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dontyouworrydaddy · 1 year

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I should let you go

Leon Kennedy x fem! Reader

summary: Leon was sure you were dead. He held you till you took your lost breath. So why are you alive now? Why can’t you remember him?

warning: violence, angst, mention of death, blood

“This has to be a sick joke” Leon whispers as soon as he sees you. He doesn’t get it. How can you be alive when you clearly died in his arms years ago?

“Please don’t leave me” Leon desperately says as he clutches you to his chest, refusing to let you go. But you lost way too much blood. You shouldn’t have been so stubborn and accepted help but you wanted to prove yourself. You wanted to show him that you didn’t need anyone to look after you. But this clearly went wrong and now you’re dying. You lost way too much blood and you don’t even know where your left side is. All you can focus on is Leon. You want him to be the last person that gets to hold you and you want him to be the last person to talk to you. But with your last energy you push him away from you since the building is gonna explode soon. He looks at you shocked. “I love you Leon. But please run and live before it’s too late” you tell him and see him standing up. He is clearly hesitating and before he runs off. He kisses you and tells you that he loves you. And then he starts running. You cry now and you’re making yourself ready to face death. But before death can even get you, you feel someone picking you up. And those hands are unfamiliar….

You‘re now standing in front if him, looking very much alive. But there is something about you that makes you look so unalive. Like you’re not really living.

“Y/N. My dear-” before he can finish his sentence, you run and attack him and he is defending himself. He is completely confused. Are you mad at him for leaving?

“She doesn’t know who you are. Well… Maybe she does but she can’t control her body.” The enemy appears from behind you and you quickly get back again, standing next to him. You clearly don’t look human.

“I bought her back to live. And let’s say it wasn’t very… how can I put it in words… pleasant? A few years of torture and isolation. She was very lonely in a room with no windows just her bed and herself for 5 years. That must‘ve been very very shitty.” the enemy laughs and you just stand next to him, not reacting.

“I know you’re somewhere in there. Please snap out of it” Leon yells at you but he doesn’t get any attention from you. You didn’t even blink. You did nothing.

“Well Y/N, I allow you to welcome your friend. Go and kill him and be back home afterwards” he says before he leaves you to kill Leon.

Leon won‘t do anything to hurt you. He will let you hurt him if he doesn’t react close enough. He doesn’t want to harm you.

You’re still the woman he loves. The woman he had his first everything with. The woman he wanted to marry and have a child with. He never wanted to be a father but when he met you… he changed his mind.

As you kept attacking him he tried to talk to you and tell you that you still can control yourself.

“Baby please. Remember the first time we kissed. You were nervous and kept hiding your face with your hair because your face was red” it doesn’t seem to work. Nothing seems to work.

As you push his weapon away, you put a gun to his head.

You don’t talk.

“I love you Y/N. I never stopped loving you. And everyday I keep remembering how I left you there and it was eating me alive. I wanted to die because I couldn’t live without you anymore. I love you so much it was hurting my whole body. I couldn’t eat for days because I kept thinking about you. I constantly threw up because the image of you lying in your own pool of blood would keep popping up in my head. And you know what? I never threw anything from you away. Your clothes? Still sitting next to mind. Your purple Calendar with stars? It’s still on the wall. Your post it that says I love you? Still on my mirror. Even your stuffed bear. I was sleeping with that bear because it smelled just like you. And I didn’t throw away the shirt that was covered in your blood because it was the only thing that kept me going for revenge. So if you shoot me, I‘d die happily knowing it was you but I‘d still be feeling guilty because you’re being help hostage and being used” he confesses and feels ready for you to shoot him. He closes his eyes and waits for the feeling of pain but it never comes.

As he opens his eyes he sees that you’re struggling and your hand is shaking. Your gun falls from your hand and many tears are leaving you eyes.

He sees you struggle and comes to hug you. You hand is still in the position where your gun was a few moments before. He knows you’re trying to fight your way back. You try to control your body again.

You feel the enemy coming again and take all the courage and energy you saved to turn you and him over. Soon there is a gunshot echoing through the huge hallway and Leon jumps. He looks behind you and sees him. He doesn’t waste a second. He takes out his gun and shoots him multiple times.

He has a smile on his face because gets to have you again and continue with his dreams but as he looks down at you, you collapse against his chest. He immediately catches you and now the smile washed from his face.

You’ve been shot. Now you’re leaving him again.

You can’t do that. No you can’t do that to him. Not when he got you again. Not when you’re with him again.

“Please. No” he is whispering now. His heart shatters and it feels like someone is stabbing him. Literally.

“I‘m so happy you came” you tell him. All your life you‘ve been held hostage someone in your body. You knew what you were doing. And it was breaking your heart knowing you took innocent souls. But you were never able to control yourself. Not until now. You tried way too hard. Tried to get out and gain control again. But it never happened.

“I love you Leon. I‘ll wait for you” you tell him with your last energy before you close your eyes. Again you’re leaving him. But this time he‘s not leaving you behind.

He holds you and kisses your cold forehead as he carried you out of this hellhole.

“I love you more” he whispers as he takes you somewhere quite with a beautiful view to bury you. And he doesn’t leave your side. Not now. Not ever.

He disappeared from the world and just lays next to you before he buries you.

You left him again. Twice.

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dontyouworrydaddy · 1 year

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My biggest fear

Ellie Williams x fem! Reader

summary: Ellie and you are on a mission. Something happens and you are being separated from each other. Your biggest fear is being outside alone without your gun and Ellie. What are you gonna do next? What is she gonna do next?

warning: injuries, angst, explosions, blood

You didn’t have time to react. Everything happened so fast. For a second, you and Ellie were having fun while searching for supplements. You were making fun about how your younger self would be terrified of your older self. You kept grimacing and Ellie was laughing at it. Whenever she was laughing your heart was melting. You felt like your world was complete. But then… there was a loud explosion causing Ellie to push you back but it still hit your arm pretty badly. It stings. Your head hurts and for a moment you don’t hear anything and everything is dizzy. Ellie was now on top of you trying to talk to you but you neither can hear what she is saying or read her lips.

“Fuck…” you whisper to yourself. You see Ellie pulling out her gun and firing but you don’t know at who. Ellie being next to you and firing with her gun is the last thing you see before everything turns black.

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“Oh fuck” you whisper in pain. Your head hurts like a bitch and your whole body is screaming at you to rest. It’s practically begging you to just lay where you are and do nothing.

As you fully wake up you look around and see the fire slowly taking over the whole room. “Shit shit shit” you try to stand but as soon as you move you scream because of the pain in your side. You look down and see a piece of glass in your left lumbar region and your left arm covered in dark blood. You look around and see Ellie nowhere.

“Ellie?” you yell in hopes that she is just trying to find a way out. You start to shake and a few tears start leaving your eyes. You rip the arm right side of your jacket and tie it around your lumbar region and arm. It hurts so bad and you feel like you’re gonna collapse but you still make it on your feat.

You look at the ground, searching for your gun but it isn’t there. You look around and don’t see it. There is no sign of Ellie and no sign of your gun. So your girlfriend is somewhere probably in danger and you have no security. You feel like falling on your knees and cry as much as you can but the fire is getting dangerous. You tremble while walking and your head starts to spin. You grab a piece of wood from the side of the cracked door and make your way out.

You don’t feel good. You feel far away from good. Everything is spinning and you me side is hurting while your injured hand, which is your strong arm, is holding onto your injury in your side.

“Ellie?” you scream and hope she is somewhere around. But there isn’t a reply.

Slowly you start to taste blood and cough really bad.

This is not good.

No you have to find your girlfriend and go back to your home.

You guys had a future. You were planning on having a huge farm and collect many instruments so Ellie can always sing for you. You and Ellie planned on having as many animals as possible and live your life far away from everyone.

You can’t die on her and leave her alone.

Especially after she lost everyone.

You promised her. Keep your promise!

As you make your way out you feel someone jumping you. Falling on your stomach, which causes the glass slide deep inside you and you coughing more blood you turn to your side. You’re pumped with adrenaline and see a clicker on top of you. You fight the clicker away from your face and try to reach for the piece of wood next to you with your injured arm. You smash the piece of wood against the clickers face causing it to fall back. You get on top of it and smash the piece of wood in their face until it gets unrecognizable.

You were built up with anger and fear. You didn’t realize it was already dead until your side started to hurt again. You fall back on your back and hold on to your side. Looking at it, you can see the blood gushing from the wound. You try to stop the bleeding and push with your not injured arm on the wound, trying to create pressure. But something on that arms catches your attention.

This can’t be true. No no no.

You’re kidding.

You start to scream as loud as you can and cry uncontrollably. At this point you don’t care anymore whose attention you get. Whether they come or not. You’re already dead. And this time, you can’t go back.

Because you got bitten.

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It doesn’t take Ellie long before she reaches out to you. Soon she is by your side and sees the major injury you got. She kisses your forehead and creates pressure on your wound.

You look at her and you don’t know how to tell her. You don’t know how to tell her that you’re dying. Your heart is telling you to shut up because Ellie is already worried about you. How can you tell her that you got infected? You can’t do that to her. Especially because you were the only person she had in your life.

A tear leaves your eye at the sight of Ellie trying to help you. She will be alone in this cruel world. And her biggest fear is ending up alone…

“Let me see your other arm, baby” she tries to comfort you with her soft and caring tone. You smile at her and shake your head.

“Kiss me first” you order and she leaves a quick chuckle. She does as you say and kisses you. The kiss is very passionate and you don’t let go of her until you are in the need for breath.

“Oh baby. It’s okay. You can get through this.” she comforts you and herself. But this only causes your heart to break into a million pieces.

“Shoot me, Ellie” you whisper but enough for her to hear you. Her face expression changes from sad to confused. She shakes her head and grabs your face with both of her hands that are covered in your blood.

“What are you talking about love?” she says but her voice is clearly filled with anger and confusion.

You slowly show her your arm and she notices the bite.

Her heart sinks.

“No. This isn’t happening. FUCK NO!” she yells and starts crying. “You got to be kidding me. Not you, please” the sight of Ellie breaking down causes you to cry. She leans her head against your stomach and starts crying and scream in agony.

You don’t do anything. You let her cry and scream.

“I can’t loose you too!” she screams.

She is not mad at you. She is mad at the universe and the fate. Why does she keep loosing people? Is she the reason everybody around her dies? Is she carrying bad luck with her?

“Please Ellie let me die in your arms instead of letting me turn in one of those” you whisper. Your heart stopped beating at the sight of Ellie being covered in your blood and her tears.

She pulls out a knife and creates a slight cut on her hand, causing it to bleed not too hard. She covers her hand your bite marks and rests her head against the crook of your neck.

You wanna tell her that this isn’t gonna do anything. This isn’t gonna help you in any way because the infection is already too far ahead.

“Ellie, please.” you whisper.

“No. I‘m not loosing you” she cries and you stay like this for a while.

You feel yourself getting weaker and weaker. You don’t feel your body anymore and your vision is getting black.

But before you loose yourself you use your last saved energy to help Ellie to kill you and and move away from this place.

“Ellie. No matter where you are, I‘ll always be there and watch after you. I love you. I love you so much it’s breaking my heart. I don’t regret spending my time with you. Even now. Please just kill me. Burry me somewhere quiet and peaceful. ” you say. She keeps shaking her head and looks at you.

“What about our farm? I can’t loose you babe. I love you please” her voice breaks towards the end and right now you want to burn down the world. You want to burn everyone in this world and create a safe place for you and Ellie.

“I can’t feel myself anymore. Please do it. I love you. PLEASE ELLIE DON‘T LET ME TU-” you don’t get to finish your sentence before Ellie shot you in your stomach. You didn’t feel her hand leaving your arm.

Before death took your soul you whisper a quiet Thank you and close your eyes.

As soon as your head falls to the side Ellie starts crying. She kisses your cold lips for the last time before she picks you up and make her way towards your once shared house with your farm in progress.

Ellie never had a problem with carrying you. She would even use you for her training. But this time… this time is different. This time it is actually hard for her to carry you.

But she does either way.

Because you asked her to bury you in a peaceful and quite place.

“I love you” she whispers to you before she makes her way to a place. A beautiful place that is quiet yet so peaceful.

She knows where exactly.

This place is beautiful, peaceful and quiet.

And big enough for two people.

Ellie‘s biggest fear came true and she will wait for the moment where she will die too. But she wants to lay next to you.

You left her alone with her biggest fear.

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