reminder to everyone to stop procrastinating and get up and do that thing. Just waiting for it to go away won't make it go. From a chronic procrastinator to another - just do it. No tip, no trick, nothing is going to give you motivation. Give up on trying to find the motivation and

just do it.

You aren't going to find it (or you will rarely find it). You have to get up and do it, stop avoiding. Life is gonna be full of having to do things you want to avoid and procrastinate on. GO NOW

I BELIEVE IN YOU.

Even if it's 5 minutes it's better than nothing go go go.

i'm doing a late night cramming sesh tonight, who's with me? 😅

Didn't want to do my homework, so I procrastinated by practicing drawing.

Behold. A shitty OC convo drawn on my favorite dinosaur sticky notes.

Kordin: Road trip with friends!!!!

Litton: We are literally on the run from the government!

guess who just did a 2 week assignment in one sitting the day before it due (again).

Playing games on my phone while sitting next to my keyboard/drum pad (I have a band performance in like 3 weeks and have barely practiced)

Marker

Yelling into the void: why does it get so hard to type out words here when I can spew out pages of trash easily on my private word docs? 🦑

Welp, since this is a public space I do feel compelled to put in more effort.

To the 2 Jinkookers (i🖤u) who might be waiting on a Jinkook post, I'm sorry but I have one more Jinmin k-drama to push out before I can get my head on straight again. I'll try to stay in lane afterwards. Although its hard for me. My mind is a galloping wilderness of hot rubbish and fleeting ideas. Means I get distracted super easily. Ahaha.

Some encouragement will be appreciated lurkers 🫶

And then you FINALLY get around to doing the thing and it only took 20 minutes...

they went for bubble tea without them :[

[id: It is a full body digital drawing of April and Cassandra from rottmnt. Cassandra is drawn with piercings, nails painted black, red eyeliner under her eyes, a choker, a reddish-fuchsia crop top with a skull on it, the sleeves and bottom seemingly ripped off, low waisted dark gray pants and black cargo boots. April is drawn with a cropped yellow hoodie under a black jacket with a yellow and white stripes along the arms, gray sweatpants and white shoes with green accents. Cassandra is holding her phone with one hand, looking at it annoyed, while her other hand is behind and over April holding a bubble tea. April is leaning into Cassandra so she can see the phone, she is smiling, one arm going around Cass and making a peace sign, the other one holding a matcha bubble tea, one of her legs is raised.

A text bubble is coming out of the phone, as if they are having a face time call, and inside it we can see Leo, Raph, Donnie and Mikey all screaming and looking different levels of distressed./ end id]

It is nice having two hobies because now I can use writing to procrastinate sewing, and sewing to procrastinate writing!

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH FINALS DJDBSKSKGNFHSK WOOHOO YIPEEE i am so tired

Also I think I'm finally kinda getting the hang of tumblr. As in. I don't know what I am doing, and I don't think anyone else does either. And honestly I like that :))) i always felt like,,, this pressure to say and do the most neutral(??) shit whenever I posted elsewhere, but here it's all just tomfoolery. what silly lil fools y'all are in my silly lil phone, it's nice! I like it. We can all be sillies

Anyway, art ✨ Yuu in disguise versus living her best gaslight gatekeep girlfailure life

I based them on the cute lil sprites in game :>

Are yyou team green or black? And why?

team green, though I'm not in support of every green character (namely Otto though my opinion of him is complicated. I also have opinions on Aegon and his characterization that makes it even more complicated)

[I have only read bits and pieces of the book, so my opinion is based almost solely on the show. keep this in mind]

I'm team green for 3 big reasons. they're more complex, thought not perfect by any means, more morally "right", and are simply more my vibe when it comes to characters. now this is very simplified and not at all nuanced, so stick with me for a minute.

Firstly, they're more complex. the greens have very deep, detailed, and nuanced lives and stories that lead to them being very complex characters that can't be put into a box. Alicent was a child bride who had lost her mother young became a mother young and suffered at the hands of power and men all her life. her children were affected by this and the world they were forced to grow up in throughout their lives. even individually her kids are drastically different; aegon the child who was forced into a life he did not want and suffered due to his father neglect and mother pain. Helaena who was never understood and grew up treated like an oddity. Aemond who was never seen to his full potential, always ignored or looked over, angry throughout his life. each of them has strengths and weaknesses, flaws and benefits, they're imperfect but never completely horrid. they're also never simplified (not entirely, even when the plot and writers seek to simplify them) to the point that they put on a moral pedestal or made straight evil (i'd even argue that the attempts of the writer to oversimplify them as evil and in the wrong makes them 10x more fascinating). I find TB characters tended to miss the mark on that, always put in the moral light, not even allowed a moment to reflect on their actions, lives, or positions in any nuanced or meaningful way, so they always just feel dull. they're also out on a moral highground that they can never be budged from, which makes them harder to like and honestly, really boring. they get away with everything instead of being emotionally and morally nuanced.

secondly, they're more morally "right". I will never say that any of the greens are perfect, they are far from it (with the exception of Helaena and her kids, who have done literally nothing to anyone, but I digress). what I will say, 9/10 times there is some level of reasoning that has some level of reasoning. Alicent always tries to do whats best for everyone, all throughout the series she tried to do best by the court, the king, her children, the realm, and Rhaenyra. did she always succeed? no, but she always tried and her mistakes were almost always honest. I will say she held resentment towards Rhaenya, but honestly, I can't blame her. Rhaenyra's lies and behavior hurt Alicent over and over again so for her to be angry is expected.when it came to succession, Alicent backed Rhaenyra until it was made clear she and Daemon would be a threat to her children's lives and even than she held mercy for Rhaenyra. Aegon's drinking can be blamed on the abuse and neglect he suffered at Viserys, Otto, and Alicent's (though the abuse and neglect from his mother is insanely different and nuanced. she perpetuated her pain onto him because she couldn't heal herself. so I hesitate to call it abuse, cause its so much more complicated than that) hands. though nothing will justify his rape of Dyana, I personally think it was a bad add in on the writers part, and leave it at that. Aemonds rage after years of being ignored doesn't entirely justify what he did to luke, but he had reason for his cruelty after years of Luke (and jace tbh) being cruel just because they could. TB characters tend to do terrible things in response to either A. nothing B. their own terrible things. Daemon kills who he wants when he feels like it, even for stating facts. Rhaneyra will lie and hurt those around her to protect her bastard children. both of them conspire to protect themselves and allow themselves to be wed, really just cause. while there are times they have their reasons, its a lot less of the time, and typically the backing to their actions, is they were trying to unbury themselves from within their own graves. (to preface, I don't care about rhaenyra sleeping around, it doesn't bother me, but its the fact that she will hurt everyone around her to protect her lies, allowing a child to be maimed and people to be murdered)

thirdly, they're my vibe. I like morally complex character, who are, to be frank, pathetic. I like characters with complex trauma's and issues, who aren't perfect people but its not entirely their fault. I would much rather watch a whole show about alicent, a child bride who tries so hard to be a good wife, queen, and mother while not prepared for any such role. Aegon who is a boy with severe mommy and daddy issues, a drinking problem, a flawed past, and constantly wet eyes. Helaena an ignored girl who has suffered for no better reason then her family. and Aemond, a boy who was tormented, bullied, maimed, and made stronger by it at the cost of his compassion and emotional stability - over a nepo baby who was coddled by her father, her murderous husband with a knack for unneeded violence, and her similarly coddled children (the show boiled them down to this, in my opinion). one is simply more up my alley than the other. I want character that need to be dissected, who have suffered, who hurt me to look at.

also, team black created almost all of their own problems. seeing as the main source of contention had to do with Rhaenyra's kids being bastards, which was Rhaenyra's problem, which she caused, and kept digging and digging that grave (faking Laenors death just so she could marry daemon, turning the blame on aemond when luke maimed him furthering the divide amongst the house, trying to wed Helaena to Jace putting her in danger, trying to take the driftmark throne and killing Vaemond for a claim her sons did not have, etc,) till viserys's death, earns her a lot less pity from me. at the end of the day, her being a woman was only a needle in a haystack worth of problems she caused herself that hurt her claim. if she had just strived to create to connection with ancient and her kids, and didn't make herself look like a threat to everyone who lessened her claim (which alicents kids would be the first people to be taken out) alicent would have backed like she had all season and there would have been no war, maybe conflict, but no war.

theres also the effect of the fans on my opinion. I have faced more cruelty, terrible media analysis, and outright ableism/misogny/(blood and sexual based) purist ideology/etc. from the TB fans then I have ever witness by TG fans. TB fans have ruined almost all of the TB characters for me in more ways than I can count, so I will say I am very biased.

thats why I'm team green. as a whole they are simply more appealing, their stories are more interesting, demand more attention to detail and emotional understanding, and from my point of view were the "right" side to be on in the war (the war was wrong on both sides, but my chips lie in the favour of the greens).

hello, ummm kind of a little hesitant to say this in case things don't turn out the way i expect them to bc of things outside my control or bc i'm quite bad at predicting how much there is left to do and how long it should take to do it, but i *think* things are slowing down with school now that it's just finals review, so i think i should be able to maybe fit some cs50 work in?? maybe??? i can't promise i'll get very far bc i suck at flask, but i need to set the expectation for myself to make even the smallest bit of progress or i'll just waste my time procrastinating on social media bc i find finals review not very fun! which is not good for both my schoolwork and self-study progress! shout at me if you see me on here (clearly not studying)!

"I'll get to posting a proper writeblr intro one of these days", shrugged the chronic procrastinator.

having no motivation to go anywhere with tma is so funny to me, because like. yes I hear SHIT TONS of spoilers. what do they mean? fuck if I know. Elias has a metal pipe? there's a long haired emo in this fanart on my fyp? Jon is god? ok that's fine. jmart YEAHHHHH. something about puppets and avatars, ok. I have no clue what is happening

Happy new year!! here's a gullytuft I drew for a very-far-in-the-future pmv im planning :)