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Dolor Pt. 2
Pairing: Chris Sturniolo X Female Reader
Synopsis: Y/N hasn’t seen Chris in a year and a half, but with the help of her friend she’s surprised by them🤭 Will those feelings still be there for one another?
Warnings⚠️: None, I’m not too sure how I feel about this one, but I had no other idea on how to write it so I hope y’all enjoy 🙃
Song for the imagine: ANGEL- Brent Faiyaz
Read part 1 here🫶🏽
Don’t ever leave my side, baby I’ll die
But from what I know, you’re always here to stay
You’re an angel in disguise
It has been a solid year and half since Chris and I broke up, a solid year and half of never seeing him or his brothers. It was very hard, but it also flew by. I wasn’t sure where a year and half went. It was honestly scary.
We both told each other we’d love to cross paths, and reconnect in a few months to be friends, but life got in the way, and that never happened. I’m honestly glad it didn’t, we were both so busy I believe it helped us move on from one another faster.
We all stood mutuals with each other on instagram and TikTok, but we just didn’t interact with each other. I watched them grow in all aspects, and it was amazing. I thought I’d be there to witness it first hand, but instead I was watching from the sidelines….it hurt me, but it had to be done.
My TikTok was flooded with videos of them from their tour they were just on, and it’s honestly crazy how much people can change in a year and a half. That didn’t even look like Chris. He was much more mature looking, sculpted cheekbones, shorter hair, stubble on his face…..Chris was looking good.
I shook that feeling off because I could not allow myself to fall back in love with Chris. It took me a long time to move on from him. I will always love the kid, but to fall out of love was hard. I hadn’t seen or talked to any other guys since splitting with Chris, and I wasn’t too sure if that was the same with him. Deep down I hoped it was.
I was scrolling on TikTok one day when I saw a clip of the triplets from their recent podcast video, they were doing a Q and A video, and somehow Chris pulled out a question asking about me. I decided to watch the video
“Okay so this person says how’s Y/N, and how have you been since the breakup. I’m currently going through my own break up right now, and I just need some advice” Chris read out
“So uh this is a good question. It’s been a year and a half since I’ve last seen Y/N, and it’s crazy to say it’s been that long, but it has. With the relationship we had and how special it was it took me a full year to finally be able to feel okay, and understand why we split up. It hurt and some part of me still hurts, but we told each other the night we broke up that we both will be okay because we’re strong, and that’s something I’ve been holding on to. I presume that she’s okay, I’ve seen her instagram posts and her TikTok’s, and she looks amazing. I actually really miss the girl. So I hope she’s doing great, and for you going through your break up just know everything happens for a reason and you’ll be okay take your time and work on yourself” he said
Oh god this was making it so hard for me not to call Chris and ask to see him….I missed him so badly
I scrolled some more and another clip popped up
“This person wants to know do you still love Y/N” Nick asked Chris
“Oh 100% that woman is my everything. Like we’ve said in the past we hope to cross paths again” Chris said nodding his head
This has to be a sign? Like this has to be a sign that I have to see him, that Chris and I are meant for each other right? Or am I being delusional……
I wasn’t sure if I wanted to call him, text him or just ignore all this and keep it pushing in life. I felt torn between my decisions
Today I was getting ready to film with Larray and Arrington. I had gotten so close to them within the last year, and we always filmed together. Larray was my biggest supporter in all this, and he was also friends with the triplets which kind of made it hard, but he never got in between anything. Although he hoped and prayed that we’d get back together one day I always told him time will tell.
He had an idea where we all stay in his car for 24 hours with special guests. I wasn’t sure who these guests were, and I wasn’t sure why he wanted us to stay in a car for 24 hours, but I agreed I knew it would be fun.
I had driven over to Larrays house, and let myself in
“YOOOOO” I yelled from the door
“Were in hereeee” Arrington yelled back
Oh god I was the last one here….I hated this, but anyways I walked to Larrays room, and when I walked in my heart sank
“Oh” was all I said as I walked in
“Hiiiii baby” Larray said, causing everybody to turn around with him the triplets face dropping
“What’s? Uh….whats going on” I said looking at Larray
“We’re filming a video, and I brought my friends” he said back
“It’s been so long” Chris said looking at me saddened
“It ummm it has” I said smiling at him
“We have missed you so fucking much….holy shit” Nick said running over and hugging me
“Uhh it’s been so fucking long I missed yall too” I said hugging him
“Matt you look so different now” I said jaw dropping and giving him a hug
“Good different I hope” he said hugging me
“Of course good different” I said laughing at him
I moved to Chris
“You look so different too” I said pulling him in for a hug
“I’ve missed you” he said hugging me tighter
“Missed you too” I said pulling away
After chatting for a bit Larray decided to film his introduction for his channel
“Alright bitches we are filming a 24 hour car video today, and of course I had to bring in my ride or dies Arrington and Y/N” he said and both Arrington and I made an entrance
“And then you know Larray had to stir the pot, so he brought the triplets” Arrington said to the camera causing us to laugh
“As uhhh most of you know there’s uh an elephant in this room between uh two people, but ummm we won’t talk about it” Larray said
And we just laughed at him
“You are so messy” I said to him rolling my eyes playfully
“Alright let’s get to the car bitches” he said and we ran out
I sat in the passenger seat, Chris and Arrington in the back, and then Nick and Matt in the third row
“Alright so right now we’re driving to Target which is 45 minutes away because Larray decided to do this video during rush hour” I said to the camera
“Uh- is that a drag?” He asked me
“It sure is” I said to him
“So Y/N….you said Matt looks different….you already had Chris so will you try another brother” Arrington asked me
I looked back at him jaw on the floor, as Chris and his brothers were laughing
“You weirdo Arrington, I will not fucking get with Matt” I said shaking my head
“Could you believe this kid” I said looking at the camera
“Ouuuu the fans want to know how many boyfriends since Chris” Larray asked me
“Boyfriends plural? Do they think I’m a slut….its only been a year and a half guys, and there’s been zero guys since Chris” I said shrugging my shoulders
“OHHHHHH CHRISSSS” Larray and Arrington yelled at him hyping him up
“She loves me too much to do that” Chris said to the camera
“Uh-“ I said turning around to look at him
“I’m just kidding” he said and touched my face playfully
“SAW THAT” Nick and Matt yelled from the back
We had finally gotten to Target, and Chris and I were paired up to go on the hunt for some things, and we had to vlog it together
“Alright guys I’m here with uh….my ex” I said to the camera
“What a great reunion” he said looking at the camera
“Who would’ve thought a year and a half later we’d be in Target shopping for a video together” I said looking at him
“I honestly thought it would’ve happened sooner, but I mean hey” he said shrugging his shoulders
“Oh whatever” I said rolling my eyes at him
Him and I were doing some shopping and grabbing some stuff, and we had found ourselves in the coloring book aisle
“Look the Disney coloring book, your favorite” he said leaning down to grab it
“You remembered?” I asked him
“Of course I did, and you only get specific coloring pencils cause you’re weird” he said laughing
“Hey don’t be mean” I said laughing at him
“It’s cute” he said smiling at me
“Do you ever think about us?” I asked him
“Pretty often actually” he said looking at me
“Do you think you see a future with me” I asked him
“I’ve thought about this a lot, and every time I picture my future you’re a main character in it” he said looking into my eyes
“This year and a half has been rough, and I so badly wanted nothing more than to cave and call you over, and just hold you tight” I said looking down
“I sat in my room for so many nights wondering if the decision I made was right, and after a while I just became numb to the feeling, but I want this again….I want us” he said
“I think we should start slow first. I want us to truly work out this time no break ups no nothing” I said to him
“I think so too, you should come film with us again we miss you so much, and the fans miss you too” he said
“I’ve seen…all over my tik tok” I said smiling at him
“Yeah they love you and I love you too so much” he said pulling me in for a hug
We finished vlogging some, and headed back to the car with everybody getting back in our original seats
“Okay everybody we are back, we’re going to go eat something and then we’ll be back in the car for the next 24 hours” Larray said
After we ate we went back into Larrays car trying to stick out this challenge and just chatting with each other asking each other questions
“How many girlfriends since Y/N?” Larray asked Chris
“None. I told yall she’s the love of my life” he said looking at the camera
“Awww Chris” I said looking at him
“HEY CITY GIRLS UP. Do not fall for this” Arrington said
“Shut the fuck up” I said laughing at him
“What’s one regret you have” Nick asked us
“I think my biggest regret was completely dropping you guys out of my life. Like no interactions no nothing that hurt the most” I said to them
“We appreciate that” Matt said
“How do you guys feel after seeing each other” Matt asked Chris and I
“Is this a hot seat? What are we doing” Chris said
“Shut the fuck up and answer” Nick said
“I feel at peace, like seeing him was the last piece to my puzzle. I still love Chris of course, and we’re hoping to take things slow, and eventually get together again” I said to them
“Yeah. I love her so much, and seeing her today brought back all those memories. Memories that made my heart flutter, and I knew I couldn’t let her go again” he said looking at me
“Yall cute as shit this has got to stop” Larray said
“So yall heard it here first they are back together” Arrington said to the camera
“WOAH WOAH NO” we both said putting our hands out
“We are taking it slow…we are not dating yet, and trust me you guys will know when we’re back together. It’s a maybe for right now” I said to the camera
“But she will be in our videos again” Chris said
“SHE WILL?” Nick and Matt said
“Yes she will!” He said to them
“FUCK YES FINALLY” Nick said getting excited
We had chatted for a good thirty more minutes before we decided this challenge was not going to happen
“Alright guys we did not make it, but we love you and we’re heading inside now” Larray said
“BYEEEEEE” we all yelled to the camera, Chris pulling me in and kissing my forehead
“Are you guys going to soft launch your comeback before I post this?” Larray asked us
“You know that’s not a bad idea actually” I said looking at Chris
“We could do that. I’d love to do that” he said pulling me in and kissing my cheek
“Yall soft launching but he smoochin on you” Matt said looking at us
“Uhhhh mind your business” Chris said sticking his tongue out at him
“OMG to keep it like private you guys could do like a couples shadow picture” Nick said
“Waittttt I love that let’s do it” I said to Chris
We had snapped the picture, and Chris posted it collabing with me once again so I can post and share it. Nick and Matt also shared it to their story saying the gangs back together and they can’t wait to film with me again. Immediately the love we got was INSANE
❤️nicolassturniolo,matthew.sturniolo,larray, and 450,000 others
christophersturniolo: I told you guys we’d always always find a way back to one another. Although we aren’t dating again we will be thinking about it for our future. I love this girl with my whole fucking heart, and I’m so glad we’re in each others lives again. She was my right person at the wrong time.My number one girl💍. Were back BITCHESSSSS🥳
Sturnioloteam: STFU THEYRE BACK
arringtonallen: mhmmm I was here for this picture so back off everyone
nicolassturniolo: mama and papa🫡
matthew.sturniolo: yall cute or whatever…..
larray: yall can thank me for this reunion MHMM💅🏽
Y/Nusername: my number one guy…love this kid so much💋
sturnioloooooo: I knew mom and dad would find each other again
The immense love we received was insane. Had you told me a year and a half ago today that all that pain would be gone, and we would find each other again I would laugh in your face. I guess I am making it to the end of his story….🥀
The End
I hope you guys liked this one I feel ehhh about it, but I had to have a happy ending🥹 but anywho let me get to writing some more 🖤
-J💅🏽
#sturniolo triplets#sturniolo x reader#sturniolo#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo triplets imagines#chris sturniolo#chris sturniolo imagine#Spotify
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TWST MAIN SPOILER PART 6. PART 7 THEORIES. MASQUERADE EVENT DETAILS; SILVER CHARACTER ANALYSIS
And I posted this some months ago...and I'm theorising that Lilia might die, because of his age...and those words and also Silver words about his father not being so well anymore, make me think about it more and more...
MASQUERADE EVENT DETAILS:
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MASQUESLRADE EVENT SPOILERS BELOW.
SILVER MINI CHARACTER ANALYSIS below
An important note on Silver character:
In the fandom , obviously for meme, Silver is always portrayed as an himbo... I can't think of anything more wrong. Silver probably in whole twisted wonderland (with Ace) is the most emotionally intelligent , witted and belligerent person. We superficially see him as an himbo because he has not malevolence, he literally lived in the middle of nowhere with a fae trying to understand how to grow up a human... thus justifying Silever mindset to not take as evil malevolence. Faes are in myths and common knowledge creatures who, for fun, make a lot of mischievous acts, not to damage people or hurting but because of their very nature as beings whose live for centuries and have different perception of things, (Disney also portrayed it with Tinkerbell), so as result of living among faes is totally understandable why Silver has this kind of mindset where he doesn't see/ perceive malevolence as something threatening or enouth serious to give to it importance. Yet emotionally Silver, as told before, is really emotively intelligent (and we can understand that from all his vignettas, and cards and events; remarkable is the Halloween event of last year scary monster, if you don't remenber it please read it again expecially his interaction with Jamil);
Silver is really perceptive of others, here we see how through Lilia he understand Trein sensei circumstances, no one except him noticed and gave importance about this, so the "short-comings" we all in the fam give to Silver are misgiven, Silver's short comings are due his narcolepsy and through the fact that he lived more among other species than humans, so he only lacks experience, not intelligence, he's not an himbo.
In conclusion I want to make you notice how mature he is respect Malleus; Silver always noticed and told us plenty times that Lilia was aging and he tell it being aware and ready for what it will happen... following the natural flow of life, Silver is ready for it to happen, Malleus no, if Lilia pass away for Malleus it will be a traumatic strike, he is immature and for him, for faes being essentially immortal and infallible is a given, death is something that for him is way distant and evanescent...
Thus where my observations. Before part seven. I'll rewatch all about Silver's cards, events ect. And I'll make an exclusive character analysis about him. Because it's DEFINITELY not true that we have only few clues about his character.
I personally think that he is one of the most underrated, by superficiality, character in twst, when instead is a character fully studied and soo well written that deserve to have a lot more.
He is definetly one of my favourite characters, at the start I underrated him really badly, because to me he was the less outstanding character among the cast, yet he really managed step by step to grow on me, he is an amazing written character, my upmost respect to everyone who worked on his characterization🙇🏻♀️
I hope this may be , usefull, or at least interesting
If you may be interestd I also made a mini analysis about Cater Diamond(an other of my favourite characters in twst)
For a further analysis about Lilia you can also read these posts:
-Faes
-Lilia Vanrouge ssr birthday 3rd year bouquet
#twst silver#silver twisted wonderland#silver character analysis#twisted wonderland masquerade#twisted wonderland#lilia vanrouge twst#lilia vanrouge#twisted wonderland lilia#lilia twst#lilia twisted wonderland#malleus draconia#twisted wonderland malleus#twst malleus#diasomnia#twisted wonderland part7#twstpart7#sebek twst#sebek zigvolt#characters analysis#twst theory
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(Answering @badwolfwho1's questions for this character ask game; three of four.)
Cordelia
5 What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?
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...yeah, this is just because of that scene in The Puppet Show, sorry. But I do think it's kind of arc-appropriate that Buffy's Shadow Self Cordelia sings a song about not wanting to live in anybody's shadow and then (eventually) leaves town.
12 What's a headcanon you have for this character?
Not exactly original to me but I think I am increasingly an ace Cordy truther.
I know there are other explanations for some of the way she’s written in Buffy and that, in the high school years in particular, the writers really don’t seem to like to suggest that any of the women on the show might have any interest in sex as such (which is probably the real reason Xander spends more time talking about how physically attractive Willow’s boyfriend Oz is than Willow herself ever manages, tempting as it is to think of that as deliberate bisexual Xander / lesbian Willow foreshadowing).
But Cordelia especially seems particularly confused (and occasionally actively repulsed) by the mere idea of sexual desire (“does looking at guns really make girls want to have sex?” she asks Xander in Innocence, while surrounded by guns herself, “That’s scary.”; “I get it!” she announces while Faith is talking to Buffy about the side-effects of Slaying, before quickly clarifying “Not the horny thing. Yuck.”) despite the show also being clear that Cordelia has definitely had sex (among other things, there’s the story she tells about “a friend, not me” who had sex in her car and “kicked the gearshift” in the health class in Bad Eggs). The general impression is, I feel, pretty striking (but, yeah, absolutely unintentional).
20 Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?
In canon I really like Cordelia’s emergent friendship with Angel. No offense meant to the Cangel shippers, I just don’t really see the appeal of their relationship being romantic (and, for other reasons, I don't like the seasons where it's suggested that it might be, so it's not a take I'm normally exposed to much). I said in a recent post that Angel doesn’t really exist in Buffy except as Buffy’s boyfriend (sometimes Cordelia or Faith might express some interest in him, but they are very clearly only doing so because he is Buffy’s boyfriend). So it’s nice that Angel gets to be something more like a real person in his own show, and to form relationships with people that don’t have anything to do with Buffy anymore.
(I know that many people on here like to suggest that Buffy and Cordelia would have remained friends after Cordelia left Sunnydale, but canon doesn’t really support that at all and I don’t think I see it either – I think post-high school Buffy and Cordelia would both see each other as representative of an old life they’re trying to move beyond and probably not make any effort to stay in touch -- it's noteworthty that when either of them talk about each other post-Graduation Day, which almost never happens, they do so fairly dismissively.)
Beyond canon, I think Anya and Cordelia would have gotten on well and I think it’s a shame (and slightly hard to explain in any in-universe way) that they never interact after The Wish. Surely Cordelia is (from Anya’s perspective) the whole reason Anya is a human! From her perspective, she’s the first person in a thousand years whose wish she was unable to grant, and trying to do so cost her her powers. The only reason Anya can have for not being slightly obsessed about her is the fact she knows Cordelia is going to be written out of the show soon. And equally Cordelia, post-Lovers Walk, is very clearly badly in need of a friend: that's why she starts talking to and hanging out with Anya in the first place! And yet, after The Wish, nothing. Feels like a wasted opportunity.
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**Toh ending spoilers**
So if season 3 hadn’t been cut I’m pretty sure we would’ve had an all out Amity VS Luz fight in the finale
Like, this is just a theory. But not only is the setup absolutely there- both with the collecter possessing people under Belos’s instructions or Belos himself possessing ppl- but it makes for a fantastic parallel.
One of their first interactions is the witches duel! A full blown finale fight would be an incredible parallel to show how far they’ve come and grown as witches. Plus it plays on some of their biggest fears- hurting the ppl she loves for Luz and for Amity- who’s main thing is about working on becoming a better person- would be a devastating regression
Also just like. Big emotional scene where mind controlled Amity is saying mean things, and Luz agrees, and Amity has to snap herself out to convince Luz that no those hurtful things weren’t true and I’m so sorry and then they comfort each other and have a nice romantic moment
Like In the actual episode Amity is the one to comfort Luz and tell her about the light glyph being what wakes people up. (Which btw is a connection I love so much how the light glyph was the first she learned and it’s her name and it’s what keeps saving ppl Luz keeps saving people even when she thinks badly of herself she is good and kind and no matter what she thinks she can’t erase that or the good she’s done)
the actual interaction in the nightmare world are kinda short bc the mouse screwed them over and also bc Luz can’t properly finish her arc until she talks to Papa Titian for finale reasons but like
Imagine Luz in the nightmare realm as her freinds yell at her. And she believes them! Ofc she believes them!! She’s been wallowing in guilt for months of course she believes it
Amity gets the quote right. They fight.
Its big and flashy and scary. Luz is so distraught she’s not really properly putting up a fight and Stringbean has to kinda pick up the slack so she doesn’t really get hurt. The others are probably joining in as backup for Amity, throwing in mean things that Luz just keeps agreeing with
(There’s moments when Amity, misses an easy shot or takes a second too long to react, but that’s all the rebellion she can muster. For now)
Mid fight, while saying or agreeing with something mean about herself, Luz casts a light spell
Amity does not wake up
Willow does
And Willow says she’s wrong. Willow starts defending Luz from the others, rebuking all the self deprecating claims Luz makes. As she goes Willow manages to wake up Gus, then Amity, then Hunter
The four of them fight together to protect Luz from whatever monsters manifest from the nightmare, and also from her own self deprecation
Like I feel like it would be so beautiful. Luz’s whole life all she’s wanted is to be understood. She struggled so hard to make freinds, and she loves these ones so much and she’s so afraid that she hurt them. But instead they turn around and say no you didn’t and we love you and fight for her because after so so long of being alone Luz finally has a family, brothers and sisters and a girlfriend who love her.
She would have the support she needed to finally believe them and stop listening to her own fears. The support to finally believe in and choose herself
Now obviously changing this stuff would wreak havoc on the actual script and mess with a lot of what they’d be capable of doing in their limited time. Plus screw up some really really incredible moments like everything with the collector and Luz actually choosing herself. I do think you could make it all work with more time but obviously that’s the one thing the incredible writing team didn’t have.
Anyway I am writing a fic. but it’s very much a WIP. Collage is killing me. So expect it whenever I rise from the dead in the fanfic writer equivalent of Titian form
#toh spoilers#the owl house#toh#toh luz#toh amity#lumity#toh willow#toh hunter#luz nodeda#amity blight#willow park#hunter noceda
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I’ve been trying to sort out my feelings about the Collector as a character for a while, especially as there seems to be a lot of disparity in the fandom with how people have reacted to him. And that’s kind of cool, honestly -- he’s a very impactful character even with just a few scenes, and is written in such a way that it is difficult to know how to feel right away.
But after introducing the show to a friend and marathoning it with her over the course of three days (and listening to her wails of “But there’s another episode, right? There has to be another episode, right? RIGHT?” after the finale), I think my feelings have gotten a bit more coherent, haha.
First off, I’ve always felt like the people who write him off as just evil are not really paying that much attention. I also disagree with the people who think he is not a child, when he blatantly is, and not just in appearance. I know there’s a debate over whether or not he actually has a child’s mind or if he’s just playing at it, but I am really dead set on the former. Yes, he’s probably thousands of years old -- but that’s not what determines one’s mental age, especially if that’s not how that particular kind of being ages. The Collector, most significantly, can’t tell when people are lying to him. Not just by Philip, who is a fairly masterful liar (and it’s notable that the Collector sees Philip lie to and betray countless people over the centuries and yet still doesn’t see his own betrayal coming, because they pinky swore, and to children, pinky swears are sacred). After Philip’s betrayal, the Collector is then immediately lied to by King -- and King, being a child himself, doesn’t lie well. But the Collector believes it, especially after King offers -- again -- to pinky swear. Soon after that, he’s lied to by the whole group of children, who are lying very badly. Yet, he doesn’t question it. That’s not indicative of a matured mind that is just playing at childlike behavior. He is being used, again, but doesn’t see it. Or as my friend said -- "He would not be found guilty in a court of law", haha.
I want to stress that I don’t blame King or the other kids for handling this obviously very powerful and scary being in the only way they could think of in order to survive and save the people they care about. Nor do I blame King’s father for not wanting said very powerful and scary being around his infant son. But I do kind of wish anyone would try being honest with the Collector and just speaking with him directly without manipulating him. Maybe they have before, we don’t know! But the only interactions we see him have so far with people in the show are people deceiving him in order to use his power for their own goals.
"But he hates the titans and wanted them wiped out!" I have not seen any evidence of this whatsoever. The only ones who believe this are the Titan Trappers, and I thought it was pretty clear in that episode that it was Bill who had spread that story. I think it came about because the Collector knows he needs titan blood -- or a titan -- to be freed from his prison. I think Bill just ran with that and expanded it to "he wants all titans eradicated". The Collector complains about King's father, but just in an annoyed kid kind of way -- "your dumb pops wouldn't let me play with you". There was no indication that he had any hatred for him, and certainly not for titans as a whole, especially given how absolutely thrilled he was to play with King.
He absolutely shows cruelty and callousness, but to me it comes across as "bored kid with nothing to do ends up seeing everyone as playthings", and children can absolutely be cruel, especially with no one to guide and look after them. He just happens to be that bored child with phenomenal cosmic power. I have so many questions about the Collector's origins, if he even had parents, if he was supposed to be looked after by someone. Instead he's spent 400 years with Philip, quite possibly the worst person for an extremely overpowered child who was never taught to consider the consequences of his actions to be around. Philip, after all, treats those around him as disposable as well. "I think you make those things just to destroy them!"
I'm not trying to say that the Collector is a "good guy", or that he hasn't done terrible things. Dana has, after all, said that he's chaotic neutral, and I think that definitely fits with what we've been shown. All I'm trying to say is that, incredibly scary and destructive powers aside, he is a child in all the ways that matter, and one that "doesn't want to be alone anymore". I would find it deeply unsatisfying if his story were to end with him trapped once again, as I've seen some people say should happen. I'm not particularly concerned about it happening, though, as the Owl House has never let me down with a character arc.
I'm so excited to see where his goes.
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Transcript of Philza and L’Manberg Meeting /rp
[click!]
[Taiyo]: Is this... yep, yeah, that’s on, or the blinky lights means I’m about to get exploded, one of the two! I think... [shuffling sounds, clears throat] Hello Tumble Peoples! Hi! I’m a recording! It is currently.. hold on.. about five minutes before my sister arrives with Philza! And I’ve decided to record the interaction so that I’ll have a more accurate record of how things go down, but I also don’t wanna show my face and neither does my sister, so we’ve agreed on using audio instead!
[sounds of multiple MCYTs chittering curiously, plus many small footsteps coming closer]
[Taiyo]: Say hi to the Tumblr people, you guys!
[more chittering, some of it sounds very enthusiastic]
[Taiyo]: [giggles] Yes Tommy, you’re very amazing on camera, I know. This isn’t a camera though, it’s a voice rec- heY-
[muffled sounds, more chittering that sounds a bit like evil giggles]
[Taiyo]: Tommy, stop- I know you like stealing but you can’t have this right now!
[hissing, a different MCYT starts chittering at Tommy, muffled sounds continue]
[Taiyo]: No need to get all hissy, I didn’t even touch you- Wilbur please don’t encourage him.
[another MCYT starts chittering along with Wilbur, and Tommy makes a proud chirp]
[Taiyo, fondly]: Oh my gods, you guys’ll be the death of me...
[muffled sounds stop, there’s a slight thud as Taiyo places the recorder on the table]
[Taiyo]: Okay, are you guys ready to meet up with Phil again?
[nervous chittering from various MCYTs]
[Taiyo]: I know, I know, it’s pretty scary. Don’t worry, though, I won’t let him hurt you guys this time. He won’t be able to actually touch you, even. I promise
[nervous chittering continues, interrupted by knocking]
[Taiyo]: OH! She’s here early!
[Footsteps, door opening]
[Taiyo]: Come on in, you can put Phil’s carrier down here if you want.
[Sister]: Okay, cool, thank you. Again, I’m really sorry about what happened last time-
[Taiyo]: It’s fine, I’ve told you! You didn’t know I had any new MCYTs, and I didn’t know Phil and Techno would react so badly to them. Speaking off, how’re they doing? I know that it can be hard getting them separated sometimes.
[Philza chirps happily, which is responded to by various chitters]
[Sister]: [chuckles] Well, it wasn’t too this time, the second I told them what was going on they agreed to it. Techno does NOT wanna come back here, so it seems. Phil only agreed to see Wilbur again
[Taiyo]: I’ll bet.. Okay, so here’s the deal you guys. Phil’s gonna stay inside the carrier until we can be sure that you all will get along, and as long as nothing goes wrong they’ll be leaving in an hour or two.
[More chittering and chirping back and forth, ignoring Taiyo]
[Sister]: Is it just me, or does Wilbur sound really aggressive?
[Taiyo]: Yeah? He’s just being protective, cus the others are nervous. Hey, hey, calm down Wil, it’s okay. It’s just Phil, you remember Phil. He’s not gonna hurt them.
[Angry chittering backed by nervous chittering, Philza chirping in response]
[Sister]: I don’t like this.. Should we get Wilbur away from the group so they can interact without him getting all fighty?
[Taiyo]: I doubt that’ll go well for anyone. That’d just make him more aggressive, if anything.
[Sister]: Maybe if we just let them go about.. whatever this is, they’ll resolve it on their own?
[Taiyo]: That’s the hope, I’m pretty sure,
[Angry chirping, Wilbur’s chitters stop completely]
[Taiyo]; Oh, what the hell did Phil just say to him..
[Sister]: Nothing good..
[Fire crackling, hissing that sounds a lot like a blaze]
[Taiyo]: OH SHIT!! GET THE CARRIER!!
[Sister]: ON IT-
[Philza makes a pained cry]
[Taiyo and his sister shouting various curses, loud chittering from all the MCYTs]
[click]
[End of transcript]
So uhh... Jack has fire powers apparently! Phil is.. uh.. relatively okay? We reacted fast enough that he didn’t get burnt too badly, but he’s going to the vet to treat the burns still. This did not go according to plan at all..
#mcyt as pets#tw animal injury#trying out a new writing style#i think i like it! might use it some more maybe
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AAAAANNND here are the OCs I’ve been drawing all week every single day! Posting this early without the third character cuz I got tired and impatient. I’ll probably add him in later though, so don’t worry bout him just yet :)
(Also, yes these are fnaf ocs because I'm not original...)
Soooo this is Loup Doop, Otherwise known as Loop de Doop/ Loop to kids. (She doesn’t like her name much, but it’s what the company branded her as and she can’t exactly change it.) I have a few bullet points about her: *pulls out list and clears throat*:
She’s 6”7, a tall one!
Her hands are not attached to her body, they’re more 3d holograms you can feel (don’t ask me how it works, I dunno either). it does take some conscious effort to have them out, so she doesn’t usually unless she’s with someone or needs to convey something. If you grab her hands, though, she can feel it and it does have a similar effect as pulling a real connected hand: if you’re strong enough, you can drag her along with it. (And yes, she has four fingers and they're never properly drawn, I'm sorry I can't draw real hands...)
She doesn’t have a voicebox. She communicates with sounds and simple pictures (you’ll see what I mean if/when I post comics of her).
She used to belong to a different company before being sold into Fazbear in some merger between the companies. (which comes in later, hehe…)
She was originally built with an outgoing, extroverted personality, but it developed into something more meek and quiet.
Her lil orange cheek things get bigger or smaller depending on her emotions.
She doesn’t usually hang out with the main star animatronics because they treat her badly. She prefers chillin with the mapbots, staffbots and wet floor bots, or the DJ if she has the chance. Because of her affiliation with the staffbots, it leads a lot of members of staff and guests to believe she is one, and they treat her as such often.
She is a bit of a people pleaser, and feels there's something wrong with her when she gets told off for not 'wiping the floors and doing her @$#% job'.
She cannot curse, by the way, it carries into her speech pictures as signs, sorta like the smurf comics. She doesn't like cursing much anyways, so it's not something that usually happens.
When kids come up to her on occasion (because she is sort of a performer), she'll ask them for their autograph on a picture with them, then print two. One for the kid, and one for her personal collection. She remembers every kid she's ever talked to before.
Her charging port is in the 2nd lil ball on the left side of her head.
The balls aren't anything special, just some soft, styrofoam-like material for kids to enjoy.
She doesn't interact with other animatronics, as said before, but is occasionally forced to by Bloo (see his description below) and puts up with it. On that note:
- She doesn't like Monty or Roxanne very much, but she does interact with Monty the most. Although most wouldn't call 'grabbing your younger brother to keep him away from the big scary bot he sees as an idol' an interaction.
- She's never actually met Freddy before, but she hears that he's nice from the Wet Floor bots. She personally doesn't want to meet him, either, assuming he's just like Monty and Roxy but worse because he's the face of the company.
She's seen Chica around, but...Chica means well, but she treats Loup Doop more like a kid than like an equal.
- She loves the DJ. They're best buddies in her eyes. They'll do remixes together, she'll ride on his back, babysit the minis, anything.
-She...doesn't really know what to think of the Daycare Attendant. The yellow one seems okay, just a bit too loud for her liking. The dark one, on the other hand...she's heard the stories from the STAFFbots and decides to steer clear of him if she can.
-Unfortunately, she can't stay as far away as she'd like cuz her brother in bolts has to look up to the strangest role models.
She actually meets them before Bloo does.
Thiiiiis is Bloo! He's a slightly newer model from the same company that Loup Doop is from, also from before the merger.
He's Loup Doop's lil brother.
He's around 3''4, depending on the shape of his droplets. The body itself is maybe 2''10.
He's mentally about 8 years old.
He's...not really sure what his job is. Neither does staff, so they just let him do whatever. He's pretty sure he was just supposed to be a sign to encourage kids to stay hydrated, but he tries not to think about it too much.
He doesn't have a voicebox, either, so he also communicates through pictures.
The droplets on his head move without conscious effort, but he can move'em around if he wants to as well.
His left hand has a bubble shooter, his right is his charging port or USB drive.
His left hand can also serve as a tazer, but Loup Doop won't tell him why he ccan't see his own blueprints, so he doesn't know about that.
No incident has ever happened where he finds out thus far.
He's very social, loves messing around with kids even though he isn't an actual featured attraction. He does push out a ton of bubbles for kids 'like him' to pop and play with.
He reaally wants to play with other kids, but he doesn't see much of them too often.
He likes being in the spotlight.
He, like Loup Doop, hangs out with the STAFFbots and Wet Floor bots. Unlike her, however, he doesn't mind hanging out with the other animatronics.
- He thinks Chica's great, he doesn't mind being treated like a kid. They paint nails together and play with dolls sometimes.
- He doesn't talk to Roxy much, only when he's with Chica.
- He thinks Monty is super cool, despite his sister's discouragement. He snuck into Monty's room to try on his glasses once and got caught. Turns out Monty didn't really mind, he liked having another fan. He tries to teach Bloo to play bass when he's not busy.
-Bloo hasn't seen Freddy much, either. He's watched all the performances, though, so he's pretty informed. He thinks that Loup Doup's a bit too cynical towards Freddy. He's sure Freddy's just as nice as everyone else.
- His relationship with the DJ is sort of like how kids talk to their friend's parents. He'll say hi, give all the pleasantries...and then immediately go off to mess around with the minis once he's finished talking.
He loves engaging in harmless pranks, so anyone else who does is a solid bud in his book.
He's the reason Loup Doop ever sets foot in the Daycare at all. He loves Sun and Moon, thinks they're very cool. He collects candy wrappers, keeps old worn plushies he finds in storage, drew the poster to hang in his 'room'...
-He doesn't get to see Sun much, mainly cuz Sun's busy with the kids and he can't be in there with them for fear of Management raising complaint. If he goes in real quick before closing, though, he might be able to pop in and say hi. Maybe a quick game of checkers if he's lucky.
- He sees Moon much more often because he catches him on his night patrols. Moon doesn't mind the company, apparently, because he actually engages with the kid when he talks to him. It's been a while since he was able to take care of kids...
Bloo likes cheerleading.
He wishes he could eat. He wants to try the cupcakes and cookies at Chica's bakery, she talks them up and he wants to know for himself. She's not really supposed to eat, either, but he's good at keeping secrets.
Aaaand I think that's all for now! I'll update this if I come up with more, but here's that.
#sorry to bother#don't mind me#crappy doodles#uhh how do i tag this#ummm#ocs#Loup Doop#Bloo#personal#well not personal but you get the idea right#uhhh what elseeeee#fnaf sb#i guess?#is that enough tags i dunno#me posting this bc i wanna share my lil guys with everybody
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Choi Wooshik as a boyfriend (astrology based)
okay so i couldn’t find a birth time for him at all so I used the standard 12PM for his birth time. please know that some of this information may not be as accurate as it could have been. as per usual this is for entertainment purposes only so take everything with a grain of salt. thank you and enjoy 💕
pisces moon || aquarius venus || aquarius mars
before getting into this i want to preface that his moon and his venus kind of contradict each other in the aspect that one side is sorta the romantic/sympathetic/perceptive (pisces moon) and the other side (aquarius venus) is like WAAAAAHHHHTTTT???? O.o so please keep this in mind while you read. it's probably a mixture of everything all in one ^^ geez men are already complicated why do they have to be even more complicated -_-
hi, it’s me, i’m the problem it’s me
he will most likely not feel very emotionally reassured in his relationships with his pisces moon. he just worries about everything and anything
i got you babe
his pisces moon makes him aware (intuitvely) of his partners needs. it's almost scary how he can predict what his partner wants/needs/feels before they even verbally express it. that being said he may not act on it
feet firmly planted on the ground
he's a very down to earth kind of guy and can relate to people's pain/sorrow very well
"i like angela, pamela, sandra and rita..."
so he may end up cheating if he's 1.) around crappy/lousy people (he can be easily influenced by the people he's around) 2.) if his parents don't have the healthiest relationship he may fall prey to what happened with them aka divorce/cheating 3.) if he's a sociable person (his aquarius venus likes to be social too so he may have lots of friends) but the majority may be women and if he seeks solace and comfort from these women... yeah he may cheat on his partner. AND 4.) if his partner doesn't give him the love and support he needs
i do want to note that points #2 and #3 are both with his venus sign as well
"soooo romantic~~~~"
his love and feelings run deep and he displays this by being on the slight romatic side (i say slight because of that aquarius venus)
helpful hand
he's the type to want to help out the people he loves and help people in general
simple and kind-hearted
a little fight never hurt anyone
so he might be a little bit of a pushover for the person that he likes. his pisces moon will put his feelings to the side and do everything and anything that he can to make sure that his partner is happy and enjoying themselves. so yeah... while this sounds nice his feelings matter too
if you ask i will tell
along with being perceptive he's also a deep thinker but won't voice out his opinion/thoughts/views unless he's asked to do so and boy will his partner be blown away
loves witty conversations and would love to discuss this and just have fun talking with his partner
eccentric tastes
his aquarius venus may have interesting hobbies or he may end up liking very unorthodox things
did i say romantic?
yeah his aquarius venus isn't mushy gushy oh baby i love you so much. his idea of loving someone right is probably with an intellectual debate XP
detached
with his aquarius venus and his aquarius mars he can have a detached/disinterested vibe about him so this is something to keep in mind
competitive
like my mom always says 'just let the guy win. even if you know you can take him to the cleaners...let him win... it might hurt his ego if you beat his a** to badly' yeah he might be a pouty sore loser XP
below the cut (18+)
if you are not over the age of 18, do not interact this section is not meant for you. thank you
promiscuous man... perhaps...
may not be as sexually promiscuous as one would think. his aquarius mars doesn't really "need" it as much as other signs and he's also pretty detached anyway
no strings attached
this is could be something he prefers as opposed to an actual relationship. possible friends with benefits type of relationshp
open relationships anyone?
again this is from the mere aspect of not wanting to be tied down to someone and needing to be there "emotionally"
talk talk talk that's all they want
no but seriously he may actually need to have his mind busy while doing the deed so a conversation could happen
spontaneous and "interesting" k*nks
ankle massage... giving the ole calves a massage too... i'm just saying *wink wink*
s*xting/phone s*x
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Sorry in advance for the long ask; feel free to delete without even reading the whole thing, I just really need to voice this somewhere and if by chance you did want to reply I’d massively appreciate your perspective.
I just was wondering… do you have any advice for finally ditching the plausible deniability of being “neutral” or “just anti-harassment” while existing on the selfship side of tumblr?
When I first joined the community I had genuinely never heard of proship vs antiship before, so I took a year or so researching and deciding where I stand on the matter. After witnessing the insanity of antis in action over and over and finding a much more rational community on Aethy and elsewhere in proship spaces, I’ve found I definitely come down on the proship side of the line. In recent months especially, I’ve found myself blocking more and more of my former mutuals or people I used to follow because of their “proship DNI” banners or the way they talk about other people who aren’t up to their standards… the trouble is, I’m not finding anyone new to fill my dashboard from proselfship tumblr, either.
I’m down to a handful of selfship blogs followed, and feel like I can’t reblog almost anything selfship-related because everything is polarized and I’d either be reblogging stuff that’s yelling “proship DNI” at the bottom, or else painting a target on my back and the backs my mutuals and whoever I reblog from by reblogging from proship blogs to an audience that I feel certain still contains a lot of antis but can’t possibly weed out entirely.
I’m not sure what to do. I think I’d be very easily identifiable if I just made an entirely new blog and turned the old one into an archive, so it would only be delaying the issue to take that route. Just slapping “btw this blog is proship now” might cause asshole antis to decide to harass not only me but anyone I associate with. I’ve never felt quite so badly “stuck” as I do now in terms of social issues.
Any advice would be welcome, but if you don’t have any, then thank you for taking the time just to read this. I hope you have an awesome day, and remember that your f/os adore you. 💙
It's a very complicated situation, I'm really sorry nonny!
Well, I've been there before. My main blog grew way more than I wanted it to, getting to over 1.5K followers, so I also felt cornered and unable to reblog the things I liked or interact with the people I wanted to.
It may be scary but the best advice I have is to make an entirely new blog and take your time warming up to the new waters. If you're afraid that you'll be recognized on Tumblr, then the communities over on Mastodon might be a bit better for you to gain confidence! If you're an adult and comfortable with NSFW content, I strongly suggest Baraag.
If you prefer to keep your original blog, it's a bit more complicated if you have constant/active interactions with your anti mutuals, because the safest option would be to block them. If you do, change your settings so that only mutuals can message you and so you won't be able to receive asks with media or anon asks, so you can avoid harassment.
I suggest slowly distancing yourself from antis until you feel it's safe to block them, instead of doing it right away, because people may block-evade you to see what's been going on in your blog after a sudden block.
As for only finding a couple of people to follow, you don't have to worry about it! If you follow five people, they'll interact with other accounts that will eventually catch your eye and so on. That's how your community and online spaces grow!
I really hope you find these tips helpful and I wish you the best! If you ever need to vent, my inbox is always open 💙
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My Sakusa Kiyoomi headcanons
c/w: gender- neutral reader, talks of anxiety and lonely-ness, affection, sickness, family, little bit of drinking (not a lot of detail), let me know of there’s any i missed
growing up he was often alone because his brother and sister we’re so much older then him
i feel like his parents or maybe his mom worked at a hospital so she made sure he was always clean
also during a take ur kid to work day he saw someone extremely sick at the hospital and his older brother had told him some elaborate scary story about how they got sick(which is why he wears the mask)
eventually he realized the story was an exaggeration but he was so used to wearing the mask and keeping clean he just kept his routine (the mask was also for japan’s air quality <SAKUSA’S NOT GERMAPHOBIC>)
His parents are a lot like Komi’s from Komi can’t communicate(its so good please watch it) where his mom is super talkative and his dad is very quiet but blunt
He would never say this out loud, but he’s really grateful to have komori. He was his best friend growing up-even though they are cousins- and kept him from being very lonely
often times after his parents got home from work they were quite exhausted, so Kiyoomi didn’t wanna be a bother and have them do stuff or talk about his feelings :(
he ended up developing terrible anxiety, and since he didn’t have the best social skills he’d uses volleyball as a channel to get out all of his emotions
Surprisingly he’s very smart lol
In middle school he’d try and get amazing grades so his parents paid more attention to him, but in highschool he learned to did for himself
in his second year of highschool his mom stopped working as much, so when she went to visit him at nationals she saw Atsumu and wouldn’t stop commenting on “what a sweet boy” he looks like (she was very happy to know they’re teammates now)
No his family is not “rich” but they are more well off then most
After college when he was in MSBY his sister gave birth to his niece, and he was the designated babysitter
Unlike the rest of the MSBY 4 Kiyoomi preferred wine and staying in
before he met you his ideal night was facemasks with his niece, a glass of wine, and tv
Kiyoomi has actually always wanted a family. He didn’t like other peoples kids because they were not well behaved- which often gave people the idea he hates kids- but he’d always wanted his own child.
He didn’t care if it was a boy or girl he just wanted a mini of his partner and him running around
Kiyoomi would never have a one night stand no matter how badly Atsumu begged him to have “fun”, and believed in fate. His partner would come to him when they’re destined too. Would he ever admit to this definitely not
When he did get a partner he thought his love language was acts of service, but to his surprise it was physical touch. The best way to wind down was to cuddle up to u and lay his head in the crook of ur neck and u pet his hair
at night he thinks about how awkward he was with interactions he had years ago (relatable) and he gets down on himself
eventually he opened up you and talked about all his feelings he kept in and eventually went to therapy to get better
he got a small yorkie named kokoro (means emotions/feelings) to comfort him
also everyone follow @/lovelykujo on instagram i love their art literally amazing
#haikyuu x reader#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu!!#haikyuu angst#sakusa x reader#haikyu x reader#sakusa kiyoomi fluff#sakusa kiyoomi x reader#haikyuu sakusa#kiyoomi sakusa
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i think i might be aromantic??? im unsure cuz ALL i think about is cheesy relationship things with my faves but its all fictional
the few times ive been in anything romantic, thinking about it now it. wasnt. one was just me trying to make excuses for my groomer all the time and honestly most of that was just PAIN agonizing bpd pain and attachment, the other? i guess i felt it? but i didnt really and. like IDK i fell out of love with them very quickly? IDK mostly entertained it cuz they wanted it really badly and i was flattered and liked the attention, if im being honest i dont think i really felt much at all looking back on it. they were kinda manipulative though so maybe that was it
but ALSO like. how much of it is that and how much of it is just? social anxiety?? i wouldnt consider myself asexual at all because i feel sexual attraction literally all the time even if its with fictional characters but i did fuck around on a hookup app for a bit and it WAS SCARY AND I PANICKED AND LEFT SKJFS i dont think that makes me asexual at all im just scared of people 💀 but i wasnt anxious to interact with my 2nd partner is the thing i just didnt really love them like that yknow? IDKKK its weird
im always thinking about being in a relationship cuz thats my main coping/comfort thing is my fave characters being madly in love with me and even sometimes im like wow being in a relationship sounds sooo great IRL but like.. ?? DOES IT THO? idk id need more experience to tell for sure, i think maybe? bpd i have a yearning. for a partner or SOMEONE to have yknow but WHATEVER its not that big a deal, just something ive been thinkin about
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Babylon 5 S01E09: Deathwalker
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Kosh does not have any human socializing skills, and Talia seems kinda scared of him. Unnerved at the least. I want to know the etymology behind “the hour of scampering,” hah.
Na’Toth really does not like Deathwalkers. How many kill-on-sight species are there? We’ve had two so far in S01 and there’s half the season and idk how many more to go! Also I’m excited to see more Na’Toth!
[intense music] - really, I’d say it’s just heavy on the trumpets.
The Narn costume contacts are really cool.
Ah, it isn’t the SPECIES, it’s the specific person (maybe). A war criminal who murdered most of Na’Toth’s family and resulted in her grandfather’s painful, terminal decline.
“Understanding is a three-edged sword,” I love how incomprehensible Kosh is. And they’re happy that their business person with the funky hat (I want one) has no thoughts.
Well maybe her species is longer lived than you think. They throw around the I word (impossible) a lot for people who’ve never seen a member of her species before and have no idea what their norms are.
omfg. I continue to love G’Kar’s interactions with Na’Toth. “Your blood oath and blind rage is valid but girl, we gotta do this a little differently than most Chon-Kar. For politics. It sucks, but politics suck.”
Yeah, the Senator definitely knows that she is, or could be, the war criminal. But it’s so obvious that she might not be, I guess.
So much new terminology being thrown around. Wind Swords, being the newest.
Ah, and she outright claims being Jha’dur, Deathwalker. She invented an universal panacea. I wonder if justice or medically induced immortality will prevail.
“You seek meaning? Then listen to the music, not the song.” Thanks, Kosh. I’m as confused as Talia, but far more amused. But then again, I’m also not having weird telepathic stuff going on.
His hat is so weird. And I don’t know why I want one so badly. But I dooooo.
Love the exposition dump by asking a history buff about a subject. Ahhh the Wind Swords are Minbari. And the most militant! That’s...pretty scary, really. The Minbari are so pleasant but so secretive. They definitely intimidate me more than the Garns’ bluster or the Centauri *waves hand* everything.
What a fucking dick. Chop off Na’Toth’s head and I’ll go with you to Narn instead of Earth. She’s the Aginor (Wheel of Time) of the Babylon 5 universe. She’s broken every single bit of the Geneva Convention. She probably instigated new Geneva Convention rules with her depravity. I say chop HER head off and spend the years of R&D trying to figure out her serum.
And yeah, this is absolutely the sort of thing that would cause heads of government to go fuckin nuts. If anything, they’re underplaying the furor that would be going on.
“It was Earth who turned the tide against my race. Thus, it is fitting that you benefit from your conquest.”
That’s a unique line of reasoning. Gives a glimpse of a very strange culture. I think the monument to her vision is more accurate, but she likely has all sorts of rationals floating around in her brilliantly fucked up head.
Full assembly demanded, yes! This does seem to imply that there are lots of other ambassadors here, though. Are the four main ones thusly, since they’re from empires? That would also make sense. What doesn’t make sense is that the League doesn’t have their own Ambassador with voting rights.
“What is need compared to the path?” Kosh remains completely inscrutable, and his thoughtless business associate continues to cause strange telepathic effects in Talia.
The League is absolutely correct in that the war criminal should be tried ASAP and by the representatives of the people she’d harmed the most.
Londo, you shit. You can vote for her trial even though she hasn’t harmed the Centauri personally. Also G’Kar you shit. You can vote for a trial even if your people won’t directly benefit. JESUS the Minbari too? Wow this is gut wrenching. This is how it feels every day that I consciously remember that Kissinger is alive and not in prison.
Well done, League. I support their withdrawal from the Assembly. That was foul. Where’s Delenn? I’m fine with seeing more of her aide, but where is she? (Side note, I’m seeing gifs of her with HAIR?! And she doesn’t look the same at all. Did they change the Minbari design and also change actors? IDK if I actually want to know now or not but I am EATEN UP with curiosity.)
Shit’s heating up. League ships are pouring in and I support them.
Poor Talia, these nonsense phrases are somehow wreaking havoc on her psyche. Is thisparticular job worth the compulsory hallucinations? I’d say no.
This is so strange. Brain uncovered, data crystal out, weird hat on, he’s out. And Talia is traumatized.
League of Scientists to go R&D with the war criminal on earth then League of War Crime Trials.
These graphics are really illustrating that whenever possible, you should use practical effects. LMAO.
This brazen asshole is wearing her war crimes uniform to strut out of the station. Shit, and now I gotta quote this whole speech.
You and your kind take blind comfort in the belief that we are monsters. That you could never do what we did. The key ingredient in the anti-agapic cannot be synthesized. It must be taken from living beings.
For one to live forever, another one must die.
You will fall upon one another like wolves. It will make what we did pale by comparison. The billions who live forever will be a testimony to my work, and the billions who were murdered to buy that immortality will be the continuance of my work.
Not like us?
You will become us.
That’s my monument, Commander.
Like, for real. She’s Aginor but without the Dark One backing her up. She’s just doing these crimes for shits and giggles.
Wow, Vorlons! Just fuckin nerfed her! “You are not ready for immortality,” have they sent an ambassador to babysit the less advanced species for reasons very like this one? And how many not-Deathwalker people did they kill along with her? The Vorlons clearly believe that, at least in some cases, people can be expendable.
Talia’s getting it rough lately, although so is everyone to some extent. I don’t think anyone’s horribly scarred Garibaldi (or the ambassadors) so far? But I assume it’s coming.
Scanning the mind of a serial killer sounds horrific. And to have the memory of it be deliberately provoked is awful, and to do it as a future weapon against you, when you’ve done nothing? The Vorlons really are enigmatic and are quite clearly working on totally different operating systems than the rest of the known universe.
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So Babylon 5 is like, unrelentingly focused on moral quadaries, moral grey areas, fascism, nationalism, racism, and otherwise navigating a brutally imperfect universe. TBH I could use some light filler episodes.
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uhhh next episode which was even darker
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Nice ol' vent and no I don't expect you to read it or leave a message; no pressure. Or drink your tea but I'll probably piss in it.
I've had a lot of fucking stuff happen lately and its randomly built the fuck up as time has gone on. I'm probably gonna start enabling voice so I'm not smashing the shit out of my keyboard. That's embarrassing.
So I've a pretty ugly past and I'm trying my best to do good. I used to scare people pretty badly and I'm trying very hard to be more welcoming and more friendly but I'm still struggling to do that because of reasons. It's kinda throwing on at the minute, ya' know? Being told I'm scary.
I recently fell out with a friend who I had a soft spot for. Nothing massive, nothing huge and we spoke quite a bit. I found out through a few others they had been sharing stuff and saying things. It hurt and they had a few screenshots to prove it. It sucked. I had to fight down the urge about calling them. They also went too far with my friend's name. I didn't realise till after that making fun of her name was sorta racist. I was being soft. I had a dream about them too; it was an oddly comforting dream and in my half awake daze I tried to message them before remembering. "Oh yeah, they did this". Miss them, it's dumb but I do.
I've had eating problems for a long time now and I've come close over the past few weeks to just not eating because I need some sort of control and I don't know why. I'm so used to doing the dark shit that I partly want to drop back into the hole I'm trying to dig my way out of.
I was encouraged by some health professionals to interact with my interests, look at the communities. It was actually great at first. I have made some new friends. One friend is an amazing artist, I love it when he draws. He's drawn me before, he's drawn a very special friend of mine, he's done drawing requests. He's just lovely, he's a little brother figure. I made some other friends too shortly after I learned some hype about Stranger Things.
I've not watched all of Stranger Things! I've only watched Season Four because I relate to a character. Obviously Eddie Munson. I was that alt kid in school. I was a scene kid briefly. That was a weird couple of years. Mostly I was just a metal head, still am a metal head. I got beat up, I got stalked, I got harassed, I got threatened. I got falsely accused of things because I was different. I had a character to heavily relate to.
A nerd with the hair. I like how much his appearance reminds me of Eddie Van Halen. That is just lovely. However interacting with a good chunk of the people who also like him is not that great. But now with some of the online stuff I feel like I'm back in school. I was having a really shit day and I was going along with the crowd because I was actually laughing. Imagine my shock to learn I had been snubbed while others had not. They were pissing on me without the courtesy of even calling it rain. No one said a damn thing. I had to find out through someone else who wasn't even involved.
Interacting with a community hasn't really done shit for me right now.
I don't know what I want to do at this point. I feel like I'm stuck. I had projects I was so excited to do and things to see and now I just don't know. The hype I had building and building just abruptly vanished within a few weeks. Now I'm just frustrated, angry.
Life is never going to be completely perfect I know but I feel like I've been spat on and the "I'm sorry" was Bart Simpson saying "I'm soggy".
You know I had something weird happen to me earlier. I was just looking through some content. I've always done out of pure boredom was search, type, watch etc. I was watching a few clips of Eddie Van Halen interact with his child back in the early nineties and I was just. "Aw, that's cute" and I started imagining myself with a family. I hate children. I really fucking hate them so this was extremely out of character for me.
I kept scrolling until eventually I wasn't. I was just sat there and I don't know how much time had past but I was somewhere else. I was day dreaming so fucking intently I could smell, touch and hear as if it were real. I was talking to someone as if they were real. I was walking somewhere and just had a strange sense of freedom I hadn't felt since I was running from a teacher after I was caught with a pack of fags in school. It was amazing. I was broken out of the day dreaming by one of my dogs barking.
I don't know what to do from here. I don't know if I want to continue trying to be a decent person because apparently no matter how hard you try that doesn't happen. Someone is always gonna be scared of me and some people are always gonna have some sort of conflict with me. Its life but it shouldn't be so harsh. I'm scared of people.
If anyone needs me I'll be pretending I'm somewhere else until I can come up with some sort of decision.
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4.12&13 | Destiny
She-Ra and the Princesses of Power (2018)
🌸🌸🌸🌸
A strong finale, but not one that has me keysmashing!
All of the plot parts worked together really well, and at its best it felt really exciting as all the storylines raced toward their looming conclusions. There were some special character moments in there that I loved seeing. Whereas at its least interesting points, I think it was just a little bit skeletal and didn’t have as much of the fun or emotional meat that makes episodes really special.
The Adora/Glimmer conflict really hit the metal! Both storylines had a thrilling sense of danger and really clear, immediate stakes. It was very tense and eerie to have each of them kind of have their best friend as the ‘big bad’ of the finale! They both really seemed afraid of what the other might do.
Entrapta was here!!! My angel!! My little 30-year-old darling! She hasn’t missed a damn beat hanging out on murder island, she’s as unique and funny and creepy and full of really fun hair-based movement choices as ever. I really liked how it initially seems like it’s her paradise to be there with the tech, but then we realize that’s really her signal despair world, because it means giving up on relationships like what she had with Hordak.
This show’s approach to navigating the presence of an autistic major character in a story of epic fantasy stakes continues to be [roboticist voice] fascinating. She interacts with the major themes of danger and caring about others in such an unusual way, and I’m often not sure if I think it’s dismissive and insulting or fresh and brilliant. I’m not really interested in declaring it bad or good, but I love how unpackable it is.
I was struck by the sheer condescension from Adora when she tempted her to check out the First Ones spaceship. I think it felt a little disappointing to me when Entrapta confirmed she was not swayed by Bow’s expression of kindness, only the wow cool robot. But then, she also confirmed it did mean something to her, which it should, since we know connection is important to her deep down. Her hurt from feeling abandoned was such a mirror to when she first joined the Horde, but much more interesting! Does it retroactively make that scene more interesting? Maybe.
I loved the little Shadow Weaver scene where she tries to mommy Glimmer more than ever. The way she squishes her cheek… Seeing the way she constantly just gravitates to young people and does this, creates an emotional dependence and manipulates them like she doesn’t even need to think about it, is so scary. She’s such an awesome character.
It’s so neat that Glimmer is helping Scorpia do something that’s really healthy and meaningful for her, yet for a bad purpose! It’s a really interesting sort of “conflict of interests” for the audience that stories don’t usually do.
I think it’s so cool that Glimmer hired Double Trouble! The way she’s crossing lines now is so tangible and exciting. I both think it’s badass that she did it and really enjoy the tension it reflects between her and Adora.
It was so compelling and heartbreaking the way Catra wanted so badly to be friends with her Horde squad again, but ended up freaking out at them exactly the way they expected because of how messed up she is now. And I really liked the little scene where Scorpia meets the squad on their way out of the Horde. Their calm certainty about deserting was so satisfying in a way, it felt like such a fulfilling and dignified resolution for their story.
When it comes to Scorpia’s little hurt/comfort arc, some of it is affecting for me. I think the smaller the detail, the more I feel it. Like when she pulled back from hugging Glimmer, but Glimmer pulled her back in? Oh, honey… 🥹 It definitely has an impact to start tossing lots of kindness her way after she’s been a kicked puppy for 37 episodes.
I LOVED seeing Double Trouble tear apart the Horde exactly like they did to Bright Moon. The way Catra’s and Hordak’s relationship was just waiting to explode because of one little secret, and Double Trouble just had to identify it. I honestly forgot that was such a looming tension between them all season, that Catra hurt Hordak in the worst way possible and then hid it, and it was so cool the way it instantly changed everything.
The Catra-Hordak fight was metal as hell. The single shot where she jumps straight onto his laser arm and punches him straight in the face is by far my favorite. Every time his laser chopped straight through buildings, it almost took me out of the moment in a way, cause I was like “Oh my God! Does he even realize how dangerous that is??” But seeing parts of the Fright Zone half reduced to ruins afterward was extremely cool. I love a visual metaphor for interpersonal devastation. It was awesome seeing Catra get so scratched up and shaky – the fight really felt messy and desperate and dangerous. And the way Hordak instigated it trying to punish her, and yet she ultimately shredded him, felt so intense and climactic and scary.
The way Double Trouble tore Catra apart was so powerful. It was almost jarring in that it felt like they ought to become the main villain after something that utterly brutal and dominant. I love what it did for Catra’s character – the ultimate climax of all the choices she’s made so far and how they’re tearing her apart inside. And that tiny moment with Glimmer was so strong – her basically doing the last thing Glimmer would ever expect from Catra by not trying to posture or defend herself, and then relating to her about being all alone…
I’d say the scene with Light Hope is one place it felt thinner for me. We’re hitting emotional beats that are powerful in themselves, but the presentation is very straightforward and doesn’t have the kind of emotional detail that would draw me in. And I guess scenes where something visually ultimate and climactic is happening, like a huge wave of rainbow energy, are never gonna be as interesting to me as scenes full of mundane, expressive details.
I really liked the moment where Hordak was trying to just club Glimmer to death in a last desperate act. That was a special kind of scary and disturbing.
Meeting Horde Prime just made me so sad. And not in the sense that I didn’t like it. But it didn’t achieve an exciting, scary villain feeling that they might have intended. It gave me such an intense feeling of despair to see him casually obliterate Hordak’s power and ego, and to think about how he’s conquered tons of planets with no sign of stopping.
He’s sexy though!
And I liked how he was about to just kill Glimmer on the spot. In what way? He had his hand on her cheek, was he going to explode her head? *shivers*
“We’re gonna save the universe” has got to be one of the least interesting lines you can end on. Sorry, no offense! But please give me something more characterful and evocative.
This season was so much fun!!
I’m so happy I decided to rewatch the show and close-read every episode, because I’m getting more from it than ever. I remembered the series being pretty, fun, romantic, and having my favorite princessy vibes, but I had no idea just how much there was for me to like.
Time for the home stretch, girls!
Next time: She-Ra… IN SPACE!
#review#no spoilers#episode#4⭐️#she-ra and the princesses of power#spop#she ra and the princesses of power
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This is my interview with Laurence! He is 17, uses he/him pronouns, and is from Puerto Rico:
[TW for self harm and suicidal thoughts]
How do you identify?
I identify as Bisexual and Trans FTM
How has your community reacted to your identity?
I think both of my identities get some hate within the community but the majority of the interactions I’ve had with my community have been great.
How have you struggled with mental health in the past?
Almost my entire life I’ve struggled with mental health because of how I was raised and the things I was put through. I never saw a reason in living I just kept going because I didn’t know what else I was supposed to do. In 7th grade I got into a bad relationship that made things a lot worse. I cut myself once and cried so often. All I could think about was killing myself because that would be easier than dealing with everything that was going on. I got called to the principals office once because I said I wanted to kill myself and I was sent to therapy but I refused to go. I also deal with a lot of social anxiety and anxiety in general. It’s so bad that I refuse to seek help even if I’m drowning because I would rather drown myself than ask something as simple as “hey can you help me?”. To this day I struggle daily with mental health.
Have you ever been outed to someone when you weren’t ready to share that information? How did this affect you?
My best friend actually outed me to one of her friends. I didn’t really have an issue with it but I wish she would’ve discussed it with me before telling someone I didn’t know. It made me a tad bit uncomfortable that someone I had never met knew one of my biggest secrets. She had good intentions but that didn’t sit right with me.
How did coming out to people affect your mental health?
Most of my friends are either queer themselves or ally’s so coming out to them about both identities wasn’t so difficult though it was still very hard. I found it a lot harder to come out as trans than coming out as bisexual. And with my family I’ve actually only come out to my big brother since the rest of my family is not so accepting. it went better than expected so it didn’t affect my mental health in a negative way but in a positive way. (To make it clear I only told my brother I was bi, he doesn’t know I’m trans as well since that’s something I don’t think he’d accept as fast)
If you identify as Trans/Nonbinary, how has living in a gendered society affected you?
It’s very difficult for me at least. It constantly bothers me as to why gender is such a huge part of society. It’s scary to me that I’m more vulnerable to hatred just because I’m a bit different then a cis man. My mother is one of those old school people that doesn’t understand anything about the LGBTQ+ so she’s always asking why I don’t like to dress like “the woman I am” she tells me I have a beautiful body and face that are going to waste. but it’s not only her. Everyone around me tells me how much more beautiful I’d be if I would succumb to gender roles and started wearing makeup or pretty dresses and had long beautiful hair. It’s difficult to live this way but it feels like I have to for my own survival. I wish things were different and I could be myself but unfortunately I have to wait till I’m older to be who I want to be.
What was your experience with gender roles growing up?
My mom wanted a girl badly after having 2 boys so she prayed to god for a girl and I came. Before I was even born I was subjected to a gender role. Growing up I was constantly told to put on more clothing when my brothers friends came by, told to close my legs because it’s not lady like to have them open, told I had to sit a certain way because I was girl, told I couldn’t play certain things, do certain things just because I was born a girl. I looked at the way my brothers were treated and I was jealous. I asked why I was being treated differently and the answer was “because your a girl and they’re not” and I didn’t understand why it mattered so much.
Growing up, did you have any positive LGBTQ role models? Who were they? Did these people/this person make it easier for you to come to terms with your identity?
Well growing up I have absolutely no LGBTQ+ role models. I was growing up in a time where that was very rare to see and not talked about often or at all. I unfortunately grew to be very homophobic and transphobic. I only grew out of all that because of my first crush on a girl. We met in freshman year of high school and at first we were just friends but the closer we got the more our relationship started to change and I came to realize I liked them. Because of that I started to research more about my feelings and the community and all of my opinions changed completely. Thank god lmao I’d hate to still have that awful mindset.
Is there anything else you would like to add/ do you have any advice for people in the same boat as you?
I’m not great at advice but I’d like to say that this isn’t easy. The more you learn and grow the harder and more confusing things get and sometimes it feels like things will never change. It’s hard and it’s easy to feel like it’ll all never change. I’m not gonna bullshit you and say shit gets easier or it’ll all be okay because you wouldn’t believe me anyways but you’re absolutely gonna wanna see how you turned out in a few years. I know I want to see myself become who I really am, and I want you to also see yourself like that one day. That day will come eventually I’m sure of it, for both of us. Just hang in there. I know it isn’t easy trust me even I wanna give up but I have hope that things will get better. It’s like a very small sliver of hope but it’s there! And that’s really all you need. Keep trying and even if you fail, try again, because you’ll make it and hey if you try and fail all that matters is that you tried! Don’t give up. Your a lot stronger than you think and always remember you are NOT alone. There’s someone out there waiting for your messages every day, don’t keep them waiting too long<3
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Hi i really enjoy Reclaiming Innocence 💜 you’re such a talented person and i like that you always take time to kindly reply to your followers 🥺 Which is super awesome of you to do that ❤️ I know you work at a museum. What did you study for in order to get a job like this? I have social anxiety so I don’t want to interact with people way too much I currently work in an office environment but I’m in college trying to figure out a career that I will enjoy while at the same time let me work alone half the time. Do you interact with a lot of people? Thank you so much you’re awesome, and you don’t have to answer back.
Hi! Thank you!!
Museum work can be either very solitary or very, very social, and unfortunately you can't pick just one path. Often the people down at the lower level will have more tour duties, and then once you get up higher you're back on tour duties, but now for more Important people.
A lot of collection managers end up doing tours and educational programs alongside their work at all levels, which is essential public speaking. I had very bad social anxiety in high school, to the point I'd get sick to my stomach when I had to go somewhere new with new people. I realize not everyone is the same, but for me personally it did get better (a LOT better) as I continued to push myself and step into new and scary things. I went to school for history for my undergrad, then public history for my master's. During grad school I volunteered at a local heritage society creating educational programs and helping catalog their collection(I worked with 2 others intimately), was the collection manager at my university museum(I worked alone in a room 19/20 hours a week), and volunteered (which eventually lead to a paid job my last year of school) at my local national park (I was never ever alone). As a volunteer I worked the visitor center desk, and my mom swears up and down that that specific experience was what helped me learn to conquer my anxiety. And it did, because I had to answer the phone and help the person on the other end, point people toward the bathrooms, and answer basic questions. My paid job for them was as a tour guide, which was 8 hours a day of social interaction. (And it was Exhausting, as an introvert. I'm so glad I did that, because it's helped me be more social as an adult, but I will NEVER do it again. LOL)
My current job, I generally only interact with my coworkers, and occasionally answer the question of a visitor who has caught me wandering the property, but sometimes I do interact more directly. There's always meetings, where I'm representing the museum and the collection to people within and from outside my organization, sometimes Important people (like the time a senator visited!), and sometimes our education department needs an extra body, so I'm following along on tours, and answering specific questions about the objects there.
So, I guess what I'm trying to say is even jobs that seem like they're very solitary aren't really, especially in the public history / museum field. And if you're in college now, I highly, highly encourage you to try to push yourself a little. Anxiety is real, and it's awful, and it's scary, but I've always seen it as an obstacle to get around, and I highly encourage trying to get around it now, rather than giving in and spending your whole life in solitude. As someone who suffered badly from social anxiety all growing up, I promise it can get better, and it's definitely not something to plan your entire life around. Yeah, maybe don't be a flight attendant or customer service specialist, but don't try to wall yourself off from people entirely.
As for if you'd enjoy museum work: Do you enjoy research? History? Lots and LOTS of policy and guidance to memorize? Database management? Inventory? Housekeeping and environmental monitoring? Those are the main aspects of my job.
Some of the not-so-lovely pieces: dealing with donors or potential donors who want you to take their grandma's beautiful precious tea cup that her great-great-grandfather definitely stole from the king of england and smuggled here in 1635, no they don't have proof but grandma SAID, irate visitors mad your institution doesn't have insertwhateveritishere and saw you walking down the corridor to the soda machine so they're gonna take it out on you, and dealing with potentially tricky situations with the collection itself- like theft, missing objects, and potential illegally gotten-objects.
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