drmariannemiller

New year, new me? 🤔

Diet culture might use that common saying to make you believe now is the best time to change your lifestyle.

It’ll make you believe that the answer to “new year, new you” is some diet.

But what’s wrong with the current you, anyway?

Before you jump on to the latest fad diet, take some time to sit with the question of why you want to go on a diet in the first place. Is it because you want to change something about you? Are the voices your own or that of diet culture?

Growth is beautiful, but don’t force yourself to change something about yourself just because society (and diet culture) tells you to.

Chapter 3, Part 1/2

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I have been binge free for 22 days now. I can’t remember the last time I didn’t binge in 22 days. I am so proud of myself. Today was difficult. I think I was tired, which can trigger my binges. I ate some ice cream on purpose, just to not feel restricted. Afterwards I also ate some oreos and there I felt my control slip away. It wasn’t a lot of oreos, maybe 5 that were left in the packaging? However, after that I definitely wanted to binge.

I was able to chill tho. I realized it wouldn’t make me feel better. I didn’t beat myself up for eating sugar again. I also took care of the thing I was procrastinating (probably also a trigger) and then accepted that I am tired and need to rest. And that it’s okay to rest.

3 months in #edrecovery treatment! Yesterday was my last day in program. I am not the same person I was when I went in there. It’s been 2.5+ years I’ve been in #edrecovery . It took me over a year from originally being referred to to #edtreatment to finally initially call to set up treatment. Having an #eatingdisorter is life consuming. Very much physically and mentally. I didn’t know what being #metabolicallystable felt like till working the program. I don’t have the same image of myself anymore. #recoveryispossible !!! It very very much so is! ❤️ These are letters I was given by other clients and staff on my completion day. I read them before typing this blog. I don’t usually get emotionally moved that easy, or I didn’t in the past. I felt the energy in all the words written to me. I am so thankful for the support I’ve had through my #recoveryjourney ! Even ate my worse moments and breakdowns, my heart wasn’t abandoned or let down. My spouse, one of my biggest supports, has grown with me through my own recovery. I’m grateful for all the people who have loved me and held my hand through these last few months. ❤️ #edrecoverywarrior #edawareness #edrecoveryquotes #eatingdisorderhope #eatingdisorderawareness #atypicalanorexianervosa #atypicalanorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexiaawareness #bingeeatingrecovery #disorderedeating #mentalhealthawareness #nonviolentcommunication #bestself #foodishappiness #recoverywin #eatingdisordersupport (at Willow Glen, San Jose, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch_cPYJOHeO/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

today I ate pretty badly. just to be honest with myself I'm listing it out: big bowl of kraft macaroni for breakfast, 15 Pringle chips in the car, lunch out with my dad lasagna piece with strawberry cobbler, three cups of coffee with lots of cream and sugar, and for dinner two potatoes with butter, cream cheese, and mozzarella cheese mashed.

reflecting I would never give this food to someone I was trying to help lose weight. kraft Mac and cheese was too much and in general a poor choice for breakfast, I should have never have bought Pringles and it's bad that I ate them while driving without thinking about it. choices for lunch reflected low vegetable choice, desert was okay I only at 1/3 and didn't overeat it. dinner was a symptom of what was in the house.

behavior moving forward: find a breakfast and stick to it, don't buy junk food, don't eat in the car, when eating out choose the vegetable option, have healthy quick dinner food in the house, cream only in coffee.

Saturday May 6th ✅

Une petite glace et le reste clean. Ça se passe, pas trop de temptations mais j’y pense quand même.

Emotional eating can be a tough habit to break, but with a little mindfulness and a few superfoods, you can start to nourish your body and heal your relationship with food. Say goodbye to the junk and hello to foods that make you feel good, like leafy greens, berries, and healthy fats. You've got this! 🌿🍓💪

lol I literally just logged my total for the day so far then checked the time! 😂 but this is breakfast plus snack which was tuna and a super small amount of light mayo.

People with binge-eating disorder frequently consume unusually large amounts of food and feel unable to stop eating.

Záchvatovité přejídání je považováno za nejčastější poruchu příjmu potravy ve Spojených státech a po celém světě tímto onemocněním trpí miliony lidí. Ačkoliv hlavní podstatou této diagnózy je jídlo, záchvatovité přejídání se charakterizuje jako psychologické onemocnění a k jeho překonání nestačí pouze “pevná vůle”.🤔 Lidé s diagnózou ZP zažívají epizody konzumace neobvykle velkého množství jídla, i přesto, že nemají hlad.🍎🍕🍟🍝Po takové epizodě pak většinou cítí silný pocit viny nebo studu. Pravidelné záchvaty přejídání mohou vést k nárůstu hmotnosti, což může dále vést k dalším onemocněním jako je cukrovka a různé srdeční choroby.🫀 Naštěstí existuje spousta strategií, které můžete vyzkoušet – jak sami, tak s pomocí profesionála – k postupnému omezování epizod záchvatovitého přejídání.📉 V biu link na cely článek❤️‍🩹✨🤗 . . . #clanek #zdravestravovani #bed #bingeeatingrecovery #zdravyzivotnistyl #jidlo #eatingdisordercommunity #ed #edrecovery #healthiswealth #selfhelp #zachvatoviteprejidani #tip #tipyatriky #bio #linkinbio #article #healthyfood #foodstagram #healthyliving #healthyeating #heal #stress #stresseating #junkfood #journaling #community #stop #info #healyourself (v místě Prague, Czech Republic) https://www.instagram.com/p/ChkmdPRtWJ6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Rachael goes to her dentist appointment to get a root canal and gets great news! She gives her recovery update and also learn some awesome hair graffiti techniques!! 🦷⭐️🌈🦄 CLiCK THiS: https://youtu.be/ #anorexia #anorexiarecovering #hairgraffitiartist #arttherapy #bradmondo #dentist #dentalwork #selfcare #caregiving #ocd #ptsdawareness #pridemonth #recovery #recoveryispossible #yendor #starhair #hairstyles #bingeeatingrecovery #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #posttraumaticstressdisorder #inspiration #healthspiration #unicorn #rainbowhair #rainbow https://www.instagram.com/p/CgYkIkJubZN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

drmariannemiller

Guess what? I got through the new year with NO promises of dieting.

It’s another year to let myself have food freedom and food neutrality.

It’s another year to practice an anti-diet mentality.

It’s another year of loving myself. Completely.

And it’s pretty darn awesome!

What will this year look like for you?

You deserve to eat! 💜 whatever the ed is saying you!💜

#prorecovery #bodypositive #fearfood #mentalhealthmatters #recoveryisworthit #ednos #ptsd #eatingdisorders #intuitiveeating #bingeeatingrecovery #eatingdisordersupport #edmemes #edfam #loveyourself #anorexiarecovery #memes #recoverywarrior #anorexiafight #edfamily #eatittobeatit #healthy #eatingdisorder #anorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #edrecovery #recovery #depression #ed #anxiety #bulimia #mentalhealthawareness #anorexiarecovery #bingeeating #mentalillness #anorexianervosarecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #bulimiarecovery #edwarrior #recoveryispossible #anorexiafighter #selflove #food #anorexianervosa #edfighter #recoverywin #selfcare #bodypositivity

Don’t they though! . . . . . . . . . . #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #edawareness #eatingdisorderecovery #eatingdisordersupport #edrecoverywarrior #mentalhealthrecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #restrictiveeating #anorexicrecovery #carbsarelife #recoverymeal #eatingdisorter (at Willow Glen, San Jose, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cfu-L8sLNK1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

cw: 343 lb

first goal weight by April 1st 340lbs

height 5'10''

plan for avoiding binge: feeling negative feelings and putting effort into getting ready for my new job. Cleaning my space and cataloging my feelings and thoughts.

Friday May 5th ✅

Shokobrotchen, cappuccino and Khaled’s biscuits. All felt reasonable. Maybe I’ll go running a bit. It’s alright.