This Good Friday I want to share my favourite poem by Jay Hulme, a queer, trans and Christian poet
God as a carpenter. Jesus as a familiar to wood and nail. The beauty of all Creation evident and true even in pain.
image and image description taken from Jay Hulme on Twitter
Sometimes, the poems get stuck inside my throat. Sometimes, the words run through my mind so fast that I can only see their spectre, mere foam. In vain, I try to catch them, but they laugh; nymphs of an enchanted forest, hiding behind flowers and trees, dancing in the wind. And there I am, under the light, exposed to their mystery, unable of discerning, lost in their realm – the realm of meanings and seamless feelings that are simultaneously universal and unique, just another glimpse of eternity to me.
Sometimes, I hum a melody for you and then put some words around it. I remember thinking about writing them down so a friend could sing with me, but your sweetest voice told me no, don't do it. Those small songs were supposed to be our eternal secret. Only I sang, only you listened. The angels leaned forward, but no notes were taken. It is stored in another dimension, far away from prying eyes, far away from bad intentions. No one can touch our secret or corrupt the levels of descent in my devotion. What is the praise of men compared to the whisper of heaven in your shoulders? Worms in a plate of bones.
Now it's another season. I sing a lot less while I try to listen. I'm not very good at it, I confess, I insist—help me discern your voice in this, at times, abyssal experience. You lift me up with a kiss! I'm yours, I'm yours, my eyelids are half open, and my face is covered in tears. Obliterated from the inside out, fully naked it is. So I recite the spectre of these words I gather in the forests of my wild mind and offer you a poem. In the silent night, ceiling-staring all the time, trying to see past the firmament, piercing the skies, I pray in poetry; my verses shakily whispered. I feel you, hypnotic and soothing as fire. You smile; our secret is safe in my childlike, devotional desire.
In fields of gold, where sunbeams dance and play,
God's majesty shines bright, in a wondrous way.
His beauty's seen, in every single grace,
A reflection of His loving embrace.
The heavens declare, with voices loud and clear,
God's glory, and His power, so pure and dear.
The stars and moon, they dance and sing,
A celestial choir, with God as their king.
In the depths of the sea, where darkness reigns,
God's light shines bright, and calms the soul's pain.
The waves and tides, they ebb and flow,
A divine symphony, that we all know.
In the heart of every man, woman, and child,
God's love resides, and His beauty's wild.
For He is the one, who gives and forgives,
And in His love, our souls forever lives.
The sky is just such good poetry inspiration right now. Like, my camera sucks so it won’t do it justice but it’s just a masterful tapestry of shining pastel pink, sprinkled with glorious gold, on a canvas of soothing pastel blue.
“The heavens declare the glory of God” indeed 😭 💖💖💖
I neeeed to write a poem just based on the pure, transcendental beauty of that sky omg <333333
Ages ago, they sharpened their axes and decided carefully how it would be done. First, slowly, step by step inside your open mind, then they kicked the door like swat and messed it all up. Turning tables, breaking walls, destroying bedrooms, spraying the white sheets of your bed with blood and then twisting all the protection bars and mirrors. Now you are blind and confused and they are opening the chest of virtue, that was under your bed. They picked beauty by its fragile neck, and murdering it was so easy - then, they removed the meaning. If they can make you believe it, they will help you kill the sacredness and secrecy. Yes, with your own hands, so they can blame it on you and rub your nose against the mud, like the pig they think you always were, accuse you of the things they made you perform. Now you're horrible, they say, after perverting the design and convincing you to not stay. The chaos is the exit, says the open door, and will you run? Will you let reality be undone? Will you call good what is bad and bad what is good and lay your head at night on a suffocating pillow, blaming your sickness on the useless doctors you know will never help you? Or will you look up and ask for meaning once again? For beauty to resurrect and to get rid of that pain? Will you face duality, mountains and valleys, and swim into the abyss if you must, so you can check how all of it began? Will you be brave enough to watch the first ray of light that came through the voice of eternity? The power floating on top of the waters that would make your mind forget, right before entering this world... Will you reach out for such a glorious presence? Because your heart did not forget.