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bigmooneyes · 2 years

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wikipedia poem about dpdr, because i can never find the right words when trying to explain; so borrowing them will have to do

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Depersonalization-derealization disorder From wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Specialty: Psychiatry, clinical psychology Symptoms: Depersonalization, Derealization Usual onset: Young adulthood Duration: chronic, episodic

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The core is the subjective experience of "reality of one's self" or detachment from one's surroundings.

thought to be caused largely by interpersonal trauma adverse early childhood experiences, specifically emotional abuse and neglect have been linked

the state of mind could last either hours, days, and possibly even weeks at a time.

These experiences which strike at the core of a person's identity and consciousness may cause - substantial distress;

the real thing was overwhelming;

fearing loss of control, detached from their own thoughts; these symptoms cause -- unreality,

dissociation from the rest of society; disconnected or detached from one's self; or from one's surroundings.

there is an alienation; uneasy or anxious -- constant or varying intensity.

Insidious onset may reach back as far as can be remembered.

Society and culture [edit]

patient who "feels that he is no longer himself", attempts to describe experiences that are difficult to articulate into words.

In order to comprehend the nature of reality we must understand what reality actually is.

some descriptions were metaphors;

as if the world around them is foggy, dreamlike/surreal, or visually distorted.

The ability to sense that something is unreal is maintained when experiencing symptoms of the disorder.

^ Radovic F (2002). "Feelings of Unreality: A Conceptual and Phenomenlogical Analysis of the Language of Depersonalization".

the conceptualization of dissociation involves detachment from one's self;

it doesn't diminish just the experience, but more or less all experience.

the majority of people (about 80%) responsible for child maltreatment are the child's own parents.

^ Thomson, Paula; Jaque, S. Victoria (15 March 2018). "Depersonalization, adversity, emotionality, and coping with stressful situations". Journal of Trauma & Dissociation.

Prognosis [edit]

as if the world lies within the understanding of reality.

experiences with depersonalization may be frightening, a loss of control over their thoughts or actions; persistent or recurrent feelings of detachment from one's mental or bodily processes; difficulty concentrating; a sense that self or the world is unreal; impairment to one's ability to perceive reality.

The Scream may have been inspired by depersonalization disorder. (i.e. patient is aware of a perceptual disturbance)

symptoms tend to be constant and quite unsettling.

an illness of lost opportunities.

^ Blevins, Christy A.; Weathers, Frank W.; Mason, Elizabeth A. (1 October 2012). "Construct Validity of Three Depersonalization Measures in Trauma-Exposed College Students". Journal of Trauma & Dissociation.

Anxiety vs. fear

Symptoms

Types 3.1 Existential

The most common comorbid disorders are depression and anxiety; significant and uncontrollable feelings of anxiety and fear; fear is more complex than just forgetting or deleting memories, the hereafter, the next ten years or even tomorrow.

DPDR is typically chronic and continuous; between reality and the symptoms; a feeling of being detached from the world; divorced from their own personal self; Treatment of DPDR is often difficult and refractory.

Appearance [edit]

I find myself regarding existence as though from beyond the tomb, from another world; all is strange to me; I am, as it were, outside my own body and individuality; I am depersonalized, detached, cut adrift.

Is this madness?

(In the upper right corner is a heavily edited black and white ghost picture of The Brown Lady of Raynham hall. The descriptive text underneath it is unreadable.)

all dissociative phenomena involves a detachment from reality; Familiar places may look alien, bizarre, and surreal.

they are not in the notion of the present; experiencing themselves and their lives from a distance.

as if the world around them is disconnected; distorted. as though time is passing them by.

they are able to recall a memory but feel as if they did not personally experience it.

In some cases, individuals may be unable to accept their reflection as their own, thoughts and acts elude the self and become strange.

^ Daphne Simeon; Jeffrey Abugel (7 November 2008). Feeling Unreal: Depersonalization Disorder and the Loss of the Self.

think critically about the nature of reality and existence.

depersonalization is understood as a defense; a type of coping mechanism.

Although residual sunlight does not penetrate the depths inhabited by deep-sea lizardfish, their eyes aid in detecting sources of residual or bioluminescent light.

^ Mauricio Sierra (13 August 2009). Depersonalization: A New Look at a Neglected Syndrome. Cambridge, UK: Cambridge University Press. p. 120.

#wikipedia poetry #poetry #wikipedia poem #dpdr #depersonalization #derealization #dissociation #mental health #my writing #depersonalisation disorder #derealisation #depersonalisation #bc english spelling is different and all that #actually dpdr #tw child abuse #idk if it qualifies as poetry but #it was a good exercise anyway #also lmk if i fucked up with the transcript somewhere!#transcribed

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murdershaped · 7 months

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Because of the traumatic experiences it was exposed to from a young age, Orin nearly constantly experiences derealization. Derealization affects one’s ability to recognize their thoughts and feelings and is described as a disconnect from reality. Events and surroundings may seem like they are distant or aren’t really happening, as though they are simply observing. Extreme stress or intense emotions that aren't being properly addressed or processed can lead to the brain choosing to retreat instead of facing the reality.

Biggest example we have in canon to support my thoughts on it is the act of killing or maiming the Dark Urge, her sibling. Orin did look up to them and even love them, but the jealousy and anger over seeing them being chosen over it lead to that disconnect. Orin knows very little about the world and emotions. Identifying what it is feeling is very difficult for Orin as all of it just feels as though everything is just a blur. Every thought and feeling just becomes numb and everything feels the same. Things happen, but they seem distant like they aren’t happen to her. All they know is to kill. Is there a problem? Kill it. Feeling bored? Kill something. Feeling intense rage and jealousy among all of the sorrow and despair of your sibling criticizing the only thing you know how to do? Kill them. There is no concept of what happiness and fulfillment could be like, there is only murder. Orin has no other coping or problem solving skills besides the act of murder.

So when it made the choice to hurt its sibling, Orin barely felt its true emotions. As they ground through the scalp and dug into their mind matter, they laughed. She thought this was the only solution and any despair was drowned out by the thrill of becoming Bhaal’s chosen. The consequences of her actions were hardly registered. Orin knew that they were getting rid of their sibling, it also knew that meant they wouldn’t be around anymore. But fully understanding that it would never earn its admiration, what it really wanted, was forever out of reach. Disposing of them wouldn’t make Orin the favorite, what she really wanted. But being so disconnected and misunderstanding the mortal experience as much as she does, what else could it turn to? Sometimes Orin still thinks to go tell her sibling something, the fact that they are gone barely registering at times.

#HEADCANONS.#uhhhhhhhh ask to tag IG UESS?#tw: dissociation

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askaborderline · 2 years

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Hi hello I’m SO sorry because I’ve been out of the mental health loop for a bit— what does BPD stand for? And it’s a different diagnosis from DID (dissociative identity disorder), yes? I’ve been poking around because you guys have some awesome tips to help with The Trauma!! I want to be informed :)

Hi, I'm just going to link a writeup I did for a server of mine - BPD stands for "borderline personality disorder", and it has nothing to do with DID, though they sometimes present in the same individual.

"BPD is a very complicated condition, like any cluster B, but it can most easily be defined by a great fear of abandonment and demonization. People with BPD will go to extreme measures to avoid abandonment and often feel strong paranoia about being abandoned. People with BPD suffer from black-and-white thinking and a struggle with "splitting" - they struggle with holding mixed or nuanced thoughts on things and people, and their relationships can often be split apart as they can only see a person as "all good" or "all bad". This can extend to things outside of relationships as well!

People with BPD also struggle with their sense of self, and their interests and moral values are susceptible to change and uncertainty - they have a hard time consistently defining themselves, and these perceptions can change with their mood swings. People with BPD suffer from intense emotional dysregulation and periodic states of "emptiness" - they can generally only feel one emotion at a time, but they feel it quite extremely, and they usually do not feel mild emotions. Depression is almost always suicidal agony, anger is almost always violent rage, etc. That said, most people with BPD are usually not prone to hurting others, often choosing to hurt themselves.

People with BPD also tend to suffer from states of emptiness, where they feel numb and little at all. These empty states often lead to intense boredom and underlying tension, and they often indulge in impulsive behaviors (like drugs, alcohol, casual sex, gambling, reckless driving, etc) in order to rid themselves of boredom or to cope with their suicidal phases. Suicidal ideation and self harm are incredibly common in BPD, and the mood swings do not necessarily need an external cause.

The intense emotions of those with BPD also often leads to dissociation - a disconnect with reality that can feel like floating outside of oneself, derealization, and feelings of not really being "here"."

Hope that helps!

Cheers, Jane

#aab #mod jane #tw sui ideation #tw drugs mention #tw alcohol mention #tw sh related

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alostlittleriverlotus · 7 months

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so my gf and I broke up/decided to be friends cause her romantic feelings faded. And nothing against her, literally I stand firmly in the "if you aren't feeling it, the relationship should be ended." It's just dealing with a lot of realizations that like: I truly am isolated from people.

(long rant, rambles and repeats myself a lot)

She still cares about me and we're staying friends, chatting occasionally, etc. But I knew if I distanced myself to cope with my fatigue and the fact I feel anxious around everyone except for MA no matter how close I get to them, it would end in this. I've had doubts cause she's never fully been able to support me the way that I need even if we were happy. We haven't truly had any problems since we were both in high school. A big reason I didn't break up with her is cause I wanted to fight for the relationship, but also I didn't want to lose her as a friend so I'm glad we're staying friends.

I'm mostly just sad seeing how...I just can't fit in around others. I get too anxious and awkward and it leads my romantic relationships to feel like friendships because my anxiety NEVER goes away no matter how long I've known them. I've dated her/known her for 6 years and still I was terrified of causing her to leave if I acted wrong. I do still love her, but I kind of accepted that us having a future together wasn't likely. It was small things like accidentally misgendering me once (one of the only times she uses my pronouns and she used the wrong ones), watching a Blaire White video about kids faking mental illnesses (I think she just happened upon the video and watched it, but it kinda scared me that maybe she was a Blaire White fan or sumthn), and then just small things where we express emotions very differently.

I'm always going to feel disconnected from others and emotionally isolated. I'm always going to have anxiety with people like my now ex-gf (I'll start calling her T now I guess) and Ray and C. MA is the only person that I don't have that issue with.

The good news is that like, I can date MA finally. And I'm not overly sad about the break up, it's just left me with feelings about my relationships with other people in general thanks to my trauma and disorders. I'm not dating MA yet cause I need time to process and I want me asking her out to be perfect, but yeah.

Like my anxiety will never go away with people. I will always be frightened and feel like I'm living a lie. I felt I always had to play up my parts and please her to be worthy of love. Communication was just...never fully there the way I wanted it. I'm more relieved than anything that we broke up because I really couldn't see us together with the different ways we were going. I love more intensely than her and I'm also incredibly emotionally isolated and switch moods so often cause of disorders and being a system that I'm pretty dissociated overall. I knew I wasn't getting the support I needed.

None of this is against her, it's more just a set of circumstances/a reality of a situation. I always needed more support than she could provide and she was more demanding than I could handle (not in a controlling way, but a different needs way.) It just really hurts cause it's a reminder of how...limited love is for me, platonic or romantic. How differently I experience everything from other people including my close safe circle of loved ones.

I can't even begin to list every tiny thing I need when it comes to relationships, friend or s/o. But I know MA will work for me. She knows...everything pretty much and she's the one exception, the one single person, that I can truly be 1000% honest around. I'm overall happy T and I can stay friends. It's just a big reminder. I don't blame her at all cause it's just how love and relationships can be sometimes and I don't really mind it. I'd rather be in a relationship with MA at this point cause there...I can get the support I need for my physical and mental disabilities. MA knows what I need and we've communicated a lot and I can do the same for her. It's also just a "flaw" of mine (not really a flaw, but I can't find a better word) that romantic and platonic love is nearly equal to me. I'm in love with all my friends and would happily date any of them. Romantic partners to me will always be friendships but an extra level to it. And I guess it isn't like that for other people. I'm also just happy I can like...be free to explore myself a bit. I love T a lot and I'm glad we can stay friends in the end. She's a person I want in my life for as long as possible and I love listening to her rants. She needs more constant love and I need love on my terms with supporting my needs emotional and physical. We have a lot of differences and that's okay.

Just...the crushing reality of loneliness thanks to these disorders. I'm never too sad about having personality disorders to cope, but like...the isolation and how separate I am from most everyone including those in my life is...such an isolating experience. Everything I did, everything I perceive, everything I feel is inherently different. From autism to schizoid and narcissism, it's just...an amalgamation of experiencing things separately. And that's kinda why I like Tumblr so much. The PD communities on here help me feel less alone and more seen even if our experiences are still different, like, I get it. And even if I'm unable to interact with people cause of being terrified of other people, it's nice to see people that experience the world in similar ways. I have a mutual on the mental health app I use that is along those lines too and I treasure them greatly even tho we NEVER talk. I love my mutuals a lot even if I never speak to them. That's enough to make me feel happy, to see what they reblog and what they say.

Anyway, uh yah. That's my rant. Just a lot of personal feelings and shit. Lots of feelings about how I experience life and perceive things.

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crownedrottenthorns · 1 month

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short vent, putting below line helps with paranoid anxious thoughts.

it was not a short vent.

no real general tw/cw

paranoia talk mostly and about previous issues of ours

trying so hard to work on stopping the urge to explain why we have so many hazbin hotel/helluva boss alters. Like, haha. All we should have to say is "we're a system" and not have to feel the need to overly explain why this is the way it is. We don't fucking know, we barely understand ourselves. The characters provide a sense of comfort, euphoria im gender and trauma, safety, and a feeling of being seen. We use them to show our trauma and process it so naturally we have a lot of fictives from it and our fictives are easiest for us to front with outside of triggering scenarios or specific things.

we hate this urge we get to have to overly explain because we are used to harassment, witnessing harassment, and being shit on and demonized for existing. we are trying so fucking hard not to so yeah. Fucking hell. We're a system and fucking autistic and adhd. Hyperfixate on silly shows that provide us a sense of safety. That's it.

And the thing is, it's not an actual explanation against anyone. It's purely just expected harassment because we are so used to it especially after the damage done to our system on our mental health all in November/December. Our entire lives have been about scrutiny, demonization, taking our actions out of context to make us into a monster, treating us (a child) as a fucking abuser or "crazy person" (used in a negative way.) We have faced harassment and social difficulties for years and it still fucking happens even at 22, even fucking isolated. We can't win. We can't fucking win. And we want so badly to post carefree and give our thoughts, but everything must be perfectly crafted. We must prepare for every possible way something can be misconstrued or used against us. We cannot make friends online any longer. We love our mutuals on our various social media, but we cannot call them friends or get close because of our fears. Simple not interaction results in bad delusions that our mutuals hate us.

We cannot exist online in a healthy format and we fucking hate it. We try to exist as other people do and it has resulted in harassment and demonization and treating us as monsters. It has traumatized alters and hurt our system.

And it goes back to our childhood with our family demonizing our mental issues and stuff that we are learning was due to how we developed as a system.

Our entire life has been demonization and misconstruing our intentions, our emotions, our words to be worse. To always hold onto our worst emotional reactions to use against us. To push us to the breaking point. To treat us, a fucking 6 year old, as if we are abusive and spoiled for being a traumatized autistic child dealing with much more sinister things that we never knew.

We are stuck as paranoid, distrustful, and avoidant. We fear genuine kindness and even the simplest of social interactions. And we hate it and we attempt to compensate for it.

It is one major reason why we are so fucking private about most system stuff and often hesitant to post. We must test the waters and ensure safety. For when we did not properly do that and finally felt "safe," people sexualized our age regression, reported it which got it marked as "18+", and then talked about how gross we were for coping publicly on a mental health app and called it a borderline kink for it. And even with feeling so right, we still...feel as if it could follow us, they could find us, they could harass us more. It fucked up our system and alters for a good few months. We didn't feel comfortable mentioning it until this month. We still worry we were actually in the wrong and just can't tell because we are too disconnected from reality.

So yes. We hate feeling as though we must constantly explain our system stuff just to feel like...we can exist online. Just to be able to post something without intense anxiety and ultimately deleting it. Our paranoia is bad. Whether it's our home/childhood, middle school, ex friends, ex boyfriend, roleplay communities, fandoms, or mental health app, it is a repeated pattern that we are inherently wrong for existing openly and we cannot trust anyone and must stay private.

I fucking hate all of this.

-no specific fronter

#system #untagged alter #blurry fronting #system vent #vent #rant #system rambles #ppd #paranoia #paranoid #psychotic #avpd #avoidant #fear of people #personal rant

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bandofchimeras · 2 months

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biological psychoanalytic musings

(by a scientifically illiterate person with a political theory degree) psychosis as an inflammatory condition caused by desperate attempts of the brain organ to externally verify an internal cognitive reality ( physically instantiated in firing & connected neural networks) that is no longer or never was matched to the environment. i.e. organisms attempt to generate an emotional & imaginative reality that fits to cognitive biases developed early on to self-motivate. in trying to survive harsh, hostile, or rapidly changing environments, adaptive beliefs (copes) form, that may not actually correspond to experience or shared cultural norms. when the organism feels its survival be threatened by external contradictions, and is not allowed sufficient BIOLOGICALLY NECESSARY time to adapt mental model to the environment, it may close off to external information to form a protective "surface" almost mucouslike in its ability to "catch" bits of external data, glimpses of truth, from entering the system. they may enter the system only after interpretation to fit pre-existing convictions. this is an adaptive mechanism that gets a lot of "exercise" in hyper religious indoctrination. it is not studied enough how religious convictions develop and are passed down familial systems in response to rapid environmental changes, traumas, or other "undigestable" events. retroactively fitting reality to match some kind of faith that the future must be different, or that a wound will be healed, a fight will be won, God will protect you, etc. against all evidence to the contrary. but that's a different topic entirely.

what I am saying is that psychosis is COMMON, and culture is often a shared psychotic experience especially in settler colonial cultures for multiple reasons: -unfamiliar & rapidly changed environment during migration/settlement -violence done during settlement must be ignored, denied or justified retroactively to avoid integration of intense guilt, shame and soul loss from doing the violence -the "acceleration" of mental processes disconnected from physical reality across entire culture leads to further breaks from said reality, delusional beliefs, 'narcissism' or inability to think outside one's cognitive convictions, and very strange behaviors and beliefs.

psychosis may often onset in individuals who are tasked directly or indirectly with witnessing & bearing psychological weight of undigested experiences in a lineage. I am not good at writing in academia but I remember the skeleton of these arguments from Deleuze & Guattari, Lacan, other theorists. I am excited for more research on autoimmune inflammation and its connection to conditions such as schizophrenia, to get out there and be advanced into informing health practices & healing. many therapists of diasporic experience are already writing of the inseparability of ancestral healing with mental health. there's already mad pride. these dots are just beginning to REALLY connect for me. anyone out on the street can see the violence by which people's reaction to their horrific life experiences ("craziness") is retroactively used to justify their houselessness. when usually they are people who are dealing with family legacies of incomprehensible violence, erasure, gaslighting. the less we see mental health as individual "brokenness" and more as inflammation, the more people consider recontextualizing mental health into ancestral reconnection, somatic reconnection, and spiritual-emotional-mental "digestion" and seeing this as genuinely important work worthy of being in tandem with medication and things like CBT/talk therapy the better. people need to get out on their ancestral lands. they need to mourn, keen, use ritual, they need to create art, they need to be meaningfully connected to fighting for their rights and changing MATERIAL CONDITIONS. That is how we help with depersonalization, derealization, psychosis, aggression, with so many "behavioral health problems" grief rituals - when the irrritants and indigestible elements build up in a system they must be coated and rendered harmless - as clams do to create pearls. otherwise they block natural processes within the system and create wheel-spinning, richocheting, extreme pendulum swings - psychosis, OCD, mood disorders. another whole series could be written on adequate nutrition, micronutrients, food deserts, and mental health outcomes of malnutrition. looking at the effects of violence on radicalization, and how maintaining a connection to land/family/cultural tradition and willingness to physically defend this, gets branded as "terrorism" while actual, total, spiritual emotional disconnection & disturbing violence is defended as normal, or seen as "business as usual"....this is vital.

#psychosis #mental illness #autism #health and wellness #cognitive dissonance #fascism #uspol #palestine #israel #behavioral health

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reapcrbunny · 2 years

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cognitive assessment.

bold all that apply to your muse’s current mental state; italicise any that apply to your muse’s past mental state — repost don’t reblog !

alcoholism: or alcohol use disorder ( AUD ), is a broad term for any drinking of alcohol that results in mental or physical health problems.

amnesia: a deficit in memory caused by brain damage, disease, or psychological trauma.

anxiety: a mental health disorder characterized by feelings of worry, anxiety, or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one’s daily activities.

appetite loss: a reduced desire to eat.

binge eating: a psychological illness characterized by frequently eating excessive amounts of food, often when not hungry.

co-dependence: dysfunctional and maldaptive relationship reliant on another person’s dependence on the affected individual.

cynicism: an inclination to believe that people are motivated purely by self interest ( skepticism ), or to question whether something will happen or whether it is worthwhile ( pessimism ).

defensiveness: the tendency to be sensitive to comments and criticism and to deny them. to constantly protect oneself from criticism, exposure of one’s shortcomings, or other real or perceived threats to the ego.

depersonalization: a state in which one’s thoughts and feelings seem unreal or not belonging to oneself.

depression: a mental health disorder characterized by persistently depressed mood or loss of interest in activities, causing significant impairment in daily life.

derealisation: alteration in the perception or experience of the external world so that it seems unreal.

devaluation: defence mechanism used when a person attributes themselves, an object, or another person as completely flawed, worthless, or as having exaggerated negative qualities.

displacement: an unconscious defense mechanism whereby the mind substitutes either a new aim or a new object or goals felt in their original form to be dangerous or unacceptable.

dissociation: is any state of a wide array of experiences from mild detachment from immediate surroundings to more severe detachment from physical and emotional experiences, such as a disconnect from reality.

drug abuse: the extreme desire to obtain, and use, increasing amounts of one or more substances.

dysphoria: a state of unease, or generalized dissatisfaction with life.

emotional detachment: an inability to connect with others on an emotional level, as well as coping with anxiety by avoiding certain situations that trigger it; it is often described as “ emotional numbing ” or dissociation.

flashbacks: an involuntary recurrent memory, is a psychological phenomenon in which an individual has sudden, usually powerful, re-experiencing of a past experience or elements of said experience.

flat affect: a severe reduction in emotional expressiveness. they may not show the signs of normal emotion, perhaps may speak in a monotonous voice, have diminished facial expressions, and appear extremely apathetic.

guilt: a cognitive or emotional experience that occurs when a person believes or realises — accurately or not — that they have compromised their own standards of conduct or have violated a universal moral standard and bear significant responsibility for it.

hallucinations: an experience involving the apparent perception of something not present.

hyper-somnia: or excessive sleepiness, is a condition in which a person has trouble staying awake during the day.

hyper-vigilance: an enhanced state of sensory sensitivity accompanied by an exaggerated intensity of behaviors whose purpose is to detect activity.

hypochondria: ( also known as illness anxiety disorder ) is a condition in which a person is inordinately worried about having a serious illness.

idealisation: the action of regarding or representing something as perfect or better than reality.

insomnia: a sleep disorder where people have trouble sleeping. they may have difficulty falling asleep, or staying asleep as long as desired. insomnia is usually followed by daytime sleepiness, low energy, and a depressed mood.

intellectualization: a defense mechanism by which reasoning is used to block confrontation with an unconscious conflict and its associated emotional stress — where thinking is used to avoid feeling. it involves removing one’s self, emotionally, from a stressful event.

introjection: regarded as the process where the subject replicates in themselves behaviors, attributes, or other fragments of the surrounding world, especially of other subjects. cognate concepts include identification, incorporation, and internalization.

isolation: a defense mechanism in psychoanalytic theory characterized by individuals defending themselves from possible threats by mentally and physically isolating themselves. my minimizing associative connections with other thoughts, the threatening cognition is remembered less often and is less likely to affect self-esteem or the self concept.

low self esteem: a person with low self esteem feels unworthy, incapable, and incompetent.

narcissism: is the pursuit of gratification from vanity or egotistic admiration of one’s own attributes. narcissistic personality disorder ( NPD ) is a personality disorder in which there is a long term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by exaggerated feelings of self importance, an excessive need for admiration, and a lack of understanding of other’s feelings.

night terrors: also known as a sleep terror, is a sleep disorder, causing feelings of terror or dread, and typically occurs during the first hours of stage three to four rapid eye movement ( nrem ) sleep.

obsessive compulsion: obsessive-compulsive disorder ( ocd ) is a common, chronic, and long — lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts ( obsessions ) and behaviors ( compulsions ) that they feel the urge to repeat over and over.

panic attacks: a sudden overwhelming feeling of acute and debilitating anxiety.

passive aggression: a tendency to engage in indirect expression of hostility through acts such as subtle insults, sullen behavior, stubbornness, or a deliberate failure to accomplish a required task.

paranoia: the irrational and persistent feeling that people are “ out to get you. ” the three main types of paranoia include paranoid personality disorder, delusional disorder, and paranoid schizophrenia.

phobias: an extreme or irrational fear of or aversion to something.

projection: psychological projection is a defense mechanism people subconsciously employ in order to cope with difficult feelings or emotions. it involves projecting undesirable feelings or emotions onto someone else, rather than admitting to or dealing with the unwanted feelings.

psychosis: a severe mental disorder in which thought and emotions are so impaired that contact is lost with external reality.

rationalization: a defense mechanism in which controversial behaviors or feelings are justified and explained in a seemingly rational or logical manner to avoid the true explanation, and are made consciously tolerable — or even admirable and superior — by plausible means.

regression: a psychological defense mechanism in which a person abandons age — appropriate coping strategies in favor of earlier, more childlike patterns of behavior. this regression is a form of retreat, bringing back a time when the person feels safe and taken care of.

risky sex: risky sexual behavior is commonly defined as behavior that increases the probability of contracting sexually transmitted infections, diseases, becoming pregnant, or making a partner pregnant. drug use is associated with risky sexual behavior.

somatization: the manifestation of psychological distress by the presentation of bodily symptoms.

splitting: ( also called black — and — white thinking or all — or — nothing thinking ) is the failure in a person’s thinking to bring together the dichotomy of both positive and negative qualities of the self and others into a cohesive, realistic whole.

sublimation: is a mature type of defense mechanism, in which socially unacceptable impulses or idealizations are unconsciously transformed into socially acceptable actions or behavior, possibly resulting in a long — term conversion of the initial impulse.

suicidal ideation: ( also known as suicidal thoughts ) is thinking about or an unusual preoccupation with suicide. the range of suicidal ideation varies from fleeting thoughts, to extensive thoughts, to detailed planning, roleplaying, and incomplete attempts.

sleepwalking: formally known as somnambulism, is a behavior disorder that originates during deep sleep and results in walking or performing other complex behaviors while asleep. it is more common in children than adults and is more likely to occur if a person is sleep deprived.

suppression: the act of stopping oneself from thinking or feeling something. it is generally assumed ineffective because even if you suppress or hold back an emotion, like anger, that feeling returns with a vengeance.

thousand yard stare: a phrase often used to describe the blank, unfocused gaze of soldiers who have become emotionally detached from the horrors around them. it is also sometimes used more generally to describe the look of dissociation among victims of other types of trauma.

triggers: something that sets of a memory tape or flashback transporting the person back to the event of their emotional trauma. triggers are very personal ; different things can trigger different people. the survivor may begin to avoid situations and stimuli that they think triggered the flashback.

trust issues: a person with these kinds of thoughts may construct social barriers as a defense mechanism to ensure that trust is not lost again. these barriers are often a person’s way of avoid the pain, rejection, or guilt associated with mistrust.

violence: the intentional use of physical force or power, threatened or actual, against oneself, another person, or against a group or community, which either results in or has a high likelihood of resulting in injury, death, psychological harm, underdevelopment, or deprivation.

temper: a reflection of irritation or rage, a propensity to be angered rapidly.

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adhbabey · 3 years

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it feels a bit awkward for me to be asking this but what are things you consider as signs of dissociation? Can you be aware that you are dissociating while it is happening? I'm asking since I feel like zone out/disconnect myself a LOT (especially when certain topics come up).

You don't have to answer if you don't want to by the way! I just wanted to know your opinion. Thank you! <33

In terms of general dissociation, anyone can dissociate. But when you do it too often or everyday, then there lies in a problem.

Here's some different ways you may be dissociating, as well as different types of dissociation.

Daydreaming, spacing out, zoning out. this is the most common form, to which everyone has experienced. You can be understimulated and do this, or you could just be tired. You do not have to have a dissociative disorder to dissociate this way.

Denial. By this, I mean people who actively deny situations are happening to them, what people say, brushing off things, feeling like you're faking it or minimizing the troubles you face. Like, "oh it's not that bad, they didn't hurt me physically. etc." People tend to brush over this side of dissociation, but its a huge part of it.

Depersonalization/derealization. To experience this type of dissociation you must have a dissociative disorder, DPDR all the way up to DID. This is when you completely disconnect from yourself or the world around you. Commonly, not recognizing yourself in the mirror. Feeling like you aren't real, feeling like your relationships aren't real, feeling like you don't know the people around you. Also seeing yourself as fake/like a puppet, seeing the world as unreal or fake, not feeling like your body is yours, etc. This is an intense form of dissociation, and can happen due to stress, or often randomly for systems.

Dissociative apathy/amnesia. This is also a dissociative disorder thing, this really doesn't happen to people without some form of OSDD (other specified dissociative disorder) or DID. (Reminder, systems ONLY include DID/OSDD-1, the rest are not systems). When dissociative barriers are strong, people may lose time (have blackouts), or they may become emotionally numb(autopilot type mode). This only ever happens in stressful situations, or when the dissociative barrier is too big. Like say you have a panic attack, you may either completely stop crying/freaking out and go numb, or you lose time, and block out the memories of why that happened. This is a trauma response. This is the reason why many people may not have memories of their childhood or traumatic experience.

You are right in the fact that you can dissociate via a trigger. It may feel totally random or out of the blue, but often times you can experience an emotional flashback and dissociate. All dissociative disorders experience complicated post traumatic stress disorder (C-PTSD). Similar to regular PTSD, we experience flashbacks. But because C-PTSD is developed from prolonged trauma, there is not just a single instance of trauma, its from over a long period of time. So instead of regular flashbacks, we experience emotional flashbacks, when they are triggered, we will experience an intense emotion and often dissociate because of that.

In general dissociation is a disconnection, and there are long term effects to that. In more stressful or traumatic times in your life, you may have felt more lonely or had a harder time forming relationships. It is because your brain is trying to protect you, and all you can really focus on is survival. So please do not blame yourself if you are in a bad situation and you have a hard time making friends, its not your fault.

Trouble processing is also a big part of this. You may repress memories or emotions while in traumatic or stressful situations. You may feel confused or start to freak out when confronted with information that may be triggering. So take your time and don't overload yourself with information. It's okay to just accept things as they go and figure it out later. This also includes dream-reality confusion, when you think your dreams are reality, and when you think your memories are dreams, I experience this.

The biggest thing about all of this is your brain is trying to keep you safe. Do not feel the need to justify your existence or relationship with dissociation. They're covert disorders for a reason. Most people don't know they're a system or even have trauma. You could have thought your relationships were fine, or your parents were nice, or your childhood was okay. Your brain kept it from you to protect you. Be kind to yourself. The dissociation decreases when you start to accept the things that happened, and when you be gentle with yourself. It's a coping mechanism, it happens when you aren't in a safe space.

Build a little sanctuary for yourself, and then you can start to unravel what's happening.

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