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#but these past few days have just been so. ough
abitofboth · 2 years
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pls pay no mind to the tags this is just a vent post to get some things out<3
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80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.
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dandyshucks · 3 months
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starting to think maybe i should turn rbs off on that post actually bc im having heart palpitations now fdsjgjkl why is this happening to meeee
#vent //#me when the paranoia is Getting Bad fjkfdsjkl#its stemming from m.oral o.cd i think bc i am mainly worried abt more eyes on my blog and ppl seeing me frolic here#and the brain gophers have been insisting that i am doing smth horribly wrong and not realizing it#and the worry is that someone is going to see that and bypass talking to me abt it and go straight to making a callout post#and i will be sitting here with Zero Idea abt it#and continue hurting ppl by doing the Unknown Wrong Thing#but i also am not sure how that would happen bc i overthink literally Everything i post#if u see me put tags on smth that isn't just a simple ''ough'' or ''hehe yay!!'' i probably sat there for two mins making sure it was okay#running thru the words at every angle i can conceive of to ensure its not going to hurt somebody somehow fdsjkl#and this paranoia has been so bad the past few days. and when it gets bad then i get worried bc maybe i somehow have a guilty conscience#without even knowing !!! just subconsciously having a guilty conscience somehow !!#which ... only makes the paranoia worse fdsgjkl its a very bad vicious circle#anyways. i have been lowkey avoiding being here lately bc of this but i feel like avoidance just makes it worse#so . hrm. i just do not want to have more crying breakdowns bc i tried to figure out what on earth i could possibly be doing so wrong fsdjk#not exactly a fun way to spend time FDSJKL but ... what can ya do i guess#like i can't ask ppl ''hey am i doing smth wrong?'' bc thats. very vague. and subjective. and also i shouldnt rely on other ppl like that#but my brain is so goofed up that i genuinely cannot tell when i get like this sdjfkl bc i feel so sure i must be doing smth wrong somehow#so every tiny thing seems like maybe its wrong in a way i dont understand yet... ough#ANYWAYS SORRY THIS IS . NOT A GOOD POST TO MAKE. LOL. but i feel like this is the only way im going to bust myself out of this cycle#hopefully if i just Say that i've been really worried then if smth IS actually wrong someone will let me know#and if nothing is wrong then !! i can move on from this continual paranoia spiral !! maybe !!#i feel like me posting this is going to be a Wrong Immoral Move but fdsjkl rly trying to just. break out of it rn fsdjkl#dandyshucks
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xiomeebo · 2 years
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I plan on beating xillia tonight, and starting xillia 2,, and yet I don’t think I’m emotionally prepared to revisit it yet,, oh well :)
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hi I might not likebe on herealot sincei feel like shit so billy dies for a day
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carlyraejepsans · 11 months
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Rate UT characters on likely they are to eat spoiled food
premise: as monster food does not spoil, this speculation is based on how i think they'd treat human food in the post pacifist ending
frisk. trash burger. enough said. (also i hc that they grew up on the streets, so... not a lot of chances to be picky with your food.)
sans. second most likely. there's milk in the fridge bought specifically for him to drink out of the carton whenever frisk's or papyrus' friends come to visit, like a stereotypical disney channel older brother (he loves being annoying on purpose). it's been there for a month. he's still not done with it. it's probably rancid. enjoyer of food and lover of even shittier food. mr worst burger on the menu. he is ESPECIALLY gross about food and he is gross about it on purpose, he will peel an apple for papyrus and then take a bite out of it before cutting him a slice. and then call him a wuss when he acts disgusted. ("stop being a baby bones, we have the same germs anyway" "NO WE DON'T. *YOU* HAVE GERMS! AND I DON'T WANT ANY OF THEM!!" "why? they're pedigreed" "OUGH!?!!"). he mostly uses it as a chance to make a gag (or a lack of gagging, lol) but his strong stomach did also come in handy in the early days of papyrus' interest in cooking
mettaton, of sequins-and-glue hamburgers fame. he's technically tied for 2nd place with sans, but i put him in third because i feel like sans does it on purpose, for mettaton it's more like... a side effect of starting life off as a ghost. few people question it since he's a robot now.
alphys. she doesn't go out of her way to do it, but she buys her snacks in industrial pallet-fuls to reduce social interactions to a minimum, so by the time she reaches the last 3 or 4 packets of blue takis, they're well past their expiration date. not that it stops her. now, this wouldn't happen on the surface because she gets better and has a solid support system, but if monster food could spoil back when she was going Through it with the amalgamates, i feel like she'd either be too depressed or tired to care and eat it, or she'd tumble into a "g-god. you can't even take care of your own f-food. is there anything you can't fuck up" self-deprecation spiral and lose her appetite altogether
flowey. did it to see what would happen. nothing did. never did it again. tbh I just don't think he eats much of anything, spoiled or not.
undyne. getting into the "wouldn't eat spoiled food" tier. she actually thinks it's really gross but papyrus tricks her into doing it by challenging her machismo. she gets SO sick from it. they do this aprox 3 times a month. rinse and repeat
asgore. he's a gardener, and i can see him working in a community garden on the surface, so he'd have access to a lot of fresh produce, for both himself and to give away. however, if some of it were to go bad, he'd probably cut off the affected bit and eat the rest so it doesn't go to waste.
toriel. she is SUPER careful about expiration dates and mold and checks to make sure all she owns is still safe to eat almost weekly. this level of care, however, is mostly meant for other people, not herself, but she would really rather not eat anything that's gone bad. same reasoning as alphys', IF monster food could spoil when she was still in the RUINs, i could technically see her biting the bullet, if only because 1) she was also heavily depressed and struggling to take care of herself, though i think she might sooner skip out on the meal altogether, rather than eat something spoiled, and 2) the awkward stares from the other monsters in the RUINs supermarket might not be something she's willing to deal with on any given day.
papyrus. he would NOT. no way. master of cleaning, germophobe extraordinaire papyrus (well, not really, but he plays the part). if toriel is meticulous, papyrus is obsessive. there better not be a SINGLE spot on his food. and no lines or plaid patterns either!! he WILL wash it untill it goes away. with soap probably. canonically a picky eater to begin with (his picks are just weird as balls). can should and WILL get on sans' ass about his unhealthy eating habits, and that includes eating food that's gone bad.
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HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSERY TO
CHARLIE THE CURSED PHONE GUY
MAY HE STAY WITH US FOR ANOTHER FIVE AND BEYOND!
and now a special message from the man himself.
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"Well, Well, Well... look how far we've come huh? Genuinely, honest... And Truly."
"Five years ago I was made and cursed the world of tumblr with my presence, time sure does fly! I've lost a few friends, but gained plenty more in return!"
"I wouldn't even be here today without them, now granted I'm not gonna name EVERYONE! But I am gonna name a select few and tell you how they've impacted me... AHEM..."
"First and foremost the man the myth and the legend the one who is the reason behind everything, the man where if he didn't exist I wouldn't exist!"
"Henr- ... we all know I don't mean him we're talking about real people."
"If your name isn't listed, it isn't because the mod dosen't care but it's because he's a dumbass and these are the ones that came up at the top of his head when writing this post, totally not a forth wall break."
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@directdogman
"The Creator of the DSAF/Dayshift At Freddy's Series Direct Doggo himself, sure okay I was a late edition to the fandom.
but it is fully thanks to DSAF 3 and him that I even exist, what can I say about doggo other then what has been said before one thousand times? He is a man of many skills and many talents."
"He is creative, smart and genuinely an inspiration to everyone in the community of both DSAF and Dialtown... no matter how much time has passed, I will personally continue to respect the man I owe everything to him. So thank you doggo genuinely for your support and your amazing games."
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@cook-ie-chip
"One of my oldest friends in the community, I've known you since almost the start! we have alot of memories together, some laughs, some cries! you also created my blue prints
(though in lore they were written by henry and will) let's look past that! You remind me of how things used to be a long time ago, and I'm glad to still know you even now."
"and with any hope I'll curse you for many years more."
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@lazy-charlie / @chuck-the-fanboy
"I remember how we met, you found me and we both realized we had the same name, and so I decided to charge you extra for like a pizza party lmao."
"But ever since that day we have only grown closer and closer... to the point your apart of the roomba fazbender family [no you will get no discounts] ..."
"You've done so much for me over the years though, you helped create the Roomba's we have here today, you drew some of our lovely walrus friends!"
"AND ... ough... Okay Okay I'll be honest you made Chuck The Fanboy originally a joke just to tease me with, but over the years he's grown on me... DO NOT LET HIM HEAR ME SAY THIS, but he's like a lil bro... and if anything happened to him I'd be devastated."
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@clownsuu / @not-robert
"... well well well if it isn't the shadow in black and the big buff zombie, what can I say about both of you?"
"Hmm... Clownsuu here teases me, has DRAWN ME MPREG, HAS DRAWN ME EMO, IS THE REASON WHY THE EVIL VERSION OF ME EXISTS!..."
"and yet life wouldn't be the same with out him, jack is... an anomaly someone I met because someone thought he was stealing me! HA no one can steal this perfect face~"
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"Gotta say though, all jokes aside... life just wouldn't be the same without him, alot more boring you know? I must admit he is someone I will never forget, you've also drawn photos of a few of my walrus I still have hung up in my office, I appreciate you for absolutely everything you've done."
"And don't get me started on Robert that big buff baby, I've put him in just about every costume under the sun, and yet he still puts up with me and stays still no idea why. But it's because of him my restaurant has expanded so much, from a bowling alley, a karaoke bar and dumpsters full of meat."
"Don't tell Robert this he'd likely call me an idiot, but guy's one of my best friends genuinely thankfully he's immortal so I'll never worry about losing him but ... the thought still scares me."
"Never change Robert."
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@weirdozjunkary
"You turned me into a furry... I got nothin else to say I just had to point that out."
"..."
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"Okay, fine you did alot more then that, you introduced me to bedlam someone who can FINALLY truly be a sponge to my cursed and chaotic behavior, honestly I'd hope so considering he's the god of chaos."
"I only met him recently but I'd fuken fight his version of god for him ... seriously don't tempt me I will kick that old man's ass."
"I'm glad to have bedlam in my life and hope I know him for many years more."
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@an-artist-place-for-extra-art
"you simp for the evil version of me I..."
"I have no words for you..."
"I just question... why?"
"though honestly? never change, I care for you just the way you are, your amazing."
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"Alright, Alright enough of the mushy stuff and forth wall breaks it's messing with my circuits and servo's ahem..."
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"The most important thing about this day is one..."
"I'm so fucking cool"
"two"
"I AM NEVER GOING ANYWHERE HATERS, FIVE MORE YEARS AND BEYOND OF ME!!!"
"and three... and most important lore wise"
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"HAPPY 50TH ANNIVERSERY TO ROOMBA FUCKING FAZBENDERS!"
"50 YEARS THIS PLACE HAS BEEN OPEN WITHOUT ANY DEATHS JUST A FEW INJURIES AND I'LL TAKE THAT WITH STRIDE!"
"AS THE ULTIMATE FUCK YOU TO FREDBEAR'S AND FAZBENDER ENTERTAINMENT!"
"THE GUY WHO IS A LITERAL ELDRITCH HORROR AND EATS SHOES WITH HIS BOOTLEG RESTURANT LASTED LONGER THEN ALL OF YOU SUCK IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT!"
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"... thank you... genuinely out of pocket with full seriousness..."
"thank you everyone for sticking around none of this would be possible without you, and I HONEST AND TRUELY can't wait for another five amazing years."
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Moderator Monnie: And happy anniversary to everyone from me to all of you!
Have a fantastic day! and thank ya'll for reading!
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rainflower chapter 2
ough...eepy....
the trouble trio get established
ao3 link; x
Wild let out an annoyed little sigh, walking along the path with the rest of the group.
Flower was off in front, having come out of their shell the past few hours and excitedly talking to Four and Wind about…whatever it is that kids talk about. It’s nice to see the kid being expressive—the last few hours, since Wild found them, they’d been shy, mostly hiding in Wild and trying to avoid others. It’s nice that they’re trying now.
“I need to get them a weapon,”Wild groaned, annoyed at the realisation. “I don’t even think they know how to use one,”That’s going to be a problem, for sure.
“You’re bringing your kid with you?”Warriors raised a brow.
“No. I want to leave them here, but…it’s still dangerous here, y’know? I want them to be prepared so they can defend themselves without me here.”
Twilight hummed, nodding along.
“Yeah, that makes sense. Even if it’s just a wooden sword for now, hm?”
“We don’t know when the next portal will open.”Warriors hummed. “We should work on arming them as soon as possible then, hm?”
“Top priority.”Twilight agreed.
Wild nodded, still watching Flower from a distance. “How old are those two? The ones with Flower?”
“Wind’s 14,”Warriors hums out. “Not sure about Four, though. Never said. We think they’re, like, 15 or something though.”
“What bout Flower?”Twilight asks, and Wild shrugs.
“They don’t remember. They look young, though. Can’t—can’t be older than 10, with how small they are.”
The two nod along, seemingly just as worried about the child’s amnesia as Wild himself is.
“Wild!”Flower yells over, smiling brightly. “Foursey says he’s a blacksmith! That’s cool!”They giggle, then; “Do you know what a blacksmith is?”
“Uh. I know I’m their worst nightmare?”He offers. “I don’t remember what a blacksmith is either.”
“I make swords,”Four clarifies, for both of them. “And knives. I can fix them up, too. I can just, generally, make a lot of things out of metal.”
“Woahhh,”Flower stares at Four with pure awe in their eyes, and Wild watches as Four pretends not to be flattered by it.
“Here,”Four decides, pulling a knife seemingly out of nowhere. (Wild would later learn that Four has about a dozen knives on their person at all times, and that when Four says they have a trick up their sleeve, they really mean they have a knife.)
“You can keep it if you want.”They clarify, handing the small knife to Flower. It’s not too daunting like a sword would be. It’s small enough to be hidden, and sharp enough to pose a threat.
“Look, look, it’s got a flower on it!”Flower giggles happily. “I like it a lot.”
“That sorts my problem out,”Wild mumbles under his breath, then whistles. “Be careful with it, okay?”
“I will!”And then they tuck it into their sleeve as Four tells them, and runs off with the smithy again.
Well. At least the kid’s good at making friends… How could their family abandon them in that cave? It makes Wild feel sick.
“Wind is gonna have a field day with this kid,”Warriors sighs with a shake of his head. “Gonna teach them how to steal or something.”
“Oh. Handy skill,”Wild hums, chooses to ignore the looks he gets for the comment.
They walk for a while. Wild shows them around the general area, and then they have to go and find the trouble trio, as Wild has started to call them.
Flower, Four and Wind are almost inseparable. They stick close, and run off a lot. It wouldn’t be so bad if Wild didn’t know the dangers of this area.
“Okay—where could they have gone now?”Sky wheezes, catching his breath. They’ve been looking around for a while, to the point the group split up just to find the three.
“I don’t—”Wild takes a breath. “I don’t know. Flower doesn’t know the area.”
Sky sighs. He sounds disappointed, and Wild can’t blame him.
“Ready to keep going?”He asks after a while, watching Sky with concern.
“Mhm!”The chosen hero smiles bright and stands up straight.
They find the trio standing in the middle of the woods, having a very intense staring contest with a strange looking black portal. …wait. Black portal?
“What the hell is that?”Wild frowns, turning to the other.
Sky looks a little sheepish. “That…is the way we’ve been travelling between the timeline! Um…guys! Back up a little bit?”He yells, stepping closer.
Flower turns to look at them.
They’re holding Four’s hand tight, not seeming to be keen on the idea of letting go.
“Get the others,”Four states bluntly, keeping a hold of Flower’s hand. Wild can’t tell who’s being comforted by the action.
“Where’s Wolfie when you need him?”Wind complains, dramatically crossing his arms and jutting his bottom lip out into a pout. It turns into a grin when Flower laughs at the action.
“I can find the others. Sky, can you..?”
“I’ll stay with them,”Sky nods quickly and lets Wild run off.
He turns to look at the three, and lets out a sigh as he wanders closer to them. “Why’d you three run off, then?”
“We were exploring,”Four informs with a loose shrug. “We were being careful. Then we came across this and didn’t know what to do, and then you and Wild showed up.”
Wind nods along. “We were tellin Flower about our adventures, too!”
“They’re really cool,,”They mumble, leaning against Four. Four seems to welcome it. Sky thinks its sweet.
It takes Wild another long while for him to gather the others and bring them to the portal. “Sorry, that took forever.”He hums once they get back.
Flower doesn’t make a beeline for him this time. Instead; “This thingy makes me feel weird. What is it?”
“Oh…the portal? We’re not sure what it is. Or where, exactly, it goes.”
“Woah…”Flower mumbles, and stares at the portal with curiosity. Wild does not like that.
“Hey, Flower,”Wild walks closer and kneels down. “I have to go with them now, okay? Do you know the way back to Hateno?”
They look confused, and then hurt. “You’re leaving me..?” Shit. Shit, they look like they’re about to cry.
“Uhhhhh, only—only for a little while!”He panics, trying to calm the child down. “I won’t be gone for long.”
“But—”Flower sniffles. “You said you’d help me. How can you help if you’re not—if you’re not here? I dunno anyone here..”
“You know Zelda?”Wild offers. Please let this convince him.
“I don’t like her,”They mumble, quiet. “I want to stay with you.”
“It’s—It’s dangerous, Flower..” Flower deflates. Doesn’t argue it again. Wild hates it, just a bit. They look so dejected.
It seems to be them agreeing to stay, though. He pats them on the head as he stands back up.
“Follow the path, okay? It’ll take you back.”He sighs, facing the portal again. Man, this thing is creepy, but he watches Time go through it and follows.
He really, really, should have waited and went through last. And also, Four and Wind are assholes.
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vestaclinicpod · 2 months
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Audio Drama Sunday - 17th March ✨
I’m back! I’ve been cursed by something and life keeps trying to really kill the vibe but I’m back!! Happy Audio Drama Sunday, everyone! ✨
👻 @tellnotalespod (S2E5.5) Ough, Riley! This is not good. They may be (pretending to be) fine but I’m not!! Absolutely fuming at the sequence of events that has separated Riley from the only person who can handle them and vice versa 😮‍💨
🌲 @hellofromthehallowoods (143) season 4 is gripping me by the lapels, screaming “do you UNDERSTAND?!” In my face while I stammer that I am not sure if I understand. I LOVE it though. It’s so fun listening to show where you can trust the creator to take risks and know that it will pay off if you pay attention and keep your red string handy. I love the idea that the god of change and rebirth is affecting the actual narrative - it’s so cool! Though, I want to grab Marolmar by the antlers and fling him somewhere nasty. If Nikignik gets (more) hurt, there will be blood. 
🧳 Travelling Light @monstrousproductions (15) hehe frogs 🐸. My wife can attest that I actually went ‘oh, no!’ out loud when I twigged where the little guys had come from! Oh, Traveller, what are we going to do with you? 
🎙 Not only did I have the immense pleasure of seeing The Attic live show this week, the new WTNV episode was so fun as well!! I’m so glad Kevin is back…
♦️@grottopod (6) Aaaah!!! Emily!! They have to get them back together?!! What does that MEAN??!! 
⚔️ @camlannpod (5) TURN ON YOUR LOCATION, COWARDS. Waaaah I just want to talk about how this episode hit us with the ‘you are in charge of your own destiny, your story can be changed’ then with a reminder that ‘there is no version of this story which doesn’t have a good ending’ BUT wHAt if he’s making one!!?!?!? I feel for Dai SO much but I really truly believe that the power of love is going to win !!! The Green Knight has just broken the radio so we don’t get to hear his long lecture about how to be a better boyfriend. 
🖥️ The Magnus Protocol (10) that was creepy as all hell. Absolutely hated that, actually. The first time in ages that I've thought about a podcast character with fear before turning out the light 😬
⚓️ The beloved eelers of @eelerschoice were back with a very fun Q+A episode. My main impression was how dARE anyone tell Lou that ey cannot write music??? Who is this person?? Feed them to the eels!!!! 
🍎 I finished @notquitedeadpod S2 these past few weeks which was GRIPPING as hell. I listened to the Q+A today and I have to say that it’s one of my fave Q+As ever, there was so much genuine thought and detail put into the answers. I can only dream of producing such a coherent, interesting response to any question about my own work! SO excited for S3, especially given that we're about to get into the vampire science!!!! let's gooo!!! 
Feel free to join me in manifesting a good week!! A huge thank you to everyone who's making these shows (and others!) which I love so much. There's nothing better than sticking on some headphones and escaping life for a while and I've needed that more than usual recently! 
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circular-bircular · 2 months
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It drives me up a wall that ppl argue “anti endos are the only harassers!!!” And yet the past few days the sys course tag has been nothing but going against anti endos for? Some reason? Like just outta nowhere I started to see posts going on and on about how anti endos are sooo horrible and how dare they want anti endo only spaces like hello pot??
It’s just… infuriating to see it all bcs why the hell would anyone even consider looking at a different perspective if the first thing they see is people bashing anti endos (and often CDD systems in the same breath) and using that to uplift pro/endos like you can’t seriously claim to want anti endos to listen when everything is about insulting/shaming anti endos in a number of ways some less subtle than the last
I’m neutral on it all but if I was still anti today and thought “well maybe I should try to understand their side” and saw all that then?????? Hell no
Hell even being neutral I’m still not favorable to interactions bcs I don’t want that kinda energy in my space
Sry I’m just so GAH about it all and saw your post on syscourse stances and the harassment thing and was just “finally”
(Ough I’m so sorry I’m rambling hard on this one)
I fully agree that anti-endos aren’t the only harassers. But I also agree that endogenic systems are going through a lot right now. It’s easy for me to not see, but that’s because I’ve got a lot of folks blocked. There really are a lot of anti-endo assholes popping up each day lately, and I’m sorry for all the Endogenic systems dealing with that hatred. I’ve been there. It fucking sucks. I also am sorry for the CDD systems suffering through hatred currently, regardless of syscourse stance. It’s all hellish sometimes.
In my eyes, the way a lot of pro-endos tackle things isn’t beneficial. It’s either bait to encourage anti-endos to rage (which is often triggering to boot), or it’s just vocalizing hatred into a public space. Neither of these things are needed, especially if the goal is to make it so that anti-endos “aren’t a thing anymore.” Anti-endos fall into this same trap; many are trying to protect their disorders, but they do so via harassment, mockery, or similarly vocalized hatred. All in some attempt to “make things better for ‘real’ systems.”
It feels like many people in syscourse are doing something I like to call Aimless Activism. They know something is wrong (fakeclaiming, bad sources, ableism, etc), so they rally against it loudly and boldly, because That’s The Point. You’re Supposed To.
I’m guilty of this myself honestly. But… you need a goal. You need to have a point beyond This Is Activism, because if you don’t have an actionable goal, then you’re not actually working toward anything. You’re just shouting.
My goal on my blog is to share my personal experiences and talk about things that interest me. That’s it. I’ve tried to be an Aimless Activist for awhile now, convincing myself that it’s activism to argue online. And I don’t know, maybe to some, my blog fits that description. But at this point, I don’t… think it matters. I’m tired of playing in this giant sandbox where everyone is kicking the sand in each other’s faces while I try to build my sand castle.
I think a lot of other people are too. Has anyone else noticed how many new faces there are here? How a lot of the old faces have gone away? People are tired of the sandbox games where everyone kicks around sand. People want real things, real conversations, real connections — regardless of some stupid arbitrary label.
And that’s where it comes back to. “Stupid arbitrary label.” The ones who care about the labels are still playing in the sandbox and they’re gearing up for another round of fighting with “the other side.” Meanwhile, they don’t realize that the sandbox is only one tiny part of an enormous playground, and I’m over on the swings with friends I made in the sandbox, laughing about how nice it is to no longer have sand in my eyes.
I wish folks the best for getting out of there.
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kadextra · 17 days
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crazy how I’ve been here in the qsmp community since day one o_o wanted to write up a thing
to start, my mutuals and followers. ough wow we’ve really gone through it omg. abrazo 🫂❤️
now a bit about what I’m gonna do going forward: this has been greatly emotionally exhausting, today was hard im not gonna lie. I cried so much <3 plus life’s been busy lately. I am gonna take a step away and focus on things that need attention, some of my other interests too. I might not be here for a few days also, but rest assured!! I’ll be back and I don’t see myself leaving the qsmpblr space permanently
I’m still going to check on how everything is doing and chat with you guys about stuff, maybe post some analysis and fanarts even if i’m not as active. I will ofc see what bbh does next and tune into streams every so often when I have time, since he is a creator I enjoy and respect. I want to see what pac e mike do too, murder mystery was fantastic :D
no matter what, this community will be special to me, you’re all lovely. this server has been a unique experience with so much heart and soul put in by lots of passionate people
it succeeded in breaking down barriers of language and connected people who never would’ve met. traveling through the old spawn again also just goes to show how each little thing is a story with emotional weight we were part of. I will hold dearly the mysterious, funny, or heartbreaking stories that were told- and especially the countless late nights spent watching shenanigans of a demon and his three kids bc I needed their entertainment as my company. now recorded into this blog and my memory
so much fun the past year learning about different cultures, getting scared at The Horrors with everyone, drawing, crying, smiling at sweet heartwarming things. all the adventures and hellos / goodbyes we’ve had together with our favorite little cubitos and pixel eggs….
I think its a blessing being able to love something to the point it makes you cry when a goodbye arrives. because a piece of it settled into your heart that is important to you, no matter what it is or how long it was there for. it means something to us, we live carrying on those feelings & lessons for the rest of our life bc we are tapestries of everything we have ever loved
it really is all about love <3
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confluencechimera · 28 days
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Top 5 list of your own OCs. (`∀ ´)Ψ
OUGH this is a GOOD QUESTION. I really had to narrow it down because I have so many babies but I think I got something solid
1 - Malech H'owl, an OC I made for St*r W*rs. she was based off an old chimera fursona of mine that I turned into a unique alien species and aaa I love drawing her SO MUCH. she's my go-to doodle char. she has a whole entire society and backstory where she was a ruler and a gladiator fighter and a tactician and a mercenary. because I got really into her. she is so self indulgent but that's probably why she's my favorite. I'm so attached to her I've thought abt making her a totally original universe recently divorced from the source media just for meeeee ✨
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2 - Ace, who I've been trying to get a ref sheet done for for the past year and a half or so. He looks like a basic old furry on the surface but he's apart of a much larger sci-fi story where his species are trying to preserve history for future generations by inserting memory-recording ships into different members of their kind and then beaming all that into a supercomputer hidden somewhere in the galaxy. Ace comes from a middle generation (the first gen were adults who had the procedure done, the middle generation were fairly young, the newest generation are cubs), so his chip doesn't work entirely as well as the newest gen, and he gets weird deja vu moments of seeing other people's memories. He's also a mercenary. He has a cool spaceship and lives on his own on a barren icy planet. This is the best photo I have of him atm
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3 - Howlite, another OC I made for a media (this one being TF!). I'm trying to redesign her atm so I don't have as many pics to show off. but he turns into a plane and later a big old SUV. she's got an insanely long backstory as well: loses everything in a big war, goes on a revenge quest, realizes she wants to live for something more, gets almost killed (twice) and then wakes up on Earth where she finds her old partner and learns to start a new life there. he's a Certified Strange Girlboy Bi Thing. here's a real edgy picture of her after killing a bunch of ppl.
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4 - Glitch and Error, two REALLY old OCs of mine who I recently revived from my old dA days. They're personified computer viruses apart of a giant hivemind sort of setup, where the larger viruses "kill" and "consume" smaller ones to become bigger and stronger. The strongest virus rules over the entire hivemind and uses the smaller drones to go out and find electricity to feed on. Not a lot of super solid universe/hard-set rules for this story, it was just something I made for fun, but these guys have endured in my brain for over 10 years so they deserve a shout out.
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5 - Comet, a very new character for me (and one I haven't entirely fleshed out yet), but a simple little black wolf furry. Her aes/story is a mixture of Stray Gods, a dash of Hi-Fi Rush, lots of Norse mythology and hard rock (Breaking Benjamin in particular) music. She's the lead singer of a band called Fenrir's Chains, and one day on her drive home from a local show she gets swept up in a Wild Hunt that actually gets her to meet Fenrir. The whole story is meant to be a sort of analogy for dealing with mortality but I'm still working the themes and kinks out. So, I only have a few sketches, plus the plushie she's based on in real life. (She's next to a plushie I plan to turn into Ace one day too!)
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fwob · 1 year
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CAN I PLEASEE PLZ PLS GET UR FIC RECS DUDE (can i also rec one; poly philtatos (the most loved by far)
anything for you anon <3 sorry for taking . checks watch . two days .
under the cut cuz i have . A Few
PROJECT: ICARUS - aka the fic thats been absolutely rotting my brain for the past week . luffy dies at marineford except actually just kidding hes still alive but hes a marine pacifista / seraphim / human weapon now . oops ! please read it its so good the first 2 chapters are fucking BRUTAL
put your faith in what you most believe in - luffy gets sick . sabo's understandably worried . this ones a top contender for my fav op fic . i think abt this one CONSTANTLY
literally every taizi fic . yes all of them . i have read every single op fic theyve published . they're all bangers . no exceptions . but i will specifically recommend the previous fic , as well as this one , this one , this one , this one , and this one
wish by spirit and if by yes - sabo visits the whitebeards on revolutionary business . also a top contender for my fav op fic . i REALLY love this one the dynamic is SO good
i know you by the state of your hands - time travel shenanigans
breathe - luffy has a nightmare and an ensuing panic attack and law calms him down . they chat . VERY good i really like this one . the sequel is also good its linked on the fic
asl in red - this whole series is insane . it starts as like "shanks adopts ASL !!!" and then it just goes completely off the rails . like god whats going on . its great tho
ache in the rain (and remember the wounds) - luffy sees ghosts !
luffy's law - i dont know whats really going on in this fic but i fuck with it . will be incorporating multiple things from this fic into any modern au i make in the future
whatever you can still betray - ace has GOT to be a marine spy because nothing he says makes any fucking sense . i really love this one its so fun
finally i get to choose what's wrong (and what is right) - listen . 90% of the time i am FIRMLY against genderbending one character and nobody else . but like . im a fan of this one . also makino has a gun
si c'est un âme - your soulmate's first words to you are written on your body . luffy has 9 phrases on his back . i AM in fact a platonic soulmate enjoyer
blood song - post thriller bark zolu ...... ough
on brotherhood - ageswap , luffy is the older brother
code of misconduct - there's a set of written rules on the thousand sunny . VERY silly fic . very fun
hey, let's get lost (along the way) - luffy , ace , nami , and vivi get lost in alabasta . shenanigans ensue
i can't be selfless - garp invites aokiji to dawn island to help convince luffy to be a marine
god's emperor - shanks meets a young god . this was before 1044 actually like damn girl ur ON that shit
how it should have healed - the aftermath of some of luffy's various injuries
seven deadly sins - trafalgar law's new apartment is haunted by exactly seven (7) ghosts
chasing the remnants - sabo accompanies dragon to loguetown
little monsters - usopp and sanji get captured by marines
of dawn and dreams - i could not tell you what this series is about but its mostly shanks and buggy . its good tho
don't bury me with gold - WORLD NOBLE SABO ....... oughhh this one is so good . i think abt it a lot
sun over the horizon - luffy gives his crew some much-needed affection after a battle
take a step in mine - on their way out of marineford , luffy collapses a little bit earlier . it changes some things
spin a yarn - time travel shenanigans . this whole series makes me completely and utterly insane . read it now
over the course of a day - worlds worst roadtrip
greatest gift of all - luffy is 10 years younger than his brothers
two and a half pirates - luffy is 16 years younger than his brothers
unsinkable - the ocean is luffy's mother . ive seen like 3 different fics with this concept but this one is my favourite
three years, give or take - time travel shenanigans , except it's ace this time
hide the knives - after ace joins the whitebeards , shanks drops by for a party
beginning the next dream - time travel shenanigans . there's a reason it's the most kudosed op fic
make a choice (turncoat hero) - garp accidentally becomes a pirate . whoops !
boy with a scar - luffy vanishes after sabo dies and shows up 4 years later with a slave brand . what kind of man would i be if i didnt include boy with a scar . i love this one a lot
in which higuma doesn't get drunk, even though he really, really wants to - time travel shenanigans
sunflowers - genderfluid luffy ....... god i love transgenderism
pain scale - luffy gets injured and nobody realizes for a while , himself included
sibling sympathies - ace and nami have a chat in alabasta
small changes - id summarize this one but tbh i dont super remember what happens in this one i just remember rlly liking it . its a cora lives au i know that . read it anyways
too bright to see - lusan ..............
i'll keep the king (i'll keep him safe) - EXCEPTIONALLY good luffy whump . very good
of scissors and combs - luffy gets a haircut
and heres four gear fifth fics that i like. id summarize them all but i dont really want to so like . just trust me on this one . read em
also thanks for the rec !! ive been meaning to read that one for weeks thanks for giving me an excuse to finally do it . here's the link for anyone who hasn't read it which you should because it's VERY good
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dandyshucks · 4 months
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praying that this one artist i watch livestream doesn't ever look at my chat history bc i feel like I look really weird through it 😭 I have immense anxiety among other issues so I'll usually only manage to work up the nerve to send One (1) random msg in chat at some point during a stream and then immediately feel like I have done smth terribly wrong (even if I am just agreeing with everyone else in chat ???) and not be able to send anything else the entire rest of the stream
so my message history would just be like... one completely random comment per stream and nothing else and I feel like that probably looks really really strange fjfkdl
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lavenoon · 2 years
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Accidentally Undercover - Sick Day (~1700 words)
Companion piece here
The switch isn’t a casual one, again. The first thing Sun does as he comes to is sigh, Moon still a dark gloomy presence in their mind. It’s obvious what that means. 
“So still no -” 
‘No.’ 
“I’m sure they’re fine, Moon.” 
Not that Sun blames him for his worry - after that little stabbing incident his counterpart may have started to be somewhat on edge, not to say protective, over his little bird. It doesn’t mean he enjoys his frustration seeping into him, too. 
‘This was the third night, and no one’s heard from them - except the higher ups, who refuse to say anything!’ 
“Maybe they’re sick, humans tend to do that sometimes. Or they’re on vacation, jumping off palm trees instead of buildings for a change.” 
Moon either misses or ignores the joke - Sun really is underappreciated in his time.
‘They would tell me that.’
“They would tell you that they plan on getting sick?” 
‘You know what I mean!’
Sun laughs softly as he makes his way to their kitchen - unused, as it is, though still where he kept the spoils of yesterday’s last minute grocery run.
‘What are you doing?’ 
“I took today off. Someone has been coughing up a storm the past few days, and if they won’t take care of themself, I will.” 
You, of course. The soundproofing in this house really has room for improvement, though this is the first time he got to be on the receiving end of the noise. Not that he minds, of course - he just worries. In your state you really shouldn’t have to do everything by yourself, and fortunately, he’s available. 
‘Ough. Do what you want, it’s not my paycheck.’
“You’re going into rest mode?” 
‘What else am I supposed to do? They don’t even know about me, I’m not going to spy on our landlord.’
Sun sighs, but it’s in understanding. He knows Moon feels it, too. Besides, it’s not like the snark really is directed at him. 
“Rest well, Moon. I’m sure Robin is fine.” 
The doubt is palpable, but at least Moon doesn’t outright say so. He wants to believe they’re fine, too. And just like that, he’s offline. For his sake, Sun hopes that whatever is holding their little rival up will be solved quickly. 
“... Sun?” 
You squint up at him, standing in the doorway to your place, obviously unkempt, dressed in pajamas, with a blanket wrapped around your shivering form. Another cough rattles through you before he can state his business, and the sigh you heave after still rasps in your throat. 
Perhaps you developed some mind reading powers - or he successfully projects his concern about your health. 
“I’m fine, it’s just the flu. Don’t say it.” 
“... Don’t say what?” 
You blink, then frown at the ground. After a moment of contemplation you shake your head, and shrug. 
“Nothing. I don’t know why I thought - anyway. What can I do for you?” 
He beams at you, lifting up his arm with the grocery bag. Like he would ask anything of you under circumstances like these! 
“Better yet, what can I do for you? I hear chicken soup is good when you’re sick, but I also have ingredients for a vegetarian alternative. Some tea, too, though I didn’t know what kind you like. Additionally, cough syrup and drops, and tissues in case you ran out over the past few days. The soundproofing, you know!” 
The blanket covering your shoulders steadily rises, and you duck your head sheepishly at the last sentence. Well, that wasn’t his intention at all. He goes on, softening his tone to draw you back out of your cozy shell. 
“Our kitchen isn’t quite equipped for this, but if you allow me, I’ll cook in yours.” 
You do look up at that, though still obviously flustered. 
“Uh - it’s, it’s fine, I can -” 
“You should be in bed. Don’t strain yourself - something tells me you’ve been doing too much of that the past three days.” 
At that you wince, and then sigh. He can hear defeat in it, and his grin widens. 
“You’re not leaving, are you?” 
“Nope!” 
You laugh, which quickly devolves into another cough, though you hold up your hand to stop him as he reaches out. Maybe for the best, as he wouldn’t be sure where to pat your back through the thick blanket. When your breath calms again, you shoot him half a smile. 
“Would - would the couch work, too? I don’t - uh. Upstairs is. Messy. It’s still cozy, and I can - I can rest.” 
“I’ll take it!”
You step aside, and he crosses the boundary into your space for the first time. Tries not to think of the significance too much. Perhaps fortunately, he’s immediately distracted by a surprising view. 
"... You kept that?"
Sun stares at the paper flower wreath hanging on the wall, eyes wide and feeling rather stiff.
You manage a beaming smile despite the sickness.
"Of course!"
So simple. Not a hint of doubt, and suddenly Sun doesn't regret picking up arts and crafts again. A low effort paper wreath he hurried to make just to have something to show for his alibi, gifted to you with the expectation that you would care about as much as he does. Did. He cares quite a bit, now, seeing it so proudly displayed in your living space.
"Why wouldn't I? You made it, and gave it to me! And it's not like I don't have the space, it looks nice there, I think."
Almost criminally adorable. Sun isn’t quite ready to unpack that, so he deflects - ushers you away from the foyer, deeper into your place. Past the stairs and past the kitchen island to push you onto the (admittedly comfortable looking) couch. It’ll do. 
“Now, it’s time to rest. I’ll make tea first, any preference?” 
You shake your head, and blink after him as he takes the three strides back to the kitchen. Almost domestic - but he really shouldn’t think like that. Instead he busies himself with your kettle, and picks a herbal tea out of the grocery bag. 
Apparently, you don’t know what “resting” means. He can hear your steps as he checks the cupboards for a mug. You’re still wrapped in your blanket, hovering just a few steps away. 
“Resting, dear, does not involve standing on the cold floor in bare feet.” 
“I just - I should probably tell you where everything is, no?” 
He turns his head to throw you an unamused look. Not a valid argument, no no. 
“You can direct me from the couch, should I struggle to find anything.” 
Not that you seem convinced. Sun can see the defiance in your eyes, and internally sighs when you open your mouth to argue. The kettle whistles just as your phone chimes, and he turns back just as you reach into your pocket. 
With the tea steeping he turns back to you, and is positively surprised to find you back on the couch, feet up on the cushions. Mug in hand, he walks back over, but can’t help question your sudden attitude shift.
"Six minutes, dear. I’ll tell you when they’re over. Just what message did you get that convinced you to actually rest? Not that I'm complaining."
You mumble something into your mug, and he tilts his faceplate in return.
"Come again?"
It's as if you want to hide in that mug, as far as you duck down to it, but at least he can hear your response this time.
"... My coworker asked about me. Apparently he's worried."
Sun squints, a small chuckle escaping his voice box. The infamous disrespectful coworker, worried. Not that he can blame the guy - Sun worries about you, too, and he knows it's just the flu.
"Someone cares more than they want to admit, huh?"
His expression falls when you're the one starting to flounder.
"Wha - I don't care about him! He's annoying, I told you, I shouldn't - I'm not thinking about him!"
Well, that's uncomfortable, and it really shouldn't be. Of course he knows how often you think about the guy, with how much you tend to complain, but he always assumed it's pure annoyance, nothing else. He was glad to let you vent and happy to offer some emotional support, and he loved hearing you laugh after he jokingly offered to give him a piece of his mind.
Somehow, this new revelation makes him doubt all of that.
"But you do. Think about him."
The words sound hollow even to Sun himself, but you don't seem to notice. Your eyes are locked downwards, focused on the tea still. The only indication that you heard him comes from the way you raise your shoulders, defensive, though a moment later you sigh and elaborate.
"He's stupid, and he annoys me, but I guess... I do annoy him back, so it's only fair. I, uh, actually wasn't the nicest when he joined, so the whole thing might actually be on me. But... But if even he's worried, then... Then maybe I should just get better quickly so I can throw some insults his way and things go back to normal. It's weird to hear that he asked about me, and I really don't want another gift basket."
Ah, right, the gift basket, when you were at the hospital. Filled with goods and still managed to insult you - "his usual antics" you had said. Sun doesn't want a repeat of that, either. His opinion of this mysterious coworker is already less than flattering, but somehow it's even lower now - even worse, it feels personal now.
He widens his grin, against his inclination. 
“First, you’ll get soup. I should get started on that.” 
The novelty of cooking is enough to distract him for a while, with the short interlude of removing the teabag from your mug, but after another few minutes you pipe up again.
“Hey, Sun?” 
He only hums, focusing on the methodical cuts of the vegetables.
“Thank you. For - for all of this, I mean. I’m not really - I’m not really used to people taking care of me, but I do appreciate it.” 
It helps. His shoulders drop slightly as he relaxes, and the soft smile he directs at you feels real again. 
“My pleasure, dear.” 
His.
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The message Y/N got from their supervisor (not canon): URGENT: Agent Robin, for the love of god, may we please relay your status to agent Dusk, because he keeps snapping at us and asking about you. You may want to consider a line of contact to him, actually, because I’m very tired of playing telephone with your abandoned animatronic.
Dusk gets called in by the supervisor the next night, who explains that Robin is fine, and that something personal came up. They considered just letting them tell him they are sick - but those bird flu jokes really write themselves, and they really wanted to avoid that.
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ralexsol · 6 months
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ive been on a marvel binge but just the movies loki's in for the past few days. anyways i rewatched thor 2 tonight for the first time since 2017 (when i first saw it) and OUGH. I FORGOT HOW FUCKING HORRIBLE ODIN IS AS A FATHER. WORST DAD EVER AWARD. "your birthright was to die" EXCUSE FUCKING ME??????????????? NO WONDER WHY THEY HAVE FUCKING DADDY ISSUES
also dont even SPEAK to me about the convo thor and loki have about thor loving jane. loki telling him that jane will be gone in the blink of an eye, it's not worth it. flash forward to them stumbling over their words while talking to an older single man who's a jetski salesman. flash forward to them eating pie with that same man. flash forward to them watching over him because he is the only one who ever really saw them for who they really are. you have gone soft loki friggadottir, and you will sit on the gilded throne you so desperately wanted. but even thor, who you let slip away from it, has lost his jane. and so you must lose your mobius, because you are gods, and mortals are not meant for you
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