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lovestaysblogs · 3 months

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another cinderella story

pairing: college au!jeongin x reader word count: 2121 genre: college au, fluff warnings: none network: @skzstarnet

Jeongin frowned at his friend’s bad joke. To be fair it was finals week. They had to find some humor somewhere because if they didn’t laugh, they would most definitely cry. He reached over to flick Jisung’s forehead,

“Go back to studying,” He deadpanned.

Jisung rubbed his forehead with a pout. “I’m trying, bro”. He groaned, “I don’t know why the hell I took this class in the first place.”

Jeongin chuckled, “It’s a required class Sung, you didn’t have a choice,”

“I know, I know but I’m a –”

“Creative writing major” They said in unison.

“We all know. You say it all the time,” Jeongin groaned and leaned back. “It’s college math bro, we all have to do it whether we like it or not,”

It was currently nearing dinner time and they both have been cooped up in the library from the day has started and they have yet barely reached anywhere.

“I give up. I don’t know why I even attempted to study,” Jeongin placed his head on his hands. “And I’m hungry,”

“We need to pass the class,” Jisung said trying to convince himself, “And I do not want to go through this hell again,”

Jeongin looked around, the library was full of tired and stressed out students. “If we leave and come back we’re probably not going to get our spot back.”

“Or, I could leave and you watch our spot?” Jisung looked over at him with a sly smile. “I could bring you back a coffee, please! Innie-ah please!”

Jeongin sighed, running his hand through his hair, “Fine, just go. You need it more than me anyways.”

Jisung barely took notice of his comment before packing up and leaving immediately. “I’ll find the best coffee on campus I promise!”

Jeongin would describe himself as an okay student. The university he attends now wasn’t his first pick. In fact, it’s more quaint than the others. But seeing that he still hasn’t declared a major, he can’t really be too judgy.

He looked down at the foreign formulas in his book. Studying was not something that was on his mind at the moment. So with the lack of motivation and food in his stomach, he starts to scroll on his phone, praying that Jisung comes back soon.

The table he was sitting at shifted. He looked beside him to see a girl unpacking her books, basically setting up camp for studying beside him.

“Hi, uh that’s someone’s seat,” Jeongin said.

She turned to him and he noticed how put together she looked. Her twists pulled into a neat bun, wearing a sweater vest and dress pants paired off with the cliche black glasses frame. She was also wearing a mask but the way she frowned at him with her eyes in despair, when he told her she was in Jisung’s seat, tugged at his heart strings. He could tell she was a nerd, but at least, she was a cute nerd.

“Really? Oh no, the exam is tomorrow and my laptop is dying and this was the only open spot with an outlet right next to it.” Her soft voice brought back some life into Jeongin.

He suddenly felt re-energized. And who was he to turn down a study partner, especially one with such pretty brown eyes.

“Well, I’m sure he’s not coming back for now.”

That was the half-truth, Jeongin prayed that Jisung wouldn’t come back for now.

“You can stay here until he’s back,”

The bright eye smile you gave him as you pushed your glasses up, made him smile as well.

“Thank you so much!”

“No problem.”

After a shared silence, he glanced over to see you clicking away on your calculator. Your brows were knitted together as you punched in numbers and quickly wrote down answers, softly mumbling to yourself.

“Is that college math?” He asked.

“Yeah, the exam is tomorrow and I’m so nervous,” You barely even glanced at him.

But he smiled again. “Yeah, I have it too. But you seem to know what you’re doing. I’m sure you’ll be fine.”

You paused what you were doing and looked up at him. He felt the gratefulness from your eyes.

“Thank you. But I don’t. And it’s no thanks to Professor Cho,”

“Wait, we're in the same class?”

“Yeah, we are”

“How come I haven’t seen you before?”

You looked back down at your notebook, and pressed your lips together, “Oh, you probably just didn’t take notice,” You said softly.

He scratched the back of head, feeling embarrassed. “Well I should have. I can’t believe I’m only getting to know I had such a pretty and smart classmate all along.”

You laughed softly through your mask, “I’m wearing a mask, you can’t even see me.”

“I don’t need to when I know how gorgeous your eyes are already,”

There’s a certain warmth from you that’s pulling you towards him and he wants to find out more.

You rolled your eyes, hoping the mask hid your smile beneath it, but Jeongin saw straight through it. Before he even got a chance to comment you changed the topic,

“How do you think you’re going to do on the exam?”

His shoulders slouched, “Honestly,” He chuckled, “It’s in God’s hands at this point,”

Your head fell back slightly as you laughed at him. It was to the point of people starting to shush you. You covered your mouth, trying to soften your laughter, even though you already had on the mask.

He liked that he made you laugh.

“It can’t be that bad?” You tried to offer little hope, before shaking your head, “No, it’s that bad. Professor Cho did nothing but yell all semester,”

“Or complain about –”

“No one wants to work these days,” You both said simultaneously.

You giggled looking over at him. His jet black hair slightly ruffled, most likely due to stressfully running his hand through it. His dimples really shine through, even when he barely laughs. His eyes glanced over at you and you both made eye contact.

“You’ll do fine though,” You said softly. “I see you and your friend in class and you always have the long ass worksheets he sets for us done,”

“You saw that?” His eyes widened, “Damn, how come I’ve never seen you before?”

He truly cannot believe that you two have not crossed paths before. He was almost mad at himself for not taking notice of you. It’s amazing how in such a short time, he managed to feel so comfortable with a complete stranger. He really wanted to get to know you more. He can’t imagine how much more beautiful you were unmasked.

You laughed, “Maybe it’s the mask. You just didn’t notice me”

But his eyes narrowed at you, “Maybe it is,”

His hand slowly reached out towards your face, “Can I?”

You nodded.

As his hand gently touched the face covering, you both jumped apart at the sound of someone clearing their throat.

Jeongin looked up to see Jisung and cursed in his head. Of course he picked the worst possible time to come back.

“Uh hey, that’s kinda my seat,”

And apparently Jisung was set on cockblocking him too.

“Oh! Sorry, yeah. My laptop’s done charging anyways.” You said quickly packing up your stuff.

“I’ll see you around Yang Jeongin,” You said, “Good luck,”

Jeongin looked at Jisung out of the corner of his eyes. “You couldn’t stay away for five more minutes,”

“Bro, I don’t know why you’re attacking me. You’re the one that gave up my seat to a random girl. Why were y’all so close anyways? Do we know her?” He said handing the coffee over to Joengin.

Jeongin rolled his eyes as he took a sip, “No. But she knows me. And I was getting to know her.” He sighed leaning back into his chair, “The only good thing to happen to me tonight was her and I didn’t even get her name bro,”

Jisung shrugged, “She left her calculator here though,”

Jeongin sat straight back up, “Wait what,”

He grabbed the calculator and examined it, realizing there’s no name on it. Instinctively he stood and rushed out of the library, but he didn’t see you around.

“Damn it, the exam is tomorrow and she doesn’t have a calculator,” He mumbled to himself.

Dejectedly walking back into the library, he saw Jisung packing up.

“Did you find her?”

Jeongin shook his head.

“Maybe you’ll find her tomorrow man. But let’s call it a night because I have a feeling we’re not getting anything else done tonight.”

He shook his head again, “Nah, you go ahead. I wanna stay back,”

Jisung shrugged and left him behind.

The sun was blaring down on Jeongin at the exam center. He woke up early and went there just so he could see the girl with the mask again, in hopes of giving her the calculator before the exam.

It was now five minutes before the exam and still no sign of her. He looked down at the pink calculator with a frown. Before one last hopeful look he turned around with a sigh about to enter the room.

“Yang Jeongin!”

A girl screamed running towards him. As she got closer Jeongin realized it was her.

She came to a halt breathing heavily, “You have my calculator? Please tell me that you do?”

Her pretty brown eyes furrowed once again, reminding him of their first encounter. Her twists were no longer neatly pulled back but a bit more messy resting her on shoulders. Yet, wearing just a simple t-shirt with sweatpants he still found her beautiful. His eyes scanned the features of her face, the mask so rudely covered. Her full lips fixed into a frown and her round cheeks added to her cuteness.

“I do. When I realized you left it, I ran out after you but you were gone.”

“God, I’m so stupid. I didn’t realize I left it until I reached back to my dorm and I had to study using my phone calculator. If you know anything about phone calculators and how inconvenient they are, you can imagine how stressed I was. Not to mention I thought it was gone for good and calculators are so damn expensive nowadays and I got that ages ago and –” Your hands flew up to her face in despair as her breathing got worse.

He gently reached out to your hand and placed your calculator in it. “Breathe.”

And so she did.

Their eyes locked together once again as Jeongin smiled at you, “I’m sure you studied well and you’ll do well. Now let’s go so we never have to go through Professor Cho again,”

You laughed. He really liked that he could make you laugh. “You’re right,”

When Jeongin left the exam room, he saw you outside waiting for him.

“So how was it?” You asked with a smile.

He shrugged, “It was okay. But I think it’s because I saw you again as to why,”

You laughed and shoved him slightly, “You play too much,”

“How was it for you?” He said.

“It was good. Thanks again for bringing my calculator,”

“Of course. I had to find you again,”

“Why?”

“Because I want to get to know you,”

You looked down, suddenly feeling insecurities rise upon you. Why would he want to get to know you?

“I forgot to wear my mask today,”

“So?”

“I…I was just saying that’s why I look different. You’re probably not really interested. It was probably the illusion of the mask,”

He placed a finger under your chin, raising your face up, forcing you to take eye contact with him. “I mean what I say, I want to get to know you. And without the mask, I think you’re beautiful the same,”

You felt your face warm up and if you were a bit lighter, you’re sure you would have been caught blushing.

“Let me take you out,” He said boldly. “After finals. It’ll be worth your time I promise,”

“You don’t even know my name,”

He used his other hand and tucked a twist behind your ear, “What’s your name pretty?”

“Y/N. My name is Y/N,” You said with a soft smile.

He smiled at you back. Your name was beautiful as you were. “Would you go on a date with me Y/N?”

“Yeah, I would,” You said with a giggle.

“You know, I’m actually really glad you left your calculator,”

You gasped and hit him playfully, “You play too much,”

He laughed as he gently took your hand and walked with you. He knew that you were glad too, you just didn’t want to admit it as yet.

a/n:

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yangbbokari · 7 months

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Do You Love Me Too?

Pairing: Hyunjin x fem!reader x Jeongin Genre/AU/Trope: Angst, fluff(?), hurt comfort(?), College!AU, friends to friends to potential lovers(idk if that counts😭) WC: 1.4k Summary: You like him so why can't he see that? But as for the other, he likes you, why can't you see that? Is it so hard to find someone who loves you in this life? Warnings: unrequited love, language(? I don't remember just in case), mentions of stomach cancer, now I'm too lazy to wrote the rest so tell me if I missed something A.N. This was supposed to be posted last Friday but y'all are getting it today. Enjoy!🤗

Growing up, you had two best friends. One, was named Jeongin and the other, was Hyunjin. Anywhere Hyunjin went, you went, and so did Jeongin. It’s been like this since before you could remember. Of course each of you made a few other friends along the way but none were quite like your trio.

But there was something different about your group. A little more different than any other average friend group. You were friends with benefits. Well at least with Hyunjin. You couldn’t exactly say the same for Jeongin.

When you were alone with Hyunjin, that meant that he had full control. Even right before a hang out, he’d come extra early to spend “special” time with you. You could never say no to him. After all, you have had a crush on him since freshman year of highschool. Being in college didn’t change that.

The two of you never thought you’d get caught. But little did y’all know, that Jeongin had known from the start. The flushed cheeks, swollen lips, purple marks along the neck, new set of clothes from what you wore earlier. How could he not notice. Especially since he’s loved you since childhood. He always saw you chase after Hyunjin and never him. But, what right did he have if he was not the one you liked? So he ignored everything and pretended that he never knew a thing.

That was up until, for the first time, you ran into his arms. He was stunned. This wasn’t something that would usually happen so why happen now? But then he heard your sobs, snapping him out of his thoughts.

“I-Innie… I just don’t get it. What does she have that I don’t? Did you know I liked Hyunjin too?” You look up at him with teary eyes. Jeongin was so flustered he just blurted out the truth. “Y-yeah!” It only made you sob harder. He was worried but unsure of what to do.

You continued to ramble. “Everyone knows I’m in love with him BUT him! Am I that unlikable? I’ve chased after him for so many years. I’ve done everything he’s wanted. H-he tells me he loves me when we have intimate moments so why is he with another girl now!? He holds me while kissing my forehead so why is he doing that with another girl now!? He makes me feel special but was that all a lie!?”

Jeongin held you tightly and shushed you down. “No, you’re not that unlikable. Maybe he just doesn’t see you that way. Maybe it’s right person wrong time. If he can do all that with you why can’t I? Why can’t I make you feel special? Why can’t I hold you? Why can’t I tell you that I love you?”

“Cuz’ you’re not him, Innie. No one’s like Hyunjin.” He felt his heart shatter. Of course he wasn’t. After all, as blind as Hyunjin was, so were you. Why couldn’t you see his gigantic, heart, eyes, that only held you? Was he that hard to love? ~~~ After that, you began to ignore both of them. Jeongin also ignored both of you. Hyunjin was a little confused.The rest of the school was baffled. Neither of you have ever grown apart like this. Not even after an argument. Y'all would always make up somehow. So this was a little weird. Hyunjin was worried. His two closest best friends have never done this so he called the both of you for a meet up. Sitting in the cafe was insufferable. Not to mention that Hyunjin also brought his girlfriend, Lia. You looked everywhere but at Hyunjin, too sure you were going to cry if you did. Jeongin simply didn't know if you knew that he accidentally confessed to you so he's been keeping his distance.

Hyunjin sighed loudly. "So are we just going to sit here all day? What's going on with my bestfriends? Did I do something wrong?"

"NO!" Both you and Jeongin yelled at the same time. Hyunjin sighed once more. "Then what is it?" You didn't want to speak more than you already did. Because you knew if you did, you'd accidentally tell Hyunjin how much you've loved him from the start. So you rose from you position and left.

Now it was Jeongin's turn to sigh. "I'll go talk to her and walk her back to the dorms." With that, he also left, leaving Hyunjin and Lia behind.

He called out after you. "Y/nnie! Wait!" But you continued to ignore him. He huffed before running to catch up with you and whipping you around by the wrist. That was when he saw the tears streaming down your cheeks.

"You should've just left me alone. This is so embarrassing." You said as you were wiping away your tears. Jeongin's eyes softened and he wrapped his arms around you. "It's not. This is what bestfriends are for, aren't they?" You chuckled and gently hit him on the shoulder. "Oh, shut up." He laughed with you. "There's my Y/nnie. That's the smile she always wears." You don't know why but your heart fluttered. "My Y/nnie..." You repeat to yourself quietly.

Jeongin walked you the rest of the way to your dorms. He hugged you and then he turned to leave. But then you gently grabbed and tugged his sleeve. "Innie?" His heart pounded against his rib cage. "Y-yeah..?" You took a deep breath. "Did you mean what you said the other day? You know, when you said that I should do everything with you instead." He nodded his head. "Then does that mean that you like me?"

Think, Jeongin, think. If you don't come up with something she'll find out. He quickly turned to you with a soft smile. "No. I just wanted to make you feel better. Besides, I don't have to like you to hold you do I?" You let out a breath you didn't know you were holding. "Oh, thank God! I wouldn't have the heart to reject you. Thank you, Jeongin. For being so good to me."

His gaze faltered. You were relieved that he didn't love you. So how would it turn out when you knew that he does?

But Jeongin didn't let you see that. He just smiled and said, "Yeah."

After you went inside, Jeongin finally let his tears flow freely. How could he be so stupid to ever think that you'd give him a chance. To ever think that your view on him would even change the slightest.

Later that night, you called Hyunjin. "Hello, y/n?" You wanted to slap yourself from ever avoiding him when you heard the worry lacing his voice. "I'm sorry, Hyunjin. None of this was your fault. Me and Jeongin talked ours out so..." You paused, not sure of what to say.

"...so we're all good?" Hyunjin finished for you. You smiled, not that he could see it. "Yeah... we're good." ~~~ Back at school, everything went back to normal. Three best friends enjoying their time. As per usual, you'd bring Hyunjin strawberry milk during lunch. Except this time, he rejected it.

"No, thanks. Lia's getting me something."

"Oh..."

Jeongin could see how the happiness in your eyes faltered. So he snatched the milk carton from your hands.

"Nice! Y/nnie, I knew you loved me. Strawberry milk just how I like it."

"Oh, shut up!"

You punched him on the shoulder and the two of you had your own little time, just horsing around. With Jeongin distracting you, you didn't even notice when Lia came in. That was until you heard her say, "Jesus, you two. You guys would look so cute together. Why don't y'all date already." She giggled and Hyunjin agreed.

Both, your's and Jeongin's cheeks flushed red and you both stopped bickering. "For the record, Jeongin is like a little brother to me. No thanks." You fake gagged.

Jeongin could feel a sharp pang in his heart. Little brother... he'd make sure to keep that in mind. "Ew, Y/n? Absolutely not. I'd rather date a pig."

"Well fuck you too, Yang Jeongin!"

He stuck out his tongue at you as you began bickering with him again. ~~~ In class, the only class that you had with Hyunjin, Lia, and Jeongin, the teacher assigned a group project. So of course you all banded together. Nobody knew how Jeongin made it into this class because out of everyone, only he majored in law while the rest of you majored in visual arts. He claimed that he was taking this art class to get to know his two best friends better. Not that either of you believed it. But it is what it is.

The project was to create a one of a kind art piece that reflected a little bit of each and everyone's art style and emotions. You immediately chose love. Being the hopeless romantic you are, how could you not? Hyunjin chose excitement, Lia chose Joy, and Jeongin chose sorrow. Jeongin's was a bit different from the rest but the rubric did say everyone.

Everyone agreed to meet up at the campus study rooms. But Hyunjin and Lia cancelled last minute. Something along the lines of, "We have to go meet with some other people so we can't make it. SORRY!" So now, it was you and Jeongin stuck in a study room for a couple of hours, brainstorming up a plan.

You began to grow tired and your head was nodding off until you were fully asleep. Jeongin just thought it was the funniest thing to take a few pictures. But he forgot to turn off his flash so it woke you up.

"What the hell, Jeongin! Delete those right now!"

"Make me!"

You chased Jeongin until he gave in. But once he did, you tripped over your own feet. Not wanting to fall face first, you grabbed onto Jeongin. Which inevitably led to him falling on top of you. Both of you were breathing heavily but couldn't find the strength to push the other off. Nor could either of you break eye contact. You wouldn't exactly say that you haven't been falling for him either. But this was something new and weird you weren't ready to explore.

Jeongin found this as a chance. A chance for you to see him as worthy. He slowly leaned down, finally breaking eye contact as his eyes flickered between yours and your lips. The closer he got, the harder it was for you to deny the feelings between the two of you. You felt his lips brush against yours when your phone rang, snapping you both out of the trance.

After practically shoving Jeongin off of you, you picked up the phone. Hyunjin's voice rang in from the other side.

"Hey, y/n. Are you still with Jeongin?"

"Yeah... why?"

"Where are you guys, I'll come meet with you guys."

"Just you?"

"Yeah."

"Where's Lia?"

"I'll explain that later."

"Oh, well we're still at the study rooms."

When Hyunjin arrived, he almost fell into your arms. He began to explain how Lia and him had broken up and how his heart was in shambles. Both you and Jeongin were extremely confused. Hyunjin and Lia had seemed so perfect just hours ago and now they broke up. It was a bit off considering how head over heels they were for each other. ~~~ Hyunjin ended up talking to each of you alone. Jeongin first. He didn't even hesitate. He immediately went straight to the point.

"You like Y/nnie, don't you?"

"What?"

"You heard me."

"No! That's impossible. She's like an annoying sibling."

"Nobody looks at their annoying sibling like they'd do anything for them and fall to their knees if that sibling asked them to."

Jeongin was a bit speechless for a minute. But then he asked a question.

"And if I did? Why would that matter to you?"

"Because I like her too."

"What!? What about Lia? Weren't you just so devastated that she broke up with you?"

"Lia was someone that helped me."

"In what way?"

"She became my fake-partner for a month."

"The hell does that mean?"

"She pretended to like me for month. In return, I'd help her with her reputation and her classwork."

"Well why did you feel the need to tell me that you liked Y/n too?"

Now Hyunjin was a bit speechless. It was hard for him to explain the situation. He didn't know how to put it into words.

"Because... I want you to be good to her."

"You do know she likes you right?"

"Yeah."

"So why don't you take good care of her yourself?"

"We're not meant for each other."

"Speak in words I can understand, Hyunjin! Quit speaking like Shakespeare wrote you!"

"She's not gonna do any good with me."

"You already slept with her for God's sake! Are just gonna use her and dump her!?"

"That's what I mean! She'll only end up heartbroken with me! I pretended to be in a relationship with Lia so that she'd get over me and realize that you're waiting for her! I'm dying, Innie! There won't be a me anymore! My stomach cancer's already in stage 3!!"

Jeongin went silent. He just nodded his head as he headed out the door. When he walked past you, looking distressed, you became worried. But all he said was, "Hyunjin said he wants to talk to you now." ~~~ Hyunjin kept it short with you.

"Do you like Jeongin?"

"No."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes. Why are you asking me about this?"

"Because my two best friends seem to be a good match. I don't want them to end up alone like me."

"You're stupid."

"Oh, really?"

"Yeah, because you'll never end up alone. You'll always have me and Innie by your side. That's what friends are for."

As much as Hyunjin's heart was warmed, it also hurt. Knowing that a warm person like you couldn't be his hurt a little too deep.

"Let's go out drinking. For the sake of being friends this long." ~~~ Jeongin knew he had to watch over you so he couldn't drink much. He also wasn't in the nicest mood especially after what Hyunjin told him. Hyunjin couldn't drink. His condition didn't allow him to. You on the other hand, not knowing much, drank to your heart's content.

"Cheers for Hyunnie's breakup! Cheers so Innie can finally find a girlfriend!" You drunkenly shouted before passing out in between the men. Jeongin turned to Hyunjin. But he couldn't hold his gaze for long.

"When are you planning to tell her?"

"Never?" Hyunjin chuckled tiredly. "I don't want her to know."

"Don't you think it's better for her to know now than later?"

"But if she finds out now, she'll be very careful with me and we won't be able to be the fun best friends we always are. You know how she is."

Now Jeongin got to chuckle. "She is like that." Both men smiled fondly at you. Your mouth wide open, already drooling on Hyunjin's shoulder.

"I'll tell her. Just not now."

Jeongin nodded his head, deciding to put his trust in Hyunjin. Eventually, they decided that Jeongin would take you home and Hyunjin would go on his own.

In the back of the taxi, on the way home, you looked up at Jeongin, studying his features.

"Innie?"

"Oh, you're awake."

"Is that you, Innie?"

"Mhmm."

He could tell that you still weren't sober but still decided to keep the conversation going.

"What is it, Y/nnie?"

"What do you think of me? Am I good enough?"

"Of course you are. I think you're an amazing person. Anybody would be lucky to have you."

"Then do you like me?"

"Do you think that I like you?"

"I don't know!" You began to pout and he just thought it was so cute. He couldn't exactly pull out his phone, so he took a mental picture of this very moment. "Why can't you like me, Jeongin!? Am I ugly!? Am I too much of a sister to you!?"

That's when you started crying and Jeongin couldn't help but fall even deeper in love with you.

"There's just some things I can't tell you." He whispered into your hair.

You were already getting drowsy again when you softly mumbled. "Can you at least love me back the way I love you? I've just been waiting for you to say that you love me."

He could feel his cheeks warm when you said that. Maybe one day he could tell you how much he loves you. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ another a.n: I have more so there might be a part 2 but I didn't know how to word it. and ik, the ending is pretty ass but thats all I have so far

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luvv-nikki · 6 months

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Hot Chocolate Kisses

Pairing: Jeongin x gender neutral reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: kissing, tickling, pet names/nicknames (only bubs and innie I think), happy couple (😔), the L word 😱😱, Jeongin jokingly says he hates you, Christmas celebration, super fluff and cheesy

wc: 1061

Summary: Decorating for Christmas with your boyfriend.

a/n: Am I posting this on thanksgiving?? Yes I am. Argue with the wall.

It was finally your favorite time of the year. December. December first, to be exact, and for the first year in your life, you were going to be spending Christmas with someone special.

You sat on your couch, watching as your boyfriend carefully hung up the stockings on the fireplace. You saw your two names, but there was another gap, which confused you until you saw him grab another stocking you didn’t know you had. As he hung it up, you tried to peek at the name, but Jeongin’s hand covered it.

You waited patiently until he moved, and you felt your heart jump in your chest when you saw your dog’s name on the stocking. It was obvious that Jeongin had made it, which only made it cuter. He looked at you with that smile that you couldn’t get enough of. His dimples showing as he came over and sat next to you. Your eyes followed him as he came over, putting his hand on your thigh and placing a small kiss on your cheek, snapping you back to reality.

It was normal for you to get lost in him like that. You couldn’t help it; he was just so perfect. Every day, you wondered how you found someone like him. “Thank you; I adore the one for peanut.” You said, and his smile got wider if that was even possible.

“I got him some gifts this year, but don’t tell him.” He said playfully, and you could feel your heart melt. “You ready to start the tree?” He asked excitedly, causing you to smile as you nodded.

You went to get the massive box of tree decorations, but of course Jeongin wouldn’t let you pick up a penny if it was on the floor, so he quickly scooped up the box, bringing it to the tree.

The two of you spent hours decorating the tree to perfection, and just as you went to grab the topper, he stopped you. "Wait, can I add one more thing?” He asked, and you nodded, sitting next to him.

You curiously watched as he pulled an ornament out his pocket and hung it on the tree. You saw there was a date on it and automatically recognized it. It was the day you met on a shiny silver ornament. You stared at it in awe before looking over at your boyfriend, who was still smiling. “I think it’s the perfect addition.” You whispered grabbing his hand. He squeezed your hand before pulling it up to his lips and kissing it.

“I think you were the perfect addition to my life.” He said and you immediately got flustered. It took Jeongin a few seconds before the embarrassment sunk in, and he covered his face with his hands. It wasn’t unexpected because Jeongin was easily embarrassed, especially when it came to affection. He was more of an act of service and gift-giving kind of guy, but he loved you so much that he couldn’t help but say cheesy things and want to be close to you sometimes. You grabbed the topper, moving his hands gently.

“Wanna help me?” You said changing the topic to put him at ease, and he didn’t say anything, but you could see the appreciation in his eyes. He nodded, and you got up, placing yourself on his shoulders, your matching pajamas clashing. He easily got up, taking you over to the tree. He kept you steady as you concentrated on putting the little angel on the tree. After struggling a little, you finally got it and clapped your hands excitedly as Jeongin put you down.

After all of that, the two of you decided to make hot chocolate and sit on the couch. You slowly sipped yours as you laid on your boyfriend and admired your apartment, which was now decorated top to bottom for December. "Here, let me do something.” You said before getting up, rushing over to the curtains, and closing them. You could feel Jeongin’s eyes following you as you scurried around the small space before finally turning the lights off and coming back to the couch. The fairy lights, Christmas lights, and illuminated snowflakes made the room much more cozy. You took another sip of your hot chocolate before putting it on the table. When you leaned back, you were face-to-face with Jeongin. Before you could react, his lips were on yours. You immediately kissed back, melting into his touch.

As you pulled away, you giggled. “What was that for?” You whispered, and he smiled, placing his forehead on yours.

“I’ve been wanting to do that since I got here.” He whispered back, and you smiled.

“Simp.” You said, using his own words against him, and his smile immediately dropped.

“Alright, I hate you.” He said with a slight pout, causing you to burst into laughter.

You turned his head back to you, placing small kisses on his lips. “I’m just messing with you, bubs, plus you could never hate me-”

“You’re right, I love you.” He quickly responded, catching you by surprise. Jeongin rarely said those words; he liked to show you how much he loved you instead, which you didn’t mind. Still, it was nice to hear.

“Who wouldn’t?” You replied with a cocky smile, and he put his hot chocolate on the table next to yours.

"Alright, that’s it!” He said before climbing on top of you, pinning your hands over your head, and tickling you. No matter how much you wiggled and pleaded, Jeongin was obviously stronger than you.

"Innie, please, I’m sorry!” You said through your giggles, causing him to smile.

“Say it back!” He yelled back at you, letting out a few giggles himself.

“I love you! I love you so much! Please stop!” You said, and he did. You took a second to catch your breath before opening your eyes to meet his.

He leaned in as if he were going to kiss you, so you closed your eyes but didn’t feel anything. “I know you do.” He whispered before getting off of you, sitting back in his previous position, and grabbing his hot chocolate.

You watched as he started sipping again and sat up, pouting. “Hey! That’s not fair; you tricked me! You can’t just-“ He cut you off with another one of his sweet, hot chocolate kisses.

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inarizqkis · 1 year

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date me? ;; stray kids x ftm! reader

requested once again by the wonderful @shirodleapier <3

warnings! angst, fluffy, stray kids being kids, reactions!!!!!, individual writings for each member, as always nothing physical is specified but reader identifies as male and presents as male :) also some of them (most) the members call reader hyung, but you can change this or think of it as an endearing term instead, it's just casual :) NOT EDITED 😭

request! stray kids x ftm reader. They always thought reader was born a boy. One day they ask reader to date them, and so reader felt the need to tell them he is trans. So like reader coming out to them. Some Angst since reader fears they wont accept him. But also fluff please!

summary! in which reader has nothing to worry about <3

notes! WHEEEW this took a long time to write but it was so fun :) this is in age order, so it starts with chan, and ends with innie. I LOVED WRITING THIS HWVDUAVSJ sorry please send me more requests 🙏🏻

fem aligned dni

reblogs are appreciated! enjoy :)

bang chan:

"wanna go out? with me, i mean." chan asked, nervously, sweating a little bit. he had a crush on you since he first saw you, and maybe he didn't believe it himself until recently. it's not that you weren't attractive, god you were gorgeous. you were like the sun to his moon. chan was a man of action, always getting things done when they needed to be, but around you, he especially wanted to show off.

"ah, about that, i-" you started, and chan got even more nervous, but listened intently, not wanting to interrupt you.

"i need to tell you something. and i really need you to not freak out or hate me." you held his hand gently, and he nodded, confused, gently gripping your hand.

"you know i could never."

you sighed, taking a minute to yourself, before just spitting it out. "i'm not biologically a guy, i.. i was born a girl. it.. took a lot for me to get where i am now, the stares, the hateful comments, dysphoria- and even now, i still get dysphoric. i understand if you don't like me anymore, but-" you rambled, starting to tear up, and chan smiled fondly, before kissing your hand, tearing you away from your thoughts.

"hey, hey it's okay. i understand, and like i said, you could never drive me away from you or make me hate you. all i want is you, even if you come with problems or issues, i'll always be there for you," chan reassured, and you felt a huge weight lift from your chest.

"promise?" you held out your pinky.

"always and forever." chan smiled lovingly, locking his pinky with yours.

lee minho:

"let's go on a date." minho said, and you stiffened, unsure if you heard him right. then again, minho had always been bold around you. he wasn't too different from when he was with his members, but you could tell right away you were never going to get rid of him. like a cat, he was cuddly, kind of quiet, and really liked your attention. the both of you were like two matching puzzle pieces, just.. plus 7 other puzzle pieces, because there was always another member with you both. today however, oddly enough it was only you two alone.

"minho, i need to tell you something first," and alsmost as if on cue, dori, who always cuddled up to you, had jumped up onto your lap. it was almost as if dori noticed your distress, because he started rubbing his head against you.

minho cooed silently, but moved his eyes back to you, furrowing his brows in confusion. "what is it?"

"i'm transgender," you bit your lip nervously, keeping your eyes on dori, who had settled in your lap. "i wasn't born like how i look now. it took a lot of work and effort to get here. if it's too much, i understand why you wouldn't like me anymore."

"jagiya, why would you think i wouldn't like you anymore? i'm not pushed away so easily. even soonie, doongie, and dori love you, probably more than they love me." minho smiled, and stood up, wrapping his arms around you gently, kissing the top of your head, his fingers running through your hair gently.

"i just thought you should know, so if you did react badly, i would be able to get over you faster." you sniffled, laughing softly, wrapping an arm around his waist. you always loved minho's hugs, and honestly they felt safe. he made you feel like you had no problems.

"so, about that date.."

he was home.

seo changbin:

"sunbaenim! let's go get dinner together?" changbin smiled, peeking his head into your dressing room, and you raised your eyebrow. changbin had the fattest crush on you since he saw you perform on the stage after his performance, and he's even collaborated on a song with you once or twice. he loved the fact that you were comfortable being yourself, and were never afraid to show anyone that you weren't easily driven away. he was almost envious of your confidence.

"binnie! you can come in, you know." you smiled. he nodded, and went inside the room, shutting the door gently. you had only half changed out of your stage clothes, and damn the stylist for putting so many accessories on you. you finally took off your shirt, and changbin noticed the light scars on your chest.

"ah, sunbae.. if you don't mind me asking," changbin spoke softly, "what happened there? did you get into an accident?" and you looked down at your chest. you made a face, and gently ran your fingers along the scars.

"ah, these? i'll tell you, but you have to keep it a secret, okay?" you smiled, but internally you were freaking out. how could you let him see these? i mean, better now than later, i guess, but this is less than ideal. you finally got to hear him ask you out, and you forgot to change your shirt first.

changbin nodded, unaware of your internal conflict, and you took a deep breath. "i'm trans. i wasn't born a male, i was born a girl."

"ah, i know someone who is trans too! hyung, have you met..." changbin smiled, and you sighed in relief. changbin didn't judge you, and for that, you definitely swooned. he may as well have stolen your heart, because you knew as soon as he smiled comfortingly, you knew you were in deep. you put your shirt on, listening to him, giving him your own responses.

"changbin-ah, thank you. i was nervous that you wouldn't accept me. i think i really wouldn't have been able to take it if you weren't as understanding as you are." you smiled, offering your hand to help him stand up, and he put his hand into yours. he gently wrapped his arms around you, his face buried into your neck. you weren't tall, but you were taller than changbin.

"you already know me, hyung. i'm weak in the knees for you already. nothing can change the way i feel about you."

you smiled softly, kissing his cheek. "now, what were you saying about dinner earlier?"

hwang hyunjin:

"hyung," hyunjin started, and you turned your head over to him.

"what is it, hyun?"

"do you.. are you single?" hyunjin asked, somewhat bluntly. hyunjin was usually straight to the point, but you had a feeling this was nerve-wracking for him, and it was.

"yeah, i'm single. why do you ask?" you raised a brow slightly, and hyunjin flushed a bit, avoiding your eyes.

"well, it's just.. i like you. i understand if you don't like me back, but i just wanted you to know." hyunjin kept his gaze on his hands, and your breath hitched. you wish that at this moment that at least chan was home, but he and changbin were out at the gym, whilst you and hyunjin had opted to stay home.

"hyunjin, i.. i need to tell you something." you pursed your lips, and hyunjin visibly slouched, ready to get rejected, and he simply looked away.

"if you don't feel the same, i get it. i'm not your type, right? you're not interested in guys, are you?" hyunjin had asked, biting his lip as he kept his gaze onto the floor, holding back tears.

"that's not it! i.. i really like you, but i need you to know something about me. i'm transgender," you blurted, and trailed off softly, picking at your fingers nervously. "i just.. thought you should know.."

hyunjin put his hand over yours, and offered you a small smile. "hyung-ah, you're very brave for telling me. thank you for being you."

"you.. you still like me after..?" hyunjin nodded, smiling a toothy grin, before tackling you gently, wrapping his arms around you as he layed on your chest.

"you're my favorite hyung, y'know. nothing could make me stay away from you. i'm proud of you for having the courage to tell me this." hyunjin murmured, his face buried into your neck, before he leaned up and kissed your jaw gently.

"hyunjin-ah, thank you." you smiled, wrapping your arms around him, and he settled onto your chest, listening to your heartbeat.

han jisung:

"hyung-ah, do you have a boyfriend?" jisung had a crush on you, and didn't know howto ask you out, so he kept practicing to himself in his bedroom. he shook his head, "ah, no that was too direct. hm..."

"jisung-ah, can i come in?" jisung PANICKED. he looked around his room, and shook his head, thinking you could see him, and facepalmed, before tidying up a bit, throwing clothes into the laundry hamper.

"ah, one sec, hyung! don't come in, i'm... naked?" jisung had told you, although it sounded more like a question, and you nodded nonetheless, moreso to yourself.

"okay. i'll just wait outside the door. with this fried chicken i bought for you." you teased. you knew he couldn't resist, since he had just gotten off of a diet where he wasn't allowed to eat fried foods. jisung's eyes widened and he dropped everything and went to the door, takibg a second to catch his breath, before opening the door, smiling.

"you said chicken? marry me, hyung." jisung said, and you swear he had heart eyes for you in that moment. jisung flushed, not meaning to tell you that, and quickly tried to save himself.

"i mean, not yet, anyway, i have to at least take you out on a date first and then we can get married if it goes well for a long time but-" jisung covered his mouth, his eyes wide as he just stared at you in embarrassment. your eyes were slightly widened, as you blinked, unsure of what jisung was rambling about. all you had heard was 'date' and it excited you but also freaked you out a bit too.

jisung whispered, albeit a bit muffled, "too much?" you shook your head, slowly processing what he said, and simply handed him the chicken, blinking in disbelief.

"wait, so you aren't against going on a date with me?" jisung realized after a moment, smiling, looking at you. you shook your head, you honestly had no problem with it.

"no, actually.. except i need to tell you something first." you had said, and jisung immediately felt nervous. he almost wanted to cry and he didn't know if it was out of happiness or confusion, but he simply tilted his head, urging you to go on.

"i'm.. i was born a girl. but i don't identify as one anymore." your voice cracked at the end, as you attempted to blink away your growing tears, unable to look at jisung in fear that he had a disgusted look on his face. jisung groaned, almost relieved, but proud that you had the courage to tell him this.

"ah, hyung! you know i'm okay with that, you scared me! i thought you were gonna say something else!" jisung scolded, pulling you into a hug, kissing your cheek gently, and you laughed, your voice raspy from almost crying

"i just thought it was better that you knew, sung. thank you for accepting me." you mumbled, burying your face into the crook of his neck. he giggled softly, feeling your hair tickle his neck, but simply nodded.

"of course, hyung," jisung grinned, before guiding you into his room. "let's eat before it gets cold, yeah?"

lee felix:

"pretty boy, let's bake together? i promise to let you have the first taste of the batter." felix grinned, clinging onto you, his arms around your waist. felix was always flirty with you, and you honestly hoped it was because he liked you, but he was like this with the other members, too.

"sure!" you agreed, grinning back softly. you had asked what he wanted to bake, and he simply chirped out, 'cake!' so you decided to help him bake the cake.

after about two hours and your promised first taste of the batter, you finally finished the cake that felix had wanted to bake. when he was frosting it, he wanted it to be a surprise, so he made you sit in the living room. he called you back in after 30 minutes, and you looked at the cake in awe. he had decorated the cake really prettily, with all kinds of purples, greens, and pinks. he had made two frogs on the same lily pad, and what you noticed the most was the writing he had neatly frosted underneath them.

'be my boyfriend?' it had read, and you looked over at him, as he smiled nervously. "so...?"

"lix, i-" you had begun, unsure of what to say. of course you wanted to be his boyfriend, but what would he say once he's found out? obviously he won't freak out over it, but some people don't date trans men. that was your biggest worry, is that you'll push him away from you, and your friendship would never be the same.

felix was freaking out, you had this constipated look on your face, and he was checking his pulse right about now. yup, his heart was beating really fast, and he was afraid he scared you off. he thought you felt the same way, but hey, if you reject him, at least he gets to eat his sadness away with the cake.

"hyung..?" you snapped out of your thoughts, looking into felix's eyes. "if you don't feel the same-"

"no, i do! it's just.. i haven't been completely honest with you. about me. i know you wont freak out about itandhatemebutidon'twantthingstochangesoi'mreallyscaredyouwon'tlikemeanymoreandi-" felix covered your mouth, stopping you from rambling any further. he smiled reassuringly at you, also feeling a bit of relief at the fact that you liked him back, and that he wouldn't have to eat this cake by himself.

"hyung, it's okay. calm down. slowly, okay?" felix said, uncovering your mouth and fixing your hair.

you nodded, sighing, before taking a deep breathe. "i'm trans. i wasn't born a male." you finally spit it out, and felix nodded, understandingly.

"it's okay, you're still and always will be my pretty boy." felix was such an understanding and caring person. your lips quirked up into a smile, and you grinned, burying your face into his neck, pulling him into a hug, your arms wrapped around his waist.

"thank you, lix."

kim seungmin:

"hyung, wanna go out together?" seungmin walked into your room, not bothering to knock on the door. he already knew you were fine with it, anyways. you looked up from your canvas, and saw seungmin shyly looking away, and you could already tell this time was different.

"seung-ie, what'd you have in mind?" you asked, and he simply looked away, face flushed as he mumbled words of encouragement to himself, before telling you where he wanted to go.

"namsan tower..? i wanted to go and put our own locks together." seungmin replied nervously, and your eyes widened slightly in surprise.

"like- like a date?" you tilted your head softly, and he looked at you hopefully, nodding.

"yeah, like.. like a date.. it's okay if you don't wanna go with me-"

"no! no i wanna go, it's just.. i didn't tell you something, and i was really hoping that i wouldn't have to tell you because i was scared it would change the way you see me.." you explained, and seungmin tilted his head. if you weren't so anxious at the moment, you would've cooed because of how much he reminded you of a puppy.

"seungmin-ah, i'm a trans male," you spoke, after a moment, and you swear you could hear your heart beating in your ears. seungmin blinked, somewhat in shock, and you bit your lip, not wanting to freak out or anything too soon, but the silence was killing you. "if, if it's too much, i can give you a minute-"

"no! no i just.. you're so handsome, i had to soak it all in for a minute. you're really pretty, like extremely good looking." and with seungmin's words you knew he understood, he just didn't know how to express it otherwise.

"...so, namsan tower it is?" you smiled, and seungmin nodded, taking your hand in his. you felt him shiver, your hands had always been warm, while his hands were always cold, even if he wasn't.

yang jeongin:

"wanna go to a cafe with me?" jeongin asked, showing you the picture on his phone, and you noticed it was a couples cafe. he tilted his head, looking at you, seemingly unaware of your inner conflicts. you want to go with him, but you had yet to come out to him. you don't wanna hide something that big from him, because what if he wasn't okay with it?

"innie, you know it's a popular couples cafe, right?" you played it safe. maybe he didn't know, and wanted to just go and get coffee. it wasn't unusual for the both of you to go and get coffee together, but this might've been different.

"mhm! there's a first date discount too, by the way." jeongin mentioned, smiling softly, and you had the urge to poke his dimples, but stopped yourself from doing so.

"ah, i see.. are you wanting to go for the discount..?" you asked, and he shrugged.

"eh, for the discount, and i want to take you out on a date. there's really good strawberry shortcake here, i've heard." jeongin completely blew past the part where he had basically asked you out on a date, and you felt yourself heat up, your back stiffening. you sat up on the couch, and looked over at him.

"i need to come out with something.. i haven't told you this because i didn't know how you'd react.." you began, and jeongin immediately thought it was bad. had he gone too far? maybe you were already in a relationship? did you not like him the same way he liked you? were you straight? god he hoped he hadn't messed up everything.

"what is it?... is it something bad?" jeongin asked, and you felt your heart crack a bit, with the way his eyes showed you everything.

"no! no it's nothing like that, i.. i just need to tell you before anything, okay?" he nodded.

"i'm transgender. i wasn't born the way i am now. i just.. i really wanted you to know." you said, and jeongin let out a breath he didn't know he was holding in.

"hyung.. you were always like this. maybe not physically, but you were meant to be a man. i still like you, if you're worried about things like that. you can't get rid of me easily." jeongin grinned, and you hugged him, to which he returned.

"thanks, innie. for being a good person," you murmured, and he laughed softly, running his hand through your hair reassuringly, before kissing the tip of your nose gently.

"thank you, hyung. for being who you are." jeongin replied, smiling, holding your face gently.

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j-onedrabbles · 1 year

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𝒎𝒚 𝒔𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒈𝒆 𝒂𝒅𝒅𝒊𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒄𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆: 𝒇𝒓𝒂𝒕 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒚 cw: alcohol, mentions bullying and m*rder, some icky behaviors towards fae, cursing, irrelevant time stamps wc: 1.4k

Minho never really came out to parties. It wasn't his style in all honesty. He didn't like walking around the crowded frat houses with a bunch of drunk people dancing and making out in public. If he was gonna drink, he'd rather be at a kickback with his friends.

Yet here he was, pushing his way through a crowd to try and find Jisung. He texted him but no response; which was not surprising. He figured he just get to the kitchen and grab a drink.

“Minho!” he heard as he walked into the kitchen. He looked up and saw Changbin. At least he found one person he knew.

“Hey bin,” Minho greeted his friend, as he poured himself a drink

“You just get here?”

“Yeah. You seen Jisung?”

“He just went out there, came in for drinks then left.”

“Thanks, Bin,” Minho patted his friend's shoulder as he took a sip. Cheap alcohol.

The two headed out of the kitchen to find their friend. With the crowd that had accumulated in a short time, it made it harder. But eventually, they found him with the fae in their own little circle.

“Minho!” Felix exclaimed. The two were in the same classes for their major, along with Hyunjin, but the nymph didn't expect him to come to the frat party.

“You actually made it!” Jisung shouted over the music, “Oh! You haven't met the other two!”

Jisung pulled his friend closer and draped his arm over his shoulder, “Innie!” he called to the other blond, his ears were slightly pointed as he turned to the two humans.

“Innie, this is Minho! Minho, this is Jeongin! He’s an elf so watch out!”

The two gave each other a courtesy nod before the elf got dragged away by Felix. “Hyunjin dragged Y/n away to dance!” Jisung jumped up a few times to find the two. Once he saw them, he pulled Minho along.

“Minho!” Hyunjin exclaimed, he was the first to see the second human, making the girl turn around.

“Hey!” Minho shouted at his junior

“Y/n, this is Minho, Min, this is Y/n! She’s our favorite siren!”

“Nice to meet you!” Y/n replied as she stuck her band out to him. Minho gladly shook it and smiled back as Hyunjin wrapped his arms around her shoulders, still slightly swaying to the upbeat song.

“You never wanna come to parties, what made you change your mind?” Hyunjin asked his senior

Minho just shrugged, “Felt like it tonight.”

“Well, glad you could make it. I’m going to get another drink,” Hyunjin smiled before he made his way through the crowd

“How many drinks deep are you Ji?” Y/n asked

“I'm on my second,” the changling responded

“I'm surprised you've made it that far without passing,” Minho commented as he sipped his own

“I’m fine so far,” Jisung shrugged, “I’m going to find Innie. You good here with Min?”

“Yeah,” Y/n nodded before Ji pat his friend’s shoulder before he disappeared into the crowd.

“You don’t come out often?” Y/n asked the man in front of her

“Not my crowd. You?” Minho asked

“Eh. Depends on the crowd. I usually just stay with friends,” Y/n answered

“Not drinking tonight?” Minho asked noticing her lack of a drink.

“No,” Y/n shook her head “I’m not big on drinking at frat parties.”

“Probably for the best,” Minho smiled

Y/n smiled back before someone walked behind her and pushed her forward into Minho. He held his drink up so it didn’t spill on her or him while his free arm wrapped around her torso, hand on the middle of her back. “Rude ass,” Y/n scoffed

“You okay?” Minho asked

“I’m fine,” Y/n replied as she stood up again.

Minho’s hand didn’t move from her back. He’d seen her around the campus with Jisung before but never really talked to her. He knew the fae had a certain charm to them, everyone did. It was a feature of them you couldn’t miss, especially when it came to sirens.

Beauty was unmatched by the fae. You would have to be an idiot to disagree. Now Minho was seeing it up close, it was just as intoxicating as alcohol, if not more. She’d done nothing but smile at him but that was pretty much all it took.

“You look nice by the way,” Minho commented

“You don’t look so bad yourself,” Y/n replied, “You’re a dance major, right?”

“Yeah. Same classes as Hyunjin and Felix. Why?”

“Dance with me.” That smile was dangerous. Anyone could get memorized by it.

“Alright.”

Y/n pulled him closer by his jacket and wrapped her arms around his neck. All while Jisung was watching with their friends on the side. “Nice job on the dress,” Jisung told Jeongin.

“Took forever to get her to agree to buy it.”

“Hey,” Hyunjin stated, “Since when has Minho had a interest in Y/n?”

“No idea,” Jisung shrugged, leaning on the elf for support.

“Siren charm,” Hyunjin scoffed

The night progressed further, everything in the house was loud and hot. Y/n pulled Minho out of the crowd, mainly because her feet were hurting from the heels Hyunjin and Felix had forced on her. Their friends had found them soon after they made their escape.

“Y/n!” Jisung hugged his friend

“You’re wasted aren’t you?” Minho asked

“What?! No!” Jisung exclaimed

“I already cut him off,” Felix said

“Thanks Lix,” Y/n smiled to her friend

“I’ll take him back to the dorm before he passes out,” Changbin offered, prying the drunk Jisung off the girl and slinging his arm over his shoulders.

“No!” Jisung whined as he was dragged away.

“He’s not gonna remember a damn thing from tonight,” Jeongin added

“Well, I’m going back out there.” Hyunjin shrugged

“I’ll come,” Felix exclaimed as the two nymphs headed out.

“I need to have a seat and get some air,” Y/n said

“I’ll join you,” Minho offered

Jeongin smirked at his friend as the two walked off towards the front yard. Minho kept behind her as they made their way out the door. The cold night air was refreshing after being inside with a bunch of drunk people.

Y/n perched herself up on the side wall, sighing in relief to be off her feet. Minho stood next to her, leaning back against the concrete side wall. “Thanks for dancing with me,” Y/n said after a couple of moments of silence, “It was fun.”

“No problem. I enjoyed it,” Minho smiled

“The sirens got her next victim!” Someone yelled from the grass below.

Minho looked back at the voice and glared at group of boys who were laughing.

“Leave it alone Minho,” Y/n told him

“You get comments like that often?” the dancer turned back to the girl

“Not a lot now. When I first came here, yeah.”

“What about the guys? They get comments?”

“As far as I know, not really. Most just glares. Jeongin never really gets anything that i’ve seen since a lot of people know elves will double it and give it back to you. Hyunjin and Felix, mostly a lot of unwanted flirting, typical nymph issues. None of them are known to murder people so,” Y/n explained

“How long have the fae been here?”

“Centuries? Hard to say.”

“You think they would stop bullying you guys after living with them for so long.”

“You learn to deal with it. I’ve heard worse than that.”

“Shouldn’t have to,” Minho moved to stand in front of her, “whether your fae or human.”

“Don’t worry about it, really.” Y/n shook as the wind picked up a bit, not a good night for a short dress.

“Here,” Minho said as he shrugged off his jacket and wrapped it around her shoulders

“Quite the gentleman, aren’t you?”

“Sorry to break up you’re moment,” Hyunjin’s voice came, making the two look at the three who just walked out of the house, “But we’re dipping.”

“There’s no other parties tonight so we’re just heading back to Felix’s for drinks,” Jeongin added

“Wanna join?” Y/n offered to the man in front of her.

“You sure?”

“Come on Minho, you’re not a party guy anyways,” Hyunjin said

“Lead the way,” Minho agreed.

The four fae smiled. Y/n jumped down off the wall and fixed her skirt. The five headed off back to Felix’s apartment for the remainder of the night

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t-0ne25 · 5 months

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“I’m drowning in the night.” — Option B2.2: Moonstone

[Make sure to please read Chapter 25 of Red Lights first, before you continue.]

You’ve been wearing the orange moonstone around your neck for a week straight now, your subconsciousness knowing quite well who it reminds you of. When you were still working at your old company, Jeongin used to have one of them on his desk, for some spiritual meaning. You haven’t stopped thinking about him since then—no, screw that, you haven’t stopped thinking about him since you for whatever reason voted him out of the show.

You dearly regret it now, you’ve thought about messaging him these past seven days but, first, you’re a coward, second, you’d feel bad for reaching out after getting rid of him in Red Lights.

In order to distract yourself a little from all the mess—mainly consisting of the troubles of finding a good lawyer to sue Han Productions—you dress up a bit, wanting to head to a pub later. Hopefully, you’ll manage to get your mind off of all things disturbing you.

Once you’re ready, you step out of your room and enter the hallway of your shared apartment. Your roommate spots you, taking a look at your outfit.

“Are you going out?”

Things between you and Hyunjin are still tense but he tries his best to make up for the things he did.

You nod, “Yeah, I won’t be out for too long.”

“Have fun and take care,” your roommate tells you with a soft smile.

A little while later, you find yourself inside a new pub that just opened. You put your coat away, until you take one of the few empty seats right at the bar, sinking down on the soft cushion. It’s pretty dark but cosy inside, the huge ceiling light looks a bit like the moon at night. Out of reflex, you grab your necklace, placing the gemstone between two of your fingers.

“Is that an orange moonstone?” a very familiar voice asks you.

Great. It isn’t enough that you’re constantly thinking about Jeongin, now he’s already appearing in your mind, tricking you to believe he’s actually here.

“Earth to Y/N,” he says again.

That’s enough. You sigh, before you bring your gaze up to the source of the voice.

And there he is. Yang Jeongin. He’s wearing a black leather jacket, he bleached a few strands of his hair and has a lip piercing now. He looks a little different, although you can’t deny that he’s even hotter than before now.

“Innie, hi… new style? I like it,” you say.

He chuckles, “Yeah, wanted to try something new. You look pretty too, especially with the moonstone around your neck.”

You’d look even prettier if I exchanged the jewellery with my fingers, he wants to speak out loud but decides against doing so.

“Thank you,” you shyly reply, before trying to get the attention of the bartender.

“Nah, let me get that,” Jeongin says, before he speaks to the employee. “Could we have two more somaeks?”

When the beverages arrive, Jeongin pays for the drinks and hands you one of the glasses. They clink together, before you guide yours to your mouth and take a generous sip.

“How have you been? Who did you choose in the end?” Jeongin breaks the ice then, finally.

“Good, good. I didn’t choose anyone. I quit during the finale.”

His eyes widen, “How come?”

“It… just got a lot, how fucked up the show is and all. I didn’t want to give them a happy ending, you know? And despite that… I felt like I voted out the man I actually wanted to be with, so…”

Jeongin clicks his tongue, knowing exactly what you’re trying to say, “Hm, I see. You’re only realising now, huh?”

“No… I’ve known all along. I was too much of a coward, I guess,” you admit.

“So, what do you want from me?”

“Maybe… go on dates together, make out, have sex. Possibly in that order, you know, to not rush things and all that,” you explain.

“Hm, I told you I’m a gentleman, right?”

You clearly remember when he said that, half-jokingly, after being knuckles deep inside your cunt.

“Y-Yeah, I know,” you shyly reply.

“Alright, let’s give it a try then.”

You get into a deep conversation a little after, forgetting about time. You’ve switched to alcohol-free drinks some hours ago, just enjoying being together again. You have a lot to catch up on. At some point it turns a little more flirty and steamy. Jeongin has gotten a lot closer, one of his hands placed on your thigh, wandering upwards, dangerously close to the hem of your dress.

“Regarding your offer,” Jeongin suddenly starts, a smirk decorating his pretty face.

“Yeah, Innie?”

The cute nickname has always gotten the best of him—the same is happening now, he feels his heart skip a beat at the sound of it.

“How about you take me out on that date tomorrow and until then, we skip all the other parts and do what we wanted to do since we spotted each other here?”

You know exactly what he’s referring to, his gaze has been drifting to your mouth for what feels like half an hour now.

“Good idea, Innie.”

You’re the one to crash your lips into his, as he immediately gives in. He scoots even closer, not caring at all that you’re in a public place—after all, this has never stopped but rather encouraged the two of you. His tongue enters your mouth, dancing together with your own, as he slips his hand under your skirt. Jeongin is careful and painfully slow with his movements, mostly just to tease you. After all, you deserve that a little.

He disconnects his lips from yours, all suddenly, earning a whine from you, “You know… when we were on that golfing date, I promised to finish what I started.”

“How about we find a more quiet place then, hm?”

A few minutes later, you’re inside the spacious bathroom of the pub, sitting on top of the counter. Jeongin is standing right between your legs, eagerly kissing you as if he needs you to breathe, as if you’re his oxygen.

You’re parting his thighs further, when his hand wanders underneath. Your former colleague brushes over your panties with his fingertips, realising you’re already absolutely drenched—only because of him. On top of that, the sweet little moans spilling from your mouth prove your eagerness just as much.

That’s why he decides to slide down your ruined underwear, stuffing it into the backpocket of his jeans. You stare at him, waiting impatiently, as he fumbles with his belt. Jeongin pulls down his pants and boxers at once, freeing his erection.

“Innie… I need you raw, please,” you whimper, when he gets closer to you.

“You sure about that, babe?”

You nod, “I’m on the pill.”

Jeongin teases your clit with the tip of his cock, smearing his own and your precum all over it.

“Please, fuck me,” you tell him while your big eyes are still looking at him, unable to wait any longer.

“Nothing I’d love to do more than that,” he chuckles, before he pushes his length inside.

He takes his time with you, letting you get adjusted to his size and used to the feeling. Jeongin would have loved to eat you out, prepare you a little more for him, but with how eager you begged him to fuck you, he decided to do this next time or just after this round.

“This time, scream as loud as you can… I want everyone inside the pub to know that you belong to me, yeah?”

He opts for a steady pace at the beginning, keeping you close when he holds your hips with one hand, his other one getting placed on the surface of the counter. Moans spill from your lips, when he continues pounding into you, your wet warm walls sucking his cock into you, as if this is meant to be.

“You’re so tight, fuck,” he lets out, changing the angle a little.

“And you feel so good inside me, Innie,” you reply, before reaching for his hand.

You bring two of his fingers to your clit, letting him play with you.

“Shit– I’m fucking close,” you whimper, letting your head fall back in pleasure.

“Yeah, baby? Then go on, how about you be good for me and cum all over my cock, huh?”

You do exactly as you’re told, as if Jeongin just flipped a switch on you, when you cream all over his dick. Your legs start shaking and your walls are tightening even more around him. At the last second, you slide your dress up further, while Jeongin pulls out of you and shoots his seeds all over your lower stomach and pussy.

He’s fast to grab some paper towels in order to get the both of you cleaned. After adjusting your hair and outfit, you turn around to him again.

Jeongin puts a gentle kiss to your lips, “Let me bring you home, yeah? It’s already quite dark and late.”

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sunshinejeonglixie · 9 months

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Only You

tags: sfw, gender neutral reader, !!eating disorder!!, sad but comfort (if that even makes sense, like its sad but changbin makes it better), supportive helpful bf changbin

description: reader struggles with an eating disorder after comparing themselves to the other idols changbin is around all the time, he comes in and takes care of them and gets them back into a more positive mindset and healthier habits

a/n: i'd been thinking recently about how much i love changbin & his health positivity and how much he preaches a "take care of yourself don't worry about the amount of food" kind of mindset and i just love it so much so then this idea came to mind. anyways, y'all please take care of yourselves please know that your health is so much more important than any number, any looks, anything & you are so loved just the way you are.

!!Everything written here is fiction, not meant to be taken as real life, if anything here makes you uncomfortable please just block & move on!!

“Only down 4 more pounds?” you whisper to yourself, staring at the scale in front of you.

Every week you check, and every week there is more disappointment.

Over the past 2 months you’ve lost about 5 or 6 pounds a week, trying more and more to get that number to go up. You’d wanted it to be more, trying more to get past a certain mark. Only having one light meal each day and working out more than you should. Is it a healthy thing? No, and you know that. But it’s what needs to be done in your mind.

This habit started after you went to music shows with your boyfriend, Changbin, more often recently. You’d seen some of the other idols, admired them, saw how everyone loved them and chased after them. Consistently complimented their bodies and their looks. You’re not sure why it got to you so much, it’s not like anyone said anything bad to you, you just wanted people to see you that way too. Maybe if you lost weight, they would look at you like that, treat you that way too, you thought.

You decided from that point you’d cut down on the amount of food you eat and increase time at the gym with Changbin. You’d already been going with him pretty regularly, so the increase wasn’t too suspicious or anything. The difficult part was hiding the fact you weren’t eating more than a small meal each day. Changbin was very attentive, especially with food. Always trying to get you to try new things, share his food with you, and make sure you were well taken care of.

You’d been able to brush him off a bit, which you felt a bit bad about if you’re being honest, and just convince him you were already full or didn’t want to try what he was offering. You’d hoped he wasn’t catching on, but you started to wonder if maybe he noticed more than he let on. When you’d have food together he always started by trying to feed you first, trying to get you to have a little more, things like that.

Your secrets and plans all came crashing down in one day. It started in the morning with you going over to the dorms to hang out with the members, at this point they weren’t just his friends they were yours too. Lee Know had made a special breakfast and immediately brought you some to try. The look on his face when you told him you didn’t want any definitely made your heart sting a bit, he always showed his love through providing for others so when his friend didn’t want any it hurt him a bit, even if he tried to hide it.

“Changbin already headed off to the gym y/n” I.N says through a mouthful of food.

“Don’t talk with your mouth full” Lee Know scolds.

“Thanks Innie, I was actually coming here to hang out with you guys though.” You smile.

“ooo, come with us to dance today?” Felix asks.

“I don’t have any dance clothes with me. I’ll watch though!” you explain, trying to make any excuse to get out of it just in case it could reveal any of your bad habits.

“You can borrow some of mine if you want.” Felix smiles at you, always a helper.

“Oh… yeah alright I’ll go then.” You start to become nervous, damn Felix and his consistently helpful nature.

They all smile, glad to have an extra friend coming with them today. You can’t help but become a bit nervous though, show any signs of weakness or any of the habits you’ve created, and they’ll all know.

After everyone is done with breakfast you all get ready for dance and head off to the company. You in some shorts of yours you found in Changbin’s room and one of Felix’s T-shirts he let you borrow.

Once you get to the company some of the other members meet you there, all of them except Changbin and Chan are there, they were running late after finishing at the gym.

You all started warming up, stretching so there wouldn’t be any injuries. Lee Know decides they’ll just start without Changbin and Chan for a bit and they can catch up later. They ask you to fill in one of the spots since you know almost every Stray Kids choreography.

Everything is going fine for a bit, you’re tired and it’s hard since you’ve not eaten anything to keep your energy up today but it’s fine. You can work through it you think.

That is until you start to get a fuzzy feeling, the room starts to spin. You try to step to the side and sit down but it’s too late. You pass out and hit the ground, hard.

Of course, everyone immediately becomes super concerned. Lee Know stopping practice and taking charge, telling Felix to find out where Changbin is and having I.N run downstairs to the medical office in the company.

You’re not out for long, 5 minutes maybe, but that feels like an eternity to the panicked boys.

As soon as you start to wake up you see the JYP nurse sitting on one side of you, Lee Know on the other, and Felix running back in with Changbin and Chan directly behind him.

“Hyung what happened?” Changbin asks Lee Know

“We were doing dance practice and they just dropped, we’re not sure.” Lee Know explains, moving out of the way for Changbin to take his spot sitting next to you.

“Baby what happened? Are you ok?” Changbin takes your hand, almost in tears with worry.

All of it is very overwhelming. Your whole body filled with panic, knowing that you’ll have to explain something and that all your unhealthy habits will be revealed. Everyone is watching you with concern, not sure how to respond to anything.

“All your vitals are ok, have you had anything to eat within the past 24 hours?” the nurse asks.

“Um…” you hesitate, knowing you need to tell the truth, but at the same time ashamed of the truth.

“No. I haven’t.” you stare at the floor, not willing to look at anyone around you, feeling they’re all going to be disappointed.

“I imagine that’s the problem then. Have a good meal, get some rest, and you should be ok. Don’t do any more intense physical activity without proper amounts of food and water.” The nurse scolds before packing up her things and tells you to come visit her if you have any more issues.

You nod, tears filling your eyes, no words to explain the feelings going through your body right now.

“Nothing in the past 24 hours?” Changbin whispers

You can’t bear to listen to his disappointment. Before anyone can react you push yourself off the floor and walk out the door.

Back in the practice room everyone has different levels of shock and confusion. No one knows how to react until Lee Know speaks up.

“Well go talk to them, aren’t you going to?” He looks at Changbin.

“Yeah, right, of course I am.” Changbin stands up, following Lee Know’s instructions, as if he hadn’t even had a full thought until Lee Know said that.

Changbin walks out of the practice room, walking down the hall to find you sitting at the top of the stairs, crying.

“I know you’re mad, you don’t have to tell me.” You say before he can even get a word out.

“I’m not mad.” He says while sitting down next to you and grabbing your hand.

“Yes you are, I made a stupid decision and got myself hurt because of it. You have every right to be mad.”

“I’m not mad.” He repeats before continuing.

“I’m concerned as hell, but I’m not mad.”

“You should be mad.” You say through more tears.

“No. I shouldn’t be, and I’m not.” Changbin says, trying not to cry just from seeing you struggle.

“y/n when was the last time you had a meal? A real full meal?”

“Tuesday evening when we had dinner together.” You mutter, almost quiet enough he’s not sure he heard correctly.

“Baby it’s Thursday morning. Have you had any sort of snacks or anything since then?” he asks, growing more and more worried.

“I had a piece of toast yesterday morning.”

Changbin is speechless, trying to find the right words.

“We need to get you something to eat baby.” He says, standing up.

You nod, knowing he’s right but still too nervous to look at him.

“Lee Know always keep snacks in his backpack, I could get those from him and then come back and we can talk more before we go get lunch?” He asks.

You shake your head; you don’t need everyone to know everything yet.

“I can’t tell them… they’ll be mad too.” You whisper.

“Baby I won’t tell them anything you don’t want them to know. They won’t be mad at you, just like I’m not mad at you. We’re all just worried.”

“I wanna go home.” You cry, grabbing his hand to pull him back next to you.

“Ok, we can go home. I’ll take you home, we can order some lunch to be delivered, and we’ll talk.” Changbin says, wrapping his arms around you.

He picks you up off the floor, holding you in his arms before setting you back on your feet.

“I’ll go get our stuff and then we can go, yeah?” He asks.

You nod and let him go to walk back to the practice room.

Once he walks back into the practice room, he’s met with a mixture of many different things. Questions, worries, and even some tears from a worried Hyunjin.

“Is everything ok?” Felix asks.

“I’m working on it; I’m just coming to get our stuff and then we’re going home for the day.” He explains.

“We’ll keep working here, we’ll stay out of the dorm for a while so you can talk.” Chan says.

“Thanks, hyung, coming back around dinner time is fine.”

He takes both of your guys’ bags and heads back out to you, grabbing your hand and taking you home.

The walk home is hard, both mentally and physically. The exhaustion is still getting to you and mentally your brain won’t stop moving. Once you guys get back to the dorms Changbin leaves your stuff in his room and brings you to sit at the table, quickly ordering food to be delivered.

“How long have you been doing this?” Changbin asks.

“A bit over 2 months…” you admit, no point in lying to him about it now.

Changbin’s heart shatters into a million pieces at this point, his baby has been feeling this way and not taking care of themselves all this time and he didn’t know.

“I’d noticed you’d lost weight, but I thought it was just because you’d been coming to the gym with me so much.” He says, his voice filled with guilt.

“Binnie you couldn’t have noticed.”

“What changed? What made you start feeling this way?”

This question brings more tears, knowing you’re going to have to tell him the truth and confess all the terrible thoughts you’ve been having is hard.

“When I went to the music shows with you, I saw everyone there and how good they looked and how much everyone complimented them… I figured if I lost weight, looked like them, maybe I’d be better for you. People would look at me like that too.” You confess.

“But you’re so beautiful baby, you don’t need to be like them. Especially not for me. I chose you; I didn’t choose them. I chose you because I want you exactly as you are.” He comforts.

“But you’re so perfect Binnie, and I’m just-“ you start before he cuts you off.

“Don’t you dare say anything negative. You’re absolutely beautiful and amazing and I love you so much. I’m not perfect, no one is, but that’s ok. I don’t need you to be perfect I need you to be healthy and safe, I need you to be you.” He says before pulling you from your seat at the table into his lap in his seat.

Instinctively you hold yourself up a bit, not relaxing all your body onto him. He immediately notices this and pulls you closer before speaking.

“Relax, don’t hold your weight off of me, you’re so gorgeous.”

“I’m too heavy Bin” you mumble.

“No, you are not, I lift more than this in the gym every day.”

“I was gaining too much before.”

“Baby no you were not, you were gaining whatever your body needed. Healthy bodies aren’t always tiny and that’s ok. That’s still beautiful.”

His words really do bring lots of comfort, even if you don’t fully believe him yet. Finally, you hear a knock at the door and the food is delivered.

“Let me make your plate for you please.” He asks, and you nod. Knowing it’s probably for the best.

He sets a plate down in front of you, not an overwhelming amount of food, but enough.

“When you’re finished with that if you’re still hungry there’s more.” He says

“Thank you Binnie.”

“Anything for my baby.”

After you guys eat, and he very closely monitors all that you ate, you guys decide to watch a movie to take your minds off the stress of the day.

Once the movie is over he tells you that you guys need to create a plan. One day of talking isn’t the end of this and you both know it.

“I want you to stay here for a while.” he asks, wanting to be able to keep an eye on you when needed.

“Binnie this is so much farther from work I can’t walk all that way.” You remind him.

“You can take my car; I’ll walk to work or take Lee Know’s car when I need it.”

“Alright. I’ll need to get a lot of stuff from my apartment if I’m gonna be here a while.”

“That’s fine, I’ll make space in my closet, and we can go pick stuff up tonight.” He agrees before continuing.

“I don’t want you eating by yourself for a bit.”

“Binnie I can eat a meal by myself.” You say.

“Love, please, just for some peace of mind. I want you to eat with me, the members, your family, your friends, someone just for a while. I need to make sure you’re actually eating.”

You understand where he’s coming from, agreeing that it’s probably a good idea.

“Anything else?” You ask.

“Not at the moment, if I think of something else I’ll come to you.” He says.

“I appreciate your concern Binnie.”

“I just love you so much baby I have to take care of you.”

Later that evening the rest of the members return from the JYP building, by that point you’d fallen asleep in Changbin’s room, exhausted from the day’s events.

Changbin walks out to greet the members, asking what they got done during dance practice.

“Absolutely nothing.” Lee know says with a slight irritation in his voice

“Where’s y/n?” Felix asks Changbin.

“In my room sleeping.”

“Are they ok?” Hyunjin asks, stress still in his face.

“They’re fine, we’ll talk about it later. Why didn’t you guys get any work done?”

“Why do you think?” Chan laughs

“You guys didn’t have to spend the whole day stressing I have it under control” Changbin is thankful they worry about you like he does but also worried they didn’t get any work done all day.

“I tried telling them that but apparently I ‘don’t know shit’ according to Han & Felix” Lee Know says with an eye roll.

“Hyunggg we said we were sorry for saying that” Felix whines.

“Yeahhh we were just worried we didn’t mean it.” Han agrees.

“Whatever I’m not really offended but don’t you people think that if something was a major emergency that Changbin couldn’t handle he would ask for our help??” Lee Know says, sounding like this is a point he’s made about a thousand times today.

“Let it go. We’ll get stuff done tomorrow.” Chan says before anyone can reply to Lee Know.

Slowly you wake up after hearing the voices in the living room, worried about what everyone has to say, but glad they’re home. You’d felt a little bad basically kicking them out of their house for the day. You decide to just get it over with and head out there, any questions you can’t answer or anything that becomes too overwhelming can be taken on by Changbin. He’d already promised he’d help you talk to them.

As soon as you walk out the bedroom door you’re met with smiles and hellos from everyone.

“Hi baby, did you sleep well?” Changbin asks, coming over to hug you.

“mhm, your bed is so comfy.”

The silence from everyone is a bit awkward for a second, no one knows quite what to say until Lee Know walks into the kitchen to do dishes which seem to unfreeze everyone, and they all move to do their own things.

The next couple days are slightly stressful, having to explain what happened to everyone and Changbin recruiting them to what he calls the “y/n protection squad”. When you asked what he was protecting you from he responded very seriously with “your brain” which made you giggle.

There’s always someone there with you when you have a meal, even if you both just eat next to each other while you do separate things, there’s always someone making sure you actually eat the meal. It’s not easy at first, getting back to eating more than one meal a day is a slow process, so your body doesn’t react too weirdly to it. The first day you ate more than 2 meals a day you got a stomachache for the rest of the day, so you’ve decided it’s gonna be a slower process.

It's also a difficult process because of the stress and anxiety you still feel eating “so much” even though it’s a healthy amount. Changbin has forbidden use of the scale for a while, just to keep your mind off the numbers and back on the health side of it.

“Numbers on a scale have nothing to do with how you feel or what your body needs” he reminds you when you think of weighing yourself again.

It’s nearly a year before your eating habits are more stable and healthier again, and even at that point you can still have some rocky moments. Over that year you’ve gone back to those bad habits twice, always saved and pulled back by Changbin and the other members. You still eat with someone else for about 95% of your meals, not because Changbin tells you to anymore but because he was right, it really does bring you comfort and help you finish a meal without panicking too much about it.

One of the biggest struggles came when they had another comeback, and you went back to the music shows with them. Changbin told you he’d understand if you didn’t want to go but that you were more than welcome to come. Seeing some of the other idols talking about their diets and how much they’ve lost really sent you into a bit of a panic.

You’d walked back to the Stray Kids dressing room in tears, just looking for anyone to try and pull you out. You found the whole group there, immediately you grabbed on to Changbin, explaining what had happened.

“Honey don’t worry about them and what they’re doing, ok? You do what’s healthy for you and your body. You’re so gorgeous and beautiful and I’m so proud of how hard you’re working to take care of yourself.”

“Why are you with me when you could have any of them? They’re better, prettier, smarter-“ you start to ramble before Changbin cuts you off.

“I don’t want any of them. I want you. Only you. You are special, I love you because of who you are. I don’t want you to be like them, if I wanted someone like them I’d find them. I found you because I want you.” He says before continuing.

“And for the record I think you’re the most gorgeous smartest best person in the world so don’t you dare say they’re better than you.”

He holds you close running a hand up and down your back. His words are comforting and reassuring. It makes you realize that he’s right, there’s a reason he chose you and not anyone else.

“Thank you Binnie, I love you” you say, hiding your face in his chest. Slightly embarrassed to let your insecurities get the best of you in front of everyone.

“There’s no reason to thank me baby, I will tell you these things every day until my last breath if it’s what you need to understand that I love you and you’re perfect the way you are.”

“I don’t mean to interrupt but we gotta get going soon.” Chan says before everyone starts to grab their stuff from around the room.

Once everyone is packed up and ready to go you all head out to vans to go back to the dorms. The whole ride home you just think about how loved you feel. Not just by Changbin but by all the members, of course their love is in a different way than Changbin’s but it’s still love. The amount of time, energy, and effort they’ve put into helping you all this time makes you feel so good. It’s a long road to being ok, and it’s ok to not be ok, just knowing you can ask for help and that they’ll be here to catch you when you fall is enough.

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moonflowerchanniesgirl · 2 years

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Tranquility

Pairing: choreographer reader x idol Lee Know

Genre: fluff, established relationship

Warning: none (gasp who am I )

Summary: same couple as in zemblanity serendipity, not really a sequel, just a moment in their lives

Minho overworks himself and that’s just how he is, you know you won’t change that but at least he has you to lean on.

Word Count: 2k

Authors note: this is not an accurate representation of stray kids but an interpretation based on an idea that stems from them.

This is a little glimpse into a moment with our couple from Zemblanity + Serendipity. You don’t have to read either of those first but some stuff mentioned might be otherwise confusing.

You gently ran your fingers through his purple hair, just touching soft enough that you knew you won’t wake him. You sat on the floor of the dance room and he was asleep with his head on your lap. It had taken quite a bit of convincing to get him to at least take a break and he only agreed to take a nap when you promised that you would wake him in exactly 30 minutes. The fact that he pretty much knocked out as soon as his head touched your lap proved how tired he was. Most of the boys were tired preparing for the year end performances but Minho especially had multiple special stages as well as the group stages.

The boys and the company liked how you choreographed the stages for Kingdom and they decided to bring you on as a more full time member of the Stray Kids staff. You still had your own dance studio that you sometimes taught at but in terms of idols you were mainly working with Stray Kids. You complained that it felt a little like nepotism since you were dating Minho but the boys convinced you that they really did like the dance ideas that you presented. It did help that you had so much past experience working with Minho that the two of you pretty much understood each other with just body language. He easily picked up the dance steps and helped you in making sure the boys understood as well as gave you awesome suggestions.

In fact, it was due to your understanding of Minho and his personality that led you to the current situation. If you were honest you thought that he was trying to do too much for the year-end shows but it wasn’t your place to tell him what he could and couldn’t do. Minho was stubborn and once he set his mind to something he would get what he wanted even if it killed him. In the morning you had been practicing the special Thunderous remix stage with all the boys and then you stayed to help Minho practice his Tiger Inside special stage. He didn’t say much but you could tell how much pressure he felt being given Taemin’s position by the little huffs he would let out if anything was less than perfect. Due to Covid, he wouldn’t get to practice with the other people involved until the day of the show so you offered to help him with spacing. It had been two hours of nonstop practicing Tiger Inside and Minho was growing more and more frustrated by the second chorus.

“Ahhhh why can’t I time it right?” Minho nearly shouted as he slammed his thumb down on the laptop to pause the music.

“I think we need a break Minho-ah,” you panted as you walked over to grab the water bottle. You took a long swig and then offered it to Minho who took it with a grateful smile.

“Can’t take a break, Hyunjin is going to be over soon to practice Snow Prince, you can take a break if you need.” Minho took a swig and was about to go over and press play on the laptop when you grabbed his sweaty hand.

“Minho-ya~ if you don’t rest now, you won’t have the strength to work on Snow Prince. Innie told me that you haven’t slept enough today already. We don’t need you passing out. I’ll practice more with you tomorrow.” You did your best to pout and blink up at him in a look that you knew he found hard to say no to.

“But it’s still not…”

“Just a one hour nap?” You pleaded as you swung his hand around a little bit.

“No, maybe thirty minutes? Hyunjin should be arriving around then anyway,” he said with a soft sigh. You let go of his hand and went to sit down by the mirror. You patted your leg as Minho stared at you with a confused expression.

“Special reward for working so hard,” you said as Minho walked over once he realized what you wanted him to do.

“Couldn’t ask for a better reward,” he said with a smirk as he laid down and put his head on your lap.

At eight minutes before you were supposed to wake him, you heard a knock at the door and then Hyunjin popped his head through. You quickly put a finger to your lips as Hyunjin walked in. He quietly put his bag by the computer and walked over to sit by your other side.

“Just eight more minutes then I’ll wake him so you guys can do Snow Prince,” you whispered into Hyunjin’s ear.

“How long did you manage to convince him to nap for?” He whispered back.

“Only thirty minutes, you know how he is,” you sighed softly at the peaceful look on Minho’s sleeping face. “Damn stubborn perfectionist,” you said with only fondness in your voice.

“None of us can get him to rest like you can,” Hyunjin said with a soft smile on his face. He pulled out his phone, “let me get a photo for the group chat,” he said and you only shook your head as you let him. He clicked the camera icon a few times and then started to giggle as he showed you the photos he took. “Ah, he looks so much like a cat!” Hyunjin loudly whispered.

“He’s going to feed you tissues when he finds out you sent those photos,” you said, very much amused by Hyunjin’s little giggles.

“Why aren’t you worried about him feeding you tissues? You did let me take them?” Hyunjin asked with a fake huff.

“No, no, tissues are reserved just for you,” you stuck your tongue out at Hyunjin to make your point while he just fake huffed some more. Your phone vibrated and you looked to see that it was time to wake the sleeping cat on your lap. “Minho-ah wakey wakey, time for Snow Prince.” You gently shook him until you saw his eyes flutter open. He blinked up at you a couple of times before your words sunk in.

“Is Hwang here?” He asked as he lightly stretched his arms out and let out a light groan.

“Yes Hyung~ I’m here,” Hyunjin leaned his face over to look over Minho but Minho darted his hand out to push Hyunjin’s face away.

“Yah, move your head I don’t want to see your face so close when I just woke up,�� Minho grumbled while Hyunjin clutched his chest in mock outrage.

“Hyung! Everyone should want to see my face always! Isn’t that right Noona?” Hyunjin asked you with his big puppy eyes.

“Don’t bother my girlfriend with your face, the only face she should constantly want to see is mine, right Jagiya?”

You only sighed at how childish the two were being before you pushed Minho off your leg and stood up.

“You two get to practicing while I go get you guys something to drink, and Minho don’t ask such obvious questions.” You left the room to Minho’s laugh and Hyunjin’s whining noises.

It was strange how easy it was to be with Minho after everything that had happened. Perhaps it was because you knew so much about each other. So many things changed in the few years you were apart but the fundamentals stayed the same. Minho’s favorite cafe was still the same (which you walked an extra 10 minutes to) and you ordered the blueberry shake that you knew was still his favorite drink on the menu. You also ordered Hyunjin a kiwi juice,yourself a watermelon juice and three cream puffs as a special treat. As you sat and waited for your order, you couldn’t help but look around the cafe and think of all the times the two of you used to just sit and chat about nothing and everything. He’d ask a random question like “how would you take care of me if I were a cat?” And the conversation would be a wilding mess that anyone else would have a hard time following. But even when you guys were speaking what sounded like nonsense to anyone else, you understood each other. It was a little sad to think that you two wouldn’t be able to just casually spend an afternoon at a cafe now that he was an idol, it was too risky for his career.

You pushed open the dance practice room door to see Hyunjin and Minho in the middle dancing to Snow Prince. Both looked to acknowledge your entrance but continued dancing along to the cheery beat. You set the drinks down and sat on the floor to watch them closely. The dance was fairly simple and cute and you couldn’t help but want to coo at the facial expression the boys were making. Minho made eye contact with you through the mirror and gave you a wink. He kept eye contact with you through the whole dance and you thought about how much he grew as a performer. The song finished and was looping back to the beginning when Hyunjin went and paused the video.

“Yah! Can you two please not be making heart eyes at each other the whole time we’re practicing please?” Hyunjin grumbled with his hands on his hip.

Minho ignored him as he walked over to you and reached his hand out. You passed him his drink and he took a long sip before he turned to address Hyunjin. “Tsk tsk Hyunjin, you have to listen closely to the song. Show me your eyes, I’ll give you my love. I’m just following along with the song,” Minho said in a very matter of fact manner. You just sighed as you handed Hyunjin his drink.

“Maybe you should show Hyunjin your love too?” You teased Minho as you took out the box with the cream puffs.

“Ew,” Hyunjin cried out, his face twisted into a look of disgust.

“Ew?” Minho repeated in a very serious manner.

“I’m sorry,” Hyunjin immediately sensed the danger as he stood straight and bowed.

“You don’t want my love Hyunjin-shi?” Minho asked as he walked toward Hyunjin. Hyunjin started to run around and Minho chased him like a predator shouting about “let me show you my love” while you took a bite of the cream puff and watched with a smile on your face.

“Jagiya I’m sore all over,” Minho complained as he collapsed onto the floor. Hyunjin had left about 30 minutes ago and the two of you went back to practicing for Tiger Inside.

“Worse than when you come back for PT?” you asked as you breathed in and out heavily. You laid down besides him

“Maybe not that,” he let out a tired laugh. He pulled you so that your head was laying on his chest. You heard and felt the rapid beating of his heart.

“You’re so sweaty,” you weakly complained but made no effort to move.

“It’s not like you’re dry yourself,” he poked your side, you grabbed his hand and linked your fingers together.

“We’re so sweaty,” you corrected yourself as you brought your linked hands to your lip.

“Wouldn’t have it any other way,” Minho used his other hand to bring your face over so he could give you a lazy kiss on the lips.

“Hey Minho?” You looked into his warm brown eyes that crinkled in confusion.

“Yes jagiya?“

“I love you,” you said trying to convey all the emotions you felt at that moment into those three words.

“I know,” he replied with a confident grin and you lightly thumped him on the chest with your free hand.

“Meanie,” you made a motion to move away but he pulled you tighter against his chest.

“I love you too,” he said as he kissed the top of your sweaty head.

“I know,” you replied as you relaxed on top of him.

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starlostseungmin · 1 year

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okay listen, new years eve, the clock is about to hit midnight, skz x moots and what song is playing in the background as they share the first kiss of the year 🎤

to be really honest anon, it took me a decade to find these songs jsjsks i realized that i don't really listen to love songs that much so here's all i can do! thank you for coming by btw 🫶🏻

@cosmic-railwayxo x hyunjin

— this actually perfect if both of them decided to go on a date together at midnight, welcoming the new year just the two of them on a cliff with hyunjin's car parked beside them. the view from the cliff where you could see the city lights felt so peaceful and away from all the noises, but they are expecting to hear the blasts of fireworks in any minute now and when the clock strikes midnight, that's when the kiss. who knows right? they are so in love with each other.

@hyunverse x han

— same with deni and hyunjin, rin and han decided to celebrate the new year together so they're on a vacation, more like honeymoon. two of them stayed in their hotel room waiting for the fireworks display that can be seen as a whole from their full length windows. they shared a kiss after the countdown and the song finally reached the last chorus.

@asters-abditory x jeongin

— you know there's something about this song that suits the new year vibes (this will give spoilers from my upcoming innie fic) two of them celebrated new year in the camp, but they decided to wait until midnight. aster and jeongin were seen on the top of the waterfalls and jumped. when they reached the river below and rose up, they shared a kiss as the fireworks blasted by their camping mates.

@seungly x seungmin

— now seungmin is the sentimental, yet romantic one. sunny and seungmin were standing at the rooftop together after they wanted some time of peace despite the louds noises from hyunjin's new year's eve party in his house. seungmin would fix her hair as he stared on her eyes, smiling before leaning for a kiss with the fireworks blasting up in the sky.

@comet-falls x minho

— this is like confessing their love for each other which they never really get to show. minho's a tsundere and he barely say things to honey of how he loves her so much but he wanted to make the new year's eve as an opportunity to make her feel how much he loves her. “you are the best thing that’s ever been mine.” he said as they kissed.

@l3visbby x changbin

— can u imagine how changbin would take ola's hands and take her to a dance? like changbin would definitely do this especially when he song feels like sentimental and makes the mood for having a romantic moment. and after twirling her around, changbin pulls her closer to his body and leaned forward for a kiss with the clock strikes midnight and everyone cheered for the new year.

@zoe8stay x chan

— this song is actually perfect for a wedding but let's just say that zoe and chan has been married for like a few months and they decided to spend new year's eve together on a beach resort. they would walk by the shore hand in hand. when they saw people already preparing to light up the fireworks, they stood together with chan's arm around her waist. the clock strikes midnight as they looked at each other and kiss.

@lix-ables x felix

— this is one of my favorite songs from this artist and i feel like this would suit kriss and felix. they have been pining all over the place and that's when felix decided to take the opportunity to confess. just like minho and honey but this time, they'll turn into lovers after being friends for such a long time. felix would say how hard it was to confess to kriss because he didn't want to risk their friendship but then kriss felt the same. felix promised and eternity with her using this song as the fireworks roared, sharing a kiss.

#📮 — ( keisy’s mails. )#✉️ — ( keisy replies. )#👤 — ( dear anons. )

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feelbokkie · 1 year

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I was half expecting all of the What are we Part 2 to be angsty but I'm glad half of the maknae line ended okay 😮‍💨

I was emotionally prepared to be sad BUT INSTEAD you got me so riled up!!!! I was literally pacing around after reading Felix's and I was ready to punch somebody after Seungmin's! I wasn't even sad, I was just so pissed off???? Felix's was so frustrating and I would physically fight the guy if what happened with Seungmin happened to me! Like, 2 MONTHS and he can't get himself together enough to at least have an answer! He showed up with the same "I don't like labels" bs and doesn't want to talk about complicated things! THAT'S THE WORST!!! When it comes to important things in life, indecisive people really make me mad as hell, so I'm glad at least Y/n in Felix's and Seungmin's made the difficult (but ultimately necessary) call to end things since neither guy could figure it out smh

I gotta figure out something to calm me down now 😤 I can't be this mad while I'm doing laundry at like 2am (luckily, I don't have work tomorrow at least)

[Glad you're off until Thursday so hopefully that's enough time to rest and recover! I also did a similar amount of stuff in high school and college and also totally don't get how I made it through alive back then thinking that it was normal to do so much 😭 Teens have so much life energy in them I guess?]

-👻✌️

I apologize in advance for the rambling I’m about to do.

I could have made them all angst, but decided last minute. And then I almost released them as angst like and fluff line but I also changed it last minute. Also, I think I put Innie through enough with Distancing pt 2 and Ji I felt deserved a happy ending after all that. But hyung line is also going go be half angst half fluff again and at least one of the angst is going to be heavy (at least I hope).

I honestly have no idea what happened with Felix and Min’s. I started off with Min’s with the full intention of making it sad but I got heated myself and wrote over 1,000 words bc how dare he? Especially with the whole “my girlfriend” comment. I feel like Min wouldn’t be the first to apologize even if he is wrong and I blame that video of when the boys (mainly Innie) pranked him into thinking he lost a company card. Like he was dead set on staying mad if Felix didn’t go and bug him. And Lix? Like, I think he is a person who would be the first to apologize in any situation, even if it wasn’t his fault but since I see him as someone who also will bottle everything up, I felt like he would just over think a romantic relationship to the point where it feels safer to not jinx it by labeling it, idk. But also, they’re young and I guess dumb (they’re literally only a year younger than me) so I feel like its also on brand that they not too in tune with their feelings yet. I imagine that they’re moping around bc they miss bff reader. But, no, yeah, I was getting HEATED writing Min’s!

As MCR once said, teenagers scare the living shit out of me.

#feelbokkie answers #👻✌️ anon

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peculiarscriptures51 · 2 years

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~The one where their son gets caught (KSJ)

🌺FYI there's no mature scenes in this, but there will be mentions of mature themes.

🌺IDK what it is about writing Jingrid they're so fun lol

"Jin!" Ingrid whisper-shouts, racing downstairs where Jin was tending to his cooking. He startles, turning to his wife and looking at her with wide eyes.

"What, woman? Why are you whispering?" He demanded with pouted lips, she nearly made him burn himself after all. He kept his voice low in case it was anything their son shouldn't be hearing from upstairs. Ingrid practically races her way over to him, though whatever it is didn't seem too urgent. She didn't seem alarmed, which was automatically a relief to him.

She peeks back up at the staircase from where she came for a moment, as if to check to see if she was followed. Jin followed her gaze, startling again when she grips his arm. "You'll never guess what I just caught Jinyoung doing." She whispered.

Jin furrowed his brows, their son was a teenager. There were plenty of things that his mother could catch him doing. Whatever it was, he just hoped it wasn't anything unsafe. Or illegal. That would definitely need some intervention. Not to mention risk his family's good reputation that took so long to build. The media couldn't wait to publish a scandal on them, they've been trying for years.

"I'm lost, Innie." He enthused, trying to read her face. Though her expression wasn't very easy to understand at the moment. He wasn't sure if it was concern, amusement, or disappointment.

She stands on her toes, cupping her hand over her mouth. "I caught him watching porn." She whispered, pulling from his face to gauge his reaction. Jin blinks dumbfoundedly. Did he hear that right? Kim-I'm-not-interested-in-dating-dad-Jinyoung was watching porn?

An amused snort left him, and the hilarity of the situation seemed to make it harder to resist chuckling. Especially looking at the baffled look on his wife's face.

"It's not funny, Jin!" She whispered seriously, though she was fighting a smile. When one of them starts laughing, it often amused the other. "What do we do?"

"Innie, trust me, we shouldn't interfere with this one," He waves his hand, tending to his stew to check on it. He felt that it needed more of a certain seasoning this time around, though it was hard to pinpoint. "It's normal for boys his age."

"But-" She pouts, cutting herself off. She sighs. "He's only sixteen. He shouldn't be looking at naked women like that. Or men. Or anyone for that matter."

"Says the one who's been watching porn since she was twelve." He replied snarkily, giving her a suggestive look. He bites back a laugh at how red her ears turned.

"Whatever. He's still my baby. You should talk to him-"

"Woah, woah, woah. Me? First of all, you're the one paranoid about it. And second of all, I don't think it'll do anything but humiliate him. Does he even know you caught him?"

She pouts, folding her arms over her bust. "No..." he hums approvingly at that. He takes a tablespoon and brings up some of the broth, blowing it gently.

"Try this for me," he insisted, bringing it to her plump lips with his hand ready to catch any spills. She sips gently from it, her chin rests on his shoulder. "Well?" He asked as he waited for her to swallow. She hums thoughtfully.

"Needs some salt. Just a dash, though," she advised. Jin hummed; salt. So that was it. He reached into their seasoning cabinet and does just that, sipping another spoonful for himself. He sighs in satisfaction.

"Thanks, baby. You were saying...? He didn't notice?" Jin returned to their conversation.

Her head bobs, "He had ear buds in, so he didn't hear when I knocked or opened the door-"

Jin snorts, "Must've been a good one."

Ingrid feeds him a short glare, which tickled him more, but he kept his gaze on his stew. "Anyway," she continued with a roll of her eyes. "I saw the whole screen..." she shakes her head. "And... well, I don't wanna embarrass him." She said softly.

"Why, was he naked?"

Ingrid bites her cheek, "No, thank God. That would traumatize me. But his arm was obviously occupied. And I'm never getting that sound out of my head."

Jin hums again, not adding anything. "You're acting much more nonchalant than I thought," she observed, she wraps her arms around his middle, smushing her cheek into him. "I figured you'd freak out the way you did when Jihye said she has a boyfriend."

"Jihye is grown, she's old enough to have sex," it was twisting his stomach just thinking about it. But she's an adult. So is her sister. And now that Jinyoung was the last one in the house, it must be hard for Ingrid to accept their son is growing up, too. "That's way different. This, though. It's just porn. Most people watch it. It's usually harmless."

Ingrid sighs, "But this means he's exploring his sexuality, and sooner or later he'll be wanting to bring girls over." She defends, and he could empathize with that. Though Jinyoung would often cringe time and time again every time they would warn him about getting a girl pregnant or contracting something. Jin was through with raising babies. He and Ingrid have the world to see once he moves out in a few years.

"As long as they're being safe, baby, I don't think there's much we can do. Banning it will only make him retaliate and rebel, which could make things worse. It's already harmless, why make the worst out of tame situation?" He reasoned, and she bobbed her head along. Of course they were on the same page, they having always chosen to be realistic with their kids about their sexuality when they became of age. After all, they both had a lot to learn when they became adults because their parents shielded them from such things. It's natural. It's what humans are programmed to do. Though that didn't mean she felt any less protective by it.

"I know, you're right," She huffs. "He's growing up so fast, Jin. He got handsome out of nowhere."

"What? He's always had my looks, Innie. What're you on about?"

She rolled her eyes, "I mean," she started. "His face is maturing, and gone is my soft squishy bean... My baby's not a baby anymore." She whimpered, throwing her face into his arm. He heard her sniffle.

"Agh, Innie. It'll be alright," he rubs her back, tapping the ladle against the pot and replacing the lid. "We knew this day would come."

She sighs roughly, "I didn't think I'd have to witness it like this..." she started whispering again hand cupping her mouth. "he's into amateur stuff."

Jin chuckles, "Wow, the real deal. He might've been watching longer than I thought." His wife gently slaps his shoulder.

"Don't mention it! I can barely handle this right now!" She whined. He laughs, kissing her head.

"He'll be alright, Innie. Don't bring it up, I'm serious. You've no idea how much it can affect his confidence knowing his Mama's seen him like that. He might actually puke." Not to mention, they have always been respectful of their kids' privacy by the time they were all old enough to understand it's value. The last thing they needed was to violate that trust by mentioning how his privacy had accidentally been breached. Jin might casually bring up that his son ought to lock his door as a simple reminder. They have the key if needed. He definitely didn't want to witness this, either. The thought made him squirm. It was bad enough he'd walked in on both his girls in the bathroom when they still lived with them, and they've each been locking the door since. He'd apologized profusely, and to this day neither of them mention it. Jin fights a shudder at the mental image. He's still shaken by the fact that hsis baby girls are fully grown women now.

Ingrid lifts a brow, "Were you caught, too, Jin?" She wondered suspiciously.

"My brother was," he explains. "So was my ex-roommate. Can you imagine getting lectured with blue balls? It's miserable." She managed to giggle at that.

"Well, one of us should talk to him seriously about sex someday soon. Just so we see where his head's at. If he's watching it to objectify women we need to steer him away from that." She said seriously.

"It must've been some graphic stuff it you think he might be thinking stuff like that." Jin inquired, raising a brow.

Her ears burned red again, "It was this black couple. From the glimpse that I saw they were talking dirty to each other. I could read their lips, but I really wasn't sticking around to find out what exactly was said. I'm so glad I couldn't hear it. He damn near broke her in half."

Jin hums thoughtfully. Huh. Sounds like something they'd do. Ingrid noticed the look on his face, pursing her lips. "Why that face?" She asked.

Jin shrugs, "Sounds like he's also into black women. I guess I haven't thought that far. Lots of Korean girls seem to like him." Jinyoung could easily pass as fully Korean, his curly hair being the only thing that might make people question it. Though Ingrid says he just looks like a Korean with a perm.

"It's just so weird..." She started, shaking her head dismissively. Jin leaves their stew to simmer, hugging his wife and lifting her off her feet. She wraps her legs around his waist, going quiet as he walks over to the couch.

"What, baby?"

"Maybe I'm thinking too much about it...." she shakes her head, seeming to cringe.

"As his Mama, I feel like that's natural. We'll probably be thinking about it for a while, babe."

"This is gonna sound weird, so just hear me out, first." She decided, he sinks down onto their couch, groaning softly as her weight settles on top of him. He places his hands on her butt, though she didn't stop pouting.

"That sounds concerning," Jin raises a brow. "Was he watching something we should be worried about?"

Ingrid waves her hand, "Nothing bad. Standard stuff, just... it kind of reminded me of us a little too much. The way we..." she trails off, feeling a bit exasperated. Jin could tell that she felt she wasn't making sense, scrambling to elaborate. "This feels odd to even say, but, she kinda looked like me."

Jin blinks at that, perhaps he shouldn't say anything. Whatever his thoughts were weren't going to make her feel any better. Obviously, this didn't mean anything horrible, or that their son really did need to be set straight. It wasn't anything out of the ordinary, actually. And having been that age, Jin would know that people - male and female - tend to be attracted to traits that their parents have. It goes beyond the physical, of course, though it's mainly thought that way. It's why it's commonly said that 'girls marry their men who look like their fathers.' Obviously, that wasn't the case for Ingrid, but it did apply to both his daughters. They were both in committed relationships with Korean actors. Ingrid often teases how much they remind her of him, mostly in personality, but also partly in appearance. He supposes that applies to his son, as well.

"Nothing to overthink, babe," he said simply, pulling her into his chest. Ingrid sighs heavily, "Just something he's familiar with. That's all it is. I promise it's nothing bad." He chuckles as she pouts cutely at him.

"Okay..." she allowed. Jin pecks her lips, squeezing her ass. "Thanks for making me feel better, Jin. I just wish I could unsee it." They hear the toilet flush upstairs, which meant Jinyoung had finished what he was doing. With his appetite, there was no possible way he'd be missing dinner.

Jin cups her face, "Don't let on, Innie. Act normal, pretend you don't know, okay?" Her cheeks are squished together, but he resists his coo at how cute she looked. Her head bobs.

"Okay."

"Good, c'mere." He smiles, gently pulling her chin and kissing her lips. She started getting breathless as he fought to kiss her more aggressively, pulling her bottom lip between his teeth. She pulled away slowly, having to gather herself.

"Not now, Jin... maybe after dinner." She gently pushed on his chest, starting to fix her hair and clothes. Though nothing was out of place.

Jin chuckles at her sultry gaze and flushed face. Having her weight on top of him like this usually always woke his lustful spirit. The sight of his wife's thick thighs wrapped around his waist made his groin hot. But like she said, time and place. "Wait 'til later," he whispered, leaning toward her ear. "I'll break you in half."

She scoffs, her typical pride coming back, "I'd like to see you try." She challenged, loving the way it made his gaze burn with anticipation. He was smirking suggestively.

"Oh you'll see-"

"Appa, is the food done yet- oh. Gross." Jinyoung stopped in his tracks at the bottom of the stairs, staring at his parents with that usual look of disgust he has if he witnesses them display any kind of physical affection. Jin's usually amused by it - especially, now - and he always taps his wife's ass just to tease more. She doesn't react anymore, though, desensitized to his teases.

Jin wasn't looking at his wife's face, but he heard her scoff to herself. Not to mention the way she tilts her head when she's fired up. Jinyoung was quick to shuffle away before having to witness any more of their moment alone.

Jin bites back a laugh as Ingrid's gaze follows their son all the way to the kitchen, out of hearing distance. She seemed annoyed, looking between Jin and their son's general direction for a moment before finally landing on Jin. "That's a lot of nerve coming from someone who just watched people spit in each other's mouths." She muttered under her breath.

Jin throws his head back and laughs out loud, having to hold his stomach so it wouldn't get too sore. His son was confused when he came back to see what the sudden commotion was, especially as the tears bubbled up and spilled down his father's face. But her timing was too good. He'd be giggling about this for a while. Their friends were definitely hearing about this.

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jaeminsnanadoongie · 2 years

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Always With You🍂

Part II

Summary: "Close your eyes

And I'll be there

Cause no matter where I go

I'll be Always With You"🍂

Two teenagers, a hospital and a deadly disease....🍂Will they survive??

AU: Hospital au

Word count : 11.7K (approx.)

Genre: Angst (A little bit), fluff, a innie tiny bit emotional (cus I'm not that good at writing emotional stuff)

Pairing (s): Huang Renjun × OC

Disclaimer: This is a pure work of fiction. None of the incidents depicted here has no connection to the actual persons, living or dead, or actual events. Any resemblance found with another story is clearly unintentional. The personality or behaviour of the idol depicted here is not the related to his/her personality or behaviour in real life.It's pure work of imagination by the author.

Chapter 16

For him there was no other girl in this world other than her. She was his world currently. When no one was there by his side to listen to his discomforts and worries, she was.

As she blabbered away about her lonely childhood he sat there right next to her holding her palm as if she was the most fragile thing in the world. Hands perfectly intertwined with each other's.

And when she was near him he felt safe, sick free, that particular moment he forgets about everything, only she was his main focus then.

Eyes struck on her as it admired every feature on her face. How her eyes glistened with tears every time she recalls her past.

How her eyes changed in a minute when she says about the small happiness she held. He never did think he will fall in love, especially not when he was dying, and that hurt him.

She deserved so much more from the world but here she was refusing to do anything and waiting for the day she closes her eyes forever.

He wanted to change that, earse the thought of dying from her mind and replace it with the want to live without forcing her.

Her eyes shined under the night light as she spoke of the achievements she recieved in her school, while it also dejected when she spoke about how much she missed it.

"I wish all of this were a dream" her voice spoke while he nodded. "I wish too." He agreed as his hold on her hand increased. A small yawn from her made him look towards it as her eyes closed leisurely.

"Your sleepy" cupping her mouth she shook her head. "Nah im okay, i can stay up all nigh..." Her words came mumbled as she let out another yawn.

"Go sleep. I don't want you walking like a zombie tomorrow morning" he chuckled as she gave up her eyes closing up, she stood up harshly rubbing her eyes before walking towards her bed.

"Open your eyes and walk idiot" he complained as he held her by her shoulder before she tripped herself on the small table that was kept on her way.

On his guide she layed on the bed. Opening her eyes wide she looked at him as she gave him a wide smile. "Now what???" "Nothing. I just looked back at the time when we first met" both chuckled as they recalled how much their relationship has changed.

"We were enemies before" he stated as she nodded. "Yes we were." Smiling at the thought as she stared at the ceiling.

"Thank you" she said making Renjun look at her bewildered. "For what??" "For being there for me. For entering into my life, even though as an enemy. For making me realise that how many hardships you are going through you'll get through it and that's life. Thanks for being my knight in shining armour when i almost lost hope for living"

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Chapter 17

Renjun stood there in the balcony too stunned to speak as those words ran across his mind repeatedly. A part of his mind rereading the sentence a thousand times as the cold breeze hit his face.

Letting out a disturbed sigh he looked back at the sleeping figure. How peaceful she seemed melted his heart as he walked towards her. Pecking her forehead as he gave her a beaming smile.

Walking towards the table he sat down at the chair before taking the pen off the book as he opened that particular page. "Haa..my arts getting worse." He sighed as he looked at the shivering hands of his.

The way his hands went crooked everytime he drew just showed up that his condition was getting worse. The shivering lines which made the drawing unrecognisable was rubbed forcefully by him as he closed the book harshly.

Opening up the book right next to him he steadied his hands before holding pen and writing the words which he treasured. Which he wished would never cause her pain reading it, just happiness.

Looking at the final verse he smiled through pain, "haa...you really are my missing puzzle piece" he whispered as he looked at the words he had written within a matter of time.

Puzzle piece

As I try to fit in a world that keeps getting bigger

A feeling of emptiness and vacancy comes to me

But I can't recognize which part is missing

I didn't even know the shape would be like this

But as if we're matching the scattered pieces together

We're going to assemble our own story

Somewhere in my empty heart

A piece is placed

I am you

I just knew it when I first saw you

You're my missing puzzle piece

Finally it fits

You fill up all of the wounds in my broken heart

Before I realized it, you became my everything

My missing puzzle piece

The fact that I have flaws

And that I'm not perfect either

Made me feel smaller

But we can fill each other's gaps in between

So we don't realize we're empty

Hello, long time no see, it's been a while

This little piece I carried everywhere in my pocket

To make it look fuller, let's stay together in a beautiful way together

Because I met you

Now I draw a bigger picture

You're my missing puzzle piece

Finally it fits

You fill up all of the wounds in my broken heart

Before I realized it, you became my everything

My missing puzzle piece

More than having everything

To never lose anything

Is more important, I realized it because of you

You're my missing puzzle piece

Shining so bright

You became a scene in the world that I always tried to fit in by myself

Just like I can't let go of your hand that I'm holding tightly

My world can't be completed without you

May we never lose each other

My missing puzzle piece

A tear slid down his cheeks as he sniffed. If only the world wasn't this cruel, I would have loved to spend an eternity with you my love.

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Chapter 18

Things started to reverse as she put him to sleep every night while he complained about the constant headaches and his lose of appetite. Though she felt weak she stood by his side as they both sat there on the bench on that cold night.

But it wasn't cold, it was rather warm, a warmth she had never felt. Looking at him whose eyes were already on her she showed the warmest smile ever.

"How are you??" His sudden question caught her off track as she looked at him bewildered. "I'm good??" "No for real how are you feeling??" He asked as he tightened the grip on her hand for a second.

"I'm good for real, though even i have headaches they are not as worse as yours trust me I'm alright" she showed him a smile which he reciprocated.

"Good to know" His smile never left as he looked at her. Staring at each other as the time drifted off. Small conversations then and there filled the air as most of the time it stayed in a comfortable silence. Both dwelling in each other's silence.

Walking down the stairs as the both held their hands tightly for them not to trip or fall. Bodies cold as they made their way towards their ward only to find the doctor seated on do-yeons bed hands crossed, eyes staring right at them.

Halting their steps, both looked at the doctor then at each other. "Where did you two wander off to??" The doctor's rather cold voice send shivers down their spine as their heads hung low.

A sigh from the doctor made the both look at him while the doctor stood up. "Nothing's wrong right?? Both of you don't feel any pain right??" The concerned voice made them soft as they both shook their heads.

"Nope" "Good. Both of you when you go out let me know or Ms.choi someone okay??" Both nodded their heads in approval, and the doctor gave them a geniune smile before leaving the room.

Giggling the two jumped on their beds as their backs hit the soft mattress. His eyes stared at the plain ones while hers stared at the star filled ones.

Eyes feeling heavy as hers closed reluctantly before she could even say a goodnight to him. But he didn't mind his eyes stuck on her as she slowly fell into the dreamland he had wished for being for such a long time.

🍂

The sun shone up towards the top as the rays bashed their way into the room through the window. The wind outside blew effortlessly as it picked up the dried leaves and kept it down at another spot.

The weather perfect as the girl stirred in her sleep. Eyes slowly opening up as she was met with the starry ceiling. Turning her head to see the boys bed empty with the sheet folded cleanly brought her disappointment.

Looking around the room to find none she quickly got herself off the bed to clean herself.

"How you holding up buddy??" Donghyuck's sound startled the young boy who sat on the bench. "Oh my god! When did you come here??" "secret~" he hushed keeping a finger on his lips after which he giggled. Renjun snorted as he looked back at the view.

"Who's the girl??" Renjun snapped his head towards Donghyuck who was smirking in victory. "Tell me which girl finally managed to steal the heart of the great Huang Renjun!! I'm excited" Donghyuck squeaked while Renjun's cheeks heated up in embarrassment while donghyuck's voice also annoyed him.

"How did you even know??" "I just know everything my buddy, your easily readable now don't leave a detail and tell me all!" He moved in his seat excitedly while Renjun groaned annoyed but his face changed as soon as his head thought of her.

"Oiiii your smiling~" hyuck cooed while nudging his shoulders making Renjun scoff. "Aww come on!!~" hyuck whined more while Renjun let out a fed up groan. "Aaa alright alright I'll tell" he gave up as he spilled out all the tea he kept boiling inside of him.

"Ah i just- i don't know she's just- she just melts my heart at the first sight" "Oii someone's lovestruck" hyuck giggled while Renjun sighed head moving up and down. "She really did something to me..."

Back at the room the girl sat there on the bed wondering where the hell Renjun wander off to. Gazing at the plain wall infront of her she fell deeper into her thoughts not noticing the door open and the two lads enter in.

"Is she the one??" The whispers of Donghyuck was a mere sound to her ears as she went completely unknown to her exteriors.

"Yea now don't shout it out" Renjun whispered back before entering the room only to see the girl not on this world. Eyes stared souless onto the walls before he waved his hands infront of her.

"Earth to Do-yeon! Are you there??" Snapping out of her trance her face changed back when she met his face. "Where the hell were you?? Where did you run off to so early in the morning??"

Her rather angry tone hit Renjun as looked at her guilty. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to worry you. I did have proper sleep last night so i just went out for some air" he replied as she scolded him for making her worry.

Hyuck just stood there as he looked at the two, feeling completely out of place but his lips curved up to a geniune smile after seeing his friend smile, his gleaming smile which felt like an eternity since he last saw that.

"Ahem" hyuck interrupted making both heads snap their heads towards him. She looked at the new face confused while Renjun realised his presence in the room.

"Im sorry for interrupting but uh this is the soup Nana made for ya, and he told me to give to you so yea imma leave now Jun see ya later! Byee!!"

He hurried as he put down the cover and swiftly made his way out the room not bothering to receive a reply from him cause he knew the girl would have plenty of questions about who he was to Renjun, smirking he made his way out the hospital.

"Who was that??" Her voice made Renjun turn his head towards her. "Oh yea...him?? Oh he is a friend of mine" he replied showing her a short smile. "Oh seemed like a good guy what's his name??" "Donghyuck" he replied as she nodded.

"How old is he??" "18" "He shares your same classes??" "Not everything but a few...but why are you so curious about him??" He asked in a rather harsh tone which had a hint of jealously in it.

"Nothing much his aura just captures my attention, he just gives a complete sunny cheerful aura more like fullsun aura, i know that seriously doesn't make sense" she giggled while Renjun just rolled his eyes at the compliment he just heard about his friend. "Whatever" he mumbled before moving to his bed.

(Okay yea the age of the dream members are way lower than they actually are in real life hehe.)

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Chapter 19

My everything

On the road that shines exceptionally

Standing there, I am waiting for you

It's not cold

When you are in my arms, I can feel the warmth

You're my everything

I want to protect your days and nights

You are a miracle to me, I wish you could see it

Spreading all over me, a gift called you

You're my night and day

Waiting for you in this street, drawing you again

An unusually long day

But it's not too bad because you're warm

Just like that, with nothing to do

I can live just like that

You're my everything

I want to protect your days and nights

You are a miracle to me, I wish you could see it

Spreading all over me, a gift called you

You're my night and day

Waiting for you in this street, drawing you again

It seemed to be nevеr-ending

At the end of thе long wait

You're the one

You're my everything

I want to protect your days and nights

You are a miracle to me, I wish you could see it

Spreading all over me, a gift called you

You're my night and day

Waiting for you in this street, drawing you again

"Yo when did you become a lyricist!?!" Marks screeching voice attacked renjuns ears while he winced at the sudden overflow of voice.

Closing his book as he looked at the older one intently reading the lyrics but a frown appeared as soon as he saw him close the book.

"Yo that's actually really good" he complimented while Renjun's ears heated up from those words. "Where did you learn to write like that??" He questioned while Renjun just stared at the book, eyes trailing to the girl who sat inside the room reading a book.

"Her presence did" he replied as mark bewilderly looked towards the girl. "Ooooo..... Sooo its that..." Smirking as he looked at renjun who had his eyes stuck on the girl.

"Aw man your soo cutee~" mark squeaked while pinching renjuns cheeks, to which Renjun just pulled apart disgusted.

"Oh I bet you would have loved this if she did it" mark said while Renjun blushed. "Awww you are blushing. Damn i gotta get this on camera!! I never thought Renjun would ever blush."

Pulling his phone out as he angled it towards his face on to be blocked by his hand. "Shut up we are gonna gain her attention!" Renjun said while mark gave no mind to it.

"Foods here!!" Chenles scream was enough to make mark stop and run towards it. Renjun slowly walked up inside as he was greeted by the high pitched screech of chenle.

"Dood calm down and don't scream it's a hospital" "sorry" chenle mumbled after which he digged in.

The girl looked at the crowd of boys infront of her while she fantasized how nice it would be to have a small bubble of friends for her too, only if she wasnt stuck with such a disease, everyones eyes on her would have differed greatly.

"You want some??" Jeno asked tripping her off her thoughts. "Hm?? Oh I'm not supposed to have fried food" she replied but mind slightly craving for that one bite into that crispy chicken.

"But you want it don't you??" Hyucks voice caught her off gaurd as she reluctantly nodded.

"Then-" taking out a nice juicy piece he brought it up to her "-eat, rules are meant to be broken and having a piece once in a while ain't gonna do any bad" he said as her eyes briefly met renjuns for acceptance who was stuck on that one piece for a long time, as if he was eating just for his friends.

His small nod brightened her face as she happily took the piece from hyucks hand. Bitting into that one juicy piece brought back life into her as she cherished that moment.

"Woah seriously guys it's just too obvious" hyucks sudden statement made all heads turn towards him as he pointed at the, Renjun and doyeon.

"What about them??" Jaemin questioned while hyuck scoffed in disbelief. "Seriously didn't you guys just see?? She just asked him for permission. Seriously guys just start dating!" Hyuck stated while her cheeks shot up red in embarrassment.

"Ya what-" "Don't argue I'm just stating facts! It's just too obvious both of you lik-mmhsksbks" a hand on his mouth as words came out muffled off donghyucks mouth.

Renjun held the boy tightly as he could but his strength and self hygiene betrayed when Donghyuck licked his palm. "What the hell hyuck!!" Renjun yelled while rubbing his palm on the Shir of hyucks.

Everyone giggled while Renjun glared at hyuck who hid behind jeno. "Oh please i didn't say anything wrong!" Hyuck defended while Renjun glared at him stronger, showing him he would punch him if he said anything more.

The day went by like that, doyeon never did think that time would pass by this fast as she sat there next to Renjun chit chatting with his friends. All were really nice to her making her feel comfortable as Renjun and doyeon grew closer to each other.

The sun settled down into the sea as the brightness dulled down to darkness. The lamp next to their beds being the only source of light for the room as their faces were barely visible to each other.

"And as the girl walked into the room-" hyuck extended the line as he made a voice effect of a cracked opening of the door while the rest intently listening almost waiting for the suspense.

"-boom!" Startled noises filled the room as the girl kept a hand on renjuns lap due to sudden jump. "The air pushed down her face" the sounds of disapproval filled the air as they disagreed with him.

"Dood i seriously thought that was a ghost!" Renjun yelled while the frightened Jisung hugged onto chenle who was least bothered by the horror story.

"There was nothing in the room and she returned back to sleep" Donghyuck ended the story while everyone groaned. "You seriously wasted my time" mark said annoyed while hyuck stayed unbothered.

"It's time to leave it's dark out" jeno stated pointing at the window right next to doyeons bed. "Yup mom's gonna scold if I'm late" Jisung said as the rest packed up.

"See at later Renjun! And doyeon! It was really nice meeting you" mark's soft voice was the first one to come up as the rest bid their goodbyes behind him.

Once everyone left it was back to just the two of them. Silence coming back after a long break as it felt foreign to them.

"Your friends are really good" doyeon first stated making Renjun smile widely. "They really like you" he stated back while she just nodded.

Atmosphere getting awkward for no reason as they both stealed glances at each other without really speaking out what they wanted to say.

"You know-" "I've been keeping this-"

"You first-" "You first-"

Giggles erupted as the room became more lively. "No seriously you go first, your face was more desperate to ask" doyeon stated as the sudden tension floated through the air.

Fiddling through his fingers he hesitated whether he should say it or not, but what the doctor said just an hour ago ran through his head as he didn't wanna extend this.

Telling her that he loved her. Making her his. Taking her out on a date. He wanted to spill it all out, he didn't wanna take it any further and delay it more. Cause...

"You know I- I've been keeping this in for quite a long time now aa-and i just wanna say th-that" "Hey calm down I'm not interviewing you" she cut him off while he chuckled nodding.

"Yea" the atmosphere becoming more serious as those eyes stared right into hers. "Hmm??" Seeing her eyes fall off he glanced at the mirror only to see it struck 11.

"Nothing lets talk about it tomorrow you are tired, plus your eyes will fall off any time now" he stated while she whined. "But-" " No buts go sleep" he demanded while she tsked and pulled the sheets falling on the bed.

"You should tell tomorrow morning if not I'm making you to" she said in a stern voice as he giggled nodding. "I will, goodnight weakling" "ya! Who are you calling weakling you are the one now not me!" "Whatever now go sleep" she just rolled her before pulling the sheets completely up and closing her eyes instantly drifting off to her dreamland.

A sigh left Renjuns lips as he stared at her sleeping figure, while her small snores filled the air. Wondering how good it would be to have one proper sleep he walked towards the toilet feeling his head heavy.

Eyes threatening to close as the stinging pain increased and the buzzing sensation in his chest increased. Holding his chest tightly he stood their halfway down the bathroom.

"Ouch" he winced at the sudden overflow of pain throughout his body as he fell weak on his knees. "Yeon..." His soft voice didn't hit her ears as she slept. Gathering all his strength he shouted her name once more as he prayed she would wake up. "YEON!!!"

The startled young girl opened her eyes wide as she shot up from her bed only to see Renjun spit out blood holding his stomach.

"Call the doctor" was the last thing he said looking at her before he fainted. "INJUN!!" She yelled as she pressed the button right next to her several times before speeding her way next to him.

"Jun open your eyes...please.." she pleaded as she felt tears well up in her eyes. Looking at him unconscious in her hands she felt her world fall apart.

Not now he can't die right now not when everything began to become more clearer no please don't die...

And with that his hand fell off from her hands.

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Chapter 20

As the wind brushed past her silky hair she felt goosebumps raise up her skin while she sat there on the bench all alone.

Feeling as if her life would never get brighter her only hope of life faded away. Looking around she met his eyes. Those eyes at first which held her world now held nothing but emptiness.

His head turned to her as a small smile plastered on his face, a smile which never reached his eyes, while the sun shined brightly at him, making his pale skin more prominent.

On the wheelchair he sat there about three metres apart yet he radiated that warmth that warmed her down on that cold morning.

A small smile appeared on her face as the nurse pushed his wheelchair towards her. "Guess I'm the weakling now eh??" He chuckled while she nodded.

That night completely changed everything as Renjun got monitored every one hour.

More machines spread around his bed as for the first few days after that incident he looked like a living robot tied under all those wires.

That one attack changed everything in their routine. Unlike her attacks his was way bigger than expected as it took a big toll on him.

His parents visited more often as she grew comfortable with them, while the boys tried their best to balance their school and visiting him.

The nurse settled his wheelchair right next to the seat such a way that their hands brushed each other's. Glancing at her while her eyes sparkled while her skin light up under the sun rays.

A smile that never left his face layed there as his lips curved up more wider while they both sat their basking in their warmth watching the sea on that particular cold morning.

"He has reached the finally stage" those words were more than enough for renjuns mother to break down into tears. The father held the mother tightly while the boy layed there on the bed unaware of anything that was happening.

Machines attached to his tiny body while he hardly breathed out a proper air without the help of the machines attached on him.

There she sat eyes stuck on that one boy as she looked at the rhythmic breaths he took while the heart rate monitor let out uneven beeps, his barely living body layed right there while she just prayed all of this to be just a dream.

She just wanted him to wake up, that's all she wanted. To see him wide awaken, sitting on that bed with his gleaming smile. And for him to hold her hands like there were no other girl in this universe.

For his warmth to be radiated onto her. For her to finally confess her feelings to him. And for him to accept it. But all of these seemed like a mere reality after the next words that left the doctors mouth.

"He can barely survive a month after this. Him being this healthy until this stage itself surprised me and made me wonder he had a chance to live but...I'm sorry"

And there slid a tear off her face as she sat there not moving an inch until he opened his eyes.

"Oh please come on!" She whined while he put the book behind him. "Why not! Why am I not supposed to look through to the book! I just wanna see your drawings!!" Her adement personality hitting him hard as he finally gave in bringing the book front while she instantly grabbed it.

Turning through the pages as her face lit up each time. They were just... magnificent. They were so well balanced as each page showed some or the other emotion in the form of drawing. As the end reached though they were a bit crooked they were just

... beautiful.

"Why'd you keep it a secret when you draw soo good!!!" She exclaimed as she flipped the pages. A sigh from him made her look at him. "I can't draw anymore but..." He looked at his fingers which were already shaking.

Heads hanging low while he felt his heart drop at the thought of not being able to draw anymore.

A smaller hand coming in contact with his colder ones but to her it was just as warm as they were when she first held them.

Looking into her eyes he felt his world calm down as his hands stopped shaking. "Hey... It's alright, life's never fair. It keeps taking the things we love away from us but you should never let that break you okay??" Her comforting voice was more than a voice to him as he smiled nodding.

A satisfied grin on her face while they stared at each other for another good 2 mins. "Thank you ... thank you entering into my life" his voice came out like a mere whisper, squeaking her hands while her smile widened.

"Thanks for showing up in my life. Though our first encounter wasn't that great-" chuckling whirl they both recalled the first time they ever met, which felt like an eternity before.

Since that encounter a lot changed, their relationship, the way both opened up to each other slowly as their health decreased at a speeding rate. But as their health grew weaker their bond grew stronger.

Both holding up for each other when one has a bad day or has another attack.

Being there when one is not able to sleep or want to sleep. They were always there for each other knowingly or unknowingly.

And knowingly or unknowingly both fell for each other. "-Im happy that we opened up" Renjun spoke while she nodded.

"Thank you too cause without you, i would never have had the will to live" she whispered while a small tear flowed down her cheeks.

"I know this is too late but-" Renjuns slightly broken voice came out louder than he thought as he regretted it. "and ik we- i mean i don't have much time but-" "Hey don't say that!" She protested but he chuckled.

"-No i mean it i don't have much time and...if i don't say this now i might not seriously not have a peaceful death and probably roam around earth as a ghost regretting why i hadn't said that when i was well alive"

His words struck her as the atmosphere grew heavier. Their breaths and the constant beeping of the heart monitor being the only background noise an unknown tension weighed around the air.

"I have been meaning to tell you this for a long time and the last time i tried i-i-i got the attack." He sighed while she remembered that night, the night where he promised he would say what he wanted in the morning but turned out sleeping for next 1 week.

"Yea..." She replied while her head hanged low, staring at her palms perfectly kept on top of his while his thumb shooting rubbed against her palm skin.

"You know the first time i saw you-" he started as she looked up to meet his eyes. "I never thought i would ever feel that feeling.

The feeling of being taken care of or being cared for or the feeling of love. But when you showed up, it changed,-" she looked at him quite not catching what he was trying to say but her mind wanted him to say just what she wanted.

"-you, you are the one who completely changed my life in just a span of few weeks and believe me or not i was never a fan of love at first sight but you completely proved it to be wrong cause doyeon you" pointing his finger straight at her so that she doesn't mistake anything he continued.

" You made me fall for you like crazy, made me feel loved and made me understand that even i who seriously didn't belive in love, can fall in love and experience that." He took a deep breath while her breath hitched.

Expecting what was he was going to say next, but she waited for it to blurt out of his lips. For him to say it out himself though he made the fact really obvious.

"I-I like you doyeon-fuck it- I love you" and there it was her lips met with his as he kissed her back without any hesitation. Pulling her closer by her waist she settled herself on top of him while her hands wrapped themselves around his neck.

Though the moment was short it was well cherished by the both as it confirmed one thing she loved him too.

And the reply she gave him was exactly what he had ever wanted to hear making his lips curve up into a smile.

"I love you too..."

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Chapter 21

After 2 weeks

"Wait you guys sing!?!" Renjun closed his ears at the her sudden loud voice piercing his ears. "And you wrote this!?!" Renjun nodded, as she gasped looking at the piece of paper which held verses that had soo much in them.

"Yo can you guys sing it for mee~" she whined while mark sighed. "Then why do you think Renjun pulled us here when we should be at our homes doing our assignments??" Haechan questioned while her eyes widened.

"Wait seriously!?!" She jumped up from her seat while mark took out a big bag. Renjun sitting right next to her as he held her hand. "Woah i can't believe you literally wrote a song for me" she voiced out hugging him tightly while Renjun chuckled his ears heating up.

"Yo seriously i have never seen him writing but the other day..." Mark dragged while Renjun eyes him. "I'm not telling it out just wait and see doyeon" she just looked at the crowd bewildered while Renjun shouted out.

"Let's just start it's getting late i don't want you guys complaining after this" he blabbered while mark opened up the bag taking his guitar out.

"I'm excited~" rubbing her hands in anticipation as she felt her inner child waking up. The way she was excited and felt loved was not explainable as she sat there looking at group of boys whom she hadn't known long but meant so much to her.

Relaxing their vocal chords while they blabbered gibberish. Giggling at their actions as she sat there waiting for them to wake up. Once all done there sat infornt of her 7boys.

7 mysterious boys whom just showed up in her life just like that but she never complained as they only made her sick life into a bit joyful one.

"Okay...uhmm well I'm not telling much uh the song's name is rainbow and you'll probably understand what i wanna say through it I'm sure of it and yea it wasn't only written to her, it was also written for you guys" Renjun said pointing at the boys, their eyes slightly widened.

"Wait really!!" Haechan screeched while gave a assuring smile before mark adjusted the guitar.

(A/N: yup an acoustic version of rainbow. Just imagine they did one cause i really couldn't actually bring in the whole karaoke to the hospital.)

"Okay on the count of three.." mark eyeing everyone while the nodded. "One...two...three" and with that chenles soothing voice ran through her ears instantly falling in love with it.

Closing her eyes as they sang through the verses. Melting into the melody as every words they said made a mark on her heart.

(You guys can skip this if you don't wanna read the lyrics :))

Rainbow

[Verse 1: Chenle, Haechan]

At the end of the cold rain, on the blue sky

I look at the rainbow light that is particularly clear

In the midst of a pause in time

There are seven lights smiling in a circle

It's like a bookmark I place in my heart

[Pre-Chorus: Renjun]

I don't know where else I should go from here

Over the long space that I left blank

You smile and wave at me

[Chorus: All]

At the end of the day that left us breathless

We lean on each other

We close our eyes and fall asleep comfortably

Dreaming again

In the slightly unfamiliar tomorrow

That will start over again countless times

I think we will be okay, I think it will be shining

The rainbow that connects your and my heart

[Verse 2: Mark, Jeno, Jaemin, Jisung]

When I'm drowned in emotions

Stuck between the two clouds in my heart

I remember the rainbow that resembles your smile

Its seven colors, the way we were like back then

We'd always hold each other's hands and run

Just like we do now

We run endlessly and the light is reflected at the end of the road

So that I can remember how beautiful we were

I place bookmarks (Girl)

Yeah, no matter what anyone says

Let's chant out what we remember

Everything is looking like a blur but

It's still fine, I hope you remember the way it used to be

[Pre-Chorus: Haechan]

One day, my past self became blurry

But when you looked at me

Suddenly there was a new me

[Chorus: All]

At the end of the day that left us breathless

We lean on each other

We close our eyes and fall asleep comfortably

Dreaming again

In the slightly unfamiliar tomorrow

That will start over again countless times

I think we will be okay, I think it will be shining

The rainbow that connects your and my heart

[Post-Chorus: All]

The dreams we've dreamed together

Become someone else's again

We're inside the same dream

[Bridge: Chenle, Renjun, Haechan]

This story will begin again in our dreams

You're in the first sentence of this non-stopping page

My brightest dream

[Chorus: All, Renjun, Haechan]

We are warmly holding hands (I wanted to become your dream)

In the memories we will make together (Like I was in the beginning)

We walk the same road and laugh the same way (Fallin', fallin', fallin' into this dream)

And dream the same dreams

After the cold rainstorm ends (After the end of a long wait)

Everything we endured together (In this seven-lighted dream)

I think it will permeate, it feels like we've dreamed of it before (An unfolding dreamin', dreamin', dreamin')

The rainbow that rises up more clearly

[Post-Chorus: All, Mark & Renjun]

The dreams we've dreamed together

Become someone else's again

We're inside the same dream

The rainbow that rises up more clearly

"Shit" her response surprised everyone while a tear rolled down her cheeks. All panicking as they thought back on what wrong they had done. Renjun immediately running to her side.

"Why is this soo good!!" Everyone sighing in relief as she shed tears of joy. "Guys seriously this is...it's just soo good your voices omg.. this means soo much omg.. please guys you seriously can become damn famous like for real.

And your voice Renjun damn it's just soo soothing!!" She wailed while the rest chuckled as Renjun patted her shoulder.

"I seriously thought we did something wrong" haechan voiced out as the rest nodded. "Hey don't cry now you make me feel bad" Renjun said while rubbing out the tears off her cheeks. Nodding she sniffled. Her vision finally turning back to normal she smiled at then widely.

"Thank you soo much guys. Thank you Renjun. This means a lot to me" she whispered while Renjun hugged her tighter.

The atmosphere turned serene as the two layed there on the bed, there she was wrapped safely under renjuns arms as she stared into the void.

The boys left earlier stating they had assignments and if not for Renjun threatening them they would have never come.

Eyes falling on the book on the table she wondered what that was. "Whats that??" She asked pointing at the book. "It's the most treasured book after the art one" Renjun replied while his eyes fell on her curious ones.

"Can I open it ??" Her innocent voice made him smile. "Not yet....but you will when it's time" his words came out as a mere whisper towards the end as they stayed there basking under each other's warmth.

Somehow that night became the last of the silent serene nights, the last night where they spent time with each other, which they never expected.

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Chapter 22

Her eyes widened as the agonizing pain returned. Tears stung her eyes as she looked around to find no one. Please not now...

Holding her stomach she slipped down the bed as her fragile body came in contact with the hard cold floor. "Ouch" wincing at the increasing pain she reached forward for the button but it just went further away.

"God!!" She yelled while she tried standing up but failed as the pain increased at every single movement she made. "Fuck you stomach" she cursed while her vision blurred with tears.

"God now only you thought of going out Renjun great!" Her voice monotone while she tried her best to reach the button but no avail.

"Someone!!" She yelled but the pain increased to the core as she cried out of pain. "it hurts!!" She yelled, her eyes shut tight while tears escaped out of it with ease.

"Someone..." Her voice a mere whisper as her strength gave up. Eyes slowly closing up as she saw darkness covering her eyes before she became completely shut out from the outer world but before it went completely dark his voice reached her ears.

"Renjun..." And with that darkness basked her.

"DOYEON!! DOCTOR!! SHE FAINTED!!" Renjun yelled as the nurse bashed in. Eyes falling on the unconscious gurl she instantly ran upto her and placed on the bed before checking her pulse.

"It's still beating" she reported as the doctor nodded instantly checking up on her.

Renjun stood there out the room as he fell deeper into his thoughts. Oh how he regretted forgetting that even she was like him, maybe worser. Her bubbly attitudes return made them completely forget that she was diagnosed with a disease.

Tears flowed down as he silently cried while the doctors took longer than expected. "Renjun..." Haechans soft voice made him look up just to find the boy standing right infront of him holding a bag of snacks doyeon and Renjun loved which he doubted doyeon could ever eat after this.

"Hyuck...doyeon she-" Renjun couldn't complete the sentence as he cried out more. Hyuck took a glance in the room and he knew exactly just what was happening.

"Shes a strong girl she will come out don't worry" he comforted while Renjun's tears never stopped.

Hours passed like years while the two teenagers sat outside the room along with the new appearance of her parents. Time ticking as each minute more sweats dripped down the doctors forehead.

Please don't lose on me doyeon please...

Each minute passing by like an eternity as the heart rate decreased. "Shit we are losing her" the doctor announced while the nurses ran helter skelter.

"The apendix, why hadn't we noticed it before??" The doctor asked before the nurse raised her voice. "It never showed up in her x-rays she often complained about stomach aches but we only thought of it as an side effect of the cancer"

A long disappointed sigh from the doctor only made things worse as the nurse mistakenly cut the wrong nerve. "Holy shit. I'm really sorry-i -i seriously didn't mean to do that!!" She defended while the doctor panicked.

Keeping his calm he commanded the nurse to bring in extra blood while his eyes never left her fragile body.

Eyes darting towards the heart monitor and blood pressure only to see it rapidly decreasing at an unholy rate.

"Please doyeon please don't die on me.." he begged while he worked on her for hours.

The four individuals out turned to be three as hyuck couldn't stay more late. And that's when renjun realised the sun had long drowned, leaving the sky pitch dark. Not a star shined as the star in the room struggled to catch onto life.

"Renjun...you shouldn't stay here more long, go to your room and rest...she will be completely alright trust me she will never fail you" Ms.choi approached Renjun while the exhausted eyes of the boy met the concerned eyes of the lady.

Nodding reluctantly he left the room with just one thing in his mind. Make her not deny the surgery request and make her live the life she had always wanted.

But how??? That's what he sat thinking all night when he finally sat up looking at the book. There is no other way.

A tear slid down his exhausted cheeks as he cursed at himself for not thinking of a better idea. But he just wanted the best for her and that's what he was about to give her.

I'm sorry mom, dad, doyeon...i just want you to live doyeon, but now it seems like for you to live I'll have to leave you.

Hitching, hands trembling as more tears fell off his eyes making it red. But nothing hurted him physically as much as he was hurt right now mentally.

Cursing internally for life being so cruel at him and her, but thats exactly it wanted, and that's exactly what he is giving it, but not exactly what it wanted.

The doctor finally let out a breath he held onto for a long time. His heart now feelings at peace after seeing her heart beats stabilise along with the bp.

Feeling satisfied with the stable situation he left the operation theatre where he was met with her worried parents. "She is stable for now, but i- the cancer has spread inevitably and her survival rate for the surgery has decreased but the chances of survival are still high.

I don't wanna lose just like you but only you can make her agree to it." The doctor said as the parents nodded.

"Can we see her??" The father approached while the doctor shook his head. "Not yet but we will let you in when it's time"

- - -

"She's stabilised for now" the nurses voice made him look up from the book as she pushed the trolly towards his table.

"Thank God" he breathed out while the nurse smiled. "She is a strong one she will survive this" she replied while Renjun nodded.

"She is" looking out the window his eyes held nothing but love when he thought about her and the next he was about to do to her was really cruel making him him the bad guy, but he just didn't have any other choice making him best himself up every single minute in guilt.

"I just hope you two live the lives you deserve" "I wish tooo...i wish that soo badly.." Renjun whispered head hanging low but his voice went unheard by the nurse as she changed the tube.

"I'll leave now and yea according to what I heard they will be shifting her to this room later this evening" with that the nurse left as a tear rolled down his cheeks.

Please, forgive me...

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Chapter 23

It had been three hours since they shifted doyeon to their room but she still hadn't opened her eyes making Renjun dead worried.

Pleading the nurses and doctors he pushed his bed more closer to hers making it as if they were on the same bed. Hands never leaving hers he stayed there right next to her.

The heart rate steady while the room was pitch silent. Eyes staring into their he stayed there not minding to do anything. Just stay there right next to her that's all he has ever wanted.

"Renjun!" Marks voice barged into the room as his eyes met the exhausted ones of Renjun. "What are you doing here?? Shouldn't you be in your college??"

"It got over a long time ago you idiot it 5 in the evening" mark deadpanned and that's exactly when he realised he had been sitting like that for probably god knows how many hours.

"Ooo..." He trailed his voice holding no kind of an emotion as his face was emotionless kinda like he was dead. "Hey..." Mark approached the boy who was currently still looking down at their intertwined hands.

"She's gonna be alright...i can't promise you that but i just know...shes strong she will wake up" mark assured while Renjun eyes glistened with tears when he looked up marks concerned irises.

"I just hope she wakes up" he whispered while mark rubbed his shoulders soothingly. "She will"

The sky had turned completely black while still none of the stars shined. It was as if the stars refused to show up as she layed there, her light all drowned deeper into the ocean.

Renjun layed right next to her, his hand still intertwined with hers while his eyes were gently closed. His even breaths along with the heart rate monitor sound hit her ears as she slightly flinched.

Trying her best to open her eyes that felt heavy for now reason she moved her one free hand as she felt the other one intertwined with someone's whom she instantly recognised as Renjuns.

A smile tugged up as her eyes slowly fluttered open. Adjusting to the light she brought up her free hand to close the direct hit of the sudden light.

Eyes trailing to the digital clock she was partially shocked at the day it showed. I've been gone for almost fucking two days shit...

Turning her head slowly to look at the peacefully sleeping boy she felt her heart soften to the core. How cute his lips were pouted while a small frown was evident on his face.

Pushing back the hair that covered his eyes she slowly grabbed his cheeks. Rubbing her thumbs against his soft skin while she felt his cheekbones become more prominent.

Damn he is losing his weight really fast...faster than me...

At the sudden imapct of the cold hands he slowly stirred, a groan leaving his lips. A stunned doyeon instantly took her hands off his cheeks, afraid she would wake him up.

Eyes slowly opening up he met with her soft gaze he had leaned onto to meet again. Her eyes looking at him with fondness while he just couldn't believe she was awake.

"You're awake..." He breathed out while she nodded. As if she had read his mind she chuckled before speaking up. "And no this ain't a dream"

A tear slid down pushing itself past down his eyes wetting the pillow cover. "I seriously thought you wouldn't wake up" Renjun whispered, closing his eyes while more tears streamed down.

"Hey...it's alright im all awake now. I'm good- oww" she winced at the sudden pain in her stomach as Renjun widened his eyes alarmed. "Let me go call the doctor" instantly getting off the bed he pressed the emergency button.

Ms.Choi instantly entering the room as her gaze fell on the girl who held her stomach. "You're awake!!" She announced while running to her helping her sit up.

"It's gonna hurt" she stated while doyeon winced at the alarmingly increasing pain. The doctor entered without a delay as Renjun looked at the trio.

Once all done the doctor left the room but her face was down, no more of the fondness or any kind of an emotion was plastered on her face as she stared into reality of what was actually happening with her.

Dying.

"Yeon..." His ever so soft voice called her out while her eyes met his worried ones. "You're gonna be alright don't worry I'm here" he whispered bringing her closer to his chest.

"And I'll always be there for you..."

Be there for you

Do you remember the first time we met?

That bright day that was full of sunlight

You have always stayed by my side like this

I thank you and again and again

I just need you to be with me,

As time goes on, we get comfortable

I might have made you upset sometimes

You can tell me anytime

I'll become whoever you want me to be

At the end of your day, I'll be there for you

I'll hold you in my arms and listen to you

For me, you don't always have to be perfect

It's alright

You just need to stay like this

Always, just like now

As time goes on, we get used to each other

I'm so glad we're together

Because I know whenever I look back, you'll be there

At the end of your day, I'll be there for you

I'll hold you in my arms and listen to you

For me, you don't always have to be perfect

It's alright

You just need to stay like this

Always, just like now

You gave me the world I've always dreamed of

I always wanna be there for you

And I know that you will feel the same

At the end of my day

Will you hold me in your arms and listen to me?

We don't always have to be perfect

Don't always have to

It's alright

You just need to stay like this

Always, just like now

I just need you to stay with me

Just like now

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Chapter 24

It hurts like hell when you know you need to let go of someone but you can't because you're still waiting for the impossible to happen...

"No...I won't why the hell would I??" Her tear stained face was brushed with another rush of tears as she looked at renjun who was standing right infront of her.

"Cause that's the only way you'll live Yeon...please do it" Renjun pleaded. He felt guilty, angry, hate for doing the same thing to her as he parents did. Force her into doing the surgery.

"No why would I want to live when you are dying??" "Yeon...just cause I'm dying doesn't mean you should too...please do it. I want you to live the life i have never had. Live the life you've always wanted. Don't lose it just cause me. Just cause of a boy who suddenly showed up in your life"

"No!!" She yelled feeling a sense of betrayal fill in her. What had she even expected. He was just like her parents. Forcing her into doing the surgery just to live the life she hated living. But what she didn't know was the motive behind Renjuns pleading.

He sincerely meant it. He wanted her to live and if it was forcing her into doing the surgery so be it. "You are just like them. Just like my parents" "What no!! No Yeon" walking forward, hands reaching upto her shoulder but a feeling inside him stopped him from keeping it on top of it.

"I never want you to force you into doing the surgery. I want you to become strong. Come back alive. Show your parents the life you've always wanted to live. Not what they want you to or make you to live.

If not for then atleast for me Yeon...please do the surgery. I'm not forcing you..and in the end it's still your choice and I'm in no place in forcing you to do so but i just love you soo soo much i don't wanna watch you die please."

"And you think it's okay for me to see you die!?! Live a life of regret??" She yelled while more tears fell off. "Shh don't yell" his comforting voice spoke out as he moved more closer. Feeling her lean onto his touch.

"It's not I'm wanting to see you see me die. Infact I wanted an eternity for us. For us to be together and experience everything in life together. My wish for you and i to be together forever...it's just it seems so against the universe." A defeated sigh from Renjun only made her wail more.

"I don't know why the universe hates us but Yeon just remember I'll never leave your side. Even if i die I'll always be by your side, in your heart. And the fact that we don't have long just breaks me more...but Yeon" pulling her face up by her chin her eyes stared right into his teary ones.

"Whatever happens, whatever cold night your facing always remember I'll be right by your side, through every hardship, even if I'm not physically present I'll be in here." Pointing at her heart her cries softened.

"Close your eyes, lean to your heart and I'll be there cause no matter where i go I'll be always with you love, no matter where i go.." pressuring every single word he said as it made a mark in her head.

Nodding her head while she looked up at him. "Go live the life, and don't think I'm not there cause I'll be there in every step of your life from here.

Don't make me the block for your life, make me the way of your life, the bridge of your life" he repeated the same word as she finally gave in.

Live the life i want, how the hell will i live that life without you???

🍂

The astound doctor looked at the two teenagers who stood infront of him, partly standing with the help of each other.

"You're doing the surgery??" His voice still not believing as the two nodded. "Even you??" Raising a brow at renjun the boy confidently nodded. "Why are you..." "I'm dying anyways..." The boys words cut off the doctor while the doctor sighed.

"Renjun your parents should agree. Hers they agreed a long time ago but you..." "I'll make them" he sternly replied while the doctor reluctantly nodded. "Alright I'll...let the others know" the doctor sighed while the two just nodded.

"Wait.. Renjun baby why??" His mother questioned while the boy stood there, put up on his one word. "I am doing the surgery mother...anyways i am not likely to survive, but her, she has a lot of chances..she can mom, she can survive the surgery.

I don't want her to die. I want her to live the life I've always wanted to. A normal teenage life" his words hit deep fort he parents as they stood out the hospital in the garden. The wind brushing past each of them as they shivered under the cold wind.

"Fine...it's your choice kid and we as parents will never stand as a block for it" his father assured giving him a wide smile, a smile that never reached the eyes.

🍂

On the rooftop sat the two, hearts beating erratically, while the cold wind made its way past them real quick but as usual instead of a shiver they felt each other's warmth radiate.

"The rooftop it's gonna be cold once you are gone" her voice caught hij off track as he looked at her. "Why would it??" "Stupid once you are gone how the hell will i feel warm"

"Hey...i told you I'll be right here, right next to you radiating the same warmth, it's gonna be the same trust me" he assured her showing up a thumbs up while she scoffed.

"I wish it to be like that..." "Don't worry it's all gonna be alright" the thought that when she will wake up after the surgery he would be long gone, the reality of him leaving her all alone in this big world didn't strike her yet and it sacred her.

But his words made her feel safe, secure a feeling that he will be right next to her and that he would never leave her, always be by her side no matter where he disappears off to. And that made her....okay.

Cause there was nothing she could do, his disease was inevitable and hers was unfortunately evitable.

"Renjun, doyeon!!" The nurses voice brought the pair out of their trance as they turned their heads in a sync. "It's time" those words left her mouth as reality hit them real hard.

"Jun..." Her voice quavered. "I'm scared..." A slow tear made its way down her rose cheeks while he held onto her palms tight.

Looking back at the nurse he gave a assuring smile before she left. "Look at me" his soothing voice which she was afraid she would never hear again.

"Do me a favour...once all of this is done just open the draw right next to my bed and there's a pendrive, and a book never lose it okay??" He looked at her with love, as if she was the only women in the world.

She just nodded while sniffing hardly. "Hey...it's gonna be alright just remember what i said okay??? Don't be scared, whenever wherever just shout my name and I'll be there. Hm??" She just nodded while he pulled her close.

Hugging her tightly as if there ain't no tomorrow which was the reality for him he rubbed her back slowly. "Everything's gonna be alright and I'll make sure of it." Pulling out of the hug he took her chin and pulled her closer, making their lips meet which she didn't hesitate to return back.

Pouring out all their emotions into that one last kiss as they held each other in their arms for one last time before walking out of the rooftop. His voice ringing her mind.

Just remember for us it's never goodbye.

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"Don't be scared, I'm watching you I remember the nights where we were together

When you walk on unfamiliar roads, just raise your head and

Take a look at the stars"

~Never goodbye

Chapter 25

A month later

"Do-yoen!" Hyucks voice rang through her ears as the now healthy gurl turned around. A smile adorned her face as her eyes met the six boys walking towards her. One missing.

Her mind walking back to the last month as the smile slowly turned into a frown.

"Ready to get out of this hell hole??" Hyucks cheerful voice brought her out of trance as the smile returned. "So ready" the rest giggled as mark picked up her bags. "Meet you down there??" She nodded as the rest left.

A sigh from her as she turned around looking at the room that held millions of memories which she can never bring back once again.

Though he was never physically present he kept his promise of being present mentally. The first few weeks after the surgery was probably her worst but as days passed by she moved on, practically keeping her promise.

But she never opened his draw, never did she dare to open it. But as time ticked she reluctantly opened the draw only to find the same exact stuffs Renjun had told her.

A moomin pendrive and a diary.

Fingers trailing over the items she grabbed them. "Doyeon.." ms.choi's voice mad her turn her head alarmed, eyes slightly widened.

"Oh sorry I didn't mean to scare you" "No worries " she smiled while Ms Choi brought her into a tight hug. "Oh I'm so glad you are all well now" she cried while doyeon chuckled.

"Mee too" pulling out of the hug the nurse looked at doyeon fondly, how much she had fought the urge to not breakdown, how much she had turned to be strong and not cry all night for that one boy.

She was proud of her, as she saw the weak one turn out to be the strongest of them all.

"I'm so proud of you" she whispered running a hand through her silky hair which now returned back thick. Her face brighter than ever, she was all good now.

"I'll miss you ms. Choi" do-yoen hugged her once again as they held each other for one last time. "I'll miss you too" taking in a sharp inhale as the nurse looked back at the bubbly girl return back.

"Alright then let's get you out of this hell hole" she said as the girl giggled nodding. Holding the pendrive and the book tightly she left the room.

Turning to look at the room one last time as the whole bunch of memories returned back in a flash. A tear slowly rolled down as she felt him standing right next to her bed smiling widely, screaming I'm proud of you.

A month before

"The heart rates falling" the doctor frantically worked on the girl while the boy...he was doing pretty good.

Doctors and nurses ran helter skelter not knowing what exactly was happening as the girl who should be doing well was now losing her life.

"Get me more blood we need more blood!!" The doctor cried while the nurses rushed out. The six boys along with doyeon's and Renjun's parents stood out the operation theatre while each second passed by like an eternity.

"Ms.park!! Help me up here" the doctor yelled as the doctors moved towards the little girl's body. "On the count of three let's cut it off" the doctor instructed as the rest nodded.

And what happened rest is a history for them, as the boy turned weaker and girl gradually picked up to life.

The seven of them walked out of the hospital as she took in a sharp breath, inhaling all the fresh air she had missed. "Live the life and show him that his sacrifice was worth it" mark whispered as she smiled widely.

I should have died with you...and by now both of us should be in heaven

..together...but that's not what the universe planned for us and it hurts.

Walking down the hospital as she gave a glance at it one last time before she mouthed a goodbye.

Eyes staring at her once home which never had imagined she would leave she let out a tear. "Thank you..." She whispered, while her eyes gazed at their room's window.

"Do-yeon!! Let's go!!" Jaemin yelled while the girl snapped her head back at them. Nodding she smiled widely, a smile that reached her eyes as she got inside the car.

Looking at the hospital one last time she gave it a goodbye for the final time, but she never forgot renjun or never let him go.

After all he was always with her until the day she let out her last breath.

Whatever happens I'll get through it, cause i know you're right next to me Jun...you are always with me

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Dear Yeon,

If you are reading this letter then i have guessed it right. Yes I'm a stupid a stupid who couldn't come up with any other solution to make you live. But hey! Look at you, you have become strong and thats exactly what i wanted...and I'm proud of you.

Enjoy your life to the end don't make me sad from up there. I'll be watching you, watching over you from there so don't worry, whatever hardship you will go through I'll be right next to you, call out for me and I'll be there.

And don't ever be single for life okay??, find a better guy than me and marry him...haaa it hurts it does, but thats how life is isn't it ?? Always unfair never on our side.

I just wanna be with you till the end of your life, protect you from all the dangers in the world, be with you in all the pages of your life but it just seems so impossible now that I'm gone.

I so wanna see you walking down the aisle in that beautiful dress and stand right beside you while the whole crowd watches us, and the thought that someone else would be standing there only makes me more jealous, but i want the best for you and that's the reason I left, so don't ever forget whatever happens even if you are all alone I'll be with you.

One day when you're enduring a particularly dark and long night when you can't hold your tears just lift your head and follow the shining stars don't worry you'll find a way back cause it's never goodbye

Love,

Injun♡

Never goodbye

I'd stop the changing seasons"

I can't hold on to you with words like that

But, to you, who will encounter many seasons

I hope to show you this one feeling

So that my leaving footsteps don't cloud your mind

So please don't cry, I'll promise you

One day when you're enduring a particularly dark and long night

When you can't hold your tears and lift your head

Just follow the shining stars and

You'll find a way back

It's never goodbye

The road you need to take

May cross away from mine

That we can never always walk the same direction

I know, I know, I know I know

If I can't find the way to go together with you

I will always shine upon you from afar

I'm just like always, the same like a photo

But time doеsn't seem that way

Listening to this tickles my mеmories

I see you even when I close my eyes

You know, that's not normal for you, I'm not normal

So I can find you at once even if I lose my hold on you

I will wait there

For us, it's never goodbye

Like how I will recognize you in the dark after I go round and round

One day, find me, please

So my heart (My heart) that has stopped doesn't sprint again (Again)

So please (So please) don't cry (Don't cry), I'll promise you

One day when you're enduring a particularly dark and long night

When you can't hold your tears and lift your head

Just follow the shining stars and

You'll find a way back

It's never goodbye

One day when you come back to me

I'll come meet you in a heartbeat

You were, you are, you and I

Will always be together

Don't go astray then

One day when you're enduring a particularly dark and long night

When you can't hold your tears and lift your head

Just follow the shining stars and

You'll find a way back

It's never goodbye

You never say goodbye

At the same time, in the same place, in the same location

The starlight shines in the darkness

I hope my one and only constellation will be made complete by you

Don't be scared, I'm watching you

I remember the nights where we were together

When you walk on unfamiliar roads, just raise your head and

Take a look at the stars

____________________

Even though you say don't cry after you leave, Imma always think about you from time to time and let tears out cause that way you will always be with me

Prologue || Part 1 || Part 2 || Epilogue

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