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libraford · 11 months

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Okay so here's what's going on with the bird crimes.

On thursday I was going to Powers Park when I saw what I thought were 2 chickens hanging out in the parking lot, and a lady watching them from the fence. I thought... they could belong to the lady, but chickens aren't the kind of pet that you just let hang out loose.

I approach.

Lady: "These aren't mine."

I look closer. Its actually 2 roosters, one of which is a very small breed and is missing his tail feathers. Both of them have an injury to their backside- like its been plucked.

So we talk about what to do, I end up calling Animal Control. The actual Animal Control officer doesn't get there until noon, I get a police dispatcher. She says she can send one of the cops to grab them until the actual professional gets there.

I tell her that the roosters are being kept by the woman I met, she's coaxing them into her house.

I post about it on the facebook group in case someone knows who they belong to. The comments are full of jokes, obviously. But no leads. Eventually the big rooster gets caught by someone running a sanctuary for abandoned and abused livestock, but they're still looking for the little black one. Evidently they got out of the lady's backyard and were loose again.

I figure he's going to be a coyote snack and don't think about it for the rest of the week.

So now it is Sunday and I'm opening up the bathrooms. I'm at Summit Grove park and as I'm about to reserve the shelter for a birthday party I see...

A black pigeon.

Pigeons are not a common animal in this area- you're more likely to see house sparrows, crows, and mourning doves. So that's odd. What's more, she doesn't seem to be skittish and is definitely accustomed to humans. And she keeps trying to bite my fingers, so she associates hands with food and she's skinny as a rail so she's been abandoned for a minute.

Why does this keep happening to me? Is this the Morrigan come to teach me a lesson in pigeon form?

So I remember the number of the woman running the sanctuary and I give her a call. I tell her I've got a pigeon here that can't fly, is super hungry, and doesn't seem to have any issues biting fingers. She says she can't take her, but she can find a home for her because pigeons have specific needs. But she won't be able to get there until 12:30. We (my work partner and I) have to deal with the bird in the meantime.

We absolutely cannot take this bird with us on our route because we are in a tiny truck cab and don't have a cat carrier to put her in. So our solution is to lock her in the janitor's closet until the rep can get here.

Around 12:15, we head back to the shelter to make sure she's still there and hasn't been disturbed... and I realize that the reason I even saw her in the first place...

...was because there was supposed to be a birthday party at the shelter at noon.

The party is strongly underway and they have shoved a table against the door of the closet.

The sanctuary lady comes by and waves, we ask the party people politely to move the table slightly because we're trying to rehome a pigeon that's inside that closet.

They move the table, but not all guests see this interaction- because it looks like a bunch of maintenance people are just here to boss folks around during a little girl's birthday party and this draws a crowd.

The sanctuary rep arrives and we open the door just a little bit to let the bird out. She bobbles towards us, hoping for food, when one of the older ladies at the party exclaims:

"Does that ANIMAL just LIVE in there?!"

I mean... sure. For the past few hours, she did live in there.

"Do you have any IDEA how many DISEASES pigeons carry?"

The rep scoops the pigeon into her arms and takes her out of the shelter area to inspect her wings, feet, and back. She shows us her breastbone and explains that its been several days since the bird ate anything, which was why it was going for fingers.

Meanwhile, Aunt Ornithophobia over here: "I can't BELIEVE you would just TOUCH a BIRD like that in front of CHILDREN!"

We take the bird away to the van so the rep can thank us and explain what likely happened- which is that someone abandoned the bird when they couldn't take care of her anymore they just let her loose.

"I understand you got one of the roosters," I said.

"Yes, the big one. But the little bantam rooster is very fast- he darted into someone's backyard and I never found him again. If you see him, give me a call."

"I've been told that chickens are legal to own here, but roosters are not."

She gets an exasperated look on her face. "If you're going to allow backyard chickens, you're going to have to allow roosters. It's impossible to sex an avian chick and they don't get their dimorphic traits until they've reached the young adult stage and chick sellers don't care about whether they're a hen or a rooster. They care about the sale. We get roosters more often than egg-layers because someone sold them a male as a female and they don't want to pay the fine. I'd rather have the laws allow both, or neither. But disallowing roosters is patently stupid."

"Hm. Well. Note to self."

"Anyways, you're heroes to this little rock dove and I want you two to know that. She's going on a trip to a bird sanctuary in Toledo where she'll have lots and lots of snacks to eat that aren't fingers."

#parks and wrecks #life as a temporary twig pig

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calliopesdiary · 5 months

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Fallin’ for Ya (pt 2!)

sirius black x danceteacher!reader

summary; romance blossoms between you and (whom you would never admit) your favorite student's brother (he has custody over her) after she tells you all about what he tells her Uncle Remmy.

warnings; sirius black has an adorable little sister, reader is a dance teacher, shy sirius black, romance

a/n; i’ve been so busy and totally procrastinating this story so it’s so short but the date will be so worth it

read part one here!!

“she cannot go around telling her teacher that, Rem. it’s embarassing.” Sirius stated simply, pacing around his room in a quiet panic. “for you, it’s amusing to me.” Remus chuckled, sipping on his tea lightly and watching Sirius’ face turn to a frown.

“i can’t take her to class anymore.” Sirius opened his phone and started to type up a message. “Stop, maybe she likes you back—“ Remus started. “you aren’t about to tell me that,” Sirius scoffed, slamming his phone on the table beside him. “i’ll take her to class, you’ll be okay.” Remus patted his back reassuringly.

The next days in classes were a doozy. Luna rushed around and told you everything about her brothers obsession with you. that he made someone named Lily hunt down your instagram and wanted your snapchat. that he really liked what perfume you wore. that he loved how your nails were nearly always different every time he saw you.

“Mrs. Y/n?” Luna ran up to you with a giant smile on her face.

“Yes, Luna?” You responded, cleansing your hands with some hand sanitizer. “My brother is here to pick me up!!” She jumped, twirling around. “Fun, what are you excited for?” You chuckled, meeting his eyes across the classroom. “He wants to ask you out~” She taunted. “I’m so sorry she is out of her mind—“ He got cut off by your pretty face, how gorgeous it was shut him up. “It’s fine, she’s adorable, you know.” You smiled sweetly. “W-well… I kinda do think you’re—“ Sirius started, “And he wants to ask you out and marry you!” Luna finished. “does he?” You asked teasingly, looking at a flushed Sirius. “E-Erm.. I wouldn’t be opposed?” He nervously rubbed the back of his neck. “I’m off Thursday.” You shrugged, scribbling down your number onto a sticky note and handing it to him. “Coffee?” He asked. “Absolutely, i need it after dealing with these kids.” He laughed at your joke. “See you then, love.” He picked Luna up and carried her out of the classroom.

“so pretty…” you thought.

PART THREE SOONER THEN PART TWO CAME!!

#marauders era #remus lupin #fem!reader #sirius black #james potter #marauders #fanfiction #shy sirius black #calentines cards

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coldzonkprofessorturtle · 1 year

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The Marina of It All

I can’t stop thinking about Maya and Carina’s arc on Station 19 this season. It’s bewitched me body and soul in a way that network television really hasn’t in so long so let’s talk about it (gif makers thank you in advance!).

To put it lightly there’s been a longstanding “tradition” to ruin queer relationships in television. Either death, disagreement (who wants kids?) or the show’s cancellation we rarely get to see a full arc from their initial meeting to dating to engagement, marriage and all the bumps along the way. Marina really is incredibly rare. I cannot overstate how rare they are. Sure they’re on an ensemble show but they’re fully on network television in very much a primetime slot. Thursday nights are as coveted as it gets in network - it’s huge. This season in particular has really just been so well thought out as they’re fully utilizing the previous three seasons (and really the whole series in Maya’s case) to create an incredible emotional arc. This is also why I’m constantly going off about the importance of network television! The longevity of it is what gives such depth to storytelling that you really don’t get in any other medium.

Okay but why are Marina important? And why this arc? Honestly, I’ve just never seen a sapphic relationship handled with this much care. I’ve never doubted that they would actually break up even after that hospital scene. There’s been so much groundwork laid this season that has constantly given reassurance in a way that’s made this such an incredible journey to go on (and it’s not done yet). There’s never been any doubt to how much Maya and Carina love each other no matter the situation. Their rift wasn’t caused simply for the sake of drama but to borrow from Maya’s metaphor: their foundation was never finished. It was never solid and filled with cracks. We know Maya’s mental health was at risk, we’ve known since the beginning of this relationship but it was never Carina’s job to fix (as much as she tried).

What Station 19 has done so well is explore how these characters who deal with traumatic situations day in and day out also need to handle their own trauma. Is it perfect? Absolutely not but the appearances that Diane has made throughout the show have all been incredibly impactful. I would love to see more of Carina’s backstory at this point (there’s so much there!) but Maya’s growth especially this season is some of the best I’ve ever seen. Instead of just ending this marriage completely, we’ve been shown that Maya is capable of working through her issues. That she’s redeemable and that relationships take work (so much work!). It’s such a mature way to handle this and we almost never see it in media and definitely not for queer relationships.

The fact that these two characters from different shows with such similar backgrounds were put together and it worked in every way conceivable is as magical as it gets. I haven’t even touched on Danielle and Stefania’s chemistry because it’s just too much to talk about. Let’s just call it fantastico and appreciate the beauty of every one of their interactions.

At the end of the day, is this show perfect? No, of course not. Does it delve into every character as much as I’d like? No, it’s too big of an ensemble. However, it continually pushes the boundaries of what’s been acceptable on network television. What the show has done this season is say “hey, we’ve got this couple that people like and we’re going to put them through the ringer but they’ll be better off for it and our audience will know even a queer couple is valid and important and real”. I know that hasn’t always been the case but it’s important to acknowledge now.

#station 19 #marina #maya bishop #carina deluca #maya x carina #another long winded post #I'll always champion how necessary network television is #especially when they're able to tell such important stories #and these are important stories #there's something so comforting about sitting down every week for a show #and I'm so glad this show has had the space (and time) to give us these storylines #television

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littlesubbyflower · 1 year

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Mine - E.M.

Summary : Your boyfriend Eddie Munson gets super jealous of anyone who talks to you, including your best friend Steve Harrington. In his jealous rage, your bratty mouth gets you put in your place, but you don’t really mind.

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Pairing :: Fem Reader x Eddie Munson

18+ MINORS DNI • I DO NOT CONSENT TO MY WORK BEING COPIED, TRANSLATED, OR POSTED ANYWHERE ELSE

Warnings: Jealous Eddie, Bratty reader, Smut, Choking, Cunnilingus (female receiving) Fingering, Begging, Slight D/s dynamic? Orgasm Denial, P-in-V, Unprotected Sex (wrap it up, y’all. don’t try this at home!)

A/N : Okay I've been sitting on this for like five weeks and have rewritten this a thousand times. Thank you @myobmaya for dealing with me with this, ily so much 💖💖

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“Eddie, you are so dramatic right now! Steve was not flirting with me!” You nearly shout once inside of your boyfriend’s van.

“Sweetheart, I’m telling you, he was undressing you with his eyes!” He says, gritting his teeth. “I know what I saw.”

He starts the van and pulls out of the diner parking lot. It was Thursday, so you had your weekly meet up with Steve and Robin at the diner. Eddie had tagged along a few times, but you had made up your mind that tonight was the last time he was coming along.

Any comment Steve had made whether it was directed at you or not, Eddie snapped at Steve. He told him to not talk to you that way, that you didn’t need to be showered in his compliments, and that you sure as hell didn’t need Steve Harrington’s reassurance or permission for anything.

“Eddie, you were so rude! You embarrassed me! None of that was okay! Steve is my best friend, you know that, HE knows that! There is absolutely no reason for you to act this way!” You throw your hands up in exasperation.

“He was flirting with you while I was sitting right there!”

“ASKING ME WHAT COLOR PROM DRESS I WAS THINKING ON GETTING WAS NOT FLIRTING, EDWARD!” You shout. Eddie flinches from the sudden increase in volume and the fact that you just called him Edward.

He scoffs and rolls his eyes. “Whatever.” he mutters under his breath, reaching over and turning the dial on the radio to increase the volume. You stare at him wide eyed before shaking your head and turning to look out the passenger window.

The ride back to his trailer is silent except for the radio blaring whatever tape was being played. Wayne had already left for work, so it would only be the two of you until his return in the morning. Eddie parks the van and kills the engine. You unbuckle your seatbelt and storm out of the van and slam the door.

“You’re unbelievable, Edward.” rolling your eyes and pushing past him when he tries to stop you before going into the trailer.

“Oh, I'm the one who’s unbelievable, Princess?” He says, coming into the trailer and closing the door. You’re walking to his room in hopes of getting some space, but Eddie follows you into his room.

“No no! You don’t get to flip this, Eddie!” You take a step closer to him and jab your finger in his chest. “You do not get to come in, and crash my weekly thing with Steve and Robin!” You jab him again. “You do NOT get to embarrass me like that!”

“Watch it.” he grabs your wrist and lowers it

“No, YOU watch it!” Another jab. “I am so sick of you doin-”

Eddie firmly grabs your chin with his other hand and forces you to look at him.

“I said, watch it, princess.” Brown eyes blown out with lust stare back at you.

“You seriously cannot be turned on by this right now!”

Eddie leans down and whispers in your ear. “Baby, you know how I get when you start talking back.” he lets go of your chin and softly trails his hand down to your neck and gently squeezes. You gasp and squeeze your thighs together.

“I—” you try to say something before you’re cut off.

“Ah, ah, I think you’ve done enough talking.” He says, walking you backwards until your legs hit the edge of his bed. Eddie crashes his lips to yours in a bruising kiss before pulling away to pull your sweatshirt over your head.

“Nothing under this? Why am I not surprised?” He tuts. You open your mouth to respond, but nothing comes out. “ ’s like you knew that you were going to be put in your place today.” Eddie says, smirking. He dips his head down, taking one of your nipples into his mouth while rolling the other in between his fingers, after a few moments, he switches. When he’s done with your nipples, he gently pushes you down onto the bed and you squeal when your back comes into contact with the cold bed sheets. Propping yourself up on your elbows, Eddie kneels down in front of you, hooking his arms around your legs to pull you as close to the edge of the bed as possible. He loops his fingers into your shorts and pulls them down your legs, discarding them behind him. He nearly drools at the sight of your core, clad in light lace panties.

He takes one leg and starts his slow trail of kisses from your ankle to your knee, stopping and repeating with your other leg.

“Hmm! Tickles!” You gasp out. “Please baby..” bucking your hips in hopes he gets the message. “Need you so bad, Eds.”

He ignores your plea, kissing his way up your thigh. Just when he’s about to kiss your clit, he pulls back and kisses your other thigh. You whine and wiggle your hips.

“Patience is a virtue, princess.” He says while taking a finger and running it up your clothed cunt, stopping at your clit, moving his finger in a nice slow circle, before trailing his finger back down.

“Please! I’ll do anything! Promise!” You rush out, throwing your head back and bucking your hips once again. “please baby..” you beg. Eddie rips the fabric before discarding it somewhere behind him, mumbling something along the lines of ‘I’ll get you more’ before placing an open mouth kiss to your clit. Your thighs instinctively start to close and he’s forcing them back open before using his tongue to lick a bold stripe up your slit.

“Always so sweet for me.” Eddie says, and you moan at his praise. He wraps his lips around the sensitive nub, causing you to moan out again. He groans against you, bringing his fingers up and down your core, gathering your slick before gently easing two fingers in, instantly curling them against your sweet spot. You gasp loudly and you grab a handful of his hair.

“Fuck, Eddie!” you cry out, using the leverage from his hair to grind yourself onto his face. The more the metal head curls his fingers and sucks on your clit, the tighter the coil in your stomach becomes. Your thighs begin shaking and you’re bucking your hips up more, your rhythm becoming shaky and unstable, signaling that you’re close. Eddie smirks against your pussy and pulls away, slowly pulling his fingers out of you. You whine at the empty feeling and clench around nothing.

“No, you don’t get to cum just yet.” Eddie says before kissing your clit.

“You are way too overdressed.” sitting up and working on Eddie’s belt once he stands. Eddie pulls his shirt off and pushes his jeans and boxers down his legs. You reach your hand out to pump his hard cock, but he grabs your hand and pushes it away.

“As much as I would love for you to suck me off princess, there’s just no fucking time.” He pushes you back down and climbs over you, balancing on one arm as he rubs himself up and down your folds, before he pushes all the way in with a groan. You moan loudly as he completely bottoms out.

“Fuck,” he pulls out, “you’re” he snaps his hips, “so. fucking. tight.” he says, thrusting in and out of you. “So wet for me.”

Giving you little time to adjust, all you can do is moan in response. Eddie continues fucking into you, snaking a hand down to rub your clit.

“You look so pretty, taking all of me like this, fuck, such a good girl for me.” You clench around him. “Got you all cock drunk, hm?”

“Mmm, feels so good, Eds.” You moan, eyes fluttering closed. “So good!”

“Who’s pussy is this, baby? huh?” Eddie asks, slowing his thrusts so you could properly answer him. However, you didn’t answer in a timely enough manner in Eddie’s opinion, so he pulls out, before asking you again.

“I said, who’s pussy is this?” he asks a little more aggressively, bringing a hand up to your throat and squeezing lightly. In the heat of the moment, and to piss him off for pulling out of you, you answer.

“You don’t know him.” You open your eyes to watch his reaction.

“Oh, ‘s that so? I’m only going to ask you one more time,” he locks eyes with yours, his brown eyes darkened by lust, and he squeezes a little harder. “Who’s. Pussy. Is. This?”

You gasp, starting to feel floaty as he chokes you.

“Steve’s. It- It’s Steve’s!”

Eddie’s jaw locks and he gets a primal look in his eyes. He leans down and his breath ghosts over your ear.

“Oh? Well sweetheart, how about I show you just who this pussy belongs to, hm?” He growls, letting go of your neck before leaning back up and slamming back into you. He grips your hips tightly and roughly fucks into you.

It’s torture, Eddie has you writhing in pleasure, he’s fucking you at a relentless pace, and the coil in your stomach gets tighter with each thrust.

“Eddie, ‘m close!”

“Now, that’s not how you ask, baby.” He smirks, slowing his thrusts to tease you. “Maybe if you take back what you said, I’ll think about it.”

“I take it back! Fuck!” Eddie’s thrusts start to speed back up. “It’s yours, only yours, promise!” you moan out, tears pricking your eyes, the cool in your stomach threatening to snap at any moment.

“What’s mine, baby? I couldn’t hear you.”

“Please, please don’t make me say it.”

“You have to use your words, baby.” Eddie coaxes, his own thrusts becoming sloppy. “If you don’t use your words, I can’t give you what you want.”

“My pussy’s yours, Eddie!” You cry out, cheeks reddening at the confession. “Fuck, i’m gonna cum!”

“See, that wasn’t so hard.” Eddie comments before speeding his thrust back up. “C’mon baby, cum for me,” he leans down and starts kissing your neck. Your orgasm hits, moaning out ‘fuck’ ‘Eddie’ and ‘oh my god’ in no particular order.

“Fuck, not gonna last..” Eddie rests his forehead against yours. “Wher-“

“Inside, fuck, inside!” you choke out, tears rolling down your face, completely fucked out. Eddie didn’t need to be told twice before cumming in you with a loud moan while he continued fucking you through both of your orgasms, delving in the moment.

Eddie pulls out slowly and collapses next to you. You wince at the sudden loss of contact and you feel Eddie’s arm wrap around you. He kisses your forehead before pulling you closer to him.

“Love you, sweetheart,” he places another kiss on your forehead. “‘m sorry for getting so jealous”

“‘s okay, Eds.” you cuddle more into his side “I love you too.” you manage to yawn out, before you both fell asleep.

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Thank you so much for reading!! This is my first fic published on tumblr in a VERY long time! Hope you enjoyed!

#lsfwrites #eddie munson smut #eddie munson stranger things #eddie munson x reader #afab!reader #smut #jealous eddie

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eureka-its-zico · 8 months

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Hiiiii, I’m 🧀 baaack. I felt an energy disturbance in the Force and turns out there is a sneak peek for the next chapter and oh my God… I choked on my tea 🫠😂

I was HOPING for a conversation like that. And I did think Nami would be the one who would point something like that out to Zoro too. Idk, Nami just seems like the person who’d give the best advise 🤷🏻‍♀️

And honestly, something about dancing in fics whilst the guy watches just hits different for me. I am sappy and just melt at parts where the the guy’s interest makes an absolute fool of themselves on the dancefloor (think it’s because I dance like an absolute fool too 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 It’s all about having fun!!!).

I am so looking forward for the next part and it’s so hard with this Zoro brain rot that I’ve been having 🫠😂 I have a course assignment to submit before end of Thursday and then I have a midterm that I can take whenever from Friday until Tuesday and just… I have to admit, I even started writing again to deal with this obssession that I have been having 🤦‍♀️ I cannot say I’ve been productive when it comes to a lot of my adult responsibilities…

As for Tumblr in 2009 - I have to admit, I was a teenager then and didn’t care too much about Tumblr then 😂 I was active between 2011-2012 and going crazy for a lot of bands so my dash before the purge was… a lot of bands that I am not really listening to anymore, BUT it was a lovely trip down the memory lane. It wasn’t fun to remember how cringe of a teenager I was tho 😂 I’ve been on and off Tumblr for years, I have to admit. And I keep coming back to it at times where life gets a bit too hard.

Last time I sent in the ask, I wasn’t doing well and I still am not the best mentally though I’ll get there. Thank you for your kind words, they meant a lot to me over the weekend ❤️

The cherry on top, and this is funny to me because life sometimes gets ridiculous, was last night when my keyboard and mouse put up their middle fingers and stopped working at the same time whilst I was in the middle of something 😂 And not to the point that I need to replace batteries or charge them, but actually replace them 🤣 It’s alright though, I work in tech and I have learned that technology does this to me out of sheer spite 🤷🏻‍♀️

This sneak peek has brought me such joy and I am smiling like a fool and I don’t think I’ll be able to fall asleep again tonight 😂

Thank you for sharing this with us! And I hope you are having a lovely start to your week! ❤️

Osiyo oginalii,

How wonderful it is to hear from you!!! I love that you used a Star Wars reference in relation to knowing I had posted something 🤣 but I am sorry it made you choke on your tea (this also feels like a low key st reference).

Nami really is the best person to bring that kind of stuff up. She’s the most observant of the crew, because she has so much to lose in her mind. So, it’s made her hyper aware of everything around her. Luffy was just a wildcard she never saw coming. I feel like she’s always trying to get a read on everybody, and because of that she just notices what others might be trying to hide. Like feelings 😬

I am like you! I have been struggling to complete all my uni work because I’m having my first lung procedure this Friday. So, I’ve been struggling to do all my homework before then and also work on publishing this week before I’m out for the weekend. IF you do write something, please let me know. I would absolutely love to read whatever you create 🖤

It makes me sad you are still having a hard time, but just know I am here for you. I know it isn’t much, but if there is anything I can do to help keep your mind off it or make you feel a tad better I will always do my best. I sincerely hope this week is kinder to you in some regard.

If my keyboard or anything went out on my computer I would DIE. I spent 2k+ plus on that thing to play games, and I would cry tears of pure agony. Tell your mouse and keyboard we have absolutely no time for this foolishness and that they need to get it together ASAP.

I hope you got some sleep these past few days! Your health is so important! Again, I am sending you all the hugs. Much love 🖤

#thecheesyreader #answered #Chaos in Their Bones review #I am sorry it took me so long to get to my inbox #it’s been a stressful and trying few days

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f1 · 1 year

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DRIVER MARKET: Why Wolff is absolutely confident Hamilton will extend his Mercedes contract amid silly season talk

Mercedes boss Toto Wolff has provided another update on one of the big off-track topics in 2023, expressing full confidence that Lewis Hamilton will sign a fresh deal with the team. Hamilton is in the final year of his current Mercedes deal and speculation has grown over the seven-time world champion’s F1 future amid the squad’s ongoing performance struggles. READ MORE: ‘I’m a fighter’ – Hamilton insists 2023 Mercedes performance won’t determine his F1 future However, after Hamilton himself expressed “100% belief” in Mercedes heading into the Saudi Arabian Grand Prix, and vowed to return to winning ways with them, Wolff offered a similarly clear response when asked about the driver market. “I have no idea what is being said in the silly season, I just know where we are with Lewis and George [Russell] – nothing else is relevant,” Wolff commented. “We’re talking when we want to do it and how, but we just need to change some terms – the dates, basically. I am absolutely confident [Hamilton will stay].” Mercedes endured a tricky start to 2023, with both cars finishing almost a minute off victory in Bahrain Asked if he had any concerns that Hamilton might start talking to rivals if the team’s struggles continue, Wolff said: “I don’t think that Lewis will leave Mercedes. He’s at a stage of [his] career where we trust each other. “We have formed a great bond among each other and we have no reason to doubt each other, even though this is a difficult spell. So nice it will be when we come out of this valley of tears and come back to solid performances. READ MORE: Hamilton announces split from long-time trainer and physio Angela Cullen “As a driver, nevertheless, if he wants to win another championship, he needs to make sure he has the car. If we cannot demonstrate that we’re able to give him a car in the next couple of years, then he needs to look everywhere. “I don’t think he’s [going to be] doing it at that stage, but I would have no grouch if that happens in a year.” Wolff also responded to Hamilton’s admission on Thursday that his recent choice of words to describe Mercedes’ early-season form was “unfortunate” – having claimed that the squad “didn’t listen” to him regarding the design of the 2023 car. Hamilton and Wolff have formed a strong partnership during their time together at Mercedes Addressing the situation, and any potential intra-team tension, Wolff said: “We speak all the time. It’s not a single word that matters in the team, because we know each other so well. “We know there are emotions at play with him, me, with many others in the team. We wear the heart on our sleeves. READ MORE: ‘We’ve got a lot of work to do’ – Mercedes promise ‘visible changes’ to W14 after challenging season opener “Sometimes you say things that in the media are being very quickly translated in a controversial way or polarising, that inside the team never cause any waves, because we know the emotions can run high. “To be honest, if I’m watching a lap time deficit coming together or a race that’s not going well, I also would like to say that I’m not happy [about] where the car has been developed to. That’s okay inside of the team; we want the emotion high. “We have tough love, we are saying it straight out when it’s missing, and nobody is not going to take it on the chin in the team.” via Formula 1 News https://www.formula1.com

#F1 #DRIVER MARKET: Why Wolff is ‘absolutely confident’ Hamilton will extend his Mercedes contract amid silly season talk #Formula 1

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hydok · 1 year

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I posted 6,916 times in 2022

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#i fully accept that given these details i absolutely sound like ta but what she didnt mention is that there was grass on these sandwiches

My Top Posts in 2022:

you’ve got to give it to ohkubo the man at least included in his visual dictionary the face people make when they consider his writing choices

7 notes - Posted February 20, 2022

i hate ohkubo i want this man to stop creating anything that might be interpreted as new soul eater content

7 notes - Posted February 19, 2022

"written by matteo jwhj 0715" they say, like it wasn't based off of the play by jára cimrman

smh

8 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

adhd lifehack: roomba

and like i know i know theyre expensive but i hadnt vacuumed for over six months (because adhd) and then i spent $179.99 on black friday last year and in exchage i got a little robot hockey puck (her name is birdy because she chirps) who every tuesday, thursday, and sunday wanders around my studio apartment and bumps into walls and eats all the cat hair and hay and rabbit poop and all i have to do is rescue her if she gets trapped by horrors beyond her comprehension (the bench with mirrored legs) and clean out her compartment (easy it just pops out and i dump it in the trash).

no longer do i get paralyzed by the Cleaning Terrors of "oh my floor is gross im a failure of an adult i have to clean it but in order to clean it i have to move furniture and then deal with the vacuum and go over spots and it takes so long i cant but im a failure of an adult i cant do anything else cleaning because of how bad my floor is"

my floor is clean, it's nice to walk on, all the other adulting cleanliness tasks become so much easier because the elephant in the room has been taken out back and shot by a tiny robot maid with a gun

31 notes - Posted September 15, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

thinkin about..... justin law again..... like i have for the past literal decade and counting....

im still mad about the soul eater manga for many reasons but one of them one of the big reasons is justin law

because on the surface yeah it's "the creepy hyperviolent religion obsessed weirdo who is out of touch with social and even religious norms picks a new god and goes off the rails" concept which is fine it fits the soul eater vibe it's even got echos of asura's fall from grace

and yeah "he went insane because he neglected to form the proper weapon-meister social bond" is fitting for soul eater as well and really hammers in the difference between justin (who in the series is presented as someone who could not be saved) and stein (whose bonds are what make him someone the series decides should be saved)

and okay fine "he attacked and decapitated the one friend he had, the only person who tried to reach out to him" does hammer that in. (though tbh tezca is. bad. thats not a friend)

and yes it's a shonen series with a huge emphasis on bonds so it's genre appropriate that the adults stand around and go "this teenager cannot be saved because he failed to form friendships and so no one cares about him enough to go after him"

except

one problem

and that problem is very very simple and very very obvious and very very baked into justin law's entire character

and it's the problem of his weapon form.

because justin law is a guillotine.

because ohkubo made it extremely clear that justin physically cannot have a meister.

because the entire message of "you need to have friends and you need people around you who understand you" falls completely apart when the character used by the author as the example was designed by the author to be physically incapable of forming the bonds every other character has and excuse me ohkubo you're telling me what? he thought this was clever? he thought going "im going to make a character who cannot form a meister-weapon bond and play him up as cool for fighting solo and make him go evil to really bring it home that you need friends" was a clever idea? it's ohkubo so probably

but actually ohkubo just made a character who was physically barred from forming proper relationships with others, and then had every responsible adult in this character's life look at him and by the time he was thirteen go "not only is this good that he's socially isolated and doesn't have a life partner like everyone else does by this age, we should give him a role in our organization where he works solo all the time. this is a good idea. this will not backfire on anyone involved in any way." and by the time he was seventeen the adults went "if only he had made proper social bonds he would have someone who cared enough to save him from getting his soul clownjacked by an incarnation of the god of madness"

and it is almost 2023 and ohkubo stopped writing soul eater in 2013 (and stopped caring about the series in like idk 2010 at the latest) and i am still thinking too much about this asshole teenage sadist who according to the manga got exactly what he deserved but really deserved so much better

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#year in review #thats 3995 more posts than 2021 #three of my top five posts were about soul eater #which yeah sorry soul eater is My Brand im ur Soul Eater Friend #87% of my posts were untagged #which is also My Brand sorry #trek u win the Hydok Content Generator Award

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thestartofabeautifulride · 2 years

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I feel very overwhelmed by life in general right now. I just feel like I have SO much going on in the next two months. Going from summer break with nothing really going on to having so much going on just feels like a lot. Like today I accidentally scheduled an orientation appointment that conflicted with the kids play group because I just cannot keep everything straight in my head. Which wasn’t a huge deal, we just skipped play group. But I still feel bad, I could have absolutely done both had I remembered. Next week we’ve got Clara’s preschool orientation Monday, Waylon’s first day of school Wednesday, and while he’s at school our puppy’s appointment at a new vet, then Clara’s first day of school Thursday. And I know writing that out it doesn’t necessarily sound like a crazy busy week. But at the same time ALL of it is new things. New drop off/pick up procedure since Waylon’s in first grade now, new vet, new concept of Clara riding a bus, going to a new school. And then cap off the week with Bo’s 2nd birthday on Saturday. 😭 And it’s not even like things calm down after that. Because not too long until my husband comes home (for a tiny bit) and we’ve got Bo’s birthday to celebrate late, family photos, soccer season starting up, all the predeployment prep we need to do. Blink and he’s going to be gone again and I’m doing another loooong stretch of solo parenting. Only for him to be back next summer and knowing it’s not unlikely that we’ll have a move on the horizon and he could be working an assignment that would have him essentially gone even though he would be “home.” Y’all. I’m tired.

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thessalian · 2 years

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Thess vs Being Singled Out

So ... okay, the office is having its yet another bit of weird and I’m not sure what to make of some of it.

Some of it I do know exactly what to make of, however. Mostly I make Rage Kabob.

(I was mistaken yesterday, incidentally. Goblin does not rely on the train to get to work. She relies on the Tube and a very unreliable bus. She just has other shit to do on Thursday and booked this time off a month ago. This will come into play later.)

So Goblin’s not in tomorrow or Friday. I’m not in Friday. Not sure Sunshine’s in on Friday either. We just can’t be. There’s no earthly way. And we’re already backlogged because of being down a typist - we can’t kill that backlog when we’re understaffed. So obviously we want to minimise the backlog as much as we can while we can.

Which does nothing to explain why Scruffman decided that today was a great day to take a half-day with absolutely zero warning. This means we have to handle his phones, deal with delivery of specimens, deal with email, and after all that, try to get our typing done. Made harder by the fact that he’s not around to pitch in with that.

He’s nagging us about not coming in when we literally cannot get there - at least not without health issues - and vanishes for the best part of the day before that all starts kicking off. Well fucking done.

And when I say nagging, I mean it. Which is where Goblin’s situation comes in. See, when Scruffman emailed about our availability during the strike period, he did so individually, instead of just sending a generic email to the secretarial contact list the way he normally does. This ... strikes me as more than a little fishy, honestly; we should all know each other’s availability if at all possible. But we’re apparently being kept on a serious information diet at the office.

Anyway, my email chain was simple. He asked my availability; I flagged up I’d be in tomorrow but I’d booked Friday off and that request was approved at the start of last week; matter closed. Goblin, on the other hand, did not get off so lightly. He asked her availability. She flagged up the situation; that she booked tomorrow off a month ago and wouldn’t be able to be in on Friday because she literally could not get there. Now, you would think that matter would be resolved. Apparently not, because then he turned around to her and said, “That’s inconvenient; could you not come in for at least part of Thursday? Or make up the time on Saturday?”

Recall what I said about ‘really inconvenient bus’. That’s pretty typical out in the boondocks where Goblin lives. And it gets worse over the weekend. As in, one comes once an hour on weekends. Now, he’d asked her about ‘making up the time’ on a weekend before, and she’d explained her situation as regards transport. But apparently he’s going to hope she’s changed her mind about it.

Now, I don’t like Goblin very much. I think she’s surly, argumentative, and unpleasant a lot of the time. However, I do not think she deserves that, just on a professional level. You don’t do that to your secretaries. If they’d wanted us to not have issues because of the public transport strikes, they should have expedited the working from home situation, shouldn’t they?

Thing is, it did lead me to wondering ... why didn’t he ask me to work over the weekend? Or any of the others? Why only Goblin? I mean, I might go in tomorrow to find an email to that effect sitting in my inbox, but still. Maybe it’s because of the health issues - because you’d better believe that if I do find a request like that in my inbox, I will be explaining that no, I will not work over the weekend, because I’ve already been pushing too hard trying to at least not lose too much ground since Sid left and I need a recovery day; the Tube strike just means it’s necessary on multiple levels. Of course, that might also be part of the reason - I have a very different method of taking no bullshit than Goblin does, but I still refuse to take bullshit.

It’s just all got weird at the office. Scruffman’s got all information-diet on all of us, is basically made of stress, and is not really helping the working environment. And he gets really snippy when someone talks to Head Honcho instead of him ... which, well, sucks to be him because it’s been a month since I emailed Head Honcho about the status of our work-from-home situation and I haven’t had a peep out of either of them about it. I have my email trail with Head Honcho because I want all of it down on paper. Hell, our previous correspondence chain had him forwarding me an email from IT going, “Okay, so we just need the login details to install some stuff on the laptop and then we’re good to go” so why we have to go all the way back to “did anyone talk to Occupational Health?” I have no idea, but Head Honcho’s the only one who can deal with that discrepancy. I’ve got most of the email written; I’m just looking for a polite way of saying, “Look, if you’re trying to stall us in hopes that we’ll just forget all about it, I need to know so I can explore my options”.

Also, my stepfather was in here today. I only know because he moved one of my chairs without putting it back, and didn’t reset my oven clock when he was messing with the electrics. *grumble*

#Thess has a day job

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anothershittyaccount · 3 months

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I just feel like the situation is untenable. Like who knows when she'll beat the shit out of me next? Multiple times on Thursday and then again Saturday into Sunday after the ballet. The burning and jumping out of the car transcended it all, the shit she says is not OK. She's going through a break up, one that she initiated in a relationship she initiated with a practical child and somehow that necessitates abusing me? Drinking 6oz+ of 50 proof vodka at 11am? Like I ask her about a toilet seat lid and a breathalyzer and it sets her off into some deranged tirade. She tried to rip my earlobes and burn me with a lit cigarette, she kicked me, punched me, slapped me, bit me, pinched me, pulled my hair out by the clumps, broke my glasses and tried to break my fingers... like what kind of person does that? Drunk or not that is unacceptable. And literally the root is the mother fucking guys, if that's the type of stagnant life she wants so fucking be it. Count me out. I cannot enable her continued communications with them, I cannot just continue to support her and put a roof over her head while she does nothing but disrespect and disregard me. She is using me. She wants her cake and she wants to eat it to. And I'm just supposed to sit here and be like cool, carry on? Like how long before tunisia asks for money? How long before she gets back in touch with india? I'm just supposed to be in perpetual limbo? I can't fucking deal, I want to die. I want to burn myself. I felt like I was better when she wasn't here, at least I wasn't getting assaulted and treated like shit in the flesh and at least I didn't have to sit and watch the train wreck unfold irl. Like I'm just supposed to let her live here and use me and carry on a relationship that she prefers and lead me on? Like if tunisia and india are so fucking gratifying then fucking leave me and go with them. But obviously they aren't as satisfying and deep down inside she knows that she she just needs to stop the fucking fantasy and if she can't, well count me the fuck out. I'm just so done. I want to fly to peru and buy nemb and die. I just feel like trash, I am so fucking worthless and pathetic and I have no purpose on this planet. Everything is a lie, nothing is real, there is absolutely zero point to any of this madness. I wish the house would spontaneously explode or that someone would crash into my car and I'd die on impact. Or like maybe I have oral cancer and that will kill me soon? Fingers crossed. Like why be with someone who I'm not enough for? Like if someone wants to be with me, they will respect my one fucking boundary not to carry on a toxic relationship and if that's too much to ask then I guess we were never meant to be.

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pattywagon2go · 7 months

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Followup Friday

Originally this week's Transit Talk Thursday was going to have a bit more detailed stabs at commuter rail systems, but for lack of time I had to squeeze it down to what you saw. But I did have some more stuff to say, so I figured I'd might as well release this as a followup to that post.

Again, don't take anything I say too seriously lol

Long Island Rail Road

Ah yes, the oldest railroad still surviving under it's original charter. Unfortunately, it seems like the schedules are as old as this railroad is, considering how hideously out of touch it is with what is needed in this day and age. Maybe this thing gets so much ridership simply because Long Island residents just choose to put up with it. If so, then that's sad really, since the LIRR is no stranger to axing itself because they can't figure out how to make the ridership go up. Oh well, at least we can soyface over the cool Electric Multiple Units they have...until you try to go to West Long Island and you have to transfer to a diesel train because that section isn't electrified yet. Fuck.

Metra

It takes a lot of genius to run a commuter rail, and in the case of Metra, that genius has gone to good use. Electrification? Pah, who needs that. Using Amtrak's retired GE Genesis locomotives? Screw you, it ain't EMD! Wait, what's that, you have a great deal on an old freight loco built by EMD? It will need to be re-geared and have Head-End Power added, which is going to be a pain? It won't solve the issue of our locomotives aging too quickly? TAKE MY GODDAMN MONEY ALREADY MOTHERFUC-

Excuse me. Now where was I? Oh, right...

Anyway, sorry, I got a little too carried away. Also, I have to remember to buy more of those really weird gallery cars despite ordering actual passenger cars from Alstom. Though in hindsight, the fact that it's from Alstom could explain why they haven't arrived yet. Thank you Alstom, makers of "exquisite" rolling stock.

New Jersey Transit

Ah see, here's a commuter rail that actually knows how to care for it's rail network! The Glorious Republic of New Jersey did the smart thing and seized all of it's rails across the state! Now we can run trains from heather and yonder! It's glorious!

What's that? There's this thing called "South Jersey"? There used to be tons of trains and rails down there that no longer exist and we have yet to do anything about it except for making the sorriest excuse of a commuter rail line to serve our state's version of Las Vegas? How many beers have you been drinking, South Jersey is a myth!

Ah, ain't nothing better than a commuter rail which knows how to care for its rail network.

GO Transit

Holy fucking good unholy godly fuckballs how many fucking park and rides do you need like this is ridiculous. This isn't even some elaborate bit I genuinely cannot fathom that for a majority of this commuter rail's life the entire system was basically park and rides for Toronto suburban commuters who hated driving into Toronto (not that I blame them). Like I can shit on the lack of electrification and the donkey-balls gargling schedules but like oh my god the amount of fucking parking that GO slapped their stations with is absolutely fucking ridiculous.

Metro-North Railroad

I honestly don't really know what else to say about this one that I didn't say in my original post. Yeah it shuttles people from the core of NYC to upstate NY suburbs and Connecticut, there's really nothing too special about this one, beyond the really weird electrification of both 12.5kV AC overhead wires and 750V DC Third Rail. I guess it works out since the trains that run on that line can tap into both so no transfer is necessary. Good job Metro-North.

Trinity Railway Express

Ah, it's the one I rode myself a little while back. The way I can describe this that I should have in the original post is "If the Atlantic City line on NJT was in Texas and it connected Dallas and Ft. Worth". It really wants you to think it's something better but honestly, it really isn't. It's just average. Oh and no level boarding is a massive fail in my book. Again, the bar is very low here and you're still ramming face-first into it.

And yes, I know other systems don't have level boarding, that still isn't excusable. This isn't me being a hypocrite.

MBTA Commuter Rail

This is another case of I really don't know what else to say about it since a good majority of its issues was due to MassDOT shooting it in the foot and then proceeding to ask "What made the MBTA shit?" afterwards. I will say though that the MBTA not electrifying is pretty stupid and it should be done, so the North-South Rail Link can be built at last. Seriously, Massachusetts, get on it.

Oh and obligatory "French company ruin American rail again" joke.

MARC Train

Good ol' MARC, ferrying people to and from the capitol of this incredibly "fine" nation and the location of the meanest sons of bitches in the state of Maryland and beyond since 1984. Also home to the incredibly mind-boggling decision of running diesels under electrified wire. I get it, the old AEM-7s are super old and the Siemens Chargers are more up-to-date, but to that I say "What was stopping them from buying some ACS-64s?" Hell even SEPTA bought some to replace their AEM-7s on their push-pull services. It's not like the ACS-64 was a lemon that everyone should avoid, yet MARC just bought some Chargers instead. What were they thinking?

SEPTA Regional Rail

Out of the entire list, I think the best commuter rail has to go to SEPTA, mainly due to its fully electrified network. But just because its the best among the ones here doesn't mean it's good. Far from it, in my opinion. SEPTA is a very flawed agency in general, and it needs to improve to serve the residents of Philadelphia better. Hell the entire joke about it in the original post was how SEPTA is basically doing fuck all to improve anything. Instead, they decide to find incredibly dumb shit like the Norristown High-Speed Line Extension to King of Prussia, the literal worst project you could have greenlit.

Caltrain

In a lot of ways Caltrain is basically Metra but for the Bay Area for California, due to the gallery cars and general frustration, except Caltrain is actively attempting to improve via electrification on most of the mainline. But unfortunately, because it's located in California, it gets knocked down a few places because of that. Extra points down because it's in the Bay Area.

Well, uh, oops, this turned more into a general critique midway through lol. Guess it's a good thing I didn't release yesterday. Regarding some future stuff, I think next week I may take off, as I kinda want to recharge my knowledge pool before I do another post, but in the meantime, I may introduce something new for next Monday. See you then!

#transit talk thursday #follow up

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the-100th-witch · 9 months

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Vent post~

I try so hard to make shit work for other ppl and i'm kinda getting sick of it.

And I'm tired of hearing from my mother that "it's silly" to do something when really I'm doing it so I don't piss ppl off.

Im currently house/pet sitting for my uncle and they get back thursday night. So I now have to run over to my sister's place to watch her house/pets from thursday night to Saturday afternoon. They are suppose to come back Sunday morning (or like early early in the AM like 3-4 am whatever) but it's not clear so someone needs to feed the dogs.

I have to come back and house/sit again for my uncle for the weekend until Monday bc they got a wedding. So I'm like "ok well...if my sister ends up coming home later I can just go over in the morning and feed the dogs and check things out and go back to my uncle's.

My mom says that's silly and i'm like "what the fuck do you want me to do??"

I have three other house/sitting jobs (2 small ones and 1 long one) but I think I'm pretty much just done. I'm gonna have to refocus on my own shit regardless but this running around and trying not to piss ppl off is driving me up the wall.

One of my new year's resolutions for 2024 is to not be as available for others. If they absolutely need me (and I need the money) than I'll consider it but I really just need to be more protective/selfish of my time and energy.

My mom says you can do your stuff while house/pet sitting but not really. I got to worry about plants/pets/mail/etc and maybe if it was just the house sitting part I would be fine but idk...something about watching pets on top of it throws me off so much.

I think i'm okay if it's just ONE job but I'm juggling both my uncle's place and my sister's. They are paying me but I'm so stressed out. Working an actual job is one thing bc that's just one thing. I prefer that stress than whatever the shit this type of stress is. Maybe it's because it's for family? I always get weird with family because i'm scared of letting them down while I don't care about strangers (or bosses bc yea i want to succeed in my job and be a good worker but in the end I can peace out and never see that boss/co-workers ever again lol)

I think in 2024 I'm just gonna distance myself in a polite manner like "Sorry, I'm currently dealing with my own stuff right now and cannot dedicate my time to house/pet sit for a while. Thank you for understanding." and that's it. No excuses and shit, they dont need to know what im doing.

#personal #vent post #i think it's the juggling both houses and pets that's stressing me out. i didnt even AGREE to watching my sister's house/pets...#but thats how my family acts with me haha *bash head again wall* loving it~#i got a therapy call today ill talk to my therapist about this frustration and my fear of how my family views me #and my own tie to their opinion and my self worth bc thats definitely a part of it and that's on me #ok bye

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ocean-anchored · 1 year

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Dear future self... March 21, 2023

I’m late I know. I wasn’t feeling it last sunday as I felt like I wasn’t in the best head space and as the week went on I figured I’d just wait till sunday again which ended up being so busy. Where to start. Back to Dillon being the asshole he is. It’s really unfortunate. I can’t remember when it was that we had a call where he raised his voice and told me to go cry a fucking river when I said how disrespectful it was leaving us high and dry March after ALL the things I’ve done for him. Haven’t really talked to him since. He did pay February finally but that whole friendship is over and I may never see or talk to him again so who cares. Sadly not loosing much there. On the friday two weeks ago I was cleaning up contacts in my phone (was clearly bored at work) and came across Mitch. He’s been on my mind for a long time. I just felt really bad about how I ended everything and how I kind of just cut things off cold so I wrote an apology text just to tell him that I didn’t mean to hurt him. In no way, shape or form did I intend it to be as a “let’s try again” type of thing and that (on top of Dillon’s shit) is why I wasn’t in the best headspace. Hanging out escalated to a point that I felt a lot of shame the next day. I’m still trying to deal with that and back off as I don’t have any intention of dating or a relationship. I truly am happy being single and keeping to myself this year and I worry about hurting him again and him taking things the wrong way. I stepped out of my comfort zone again that week and went to a church group where I didn’t know anyone. Divine from church had joined me into this group and they had a gathering that again I had no idea who or what it was about but I showed up and it ended up really great. Met Eryn which was really nice who goes to Redemption as well and it was nice to just be around Christians. The night was around the Navigators and discipleship. Something I’m still so shy about but it was a good experience and I’m proud I went. Last week was pretty good. Finally bought Ed Sheeran tickets, just about cried. Going to see him in September with Dustin in Vancouver and I literally cannot wait. I’ve waited far too long for this and really look forward to this most.

Thursday I went to Nose Hill with Amber and her bf with all our dogs for a walk in the afternoon which was so nice. I really love the flexibility I have and still catch myself feeling like I’m taking things for granted and I’m not doing enough but lunch with Ed cleared that - will get to that. I went for dinner later that day with Kamber another girl I met on Bumble BFF and it’s been nice chatting with her as well. We have so much in common. Sometimes I feel like I talk to much with her and sometimes I feel like I’m always looking for another topic to talk about but our conversation is genuine and it’s refreshing. She’s super sweet and down to earth. Friday I “took the day off” from YCH technically since I don’t work Friday’s with Ed. Went for sushi and that was really great. Just more solidifying that we’re a great team and we’re both happy with how things are going and the work progressing. I know he appreciates me and it was nice to just clear some work things up but also be able to chat about so many other channels and things. I’m really so blessed to be working with him. He said at the end that he hopes that I do work for him for the rest of our lives which really is my goal. It was from this lunch with Ed that my weekend ended up being nonstop with barley a minute to myself. Mitch came over to watch movies friday night which was alright. Got up early and went to Lake Louise and Lake MInewanka with mom Saturday for the whole day. It was a really great day, absolutely beautiful out. Such a perfect day (we always seem to get those when we go out together). Came back in the evening and went to chat with Mel. It was a good, needed talk. We challenged each other with the little fit we had the week before and how I’ve felt like she hasn’t been part or contributed to our relationship but she’s explained how sick she’s been and stressed and we had a good cry and we talked it through. Really healthy. I appreciate that she takes the initiative to chat to sort things out and we’re re-learning communication with each other in a healthy way. Nova was so patient in the car that we went to Currie Barracks after to walk the park where they set up lanterns and lights everywhere, it was nice but getting home at 9:30PM was exhausting. Sunday went to church which was as always, great. Helped mom with her zoom set up and took Nova out when I got home. Steven came over right away and we gamed for a bit and watched the Office. It was good, nice to also spend time with him personally but I do love Amanda. Been building my own relationship with her which has been really great. Anyways that’s a basic catch up. It’s been super super busy and I’m peopled out. I’m going to try to focus this week on chilling and recouping as its Amber’s Birthday on Thursday and I’m taking a couple of us to the Flames game which I’m really excited for. All is well. I’m still super happy all around. This year seems to just keep getting better and I have so many things to look forward to this year.

#personal #weekly update #dear future self #journal update #life update

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dessrinon-radomes · 2 years

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What to do?

It happened last Sunday, which was 4 days ago, a friend of mine chatted me that sometimes he thinks he wants to kill himself. He does not know how long he can hold on.

To give a background on what he went thru, typhoon odette damaged their client hotel. This meant he is not getting paid. Then, a client of his didn’t pay him for the website he did with my husband. Then, he lost a newborn child, a twin. The other twin lived, but the other one died.

I know what grief is. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone even my bitterest enemy. It consumes you. It makes you don’t want to live anymore. Weeks after my father’s death, there are days where I wish I will not wake up. But, of course, I didn’t do anything about those thoughts. Because I pray. I have a God.

But my friend does not have a God. He doesn’t have anyone he believes in. And that will surely suck the hope out of you. I tried to console and comfort him, but he refuses to listen. I don’t know what to tell him that will get through him. I concluded he should help himself first before anyone can help him right? Like why are you telling me this? What do you want from me? What do you expect me to do?

So that was Sunday, the Tuesday came. Here he is again, snapping. He was talking to my husband instead of me, but this time I was really stressed. He and my husband is in a project and he wants to quit because of the various reasons, which for me are selfish reasons.

I was so mad at him. The stress carried on until Wednesday and I felt it physically. My head hurts, and until today, Thursday, sometimes I find it hard to breathe. That is why I decided to create this post to let it go. I am mad because maybe I cannot accept that I misjudged his character. I pride myself in correctly identifying one’s character by my gut. The first time I met him, I didn’t get a vibe that he is a weak, coward, selfish jerk. But yeah people change. Maybe that’s why I am mad. Why is he being like this? Doesn’t he love his family anymore? He has a son, a newborn baby and a wife. What would happen to them if he kills himself?? Also, he dragged my husband to this project. My husband resigned because of this, and I absolutely loathe it that our livelihood depended on his mood. I am absolutely livid. But it is not good to my health anymore. I really should let this go. I have to accept that he is what he is and we can’t do anything about it. We can only influence him, but it is still totally up to him how to live his life and I shouldn’t care about it. Except I care because he is a friend. But if this continues, I don’t know if I still want to be his friend. I mean I want to support him and everything but I cannot do it if he doesn’t help himself first. We are all have our own battles to fight, and your energy is limited, so I decided to not give him the spare energy I have if he won’t listen. Does that make me a bad friend? I don’t know. But I know that I have to take care of myself first before others. I feel bad for his wife. She has to deal with him everyday on top of caring for their children. I really hope he can stay afloat above his grief. I hope he can come to his senses for his family. People make terrible decisions when they are scared, angry or desperate. That is why we have God. But since he is not religious, I don’t know what to tell him. I think what makes me mad also is that I have to be nice. I want to lash out at him to make him see sense, but I cannot do that because I don’t know him very well. I don’t know what will push him over the edge and I really don’t want be the reason he went over the edge. What I can do is pray and leave this to God. To give me patience and a pure heart that I hope can guide my friend.

Update:

Apparently this guys is really unhinged. Out of nowhere, after attending two meetings when he seems fine, he chatted my husband that we didn’t show him an ounce of compassion that’s why he is quitting with finality. Apparently, there’s a separate gc where reina (the investor who quit because he is egging her on) is bad mouthing him and nobody told him what she said. The nerve right? 1. He created his own ghost and now he is scared by it. 2. There’s no gc!!! Even if there was, my husband is not in it! 3. We didn’t show an ounce of compassion?! That’s all we ever did to him!!!!!!!!

I don’t know what his deal is, and I am so upset that I was wrong in judging him. When I met him since 2021, he seems ok. We chat in messenger and met in person but I didn’t get the vibe that he is crazy. But he lost a child, and maybe that changed him. So, I blocked him. I don’t want to be associated with him anymore because he is really toxic. I blocked him in fb and LinkedIn too. He is really unstable and erratic. I humbly accept I was wrong with being friends with him and it will never happen again. I will still trust my instincts, but I will be very wary this time.

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Hi! Can I request some smut headcanons for Riddle, Azul and Rook with their first time with a fem s!o? Thank you( ˘ ³˘)♥

Warnings: Sexually explicit

Wordcount: 1,320

Pairings: Riddle Rosehearts x f!reader, Azul Ashengrotto x f!reader, Rook Hunt × f!reader

I want to preface this by saying over time, Riddle will get so much better

Generally very stiff

Riddle doesn’t have many memories of getting kind affection from any female figures in his life

So it takes him a good long while before he even thinks about sex

Then at least another month after that before he's ready to consider doing it with you

Be patient with him

I'm afraid to say that any sexual advances you make towards him before the 8 month mark of your relationship will end up with him panicking

So once he finally approaches you, with the desire to try the whole sex thing out, you will have to explain some things to him

Like the concept of foreplay

Because he genuinely does not know anything

His version of sex ed was "Riddle don't you dare have any sexual thoughts or feelings. Sex is for making babies, if you do it before marriage you will die"

You absolutely will have to take control

He will let you, because he needs to learn what to do

Guide his hands, show him where to touch and how

Kiss him. Kiss him plenty

All over.

Tell him how good he's doing. That you're enjoying it

Thank him for going outside his comfort zone for you

The appreciation you show him will go a long way to help him get comfortable with the whole "hes about to put his Penis in you" thing

Don't, don't try and give him head unless you want him to explode.

Because he will, and it'll end with him being simply too embarrassed to continue

Save that for later on

Hes very good at kissing you, you can tell he enjoys it

Now you're going to have to ensure he's made you come at least once during foreplay, because I don't think just the penetrative sex will be able to do it for you

Its going to be sloppy, and slow and he definitely will come quite quickly.

He was a virgin before this so not only is it a big deal for him, but he's genuinely very sexually repressed

The boy has masturbated maybe 3 times his whole life and none until completion because he just can’t stop thinking about his mother and how disappointed she'd be in him

The one thing Riddle is absolutely prepared with though, is condoms.

He may not want to have anything to do with sex usually but he knows what protection is and absolutely keeps plenty in the dorm.

He cannot stop his dorm members from engaging in sex but he wants them to be safe at least when they do it

Cries after you're both done

Its just such an emotional relief for him, he loves you so much that he was willing to go against everything that he had been taught

And to see that it wasn't a bad thing, that sex is enjoyable and wonderful with someone you love?

Its overwhelming

This is also the moment he realises he wants to marry you. Because he knows nobody will ever be able to replicate the amount of love he feels for you in this moment.

Will help you get dressed after should you need it

You two will share some snacks and just talk, get emotional, be mushy and loving

And then you'll fall asleep in each other's arms, the last thing either of you remember before slipping into unconsciousness is the whispered "i love yous" you both shared

Inexperienced, so you'll have to take at pretty slow

Knows what he wants, but not how to ask for it

Will be bright pink right down to his chest

Definitely sets it up with you like he's scheduling a meeting

Its the only way he can face you without wanting to crawl into his octopus pot and never leave

"Doll, we've been dating for some time now and I believe we're ready to take it to the next step. Are you free this Thursday at 6pm?"

Don't worry, the twins will make fun of him for it as soon as he informs them

When you do end up doing it he will absolutely have set up some romantic candles and rose petals.

He wants to make a good impression

Definitely a sex with the lights off kind of guy

At least the first time

Not really sure what to do with himself at all at first

So please for the love of all you hold dear, guide his hands to where you want them

He'll get it eventually

Will go nuts with the foreplay

Azul read many guides to human coitus before this point so he knows what he has to do before the fun begins

So he'll do his very best to please you

Be vocal, tell him if he's doing a good job, or what he needs to do better

He needs to hear it so that he can blow your mind

Oral confuses him but he's more than happy to do it for you

He'd probably make you cum once or twice depending on your general sensitivity to his ministrations before moving on

Praise him. He desperately wants to hear it.

Worship his body, show him just how much you appreciate his efforts

And once you're nice and ready he'd work himself up, and then slowly penetrate you

He wants to make sure he doesn't accidentally hurt you by going too quickly

Once he'd fully sheathed himself and started moving he'd probably only last about 1 or 2 minutes

He's so touch starved it makes him extremely sensitive

So he nuts very quickly

Definitely is a compliment to you though!

Will 100% apologise over and over again

Reassure him its fine and that you don't care. As long as he enjoyed himself too

And if you have a silver tongue, maybe, just maybe you could talk him out of his embarrassment enough that he would let you ride him to completion.

Once you're all done he'll probably just run a bath for you both before you to climb into bed to sleep.

Very gentle

He has some previous experience so he doesn't fumble around aimlessly

But he remains on the side of caution

Really wants to make sure you're comfortable with everything he's doing

The first time with him will be very, very passionate

We're talking hands intertwined, slow steady thrusts, and plenty of eye contact

He will be praising you the entire time

Its one of his biggest kinks, and the only one you'll be seeing much of the first time

"Thats it ma cheriè, just like that. Perfect~ You're doing wonderful. Being so very good for me Bunny~"

Will absolutely eat you out like a starving man

Sit, sit on his face. Just sit on it

You'll have your mind blown

He loooooves it so much

Your thighs clamping down on his skull as he makes you cum

Cleans you up a bit with his tongue afterwards as well

Will make you have multiple orgasms

He doesn't feel like he did a good job unless you've had at least 2. Aiming for 3

At least for the first time

Not enough to cause you pain

But enough that by the time you're all done for the night, you're sleepy and soft in his arms

He'll take his time with the aftercare.

A warm washcloth for cleaning you off, some nice smelling lotions for your legs,

Don't want you to have any muscle cramps!

Dress you in some nice soft and clean pyjamas and underwear

He'll carry you to the bathroom so you can pee, Rook would rather die before he gave you a UTI

And finally he'd hand you a nice big glass of water

Once you're finished with that, he'd tuck you back into bed, your head resting on his bare chest.

And you'd snuggle the rest of the evening

Thank you for the request dear. I hope it lives up to your expectations!

If you liked the post and want to see more from me feel free to send me a request . See you soon~

Sincerely, Jupiter

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