This is basically how I wanted 15x03 to happen...

if sam had a cunt dean would be using it as his own personal stim toy

Dean is abusive this, Sam is his victim that, they're both victims of their father and their own codependency blah blah blah. Why is no one talking about how Cas is both Dean's victim and enabler?

you wanna think about something evil. dean evason november 26 timeloop

Here's a thought.

Sam has been irrevocably changed since his coming back from hell (and jumping in of course). So often I find myself looking at later season's Sam, a Sam who's not a firey rebel against what the world wants of him, a Sam who would fight for himself. This is a quietly submissive Sam who can't stand to disappoint Rock No.1. Someone who takes on pain again and again and again because he's so used to it.

Sam from the first seasons it's not the same Sam as the later. This is a broken, traumatized man who excels at being high functioning and I am SO sure of it.

He LOOKS resigned and tired a lot of the time. And it reminds me of hell!Sam begging himself not to remember. hell!Sam knew what he was talking about and what we're seeing in later seasons is his reflection.

And let me throw in a Silmarillion reference because why the heck not. Like the souls of elves go to Mando's halls, Sam's soul needed to go to heaven and heal from all the years of hell he suffered (earthly ones and hell ones). He was not ready to be reembodied in earth and now he's come wrong.

Like 5 different entities warned us about Sam's shredded to ribbons soul. To me, that doesn't sound like a soul that should've been put back in a body.

guys you dont understand my love for Benny, I was just WAITING every episode after season 8 for him to come back, i just wanted my queer vampire pirate with a nice accent to come back AND HE NEVER DID AND I CANT GET OVER IT

Not Good Omens pulling the "I NEED YOU" card, desperately exclaimed during a highly emotional scene btw two characters that have off-the-charts romantic relationship subtext

Neil Gaiman I am mailing you my therapy bills

i like the implication in 7.03 that sam had to do the research for john and dean, probably to protect him and keep him out of harm's way. which means that he's not necessarily bookish by choice but by circumstance. dad-assigned nerd (sam) and jock (dean)

i think watching goodbye stranger changed me as a person

and if i was a child did it matter, if you got to wash your hands?

[image description: a gif of dean winchester trashing a motel room /End description]

Benny: Thanks for not giving up on me, brother.

Dean: Don't give me a reason to.

(im going to throw up)

society if sam had died in the panic room............................................

i don't think ellen is very good at expressing her emotions verbally at all but you can see it all in her eyes. they're so big and expressive and full of passion, whether it be love or anger or joy, and so when you're around her you always get the sense of what she's really feeling. but because you can only see the Big Emotions in her, and she can't articulate the nuances of what she's feeling, it can lead to a lot of miscommunications with other people. so many arguments between her and jo stem from jo seeing the anger in her eyes and ellen not being able to articulate properly that she's angry about the danger the world wants to put jo in, not angry at jo for wanting to go and explore. she's so full of emotions but her ways of easily showing them just aren't complex enough to let other people understand what she's really feeling!!!!!

lily sunder has some regrets is well written and directed. kripke fuckers hate to see later seasons episodes be good!