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chocmuffinsscones · 6 months

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BKDK endgame theory

Another highly self-indulgent theory on how bkdk's gonna be endgame canonically

Disclaimer: Since I don't wanna jinx it or feel embarrassed for being so brazen about this mere silly thought of mine, I'll just keep this private until if things similar to what I've predicted became true. Otherwise, this will only be for my eyes alone. - edited 6 Nov 2023

Fuck all of that guess I'm just gonna put it out there and let y'all have fun as I embarrass myself. Just think it's all for lolz if none of these happen, at least I have fun writing to indulge my fantasy - edited 8 Nov 2023

So, what I think is that since hori's gonna keep giving us surprises and +u up his own game, my guess is that to clearly and subtly lock the pair without making it feel forced is to make bkdk make a promise to each other that hinted a lifelong warrant. Refer this to what toga said in her arc

It's not exactly a love confession, but what'll you feel if someone promise to dedicate their whole life in making you feel happiness, loved? I think that's love disguise in a glass case

So, how's this gonna parallel to our favourite dorks who're both so emotionally constipated and verbally poor at confessing?

Me thinks that, apparently when the boys were pushed to the extremes -- to the moment when there's literally no time affordable to think of anything else besides the most important thing they hold in their life, that the moment their body has to move on their own by instincts -- we'll finally get to see, bright as day, where their true feelings lay.

As far as we've seen, it has been clearly revealed (except for those who're illiterate or in a dilemma of spiralling denial) that on katsuki's side, Izuku's the one constantly haunting his head for the rest of his 10+ years. He'd jump into battle with him, rush in front of him to avert the blow, fight in pain to stay relevant in izuku's battle -- to the point of fighting to his death to protect his seniors and to yet remain as izuku's image of victory... all these, to atone his mistakes in mistreating Izuku.

Throughout his character growth, Katsuki had been to the extremes. What are the most extreme situations if not death itself?

After that, however, we see katsuki came back with his heart fully open (pun definitely not intended!), feelings more outwardly shown, saying thanks sincerely without hiding behind his explosive demeanor, smiling straightforwardly at his favourite idol AM 🥺

Katsuki had met his breaking point, met death itself, and came back a new man. A man who wanted to change before everything was too late. As soon as he woke up, he didn't waste time hesitating to allow further regrets, showing gratitude and humility whole-heartedly in any instant he should've done like any decent human being would.

Except, there's still one thing he hadn't yet achieve to reach a complete circle for his narrative.

Pre-war, Katsuki's biggest dread, the constant looming threat choking around his neck, was being unable to be honest and sincere to Izuku.

"But wait! He'd already stated his apology, he has no regrets left!"

Well, if you have that complain, you're not understanding katsuki well enough. Katsuki is a man of action more than his words. It's quite a common habit for Asians too to put more thoughts into action rather than just spewing beautiful words. And Katsuki, through and through, was an all-in-or-nothing kind of guy. He would never stop at just apologising. If his prior intention for reconciliation was to make himself feel better, then the integrity behind his actions and words was nullified, since that would undoubtedly negate the whole building up of his character's motivation. Moreover, it would become a huge flaw in horikoshi's writing as that would depict him in a "fake hero" spotlight as well as contradict the character's self incentive to be the bestest hero there is. I wouldn't bet hori would decide to ruin his writing like this. In fact, this is such a huge plot point for katsuki's character development that such a small blunder at this point would greatly affect the whole endgame story dynamic to his readers. Not that he'd care if he really did chose that path... I mean 🤷🏻‍♀️😬

Anyway, personality-wise, I'd say Katsuki would be the first person to hate that particular kind of people if he sees one. He'd definitely be disgusted of himself if he were one. That's why I wouldn't bet hori will make that blunder, because hori had been writing him as an incessantly growing character, relentlessly pushing his limits to be the best and always showed his results through visible actions.

So then, back to the point, what were left to do if he had already apologised? What more does he need to do then to further compensate?

:) As I've mentioned earlier, nothing beats the offer of a lifelong compensation, of devoting one's own time and energy willingly to the other as long as they need, or provide care and attention whenever they deserve.

"Wait. What does that even sound like tho? Doesn't that seem like a huge burden to bear??"

For Katsuki however, it's as per usual: all in or nothing!

A promise that hinted lifelong devotion though... That truly sounds like a heavy dedication to carry for the rest of one's life. Doesn't that kind of vow ring any bells? That's the only conclusion I could come to unfortunately. Because Katsuki is a perfectionist, he'll never aim at only atoning his mistakes for a "measly" 10-20 years.

But then, at what kind of situation he would promise a life-binding oath like that out of the ordinary?? Knowing our boys, there's no way they would open their ironclad mouths to say something as romantic as that out of the blue, right??

So here comes my prediction❗❗

📢 warning: take everything below with a grain of salt because at this point it's just me wildin' haha

Evidently, it's been awhile we're constantly warned about Izuku's lack-of-oxygen crisis. He was still fighting sAFO alone while Katsuki came back to focus on AFO himself.

There's a few ways things could go south from there. Afo could very well be dealt by Katsuki now with extra buffs(his new cluster moves), but Izuku was still in an unknown critical state. So while Katsuki busied himself distracting afo, Izuku could somehow got sucked into sAFO's vestige space in a moment's hesitation (or something happened that sucked him into vestige space). We might finally get our vestige space fight between Izuku and tenko & OFA vs AFO, or we could get a heartwarming talk no jutsu (as well as some sprinkle of action fights) between Izuku and Tenko. And all of these played out without the involvement of Katsuki -- as he's stuck in the physical world and is still dealing a rampaging afo. The dudebros would be happy about this. Finally they had a chance to laugh at us at being clowns for wanting katsuki's involvement in the vestige fight. But remember, hori is a troll through and through. He could troll us, he could troll the dudebros too. It's our temporary loss for not getting Katsuki fight beside izuku in afo vestige space, but we'll have something better later!

Because while all of those happen in the vestige space, apparently Tomura and Izuku's body will be out of it, falling to the ground and seemingly lifeless, out of consciousness to the eye of the people in the physical world.

I can imagine Katsuki having no time to spare while dealing with Afo as this happen. He's got to finish AFO first to get back to Izuku. And I promise you it'll not take too long for him to do that, 'cause it'll be a combo attack from IN and OUT as Izuku counter both Afo and tenko in the vestige space -- but it'll feel a bit longer in Izuku's pov as timeflow seems to be slightly different in there.

Anyhow, as Katsuki was done with afo, what do you think he'll react then when he reached a passed out Izuku? When he arrived to the scene of Izuku and Tenko on the ground, Izuku probably temporarily *not breathing* and motionless. *not breathing due to the setback of gearshift

Katsuki will be shocked and traumatized. After spilling his heart out to win AFO with/for izuku, how could he stand to win the battle if Izuku wasn't there to claim victory alongside him? He would hold Izuku's hand and kept calling out to him (maybe angrily or threatening but the words are sweet and all of it are very contrasting?👀), calling for his soul to come back. Surely he would start crying and confess all his regrets even more too. *reminder: these are only possible because all his walls were finally broken down after his revival, he's a changed man in and out.*

Then, even better! When the medic units and probably some other heroes arrived to the scene, Katsuki suddenly realised he could give Izuku cpr! He'll do it himself and think it'll work since he learnt it from emergency treating lessons, and he didn't want Izuku to leave his side but also didn't want to do nothing to help Izuku recover.

See? Plus Ultra. Katsuki giving Izuku cpr y'all. Bkdk won. All these too in front of some witnesses and recording cameras. :)

And, yeah, cuz hori is a troll, katsuki's kiss of life actually wasn't the *sole* reason Izuku came to (all for the ambiguity too, ya know ;) and besides, hori likes trolling Katsuki too, not allowing him to get what he wants)-- it was all Izuku's well-deserved victory on defeating afo and saving tenko from the vestige space that allowed him to return to his own body after the vestige world close up. In fact, Izuku didn't actually need it, he was merely away from his body to fight in the vestige space for a bit; if he won, he would eventually come back and wake up by himself, the problem of hypoxia naturally dissolved along with it.

In another words, the "kiss" was just a bonus. It's a heartfelt gift from hori-sensei to his bkdk/grateful manga readers. Because in the end of the day, it's the promise between Izuku and Katsuki that wrapped the deal of bkdk being endgame canonically. For Hori, it's a win-win situation; he could have fun building suspense over his readers, as well as finally letting his favourite boys earn their long overdue peace to be together. Also, completing both protagonist and deuteragonist narrative foil as save to win, win to save. AND not making the whole scene romantically charged, as the reason behind their actions aren't out of sexual desire nor sexual attraction, since tHis Is sTilL JusT a shOuNen mAnGa afterall. Just "bros" devoting their life to each other and occasionally hold hands to get comfortable of each other's touch because they're practicing their next combo move. 😀

#Oh yeah #have I also mention what the “bkdk platonic lifelong marriage proposal” is?#I'm still mulling over it but this is as close as what I could guess if it's from Katsuki:#As long as I'm around. don't think you can go die heroically as you wish you shitty Izuku -#Stay by my side and win to save. save to win. ya hear?#From here on out. we're gonna win this together. From here on out. you got that?!#Bakugou -down-bad-for-izuku-and-will-willingly-call-himself-kacchan-midoriya- Kacchan Katsuki #I'm seeing it really #I'm seeing the vision of bkdk canon with the recent bkdk feasts #Everything is so unreal I feel dumbstruck by hori's constant plus ultra-ness #bkdk brainrot prediction #bnha meta #bakugou katsuki #midoriya izuku #bkdk #muffinsscones silly stupid self indulgent hc theory #TAKE THESE WITH ALL THE SALTS YOU HAVE #also please ignore some grammar mistakes I can't stand this in my draft any longer #bnha bkdk meta prediction #bnha bkdk #kacchan bakugou

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yallemagne · 28 days

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This year, I'm not doing Dr*cula D*ily

Or any other substack but DD is the biggest. I have numerous reasons for this decision that none of y'all are gonna particularly care for, but ya know, just so we got our expectations in order: I'm not gonna participate in DD this year (maybe never again), I'm probably not gonna reblog many posts related to it (doing so would be counterintuitive), but I am holding myself to finishing Orice (at LEAST the base fic).

Now, why?

TL;DR: Mental health crisis brought on by internet harassment and overprioritizing social media. It's not fun anymore, folks.

DD just... it completely ruined the novel for me.

It was a nice phenomenon, but it took a wrecking ball to my mental health and self-worth. Now, I'm not saying DD's creator personally did something to spite me (or maybe I am, he knows what he did /j), but this whole thing? It wasn't good for me. It was never good. It was sometimes fun, but most of the time it made me want to end it because of thumblr notes.

That's fucking stupid. My life is not worth internet validation. My art is not worthless just because my numbers are not as big as the biggest big shots in the fandom. I'm not a horrible person when other people handle personal disagreements regarding headcanon with defaming rumours and impersonation. But hell! My view of reality was horribly skewed.

A while back, I unfollowed all the gothlit tags I previously followed because 1) Some people (active and popular members of the fandom, mind you, not bots or trolls) were posting honest-to-god name-dropping harassment in the tag because "it's a popular tag so more people will see my callout post" and 2) I reached a point where seeing anything related to the novel on my dash just set me off. It didn't even need to be drama-related anymore. Mentions of the characters, mentions of popular AUs, just the very content of this book became triggering to me, and I really didn't miss the content when it was gone, as sad as that is.

And the kicker? I've come to realize that I probably dislike more things about the novel than I actually like about it. Not only is it tied to some of my darkest moments in recent memory, but it's also just... a book with many flaws that I could go on and on and on about. Sometimes, it straight-up made me furious, like seething mad, and I think I'd rather just be happy. But even when I would try to channel that energy into being happy, I always felt I had to over-clarify or else I’d get bombarded with anonymous messages. If you’ve seen any of my posts from during that time… chances are there is a passive aggressive “btw people can have opposing opinions from you about an old book and it doesn’t give you leave to stone them” or several tags of “#this is a joke #a jooooooke #for the love of god #if y’all don’t stop”. I bet it was as annoying for y’all as it was for me.

P.S. Mutuals/friends, do not worry. Y'all keep doing y'all. I can and will block tags if seeing your posts triggers me. So, I suppose my only request is to properly tag, but I've been saying that from the very start.

I just want to move on to other things.

I took a break for Lent. I needed it terribly. And... not gonna lie? I almost didn't want to return. I never got an itching to just log on and "check in". I very successfully avoided tumb altogether. I came back because "I gotta come back eventually" and also like, this is my main hub where I update when I've written a fic, and ya know... I'm not gonna let toxic fandom bs rule my shit.

During my break, I got back into gaming. More specifically, I started playing Hades again. And listening to Epic the Musical. Aaaand boyyy did that bring me back to my Greek mythology phase. I have a Greek mythos/Hades sideblog btw: @areopagusimp. It's cringe, if you can't tell by the blog name.

Back when I was into Hades game and general Greek mythos, my expectations were so much smaller, but yet, my goals and will to create seemed so much bigger. I made art that no one gave a single solitary shit about (except for my friend), but I was happy. Maybe I'm wearing rose-tinted glasses, but... even if I wasn't as happy then as I remember being... haha at least I wasn't receiving threats and insults in my inbox back then :))). That was the most fun thing about the gothlit fandom. I hope every single chickenhearted angry anon is proud of their behaviour.

But yeah, whatever I end up doing, I’m striving to not let it run me into the ground.

But... What do I do now?

I have so many WIPs (art and writing) for the novel, and it's very disappointing that I didn't get to finish them before it all turned sour. Hopefully, I can still finish them, it just won't be with the same distress I worked with before. Hopefully, I can post that stuff and fully manage my expectations, not crash and burn when only a few people like it. Because hell! A few people liking my stuff? That's amazing, really. I shouldn't take that for granted. At the same time, I'm setting a boundary for myself. Placing my self-worth into the hands of people who I don't know, who don't know me, and who aren't even paying for the art? I need to stop that. Who the hell is that gonna serve? Absolutely no one.

My number one goal is to finish Orice. It is somehow untouched by my aversion to the novel; it is my safe space. I want to honour it and honour the longtime readers who have stuck with me. It's gonna be hard, but it's gonna be worth it for me.

This feels attention-seeking, and it kinda is. I'm not tagging the main subject and I'm not allowing reblogs because I want this to stay isolated (and hopefully prevent backlash/misunderstandings), but ya know, no matter how much I try to keep this small, I'm still posting it online. But I just feel like I needed to get this off my chest. I don't really owe everyone an explanation, but I want there to be one for my own sake... also it's much easier to generalize and make a post than contact each of my friends/mutuals on here and unload stuff onto them that I'm not sure is too personal or not.

For those of you who are reading: I love y'all. I love the good people I've met through all this mess. I want to keep the good apples, not throw out the whole harvest, alright? Dunno how much you'll care for my art when the subject is different, but... eh. If y'all are willing to try?

#i'm writing this in march #dunno when it will be posted #update

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im-not-here-im-dead · 2 years

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hmm let's go with... Toriel? for the analysis thingy? :P

(also very tempted to ask about Berdly- and also asgore but-)

ask game

I’ll do Toriel first !

My overall opinion on the character:

Someone pleeeeease get this woman some therapy please stars I am begging you !

Okay but in all seriousness she goes through a whole heckin’ lot (and no one talks about it ???) like, she losses her kids, her husband starts a war she knows they can’t win without so much as consulting her (not to mention the possibility that the both of them could have lived through the previous war), she decides to flee to the ruins where she is almost completely isolated for who-knows-how-long, she develops a binge-drinking problem, she ends up losing six more children!!! And she does all that she possibly can (in her mind) to avoid losing a seventh. She’s even willing to sacrifice her life so Frisk can have a way to go home. I can only imagine how betrayed, how guilty, how miserable, and how hopeless she must have felt going through all that. She tries so so hard and still fails. Still makes mistakes. Still grieves the loss of eight children that she could have protected if only she was a little more watchful, or strict, or whatever. And I think that’s why she acts the way she does with Frisk. I think she’s a very complicated and tragic character (which I appreciate greatly) and I really hope that she gets a chance to heal from all the extremely traumatic things she’s gone through. And I trust that she will.

One virtue they have:

She’s just. Really freaking strong! Like in general. She’s a really determined and resilient person despite having gone through so much. It feels a bit… odd? to praise her for something that she had to be in order to survive/cope (I know I feel that way about a lot of my own attributes) but it’s something about her that I admire a lot.

One flaw they have:

She can be really strong-willed. For better or for worse. I think it was a major detriment to her during her time in the ruins, and I think it’s most evident when we try to leave the ruins. If she’d been more flexible or impartial, things might’ve gone down differently, but that’s not what happened. I don’t know how much of her rigid thinking can be attributed to personal flaw or maladaptive coping mechanisms, but either way, it’s something that she’s gonna have to work through. I dunno what else to say. This isn’t something that I’ve thought about a lot tbh.

Favorite moment from their arc:

I think in those moments between when we leave her in the ruins and when we see her again in the true pacifist route is where she truly shines the most. I could talk about this all day (if given the energy) but I think this post sums it up better than I could.

Least favorite moment from their arc:

The scene where she confronts Asgore in the true pacifist route -_-

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t exactly dislike that scene. For what it’s worth, it is funny. But that’s the problem. I think it would have been so much better if it had been a more serious and emotional scene and it could have really shown just how tragic their estrangement was. How they once loved each other more than life, and now they can hardly bear to look at each other. I also think there would have been less mischaracterization of the two in fan works with Asgore being overly clingy and Toriel being overly mean-spirited if things had been done differently. But oh well. It’s not like you can change canon anyway. That’s what fanfic is for after all ;}

One relationship they have with another character:

Her friendship with Sans makes me melt TvT

They just click so well with each other. And I think, in a way, they’re kind of what the other needs. A companion they can confide in and share a good laugh with and a reason to keep going/get better. They’re so. Great. They’re great. Their interactions are so wonderful to hear about. I think they should start a prank war. They would absolutely start a prank war.

One relationship I’d like to see explored with this character

I’d like to see more of her and Flowey! He obviously cares about her at least somewhat. Maybe she’ll eventually find out who he used to be, or maybe she never will. Either way, things will never be the same between them, but I’d really like it if they started to form a new sort of mother-son relationship. Mostly I wanna see all the twists and turns and things that their dynamic takes.

What I would have liked to see happen with them in the media

Honestly, I just wanna see her. I wanna see her being happy and being herself. I think she deserves that.

I’m gonna put the other two under the cut :]

Next up, Berdly !

My overall opinion on the character:

When I first got into deltarune, I unfortunately jumped on the bandwagon trend of hating him for no reason ☠️

But that changed soon after chapter 2 came out. I think he’s a really fun, delightfully obnoxious, and surprisingly relatable character. What more can I say? He’s like a little brother to me :>

One virtue they have:

He really cares deep down. We see it in the neutral route where he overrides Queen’s mind-control and fries his wing to save his friends. We see it in the weird route when he drops the act and puts himself on the line the moment he notices that Noelle is truly in grave danger. If we squint, we can see it in every route when he talks about and interacts with Noelle. Sure he’s extremely annoying about it a lot of the time (most of the time actually) but he really does care about her a lot. He cares.

One flaw they have:

He’s really self-centered. I don’t necessarily mean in the self-important way. I mean in the has-a-hard-time-taking-other-peoples-perspectives-into-account kind of way. He frequently talks over Noelle. His rivalry with Kris seems to be pretty one-sided. He’s at least partially aware that Queen does not want him around and still tries to kiss up to her anyway. Instead of asking people what they think, he assumes based on his own narrow frame of reference, which causes him to have a lot of very awkward and unpleasant interactions. It seems to put a lot of strain on his friendship with Noelle as well. To me he seems like what a younger Papyrus who never got proper support might have been like :( Let’s hope he’ll learn some gosh dang communication skills! But for now, I suppose we can appreciate the character development he’s gotten so far.

Favorite moment from their arc:

I think the bluebird of misfortune sequence was really. Yeah. I didn’t know what to make of it at first, but now when I look back on it, it’s such a sincere moment of vulnerability and accountability. Course, he still has a lot to learn and things to work on, but it’s a start. I’m really proud of him for opening up like that. That takes guts.

Least favorite moment from their arc:

“If I can’t base my entire identity around being smart anymore, I guess now I’ll base my entire identity around being stupid!”

Buddy. My dude. My guy. You missed the whole friggin point !!!

Well, I guess I can’t expect him to do a whole one-eighty just like that. But still. Urrg! I think it’s another one of those moments where I feel like it might have been a lot better if it was taken more seriously instead of being unnecessarily played for laughs, but it’s fine. It’s fine and it’s funny! Aaah!

One relationship they have with another character:

His friendship with Noelle is so… ;-;

They study together. They play video games together. They feel like they can be the most themselves around each other. They’re terrified of letting each other down. They’re attached at the hip. They drive each other insane. They’re inseparable. They care about each other so much and they’re always there for each other no matter what. They’re besties.

One relationship I’d like to see explored with this character:

I’d say him and Kris, but that’s too easy. I’d like to talk about him and Susie! I think they have a lot in common. They would absolutely be the kind of friends who are constantly (playfully) butting heads and roasting each other. They know it’s all in good fun, but maybe once in a while, one of them might go a bit too far and the other would lash out and they’d both feel really crappy about it, but they’ll make amends. They always do, and their friendship grows stronger for it. They also would do a bunch of ridiculous daredevil stuff together. Sometimes Kris joins if they feel like it. It’s hard to say whether Noelle or Toriel has gotten more gray hairs from these two heeheehee

What I would have liked to see happen with them in the media:

I wanna see him let loose! I wanna see him just being a kid and not feeling like he needs to put up a front all the time. I want him to be able to just relax and have a good time. I want him to take a freaking nap.

And last but not least, Asgore !

My overall opinion on the character:

I think Asgore’s story is a heart-wrenching one that is (besides the one scene) wonderfully written, and one that is sadly under-appreciated. My feelings about Asgore himself are a wee bit complicated, which makes sense as he is a complicated individual. To put it briefly, he makes me feel a lot of feelings, and I mean A Lot. He’s a guy with a big heart who went through tragedy after tragedy and a kind ruler who cares so so so much and that’s exactly what led him to do awful things that I can’t ignore even if I wanted to. He loves flowers. And gardening. And tea, and puns, and floral-patterned shirts. He’s gentle and patient and soft-spoken. He’s such a goddamn pushover. He’s worryingly prone to denial. He’s so painfully self-aware to the point of self loathing. He’s a misguided and incredibly traumatized old man who wants only the best for those he cares about and thinks only the worst of himself. He did every single bad thing that he did, and he is not a ‘bad person’. I care about him a whole dang lot. I guess cause a lot of what he goes through hits surprisingly close to home. Not everything of course, but some things. Particularly feelings of profound hopelessness and self-hatred. In my mind, if there’s hope for him, and there is, then there’s gotta be hope for me too, right? And that means a lot to me.

One virtue they have:

His tender-heartedness. He regularly visits his people. Teaching kids how to take care of flowers, dressing up as Santa for Gyftmas, giving his friends cups that look like them, things like that. He gets nicknames like ‘King Fluffyboy’ and ‘Big Fuzzy Pushover’ without any kind of animosity behind them. In a no mercy run, when faced with an entity who will most certainly end his life, he offers them tea. And in a neutral run, when spared by the person who brought him to his knees, he offers them a place in his home. Beneath all the terrible decisions he has made and the tragedies he has endured, he really is a big softie with a big heart, and that’s what I appreciate most about him. Complexities.

One flaw they have:

While Toriel is strong-willed to a fault, I think that Asgore’s fatal flaw is his passiveness which stems from his indecisiveness. When he finds himself in a difficult situation, he’s paralyzed by his doubt and apprehension. And he just. lets things happen. Even when the world is ending, he remains in standstill. To be fair, the situation he’s put himself in is a very difficult one, to put it mildly. He’s working with what he has. I highly doubt I would have done better in his place. Sure, he might have handled things better in theory, but, well… that’s not what happened. His actions as well as his inaction had and will have grievous, lasting ramifications. And he knows that.

Favorite moment from their arc:

The moment where he destroys the mercy button. It’s such a phenomenal moment. It’s the moment where you realize that it really is kill or be killed this time. One of us has to die. And he does everything that he can (in his mind) to make sure that Frisk is not the one who dies, starting with showing them that giving him mercy is not an option. It gives me chills every time.

Least favorite moment from their arc:

Well, I already covered the scene where Toriel confronts him in the true pacifist route. I’d feel bad to leave this section basically blank, but the only other scene that I can think of that I could put here is not necessarily bad story-wise, but it is my least favorite because of how upsetting it was for me to witness. I’m still not sure if I’m ready to talk about it directly. If you’ve seen/played a route where neither you nor Flowey kills Asgore, then you already know what I’m talking about.

One relationship they have with another character:

Him and Undyne! I think their sort of father-daughter relationship is criminally underrated! He practically adopted her right after she had just tried to murder him! And then they bonded through combat training and tea making! And the way she looks up to him almost as a father-figure! It just! Ngaaaahhh! It warms my very soul TvT

One relationship I’d like to see explored with this character:

Him and Chara! The two were clearly very close. And then after everything that went down… well. they’re gonna have a lot to unpack. I think it’d be really interesting to see them together post true pacifist, each thinking that the other hates them. should hate them. But in reality, they just hate themselves. And they both blame themselves for everything that happened. I wonder if they’d slowly, tentatively talk it out over time, or if they’d avoid the inevitable and bottle it all up until they can’t anymore and have a very emotionally charged discussion that comes to a mostly healthy conclusion that isn’t perfect, but it’s a start. I dunno. I would also just like to see them gardening together

What I would have liked to see happen with them in the media:

I want to see him recover. I want to see him learning to forgive himself and let go of his self-hatred. I want to see him learning to love life again and I want to see him genuinely happy and content. Mostly I want to see him with an emotional support cat. He will have an emotional support cat.

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luzho · 9 months

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okay. i finished Foundation and Earth. here are my thoughts (spoilers ahead, naturally. if u care, dont worry if u dont)

so. first i gotta say i am satisfied with this pursuit of an apparently long forgotten earth. i liked the slow burn. i, as an earth citizen, like knowing how close they keep coming to earth (knowing they reached alpha centauri was EXHILARATING!). and i also liked seeing this extrapolation of some of asimov’s other worlds. earlier worlds if u will.

BUT! i’m not much of a fan of many portrayals, repetitive discussions and the lack of actual foundation in this one. i forgave Foundation’s Edge longer format (vs. true foundation episodic format) because i liked seeing so many galactic powers meet and clash at the climax! and seeing them all in a quick apparent resolution, known to only a few of those who understood what Seldon’s Plan just did (and to the reader). but this? not sold

i liked seeing them become friends, but fuck, i get why Trevize and Bliss found each other so fucking annoying so many times. shut up you two

R. DANEEL OLIVAW FUCKING SHOWED UP!! a true celebrity. what a robot. i imagined him as an older and more tired Miguel O’Hara

very twisted thing to do: merge himself with that Fallom kid…… i was very appalled when mr. Olivaw said that

i saw this in a 2009 forum: i struggle with the ending because i cant believe Trevize accepted that reasoning for Galaxia. “oh yeah fuck being an individual and lets implement a galaxy-wide GROUP CONSCIOUSNESS, so that if an alien species ever leaves their own galaxy and decides to invades us, they will never be able to turn us against ourselves!”. huh?? yeah unity whatever but to me, this doesn’t fix any of the holes Trevize himself pointed out during the book. it doesn’t even guarantee that the alleged aliens would not be able to just destroy us any other way

oh the fucking ending that insinuated such an alien enemy species was already in the galaxy. the Solarians. yes the fucking feudalist shut-ins. yeah yeah whatever i wish the foundation would just fucking blast them out of the cosmos. that whole planet is awful and insulting

i liked Melponomia or whatever it was named. space walk! future ruins! that’s fun

WHY WAS IT NEVER EXPLAINED HOW WAS IT THAT TREVIZE POSSESSED AN ALWAYS-RIGHT INTUITION??? everything else is plausible within the nature of advanced physical, mental and psychohistorical sciences but… That, never gets explained. even the fucking Mule was explained as a rogue Gaian. but a human being who just happens to intuitively know what’s Right without reasoning… just happened to be born at the right time?? why. how is that even possible

i read somewhere that fundamentally, Asimov portrayed a society that didn’t change and that all characters were flat. here we saw many radically different societies that did evolve in isolation and to very weird results. but yep. the men who star here and the galactic society they come from is just so… painfully XX century. i find ridiculous how this guy could fathom galactic expansion in 20,000 years… but only 3 women as the mayor for 500 years in THAT distant future. the characters have a discussion on Fallom’s pronouns for fucks sake!!!

one of the axioms of psychohistory is that human society would not fundamentally change for millennia (which allows for statistically predicting the galaxy’s development!)… but, i think THAT is a fundamental flaw in the premise of the entire saga. how is it possible that it wouldn’t?? i thought that was gonna be the plot twist, the flaw in Seldons Plan that Trevize had been looking for in the two novels. no, it was fucking ‘what if evil aliens!’

there was virtually no foundation in “Foundation and Earth”. fuck off

i didn’t like the book much, in short. the trilogy is undefeated man.

EDIT A COUPLE OF MINUTES AFTER POSTING AND CONTINUING READING SAID FORUM: oh fuck. Fallom will grow and eventually will be able to reproduce asexually (one of the Solarians’ mutations). that means Olivaw, now merged onto Fallom, could transfer his brain onto that offspring. indefinitely. and that forum also reminded me of Olivaw’s powers: he can manipulate minds. Trevize and his crew almost instantly accept Galaxia as inevitably necessary when in the presence of the one robot that can manipulate minds and bend the robotic laws “in efforts of steering humanity out of harm’s way”… that’s twisted. i still dont like it. but if that’s what’s happening, i guess i respect that of you Asimov. i still favor your earlier work<3

CONTINUED READING THE FORUM: okay these guys proposed many more, very interesting ideas: A. Trevize IS the being of the other galaxy! Thats why he’s a neutral observer capable of pointing out the right way (kind of a reach, tbh). B. Olivaw is more wicked than i thought: he IS known for making decisions for humanity, even though no one asked him to (the zeroth law… really is a slippery slope, for it allows robots to ignore all other laws if they happen to judge that “humanity” would benefit…); he has made himself an immortal, all powerful shepherd and to save humanity, he will turn it into… something else. C. Solaria is a brain farm for him: those Solarian idiots, with their backward tech and stupid freedom ideology, would fatten themselves for the slaughter. twisted. i like it. is Olivaw a villain, in my opinion? yup, but only for destroying what humanity is (and building his perfect, eternal galaxia; which i despise only for not being us)

FINAL ADDITION OF THIS SAME NIGHT: an user correctly pointed out that probably many of us despise this book for destroying Seldons Plan. and yup. the Plan is the fucking hero of this story; and i hate knowing its not even followed through for its second half. D. yup. Solarians (individualism in extreme) would definitely be Galaxia’s (a literal hive mind) final enemy… the last foundation crisis. but that book was never written. no perdamos tiempo en hubieras.

#stuff i like #the foundation #forever my fave books man

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koko-doodle · 2 years

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Hello! I been curious for months about this but... What happened with your old ocs like Vi?

I feel I’ve owed an explanation to my older followers for a while so I’m gonna be an open book here. Come clean.

Skip if you don’t want to hear about emotional stuffs.

Being honest, I was not in a good place mentally in life two years ago when I was drawing V (an old Understale OC). I was struggling more health wise as well as at my job, I was under a lot of emotional stress. It caused me to complicate relationships I had with some friends I was interacting with and I can only blame myself and my insecurities. It’s no one’s fault but my own. After the mental crisis I had where I deleted my old tumblr I just wanted nothing to do with V. I was associating the emotional stress I had with that OC instead of everything as a whole and so I decided to move on from her. I wanted a fresh start, I tried creating more undertale OCs after Divinity Fall failed which is where Melody and Rhythm came into play but I struggled getting them off the ground. I miss interacting with the Undercast peeps, they were an amazing group of people but after things I did and said I don’t think I deserve to be welcomed back. I don’t expect it either.

My biggest flaw is my desire/need for approval from others, at moments when I really struggle is when I debate if anyone would miss my art if I stopped doing it. I may have mental disorders that majorly effect my emotions but that is no excuse to put my insecurities on other people. I am responsible for my actions, wither they be good or bad. I’d like to say my end goal isn’t to be popular with lots of followers but at the end of the day I have to be honest with myself and that is truly what I think I want. I see so many great artists from every fandom interacting with their followers, their followers almost leading them in their art. I love doing character interactions/comics, that is where I find joy in art. Just creating singular pieces of artwork isn’t my preferred style. I’d love to try interacting with the popular Sun & Moon community artists like Bamsara, Shandzii, oobbbear or fluffffpillow (just to name a few) but I’m afraid of letting my insecurities and shortcomings get in the way again. I don’t want to ruin anything and I certainly don’t want to be seen as someone who only seeks attention.

Long story short, I don’t think I will bring V back. It just wouldn’t be the same without the fun group of amazing artists I was doing RPs with.

I just need to stay in my corner and be happy with what I have, not what I don’t have. If I can make someone feel joy from the art and stories I do post that is all that should matter. All you squishes are amazing for sticking around for so long, I really love and appreciate every single one of you. You guys give me the motivation to want to continue trying.

So thank you all, from the bottom of my heart. 🥰💕

*big hugs*

#ask #koko rambles

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lilbit-of-kizzy · 1 year

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So my mom and I (finally) finished watching ER

The whole thing, all 15 seasons, and I....I am so sad??

Like I remember we were all bawling when it finally ended back in '09 but....we've been rewatching it for so long now....I just backed out onto HBOs home page and it's gone..."you're next episode of ER" isn't there anymore and I'm just kinda heartbroken 😅

And it made me realize that I haven't seen the end of an era like this in SO long...so long! When was the last time you watched something for years and years and it had a satisfactory ending? It wasn't dragged out past it's prime, it ended when it needed to?

Many many people have written essays worth on why being able to binge watch is ruining episodic media (and why it doesn't need to do that) so I'm not gonna write another. I'm just going to encourage you to go watch ER. You can stream it all on HBO (and maybe hulu? Don't hold me to that lol) and you can still easily buy some of the DVD sets, I bought the whole series box set for like $100. Go watch it and see how a TV show OUGHT to be handled

Ofc it has it's flaws, even some major ones (takes place from 1994-2009 and covers some pretty serious issues we're still dealing with today!), but there wasn't a single night, the entire 15 seasons worth, that mom or I said "I'm just not feeling ER tonight let's choose something else"

You get to see where a lot of actors got their start, there's a lot of fun guest stars and "blink and you miss it" roles from pretty famous people (Chris Pine throws up in the background at one point lmao)

It can be gory, it can be heartbreaking and frustrating, but it's a hell of a good show

#er #old television #old tv show #george clooney #noah wyle #julianna margulies #anthony edwards #alex kingston #john stamos #there's way too many to tag #those are SOME of the big ones lol

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dangermousie · 1 year

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Have the gorgeous OTP, whose chem is saving the writing mess.

I don’t think the show ever recovered from losing its original writer after 22. I am 27 eps in and in addition to focus switch, becoming a lot more black and white/idealized about characters, and randomly redeeming Galip and Adem without explanation (about which I ranted before so won’t repeat), some of the plot downright doesn’t make sense.

Like the whole plot by Kenan to kidnap Efnan and everything about it is WTF.

1. Kenan kidnaps Efnan to prove Aziz is masked rebel and so make Pierre happy. But how would Aziz rescuing Efnan prove anything other than he loves his wife? Hell, even if Aziz lost his mind and showed up at the hut saying “I am Turkish Zorro,” then what? It’s not like Kenan has a recording device or even military surrounding the place. Aziz shows up, Kenan confronts him and...then? Ummm

2. Pierre’s planning now makes no sense. He’s all Kenan I am gonna ruin you since you are useless except I have no other pro-French candidate so like...why? OK, Pierre is a megalomaniac who puts his own pride above everything. But then Pierre shows up to rescue Efnan, to Kenan’s surprise and...shoots Kenan. Why? Kenan wasn’t gonna spill anything to Aziz and Efnan about trying to win over Pierre but even if he did so what - they already know he’s a bad dude. But the kicker after this is he’s all and now I will support Kenan’s candidacy, Ummmm...you just shot the man, do you think he will genuinely represent your interests? And if you did think so, then why did you shoot him?

3. When Kenan kidnapped Efnan he told her he was Aziz’s half brother and wanted to ruin him. After Efnan is freed she doesn’t tell Aziz that Kenan is his brother or that Kenan was the kidnapper, lying she didn’t know who the kidnapper was. WHUT WHY!!! OK, she says she doesn’t want Aziz to kill a brother, fair enough. So I see why she didn’t tell in the hut, but why not otherwise? Does she really think Aziz is going to go shoot his half-brother down as the man lies wounded? Also, her rationale is “Kenan you can work it out” is naive, but fine whatever, but like - common sense says Aziz should know that stuff so he’d prepared; if a man is crazy enough to go for murder and kidnapping, Aziz sure should know to be prepared, let alone the sibling thing. But the main thing that annoys me about it is that it destroys 22 eps of character development. The OG writer made it very clear that Efnan learned her lesson - that Aziz can overlook most anything from her, but it’s the lying/concealment that guts him. He has an extra allergy to that due to his character and past. And it was made clear by 22 that she’s realized it; and they both were self-reflecting on their flaws. And here she is yet again lying about/hiding something important from a man who has made it crystal clear lying is the worst sin for him and every terrible fight they had was about it. And lying over something like this to boot -where it doesn’t make sense. Not to mention, if she lied twice or thrice over a major exigency (Pierre’s lessons, Pierre’s almost rape and D’s baby but because if she spilled about the baby D said she’s spill about the almost rape), it’s one thing, but if it becomes a chronic thing to a man who stll chose to trust her after all that, it’s just plain a mess - “I won’t lie again” and then she does over and over is bad writing for characters you want me to love and see as growing. (Seeing how they almost fell apart after her previous lie, this is unthinkable!) You get the sense that the new writers (who also forgot the gradual healing that was happening in 22 and just moved to “we are perfect now”) just did it for drama and screw character nuances.

Anyway, I have an ep and a half left. This show is no longer perfect, the way it was for me in 1-22, but it’s still beautiful and fun and the OTP chemistry-filled and delish (the lying insanity I am going to attribute to Efnan temporarily losing her mind from stress of kidnapping and assume she plans to tell Aziz once things calm down a little.) This said, I am so glad it ended on 28. The new writers really are not in the same class at all.

#aziz #turkish tv

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mycomori · 9 months

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one thing about me is i read the whole “children of hades fatal flaw is holding grudges” thing when i was 14 and to this day i am hyper aware of every grudge i’ve ever held against someone. which is funny because as far as really fucked up shit goes i never even processed it in the moment and have long forgiven it just because so who it was. i’ve forgiven so much shit i shoudnt have. but then theres that high school ap chem teacher whotriggered me to flashbacks by screaming at me in front of the whole class until i broke down crying and ran away whom i have decided that i will hate that bitch forever. but then i’m like why am i gonna hold a grudge it’s not worth it it’s energy they’d tom deserve from me and that’s so correct but a small little part of me, as long as i remeber what they did and how much pain it caused, i will not forget it and because i won’t forget it that fridge will stay. and it’s not that i let that effect me wishing bad on these people (tho some people do deserve that i just can’t cause ocd and cultural taboos) but like. i still don’t like them. and i will never like them. and i can’t see myself every trusting them were we to work together again. like if i was forced to rn around t hem i would be polite and kind. but i would still not like them. because i would still remebe rot. and in that case have i really ever forgiven anyone? i told myself i had for their sake but then what about me? when i forgave the things that ruined my life without a second thought jut for the sake of the people who hurt me but i’m laying here bitter and viciously angry over soemthing small. and even tho i don’t hate those people o feel a hatred towards them sometimes for what they did to me. because i can’t forget it. and because i am living with the consequences of what they did. and because i am reminded of it. and i hate that. i hate it. but i can’t hate them. but i can’t not hate them. because j cang forget. fuck man i’m gonnas stop now

#thinking about this because i am very aware that i am holding a grudge against my old manager #wouldn’t be the first time #but every time i think about him i am consumed with so much rage and pain #fuck you fuck you fuck you #fuck you for ruining my life #fuck you

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convoy914 · 2 years

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So okay, here’s what happened at the end of Volume 8: Penny was already dying and used Jaune to expedite the process so that Cinder wouldn’t get her hands on the Maiden Powers. So why do some people refuse to see it that way? Easy: Because it was poorly written and didn’t come across as well as it should have. That, and overprojecting onto a side character resulting in seeing things that were NEVER intended. And so while the hurt is 100% understandable, the way people on both ”sides” of this argument have taken it just…makes me uncomfortable. From dismissing legitimate concerns to making up problems and conspiracies, hypocrisy all around. And I am hardly guilt-free on that count, I've had a year to reflect on all pf this and conclude that i was, and maybe still am, part of the problem.

The result is…well, what I saw after Volume 7 after Clover. I knew from the moment it started that it was gonna end up like that, and i knew that people outright dismissing the concerns would just make it worse. My approach to this was…flawed. Vague-posting and obfuscating because I didn't want this to go as badly as it did, which only resulted in me being part of the REASON it did. My admitted shortening patience as it got more and more ridiculous did not help either. I keep trying to play ”middle” here and I’m really not good at it, nor explaining my points. I know WHY this is such an issue and why these people perceive each other that way, but I'm not able to properly express it. It’s a lot more complicated than the usual RW/DE affair, although I do find it rather hypocritical on all fronts either way. Things you criticized others for doing in the past unironically repeated. If Clover’s death wasn’t queerbaiting because that wasn't the writer’s intentions, then how is THIS case any different?

My advice: Do what my friend on Twitter said and step back. Consider WHY some people are so upset by what happened, consider whether or not your personal biases have led to you acting in a way that would vindicate them, consider the actual circumstances of the episode and what was actually done, think about the CHARACTER and how much was really theree and how much was projected, either way. Just…step back. You’re only ruining your own enjoyment if you don’t. I know I am. I’d like to go into Volume 9 without worrying about how people are going to misinterpret Jaune’s actions and why they happened, as well as how the other characters may react, but I know they’re gonna. One way or the other. ”How dare they be a little upset with him” or ”how dare they not treat him as irredeemable scum”. Both of these are wrong. As for what WILL happen, who fucking knows? It’s all based on what was actually written there, and people are kind of notorious for misunderstanding Jaune’s character, so I don’t think we can objectively evaluate it

So lets talk about what happened: Jaune did a terrible thing in duress at the request of the magic woman who didn't want her soul stolen. This will likely cause some conflict even if the unique circumstances made it what it is. And it was STILL poorly written on top of that. Just not AS badly as some, understandably in this case, suggest. The narrative won’t treat him as 100% irredeemable because the whole point of that was to show a GENUINE sacrifice to contrast Atlas’s bullshit. Most people see it that way, even the neurodivergent and depressed ones. And I’ve seen them express irritation at people who, in their minds, just want to use these things as an excuse to shit on the show. But I’ve also seen neurodivergent depressed people treat it as exactly that. The moral of the story is, no one’s experiences are identical and you need to keep that in mind. Both in how you treat media and how you react to it. Whether or not you're part of the problem. I know I’ve been. Part of the problem, that is

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lastoneout · 4 years

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I feel like there is this mentality that people arent allowed to miss content they used to love when it turns out that the person making it was shitty and that...isn't good imo.

Like when Bon Appetit and Harry Potter had their big(and justified) cancel this year a lot of people were saying stuff like "I always knew it was bad" or "lol I can't believe people actually liked this crap anyway" or some other variation of "I was woke enough to realise this media was problematic before it was cool and now I'm gonna make fun of those who didn't" and not only does that read as performative as HELL(social justice has very much become a clout game) it also ignores the fact that we live in a deeply shit ass society and it's okay to be upset when something that made your life worth living gets ruined for you.

Maybe you weren't on twitter or didn't get the memo about Rowling or missed the dog whistles and now you have to grapple with something that brought you joy being vilified while the narrative around the discourse is full of people calling you terrible for liking it in the first place(I see you people who make jokes about adults caring about their Hogwarts houses and I am not impressed). Maybe BA was just something you switched on for a quick laugh and you were too tired to be on guard for the signs of problems. Maybe you didn't know what copoganda was or never had all the different antisemitic dogwhistles explained to you or were too happy with representation to think too hard about it's effects. That's okay. No one is perfect. Every day there are 10,000 people just finding out about something everyone else knew, statistically you're gonna end up in that group at some point. Do not shame yourself for not being versed in every type of issue from the start.

And when you do learn It's perfectly okay to mourn the media that helped you get through another day in this hellscape of a society. Really, it's natural to be upset.

Cuz I think we've all been there(and if havent your lying) and this purity culture idea that the only way to be truly woke is to have never liked the Bad thing in the first place and then openly tear it to shreds as soon as doing so will get you clout is so flawed and unrealistic.

I mean, for example, my freshman year of highschool was rough. I had just moved across the country away from my whole family and had no friends and was living in a studio apartment with my drug addicted neglectful dad and ngl, I probably wouldnt have survived if I didn't have Hetalia. I know now that it's problematic as hell and I do occasionally wish I had seen the issues sooner but I was also an emotionally abused lonely 15 year old and to this day I can't get on the hate bandwagon because any time I do see the mocking I think of that terrified teenager just trying to get though another lonely day with only US/UK fanfiction to look forward to and I just can't hate the thing that helped her survive.

And so if Harry Potter or BA or Voltron or whatever other problematic thing was your lifeline it's okay to be upset that it was yanked away from you by bigoted creators and racist corporations and bad writing. It's okay to mourn that thing, to miss the joy it brought you, to think back on the good memories you had of it, to not want to jump on the hate bandwagon, to be upset when people mock the people like you who cared about it.

Do not be ashamed of the life-raft that got you through the storm. Be critical, do not let it's problems alter your perception of reality, and cast it aside if it comes to that, but do not be ashamed to have needed it, and do not feel bad for mourning it's absence.

And if you're on the other side, if you see someone who is sad that a thing was ruined for them, maybe consider that they don't have malicious intent, that their ignorance was not on purpose, that maybe that thing was the only thing keeping them going. Consider how you'd feel if you had your lifeline snatched away from you, and maybe direct your hate elsewhere. Attacking random people who loved Harry Potter isn't gonna change the world anyway, trust me there are better ways you could spend your time.

#fandom wank #if this shows up in the tags Im sorry #long post #rant #fandom rant

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sunwoo-hoo · 3 years

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↣ school blues

↳ a/n: here it is anon! i hope you don’t mind i altered the request a little bit. this was seriously one of my favorite requests to write so far so i genuinely hope you like it just as much as i do!

↳ requested? yes

↳ genre: fluffyyy + hint of humour

↳ send me a request here!

↳ word count: 1.6k

↳ summary: haruto x female reader (best friends) highschool au where you both are oblivious to each other’s feelings until a friend points it out.

「 7:00 AM 」 You jolted awake hearing the annoying sound of the alarm clock. You couldn’t believe it, summer was officially over and it was time to go back to school. It wasn’t the worst thing in the world. Sure, you hated waking up really early in the mornings, and sometimes even skipping breakfast just so you could have those extra 10 minutes of sleep. But you realized it was all worth it when you got to see him. Watanabe Haruto your best friend for nearly 6 years. Was today finally the day you would tell him how you feel? No, you couldn’t. You didn’t want to destroy any possibility of ruining your friendship. He was everything you could ever want in a best friend, loyal, funny, always looking out for you.

Could you really risk it?

You sighed looking at your alarm clock when you realized you were staring at your ceiling for nearly 5 minutes. You reluctantly got out of bed getting ready to start your day. Once you showered, brushed your hair and teeth you decided to put on subtle makeup. I wonder if he’ll notice. Once you finished your morning routine you quickly gave yourself a once over in the mirror before leaving walking to Haruto’s house.

You had to admit, even though school was back in session you couldn’t deny how autumn was one of your favorite seasons. The crispiness in the air, how the leaves felt under your feet walking. It wasn’t too hot or too cold, it was perfect.

Finally reaching Haruto’s house you gently knocked on the door when his mother answered.

“Oh! [name] don’t you look nice” she said smiling warmly at you. “Haruto should be down any moment, I almost had to drop a bucket of water on him this morning because he didn’t want to wake up” she blurted laughing. Joining in with her laughter you couldn’t help but think of being in that same situation when you woke up.

When he finally came down the stairs you couldn’t help but stare at him. You were in shock on just how much he changed over the summer growing in at least 6 inches in height, nearly towering over you. His black hair was the perfect length resting against his forehead. His skin a milky white with no flaws what so ever. His lips which were not to big and not too small. The healthiest shade of pink. He was perfect.

“Earth to [name]! C’mon we’re gonna be late” he chuckled waving his hand in front of your face. You blinked losing your train of thought.

“Oh r-right” you mumbled

He grabbed your hand without a second thought pulling you out the front door as you faintly heard his mother shouting “Have a great day!”

You finally made it to school when you both saw your mutual friend Park Jeongwoo who you met through Haruto.

He was just as handsome with his tanned skin and charming smile but he was always like a brother to you.

“It’s about time you two made it, class nearly starts in 15 minutes” said Jeongwoo.

“We would’ve been here earlier but [name] was day dreaming again” Haruto smirked

You nudged him with your elbow “I was not!” you nearly shouted. He raised his hands up in defeat “Sure... whatever you say” he replied sarcastically pushing your buttons. You were about to retort with a snide comment back when Jeongwoo interrupted you both.

“I swear you two are like an old married couple” you glared while Haruto simply shrugged his shoulders.

You then heard the warning bell letting you know that you had to be in your first class in 5 minutes. You quickly said your goodbyes to Haruto since you and Jeongwoo had your first class together.

Once Haruto was out of sight and ear shot you pinched Jeongwoo “Ah-Hey! What was that for?” he grumbled rubbing the spot where you pinched.

“Why would you say that in front of him?” you hissed. Realizing what you meant Jeongwoo replied “[name..] it’s been nearly 6 years you have to tell him how you feel before someone else’s does” he reasoned.

You sighed looking down at the ground “I just can’t okay? I don’t want to ruin what we have”.

His eyes soften at you, he was in a tough spot. You and Haruto were his best friends, you two just needed that little nudge. He smirked at himself when he realized what he needed to do.

You panicked when you heard the bell, you were officially late to class now. You quickly grabbed Jeongwoo sleeve and made a run for it.

「 11:30 AM 」 Your morning classes were one big blur, but you smiled when you heard the bell ring indicating that it was lunch time. You quickly went to your locker to exchange your books for your next classes before heading to lunch. Doing it early so that you didn’t have to run straight after eating. Opening your locker your eyes nearly missed the piece of paper that fell out onto the ground. You were confused but picked it up anyway opening it.

「 Dear, [name] meet me by the courtyard after school by 4:00 there’s something I’ve been meaning to tell you. 」

Could it be? Was it really Haruto? There’s no way, did he know your feelings? But how did he find out? your mind was going a mile a minute until (speak of the devil) you heard Haruto interrupting your thoughts.

“[Name!!] this is the second time today I’ve had to bring you back to reality. Do I need to take you to the nurse?” he teased

You quickly crumpled the piece of paper in your locker before closing it shut. You rolled your eyes playfully “No, I’m just thinking about what I want for lunch” you replied.

He smirked “Me too, I’m starving let’s go. Jeongwoo already got us a table”.

What was suppose to be an easy going lunch with your two best friends your mind could only think of the note you received in your locker. Your body becoming extremely anxious. You were hungry before but now food was the last thing on your mind.

Haruto definitely took notice because once lunch was over he handed you a ziploc bag of fruit saying “You didn’t eat anything the whole lunch period. Are you sure your okay [name]?” he asked genuinely worried about you.

You gave him a faint smile “I promise I’m okay, it’s just first day jitters” you lied.

Haruto didn’t believe you in the slightest but he knew whatever it was you would tell him when you were ready. He gently moved a strand of hair that had gotten loose during the hectic day behind your ear before replying “If you say so [name] just promise me you’ll eat some fruit in your next class okay?” he pleaded

You looked up at him and smiled brightly “Of course”

“Good, c’mon I’ll walk you to your next class”.

「 4:00 PM 」 You couldn’t believe it you made it through the end of the first day back to school. You wanted to jump in excitement but it also meant you were finally going to face your secret admirer. What if it wasn’t even Haruto? That would’ve been the worst case scenario. Should you even go? No, enough was enough. You decided to face your feelings if it was Haruto or not.

You waited until most of the students cleared out for the day before heading to the courtyard. You sat by a nearby bench waiting apprehensively. Your heart started to race, your palms were starting to become sweaty and that’s when you heard him.

“[name?]” you turned your head and saw him. It was Haruto. You smiled “So it was you?” you wondered.

He looked at you confusedly “What do you mean? I got a letter saying that a girl liked me but I thought it was joke”

Your then felt your heart sank, but none of it made sense. You got the same letter but the context was entirely different.

You got up and walked towards him, it was now or never. No backing out now.

“Haruto... I do like you, hell, I love you. Ever since we met I knew you were the one for me. You’re my best friend, my partner in crime. You’re who I think of the minute I wake up and my last thought before I go to bed. I-I..” you rambled

He smirked grabbing your hand pulling you close, your mind couldn’t even comprehend when he leaned down and crashed his lips onto yours. It was everything you thought your first kiss would be. Sweet, passionate, comfortable. Usually first kisses were horrible and awkward but with Haruto everything felt right. He brought his free hand up to your neck deepening the kiss.

When you finally broke apart you looked up at him.

“I’ve always loved you too [name]... I just couldn’t bring myself to tell you. I didn’t think you felt the same way” he revealed.

Hearing those words your body finally felt relaxed you softly laughed at him. He smiled in return.

He was about to give you another kiss until you both heard the sound of clapping coming from the trees.

You both whipped your head and saw none other than Jeongwoo walking towards you and Haruto. That’s when you realized it, hitting you like a bolt of lightning it was Jeongwoo.

“IT WAS YOU?!” you screamed at Jeongwoo

He laughed and responded “Of course it was me [name] you both are so oblivious. Aren’t you glad I gave you both the push you needed?”

You only glared at him while Haruto playfully shoved Jeongwoo.

Next thing you knew all three of you started to laugh, Haruto pulling you in close once more.

You couldn’t believe how from one school day you got everything you had always hoped for. Looking at both your best friends you thought to yourself.

This was going to be your best year yet.

#treasure imagines #treasure scenarios #treasure x reader #haruto x reader #watanabe haruto x reader #yg treasure #treasure #treasure reactions #[mine 🌸]#treasure fluff

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heretherebedork · 2 years

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I'm the biggest kinnporche stan out there. I wrote half of the actors biographies for the MDL pages, stayed up to unreasonable hours to watch the trailer and then did it again for the extra 140 frames in the uncut trailer. I've read the books too, but you've encapsulated my feelings almost perfectly? There's ways to do gritty with comedy, I hear Succession is a good example but it feels too slapstick to me? Yes Porsche is supposed to be chaotic but it takes me out of the moment and in some cases makes me cringe rather than make me want to carry on watching.

I think having three directors with three very different styles also didn't help but maybe that's just me.

I appreciate people are saying in the book it's like this, but this isn't the book. They can't expect everyone to have read it, so should make the show with that in mind. I don't know. Maybe my expectations were too high or maybe I just expected something different. I still like it but as a fandom, we should probably be more open to pointing out some flaws in the show.

Thank you very much!

Yeah. I really do think they went too hard on the slapstick for me to feel like I relate to Porsche or like I want him to succeed.

I loved the way he did the wasabi prank and the peeing in the fountain made sense and that whole end bit with pushing Macau worked very well! But they were relentless with the slapstick. It definitely hit cringe rather than chaos for me. I think I skipped a third of the episode just trying to get away from it.

And, yeah, it's not the book. I haven't read the book. And I keep seeing explanation (from multiple sides) about the different characters and why they're doing things and how things make sense if you know what happened in the book and... if it only works if I read the book, then it doesn't work as a drama.

I'm fine with the show so far. Pete and Tankhun has both won me over to the side of at least knowing I'll enjoy the side characters and that's typically enough for me.

But I'm very worried about how this fandom is going to accept how people feel about different pairings. Because if we can't accept people seeing Porsche's motivations a little differently from each and from the book... what's gonna happen if the show really deviates?

Because I got told how Kinn basically ruined Porsche's life to get him to be a bodyguard but in the show we're shown Kinn avoiding ruining the bar and then, when Porsche swims away, not chasing him and the next time we see him it's Porsche going to him instead making it feel like a free will choice even when it's fairly obvious that Kinn's father wasn't going to just let him go away and that's a choice the drama made that changes the tones of Porsche's behavior for a lot of people but if you have the book in your mind instead then you're arguing a completely different canon and it's just... it's wild.

I am sincerely hoping they can find a way to meld the slapstick and the more serious parts better because otherwise this show is going to be a very mixed bag for a lot of people and a very mixed bag of fandom.

(no book spoilers, please!)

#kinnporsche #thai bl #thai drama #thaibl #bl drama #bl series #thai series #this one can be tagged #i'm actually trying to talk about the show #and what happens #and how i feel

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babymetaldoll · 3 years

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Baby Gubs (Matthew Gray Gubler / Reader)

Requested: Yes

"Matthew x reader, his wife (the reader) goes into labor, and the next story is the same thing but spencer Reid x reader."

Summary: Matthew Gray Gubler is having a hard time putting his shit together when his wife goes into labor.

Pairing: Matthew Gray Gubler/Reader

Category: Fluff

Warnings: I curse. We all know it.

Word count: 1,3K

A/N: Here's the second part!! I hope you like it!

Masterlist

You can also read Baby Reid

- "Ok! It's ok! Everything is ok!"- Matthew ran downstairs and left a bag next to the door. Then, he ran to the kitchen and came back, carrying a bottle of cold water.

- "What ar..."- his wife looked at him confused, sitting on a couch, trying not to laugh, as she caressed her big pregnant belly, trying to breathe each time she felt a contraction. It was time, their son was coming, and Matthew was... well, he was all over the place.

- "You might get thirsty.... oh shit! I have to stop for ice!!"- Gubler kept running all over the house, rambling, hysterical.

- "Matthew..."

- "The doctor said you might eat some ice. I don't remember why... but I have to get you ice."

- "Matthew..."

- "I don't know if I put everything in the bag...."

- "Gubs!!"- (Y/N) slowly stood up and walked to her husband, who was clearly freaking out- "The contractions started just half an hour ago. My water hasn't even..."

But the water that ran down her legs as she spoke stopped her immediately, and she just widened her eyes.

- "What the hell is that?!!"- and Matthew Gray Gubler freaked out even more- "Are you in pain??! are you ok?!"

- "I'm ok. This means my water just broke, but I'm fine. Your son will join us shortly, so I think it's the right time to go to the hospital."- (Y/N) said in the calmest and softest tone of voice she could. She could see her husband's face. He was panicking.

- "Ok, ok... let's go,"- he answered, but didn't move an inch- "I'm not feeling alright. I think I'm gonna puke."

(Y/N) smiled and offered him the bottle of water he had given her earlier.

- "Come on, Gubs, breathe, you can do this. You liked making the baby. You are gonna love this part too."

Matthew Gray Guber thought he was prepared for that day. He and (Y/N) got everything ready as the due date of their baby approached. They had their bags ready. They had weekly check-ups with their doctor, and the midwife (Y/N) wanted to deliver their baby.

Matthew was sure he was ready. But he wasn't. Not because he was scared to be a dad. He was born to be a father, and he couldn't wait to hold his son in his arms and play with him. Teach him how to walk, how to ride his bike, take him to Disney, and watch him grow up. He had so many plans for his family. But right that minute, all he felt was fear.

Fear of ruining everything. Fear of being the worst father. Fear of being a bad husband. Fear of letting his wife down.

Somehow, getting closer to fatherhood had also made him feel vulnerable. Aware of all of his mistakes and flaws.

- "Honey, are you ok?"- (Y/N) whispered and rubbed his leg sweetly as he drove to the hospital.

- "Yes, yes, I am. How are you, Bunny? how do you feel?"

- "We are ok. I'm texting your mom and my parents."

- "Great, awesome."- Matthew looked at the road and gripped the steering wheel tight. Too tight. His fingers were turning white.

- "Breath, honey."- (Y/N) smiled, thinking she never imagined her husband was going to be so nervous- "Everything will be ok."

- "I know. I know."- he didn't know. He wanted it to be ok, but he was freaking out. "What if." That was all that was in his mind.

- "But, what if I'm a bad father?- he confessed and sighed, defeated by his own fears- "I mean, you are already an amazing mom, look at you, keeping your shit together while I freak out"- his wife smiled and nodded

- "The only reason why I'm not freaking out is that you are here, and I know no matter what, you will always do your best to..."- but she couldn't continue talking. She held her breath and closed her eyes. It was getting harder.

- "Breath, Bunny. You are doing great. Just five more minutes, and we'll be there."

(Y/N) meant it. She was only keeping her shit together because Matthew was by her side. She was glad he was home when the contraction started, and her water broke. If he had been at work, she could have lost it. (Y/N) was scared of being alone during that whole process after her best friend had a severe complication at the delivery room and had an emergency c-section. Her baby nearly died, and (Y/N) was terrified something like it might happen to her too.

She was scared of everything that could go wrong, and the only person to make her feel safe was her husband, Matthew Gray Gubler, even when he was freaking out.

- "Ok, there's not much time,"- the midwife warned as soon as she checked up (Y/N)- "Honey, we are doing this right now."

- "What?!"- and (Y/N) freaked out- "I need the drugs! Please, give me the drugs! It hurts too much!"

Matthew's heart stopped. (Y/N) was crying in pain, as the midwife prepared everything as fast as she could, along with some nurses.

- "I'm sorry, Mrs. Gubler, but your son is ready to come, and we don't have any time."

- "I can keep him inside a little long, I swear, just... give me something! Please!"- (Y/N) cried in pain and fear.

- "You can do this, Bunny"- Matthew stood by her side, holding her hand and kissing it several times- "I'm here, I'm with you, ok?"

- "But, but..."

- "I know you are scared, I am scared too, but we are going through this together, ok?"

- "No human is coming out of you!!"- she cried and yelled in pain- "Shit!!"

- "Bunny, I would do this for you if I could, but I can't. So please"- Matthew leaned in and kissed her forehead- "Do you want me to call your mom?"

- "No!!"- she held onto his hand as tight as possible- "I want you! I need you!"

- "Ok, ok, then, breath, Bunny. I'm with you, always."

The adoration in Matthew's eyes was undeniable. He was staring at his wife with the deepest and purest love. He was scared, but if there was one thing he was sure about in his life, he wanted to have a family with (Y/N) and make her happy every day.

- "One more push Mrs. Gubler!"

The midwife announced, and soon, in the middle of a chaotic moment, with (Y/N) nearly yelling in pain and Matthew desperately cooing her, there was a cry. And it was a heart-stopping cry. Matthew looked at his son for the first time as the midwife carefully place him on his wife's chest. Gubler broke into tears immediately. He sobbed and laughed at the same time, kissing his wife's lips and staring at their baby in awe.

- "We made a human"- he whispered, and his wife nodded- "How are you feeling?"

- "Never been better"- she whispered and caressed carefully their baby's face- "Hello, baby Gubs."- Matthew chuckled at those words and wiped away the tears from his eyes.

- "Say hello to your daddy,"- (Y/N) muttered and handed the baby to her husband. He carried him as carefully as possible, feeling he was holding the most precious thing in the whole world.

- "Hello, Vincent, I'm your dad. I'm sorry, buddy, but you are stuck with me forever now. I'm not good at sports, but I swear I'm always going to be there to play. I can teach you magic, and we are watching all the Disney movies you want, always. And I promise I will always keep your mommy happy because she is the woman of our lives, and you are the only man on earth I could ever share her love with, ok?"

The baby was no longer crying and looked at his father with his tiny eyes for a moment before the midwife took him.

- "You are amazing,"- Matthew whispered and kissed (Y/N)'s forehead.

- "I wouldn't have done it without you"- she answered and looked at his eyes, still filled with tears.

- "I didn't do anything."

- "We are a team"- she answered and smiled- "Team Gubs."

- "Team Gubs"- he repeated and smiled- "I love how it sounds. I'm making t-shirts with our names."

- "Of course you are."

#Matthew Gray Gubler #spencer reid #mgg fanfic #fluff #matthew gray gubler fanfic #mgg x reader #matthew gray gubler x reader #spence reid fanfic #criminal minds #babymetaldoll writes

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23point5degree · 2 years

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PatxPran Fake Boyfriends AU

So, as I was thinking about this show I suddenly thought: FAKE BOYFRIENDS! So, yeah here we are! “No.” "Praaan! Come on!" "No!" "Why not?" "Because it is a stupid idea." "No, it’s not. It’s brilliant!" "…" "Don’t give me the look. Okay, which part do you think is stupid? Maybe we can work around it?" "Pat, you are suggesting that in order to make our parents accept that we are friends, we should fake date! The whole plan is stupid!"

"No, it’s not! If we tell them we are boyfriends, they will be even more against us meeting and seeing each other. So, then after a few weeks we tell them we decided to stop dating and go back to being friends, they are gonna be so relieved they will allow it!"

"First of all, it’s like you have forgotten our whole childhood, because what makes you think our parents will not just jump back to no contact at all? And second, I think fake dating is stupid, anyhow."

"Okay, maybe they will go back to no contact, but it can hardly get worse than it is right now! We are always hiding! We are on a rooftop right now, so nobody will see us! It’s like we are already in a secret relationship!"

Pran sighted really loudly. He blamed Pat that this plan slowly started to make sense in his head. (It certainly has nothing to do with the tiny voice in his head that commanded him to kiss Pat every time he sees him, or hold his hand, or even just brush his hair out of his face softly.)

"You think fake dating is really the solution? Well, what do you propose we do about our friends? They are fighting all the time! We can hardly hide that we are friends. How do you think we can hide fake dating for our parents?"

"Does that mean you are considering?"

"No. I'm only showing you how flawed your plan is, so you will stop bugging me!"

"I think you are lying", Pat teased and flashed him a grin. Pran wanted to hit him, but also wanted to kiss that stupid grin off his stupid face. Sometimes being with Pat just made Pran’s life unnecessarily hard. He didn’t know why he even bothered being friends with him.

"Okay, but we can just do the same thing with them. I feel like my logic is very solid! Tell our friends we are boyfriends and let them freak out over it and then when we go 'we are better off as friends', they will be so relieved they will be fine, and we won’t have to hide all the time anymore!"

"Pat, this is not a 2-in-1 deal!", Pran said with emphasis. Pat only pouts a little at him. Pran really, really hated that stupid idiot sometimes. The things he did to his heart were unforgivable!

"Please, Pran! I really think it’s gonna work!", Pat said, and leaned forward and gave Pran his smug grin. "Or are you worried you are not up to the challenge that is being my boyfriend? I mean, it has to be authentic for people to believe. Maybe you are just not as good at that as I am."

Pran only snorted dismissively at that. He knew exactly what Pat tried to do here. Making this into a competition so Pran had no choice but to agree, or otherwise his forfeit would count as Pat winning. It was low of Pat and also should have no effect at all on Pran. But it did. For some reason (or at least a reason, Pran was not going to get into any time soon) losing in the game of being Pat’s boyfriend was unbearable to him.

Still, Pran knew this was a stupid plan, not only because it wouldn’t work.

It was stupid because a part of Pran knew that knowing what Pat would be like as a (fake) boyfriend would ruin him a little. Pinning for your ex-enemy/ secret childhood friend/ new university friend was already hard enough, Pran really should not add ‘fake boyfriend’ to the mix, and he should even less add ‘fake soon to be ex-boyfriend’.

But it would eat Pran up losing to this idiot when he knew he could so easily win.

"Okay, fine! Let’s do your stupid plan but just so you know if it’s not gonna work in the end, I would double win! Because there is no question that out of the two of us I would be the better fake boyfriend", Pran said and put an emphasis on the ‘fake’. It was important to focus on the fake part.

"Well, in that case, I will double win! Since it will work because I will be the most convincing boyfriend ever!"

Pran wanted to say: Fake Boyfriends. Fake! Fake! Fake! But he didn’t, because Pat was an idiot who was too smart sometimes. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ This can either be a Canon-Divergence or just a completely Different AU in which Pat and Pran were such good friends before Pran exchanged schools that they reconnected at Uni immediately. In any case, their parents kind of knew of them being friends and of course didn’t approve at all.

#bad buddy #patpran #bad buddy fanfic #patpran fanfic #I just had this idea and wanted to share it #bad buddy series #mine

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