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I think their perspective of the other is heavily skewed from both sides.   I can't talk much about jackie's side other than what we see unfold in the narrative,  with her getting jealous of tai's closeness with shauna based on the fact that shauna is pulling away from her from some unknown reason (to her) and she seems to want to take that out on tai.   which isn't tai's fault,   and tai isn't close to shauna out of spite,  but it's clearly very skewed for jackie just as it's very skewed for tai's perspective of jackie,  too.   because a lot of thoughts tai has about jackie aren't necessarily real;   it's just what she's convinced herself of or what she's assumed about her.

because tai was not close to either of these people before the crash.   I think,  for the most part,  jackie as a person annoyed her.    she's not someone she would have wanted to hang out with regularly;   their personalities clash as it is,   and jackie's is one tai finds incredibly grating.   we see evidence of this before and after the crash.   she's already dreading whatever compliment jackie gives her at the party,  and she is just as surprised when it's something not only genuine,  but very personal,  because this was a day in which she was feeling insecure and worried about what she did to allie,   and jackie took her drive and reframed it,   telling tai there's something to be proud of,  which ultimately leaves tai feeling strange because she's not expecting that from jackie.  it doesn't really change her mind about her, though.   she's quick to belittle her in the wilderness when she suggests the seance and tell her she's being childish--   while also laughing when shauna suggests they do it, too,  making her reaction to jackie very specific to her and the way she was behaving / how she brought it up.  

tai sees jackie as this epitome of the perfect little privileged white girl.  she has always seen jackie as the girl who gets everything she wants   (  and it doesn't matter if that's true or not;  it's just the way tai perceives it.   )    the way tai sees it,   and the way that is true at least to some extent as we see from the conversation with martinez,   tai is the one who overexerts herself trying to go above and beyond to get what she wants / what she thinks she deserves,   while jackie gets it handed to her with little effort,  based solely on the fact that she's her.   jackie is framed as the popular girl who everyone likes while we've heard enough evidence to know that tai wasn't necessarily popular and wasn't exactly close with many of her teammates,  whether or not she was respected.  

I think jackie's talk with coach martinez is the most telling:   he outright suggests that she doesn't deserve to be the captain based on her abilities.   it's more of a strategy move based on her influence,   and in the same conversation,  he implies that tai would deserve it more for her abilities.  tai always wanted to be captain because she saw it was an honor + a sign of her being the best  (  which, like, isn't true for the captain title, but again, it's how tai views it:   she's the best player on the team so she should be captain.  )   when jackie's announced captain,   tai can't make sense of it other than the fact that she is once again losing to jackie because jackie gets everything handed to her without earning it.    and maybe she always didn't like her,   but this is the point where she actively starts resenting her for it and it becomes personal.   excluding her from the allie plan was done without hesitation;   she didn't trust her as a leader,   didn't trust her to not stop her,   she went behind her back because she knew it was the only way to get it done.   "jackie won't like this,"  tai does not care,  she's not a part of it for a reason.

the vote about going to the lake in episode 1x03 is an extension of this;   it's tai's chance to win something back.  it's her her way of proving once and for all that she was always meant to be the captain and jackie is wrong.   she takes pride in not only finding the water and giving them a sense of hope —  but equally just getting to win over jackie,   because she never feels like she gets to win over her back in civilization,  and it's refreshing,  like a sign that she can finally get somewhere out there.  we see this a lot in the wilderness —  tai feels more comfortable taking leadership roles because she doesn't feel like anyone's going to stop her this time.   back at home,  she was always stopped,  always told someone else deserved it over her despite her not believing it.  she does it with pride in the wilderness and it's clear that she has these leadership abilities that didn't get her very far in civilization,  but they're clearly influencing many people in the wilderness. 

she really doesn't trust jackie out there,   as evident with her either disagreeing with all of jackie's suggestions or getting frustrated with her lack of drive.   tai is the kind of person who needs to keep moving forward and keeping herself busy at all times in order to get to some kind of progress,   while jackie is clearly struggling to find her purpose out there,   and tai resents her for that.   when jackie still tries to reclaim that kind of leadership by suggesting things like the seance,   it only frustrates tai more because she feels like she doesn't take it seriously  (  even if jackie is 100% valid in her own fear and insecurity out there.  ) 

but despite everything,  she does care  about jackie,  even if she's not willing to show it all the time.   tai is one of the few people who tries to stop jackie from leaving the cabin before her impending death,   and she tries three different times  +  tries to urge shauna to talk to her later.  she's persistent about it even though 1) she's clearly on shauna's side,  and 2)  she's usually the last person to want to stick up for jackie.    maybe she could have done more to get her to stay  (  I think this is something that tai often thinks about herself  )  but I think she also realizes that tai is the last person,  especially in that moment,  that jackie wants to hear from.  jackie calls her out for wanting this the whole time because of her own skewed perspective,  assuming that tai and shauna buddied up to push jackie out,   but that was never what it was about for tai.   she and shauna weren't even friends before tai found out she was pregnant and became the only person shauna could really confide in,   the same way shauna was the only one tai could confide in after finding out about her sleepwalking.   they didn't intend to get so close,  it just happened,  in ways they couldn't possibly explain to anyone else,  including jackie,   so tai is mostly caught off guard when jackie's insistent that tai would've wanted to push jackie out.  because that was never her intention,  not with her best friend.

unlike the others,   tai has had months to process what shauna did to jackie.  when she found out,   she was more concerned about taking care of shauna than really considering the levels of betrayal against her best friend.   still,  she urged her to talk to her about it and to take that route rather than dying just to keep her secret.   tai was always trying to get shauna and jackie on the same page,  always trying to get them to work it out - but of course Jackie wouldn't have known that.   so when they actually do blow up,  it already felt inevitable to tai,  which is why she's at least trying to get jackie to stay because she knows it's not worth blowing up their friendship for,   but of course jackie isn't going to hear that from tai.  she just doesn't know how to reach her because she has never been the one to reach jackie.

her grief over jackie is incredibly complicated because she spends most of her time in the aftermath simply worried about shauna and how shauna's reacting.    you can't go through what she and shauna went through in episode 1x06 without being intimately bonded to each other for the rest of their lives,   and now shauna is experiencing the worst trauma she can imagine,  and tai is entirely focused on trying to keep her alive now.   it's too familiar to her after she felt responsible for van's almost-death and shauna was the one to help her through that too.    so,  really,  tai never properly grieves jackie herself,   doesn't even know how to process her own feelings for it  because she's too wrapped up in shauna's.   she didn't like jackie,  but she didn't want jackie to die.   she didn't want any of this.  it's complicated because for the first time,  she realizes she never really knew jackie personally;   everything she knew about her was just her own perception and assumptions,  and that's just something she has to live with afterwards.  everything she feels for jackie is just an extension of her care for shauna.

also important to me:  tai did not vote for jackie for homecoming queen. 

kristi and mari reuniting is so fucked up because you know kristi is so relieved to finally see her again because that's her fiancee, her favorite person in the world. she spent so much of season 1 trying to navigate what being away from her person really meant for her, knowing that mari would've just assumed she left, knowing that would've hurt her, knowing that mari would've spiraled and eventually, after all that time, just moved on. and kristi always wanted to make her way back to her, wanted to believe that the loss of time didn't break them, but every single day, their lives in fromville got more and more 'comfortable' (as comfortable as it could be) because they were forced to adapt.

and then sara asked her if there was anything she wouldn't do to get back to her, and kristi said there isn't. she would do anything to get back to her. but then sara does what she does and kristi blames herself for nathan's death and that's when it finally hits her that this is their life, she may never see mari again (she doesn't lose hope entirely but she has to be realistic).

and she allows herself to accept her new life - not just in fromville, but a completely different kind of life. the life after this. the life that she may get to live if she gets out of fromville and still has to accept that mari is no longer her person, because how can you ever explain what happened to you after all that? how could mari trust her, what if mari moved on, what if she didn't know how to talk about any of it? i don't personally ship her + kenny and i don't necessarily think her feelings for him were entirely genuine - because so much of season 1 is her still trying to hold onto what she has back at home and not even allowing herself to process his feelings. i think she saw a bit of hope in him and liked the idea of potentially trying, but it was never going to be that easy between them.

and immediately after that conversation with him, she's reunited with mari. and it's so fucked up because kristi gets to feel a sense of relief and satisfaction and a different kind of hope. but she also has to feel this immense dread because she knows what this means. it's not hopeful. it's not a good thing. because mari is doomed now too, mari is ripped away from her life and can no longer live it. kristi spent so long trying to accept that this is her life now but at least it wasn't mari's, too. even if mari moved on without her, no matter how hard that would be to accept, at least she still got to live her life, and kristi would've handled that. but mari is doomed just like her now and being together isn't as hopeful as it feels in the moment they reunite. of course not everything is perfect between them after that. of course it's so hard to navigate what they are now compared to what they had before they were ripped away from their lives separately, at different times.

One of my biggest nitpicks in fiction concerns the feeding of babies. Mothers dying during/shortly after childbirth or the baby being separated form the mother shortly after birth is pretty common in fiction. It is/was also common enough in real life, which is why I think a lot of writers/readers don't think too hard about this. however. Historically, the only reason the vast majority of babies survived being separated from their mother was because there was at least one other woman around to breastfeed them. Before modern formula, yes, people did use other substitutes, but they were rarely, if ever, nutritionally sufficient.

Newborns can't eat adult food. They can't really survive on animal milk. If your story takes place in a world before/without formula, a baby separated from its mother is going to either be nursed by someone else, or starve.

It doesn't have to be a huge plot point, but idk at least don't explicitly describe the situation as excluding the possibility of a wetnurse. "The father or the great grandmother or the neighbor man or the older sibling took and raised the baby completely alone in a cave for a year." Nope. That baby is dead I'm sorry. "The baby was kidnapped shortly after birth by a wizard and hidden away in a secret tower" um quick question was the wizard lactating? "The mother refused to see or touch her child after birth so the baby was left to the care of the ailing grandfather" the grandfather who made the necessary arrangements with women in the neighborhood, right? right? OR THAT GREAT OFFENDER "A newborn baby was left on the doorstep and they brought it in and took care of it no issues" What Are You Going to Feed That Baby. Hello?

Like. It's not impossible, but arrangements are going to have to be made. There are some logistics.

Being a “Fun Fact !” kind of autistic is all fun and games until you get halfway through sharing an interesting tidbit and realize that it probably wasn’t appropriate to share in polite company and now you have to deal with the consequences :(

I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -

I am fine with "the audience" -

downloading my fics

printing my fics

copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics

sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3

making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss

doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc

I am not fine with "the audience"

doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity

feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever

Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.

Enjoy the fandom things.

The Allegiance of the Ascended Vampire and the New God of Magic

you are coming down with me / hand in unlovable hand.

my final from last semester that i made into a zine. cooked this one up in a couple hours before the critique (the ink was still wet!), so it's very raw and kind of sloppy but the sentiment is there. i love you trans people of color. we are the backbone of this community 🌟

The Scooby gang are friends. The Scooby gang are BEST FRIENDS. THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS AND THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH. THEY TRAVEL AROUND SOLVING MYSTERIES FOR AS LONG AS THEY CAN BECAUSE THEY HAVE A PASSION FOR IT AND BECAUSE IT MEANS THEY GET TO SPEND TIME TOGETHER WITH EACH OTHER. THEY ARE BEST FRIENDS.

They don’t hate each other. Maybe they get annoyed and cause they’re together all the time it might get a bit much sometimes but at the end of the day, they really deeply care about each other. They live out of a van most of the time and are on the road constantly out of CHOICE. TOGETHER. for crying out loud.

They are four teenagers and a Great Dane. They’re a family.

rage.

going insane thinking about the harrow and palamedes friendship. harrow, who has never met another necromancer her age forming a bizarro 3D chess rivalry while pal worries about her safety at every possible turn. harrow, who is up to her eyebrows in paranoia and secrecy, trusting the sixth house with gideon unconscious and hurt, letting them into the ninth house quarters unsupervised. if “i cannot conceive of a universe without you in it” is goth for i love you, “death first to vultures and scavengers” has got to be goth for i love you (platonic). pal’s first reaction when harrow comes into his bubble in the river is to scoop her up in a hug, and at this point she doesn’t remember anything about him because cutting out all her memories of gideon is impossible without cutting out memories of the sixth, but she still makes him a skelehand to inhabit anyway. when harrow’s memories are finally whole, she tells dulcinea she couldn’t face pal knowing that his pen pal girlfriend died on her account, but the next time she “faces” him, palamades’s soul is in someone else’s body and harrow’s body is full of nona’s soul. he spends six months protecting and caring for harrow’s body (and nona obv), believing in the possibility of bringing her back to it the same way cam believed in him. “god, do you know i miss harrow terribly.” and by the time harrow comes back to her body at the very end of ntn, pal is gone forever, fully pauled. the last time harrow and palamades see each other as their complete selves is in canaan house, alive and unlyctored. two of the smartest and loneliest people in the solar system meet each other in the worst of circumstances and spend the rest of the story dancing around each other as fragments of themselves, trying to care about each other in the interim but never fully meeting like they did the first time. a friendship made almost entirely of missing the other person. “do you know i miss harrow terribly.” god. i need to lie down

I think I need to go to camp for a while. Be alone. Scream at the sky.

Language divides and building bridges.

Elesa’s feeling homesick. Emmet, bless his heart, tries to help by infodumping while Ingo frantically runs off to find water (crying is a very dehydrating experience).

((Would you look at that! The kids are picking up kantonese and galarian from each other!))

BONUS:

Heh. Callback.

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and whether his eyes stay shut or he just stops caring enough

it feels the same

Mobius + being the only one to notice