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15 QUESTIONS FOR 15 FRIENDS
Tagged by @sherlockig, thank u Alexz!!
Under the cut bc I got wordy and rambly as per usual lol.
ARE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Kind of? In that I more or less named myself after Izzy from our flag lol. Not that I'm going to tell everyone I meet that, but it is a big part of why I stuck with it after trying it out (that, and I've always wanted a name that had the letter zed in it, silly as that may seem.)
One of my middle names (that I had been using as a first name for a few years) is after my grandfather and aunt who also have that name as their middle name.
My deadname was after an actress famous in the 90s (tho tbh my mum apparently didn't choose it for that, she chose it bc she didn't find out my gender until I was Out and then was like 'aw fuck I don't have a name for this situation' and went with the first one she saw in a book of names a nurse gave her. It was only after that she remembered the actress when I was like. 4. that she changed and started telling ppl it was after that instead.)
And technically Holden is after the book character, but mum never actually read that book (and after I described it to her, said she has no interest in doing so lmao), she just liked how the name sounded and that was the one solitary name she for sure had on hand when I was born apparently. Could have saved us all time had she just used that one for me anyway!
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Couple of nights ago. I'm doing better abt missing my cat Nisha, but my phone will toss up compilations of pics of her to mark the year/month/etc and sometimes those still get me. It popped up just before I went to bed that night and I was already so tired that I just. broke down. Bc I know she's v loved and looked after w/my mum, but I do miss her goofy lil self a lot. She was my first cat that was given to me and meant to be mine alone, and there's something abt that first pet bond I guess.
3. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope, and it's not a likely thing for me. I've said before that that happening would be in a very specific situation, wherein I'm with someone who wants to dedicate the rest of our lives to raising a child, or god forbid more than one, tho I think I'd max out at two if I managed one at all tbh (and that's not even getting into the very complex for me thing of would I want to actually be pregnant ever (probably not, absolutely terrified of dying in childbirth and don't see myself getting over that easily), we have the funds to make that happen (and give the kid a good life, not just a decent one or 'could have been worse' like my own), and we feel stable mentally, emotionally, and physically (as much as one can outside of Life Happening of course) bc having a kid means putting allll of that first for them, ahead of yourself. Or at least I think it should mean that lol.
But that situation is incredibly unlikely considering my bigger goal in life is to wind up being a third for multiple couples while also fucking any of my friends who are down for it in a big poly ENM sort of thing for lack of better/more detailed definition (I know it sounds unrealistic and maybe it is to a degree, almost definitely is lol.)
I can admit I just. don't want to uproot the life I've been trying so hard to build for myself in so many ways, to have kids. I'll happily help babysit the kids of any friends tho and be the fun uncle that buys them junk food and lets them stay up late to watch movies. I think that's about the level of parenting of any kind that I can handle for now (also tbh I burned out on parenting bc my family admits they parentified the fuck outta me with my three younger cousins. It by far could have been worse, but I spent my teens spending most of my days after school helping look after them from the newborn years and on. Unless my above uber specific scenario happens, then I've probably had my fill of parenting for my lifetime.)
4. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?
I played volleyball for a few years in elementary school, and we were made to participate in a multi-school track and field thing for most of middle school every year, but I was never amazing at them. Housemate and I have figured out I likely have undiagnosed asthma tho (turns out running or going out in too cold or hot weather shouldn't instantly make you gasp, struggle to breathe, and make you taste iron in your mouth, who the fuck knew? Not me, genuinely) so I think that might have a lot to do with it.
I also enjoy tennis and badminton and would love to try rugby, but I've never played any of those beyond a hobby with family/friends.
5. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
I do! Probably too much and not always in the best situations, but I've been working for years to hone when and where it should be used so I think/hope I'm a lot better with it than I was when I was younger. Tho even then, I did get adults who found it funny when I was sarcastic bc of how adult I seemed to a lot of them (their words, not mine lmao.)
6. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
I genuinely don't know. Usually I'm too busy running my script for meeting new ppl in my head and trying to maintain Common and Expected Etiquette to really notice much right away. I have found that after a bit of time/after the initial meeting has passed, I tend to notice colours ppl wear more often than others if I see them often enough, or hair colour. But I don't know if it counts towards this question at that point lol.
7. WHAT'S YOUR EYE COLOUR?
Kinda blueish grey? Some ppl say it's too grey to be blue, others that it's too blue to be grey. I had a lady at the ND DOT freak out abt not being sure if I should have blue or grey on my ID a few years back, and she finally just told me to put blue so 'she could stop feeling so confused.' Was a weird day and the first time I realised apparently they really do have a blend of both colours, enough for it to be upsetting lmao.
8. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
I can't choose between the two; I like both! I also like mixing them together when I write (a scary story with a happy ending, an ending that seems happy but is actually terrifying, so on and so forth.)
9. ANY TALENTS?
Writing? Maybe, I always list it bc it's something I know how to do and to (usually) do decently well. I can sort of draw? But not well enough that I think 'talented' would be accurate to describe how I draw lol. I'm not sure of anything else off the top of my head tbh.
10. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
In California, USA! We were there bc dad was in basic training for the Marines and then just got stuck at Camp Pendleton for years lmao (or that's how he always talks abt it anyway lmao.) Only was actually there until either: a. I was 3 months old, b. I was 6 months old or c. I was actually basically still a fresh newborn. Depends on whether you're talking to my dad, mum, or grandparents as to which answer you get, and at this point I'm genuinely uncertain as to exactly when mum left and took me to North Dakota but 6 months seems the most potentially accurate lmaooo.
11. WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?
Writing, drawing, reading (not enough but I'm trying to remedy that), napping, watching movies/fave shows, and giffing.
12. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?
Kind of? My cat Nisha had to stay in North Dakota after I moved, so my mum and her bf are looking after her now (and got her a little sister, a kitten who is getting so big already!, named Bella.) I help Housemate look after aer two cats as well, and I'd like to think the boys consider me like their fun uncle lol (aka I bend over backwards for them and let them steal my spot on the couch all the time, and will break out the treats if needed to corral them now and then. In my defense: they are the cutest lil baby boy cats and they deserve the world, even when they're being little gremlins lmao.)
13. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Approximately somewhere between 5'3 and 5'4ish? I can't recall the last time I was actually measured, and most of the ppl I've been around were somewhere between those heights and I'm usually either slightly shorter or slightly taller than some of them, so??? I put 5'3 on my ID tho lol
14. FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?
English bc it was easy and I liked almost everything we did in that class. All my general and more specific history courses were a close second, and my foreign language classes a close third.
15. DREAM JOB?
Ideally, I'd love to not have to work. But who wouldn't, so that said, probably something in a library or museum. I'd love to be a library page again, or help work the front desk/docent duties of a museum. Working at someplace like Mystic Seaport would be amazing too; I'd be happy to learn how to help repair/repaint ships that come in or just help do tours or look after artifacts and stuff (tbh they could hire me just to type up any random data entry work they need done for any/all depts and I'd say yes to the job offer lol.) Unfortunately there's fairly significant roadblocks to me achieving any of these jobs rn, but I like to keep them in mind, just in case.
Also, if I can have one dream job that would be even more unlikely and is slightly TMI probably but: paid third for a rich couple. I show up, look nice, [redacted], make sure they're both good for the night, then go back home to Housemate (if it wouldn't be a night they'd want me to stay over, which I wouldn't be against but also. That would require some overtime pay lol.) The chances of this one are...so unlikely it's stupid funny, but a man's allowed to have dreams right lmao?
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hii i love love how u write spencer omds🥸
uhh i was wondering if you could write sth based off the song “we’ll never have sex” by leith ross? pls dont feel pressured to write this btw😭😭😭 hope ur having a good day lovely💗💗
hello my love i have no self control so this is extremely long and plotty but i love this song and i hope that this is any good at all crying emoji (i'm on a laptop LOL) enjoy!!
warnings/tags: angst/fluff, fem!reader, negative self-talk from reader, mentions of past sexual coercion/feeling used, mentions of past excessive drinking to combat social anxiety, ive been watching a lot of new girl lately and i think it shows, SO FRIENDS TO LOVERS, happy ending
You weren’t expecting to end up on Spencer Reid’s worn-leather couch at two in the morning, clutching a chipped mug of coffee in your hands as you listen to the sounds of the city from the street below. But there you are, sitting with your legs folded under you, in your favorite dress and first date-night makeup (now bleeding and smudged from all the crying.) And realizing that despite considering him one of your closest friends, you haven’t been to his apartment in a long time. There are, of course, good reasons for that—but you try to push those from your mind.
“I’m really sorry about this,” you sigh, staring at your warped reflection in the glassy black surface of your coffee. Spencer is coming out of the small kitchen, now bearing his own cup.
“Please, stop apologizing.”
You glance up, tentatively studying him from behind the safety of your mug. While he may not have been asleep when you knocked on his door ten minutes ago, lachrymose and barely verbal, he must have been getting ready for bed. He’s clad in patterned pajama pants, mismatched socks, and an FBI crewneck that is just big enough to reveal the collar of the tee-shirt underneath. He’s already taken out his contacts, and you were startled by the reminder that he also has glasses.
“So...” he begins, bringing you back to the present moment, “we don't have to talk about anything, if you don’t want to, but...”
You sigh, watching coffee bubbles swirl like stars in a galaxy.
“It’s fine. Honestly, I’m kind of embarrassed. I didn’t really think, I just... ended up here.”
“Yeah... where did you come from?” he laughs quietly. “Not that I’m complaining. But I recall you not living super close by.”
“No, no. I was actually on a date. Kind of.”
“Ah.” There’s a beat of silence, and ostensibly Spencer is waiting for you to say more, but instead you take a sip from your mug. “At two in the morning?” You nod dully, staring at the labyrinthine pattern of the Persian rug.
“I’m taking it that it wasn’t a very good date...?”
A whoosh of air escapes from your puffed cheeks.
“No it was not. Not by the end, anyway. It actually started really well, which made it even more disappointing when he...” you laugh, but there’s not much humor in it. “Well, when he kicked me out of his car on a street corner because I didn’t want to sleep with him.”
You don’t look to see Spencer’s reaction—only take another long, baleful sip of coffee and ignore the heavy silence.
“I’m really sorry. You... you deserve so much better than that.”
An attempt at a jaded scoff from you falls flat.
“Yeah, well. Tell that to the last three white house interns I’ve gone on dates with. It’s the same thing every time.”
“Have you considered going on fewer dates with white house interns...?” The nervous humor is a thin veil over genuine critique. You shrug, biting the inside of your cheek.
“It’s not just them. Every single guy I’ve liked since I was 15 has been like this. Even my past relationships, I felt like I was almost... tricked into, you know? I mean, these guys, they act all understanding and willing to take it slow or whatever, until you’re in a relationship, and suddenly they’re guilt tripping you so hard and making you feel so obligated to...” you catch yourself just in time, glancing up at Spencer. You’re not sure what to make of his expression. The drawn brow and slightly squinted eyes trained so intently on you could be sympathy, or anger, or pity, or apathy—you look away, not sure you even want to know what he’s thinking. “Sorry. You don’t need to hear all about that. Basically romance is exhausting and since I’ll clearly be single forever I’m considering running away to join a nunnery.”
When he doesn’t respond for too long, you look back up quizically.
“I’m not sure you know what romance actually is,” he says as soon as your gaze meets his, like the eye-contact activated some kind of hair-trigger in his vocal box.
You blink, lowering the coffee cup to your lap.
Says Spencer Reid?
“...sorry?”
He flushes, stammering to clarify himself.
“I just meant—I—I know I’m not exactly fighting women off with a stick—” he interrupts himself with a self-conscious (adorable) laugh— “but... but I have been in love, at least once.”
“Maeve,” you say, gently—trying to shove down bitter guilt as you remember how jealous you’d been when Spencer had first told you about her. “I remember.”
He swallows and nods.
“We never even met—we just talked. All the time. I had no idea what she looked like. But it didn’t matter at all. Because I knew her, and I loved her. Maybe things would have gone further if I hadn’t been calling her from public phone booths, but that wasn’t the most important thing to either of us. We were still in love.” You try to shut out the sharp ache in your chest. Being jealous of the way he speaks about a dead woman is so wrong.
“What I’m trying to say is that romance isn’t solely about sex, or even physical appearance. It sounds to me like you’ve been with a lot of men who don’t understand that. And it would be such a shame for you to write romance off in general before you even get to experience it. You are... an extraordinary woman. You’re funny, and intelligent, and kind, and so capable of being loved. One day, someone is going to see beyond your pulchritude and prove that to you. I hope you let them try.”
More tears blur the pattern on the rug, pooling in the rims of your eyes before spilling down your cheeks in fast, fat drops. Shakily you set the cup down, resting your elbows on your knees and hiding your face in your hands. You sniff once. Twice. Shake your head quickly, attempting to wipe the tears away without further smearing your makeup everywhere.
“Shit, I’m sorry,” Spencer breathes, leaning forward but obviously unsure how to comfort you. “Please don’t cry, I wasn’t--I was trying to do the opposite of this.”
“No, I’m sorry! You didn’t have to—you didn’t—I’m sorry. That was way too nice.”
But you're not crying because he was nice.
Someone will love you, but not me. That’s all you can hear.
His voice is a mere whisper when he next speaks.
“I meant every word.”
You take a shuddering breath, allowing yourself a moment of reprieve behind the peaceful black of your eyelids. You can’t be looking at his face when you say what you’re about to say.
“I had a crush on you for the longest time, you know.”
Ringing silence. But it doesn’t last as long as you’d imagined. It’s not as world ending.
“Had?”
The little smile in his voice is like a fist around your heart.
“Yeah. You know what changed?”
“What’s that?”
Absolutely nothing.
“Every time I got super drunk and started hitting on you, you’d just drive me home. And I did it a lot. Like, for months. But you were such a gentleman. It drove me fucking crazy. So eventually I figured you just didn’t like me and I gave up.”
Another stretch of silence. A breeze comes in from the open window, fluttering the curtains and cooling the tears on your face. His response is sad when it finally comes.
“You thought I didn’t like you because I didn’t try to take advantage of you when you were drunk?”
“Pretty much.” You smile ruefully, fingertips still pressed over your eyes. “God, listen to me. No wonder I get treated like garbage.”
“Stop. Don’t talk about yourself like that. Did you hear anything I just said?”
You sniff, looking to the ceiling.
“Yeah. Yeah, you’re right. It was really sweet.”
More silence.
“But you don’t believe it.”
A bitter laugh poisons the air around you.
“I don’t know. I’m kind of tired of waiting for someone to prove it to me. Just for once, I want someone to be interested in me beyond having sex in the back of their fucking... Range Rover, or whatever. Like, maybe all that stuff you said is true, but there’s no evidence to support it, and I know logically you’re probably right but I can’t help wondering if... if I’m the outlier. Maybe there just isn’t someone for me like that. Maybe I’m just gonna be the sex in the back of the Range Rover girl forever.”
A noise somewhere between a laugh and a sob forces itself from your throat and you bury your face in your hands again, shaking your head.
“Wow, I am so sorry,” you say a little too loudly, “I did not mean to be this honest tonight. Did you spike my coffee?”
“You are not the outlier,” Spencer whispers.
You sniff, lifting your head haltingly to look at him.
“What?”
His voice shakes slightly as he speaks.
“You said you can’t help wondering if you’re the outlier, and maybe there just isn’t someone for you like that. That’s not true.”
“Spencer, those are just words. You can’t possibly know that. Statistical probabilities don’t count.”
“That’s... that’s not how I know.”
Your heart drops as you study his face.
No.
Surely he’s not saying what you think he’s saying.
Surely he wouldn’t do this to you after you’ve just told him everything you told him. You have been harboring feelings for him for years. Since you met. He can’t just spring this on you one night because you’re a little bummed out. If he felt the same, you would have found out a long time ago; he had ample opportunity to tell you. There was a period of months where you practically threw yourself all over him at every chance you got, and he did nothing. So this... this is just cruel—something you’ve never known Spencer Reid to be.
You stand up, trembling slightly with rage and grief and humiliation.
“Don’t do that. Don’t say things that you don’t mean just to make me feel better.”
“What are you doing? Don’t--”
You scoop up your purse, trying to get to the front door as fast as your gelatinous legs will allow. More tears are streaming down your face now and you don’t need him to see what he’s done to you—to see how much you care what he thinks.
“It’s fine. Thanks for the coffee, I’ll see you around—”
A hand around your wrist stops you in your tracks
“Stop. Just... please give me a second to talk, okay?”
With nothing left to give, you turn to him.
“Don’t be mean, Spencer. Don’t act like you liked me too. That makes me feel... so much worse.”
He takes a deep, shaky breath, as if steeling himself. Tawny eyes bore into your soul, and you realize that there is so much sheer nervous energy radiating off of him it’s infectious. Your heart begins to pound as he speaks.
“I’m not doing that. I’m being an idiot, because you just told me that you don’t feel that way about me anymore but... but I do. And I have to tell you now because for six months I tortured myself wondering why you would flirt with me so much when you were hammered and then act like nothing happened the next day. There were so many times I almost told you how I felt but I didn’t and now I am because even if it ruins our friendship you need to know that somebody... that I wanted to be that person for you. I still do.”
Your heart is like an unmoored zeppelin in your chest, bumping against your esophagus and threatening to either burst or jump out of your mouth. You take your chances, whispering so quietly it’s almost inaudible.
“You... you like me?”
“Yes,” Spencer sighs. “I have liked you for a very long time. And I’m sorry—”
Whatever ridiculous thing he was going to apologize for, you don’t give him the chance. Instead you launch yourself at him, capturing his lips in a kiss that feels so much better than it’d ever been in your fantasies because it’s real. You hear his sharp intake of breath, but it only takes a second for him to respond, cradling your face in his hands like you’re the entire world. For a moment, time bends. Years of longing, of buried dreams crash into the present in a brilliant, dazzling explosion.
And then, as quickly as it started, he pulls away. The absence of his touch is like a vacuum, so much worse now that you know exactly how it feels to have his lips on yours, even if it was only for a few seconds. How the hell did you live like that for so long? How are you supposed to live like that ever again?
“You’re not thinking clearly,” he breathes, tilting his head back toward the ceiling like he’s barely holding onto his self control. “You just want someone to comfort you, I’m not going to take advantage of you when you’re in an emotionally vulnerable state and confided in me which is manufacturing a false sense of attachment—”
You grab his wrists, which still graze your jaw.
“Spencer, stop intellectualizing for thirty seconds. I promise you I am thinking clearly.”
“You said you used to like me, past tense—”
“Yeah, I did. Do you believe every single murderer who says he didn’t do it?”
“No, but—”
“Have you ever heard the phrase; a drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts?”
“Of course I have.”
“Then what more could you possibly need to be convinced that I really like you? I already kissed you! What is stopping you?”
Another deep breath is taken by him that seems to suck all the air out of the quiet room. Briefly, you wonder if you’ve made a terrible, terrible mistake. If you really do like him so much more than he could ever like you.
Until he looks back down, eyes so golden-brown in the dim light, so kind and full of affectionate concern as he carefully assesses every square centimeter of your face, looking for... well, you’re not exactly sure what. It’s like he’s extracting every thought from your head, turning them over like sun-warmed stones until he finds what he’s looking for. He smooths his hands over your hair, brushing strands away from your teary face. Finally, after what feels like an eternity of holding your breath, he speaks.
“I just want you to believe what I believe about you. But I don’t want you to have to rely on me or anyone else for your own self-worth.”
“Well, don’t you think very highly of yourself,” you tease with a sniffle. He laughs—it's quiet, but his smile is so bright without even trying that suddenly you can’t remember why you’ve ever been sad. The small miracle of his laughter makes you feel so light, and you realize it has nothing to do with the way he makes you feel about yourself. It has everything to do with who he is.
Once the giggles die down, you tentatively mirror his hold on your face.
“Spencer, I don’t like you because you like me. I’ve liked you for an embarrassingly long time. I liked you enough that I gave myself a severe hangover at least once a week for three months just so I could have an excuse to flirt shamelessly with you.”
A half-sad smile pulls at the corner of his mouth, and he gently swipes under your eyes.
“You never had to do that. I would have welcomed your sober brazen flirting with open arms.”
“Well... do you believe me?” you plead. His amber eyes shine.
“I do.”
“Will you kiss me?”
“If that’s what you want.”
You nod, rising on your toes to meet him halfway.
When your lips meet again, it is sweet, and honest, and slow, and deep. Still, there is no desperation--no race to an imagined finish line, no clash of teeth and pawing hands. It is a kiss for the sake of it—as if it were the greatest intimacy. Not a precursor to sharing a bed, but something bigger than that in and of its own. Something just as worthy and important. For the first time, you think you’re beginning to understand romance. And while you wouldn’t mind if things did escalate, you also know that Spencer knows that’s not what matters right now. Because he actually understands you—he actually cares. He will wait until you understand that you mean so much more than that to him.
To that end, he pulls away, gently supplanting his absence with a kiss to the corner of your mouth.
“It would be polite of me to offer you a ride home, wouldn’t it?” he whispers, like it’s the last thing he wants to do. You bite the inside of your cheek, coming up with reasons not to go. One ridiculous one arises from the depths of your memory that you know he won’t be able to say no to.
“Or... I could stay here, and we could watch one of those nerdy foreign films you’re always talking about?”
A slow, perfect, high-watt smile blossoms on his face, and you know you’ve said exactly the right thing.
“Nerdy? Oh, my darling girl... Soviet-era filmography is far from nerdy. небесная машина will completely defy what you thought you knew about the life of an average Russian villager in the 1950’s.”
“Oh, good. Because I’ve really been meaning to change the way I think about the average 1950’s Russian villager,” you smile, already closing in to kiss him again.
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epilogue
Three hours later, you’re crying because the life of the average Russian villager in the 1950’s was so much worse than you’d previously thought.
“It was good, right?” Spencer asks as the credits roll over a bleak snowy sepia landscape, leaning back to get a better look at you. You sit up from where you’d been leaning against him, furiously wiping your eyes.
“It was terrible! Why didn’t you tell me that everyone except the kid dies in the end?!”
“Because that’s the whole point of the movie!” he laughs, pulling you back into him. “I’m sorry. I probably should have explained how depressing this entire era of film was outside of the US.”
“And also how long the movies were. I was not prepared for how many five minute long clips of empty fields there were going to be.”
“You’re right,” he ammends, wrapping his arms around you in a way that gives you butterflies and makes you sleepy at the same time. “Next time we can watch whatever you want to watch.”
Time passes like that—you in his arms, watching weak light slowly flood the room with half-lidded eyes and listening to the sounds of the city waking up from the street below, underscoring the steady rhythm of his heartbeat. Thoughts float by like leaves on the ever-flowing current of your mind, and you’re happy to let them pass until one in particular catches your attention.
“Spencer?”
He hums, like he’d been deep in his own proverbial river of thought.
“What does pulchritude mean?”
It takes him a split second to remember the bit of conversation from earlier to which you are referring, but when he does, he chuckles, running his hand over your messy hair.
“Don’t worry about it.”
And so you let it float away.
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I really don't know but — aiku,sae and rin having a pillow princess girlfriend!! I'm crazy for it. How are you btw?
oooohhhh :(((( yes def they love their girl like that !!!!!! let me expand
rin's a service dom and i will die on this hill !!!!!! he gets off on ruining you so much oml it's not like he's even doing this for your pleasure at this point. nahhhh he's doing it for HIMSELF and that's the single hottest thing he does kghadskfhsa like.. mouth full of ur cunt, fingers deep and messy all the way to the last knuckle and he groans so loud while he's at it :( ruts into the bed bc all the sounds you're letting out and the taste of u on his tongue makes his head dizzy and vision starry. so OF COURSE he's not lettin u do as much as move a single finger. he has the upper hand w u at all times - easily manhandles u into any position he wants to try this time,, pins your hips down when you try to move away. orders u around bc he knows you'll listen - he makes u feel so good after all :(
i did mention it b4 prob in dawn's ask sometime ago kjfhsaf but sae on the other hand is the meanest dom ever !!! GAWD i think yall can get the appeal already from my works but he absolutely ADORES ruining u completely. loooooves the sight of u crying and grows ridiculously hard at your begging to stop already :( he needs you to be as pliable 4 him as possible and you are more than happy to oblige !! he wouldn't want it any other way tbh i feel like despite him being so seemingly in control over everything, he rly isnt. it messes with his head real bad (therapy babes. pls try it out) and he finds that seeing you, his one and only, completely at his mercy and giving him the prettiest look when you give into all of his fantasies, is making his mind slow down and leaves him feeling a little better </3
OLIVER AIKU ON THE OTHER HAND...... NAURRRR that boy is a REAL pussy pleaser man he rly is. he's not deranged like the itoshis !!!!! he just LOOOOOOVEEEEEEES the sight of you when you lay back on the pillows, legs spread and cunt already leaking for him. make m' feel good, oli? please? HE GOES NUTS AKJHFSKJ man i feel like he just has sm fun with sex really. and seeing his girl writhing w pleasure that he gives her so enthusiastically is what makes it so enjoyable :( he just doesn't think a pretty girl like u should do as much as bat an eye in terms of receiving pleasure. unless that's not what you're after - that's fine !!!!! he's just rly focused on u n loves being at your service <3 wouldn't call him a service dom tho this mans is just so in love with u and wants to show it !!!!!
#✧.* lovelies (ﾉ´ з `) / (kaemin)#sae <3#rin my love#oliver !!#itoshi sae smut#itoshi rin smut#oliver aiku smut#blue lock smut#bllk smut#ty for askin bbie im good !!! a lil tired but good nonetheless#need to work on sum uni stuff tho !!!#hope you're doing good as well bbie <333 mwaaaaah
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didn't need to act so rude for me trying to put my feelings in there. i do interact with you, you don't care enough to interact back or try to interact first.
Just because you have a big fanbase doesn't mean you'll be rude and have an ego as fuck.
and this leaderwon with its stupid works needs to shut the fuck up about my grammar and focus on getting a life and it's bad work. Seriously @leaderwon your a terrible writer and your new smau is trash, you texts are trash and you to be honest have a really shitty personality.
Who the fuck does it think to bash about my grammar.
it wasn’t rude for me to say that ur last ask meant nothing to me cause i don’t even have an acc to put it to??? also big fan base😭😭 i write my delusions about seven men in korea wearing skinny jeans i don’t think id be considered to have a fanbase
i’ve said so many times i’ve been so busy recently but i still try to answer all of not like 99% of all my comments asks and stuff because i like to do it not because im obliged to and if u think i have an ego why are u still my moot🤧
ur funny for calling me rude then bitching about someone fixing ur grammar which is minor🤨 don’t chat shit about others when u can’t even stay off anon or send me a dm then call my girls names and insulting their works ?? girlie pls either show urself, unfollow me or stfu if ur not gonna do anything else about it👩🏽⚖️
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Hello, can u pls share a face claim/how u envision Anya and Dmitry for five of ur fics (of your choosing) 💕
(Also u can’t use Derek or Christy, or any performer who has professionally held the role 😈)
ooooooooh i LOVE this question. what a challenge!! it's hard not to picture christy and derek at this point, especially in canonverse fics, but i have collected a few other faceclaims over the years for aus, i must admit. some of these will be predictable lol but some i feel like you will just have to trust me on. (given we've been friends for nearly 5 years now i feel like you know my brain enough to Get It 🙈)
this gets a little long bc of course we have to include visual references, so the list is under the cut:
obligated to start with the road trip au, as it's my current wip: Kennedy McMann and Alex Saxon
you might know them both from the cw's nancy drew. i chose them for this au bc i feel like they got the soft friendship/ angsty hurt/comfort thing going. look at them it's perfect
paris au (or other modern-ish aus where they live in paris): Alba Baptista and Lucas Bravo
also pls look at them together in Mrs. Harris Goes to Paris (2022)! dimya <333
assistant!Dmitry au (or other modern aus, especially ones that take place in nyc, such as the neighbors au): Zoey Deutch and John Bubniak
you probably know Zoey, but John was the model for ps4 spiderman my beloved. nyc romcom when
baseball au (or any fic where they're younger, even in canonverse): Sonya Priss and Fedor Fedotov
yes, of Silver Skates (2020) fame. every time i think of anya and dmitry as 17 and 19, or just an au where they meet before the revolution, i can't help but picture these two. look at them those are my kids
i know i said no canonverse fics, but i feel like we gotta do the ghost au: Audrey Hepburn and (don't laugh at me but) Robert Pattinson (but like specifically the way he looks in Remember Me (2010))
listen. i couldn't not include audrey on this list at least once, given she was the inspiration for animated anya. and as for robert? look at him. he's exhausted. that's what dmitry looks like for the entirety of this fic. that man is so tormented
honorable mentions?
julia roberts and young hugh grant (this felt like cheating since i'm writing a notting hill au rn lol)
amy adams
young matt damon?????
milo ventimiglia lol
#asks#asecretshekept#dimya#anastasia broadway#my writing#thank u so much bestie for this ask i'm so obsessed#i feel like these are pretty interchangeable?? for the most part#also i didn't realize alba was married to c evans????? living the life i want fr good for her#but yeah this was so fun <333333
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hello!!! i love ur blog! i was reading ur kinky bts stuff and it's so good!!! if u don't mind, i'd like to request something kinky about my bias, hobi playing ur ass i mean🥺 without him really fucking u, but things like him eating u out both ways, fingering ur ass, teasing u, dirty talking but not degrading, also spitting on u... ik it's too specific but pls i love these things and hobi sm 😭 it's kinda hard being a hobi stan and not seeing anything like this with him ngl
hehe i love writing and reading abt anal play!! also i’m kinda glad i waiting so long to write this bc since he’s enlisted there’s been a big drought in hobi content :( i miss him so much :(
warnings: dom!hobi, sub!afab!reader, ass eating, unprotected vaginal sex (do not do this unless you’re ready to face the consequences 😤),
this is an ass man!! he just exudes such ass man energy!
he’s always grabbing your ass, even in non sexual contexts like when you’re cuddling, he just really,,, appreciates its existence
the first time he took you from behind he thought he was gonna pass out because wow
so you weren’t necessarily surprised when he suggested trying out some ~back door activities~
y’all both did your research 😤 anal is fun if you do it in a way that minimizes unwanted discomfort!
i think i said this in kinktober but that was a really long time ago so i don’t remember, but he already enjoys eating pussy from behind ,, so why not try the other hole?
he knew you were a bit nervous, just bc you weren’t sure what to expect with some many mixed accounts that you found while doing research, so he rubs your clit a little bit to help you feel more comfortable
but then he kinda just goes for it by pressing his tongue against your tight little hole and licking a stripe
it sends a chill up your spine bc holy fuck that felt really good, it had you begging him to not stop
“aww pretty baby, you like how my tongue feels licking your asshole?”
you felt like you were about to cry honestly it was too good ‼️
he keeps it really messy too, he’ll spit on your hole just so he could watch it flutter around nothing, and then he’ll use his tongue to try to fuck it into your tight opening
he was having so much fun too and he didn’t wanna stop :( but he also was so painfully hard and he needed to be inside you or else he’d die
he keeps you on all fours, admiring your ass <3 before he shoves his cock in your pussy, which is absolutely drenched as the point
while he’s fucking into you he takes his thumb and starts gently rubbing your rim, spreading his saliva around and watching in awe as your hole starts winking at him again
“does my baby want something in her pretty little ass? hm?”
you could barely get out a sentence, just kinda rambling and begging, before he obliges and slips his thumb into your ass
skksldldm you couldn’t breathe this was amazing
especially when he decided to trade his thumb for his middle and pointer finger so he could be even deeper and make you feel fuller
and deeper and fuller it was - you were a shaking mess, the orgasm that was coming out was about to be intense, you could just feel it
“you’re so fucking tight,” he sighs out. “you’re pretty little ass is taking me so well”
after that night he wanted to try it all - buttplugs, anal beads, maybe even his cock one day 😳 ahaha just kidding.. unless… 👀
#bts smut#squizzybeanexe > lovelylusts#jung hoseok smut#hoseok smut#jhope smut#hobi smut#naughty hours
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So what happens after Hollow attacks their father? How do their parents deal with it? How are they treated afterwards?
Also, is the whole vessel plan discarded? What does PK do about Radiance? Also, how would other people who were involved or knew about the plan (like the dreamers or five great knights) react to this turn of events?
Sorry for all the questions djdbfn I love your AU 🥺👉👈
Pls don't apologize for asking questions !!!
I love gushing about my characters/ AUs lmao
Okok so I'm gonna try my best to answer all ur qs
(also u are under no obligation to read all of this, it turned out a lot longer than I expected :D)
1. Basically, after the attack (I'm assuming u mean after Hollow stabs themself but if not I'd be happy to talk about the actual confrontation lol) there's a lot of panic regarding whether Hollow's going to survive or not, so there's not really any time to properly process the whole "holy fuck the thing I thought was a bastardisation of the corpse of my child is actually just my child," so it's only after Hollow's been stabilised that I can imagine PK and WL sitting down and coming to terms with it.
The infection REALLY does a number on u, both mind and body, so Hollow's basically just snoozing in some sort of (dreamless) healing coma while their parents have a breakdown at their bedside. I imagine PK and WL's relationship to have been pretty strained since the vessel plan was enacted, like they still love each other but they can't really seem to agree on anything anymore.
Ditching the vessel plan is the first thing they've wholly agreed on in 17 years.
2. So! Immediately after they wake up, I think there'd be a lot of overcompensation on WL's part. She was never a mother to Hollow and she feels IMMENSELY guilty about that fact, so she'd probably start trying to be super motherly to them, giving them food, being affectionate, trying to start conversations, etc, which freaks Hollow tf out bc it's a COMPLETE 180 to how she interacted with them before. Before the reveal, she was super detached, kind of like she is towards Ghost in the game, mostly in an attempt to remove herself from the entire situation?? Like if she doesn't acknowledge them she can't get lost in her grief?? Cuz I imagine she genuinely believed that the void had sucked out her child's soul and was piloting around their corpse (or something of the like) and then there's the GUILT of the whole situation, KNOWING that you had a part to play in the death of so many of your children, that you were complicit to something so cruel?? I don't think she'd be able to truly face it, so she basically just let herself ignore them. And the most she ever really saw of them was when they were sent to guard her gardens and Hornet dragged them from their post.
So. Now she's seizing the opportunity to finally get to know her child, but she's also not really taking their feelings into account on top of ignoring the very real trauma that Hollow has from being treated like a glorified roomba their entire life. Her main coping strategy seems to be to just. Ignore her problems lmao (she like me fr fr)
3. SO. Pk. Whooo boy.
At this point, I don't think he'd realise that Hollow was never hollow, bc then he'd have to face the possibility that none of the vessels were hollow, and if that's the case, how many of his children has he killed?? He knows a fair few of the vessels were stillborn, but how many hatched and died at the bottom of the abyss, cold and alone and scared??
(Yes the vessels hatched, yes this is a gijinka au where most people are born like humans. Higher beings are weird and also non human, moving on)
So PK at this point believes that at some point while growing up, Hollow had an idea instilled and,, gained consciousness?? Ig?? And he likely blames himself bc of course he does.
With PK there's a lot of guilt there, which I think would mostly lead to complete avoidance, bc "surely my child doesn't want to see me after how I've treated them, I'd better give them space,"
Meanwhile Hollow is wondering whether their fears truly have come true and their father does hate them for not being pure.
Just. A lot of miscommunication.
When they finally talk it out, there WILL be tears.
4. The Dreamers!!
With Herrah, I think she'd be a pretty big support for Hollow during their recovery. I don't think Herrah was ever truly convinced that Hollow was pure?? Like she witnessed a lot of small moments between them and her daughter while they thought nobody was looking, along with subtle mannerisms that just. Wouldn't be there if they were pure.
Like, Hornet once roped them into playing hide and seek with her, and as smart as her baby is, the Pure Vessel, were they completely hollow, would only be able to act when given orders, and there's no way a 5 year old managed to give complex enough orders for them to be able to follow. She probably just yelled at them to play with her and they did lmao (bc they can't say no to their bby sister duh)
Herrah was also on the outside, so there was no reason for her to go into denial or detach herself the way Hollow's parents did, so she'd be much more likely to notice them shifting on their feet, their ear flicking when they tune into a nearby conversation, the way they'd lean into any and all contact with other people, how reluctant they are to let Hornet down when she no longer wants to be carried by them, etc etc.
Herrah may be titled the Beast, but she's not stupid. However, at this point, she's seen them spar with the Knights, she knows that they would be able to escape unnoticed if they wanted to, they're definitely skilled enough. So that means that if they end up being sealed inside the temple, it's their decision, and she respects them for that.
She also notices how reverently they treat their little sister, so if nothing else, they can bond over their mutual adoration of her.
Herrah's a pretty abrasive woman, loud and unapologetic, so I figure she'd be a nice change to the coddling of their mother, and Herrah ends up promising them a place in deepnest if they ever feel the need to escape the palace.
Herrah's the only dreamer I've really thought about?? And since she was there when the incident happened, she's very present for pretty much the entirety of Hollow's recovery. The other 2 don't really come into it till later, so for now let's just say they're all probably pretty relieved that they don't have to sacrifice themselves anymore lmao.
5. The 5 Great Knights!!
I don't have anything super specific about these guys yet? But I imagine they'd be friendly to Hollow. Hollow looks up to them all quite a lot and they were probably the closest things they had to friends growing up?? But honestly not much really changed there except they start trying to bring them into conversations, and they're always willing to spar if Hollow ever wants to.
6. Finally, RADIANCE!!
So I imagine that after Hollow has stabilised, PK will immediately start trying to distract himself by basically preparing for war. If it wasn't personal before, it definitely is now. The Radiance discovered his child's sentience before anyone else and what's the first thing she does?? Turn them into a weapon to be used against him (slightly hypocritical of u there my guy)
There's probably a lot of feelingsy bullshit that everyone (ESPECIALLY the royal family) needs to work thru before any action can really be made against Radi, so for the most part she's just simmering in the background. Her who was probably bruised when Hollow managed to wrestle control away from her so she's probably licking her wounds in the dream realm, but after a few months, infection rates start to REALLY spike again, because she is PISSED.
I could make PK and Radi duke it out but I kinda wanna lean into Hollow’s empathy?? Like they’re hyper empathetic and I feel like after having Radi in their head for a while they’d come to understand her anger?? Like they still want her gone but they understand that she has every reason to be pissed at PK, at least from her pov. (I’ll get into Hollow’s feelings regarding Radi in a later post bc this is getting ridiculously long now lmao)
So maybe eventually they can come to an agreement with Radi?? I’m not sure on the details but I don’t think I wanna just kill her off.
WOW this was really long, sry if it’s super rambly I’m basically just word vomiting into my notes app lol
And if you’ve read this far, ty!! Glad u love my blorbos as much as I do （ ＾ν＾）
#early infection au#hollow knight#hollow knight gijinka#thk#pure vessel#hk pv#hk pk#hk white lady#hk herrah#hk radiance#the hollow knight#asks
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TELL ME ABOUT YOUR VERSION OF SALLY WILLIAMS PLEASE PLEASE PL
AHHH!! an ask!! i never get these!! >:D
anyways- uh!
ok so, tbh my versions of the crps (esp the gals) r a jumbled mess of headcannons just floating around in my head. so forgive me if this is unreadable- (I plan on making details ref sheets in the future!!)
I've always loved the character of sally williams but I find her story uncomfortable and even a little triggering. (I experienced violent SA at a younge age) bc of this I basically changed everything abt her character. so here goes- buckle up!
sally's origins:
if ur sensitive to child death do not read the bits in red
to cut to the chase- sally williams was a 10yr murder victim of a cold case from the 70's or 80's. her body was found in the woods long after the initial murder, leaving it nearly unidentifiable. it was believed to be a crime of passion, due to the brutal nature of the attack. there were stab wounds, minor broken bones, blunt force trauma, and most curiously, a large, deep wound to her sternum.
bc of the decayed state of her body no DNA evidence of her attacker was recovered and, bc of the times, not much was looked for as DNA testing wasn't as advanced yet.
her case will remain cold- bc well, her attacker wasn't some creepy or horrendous serial killer, it was a creature~
"gasp! wow! how creative!! never saw that coming!!"
(lol)
I haven't decided which monster, either the rake or maybe seed eater (which would explain y EJ feels so obligated to watch over sally's spirit)
speaking of! (awesome segway- fuck ya)
her spirit:
sally's soul was left to wonder the forest dazed and confused abt what had happened to her. urban legends of a younge girl calling out from the woods surfaced in the following years, no doubt being linked to her case.
instead of a run-of-the-mill apparition, sally is more of a "thing"
I like to play around w the traditional depictions of common monsters and myths, so ghosts r no exception.
she isn't a glowing, transparent mist that takes the form of a small girl. instead she looks just how she did that night, suspended somewhere between life and death.
the more care her soul receives the more her appearance improves. her physical state is able to be altered, (ie. bodily changes like wieght or injury. as well as cosmetic changes like clothing and hair styles.)
-although things like age, body temperature, and height will always stay how they were when she died.
as for any ablities she might have, here is a small list:
- visions (past, present, and future)
- breaking things with her mind ~wo0o0oo~
- and a sort of soul connection w ppl she cares abt (ex. if EJ gets donked she'll be like "ow" or some shit)
personality and relationships <3
sally is a rather rambunctious and rebellious child, making her a uh- "acquired taste" look- either u love her or u hate her.
she can turn nearly any neat room into tornado ally. as u can imagine, she's extremely hard to keep undercontrol so most pastas don't even try lmao. either completely avoiding her in the first place or outright fueling the fire.
her main man is EJ, he's quiet and patient which is a perfect foil to her outrageous character. they enjoy exploring the outdoors, learning, and yes- even playing w dolls. on some rare occasions sally will be convincing enough to get EJ to play house w her <3 often assuming the mother and daughter roles respectively. hehe
nina is another one of sallys friends btw <3 dress up all around! and lots of makeovers.
~~~
unlike most depictions of they're relationship, sally and the slenderman do n0T get along. it sees her as a distraction and often tries to get her out of the manor.
(I do not cannon slenderman running or enhabitting the manor, instead I see it as a puppet master of sorts. i can go into this furth if u would like lol)
despite the threat of slenderman, the pastas collectively disobey him in order to keep sally around. they take pitty on her situation, and at the end of the day just want to provide her with a (somewhat) stable environment to put her soul at ease.
pic from a few months ago- just 4 visualizing purposes<3<3<3
ALRIGHT!! that wraps things up! I wrote wayyyyyy more than I was planning to- but I thought id go ahead and flesh her out, for future reference ofc ;)
if I forgot anything just lemme know in the comments <3
I hope u enjoyed reading this and I'd love to hear ur personal hcs! even if the conflict w my own. also let me know what u think of these,, ideas(?) I'm always open to constructive criticism!
ALSO MY ASKS R ALWAYS OPEN!! PLZ!! IM FUCKING BEGGING U!! I WILL NOT POST THIS KINDA SHIT UNLESS SPECIFICALLY ASKED!! BC IM INSECURE ABT MY WRITING!! AAAAAAHHHHH!!
#jfc this is so long#tl;dr#shes a menace#also wo0! first hc sheet thingy!! yay!!#creepypasta fandom#creepypasta#sally williams#creepypasta headcanon#creepypasta hc#sally williams headcanons#eyeless jack headcanon#slenderman#nina the killer#eyeless jack#asks
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Getting to Know Your BL Mutuals
rules: answer the questions and tag some people. include the tag ‘g2ky BL mutuals 2022’ on your post so we can find everyone’s answer.
thank u very much to @yanwushi for tagging meeee 💚💚💚
What have been BLs that took you by surprise this year?
thousand autumns, 千秋!! my buddy talked me into watching the donghua, and i LOVED it!! really can't recommend it enough!! i even live-blogged it, that's how much fun i was having 🤣 genuinely it was SO GREAT, i really hope there'll be another season somedayyy aaaa 🥺
What have been BLs that you felt a bit disappointed with this year?
.......pls don't hate me. but. i don't really like mdzs or cql ;A; i WANTED to like it, u lot. I WANTED TO LOVE IT. i even bought the first volume of mdzs!!! I TRIED TO LOVE IT. but. alas. it just.....didn't suit 😔
cql and mdzs are both REALLY well done and there was so much LOVE put into them both!! i enjoyed reading and watching them, even if i didn't like the stories they told. in the end, i think it's just my own personal preferences that left me feeling cold afterward lol. so no hate to cql/mdzs fans!! ur fanart is gorgeous!! if i don't reblog it, it's just that i don't care for a lot of the characters or pairings lol 🤣
What has been your favorite BL this year?
heaven official's blessing, 天官赐福 !!!! i am OBSESSED. i am obsessed.
word of honour, 山河令 is a close second!! but i really couldn't do without EITHER of them ;A;
Favorite BL/GL couples (not just of 2022)
fengqing!!!! fengqing are my fav but i love hualian too!!! ALSO RONGYE. rongye my beloved ;A; i love wenzhou and hanwenzhou (listennn i know that's THREE ppl but. i like them all ok. i just think they're neat 🥺) and i have recently been converted to yanshen!!! so we will probably be seeing more of that soonish-lyyyy...... >:3c
If you had to suggest a BL for someone what would it be?
definitely word of honour, 山河令. it's got to be my favourite bl drama of ALL TIME ;A; i've watched it twice thru to the end, and a few random episodes just on their own several times as well. literally CANNOT recommend it enough. it's brilliant. nothing has ever made me feel the things that woh made me feel ;A;
What’s your non-BL favorite this year?
i was really enjoying 'who rules the world?' a lot!! ....then i stopped watching bc i thought they would be taking my sweet feng chang away from me ;A; BUT i have since been informed that it's worth watching the series thru to the end!!! so i intend to do so!! SOMEDAY!!! 💪😤
i shall tag a few ppl!! but there's no obligation to play if u don't feel like it, so please don't worry 😊 !!
@sugarbabywenkexing @rainsfalling @minnarr @orchisailsa @stargrit and and and ANYONE ELSE who wants to!!!!! join us, friends!!!! one of us, ONE OF US >:3
#tag games#g2ky BL mutuals 2022#thank u very much for tagging meeeee @yanwushi ;A;#i appreciate it!! im BEING INCLUDED!!!!#if the primary school bullies could see me now.....they would be SHOOKETH >:)#bl dramas#i need to watch a gl drama as well someday
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NO FORREALSIES LIKE “how is he a victim” THE DUDE WAS BEING STRANGLED AND WAS HELD AT KNIFE POINT FUCK U MEAN HOW IS HE A VICTIM
He’s just mad the girl of his dreams doesn’t love him like that anymore 😤
side note but Doha is so baby girl but in a totally not bay girl way - this needs no explanation
also you’re so right he’d def worry abt you day and night (i did laugh a little when he shut the door in her face tho)
gosh i have so many requests for him but i don’t wanna over whelm you or anything <3
-🦦 love u btw SMOOCH
again cut for spoilers lmao ksdjksd
NAHHH CAUSE I WAS ROLLING MY EYES AT HIS LOGIC LIKE WE GET THAT UR STILL NOT OVER SOLHEE BUT I HAVE NO SYMPATHY 💀 solhee and doha are better anyway cause doha is too much of a sweetheart and im convinced he can't lie even if he WANTS to. like i swear he just doesn't have it in him to lie to anyone, bro can't even lie to the press.... IMAGINE HIM TRYING TO LIE TO YOU LIKE HE WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO HE'D JUST FAIL LMAO HES SO CUTE
UGH HE IS SO BABY GIRL HES JUST A CUTIE PATOOTIE FRRR 😭
it was funny but also cute and sweet like yeah don't mind the knife that is inches away from my face... lets just shut this door 🥰
feel free to send in all the requests you want cause tbh i don't feel the obligation that some writers do to complete every request that is sent in. i mean i want to, but i also want to write my own ideas as well and if i tried to complete every request, i wouldn't have any time to write things from my own thoughts, you know? but i love requests so much and so much of the time, i get a request im RLY excited for (like the doha texts for example) and i just run to do it right away. requests have helped me get out of writer's block and given me motivation to write 😭 i think that's also why i never want to close my requests. because yeah i have a lot in my inbox, but that doesn't mean there's not room for more that i might be more excited abt writing. cause im not a machine that just writes whatever is sent in, ill write the ones im rly excited abt, and tho i try to write every request, some of them have to be pushed aside for a bit because i have trouble with them
damn that was a long way of explaining that a) i love requests, b) i don't mind you sending in multiple requests, pls do it, and c) i think i have a good mentality for writing as just a hobby and handling requests (lol my sister has gotten worried in the past that i might feel pressured to write requests, but i mean that's exactly what they are: requests.)
i love u too 🫶🫶🫶 srsly having a minhyun anon is so fun!! :(
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Hi :) 🌸 I just wanted to reply to what you said- it’s totally fine, you have a life and things to do it’s completely okay! And pls what I said, that was about half of what I wanted to say I just didn’t want to overwhelm you and the page ahaha. So I’d like to express again of how grateful I am as a reader as I guarantee you majority of the others feel the same. And as a sicfic fanatic, people who like to make themselves unnecessarily known about disliking ur writing and being general dicks, can not so kindly fuck off🥴 seriously tho, I am so appreciative, whenever I’m feeling down or literally anything I turn to your stories because they just make me feel happy and sorry idk if I can express my gratitude but fucking thank you thank you thank you <3 don’t stop writing, I might be slightly biased but your writing is superb😭 but really as long your happy doing what you do and you don’t feel pressured or obligated to, keep doing it cuz ur good at what you do fr, like you ONLY write sicfics? Well thank fuck because we need it. And thanks ahahah I’m a bit obscene myself🤭 and on a side note I’m curious, is there anything you like to write specifically when it comes to sicfics or you’ll write whatever? And am I allowed to request multiple things cuz idk if I mentioned before but I love ur writing ahahah I just don’t want to be ‘this person again😬’ u know. Ohmygod sorry I’m rambling and this is really fucking long but thank you again, and take care of yourself <33🌸
🌸, if I could give you a hug I would be giving you a hug. Or, if you don't like hugging, a fist bump. I will say that the thing I posted wasn't said to me, but I have gotten similar messages and damn, its annoying.
As for what I'll write, I'll do just about anything but vomit. You want some stabbings? I'll do that too! Just no stomach stuff because mine gives me enough trouble as it is :,).
Of course you can request multiple things!! Request as much as you want, please, I love it! Just know that it might take me time to get to all of them, but I would honestly love that!
You will NEVER be 'this person' because I love hearing from you and from anyone who cares enough to send me things like this! I've had a not so great day but this made it so much better!
Please feel free to keep sending me stuff, as I said, it makes me super happy! Have a wonderful rest of your day and don't forget to hydrate!
(this goes for everyone, hydrate you fools. now.)
Love you!! <3
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hi gabi ! i wanted to ask for advice really quick if that was okay??? i'm really trying to figure out how to deal with the stress of work overload when you're a writer? because i do like writing but then i get so many requests and i feel obligated to do them as soon as possible but then i also start to feel really bad when i don't post or i don't really feel like writing responses to requests? like its not that i don't want to but i'm just not into it but i don't want to let anyone down!
i'm really struggling with this rn. i always make blogs and when i get them started and people start requesting so much it feels like they're expectant of me and i also don't get much feedback so i don't know if i'm doing well so i end up deactivating. i just don't know. how do you usually know where to start when it comes to requests?
hi my love <3 i understand where ur coming from bc this is something i struggle with as well! but i think its important to remind urself that ur allowed to set boundaries!!!!!! u r allowed to block people, youre allowed to delete asks u dont wanna answer and ur allowed to reject requests!!!!!!!!! you don’t owe anyone anything bc at the end of the day its ur blog. its important to take breaks as well bc you dont wanna get burnt out ! if you have to, ur allowed to close requests or even turn off asks ! dont feel guilty for it bc its your energy being put forth into writing so ur allowed to do whatever you feel comfortable doing. please dont feel pressured to write reqs just bc ppl sent them in, people need to learn that writers are not just for their entertainment and if they get rude or disrespectful or mad that ur not writing their requests then they can fawk off and write it themselves. how you operate your blog is your business. if you ever need someone to talk to pls dont hesitate to send me an ask or dm me, im here for u sweetpea :(
#♡.signed. sealed. delivered.#sorry if i sound like a dummy im still a lil high but i wanted to answer thjs asap !!!! nonie idk u but i hope one day i get the chance to#read ur posts :( im sure ur insanely talented :D
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hello ! (pls don’t feel obligated to answer this, I know this is kinda a weird ask) im working on making a monster dating sim game (which currently I’m in the planning stage of) and am attempting to conduct some market research here on tumblr 😅. I really love ur blog and was just wondering if you’ve noticed any trends in terms of wat monsters/ monster tropes that tend to do well with your posts ? It doesn’t have to be anything detailed, just general vibes if you’ve noticed any - tho totally chill if u haven’t. Again ABSOLUTELY NO PRESSURE to respond to this, I don’t want to take up ur time (if you’ve even read this far thank you). Sorry for the strange ask ! and thank you for posting amazing content you’re literally one of my favourite blogs
I'm not sure how much help I can be because I don't tend to notice these things, but I can share with you which of my posts are most popular and perhaps you can extrapolate from there. Keep in mind, though, some of these posts did well because I reblogged them to my main (@roguemonsterfucker) and that blog has a lot more followers than this one.
A werewolf who hasn’t told their partner that they’re a werewolf yet, but they buy their partner knotted dildos to test the waters and prepare them…
being left as the sacrifice for the old gods at the edge of the forest. but you are found by the pack of werewolves instead. (cont.)
I’m a simple person. I see fangs and I get hard.
A magic monster dildo. It gains power as you use it until eventually it can take its full form. In the middle of using it, suddenly it becomes an actual monster and starts fucking you.
Oh to be tied up and used as a breeding mount for all manner of horny creatures. (cont.)
A backyard barbecue to get to know your new partner’s friends turns into a werewolf pack gang bang. (cont.)
Thinking about how after sex with a werewolf, you’re knotted for a while and you spend that time just chatting, bonding, maybe even snacking on some food you kept handy.
Can’t get the idea of being a pet to a werewolf and vampire out of my head. (cont.)
Those are all my posts on this blog with a considerable amount of notes.
I'll say, it's interesting that the living dildo one is already so high up on the list considering I only posted it ten days ago. A lot of these posts took weeks or even months to get the amount of notes they have now.
Another that I seem to recall doing well quickly was ironically the other dildo one. Though I think that's partially because I reblogged it to my main, which I don't usually do.
I used this website to find my most popular original posts: https://jetblackcode.com/TumblrNoteCounter
I hope this helps somehow! And I hope you'll let us know when you have the game available! We need more monster dating sims! 🥰
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on ur description it says u are aroace and idk if this is somehow rude or insensitive but would u pls tell me what exactly being asexual means cuz i think im somewhat of that but idrk what it means or what qualifies
also dont need to answer if ur not okay or comfortable :)
Hiii anon!
Yes, in my blog description, I wrote that I identify as aroace which is short for aromantic and asexual. Also, don't worry, it's not rude or insensitive, you just wanna know what it means and that's completely alright :D
So asexual, what does it mean and what qualifies:
People who identify as asexual can feel little to no sexual attraction. It's an umbrella term for people who identify as asexual and/or other labels under the umbrella. One thing to remember is that love does not equal sex and that's why people who identify as asexual aren't necessarily aromantic (aromantic people are those who feel little to no romantic attraction).
This was the basic meaning of asexuality, but if you are questioning, I can suggest you some websites which can help in better understanding since I'm not an expert :))
This website explains some misconceptions and basically, your question about 'what qualifies' can be answered here.
This website has a lot of experiences in shorter answers.
This website has a lot of identities under the ace umbrella that you can check out.
These are some websites that one of my aroace friends recommended to me. I hope they can help you understand as well :D
I didn't go into the aromantic label since you asked about asexuality but I'd be more than happy to oblige if you want to know about aromanticism as well but probably not right now since you already have the asexual label to explore :)
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long ask warning feel free to tag as #long post 🫡
so canon differences huh. i'll answer for the 3 canons i remember the most
main canon: i had darker more brownish skin than pink, my hair color was more of a brownish red than bright orange, i had an ear piece on the side of the missile that served as a hearing aid since my hearing was damaged from the accident. my body had all of its human inner organs removed and replaced with mechanical parts bc i thought it would be easier to maintain. i had a uhh what are they called... cord tail? like a tail that's just a cord u plug into an outlet. i also didn't have bullets in my coat idk what happened to source me for that to happen but *shrug*
crash of the titans/mind over mutant canon: i had the cord tail, my hair was a bit longer and kinda covered my face. i was an animatronic instead of a cyborg but like sentient. i had died and my soul was put into a different body constructed by dr. cortex i believe. i guess u could say i got five nights at freddy's'd lmao. but despite being my creator he abandoned me and with that i became obsessed with trying to impress him so that he would take me back. tho this obsession ended up getting me killed as i fell from a high place while trying to collect information on the bandicoots. i broke some parts when i hit the ground that rendered me immobile but no one was around to help so i died after a day or two due to lack of maintenance and refueling. i would've cried but i knew i would've came back somehow. i always did. not to reference fnaf again.
twinsanity canon: i had visible stitches from being reanimated and i was just all around unpleasant to be around due to said reanimation. i salivated and vomited a lot, i sweated too much, i struggled to breathe so i had to breathe through my mouth instead of my nose, i smelled like rotting corpse 24/7 which i constantly tried to wash off but it never went away, and my limbs tended to fall off at random (mostly my arms and hands). embarrassing. especially in front of my crush.
that's all i think. ur not obligated to say anything btw i know it's a lot haha. (tumblr pls don't eat my ask again i spent so long on it 😞)
- sent from my wumpa pad, n. gin 🚀💥
That's alot. That's cool! And for those parts are oh dear stars.
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