oh really? im from dawn island wheres lesbian?"

zoro - unlabled! he has attraction to all genders but hes too lazy to figure out an exact gender its an "i might be bisexual but im too busy sword training to care" kind of thing, he doesnt really care for gender very much, hes amab and identifies as a man but if you used they/them on him he'd be fine. do NOT use she/her though he doesnt like that. hes also demisexual tho! (doesnt experience romantic or sexual attraction with out forming a strong emotional bond)

nami - a lesbian among lesbians. a women lover above all things. she doesnt try to hide it either. she doesnt really care for gender and is very happy with her identity as a women, but she also uses they/them sometimes when shes feeling silly

usopp - gay man. gay as hell. so fucking gay. him and nami are wlw mlm HOSTILITY. he uses all pronouns though, he couldnt really care less honestly

sanji - BISEXUAL. he had a talk w ivankov post time skip and kind of had internalized homophobia/transphobia and was like "all men get attracted to other men but that doesnt make you gay bro." and ivankov had to sit him down and bring the news to him like telling a child santa isnt real. he uses all pronouns.

chopper - likes other reindeer no matter the gender. ask him for his pronouns tho and he'd be like "oh im cis! if you are trans i can get you some testosterone or estrogen shots though!" good doctor

robin - bisexual, couldn't care less about the gender of her partner, she'd love them regardless. shes a trans women! chopper is always delicate with her estrogen shots and gives her fun bandaids in silly shapes and ALWAYS at the same time because one time she mentioned how before she joined the strawhats she would have to go without estrogen for long periods of time and when she did get to use it, it was rushed and she put it in at weird angles

franky - another trans bisexual, round of applause everyone! trans male, when he got hit by that train and started making himself a robot it was his OPPORTUNITY!!!!! his robot body automatically gives him t shots whenever hes due so he doesnt need choppers help until he needs to refill it.

brook - hes bisexual with a fem lean, no care for gender. hes one of those elder gay guys whos like "omg im so happy you get to do this now, we didnt have that when i was young"

jinbe - cishet but SUPER aggresive ally. one of those gay dads that wear rainbow socks around all the time and whenever he sees like pride merch he points to whichever crew member is next to him and is like "do we get this". the answer is always no. hes like a proud dad tbh. if someone said something homophobic around him he'd sit them down and educate them. alternatively if luffy hears someone say something about fishmen he'd just beat them up

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trannydykepuppybot · 7 months

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How do robots have gay sex?

(Im a visual learner btw)

My favorite method is disassembling or being disassembled by my partner, one's manipulators reaching inside the other's open chassis, touching their every innermost component and seeing exactly how they work, fine-tuning them and maybe even replacing some parts with their own, inextricably linking them.

Also cumming inside their reactor, that too.

Also the disassembly may or may be extremely violent.

#robot girl #t4t wlw

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transbeeduo · 4 months

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you were in my dream btw last night and you said that cbeeduo diddid NOT have gay sex and they were both asexual and also Michael wasnt actually their child because actually, Michael is a robot. and i guess you just thought Bug was adopted or smth. why are my dreams like this

HELP????????????????? im flattered that my evil shadow clone made its way into ur dream this is so funny

#asks #anonymous #favorites

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transjudas · 8 months

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top 5 MCR songs (bear in mind I do not know any so any background you feel like giving will be enjoyed)

a devastating question

You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us in Prison: it’s catchy as hell, about a dude in prison having gay sex and the lines “Well, I miss my mom. Will they give me the chair?” coming one after the other without a pause from gerard is one of those moments that just slams me into the ground cause it’s this innocent child like statement vs him asking if he’ll be executed by electric chair. bonkers.

the jetset life is gonna kill you- simply for the way gerard’s voice goes up when he sings “slip into the tragedy”. it’s beautiful and haunting and i’m so sad we didn’t get to hear it on tour.

it’s not a fashion statement it’s a death wish: THIS HOLE YOU PUT ME IN WASNT DEEP ENOUGH AND IM CLIMBING OUT RIGHT NOW YOURE RUNNING OUT OF PLACES TO HIDE FROM ME

the sharpest lives: it’s not even about the lyrics for this one. there’s so much building in action and emotion in this. all of the black parade is theatrical but this one especially for me makes me feel like i’m on a stage performing when i sing along.

destroya- genuinely so sexy. about a robot savior that citizens of battery city in the danger days universe worship and believe will return and save/liberate them that’s been unoperational or whatever for a long time. but it’s also just. sexy. the moans. my god. 2019 reunion show performance his legs were trembling. insane.

#hi this was so hard #thank u for asking!#asks

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doctorwhoisadhd · 4 months

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you know in 2016 i was like 13 and a baby queer and i was SO excited for class but i couldnt watch it bc it wasnt on bbcamerica yet and like. now that im finally watching it im not gonna lie its a little. disappointing. like im only on episode 4 but like . my mom said it was a weird show (she was in the room when we watched the first episode) but like it. like. isnt. and thats sort of the problem yk? like . its a dr who spinoff obviously its gonna be weird but like. No It Aint compared to either the main show or the other 2 spinoffs?? like

sja: ooh one of the characters was Never Born! ooh evil clown episode! ooh mind control amulet that makes ur dad do silly and / or lowkey evil stuff! ooh robot dog shows up at the last minute to save the gang from the mona lisa! and then theres the trickster stuff which is quite literally just like: Hey. Wouldnt it be fucked up if you woke up one day and ur best friend was gone and nobody knew who u were talking about and ur other friend has no idea who u are anymore and thenYOU never existed too???

torchwood: blah blah 5 bisexuals etc etc but like also: there are 2 different episodes where one specific one of them has a whirlwind gay romance in the past. the first 5 words in the episode 2 description on hbo max is "an alien addicted to sex". and it still manages to be silly goofy and have fun character beats and stuff while being dark and edgy and "everyone gets covered in blood and shot" and shit.

but like idk class is like. disappointing. like it feels really normal and really predictable and very mainstream and its like . idk . just like even with the april stuff its like. it just makes me dislike her. it doesnt show anything about what sges thinking . she jsut gets taken over and its like "oh shes fighting the shadow king!" but shes not though shes just becoming him. ina super unfun way where she doesnt have any input or show any emotions or anything.

its just. disappointing like i want to love class SO BAD and there are some genuinely very cool moments and interesting character beats but. it just doesnt feel.... like its trying to get me to like the characters i guess? and it especially sucks bc i could probably forgive all this if any of the characters was a character who i already knew and liked from dr who.

#co-owner of a lonely heart #class #ari opinion hour #not bonff

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cyberdragoninfinity · 1 month

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*slides in, falls over a table* so I heard you like zoneporia :3

(you actually got me pretty on board with it and I just wanna hear you ramble about it, only if you want to though)

YESS....HAHA, YESS!!!!!!!!!!! <--*WITH EACH PERSON ZONEPORIAPILLED BY MY HAND I GROW STRONGER*

i tend to fare better with specifics rather than just broad rambles, especially being just not a very shipbrained person in general, but hmm....mm....... god I just like them. So Much. I love you old people I love you the marriage of flesh and machine under the embrace of divinity i love your God and His Most Loyal Archangel i love you MESSY NASTY BREAKUPS!!!!

I'm an aro/demiromantic Aporia truther, i'll analyze ships through the lens of the beautiful ways aromantic people love and interact with the people they care about until i collapse into the earth, and there is never not something that warms me very deeply thinking about Aporia going through life under the assumption the feelings he felt for Eurea were a once in a lifetime occurrence, only to find a spark of joy and companionship once again decades later amidst a Polycule of THe Oldest Men You Can Possibly Imagine. In the glory of a man seeing himself as God. Aporia THE 'not romantic not platonic but a secret third thing (so devoted the lines blur)' of all time to me. He gave Z-one everything. Z-one gave him everything he could. they are both such deeply fucked up miserable unwell people and in the wake of Paradox and Antinomy's deaths they deserve only each other. Miss me with "first loves," we're on LAST LOVES NOW!!! A love burning in the embers of the literal last two people alive on Earth!!!! Z-one's chasing an Aporia that died However the Fuck Long Ago while the Aporia he brought back carries every weight asked of him and wants nothing but to share the hope he was reminded of with Him.

and z-one FUCKING KILLS HIM FOR IT!!! LIT HIM ON FIRE IN FRONT OF CHILDREN!!! YEAH SURE I'LL BE NORMAL ABOUT THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im just obsessed with them. it's my god given duty to hook people on this dynamic that's just THERE. IN THE TEXT. MESSY AND VIOLENT AND TRAGIC. Their duel is the visual yugioh equivilent of your parents having a fight in the kitchen. Live performance of "The Chain" (Fleetwood Mac) ass duel. Divorce is real in Yugioh 5D's. They make me sick in the head and I cannot apologize anymore for this. Z-one doing delicate mechanical operation on Aporia's beat up robot body is one of Yugioh's most absolute This Too Can Be Gay Sex scenes. christ alive. and now theyre back in Duel Links and their entire dynamic is getting localized and it's making me explode.

ETERNAL FRIENDS. THEY WOULD FIND AND DIVORCE AND/OR KILL EACH OTHER IN EVERY LIFETIME. GRANDPA AND GRANDMA. GOD AND HIS PET LIGER. ZONEPORIA HOPELESSSHIPPING NUMERO UNO!!!!!

#VERY scattered but just. some thoughts. they make me fucking crazy. thank you!!!#asks #ygo posting #zoneporia #hopelessshipping #anonymous #iliasterliker9000 #i need to make a shareable abridged version of my zoneporia playlist and slam it over everyone's head.#happy belated international kiss an italian day

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majjiktricks · 1 month

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Metal Gear!!

YIPPEEE TY FOR SENDING IT IN

Favorite character:

kazuhira miller my beloved

Least Favorite character:

oh man. i think most of the characters are pretty cool, or im at least neutral on. hm. even the awful evil villains i find really interesting. i guess i can collectively say the b&b corps? i thought they were just boring, overdramatic fanservice.

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon):

❤️vkaz❤️ (venom snake/kaz miller)

otasune (solid snake/otacon)

solimiller (solid snake/kaz miller)

strangeboss (dr strangelove/the boss)

the insane mess that is bbvocelhira (big boss/venom snake/ocelot/kaz miller)

Character I find most attractive:

KAZ MILLER 😳 fucking. gender goals.

Character I would marry:

venom snake. or solid snake. both prime husband material ❤️

Character I would be best friends with:

otacon or mei-ling. i think we would get along very well :3 two very big nerds and also probably two of the sanest ppl in the series 😂

A random thought:

if you like mgs youll probably like no more heroes. begging more people to play them.

An unpopular opinion:

im not even sure this is an unpopular opinion but. i dont give a shit about the good queer rep/bad queer rep arguments. its a 30+ year old series with the majority of the games coming out before 2010. none of these characters are gonna be handled well. i still think the canon/subtextually queer characters are really interesting, even if they fall prey to stereotypes or the whole "queer-coded villain" thing (or in the case of metal gear where a not insignificant amount of the villains are explicitly queer)

or the ppl who get upset that ocelot HAS to be gay. why do you care. if someone wants to make him bi, let them. it doesnt hurt you. hes still queer either way.

My canon OTP:

i would argue otasune is basically canon. they adopted a daughter together.

if thats not good enough, then bbkaz 👍 awful awful couple and theyre so funny about it. they even had sex under a box on the beach.

Non-canon OTP:

vkaz. insane premise for a ship and i love it so much. what if i thought you were my lost love and you look and sound and act just like him but when i realize ive been tricked i vow to kill him (not you, just him). i love him and therefore i love you (i do.), i hate him and therefore i hate you (do i?).

Most badass character:

jetstream sam. guy does all that with no cybernetic enhancements (aside from the one arm he had to have replaced). (he wears a sort of power suit instead, whereas all his teammates are full on insane robot bodies. underneath his suit is mostly flesh and bone.)

Pairing I am not a fan of:

rairose. i just dont get it.

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another):

ROSE AND NAOMI AND MERYL. they really dont know how to handle women 😭

Favourite friendship:

SUNNY AND RAIDEN 🥺🥺🥺

also raiden and blade wolf. very funny banter.

if the formatting is fucked up. im on mobile rn im sorry 💔

questions from here !!!

#jazz noises #inbox #metal gear #thelocalmuffin

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wangxianficfinder · 2 years

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Fic Finder

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1. hi, mods and everyone, thanks for all the great recs and finds! i have a request for the fic finder, if that’s ok. it’s canon divergent, i guess? or maybe a canon au would be a better description. wwx is a man out of time. he’s frozen in the past, then is defrosted in the future (@ cloud recesses, pretty sure). in any case, it’s future!lwj who helps him recover and reintegrate. does this sound familiar to anyone? i’m kind of starting to think i either imagined it or took a plot i read in another fandom and imposed the mdzs charas on it lol. however this turns out, thank you all very much for your time and help

FOUND! Alexandria by LilyMaxwell (T, 23k, wangxian, scifi au, time travel, romance, fluff, hurt/comfort)

NOT FOUND! Do androids dream of Lan Wangji? by DizziDreams (T, 27k, wangxian, scifi au, everybody is a robot au, android WWX, android LWJ, minor violence)

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2. henlo! im looking for the fic were WWX was clueless that he was pregnant. its in modern era where he and LWJ was in some sort of fuck buddy relationship. then he just felt diff in months but never realize he was pregnant. he ended up giving birth in their apartment, and in a sequel it happened once again but instead he was already married.

FOUND? Blood, Google, and Love by Prairie_Grass (E, 4k, wangxian, modern w/ magic, ABO, getting together, mpreg, fluff & angst, semi graphic description of giving birth) and it’s inspired by fic Surprise Baby! by trulywicked (M, 10k, wangxian, modern w/ magic, ABO, established relationship, unplanned mpreg, accidental baby acquisation, birthing scene)

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3. Dear, wangxianficfinder. I am in need of your assistance. I seem to have lost the link to a series where Wangxian are both females, Lan Zhan is a CEO while Wei Ying is her secretary, and they were childhood friends. There are two main scenes that stick out: One where Lan Zhan threw down Jin Guangshan for groping Wei Ying in one story and Wei Ying getting her hand stuck in a vending machine in a another. Please wangxianficfinder collective, you're my only hope! I couldn't find it on my own! @kaitou-cure-prism12

FOUND! Beautiful mess, a colourful wreck by covalentbonds (Not rated, 12k, wangxian, rule 63, fluff & humor, mild smut, childhood friends, first meetings, evil vending machines)

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4. Hello wonderful mods of this blog, I have lost a fic I want to reread and I hope you can help me. All I can recall is the beginning of the fic where Wei Ying, Lan Zhan and A-Yuan travel back in time due to dying in the timeline before returning. Wei Ying due to the Stygian Tiger Seal, Lan Zhan to his whip marks and A-Yuan to a fever. Please help.

FOUND? Lan Yuan's War by BurningTea (G, 191k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time Travel, Angst, Sick LWJ, Hurt/comfort, Eventual Happy Ending) iirc Lan Wangji and Yuan both time travel because of the whip marks and being sick, I haven't finished it so I don't if Wei Wuxian does too

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5. Hi! Thank you fr all your hard work! I need help finding a specific nsfw fic. do you happen to remember a smut fic where wangxian get schooled on gay sex by a male sex worker?

FOUND? Smoothing things over by Aki_no_hikari (E, 5k, wangxian, post-canon, case fic, married couple, anal sex, learning about lube)

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6. Hello! I hope I'm doing this right. I need help finding a fic where Sizhui told his friends that his dads didn't love each other. He discovered that wwx and lwj only got married to adopt him. It was a modern au, I'm almost sure. Thanks!

FOUND! Play your love songs all night long by AlfAlfAlfAlfAlf and tardigradeschool (E, 17k, WangXian, Modern AU, Marriage of Convenience, Mutual Pining, Light angst, Romantic Comedy, Misunderstandings)

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7. Good day/eve mods!! For the next fic finder I'm looking for a fic in where JC and NHS were like 'how dare JGS bad mouth WWX' so they set up this plan where NHS pretended to offend JC. Which caused JC to 'accidentally' kick JGS down the stairs and then everyone proceeded to laugh at him. Hope ya guys are having a great day! ~

FOUND? A little help (can go a long way) by syriala (G, 5k, JC & NHS & JZX, Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Sworn brothers, Hurt/comfort, Humor)

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8. hello mods! thx for all ur hard work xx I've been tryna find a fic where everyone travels back in time but only the ones who died remember their memories? they hold a discussion conference and wrh is there and at first the jiangs think wwx doesn't remember but it turns out he was just pretending and during the conference WRH suggests an arranged marriage between WQ and WWX

FOUND! Second Chances by YumichanHamano (T, 76k, wangxian, time travel fix-it, those who died remember, WWX centric)

not FOUND sounds a little like The Wild Geese's Tomb by The Feels Whale (miscellea) (T, 66k, wangxian, time travel fix-it), but there wasn't an arranged marriage.

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9. Hiii! I can’t remember the name of this wangxian fic but it was after the fall of lotus pier, essentially JC choked WWX to near death and I think LZ helped call his spirit back. It was a hurt/comfort that I can’t find anymore.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME FIND IT ( ू•⌄• ू )✧ @ramenchan

not FOUND the river brought you here by chilianxianzi? (Not Rated, 11k, Wangy,. Canon Divergence, POV Outsider, Happy Ending, Recovery, Last abuse, Strangulation) it doesnt quite fit the description but could it be 'the river brought you here' by chilianxianzi?

FOUND! a star called sun by thelastdboy (E, 65k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Heavy Angst, Self-Worth issues, Amputation, Situational Mutism, Slow burn, Angst with a happy ending) It's fits most of the description except it wasn't a near death choke, and it's not exactly hurt/comfort?/ i would call it hurt with v little comfort, but there is a scene where lwj talks to wifi using inquiry, and because wifi is so close to death from jwy choking him, it works

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10. Hello! I hope it isnt to much but I'd like some help in finding a fic. It was canon divergence with wwx was successfully escaping lwj at mo village and settled at an in(?). I remember that it that it the anniversary of the d3@th of the yllz. Lwj came to his inn/tavern bcs he wanted to buy alcohol in memory of it and wwx introduced himself as mo xuanyu and i think there was a reveal of sizhui being ayuan. Thank you <3.

FOUND? all i want is nothing more (than to hear you knocking at my door) by jojkees (G, 4k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Light Angst, Mutual Pining, Getting together, Happy Ending)

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11. Hey I’ve been looking for this fix for a while and wanted the give it one more try before giving up. I don’t remember much but I think the Jiang sect were able to shift into dragons, wei wuxian gave birth during the fall of lotus pier and gave his baby to madam Yu to escape with. I also remember that wei wuxian was a Phoenix shifter that saved the sect disciples. I would really appreciate if this is found 👏🏻😭

FOUND! Changes by Duochanfan (Not Rated, 45k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Shapeshifters AU, Baby LSZ, Mpreg, Angst with a happy ending, Good Madam Yu)

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12. Hello! I would like to ask for help in finding a fic. I've tried searching for it but I haven't had any luck (I'm beginning to wonder if it was deleted or if it was actually a Twitter thread instead 😭) basically wx are married but they're both so busy the "spark" is beginning to go out in their marriage. And then lwj gets a new coworker that reminds him so much of a younger wwx and on a business trip he ends up sleeping with him. This starts an affair and eventually wwx finds out that lwj has been cheating on him and is understandably heart broken. They go to couples therapy and work it out and lwj transfers jobs. It had a happy ending more or less and it wasn't that long I don't think and it was definitely complete. Any help in finding it would be appreciated!! Thank you!!

FOUND? Twitter fic by @giraffeter (CW: infidelity)

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13. Hello there! I’m looking for a modern au fic where WWX ended up “ghost marrying” LWJ, who was declared dead because JGY had him murdered. LWJ (barely) survives and ends up haunting the house because he’s angry and WWX helps him resolve the situation. There was a side of LXC/JGY, and I remember a scene where WWX was possessed(?) and playing music and it freaked everyone else out. I’m also 99% sure its a complete fic. Thank you for the help!

FOUND! lovers be lost (but love shall not) by la_muerta (T, 13k, wangxian, 1910s au, arranged marriage, ghost marriage, case fic, happy ending)

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14. Hi mods! I'm looking for a fic where wangxian raised a child (I think a-yuan?) and once they're a teenager, they realize that wx were never actually married and they get upset. I recall there being something about connected apartments. maybe that wangxian each had one, but bc their kid is graduating, they were gonna rearrange and give one of them to their kid. (There might've also been something about their kid's SO also moving in?) Tyvm everyone for the help!

FOUND? Ticking Away the Moments by airinshaw (E, 13k, wangxian, modern, kid fic, getting together, fluff, pining, minor LSZ/LJY)

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15. Hi mods! Hope you're having a lovely day! I was wondering if anyone knew the fic where a-yuan gets adopted by the rich lan fam, but keeps thinking of wwx who took care of him, so the lan fam starts a search/invites ppl over to their house. wwx arrives at the mansion(?) and offends some rich person or something and doesn't get let in, but meets lwj (I think) who asks him some questions about a-yuan. wwx meets a-yuan and eventually, I think lwj invites wwx to live with them and the wens encourage him to go too. Thank you!

FOUND? The sun'll come out Tomorrow by Cy_anne (T, 33k, WangXian, Modern AU, Annie Fusion/AU, Light Angst, Fluff, Mostly Gen, Good Uncle LQR, Happy ending)

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16. hii!! I heard there's new mod, welcome mod c! (Hi ^^ ~ Mod C) hope am not bothering you mods too much. so, do you know i u have encountered a fic were wangxian was childhood friends playing to be boyfriends but they weren’t actually one. (idk if it fits fake/pretend relationship tag, didn't found anything.) there was a moment in their teens (midschool ig) where a girl confessed her feelings to lwj and wwx immediately says lwj has bf and it's him. they were roommates, too. I think it was due to university of something like that. they were questioned by jc and nhs if they r real lovers or not. also, there was wedding (not 100% certain if it's jzx & jyl’s) wwx starts questioning himself if he was really inlove with lwj. reminder that they r not friends with benefits. they were just playing, holding hands or hugging e/o. I am not actually the person who was finding this fic but I am interested, til now, no one has found this fic. Thank you! @vdjixian

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17. Hello there, hope you're having a wonderful time where ever you are! This is for the next fic finder, I remember reading this fic about the Yiling villagers peeking in on the oh-so infamous Yiling patriarch whenever he bathes in the lake and this fixes everyone's perspective of him and saves him from his canonical demise. I want to revisit that fic again but I can't seem to find it. If anyone knows anything, that would be great thank you!!

FOUND! That Time Everyone Assumed the Yiling Patriarch was Ugly by tinitin (M, 4k, wangxian, canon divergence, inappropriate humor, crack, shamelessness, getting together)

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18. Hello! I'm looking for a fic where wangxian is engaged and madam yu tries to break their engagement bc she doesnt think wei ying will be happy with lan zhan? It was a one-shot iirc? Thank you! Hope the mods have a nice day!

FOUND! Still Waters by PorcupineGirl (G, 6k, wangxian, canon divergence, cloud recesses study arc, YZY pov, arranged marriage, protective YZY)

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19. Hello dear mods, and thank you for all that you do! I’m trying to remember the name of this fic and hope you can help me; iirc, it’s focused on the junior quartet and the ending involves them using some kind of time travel array to reach into the past and Sizhui catches WWX as he’s falling to his death? They were on a mountain that turns into a lake or something from the massive power drain of the array. Thank you! @bookkbaby

FOUND! Would You Come Home? by s6115 (Not Rated, 46k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Time travel Fix-It, Family Feels, Junior Quartet)

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20. Hi:) Do you know a little fic, after Lan Zhan's punishment, where Xichen deliberates what to do with A-Yuan and how close to keep him and qiren outright says that his name will be Lan Yuan and a member of their family, because curently its the only reason Wangji wants to stay alive. There is a possibility that it has been deleted because I couldn't find it in my recs.... @krysaniar

FOUND? Ch. 5 of The Untamed Drabbles and Tiny Vignettes by Sally M (sallymn) (T, 2k, WangXian, Drabble Collection, Ficlet Collection, 3 Sentence Fiction, 3 Sentence Ficathon, Not all are ficathon entries, Age Regression/De-Aging, Character Undeath, character death but they deserve it)

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#mdzs #wangxian #the untamed #wangxianficfinder #wangxian fic search #wangxian fic recs #wangxian fic finder #long post

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sleepydross · 11 months

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im a gay little freak okay? my gender? fuck you, but robot flavored. my sex? atypical and neato and fuck you if you think otherwise. my presentation? did you not read fuck you but robot flavored.

having a rough night but im still not gonna refuse to be myself. i dont care, and i dont want to go back to pretending.

#trans #queer #fuck you #etc

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funnywormz · 1 year

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putting some red dwarf headcanons below the cut bc im feeling kinda crappy and just wanna talk abt them.

please keep in mind that these are my readings of the characters and im in no way trying to claim these things are canon or the "correct" way of interpreting them, this is just how i see them personally. a lot of this is just rlly self-indulgent and involves me Projecting. if you don't agree with me on any/all of these, that's fine, i don't expect anyone to be on board with all of them tbh, just pls be nice to be abt it im sensitive

also just a warning. this post got very long bc i have a Lot to say lol

lister

gender: trans man, he/they

sexuality: bisexual

other: adhd (inattentive type), depression, amputee with prosthetic arm

notes: i headcanon lister as a trans man bc im trans masc myself and i find it very comforting to see him that way. it also fits in well with some aspects of canon, like his pregnancy in season 2. he's also just trans masc swag personified lol.

the bisexual headcanon seems to be shared by a lot of ppl in the fandom, and it's personally the way i see him. i think he has a definite preference for women but is still occasionally attracted to men, and (i am pretending that one scene in series 7 doesn't exist here lol 😒) i don't think he'd be repressed abt it at all. he's horny and not afraid to act on it

in terms of the neurodivergent stuff, i think adhd-i fits with his personality pretty well. i think that combined with his tendency to be depressed makes it hard for him to stay motivated and focused, and often means that he doesn't rlly take care of himself or his personal hygiene and seeks out short-term sources of pleasure like food, video games, alcohol and sex to keep himself happy, but can't rlly focus on long term goals. being the last human alive stuck in deep space definitely doesn't help. often his "laziness" is a result of his lack of energy and motivation rather than being an intentional thing. some days he just spend all of his time curled up on his bunk sleeping bc he can't find the drive to do anything else. he doesn't rlly WANT to be that way, he wants to have fun and actually do things, but it doesn't always happen and he has some rlly bad days at times.

with the prosthetic arm, personally i think they should've given him a prosthetic and had a proper character arc around him learning to cope with a disability back in season 7/8, rather than playing it off as a joke and immediately retconning it. i haven't rlly done much planning for this one yet but i just know i want it to be a thing. i think he would probably have a dope looking robot arm or something bc there's no way he'd just go for a boring generic arm if he had the choice imo. he would love to deck it out and customise it and put stickers all over it despite kryten telling him not to hehe

rimmer

gender: mostly cis man but maybe with a little hint of nonbinary-ness in there that he unfortunately refuses to acknowledge. he/him

sexuality: h for homosexual BABEY!!!!!!

other: autism, adhd (hyperactive), panic disorder, generalised anxiety disorder

notes: i think that it's quite possible that rimmer could have a little bit of gender stuff going on. when he projects his own insecurities abt gender and sexuality onto ace he specifically makes jabs abt ace probably wearing women's clothes in secret multiple times, which is equally as telling as his sniping abt ace being gay.

i also do headcanon rimmer as gay, but deeply, deeply repressed about it. he pursues women and kinda forces himself to believe he's attracted to them, but it's out of his desire to meet his own stupid arbitrary expectations of what he "should" be like, rather than out of any genuine attraction. ik a lot of ppl see him as bi, which is perfectly valid! but personally his pursuits of women read to me as something he does bc he feels he needs to do it to complete his image rather than something he does out of any real desire. he's also got enough internalised homophobia that it'd probably take decades of therapy to make him be normal abt it lol. rimmer wants to be the kind of man that he thinks will receive respect and will meet the expectations his family put on him as a child, and having a wife and children was always part of that image for him. he never really stopped to consider if that's something he actually wanted. i think he becomes more accepting of his own queerness as time goes on, but it does take time.

the neurodivergent stuff should be pretty self explanatory but im gonna rant abt it anyways. as an autistic person myself, i find rimmer very relatable. there are multiple scenes in the series where jokes and sarcasm go over his head completely, and countless times where he misreads body language and doesn't seem to get what kind of behaviour is appropriate for certain situations. he just seems to struggle with social interaction and bonding/making friends in general. he has intense interests that others don't rlly understand, like telegraph poles, risk, cars, morris dancing, etc. he gets pleasure out of organising and sorting things to a degree that seems pedantic to others, and seems genuinely confused when lister doesn't share his enthusiasm for cataloguing the ship's food stocks as a fun saturday night activity. he seems to enjoy routines and predictability, and gets upset when unexpected things happen. he also tends to get obsessive about small details rather than focusing on the big picture.

in terms of hyperactive adhd, it seems to me that rimmer often has a hard time slowing down and relaxing, and seems to need to be constantly on the go and doing things and generally fussing about. he also is self aware abt the fact that he has a hard time being quiet, and needs to talk more and at a faster pace than most other people, especially when he's nervous or distracted. as well as this, he often stims by rocking back and forth and jiggling his leg up and down (this also fits with the autism hc). he also has a tendency to procrastinate and seems to have a hard time studying, despite his attempts to convince people otherwise. it often comes up in the series that he'll get hyperfixated on doing something a bit arbitrary, like making an impeccable study timetable/schedule, or tidying, or sorting things into perfect order, rather than actually STUDYING, which is part of why he continuously fails his engineering exam.

the panic and anxiety disorder thing should be pretty self explanatory too. rimmer is clearly a worrier and has multiple panic attacks in the actual series. he seems to spend most of his time in a highly strung state of near panic, to the point where it interferes with his physical health. the way the canon narrative handles his anxiety, and his neurodivergent traits in general, is often a bit shitty lol, but it seems clear to me that he suffers from anxiety and panic attacks. kryten mentions that he's at a higher risk for those kinds of disorders due to genetics, but i also think that his childhood trauma and subsequent lifestyle (deathstyle??) definitely haven't helped him get any calmer lol

the cat

gender: trans man, he/him

sexuality: bisexual aromantic

other: autism

notes: most of these are more of a "because i said so" situation rather than things with canon evidence lol but still. esp the trans man one. i don't think the cat rlly has much of a concept of his own gender at all tbh, he just decided one day he was more comfortable as a man and stopped thinking abt it after that lol. i see the cat as bisexual bc i don't think he'd rlly give a fuck abt gender as long as ppl are hot and well presented, and i think he's aromantic bc throughout the series he doesn't seem to show much interest in a committed romantic relationship with anyone. when he does show interest in people, it reads more as purely sexual attraction to me than any desire to settle down or have an actual relationship.

i think he's autistic but it isn't always picked up bc his special interest is fashion, which isn't perceived to be a "typical" special interest. he seems very particular abt textures and colours, and puts meticulous effort into his wardrobe and often only wants to talk abt clothes even when ppl want to talk to him abt something else. to tie in with that, he doesn't seem great at reading social cues and often makes faux pas and accidentally insults others without realising it. he seems to generally have a hard time with empathy and understanding that others might not always share his interests and priorities

kryten

gender: nonbinary, any pronouns but generally uses he/him and is fine with this

sexuality: aroace

other: autism (again)

notes: ik that robots being nonbinary and aroace and autistic can be an unfortunate and frustrating stereotype sometimes, but it's just hard for me to see kryten any other way 😅. anyways, although im not aro or ace, i AM autistic and nonbinary and i think robots rule and i adore kryten so WHATEVER!!!! take it up with my nonexistent lawyer or something idc

in terms of being nb, kryten seems to only have the vaguest idea of what gender actually is, and i doubt that he really identifies as particularly male or female. he's most used to being perceived as male, but i don't think he really identifies with manhood. he seemed actively repulsed by male reproductive organs when he was briefly human, which makes me think that if he was human he'd probably suffer from gender dysphoria if he had to live in an amab body, but likewise he seems to have mixed feelings abt being perceived as a woman in season 8. in truth, i think he fits somewhere in the middle.

i see kryten as aroace bc he just never rlly seems to express any interest in sex or romance, even seeming confused by both concepts at different points. he IS a deeply loving and passionate and affectionate person at times imo, but it's always platonic i think. he just doesn't strike me as someone who would get any enjoyment or fulfilment out of having sex or being in a romantic relationship.

the autistic hc should once again be pretty obvious. he has a hard time reading social cues a lot of the time, and enjoys repetitive tasks that other ppl find boring, like ironing etc. he also just generally does and says things that strike others as eccentric without meaning to come across that way and jokes often go right over his head. he's autistic to me. ik that a lot of this is tied up with him being a mechanoid, but im autistic and i love kryten so im claiming him fuck you

kochanski

gender: trans woman, she/her

sexuality: lesbian

other: autism, generalised anxiety disorder

notes: ive seen a few ppl hc kochanski as a trans woman and i rlly warmed up to it. it also makes sense that lister would get a crush on her if he knew she was trans and they had "two of the only trans ppl on the dwarf" solidarity, like i can imagine it being part of why he came to like her tbh.

ik kochanski's statement abt her dave being gay and them just pretending to be in a relationship was immediately dismissed by lister and she didn't argue abt it, but i like to personally believe it's true. i think for a long time she struggled with internalised homophobia and didn't mind getting attention from men, esp bc it validated her gender as well. but in my headcanon it was always uncomfortable for her and never felt right, hence why she broke up with her lister before the accident (although the breakup was also in part due to her lister's struggles with his sexuality as well). much like with rimmer, i think kochanski had high expectations of herself and felt anxious for others to see her as a "real woman", and for a long time it was hard for her to reconcile being a lesbian with those expectations. but she gets there eventually.

at first i was on the fence abt headcanoning kochanski as being autistic, but i decided to do it. she's better at masking than rimmer is, but it still shows through in her very particular sensory preferences and attachment to comfort items and occasional misreading of social situations. likewise with generalised anxiety, i think she has a tendency to get anxious and worry abt things that other ppl might not care abt, and becomes stressed pretty easily. she tries her best to hide it, but she likes to be in control of a situation and know what all of the likely outcomes are, and when she can't have that level of control she finds it deeply upsetting and destabilising. she likes to have predictability and routine and takes comfort in familiar objects and sensations even when those things might seem silly or irrelevant to others.

holly

gender: nonbinary (imagine all of the computer related puns she could make abt this lol he would love it), any pronouns

sexuality: bisexual

other: n/a

notes: holly is so nonbinary to me. it's basically canon already considering that they switch back and forth between male and female presentation multiple times. i don't think gender means a hell of a lot to holly but she enjoys messing around with it and trying out new things. my personal headcanon is that she prefers presenting in more of a feminine way but the default presentation he's programmed with is masculine and she can't rlly be bothered changing it a lot of the time bc she doesn't rlly give a smeg.

likewise i think holly is attracted to men and women and everyone else. i don't think he feels sexual or romantic attraction that often but it definitely happens. they only ever really feel attraction to other ai though and aren't into organic beings in that way, and bc he hardly ever gets to encounter other ai her romantic life is kinda nonexistent lol.

i think holly probably has some Brain Stuff going on but idk what exactly so ive left that blank for now. if i come up with anything i will probably edit this later

OK THAT'S IT FOR NOW sorry this post is long as fuck. hope you guys enjoyed reading me ramble on abt the silly little fellows

#i dont think im gonna put this in the main tags bc im scared of ppl making fun of me for these 😔#like i said it's very self indulgent i dont expect ppl to agree with me or even understand. but i just needed to go on a ramble #pls be nice

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skintsugi · 9 months

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i think about the gender idea of "all children transition, whether cis or not." and how i dont see myself as ever having been a little boy. i was a little girl. i was always been a little girl. but i am not a woman. i will never be a woman. i have never been one.

and its not "oh you liked traditionally feminine things and thats why." because as a girl i was a "tomboy." in the early 2000s, i like comic books and hot wheels and tmnt and transformers and football. i didnt want to wear skirts and dresses or pink. i liked barbies and dolls sure but i was rough and played rough. i was rough and wrestled and i was a little girl who was a little girl. who just liked "boy" things. and i questioned gender; i wanted to know why i didnt have a dick like my brother (bc shared baths were easier when youre basically a single parent with 2 kids less than 2 years apart)

and as a man, i wear skirts and dresses. i paint my nails and do my hair and wear makeup; i play with dolls still. i am read like a woman when im not purposeful with my masculinity. but im not a woman. i'm a man. i'm a (probably) gay man.

but when i look back at myself i don't see a little boy. i see a little girl who when her body started changing, when there became a distinction that this body she'd had and had become comfortable with was changing into something she did not like and did not want and did not feel at home in, thats when i transitioned. not societal pressures but a complete innate realisation of "im not a woman. i dont want to be seen as a woman."

children's concepts of gender are not so binary. for me, i knew my brother and i were different in slight ways but not in ways that made sense. why it was okay for me to like barbies but not him. why people didnt like that i liked bioncles and legos and robots. and then when the gap between the sexes widened, it was distressing.

i thought it was me — so my mom agreed to let me have electrolysis done. as gender affirmation because at 12, being told i needed to shave, feeling the body hair, i was in distressed. i didnt want the body hair. i wanted to go back to how i had been — the clean andronynous look of youth. and it failed to fix the feelings of alienation. no longer was i different in ways that i couldn't conceptualise, that seemed arbitrary. but i was different in ways that did not feel right; housed in flesh that wasnt my own. i was in a body that felt abstract and wrong and like flesh pulled too taut. and when it seemed i alone felt that, that i was wired different, i dressed up. i put on costumes like i did when i was a child. i played pretend as a boy and found that when people said "sir" or "he" or "young man" that the skin no longer felt so tight.

my skin felt more like my own for the first time; and my body has not changed drastically. i have big tits. big hips. i don't take any hormonal injections; i have a feminine voice and the only body hair that really grew back was my armpits and it takes a long time if i shave it off. it would be distressing now to undergo such a drastic change, to change this skin into something more resembling what a man "should" look like.

but i was never a little boy.

and i will never be a woman.

#trans tag #personal /

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zizz-asdf-re-r-o-u · 2 years

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more dmmd thinky thoughts

im finally playing the dmmd official english translation & reconnect english patch and i have thinky thoughts. a lot of people call aoba & the dicksquad all gays, but if we take the game canon & translation seriously (I havent watched or played re:code yet so idk on that). then koujaku & aoba/sky blue are technically bi. no opinion on mink, ren (bc he had no interaction with outside people beyond Allmate form), or mizuki. more on noiz & clear later.

koujaku’s obviously a bisexual disaster- ladies man + crush on aoba forever. but aoba/sly blue is an interesting case. (note that in japan, its not uncommon for same sex kid friends to do skinship and aoba’s “fooling around with guys” in noiz’s route was apparently a jast blue mistranslation.) in noiz/clear’s original routes, aoba’s internal monologue implies having had slept with girls before. in virus reconnect english patch, he says young aoba “slept with a lot of girls” and in trip’s reconnect route he said aoba slept with anyone and then has a flashback of young aoba/sly blue offering to fuck a guy but ended up beating him up. ofc virus & trip also kidnapped and is abusing aoba in this moment so we cant trust what they’re saying + maybe mistranslation. now back to present day, koujaku says aoba is really bad with girls, and in noiz’s route, aoba mentions that he hasnt had sex in a very long time. my interpretation of aaaall this. is that koujaku was in the mainland & obvsly didnt know aoba’s punk slutty era, there was the whole rhyme/virus/trip amnesia & aoba forgot that he slept around. or if we take it into the split personality route, then its possible that regular aoba is gay but sly blue was bi.

noiz- ok the only interest he ever shows is towards guys. i’m sure he’s gay. i cant get a read on mink, but i might change my opinion once i’ve done his reconnect route. depending on what kind of indigenous(???) he is, most indigenous cultures were multi-gender/sexualities open so its he’s probably not labeled with anything.

clear... ok so he is tricky but the jast blue discord im in came up with something kinda crazy. so obviously, robots with personality, designed by Toue to blend into society, including having the ability to have sex & ejaculate xDDD The alphas all seem to be male form and clearly their penises are the sturdiest part of their body since that doesnt break or Aoba would have to take a trip to the hospital after Clear’s good ending LOL. (how Aoba didn’t get electrocuted with Clear sparking/short circuiting WHILE INSIDE HIS ASS, idk). so LOL the discord came up with the idea that Toue really liked it up the ass, so he designed robots that he’d like to fuck. so yeah, that’s Clear (or at least his & the alphas programming/design)

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sparxwrites · 1 year

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Heyo, sent a couple dsmp related asks back in September n even though my interest in that funky series(or whatever word would best apply) has waned a lot I just had to reread the answers cause they're just,, really good.

That paired with the tntduo ficlet made me wanna send another ask for two reasons:

C!Sam is my pathetic little hiss hiss (got hooked cause of art related stuff but damn the whole prison thing was fire, love me a dumbass morally grey monsterman) and I wanna know if you have any takes, headcanons or even like, thoughts about how the less human characters look n work in general.

Started thinking about how your c!Schlatt had this weird complex around c!Wil which was part of why he did everything he did during the election arc and like, damn,,, c!Q really won there huh rip bussiness boy fuckin cry about it. (I would say die mad but-)

(Not gonna apologise for sending an ask this time since you've been like really nice about these but still want to acknowledge the fact that the wording and structuring's almost definitely off with this one too. Thank you and hope you have a nice day!)

hello again anon!! yeah, ngl my interest in the dsmp has uhhhhh waned also because of Reasons. still love the characters, but im not gonna be watching any more of whatever comes next, i don't think.

i am tempted to go back and watch some of sam's, though, just because he seems like a really interesting and complex and tragic character from other people's povs and i am kissing him directly on top of his sad little morally grey conflicted duty-bound head. i love designs for him with the weird kind of non-centaur quadrupedal creeper stuff, i love the masks obscuring his face especially during prison arc to mirror him making a robot of himself, i love him as this weird sad grim warden of a duty he really didn't fucking have to assign himself. he's just..... ough.

also kghdfgk yeah there were. a lot of things that drove my schlatt to do what he did during election arc, but... ngl i don't think quackity really won there, per se. a win for everyone would probably have been if wilbur and quackity teamed up and had hot gay sex and schlatt slunk off to. idk. continue drinking himself to death and tormenting slimecicle across universes, or whatever the fuck he was doing before. wouldn't've been a win / happy ending for schlatt, but he's not gonna get one anyway soooooo

#anonymous #ask #people saying nice things #sparx chats #dsmp tag #anon i am BEGGING you to stop apologising or making excuses for sending me asks #it's fine! i like this! i enjoy chatting to people! this is how fandom works!#i know this is probably an expression of anxiety on your end but fr i Like Doing This #fic writers will Always like doing this sort of thing #ppl thinking your opinions on sth are interesting enough to ask is like............ always cool <3

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solardick · 21 days

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Idea for sigma. 18th letter of the greek alphabet.

The idea is this. ΣWM.

Moon, card 18 and 23. Wheel, card 10 and 13.

23rd letter of the English alphabet is W. The 18th letter is R. The 10th letter is J and the 13th letter is M. The two additional cards here are J and R. The chariot and temperance.

Σ is used as a mathematic symbol.

The A and E cards are mused to be interchangeable. As they are often found together. But the final card in this set would belong to З, i come to. There doesnt seem to be any other symbol to use. З is also a stand in for Z. And also draws other connections to the high priestess. Emphasizing a more gental, nurturative side of the spherical and circular connotations. Of the cards. As the wheel is as likely asking as it is pointing where. Where’s the personal disposition of active participation? Attention and discipline, care, and intelligence. May trump all.

Not what i originally imagined. An I-robot type deal manipulating the elements of reality.

The σ minuscule version brings it the O and Q and G and even C itself. Together with the active use of “will” or purpose. Painting a lovely picture. As well as tying it in with the devil card. S and Z. Though im rationalizing. Sex and the machine. The wheel card can now be painted as a sexy robot.

It just does’t fit the circular theme of the set. Other than perhaps the solar system and human automatons.

The σ symbol is used in the same class of calculation as is Σ, adding in the standard deviation from a sum notation. Though it’s used as a fraction. Becoming an irrational symbol, labeled as Q. A fancier Q in another font. But still a Q.

But im not very convinced by it. The card as a whole.

Othwr than that i think im being framed for tax fraud. As someone sent me the T-4 tax slips for walmart for 2023 for 10000$. I didnt work a day at walmart in 2023. And i never got my T-4s for the roofing job i did for a couple months.

And yo get get a screening fie gonareah. Be foiring to have given me a gay desease after they rapedmy spyche. Just to add innthe degenerate sense of homour.

Fuckni hate it here. Today their making the eclipse personal by exlipsing my fucken efforts. Sorry they’re taking your work. Station so uou have nothing to do. Yeah. Go smokw a ciggarette.

Eclipse starts just when i get off work. It’ll pass over has im walking home. Miss it. It looked like evening. Like an hour before evening. I stop paying attention to astrology when o realized they were just ising it to mess woth me.

Anyway this was a crappy post anyway. But, im afraid until i have a confident. Im stuck doing this. Everyone needs someone. I dont know what that feels like. The worlds been agaisnt me since the day i was born. Instead of being completly serrounded by people i don’t like who are actively fucken with me. Literally everything the outside would has sent my way, offord, given, likes my life lesser. Since i was born. I was born in hell. And everyonw wants to rule. Grew up fearing and alone. Am old still fearing and alone. Nothing has changed in over 30 years. Everyone always playing soemthign over me. Since forever. And everyperson brings in something that weakens me. Always been. Theres nothing to learn from being messed with. Its just for others pleasure. As its always been. I dont want to be alive anymore. Whats next? My secret druggings to fuck with me? Beat me down until i freak out more and conveice other peopel to help?fuck with my income taxes? Give me a desease? Frame me for murder?

Im quitting this jon soon and probably gonna hang myself. If this all life is goona do to me. Then ehats the point? Theres nothing else. I could listen to the bible and beleive you’ll syop when im forty. But. That’s a lie. There was never any apple itd been like this from the start. I dont even human anymore. Theres no connecting with anyone. Ill bever have a confidant. Just serrounded by assholes. Likes its always. Been. Not allowed not beign fucken damaged by someone. Hahhahahabwell at leadt im not an unstable wreck anymore. But i cant rely on that. Eve’s a fucken faget anyway. Genesis lietterally makes. No sense. It would be woman pulling at a rib and become man. Cause she wanted to get penetrated. So he lies. And hooks up with her. Done deall. Fuckne hate the bible.

Jesus is a bastard. No father. Left his mother alone in the crowd. He’s super effeminate and cant defend himself. The last person you want backing you in a war. And only go pray to him if someone wants a blowjob. 🤷🏻‍♂️if anythung he’s be a kamikaze warrior. With c-4 straped yo his chest.

Now i got to go to work and deal with some crows. They only say one thing. Caw!!! Try havign a comversation eith that.

Ive been wondring about gods absence lately. Portent of the day. A black cat catches a mouse. Gets distracted by me. Drops it. And catches it again and trotts off. Today at the moment. Conversation is about cats and litter. As for being personally eclipsed yesterday. I refused to be around him after that. I am now working woth a different colleague. The same partner of the guy who eclipsed me. Txted me later that day asking a dumb question. He could easily get by asking the persons themselves. I responded with. “Lilith”. The eclipse happened on my natal lilith.

And apparently they pivked this out of one of the vans im supposed to load today.

Not my hand.

They all laughed and made fun. And tossed it at the manager. Him being an atheist or a satanist or some such. Makes the impression that he doesn’t like the church very much. Theres alot of gay crap tossed around. Like always.

Well, talked to another foreign doctor couldnt ynderstand half of what he was saying. I dont think he understood half of what i was saying so. Its prabably no help at all. So i got cramping meds. See if that works.

I dont thinknits working.

IBS. Apparently. Being around too much gay shit. Gives me a desease.

Fucken kirby. What fucken cokskr. Your with my partner today. Im going home vack to bed. No alwep. And meds gives me weak vision abd weak muscle. And i have 40 000 pounds to load today. Starta yelling at me. Called him aficjen cokskr and left. Sorry i give you the health and security position and that i helped not start start smoking again. Nr. Fucker whos constantly on light duty. Fuck you. Naybe upu found tgat jessus fifure for a reason. You fucken asshole. Go brush your fuxken teeth.

Well at least i dont gave the feeling likw i just got raped this morning. Add a headache to that. Coffee!!!!

Moody lunar men are ten times then women. I hope his saturn return fucks him up the ass like it did me. But, you cant get much worse of a transit. Than i did. So theres no comparison. Sorry yoo have to work today and not walk around stairing at boxes and sitting in the office. If this is how he gets without half the world fucken with him everyday. The. He’s obviously a pussy. Sorry im mad and i have no sleep. Ots an effort to walk.

So those pills seem to be working. Took longer than it said it would. But, i got to sleep around 2;45 ish this morning. Didnt get out of bed till 6:30 ish. After my alarm went off at 5. And made it to work on time. But, nooe. Cant do it today. Its an easy load. Heavy but. 40 000 thousands pounds of 100 pound boxes. Nope. Not doing it. Been doing 50-to 60 thousand pound skid orders lately. Which aren’t bad. But kirby irratates me. Walking around like he owns the place. Never load a van. Always sitting in the office. Or doing light work. And counting boxes.

Others dont sleep around here either!!! Fuck you. You stay up all night gaming. Fuck off. Think he’s mad cause im patronizing and a good parental figure for Keagan. I dont throw shit at the kid, i dont hit. Like the others do. and if he’s wasting time or does soemthign stupid. I make my pressence known. Pick that up! Where have you been?! Oh well cant be sick or downed without atleast soemone giving me a hardtimr for it. These last few years are proof of that.

Hospital is useless. They dont care there. Even the doc at the clinic was, “they didn’t ask you about that? Or soemthing like that. It was hatd to understand what he was saying simce he’s a foreigner and english isnt his 2nd language. Wont work the kid though. Cause he’s alwasy talkign about sex. Amd dick and ass. And carelessness. And goes absent regularly for half hours. Leaving you to do a two man job alone. And kirby misses more work than i do.

Het look its the same goose. Wonder if i talk to it. If it will show me his family. Like last year. And simce ingave him the position for hwalth and safety he has even more time to walk around and do nothing. But i need to het back home. Shut up and take a nap. And neither doni have a family, friends and any children. No moral interpersonal support. Fuck you. And i dont even get to see another member of the opposite sex. Im serrounded by assholes like you.

Think i got my eight hours. Too bad its midnight.

I dont want ti be alive anymore. Dont t go nj im doing tm taxes this year. They can audit me. Apparently i wrorked for 10 000s last year at walmart. And again. I never receivced my T-4s for the roofing job. I dont know if immeven hoing to be alive at the end of theis year anyway.

I do t wven know why thes epeople are doing this to me anyway. The accountant is probably fucken with me too. His too nice to me. Im gonna start calling people pussy lickers cause it cant be taken as sexual derogatory. Guess im just stuck being serrounded by people who say cokskrs all the time. Back to my childhood. And my father and my brothers. And i guess ill never know what life is not being fucked eith. 39 years and counting and it just keeps getting worse by the year.

Its hard to describe what it is being murdered by the entire fucken planet. Whatever ill just pay 3000$ from the audit. And save the headache. Trying to contact someone in charge of taxes from a large company like walmart is a mightmare. And the people there at the building at worked at will jsut play stupid. It’ll be ten times worse then trying to get an appointmen tto see a doctor. And illnprobably have to miss several days of wrok just to yse the fucken telephone. This is my entire life. From the get go. Or ill do it. And if they send me to court ill just hang myself before the trial. I dont remember the last few years have been a haze. They did pay me for a couple months after they fored me right before christmas for fake charges of sexual harrasment. Pending the “investigation”. So maybe. The only thing o remember clearly. Is god speaking to me through portents and stuff. While they tried to lasso me with queer bs. And raped my psyche. I rememeber being drugged, sleep deprived. And set up eith multiple girl while they fucked around in the background.

Hope i dont have to take these IBS pills tbe rest of my life somi dont have the feeling being raped everyday. Spekaing of which, my ass hurts. Need to take another pill.

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