I don’t really know how to say this in a better way so imma just say it

If you think John Dory is a bad character then respectfully, you have no idea what being an oldest sibling is like.

He didn’t abandon his brothers. He was pushed to a point of having to be responsible for four younger brothers, ranging from baby to teenager, trying to coordinate and pull off good if not perfect shows, trying to help Rosiepuff raise both them and himself while also dealing with trollstice and the troll tree while also struggling with an ever growing *need* to be perfect. It doesn’t matter how much you love your siblings- if you’re stressed enough, you’re going to snap and you’re going to snap at them. And you know what? He probably hated himself for that too. And for the fact that he couldn’t be perfect. Any oldest sibling knows the guilt of not being good enough and presumably tearing down their younger siblings in the process…it’s awful. No fuckin wonder he walked away, bro was what, 17?? 18??? He shouldn’t have had to do that. And he didn’t just abandon his brothers knowing what was gonna happen to Branch. From his perspective, he walked away knowing full well Spruce and Clay could step up, and that Rosiepuff would still be there. He had no way of knowing Branch would end up alone and gray, because if he did, he never would have left.

John Dory is not a bad character. He loves his brothers.

Edit: some people are saying he didn’t come back until he needed something. He came back to an empty troll tree- he thought his brothers were dead. He probably only left for a few months or so! He didn’t abandon them. He had every intention to come back and did. His family was just gone.

If anyone of you guys live in the Chicago Halstad areas, food is being passed out!!! All you need to do is simply walk up!

When Zayn talks about leaving 1D and the last few years of the band, he is speaking from his own biased perspective. As is Louis, as is Liam, as is Niall, as is Harry. They all are omitting things and reshaping things for public consumption. They’ve all talked about it in different years and with varying levels of emotional distance and hindsight. They have different relationships with their careers and each other and themselves.

There are a few common threads. There were things going on that were not public knowledge and that we knew nothing about. They were under a lot of pressure. The pace they were going at was unsustainable. They had to make some tough decisions. They had a lot of bittersweet feelings. There was a lot of uncertainty for what the future held for them as individuals. But there’s a lot of space for nuance and different experiences and perspectives and relationships within that. I don’t think any of them are speaking the “objective” truth here, and that’s fine.

loving reminder as someone who struggles with food: you are allowed to add joy to your food. you are allowed to add a little joy even if it’s a tiny thing, something silly or something weird. you are allowed to do it whenever you want, as many times as you want. anything that makes food easier and more enjoyable for you is worth it!! it’s your food, you can decide what to do with it!! you can add rainbow sprinkles to your ice cream. you can cut your food into little heart shapes. you can pack your snacks into cute little bento boxes. it is not pointless or childish, it is an effective and active coping tool that you are allowed to use.

give yourself a little joy. the little things add up.

having clarkson (wayne munson/scott clarke) brainrot again. i want an old man coffee shop au with wayne who always grabs his pre or post-work coffee in the same café and meets middle school science teacher scott clarke who’s writing children’s sci-fi books about a group of four boys and a girl discovering the secrets of the universe. and they get talking, until wayne doesn’t just come there for his same ol’ cup of coffee

Gonna pretend like the coloring doesn’t bother me

I miss early seasons of sunny.

And not really the type of jokes— I think dark humor is hilarious (duh) but some times they were a bit much. But I miss the dynamics. I feel like it’s even stretched up to s10 but the past few have felt so different. They felt out of character even though it’s still the same writers and the same characters and what not.

I guess I just miss when it seemed like The Gang actually cared about each other a bit. As much as they could, anyway. They’ve always been pieces of shut but they’ve always been each others pieces of shit, and it was special.

Even if they were doing something for their own gain, there was always a hint of them doing it for each other. Like, for example, Charlie Got M*lested. Dennis and Dee went full on private investigator, and sure they were only trying to “help” their their own ridiculous ego-centric/competitive reasons, but the factor the matter is they were still trying to help Charlie. In Charlie Has Cancer it seemed Dennis was truly concerned when Charlie told him, if not a bit uncomfortable. And I feel he only acted so weird because the way the Reynolds household worked when they were little. That’s a whole other post in itself, however.

In Dennis And Dee Get A New Dad, Charlie tagged along with Mac to visit his dad— and sure it was because the idea that Mac’s dad could be like a father figure to Charlie as well, but he was there to support Mac at the end of the day. As well as the fact they were so ready to beat the shit out of D&D’s biological dad for Frank.

In Dennis and Dee Go On Welfare, the twins hung out and acted like actual siblings. There was bickering and arguing sure, but that’s just how you act with your sibling. They hung out, they enjoyed each others presence, and it didn’t always have to be some huge joke about how everyone hates everyone.

Charlie Gets Crippled— when Dennis hit Charlie with his car it was real concern he had seeing Charlie in the hospital. As well as in Gun Fever when Dennis accidentally shoots him. You even see Dee talking to Colin about Charlie— letting him know Charlie’s okay. Like a friend does. Like you do when you care about someone. They even say they’ll help Charlie out with his rent!

There’s many more examples so I’ll just breeze through them here so this post doesn’t get too long. Dennis checking on Charlie and helping him write Dayman, Dennis knowing exactly how to calm Charlie down in The Gang Gets Extreme: Home Makeover Edition (and The Gang Goes to Hell), Sweet Dee Gives Birth, Dennis is a good brother. We see him being a good brother. And it’s not for any reason other than to care for Dee while she’s having her baby. Sweet Dee Has A Heart Attack, Dennis and Dee bond like actual brother and sister and he’s concerned about her well-being— actually concerned. In The Gang Wrestles For The Troops we see Charlie Dennis and Mac enjoying being together. We hear about them wrestling and having fun with one another and they stick together in those goofy fucking bird costumes. Macs Banging The Waitress: call it selfish desire or extreme attachment issues and an insane ego, but Dennis was troubled when Charlie and Mac agreed they were bffs and not him, he tried everything to get Charlie to change his mind. Charlie Kelly: King Of The Rats— I could write a whole essay on this episode alone. Dennis Dee and Mac went above and beyond for Charlie. Just to make his birthday special. Mac And Charlie Write A Movie: again, they just act like friends. Real friends. It’s obvious they cared for each other. In Charlie’s Mom Has Cancer they all try and figure out a way to help. And yeah there’s that whole subplot of Dennis not feeling anything, but I feel like that makes it matter more that he wanted to tag along to find a “cure”, whatever that cure may be.

And there’s so many more instances of them just…. Enjoying each others company. And I’m not saying it doesn’t happen anymore, I’m just saying it doesn’t happen nearly as often as it used to. It feels like now they’re just a group of ex-friends that all resent each other just below the surface. They had selfish reasoning, they always did, but they also cared about each other. The things they did, they did to try and benefit each other. And maybe it’s just because their characters are being flanderized, maybe I’m insane, I dunno. I just miss old Sunny.

Sometimes I srsly wonder if I’m asexual

…ok so this has nothing to do with anything but here’s some other not poll related Love Live-y things that I WANT to do but have no idea how to execute due to various reasons (in order of difficulty):

• Easiest: New ship tier list with nearly every ship (I tried to start making it last year and gave up halfway…it’d be pretty easy to restart,like literally the hardest part is just digging around for official pictures of the rarer ships so this is by far the most doable one for me since I tried doing it once already so cjdjdj)

•Medium-est: My ideas for a Nijigasaki album (now this one requires almost a Polyvore-esque approach to it in my mind,with putting one girl in the middle and then a bunch of pictures + text for my vision - I’m still very new to any editing-type deal,so it definitely would take me a bit longer to figure out but it wouldn’t be TOO hard ykwim)

•Hardest: My own mixed group subunit graphic (do any of y’all remember that one picture of the mixed group units someone else made up I posted a while back?? Yeah I wanna do my own bc of that Love Live Days poll that’s happening but have ZERO clue how to put something like that together like…figuring out how to stitch together SIFAS clips was a task on it’s own but something this feels like an entirely different beast idk what it is)

Is it normal for your brother in law to tell you that you have a “huge rack”?

“They’re siblings” “they’re related” “that’s incest”

Taps the sign

plot twist update on my gf catching my cold: turns out i caught her cold, and it’s definitely something a little worse than a cold but maybe not quite as severe as the flu

trying to write this essay while maintaining at least a facade of academic objective voice is ridiculous, actually

hi! there’s a completely unnecessary and dramatic ramble below. read if you so please

or just ignore me lmao

you were warned lol-

so the only words people ever really use to describe me are things like, “nice”, “kind”, or “considerate”

which is very kind of them and that’s how I want to act and be seen as…. but not if that’s the only noticeable or discernible thing about me.

am I really that boring and forgettable? or is being kind and considerate of others and their feelings just that hard to find?

I don’t know. but it’s made me feel absolutely terrified to break this image i’ve somehow accidentally built for myself.

It legitimately seems like if I say “no” to someone or say something that gets misunderstood or taken the wrong way, that then no one will like me ever again because apparently all anyone sees me as is “nice”

and if i’m not nice….. then i’m just nothing I guess

I gotta admit it’s really fucking gross to theorize about people’s sexuality and gender. And that includes celebrities and dead people. It’s gross to give real people labels for them.

Memories aren’t for keeping.

They’re for sharing, for connecting with the people around you.

The good memories, the bad, the painful, all of them.

Good memories can help you share that joy with someone else, help you let them experience what you experienced, show them the joy that you once- and hopefully will again, experience.

Bad memories can let you help others understand and what you feel, what you’ve been through, they can help spread awareness and they can help you connect and help others.

You see these memories in the form of stories, memories shared from one person to another or memories shared from generations of people. Stories can also carry your memory as they are apart of you, we see this in history and we see this through random people all over the world, they carry stories of people they never even knew, or of people that maybe they did know but have long past, and they will keep those stories with them and maybe one day they will share them, and they will stay alive through those stories forever. Even after you pass one thing that can keep your memory alive is the stories you shared, maybe some so influential to others that they will share them over and over forever.

But at the end of the day memories aren’t for keeping, they’re for sharing, the good and the bad.