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Ride 712: To the next step!!
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4: Was it hard?
Did you run with everything you had?
5: In this year's first years' race, the second and third place were
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1: Hinoki Keisuke
2: and Amigoe Kyoutarou
Pag 5
1: You guys
2: We....chased him.... at full throttle, but....
3: As expecte.... we couldn't catch up!!
4: From the moment we started going around the dam.... I saw him for a moment ahead of us, but..... ngh!
5: Kyoutarou said he had a cramp in his lag
Wha!! After that you were saying “I can't do it anymore” too, Kei-chan!!
6: Imaizumi-san
Well.... anyway....
Pag 6
1: “Losing” really is frustrating
Pag 7
1: Yeah....!!
2: Amigoe, Hinoki, I have towels and water for you!!
Waaaa!! Thanks!!
Thanks!!
Eh, uhm... sorry
I'm a second year, Danchiku
Danchiku-san!!
3: On their first time riding a road-bike, they were Rokudai's assists
In their first race
4: They place second and third, with a 2 minutes difference with Kinaka
Wateer....
Fourth and fifth place are coming, I see two people
5: ….. huh
It's Murakami and Furuya!
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2: Hahaha, it was so much fun... thoday's race!!
I'm very satisfied!! You did a good job!!
3: Kinaka!! Where is Kinaka!? I wanna congratulate him too!!
4: I did it, I did it!!
Sohoku!! The first years' race!! Damn!! I still can't believe it!!
5: Who told me two years ago... that “it's no use going to Sohoku”!!
I did it, I took it, I got results in Sohoku!!
Hahaha!! Are you seeing my strength now!?
6: Yoo, Kinaka, today's race was good!
Yes!!
Pag 9
3: Ex- excuse me.... teh
Thank you very much.... teh
4: Kei-chan.....
Kyou-chan.....
8: I.... I'm all worn out, but
Pag 10
1: I fullfilled my promise!!
Yeah!
Pag 11
1: You're incredible
Roku-chan!!
4: Yeah....!!
5: We'll join the club too
Until we make sure!!
6: Thank you, teh
For... for making sure I did it
Pag 12
1: Don't worry about it anymore
3: Yeah
Pag 13
6: You're right!!
Pag 14
1: The next day, Kei-chan Kyou-chan officially quitted the bicycle racing club
Thank you for your help
Pag 15
5: Are you sure?
6: Yes
Sorry for causing you trouble!!
Pag 16
1: Ah, it's okay, if you want to try again, you can always rejoin the club
They're not ready for that
2: I was surprised and shocked too
In case they decide to rejoin, they'll undergo a severe test
Ehhh!?
3: We'll rejoin the basket club
Excuse us
Even though I knew it
4: To advance or to stop, you're the one who decide
5: That's what bicycles are
6: If this is the path you chose for yourself, then follow it and move forward!!
7: Yes!!
'lright!!
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2 Seeing them going away made me feel unsettled
3: The ground felt like marshmallows, and my heart shaked and wavered
5: So
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1: I stood firm with all my strength, and with all my strength I waved my hand
Kei-chan, Kyou-chan, thank you!!
Pag 19
1: Rokudai-ku.....
Is he okay?
2: He's okay
Proably
3: Thank you
4: Separations make people stronger
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2: Rokudaiii, I told you
We step on when we're halfway through the curve
You're too late, so you'll fall behind
I- got it, teh
I'll be careful teh
3: Ohoh!! Not bad, the NakaRoku combination!!
NakaRoku....!? That's a unique abbreviation
But still not as good as us!!
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1: The team's name we e were once part of, the “SS team”, stands for “speed shot” which means to shoot through your opponents quickly
2: But we're different now!!
Our “team SS” stands for...
3: Special strong!!
Which means “special strong”*!!
(NdT.: the forst time he says it in english already, so then he repeats the meaning in Japanese)
Wha!?
His vocabulary....!!
4: Hahaha, what do you think, it suits us, right? Danchiku!!
Uh.... uhm!? Oh... yeah, it's... simple
Hahaha
5: You spent time.... to think about it...?
You know me well!! I searched in a dictionary!!
Is that so... well, in that case, it can't be helped
6: Danchiku
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1: This year, let's go to the Inter High together
3: That's what I want
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1: Special strong means that “the two of us are special and we become the strongest when we're together”
2: Issa …..!!
3: Well, Onoda-san said that the members will be announced at the training camp again
But don't worry, you even won on Minegayama last autumn
4: You'll become a member for sure, Danchiku!! Hahaha
5: “For.... sure””
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1: Issa..... there's something I still can't tell you
2: After that fierce race on Minegayama last autumn
All the time
3: My body's joints are so tight, and they hurt so much that I can't run like I used to
#yowamushi pedal#yowapeda#yowamushi pedal maga#yowapeda manga#yowamushi pedal translations#yowamushi pedal spoilers#ride 712#me reading literally the whole chap except the last page: 'omg i love this chapter so much!! they're so cute!!#roku-chan and his friends have such a beautiful friendship i love them so much! and issa is as dumb as always - my dumb child literally no d#*no one can beat him in dumbness asdfdgdfhfgh i love him'#then#me reading the last page: *ready to fly to jaoan and knock on watanabe's door bc I NEED ANSWERS'#WHATHEHELL WHAT WHAT WAHT#I swear i reread that page so many times bc i thought i was getting it wrong ;A;A;A#why tho whyyyyyyy#no okay lets not lose hope maybe its not as bad as it looks#danchikuuuuuuu ;A;#no wonder he didnt tell issa tho...... i wonder how hed react.....#guess we'll find out o<-<#merry christmas i guess ;A;
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iruma's road
mowgli's road by marina screams iruma to me
Ten silver spoons coming after me,
One life with one dream on repeat,
I'll escape if I try hard enough,
Till, King of the Jungle calls my bluff
'silver spoon' means wealth or inherited wealth, and when applied to iruma, it can be read as his being adopted by sullivan, one of the three greats, chairman of babylus, and obviously a wealthy, if not one of the wealthiest demons
in his life in the demon world, his dream, his current ambition, is to rank up and its pretty much repeated every season and in each arc, and it's central to the series' storyline as well as lore, because rank 10 can only be held by the demon king
the third line is more complicated to me, but i see it as iruma escaping his fear of being eaten and/or escaping his fear and doubts of living in the netherworld. and the fourth line, the king calling his bluff, reads as maybe baal, kirio, or whoever else calling him out as being a human
Oh Lord, (Oh Lord)
I have been told, (I have been told)
That I must take the unforsaken road (Forsaken road)
read the line "take the unforsaken road" as at first being told to take the hard path, but unforsaken means that it hasnt been forsaken so it means to take the easy path. so in this context, it's iruma's initial plan to stay quiet and unseen, to not be noticed and be the center of attention during his stay at babylus, and as a whole, the netherworld. but the repeated 'Forsaken road' is like iruma inevitably being dragged to live the 'hard' way, dragged from the easy road to the harder one, he becomes the center of attention and leader of the misfits (seeing as he lead the misfits into getting the Royal One)
There's a fork in the road,
I'll do as as I am told,
And I don't know, (Don't know, don't know, don't know, don't know)
Who...I want to be.
no need for an explanation but like i'll type anyway. the chorus is real catchy i love how its sang.
"theres a fork in the road", the fork's first path is his initial desire to go back to the human realm, and the second is to stay in the netherworld, this takes place when opera asks iruma if he wanted to go back to the human realm, i can't remember what chapter this takes place explicitly but it's brought up during chapter 199
"i'll do as i am told" his parents practically controlled his every decision from when he was younger, taking advantage of him and his inability to refuse, and the last line is him where iruma isn't sure whether if he even wants to go back
You say Y-E-S to everything,
Will that guarantee you a win?
Do you think you will be good enough,
To love others and to be loved?
OK NOW THIS IS THE VERSE THAT MADE ME SAY: OH IRUMA.
first line is obvious, iruma's a yes man and he says yes to practically everything. but is him being compliant bring good? obviously not but more often than not, from when we were young, saying yes and being compliant is always seen as the good thing, but being compliant doesnt always do good, it can cause a person to not be able to stand up for themselves, have a harder time in choosing for their own, and become dependent on others to tell them what to do
third and fourth line, "do you think you will be good enough, to love others and to be loved?" i pictured the scene during iruma and sullivan's talk of the demon king being the netherworld. will iruma be good enough to become the demon king? can he love other people and can he be loved back? (thinking of the six fingers hmm)
Oh Lord, (Oh Lord)
Now I can see, (Now I can see)
The cutlery will keep on chasing me, (Forsaken road)
call back to the first line of the song, no matter what he does, those silver spoons will keep chasing him as the grandson of lord sullivan, getting the opportunity to become a candidate for the seat of the demon king, and the forsaken road is still the same, to work hard to get through the netherworld, not anymore trying to walk the easy road and fade into the background, but now to live among the demons as an equal.
There's a fork in the road,
I'll do as as I am told,
And I don't know, (Don't know, don't know, don't know, don't know)
Who...I want to be.
still love the chorus. but now on the second repeat, catching up to the harvest festival, the fork in the road was his struggle in being bachiko's student and his decision to either give up on her being his teacher, or persevere and push through. he pushes through and he did everything he was told during the first phase of the mentorship, tutorship? and it didnt work out, he was frustrated
third and fourth line, in this time, iruma didn't really have a specific moment of Who Am I, so imagine these lines as his putting those thoughts aside, until the last repeat of the chorus.
We are the spoons, metal-ly mean
We scooped our way into your dreams,
To knock the knives out bloody cold,
And lead you down the unforsaken road.
ok now this verse made me confused about what it really meant, but i read it as the spoons being a metaphor for the netherworld, how it affected iruma as a person and character and it becoming the indirect center of his dream/ambition. metal-ly mean is just going to reference how rough and hard living in the demon world is.
the knives i see as iruma's initial defensiveness and self-sacrificial way of living, the spoon knocking down the knives is the netherworld making iruma reevaluate his old way of living, and if not the netherworld making him change, then his friends and teachers, telling and reminding him that it's alright to ask for help, and that they're there for him
the fourth line mentioning the unforsaken road made me think oh is the line connecting ive been doing for this verse just plain wrong
so another interpretation (that was the word i was looking for, interpretation) is the spoons being iruma's parents, and the knives being his determination and love for the netherworld.
orobas' bloodline ability, Trauma, centers on this verse. the spoons, iruma's parents, suddenly show up and try to scoop iruma back into the human world, away from the realm he grew used to and was loved and had been loved in. they knock down iruma's knives, the knives being his realization of the perception of self-worth and preservation, and drag him back with them to the 'unforsaken road' that is living in the human world
There's a fork in the road,
I'll do as as I am told,
And I don't know, (Don't know, don't know, don't know, don't know)
Who...I want to be
last chorus of the song. now, post-trauma scene. there's no interpretation for the lines now, the fork in the road had been long passed, and he chose the forsaken road. he's thinking about how he used to do what he's been told to do, and thinks about how much he had grew since then. He used to not know what he wanted to be, unsure of what to even do.
But now, he knows what he wants to be; he knows what his ambition is. to rank up, to live in the netherworld, to be the demon king.
#hi#so#yes#this song has been cultivating in my mind for months now#so i decided to just go whatever and type my thoughts down and it became this post#pls listen to the song though it screams iruma#id add the song to the post itself but tumblr isnt letting me</3#i hope this is well articulated i didnt reread it and just zoned out after copy pasting the lyrics#listen just listen *frantic pointing to a board with pins and red thread connecting them*#mairuma talks#suzuki iruma#mairimashita iruma kun#mairimashita! iruma kun#mairuma#welcome to demon school iruma kun#welcome to demon school#iruma kun#m!ik#csoi posts#csoi talks too much#like wayy too much#i counted the words and this is over 1k#heuuuuuuuuudhfghdrjsezhdfgtf i lost my braincells i put all of them into this post#music
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in my classics era and gonna start posting on here again - we all have dracula daily to thank
#dont know why i didnt rmbr this acct when i was reading a bunch in the beginning of the yr lmfao#but so far ive been reading/have read the heroes of olympus series#never let me go by kazuo ishiguro#pride and prejudice by jane austen - which was good!!#and a room with a view by em forster#just bought picture of dorian gray & i hope to reread the awakening by kate chopin this summer too!!!#also am in the middle of rereading trc#talia.txt
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I have been REALLY wanting to do traditional art lately. And I finally called it quits on my prior sketchbook it's like ~basically~ filled up and I rlly had that thing since 2018 and I think it's more than time to start fresh. But I have this absolutely beautiful handmade sketchbook I CANNOT GET MYSELF TO USE. I want to use it. It rlly inspires me...but it's just too damn pretty!!! Sksksksks. I think I'm gonna use the illo I have lying around and maybe pick up the pretty sketchbook when I feel a bit more confident in my traditional art again.
Like I don't think you need to have a 'ugly drawing' and 'pretty drawing' sketchbook I personally can't do that. And I know you're suppose to open up yourself to your sketchbook and I was happiest when I truly felt I did that BUT ITS JUST SO HARD.
My sketchbook really became a safety after I could draw again post surgery. I had to use my sketchbook or else I couldn't draw (it was physically too painful digitally; don't ask me why I dunno) but when that shift happened and it became physically too painful to draw traditional and I had to switch to digital (yeah....Idk...grr) I really have never been the same since 😭😭😭
Though I truly value and love traditional art. I wouldn't have improved like if I didn't. Like before I did a lot of traditional I COULD NOT draw on my iPad. I always said it just felt """"too much like traditional""" but now? I only draw on my iPad and feel I could actually feel the skill transfer which is nice. Like ohmygod. My like pages and pages of just John and Lincoln studies were so good to me and I know is why I feel comfortable drawing them today. Which I wouldn't have been able to do digitally I just know it. But also, I don't think I really could draw like I do today if I didn't do digital? You know. Like I love that just as dearly and was very important to my early years especially (and still now of course) of figuring out anatomy bc of the ability to tweak thing.
But um. Long story short. If I'm getting the craving to traditional I think I need to tap into that. Even if that means I have to draw less to have more fun. I think it'll be worth it.
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The immediate bants (#Bantz) Sera and Corin have w each other is something that can be so gun2myhead
#plus when corin says 'i didnt resent my father for pulling me out of a system that didnt do enough to prepare tristan for his trial'#'but not allowing me to see my school friends was another matter' defending corin online isnt enough I Need A Gun.#if magnus cadence was real . well lets just say hes LUCKY hes not#unreal#i cant believe youve done this. etc#esp bc u can tell how dearly corin missed that peer social interaction#i know it tires him out but w sera i mean. hes funny !!! hes witty !!! hes not afraid to make jokes involving personal death !!#recently read#god. this book is so good. so glad im rereading esp post reading wobm#cause now the jaden box shows up and i can be like omg wrynn jaden ......#bored at work. cutting up pears. thinking harald has forgotten to do the end of day. actually hoping thats the cae#case* otherwise hes still up playing viddy games at 3:30 which god what a time of night
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You could write a Clarisse la rue x fem! Jiu jitsu (or judo) fighter reader? You decide the rest of the story, but I would like it to involve a rival relationship between lovers, where Clarisse challenges the reader to fight alone, but it ends up becoming a kissing and making out session.
I love your writing by the way <3
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Pairings - Clarisse La Rue x fem! Jiu jitsu! Reader
An - i finished this and I reread the prompt and I’m not sure if it meant for An already established relationship or not but I hope this is good 😭😭
An pt2 - FUCK YEAH I WROTE SOMETHING GOOD ASF‼️‼️
Clarisse La Rue.
Clarisse fucking La Rue.
The woman who always had some shit to say to you. Even when you were just minding your business and helping some new kids learn to fight she just had to tell you everything you were doing wrong.
And of course the one fucking time she was right she just had to have that same usual shit eating grin. What was her problem anyways?! Why couldn’t she just leave you alone why was she always up your ass.
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You stepped into the arena tossing your duffel bag aside. Today Chiron had put you in charge of leading the wrestling and hand in hand combat class, your co-teacher was unknown but you figured it was probably Luke once again.
While tying your hair up you heard a strong voice speak “what are you doing”. Turning around you saw clarisse standing cross armed with her spear attached to her back. “Get lost I’m about to teach a class”
You gave her a sarcastic look “really? Because I’m about to teach the hand in hand combat class”
“No your not” Clarisse walked close, speaking like she knew it was true.
“Shut up clarisse, gods Your so fucking ignorant” you scoffed turning around once again to finish preparing, great Clarisse is your co-teacher. Whatever it was just for an hour anyways.
The arguing didn’t stop however, both your egos being hurt little by little with what was saying. It continued up until the kids arrived, Infact it didnt stop until a camper had luke show up to break up the argument.
He walked in, linked his arm with yours and dragged you to another section of the arena before dropping you down.
“Dude!” You complained, standing up eventually and dusting the orange dirt off of you.
“Can you teach the class or not cause your run time is currently being taken up with you and clarisse arguing.” He spoke with confidence and his usual charmful smirk.
“We’ll be fine.” You gave him a harsh look, mainly annoyed by the fact that you both were paired together. “Speaking of which why were we even paired together”
“Because Chiron wants you both to not only get along but with the fact your both the best with hand in hand combat you both got paired”
You just gave him a sarcastic smile. Mumbling ‘dick’ to him ask you walked away you quickly got to the wrestling mat. You clapped your hands getting everyone’s attention including clarisses. “Let’s start with stretches then we’ll move into pairs to do some basics”
“Or” Clarisse quickly interjected “we move into a death match where everyone wrestles one at a time until we have one standing”
“That’s stupid, start with basics so they can warm up” crossing your arms you were firm on your stance.
“That’s slow and boring and keeps the group longer than they need to be here” the argument was starting up once again. Wanting to just blow the whole thing off you thought of an idea.
“Fine. Me and you on the mat winner gets to choose how the class goes and looser just goes along with it” you offered which clarisse quickly accepted.
Shifting on the mat you both looked at one another ready to end the disagreement. As a kid shouted announcing the match to start both you and clarisse went at each other.
Grabbing her waist you slammed her to the ground only for her to break loose and try to pin you down in return. The match lasted for close to five minutes before you were ultimately decided the Victor.
Standing up breathless you noticed clarisse was not only embarrassed but also royally pissed off. “Go on! Go do uh.. go do the basics or whatever” you panted shooing the kids off.
“You ok?” You asked bending down offering your hand out only for clarisse to hit it away. “Fuck off I have better shit to do than this anyways” she scoffed standing up and walking away.
Whatever. She wanted to play the spoiled brat who’s who is hurt then fine, she can act like that for however long she pleases.
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Sitting at the campfire you sat on the ground resting against your friends leg while drinking a soda. It was peaceful to say the least, everyone was singing, clarisse wasn’t around, and your mind was clear.
It was peaceful until clarisse came over and stood in front of you. “Me. You. Rematch in an hour” she practically demanded.
“Excuse me?” You chuckled confused by it all.
“You heard me in an hour me and you are gonna rematch in the arena.” She glared down at you.
At first you just rolled your eyes muttering an ‘ok’. Though once she didn’t move you realize she was being serious. “Fine! Damn well have a rematch or whatever”
“Don’t be late” finally leaving you scoffed again shit talking with your friends.
You stumbled into the arena, looking around you didn’t see clarisse anywhere. “Hello?! Damnit larue It’s fold and I’m freezing my clit off!” Yelling is what got the girls attention.
“Shut up oh my gods” she groaned “why are you so descriptive damn”
That cause you to giggle. “What is it a Crime for me to be descriptive”
“Yes.” She spoke quickly shutting down your good mood. Walking towards the wrestling mat that she finished setting out clarisse lifted her shirt to wipe off her sweat.
Shaking your head you let go of every thought that Clarisse was attractive out the window. She wasn’t. She was just some girl who had a problem with you.
You both took your stance ready to just get this over with. Partially on your end not hers.
The fight went as stated. She lunged at you, you blocked, she tried to pin you down, you broke free and so forth and so forth. It continued until some how you managed to find yourself on clarisses waist with her arms above her head and the gasp for air coming from you both.
It was silent. Sitting there under the night with only the faint fire torches lighting your view for some reason clarisse looked, oddly beautiful. Her curly hair and soft brown eyes framed her face perfectly. The small scar on her cheek which you knew was from her spear and the light pink lipgloss she wore sparkled.
Wait.. when did clarisse wear lipgloss. The same for her perfume it was way to feminine for her actually it smelt a lot like silenas signature scent, roses with vanilla. Before you thought about it you both were leaning into eachother.
The kiss was soft and slow. Hesitant but enjoyable. You let go of her hands and replaced you hold onto her face while she found herself on your waist.
The slow kiss soon turned more heated. She sat up helping shift the weight and give her more control. Predicable. Before she could slide her tongue into your mouth, you pushed her back down taking away her opportunity and giving it to you.
“Even making out you just have to be the best” she muttered into the kiss only fueling your anger. You just ignored her tangling your hands into her curls you broke the kiss only to repeat it instantly after.
What was supposed to be a regrettable make out soon turned into you both having yet another competition on who could be the best. After a certian point You pushed clarisse Away breathless.
Sitting back you just started to yell. “For the Gods clarisse you just can’t let anything be normal!”
“Me?! Your the one who’s perfect at everything! Know what I bet you kissing me was just another way to prove your just better” she stood up accusatory.
You Only followed suit equally pissed off. “What?! Are you insane! Clarisse what makes you think I’m better than you”
“Because!” She shouted. “Everyday you have to be better at everything! From wrestling to talking with others! To even fucking doing your hair and talking with other girls and it pisses me off because why do you even bother with them!”
You took a step back confused. “Wait… you jealous that I flirt with other girls? Why?” You asked tilting your head slightly.
“Yes! Fuck YN your so stupid” she rubbed her eyes in frustration before yelling it out. “Im in love with you damnit!”
Wow.
All sense flew out the window, grabbing clarisses Shirt you kissed her once again. This time you did it softer, gentler any word that could describe it. Neither of you tried to fight each other instead you worked together. Leaning into one another, hands tangling into each others hair, grasping each others bodies it was like you both were desperate.
Breaking away you softly panted against her lips. “I like you to.. a lot actually Your like really pretty” that just sealed the deal for you both, causing yet another makeout.
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#lesbian#wlw#clarisse la rue#clarisse pjo#clarisse x reader#percy jackson fanfiction#clarisse larue#clarisse my beloved#percy jackson show#pjo fandom#clarisse x female reader#clarisse la rue x reader#clarisse x you#pjo show
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Oh god this might become an issue. I’m in my hunger games phase and I’ve reread all the books and rewatched like, all the movies. So now I’m head over heels for young!coriolanus. Lmao enjoy my first BOSAS fic!
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Weakness
Warnings: Mention of killing, cursing, suggestive if you squint really hard, kissing (if I missed anything let me know!)
Who: Young! Coriolanus x reader
Pronouns: She / her
Word count: 1,122 words
Tag list: @phxntomsdusk @haunted-headset @ax-y10 @radio-to-trenchcoat-demons (ask to be added)
Main plot: Corio realizes he finally has a weakness after so long, you.
This story is NOT proofread!
Reblogs and comments are always appreciated <3
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Snow is used to being the most powerful in the room. He’s used to having control. He likes having control. In all his years he had never had power until now. So when he finds out he finally has a weakness after so many years, he almost panics. Almost.
Corio would only have one weakness. Your smile. And at first, he didnt pay it any mind.
He didnt pay it any mind when you were just an option. He didnt care at all when all he cared about was if you were dutiful enough to be the first lady of Panem.
But now?
God he hated himself for not paying it any mind beforehand. Because now that you sit here, next to him in a counsel meeting, he regrets ever picking you to be his wife. The way you smile sends his heart aflame. The way your eyes close and your head tilts when you smile makes his breath hitch ever so slightly. You were like the sun in a room filled with cold hearted people. Your dress only brought out your smile more and he hated the people that let you wear such a beautiful outfit.
For so long he tried to avoid seeing you. It was more because he saw no point in seeing you. The only reason he married you was for the money and for the eyes of the people. Not for love, not for romance, and definitely not for his own selfish desires. And at first it stayed that way. He feared that the more he saw your beautiful smile, the more in danger he would become. He only saw you during important counsel meetings that you had to attend to.
At first, he was going to “get rid of you” because of his new found weakness. He was going to blame it on “natural causes” and hope he could find another wife. But he couldn’t bring himself to do it. He told himself that it was “just in the meantime” so that he could have time to find a new wife. But suddenly he started looking forward to those counsel meetings. And suddenly he started to see you in the hallways, or the library, or even the garden.
Totally not because he had memorized your entire schedule.
He hated how fucking weak you made him feel. He wanted to figure out why. Why had you made his heart skip a beat ever time you spoke? Why had you made him choke on his own drink when you would simply look at him with a warmhearted smile? Why was it that you had him following you like a lovesick puppy around the mansion?
Why. Why. Why
To find his answers, he started to speak to you. Only to find answers of course. When he would see you in the library he would make smalltalk. He started to dine with you instead of eating in his office. He started to walk you to your chambers to make sure you got there safe. He even walked with you in the garden on a daily just to see y- to get answers.
He wrote all his feelings down one day. Just like a child would write in a diary. And he hated it. So he burned it and made sure there was o evidence of his lovesick words. He would toss and turn every night, thinking about you, wondering why the hell he felt the way he did. He would daydream everyday at work when you weren’t there, imagining you smiling in front of him. And when you were there he couldn’t take his eyes off you.
Why were you so kind? Why did you smile at him every day? Why did you bring him his favorite food twice a week to his office?Why did he feel so helpless around you?
Why. Why. Why.
He asked himself this for a whole year. He soon began to get eye bags from not sleeping enough at night due to his tossing and turning. (He had to cover them up with makeup for public appearances) He soon became fond of your walks in the garden. (Sometimes holding your hand and adding more of the flowers you liked) He soon bought you new bookmarks with different colored roses for your books. (One almost every week) He soon began to pop into your office with your favorite food twice a week just to see your smile. (Just like you had done)
He was completely clueless to his own feeling. His thought process was that it was “For you not to feel uncomfortable.” It wasn’t until one day he overheard of the maids talking about how happy he had seemed since you came that something had clicked. Every time he was with you a slime crawled on his face. Every time he looked at you his gaze softened. Hell, every time he heard your name he would instantly cheer up!
“Shit.” He grumbled as he turned around and went to find you.
‘One last test.’ He thought. ‘One last test to see if i really do love her.’
So, he barged into the library. He saw you sitting by a large window, face hidden in a book and the sunlight hitting you softly. You looked like a goddess. You perked up when you saw him, a smile appearing on your face. That damn smile was going to be the end of him. “Coriolanus! I thought you had just left for a meeting-“ You were quickly stopped when he moved the book from your hands and kissed you.
It was an angry kiss -sure- but a passionate one at that. It took you a second to process what was happening before you kissed back. He put his hand on your cheeks as he bent down to kiss you on your chair. You could only put your hands on his chest to steady yourself. After a few moments, he pulled away and put his head on yours. You both gasped for air softly and his lips were only a few centimeters away. He looked down to your lips and you blushed. “Coriolanus? What was that fo-“
“It’s Corio for you. Corio.” He interrupts. You smile, that damn smile that captivated him a year ago. “Okay then Corio. What was that for?” He pulls away and smiles at you before turning away, “Just double checking something.” He then walks away and leaves you dumbfounded on the chair. And as he walks through the long hallway of his mansion, he tastes the strawberry chapstick that you had on his lips. He smiles as he walks to his meeting. What was he going to do with you? His only weakness.
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07. SQUARE ONE - stars aligned - suna x f!reader
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translation for the 5th photo bc it took me to sec when i reread it..: "hey vodkas high" "gotta new dealer come over lets smoke it out" "lets talk (about) where it went wrong and make it up to eachother"
OK GUYS I KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING. soz i took so long 💔
also rin & juvia's text was supposed to be shown in a diff chap but i deleted that one 😣 so u didnt miss anything!!
omg i hope this actually lines up with the last chap.....
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Fingering (f receiving), praise idk. Sorry i made hao kinda a narcissist whatever i love him but this is v v sweet kinda out of my comfort zone 😨😨
Around 500 words sorry super short 🫣🫣
NOT PROOFREAD ‼️ (didnt even reread it SOWRY)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAO (late sorry im a fake fan)
Zhanghao’s fingers restlessly pounded into your core, his thumb circling your clit without any sign of stopping even though your legs were trembling. You felt dangerously close to your nth high of the night, Hao’s name being the only thing leaving your mouth. Your breathing becoming even quicker and more difficult as you felt his lips on your neck, sucking and nibbling but never enough to actually cut through. His eyes looked up to try and meet yours but all he found was your eyes rolled up to the back of your head from pleasure. Noticing your lack of eye contact, Hao’s finger stopped moving. You immediately started protesting, asking for him to keep going but he just keep looking at you with his intense and piercing eyes.
-‘ look at how pretty I look making you feel good… maybe I’ll let you cum if you keep your eyes on me’
His tone more mischievous than ever, he tugged at your chin to force you to look down at him, batting his eyelashes trying to make himself look even prettier than ever for you. You always found him beautiful but he looked even better, trying to get your full attention. As soon as you finally looked at him, his two fingers started moving again, filling you up more than your own finger could ever. The simple act of keeping eye contact with him was becoming almost unbearable, as the pleasure became too much.
-‘ Hao… please let me cum.’
You begged in hope he would be kind enough to just let you reach your high. His eyes never left yours but his fingers moved faster than before.
-‘ you look so beautiful but how do I look?’
He smiled at you in such a contrasting way, in a very loving manner, while his fingers made your legs tremble and your breath shaky. He decided to put his other hand over your boob and play with your nipple, tugging them lightly, adding into your pleasure. You knew he would stop if you didn’t answered him. With all of the strength that you still had, you managed to answer.
-‘ perfect… as always.’
He smiled even more, trusting that your answer was truthful. You could feel how eager he was to make you cum as his thumb started circling your clit once again, making you see stars. Zhanghao couldn’t feel more happy than he felt now, seeing the kind of effect he had on you just from touching you. His other hand moved to caress your cheeks, bringing your face closer to his just to kiss you. He couldn’t help but whisper sweet words in your ear, walking you to your orgasm and soon the knot in your stomach snapped, your orgasm leaking on his fingers.
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The Sea Prince; Mermay 2024 (+ updates!)
shhhh what do you mean may is almost over-? i made a fun piece and everything!! well. pieces. the first one is a piece i just finished today, and the second is a piece of pearl in her prince form ;> happy mermay!
(i'll be talkin about stuff under the cut, if you just wanna see the art that's a-okay with me! happy to be drawing them again <3)
so. uh. mermay pieces <33 i really wanted to draw some majorwood art since ive been on an art high lately (writing for a good chunk of the year so far makes illustrating/designing SO much more fun) and i think it's coming to an end soon, so might as well end it with the darlings <3
also im?? surprised??? i didnt share pearl's art????? uh. oopsies! its tooootally not a spoiler. ;)
anyway! its been a good while since ive made an update post, and i want to keep y'all up to date with how things are going!
important thing to announce; act one has been completed!
me and @mewhoismyself have worked very hard to write and edit the work respectively, and its over 100k+ words! hope y'all enjoy what we have planned, im very proud of act one (in particular those final few chapters, i love rereading them) <33
as for act two, im taking a break to do other things (college mainly, but also commission work and personal hobbies) but im probably getting back to writing soon! currently, act two is on chapter three, as ive decided to rewrite chapters 2-7 in the original doc, so theres a LOT of cut content. all for a good story! i dont really mind it :0c
finally, im opening up betas again!
theres been a LOT of inactivity from most of them and i have a bit of a schedule to keep, so im hoping that a new wave of betas could help with providing feedback and whatnot. i need clear communication! betas help greatly in letting me know how they feel with the current flow, their thoughts, and anything i need to address before publishing the chapter. id hope to get some new folk on board before my friend and i start developing act two more! <3
just send a message in the comments or shoot a dm! im more than happy to reply :D!
that should be it, so i hope you have a good day! i had a LOT of fun working on the pieces above, and im gonna have fun working on act two, you'll just have to wait and see! <33
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Ayo it's me !
SO uhhh
Damn that's my first time requesting something and I'm actually nervous, so it's about that nightmare thing I talked about, so maybe I thought you could write something (like anything it can be very short), IF you can write for Choso (if you don't i get it) comforting reader after a very realistic nightmare and reader is still scared after waking up because it was basically taking place in that same room and still feels like they're in the nightmare (I don't know if it's clear, but basically waking up still scared and having trouble calming down and feeling reassured because what if it's real)
Rereading this I'm realizing it's confusing, but hopefully with that post you answered to you understand a bit ;; and if you don't write for Choso maybe you can do it with any other (adult) JJK character, I'd be fine with it!
hihi! sorry this took so long D:
i really hope i managed to write what you described
this is my first time writing choso (and anything nightmare related in general) so forgive me if he’s ooc😭😭 and im also sorry this is a bit short, ive been pretty swamped with finals
cw: nothing particularly??? reader has a nightmare, no pronouns used, not proofread
you shot up in bed scrambling for your glasses, your blanket pooling around your knees as cursed energy rushed to your raised fists, ready to fight.
“sweetheart?” came a rumbling voice from next to you, making you flinch.
“hey, hey, its just me. just choso. whats wrong honey?” your boyfriend’s words were followed by a warm hand gently tugging you back into a sleeping position.
he pulled your face into his chest, careful to not smoosh your glasses, a soothing hand running across your back.
“nightmare?”
you nodded, letting yourself fall limp in his hold, trusting choso enough to take care of any threat.
“you wanna talk about it baby?” he asked, as he leant back to look at you in the dim lighting provided by the barely cracked open door of the bathroom.
“not really.”
he hummed, gently taking your glasses off to rest them on the dresser on his side of the bed, switching on the lamp while he was at it.
“the light make you feel safer?”
“yeah”
you could tell he wanted to say something else, but you really didnt want to talk about the horror plaguing your dreams.
your bedroom was supposed to be your sanctuary and the stupid nightmare had ruined every ounce of safety you felt in your bed.
you tugged your boyfriend closer, hand reaching up to tangle in his hair, that he’d started letting down from his ponytails while slept.
he draped his arms around your waist protectively, something he did often, especially in public (you’d come to learn that he was incredibly protective of people he held close to his heart)
“i gotchu,” he mumbled into your hair.
you sighed shakily against the crook of his neck, a few tears escaping your eyes as the adrenaline wore off.
before you could register the loss of his warm hands from your waist, his thumb was gently wiping away the tears from your face and pressing a kiss to your forehead.
he held your face, thumbs catching the wetness as it fell, kissing you gently, and staying there until you stopped crying.
“cmere,” he said, rolling you over his chest to his side of the bed, further away from the door, “no facing the door tonight, ‘kay? we’ll keep the lamp on so its less scary for you, yeah sweetheart? and if you still cant fall asleep, ill stay up with you.”
you began to protest, but he cut you off.
“aht, aht. i dont need to sleep, and even if i did you’re more important. so shush and cuddle me.”
you smiled softly at him, making your way into his waiting arms.
“thank you choso.”
“anytime, love.”
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imagine fcking hanni so hard in doggy style and she's just screaming ur name and running out breath is sooo 😵😵
omg anon..!!..i kept rereading this over and over then i had a thought come up to my mind.
okay but imagine though, hanni had been annoying you all day and you were clearly getting fed up by it. hanni knew but she kept doing it, just to see how far can you go from holding your anger but soon she wpuld eventually regret it. bcs you were dragging her to the bedroom, your nails digging deep into her skin which made her to whine.
you threw her on the bed and immediately tore every piece of clothing she had off of her body. then grabbing one of the strap on that ypu knew she likes and used it. let me js get straight tto the point because i feel so tired rn!!
you literally starting fucking her so intensely without her getting to adjust herself and you didnt start off from a slow phase like usual. this was definitely something she liked, tsk tsk tsk. you would also edge her ALOT, swear she could literally burst down in any moment. she was hwining, moaning and screaming your name out, not even caring if anyone outside could hear bcs she was just so focused on getting fucked by you. later, she would squirt all over the place. and since you were still mad at her, you didnt give her aftercare. you told her to clean her up herself which was so very mean of u!!
hoped u liked this anon🤧💗
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what is this jean/Jeremy/Kevin thing it looks interesting and the art is cool
oh boy oh boy!!!!!!!! i am absolutely going through it anon. so basically there is this book series called all for the game by nora sakavic that you should totally read (the first book is called the foxhole court -- but please check out a list of trigger warnings for it because it is very heavy and deals with a lot of serious and painful topics. i myself have had to disconnect for some of the scenes and come back when i was ready; its completely okay to do so, or to not read the books at all if its uncomfortable). its about gay athletes, guys just going through the absolute worst, the yakuza, fucked up families, a running game of how pathetic can you get answered in 15 different ways by each person, fucked up relationships, all not-so-neatly packaged into a completely made up fictional sport. (its funny because i am NOT a sports person and barely even understand cricket even though i watch it all the time, but i know the rules of exy forwards, backwards, and inside out. its that serious.)
i also need to warn you that the first book is slow. the second book is also kind of slow. i personally didnt have any trouble with it because im more of a character reader and aftg had PLENTYYY to keep me busy, but i think its a fair warning if youre sensitive to pace. however. the payoff is so incredibly worth it. its an amazing read with obsession-worthy characters, detailed and balanced plot beats, flowing and natural dialogue, very creative sports , and the relationships will make you want to reread it twenty thousand times. the romance is also the slowest burn to ever burn. if youre going in for romance at the start, you Will Not Get what you want -- but you will get it. i think we as a fandom focus on the romances a lot (im new so dont take my word for it) but its 1) because we're tumblr dont come and 2) because the romances and relationships are incredibly interesting to see through the lens of the books and vice versa. what i really love most (and youll see this in the ec doc) is that it feels like each and every choice was deliberately made by the author to make the book. like. down to the ice cream flavor they get at one point. especially with the sunshine court, i feel like i can see exactly where she made a choice and what mightve happened if that choice wasnt made. its intoxicated to read. it feels like breathing and it feels like drowning.
i just read the sunshine court (where jean and jeremy are more from) so thats what all the recent stuff has been, but you should read the foxhole court series first for it to make sense. i think tsc is 100000x times better and better written than tfc but you have to work for it lol. and!!!!! the author is on tumblr (@/korakos)! also if you do read it, please tell me!!!!!! you can keep sending anons or you can dm me or you can come to my house and live in my room but tell me!!!!! theres also an extra content doc (thanks @jeansyvesmoreau for sending this to me) between the series' (so after the kings men, before the sunshine court) that you should definitely definitely read. but im getting ahead of myself.
i hope that helps?? or at least doesnt hurt. if you liked the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater, i think this is a good step up. let me know if you have any questions at all!!
okay ive been normal for this whole thing, ranting and incoherent noises below cut:
ANON ITS SOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD ITS SO GOOD. ITS SO GOOD. i told mel this but i cant possibly say i love these books because its not necessarily love. its not something i can explain but youll get it if you read it. there is a piece of my soul that was carved out, reformed, and then put back into me by nora sakavic. i dont think ill ever be the same again. i need a therapist who has read these books so they can understand exactly what im going through. each character was like a bomb to me. jean moreau is like a straitjacket. they mean so much to me. theyre nothing. i hate them. i need to feed them breakfast. OUGHHHHHHHHORGHEURGHEOGH. there is so much grief entangled with them but they are so vibrant and full of life it hurts. i cant stop thinking about them. i finished tsc yesterday and ive been sobbing ever since. i am dead serious. i cried myself to sleep last night thinking about one of the characters. i need you to know how real i am being.
i think if i meet nora sakavic i will probably kill her. just fully black out and kill her and not even know it. so i wont meet her for the better! but i need this to be out there. my fingers hurt from typing all this but know that there is MORE in my head. so much more. i am fit to burst with it all. love you anon thanks for asking
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HP Reread - Order of Phoenix (Part 3)
Chapter 25, 26,27,28 - OOTP
Antonin Dolohov murdered the Prewett brothers. He will later kill Remus. He is repeatedly implied to be a very deadly Death Eater, and it is his slashing spell that will hurt Hermione in the climax of OOTP.
Harry feeling horrified and guilty at Bode's death: "How come we didnt recognise the Devil's Snare? We have seen this before, we could have stopped this from happening":(
Hermione deciding to send Skeeter a letter due to the seriousness of the breakout, and how much there is need to change the narrative. lol at her being vague with her plans that makes Ron grumble: "would it kill her to tell us what she is up to?"
Lee being an absolute king in trying to turn Umbridge's decree against her. However, he gets a bleeding hand for his effort and Harry has to recommend him essence of murtlap (an info Lee relays to Fred and George, which helps their products)
Neville improving in DA classes so unnervingly that he is only behind Hermione in mastering the Shield Charm.
LOLLL the entire scene at Puddifoot, where Harry feels like if Roger and his girlfriend kept kissing, he would be expected to compete. And then he looks up to avoid looking at them (or Cho), and cherubs throw confetti in his face.
Harry grabbing the sugar bowl when Cho takes her hand off the table. Harry laughing when he finally understands that Cho is jealous of Hermione. Oh god. The second hand embarrassment is real.
Hermione cornering Rita is such fun. XD I love that she makes use of resources at hand - even if she doesnt think much of the Quibbler herself. (Also, she took Sirius' advice, and kept the meeting in Three broomsticks instead of Hog's Head).
The breakout had gifted Harry a desire to do something, and he talked about the most traumatic night of his life so far to a journalist he did not trust on account of that. This also shows his faith in Hermione's facilitation of his need for justice. These two will be scary in the Ministry together.
also, Hermione knowing that Ginny has been sneaking around with their brooms since she was 6, and her implicit criticism of the way people talk about Ron: "at least my happiness doesnt depend on goalkeeping ability"
"You are banned as long as Umbridge is in the school" - Ginny's association with hope, with future, and comfort.
Angelina not letting Ron resign and Harry giving Ron the space to go to bed and pretend to sleep if he needed to <3
Harry being impressed with Ginny's performance and then going, "I would have been faster tho" the audacity of this boy XD
"An interview? What do you mean?" "I mean a reporter asked me questions and I answered her" and Harry throws the Quibbler at her. LMAO.
Cho apologising to Harry:"The interview was so brave, it made me cry" and Harry wishing that she hadnt cried over it. Ugh, this compellingly messy dynamic.
This is such a hard book for Harry. Being so afraid that you would wake up and look like Voldemort. He bites down to not make any noise during his visions, just because Seamus had recently stopped seeing him as a nutter.
Snape once again projecting on Harry - he brings up the idea that Harry seeing dreams and visions of Voldemort makes him feel "special, important". And Harry reflects it back to him, "No, that's your job, isnt it?" "That is my job." Stop your power struggle with a 15 year old Snape XD
Harry did it! He focused on Snape in between memories, and pushed him back with a protego! And Harry sees Snape memories: that imply a domestic abuse situation in his house (hook nose man shouting at a cowering woman while a boy cried in corner), a clear case of neglect (Snape shooting down flies in a room), and a sense of injured masculinity (a girl laughing at a scrawny boy's attempt to get ona bucking broomstick). Snape pushes Harry back at the last memory, and I wonder if that girl was Lily.
Snape also compliments this, "Well that's an improvement. I dont remember asking you to do a Shield Charm, but it was no doubt, effective."
The lesson end at Trelawney's screaming, Snape runs out and so does Harry. Sneaky parallel.
I really love the description of Trelawney to set the scene. My favorite descripton is her innumerable shawls were coming down from shoulders giving the impression "she is falling apart at the seams."
Dumbledore appointing Firenze is such a power move Imao.
a twinkling red star winked at him - reference to Mars, which consistently shows up in text again and again with Harry. Firenze brings attention to this, and the fact that Harry is directly under it is nice way in text to remind us there is a war coming.
"There are things more important than keeping a job" and Hagrid's hands shake. Because this job has been something he wanted, something his name was cleared for.
We get to know that Marietta's mother has been helping police Hogwarts fires, and Willy Widdershin of the regurgitating toilets was let off after he gave info on Harry.
Percy laughing at Fudge's sarcasm, and Harry for the first time expresses anger towards Percy in his internal monologue. Before he was just shocked and confused.
Kingsley modifiying Marietta's memory, to corroborate with Dumbledore's story. That man is quick. He did it immediately after Dumbledore says they can't prove 6 months worth of meetings.
ooh, it is implied that Fawkes' singing kept the four unconscious on the floor and the moment Fawkes leaves with Dumbledore, they are all awake.
Fred and George sending Montague into Vanishing Cabinet and how Montague gets out (nearly killing himself by Apparating) and gives Malfoy the information needed for the plot of HBP.
Snape the nerd, writing foot long answers. I love how much teenage Snape's body language is entirely different from adult Snape, and how much the adult Snape is a construction. Teenage Snape will lie on grass and scream hexes and swear words at you.
James literally traces and embellishes Lily's initials like a dork lol.
I deep dive into Marauder dynamics in chapter here.
"Wormtail was the only one who didnt laugh" : how cute is it that Remus laughs at his own dry joke XD
There is a strong theme of masculinity in this chapter, and James is making a performance of it with the snitch, with messing up his hair and Harry notices that this is done for the girls by the lake. (Harry wondered why James doesnt tell Wormtail to get a grip, and Sirius does it few seconds later much more unkindlyXD)
The power dynamic of the scene is framed with description of Sirius as "dog who scented a rabbit" and underlines it further by Remus' implicit disapproval (that he avoids by staring into a book, my poor bean) and Peter's anticipation (Sirius line in POA comes to mind about how Peter was drawn to the biggest bully in the playground)
Interesting note about James: he uses household spells like Scourgify for an attack. I can imagine him being similarly creative later in the Order. (it gives me such ideas of Transfiguration being his fav subject)
Interesting to me that even though both James and Sirius are on the scene, it is James Lily is consistently addressing.
Snape attempts a workshop Sectumsempra on James' cheek (clearly not the fully developed version) and James turns around and uses Snape's own spell against him. This moment alone speaks to such history in this dynamic.
Lily's "10 things I hate about you" speech is interesting because she also noticed that he was playing with the snitch (something he had nicked). She was also watching him.
Snape, emasculated by the scene, tries to exert power over one thing he has power over: his friendship with Lily. He uses Lily's otherness in wizarding world to reclaim power in the scene, and Lily throws it back at him by calling him the nickname his bullies call him and commenting on his underpants (therefore his class otherness). Utter dissolution of a friendship.
Lily channels her hurt and frustration at Snape's rejection of her onto James when he tries to help, and does a "10 things I hate about you" speech.
James tries to deal with being rejected publicly by Lily by directing his anger at Snape and threatening to take his pants off, in line with masculinity theme of this chapter.
Harry making Dudley-James associations. He will integrate a more complicated view of his father in later chapters (where he associates James with Ron), but this moment, where Harry rejects hypermasculinity displayed by James (but is keen to not reject James himself), is an important moment of moral growth for Harry.
OOTP - Chapter 29,30, 31, 32,33
Cute trip opening scene when Hermione is drawing up colour coded timetable for the boys (and nagging Harry), Ron brightening at the thought of evenings off and Crookshanks trying to get Harry's attention since he is brooding.
Harry is not only questioning James' morality, he is also questioning Sirius' ('look at what he was like himself') and Remus ('he just let it happen'). Later in the chapter, he wonders - "did he want to be like his father anymore?"
looking at Mrs Weasleys easter eggs, a handsome one with snitches on them makes Harry feel emotional. The way chocolate is tied to comfort + longing and Mrs Weasley functioning as an echo of a home.
lmao the scene where Harry admits he wants to go to Umbridge's office is peak Hermione as mum, Harry as sulky teenager and Ron as Arthur to Hermione's Molly scene.
Harry is so hypervigilant in Snape's class for his taunts, it clearly affects his performance in class. Because Snape is ignoring him, he could whip up a decent E level potion (which ofc Snape shatters).
"He attacked Snape for no good reason - well just because you said you were bored" - the apologetic tone Harry says this in and Sirius' quick "I'm not proud of it" shows how careful they are with each other. It is a big step for Sirius to admit he is not proud of his behaviour (because 2 years before, he all but snarled "served him right"), and this is the influence of Harry's distress. Remus also notes this with a "sideways glance" at him. (Remus also, something he hasn't shied away from admitting, owns his own culpability but is also harsher with himself -"did i ever tell you to lay off him?" and Sirius tries to correct/comfort that with "you made us feel ashamed of ourselves")
Harry knowing Hermione's nagging face lolll ("she fixed Harry with a beady eye and opened her mouth with a determined air") and he just interuppts before she starts lol.
hermione predicting Ron will do well without Fred and George around to watch <3
"Kind of makes you wish we had Norbert back, doesn't it?" yes, Harry. Norbert would be far preferable. I really am not sure why we have a storyline where Dumbledore sends envoys to giants so they can have them as allies (as actual thinking beings with political weight) and then write an entire chapter about how Hagrid is stupid for trying to "civilise" Grawp with English lessons. Why are you writing marginalisation like this, where you validate how "savage" Grawp is? Just a book ago, there is critique on how giants face prejudice via Hagrid and Madame Maxime, but then you're like, "maybe the prejudice has some sort of weight cos giants are brutal actually".
Cant believe we get an entire chapter of this and not Ron's victory over Slytherins and in Quidditch.
More on the giant's rant that I have and my absolute loathing for this Grawp chapter: Hagrid's Tale is one of the few times Hagrid is allowed to act as a competent adult - going with Maxime off country to send envoys to giants. For once, he is not someone the trio constantly has to take care of or save from trouble (it's not something I particularly mind, but I do have a problem here - where there is an additional layer of the fact that Hagrid hasn't had formal education. This entire chapter - he is just made a joke of and it reinforces the prejudices wizarding world shouldnt be having)
I really love the opening scene of Ron basking in the glory of having won the match, and he sits under the very same beech tree rumpling his hair, and Harry grins affectionately at being reminded of his father. It shows that Harry is beginning to integrate parts of his father - from seeing him as Dudley at end of SWM to seeing Ron-like qualities in him.
Cho crying out of temper and kicking her broom away after Gryffindor won the match : what a competitive streak. Love it.
"Hagrid's monster mates" - once again, the narrative needs to pick what giants are meant to be.
Griselda Marchbanks, the one who resigned from Wizengamot in protest against the High Inquistor appointment, is apparently friends with Neville's gran. Daily Prophet snidely said she had links with "subversive goblin groups".
Harold Dingle and his powdered dragon claw and Eddie Carmichael and his brain stimulant trade XD
also ron mothering Hermione asking her to eat a decent meal so she can have good sleep <3
ooh, Hermione wondering if she did justice on Cheering Charms (its the lesson she missed in POA when she lost track of time). I wonder if not attending the actual class makes her feel nervous, and not like she had enough time with the information.
Umbridge's "nasty smile" when she sees Harry's patronus in DADA exam: a hint towards her actual involvement in sending Dementors after Harry.
The confrontation between Hagrid, Umbridge and McGonagall is beautifully written. Really love the atmosphere here with the use of lights from the castle, the hut, the moon over the darkness of the lawn to set up the mood of the scene. The moment McGonagall was lit by the stunning spells sent at her? Eerie.
Harry staring at Parvati's hair while sleep-deprived in history exam cos there was something gold in it. He sure likes shiny hair.
there is a question in history of magic exam about how legislation of wand: whether it better controlled the goblin riots in 18th century. The politics of this is brought up in Deathly Hallows, where griphook brings up how wizards have denied other creatures rights of expanding their magical powers by refusing to share wandlore.
Harry's sheer blinding panic and fear in this chapter hurts to read.
I actually really love how bad the communication is between Harry and Hermione in this chapter. Where, in her desperation to stop him, she calls out his "saving the people thing" in an effort to make him understand that Voldemort's playing into an instinct in Harry, and Harry obviously feels stupid about the way she calls it out and thinks she is criticising it as a an attention seeking thing. It makes him less sympathetic to her appeal that it could be a trap, but the scene anyway ends with him conceding to check with her and recognising her offer to come with him to Umbridge's office as "mark of loyalty."
Kreacher's hands are injured cos he injured Buckbeak. There was a lovely Tumblr post I read about this moment, about how combination of Sirius' indifferent cruelty (towards kreacher) and love (for Buckbeak, Harry) is what pushed him towards the events of his death. It perfectly captures his duality.
The conversation between Snape and Umbridge is hilarious. Snape offering his sympathies to Umbridge in case she wanted to poison Harry ("venoms act too fast to give victims time for truth telling"), the ironic bow before he leaves and telling Crabbe to loosen his hold on Neville because if he suffocates, there will be "lots of tedious paperwork" LOL.
Harry noticing that Hermione was not really crying immediately, and knowing that she is scheming XD These two will be a force in the Ministry. Imagine Harry looking at Hermione trapping someone ina courtroom and being like, "yeah, saw that one a mile away. Sucks to be you buddy."
Man, Hermione is having quite a day. Her inexperience with a plan she is making up as she goes along showed, as well as her putting her foot in her mouth. Umbridge is a threat she has known and assessed well, the centaurs, less so. She will grow from this in DH, when she makes bigger elaborate plans with failsafes on the spot. (For example, the Lovegoods escape)
Ginny being astonished that a herd of centaurs left Harry and Hermione behind - suggesting familiarity with the centaur ways. Interesting character note! (also how her and Luna also clearly pay attention in Care of Magical Creatures, as they both remind the trio of Thestral traits - that they are good for finding places riders are looking for, and Harry and Hermione being covered in blood will lure more of them). I wouldnt have paid attention to this detail without @whinlatter lovely WIP "Beasts".
Chapter 34, 35,36,37,38
Proof of Ron, Hermione and Ginny's loyalty and gutsiness: they are willing to ride an invisible horse for hours in the air to help Harry. (also Luna is so cute, sitting all in side saddle)
Harry thinking the veil had a strange beauty to it, and that he felt a strong inclination to walk through it is an indication of his fascination with death. He isn't the only one: Luna, Neville, Ginny are all similarly entranced. Only Ron and Hermione are not and they drag everyone away.
Sirius' knife, Harry's gift is melted by the Love Room in Department of Mysteries :(
Ginny wanting to watch the bird's progress is so cute. Such a lovely detail - I never noticed this interest in creatures before. But she consistently thinks in terms of animals, she even thought the brains they initially saw were fish. ("his eyes are as green as fresh pickled toad" anyone?)
how interesting that the Prophecy Hall is beyond the room full of Time-Turners.
interesting note of how some prophecies having liquid glow (Harry's felt warm as he touched it) and how some prophecies were blown out like a night bulb. Could indicate that the events they had foretold have come to pass etc.
I love during the entire conversation with Death Eaters, you can feel Harry being hypervigilant. He notices the shifts in Bellatrix speaking and makes decisions - once he speaks Voldemort's name, he holds the prophecy tighter because given that he riled her, he expected an attempt to take it from him. And then of course, he is very "improvise. adapt. overcome" with the plan to smash shelves.
Harry's athleticism shines in these chapters where he is elbowing and ducking around Death Eater attacks, launching himself on top of them, heaving Ron when he is out and flinging him when he needs to help the others, rolling over tables to get to doors quick XD
Neville kicking aside fragments of his father's old wand when he carries Hermione. It's his "I'm gonna be my own person not defined by my father's legacy" moment, a parallel to Harry's own in this book.
I love the tiny detail that Tonks is above on the steps, firing spells down at Bellatrix. The distance she keeps, and the detail of Bellatrix and Andromeda resembling each other to the point they could be mistaken for each other, adds such a layer to this detail.
Sirius and Bellatrix are so caught up in their battle that they dont even notice that Dumbledore had arrived. Speaks to their personal history and intensity of their duel.
Harry's child-like denial is utterly heartbreaking. The way he thinks that Remus doesn't understand because he had heard whispers behind the veil, and surely people are hiding there, and that Sirius is just hiding. It is the most child-like he has been and it breaks my heart.
Remus' voice breaking as he struggled to contain Harry, speaking as though every word caused him pain, or just not being able to look at the veil:(
The moment Harry is angry that Sirius would keep him waiting. It is such a childish, entitled reaction. The boy who never expects anything from his adult figures feels like he has the space to be mad at Sirius for keeping him waiting - and then realises, that Sirius would never keep him waiting. And that's how he knows Sirius is dead.
Harry laughing at Bellatrix right after Sirius' death ("a mad laugh to match her own"): the boy really is his godfather's godson.
Bellatrix loves Voldemort, but also fears Voldemort. The moment he comes - Sirius turns from the mocking "dear cousin" to "Animagus Black." She is super keen to distance herself from Sirius in front of him and it calls to the scene later in Deathly Hallows, where she claims she never laid eyes on Andromeda after she ran away.
"We both know there are other ways of destroying a man. Merely taking your life would not satisfy me, I must admit" - contrast this with Deathly Hallows, where Dumbledore leads Harry away from Voldemort's maimed soul in the limbo. Harry feels pity for it, and even tries to save Voldemort, but Dumbledore is beyond that and this scene conveys it.
"And I'll see Sirius again.." it's not only Harry's love for Sirius that drives Voldemort out of his body, but it is also his very raw desire for death. Something he wishes once again, when he is at his parents' graves. (it is this passive ideation that Hermione grasps at the grave and why Harry's desire for Resurrection Stone terrifies her)
"You've been chasing the wrong man for 12 months, it's time you listened to sense!" Dumbledore's feelings of Sirius' fate are also encapsulated in this line. He claims responsibility for Sirius' fate next chapter, but his anger and guilt at Sirius' death is clear here.
Harry's intense guilt and hatred for himself, where he had never before wished he was someone else so intensely, that he was trapped inside his body and mind. It is this guilt, even though he expresses them this chapter, that he will carry with him in HBP and it will come out in moments like strangling Mundungus for perceived disrespect to Sirius.
"I know how you're feeling Harry" "No you dont" : it is both Harry lashing out his intense self-hatred, but also his feelings of abandonment. In his mind, if Dumbledore understood his feelings, he would not have "abandoned" him through the summer or the year. So this moment of Dumbledore reaching out in solidarity after a year of freezing him out makes Harry angry.
Harry just demolishing his office, and Dumbledore remaining calm and detached through it, until Harry himself matches Dumbledore's tone to let him out. Such a well written scene.
The chapter is good illumination of how Dumbledore's distance/detachment and big picture thinking and how it hurts people: Dumbledore locking Sirius and Harry up (Harry shouting this back at him must be a painful reminder of his time with his sister), Snape not overcoming his feelings ("some wounds run too deep for healing").
"I alone could prevent this, and I alone must be strong" - How Dumbledore rationalises his decisions, the weight of the guilt he carries, the calculations he must make. # war general.
"He saw himself in you before he had ever seen you": Voldemort destroying everyone and everything that reminds him of who he is. Strange likenesses from Voldemort is not a compliment, when he wants to be extraordinary, special and unique.
Harry thinking that if only he had just pulled back the veil, he would have seen Sirius greeting him with a laugh like a bark :(
Dumbledore trying to repair Harry's feelings of abandonment by telling him why he didn't choose Harry as a prefect.
Fred and George sending Ron mountains of Chocolate frog after the Ministry fiasco to express their care, in a book where they were harder on him is <3
Ah, that subtle implication that Harry spent hours by the lake, crying about his godfather until the sunset. :( It is gorgeously subtle writing - him getting up at sunset, and wiping his face on his sleeve.
The way the book twists our innards with Harry opening Sirius' gift. :( and how Harry hopes again, and when the hope shatters, he throws the mirror. But it is the very same mirror shard, Sirius' gift that will enable Dobby to help the trio out of the manor, where Harry would ask for help because he saw a parental figure's eye (Dumbledore).
Luna validating Harry's feeling that they were just lurking out of sight, behind the veil and it is this connection with death and understanding of afterlife that comforts Harry. That he will see Sirius again.
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... okay after the initial shock (I process some feelings rather quickly) and rereading the TL.... Damn dude.... Haruka hurts my soul so much?
Tw: suicide, self harm, general unhealthy ways of thinking
He genuinely thinks this is the way of protecting Muu. It's a way of proving that he meant his words, that he wants to be useful until the end.
He feels this is the only way, especially at this point, because he is under so much stress that he is getting tunnel vision. Even before, he wasn't able to see many options down his path, so now it's even more difficult for him....
He is scared. He didnt know how to do it, he must've been thinking a lot about it... He must be terrified, but his determination to do what he thinks is best for Muu is higher than whatever little self preservation he has.... And he is going through everything alone... Isolating himself. Maybe letting Muu in, but even then we don't know much of what's going on in there, probably not giving him any peace of mind...
What really saddens me is how that reflects reality.... I particularly thought it through the lense of selfharm. I've heard many different reasonings throughout the years, but one that stuck with me was "to teach myself a lesson". Basically doing something "wrong" and so they thought they "deserved to be punished". They were scared to death before doing it, but went through it because they genuinely thought that that way, even if by mere physical instinct, they would be able to teach themselves to stop doing that "wrong thing" and thus become a better person for other people.
And that's just basically what Haruka is doing. He thinks that by bringing himself harm, he will be more useful for someone else...
I really hope someone stops him... And this might be a stretch, but I know it's true that Muu cares about him (even if not as a real friendship and just as something mutually beneficial), so, a part of me hopes that she stops him...
#tw suicide#tw selfharm#i panicked and when stoped and re read it slowly i felt so so sad.... i dont want anything to happen to him...#also dont worry about where i heard those things i went to a catholic school and thats all you need to know#milgram#haruka sakurai#seari writes
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i just read a little life and here's a messy review of the book by saying my opinion on people's takes on it
[THERE WILL BE SPOILERS] also dont expect this to be professional etc
i want to start off by saying that this book is like willem's movie "life after death"; either people absolutely loved it or people hated it. and i fucking love this. would i be rereading it? probably not. but would i think of jude for the rest of my days? yes.
the thing i keep reading about from the people who didnt like it is that a) it's a trauma porn, b.) it's lengthy with various of unnecessary parts, and c.) its just a sad book with a sad ending.
something that i dont really understand is people's need and urge and want to always, always read a book expecting a happy ending. ("and books lied, they made things prettier"). spoiler alert: life isnt like that! its ugly and u cant always run away from its ugliness, no matter how hard you try. no matter how hard jude tried. and i always had this hunch, when i was first reading it, that it wont end the way i'll like it, but still i hope and hope and hoped for jude and for all of them, and thats just the Human part of me. my in denial.
as someone who struggled from mental health, i actually guiltily thought in the middle of the book, "why hasnt he k!lled himself yet?" even before jude's attempt. i cant handle the thought of putting myself in his situation and pushing through, and that's the reality as well. you thought about it and yet , complying to it somehow makes you think that the hyenas won. that brother luke won, that dr traylor won. and the thing about jude is he always try. he tried to get through life, he tried to accept romance in his life, he tried and he tries to accept everyone's devotion and help because even though he feels like he doesn't deserve it; he feels like he owes them that at least. to try.
i can see how people, especially the first ones when it just came out, may be put off by the tones and the topics of this book, but as years went by and it grows in popularity, the trigger warnings had been set. one thing ive set my mind to when i bought the book is the advice i was given: to only read it when im in a stable stage of my life, and that's why it took me almost a year before i started reading it after buying it. the triggers are listed for anyone to see. YES. those things do happen in real life. those things, esp the rape and physical mental and verbal abuse DO come in hand majority of the time. the book is not trauma dumping or a trauma porn: it simply tells. (imo, its on YOU if u think this is a trauma porn. imo, it says a lot about you as a person).
the book is lengthy because it is intended to be, the "unnecessary parts" are not just fillers but a stepping stone to unraveling jude's past, to fully grasp the situation. they are there for a reason. you can skim through the book if you want to avoid them: but believe me when i say you wont fully get the book if you do. the book is not meant to be enjoyed. its meant to tell a story, to make you feel things for the characters, may it be pity or joy or anger.
jude is not meant to be understood or to help or to be pitied at, hes meant to exist. and those things are something that was given to him willingly by the people he loved. and the characters are all flawed. andy is a bad doctor, willem is lovable and maybe had too much love, malcolm is perfect (i love him so much), jb is infuriating most of the times, harold shouldve pushed more. they all shouldve pushed more, but they cant. because the way they love is also flawed and it gets in the way, because judy is also flawed. hes stubborn and confusing. but those are traits that makes them all human.
ive reblogged this before but ill say it again: ik its a meme, but not everything can be solved through therapy. again, it took jude YEARS to finally tell willem his past– willem. willem who jude probably trust with his life, who he lets help him and seeked out for him when he was bleeding to death from cutting too much. you think jude would talk to a shrink he barely knows? someones whos literally paid to talk to him? not even jb and malcolm knew.
smth i wanna address that i rlly dont get is people who claims it's homophobic, and i really and genuinely cant see it, as a lesbian person myself. every talk about sexuality (if there even is any thats worth noting for this part), had come naturally. everyone existed how people exist with each other. even when willem and jude got together, theres barely any talk about willem's sexuality. also, hot take (/s): sexuality is confusing!! not everyone wants to label themselves. ive known multiple ppl who majorly likes girls only, but have fallen for their recent boyfriend. it happens, surprise! not everyone wants to put themselves in a box.
in conclusion: i think people expects this book to turn out for the better as a psychological response. surprise, it doesn't. my opinion? it's not meant to be enjoyed. i dont recommend this to anyone but only because it IS devastating and im a sadist if i want people to experience those feelings the book will brought. however, the characters, the delivery of the story and the pacing, and hanya's god bowing writing style are what makes this book GREAT. great ≠ happy ending, just like how sad ending ≠ bad book. thanks!
#a little life#jude st francis#willem ragnarsson#jb marion#malcolm irvine#harold stein#book review#rant
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