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I'm sharing a hospital room with a transwoman and i feel bad because shes being misgendered but she keeps yelling threatening hitting the wall and being violent saying racist things to black nurses and fat shaming some nurses too and it's scaring me and making me anxious. Already had a panic attack over it.
#like I've been super anxious had like four panic attacks here already#and this person isnt helping#hate hate yelling#i hate it so much it triggers me#apparently they're being moved to another room and i honestly cant wait :(#I'll take literally anyone who doesn't yell#dia ranting
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the machine.
a comic about being a 'creator' online.
creative notes:
#in light of recent online 'success' i feel like this may come off as ungrateful#just wanna say that all the comics i make in this series are written about experiences i felt in 2022#which was a rough year personally and creatively#and i very luckily don't feel this way anymore#and this also isnt to shame anyone who DOES feel this way#its easy to start to feel like all you are is a vending machine of art#and like thats all you are to people#theres nothing human to you#it can be a bit of a pit#and on some level this damage is self inflicted but social media really doesnt help that feeling#this wont work for everyone but having friends around you who you can talk to about stuff that ISNT art#going outside for dinner#maybe walking around#its good for when you need that feeling to go away even a bit temporarily#youre a human being#not a mindless content creation machine#and i hope anyone who feels like this now can get to a place where they have a healthier relationship with their own work#good luck to all of you#and thank you for reading#comic art#its 10pm#stillindigo art
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pelican town, ‘72
#stardew valley#stardew valley spoilers#sdv#sdv spoilers#grandpa#mister qi#mr. qi#idk how dates work in stardew universe im just bullshittin#i love qi’s huge fucking eyebrows you dont notice them at first but theyre there#(gives our collective grandpa a ponytail) i think he had one. whatever#’why isnt mister qi blue’ my hc is he is blue from long-term iridium supplementation#and was originally just a regular person#but also it’s nice to see ur fav be like a normal human color#if u read tag essays tho consider this:#qi discovers secret to immortality (consuming iridium in a specific manner)#wants to share discovery with his farmer (player’s grandpa) and in that way. they will have all the time in the world to build#a perfect farming/business empire whose legacy will last forever and ever and theyll be 2gether forever#but it turns out. like a lot of normal people would. his farmer does not want to live forever#and obv he doesn’t#in an attempt to try not to ever lose the thing that means more to him than anything else in the world. qi inadvertantly ensures he will#because his farmer is dead. and he’s going to live forever#but. it’s kind of ok. because he has infinite money and was able to figure out how to talk to his dead bf#and now YOU help them fulfill their joint goal of making the farm’s legacy last forever#smile. heart#sobbing
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*types any question containing the word "empathy" into a search engine*
like half the results: are YOU an EMPATH??? EMPATHS are a SPECIAL ULTRA RARE SHINY POKEMON GROUP OF PEOPLE they are like MYSTICAL PERFECT FAIRY ELVES they are the BEST most MORALLY PURE beings on the planet they basically have MIND READING SUPERPOWERS and they are also SUPER OPPRESSED by SELFISH GREEDY ORDINARY PEOPLE who DRAIN THEM like VAMPIRES with their NEGATIVE ENERGY. if you are an empath you are guaranteed to get into HEAVEN 😇 but if you are not you are BASICALLY THE DEVIL!!! 😈🔥😈🔥😈🔥
#🐉#this isnt a dig at people with high empathy its just so bizarre how 'empath' is used as this like. moral judgement.#like if youre an 'empath' youre just an inherently better and kinder person#like bruh you realize that even if youre naturally predisposed to be kind and helpful you have to actually make the choice#to be kind and helpful right? 😭#anyway i was researching empathy this morning and god its painful
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I jUST LEARNED
Megatron and Orion Pax meeting for the first time:
And then. When Future Megs talking to Past Orion in mtmte#36
#I#help#I didn’t understand this moment when I was reading mtmte I DIDNT HAVE THE CONTEXT#The fact that….that Megatron did so much terrible things#and hurted and murdered so many people#and tried to kill Optimus for millions of years#but when he’s talking to this past Orion#the first thing Orion pulling is#ah Megatron with an R#his first initial reaction is to joke about that one time he mispronounced Megatron’s name#because this Pax#This past version of him doesn’t remember Megatron as a tyrant. He remembers him as a guy whose name isnt Megaton oops sorry this is awkward#he’s Megatron with R my bad#it’s such a innocent little detail#Everyone around Megatron constantly reminding him about all his crimes and seeing him though ‘he is scary’ and ‘he is evil’ lenses#But this👆#This is a reminder#Megatron wasn’t always a terrible person#He was ‘Megatron with an R’ once#I don’t know why this detail hit me so hard. I must be running out of symbols ahahah#maccadam#mtmte#tapa if you’re happen to read this#this moment is from issue 22 in a general map I gave you:)
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Okay honestly these two episodes were absolutely a blast and had so many fun moments to them.
but dude the amount of COMFORT in this scene is unimaginable i love it sm gary is such a good guy...
Everybody deserves this type of love and comfort istg it's so good.
the fact he gave her a early invitation to the bakery just to give her even the smallest amount of comfort to her while she's afraid of cake's whereabouts and even giving her a LATTE AND GIVE HER REASSURANCE HE'LL HELP HER WITH THE SEARCH AFTER HES DONE MAKING SOME FOOD IN THE BACK...
I love u gary, we all deserve a gary in our lives and give him all the love and comfort possible back to him for his efforts.
#adventure time#fionna and cake#fionna and cake spoilers#fionna the human#prince gumball#its just everything in this scene man.#the night time vibe#the comfyness of the dialogue...#i love this show man#it has so much fun in it but these scenes where its just a regular town with regular people#going through their lives some are good some are bad some are in between#but there's always that PERSON#that person that truly cares about you and you do back#and it makes you feel like life isnt actually as bad as it is...#Gary is that#hes that reminder even when things go wrong#there is always a person who wants to help you in times of stress with comfort and reassurance.#this goes for online friends too <333
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Started this months ago but procrastinated hard bc I didn't want to draw backgrounds </3
#there was another page to this but i had to cut it out bc of image limit </3#anyway. finding out how to express urself through clothes is a part of every teenagers life and i imagine itd be particularly hard for ryne#given the Identity Issues shes had for so long#gaias gonna help tho. shes good at this stuff. ryne just isnt sure what she wants yet#also ik ryne has accepted the oracle of light title#when theyre discussing the oracle of light stuff here its more like. the duty thats been associated with it for so long#and the memories of the minfilias in-between ryne & the OG minfilia#like its not 'the oracle of light ryne' now its 'ryne the oracle of light' yk#like her identity as the oracle is secondary to her own personal identity#her role as the oracke is not what defines her. it is a part of her but its not what she IS yk. does that make sense#anyway. enough rambling ill never stop if i continue#ryne waters#gaia#rynegaia#gaiaryne#not necessarily but I SAY SO SO IT IS#final fantasy#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ff14#ffxiv#art#my art#xanders art#digital art#fan art#xander being insane about ryne#as always
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It's normal to feel jealous. In friendships, relationships, whatever. Jealousy is a very normal, very human emotion and most likely, it's telling you that a need of yours isn't being met. But sometimes jealousy just shows up randomly and makes itself known for no reason. Maybe you have the happiest relationship possible and you still get jealous. Maybe all of your needs, and more, are being met. That's okay.
Never be ashamed of jealousy. Never be ashamed of anger or sadness or fear. These emotions are not “bad”, there is no such thing as bad emotions. You cannot be completely free of them, and they do not inherently mean you or the other person(s) is abusive.
Listen to what your mind is telling you. If you're jealous every single time your friend hangs out with someone that's not you; why? Are you scared of your friend liking the person more than you? Are you scared that you're not worthy of your friend's time and energy? Are you scared that maybe the other person secretly hates you and plans to turn your friend against you?
Whatever it is, its okay. Don't listen to people telling you that “non-abusers don't get jealous”. Because they do. It's just about how they handle the jealousy. If you listen to your body and figure out the underlying fear or insecurity, you're already doing way more than most.
Sometimes you can talk to your friend about that fear. Sometimes you can explain to them that you feel afraid when they hang out with other people because you're insecure. Do not ever make it out to be their problem, like something they should fix. They can understand and do their best to help you, but do not ever demand or even let them drop these friends for you. Unless the friends are genuinely awful people (which you should then have an entirely different conversation about), it is your friend's right to keep them as friends.
But maybe you can come to a compromise. Maybe when your friend is done hanging out with someone, they can tell you about what they did. Maybe instead of an obligation, its like a “oh my god I had so much fun and I want to tell someone about it” thing. They get to talk about how much fun they had to someone that cares, and you get to know that these other people didn't try to turn your friend against you, or whatever your fear may have been.
Anyway, my overall point is; jealousy is okay and normal. It usually covers some sort of insecurity or fear, like how anger can cover sadness or hurt. It doesn't matter how often you feel jealous - I'm a very very jealous person but I have coping mechanisms and ways to help me when I get jealous so that I don't hurt the person I'm jealous of. I will always suggest mental health assistance like therapy or medication if it's available, but sometimes, its more about the way you treat your feelings and the communication you have with your friends.
#obviously everyone is different#journaling my feelings and telling myself that my friends are so awesome that they deserve other friends#will not help every single person that gets jealous#but as a polyamorous person who has bpd and forms fps on my partners most often#ive learned how to cope with my jealousy without becoming overbearing and mean#it took me nearly my entire teenage life and im still nowhere near perfection#this isnt an instant process and im never going to stop feeling jealous#but i can recognize when im jealous and why and i can work on feeling better about it#{ ♡ } nao : misc . . .#jealousy#jealous#relationships#relationship troubles#bpd#borderline personality disorder#npd#narcassistic personality disorder#i dont know how common jealousy is in npd but it sure affects me a lot so#umm#mental illness#mental health#mental health advice#mental health support#bpd help#bpd support
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I wonder what the kids and teachers in luz's school think of her now. Shes stopped "terrorizing" other kids, mainly because she seems to have stopped engaging with most of her classmates period. She no longer brings live animals or taxidermy to school. She even participates in english class occasionally, even if she doesnt "get" the point of the book. Her rants only clock as suicidal if you know about her time in the boiling isles which the people at her school do not.
I wonder if luz's teachers and schoolmates think that luz mellowed out over the summer. If the principal/counselor that suggested she go to the camp patted himself on the back because shes "improved."
#the owl house#toh#shut up pandora#luz noceda#something something people see a neurodivergent kid having depression and breathe a sigh of relief bc now theyre finally 'normal'#people speculate maybe luz would have been fine going to the summer camp and while i agree she would have made friends#she would not have been fine! she would have just learned to suppress her identity like camila did#but going to the boiling isles was her only option bc she either gets suppressed quickly at the summer camp#or she keeps acting out at school and eventually society wears her down and shames her into conforming like it did to her mom#something about how even if the camp helps luz act like a 'normal person' she still would have been miserable bc she couldnt be herself#it temporarily benefits her by giving her friends and benefits ppl around her by making her act 'normal'#but the kids there are still weird at heart! they have a community to be weird around now but society at large will still look down on them#unless they put on a front all the time to fit in#and the boiling isles isnt perfect either its society still looks down on luz for being different#but it accepts her neurodivergence and her new friends are all neurodivergent like her so she still has a community to be herself around#and while it looks down on her for having no natural magic it isnt something shes been shamed about growing up like her neurodivergence was#anyway the camp wasnt as catastrophic as luz thought it would be and vee benefitted from it#but it still represented a slow rot. the kind that eats away at neurodivergent kids as they grow up#slowly shaming them to hide away parts of themselves deemed unfit for society#and when you hide behind a front and are exhausted and miserable from it#everyone applauds you for your 'recovery.' youve improved yourself. they never liked the old you#good job on destroying yourself and shoving the pieces into a facsimile of what the people around you think you ought to be
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one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it
#theres no peace#every little thing reminds me we are poor#seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time#im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly#the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job#and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support#and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money#because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live#its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin#time#cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for#sorry for the ranting i cant sleep#truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin#more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful#i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it#i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things#spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income#not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it
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ARTISTS FOR PALESTINE 🇵🇸 - ROUND 2!! On the 16th and 23rd of March, I'll be doing art requests on stream with other notable artists to raise money for Operation Olive Branch and Project Watermelon.
This round's roster is very lucky to include notable webcomic artists like explodikid, Graveweaver, Curryuku and Speremint who respectively create Covenant, I'm The Grim Reaper, Not So Shoujo Love Story and Brimstone and Roses on WEBTOON. We also have Onstamonsta, an artist, streamer and Kiryu fan who Drawfee fans might recognise and the exceptionally talented Jessie Lam!
Last fundraising event was a great success, and I hope some of you might show up for this next round of streams. All money will be donated directly to Palestinian escape funds as the situation of Rafah is becoming exponentially worse (and if you'd like to donate directly, here's a link to a spreadsheet of over 750!)
As always, these fundraisers will always be available to watch over on my twitch channel. Thank you all and free Palestine!
#its just for escape funds this time bc personally i think that atp getting palestinians out of there is the most effective use of money#which isnt to discredit donating for e-sims or to other aid orgs like the PCRF#this is just personally my decision#also putting a direct link to operation olive branch there bc its the most direct way to help!!!#a lot of funds on there have stagnated#have a look#palestine#free palestine#free gaza#free rafah#donations#fundraiser
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Not Polin breaking every single rule here 💀
#polin#mostly colin's fault but pen isnt helping much either#I'm personally questioning their virtue after that unprotected handholding smh#bridgerton#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#colin x penelope
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So we all the love the whumpee-thinks-caretaker-is-their-new-master trope but what if it's true
Caretaker who did buy whumpee, and who does wholeheartedly believes and acts like whumpee belongs to them
But damn it they take great care of their possessions. After all, cats and dogs get spoiled with treats and comfy beds and vet visits when they're sick and cuddles and a form of love
Why should a slave be any different? Especially because caretaker bought whumpee for companionship
Plus whumpee can tidy up, cook for themselves, hold a conversation, and even play games like cards or board games, and can go everywhere caretaker can
That's infinitely better than a cat or dog.
It's just such a shame their old owner was so terrible. Whumpee is so timid now, and nearly skin and bone. But that's nothing a good owner can't fix, right? The poor thing needs some proper structure and attention that's all. It's a good thing whumpee is human. It would be a lot harder to rehabilitate a rescue who can't comprehend speech.
And whumpee doesn't want to leave. Fetching files from a desk and playing checkers and occasionally cleaning the kitchen while master chatters about work is far better than being locked in a cold basement and getting beaten every day
Their new master doesn't lay a hand on them, their version of punishment is no music while doing chores, or no dessert
After all, you wouldn't hit your dog. Caretaker's new pet deserves at least that
#carewhumper#i suppose but caretaker isnt super whumpy here#whump#this is super indulgent#pet whump#i guess but not really#slavery whump#yeah that fits better#its the good master trope#yeah yeah we all know slavery is bad#this is fiction get off your high horse#but like wouldn't this be nice for whumpee??#its the benefits of being owned (protection. doesn't have to worry about bills/homelessness. possessiveness as care against other whumpers)#plus being told whats right and wrong you dont have to think much as long as caretaker is Clear#without much of the drawbacks of being a whumpee (torture. starvation. lack of social interaction)#i imagine this world is like your typical fantasy/medieval world#caretaker is probably wealthy or a lord with an estate and servants#caretaker got lonely maybe. wanted someone in their life more personally attached than hired help#like personal assistant meets pet whump meets default friend#i do think whumpee and caretaker would become close friends#Meet caretaker: a minor lord who recently inherited the title!#Meet whumpee: caretaker's new slave whos just happy to be fed and have his own bed#journey with them as they navigate the condescension and annoyances of the royal courts!#caretaker needs a friend they can trust while whumpee discovers that they deserve affectionate actually#hurt/comfort shenanigans ensue#head chef edna just wants everyone fed#whumpee have a cookie challenge#get that whumpee a meal#my writing
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Asterism book cameeeeeee <3
Since Orion is a journalist in this AU there are a few instances where his newspaper articles and blog posts are shown, and my friend and I loving formatted all the sections to imitate websites and whatnot down to sharing buttons and comment sections. Def one of the most hilarious parts of the book imo, I love them sm.
Thank you best friend [Name Redacted] for writing this book for me, I love it sooooo much! You *get* Orion like noone else ;w;
#i consider this piece a hilarious example of journalism#LINE OF ALL TIME#not a moment in this book where he isnt a total walking haughty embarrassment#Garret might have his golden iconic moments but he either doesnt voice them and its a delicious meta read of the situation#or they dont sound iconic out of context like 'this will help you right?'#but Orion? line after line after line. You just know an entitled pompous asshole said it the moment the sound enters your ear#a response article.................... you just KNOW his twitter is a warzone and a shitshow#ulcer of a fucking person#i love him so so much#asterism#tcm#the clockmaster
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my dreams need to stop giving me fucked up ethical dilemmas i'm sorry but i don't think like that. if you put me in a survival situation i will simply do whatever i want.
#🐉#last nights dream was a massive tidal wave and all the people around me were insisting we had to stay and help#as many people as possible escape. and i was like erm no we dont. and walked off and just told people i met along the way to start running#if they wanted to live or stay and die and let them handle the rest.#and when all my companions called me a horrible person for it i was like well being a good person isnt going to mean anything#if im dead is it. lol.#ill take my tortured conscience over oblivion. see you in the afterlife maybe.
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#joseph quinn#joe quinn#jq#eddie munson#stranger things#stranger things 4#i want ALL of the bts eddie moments#all of them#do you hear me Duffers?#also they cant be sharing all this bts eddie stuff randomly if he isnt coming back right?#i'll file a lawsuit for personal damages and emotional trauma so fast so help me
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