I am 99 percent sure i just heard my coworkers behind my back (after they thought I had left) thru fragements saying they wished the other admin had stayed because they made themself useful out their prescribed role and I was bad at my job or whatever.
and I can't say anything because what if I'm wrong, and even if I'm not, they can deny it and it would just start drama and make me look bad to my boss.
but instead i have this burning away inside me
I always thought if I caught someone doing that I'd confront them, see if I could at least make them feel shame. Instead my knees went weak because it confirmed my worst fears, all I could say loudly was "thanks for talking about me" which they might not have heard and I had a ride coming so I had to leave. Instead I got nauseous.
i used to love that job. it was the best job i'd had. I used to like the people there. I thought they liked me. I don't know when it all went wrong. I don't know what to do, i need to find something else but there's nothing.
I know I'm not the best admin. I'm not good with names or faces and I need to start doing my physical therapy again so I can see the lines of the appointment graph straight. But I really am trying, i'm just trying to get through the day, i'm trying not to make mistakes, and I've been consistent and reliable and there for four years... I wish people could see that.
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So, akito's colorfes card has finally been released!! And alot of things have been said about it but I have noticed a little detail that has yet to be pointed out by anyone. So! after talking abt it a bit on my insta acc I decided to make a proper post on tumblr. This will have mild spoilers for his fes card story do if you haven't read it and don't want to be spoiled, this is your ticket to hop off!!
Jumping right to it, this is what akitos framented sekai looks like: a dry, withered zone where plants can't grow
But, as the story progresses with akito and the kagamines exploring this area, this scene takes place:
A dandelion can be seen growing through the cracks on the dry land. A flower known for its ability to grow just about anywhere. The implications are ovious, and even if it didn't hit you at first, akito himself notes his feelings are akin to this flower sucessfuly blooming in the desert.
There's alot that can be said and analyzed about this card, but for now I want to look at sth else. Specifically, these lines ena sings from "Jackpot Sad Girl" and "Composing the Future" respectively:
Do you see it??? the place refered to in jackpot sad girl, the description ena specifically uses for that place, and how in composing the future, ena explains her feelings by comparing it to trying to make a flower bloom in an harsh environment. THAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT'S RIGHT!! Whether intentionally or not, akitos fragemented sekai perfectly matches the descriptors used in those two n25 songs. More importantly, lines specifically assigned to ena. This is yet another instance of the shinonome siblings paralleling one another. As someone who loves both of them dearly and has been brainrotting abt their parrarels for MONTHS, this makes me insanely happy. Idc if it's a stretch, I'm adding it to my shinonome parallels folder. Anyways, thank you for coming to my TED talk, I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day!! Have this meme before I dissapear to the darkness
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GUYS IM GOING INSANE.
ATSV editors,
i got yall an edit ideaaa ٩(^ᗜ^ )و ´-
SOOOO
the reason a chose a song called "FRAGEMENT - Blksmiith" is cuz it really remined me of gwens drums in ATSV's intro! (and cuz its my fav song so lol)
so like the edit is just for miles and gwen so heres some dialoge from miles and gwen to use during the edit!!
Miles :
"you knew? you all knew?"
"Goodbye gwen."
"WHO DECIDES THAT GWEN? IM NOT A KID GWEN."
Gwen :
"I didnt mean to hurt him, But. i did."
"Miles its for your own good."
"MILES." (this one line is from when miles tells gwen goodbye and jumps off the train)
𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ・・ꕀ𖧷𖧷ꕀ𖧷
and btw you can add any scenes you want :3 its up to your imagination. and also make this hella emotional cuz i wanna cry rn
BTW!!! THIS ISNT A REQUEST ITS JUST AN IDEA FOR FELLOW ATSV EDITORS!!!!
:D
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Bring Peace to the World: The Triforce as a Practical Framework for Spiritual Growth
What exactly does it mean to be a Zelda pagan? What is the path and what is the ultimate destination? What are the core tenants and what does a daily practice based on them look like?
For me, the primary driving force functioning as a signpost of my practice is the Triforce and its composite parts. The goal is to live a life that keeps courage, power, and wisdom in relative balance, developing those aspects where they are lacking and tempering over-development of any one with the others. Courage, for example, is a wonderful trait, but not if wisdom is not applied in certain scenarios to allow for balance between the two. Skydiving may be a courageous act, but lacking the wisdom to take along a parachute will certainly land you in trouble. Likewise, applying power without wisdom can lead to precisely the sort of tyrannical entitlement demonstrated by Ganondorf across the franchise.
In her essay “Triforce Heroes and Heroines: Transcending the Opposites Through the Golden Power” from The Psychology of Zelda, Angie Branham Mullins discusses the balancing of the Triforce as representative of Jungian individuation, but it can also be applied to a spiritual practice:
"The Triforce is at the core of many Legend of Zelda games. Generally, the goal of characters in the series is to reunite the Triforce’s three fragemented pieces in order to restore the form and function of this otherworldy item, because when it is whole, the Triforce represents balance and peace in the kingdom of Hyrule. But in order to mend the Triforce and wield the complete relic, the hero must themselves first possess balance between the three qualities the Triforce’s pieces represent: Wisdom, Power, and Courage" (191).
To even possess the complete Triforce, one must achieve personal development that warrants them as a worthy wielder. As we have seen in the games, simply touching the Triforce before one has properly prepared and developed oneself causes the Triforce to split. Without an internal balance, possession is simply not attainable.
That is just one part of the goal, however. As Millins notes above, achieving the inner balance needed to possess the Triforce is followed by spreading that balance outward. The peace wrought by the reunification of the Triforce is the gift of the hero to society at large, not merely to himself.
This goal is seen on a microcosmic level in both Breath of the Wild and Tears of the Kingdom, when after granting Link either a heart or stamina container, the various village Hylia statues tell him, “Go, and bring peace to Hyrule/the world…” The hero receives a boon, and then is directed by the goddess herself to use it on his quest to better the world around him.
These containers are not merely handed out, but must be earned by completing shrines in each game. Link must remain engaged in smaller, incremental acts of self-improvement in order to slowly build his health and his strength and take on progressively more difficult challenges. As Mullins explains, so is it too with the Triforce:
"The pursuit of the Triforce’s reunification serves as a catalyst for Link and the other characters’ growth—their development into their destined roles—and the fulfillment of their purpose" (193).
That ultimate purpose, as dictated by the goddess Hylia herself, is to bring peace not just to oneself, but to society at large.
And that is, ultimately, the goal of a Zelda pagan. Make yourself into a better version of you, using the elements of the Triforce as a framework, in order to be in a better position to improve the world around you.
Ultimately, the journey of self-improvement can be walked in whatever way feels best to an individual practitioner. For me, I prefer to give each of the elements due attention before moving on to the next. It is for that reason that I divide the year up into different “seasons” for each of the Golden Goddesses and their respective pieces of the Triforce. This most closely mirrors Link’s journeys in games, moving methodically around the map, overcoming specific challenges in a set order, and not being able to move on until certain criteria have been met and relics acquired. In this way, the pieces of the Triforce also serve as gates of initiation.
It is also perfectly acceptable, however, to continuously work on all three aspects of the Triforce at once on a daily or weekly basis. For some, it makes more sense to aim for improvement of these features every day than keep them fragmented across months.
The important thing is an eventual sense of balance; without any one piece of the Triforce getting an equal share of development within the self, the whole thing will crumble. As Mullins states,
"To bring the Triforce to its original composition is a balancing act. The Triforces of Courage and Wisdom create the bridge needed to stabilize the third, top triangle, the Triforce of Power. Then the pieces are put in proper relationship to one another, the Triforce is able to experience wholeness; balance is achieved. The wish can be granted" (215).
The best visual representation of the Triforce journey is also in BotW and TotK, specifically at the Temple of Time. From the roof, one can easily see a route up the hill into the Temple:
Here can be seen a set of staircases, starting in front of the fountain plaza toward the upper center, veering (from this view) to just above Link’s head, up another set of stairs to the far right of Link here, then up to the center just in front of the Temple itself. Along this route are smaller temples dedicated to the three Golden Goddesses, in order of Farore, Nayru, and finally Din, thus creating a walkable representation of the Triforce. The small temples are in varying states of disrepair, but they each include the goddess’ symbols on the floors. These can be very difficult to see due to the overall deterioration of the area, but the symbols do peep through:
From Din’s temple are two sets of stairs on either side going up to the entrance to the Temple of Time. Interestingly, on the floor in front of the large Hylia statue within the Temple is the complete Triforce.
The implication here (at least, in my own head-canon) is that worship of Hylia also inherently included first paying respects to each of the three Golden Goddesses, and worshippers perhaps needed to account for the three parts of the Triforce before they were adequately prepared to engage with Hylia, obviously now the primary goddess. It should also be remembered from Skyward Sword that Hylia was charged with protecting the Triforce, and the layout of the Temple of Time and the smaller goddess temples, plus that seal in front of the Hylia statue, is a nice physical and visual throwback to that aspect of her power and responsibility.
Is it required that one arrange their practice in the order laid out around the Temple of Time? I would argue that is up to the individual practitioner. For me, with the arrangement of the Triforce elements across the year, the order is more reliant on the reality of which months best correlate to each element. I am starting the season of Farore now, which will be followed by the season of Din through the summer and early fall (as the hottest and then most colorful months, correlating with fire), and then finally the season of Nayru for late fall through winter (time to withdraw to focus on internal wisdom, as well as a focus on water in its various forms). Obviously not the “correct” order as demonstrated above. However, there are ways to integrate this order into specific ceremonies, or if a daily/weekly routine is utilized that offers more freedom to organize as you see fit. The important part is simply to ensure the different aspects of the Triforce are given equal attention so that they can work together without any one being more or less developed than the others. Through this balance comes personal spiritual completion, from which one can work to enact positive change around themselves.
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