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spaloonbabooguuscooties · 8 months

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You could drink your whole life away and still never get that taste out of your mouth.

half commission for @salempie half completely self indulgent dreck pieced together from our insane conversations abt franke and elka. told myself id finally write a big explanation for all of the dum shit between these two for context so Thats Under The Cut.

so I already wrote some stuff about elka and franke's relationship back in whispering rock so feel free to look at that too . it goes over elkas blindness/‘seeing’ with clairvoyance and how her and franke started talking & all that good stuff

SO FOR STARTERS. a lot of thsi wont make sense without a big breakdown of elka herself. because elkas potential as a character is like insane to me. like just the idea of her in the long run of her life reads as something so potentially tragic; a young girl whos plagued with visions of doom and destined to be an outcast even in her own home for things she cant control and clings to the One vision of her wedding that she thinks is 'happy' even despite the fact she doesnt really love the person in it. im choosing to take the li-po doc as canon here because its funny shes the only one with backstory-

but my fucking god even the smallest look into what her parents are like is soo fucked up to me. and i do think elka especially gets a lot of influence from her mother; its funny how easily you can fit mabel doom into a box just from what elka says about her. knees deep in an avon-esque pyramid scheme and leaning into her daughters depressing ass visions & taking her to therapy at age 11 (which would be good if not for the kind of person you can already assume she is & so i doubt the therapist she has really does her any good. i think they share one). she reads as a very I Am My Daughters Best Friend type of mom to me and i can see elka being a centerpiece of the conversation when she has her Amway Girls over for drinks. wine-mom that lets her kid sip from the glass so she can feel like a big girl type deal.

and you can tell that elka is trying to hard to be too mature for her age even in her campster posts. how she writes letters to nils' mom and exchanges baking recipes with her and that feels like she really only interacts with middle aged women and not really many people her own age outside of camp (like her moms friends). which makes sense shed feel the need to ‘grow up’ early when shes probably had to process so many hard things at a young age bc of her visions.

theres a lot of filling the blanks here of course.

elka obsesses over nils to an overbearing degree even despite the fact he treats her like shit ('you promised no talking' and so on) and she treats him bad right back. she leans onto stereotypical heterosexual ideals like taking care of him and overblowing how Manly and Protective JT is and she admires romance stories like pride and prejudice and it feels like she Projects Soooooooo much of what she wants onto boys she barely feels anything for without knowing what its actually supposed to feel like. and clearly she WANTS that ideal future, a happy marriage, an actual romance- but according to nils even when they were dating she ignored him most of the time, which just seems Very Telling

like shes filling a role, overcompensating for emotions and lacktherof she cant digest quite yet, and it only makes more sense when you know shes had visions of their future together. how could that be bad for her? shouldnt it be like the books and movies? but she doesnt really connect the fact that her visions are only for Doomed futures, and if she does she certainly doesnt show it. Doomed relationships. it's been a part of her family for generations and she isn't turning out much different, is she? i dont think she even realizes thats all she ever sees yet, just that its Going to happen. that it's Her future, and it always will be

and like, her only reference for a real marriage so far has been her own parents, and she already Knows they have an affair, and theyre doomed to split, (and i actually like to think they were in rough waters anyway and elka was a child meant to mend a crumbling marriage but thats a whole other thing) and so without a framework for what an actual healthy relationship is supposed to be like she cant really grasp that her relationship with nils Isnt that and isnt ever going to be. she can only cling to this one happy idea of the future, and thats why she keeps chasing him, self fulfilling the actuality of her situation and creating and fostering the unhappy life they will inevitably live together.

and that bleeds into everything else in her life, of course, because as the years go on, as the visions grow in number it just makes sense for her to fall into the predictability of her life. she always knows whats going to happen, her visions are Never wrong- so why try to change things? shes had time to process tragedies days, weeks, months, years before they happen, shes had time to settle into every crack of her life. her parents divorce, her various break ups, her future with the psychonauts.

“and she's already seen so much of a future with [nils] she feels trapped almost. Like she has to be happy in it or else it just means her life is miserable. And it's a mixture of pride and fear of the unknown that keeps her clinging to the One thing she knows. BUT LIKE!!! She knows what's gonna happen! It's easier to grieve when she's been grieving for years... She wants so badly to be happy, But to do that she has to step into the unfamiliar. And that's more terrifying than staying the same miserable person she's always been.”

and thats where franke comes in— and yeah you Do have to take a lot of liberties for frankes character since it’s basically, like, all the info for her is just that shes a Supreme Baby Dyke but thats enough for me. i think she has protective butch itch in her . on campster shes defensive over other women evidenced in the way she keeps watch over the girls cabins for lili when elton is pursuing her . but shes also eager to please and constantly trying to make kitty laugh and also Very naive. but she tries! and i think it only solidifies more as she gets Older and really gets a hold of her feelings & her powers. this is incredibly franke to me

and i think as they grow older together— because i think franke and elka Do stay friends, both because elka is just pathetic and needs that positive connection even if she doesnt realize it and because i think franke is a very Loyal person & annoyingly persistent if you let her be . and i am also a kitty/franke truther. because kittys also important in this web we weave

because i think franke and kitty stay together after camp, to a point— theres a falling out facilitated on kittys end and they break up, but reconnect, and franke kind of... saves kitty from herself a little, from her strict military father whos love only extends thru finances , from her own stifling future , she drives all the way to bakersville in her shitty van handmedowned from her dad and they move in together eventually . they get jobs at the motherlobe , because it’s a pipeline to a decent job, because it’s whats easy, because franke doesn’t really have a future, because she’s never really been good at much, because shes never had much sense, because franke doesnt really care as long as she can live and help, sometimes, if she can, and because kitty’s there, and because elka’s there, and shes so used to being elkas eyes now and shes good at it. shes good at being the muscle of the missions when her colleagues lack it, when hypnosis and predictions arent enough. she likes it that way.

and elka appreciates frankes company. she listens, shes sweet, she does little things for her that no ones ever really put the effort for before; she likes her. franke is strong and bold and makes her laugh and shes always there but god elka cant let go of that future, of that box shes put herself in, that her mothers put her in, of being a Good Wife to a Loving Husband, of getting married normally and falling into unfailing familiarity. thats all shes ever wanted and shes not going to jeopardize that . not for franke, who may not be a boy but is handsome like one, whos always held her after every break up with nils and the men that filled empty days inbetween.

and elka is too stubborn to recognize those feelings anyway. too prideful to accept a way out. too set in her cycle no matter how much she hates it, her little self fulfilling tragedy of her own making, wallowing in her own doom. she struggles for control of her own life when she feels like every choice has been made for her anyway, she puts up her walls and carefully constructs what people see. but franke was always harder to trick, because while empathy isnt a particularly useful psychic power it’s certainly an inconvenient one. all franke has to do is get too close and all those carefully crafted walls fall apart, and elkas control is gone, and thats all she really has. and she tries to distance herself, really she does, but franke is also too persistent. and elka wears gloves, keeps contact that would make her walls crumble from happening as best as she can, but she cant really keep herself from the brief moments where she feels like someone actually fucking cares about her.

and that slightest lack of control, the need to wrestle it back is why she proposes to nils the next time theres a falling out— she knows how it happens, she plans every detail. and he accepts, despite everything. gets her a cheap ring and it feels like lead on her finger and its nothing at all like how shed thought it to be when she was a kid, theres no feather light feeling in her chest, only that dreadful reality that she cant turn this back. BUT WHAT CAN U DO LMAO

elka doesnt tell franke about this engagement until later, on their way back from a mission. late at night when neither of them can sleep, and franke invites elka to smoke in her van, because its been so long since theyve been alone like that, because elkas been so strangely absent lately. and because of everything, because frankes always so damn nice, because elka hates the feel of the ring on her finger, because she let herself get high alone with franke fucking athens whos always been so good at pulling her apart— the truth of it all spills out and its messy and emotional and she hates it, she hates the life shes made for herself, but franke makes it easier to bare and now shes here and shes so close and god she wishes she could see her smile again, she wishes she could see franke, thats all she needs right now and she cant but she can touch her and she can hold her and for tonight, she can be known, she can let those walls crumble, she can be something else just for once here with franke . she can kiss her here in this van, touch that happiness for just a moment, and forget the future that waits for her outside of it. franke begs her to forget the wedding, to just let herself be happy— and god, she wants to, but it means turning her back on everything shes known and everything shes saw to be inevitable, and franke has never been in her future, so if it were supposed to work out why hadnt she seen it and she cant, she cant take that risk but she can have this, even if its temporary, she can have it.

and just as soon as she gets a taste of it, its gone. after that night, after the missions over and theyre back at the motherlobe and have to pretend like nothing happened (franke doesnt, of course she tells kitty about it, she tells kitty about everything.) but that brief moment together haunts elka every time she sees franke, sees herself through frankes eyes, sees herself in her wedding dress because god its all franke can think about! of course it is! she knows how much elkas destroying herself she knows how much misery shes wallowing in that kiss in the van felt like an emotional punch to the teeth and she hasnt ever forgotten it and all she can do is sit and watch while elka throws herself into a loveless marriage. she can come to her wedding and see the way the bride and groom kiss with the emotional weight of a wet towel no matter how hard elka tries to hide it under a pretty dress and bouquets of flowers and meticulous planning.

and elka resents nils but she cant really hate him, its not his fault, not really. he feels trapped just like she does and his feelings of misery only cycle back into hers . they fight and gnash and wear away at each other and its a relationship thats crashed and burned a million times before elka even said i do. and its inevitable that she falls into her mothers habits, a sip of wine here and there to loosen up, until it turns to a glass, until it falls into a bottle on nights when whatever work nils does runs late.

but franke’s still there. shes always been there, hasn’t she? always trying to play knight, always trying to save her, dragging her home when shes stumbling over herself because god who else is going to do it but her? who else is left to care? certainly not nils. never nils. because franke knows her. because franke pities her. shes always pitied her. shes always known. and elka hates it, she resents it, but god in the same breath she’s desperate for it, she envies it to her very bones. elka is a mess but after frankes done with her she has someone to go back to that loves her. and god what elka wouldnt do to have that. to take it and keep it for herself because shes never ever got to have that movie romance shes always wanted.

so now comes this.

because elkas particularly miserable and particularly spiteful and she needs to get franke to understand, just for a moment, drink with her and get on her level and she needs her there with her no matter how her pity makes her feel. no matter how much it makes her shake with anger and envy and desperation, but god the way franke looks at her, the way she still tries to salvage what they have, the soft, slurred way she tells her that it’s okay but its not okay, none of this is okay, it never has been and she just wants franke to shut up and see that, and if she cant then she’ll show her, she’ll show her all the raw angry desperation, with too much teeth and hands that claw and grab and she’ll know why everyones always said she’s too much.

and she knows this puts her on nils’ level too. that this makes her a cheater, that shes no better than he is now. no better than her father and his affair. but god, she wants to be selfish. she wants to be in control. just for once. she wants to feel right and she wants to feel happy and she wants to feel loved. thats all shes ever wanted. and franke will let her have that, just for a little while, at the very least.

anyway. sorry. sorry for being crazy . this isnt even getting into the shit after the comic takes place . elkas stupid brainworld thag she has to overcome in order to finally be allowed in the polycule and live happily ever as worlds first lesbian divorceman

sorry for all the shit i make up instead of caring about actual characters with screentime . bye !

#ive spent months on thsi stupid lesbian toxic yuri slow burn relationship so you all better clap or im blowing this building up #psychonauts #elka doom #franke athens #ill paint the town red

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wheatnoodle · 11 months

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this has been rolling around in my head for weeks and i need to at least express it so i can maybe get motivation to write it in more detail LMAO

night shift by lucy dacus but steve getting over nancy and being able to move on.

failed relationships and rebounds because he can’t even kiss someone else without gagging. he’s on first dates with heidi or sara or payton or becca or whoever it is this time that never make it to a second because he probably calls them by her name at some point.

scrolling through old texts and love letters and her social media even though he knows he’s just going to find things to hurt himself more than he already is. he wants to scream out loud what a bitch she is and how much she hurt him, but he resists and instead keeps scrolling. he wants to shout at her and leave before she can respond.

steve keeps finding himself in places where he ends up seeing nancy and jonathan together, happy. you’d think with everyone in the city instead of a small town now, they wouldn’t run into each other so much, but the universe seems to just have it out for him. it’s killing robin seeing him so heartbroken too.

it’s only about two months later when he gets a text from nancy asking to meet for coffee so they can talk, even though it’s 6pm so it won’t be light for long.

but, he agrees and she’s sitting at a table by the window in the corner and she looks…beautiful. like she always has. she looks up when he walks over, standing in what looks like a “going for a hug” pose. she stops though when he seems to hesitate and gives a polite smile, holding out a hand to shake instead.

nancy’s already ordered their drinks and someone places them on the table right when he sits. of course she remembered his order.

“so…” he says, a bit awkward, a lot quiet.

“…so…” she responds, except now she won’t look away from her lap. steve waits for her to say something, anything. maybe an explanation as to why she wanted to see him, why now, why here, what did she need to tell him?

so he waits.

and he waits.

…and he waits…

and she still wont say anything. so he puts down his mug, and he does.

“am i just supposed to sit here and watch you stare at your feet?”

she looks up then, eyes wide like she’s been caught. she looks nervous. it almost makes him feel bad for speaking up.

“steve-“

“what was the plan? to what…absolve your guilt? shake hands again?” she doesn’t respond. steve sighs and shakes his head.

“you cheated on me. that’s just how it is. i feel no need to forgive you, but i might as well, because i just want to move on.”

he doesn’t want to be here anymore. he can’t breathe. they only last a bit longer of light chat before he’s checking his watch (it’s only coming up on 7) and rising from his chair. she does too and asks if she can kiss him one last time. he just pays for his coffee, says a quick goodbye, and leaves just as the sun sets.

steve cant see her anymore. never again. never again. he’s so stuck in his head he doesn’t notice it’s coming on 11pm and he’s been walking the whole time until an owl in a tree has him looking up at the now dark sky and street lights. he’s back home around midnight and instantly has robin wrapped around his middle, rambling about how worried she had been. he went to talk to nancy, then just disappeared for hours. not answering texts, calls.

he tells her about everything. what she had said. how she seems to show up everywhere he goes. she holds him close, his head on her chest as they lay on their couch.

he quits his day job, robin does as well, and they end up working overnight shifts at a bar/restaurant. depending on the night, they’re either bartending or waiting the table in the bar area. they sleep during the day, go out at night.

steve stops bumping into her everywhere he goes. they’re on different schedules now. he’ll never be up to a read a sunday paper with her name on it since he’ll have just gotten into bed after a long shift.

a couple years down the line, there’s a band that starts playing at their bar, every friday and saturday nights.

they play a heavy version of california dreamin’ that suddenly throws steve back to kissing nancy in the backseat of his car to this song when they were in high school. steve needs to excuse himself for a smoke break, needs to calm his nausea and his nerves.

he’s out back for about five minutes when the back door opens. he flinches at the sound and backs against the wall, though the man quickly raises his hands up.

“sorry! didn’t mean to scare you. uh, i was lookin’ for a place to smoke. you mind if i join you?” the man says, an apologetic smile playing on his lips. steve’s brain short circuits at the sight of him. this man is GODLY, bro, okay, he’s HOT. AWOOGA. he’s all wild, dark hair and big brown eyes. a smile that has something wicked and sweet hidden in it. he’s tall too, only about two inches taller than steve, but still.

steve’s eyes catch on the light reflecting off his rings. he knows his cheeks are burning. “yeah, yeah that’s um…yeah, that’s fine.”

“cool,” the man says and lights his cigarette. steve goes back to leaning on the wall and sucking his own cigarette. “so, what’s got a pretty thing like you out here all on your lonesome?”

steve may or may not choke on his smoke a little. “needed some air. started…thinkin’ too much. what about you?”

“also, needed a breather. worked up a hell of a sweat up there.” and then it clicks and steve is smacking himself in the forehead.

“you’re in the band!”

“i am! you’re in the bar!”

“i am!”

and steve learns his name is eddie, and eddie starts coming in more than just fridays and saturdays. he won’t even drink, just get a water and stare at or talk to steve.

it takes almost 9 months before they start dating and another few after that before eddie practically moves in with steve and robin.

and he has never felt more loved. eddie who sings in the shower too loud and gives the crispiest bacon strips to robin. eddie who holds him during movies on the couch and covers steve’s eyes if he knows a scene in a horror movie might be too much, even though robin will narrate the whole thing. eddie who strokes his hair and rubs his back until he falls asleep and brings him everywhere he goes.

and songs that he once dedicated to nancy are now for eddie and all the new ones that come along are all for eddie too.

and he moves on, and he never sees her again.

#stranger things #steve harrington #robin buckley #eddie munson #nancy wheeler #steddie au #steddie #steve harrington au #robin buckley au #eddie munson au #stranger things au #stranger things fic #steddie fic #stobin

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dairy-farmer · 20 days

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someone ask you what it would be like if someone left tim on his wedding day? I imagine it like in those movies where at the end they just send him a message of "I can't, I'm sorry" or even more dramatic running away when the priest asks "do you accept..."

tim getting left at the alter/on his wedding day would be devestating!!! because in a lot of movies that's seen as this empowering move by the person who says "no" to their fiance to go to their 'true love' and the person who is left is just...left to pick up the pieces, there is no explanation given whatsoever for their wedding turning into the worst, most humiliating day of their life.

and its not even like those movies portray the fiance to be a bad person or match, clearly if they agreed to marry them they weren't a BAD match. but i always thought that trope was a wildly poor decision because the mc wasted everyone's time, money, and broke up with their fiancee because from the BEGINNING they hadn't been sure about getting married and never admitted it until the very last moment when their childhood friend they hadnt seen or talked to in decades came over and they 'fell in love' over the course of 3 days. but that's not the worst part- the act of getting left at the alter is so violently humiliating because its in front of someone's friends and family and coworkers and strangers. like its just an awful thing to do to someone and then for that person to go off for their 'happy ending' while the audience is supposed to apploaud??? as if the fiance that was left wont be stuck having this shadow of a day follow them for decades as everyone they know talks about it for YEARS. like it might not even be 'bad' talking about it but they'd still be bringing it up in conversation. like imagine you slipped and exposed yourself in a crowd of people you knew and they still brought it up years later, even if its done with sympathy it would still be humiliating.

for tim- that's exactly what he'd realize the moment he realized he's been left at the alter. every hero in attendance will now forever remember him as the person who got left at the alter. his fiancee could have chosen any time in the weeks or months leading up, but they waited until the actual wedding day. i dont think tim would listen to any attempted explanations, i dont think he'd be willing to be "friends" with the person who did it even though tim is very much someone who has taken terrible treatment from family and friends but persisted and valued the relationship more than how he was wronged. but this?? this would definitely be too personal, too pointed, to NOT be an act of pure maliciousness. tim has been humiliated in front of his friends and family and that would hurt more than him being 'dumped'

#answered asks #asks #anonymous

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valictini · 6 days

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Honestly, QSMP can do whatever it wants to win back the fans' trust, as long as they don't contact Lumi again and apologize to her for unjustly icing her out, they wont have my trust. That is my baseline.

You'd think it's a pretty reasonable thing to expect, and yet, it's been more than a month and nothing happened.

She was severely punished and was never given an explanation nor an apology. She was cut off from a project she poured her soul in. For no official reason. Just because.

(Reminder: It happened BEFORE Léa went public. It was supposed to be swept under the rug without any cc or fan being aware that Lumi would be gone, just like with Ramon's first admin)

I still dont understand how recontacting her is not, like, a clear priority. I mean, they'll lose an entire language if Lumi is replaced. Do they not see that? And if they do, do they just not care? Because it really looks like it from the outside.

So yeah, for me, Lumi being ghosted is like a canary in a coal mine situation: if THAT obvious problem isn't fixed yet, then I have no reason to trust that the studio's priorities are good. I'll wait for it to get better, sure, I genuinely want it to get better, but for now, I just can't trust them.

Even just a "we did not forget about you, as Quackity stated before, we'll do our best to get actors back in good working conditions, we must ask you to wait for more information" is enough. See, no apology. No legal risk. They can say that. And yet.

(To be clear, I do want them to apologize. Yes, even if it means they 'legally admitted to it' because guess what, they did fucking do that mistake. And Lumi is a human being deserving of respect and empathy. Morally, she deserves a fucking "sorry", actually. Also, if Lumi ever decided to sue, they shouldn't have the opportunity to weasel out of this one. In the off-chance that this happened, I would want Lumi to win the case with no room for bullshit, actually.)

#qsmp neg #qsmp discourse #qadmin situation #qsmp crit #qsmp admin situation

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monsterhighlovurr · 2 months

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Rehabklok-Explained

Alot of people dind it very confusing on Nathan supposdley making Pickles forgive his absuer brother in order to get sober, this is not what Nathan means, lets look into it.

Its very obvious that Nathan doesnt have a “forgive and forget abusers no matter what because family😊” mindset from his view of pickles family and the rest of the bands bio family in dethfam, dethchristmas, and motherklok, where he outright tells pickles that his mom is a pos and he needs to stop fucking with her. “You should tell your mom to fuck herself”-Nathan Explosion

Pickles bio fam dynamic is very complicated but easily summed up, his parents are abusers, Seth is the golden child and Pickles is the scape goat. Pickles developed his addiction at age six from an event were his brother burned down the garage and blamed it on him (keep in mind his brother was only a couple years older than Pickles here, probably around 8 or 9, this is very important).

The thing about Pickles, is that Pickles blames little kid Seth for the abuse he received as a child, ignoring the fact that Seth was also a child living in that same abusive household dealing with those same abusive parents. Like burning down a garage is NOT the trait of a healthy well adjusted little boy with a good home life, Little Seth was obviously looking for some form of attention and affection from their shitty parents too. But that moment was a major catalyst in Pickles life, as it not only permanently cemented him as the scape goat and Seth as the golden child in the family dynamics, but also was the start of his alcoholism, which aides in the overall decline of his life.

Instead of Pickles holding the real problem accountable for their actions(his abusive parents) he blames little Seth for the abuse and holds resentment for little Seth, and uses that event and that family dynamic as an excuse to binge drink, instead of an explanation for his binge drinking.

ADULT Seth however, is an abusive pos who constantly harrasses and manipulates Pickles, taking advantage of Pickles and constantly begging for *huge* sums of cash, even physically assaulting him in dethwedding. Seth is just an overall pos in general, beating up hookers, getting with barely legal teenagers, regular douchebaggery. ADULT Seth should not be forgiven, especially since he makes zero effort to change his ways and uses every moment he can to join in with his parents to make Pickles life as miserable as possible. ADULT Seth is a grown ass man who knows what hes doing and has no excuse for his shitty actions, little Seth however…

Pickles wont be able to move on with his sobriety until he forgives little Seth for what he did that day and stops blaming little Seth for the actions of their abuser parents. HOWEVER, he also wont be able to move on with his sobriety if he *keeps* forgiving ADULT Seth and enabling him. He literally apologizes to Seth in this episode, not for blaming him for the abuse their parents did, but instead for being reasonably upset at Seth for abusing him as a grown ass man and constantly taking advantage of him and his money??? Pickles sweetie that is literally the complete opposite of what Nathan wanted you to do😫. And on top of that he CONTINUES to let Seth take advantage of him and gives him millions of dollars??? Pickles what??!? The lesson was supposed to be, forgive your brother for the shitty things he did as a helpless abused child and hold him accountable for the shitty things he does as a grown adult, not harbor resentment for him as a helpless abused child but forgive and forget his abuse as an adult and continue to enable him??? Theres still hope since he stands up to his abusive mom in motherklok, hopefully Seth is next ☺️.

His moment was Seth was so fucking unsatisfying like plzzz bro, plzzz. Nathan needed to come down there and clarify what he meant because watching Seth use Pickles moment of vulnerability in order to swindle MILLIONS of dollars from him made me so sad for Pickles :(.

#metalocalypse #pickles the drummer #nathan explosion #rehabklok #siblings #toxic family #forgiveness #tw alchoholism #child abuse

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kaeyx · 2 months

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anon who suggested demon beastzai here again !! meeting demon beastzai probably consists of months withstanding very very strange things happening wherever you go and even more so within your house. from lights flashing off and on, scratch marks on the wall, your stuff going missing, things being misplaced…. im not sure how reader and demon beastzai would even meet but i would think after you did, he got hooked on you immediately therefore the weird things start happening

it isnt until he actually makes himself FULLY known to you does he start showing up in front of you with little to no regards of your comfort, im sorry you just have a new roommate !! no takesies backsies !! he lingers behind you randomly , wrapping his arms around him and dotes on you. sure maybe he messes you with and maybe it’s a lot but it’s nothing too serious!!! yet. yet at least. unless youre so insistent on getting rid of him but you dont really have the power to actually do so, so he plays with you lightly <3

oh and he totally watches you take baths or showers, he’s like a cat he will follow you into every room. and let him nuzzle you while he holds you in bed wont you? no he won’t let you outside that much anymore, if you need something he can just order someone to get it for you ! he has a lot of power you know ? why would you need to go outside without him? if you really want to that badly, he supposes he could shapeshift into a human form but he’d really rather stay at home with you.

also going back to what someone said abt the demons faking that they have heats/ruts YOU CANNOT TELL ME THAT DOES NOT HAVE DEMON BEASTZAI ALL OVER IT. HE WOULD DEFINITELY DO THIS…. just hearing him whine while he buries his face into your neck and he presses against you, practically humping you and hes just complaining about how painful this rut is for him !!! even the strongest demons have their weaknesses, youre the only person who can help him :(( he cant go to anyone else

I also don't know how demon Beastzai would come around to be honest.... he just pops up and decides to stay. The closest explanation I can come up with is he's some sort of lord/ruler in the underworld? That could serve as substitute for the PM, but I'm not too concerned about logistics I want the vibes. Somehow, someway, Beastzai decides he's your new roommate and now refuses to leave. Even worse if you live in a little studio apartment, because it's impossible to keep your distance or have any personal space. He'll sit with you, sneak into your bed, poke his head into the bathroom while you're showering, and nothing you do or say will stop him.

Beastzai also refuses to let you leave! He can magic groceries and takeout into your hands, you can shop and order stuff online, why would you ever have to step foot outside? If you complain about being confined to such a small space he'll offer to bring you back home with him, but of course that "home" isn't anywhere in this plane of existence. If you insist on going outside he shapeshifts into a hauntingly beautiful man, his dark fur turning into a dark coat, claws turning into long, nimble fingers. If the light hits his eye just right you swear it looks red. And he holds your hand everywhere you go, of course. Doctors' office, grocery store, he'll even hang off your arm while you're trying to work, exercise, go to class... And he'll be whining constantly about going back inside. He's got a million excuses: pollen, the sun hurts his eyes, he doesn't like getting wet, it's too hot, it's too cold, people make him anxious... It's neverending. And god forbid you have to take public transport, he'll hug you from behind, rest his chin on your shoulder, and glower at anyone who tries to stand close to you until they get off.

As for how he'd look, I have a few ideas but he's mostly the same as regular Demonzai. Big, tall, not buff just broad shouldered, horns and fangs and big claws. Lots of dark brown/black fur especially on his stomach and back. Maybe slit pupils? Yellow or red eyes, perhaps a forked tongue. He might even have backwards knees like animals do, generally I imagine him as part goat with some monster features added. If you strip him naked there won't be a lot of difference between Beast Demonzai and normal Demonzai imo, maybe a few more scars on Beastzai.

Also OUGJSVJDKVJD YES HE FAKES HIS RUTS ALL THE TIMEEEE he gets extra clingy and puts his hands all over you and whines pathetically, humping your leg and crying about how painful it is, walking naked around the house because he's "overheating" and conveniently letting you see every inch of him... And much like regular Demonzai he's not opposed to straight up holding you down and taking what he wants, or using you in your sleep.

#dazai.bsd #demon!dazai #demon!beast!dazai #beastzai.bsd

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centrally-unplanned · 2 months

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As I am now full-in on the body count section of The Flower That Bloomed Nowhere, I do have growing complaints about how it handles its sort of mystery build-up and reveal aspects. There is an adage for mystery novels to "have your answers ask more questions"; you set up a mystery, you *resolve* the mystery, but that resolution itself just creates deeper mysteries. This of course works very well to keep ratcheting up tension and keep the story moving forward; but it also resolves tension at the same time, you do actually get answers as you go. As an author you can perhaps think of there being a "quota" for the number of active questions for the reader to be considering; if you stack too many at once its both too hard to track them and is frustrating to read about, the story never delivers.

TFTBN breaks this rule; not every time, but a lot. In particular with Su's identity/trauma origin it happens all the time, you get literally dozens of "more mystery" moments behind it before you ever get any answers around it. Its just too coy by half! Why is my narrator like deliberately hiding their own thoughts from the reader across dozens of instances where those thoughts would be extremely relevant? The tension has already been ratcheted to the max, you can set it aside for a bit if you want but if you dangle the question in front of me too often it loses impact.

And even though now we have been getting answers, its *still* playing coy. You have a flashback to a scene of child Su being confronted by Ran over her identity mystery, and she breaks down and starts to explain it, and then the scene just cuts, so you only get a half an explanation. Which is enough to pretty much piece it together, so like the tension is gone? Now when you are coy about it (multiple times after that scene!) its a little lame actually, who ya fooling! But what it did is take away the opportunity to just have a really good scene. You cut away from a character's moment of emotional revelation and interpersonal confrontation.

Mysteries, to simplify of course, do two things for the reader; they make you turn the page in your desire to know more, and they set up dramatic stakes for their reveal in scenes. Its a balancing act ofc but you don't want to sacrifice the latter to keep baiting the former.

I feel this too around the "villain faction" for the story. Right now the villain faction is a virtually-unknown group of actors who have had no interactions or relationships with any of the characters, using mystery tactics to kill people. We are many chapters into that plot, multiple people of note have died, but they are still just strangers - their stated motives minimal and seemingly farcical.

Ofc I am no fool, I understand via meta knowledge and have picked up on the hints they have dropped that they will in fact not be strangers in full - I get how stories work. The problem is that meanwhile we have had like multiple scenes of the group having the traitor debate - "is it one of us?" But that question is silly because I *know nothing about the villains* of substance. Why would any of these classmates betray their group for them? We have no info on that. Oh sure sure I have these like, tiny *mechanical* hints. Like one time Seth? He gave a thumbs up to Ezekiel, when they were supposed to be mad at each other. Sus, my dudes. But that isn't a *motive*, right? Its not a compelling story, its just data. Because the story wont resolve any of its dangling questions, the idea that any of these people is a traitor is just dumb, you would have to like explain the entire plot in one infodump to sell it as interesting. By insisting on drip-feeding every mystery, instead of chained resolution-renewal, these plot threads aren't developed enough to work when they need to.

I do think this comes back to the fundamentals of the pacing issue - there is essentially a desire for this story to be longer than it is. Its a 3000 page book (equivalent ofc), but it isn't, not really. I am ~1000 pages into it I guess, but its probably not even ~500 pages in actual content. I could do this in definitely 400. And this is more than just a padding problem - its that structural thing, to make that length work and still be decent as a story (which it is, its a good story overall) you have to sort of chop up your big moments , which sort of kills them.

Like there is a character, Jia Fang, a fellow student who doesn't go with the group, but is mentioned a bunch as a sort of wild card, and its built up right? They are totally gonna show up somehow, there is tension about what they are up to, and then bam, they literally burst through the door. Its great, they make a huge impact, the chapter ends on that cliffhanger.

And then after maybe a few paragraphs with them the next *multiple chapters* are about a conversation between other people, about other topics where Fang is barely mentioned, and then literally, literally, we get multiple other student's academic thesis presentations, before the plot that Fang showed up to be involved in kicks back into gear. Its self-sabotage right, the literary moment broken apart because the story has to hit quota.

Its certainly a case where the serial nature of the publication would make it ludicrously difficult to fix, that I totally get. Art is really, really hard.

#the flower that bloomed nowhere

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rogdona · 5 months

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May I ask to see more about your game OCs? Is that okay?

YESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕 I LOVE GETTING QUESTIONS AB MY OCS!!!!!!!!🙌💕🙌💕🙌💕 THIS GOT KINDA LONG BUT I GOT EXCITED AT THE CHANCE TO DUMP SOME LORE😭😭

im still figuring out their lore, but the basic idea is that this one version of the game got fucked(still working on how, but i want it to be because of some hero character i havent made yet!!) and cannot progress properly, the game is one of those where you are supposed to kill gods(still figuring em out too...)

also none of the characters know theyre in a game, thats just the world they live in and the game thing is the explanation for the designs, worldbuilding, etc

onto the characters🙌🙌🙌: the two lil girls sofi and cami are supposed to be basic npcs in the game, yk, those that repeat the same two phrases and are just meant to make the map feel more lived in, however because the hero cant/wont do their job (still figuring that out) theyre trying to find a way to get their city away from the influence of the gods...im still deciding how they would do that but i think theyd look cool with weapons and the angel would help em(i would say reluctantly but these stories always have kids putting themselves in danger to save the world😭😭)

talking ab the angel!! the guy(who i havent named yet) is a traitor angel who used to serve the god who is supposed to be the final boss, his role in the game is being that one character that helps the hero, explains the mechanics of the game, and is the first ally in the party(his role in the party is that of a healer)

heres what he would look like if the game worked properly, u couldnt rlly tell the missing texture effect he was supposed to have in my other drawings kasjdhfdjksl

#THANKS FOR THE ASK!!!!!♥️🙌♥️💕♥️💕#art #my art #oc tag #ask #ocs videogame #oc 404 #oc camila #oc sofia

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comfymoth · 6 months

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Soo a explanation on why i think being a nidere warewolf would be the worst thing that could heppen to you in ordem paranormal universe (in canon!)

Sooo starting small, the basic warewolf transformation would be catastrophic, imagine the pain of your flash bein inverted? All nideres have a open sthomic imagine having to deal with that? (I mean it would cure it self since nidere's healing is very op tbh)

But what gets me is nidere being a death element creature, the element of death has two main things going for it, the spiral of the passage of time, time is like THE main theme for death and also the parasitic nature of the element, so this lycanthropy (in ordem canon) would be SUPER parasitic taking your sanity in every moment you transform AND the time aspect makes me INSANE

Because like 1 second is 1 hour and three months are 3 decades to the element of death, nidere literally has an ability that can rot your flash god damit! (Ps: is not AS op as it sounds in therms of game mecanics but bare with me) so how long the transformation lasts? Like it could be 1 hour but feel like décades, imagine seeing poor emi being a monster for 1 hour and the transforming back like a 20 year old that lost her youth?

ALSO!!! How can you be só sure you just wont bacame a other side creature? Lite a warewolf nidere is basicly a person that is one step away form being a monster 100% so their only hope is somebody doing their enigma do medo and killing them

Sorry for being angsty and kinda spoiling a au that ware supposed to be cute tho, i have s severe ordem brain rot so i just wanted to put in perspective in canon in my head

OHHH HOLY SHIT……. mannn would that be fucked up or What!!!!

see, my original plan was to just make nidere a plain old werewolf instead of, well, nidere, and i think i might still end up making some changes to him/blending the two for simplicity— but like. thinking about how bad it Could be if i didn’t and just stuck with canon. man that’s fucking insane, holy SHIT!!

god i fucking love the sanity rules though, i definitely want to do something like that with this au. like, i think nidere in this universe is a person who’s lost themself— he’s practically just a monster at this point, there’s little to no human mind left. and whoever he bit just has to live with the fear of wether or not that will happen to them eventually. is it inevitable? or is there a way to hold on?

#opq #opq werewolf au

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amazingmsme · 4 months

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Omfg i need more wilbur sputtering excuses not to get tickled by Wiggly 😭😭 he's so defiantly stubborn he wont admit a thing once he realizes hes a target.

You & me both! I need that dirty rat bastard to be wrecked to hell & back tbh. He absolutely refuses to laugh for as long as he can help it. A lot of grunts, gasps, huffs & snorts as he tries to contain himself. & he tries to cover the first few giggles with a cough but it fools no one

As soon as he catches on that Wiggly seems interested he gets all nervous & tries to shift the conversation to something else & Wiggly says that this “tickling gimmick” is just the childish appeal for his doll he was looking for, but he feels like he should really understand what it is. Poor Wilber tries to give the vaguest explanation but of course that’s not good enough! He feels a demonstration is in order. But Wilber panics & goes into fight or flight mode & he’s a fighter & a half because on impulse he tickled Wiggly before he could think better

Wiggly is so shook & appalled & a truck load of other emotions he can’t unpack & Wilbur is apologizing profusely saying how he was literally just doing what he asked him to because he lowkey thought that’s actually what he meant! Like how else was he supposed to demonstrate tic- oh. & then it dawns on him

Wiggly pins him to the ground effortlessly & start prodding at him curiously & excitedly calling his brothers to “play this new game!”

#asks #anon ask #lib headcanons #black friday headcanons #npmd headcanons #hatchetfield headcanon #wilbur cross #uncle wiley #wiggly #tickle me wiggly #wiggog y'wrath

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fatuismooches · 7 months

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My previous asks about biting is just because i have cute aggression and your works are so cute (usually, one time i wanted to test out how dramatic my mascara was so i read some of your angst, cried) but now that i really think about it? my number one competitor is Il Dottore himself

It's my personal headcanon dottore has really bad cute aggression, sure it's mainly under control now because he's been alive for fuckinf Centuries (for all childhood friends works where the reader is male would it count as old man yaoi- *gets shot*) but with his lover? absolutely out of control

Maybe they're cuddling and his lover's hand gets close to his mouth? eated, chomped

childhood friends reader who has scars on their arms because of how hard dottore has bitten them

it gets so bad that the reader has to give him a taste of his own medicine, he bit them a few minutes ago and now he has his hand by their mouth? EATED (he gets so confused and then Realizes, unbeknownst to you, you started an all out war.)

Make sure to wear turtlenecks during the chomping war because if you walk past him wearing like, a tee-shirt he'll just move the collar of the shirt (or even stretch it, bastard) just to bite your shoulder and then act like nothing happened

after about the first week, you both look like you were mauled by a small cat.

Eventually, a truce is made, so it's not as bad, but you two still bite each other like feral cats.. It's just more provoked rather than "i have to get them back IMMEDIATELY"

So there's not as many bite marks everywhere, mainly on each other's arm and hands now because, what else are you supposed to do if your lover's hand is by your mouth? kiss it? fucking casual. Bite his cheek and watch him go absolutely insane though

some other harbingers who i think have cute aggression but not as bad

The second place is pantalone, he isnt bitey, but he will grab, squish, and tug at your cheeks aggressively if you say or do something cute whole cooing about the cuteness of what you just did

columbina will just, hug and squeeze you really REALLY tight if you do something cute, its hard to breathe but thats ok

the last and (funnily enough) least aggressive when it comes it cuteness, is childe, he'll hug you tightly (not as tight as columbina) and squish your cheeks, but only for a few seconds (unlike pantalone, who will literally make your face numb) he is lime a healthy mix of both of those two, he will get bitey however. - 🎈 pspsp smooches cmere i promise i wont bite you (lying)

🎈 ANON?? HELP IM SORRY FOR MESSING UP YOUR MASCARA I DIDNT MEAN TO 😭 (or did I?) But omg, I honestly didn't know what cute aggression was until now, thank you for informing me of this AND I'M GONNA BE STEALING YOUR HCS BC THATS TOO CUTE 🤲❤️❤️😭

I'm just. EXPLODING 💥 Bro doesn't know how to control his biting strength too so he ends up drawing blood sometimes 😔 (But it's okay since it's Dottore) I bet people assume the scars you have are from something cool like battles but nope... you got BIT by a human, multiple times at that. The first time it happened you probably let out a little scream because he's literally nomming on you unprompted and... you've never met anyone who does that 😨 I wonder if he even has an explanation for it or he just... does it? He just wants to bite you and he will, you can't stop him😭🙏

I mean, you get used to the random bitings, but if there's one thing about you, is that you will put him in his place if need be! If Dottore thinks he can just go on ranting about his research after fatally biting you, he's wrong 😒 He starts waving his hands around in excitement and you know what. Bitten. Nom-nom. Congrats. This is one of the very few times Dottore's rendered speechless. (Worst mistake of your life.) You know how regular couples give each other good morning/night kisses? Well Zandik does something like that... he just bites you unprovoked instead. It's the absolute worst during the Akademiya because you're sweating so hard trying to cover all of your skin but also trying to avoid getting nipped on the neck by that irritating deadly scholar 🫠 He is so nonchalant about it too 😒 But you're not. As soon as you land a bite you're grinning so hard and he's just like 😐 Ehehe... pretending to kiss his cheek and then nibbling on it and giving it a lil bite... I'm evaporating... i love the little love bites <3

THE PANTALONE ONE IS SOOO TRUEEE AWWW 😭🥺🥺🥺 I see him as very touchy so omggg him squishing your cheeks is so cute 😭 You would just be talking and saying something unintentionally adorable to him and all of a sudden he's cupping and then squishing your cheeks all while going on about how cute his darling is, and your words are now getting all garbled up 😔 it's A NEED. (Then he'll kiss your cheeks so gently if you get pouty cuz he pulled too hard :(( <3)

100% agreed on Bina she is. A MONSTER. when it comes to those hugs, you may faint if you don't build up some resistance to it. You can try to do it back to her but for some reason, she isn't really affected by it even if you muster up all your strength, but she still adores the notion! And Childe... RAHHH THESE ARE SO GOOD!! It's funny for him to be the least aggressive but his co-workers are something else I guess 😭 We love a king who's so affectionate but also won't kill you with it 🤭 I imagine if you return it he would be so flattered...especially if you're strong enough to actually keep him from leaving your hug. Now that's the good stuff.

🎈 anon 😳 you can bite me if you want, I don't mind 😌🫶

#smooches talks #🎈 anon #i will proudly wear my bite marks 🔥#his shark teeth are soooo freaking cute ahh #bro prolly bites harder than a rishboland tiger #the pantalone one really has me swooning i cant #dottore love notes <3 #pantalone love notes <3 #columbina love notes <3 #childe love notes <3

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emperornero · 4 months

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two things about my ancient roman universe / story whatever you wanna call it . the thing that is supposed to become a comic series if i have the time and energy for that

the catch-all name for the project is NO KINGS IN ROME . its been months since i started calling it that myself mentally when thinking about it and after writting it down a couple of separate times it stuck with me and i dont think i would come up with anything that sounds better and isnt corny af

ive decided that britannicus is in fact alive and well and co-running the empire with nero . debated whether or not he should stay dead like his historical counterpart so nero can be the only emperor but i think this is way funnier . also there is like no britannicus content anywhere ever and including him as a character will be nice and original maybe ? and getting him to interact more with nero will be fun. ive had plans for his design for years now and it would be a shame to waste. also i want to include one thing in their laurel wreath designs i think will be pretty cool

and dont ask about an in-depth explanation on how theyre both emperors because i dont know what exactly to tell you. lets say in a very simple way that they take turns being emperor. lets stick to this for now . i think that speculating about this for more than a few minutes would be pointless since its not really the point of the story and its just a silly fun project so idk if you really want to play alternative history and imagine a scenario like this in a serious context be my guest but i wont be doing that👍

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randomwriteronline · 2 years

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Lian? Jealous? Psh.

Of course he was jealous.

Jealous of that darn Diamond Clan warden twat.

Of that Melli.

Who did he think he was, going around like that, handing out Aguav Berries like it was no big deal...

He could almost hear him -- oh, hello, how are you, how is your booklet thing going? Here, I battled some of those huge crowds of Pokémon and got you some extremely rare Berries. What? It must have been a hassle? Oh, you don’t have to worry, it really wasn’t any problem at all for me, (and he’d flip his stupid long shiny hair) I’m so good at Pokémon battles after all...

The young warden dug even more furiously into the ground.

He was gonna show him.

“Mistress Calaba, I need your elucidation.”

“That’s warden to you.”

“Warden Calaba, I need your elucidation.”

“On what, pray tell?”

Melli pointed a little further down, towards the muddy lands. Specifically, he pointed her to the pale pink dot which had brown eyes staring right into him with an incomprehensible wrath.

Calaba narrowed her eyes to look better: “That’s young Lian,” she said.

“Yes - what is his problem?” Melli asked.

She just cocked her eyebrow at him, about to demand further explanations, when a louder voice interrupted her.

“Melli! Have you seriously picked a fight with a child Sabi’s age this time?” Adaman shouted at the warden most known for his not particularly stellar manners as he stomped his way to the two wardens at the edge of the settlement as he was wont to do.

At the accusation, the taller man rose his hand in self-defense: “I have done nothing this time!” he rebuked, “I was not even aware of that kid’s existence until he walked over and started glaring daggers at me!”

“And I’m supposed to believe that?”

“Adaman!!”

Calaba ignored them completely, focusing back on the young warden still trudging through the hip-high muddy waters as if looking for something, eyes fixed with impossible fury on the tallest bickering adult.

Hm.

The Clan leader would have had her hands full with this.

“It’s ‘cause he’s a dirty thief!”

Huh!

Alright!

“That is... A really heavy accusation,” Irida said very slowly after a long and concerned inhale. “What has he stolen, exactly?”

The shade of Lian’s wide hat sharpened his already vitriol-full eyes as they narrowed into positively wrathful slits: “He knows what he’s doing,” he only hissed through gritted teeth.

“Yes, he most definitely does - but I also need to know what exactly he has stolen, or have some proof shown of that, because in the case we accused him and there turned out to be... Problems...” and she trailed off, not wanting to imply that this single act could have fucked up the whole peace treaty they had going - because it very likely would not have, but this was Melli, and from what she had heard he was quick to form an everlasting grudge at the drop of a hat.

Whatever the warden understood from her lack of words, it worked into getting him to consider opening up.

He crossed his arms tight, looking and kicking at the ground as his mouth twisted into an unsure grimace, muttering something barely intelligible to himself in a sort of grumbling whine, debating with himself if he should have talked.

“You’re not gonna tell anybody?” he finally mumbled.

Irida reassured him with a solemn nod.

She watched as Lian inched a little closer, asking her wordlessly to lean down a little -- was that... Was that blush? On his cheeks?

“He’s trying to steal my ...”

“What?” the Clan leader asked, because that last word was whispered so quietly she had legitimately no heard it.

“He’s stealing my crush!”

His what.

“What?”

“You know ‘em! You saw him trying!”

“I - Lian, you’re saying he’s trying to--”

“He gave ‘em all those Aguav Berries!” the boy insisted, nearly in tears. “Just to impress ‘em!”

Ah.

Ok.

So Lian (10-years-old, in the midst of as intense an infatuation as a child could be having) was under the impression that Melli (28-years-old, desperately trying to make up for his horrid behaviour whilst keeping his pompous facade at all costs if Mai could be trusted - and she could) was actively pursuing the survey corps kid (15-years-old, very likely blissfully unaware of the supposed love tug-of-war they were right at the center of), possibly for the sole reason of spiting the young warden.

Irida (17-years-old, very awake but feeling as if suddenly the energy had been sapped out of her) inhaled deeply and exhaled just as slowly, trying not to slam her bracelets directly into her forehead in the hopes of knocking herself out.

A formal apology was written out to Melli, not explaining anything.

Nothing was written out to the survey corps kid, because Lian ate the letter after staring at it for five minutes and got a horrible stomach ache from the rather toxic ink for a couple days.

Said kid showed up in the Alabaster Icelands with a bottle of medicine for him and wished him a speedy recovery.

Despite the nausea, Lian seemed a lot happier.

And a lot more flustered.

#pokémon #warden lian #warden melli #warden calaba #pokemon adaman #pokemon irida #pokemon legends arceus #random writing #kids having puppy crushes is a weakness of mine it seems #anyways may i offer you an absolutely wrathful kiddo in these trying times

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sleepis4theweak · 6 months

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FLASHBACK AU QUESTIONS, YOU SAY? FLASHBACK AU QUESTIONS YOU SHALL RECEIVE (Or at least somewhat related to the au questions...)!!

How did you originally come up with the story? Have you planned it out? Have you made any changes since you first thought of it?

What's your fav Mikey dynamic? Do you think it shows in the comic? My personal fav is PB & J duo :>>

Who's your least favorite character in the comic to draw?

Who's your favorite character to draw?

Where did Madame Bishop (I forgot her name- she had one didn't she?..was it Joanne? MAN I HAVE AMNESIA) get that scar from?

IS... IS MIKEY GONNA STAY DEAD...? 😰

Can we have a sneak peek by any chance? :3

What do you think Madame Bishop (...yeah might be Joanne...) would have been like in the doomed timeline?

ALRIGHT THAT'S ALL I CAN THINK OF, I'LL LEAVE YOU OFF WITH A PUN : Have you heard of the theory that no two people see color the same? I guess that would mean color is just a pigment of our imagination 🤔

YAYYAYAYAYYA THANK YOU I GOT VERY EXCITED TO ANSWER THESE YAY!

ANYWHO LONG ANSWERS BUT:

1- This was honestly supposed to be a two part comic. The entire au is based off of experiences I have had (minus the whole dying part of course) with my cousins and or brother. The first part was about Donnie and Mikey- and Mikey having the puppy dog eyes that Donnie couldn't do. That was about my cousin! It was supposed to just be like oh look Mikey can do puppy eyes. And then I saw something about how kids that struggle with understanding emotions can practice expressions in the mirror sometimes* and was like haha I should add this since it's actually something I used to do as well! THEN I wrote the line about him wanting to be the youngest and I mean... my brain went straight to "now what if Mikey dies"...

I didn't expect people to like it as much as they did tbh... so when people started to really comment on it I was like okay I should bring Mikey back to life... But then it turned into a whole au...

It's almost entirely planned out now! And most comics are still based off of stories of things that have happened with my cousins or brother! (Like how I smashed my cousins legos because I was angry at him.... its a long story lol).

*(It can also be something that kids with autism do... and someone actually pointed it out! ->)

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2- Thats a really hard one... I think my fav has to do with the situation I guess? Or how I'm feeling? But Donnie and Mikey are probably my favorite overall! But only by a teensy tiny bit.

Raph and Mikey are my favorite angst wise, and the ones I can relate to the most. Leo and Mikey are really fun, and I really like using it to explore responsibility.

I think it does show in the comic! I mean I went straight to the PB & J duo- and then with Leo and Mikey I really explored responsibility. With Raph and Mikey it was shorter, but it was a lot more emotional for me personally. And right now Raph and Mikey are really getting the spotlight. Though Leo and Mikey are the main ones in the next update! :)

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3- DONNIE. OMFG DONNIE IS SO RECTANGULAR AND ITS TERRIBLE. ITS WHY HE'S HANGING HALF IN HALF OUT OF A LOT OF FRAMES BECAUSE I HATE DRAWING HIM. I've definitely gotten better at him tho! Example for u ->

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4- I think Leo is the easiest to draw, with Mikey coming in second! My favorite to draw though is definitely Mikey. I like his mask tails :) Also he's my favorite in general hehehe

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5- LMAO I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE THE NAME JOANNE CAME FROM IM LAUGHING SO HARD- THATS HER CANNON NAME NOW. ITS CANNON HER NAME IS DR. JOANNE BISHOP.

She got that scar from an experiment! Idk which one... but she was experimenting on something and it freaked and scratched her! :3

It isn't too important to the story, but it may add some depth/explanation to some of her reactions later on.

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6- ... lemme tell you, I have gotten this ask so many times... BUT CONGRATS I WONT DELETE THE ASK THIS TIME JUST FOR YOU <3

Usually I answer the ask, wait until I'm sure the person sending it saw my response and delete it to keep the mystery alive hehe... but I won't delete this one.

No. Mikey is not gonna stay dead. I mentioned it in the first one, but the comic was supposed to end with him maybe dead maybe not... but since the au is continuing... I don't like it when characters die :( Its sad so he was never gonna be actually dead. So yes, he will come back! Its just gonna take a bit...

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7- YOU MAY! I was considering which spoiler to give you... but I've decided to give you a big spoiler... just cropped. :) Because I'm evil like that :))

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8- Hmmm.... idk to be honest, I haven't thought about it... I think she would be just... even crazier. Like batshit insane.

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THAT PUN MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD- THANK YOU FOR THAT AND THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK IT MADE MY DAY <3

#answered asks #<3 <3 <3 #SUCH GOOD QUESTIONS!!!#rottmnt #Flashbacks au #LOOOOOREEEEEEE

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