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musclegoth · 2 years

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im glad there is still a demand for film photography bc that means there is still access to it. but im not glad about the prices

#a once $5 lens is now $500 #but lucky we can even still buy and develop film nonetheless #there was a point where it became obsolete and inaccessible but that seems to have passed w a new resurgence in popularity #i think abt getting into it sometimes but my camera i have rn is the closest to a film aesthetic i could get thats why i have it lol #without the hassle of developing #but there is something missing in that its nice - comforting even - to just go shoot stuff on a weird dinky cheap old camera #u cant rly emulate that feeling #and im not somebody who likes to take ultrasharp clear pristine photos. my style is weird and messy. u can get that with old lenses on #new cameras but u cant get the randomness and the unknown and the accidents

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teddybeartoji · 1 month

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mickey i need ur thoughts on jjk men (esp satoru) helping out and showing love for their partner with autism

like uuuuuuuu i was thinking abt toru keeping a pair of his sunglasses with him hust in case youre visually overwhelmed. ORRRR him teleporting you to a quieter space when he notices that theres too many complex sounds that are upsetting you.

ughhhhh like imagine one of them remembering that pressure is soothing for you and js puts their full body weight whenever you come back home from a bad day.

GUHHHH them keeping candles of your favorite scents and alwaya makes sure to keep your safe foods stocked up whenever you visit

OH NOW I'M REALLY KISSING YOU GRAY MY BELOVED!!! THIS IS SUCH A WONDERFUL LITTLE ASK WAHHH I GOT SO GIDDY

i agree with everything you said!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now i know that every single one of them would do anything and everything to help you out!! but i did pick some things out that really made me think of them!!! anyway hello my fellow autistic ppl this one is for you all i love you very very much<333

satoru 100% carries extra sunglasses with him and i think he'd actually carry his black blindfold aswell. obvs he's not gonna make you wear it as you're moving through public but he'd lead you to a quiet spot and then just let you have a moment. he's either sitting you down next to him or he's holding you against his chest, protecting you from every single ray of light that could possibly make it any worse for you. bc honestly... sunglasses are sometimes just not enough for me personally. i've had my fair share of times where i just have to cover my eyes with my hands bc it just hurts so much.

we all know that satoru is a big yapper but i know he needs his quiet time too. i think he would love to just Do Nothing with you in complete silence. maybe you're both just taking a nap together, maybe you're just laying in the sun out in the park. maybe you're resting your head on his lap, maybe he's resting his on yours. it's all just about gentle touches and looks.

he loves it when you ramble and he's literally your biggest hypeman!! he's ready to spend all of his fucking money on you and any fucking equipment you could ever need. you want a new game or a new console? they're both already waiting for you at home. you want to start drawing? he has already ordered a tablet for you to practise on. you want to get into photography? he's buying you a camera and three different lenses. he wants you to be happy and he wants you to be able to do everything you could ever possibly want. he's just the sweetest guy ever i am crying rn actually:((

he's the best little autism bf btw. bc he gets it. he understand. he knows. he knows all about the light sensitivity. he knows all about the difficulty of eating "normal" foods, always munching on candy and snacks bc that's just easier. he knows about the fidgeting, he knows about the innate need to have somebody lay on top of you. he knows about the rambling and the hyperfixations. he knows about the confusing social clues and the ridiculous differences of speaking tones. he knows about the eye-contact problems - whether you're someone, who struggles to keep it or you're someone, who can't tear your eyes from everybody else just like him - he understands! he knows about being straighforward and speaking exactly what's on your mind and then being scolded for it. he knows about Not Really Understanding personal space. he truly does understand and he's ready to do anything and everything to help you cope with Life.

toji is theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee best weighted blanket and i stand by that. he's so fucking huge and he's so fucking heavy - he's perfect. he's gonna tease you about it but just a little!! you tug him by his hand and he gladly takes his place on top of you bc let's be honest... he's gonna love it, too. he's protecting you! he's taking care of you in a way that doesn't need words! he's trying his best! and if this is what you need - he is going to do it!!!

also with the light and sound sensitivity - he'd gladly pull you into his chest and cover your eyes with his big ass palm. and it would feel soo comforting wtf. the weight of it and just the fact that it's him?? fuck, i know it'd be so good. or your ears. he's placing them on your ears, muffling the overwhelming sounds while cradling you and wahh:(( he'd make you feel so safe.

suguru and shoko and parallel play. it's amazing. they will read a book while you're gaming. or suguru's painting while you're reading. or shoko's having her morning smoke and coffee while you're doing your skincare (i'm sorry i just can't get out the beautiful picture of her sitting on the little windowsill of your bathroom, a cig inbetween her fingers and a cup of coffe in her hand. no words are being spoken - it's just the sound of the birds outside, the water running and her gulping down her little espresso. thank you for listening.)

or suguru's doing his little home workout routine as you're crocheting. or it's you and shoko just laying on your shared bed scrolling on your phones in silence. could literally be whatever. they're gonna glance at you every once in a while, they're gonna ask how you're doing, how you're feeling and then they're gonna give you a tender smile and a kiss on your cheek and continue on. i'm melting just thinking about it.

suguru is obviously also going to be there for you if you have sleeping problems. he understands them all too well and he's pulling out all the stops to help you fall asleep (and himself). he's gonna make the tea one night and you'll make it the next night. it's equal. maybe you're also going to take a lovely little bath together, you'll giggle exhaustedly as you both slur out very stupid jokes and after that you'll both climb under the covers and take turns in listening to each others heartbeats and (hopefully) fall asleep.

shoko and sarcasm. she definitely makes a lot of sarcastic jokes and comments and she'll be a bit confused at first when you just blurt out the good-old "i don't know whether you're joking or not". but i think she'd find it super cute. she'll still occasionally make the comments but she'll make sure to check in whether you got it or not. i think she would tease but she'd do it very lightly (she definitely cackles when satoru doesn't understand sarcasm though lmao but you're her baby and she doesn't want you to feel bad). and i think she would love if you made terrible sarcastic jokes. like she would laugh until there are tears prickling in her eyes and you'd still be like ????? i don't understand and then she'd laugh even more. she's so cute.

kento is always ready to cook for you. he understands how hard it can be, how overwhelming it can be. he doesn't mind it a bit. i truly think this would be good for the both of you! he loves to cook and it's such a relaxing thing for him, and it's even better now that he knows he can see you fill your cheeks with delight. he needs you to eat well and he will make sure you do!

i also think that he's so patient with you and he'd never ever make you feel like you have to speak with him. he buys little plushies that you can turn inside-out, a pink side and a blue side - indicating how you're doing on the Speaking department that day. and these tiny interactive pins and you can express whatever you're feeling without ever speaking a word. he never pressures you in any way, always just reward you with more reassurance and a kiss to your temple.

he's ALSO the best listener. like he never talks over you. never. not even on an accident???? it's a superpower i think. he let's you talk at your own pace and he just stares at you with very soft eyes:((

wait i also think that shoko, utahime and yuki would gladly speak for you. in a sense of if you have social anxiety or you stutter or anything like that, they'd easily take up the task of ordering for you! they literally have all of your orders remembered and everything.

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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year

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m thinkin abt the “blunt vs flowery” language thing and…… in the year of our lord 2023, i don't even want to imagine how far back we'd have to go in genshins timeline until we see ‘hey shawty' written on a cave wall-

you try to be better about it, sometimes, using only the fanciest words and the most floral of tones, but all you ever succeed in doing is giving zhongli flashbacks to the archon war-

in the same vein: modern humor. would literally make them think "is this some sort of divine joke im too mortal to understand?" except even the archons need to cite sources on why a piece of bread falling over would be funny- maybe you slip sometimes, but you only ever get halfway through like “i’m neurodivergent and a minor” before you realize they don’t know what that means— “what if i had blue hair and pronouns” but they’re just sitting there like… doesn’t everybody have pronouns….? and kaeya has blue hair- are you implying he’s divine? what about chongyun?? xingqiu??????

anyway um. this is me bringing up my unfortunate (but very funny) habit of saying “i’ll boil you like soup” whenever i’m mildly inconvenienced and hoping it triggers Thoughts about the casual/slang threats we make and how they cope

sorry if this reads incoherently it’s 1am for me rn— also i’m debating becoming a regular anon here, are your applications open? 👉👈

SORRY IF I RAN U OFF BY NOT REPLYING QUICKLY!! BUT I’D LOVE TO HAVE LABELLED ANONS! I’ve already added some taken name I could see in my mailbox so check the pinned post and choose whatever isn’t taken! phrase or emoji, etc.! :)

this isnt super long bc ur stuff seemed chill on its own/idk what I could add! So I just focused on one aspect

gif is literally everyone reacting to you trying to speak “flowery” like them lol

ALSO u guys probably dont remember bc I took so long but I’m still writing/going to post that Blunt Lang. AU Fanfic One-Shot! so here’s some quick headcanons ill add on ive got anon!!

No TWs/Content Warnings. SFW.

so this was gonna be chill but-

BESDIES RANDOM SHIT LIKE MEME REFERENCES

THAT WONT MAKE SENSE TO THEM BC INHERENT INTERNET/DIGITAL UNDERSTANDING NEEDED

WHAT IF ALL UR JOKES OR REFERENCES ARE QUITE LITERALLY, ANCIENT??

like anon said about even the archons having to pull out sources/cite your stuff to understand it, like finding really old tablets/scrolls/carved wall words 😭

u giving Zhongli a history lesson/brush up LMAO

If ur annoyed at them u just need to make more jokes, leave em scrambling for their pocket notes LOL

I like to think since you sound the OLDEST

that the ancient shit like Phanes/Four Shades/Seven Sovereigns are the closest in speech

(look theyre all alive and shit for my genshin, goddamit i still gotta tell u guys abt my genshin fill-in lore au)

and they’re closer to the “beginning of history” in teyvat so theyd get more references

theyd literally understand u the best and they like, all in the Abyss or like deep in Teyvat,

so u just casually strolling up to Azdaha’s place instead like

“How’s your day been Azhy?”

“Same as the days many before, my lord. How are thee?”

“Good enough, hey, why don’t I bring some food from my old world by that I’ve made for you to try out? Something new, y’know?”

camera pan left to see Zhongli looking up, then back down as he scribbles notes trying to better understand, Xiao has crossed his arms and is squinting, Ganyu is behind Zhongli and is trying to peek over his shoulder, Cloud Retainer and other adepti have like hidden nearby to overhear lol

♤

FLASHBACKS FOR ZHONGLI-

HE’S OVER HERE LIKE

“Please do not disturb your countenance my Wànsuìyé, the vernacular is pleasant to mine ears and sufficient for speech.”

“I shall, uh, try my best Zhongli, thought I know ye have- wait- thy have? Whatever, accepted it, I shall keep attempting to better match thee!”

HIS FACE-

He’s literally just → 😰😣💀

(flashback to at least 1 really ancient/old god he had to fight for his life against, they were the hardest battle he’s ever faced, and Azhdaha was helping him by that point too, so it wasn’t even like he won alone… rip zhongli got ptsd)

He keeps trying to subtly stop you from practicing it, he also desperately discourages others from helping you 😭

(Zhongli was about to be called Rex Lapis again when Venti was trying to get on his last nerve by constantly encouraging you to speak fancier, but in the incorrect way, at dinner with them one time)

Like that last content with them pretending not to kow each other but 5x the tension and Venti is fooling around even more so than usual lol

THANKS FOR SENDING IN YOUR IDEAS!! I FUCKING LOVE HEARING OTHER PPLS BRAINROTS OVER STUFF!! AND SORRY AGAIN IT TOOK FOREVER!! ITS BEEN A ROUGH YEAR OF UNI FOR ME/IM GRADUATING!! <333 TYSM ANON!!

Safe Travels,

💀 ♒

♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonderss / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylazaa / @genshin-impacts-mee / @wholesomey-artistt / @thedevioussmirk

#fuck my tags #I hate that tumblr doesn't remember for me #im not a machine dammit i cant remember all this shit #genshin isekai #genshin impact #genshin impact sagau #sagau #genshin sagau #genshin reader insert #genshin imagines #genshin god reader #my asks #rip to ppl who wanted longer content from me srry #its coming soon i promise #trying to post p2 of possession au and get that one shot blunt lang au posted :D

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sugar-omi · 10 months

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i HAVE TO SHARE THISW SOMEONE!!! picture this . marching band cove . ghegegrgrrgrgrrbrbrbnnnn. i’m on colorguard and i think he would march mello or trumpet 🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺 EEEEE i’m sorry for gushin

omg idk anything about marching band or instruments

i literally played violin once in 3rd grade and i havent touched one since

ANYWAY YES YES YES AND ALSO YOU REMINDED ME ABT WHAT I WAS THINKING OF EARLIER (eta: okay this... became a bit more nsfw at the end than I intended but it's just implied and I can't be bothered to move this to a separate post since I'm on my phone rn but I think I need to write a full fic on this.

ANYWAY IF U WANNA SKIP THRU THIS GO AHEAD BC I RAMBLED WAY TOO MUCH N IM SORRY I TOTALLY TOOK OVER UR RAMBLE <///3 TYSM FOR GUSHING TO ME <33333 cove playong a instrument of any kind would be so asffdfhjlhq AND HE'DBE A BIT SASSY N HE JUST KNOWS HES THE SHIT... PLS...)

okay imagine band au and lets say youre the main singer, and cove is on bass/electric guitar or smth

and a lot of your songs start to become about cove. about being in love with him. about thinking about having him in your bed. about his eyes and how he makes you feel like you're drowning bc you love him so much.

and sometimes you lean into him during a song, doing a little dance step with him and the audience can see how much you yearn for each other.

OR EVEN BETTER IN MY OPINION

you are a backup singer or play an instrument as well, and cove is still on bass/electric guitar and while the main singer is doing the songs, you and cove are in the back giving heart eyes to each other and if you're not on drums or doing the keyboard (or playing any other instrument that requires sitting, idk) then you two lean into each other, maybe doing a little spin or smth and just as all over each other as you can be while performing.

and the pap have a FIELD DAY with it

so does your fans!!!!

and no matter what your position in the band is, there are thousands of photos and articles of you two leaving a restaurant together, or laughing over food and drink from thru the windows

or they see you wearing cove's jacket or shirt...

cove leaving your house early in the morning, or in interviews you two are giving heart eyes and even better if one or both of you is giving bedroom eyes to the other (they love asking if you two are dating or fucking)

if you don't mind having a laugh over confusing the paparazzi and even do it yourself. cove will shrug or smirk and go "wouldn't you like to know." and he'll put a arm around you and lead you away from all the reporters.

(implied sex under the cut👍👍👍👍🫶)

imagine getting drunk and kissing each other. you're so lost in the music blasting in the club and the taste of each others lips, and when cove's tongue slips into your mouth you can't even think abt if there's the flash of cameras because the flashing club lights help add to your daze when cove pulls away, grinning about how much he loves you and when you say you love him too, you find yourself in your managers car.

they're complaining about how much you've drank, but they drop you off at cove's house and speed off so they can go pick up the rest of your members, hoping they haven't gotten as drunk as you two in the time they've been gone.

you don't pay attention to any of it, walking on shaky feet to cove's front door and he's more busy kissing your neck than finding his keys so you push him up against the door and take his keys from his back pocket, stumbling through the door when you finally get it open with much struggle.

and you crash onto his bed, cove grinning drunkily up at you, his big hands felt like they were burning your skin and it's all such a blur of lips, tongue, loud moaning, and "I love you"'s

when you wake up its because of your manager blowing up your phones, and when cove fumbles for your phone that's ringing on the floor beside the bed, he answers w a groggy "hello..?"

(it makes your manager madder but you don't know that)

he puts it on speaker, just letting them yell about the pictures the pap published from last night.. and like the assholes yall are you go to the camera app, settling yourself in cove's lap and he pulls the sheets up to cove your lower halves, the sheet caught between his arm and your exposed (and thoroughly marked) back, cove giving the camera a hooded look as he hides his smile in your shoulder..

your manager starts yapping about something, you weren't paying attention, trying to shush each others giggles as you move around to take another picture, this time with your hands tangled in cove's hair and giving him a kiss (if you can even call it that since you're both smiling too much)

and as your manager finally stops ranting...

"you might wanna check my insta." and you hang up before they can start yelling again <3

#olba #cove holden #our life: beginnings & always #cove holden x reader

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satoruvt · 2 years

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hey so... Shua boyfie thoughts? :-)

first of all how DARE you, second of all im sorry this has been in my ask box for weeks 😭

i just think he's really soft like. i think he enjoys really cheesy cliche couple things. holding your hand all the time or matching outfits (and not subtle either... if you're matching and he's choosing then you guys are wearing the EXACT same thing lol)

teases you but can never do it for too long... always ends up grinning when you start whining

your biggest fan!!! always excitedly supports you when you get good news

i think he likes doing simple things for dates and stuff. watching a movie in bed or going out for dinner or maybe just taking a walk around the neighborhood for a while... he likes the domesticity

i have another post here abt this but... "can i kiss you?" EVERY TIME before hes about to kiss you

kisses the back of your hand a lot. just cause.

hmmm definitely an actions more than words kinda guy, so when he verbally tells you he loves you it’s really special. not necessarily rare, but not often

oh my god the concept of him putting on some sweet slow music and asking you to dance with him in the living room. in pieces

luvs cooking with you esp when you're baking... both of you always leave the kitchen with white, flour-covered hand prints on your asses

pulls out cheesy lines all the time that make you roll your eyes

sends you songs that remind him of you but they're always SO emotional and hes always so casual about it. "hey, this reminded me of you! listen to it!" meanwhile you're crying your eyes out

purposely leaves his clothes at your place so that you'll wear them

doesn't seem like the guy to just randomly buy you things, but if you point something out that you want he'll get it for you a little later... and he'll ALWAYS phrase it as like an early bday or early christmas present. one time he bought you some shoes you'd been wanting and called it a halloween gift cuz it was the middle of october

takes so many pictures of you. his camera roll is full of you, from pictures you posed for to pictures you had no idea he'd taken

you ask him to sing for you all the time and he always responds with "what do you want to hear?"

can get you ins on seventeen stuff but like... only HIS stuff. you'll ask for a signed album expecting all of the members' signatures but then you just get his. LMFAO

does the thumb rub thing when youre holding hands

when he stays over you guys have this nightly routine of doing whatever skincare you have, maybe watching a couple episodes of an anime, and then he always gives you three kisses (your forehead, your nose, and then your mouth) before you actually get into bed

buys you guys matching necklaces. subtle (because, well. His Job.) and so sweet

texts you sometimes like "what are you doing rn" and when you tell him he doesn't respond but then just shows up wherever you are?????

youre the one behind all of the bf pics he posts on instagram lbr

kind of a menace when it comes to like ur studies and stuff. youre like “josh im so stressed about this exam” hes like “take a break then!” and then you dont touch your notes for hours

even if he doesn’t make it obvious, he listens really intently to what you have to say. remembers a bunch of things you’ve said and will bring them up later, like, “what happened with that job interview?” or “this store you mentioned is having a sale, let’s go look!” etc

this is sooooo self indulgent but. if you have tattoos he’ll always find a way to kind of mindlessly touch them, just run his fingers over them

will not tell you a single thing about seventeen spoilers it’s like he’s not even in a band

does actually gentlemanly things like holds the door or comes around to your side of the car to open the door for you or pulls out your chair at a restaurant

doesn’t strike me as a huge cuddler, but... you always wake up with his hand in yours

shua.

#caratwritersclub #kdiner #ficscafe #shua my beloved my boyfriend my boyfriend mynhbjhbdh #seventeen x reader #seventeen imagine #svt x reader #svt imagine #seventeen joshua x reader #seventeen joshua imagine #svt joshua x reader #svt joshua imagine #joshua hong x reader #joshua hong imagine #kpop x reader #kpop imagine

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sapphicdib · 8 months

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r u willing to give us some info abt the streamer au? You’ve mentioned it before but I’m just curious abt it tbh :D

oh I AM MORE THAN WILLING. PREPARE URSELF

so: what happens when you put the physical manifestation of ADHD into an apartment with 3 different flavors of autism, give her a successful twitch career, and blast all of them with Beam Of Insufferably Horny?

the streamer au LMFAO (putting this under a cut bc it got. INSANELY long omfg)

normally i dont rlly like human aus (they’re just not my thing) but this stupid au wormed it’s way into my heart and now i cherish it lmfao. there’s no real set plot, there’s just Situations these lil guys get into. some are soft and adorable (ie. pebbles’ first kiss with sig) or hilarious (sig’s ridiculous amount of flirting with his own chat) or just fuckin stupid (their halloween stream where they do a whole production where chat has to figure out who “killed” sig and it’s just chaos). tbh ive found myself accidentally focusing on the ragequit aspect of the au despite the entire polycule being a thing (lilypad, sunstone, traffic light, ragequit, and hurricane all happen)

i think the Main Things that sum up the au are:

Sig punched Pebbles’ transphobic (now ex) boyfriend in the face and spent a night in jail bc of it LMFAO

Pebbles and Suns meet after Sig drags Pebbles to a party at the college he attends (and Sig attended for a single semester before the whole streamer thing took off). Suns went to catholic school and is incredibly repressed and hesitant with Pebbles and Sig ends up having to instigate a lot of shit to prevent them from just fuckin. never going past hand holding.

Speaking of, Pebbs is an art major and drew all of Sig’s custom emotes. He also loves drawing everyone in the apartment, though usually keeps those drawings hidden from everyone in his sketchbooks

Wind and Sig being childhood best friends who are each others ride or die, they were each others first like, everything. The funniest one being where Wind is having a crisis bc he thinks he might be gay and Sig is just like “hm well I’m kinda a guy maybe kiss me and see if you like it?” And well. Wind has been kissing this fool for 7 years now and does not plan on stopping.

Moon is usually a moderator but does make appearances occasionally and chat loves her. Suns will not go on camera without a face mask. Pebbles was originally camerashy but ends up being in pretty much every stream after a while.

Sig refuses to tell chat his gender and thinks it’s funny watching everyone guess. If you ask/ask for pronouns he just replies with “whatever’s funniest” or “whatever makes this gay”, or if someone’s being rude about it, “whatever pisses you off most”

Sig is like. Insanely good at FPS games and holds multiple top rankings in competitive esports. Yui (Unparalleled Innocence) is one of her main rivals. It’s cute tho. They’re like. rivals who kiss.

Pebbles is Moon’s adopted brother, and has some pretty bad weakness in his hands/legs bc he had cancer as a child. They all support him a lot (Pebbles is rlly stubborn about “being okay”) and Sig does a lot of charity streams for things like forgiving medical debt and cancer research. Sig and Moon bought a huge thing of stickers to help decorate Pebbles’ crutches so he’d like them more.

Pebbles’ name is Pebbles because Moon came up with it as a nickname when they were kids, and when Pebbles came out he chose that as his name. Moon cried about it. Also I just like the whole “transmasc w a silly name” thing bc I feel like it fits him.

Sig helps Pebbles dye his hair (emo mf) but requires that if he helps she gets to put streaks of color in his bangs. It’s usually pink but sometimes she chooses a different color. Sig has the underside of his hair dyed purple. Pebbles’ natural hair color is a pretty light brown.

They all have their cats ofc!! Messenger, Hunter, Arti, and Ruffles!! They were all either strays they found or adopted from a shelter.

That’s all I can think of rn! I wanna draw their designs eventually (and I have but I don’t rlly like them anymore bc OUGHHH I haven’t drawn people in for-goddamn-ever) but yeah!! Damn this got long LMFAO

#tysm for the ask aaaa!!!#streamer au #rw #letters

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7rashstar · 13 days

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i didn’t rly sleep last night yap sesh below the cut

missed mayday festivities because i am debilitatingly socially anxious but then went camping for a friends bday and felt refreshed by being able to see soooo many stars and be outside…(and go on the most extreme hike of my life dude omfg)

while we were camping my digi cam fell out of my pocket when i laid on the ground to look at the sky and stars and it stormed that night and my camera got destroyed. hoping the sd card is salvageable..

creepy had hella ticks on him (including one thats head got stuck in his uhh..wiener lol) went to the vet got em removed in total there were 8 (!!) that we found. he has so much fur man idk there could be some more on him but at least they’d be dead atp because i ALSO finally got a flea tick preventative that he can take monthly. it’s been impossible to get a vet appointment anywhere, especially at the clinic i’ve been taking him to since he was a bb. praying he didn’t contract anything from the ticks…we’ll get a blood test sometime in september-december

bestie soup told me u could see the northern lights in the city last night + they sent me some pics but i pulled a leg muscle skating n it hurt too bad to waddle over to the overpass (plus there’s been several shootings in my neighborhood the past couple weeks outside my building so i don’t rly like going out at night rn anyway)

yesterday oomf texted the gc n said a friend of a friend asked him where to listen to my music online bc they loved my set :’)) the last time i played a show was the beginning of march!!!! that made me feel rly good so now i have more incentive to finally upload things to soundcloud again. might work on that later today…like. might,…finally post something

he said he sent them a link to my old bandcamp and i forgot i never deleted my music there i only scrubbed my sc so i went over n listened to what i posted. it was kinda cute. in 2020 i started using ableton for the first time consistently and actually tried to figure out how to make stuff w it so everything f from that time is like. ahh. i’d do that so different now!! but at the time i was so proud of myself and that makes me feel kinda fuzzy (in a good way) like noticeable artistic growth yanno? n also knowing that version of myself who was constantly suffering and seeking an End still felt excited abt what i was making. it’s cute. my old self is someone ive made peace w and hold close to my heart in the ‘it’s different now and it’s Awesome’ way like fuck yea lil buddy you got clean and made it out alive. that’s sick

some of my old music goes hard asf too tho. a lot of unreleased stuff on my google drive i dug thru after listening to my bandcamp i don’t even rly remember making but i was like :0 !!

i was up until 5:30am working on a flyer !! i wanna make more flyers!! i miss making flyers. i’m outta practice and using procreate bc i don’t have photoshop anymore so still a newbie on the program front but i think. i did a good job and it looks cool so that’s nice

i rly wanna skate but my leg hurts i feel like that spongebob guy

#my leg!!#sleepless brain foggy screwed up my med schedule this week ramblings #to the void #thx for listening

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420technoblazeit · 1 year

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hiiii I like what you were saying abt the difference btwn how spn handles (or doesn't handle) sexuality with crowley and dean (so true bestie) and just wanted to complain about how absolutely steeped in shame/repression the narrative is with sex and sexuality in general. it's just infuriating that this particular facet of conformative pressure from an abusive socially-Christian upbringing is never explored in the show in the way that skewed notions of faith and duty and authority and filial responsibility are. i'm on my first full watch-through (in s11 rn and dreading losing crowley next season) so I've probably missed a lot and may be misinterpreting some of the writers' intentions, but still it's exhausting. I think the funniest way this manifested was when we're introduced to soulless!Sam and we are supposed to know something's off bc he had a no-strings hook-up with a brunette sex worker after being established as the "good" brother who prefers to take things slow and wants a relationship with his sexual partners before smangin' it. Definitely one of the shittiest was when Charlie gets split into "good" and "bad" selves, and only her "bad" self retained her sexuality. And endless agonies with dean's handling of course, but for this convo I think it's really significant that one of the few times the camera actually stays with him for a hookup is in Slice Girls--the sex they have is still pretty vanilla but from the perspective of the show it's definitely toeing the line of "deviancy" by casting dean in a physically submissive role (and!! he liked it!! and him liking it is repeatedly played for laughs and ultimately punished UGH) Like just the general narrative moral "good" in the show is sooo normative in its framing, and it sucks so much. wish we had something more full-throatedly subversive of the ists and isms inherent to the romanticization of Americana and the suburban dream, and it may not be that deep but I think unexamined puritanical shame wrt to sex in general from the writers room really kneecapped their ability to follow through with a meaningfully healing character arc for deano

no you're absolutely right! i think it's very ineteresting that dean's sense of duty is directly paralleled with the angels' whole holy mission thing because they're both abusive situations. the weird thing is that the show is still insistent on showing faith as something that is pure and good that even when you compare sam and dean, it's sam, the 'good' one, that keeps his faith

i think through a queer lens it would've been really interesting to explore the repression dean has and how that ties in to the fact that he was raised in an abusive christian household but the writers never go there because let's face it, they were homophobic so every portrayal of dean's sexuality is through a homophobic lens. on the one hand sam being less sexually active than dean is sometimes portrayed as him having more respect for women, but you're right in the fact that being less sexual is still indirectly tied to sam being the 'good brother' steeped in more christian ideals

i don't remember enough about the charlie soul splitting plot to comment on that part but if that's true then hoooooooly shit. that's like. a new level of homophobia with a character who's canonically queer

anyway i hope you have fun with season 11! best of luck, i don't remember season 12 being particularly enjoyable but i remember having a lot of fun with the character dynamics at least. o7 for crowley ty for the ask

#supernatural #spn #spn critical #meta #dean winchester #abuse mention #abuse tw #tw abuse #cw abuse #abuse cw #the pig squeals #long post #spn spoilers

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porcelain-dollbones · 7 months

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Fashion Dreamer update wishlist! 🌷🌷

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- more alt fashion styles! while there r a LOT of items most of them fall into traditional or kawaii/lolita fashion (which tbh is more my interest anyway but variety is good)

- a function to save outfits. currently u can save items in favourites and arrange them but its a bit clunky and it would be nice to be able to do it in one press

- a better/more detailed search function. this is like the number 1 complaint people have abt the game rn i think 😅 it wld be rlly nice 2 be able 2 search by pattern, colour etc

- a way to take selfies together! one of the biggest things i want is just to be able to take photos with my friends' muses but theres no way to do that rn unless u somehow get lucky and they show up in your world ;_;

- some sort of challenge mode. either with limited items, a timer, special caveats, or anything else to add a little twist? maybe even player designed challenges where they provide the items and pick rules from a list???

- more photo options in general. the drone camera + photo egg can feel a bit limited sometimes in terms of staging, poses etc.. it wld be rlly nice to be able to set more of a scene to rlly show off your looks 😘🤳

- bags and purses!!! 👛👜🎒 sooo many looks feel incomplete without a purse or a handbag or even a cute little backpack

-more jewelry types wld be soooo nice. i get there might be implementation problems with this + the bags but even if i cld just add a little bracelet or a necklace it wld add a lot of extra variety 💍

- this one is probably impossible since i assume u wld have 2 remake all the clothes but more body types wld be rlly nice. the height options r nice and there is a little variety between choices but theyre mostly all the same conventional skinny look which is a bit boring. people deserve 2 be able 2 dress up muses that look like them!

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im rlly loving this game and i think theres a strong community 2 keep it alive if the developers r committed. ^_^ i understand there is an update coming in december which is adding new items and events so im already excited for that!

pls feel free to share anything you'd like to see, id love 2 hear your ideas and wishes 🌷🌷🌷

#fashion dreamer #also add more flats. some of us dont wear heels

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sometipsygnostalgic · 1 year

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hi! in re to your post about your diagnosis, do you mind saying a tiny bit abt the process? im asking bc i have thought RLLY hard over the past few months on the possibility that i may be autistic- like, a lot of things ive wondered about myself would make more sense if i was and the idea of that has brought some peace to me. but i have NO idea how to go abt the process of talking with a mental health professional abt it and/or getting a diagnosis. i totally understand if you don’t want to share abt your process at all and i don’t want to make you uncomfortable with this question, so please feel free to ignore it. but if you are willing to share like the first step that you took in the process, i would rlly appreciate it! im just confused rn. anyway, i hope you’re having a good day/week/month lol :^)

hi anon!

I live in the United Kingdom, there are two options here, you can ask for a referral from the NHS, or you can self-refer privately which will cost £2000 for an assessment...

so what I did for my autism assessment is go to my doctors surgery, and explain to a doctor that I suspected I was autistic. I gave my reasons why - difficulty at school, difficulty with crowds, I talk really bluntly, sometimes i can become very anxious very fast - and the doctor recognised there were enough symptoms for a referral.

the autism referral centre eventually sent me a series of questionnaires, some were for me, some were for my father or for some other person who has known me since i was a child (i dont know what you're supposed to do if you have nobody).

i didnt' like the questionnaires because they were confusing, you have to give relative answers for what you think your own behaviour is, some things i would have problems with relative to friends but not relative to people with severe learning difficulties (like my cousin who is also autistic and is 8 but cannot speak more than a few words), so i wasnt sure what exactly i was meant to answer with there.

i procrastinated for like 5 months on submitting those forms (it was hell). then they decided i sounded autistic enough for a proper assessment and put me on a waiting list.

when it came time for the actual assessment which took place 15 months later, I was referred by the NHS to a third party because of the backlog, so it was all done remotely rather than me going to a centre.

my father and i were given more questionnaires (which were bugged, make sure that any online forms you're sent don't delete your answers in one column when you're filling in another column). my dad's questionnaire was MASSIVE and went really into my early childhood, asking whether i had brain injuries or stuff like that. the idea is they want to rule out the possibility of misdiagnosis, whether my autistic traits are a result of something else.

i was given a questionnaire too and i found it somewhat confusing, they asked me how i would feel if i got a positive/negative result on the diagnosis. i thought this was to catch me out. it's probably to make sure people aren't going to kill themselves if they're told they're autistic or not autistic, but i think the questions were weird anyway. i answered as much of the other questions as i could in relation to autism.

when it came to an actual assessment, i was asked questions for an hour and a half over camera, largely about my own emotional responses to things. i was also asked to help narrate a visual storybook, and to tell stories with inanimate objects. it was part of the adult assessment, and again it was to rule out other conditions, rather than to indicate whether i was autistic, because lets just say that i am very good at making stories up on the spot.

my dad meanwhile was interviewed for 3 hours about my childhood. when i was done with my assessment i joined him for that questioning and filled in the blanks, because my dad wasn't actually around for a large part of my childhood.

a few hours later we had the diagnostic call and they told me i was autistic and that they will send a report (still waiting) with information on this and also on post-diagnostic support services in my area, which i think is going to be very useful.

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jsdgfsdf · 6 months

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Cainpesh mode tierlist official...as of like 10 seconds ago

Pesh mode rambling under tge readmore its long. If it werent long it would just be visible in the post itself but myeh i actually care about post length rn also take this w like 5 teaspoons of salt im not a longtime depeche mode veteran fan or anything i just like their music a lot

Ummmmmoh these are all in order btw not like randomized in the groups. I was real purposeful w this one. for starters im a little biased towards ultra cus it was the first album i listened thru all the way cus i found the cd at goodwill in like. ? August ? September maybe and i was like well why not ive been meaning to listen to pesh mode. That and its just a really good album. It took me a couple listens to really get Into it but its definitely my #1 fave now..call that my..ultra fave..lawl..

Funnily enough i didkt really like playing the angel much when i was first getting into dapeachmode (its funny bc that was my first lile formal introduction to them outside of just cant get enoof by joel vinesauce. Everyone say thank you syd and his oc shangri-la) cus i thiught it was too harsh..? Or something? And i really only like 7 (lol) or so of the songs but the ones i do like are Really Fucking Good imo and its admittedly a very powerful album and i like that.

Music for the masses has a lot of aongs i like too though like a LOT camera pans over to my 100+ scrobvles of never let me down again atp..and my 3 hoarded usernames..and that ine bunny piece..etceteta. Well actually 2 bunny oieces but the other one is strangelove. Its basically just an album full of my favorite songs who am i to argue w that.. though its also sorta the same case w black celebration cus theyre both Albums With My Favorite Songs but idk. Thats why its the last album in best evar

I dont really have much explanation for awsome thru oretty good except for what i just said abt black celebration.. i was sorta torn between putting violator before delta machine or not cus in my mind theyre tied. I also really liked construction time again when i listened to the whole thing Oh My god tje original mix of love in itself. Hhoouuuuh

Memento mori i remember liking a lot when i listened to it the whole way thru id need to give it a relisten.. but i remember exciter was sortof a slog so its after..i really like tge sweetest condition though as evident to friends who have my contact info. A broken frame is good too and some of the first songs i listened to are on there But that said i wouldnt change my mind on the placement. It kinda suffered a little cus i listened to like 2 songs too much on loop and got tired of them (i think satellite and monument And sortof my secret garden cus it was? Is? In my bunny playlist so you can imagine how many times ive listened to That) its just kindof a meh album to me to be mote specific.

Sorry to all the songs of faith and devotion fans out there i dont like it all that much except for in your room (should be obvious that its one of my most favorite depeche mode songs ever..and the only one ive seen the music video for so far) and walking in my shoes but thats stretching it now. And rush but i cant listen to it w/o thinking of this one specific thing and it makes me cringe so hard every time i wanna curl up into a ditch and dissolve into the groundddddffd it sucks cus rush is such a good song

Speak&spell is okay i feel like i was a little harsh w the tier title there especially cus that was their first album and its really not all that bad.. i think i mightve listened to it before anything else too but i might be mixing that up w the one cure album w the fridge picture or whatever it was. It was like. Teal fridge. I think my favorites are probably whats your name & i sometimes wish i was dead but thats pretty basic oooops.. its ok. Also speak&spell has just cant get enough on it which is just a classic even if itsnnot one of my favorites i still like it. And the midi version too.

Finally i dont even know if i listened to spirit fully i know i have scum in my liked songs cus it came on shuffle once probably..and its an alex song to me i usually put character songs i cant fit in playlists in my liked songs..id have to give it a/another listen I thibk i just skipped it cus i was worn out from listening to every other album in a row by that point. I think i listened to wheres the revolution too and didnt really like it but idk.

Also heres my pesh mode faves playlist for reading all of this yes its bunny themed dont Dont even talk me

#Spotify

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floralbfs · 3 years

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every single day i am thankful for the fact that i presented the toefl last semester and thus fulfilled my english credits and thus don't need to take daily english classes

#they only last an hour but every day i am thankful for my 11-12 break and sometimes i dont realise not everyone has that free hour #because theyre in english class😭😭#sometimes i wish i had english class too so that i could bond more w my classmates but also i have always hated english class dynamics and i #love my free time too much to jeopardize it in any way #also i forgot how i was so proud for getting an almost perfect score on the toefl lmaoooooo #my literal only pride falls on my english skills how sad is that </3 jshfjsbdjsbf #anyways today i woke up sick and if i hadn't freed up english id be in english class right now and i think i would die #esp bc in other classes i can just lay there and screenshot stuff or whatever but in english class id have to speak or participate or whatev #luckily i am only listening to got7 rn <3 #i made my bed and now im lying down and maybe ill take econ class here sndbsndbns #every day i fear my professors will find out im lying when i say i cant turn on my camera bc of bad wifi #i usually turn on my camera and sometimes it rly isnt a lie bc my wifi sucks but also sometimes u just need to sit there w/o the pressure of #potentially being seen by everyone in ur class u know????#ok im going to close my eyes now im going to collapse ksbdnsbdjs even tho im already lying down👁️👄👁️ freaky.... skbdnsbdn jk #anyways like i get the objective necessity of speaking english efficiently but whyyyyyyy obligatory english????#why wld u want ur students to suffer :((((#yes i love english and it was part of my growing love for languages and stuff yes i hate english with all my guts we exist #honey talk #anyways if ure forced by ur school to take english (or another language but im talking mainly abt english and also this doesn't rly apply #for usa maybe?) i wish u a very pleasant anti english revolution i am only kind of kidding <3 #also el mes o algo así que tuve así de que clase de inglés obligatoria antes de poder tomar el toefl..... hell.#literalmente me dió una hueva horrible y odié todo y después de que ya había hecho el toefl me enteré que tenía como 15 faltas libres (menos #de las clases que tomé en sí antes del toefl) y creo que siempre cargaré ese dolor #also like ive been the teacher's favorite in like 99% of the english classes ive been in and theyre mostly very nice but why are they all #Like That.....#also i just remembered the english teacher i had for like a week with whom i picked a fight before the first class properly even started....#i am so sorry for being so fucking awful ma'am i promise if u gave me classes again i wouldn't paint my nails and then give u shit about it #i promise i have grown now i have stopped going out with my bad influences i hope ur family is ok ma'am however i still think your views #were rancid and you were racist and classist please do better ma'am im glad u werent my teacher for more than a week i would have been awful #ok got off topic there sjdhsnbdjs i carry burdens i ignore

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it9chi · 4 years

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Hiii I don’t know if your taking request and if your not it’s fine you can totally ignore this lol :P but if you are can you do the trend of the pretty best friends with maybe Akaashi, Bokuto, and kuroo 🙈 by the way I loved the way you write the characters

how they blind react to the audio “i ain’t never seen two pretty best friends, always one of them gotta be ugly” from tiktok + find the first part here

kuroo:

man doing this to kuroo would be so funny

cs we know he lowkey prideful

so this would “”potentially”” hurt his ego

at least when it comes to you

cs this bitch hates losing to you no matter what

like he’s not like this to kenma usually

and u tell him its bc kenma is his favorite bestie

then he’s all like: noo ahaha who said i like kenma more than u? ahah who sed that cut the cameras

then proceeds to baby and pamper kenma right in front u

smh kuroo we were friends first

ANYWAY SO

just like oikawa, he likes inviting himself to your tiktoks, selfies, etc u know the drill

so roping him in your tiktok would be easy breezy

you set up ur camera and pretend you were getting ready to dance to that fishing pole reel it in tiktok

(also prior to this u told him abt wanting to do that tiktok w him)

and just like you predicted it, kuroo is now magically next to you smirking and shit at the camera

pulling a debby ryan yes king pop off

then the audio plays: “i aint never seen two pretty best friends. always one of them gotta be ugly”

KUROO NEVER LOOKED SO OFFENDED IN HIS LIFE

kuroo goes :O like you did something so scandalous in front of him

even if the camera didnt hear his voice, its still kinda obvious that he said “chibi chan~”

now its ur turn to gasp

mf smirks at your reaction and picks you up like a sack of potatoes and throws you over his shoulder

all of that caught in camera

and right when he was gonna throw you on the bed the camera stops recording

y’all blow up overnight ;)))

the comments: “they gotta be more than friends!!”

“sis i’ll be his best friend if u don’t want to be his bestie anymore”

kodzuken: so y’all a thing now or-

bonus: what actually happened is kuroo tickled u and showed no mercy nor remorse </33

bokuto:

ahh yes bokuto

bokuto beam besties !!!!!

ft. a very very tired akaashi

you pull this shit to mess with the team

perks being the other fukurodani manager

(this is why konoha lowkey hates u but its okay queen u lowkey hate him too (as a joke))

ANYWAYS

so managers have to settle things right before practice starts right

after helping yukie and kaori, y’all had extra time

this is when u call bokuto in

“bokuto lets film a tiktok real quick!” you call out to ur bestie who was with akaashi and konoha

bokuto immediately dips on them and runs to you

“what are we dancing to today?”

we know this bitch can dance lets not lie to ourselves rn

u tell him u want to do that hit the quan remix trend on tiktok and he agrees

mf even knows the step already so uh anywayz

this is the part where brokuto gets bamboozled

you click record and bokuto starts rubbing his hands together like hes about to throw that ass back and start dancing religiously

til the audio plays

“i aint never seen two pretty best friends always one of them gotta be ugly”

so that played throughout the gym

konoha and akaashi stop talking and turned their attention to you and bokuto

the realization settles in and bokuto frowns

and everyone in the gym thinks his emo mode is about to work up and they’re all about to run to him

before bokuto lets out a big cackle

“you’re so funny sometimes, y/n” bokuto wipes a tear from his eyes from laughing so much

bokuto suddenly goes quiet til mf starts chasing you around the gym

“BOKUTO IM SORRY” you screeched as you ran for your life

“nOPE! IF I CATCH YOU IT MEANS YOURE THE UGLY BEST FRIEND” he retorts, catching up on you

in the end the video caught u guys running around the gym

konoha took this as a chance to repost your video with the caption “what a dumbass”

akaashi:

akaashi and this tiktok huh.....

do u know who u’re doing this to ??????

like akaashi???

akaashi keiji ?????????????????????????????????

this audio and akaashi just dont get along at all... like ... UGLY???

all in all im p sure this thing would backfire

and im not even joking luv xoxo

ANYWAY SO

you do this at home bc ... u dont want to embarauz urself doing this at school cs what if someone saw u calling THE akaashi ugly

so yeah u have this thing w akaashi where y’all just chill at ur respective homes for no reason at all

#bestietingz

and since akaashi is a genuinely nice guy and is a rlly rlly close friend of urs, he wont say no to ur vague requests <3

“keiji let’s do a tiktok together” you shake his arm as the mf reads a fucking book

“hmm okay” he hums, putting the book down

not forgetting to bookmark the page ! bookmark king ! knows his shit ok im getting sidetracked

you set ur phone down and angle it right

akaashi just does the bread face :] respecting ur viewers!

even if ur viewers r just the fukorodani team at best... maybe even some nekoma students bUT THATS NOT THE POINT HERE

ur trying so hard not to laugh and its so painfully obvious ur hiding something like akaashi is alr dreading cs he doesnt know what ur planning

so u press record and the audio rolls in

“i aint never seen two pretty best friends, always one of them gotta be ugly”

it turns to an awkward silence after that

cs akaashi didnt rlly know how to react

like he knows this shit is corny and just..... he cant even describe it oh god

and ur like looking at him for a reaction

hes just there like: :] ......

LIKE YOU TWO R ALREADY MAKING EYE CONTACT

AND UR LIKE COVERING UR MOUTH TRYING NOT TO LAUGH UR LIKE

“DO U GET IT??”

and akaashi is like: “yes i do :]”

AND UR LIKE: THEN WHATS UP WITH THIS REACTION

then he’s all like: “nothing. i know you’re not ugly and u shouldn’t let that meme define who you are because you are beautiful”

like a mf poet making ur heart melt

u put a closed caption thingie mabober before u post it cs u wanted to let ppl know who or how tf ur bestie acts and damn right hes right !!! ur not ugly neither is he !!!

the comments when u posted it are all asking for his contact information and the just like

“SIS I WANT HIM”

“WHATS HIS @??”

even bokuto commented like: THATS MY AKAASHI RIGHT THERE !!!!

and kuroo responds with: u cant win over him bro

and then bokuto replies again with: DUDE

#reqs #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu headcanons #kuroo x reader #kuroo imagines #kuroo headcanons #bokuto x reader #bokuto imagines #akaashi x reader #akaashi imagines #akaashi headcanons #bokuto headcanons #ans

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arabella111 · 2 years

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hi arabella im sorry for this whole rant but im so pissed of at everything and i feel like ur the only one i can talk to.

i am on verge of crying every time that i look myself in the mirror or opening my camera.. literally i cant anymore with my looks everytime i see a pretty girl i want to cry and im sooo jealous and ik thats shitty of me and i dont want to be like that but its like i have become one of those girls that constantly look for validation for their looks.. the fact that other ppl have also experienced this ( the other anons ) made me feel a bit better abt me bc im literally the same.

when i was young but when i say young ppl would tell me how pretty i am, what a nice body i have, ppl would tell my mok to get me to model, strangers would say how pretty i am then suddenly all this stopped and i dont know what to do.. the fact that as u said to another anon that my assumptions changed thats why makes me feel better bc its not that i am actually ugly but sometimes when im wondering and i think that i wasnt all that when i was little and i might have gotten the compliments bc i was little which is worse bc that means i always have been ugly and i dont like that bc i want to have my own thing and beauty since i was born not go through a whole ass manifesting journey for get a few compliments yk? like rn i feel so average and nothing compared to some other pretty girls like i dont get ANY male attention like nothing and im not ever kver exadeginf and when i say something good abt myself or yk like do jokes atleast im hot and stuff my 'friends' are like 😬.. and if i like a guy im considered iut of his league.. and if i rlly am pretty which im def nkt all that like close to megan fox and all these beautiful women im just there and i get sooo disgusted looking at my pictures and im the mirror..

and what annoys me THE MOST is that i wasnt born already all that and thats what i want not just manifest it and i dont want to revise either and another problem is like i have a few good traits like small nose,clear skin but im still..that.. and ik i have to work on sc and shit but yeah..

and i dont feel guilty abt manifesting other things like intelligence which i always was considered by others dumb but i always thought that beauty was the only thing rhat i had and it proving me wrong is a bid deal to me.. and i dont want tk be called pretty just to feel better yk?.

and the same thing also goes for my body like i had rhis hourglass figure and now i have ir 'sometimes' and i have literally the flatest ass loll and yeah thats it ig im sorry for all this lol :/

it's ok baby, see all you need to do is change your assumptions about yourself that's it. it's okay if you don't believe those assumptions. just persist in them and know they are already yours. you might think it's hard, but trust me, it isn't. you don't have to work your ass off anyways. just call yourself pretty everyday. think of yourself as a goddess. you know your thoughts create your reality right? main reason why you have been living a shitty life is because you assumed so. so why not change your assumptions? what you want is already yours. acknowledge your power. you can change your life in seconds if you want to. all you need is belief in your power.

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caffeineaddicted-noonie · 3 years

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Hi love bug! Thank you so much in advance this is super sweet of you.

So, I’m Elsie, she/her/hers, and bi (but I lean heavily towards men rn). I’m a Virgo sun, Scorpio rising and Aquarius moon. I’m also an introvert, but I love being around other people! I just ,,, get tired easily

I’m East Asian + Southeast Asian (Chinese and Vietnamese). I’m barely 5’0 tall! Long, black hair that reached my upper thighs and dark brown eyes that you can’t even see the pupil lmfao. I always have painted nails, usually red. I’m pretty athletic and I also like to think I have nice thighs—most of my workouts include building up my legs lol. I wear big gold hoop earrings. I also wear round Harry Potter glasses. My body isn’t very curvy, in fact I’m pretty flat but I am COVERED in stretch marks. I also have acne flare ups from time to time but it’s usually nothing noticeable anymore. I also love wearing black lipstick now lmfao.

I’d like to think I’m a pretty chill person, likes to go with the flow and stuff like that. My friends say I’m often their therapist or their mom, which is kinda funny because that’s what I’m in uni for, to be a therapist. I’m a pretty determined and motivated person? I like to push myself pretty hard ngl but I also like to just hang out and take it slow. I also like to do stupid things like exploring abandoned buildings at 2am. I’m also big into intersectional feminism. I’ve also been told I’m really approachable and friendly, but bro I am so shy and quiet in public unless I get to know you.

I can get pretty stubborn tbh, it depends once again on what the topic is but once I’ve set my mind to it, that’s how it’s going to be. I don’t really have self esteem issues anymore but every now and then it flares up Y’know— and my depression sometimes makes it hard for me to even get out of bed at times. I usually don’t know when to stop giving myself to other people, which means I get pretty exhausted and fast. I’m also prone to overthinking which stresses me out. And when I’m stressed, I can honestly get a little bitey.

I apologize to inanimate objects if I’ve bumped into them, and I also have a tendency to talk to myself? I also am a witch! Currently focusing on deity work and kitchen witchery.I also have a weird habit of waving to security cameras I see in public because I like to think the people watching those cameras get a kick out of it lol.

I really like coffee, tea, singing with my ukulele, playing piano, drawing and art in general. I haven’t been able to draw as much as I’d like recently but I do have some animatics in my head. I also really like Victoria’s Secret perfumes, specifically strawberry pound cake—it’s what I always smell like lol. Crystals are super fun imo. I live next to a huge lake and it’s honestly one of my favorite places to be. Ocean animals are my favorite! I also really like car rides with like, one other person and just exploring the world and talking. The music I listen to is a lot of classic rap, lofi-hip hop, modern rap, some pop artists and Ella Fitzgerald, Gloria Gaynor, HaroinFather, KYLE, and ofc Hollywood Undead.

I cannot stand centipedes those things horrify me. I also don’t like rude people, bigots, people who purposely start drama or hypocrites. People who put other people down aren’t cool either. I don’t really like parties or being around lots of people, they make me anxious and kinda suffocated. People who try to force me to do stuff aren’t cool in my books either. I also think red meat is kinda gross, but that’s just because it makes me exhausted.

I think that’s long enough and hopefully tumblr didn’t eat this one—but thank you so much again, lots of love to you.

Hey Elsiee!! I had fun doing this and thank you for sending the infos ^^ It really helped. Right lets go to who i match u up with XD TBH, it took me a whilee to think of WHO. It was either Toby or Hoody. My head was debating over it with each fact abt them. In the end. It Clicked! 💡 And...

I MATCH U UP WITH (DAN DUN DUNN)

HOODIE / BRIAN📹

let us begin the lovely journey... log.1 - friends 🌹

+ you two did not talk much at first, to be honest, there was no interest in the both of you to even start a conversation. You two are introverts all along. + tho you two often share a few words like "Can you help me get that?" "Jane was looking for you" and so on + however, one particular evening you were told to help him with a search for Toby. Although he's usually with Tim, Tim had other plans. so there you two were, searching for a lost raccoon boy. you found him eventually somewhere in the woods. Hoodie was impressed. It usually takes him abt 30 to 40 to find Toby. "Good job" "Oh thanks, it was a bit easy since his tracks were visible," you said, pointing to the forest floor. *Tracks? How come I've never thought of- hmm* he thought to himself. + the next time Toby goes missing, he would definitely bring you and ask if you could teach him how to track.while you were teaching, you guys had small convos about interests, hobbies, thoughts, all does introduction stuff. + "you can speak mandarin?" "a bit" "could you teach me?" "hm why?" "i wanna make Tim look foolish for once in a while haha" "Oh that would be interesting to see..sure!" "cool" + Even after fooling Tim, the both of you still studied mandarin together. besides that, you guys did a lot of things. He enjoys it. I mean, where can you get a girl who explores abandoned buildings at 2 AM in the MORNING. Where???And a witch??? Nowhere right?? It's literally a RARE occasion. So, while you two venture you would talk about what you do as a witch. "Well, those glasses and earrings suits well for your job haha" "Very funny hah" "and I would really like to see a witch singing with a ukelele" "you can, but you gotta pay up, my performances are not for free" "ya serious?" "hahaha noo, but are you?" "..yeah.." "oh,ok, I only accept cash tho" + "what are you apologising to?" "uhh the table?" "why?" "because my foot hit it" "then the table should be apologising" "but it cant!" "and? are you apologising for yours and its behalve??" "kinda" "what" But,oh Elsie, he finds it adorable.

log.2 - lovebirds❤️

+ the relationship vibes you two have is like thiss + how did you manage to become a thing? well, it all started with *ahem; prepares story telling voice* nah jkjk. So, it all strated when Hoodie couldn’t sleep one night. He was busy thinking about some things and then you came in mind. He thought about the things you told him. And then he wondered, what happens if you weren’t here? his mind goes blank. he doesn’t know and want to know what will happen. Then, it clicked. He has feelings for you… + the next day, after breakfast, he asks you out of the blue if you had feelings for him. You hesitantly nodded. he was stunned. How? Why? When? so many questions…But only one came out of his mouth ”If it is so, then, would you like to date me?”. your eyes widen. You couldn’t make out any words and only managed to mumble a ”yes of course,” he couldn’t hear you but he knew what you said from the movements of your mouth. ”Ok, why not a date at 12 am right by the river?”. you nodded and he left the scene. *Elsie, do you realise whats happening?? A DATE aajjssjd-* + after that first date you guys were officially a thing. The best part is, you asked the question before he did ”Would you like tob be my boyfriend?” ”i-i emm *smooch* I wanted to ask first” *Elsie has gone to space…*. *such sweet love* + he would take videos of you secretly and openly. There are videos of you singing and playing the ukelle or piano, the both of you adventuring abandoned places, at an aquarium and so on. +i think his love language would be quality time. Man keeps an album of photos to. He would listen to the songs you suggested ONLY if you would listen with him, yes he has conditions. Exercise with you (now the both of you have gud lookin thighs eheh) + Affection? cuddles, kisses, words of affirmation, basically anything that comforts you. You being shorter than him is is a blessing! It adds a lot to your adorable meter (theres no limit Elsie, therefore it’s infinite heh)Also, you waving at camera in public gives him butterflies of hoe cute you aree. If anything’s wrong he’s there. He usually knows when your not fine, but he also knows when you need personal space (he knows everything). In some occasions, since you talk to yourself abt something that you can't let out, sometimes he would uhh stalk you? He's over-caring hahah. + you dont have to worry about parties! he doesn’t do that stuff. And he would definitely wont force you to do anything. hes a pretty chill guy. And why do i see him as a bit of a poet?? Like he said this to you once, ”The sky is just like an ocean of stars, yet has an endless depth. The ocean is like a sky of water, nontheless, not a vaccum of infinity” (copyright me haah) + HE LOVES EVERYTHING ABOUT YOUU. HEAD TO TOEE. *Chef Kiss*

I hope you like it <3 I really enjoyed doing thiss :] Have a nice day, Take Caree.

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congrats on 1k, my love \(//∇//)\ m so proud of ya <333 rin would be too ;)) id like to participate in ur event pls!!

m hoshi and id like a matchup w an hq boy <3! im 18, use she/they pronouns, and tbh i dont understand all the zodiac sun, rising, etc,,, but im a sagittarius and and infp-t. im a touchy person methinks; i love hugs and just any affectionate action (ie headpats, cuddles, etc). i also enjoy quality time but im such a homebody even before the lockdown oops </3 so sometimes i dont like goin out and rather stay at home (though ill inevitably get bored). however, if i do go out, i love amusement parks and open spaces to do anything (like picnics, walk dogs, etc). im a PHAT introvert but m an ambivert when im w my friends. i tend to put other people first before my own and am usually available if people need to talk/need an ear to listen. but, when it comes to myself, i brush it off bc i dont wanna burden them </3 i also have trouble telling people what i rlly want and tend to be easily influenced by their choices instead JUST so i dont have to make a decision.

im also uh,, 5’1 so i often get teased bc of how relatively small i am. my vball coach thought that i should play libero instead of a spiker when i still had school bc at least liberos didnt need d height 🤕🤕🤕. but ya if it’s flirting teasing abt using me as an arm rest or smthn,, maybe idm 😳😳 ANYWAY i like dancing, drawing, playing sum instruments, dilfs/milfs, large clothing, bracelets, and my dog <3 i also like watching anime and reading occasionally when i get motivated to. my favorite color atm are any warm tones (BROWN RN) and ive been recently listening to ricky montgomery and chase atlantic PFF my music taste is all over the place. also u can use my name for the drabble if ur still g to write,, for me 🫂

HOSHI !! hi, thank you my babyyy <3 ty for joining my event 🥺 i hope u like ur matchup & chase atlantic is just… yes

I MATCH YOU WITH

AKAASHI KEIJI

okay,,, you guys were meant to be together, no joke. you compliment each other so well and push each other to be your best selves. he’ll listen to you (even if he has to force it out of you), and you do the same for him <3 (you guys are also both astrologically compatible)

YOUR TROPE: strangers to lovers

I THINK THE WAY YOU GUYS WILL HAVE MET WOULD BE SO CUTE. i hc akaashi is also a homebody so the one time he’s out, he bumps into you at a park and he’s so flustered because, duh you’re the prettiest girl he’s ever seen. usually, he wouldn’t do it, but he took a step out of his comfort zone and ask you to join him on his walk :) and you think he’s pretty too— i mean look at him, so how could you refuse.

YOUR SONG: softly by clairo <3

very much my picnic playlist vibes. you guys have soft energy and i feel like you radiate energy that screams soft indie or mitski LOL ?? does this make sense ? i feel like you guys, as a couple, would take candid film camera pictures & paint in the park whenever you get bored and that gives off clairo energy (bye i sound like im on crack)

moodboard !!!

DRABBLE (ur one of my baby moots i <3 u i hope u like it!)

you had a book in your hands, unable to concentrate on the words because you were staring at your boyfriend.

“baby,” he mutters, softly, feeling your eyes on him. looking up from his book, his speculations were right, “stop staring at me,”

you give him teasing smile and put the book down, “what? is it a crime to stare at my very pretty boyfriend now?” you question, jokingly.

“no, but you know what is a crime?” he asks, pushing his glasses further onto his face, a smile forming on his own lips. you hum and wait for his response. “how short you are.” he chuckles.

you giggle, taking the book and smacking him multiple times, jokingly, “i hate you so much,” you say in between hits.

he laughs, grabbing your wrists and pulling you towards him, placing a soft kiss on your lips. you both smile into the kiss, happily.

“and i love you very much, hoshi.”

#— sar’s 1k event >.< !#— luvhoshi #— mooooties 🐄#HI BBY I HOPE U LIKE THIS AND IF YOU DONT PLES TELL ME BENEHEB #I <3 U SM #ALSO THANK U SM FOR PARTICIPATING

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