If it was Wille who buried his nose in Simon's sweater, inhaling the scent over and over like he is in heat or bit his lip with glistened eyes with a loaded expression and then looking at something that reminded him their very intimate and passionate moments,

we would have made fun of him so bad because how pathetic it was and then it is Simon, and it makes my heart pinch. Because he is trying so hard and Wille doesn't go away at all. He is always on his mind, no matter how hard he tries.

Him closing his eyes, licking and biting his lip while glancing at his fish, taking deep, heavy breaths, bunched up fabric in his hand. *chef's kiss

Let's be real. Whatever scent is that sweater has before, it must have completely worn off by Valentine's Day Ball and here, Simon is still smelling it, not because the sweater smells like Wille anymore, it is because he wants to etch his memory of the kiss to the sweater as the events from last night still plays in his mind non-stop.

Because he wants, he yearns, he loves.

We, as humans can perfectly remember smells, so vividly and like it was yesterday. Sweater is just a prop, he doesn't even need it. Every memory is already playing in his head the whole time. This and everything else, probably since the Christmas Break.

if you ask me why we stayed memories will never fade

I feel like one of the biggest things that kind of fail in most of the Hannibal fics I read is that any time a "new" killer is introduced, it's very likely going to be either irrelevant or boring. And this is not because the writer is lacking in creativity or ability, but because I never feel like they reach the show's capacity to exploit killers as GREAT narrative tools.

One of the show's strongest points, and why so many people likely got invested in S1 despite its more common criminal series "killer of the week" style, is that every. single. killer. acts as Will's foil. They're not only Will's foils, they often reflect other parts of the plot and characters, but they ALWAYS reflect Will. And it's extremely fitting and ironic that the whole of Will's character is built up from his reflection on serial killers, or the relation of other characters to them (a la Peter or Reba).

Seeing Hobbs, an out-of-the-norm sensitive cannibal as the very first killer we encounter is not a coincidence, the fact that it's the first killer Will and Hannibal face together is not a coincidence. Eldon Stammets, obsessed with connection appearing right after Will orphans Abigail and feels trapped into feeling connected to her. Elliot Buddish representing both Will's empathy and his ability to see the wrong in people and his increasing loss of identity and himself, etc etc

S2 starts to stray from the killer of the week structure but it doesn't get abandoned because it's one of the show's key narrative tools, Peter and Georgia are obvious, Randall Tier reflects what a killer in complete acceptance with his dark urges looks like, to the extreme, I'm sure that's why he has the beastly theme even, it's no wonder Will is narratively forced to kill him and keep hiding from himself while playing double sides. But he STILL respects and honors him.

S3 is interesting because I've seen so many people complain about the focus given to Francis and Reba, but we need to see the complexity and development of their relationship to lead to The Wrath of the Lamb, they're a direct foil of Hannibal and Will. When Will goes to talk to Reba he does out of a sense of understanding, falling in love with the monster, they both know. But in that conversation Will also realizes Reba can move on, while he can't, it's crucial to his understanding of himself the same way his last conversations with Bedelia are.

It's curious to me how I never see people talk about the killers in relation to Will and his character development, cause it's all literally there. If you want to bring in a new or made up killer of your own into a fanfic, I think it would be best to not only think of the killer themselves and their cool murders in the plot but how that killer can reflect the plot situation or the Will in your plot and how it can show the readers how your Will is or how he will develop.

Some random thoughts before I go to sleep (or not we'll see)

It's weird to think that last week I was but a humble observer and over the course of my Tumblr existance I got like 1 ask maybe.

And now suddenly I open my phone to funny Tumblr people in my asks like 😭 HUH. How did that happen?? Idk it makes my heart warm each time a new ask pops in my notifications or someone has reblogged my posts. It makes me very happy I wish to hug you all through the screen <3

I may be but a little guy in this corner of the internet but at least I have people I can scream at now (in the /pos way) and people who scream at me

Actually wait

^^ all my different moods over the past like. 48 hours or so.

I cherish everyone who interacts with me I think you're all so so so cool and awesome and amazing and I shake you because HOW are you so cool huh?

Okay I think it's time I eep

what moment made you go like 'oh yea there's something between them, idk what it is but there's something there' bc mine was when i saw how nymphia included jane on the last slide of her photo dump when she won. when it first happened which was during chain reaction photoshoot i gave no mind to it and when it happened again from when they were in the center (altho i was alr 🤔). BUT her photo dump when she won??? that was such a big moment and the mere fact that she included jane at the end after nine photos of just her speaks something to me (maybe bc ive done it twice now too irl 👀) idk yall, she could have included others there as well but no <3 whtver they have, i am here and living for it 😁

hi clari <3 i was wondering what you imagined your various versions of touya to sound like!! do you imagine the english dub voice? or the original japanese version? do you imagine that different au versions of him have different sort of tones when speaking?

sending u love!

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hi hi! <3 i imagine them to all sound like hiro’s voice acting for him! aka his original japanese voice!!! that’s why i usually describe his voice as being low and smooth c: jason, his english voice actor, has been directed to sound like he ate a bowl of rusty nails + smoked a whole pack of cigarettes for breakfast and i really dislike it. it sounds too caricature, and i personally feel like it takes away from the seriousness of the character (i feel this way with tomura’s english voice actor as well, until he has his Awakening at the end of season five and his voice is suddenly Sexy) and makes him sound silly. i liked jason’s original voice for dabi in season 3 (where he sounded like a 2006 emo band frontman on warped tour), but for whatever reason they made the creative decision to change it. no hate toward any of the english voice actors; i know they’re paid peanuts, taken less seriously as artists, and are given a ridiculously short amount of time to do their work, so! it’s just a personal preference c:

eeee i love u lots!!! <333 i hope you’re doing well bb ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

we are domi — paradise

is this what home feels like when it's built right feels like i'm paralyzed when you're by my side close your eyes and let the moment rewind until you realise this must be paradise

As the certified Ion and Bumaro lore expert, what are some things you think they agree on and some they heavily disagree?

Cant really think of anything they'd actually agree on. Narrative foils, yk.

the world puts its weight on my shoulders, for me to carry. each second bearing it makes it harder. as i get older, my capability to shoulder such weight grows with me. nevertheless, times come where it is too much for me. the weight presses down on me, until i cant keep my spine straight and i lose the battle against gravity and become one with the ground. when i am no longer fighting it, the weight lets me breath for a brief moment. i take as much time as i need to recover. i gather the pieces of myself, my strength and will, strewn around, and slowly, like a baby seedling piercing through the soil to extend its leafs towards the sun, rise once again. i keep going, each step and each stumble bringing along strings of experience with them. life goes on. the weight of the world pushes me towards the ground, but i push back. i am determined to not be stopped by it.

No single line has ever wrecked me as hard as this one from the Good Place and I think about it constantly

silly and stupid

i hate how childish i am when it comes to my interests 😢😢 i wish i could just be quiet sometimes and not constantly wanting to ramble to ppl

i made some doodles to help me feel a bit better :D

has someone done this already?

you know what i am thinking about right now, yeah wilmon but also ayub and rosh here.

the first time ayub and rosh got to hang out with wille was that football match. they saw him so carefree and chill. he was just casually buying hot dogs and cheering for someone he barely knows. they were wandering around on their bikes with the prince. wille and simon were not a thing back then. nothing happened yet. ayub saw right through simon, of course but he didn’t know about wille. he might have just thought the prince wanted to take an adventure, running away from the boarding school and breaking the curfew, for all he knows.

the next time they saw him, only the second time if i may remind you, the prince shows up at their best friend’s door, getting straight to the point, not even a can we talk in private and all that bullshit. he tells simon directly, his body facing him completely, but simon only halfway turns to him, which tells a lot at this point. he tells him he could allow august take over, (which is, yes, twisted a little because august taking over was recently in the picture but anyway you get my point). he apologizes with a vulnerability in his voice and his eyes are bloodshot. he says he wants to be free with him and simon has the last word. then he leaves without any pressure.

this is why they are so taken aback and surprised to witness that interaction. wille completely let his guard down. his voice deflated. in front of simon, okay but in front of complete strangers---because they are still strangers to him---that’s the whole point. they don’t know, they haven’t seen how much wille loves simon and how much he is ready to do anything for him. obviously, their perspective is only limited to what simon told them and and they think wille fucked him over with empty promises, which he did at some point so they told simon to find a rebound and get over him until they saw how miserable simon looks in the football field, wondering why he can't fall in love with someone else.

but here, the crown prince shows up at the love of his life's door and tells him that and they are dumbfounded so we have this iconic line.

that's why it hits so much harder when wille's speech happens in front of ayub and rosh.

do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great

i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually

Ouuhhhyheaaa ouuhyhaaa ,FINALLY! FINISHED SOMETHING BEFORE THE YEAR ENDS

First of all thank you all soooo soo much for following or just liking my art, support means alot to me , second you are all so talented and so sweet! even if you don't create content you are all so cool!! Yes you reading this ,you are so cool!! And for last...

Happy new year's eve, may all your dreams come true!

I have to talk about Chester Arthur. His story makes me go crazy. A mediocre president from the 1880s who's completely forgotten today has one of the best redemption stories I've ever heard and I need to make people understand just how cool his story is.

So, like, he starts out as this idealist, okay? He's the son of an abolitionist minister and becomes famous as a New York lawyer who defends the North's version of Rosa Parks whose story desegregates New York City's trolley system.

Then he starts getting pulled into politics and becomes one of the grimiest pieces of the political machine. He wants money, power, prestige, and he gets it. He becomes the right-hand man of Roscoe Conkling, the most feared political boss in the nation, a guy who will throw his weight around and do the most ruthless things imaginable to keep his friends in power and destroy his enemies.

Because Arthur's this guy's top lackey, he gets to be Controller of the Port of New York--the best-paying political appointment in the country, because that port brings in, like, 70% of the federal government's funds in tariffs. He gets a huge salary plus a percentage of all the fines they levy on lawbreakers, and because he's not afraid to make up infractions to fine people over, he is absolutely raking in the dough. Making the rough equivalent of $1.3 million a year--absolutely insane amounts of money for a government position. He's spending ridiculous sums on clothes, buying huge amounts of alcohol and cigars to share with people as part of his job recruiting supporters to the party, going out nearly every night to wine and dine people as part of his work in the political machine. He's living the high life. Even when President Hayes pulls him from his position on suspicions of fraud, he's still living a great life of wealth, power, and prestige.

Then in 1880, his beloved wife dies. While he's out of town working for a political campaign. And he can't get back in time to say goodbye before she dies. Because he's a guy who has big emotions, it absolutely tears him up inside, especially because Nell resented how much his political work kept him away from home. He has huge regrets, but he just moves in with Roscoe Conkling and keeps working for the political machine.

And then he gets a chance to be vice president. The Republican Party has nominated James Garfield, a dark horse candidate who wants to reform the spoils system that has given Conking his power and gave Arthur his position as Port Controller. Conkling is pissed, and he controls New York, and since the party's not going to win the election without New York, they think that appointing Conkling's top lackey as vice-president will pacify him.

They're wrong--Conkling orders Arthur to refuse--but Arthur thinks this sounds like a great opportunity. The only political position he's ever held is Port Controller--a job he wasn't elected to and that he was pulled from in disgrace. Vice President is way more than he could ever have hoped for. It's a position with a lot of political pull and zero actual responsibilities. He'll get to spend four years living in up in Washington high society. It's the perfect job! Of course he accepts, and Conkling comes around when he figures out that he can use this to his advantage.

When Garfield becomes president, Arthur does everything he can to undermine him. He uses every dirty political trick he can think of to block everything that Garfield wants to do. He refuses to let the Senate elect a president pro tempore so he can stay there and influence every bill that comes through. He all but openly boasts of buying votes in the election. He's so much Conkling's lackey that he may as well be the henchman of a cartoon supervillain. On Conkling's orders, he drags one of Garfield's Cabinet members out of bed in the middle of the night--while the guy is ill--to drag him to Conkling's house so he can be forced to resign. He's just absolutely a thorn in the president's side, a henchman doing everything he can to maintain the corrupt spoils system.

Then in July 1881, when Arthur's in New York helping Conkling's campaign, the president gets shot. By a guy who shouts, "Now Arthur will be president!" just after he fires the gun. Arthur has just spent the past four months fighting the president tooth and nail. Everyone thinks he's behind the assassination. There are lynch mobs looking to take out him and Conkling. The papers are tearing him apart.

Arthur is absolutely distraught. He rushes to Washington to speak with the president and assure him of his innocence, but the doctors won't let him in the room. He gets choked up when talking to the First Lady. Reporters find him weeping in his house in Washington. Once again, death has torn his world apart and he's not getting a chance to make amends.

Arthur goes to New York while the president is getting medical treatment, and he refuses to come to Washington and take charge because he doesn't dare to give the impression that he's looking to take over. No one wants Arthur to be president and he doesn't want to be president, and the possibility that this corrupt political lackey is about to ascend to the highest office in the land is absolutely terrifying to everyone.

Then in August, when it's becoming clear that the president is unlikely to recover, he gets a letter. From a 31-year-old invalid from New York named Julia Sand. A woman from a very politically-minded family who has been following Arthur's career for years. And she writes him this astounding letter that takes him to task for his corrupt, conniving ways, and the obsession with worldly power and prestige that has brought him wealth and fame at the cost of his own soul--and she tells him that he can do better. In the midst of a nationwide press that's tearing him apart, this one woman writes to tell him that she believes he has the capacity to be a good president and a good man if he changes his ways.

And then he does. After Garfield dies, people come to Arthur's house and find servants who tell them that Arthur is in his room weeping like a child (I told you he had big emotions), but he takes the oath of office and ascends to the presidency. And he becomes a completely different man. His first speech as president mentions that one of his top priorities is reforming the spoils system so that people will be appointed based on merit rather than getting appointed as political favors with each change in the administration. Even though this system made him president. When Conkling comes to Arthur's office telling him to appoint his people to important government positions, Arthur calls his demands outrageous, throws him out, and keeps Garfield's appointees in the positions. "He's not Chet Arthur anymore," one of his former political friends laments. "He's the president."

He loses all his former political friends. He's never trusted by the other side. Yet he sticks to his guns and continues to support spoils system reform. He prosecutes a postal service corruption case that everyone thought he would drop. He's the one who signs into law the first civil service reform bill, even though presidents have been trying to do this for more than ten years, and he's the person who's gained all his power through the spoils system. He immediately takes action to enforce this bill when he could have just dropped it. He becomes a champion of this issue even though it's the last thing anyone would have expected of him.

He oversees naval reform. He oversees a renovation of the White House. He still prefers the social duties of the presidency, but he's respectable in a way that no one expected. Possibly because Julia Sand keeps sending him letters of encouragement and advice over the next two years. But also because he's dying.

Not long after ascending to the presidency, he learns he's suffering from a terminal kidney disease. And he tells no one. He keeps going about his daily life, fulfilling his duties as president, and keeps his health problems hidden. Once again, death is upending his life, and this time it's his own death. He's lived a life he's ashamed of, and he doesn't have much time left to change. He enters the presidency as an example of the absolute worst of the political system, and leaves it as a respectable man.

He makes a token effort to seek re-election, but because of his health problems, he doesn't mind at all when someone else gets the nomination. He dies a couple of years after leaving office. The day before his death, he orders most of his papers burned, because he's ashamed of his old life--but among the things that are saved are the letters from Julia Sand, the woman who encouraged him to change his ways.

This is an astounding story full of so many twists and turns and dramatic moments. A man who falls from idealism into the worst kind of corruption and then claws his way back up to decency because of a series of devastating personal losses and unexpected opportunities to do more than he could have ever hoped to do. I just go crazy thinking about it and I need you all to understand just how amazing this story is.

Dick’s early years as Robin are just. You are ten years old. Tomorrow you have a math test. Last night you saved ten lives. You could not save the two that mattered most. Neither could he, which is why you are here. A year ago you spent your days in a trailer and your nights beneath the big top, and you were never more than 10 feet away from someone who loved you. Now you are adrift in a mansion full of ghosts. You want to go home. You climb up to the highest attic and scream as loud as you can just to see if anyone will hear you. For the crime of losing your parents, they put you in a cell. At night you leap from skyscrapers and remember how to fly. You go to bed and watch them fall. Sometimes you wake up and you are so full of anger you don’t know how you can survive it. You are trying to survive it. You want to kill a man. You rescue a baby from a burning building and his mother calls you an angel. You eat an ice cream cone on top of a gargoyle. You do not want another father. You need a friend. There is a secret only four people in the whole world know. You are one of them.