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mind over matter pt. 4

synopsis: witness how your marriage was bound to fall apart with you on the front seat and your husband gojo had missed the show—now, he gotta figure out the story on his own.

content: arrange marriage au, angst, husband!gojo, mean!gojo, mention of blood, strong languages, some unsettling scenarios, emotional trauma, read at your own risk

a/n: ok, im such a bad author now huhu, i always broke my promises about updating the new chapter :((( should've just wrote in advance but i'm afraid i don't have that enough free time oqsjjanswjaj anyways, here's the anticipated chapter!! THANK YOU FOR Y'ALL PATIENCE <3 MWUHEHEHHEEHHE

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the next day comes and you've got yourself some visitors. megumi, yuuji, nobara, maki, and inumaki was in your room and they were all seated around you as you talk.

panda and your two third years were not around at the moment because this is a non-sorcerer hospital and people would freak out to see a big ‘talking’ panda. during your two third years, they were out of town and were on a mission but they still text you to get well and even send you some fresh flowers.

“wait, i still can't believe that he's your husband.” nobara couldn't explain his shock at the revelation. out of all, she didn't think that her goofy teacher was someone's husband.

you chuckled at her reactions as you turned your gaze on megumi, who's still his mouth hanging. “megumi, i thought you're getting a hint?” you tease the boy. although it was true, you actually thought he already had an idea because you've known him for almost his entire life and even once lived with you as a kid.

“no…” was only his answer.

“so, gojo-sensei was the one you're talking about when you said that he was a busy man. most of his job requires being out of town. but he never fails to shower you with love and he is making sure that you two would still communicate despite his busy schedule?” your eyes widened when yuuji literally just said what you had said from before, word-by-word!

“i—i supposed he is.” everyone in the room sweat dropped at your answer.

what do you mean you supposed?!

“y/n-sensei, is it okay if we ask your baby?” maki chooses the gentlest approach because she heard that post-pregnancy can make the mother quite crikey, sensitive, and is prone to depression. but to her relief, you respond to her warmly.

“oh, the baby is being treated since they're premature. i really can't wait to meet them once i get better. but right now, shoko was the only one who had seen my baby.” you smiled softly at the thought of your baby.

“gojo-sensei still hadn't seen the baby?” maki’s eyes went wide.

you nodded. “yeah, he said we should go together so i must heal quickly for that to happen.”

the door suddenly opened and it revealed your husband with food in his hand. you smiled at the packages not because you're hungry, but because you had finally persuaded satoru to go out and leave you even for just a few minutes.

how did you do it? well, you just give him an earful after what he did yesterday night and he's like;

“i don't know how you did it but you should've just gone to the convenience store or the hospital canteen just for an oatmeal and eggs. and look, i'm not upset over the fact that you just had the ‘very easy to get’ food delivered on this doorstep. what concerns me is you seem not to trust me very well to handle myself— well in fact i've been doing it since i was a kid and blah, blah, blah, blah…” it was your turn to yap but a little longer than he did. you even probably bought up some of his minor mistakes like not taking out the trash on random sunday night.

and he was like, “i'm sorry. i won’t do it again ( •̯́ ^ •̯̀)”

“y'all done backstabbing me?” satoru teasingly smiled at you all.

“oh, we're just getting started. so why don't you take a seat and hear us out?” you patted the empty space of your bed beside you.

satoru playfully huffed and gave the foods to his students and let them distribute it themselves. sitting beside you, he gave you the separate plastic with food and helped you feed yourself. the two of you had your moment with you telling satoru to just let you be and stop feeding you like a kid, but satoru was like nuh uh—and it goes on and on.

meanwhile, the students watch you two with surprise in their eyes. they still couldn't digest the fact that you two had managed to hide your marriage for like five years or so. and out of all spouses out there, they couldn't believe their eyes that you married a guy that is a total opposite of you.

“i still cannot really believe that you're married and have a baddie wife.” nobara almost never tears her gaze towards you two.

“yeah, much more is that they look so in love!” yuuji agrees to what nobara said as his words made you two stop bickering instantly.

like a cold water being poured, you two were suddenly experiencing a reality check that this so-called in love was very far from the two of you actually is. coughing slightly to hide his awkwardness and nervousness, he just let himself chuckle. while you? you're an expert at this, you maintain a smiley expression and wordlessly (and also forcefully) agrees to what the boy said.

“oh my, do we?” putting a hand on your cheek, you smiled with your eyes closed. your act looks so legit but satoru has seen this multiple side—he knew this facade was all fake.

maki suddenly puts herself into attention by calling your name. “anyway y/n-sensei, i've noticed you two don't have a ring—” before she could even finish her sentence, you already beat her to it.

“that's because the two of us, mostly him, are constantly fighting curses and both involve using our hands when we use our techniques. it would be risky to wear it and we're scared that we might get it lost or damaged.” you explain meticulously.

you watch the students agree to your explanation, while satoru is looking at you with meaning. you stared back at him too, hoping that he would get your telepathic message.

“alright guys, your y/n-sensei needs to rest now. we'll just see you guys soon or you can all just drop by tomorrow after your training.” satoru called everyone's attention by clapping his hands then started to playfully shoo the students.

you watch them pack their things and wave you a happy goodbye, in which you return their enthusiasm as well. when they all left, you let out a sigh and started to gently lie your body on the bed. satoru, who was done cleaning just now, sit at the end of your bed and carefully massage your legs.

“did you have fun with them?” you just lazily hum at his question and proceed to rest your eyes.

“i…i'm surprised you managed to convince them about our marriage.” satoru continued quietly.

opening one of your eyes and looking at him, you said, “of course, i've been doing it to a lot of people for the past five years.”

that alone made him shut up.

satoru looked down to his hands, which were still busy massaging your legs. you've noticed that his eyes were casted down and his behavior was somewhat familiar to you, he's feeling something that is related to guilt and regret.

clicking your tongue, you're in no mood to deal with his behavior today. so to find a solution to this problem, you just put yourself to sleep and let all of this just go on without a single care.

it has been two days and you're getting better day by day. today was probably the bestest day so far because you're about to finally see your own baby!

“calm down, mama. do you want your stitches to open again?” shoko holds your knees to stop it from shaking anxiously as you were currently sitting just right outside the neonatal intensive care unit (nicu) where your baby was.

you understand that the doctors need to prepare the room first before you all come in, but you wished that they speed it up.

“but sho, i'm finally seeing my baby!” you squeal at your friend who just ruffles your hair and tells you to be patient—in which you definitely can't.

meanwhile, satoru, who was standing beside you while you and shoko were sitting together, has been eyeing you since this whole waiting. he understands that you're excited about seeing the baby because he is too, he is excited. but he couldn't help but to feel a sensation that you would rather share your excitement with others than him.

he knows that he sounds ridiculous and undeserving to say that in the first place after what he did to put you through, but he still couldn't help it and he wouldn't even dare to say it to you.

the door of the nicu just opened and it revealed the doctor who was wearing protective gear to keep bacterias and viruses from entering the room and harm the baby. before he lets you all in, he first instructs you all to change the same gear as him and then proceeds to give you all some explanation in which you actively listen and take notes.

and after that, he finally lets you go inside.

the moment your eyes traveled on a crib, you saw your child laying down there with some breathing apparatus that is connected to their little body. you could feel your eyes swell with hot tears as you inch yourself towards the bundle of joy who's their crib was also protected with glass and only small holes on both sides were there.

satoru and shoko watched you with pure warmth at your sight—it was a nice scene of mother's love. finally, a tear escapes your eyes the moment you get a whole view of your child.

“isn't he pretty?” shoko said beside you, someone who you didn't notice had come near you.

you gasp, “he? m-my baby is a boy?” your cries go even harder, but it was just pure happiness. you couldn't bring yourself to tear your gaze away from your child even though he looks fragile for being premature but you love him dearly.

“can i touch him?” you look at the doctor who assisted you earlier without caring that you might look like a crying mess. you're far more thrilled to be with your child than to be pretty at this moment.

the doctor smiled at you and he agreed. he pointed out the small hole on the side, telling you to stick your hands out to feel your baby. you do what he said with your shaky hands, and when your fingertips touch his warm skin—you feel like you could die from the burst of euphoria.

“my b-baby, my baby is n-now here!” you really can't hold your emotions back as you keep on passing your fingers through your baby's arm until it reaches his closed hands where you slightly and gently open it for him to grab index finger. and when he does, your smile becomes even wider.

“hi baby~ this is me, your mommy. it's so nice to finally see you.” you whispered softly, hoping that despite the glass, he could hear your words.

this is the bestest day of your life. your baby was here and that's all you need.

the scene continues to unfold with you still getting emotional and shoko was just watching you with a smile on her face. while satoru, the father of the child, the husband of the mother, was a little distant but he could still see the baby. he was all quiet and couldn't bring himself to utter a word but he's not speechless.

his eyes behind those glasses were trailed on the child, but most of his gazes were on you. satoru watches you become all smiley—this is probably the happiest smile he had seen on your lips for the past years of your marriage.

and he would absolutely never forgive himself if he breaks it—but he already did.

shoko notices his odd behavior and promptly leaves your side for a while (but you're busy having a baby talk with your baby to notice her leaving) to go talk to him.

“what? you're just gonna stand there and watch y/n?” yup. still the same as before, hostile towards the man. satoru let out a sigh and didn't give her attention. instead, he walked towards y/n and just focused on his family.

“you’re so tiny!” you continue to cooed at your son who keeps on moving slightly which is a good sign that your son is responsive and fighting. you also noticed that satoru was now right beside you and is looking at your son too with adoration tinted in his eyes.

“i don't think i could let myself be away from him anymore.” you said. your cheeks were now hurting from constant smiling but you don't mind.

satoru only looks at you briefly because his attention was now on his son, fully. “hello, it was nice finally meeting you.” his eyes trailed on his own flesh and blood with the most care of all.

on the other hand, you're not dumb to not notice that satoru was acting hesitant towards this scene and you knew what his reason was. you think that satoru thinks that he was undeserving to be here, and you're correct about his assumption.

but as a woman who grew up with an experience of being inside a shattered family, you absolutely would not want that to happen to your own child. and as much as you would also like to satoru be away at least for now because you're still that sensitive about what he had said during those conversations in the clinic and hallway, you respect his role as a father.

you'd give him a chance to prove his worth as a father to your child, but he's far worse to have a chance to prove his worth as a husband to you. if he messes this up real bad and without any proper explanation, this will be all over—satoru would no longer have you and your child as his own family.

“stick your hand on his hole, that way you could feel him.” you guided his hand towards the hole that you had said before and watched his hands turn shakey as he reached for the baby.

once satoru had finally experienced a skin-to-skin touch with his baby, he wanted to cry so badly but he didn't allow himself to, at least not yet. he felt like this was one of the best moments in his existence.

satoru would like to punch himself for questioning the baby for his plans as he seemingly thinks it would affect him. but just when he look and touch his baby, all of his recollection about the mixed emotions he felt when the baby is on the board has suddenly vanished and it was replaced with gratefulness and adoration for both of you.

it was like a full 360 degrees turn was done after the early birth of his first born. plus, he had seen you be ever so happy that you are with him. and deep inside him, satoru deniably hopes that this kid, this child, can at least help him save this marriage that was destined to fail and doomed.

because he now finally realizes that you're slowly wrapping him around your tiny fingers.

your tears had made him be a better person, your recent experience had made him behave. it almost cost you and your baby's wife just for him to realize the importance of your five years of marriage, and he's planning to tell you that soon.

“have you finally decided what name we should give him?” shoko asked you and she didn't fail to see your eyes sparkle at the mention of name.

ah yes, baby names.

that was something that a mother and father should decide together because it comes very crucial because the name that your baby will get is a symbol of you two's relationship. but the thing is, you and your husband hadn't talked about a single thing or just anything related to this matter.

that's probably why you're still embarrassed whenever you think about nanami accidentally seeing you open a website into one of the school's computers about unique baby names with its meaning.

you're four months pregnant at that time and you're spending your free time in a teacher's lounge. you're very invested in your mini research to the point that you didn't notice an old friend peeking at your screen. you actually only notice his presence when you're about to stretch but accidentally bump his torso, and to your surprise, he was there.

and then the rest becomes a story and history. nanami helped you pick baby names for both genders or even unisex until you came out with…

“kazuki. let's name him that.” a soft smile was decorated on your lips as you watched satoru, who's looking at you, plays with the hands of your son.

“kazuki…that's a nice name, y/n.” satoru said happily. however, you can see his disappointment behind those words and you know why. you didn't even invite him to search for your baby's name because why would you?

“does it have any special meaning?” shoko asked you.

you nodded and said, “of course, kazuki means hope of peace—and i really need that.”

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justwannalookprettyy · 2 days

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𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒶𝓃𝒶 𝓇𝓊𝓁𝑒𝓈 !!

disclaimer!! these are MY rules. u can use them if u want by all means, but just know fasting is easier than restricting 4 me and different things work for everyone <3

i was gonna apply these on monday but how am i gonna take accountability if i keep shoving it off... ah shit here we go again💀

🎀 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝒶𝓉 𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝟧 𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓀

🎀 𝟣,𝟢𝟢𝟢 𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓀𝓁𝓎 𝒸𝒶𝓁 𝓁𝒾𝓂𝒾𝓉

🎀 𝓃𝑜 𝒷𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓀𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉

🎀 𝒶𝓉 𝓁𝑒𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒶 𝟧 𝓂𝒾𝓃 𝓌𝑜𝓇𝓀𝑜𝓊𝓉 (𝓌𝒶𝓁𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒸𝑜𝓊𝓃𝓉𝓈)

🎀 𝒶𝓁𝓁𝑜𝓌𝑒𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝒷𝓇𝑒𝒶𝓀 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒾𝒻 𝒾 𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝒾'𝓂 𝒶𝒷𝑜𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝑜 𝒻𝒶𝒾𝓃𝓉

🎀 𝟣𝟢 𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓈 𝑜𝓋𝑒𝓇 𝒸𝒶𝓁 𝓁𝒾𝓂𝒾𝓉 = 𝟣 𝒽𝓇 𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉

🎀 𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝑒𝒶𝓉 𝑜𝓃 𝓌𝑒𝑒𝓀𝑒𝓃𝒹𝓈

🎀 𝓃𝑜 𝒹𝒾𝑒𝓉 𝒹𝓇𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝓃𝑜𝓃-𝒻𝒶𝓈𝓉 𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈

🎀 𝒶𝒾𝓂 𝓉𝑜 𝑒𝒶𝓉 𝟥𝟧𝟢 𝒸𝒶𝓁𝓈 𝑜𝓃 𝒹𝒶𝓎𝓈 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒹𝑜 𝑒𝒶𝓉, 𝒷𝓊𝓉 𝟨𝟢𝟢 𝓅𝑒𝓇 𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝒾𝓈 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒶𝒷𝓈𝑜𝓁𝓊𝓉𝑒 𝓂𝒶𝓍

🎀 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓉𝑜 𝓃𝑜𝓉 𝒷𝑒 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓈𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝓅𝓅𝓁 𝒶𝓇𝑜𝓊𝓃𝒹 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒿𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝒸𝓊𝓏 𝓎𝑜𝓊'𝓇𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉𝓇𝒾𝒸𝓉𝒾𝓃𝑔..

tips, binge control, safe foods, etc.. below the cut

𝒮𝑜𝓂𝑒𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝒶𝓈𝓀𝑒𝒹 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓎𝑜𝓊 𝒶𝓉𝑒?

remember to look at things in your house that you can easily fake eat :) for example i can do sandwiches since my family eats bread a lot, they wont notice im not using any

breakfast foods: yogurt, toast, bread and jelly, pb sammy, fried egg, scrambled egg, cereal, oatmeal

lunch foods: sammy, tuna salad, tuna packet, tortilla, burrito, leftovers, soup

dinner foods: leftovers, konjac noodles, soup, tortilla, burrito, salad, pasta

𝑒𝓍𝒸𝓊𝓈𝑒𝓈

"i ate earlier"

"i was just about to get something"

"im not hungry, ill have something later"

"i just brushed my teeth"

"i have a stomach ache"

"my teeth are sore" (works for braces + invisalign)

"i didnt really like what you made so ill make myself something later"

"im chewing gum right now"

"i will after _" (long task, like cleaning ur room, painting, taking a shower)

"i have a stomach bug right now, eating isnt a good idea"

"that food will probably upset my stomach" (can u guys tell i have a sensitive stomach...)

"i ate a big meal earlier"

"i already had some of that earlier"

"i snacked a lot earlier, so right now im not hungry"

"i ate while i was out, so im still full from that"

(if push comes to shove, you can always just pretend to eat it and hide the food in ur pocket...)

𝓈𝒶𝒻𝑒 𝒻𝑜𝑜𝒹𝓈 (𝓂𝑜𝓇𝑒 𝓌��𝓁𝓁 𝒷𝑒 𝒶𝒹𝒹𝑒𝒹 𝒶𝓈 𝒾 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇)

my serving size; listed serving size ~ sf = sugar free ~ all cals rounded up

(this list excludes conventional safe foods, e.g. strawberries, lettuce, egg whites, yada yada...)

lucky charms: 35 per 1/4th cup; 110 per 3/4th cup

laughing cow cheese: 25 per one wedge

fettucine miracle noodles (js konjac noodles): 10; 5

bell peppers: 15; 33

walden farms dressing: 0

tuna packets: 20; 60-110

keto tortillas: 25-70

ham slices: 35

yogurt: 20 per 1/4th cup; 70 per 3/4th cup

fudgsicle pops: 40 per 1

sf gum: 0 (gum cals dont count ill fucking fight you on this)

hot sauce: 0

soy sauce reduced sodium: 2 per tsp; 5 per tbsp

sf coffee syrups: 0

𝒻𝑒𝑒𝓁 𝓁𝒾𝓀𝑒 𝒷𝒾𝓃𝑔𝒾𝓃𝑔? (𝒿𝓈 𝟦 𝓂𝑒, 𝒾𝓂 𝑜𝓃𝓁𝓎 𝓉𝒶𝓁𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻, 𝓃𝑜 𝑜𝓃𝑒 𝑒𝓁𝓈𝑒 !!)

ft. meanspo???????????

look at thinspo

go watch mean girls

look at megan fox

scroll on pinterest for 15 mins

maladaptive daydream

look at moldy food

drink water until you think you're about to vomit

throw on a playlist and pace around

workout

scream sing the lyrics to hope is the thing with feathers (stuck in my head for the past 4 days D: ITS NOT EVEN THAT GOOD?? IT LITERALLY SOUNDS LIKE CHURCH POP OR WTVER. IDK WHY I LOVE IT SM.)

r/edanonymemes

r/edanonymous

r/shittyrestrictionfood

r/deppressionmeals

look at grosspo

smell vinegar

look up pics of moldy food and imagine eating it

remember the chunky milk you accidentally drank... the one fucking time i have regular milk istg. my 13th reason why

play wuwa ("b-but theres nothing to do!!" yeah how bout u go finish the main story line n ur 13 side quests???)

play hsr (same thing w wuwa. dont feel like spamming space bar? farm for firefly then :D)

play genshin (yeah you can skip this one. i dont wanna play navias story quest either.)

paint your nails

watch a movie

watch a movie with your mom

affirmations

shitpost on tumblr

think about eating bugs

dig your newly painted nails into your skin until you bleed

crochet

sew

draw

paint

resin

make bracelets

practice piano

clean ur room (ik that shelf is dirty girl go tidy it up)

fold your clothes

organize your closet (not blaming u if u skip this frfr i dont wanna clean either)

tv shows

shave

take an everything shower!!

make some tea

pour sparkling water over ice (so fancy ik)

cuddle with your stuffed animals and cry yourself to sleep. its probably 3 am when ur reading this. go to bed.

cai?!?!?!?!???!???! (not me outing myself rn nobody better be fucking reading this my god im cringing so hard)

jack off or smth idk

msg ur irl friends ik youve been ignoring them,,

live laugh love huohuos signature lc. go look at that. (shes literally like 11>????)

take a walk through the neighborhood

bedrot

remember the cutesy "im literally starving myself to death >.<" ahh aesthetic u want so bad

??? just say no? binges can not legally happen without your consent

whore literally just keep fasting and dont binge its actually not that hard

𝓈𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒 𝒸𝓇𝒶𝓋𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈?

that's okay, you can eat. just remember this is why you aren't 77lbs yet :))

ty for reading!! idk how you sat thru that but congrats!! yay!!! ur finally done reading all my bs!!!!

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aroshockwave · 1 year

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krok was a triple m member who was cold constructed... interesting

#got some thoughts about that...#cold constructs were literally designed for a certain job #to reject your alt mode as a cc would be to literally reject your designed purpose #like same goes for forged #but like cc were designed by others for a purpose while forged were fitted into the system after they were created #ya know?#also if he was triple m then theres a chance that he was anti functionist before decepticons went big #cause they were absorbed by deceptions so what are the chances he joined them after?#i mean we literally have no idea but im using what i have #so its pretty likely that he has strong feelings about functionism #and he was hashtag robowoke before it was cool #lmao #but seriously that could be interesting to explore

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lupins-hehim-pussy · 7 days

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I wanna know ur Fontaine msq criticisms 👁️👁️👂I’m all ears

I'm not sure if you wanted me to talk about this secretly or publicly but! Here I go!

The TLDR: Fontaine MSQ aestheticised prison, poverty, child abuse, the justice system/court and didn't properly address any of it.

Focalors/Furina has way too much of a sympathetic angle for a dictator who's lets people drown with her inaction.

Neuvillette feels Bad for sentencing some people to death/prison, but that's it. He's one of the most powerful people in Fontaine. If he felt like there are systemic injustices, I.E sending an abused Child to prison, he should be the first person to DO something about it, not just cry and be sad so the audience can be like aw, that's complex character writing isn't it? No it's not! And guilt doesn't absolve you!!!!!!! (These are stuff we deal with in OTCOJ read my fic now /j)

Meropide has children in it, both Sentenced there (Wriothesley) and BORN THERE (Lanoire), and this is just a quirk of the place. Not only that, Meropide accepts prisoners of all genders and crimes. There are abusers and abuse victims in one place. Do you know how bad that is? How much potential for crimes to happen in a place like that— oh wait, Meropide isn't under Fontaine's jurisdiction. If you are assaulted as an inmate it literally means nothing to the court.

Wriothesley had no qualifications when he took over. Depending on how long he lived on the streets, how old he was when he killed his parents, how old he was when he was first taken in by the orphanage, etc, the man might never have more than 4–5 years of formal education. Sigewinne probably had to teach him how to write reports. And do Meropide's spreadsheets. Edit because I forgot to elaborate on this one: This isn't a point brought up anywhere, which is bad, because when poverty and incarceration robs you of a proper education (and the rights to vote in many places too, too, by the way), it reduces your prospects for jobs, reduces many people's ability to get a home etc etc. Wriothesley was just, narratively, Given his position.

Meropide is an industrialized prison, and they portray this as a good thing. Prisoners are paid in coupons for their labour, and this is also portrayed as a good thing.

The One-Meal-A-Day reform was something Paimon gushed about being so great of a perk, that people might want to go to jail for food (could be interesting and reflective of systemic poverty if MHY had brains, but they don't, so I was just Pissed because essentially all Paimon wanted to say was "Prison isn't so bad, but still don't go to prison guys! Prison labour is really hard!"). By the way, in most real-world prisons they are obligated to feed you three meals a day. Because that's how much food a human needs. MHY went with one meal just so they can say "if you want to eat more, you have to work." And then the welfare meal is a goddamn gacha. So imagine you're a starving child who's too weak to work in the fucking robot assembly line, and you wander up for your first meal in 24 hours, only to luck in with a shit one. I'd kill myself.

They wrote Wriothesley, who's a victim of the system, into a guy who's say shit like "I'm the Duke I can do whatever I want" for a cool moment where he choke-slams an inmate (I know he was a bad guy. But also, in copaganda when cops are violent/disregarding protocols, they are always only portrayed to do that against bad guys, so what does our critical thinking tells us about this one?) They wrote Wriothesley, who was an inmate of a prison so bad, so notorious that it is the literal boogeyman of Fontaine, that has a legal (???) fighting pit, with an administrator who abuses his position to be unreasonable, to willingly stay in the place and become an Administrator who would choke-slam an inmate while saying a cool line about how he has the power to do whatever he wants. They wrote him, the guy who had to be fed on the streets by melusines, to think one-meal-a-day was a good enough reform (while he spends god-knows how much on his boat). This wasn't a victim-turns-into-abuser narrative either, they want all this to be seen as positive character growth.

And then, the final kicker is, they gloss over his entire abuse. You can only read about these shit in his profile, which most people don't because they don't Have Him or doesn't care to unlock it/read it online, and they jammed his entire backstory into a flaccid info-dump at the end of his character story quest. This man isn't Allowed to feel abused and neglected and show any reaction to it within the narrative of Fontaine itself, because if they actually Gave Weight to what happened to him, they'd have to confront THE FUCKING JUSTICE SYSTEM they had NO PLANS on criticising. I don't think they ever explicitly said the fucking Crime-Theatre nonsense was Bad either.

I could go on, but this is already so long. But yeah, I hope this gave you an idea.

#and then. and im putting my most controversial opinion in the tags bc im scared lmao. but like... then... you have the fans..... doing......#the same fucking thing.#the amount of times I have seen Wriothesley used as just a side prop for Neuvillette to feel bad about shit. While Wriothesley is just.....#portrayed as having the inner peace and acceptance of a fucking monk. I was shocked when I read some fics I swear #they really said this man has no trauma at all! the stuff in his past? he's over it!#i hate that passivity when writing victims. like ok if One is written like that #sure. but MHY write all their victims like this #I mean look at fucking Lanoire #and Neuvillette sentenced him to prison after he killed his parents who were never confronted by the law. That's canon.#that's more canon than WRLT itself.#why weren't they confronted? did wriothesley try to talk to someone about it? why did he feel like killing them is his only option ?????#at least have there be some sort of conflict and friction there. How does Wriothesley feel about the court and Neuvillette when #this is the literal system that allowed all that shit to happen to him in the first place???#are you Sure he won't be at least a little wary? the fact that some people think he's Grateful to Neuvillette or even idolises him is crazy #because the man literally subjected him to prison. and if you want to portray his prison life as easy breezy and trauma free #you undermine his entire shitty little 'prison reform' narrative #and if you think he'd be completely 100% accepting of the justice system. Then why the fuck would he kill his parents himself #don't you see that the whole 'I'll accept whatever sentence in order to kill my parents' thing in itself is an act of defying the system #and I Hate #this idea. about being some of the most powerful men in the nation. and yet they can't fucking TRY to set up a better system or smth #i can't believe I read a fic where leaving starving street kids croissants is the most they (the characters and the writer) want to do #like. what the fuck. the whole point of that scene is just to make neuvillette feel bad and be like aw......... poor people exist.... OK???#this is literally how MHY would portray him though.... tbf..... This is what ppl would argue as 'in character'#I just think the character they're in is bad.#I will say I'm giving the fic a lot of grief. there's more to the scene than that. and. ultimately.....#fanfic is (saying this through gritted teeth) ........ recreational....................and free........... in the end.................#i dont think this is reflective of the writer. I do think it is reflective of the way the canon material (genshin impact)#presents in the audience who consumes it. most fans only want these guys to fuck anyway. not think about systemic injustices #canon doesn't make it about the systemic injustices either so why should we. the aesthetic of slums and prisons are just there for fun guys #IM JUST CRAZY OK. I SHOULDNT EVEN BE HERE THIS IS NOT FOR ME . I DONT CARE THAT MUCH FOR PEOPLE FUCKING AND I CARE TOO MUCH

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