Waves - Mr Probz / Crazy/Beautiful / Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce - IB Vyache / Normal People / Skins / The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998 - Nikki Giovanni / Neon Genesis Evangelion / Golden Age - Ethel Cain

“I am trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.”

-I.B. Vyache, from Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce

I am trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.

Azula: I'm trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.

Love, On Its Way Out.

Two Week Notice, Leanna Firestone | Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines, Pablo Neruda | Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce, I.B. Vyache | Seaside Improvisation, Richard Siken | I never went to that movie at 12:45, Dolly Lemk | In a Dream You Saw a Way To Survive, Clementine von Radics | Quote by Kate McGahan | Pillow Thoughts, Courtney Peppernell | Bluets, Maggie Nelson

(This isn't prompted by my real life so much as it is my love for that first song and also. blorbos.)

1. Susan Sontag—As Consciousness is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks, 1964-1980, 2. Phoebe Waller Bridge—Fleabag, 3. Richard Siken—Wishbone, 4. Anonymous, 5. Atonement dir. Joe Wright 6. Hot Priest Monologue—Phoebe Waller Bridge 7. Gillian Flynn—Dark Places 8. Meditation in an Emergency— Cameron Awkward-Rich , 9. Billie Eilish— idontwannabeyouanymore, 10. Stephen Adly Guirgis— The Last Days of Judas Iscariot, 11. Lioness Dewinter—Sìren Loa 12. Bernie Wrightson’s Illustration of Frankenstein’s Monster. 13. Bonnie Winterbottom—How To Get Away With Murder, 14. Sade Andria Zabala—Paper Napkin Stories, 15. Sor Juana Inés de la Cruz — Love Opened a Mortal Wound, 16. Unknown 17. Miley Cyrus — Never Be Me, 18 Kim Addonizio— Wild Nights; New Poems; Pareidolia, 19. Crazy/Beautiful dir. John Stockwell, 20. I.B. Vyache, Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce.

a good dog stays in its place

"Mysterious Skin" Scott Heim // 1X08 Prague // Introduction "The Odyssey" Emily Wilson // S3? lol // Things I Can't Tell My Therapist "Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce" I.B. Vyache // What Can You Do? Ruth Stone // // 4X10 With Open Eyes // Where to begin? Sue Zhao

𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑡𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑑𝑖𝑔𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑏𝑙𝑒. 𝐼 𝑎𝑚 𝑡𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒.

—I.B. Vyache, Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce

I haven't given you what you need (i'm sorry)

Bloodsport, Yves Olade || Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce, I.B. Vyache || Incardine, Mary Szybist || Richard Siken || Agua Viva, Clarice Lispector || Calling a Wolf a Wolf, Kaveh Akbar || Stay, Reynier Llanes || Underbelly, Nicole Homer

My Heart is Unremarkable

Norwegian Wood, Haruki Marakami // Giovanni Gasparro // ?? // The Kiss - Gustav Klimt // @discoidal // Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce, I. B. Vyache // In Bed, the Kiss - Henri de Toulouse-Lautrec

“I am trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.”

I.B. Vyache, Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce

And what if I enjoy it? Even worse- what if I deserve it?

- I.B. Vyache, "Things I Can't Tell My Therapist" from Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce

by Technodrome It had been nearly a year since Peter left his foster home in the middle of the night. The weather had been biting then, too, but winter had been wrapping up. Peter recalled it being sometime shortly after Christmas; he’d crept past the tree on his way out and remembered the lights on homes pushing out the dark of the night. -- Or: Peter, on the streets after fleeing foster care, is plagued by intermittent meetings with Iron Man during night patrol. He isn't expecting to be pulled into Tony Stark's side of the woods one night when he falls ill on patrol. He definitely isn't expecting to stay there. Words: 2495, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Pepper Potts, Morgan Stark (Marvel Cinematic Universe), Ned Leeds, Michelle Jones, Original Male Character(s), Skip Westcott Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark, Peter Parker & Pepper Potts, Peter Parker & Morgan Stark (Marvel Cinematic Universe), Peter Parker & Pepper Potts & Morgan Stark (Marvel Cinematic Universe) & Tony Stark, Ned Leeds & Peter Parker, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark Additional Tags: Foster Care, Homeless Peter Parker, Peter Parker Needs a Break, Hurt Peter Parker, Found Family, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Child Abuse, Recreational Drug Use, Tony Stark Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, Pepper Potts Acting as Peter Parker's Parental Figure, Tony Stark Has A Heart, Implied/Referenced Self-Harm, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence

LIST 5 SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

1.   it’s only sex -- car seat headrest

the other night i cried while thinking of having sex with you / not out of desire or shame but some subconscious impulse to feel pain / i wiped my tears on my face and neck and the backs of my ears / and said, "now it's sweat, now it's sweat, it's sweat now"

2.   existential crisis hour! -- kilo kish

if i'm in my body and you're in yours (yes) with no way to swap / how can we ever truly be together? (can't) / no matter how hard i press my face into yours / a space remains, so am i alone? (yep, nope, god, no)

3.   sour breath -- julien baker

and i thought that if i tried a little bit harder you'd change your mind / i've still got nowhere to be, and i don't do too well; nobody's worried/ when nobody's worried about me

4.   real men -- mitski

real men don't need other people / and real men suck it in / real men don't flinch or bleed in public / oh, i think i'm a real man

5.   tonight, tonight -- the smashing pumpkins

and you know you're never sure / but you're sure you could be right / if you held yourself up to the light

LIST 5 QUOTES THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

1.  when your name is antigone, there is only one part you can play; and she will have to play hers through to the end.  --  antigone, jean anouilh (trans. lewis galantiere)

2.  i am trying to make myself digestible.  i am trying to make myself easy to love.  --  conversations over sanguinaccio dolce, ib vyache.

3.  a death-ridden woman, haunted by dreams.  --  the crucible, arthur miller.

4.  the most common causal factor in female self-abuse is that women have been taught that it is ‘unfeminine’ to voice anxiety in an assertive way, so they tend to internalise it - and when it needs to find expression it tends to take the shape of self-directed violence.  --  house of psychotic women, kier-la janisse.

5.  i tried to copy other children but lacked their tough skin. i was a glove turned inside-out, softness showing.  --  gut symmetries, jeanette winterson.

desperate yearning and love and desire: catalina espinoza

brand new - the boy who blocked his own shot / i.b. vyache - conversations over sanguinaccio dolce / the edge of seventeen / phoebe bridgers - waiting room / ?? / tumblr user deadwatered / katie gregson-macleod - complex (demo) / ?? / anne carson - grief lessons / lorde - writer in the dark /

“I am trying to make myself digestible. I am trying to make myself easy to love.”

I.B. Vyache, Conversations Over Sanguinaccio Dolce