hi! there’s a completely unnecessary and dramatic ramble below. read if you so please

or just ignore me lmao

you were warned lol-

so the only words people ever really use to describe me are things like, “nice”, “kind”, or “considerate”

which is very kind of them and that’s how I want to act and be seen as…. but not if that’s the only noticeable or discernible thing about me.

am I really that boring and forgettable? or is being kind and considerate of others and their feelings just that hard to find?

I don’t know. but it’s made me feel absolutely terrified to break this image i’ve somehow accidentally built for myself.

It legitimately seems like if I say “no” to someone or say something that gets misunderstood or taken the wrong way, that then no one will like me ever again because apparently all anyone sees me as is “nice”

and if i’m not nice….. then i’m just nothing I guess

"YOU'RE BETTER THAN THIS" HE SAYS AS A HAND SLAPS MY FACE AND I STAND AND SAY "NO GOOD MAN GRACE" I CAN'T DO THIS (YOU CAN) I CAN'T DO THIS (YOU CAN) I CAN'T DO THIS (YOU CAN) I CAN'T DO THIS, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND

i've seen figure skater sanji and hockey player zoro before. idk if its been explored but i'd love to put it out there:

hockey player sanji (specifically goalie bc he desperately wants to avoid being checked) and then pairs skater zoro.

pairs skater zoro's long time partner has been nami. though many people ship them together a Lot, they just know each other super well. Well enough to try dating and both of them realized they don't swing that way. in fact, it makes them a really good team. they fought long and hard to claim top spots in competitions because they portray a chemistry that's separate from the rest. plus zoro can carry nami like she weighs fucking nothing. so their lifts are so much more dynamic. they even have a whole next to impossible combination that they're trying to get the ISU to name after them officially.

sanji plays for the East Blue Straw Hats in the Grand Line Hockey League – a formidable rookie group that took down lots of big names in the preseason. they want to make it all the way to the postseason playoff finals but always seem to fall short. but theyre so determined. they reignited a lot of old sparks that were no longer there for old fans and brought in new and curious fans. sanji is the starter goalie and a damn good one at that. it makes sense bc goalies are often doing splits on the ice just to make a save. he's perfected the technique that utilizes just his legs to make saves that make the crowd go fuckin insane.

we have the usual "i booked the rink to practice before you did" trope but a little more spice. in actuality, sanji loves watching pairs skating competitions. his favorite pair rn is franky and robin (mostly for robin). and he adamantly does not want to admit to anyone that he watches zoro and nami's routines much more frequently. (and if anyone asks, he always says its bc of nami. its never just bc of nami.) and zoro's besties with luffy so he always watches their matches even if he barely understands the rules. and he definitely does not stare at a certain blond starter goalie most of the match thats fucking ridiculous

one day zoro and sanji are invited to do one of those comparison videos between hockey players and figure skaters. both get to laugh at the other even Attempting to do their sport. zoro frankly looks ridiculous in all of sanji's usual goalie get-up. and sanji couldn't land an euler to save his life. the video producer suggests they try a simple pairs skating routine. sanji is like "oh i couldn't do that–hEY WHAT THE FUCK MOSSHEAD PUT ME DOWN" because zoro lifted sanji and had him sat on his shoulder like it was normal.

zoro smirks, "you might be lighter than nami, actually. wanna be my new partner?"

sanji knees him in the stomach before skating away while blushing so hard he could melt the ice beneath him.

hey btw:

I'm all yours, but you're all mine, let's dance, together, you and I. 'cause I'm not trapped with you, you see? you're the one who's trapped with me. 'cause I've been here so many times before, don't you think I look pretty, curled up on this bathroom floor? but where you see weakness, I see wit, sometimes I fall to pieces just to see what bits of me don't fit 'cause when I stand those folks will run, and tell the tales of what i've become, they'll speak of me in whispered tones and say my name like it shakes their bones. 'cause we'll dance, together, so close we're sharing breath, but now I'm leading, DOESN'T THAT JUST SCARE YOU TO DEATH? 'CAUSE I'M ALL YOURS. YOU'RE ALL MINE. LET'S DANCE TOGETHER, YOU AND I. 'CAUSE I'M NOT TRAPPED WITH YOU, YOU SEE?

YOU'RE THE ONE WHO'S TRAPPED WITH ME

something something you can always tell when i’m extra extra stressed out by my posting habits, feat. the gorls

lol what if nico finds out bianca was reborn/reincarnated as estelle

129 frames to go

Thalia: Hey Annabeth which looks better-

Jason and Leo: Oh hey

Thalia: Do you know where Annabeth is?

Jason: You can’t ask me? Come on I’m your brother!

Thalia: Okay which one will help your older sister seduce your ex-colleague Reyna? The black or dark blue dress?

Jason: …

Leo: Go dark blue, you Grace siblings look sexy in dark blue

Thalia: Gross and thank you

Don't ask me how but- AND HEAR ME OUT-

What if when Michael and Adam are finally reunited, like when they both come back and see each other for the first time Adam just... stops for a second, and just looks at Michael, staring blank at his true form.

Michael is over-fucking-joyed to have Adam back and have God gone and everything, and there's this general idea that Adam would just be himself and make a stupid little joke or something.

So Michael waits before making a move towards Adam, waits for Adam to say something, anything to make the situation feel real.

And nothing happens.

Michael takes a few steps towards Adam and quietly whispers "Adam...." the word feeling strange when said softly after he'd been screaming it in the empty.

and then Adam just, breaks.

He latches onto Michael and wraps his arms around his shoulders as his knees give out and he falls into Michael's embrace, all the while sobbing and screaming his soul out.

Michael snaps into it immediately because he feels Adam. Feels his soul in pieces as his grace try's to repair everything and stop the hurt pouring from Adam.

ummm okay so people at work were talking about pride month again

and someone said “everyone here is gay, only *name*, *name*, and grace aren’t” and i’ll tell you- the face I made (that I think only one person saw) was probably so incredibly telling lmao but idc because wtfff and yeah :/

just received +25 psychic damage by relating song lyrics to the treatment of demigods in pjo

Halsin's entire arc is about how he has never been allowed ANYTHING for himself.

Not a break from the stress of leadership. Not friends/confidantes. Not healing from his many traumas. Not a family/child of his own. Not even a HOME of his own in the context of this scene, since it's only going to trigger if the Rite of Thorns is completed and Halsin loses his home and friends, forever.

EVERYTHING he has asked for in the entire game has been for the good of others. Kill the goblin leaders who threaten the Grove, save Thaniel, the spirit of the land, let Halsin come with you to help defeat the Absolute. All of it solely for the benefit of others.

And then Halsin asks one thing. That, in and of itself, should really get the player's attention if they have been paying any attention up to this point. Halsin is asking for something FOR HIMSELF.

He tells the player that he is scared. That Minthara- who imprisoned him, and made plans with the other leaders to murder him, and tried to slaughter his entire Grove, which was saved only because Kagha sealed it away from him forever- is a bridge too far. That even he, with his endless compassion, can't do this.

He doesn't ask the player for revenge on Minthara. This isn't motivated by hate and anger, or want of bloodshed. Instead, he says that if the player wants Minthara to stay at camp, he cannot, will not, stay. Because this isn't about him wanting bad things to happen to Minthara. It is about him wanting to be certain he won't be murdered.

This is FURTHER proven when, if the player says they choose Minthara, Halsin makes no argument; he doesn't even say he's hurt by this disregard for his safety. He wishes the player the best. He says he HOPES he's wrong about Minthara. He even thanks them again for helping Thaniel. He understands that the player might prefer for Minthara to stay alive; he just wants to be personally removed from the danger he feels she poses to him. Which is why he extricates himself after this. If the player won't see to his safety, he will do it himself- no muss or fuss. It isn't even an ultimatum to the player as much as it is stating a boundary- where he will and won't stay.

He asked for one thing for himself- to be allowed to feel safe at the campsite where he was spending his days and nights- was denied it, and quietly left with ZERO ill will towards the player who refused to help him in favor of helping his captor instead.

That's what the fandom is calling him a monster for, now. Because after being held captive and tortured, the one thing he couldn't do was share a campsite with the person who was behind it all.

So I guess we have another thing to add to the list of things Halsin just isn't allowed to have.

in the mirror was someone who technically looked like him, but was not him.

In the mirror was someone who technically looked like him, but was not him. When Chuuya raises his hand, the person in the mirror mimics the movement. When Chuuya tilts his head, they do the same. But still, Chuuya cannot convince himself that the person he is looking at really is him.

There is some sort of disconnect—a gap he cannot bridge.

He brings his hand up to his hair, but before he can tug just to see if it hurts, there’s a knock on the door. It has to be Dazai, because Chuuya lives alone and no one else has a habit of breaking into his apartment just to bother him. Chuuya thinks, Go away, shithead, but his mouth stays firmly shut and so a moment later, the door swings open.

Dazai appears behind him in the mirror. He takes Chuuya’s hand in his—or maybe he takes the hand of the reflection—and he offers whoever it is he’s interacting with a goofy smile. “You should stop wasting time admiring your reflection and give me attention instead.”

Chuuya frowns. The person in the mirror frowns too.

Then, Dazai copies the expression. He moves his hands to Chuuya’s shoulders, turning him so he’s no longer staring in the mirror. Instead, he’s face-to-face with the real Dazai.

He relaxes, marginally. Under Dazai’s touch, he feels like something that’s just a bit closer to himself.

learning that jason todd was written to die literally because there was a poll among readers asking if joker should kill him and a majority said yes, and that no one liked him because he was "boring"

and thinking about how jason grace in heroes of olympus is also considered the most "boring" out of the seven, and then coincidentally he was the one who was killed off

bruh. BRUH. BRUUUHHHHHH

Stayed up until 3:30 envisioning my daughter of Zeus OC from childhood that I crafted into an original original character having a nervous breakdown because the sky is loveless and law is loveless and order is loveless and at some point the love she has in her heart won't be enough

"the ocean is a possessive bastard that never wants you to leave, and the earth loves you so much it provides so you can live, and the dead are coated in love from grief, and homes are where love first sprouted, the warmth of the fire, and what is the core of family and marriage if not the love between people, but the sky?

the sky doesn't love you. you jump and it doesn't catch you, it will watch you plummet to the ground. the higher up you go, the harder it is to breathe. the sky does not want you, it does not love you. and the law does not love you. it doesn't care about you, who you are, how you are, the why's behind the rule you broke. it will structure itself how it sees fit, based on its own feelings of what is and isn't correct, and it will throw you away for the slightest infraction. it will kill you for not acting the way it demands.

and I am the daughter of the sky, I am the daughter of law. at some point love won't be enough to stop me from executing every person who so much as breathes wrong. my love is superficial. it is not authentic, it is not genuine, it is a thin, thin blanket covering my cold empty heart and I will not get to the point where it is ripped away! I will not be my mother, and I will not be my father! I REFUSE!

so please just let me die"

Naturally I tried to figure out how to sculpt this into a Jason monologue because who gives a shit about OCs, esp ones they've never heard of, lol, but it was 3:30 and I needed to sleep, and I was like meh it's not possibly for jaybird anyway, he's got that wolf in him

But Jason has also been continuously abandoned by every family he's ever had - his mom, the wolves, camp jupiter when they didn't go looking for him, leo and piper, probably more and so on, and I HC to be suicidal and actively self-harm himself

and you know what, I think it would be neat if everyone was like "Jason, you don't have time for friends, you need to learn to be a leader, you need to focus on training, blah blah blah" and he's desperate to see if he can have both and somehow someway he summons dead siblings to ask advice from or maybe he prays for advice and receives a dream from my stressed out baby girl who's basically like "I had so much love in my heart, it was slowly killing me every single day because my rules were small and stupid but they mattered so fucking much and people broke them all the tim and the intense need I felt to hurt them as punishment for their wrongdoings made me want to kill myself and the only reason I couldn't is because my friends kept catching me. don't befriend a child of Pluto or Mors, they're annoyingly adept and weirdly stubborn about you dying when they don't want you to"

ofc Jason is desperate. He wants people, he wants community. But she just shakes her head. "you're the oldest child of Jupiter here. You're the only child of Jupiter here. You have no choice. I was the youngest of my siblings. If I were in line to be praetor, if I were in line to be charge of my cohort, I would've tried so much harder to die because love and leadership are incompatible for us. Maybe it works out for other people, but not for us.

Abandon your affections, Jason. Crave friendship but never seek it out. It will hurt you less when it comes time to discipline those who break the rules. You are a tornado waiting to happen, you are a lightning storm. Your discipline will not be gentle and it will not be light. Do you want to be feared by those you love?"

and he shakes his head, wishing he was a softer person, one who shocked rather than electrocuted, one who didn't bear their teeth, and played with the breeze instead of manifesting gale.

"then love no one. because the fear will come no matter what, but love? that's what you have to work for. and it has no place with us"

Um…

“He followed her around the woods until she agreed to have sex with him. She only had sex with him to get her to leave her alone.”

I have never heard such an ignorant statement in my entire life. 😢༼ಢ_ಢ༽

I only watched 5x11 once and that was when I first watched the show. Which was December 2022. And I know full and damn well that that is not how it went down. I have a clear memory of what happened. And that ain’t it.

Klaus did not say to Caroline, “I’ll leave you alone and leave Hellhole Falls forever if you let me eat your coochie/let me fuck.” 🙄

No. I specifically remember him asking her for her confession about him. About her feelings for him. Not once did he ever imply that he wanted her to have sex with him in exchange for him leaving Mystic Falls. He asked for the truth. It was not a transaction for sex in exhange for him fucking leaving Mystic Falls.

Klaus: I want your confession.

Caroline: About what? I didn’t do anything!

Klaus: About me.

He asked for her honesty. He promised her that he was leaving town for good and the only thing that he asked her for was her honesty. He had always respected Caroline for her honesty and he asked to be real this last time.

Stop making it out to be like he coerced her into sleeping with him. As I recall, Caroline was the one who kissed him. Not the other way around. She said in 5x15, that it was her choice to sleep with Klaus and she even told Kat that it felt good to kiss him. It was HER choice. Not once did he ever force her into doing something that she did not want to do. Nor did he compel her. You must be getting Klaus mixed up with the town’s number one sexual predator. ⬇️🙄

⬆️ He sleeps with the women he compels by the way. *cough cough* They have no free will meaning that they cannot consent. *cough cough* He also tries to kiss women after they reject him. But Caroline is called a thot for what happened to her, for hating Damon, and for actually feeling disturbed that Elena was with him. Even though Caroline was coming from a place of worry. Wouldn’t you be worried if your friend was hooking up with your abuser? Wouldn’t you be concerned if your friend was sire bonded to the guy who is possibly abusing your friend the same way he abused you? And people act like what Damon did to Andi is isn’t an issue because she’s “irrelevant,” although the shit he did was disturbing. Just because Andi wasn’t a huge character like the main gang doesn’t mean that what Damon did to her should be brushed over. It was disturbing. And if y’all lie and say that what Damon did to Care and Andi was not SA, then you and your mother will be receiving the blocked button. I will not argue with you. Keep it in the fucking drafts.

Klaus is not the same as Damon. Sorry not sorry. And don’t y’all dare bring up the scene that happened in the woods in 4x01. He gave her a warning. “Wrong place, wrong equipment,” or something like that. If he wanted her only for sex and was a creep like Damon, and had no respect for Caroline, then he would have acted as if he was Tyler and slept with her while he was in Tyler’s body or fucking compelled her. But he didn’t do either of those things. Klaus respects Caroline. Period. You can come up with whatever bullshit excuse you want. I don’t give a damn. Also, the Damon is a Demon gif is not mine.