heres a quick Philby sketch !! just pretend all their clothes are rainbow coloured 🌈 :]

My Old Nick hc's, interpretation, analysis, and other odd bits PT.1

Part 2

This is long overdue but I feel I oughta get something out of the way. I've had a incredibly aggressive special interest in him for like 3-5ish years and at some point in writing hc's I just started making shit up(I mean isn't that just hc's are?) because I really just took a guy with a whopping 14 lines of dialogue and just started sprinting.

I'm choosing to actually leave a few things out as I wish to explore those ideas more in This isn't over Jack, Ill probably swing back around to this after I wrap that up. In the mean time if you wanna swap ideas I'm down(please please please pleaseplea)

Turns out I hit text limit with this oh my lord, ill post pt2 tomorrow, i'm sorry

Can't think of anything particularly triggering in this but i'll warn it gets just kinda bleak

Human turned Fae- I will not elaborate, this will be explained later...

would actually break your legs if you called him a fairy

I've never actually pinned down any specific powers for him for some reason? like i just cant think of like any that i could write/ illustrate that wouldn't feel too gauche... So I just kinda nebulously imaged so weird fae-fuckery type of magic- though I think the most compelling interpretation of his powers was in Scouts Australian Christmas (pls go read it, its a really good fic)

Gay, but I cant imagine he's like particularly out about it; like its a iykyk sorta think because I definitely feel there probably some shame or internalized homophobia there (smth smth homophobic senator caught in a gay bar joke)

Autistic, but most definitely not diagnosed- he would become absolute incensed if you suggested it, like "There is nothing wrong with me, I am normal" but you can tell that he knows there's something "wrong with him" but he has no idea what and is incredibly afraid of even attempting to confront that

Can't imagine there's a moment where he's not masking, he doesn't understand his own limits and will keep doing things until he quite literally can't anymore

Probably has some ~effeminate~ interest he's deeply embarrassed by, but like in all reality its very normal and even if it was thats not a bad thing, he just makes it a big deal for no reason

STRADDLING the line between infodumping and mansplaining

Could be genuinely into a topic but he's just so condescending about it

High functioning alcoholic, kinda in that 50s/ rich way but it's very obvious he has a problem but everyone always brushes it off as "thats just how he is/ things are"

Nick could honestly just be summed up in his impact as a *a systematic bad thing happens again and again* "thats just how things are, get over it" sorta thing or a "Heart warming: student raises funds to prevent orphans from being sent to orphan grinder" and then no-one questions why the orphan grinder exists in the first place

He has been meticulously constructing his public image/ brand as "Old Nick"/ "The Spirit of Australian Christmas"

He is a liar, but he's a very good liar

His accent is fake, his laugh is fake, his public lore is fake and he's not even Australian he's British! (Which is arguably worst thing he has done)

He's basically been voice training to keep up a modern australian accent for years now, but his real accent is more of that 1700s british (which actually sounds different from modern a modern britsh accent) but sometimes he's has moments and his accent slips (mostly when he's yelling)

Has practiced his evil villain laugh so hard, like its a good villain laugh but if you listen hard you can tell its not real

Genuinely so fucking embarrassed by his actual laugh which i can only describe as if a goose that has been smoking a pack a day was being strangled to death

I kinda go back an forth on Nicks upbringing sometimes, because I kinda feel I went the kinda overplayed sorta tragic backstory; but also growing up in 1700s England was probably not fun if you weren't rich and also have you ever met a miserable boomer who does the whole "kids these days are too damn soft back when I was a kid *recounts an incredibly traumatizing event*!" Thing? Yeah he probably does that a lot and it makes everyone kinda uncomfortable

Maybe orphaned? Probably had brothers because he has strong younger brother "your oppressing me by giving me a task" energy (btw this relates to a super stupid hc that im not gonna share because its incredibly dumb)

Expressed a lot of attention seeking behavior from a young age, would purposefully get into trouble so someone would notice him

This behavior followed him into adult life and it would just keep getting worst and worst, like getting into bar fights that he would definitely lose and petty crime

Eventually he just kept ramping up the severity of his crimes till he actually had a warrant/ bounty placed for his arrest

To avoid getting arrested he became a sailor in his late 20s and jumped between ships and trades up until his 50s/60s

Eventually he was arrested and then get shipped off to Australia

After a few months he stuck there he was like "actually, fuck this" and started plotting an escape

He stole a boat and with his previous knowledge from being a sailor he was so full of himself he thought he did single-handedly sail and navigate back Britain or a British sympathetic colony and then lay low for the rest of his life

Of course he didn't happen and due to the fact he is stupid he got stranded in antarctic and the rest is history

If you wanna know how we got from "random crusty criminal" to "Spirit of Australian Christmas" you have to stick around for my shit ass comic and videos fucker

anyway where was i, Nick proceeded to twists that into "Yeah i totally meant to do discover antarctic, even though i was a 1780s peasant who would have not have even known that antarctic was even thing" he kinda sorta dropped the rest of it and made up more shit Homelander style

I don't believe that Nick was like well off in anyway when he was still mortal, and despite being just bludgeoned over the head with the effects of classism and a nightmare capitalist hell society he developed this horrible idolization of the rich and developed this almost "by your bootstraps" mentality but with like the brutality rich bushiness owners would treat there workers, where he though if he became horrible and ruthless he could trample and climb on the backs of his fellow men till he made it to that oh so coveted high society life.

probably doesn't help he would do absolutely anything for money either

and the thing is he made it, he's just unfathomably rich(that is till all those gambling debts catch up to him...) he got what he wanted, he got he's gotten all the money and attention he could have wanted... and yet he's miserable, nothing will ever be enough for him.

Throw back motif that's still my favorite- "decaying luxury". Nick is like obviously rich as fuck and yet just refuses to fix anything, like his sweater has so many little holes in it he just stopped bothering to fix, he's patched his pants so many times, stairs worn down to the point the rug is thread bear and the wood is dented, intricate arsenic and lead laced wallpaper that's now water damaged and peeling, his favorite chair's seams are ripped, and the stuffing and springs are just compressed and flat to the point its not even comfortable to sit in anymore. Like he can fix it, he has the money, and yet he just won't for some reason.

Oh speaking of arsenic and lead- mans is just absolutely FULL of lead, arsenic, asbestos, any other harmful thing the Victorians where just absolutely HUFFING

tangent on a tangent, i really associate him with the Victorian era despite him being born in the 1700s, maybe its the child labor, maybe its the stupid chops, he just looks like he should be in super tall neck-line and doing coke for a headache

Nick is just both incredibly self absorbed but also so fucking insecure, like very big insecure man makes his problems everyone else's problem and take his out on other people to feel better about himself energy

He's just so vain too, like i image he's just obsessed with himself and his image, probably doesn't help he's quite literately has been decomposing for like the last two centuries (IT WILL BE EXPLAINED WHY LATER I PROMMY) so he just has this like incredibly extensive Patrick Bateman ass self-care routine so he doesn't get moldy

fully intended and foreseen consequence of coping better with my anxiety is that this blog will at some point inevitably become More Cringe and that point is SO close on the horizon. if you get mad at me for posting things i like on my blog that is for me you clearly have more issues than i do for worrying abt that possibility for hours on end

HELP I JUST HAD A THOUGH

WHAT IF

What if....

Blunt reader became a harbinger

I have NO idea how that would go but im here for the crack lol

I BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE-

(and to use this gif more importantly they're all so hot here lol)

Sun: Reader (you/they/them), Blunt Language AU :D

Orbit: Headcanons-ish, crack treated srsly (yes im using ao3 tags atp)

Stars: Harbingers!

Comets & Meteors: Content Warnings: none known & Trigger Warnings: none known.

Please comment if I missed any. /gen

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SO thought I’d update anyone missing out bc of the new year but-

I made this silly thing called Blunt Language AU, that was my 1st post for this blog/fandom actually! :D

I’ll link it here, but TLDR: it’s just our modern speech sounding “ancient” to the Teyvatians, who speak really flowery/fluffy/lots of context in comparison!

That’s all you rlly need to know to read this I think, so enjoy! :)

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u fall into Genshin Impact, and Snezhnaya is where you land first type of energy lol

weird golden star falling from the sky? that sounds like a prophecy the Tsaritsa knows abt alright

so they sent Childe, one of the friendliest (if not The Friendliest) Harbinger, to see if it was a valid claim you’d finally descended,

and ofc as soon as the redhead heard you try and talk to him, he knew the claims by the small village nearby (who had taken u in from the cold weather/taken care of you) were legit

pantalone did manage to squeeze some examples of what you’d possibly sound like into his head before he left so while Childe personally has a tough time talking to you, it doesn't mean he’s not willing to try!! >:)

he mostly just kept asking questions forever until he understood what you meant, and as soon he got u were asking abt the Tsaritsa, the other Harbingers, himself, even how to get Sneznayan-made clothes lol

he was like: 👀👀👀???!!!!

it wasn't so much recruitment at first as it was “omg the exalted one wishes to learn abt us, the Tsaritsa and her Harbingers? abt me?? well would your highness like to come to our palace perchance???!!!!”

= have u ever been seduced and worshipped by a god and her country?? would you like to- ??? ← Childe actually

and with that convinces you to come straight to the Harbingers/Tsaritsa’s very home

No, you’re not just spoiled.

No, you’re not just pampered.

You are cosseted and coveted.

The Tsaritsa makes her first in person appearance to the people in decades to personally announce your return, and to get a festival going to literally parade you into the capital lol

And tbh it was kind of shocking how quickly the people of Snezhnaya are able to whip out the party supplies, within days of traveling via horses/sleds/carriage/trains all kinds of transportation, u arrived at the capital in full swing of a parade for you

The Tsaritsa herself in what looks like a genshin-ified kokoshnik, the elaborate headress draped with a veil so thin it looks like frost covering her face,

flocked on either side by her harbingers in full (kinda goth) ceremonial outfits waiting on your arrival too

needless to say you are properly smitten intimidated

and you stay nervous around them for the first few days or so,

that is before you run into the weekly, what you would call “family dinner nights”, but they call “dinner reports”…

in which Childe, the only one you’d been comfortable enough around to be a bit more genuine to, and surprisingly the only one to quickly adapt to your speech after traveling with you for days, would translate for you what tf you were saying to them vs. what everyone at the table was saying to you/around you

you would also like to propose other titles for these weekly dinner meetings you’re invited to, aka “family feud dinner night/family fight night/harbinger on harbinger hate night/fruit on fruit crimes, if you will” 💀

the Tsaritsa is just peacefully talking to you abt any and everything, bc ofc Pierro’s on her right, and ur on her left

(she and Pierro are surprisingly soft spoken, very polite, and able to say something interesting/take an interest in whatever subject you all end up on)

u don't think you've ever been more comfortable and on such equal footing around ppl sm older than you (what are older ppl to you, but to them ur literally fucking eldritch with how ancient u are, and u can tell with how they treat u like it lmao)

hard cut back to the rest of the table:

an argument that just gets louder and louder has broken out between Childe, Dottore, La Signora, and Pantalone abt who should get free time with you first/get to do smth with you first as you get over ur adjustment period here, Childe has taken his butter knife to throw and just barely missed Dottore’s eye, and it is now embedded in the back of his fancy chair (the servants placing down dinner courses just move abt w/the most bored expressions on their faces)

(u send half the table if this group gets out of hand and u just: “Please shut the fuck up, each of ur comebacks take 30 minutes and it’s killing me” 💀 bc they're the most likely to understand u too, even Pierro/Capitano/Pulcinella chuckle a little, and u think the Tsaritsa smirked under her veil)

ur honestly too scared to see what Scarmouche, Sandrone, and Arlecchino are arguing about, because they're arguing so silently further down the table. They have murder in their eyes.

Columbina and Capitano are having a peaceful collab over weapons, armor, and clothing to offer you, Pulcinella is close enough to both participate in that convo and in you, Pierro, and the Tsaritsa’s convos too

by the 2nd week you've decided to choose chaos, and get them to play board games together sometimes (they cant all make it all the time, tbh u don't know if u can handle that either) but groups of them will play at a time

u remembered early on what a dick Dottore was, and sentenced asked if he’d like to play this new board game called “Monopoly” from ur world with Childe, Pantalone, Pierro, Arlecchino, La Signora, and Scaramouche all together :)

(so what ur trying to bring khaenri’ah part 2 down on his head as punishment?? u owe scara and collei that at least)

Columbina is more than happy to help get you Harbinger-like clothes to wear since ur so interested in the style!! (yes yesss get converted, she already has a title picked out for you)

she also giggles anytime u talk abt whether u like an outfit or not, bc u just “no thank you I’d rather wear a trash bag than that shirt, but lets try another?”

meanwhile the tailors in the background u could literally edit them to one of those videos where it just zooms in on their faces with a vine boom of shock

like Pierro, ur unranked, just above the other Harbingers really, as it wouldn't do to make you the 12th Harbinger or smth

the names they gave you being, “The Playwright” or “The Renaissance” or even “Drammaturgo”

(pls anyone who speaks Italian correct if I'm wrong ToT )

ok but the first time, unsurprisingly, one of them got snappy with you, likely Scara I would think,

Scaramouche, pissy: “And what shall we do if it appears our almighty god is perhaps a descender who is entirely human? Why I dare say you’d be transgressing on privileges that were never yours to begin with!”

Every other Harbinger, the Tsaritsa herself, the servants, the frost on the walls: 😶😦😨😶‍🌫️

You, unbothered, still eating and fully expecting this moment: “I don't want to hear it from someone who has god-mommy issues. You shouldn’t have an opinion about me, ur biased.”

yeah, so obviously, they’re emotionally all attached now whether they know it or not, and this was of course the moment they realized they're god would fit in so perfectly here

(the other nations are going to have to pry you from Snezhnaya from their cold dead hands, esp since u now have legal deniability to visit bc ur technically a Harbinger, only commanded by her majesty lol)

(Scaramouche, Arlecchino, and Sandrone were fighting about who gets the room nearest to your quarters lol)

(Capitano won, somehow??)

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sorry ive been slow lately guys, been just trying to work on alllll the fics these past weeks/days/however long its been??

anyway had the shift from hell last week so wish me luck with work this week if u see this 😭

hope u enjoyed this old ask/crack treated srsly post orah!! :D

Safe Travels,

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a/n: bc anon asked for a part three, and im super cheesed about it. I wasn’t gonna post it until tomorrow, but what can I say, im a generous god. 

Take me far enough to say we’ve gone - 

Miguel O’Hara was also a nervous man, as it turned out. He was nervous for you, afraid of what the light in his chest had to offer when he saw you return from a successful trail-run. His bluff was called, it seemed, and you passed with flying colors, earning a wide smile from Peter B. as he dropped you off, once again in O’Hara’s main quarters. The heavy glow from all of his screens casts him in an ever-intimidating light, that seems to be his theme with you. Scary.  He’d watched you with rapt attention on your little assignment, not sure why he’d anticipated the worst to happen to you - worst-case was Peter stepped in and bailed you out, but he’d informed Miguel that he hadn’t even needed to give any advice, a silent watcher, only coming down from his perch on a near building to show you how to activate the force-field device and ring in for a transfer.  “Well, looks like you’ve earned a permanent position amongst our ranks, huh?” He’s mumbling a little, he seems a little deflated as he says it. “Isn’t that a good thing?” You’re raising a brow behind your ever-present mask, nary a ding on your suit. He can tell how much confidence the mission had given you, your shoulders not tilting inwards like they had the last few times he’d loomed over you. Your back was straight, and your hands pressed firmly on your hips in the shared stance every spider-person adopts when they know they’ve done well.  “Of course it is, but these missions aren’t always gonna be so easy, kid.” He mirrors you, standing up straight, leaning down slightly to make his point, “there’s gonna be a mission for each of us that we can’t come back from, you know that, right?” It’s almost threatening, the way his red eyes bore into your white eye-covers. He watches your chest deflate a little at the comment, a pang of remorse runs through him for saying it in such a harsh way. Truly, he just wanted you to be aware of the risks here, the sacrifice that you may be called to make one day. Each of them was expected to lay their life down for the greater good, and he wasn’t exempt from that, either. In his mind, he was offering you an out, a second chance to save your own hide if that’s what you really wanted, before taking on such a lofty responsibility. You jump a little when you hear the door slide open behind you, “jeez, Miguel, as pleasant as ever, aren’t’ya?” It’s the Peter that came with you, “Mayday is asleep-” who? “-Why d’ya always try to scare the new kids, don’t you think she’s proved herself enough?” He looks at you with a warm smile, the kind a father would wear as their kid rounded home for the first time, “I think you killed it, kiddo, don’t let him take the wind from yer sails. I was impressed,” you feel your cheeks heat up at his blatant praise and mumble a sweet thank-you, absent-mindedly kicking a pretend pebble as he claps a warm hand on your shoulder. He doesn’t stop, “why don’t you take your mask off and breathe a little, huh? It must feel terrible in there after the long day,” you can tell he’s being genuine when he asks, bending down to stare right into your mask with a slight tilt of the head, but you can’t help the itch on your forehead when the mask isn’t there, especially thinking about having to make direct eye contact with O’Hara.  He cuts in, “she says she’s more comfortable with it on, Peter.”  “Well, that sounds like a lie, she’s probably just terrified of you, chief. Especially when you go around making threats like that on a debrief.” They carry on like you’re not standing right there. “It’s not my fault if I want them to be aware of the risks, Pete.” How informal of him, using a pet-name, you think. “Yeah, well, the least you can do is thank’em for once. Not everything has to be so life and death. It’s no wonder our turnover is so bad, I have to wonder what our unemployment payout looks like.” They’re not stopping, you really consider making a quick escape while the two men, obviously very good friends based on Peter’s razzing, carry on talking over your head.  “I want to think you’re joking but-” “Tax fraud is no joke, ‘El, you know that.”  You’re…Uncomfortable now, he was right, your mask was kind of stifling after working so hard to have a no-loss mission, there’s still sweat dripping down the back of your neck as the two of them chirp on and on, back and forth. The heat from all the monitors has your vision swimming a little and you start to get a light headed trying to keep up, eventually heaving a heavy sigh of your own. A small, shaking hand makes quick work as you tilt your head down, hair messy as you shake your head, finally getting a good breath of fresh air from outside your protection. Both men stop mid-sentence and stare.  Peter is the first to speak up, not missing a beat but teasing as ever, “there she is, as pretty as ever,” he’s smiling-still. “Feels better, right? Don’t worry about it, we all know how to keep a secret kid, you’re safe here, with us.”  O’Hara just lets a heavy breath fall from his nose and turns away from the two of you, “I have work to finish, Peter, can you get some food for the two of you, please? Consider it a celebration, since you’re so keen on rewarding everyone for just doing their damn job.”  Peter mumbles something as he steps behind you, guiding you with hands on your shoulders, pushing you a little from your spot in the middle, “yeah, yeah, come on.” His head snakes around to smile at you again, “not to brag, but the food here is amazing.” 

It’s quiet after you leave and let the door slide shut, Miguel takes a shaky breath in, and out. He couldn’t help the pang of...jealously? Remorse, maybe, that he couldn’t be the one to tell you that you were safe with them, reassure you, tease you the way Peter was so confident in doing. The way your rosy cheeks looked so pretty, like Pete had said, plays over in his head time and time again for much longer than he’s proud of. He wanted you to know you were safe with him. At the end of it all, he wanted to make sure you were safe.  He’d seen you on his monitors for weeks before calling you to help them, walking around your New York in your street clothes. When Jess had caught him staring at you with such a heavy scowl, he’d said he just wanted to make sure you were keeping it above the wire, doing his due diligence to make sure he wasn’t hiring some loose-lipped kid. She only smiled at her feet, seeing right through his little lie. 

He was even more curt with you after you became comfortable enough to venture the halls without your mask, usually late at night when you knew less folks were around, but pluck his eyes from his skull before he admitted to the dull ache his ability to give you comfort enough to be maskless gave. He really did try to be more inviting with you, even briefly considering taking you on a more risky mission with himself and Jess. Of course, the anxiety that bubbled dashed any hope of one-on-one time in the field. He’d ask you about your canon events, trying to find a way to connect with you. However tight-lipped he was, you were moreso. Mumbling a quiet affirmative or negative, then steering the conversation back to work, against his best efforts. He thought it must feel that way with him, sometimes, when folks try to talk with him. He found himself missing your wry jokes, not as jovial as the run-of-the-mill spider, still keeping a shred perspective on your life of sacrifice. He, of course, knew all of your canon events, he could lay them out by dates and times if he wanted, he’d spent more time than he’d ever admit to on his little…Obsession with you.  It worried him, how fond of your company he’d become in the short time you were helping him. He was really trying to connect, honestly, but every time it felt like he was putting his hand on a hot-plate, and every time he was reminded of what his job meant - sacrifice. And God himself couldn’t convince him of the idea of sacrificing you for this chosen life.  He, as a result, decided to pull back. Treat this as a little passing fancy, maybe you just reminded him of being young again, careless, caution to the wind and so on. 

Months trickled by, trying his best to get you to smile at him despite his resolve to let it all go, to hear your laugh at least once was all he needed to get through his day, it seemed. He was embarrassed, in all reality, he was still technically your boss, no matter how informal that seemed in the walls of the citadel.  “-well, at least that’s what I thought, but Hobie said she was quite the up-and-comer.” He tried to listen to you, but the way you licked your lips made his skin tingle, “I may swing by and meet her, he seems super excited.” You’re leaning over his desk while you talk, Miguel had lost the plot, though. “As excited as someone like him can be, y’know.” “Yeah, send out the welcome wagon, no?” He smiles a little, typing away at some code that needed fixing.  “Ha - well, it’s not like you’re one to do it, you’ll scare her off like a wolf would a hare.” You’re staring at the screen when his fingers stop, hovering over the keys like he’d lost his train of thought, “what’s that supposed to mean?” He turned to face you, eyeing you with a heavy scrutiny, as he was wont to do. “No, nothing bad, I guess. You’re just so dramatic sometimes, it’s weird until you get to know ya’.” There’s a chuckle hidden between the words spilling from your mouth, he wonders if you realize how much he loves when you tease him. It makes him feel more human, less isolated.  “I’m just making sure they all kn-”  “-All know the risks involved, yeah, I’ve heard it all before. I think you’re just pretending so no one knows you’re a big softy.” His fingers haven't moved from above the keys. He leans back in his chair, his straight back finally relaxing a little, “and where do you get off thinking you can talk to me like that, kid?” There’s a stark lack of actual annoyance in his voice, a few months ago, you’d think he was actually offended you’d speak to him that way, but the keen look in his red eyes betrays him these days. “I think Peter is starting to rub off on you.” You laugh a little and smack his shoulder, “someone’s gotta keep you in check around here, right? He can’t shoulder all the burden of your grumpy ass!” You’re smiling down at him, having moved at some point to lean closer. He feels the tips of his ears heat up a little.  “Yeah, well, tell anyone and I’ll have to do somethin’ about it, kid.” You’re a little surprised at him, in the best way. He’s got a full smile, just like the one he wore when you told him about the dryer sheet below your mask, your cheeks heat up and you move to hop off the platform, “hey” a finger pokes at his shoulder -  “don’t start writin’ checks there, boss, or I’ll have to ask you to cash’em some day.” You don’t turn around to face him as you continue, “it’s our secret, I guess. For now, at least.” You pull your mask back over your head as you walk out the heavy door.

He groans a little as the door slides shut, leaving him in the soft hum of all of his monitors - he doesn’t finish the line of code before he shoves himself away from his desk and starts the long trek back to his own private room for the night.

a/n: big man said feelings are for dummys. Pt. 1 - Pt. 2 - Pt. 4-

— I admire the stars from afar with closed eyes

i love my mutuals 🤍🦢 ( appreciation post )

. alphabetical order

aly @soleillunne

we dont talk all that much, but i see you on my dash and smile, like, every single time. im so nervous to talk to you and i dont even know why DJUSHSJ your just so cool and friendly and literally a superstar to me idk 💕 your sososososo awesome and i admire you a lot!

ceru @ceruleancattail

so awesome, literally such a star. your talent is out of this world, and the kindness in your heart is above all. your one of the most friendly people ive met, and your so so loved and admired, especially by me!! Seeing you on my dash is always such a highlight, and seeing your work is even better. Keep doing what you love because i know you can never truly fail 💕 your just too talented..!!!!!

faera @atsdlura

faera ☹️💕 i love you so much/p, your so light, and full of just love for so many others. your probably one of the most genuinely sweet people i know, and I adore your art. everything about you is sweet and so uplifting! whenever i talk to you I feel better and ready to finish the day! your genuinely sooo awesome and Im sososososo happy we met.

hana @haismie

one of the sunshines of my life. i can never truly put into words how much i actually care lmaoo, your my friend from before the platform, and I’ve seen you grow so much, in both terms of writing and drawing. your so utterly talented and the way you weave words leaves my heart burning! ughhh the boy you are!!! thank you for making my day, everytime you send me a message.

khoi @khoipyan

I MISS YOU BROTHER. everytime i see you pop up instantly my mood is lifted!! your very talented, and awesome, and amazing, and i love seeing you talk about your interests!! THINKING OF YOU 💕 take care

kei @keii-starz

oh kei, i always adore seeing you on my dash. you are so loved, and cared about 💕, im so happy i met you because our conversations always brighten me up. your so supportive and kind, and i just want to cover you in soft blankets as you deserve. thank you for always being so kind!

lei @trappolia

lei, the loml… your so fun and always such a highlight of my day… i love talking about everything ever with you, and dont forget about the birthday fic you wrote me?!?! hello?!?! still look at that consistently btw bcs of how sweet it is! your so talented and i adore your writing so much! your super awesome and im grateful ive got to know someone as bright as you.

millie @poppurini

millie you have to be one of my favorite people on the website tbh, we dont talk as often but literally your so fucking talented and i just want to hang everything you do up in a museum and explain it to passerby’s. your personality is so wonderful, and always cheers me up. your so cool, and fantastic as well, i can find no negatives at  all for knowing you! I appreciate you and your work a lot…!

mika @mikacynth

mika the sweet girl that you are omg. your not online as much anymore but every time you are I can just feel the positive vibes uplifting 💕 you mean so much to so many people are your very cared about i hope you know. your very talented and super intelligent. i appreciate you a lot!

misha @mishantics

MISHAAA i hope you know everytime i come across something you reposted on tiktok i scream your name in my head!!!!!! your such a talented artist and someone worthy of inspiration! I appreciate you so so much, and you deserve the best!

skylia @kaiserkisser

skylia oh what a flower you are. YOUR SO AMAZING AND KIND!!! your one of the people i’ve known for longest, and i appreciate you so much for all the kind words you throw at everyone. i love seeing you on my dash, and i appreciate you silently 💗 even if i dont message you a lot i hope you know i do see you

vi  @floraldresvi

. vi, to me your everything good in this world. your always there for me no matter how small or big and you always make me feel included, make me feel worth something. I admire you a lot, and i think your plenty awesome with everything you do, your totally lovable! im sooo grateful i met you, genuinely, you make so many of my days full! 💕

ying @xianyoon

YING YOUR SO COOL… your such a big sibling figure to me and I look up to you so so much, more then you could know. If your the sun, im a star taking in your light in the hopes i can shed that much love on others you do with your warmth. your so admirable and i want to be like you!

. . .

this has been a stressful tiring month for a lot of us, so just know your all cared about and loved 💕

if your a mutual and not on here, wait awaiting in your inbox

I was wondering about how you feel about amw. From some of the posts when you came back, and some of the tags, I get the impression that it's not a fic you vibe with. Maybe bc your tastes/mindset has changed since you started it, that's definitely happened to me in what fic I prefer to read.

So I was wondering whether you dislike writing it bc the theme isn't something you find enjoyable to write anymore or bc you just don't like the story point blank, but we love it so you continue for us so it's finished and there's resolution for the amw readers. Or if it's bc you dislike having a fic in limbo that's partially posted for your own sake. Like, it's something that hangs over you, but if you finish it, it's finally done and it won't lurk in your thoughts any longer.

I know when I have a task to do, it hovers over me and if I don't do the thing, I start to get anxious about it. And the anxiety grows every time it pops into my thoughts, but once I cross it off my list, I feel *free* and able to breathe again.

I only ask bc sometimes it seems like you don't want to write it or that it's become an arduous task for you.

I'm genuinely grateful that you've chosen to finish writing it, and I don't mean anything negative about this ask. It's just something I noticed and wanted to understand better. I adore your writing and reading your interactions/reactions with everyone. You're the only reason I still use Tumblr. I hope my question(s) don't upset you, if that is the impact, then I am truly sorry. I hope you have a beautiful weekend 💖💖💖 - all the love from another Aaron Dessner girlie 🤍

this is literally the sweetest most thoughtful ask oh my god 😭🥺

for me, all my words was honestly just supposed to be a one shot. and then it grew longer and longer and i was writing it alongside in the absence of a king which is my baby and (in my opinion) the best thing i've ever written so it was exhausting continuing the two together. especially because i dont think amw is good writing/my best writing. you can especially see that in the first few chapters, which are pretty directionless.

when i left on my hiatus i was dealing with a very tough situation with my family (which is still ongoing unfortunately) but i never truly planned on ever abandoning ITAOAK. i ALWAYS knew i was going to finish it, which is why i tried working on it as much as possible over the last two years. i wanted to especially finish it for me, bc like i said i loved it and i wrote it for myself and i was the ideal target audience lmaoooo

so in comparison - while i still definitely vibe with amw's concept/storyline - it just truly paled in comparison for ITAOAK. also i've always been worried about amw's ending. i know people have certain expectations for this kind of au and i..... have not written it the way people would want. like i said, it's unrealistic and not... great. so. that is still making me very nervous too.

ALSO i have new stories im excited for and just wanted to put those up right away and i was feeling trapped by amw being incomplete.

that being said - i am so unbelievably grateful for everyone's support and the fact that people still want to read it. it definitely played a huge part in me continuing the story and now i can move on in peace with zero unfinished works!!! 😍🤗💖

Joji - Nectar

Brothers and Dateables + Raphael

(i never finished this so im just posting it bc i can't look at it anymore. enjoy.)

Asmodeus: Modus

i cannot stop, i cannot cry

i will not fret, i will not die

i am machine, i stay alive

... i don't feel the way they programmed me to feel today

i feel like this song really fits asmodeus, and is extremely representative of his internal struggles. the position he's been forced into, the narcissism and pain and doubt he struggles with and has struggled with for so long. everyone expects him to be perfect, and he probably feels like god still tries to control him. he feels so controlled, so robotic. and it's killing him.

an interesting thing to note is the definition of the word modus and how close it is to his name.

the definition of the word modus is "the process by which a machine completes an automatic action" or, when used with operandi, "the way in which a criminal or individual completes their crimes or actions".

how that relates to asmodeus is so obvious and intricate. he is technically a criminal bc he is a demon, and so god views him as a criminal. and so do the angels. and he feels as if he is a machine bc of the way he has to portray himself as an idol. it's all too much to bear. and it's his constant struggle.

Satan: Run

i fell for your magic, i tasted your skin

and though this is tragic, at least i found the end

i witness your madness, you shed light on my sins

and if we share in this sadness, then where have you been?

this song i feel perfectly represents satan's anger and depression. why he comes off like a snuffed out candle, so quiet and mild. keeps to himself. i really see him as someone who has suffered a severely broken heart. and it's made him become reclusive and turn away from the world.

the way the music sounds also helped with my decision. that rock solo really nailed it in.

also the fact that sadness and anger are such close emotions to each other, and they can easily manifest as each other, especially in a mentally unstable individual. it could also represent panic in him.

Leviathan: Sanctuary

if you've been waiting for falling in love

babe you don't have to wait on me

cuz i've been aiming for heaven above

but an angel ain't what i need

... cuz what you want is what i want, sincerity

this song though. honestly a banger. and it fits levi so well.

just the way i feel like he'd react to falling in love with someone who genuinely loved him. after spending so long alone and lonely with no one to share his time with. it would be truly like heaven to him.

with how envious he is of happiness, it would be such a shock, and a beautiful one, for him to find someone who truly understands him and loves him.

Lucifer: Nitrous

guess i've been awake, thinking bout our fate

fighting two devils, blood in my toothpaste

spit into the night, thought it would be nice

you just made me nervous, you were cold as ice

won't go too in depth about this one but i definitely get lucifer's vibes from this. he seems like a hot and cold lover. someone who plays hard to get while secretly yearning for you so hard. down bad as fuck.

Raphael: Normal People

so tell me if i'm mad

there's something in your laugh

that makes me fear the way you smile

raph being understandably on his guard around both demons and his fellow angels bc of how psycho and fake all of them are, and how quickly all of them will turn on you. he knows it's at the drop of a hat. living in a den of snakes.

Belphegor: 777

Solomon: Reanimator

Mammon: Like You Do

Simeon: Tick Tock

Barbatos: Daylight

Diavolo: Upgrade

Beelzebub: Pretty Boy

Heya! I really appreciate how manage to get each fanfic you write to really carry the voice of the character youre writing about! Like how in the lucifer/angel fic a lot of the text is packed with lucis inner monologue compared to how much dialogue goes on, really gets to how lucifer is really in his own head, and just from the words you use and how you write a reader can see a lot of that inner monologue consists of overthinking and all his other little quirks hes gained from so much isolation and rejection over the years.

When I thought about it, compared to the vox/alastor fic you wrote, its much more dialogue, and a lot of the internal thoughts and text is more observations about vox (some of them sarcastic, others analyzing things like vox's body language) and amusing descriptions of the situation.

Im just wondering, do you plot all these details in your head, or do you jot them down on paper? IMO it seems like in general some fanfics struggle with keeping the character's voice when describing things outside of the dialogue ,and tend to sound like its being narrated/observed by the writer, rather than a look inside how the character thinks/talks. It can be a tricky thing to really get a characters voice down TBH

Thank you VERY much! You've basically just gone and told me, "Hey, you know that thing that you really enjoy doing and is important to you? Yeah, that's great!" hahaha, so please know that this message is greatly appreciated. I LOVE.

I am a huge outliner for every single fic I write, except the occasional single-scene NSFW oneshots that kinda write themselves! But character voice is usually actually not heavily involved in that outline, haha.

I think for my first Proper Fic (TM) on AO3, The Sword of Damocles is Swinging, which was a 60k word character study of Hawks from My Hero Academia, I did do a lot of outlining regarding his characterization and how I wanted to portray that because I felt like if I didn't write all of it down then I wouldn't be able to wrap my head around him. But this type of thing has very quickly become a matter of "code-switching" into a character's head for me, basically. Characterization has always been really important to me, and I remember back when I was in my "1k words is an accomplishment I'm genuinely very proud of" stage of writing, it was the thing that made me the most nervous, because I was afraid of not being able to write characters that felt like themselves.

What actually really helped with this is that I spent like 4 years doing Homestuck fantroll OC roleplay, haha. It was the perfect combination of "these are my characters so I automatically know all there is about them" + "but they are their own distinct characters with different personalities and inner voices, so it's still great practice," and then ofc roleplay being a very rewarding, collaborative, and social activity as well that gets posted in smaller, easier-to-write chunks than an entire fanfic.

For the Hazbin characters, I mostly rewatched some of their big scenes (like most of the Angel episode, or Lucifer's intro) for a reminder and a point of reference, paying particular attention to their body language, the intended vibe of how they're portrayed, and the way they talk, but it's less note-taking and more like that moment before a choir starts singing where the teacher blows a whistle to remind them where that note is, haha.

Anyway, basically, we're all reaping the rewards of me being a long-term roleplayer who's really into writing in third-person limited rather than omniscient. 🤭

An example of one of my actual outlines below the cut if you're still interested! It's chapter one from Happily Ever After, and Other Shit Nepotism Can't Buy because I am Not sharing my nsfw outlines, HAH:

As you can see, some moments are quoted almost directly bc I thought of neat lines while outlining, while others are fairly loosely outlined because I know it's going to be easy to write once I get there and I'm not accidentally already writing it in my brain. Sometimes large chunks of scenes write themselves, like the entire ending to this fic:

jonesmith analysis ep 31-32, 1-10 (part 3)

its here :D

episode 31 aka the shortest episode ever but I had a lot of fun pulling stuff from this one :)

"girls make him break out in a rash" Davy & Mike sensing another fag:

this ep was just Mike torturing Davy heh

Peter: "you know, it's going to be tough to replace a man like Frankie. after all, where do you find a guy that can't sing, act, or surf?"

Mike: "you could go out for the part, Davy."

^ came for him out of no where

manhandling and dragging him around by the scruff of his neck. I love that Mike rolls his eyes in the first gif.

also I love when the guys scoop up Davy at the end and tie him to the volleyball poll (a compromising position for him to be in). Mike shouldve pressed his crotch against Davy when he grabbed him from behind 🙄😔

ep 32

love Mike aggressively manhandling him here, he goes for a full choke... I also think Mike being goofy during the radio show and Davy giggling at everything he says is so fucking cute.

SEASON 2

ep 1 not anything specific to jonesmith I’d say since Davy is kidnapped most of it. I do love Mike's line deliver on "David means business, baby"

also when theyre singing and it looks like Davy is yelling into his ear.

ep 2

using my one video per post early bc theres no way to convey this through a gif

this ep was a great jolenzmith ep as they quite literally say "we're all in this together"so I’d feel too bad cutting Micky out of the jonesmith analysis BUT I will include this frame bc its so cute and silly

ep 3

this scene where Mike tries to barge into the room like a knight in shining armor there to save Davy and Davy is just chillin.

^ my gif doesnt do his little voice break justice.

Mike touching Davy's arm here during the scene where theyre telling Davy not to marry this random girl and Davy's like no im not gunna.

their adorable shenanigans in the background pointed out here.

ep 4

Davy descibing Mike as "comfortable and familiar" cuteee.

damsel in distress bit

Davy straightening Mike's tie is so cute to me and the little hand pat after gahhhhh so soft "take it easy Mike, dont be nervous" I love them

ep 5

waist grab

ep 7

whatever he was doing here

Davy Jones 🤏👏 all ground up.

when they go back to Ella Mae's house and Davy's pants get caught on the nail so he calls out to Mike for help AND his cute little "hiya Mike" when everyone comes running outside. literally only acknowledging Mike in these scenes. I know, he only got two eyes.

ep 8 i love this ep all of the guys are super touchy with each other. I was determined to include every tiny little scene they were in physical contact but it was genuinely too much so i picked my faves (and its still a lot).

Davy's deathgrip on Mike's wasit, as he should.

Mike grabbing Davy when hes startled, role reversal.

kinda went crazy with gif making this ep 🙈 whatever. love is stored in the grabbing of each others arms.

ep 10 gay ass episode

finger sword fight. an analogy to a different type of "sword fighting"

Davy big smile Mike teeny little smile wahhhh. from HERE.

Mike draping his arm over Davy. I am in a coma from this scene

Davy resting his chin on Mike's shoulder AUUGGHHHHHH. + them being cute dorks.

Hey Rem, I just wanted to thank you so much for introducing states to me. I was an a&p from you know who 💀 and never could manifest anything no matter how hard I kept persisting and affirming. I felt like such a failure like damn, maybe the law doesn’t work for me and all that changed until I found your post about states. Like everything literally clicked and the way you explain things so easily and perfectly *chefs kiss*. I’ve recently been applying states and testing the law so I can build my confidence due to my trauma from that girl (you know who LMAO) and I’ve manifested something within 15 minutes. I was so shocked and surprised like girl states was really THIS easy 😭 all I did was imagine and moved on and then BOOM! You and @fleurlx are such an inspiration like omg. The most, sweetest, and kindest bloggers who genuinely understand and have empathy towards others. All y’all did was encourage me and motivate me to get the dream life I so deserve! You waking up in your dream apartment? W 😍 I love how limitless you are and I’m doing the same thing with waking up with my dream life, thank you so much babe 🫶🏻 I wish we could be friends 🥺 love you so much and have the best day ever my darling, you deserve ALL the good things life has to offer, I mean it. I’m wishing you an abundance of success stories in your inbox! You matter, your a loved, and highly valued 💕 you are amazing in every aspect. I have never seen you be rude, mean, or aggressive to anyone wanting to know about the loa. You keep up what your doing, you are literally changing lives 🥹

aww this was the sweetest thing ive ever read 🥺 im so happy i've had such a positive effect on you!! i was so nervous to change to states content bc i was an a+p girly for YEARS and thats what i used to always post on my page but im so glad everyone has been so receptive of it and benefited from it!! 🤍 i hope u have an amazing day/night and im so excited for you to manifest all your desires and live the dream life you DESERVE!! <3

this one might be long so i apologize but…

how do you manage to not give a fuck when you write? i’m trying to build myself up to write so i write anonymously on another person’s page (like role plays) and when they’re good, they’re GOOD but then there’s people who complain & people who say rude things about what i generate or the characters i made. i get that i shouldn’t care cause it’s my story but i guess criticism makes me nervous? well i actually don’t mind criticism but harsh criticism is like on the nose to me. i get it, you don’t like her but don’t call her a bitch. like i feel really really bad and i wish i could delete that ask and never do it anymore…i don’t even want to pick it up because of how many people are talking about it and she’s not a lowkey author either. she probably has thousands! so here are thousands of people talking shit about it, liking it, or genuinely give constructive criticism and it just makes me nervous to actually become a writer because some of these people are really rude. the person did stand up and tell people to pipe down, she’s a sweetheart but like how can i just zone all of that out and not feel like a bad writer because i feel like my work is terrible and people will hate it than love it

ooh bestie, i write for myself. i don’t ask anyone for their opinions on how i write lol. i just write, post, and then talk with y’all about it cause writing is supposed to be fun. if i liked it enough to post then the most i hope is the rest liked it too. if they didn’t oh welllll 👨‍🦯 i don’t really care much as i did when i first started writing on this blog, to me fanfiction is never that serious bc im not writing to impress people or get a publisher. im just here for the smut 🤌

ugh ro i know ive only known ur acc for like a month but u have no idea how much ur writing has like.. IMPACTED ME BRO like the fic I found u through was that simon fic 'take what you need' (very underappreciated) and i actually lost ur account for a bit and was super sad bc I couldn't find the fic BUT I FOUND U AGAIN AND I WAS SO HAPPY and this new story.... GODDDS ROW how do u just hit every spot correcrly like... ur writing is genuinely AMAZING like i was AMAZED okay. like....UGFHHHFHF i cant even put it into proper words i just have ti say like OsoanwisossjsnwjwkwkwIWJSJZJNSNSBSBZBBSJAJQKQK like thats how i felr during it. u are genuinely an amazing writer. sorry if this is too.much but i just HAD to show my appreciation u literally deserve so much more.

AHH WELCOME BACK IM SO GLAD U FOUND ME AGAIN!!! take what u need is underrated but it was my first Full Fic for cod so i get it!!! it was mostly just self indulgent tbh HEHE

AND OMG UR TOO KIND 🥹 i simply write what i would like to see in fics bc i made this blog to feed myself im just glad there's so many ppl who r interested in reading the same shit i do!!!! i am shaking everyone's hands we r all just silly little hurt/comfort maniacs i fear !!!!

and thank u so much for the kind words it's never too much!!! hearing such nice things about my writing makes me feel much more confident to keep going hehe i still get so nervous when i post and worry everyone will hate it HAHA

So um. Hi. Thats a LOT of followers so I wanted to doodle this thing for it, thank you so much for the support!! I want to talk about some things under the cut so feel free to read if you're interested!

So, first things first. I appreciate everyone who's followed me for Spamton posting and other stuff!! Though I also want everyone to know that I post mainly:

Spamton OCs

Spamton

Mario

Pokemon

Just general OC stuff(???)

If you dont like these things then you're free to unfollow! I dont want a bunch of people mass following me for Spamton and then be jumpscared by Spamton OCs.. dvwbtnbbt

This is my doodle account! All of my art eventually goes here, but if you only want to see polished / finished pieces, follow @battermesh !

Also. I get.. kind of nervous when I see a lot of people following me?? So sometimes I just stop posting for a while until things "settle" (mostly bc of social anxiety). I tend to be ok after a while but because of past experiences I just try to chill out and remember that people Choose to follow me. In actuality I can sometimes get pretty embarrassed over my own OCs so I mostly just post fanart on here with the occasional Spamton OC, and rarely other OCs.

Just some other disclaimer things before I forget:

My memory is pretty bad and my motivation is also sometimes equally bad. I love getting asks but I often forget to answer them, and when I do, I have to be in the right headspace to reply to them. I don't intentionally ignore them!

If youre rude / weird to me or my OCs, or sexualize either me or my OCs, I am instantly blocking you. My bar is a bit high for the first two things because sometimes I can't really tell if something is malicious or not, but when its clearly obvious with the intent to hurt, I will not hesitate to block. I mainly block bots / accounts without icons because I can't tell if theyre bots. I also block accounts that just make me generally uncomfortable, including accounts that post fetish content / sexualize stuff. If you sexualize any art I make I will block you no hesitation. My art is not meant for that and it never will be. It will never be for people like that. Im generally okay with jokes but when it gets creepy thats enough for a block.

I'm sorry that this is kind of long but I've been wanting to make a post about this for a while!! I'm genuinely so happy that people like my content, especially things that people could consider "cringe" and "embarrassing", like fan OCs. It always surprises me that people like my characters at all, and it really warms my heart to know that people are just.. allowed to make whatever they want and post whatever they want without worrying about like. Idk. Being put in a cringe compilation on youtube and laughed at. This is why I like Tumblr the most- I don't think I'd ever trust something like Twitter or Instagram enough to put my more personal art there. Tumblr feels like home to me, and I'm genuinely so glad that people here like my stuff. It makes me really happy / comfortable. 🥺🥺

Genuinely thank you all so much

pushes two of my interests together cutely . fog-style icons of the swap tokitwins :)

(plus a long technical ramble under the cut bc im incapable of not doing that Constantly)

so the abridged context rundown is that these are styled after the sentiment ttrpg system! in the long and short, every character has ~3 stats, each one assigned a color. each stat represents a core character trait, and can be “locked in” to dictate how a character is feeling or thinking in the moment. taking damage (physical, mental, or emotional) can cause a stat to get “wounded,” rendering it unusable (and further defining character decisions.) thats the very basics of it! the above image is a comp of Base-ColorAlt-ExpressionAlt-ColorAlt. for funsies. :)

. so anyway i gave them stats. WAHAHA

> Yui

- [Yellow: //] the Little Guy stat. he is, at his core, still a 14 year old. a little bit of naivete, a little bit of bluntness. good for earnestness, amicability -- bad for new experiences (he gets nervous :[), commanding respect.

- [Blue: Outcast...] the loner stat. his tendency to stand alone, fend for himself. does what needs to be done. good for self-reliance, judgement -- bad for interaction, accepting support.

[Joint stat w/Mui. They can switch if the other's becomes wounded, taking that wounded stat for their own.]

- [Orange: //] the competence stat. the need to have everything in order, and the ability to efficiently follow routines. good for tactics/stubborness, miscellaneous tasks -- bad for improvisation, listening to others.

- [Black: Silence] kinda cursed... pessimism. the belief that things are just going to go horribly, horribly wrong. he doesn't belong here, and he knows it. good for danger detection, genre awareness. bad for... pretty much everything else. (self-worth, hope)

[like. actually cursed stat. if certain things happen, he has to roll to avoid being forced into locking in this stat.]

> Mui

- [Steel: //]   airheadedness. his tendency to do things his own way-- and not in anyone else's. impulsivity. good for making quick decisions, genuineness -- bad for collaboration, focus.

- [Yellow: //] littleguy stat. curiosity, optimism. just a carefree lil guy that wants to have fun. good for creativity, mischief -- bad for forethought, tempering expectations.

- (Post-Rui) [Blue: ...Never Alone.] bond stat. his connection not just to his brother, but to everyone around him at large. the desire to protect. good for reliability, standing up for others -- bad for isolation,.

[Joint stat w/Yui. They can switch if the other's becomes wounded, taking that wounded stat for their own.]

- (Redlights > Post-Swordsmith) [White: Noise] burning. what hides behind the fog. ruthlessness-- cold, concentrated anger. towards what happened to him, and to whats happening to everyone around him. The Scary One. good for drive, destruction -- bad for preservation, of the self and otherwise.

[whoops! another cursed stat. if certain things happen, he has to roll to avoid being forced into locking in this stat.]

- (Post-Redlights) [*Cyan- Outcast, But Never Alone.] Tokitwins shared stat. Should both of their blue stats be wounded at once, they can collectively choose to instead wound their black+white stats respectively, giving them shared access to this one. to properly wound or lock out cyan, it must be locked out for both of them. 

the trust stat. the ability to act hand-in-hand together, functionally as one. completely putting your faith in another, come hell or high water.

//

so basicaly, they mean The World 2 me,

❅ “Run Away” ❅

character: yandere! minamoto teru [jibaku shounen hanako-kun]

warning: yandere, mentions of m0rder ; MINORS/AGELESS BLOGS DNI, PUT YOUR AGE IN BIO/PINNED POST TO INTERACT

words: 427

a/n: this is a repost from my main blog (@/hikari-writes) so yes this writing is old + bad, i just moved them here w/o editing bc im lazy and wants to keep reminding myself how bad my writing used to be

“If I were to run away from you, would you chase after me?”

A small smile makes its way to your lips as you question Teru this, earning a confused blink from him.

After a moment’s silence and no response came from him, you decided that the teasing went a bit far and were about to apologize when he finally replied.

“Before you get the chance to run away, I would have already gotten rid of those beautiful legs of yours.”

You flinched and the atmosphere suddenly turned heavy. Teru’s still smiling, just like his usual self but you of all people knew that it’s definitely not genuine.

“Ah…ahaha….I’m just kidding, Teru. You don’t need to go that far. I just wanted to see how much you love me, that’s all.”

You give him a nervous laughter and softly pat his shoulder in a playful manner. His expression stays the same and it makes you actually wonder if he’s really serious about what he just said.

“I’m quite serious though? If you wanted to know how much I love you that badly, I’ll be glad to tell you about all the things I’ve done to protect you.”

You quickly pick up on the bad vibes he’s giving and try to get up and leave him but his gaze on you made you freeze in your place. Heck, even trying to scoot away from him proves to be difficult for you to do.

“Including killing someone.”

Your face went pale and you stared at him in disbelief. You wished you could just say “Come on, that joke isn’t funny,” at him but you knew well that that line has been used over and over in horror films rather than in comedies.

“Are you scared?”

It was a simple yes or no question yet it weighs on you so much. You can’t just say yes and expect him to let you go just like that but you also can’t just say no and still expect him to let you go.

Either answer will only bring the same conclusion, whether you like it or not.

You now regretted ever asking him that question.

No…

You regretted ever going out with him in the first place.

He has you completely wrapped up around his fingers and you are left with no other choice than to stay with him. You won’t even be given the chance to think of escaping.

Since you know for sure he’ll carry out his words and get rid of your legs without a moment’s hesitation.