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vent bc what the hell
speech n debate season technically just ended. i feel like this entire season for me was a big ass fail for me. i chose "informational" as my event so that i could make my speech about indie animation, something that i wanted to talk about, so that it would be fun for me. but that idea got funneled down to something else, because not a lot of people can relate to that topic. it soon became a speech about the past, present, and future about animation. and beyond that i would have to change big parts of my speech after every meet, to hopefully make people like my speech. the speech i currently have is nothing like what i originally had in mind, and what i had wanted. no matter how much i changed to speech, i would still fuck something up. i stumbled over my words, i spoke too fast, i didn't handle my visuals well, something or other i did fucked it all up. i took every piece of criticism to heart, paying attention to every little thing i was told about my speech. sure, i had good energy, but that was nothing in comparison to how much i did everything else badly. who cares if ive been told that im a good speaker my entire life, because when it comes to actual speech, what i had was nothing. no matter how many late nights i spent, how many hours of sleep i lost, i didnt qualify for anything. sure, maybe i got 3rd place twice, but in fucking NOVICE. and even then, there was only 5 or 6 people participating in novice, because what the hell. when i actually went into varsity/normal event, i didnt qualify for shit.
i dont know anymore. theres a lot of shit hitting the fan right now. i dont know whether im crying because of speech or something else all together. im turning older in about a month. ive cried on valentines day, and a few other days that were supposed to be a happy day. i dont want to fuck up my own birthday. i dont know how im supposed to feel anymore. i dont think i know how to express emotion correctly. thats a whole another topic that i dont think i can get into. i dont know, ill think ill end this here. as i say when i end my godforsaken speech, "now, lets roll the credits"
viktor cmere i need a very gentle cuddle sesh rn
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So I might have covid... waiting to get tests to check but it's in my house and no one knew until today.
#i didn't leave the house for 2 and a half years (except for vaccines)#i hope i'll be okay#might not be on much
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I hope my friends know i love them. I am such a hypocrite.
#delete later#vent post#personal#i'm not in my right mind i think lol#sorry i just feel awful right now#i'm feeling super suicidal right now and i hate it i hate how i feel this way#i'm scared is all#i don't want to do anything i'll regret#i'll be fine probably#i can sleep it off maybe#i hope i can sleep it off and wake up okay#i hope i'll be okay#i just am not in my right mind as of the moment#i just need to scream this into the void
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There are more things in the Parable than Stanley knows about. [Blank Scripts AU]
#hoh boy i was going to make a comic to introduce these monsters but#i couldnt help myself and made an animation instead#because i just think they're so neat and cool okay#listen i cant for the life of me just infofump about my AU and OCs#because i just think that making actual content about my lore and stuff will not only raise the chances of people being interested#but also it will also raise my motivation to actually produce more content other than the same old recycled front-facing-profile drawings#i need to get creative with my stuff or I'll also loose interest and I DONT want that#in order to be happy with what i have i cant just think about it and expect to be given something new NOOOO i need to MAKE it ughh#i cant believe in order to get more content out of my own au i would need to draw it and feed myself ugh ugh ugh unbelievable (kidding)#but also#i wanna make a little music video or animation again for youtube#its been a hot while since ive uploaded anything in there at all#maybe an animation reel will do for now?#i hope so :(#because ive been working on expanding the Black Scripts AU#and honestly i dont regret it#i had a lot of fun making up scenarios and comics for Stanley and the Narrator (Black)#but yeah!#apart from this little video#you wont be getting an explanation on what these things are supposed to be#and why theyre there#actually i was originally gonna make this into a full fledge animation with sound effect/music/frame-by-frame movement/etc.#but i got lazy HAHA#tsp blank scripts au#tsp au#the stanley parable#the stanley parable ultra deluxe#tsp
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wontons
#digital art#2ha#chu wanning#erha#二哈和他的白猫师尊#楚晚宁#dumb husky and his white cat shizun#cries at my lacking skills#one day i'll be able to do this scene justice#but in the meantime i hope this is okay
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Black Butler Amino, Black Arts Magazine - Holiday Party
it doesn't quite look like a holiday party from here, but what I imagined as a humble little piece is~~ Ciel and Lizzy sneak away from the big bustling midford Christmas party and raid the kitchen desserts, like they did when they were kids(it was Lizzy's idea, Ciel clearly hasn't been himself since he returned, and she wanted to bring him back).
#okay it's been a really long while so hi! I hope everyone has had a cool holiday season so far and will soon have a very great years end!!#and merry christmas to those who celebrate#I've been busy with work and art and unfortunately but obviously fortunately meeting and talking with a lot of people. it's very new to me#and I'm very happy with it. even if I haven’t had any chance to open my digital art folders#but yea that's to say that I'm good. i know no one's worried lol but school's been good and not a killer#I'm back in merica but when i go back i hope that ill be able to get back into the swing of drawing and stuff#I've had plenty of time to get settled and would hate to leave all of my big projects for this summer#I'll see!#kuroshitsuji#black butler#kuroshitsuji fanart#fanart#ciel phantomhive#digital art#elizabeth midford#lizzy midford
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based off this post by @carlyraejepsans !!!
they are the bestest of friends- they are BUDDIES ur honor
#undertale#utdr#papyrus#undyne#undyne the undying#is that her government name or... her determined form. . ....#undertale papyrus#scribble scrimble#HEY I HOPE ALL Y'ALL KNOW IF BISCA RB'S THIS I'LL SHIT MYSELF OKAY? OKAY???????
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hehehehehhooo,, decided to draw some hermits as the mystery skulls animated gang!! why? uhhh mostly just 'cause.
special thanks to the ibaaf server for helping me pick the roles! gem is vivi,, false is arthur,, pearl is lewis,, and etho is mystery!!
better pic of pearl under the cut, where you can how lazy i am,,ms ksmsksjs
#my art#hermitcraft#mystery skulls animated#falsesymmetry#geminitay#ethoslab#pearlescentmoon#falsesymmetry fanart#geminitay fanart#ethoslab fanart#pearlecentmoon fanart#this wasn't supposed to have this much effort put into it. and then it took five hours.#chose etho's role first cuz i really like the kitsune etho headcanon#(yes his collar has a maple leaf on it)#and the lil deadbeats are a bunch of lil tillys!!#we also gave roles to some of the other characters. bdubs is shiromori and cub is reverb/???/possession guy#sorry guys; you're antagonists now 😔#actually i don't think cub would mind this#also i refuse to think any harder about what bdubs being shiromori means. they're both plants okay.#it was either this or joel#or that one sock monster guy from season six#joe and cleo are duet and chloe respectively. joe as duet fits. cleo as chloe does not but also no one else really fits chloe anyway so idc#no more wanting an undead boyfriend.... THEY are the undead boyfriend now.#i think we had uncle lance as iskall??? still not too sure#they both have beards tho. that's something#oh!! also rendog is galaham bc i said so.#anyway. please watch msa it's so so good.#(or watch hermitcraft if you haven't already. a new season started a while back it's the perfect time to join)#not sure if i'll draw more of this;; this is less an au and more just me being silly#but i hope y'all like it regardless!!
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hihi ^-^ if you haven't already could you do a masc leaning kidcore board with dinos and a deco paci?
-@tinikip
Definitely!!
#dinosaurs#!!!#I'll never get sick of dinos#i wasn't sure if having the term prince in here was okay#but i figured I'd try because i can just edit the post if you don't like it kip#also#kidcore#i love bright colors!!#i hope you enjoy#sfw interaction only#moodboard#sfw agere#age regression#agere#sfw littlespace#agere moodboard#babyre#babyre moodboard#dinosaur moodboard#kidcore moodboard
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hello kitty fit
#good GODDDD i've been workin on this for like 2 weeks probably idk. it's... okay 😭😭#maybe i'll come back to it at some point idk idkkkk. i just rly needed to *finish* smthn gaaaaahhhh#the void given form#sawamura haruka#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza#hoping to god i still somewhat like how this looks when i wake up 😭😭😭😭😭
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💘 happy valentine's day! 💘
#cw: angst#cw: blood#cw: violence#<- hope these are enough. this is a misleadingly “cute at first glance” image on purpose. ask to tag.#running a little bit late but i figured i couldn't do a Whole Month of cute ships and miss one on The Day.....!! :) :)#so here's a totally normal one for today! :) :) happy day! rhomance!! whee! wahoo!#galacta knight#🎀💖#“no ask prompt?” there is one (👍👍👍👍) but we'll come back to it. imo this wasn't a good enough prompt fill#okay you know what i'll tag her even though she's barely visible bc it is rather the whole point isn't it. sorry sorry sorry#starstruck dee
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i remember seeing someone bring up adding Blue Beetle to the League, and a comment saying he belongs more with either the Titans or Young Justice. wonder how that'd go 🤔
#i'll probably color this later but i have deadlines to chase 🏃#dc#blue beetle#blue beetle 2023#jaime reyes#tim drake#bart allen#kon el kent#conner kent#cassie sandsmark#sorry to the guy that commented that but do you really have hope that this series holds out enough that they get to the other kiddos#my sweet sweet beetle borg is already a box office failure orz#okay i was thinking like how would you even fit the other guys into this timeline and oh my god i forgot. suicide squad#save us jaime you gotta hold out long enough for live action booster 🙏#right i have deadlines i wish you all a good evening 🏃#comic
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also feeling infinitely tender over oliver captioning his post "finding my light" like. yeah. yeah u did, bby.
#anyways. i'll cry again#i officially need to go the fuck to bed#i have. so much medicine in my system truly at this rate i'll be sleeping until 11am but i just#i have so much love and fondness for this cast and. for buck yes. but also just. for oliver#i hope he feels seen and valued and understood and LOVED OKAY STOP STOP I'LL CRY#[she says as if she is not the one actively making herself cry]#jack.txt#tv: 911#oliver stark#i love u u funky little british dude
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Apologies for my recent radio silence. I've had a lot on my mind lately.
This post isn't Earthspark-related at all, but please read it.
I need to take a second on this blog to acknowledge some things going on in the world. I should not have stayed silent on this blog before, but I'm trying to fix that now.
Genocide in Palestine + how you can help Palestinians
You can buy e-sims for people in Gaza here. Anything helps.
Click here daily to help generate funds for Palestine. It's free and takes less than a minute.
Here's a list of where you can donate to help Palestine.
(If there's anything I should add to this section, please let me know.)
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The KOSA bill, what it's going to do if passed, and how you can help prevent it from taking effect
KOSA will essentially erase anonymity from the internet by requiring people to upload their government ID or other form of identification to any social media site, as well as restricting resources and information on LGBT rights, history, racism, and more. This bill will censor the entire internet and destroy privacy while violating First Amendment rights and potentially putting minors in danger.
This also could very well mean the end of Tumblr, and I'm not exaggerating here.
Tomorrow KOSA could be passed in Senate, and from there it will need to pass in the House of Representatives before being signed into law by the president. It's not doomsday yet, but it is a dangerous situation-- and here's what you can do.
StopKOSA.org provides you with a template email to send to your representatives. You can leave it how it is or edit it to say what you want, and then send it from their website.
The website also allows you to call your representatives and gives you a template of what to say.
BadInternetBills.org, run by the same people, takes action against KOSA as well as other bills like EARN IT. At the time of posting this, over 356,000 people have signed this petition.
Additionally there are several petitions on change.org to help stop KOSA. Here are a few of them.
STOP KOSA
STOP THE KOSA
Stop Kosa
Save Humanity, Oppose KOSA
STOP THE KOSA ACT
(Again, please let me know if there's anything I should add.)
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One last thing-- The evolution of AI images and video.
I don't really have anything good to say. AI is evolving fast and changing the world as we know it. We are adapting, but nobody knows how this really is going to end up.
A few quick points:
AI images are not art. That's all. AI "artists" who genuinely claim to have made something of their own just by typing a prompt into a generator will be blocked. (Which has been in my rules for a while, but I still think it needs to be said.)
I recommend Glaze for artists who don't want their art being scraped and used for data training. Especially with the recent rumors of an upcoming deal between Tumblr and Midjourney. There's also a similar program called Nightshade (haha, earthspark reference? anyone?🦉) that I haven't tested myself but have heard good things about.
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That's all, I suppose. Reblogs are good, if you don't mind.
Spread the word about KOSA. Contact your representatives. Sign the petitions.
Support Palestine if possible. Donate if you can. If you are unable to donate, make sure to do your daily clicks.
Stay safe and take care of yourselves. ❤️
#>> mod: firefly#this will be one of the only non-earthspark things i'll ever post#look i'm going to be completely honest here; i'm stressed out of my fucking mind. this is not okay#the state of the world is terrifying and i hate it#but we can still do things to help#it's important to not give up hope because there is hope and we can fight for it#but not if we give up before we can try#alright yeah that's my attempt at a pep talk. from the earthspark blog mod.#thank you for reading this anyways. <3#oh and anon asks will be off for a short while because i'm scared of. idk. everything right now. sorry about that#tags:#palestine#from the river to the sea#free palestine#stop kosa#anti ai#ai art theft#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#kosa#kosa bill#bad internet bills#internet censorship#hgffgdfgdfh
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he's waiting on a call he's planning to send straight to voicemail
#sorry matthias </3 maybe he'll pick up the next time you try calling............ <- me when i lie#river dipping#ts4#ts4 edit#gifs#theodore doe#echthroi#hi friends and lovers hope everyone's doing well <3#i got my old laptop to work so i have a laptop again even if the battery on it is messed up#but still#i haven't been online much bc i've started getting dizzy from staring at computer/phone screens for too long#and in particular the act of scrolling either on mobile or desktop makes my head spin and my eyes hurt :/#but i powered through it yesterday so i could get in game with theo (and matthias) since i missed him really bad... oc plague be upon ye#i took... well. like five hundred screenshots and forty videos... i was in the soup. the mattodore soup. what can i say?#i don't like posting too much on here bc. i'm crazy (<- has avpd) so i probably won't post much from yesterday's fun here#but i'll post whatever i want on pillowfort <3 pic of jerma holding out his hand captioned let's take mattodore together#what else should i say before leaving... right my inbox... well i'll get to it eventually <- have been saying this since october sorry#but okay i've been staring at my screen too long so i need to go lay down for a bit#enjoy theo in motion!! if you’re a theo-head like myself#theodite à la jermamite? hm. its in the works. i’m workshopping.#mentioning jerma twice in these tags… busting a cyanide pill onto my tongue i’ve said too much#i have to go now mwah mwah mwah bye warmth and love to you mwah
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