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haikkun · 2 years

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Cellophane

I am the only woman in the church not wearing jewelry

We flash conspiratorial peace signs at each other across the pews with mischievous grins

Like it’s our most incriminating sin

A little bit of the mystery deflates

As you see the bag of wafers

In a sleeve like ritz crackers

The priest signs like a baby who’s hungry

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They’ve changed the script and I

Trip on words I never thought I’d have to say again

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Jesus said

“Paint me onto plyboard

Post me on the highway”

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I get sea sickness in a cottage that has burnt down twice

Spirits so strong strong here, they keep away the mice

My grandpa would have shot them anyways

And we wonder

Why there are holes in all the wiring

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Maureen Armstrong @haikkun

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katabay · 3 months

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ONCE UPON A TIME, THERE WAS A KNIGHT...

the visual inspiration for this was a combination of Frederic William Burton's Meeting on the Turret Stairs and also Bernardo Cavallino's The vision of St. Dominic receiving the Rosary from the Virgin

this was supposed to be just a one off illustration to get the thoughts out of my system, but then I started thinking about medieval politics and warfare and plagues and a castle and home as both a place of refuge, a prison, and a tomb, so perhaps they will end up as ex voto characters as well.

you may say, hey! that rosary looks like it has too many beads! it's a fifteen decade rosary, probably. dominicans are really into marian devotions. it works out.

also. spiral style stair cases. oh boy. it was that unexpectedly more difficult than I originally thought it would be to draw. the more I think about it, the less I understand them, even though I had a million photos of the stairs in front of me while I was drawing it.

⭐ I have a tip jar (ko-fi)!

⭐ and other places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

#the economy and my bank account are in shambles and i ended up stress drawing this whole thing in one go #its so many lines. the next time i draw this. because i will be revisiting this composition. i want to use a different inking brush #i think. but the next time i draw this it will be with solid blacks on the stair case steps i think #hey here's a fun fact for those of you who aren't catholic. did you know that kissing the ring of the pope/a cardinal/etc #grants you an indulgence. cardinals also used to kiss the pope on the mouth. also foot and hand iirc. anyway #there are no cardinals in this drawing but im saying if you write medieval/renaissance smut about men of the cloth #you can really amp up the friction between holy and seductive with a lot of the (gestures vaguely) that.#actually another fun fact about cardinals. their fun sun hat (it's called a galero) has some fucking weird as hell fever dream (literally)#origin lore. so if seductive isn't your thing. the horror of a thing that you wear is also extremely fun #esp when you get into medieval gender performances of clothes and how they define a person etc #generic medieval tag #original tag

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obsob · 4 months

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once more around the sun!! :3

#mine #cats #happy new year!!! a little late but alas #i didnt like th colours here but now i love them hehehehehheheh #i hope everyone had a good holidays life development for me is i now like ice hockey #in my sports fan era...these greasy sweaty bloody white men...intrigue me #also i got a new diary!! im using th hobonichi cousin in kinda alarmed by it ngl a5 is a lot of space to fill #i tried the hobonichi techo a couple years ago n found it a rlly weird size 2 work in but now.........big page scawwy #im trying not 2 b too insane about it . like relax who cares #if i do cute spreads i will share them :3 #also in th same vein im not setting a book goal this year !! tbh i surpassed my goal last year by a lot and wasnt stressed about it at All #but i get so guilty about not reading sometimes like girl . guilty to who? god? are we catholic now? get a grip #anyway anway im going to toot on my flute and then eat my weight in mac n cheese #love how i had to get a new cork in my flute bc i didnt play for like 10 months n th guy was like play regularly! n i was like yeh will do!#and then did not do that #alas...time escapes me

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gayforbagels · 2 years

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Pouring one out for Afghanistan and Anguilla and Antigua and Aoteoroa and Barbuda and Australia and the Bahamas and Bahrain and Bangladesh and Barbados and Belize and Bermuda and Botswana and Brazil and Brunei and Canada and the Cayman Islands and Cornwall and Cyprus and Dominica and Egypt and the Islas Malvinas and Fiji and Gambia and Georgia (the country) and Ghana and Gibraltar and Grenada and Guyana and Hong Kong and India and Iraq and Ireland and Jamaica and Jordan and Kenya and Kiribati and Kuwait and Lesotho and Malawi and Malaysia and Maldives and Malta and Mauritius and Montserrat and Myanmar and Nauru and Nigeria and Pakistan and Palestine and the Pitcairn Islands and Qatar and St Lucia and Saint Kitts and Nevis and Saint Helena and Ascension and Tristan da Cunha and St Vincent and Grenadina and Scotland and Seychelles and Sierra Leone and Singapore and the Solomon islands and Somaliland and South Africa and Sri Lanka and Sudan and Swaziland and Tanzania and Tonga and Trinidad and Tobago and Turks and Caicos and Tuvalu and Uganda and United Arab Emirates and United States and Vanuatu and Wales and Yemen and Zambia and Zimbabwe tonight

#text #op #dancing crabs #and many more #sorry if I missed you trust me when I say I am still popping the FATTEST bottle for u TONIGHT #edit: guys I copy pasted a shit ton of countries from fucking Wikipedia for a shitpost it’s not that deep #edit: the amount of y’all that are tagging this as ‘except us and Canada’ are missing the fucking point #it isn’t cute lol #EDIT: WHATS UP GUYS IT’S ME YA BOY COMING LIVE FROM. GLASS ONE OF WINE #I CHANGED MY MIND FUCK IT IM ADDING EVERYONE I MISSED INTO THE OP #AND ANOTHER THING #SOME OF YALL HAVE TO REMEMBER THERE ARE INDIGENOUS PEOPLE IN CANADA AND THE USA TOO #SAYING THE USA AND CANADA DOESNT DESERVE TO POP BOTTLES IS DISMISSIVE OF EVERY INDIGENOUS LIFE DAMAGED BY THE BRITISH EMPIRE #AUSTRALIA TOO #THE MONARCHY HAD A VERY PROMINENT ROLE ALONGSIDE THE CATHOLIC CHURCH IN RESIDENTIAL SCHOOLS AND COLONIAL VIOLENCE #IN SETTLER HISTORY #ALSO TO ANY OF MY BRITISH HOMOES I AM SO SORRY YALL HAVE TO GO THROUGH THAT PROPAGANDA MACHINE RN #GFGFGFFGGG I’m not changing that

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goodmorningnona · 11 months

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yo can we actually talk about harrow's blood face paint and veil at the beginning of htn for a sec. i know a lot of people poke fun at it but for me as someone who grew up in a veiling religion with the constant threat of that veil being taken away it's like... not being able to wear that veil IN FRONT OF PEOPLE? that's like being naked before god. it is terrifying and traumatic to not be able to wear a veil or other religious garments. at the end of the day it's not even about god specifically, like i could meet god and even if he said to take off the veil i wouldn't, because it's for me. it's for her before it's for god. i felt for harrow so hard at that part of the book and i get that she's just a scrungle but i would love if we could portray occasionally the nauseating forced vulnerability and sense of injustice you would feel at your religion being stripped from you.

#it is really the worst feeling in the world #religion isnt actually about god it's about the internal understanding of self/morals being externalized etc etc #the locked tomb #tlt #htn #harrow the ninth #htn spoilers #harrow the ninth spoilers #i dont know how catholics feel about it but considering she's a nun she might be more similar to muslims in this sense but #for us (i converted later but i was raised muslim) literally being seen without hijab ESPECIALLY by men is like being naked #AND ESPECIALLY before god you wouldnt want to de veil #lessons of the hand and the mouth

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scottinaussie · 5 months

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Fr. Mike Schmitz

February 2023

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pokeberry5 · 16 days

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a childhood friends altarboy tim and choirboy jason that got away from me and spiraled wildly out of hand

#sart #this is. old and was very precious to me bc i sunk a lot of work and love into it so i held off on posting it #but yeah heres the full thing #i posted the clip of jason a while back #i might post the tim clips separately #anyway!! productive use of my catholic upbringing #theres lore but eh

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ribbittrobbit · 7 months

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The Wizard

(@quiddie i love this angry princess and i want her to completely fuck shit up)

#worlds beyond number #aabria iyengar #the wizard the witch and the wild one #wbn pod #she's just gotta keep it on ice #but she cant bec her friends caught quest fever #but she didnt get burned twice at least #i also love her stepmom too much #suvirin kedberiket #suvi the wizard #wbn fanart #did i use my extensive catholic knowledge of liturgical objects in order to draw that censer #absolutely yes #ribbittrobbit #let suvi go absolutely apeshit u cowards

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purebbyfawn · 2 months

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i’d rather have Jesus than silver or gold ♡

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spellboundcrown · 2 days

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maybe Helio wouldn't have let this happen

#i got the idea to use the rat grinders gear as a halo and my brain exploded #i sincerely hope buddy can be saved #fantasy high junior year spoilers #fhjy spoilers #buddy dawn #dimension 20 #d20 fhjy #rat grinders #also sorry about the bible verse i just thought it fit 🤷🏻‍♀️#i was raised catholic but no longer practice

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queerprayers · 9 months

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i want to say first of all that i fully respect a community's/denomination's/culture's right to have closed practices. i am not entitled to other people's traditions, and when i am a guest in a space i understand that everything is not automatically for me. and i know i do not have to understand to respect.

and also! when i go to a catholic church and can't receive communion i want to fall on the floor weeping. what do you mean i can't have him he's right there. sorry my baptism was the wrong kind of baptism. i'm hungry and you want me to become someone else before being fed.

#lutheran alert but will NEVER understand closed communion. i respect it. but i do not get it #none of us will ever be holy enough to hold jesus within us but we do every day anyway. and so we are #communion is what brings me to god. to put a barrier of entry on that. to say you have to believe certain things or be in a certain state?#idk it doesn't sit right with me.#again i respect it i have catholic family ik the beliefs/history/good intentions.#but i need to come out as an open communion fan #roman catholicism didn't exist yet at the last supper. jesus said do this in remembrance of me.#everyone who does this has already fulfilled the requirements to be present at the table #i think that was the only hard part of my grandfather's conversion. that he could break bread for me at the altar but couldn't give it to m #i would give anything to watch him preach one more time (he's retired/sick now)#but more than that i would give anything to be fed by him again. to eat with him as our lord commanded #just once.#i will have to be satisfied with the foretastes of the feasts to come that i have received from/with him. we'll have that again

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gomacave · 4 months

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5p yuuram bloood twww

#i feel bad for tagging this yuuram cuz its so far from canon LMFAO i will for organization but like...#yuuram #mine #kkm #comics #fanart #its been so long since i got to draw a comic im so happy im flourishing #uhhh anyways #hc time. i think yuuri is the type of person to act before he thinks and therefore i think he would be the first to initiate. not exactlu a #unpopular interpretation of yuuri but i think he likes wolf before he knows it and so his body acts b4 he recognizes the feelings wihin him #i also think wolf wont initiate first cuz his love towards yuuri is very. um. catholic and political lmao.#cuz hes a dog and a human weapon. he thinks the suffering is part of his job. like born duty. and i think he likes it too #cuz theres eomthing about being able to pour ur soul into being obsessed w someone in a gay codependent relationship w/out worrying ab them #reciprocating LMFAO #anyways i think wolf loves in a way that is very intentional. his love is a weapon that he gives to people. its not something to indulge in #i also thinkk his love is a weapon for himself. to sharpen and use. like motivation/justification to exist and also DUTY BABYYY #i talked too much #wolfram von bielefelt #shibuya yuuri #(comic is abuot yuuri. talks about wolfram instead) sorry son.

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trickstersaint · 6 months

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in which you are seven years old and trying to dislodge the chunk of apple in your throat // october 22 2023

#hiiiiiiiii new catholicism poem. who out there is feeling mentally ill tonight #thinking about the list of sins that a child could commit that they gave to us before our first communions #poems about religion #poetry #catholic guilt #i should have a tag for the guilt poems specifically. maybe #this one and the lady macbeth poem are siblings. brother and sister (adam + lady macbeth)#poets on tumblr #poems and poetry #poem #poetsandwriters #original poetry #original poem #ex catholic #did NOT proofread this one lmao you're just gonna have to take it as it is

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un-namedfan · 10 days

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All these people out here picking apart every scene looking to "prove" that Buddie will happen obviously missed the scene where Tommy KISSES Evan and asks him OUT ON A DATE.

There's also the scene where Buck ACTIVELY seeked out Tommy at his job.

Tommy also called Buck ADORABLE and gave him space, so he didn't feel PRESSURED.

Buck also went over to Maddie's and GUSHED OVER HIS FEELINGS ABOUT THE HOT PILOT.

And let's not forget when BUCK ASKED TOMMY TO HIS SISTER'S WEDDING BECAUSE HE WANTS HIM THERE AND TO DANCE WITH HIM.

Lou Ferrigno jr said that we can expect the interactions between Buck and Tommy at the wedding to be "so cute" so please settle down.

Eddie and Buck will not be confessing love or having an accidental (or nonaccidental) romp in the sheets during the Bachelor party.

Okay?

Okay.

#and if Eddie can't get it up for someone who used to be a nun why would he be sexually aroused by a man??#Catholics are hard-core against same sex relationships #i know because i grew up catholic #the guilt would eat him alive #911 fandom #911 spoilers #911 abc #evan buckley #911 speculation #eddie diaz #tommy kinard #911 #tevan #bucktommy

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solargeist · 24 days

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that homophobic artist is kinda funny to me bc, like, Philza would ban her in his + his friends chats, Cleo and Wels made fun of people like her on twt not that long ago, multiple Traffic members are queer, and all of them have vocally supported queer people during pride month like, why are you here ?

#like go be an artist for a homophobic media (oh they all suck!) instead of piggybacking off queer people's existence for your own gain #You cannot think we're disgusting while using us for entertainment and money.#And you Cannot use religion as an excuse. I was raised Catholic. and I was gay back then too.#i draw grian being gay and catholic im on a whole different level #i saw she was also in the dsmp fandom.. which is also crazy.#also dude like quackity wears a cross eerywhere and hes supportive to my knowledge adgkadljgk

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brother-emperors · 5 months

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the personal drama involved in a late republic trial is a delight

this is a very unserious comic talking around All Of That involving Lucullus and Clodius, but what also happened was I was almost done lettering the first chapter of Trikaranos when I realized the font I was using didn’t have a crossbar I, so this was one of. several. font tests I did over the past week trying to find a new one that I wanted to use lmao

Lucullus, A Life, Arthur Keaveney

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost

#marcus licinius crassus #Lucius Licinius Lucullus #komiks tag #drawing tag #roman republic tag #I went through like. fifty fonts looking for one with a crossbar I AND had good word spacing RIP #and some had both but they had a D or a S or a G that I absolutely fucking hated when it was in italics #this one tho. this one is good. I will be using it #ALRIGHT im clocking out. i have work to do. comics to format. coffee to make #catholic cardinals to sexualize probably

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