one is crying over the troubles of true womanhood and the way we’re hindered in society and always pressured to fulfill contradictory standards under the gaze of men,
and the other just cannot stop talking about horses
Summer Series of Saves: Why the Barbie Movie Made Me Cry (spoilers)
Listen, I am a recovering mess right now. This year has been personally hard; it began near the New Year with my husband being laid off, then my father passed away, then my father-in-law, and my bestie is moving, and between grief and being stressed about money, it’s been rough.
But there is hope in pink.
via GIPHY
I didn’t have to talk my husband into seeing the Barbie movie, he went gladly.…
Both fantastic movies in ways i completely did not expect. Barbie is a beautifully surreal exploration of themes of feminism and existentialism and finding oneself and the continuing process of coming of age. Oppenheimer is a masterwork of dramatic irony and tension that uses light and sound in ways that make it absolutely worth seeing in theater.
when barbie said it’s ok to be a mess sometimes and u can be successful in life or maybe u still don’t know what u want in life and that’s ok and when barbie said that part of growing up is feeling like all the things u liked before r silly or don’t make sense so ur taught to hate them and mock them yet ur still free to connect w ur girlhood, there is always a little girl inside of us wanting to be let out and u can still let urself dream and have fun but u have to take it easy on urself every once in a while and when barbie said to girls u can do anything and so girls took that as inspiration but the truth of the matter is that there r still too many obstacles for girls and womanhood teaches us to hate ourselves bc we can never be perfect or we can’t strive to be everything that we wanted but what do u want really and when barbie said that the only way to truly have peace w urself is if u know urself and for that u have to be patient and take it one step at a time and the only way to do that is to embrace change and all the dark and glittery things abt u and others but also connect w ur roots and what made u hope and dream in the first place….and when barbie said sometimes u have to go to the gynecologist. yeah.
having genuine chest pains thinking about kiriona asking "do you love her?" because she just wants to know if harrow is alive. and if harrow's frozen girl loves her back. because even though she has teeth now where her heart should be as long as harrow is safe and has what she wanted thats all that matters to her
babe are you okay you've been crying to What was I Made For? by Billie Eilish for the past hour and reflecting on being raised a girl and as an adult realising you might not be a girl but also connecting so deeply to the feminine experience because you were raised a girl after all and relate to the beauty but also struggle and pain of it
i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.
i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please
i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light