So I was re-listening to the tailor of enbizaka the past few days (and forgot this blog lmao)

Knowing what I know about the Envy saga as a whole I’m glad that Mothy didn’t fully went with the yandere theme. Sure, yandere is unsettling and creepy but knowing that Kayo was actively doing these murders knowing what she was doing but pretending to be an insane mistress just gets me.

Idk I just think that’s creepier and subversives the expectation of a song about the sin of envy. I just think it’s neat.

Well here we are. I've lost 101 pounds and I feel weird. Not in the way like the time I lost 70 pounds and felt it wasn't real. No this feels very real, I know I lost 101 pounds. I guess you could say I'm emotional about it, but I can't really describe how I'm feeling in my mind. I'm proud of myself of course, I just feel weird. I told my parents about it because they knew from the beginning why I want to lose weight. To improve my quality of life, for my health. Thankfully I was never immobile but at my heaviest weight it did prevent so much in my life. From not being able to walk completely around the neighborhood, to having limited clothing options, to not being able to fasten a seatbelt in an airplane. To hardly having respect for myself. To never feeling beautiful.

I also did it for the potential future in that, one day I do want to get married and have kids, and it would be really nice to actually play with any future children I have. Go on family adventures, weekend camping trips, exploring museums, trips to the park, long aimless walks with the husband while the kids do their weird quirks in front of us and we remind them to slow down and not go too far ahead of us. Lol that sounds very far ahead to me right now considering where my life is currently at with how crazy my schedule is right now. In a way it ties into quality of life for myself. As I lost more and more weight though I started coming up with more reasons. Some of them are small like buying more clothes, some of them are random like being able to run a 5k haha. Some of them are big goals such as losing 100 pounds, or no longer having to shop in the plus size section of any stores (which I'm close I can buy shirts now outside of the plus size section and I believe I'm almost there for pants!).

I know these posts are so random because I try not to talk about it. I like to keep this private for various reasons. I guess I just don't have a lot of people I can really speak about this to, outside of my parents, without them getting uncomfortable or odd about it. I just want to be happy about it because I'm proud of myself. So here I am!

AHHHH I LOVE THE CHANGE🧡❤️‍🔥🧡❤️‍🔥

I told u orange would look good!👍🏾👌🏾

Thank you so much! I love the orange too! It's so fitting for the Autumn season! 🥰

BTW... PSA.... even if we arent mutuals if youre in my notes regularly theres a Very high chance i am still fond of you. yes im vaguing someones tags on the compliment the person u rbed this from post. but like. positive vaguing? THE POINT IS im weird abt following ppl but IM STILL SENDING U FOND VIBES...

How do you become a gimmick blog?

step 1: think of a gimmick

step 2: blog

noticed a dip in posts about palestine on my dash, so i think it deserves to be said again: palestine is not a trend. caring about genocide is not a trend. there are still reports about humanitarian aid trucks intentionally blocked off from gaza, meaning so many fucking gazans, a big portion of them children, are just bleeding out with no help. it just came out recently that israelis disguised as women and medics infiltrated a west bank hospital, at which point they killed 3 palestinians (whom they claim were militants. right). these people are living day to day without even the most basic utilities. anyone who claims to have “activism fatigue” needs to question why they’re so severely lacking in the most basic forms of compassion. you don’t get to just grow bored of talking about palestine. please never stop calling attention to the genocide happening full force in front of us.

I shall go and unload everything from my phone starting may and continue uploading my up to date walkies here.

Mostly same stuff.

Thats how I meditate, since I cannot escape.

If a transgender person asks you to deadname and misgender them in front of certain people. Misgender them and deadname them in front of those people. It doesn't matter how icky or gross it may feel, it doesn't matter you'd rather be honest. It doesn't matter if there's more of you there. Certain people aren't safe, and honesty IS NOT the best policy when honesty could put them at serious risk. It doesn't matter if there's a crowd, because when there isn't shit goes down.

Be an ally, do what they ask. Understand that the trans person knows more about their situation than you do, and this includes who's safe and who's not. Some one can be "trans friendly" to other people, but not to people they know or specific people. Do as the trans person asks, yes it's uncomfortable, but it's 10 times worse if the person we don't trust finds out. 100 times worse if they have access to us when you're not around.

Respect trans peoples safety. Misgender and deadname when asked.

(if you don’t mind reblogging this post, that would be groovy ^_^)

Turn on "prevent third-party sharing" in your settings!

Go into your settings, click on your blog name, scroll down and enable "prevent third-party sharing". I'm gonna be honest, I question how much/if this even prevents any AI bullshit, but do it just in case anyway.

Edit: On Mobile it's the Settings Gear, Visibility, Prevent third-party sharing.

You have to turn that on for all your blogs separately.

It still feels weird knowing that my semester is over. At the same time though I feel great because I worked hard and I did really well overall. I’m really proud of myself for taking a big step academic wise. I’m excited to see what happens going forward. 😊

Ooh, u should make ur blog themed around her/color palette. It is autumn 🍂 and I think ur blog will look so beautiful in different shades of orange and scarlet amber

Just an idea 💡

You know- I was thinking about changing up the whole theme :3 I love my pink/Sakura blossoms, but it’s fall! It’s time for a change :D

Great idea friend!

Some tips and tricks on how to spot scam accounts in general. This isn’t a detailed explanation as I have more info on my other blog but here is some general things to go by and what to look out for overall.

The pinned post is only a few days old or even a few hours old. The text may occasionally be multicolored for the link.

The ask they sent you seems catered to a specific issue or event and looks very odd if you read it throughly. Text might seem out of place or make no sense at all by a health standpoint.

They sent you an ask after following you and have no prior interactions and isn’t someone you’ve met before. This is usually prompted when interacting with a trending post or sharing a post related to certain topics.

The blog doesn’t have very many posts. It’s usually limited to a few posts from a trending tag, a popular topic, or catered to pass at a simple glance if you don’t scroll far enough down. Most posts are made the same time as the pinned and shared seconds apart.

Even if your bio says no aid asks, the account will send you one anyway because they don’t read or don’t care they just want your money and will keep spamming asks until you share the post or block them.

Sometimes the same ask is sent from multiple accounts all using the same story and setting as the account that sent it to you at a different time. Any errors in the text don’t get fixed and it’s usually a quick way it’s a scam.

The accounts usually base their blogs overall theme around whatever is going on at that moment more often then anything else.

Sometimes the ask is about sharing their pet aid post. Any images used may be stolen off somewhere else so it’s advised to ask them questions back and see what they can tell you and if it matches.

On occasion they’ll say to answer privately because they don’t want anyone else to see the ask.

In general, most strangers asking you for money in your inbox found you from searching tags and you need to check and ensure their being honest as scammers unfortunately exist. Not everyone asking for money is a scammer! Just do your research.

Sometimes I feel like I post too much and then I see other people with indicators in their bio as to whether they’ve hit post limit when I have literally never once hit post limit and I’m like alright. I’m probably good I think

new type of person just dropped. who even does this. what's going on here

This post is your reminder that you are not obligated to blog about current events.

Things are bad. Really bad. Do not let people guilt trip you into tormenting yourself even further over the fact that things are bad. Doomscrolling is not activism.

If you're just on tumblr to blorbopost or reblog pretty pictures, you are not harming people by inaction.

You are not a bad person for not dedicating every aspect of your life and leisure space to whatever disgusting mask-off attack on human life and dignity some government has decided to enact.

Take action where you can, but don't confuse doomscrolling and digital self harm for action.

If you need to lose yourself in blorboposting, go for it.

If you need to log off for the day, whether it's to take irl action or to protect what little sanity any of us have left over the past 7 years, then by all means, do.

Morale is important. Hope is important. Small joys keep us from burning out completely in times like this. Do not let any "if you don't reblog this I'm judging you" guilt trip convince you otherwise.