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robotpussy · 2 years
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everyday I am reminded of why I stopped getting into fandoms
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So I went ahead and deleted my last post because honestly- I get the criticism with the skin tones now. They do need to do better when designing characters of color in this show- I do think there’s an issue with many artists making darker skin look ashy and gray and while for some characters it makes sense, it loses the meaning when it’s every single character in a series.
Personally, if I ever draw a character who is a POC- I try to research and find as many different references as I can so I don’t get any of it wrong. I’m not the best artist, but I try to have variety when it comes to what I draw. I also love learning new things, before my iPad broke I had a study I was doing where I practiced drawing characters with box braids, locks, textured curly hair, and I had been working on different Afro styles most recently. It was hard, but that’s why I was doing a study of the styles (RIP iPad- that’s all gone now). As for skin tones- I love doing a variety on that as well. I will say that I have seen plenty of people being borderline colorist when it comes to these characters- the fact that the skin was lighter was not the problem, I think it’s more so the lack of warmth and saturation?
Since you have characters with a more vibrant color palette in heaven- there’s not much of a reason to make Sera and Emily very desaturated (though I argue that Em is worse than Sera in this situation). I do hope we have more variety with characters in seasons 2 and 3- but I’m actually very unsure. Based on what we’ve seen so far.
Also, just a side note, don’t even get me started on Alastor- he was brought up quite a bit on my now deleted post. I have plenty of issues with the design and just slapping the “oh yeah he’s half creole” just to excuse the use of voodoo symbols in the show- I absolutely agree that’s that’s shady. I know that his demon form is supposed to reflect whatever he did in life/ how he died but like- he has NO ethnic features?? I know there’s mixed people who have light skin and practically no ethnic features- but I feel like we need some visual indicator rather than a “yeah hes mixed” randomly said on a stream one day. Most people are going to assume that he was a white man. Maybe that’ll change once we get his backstory- but who knows.
Anyways- that’s all I’m gonna really say about it. I do love this show but it absolutely has its flaws. I hate how the genuine criticisms are overshadowed by people who just hate the show and Viv- because there are some really valid takes out there, it’s just hard to find the ones who are genuinely just pointing out the shows flaws in a constructive way.
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generic-whumperz · 8 months
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Intro Post & Masterlist(s)
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The Aid Masterlist (current WIP, 18+)
Other works can be found at the bottom of this post under “Story Stuff,” but there isn't much else because I'm focusing on The Aid for now.
Congratulations, you have stumbled upon another (generic) whump blog, hence the name! New whumper in town, made this blog Aug 2023, and just started writing. Currently just working on one story right now (yay hyperfixations), that is slowly consuming every waking thought. Help
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🔪I prefer to be anonymous on here, so just call me “Generic/Gen,” them/them, mid (quit lying to yourself) late-20’s.
🔪Dyslexic bitch & silly goose—please excuse typos, misspellings, and any grammatical errors! I don’t have an editor or beta reader, so cut me some slack; I re-read and edit as best as I can, but my brain be playin’ tricks on me, and shit falls through the cracks! Just manage your expectations is all I’m sayin’, I’m not a professional.
🔪I’m (unfortunately) an American and my obnoxious word choice will probably reflect that.
🔪I’m currently a full-time college student taking a fucking break! But still, any written works I choose to share will not be uploaded on a set schedule (I write slow, my brain only occasionally works, & I’m busy), I apologize in advance!    
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🔪Lover of cryptids (Mothman fucks), paranormal enthusiast and certified Haunted™️. Weird shit WILL leak into my writing eventually. Don’t be surprised if a ghost or skin walker makes a cameo. It’s more fun this way, just go with the flow.
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Hi there! Absolutely love your Eddie stuff! If I may, can I request something heartwarming – like the (male or gn) reader ends up giving Eddie a ride home when he gets caught in the rain and the two end up having a deep conversation that ends up in some feelings getting spilled? <3
Oh, we've got one dose of angst and fluff coming right up!
Eddie Munson x Male Reader
Send me request here! Currently writing for Eddie Munson. I write for a variety of reader inserts (male, female, gender neutral, POC too).
The more details you had to your request, the better it is for me. EX: “What about some fluff for Eddie after he’s had a long day?”
Feel free to look through my masterlist here!
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It starts all because of a project in English. You're placed into pairs, by Ms. Barlowe, to take famous scenes in Shakespeare's play to translate them into more modern times. It's only with a little bit of regret do you look over to Eddie's seat. He'd gone a little too hard last night on the gig at The Hideout and probably using the hangover as an excuse to sneak over to Reefer Rick's. The air was warming up. The grass and trees were turning a hair more green. He'd need more to sell soon and it's not necessarily a new practice for Eddie to take a random weekday to handle other means of business.
He didn't love having to do it, but he did what he had to do. And much like Eddie, you do what you need and you collect an extra of the instructions as they're passed out for Eddie. Ms. Barlowe beams from the front of the class. It was a project everyone knew was coming for their unit. She did it every year. Everyone talked about the "surprise" at the end which was pairs would perform their transcribed scenes.
The thing that truly sucks is that you know this is not an activity where you can pick your own partner. Pairs are selected before the project is introduced. Given Ms. Barlowe's track record, she was not going to pair people who always worked together up which means the likelihood of you and Eddie winding up together is slim and pushing zero.
The class shuffles about as pairs are put together. Your name is called and then you hear a name you think could freeze blood. "Jason Carver."
He scoffs. "Of course, the freak's little assistant."
You roll your eyes at the taunt. "If you're nice, I'll show you the ropes," you return lowly.
Jason's gaze is hot and full of disgust. "Do me a favor and drop dead."
"Scared that you might like it."
"Alright, you two!" Ms. Barlowe interjects. "I will not be reassign partners so you two are just going to have to learn how to work it out and get through this assignment."
You shrug. You'll survive but you can't help but feel a bit of smugness at the way Jason's seems absolutely uncomfortable at the idea. The rest of the class you two spend giving just long enough sentences to answer the questions but nothing that would constitute a real conversation.
By the end of the day, you head over to Eddie's place to find him strumming at his guitar, not plugged into any amp on the front porch a cigarette hanging from his lips. He grins as he spots your car pulling in front of the trailer. He is less pleased when you go digging into your backpack to pull out the dreaded manilla folder. He groans head falling back into the cushion of the couch.
"You just got here. Don't do this to me," he huffs, taking the folder from your hands.
"At least when I leave it'll be so much sweeter," you tease, falling into the seat next to him. Eddie is careful to lift the instrument and even leaves to get it back inside so it's safe. When he returns, two cans in hand, he extends one to you.
"You hate Coke?" you question. It's your favorite but not what Eddie normally goes for.
"Just take the damn soda," he mumbles around the button of the cigarette still pressed between his lips. You take the cold can with a nod. "Tell me this is the year where Barlow let us pick partners.
You shake your head. "Nope, I'm with Carver."
Eddie tries to tell himself he shouldn't be angry. Barlowe never lets people pick pairs for this project. Yet, he can't help the small flare and tick in his jaw. If Barlowe is going to give the class hell about not being able to pick partners, the last he wants for you is that you have a shitty one. "Tell me the prick is behaving?" Eddie should be more mindful of how the question comes out.
But you hear it--the way it's clipped and thick with disdain. Eddie is pissed. You opt not to tell him about the spat you and Jason have and especially don't tell him about Jason called you Eddie's "little assistant". Because sure you and Eddie were close, but you were just friends. And though it was painful to remind yourself of that, given how casually affectionate Eddie can be, friends is almost all you're most likely to get from Eddie.
Like right now, Eddie's arm is thrown around the back of the couch and he finds purchase on your shoulder. But it's casual. He's reclined back into the cushion, rings clinking against the can as he readjusts his grip on it. "I'll survive," you return. "How was your sick day?"
"Boring," Eddie laughs.
He rests the can on his thigh and thinks how his head splitting in half woke up him up. But what he wanted more than anything was to hang out with you. He wanted to hear you laugh and attempt to poorly sing the songs on the radio. Eddie wanted share bowls of cereal while watching you attempt to put together an itinerary for the day. You are a planner. He is the driver and it's how it always works--when the two of you want to get up to things, you plan, Eddie drives.
Eddie likes to think if he ever asked you to rob a bank with him, you'd already have a whole plan in place. And maybe sometimes it's just someone to sit at Lovers Lake and contemplate existence or staying hours in the local library curating the perfect stack of books to read.
All Eddie knows is that every second is better when it's spent with you. And the two of you talk almost until dark, creeping centimeters closer and closer. It's a knee first and then falling into each other as you laugh. It's easy here on the front porch of the trailer to give in to the gentle and probably not even noticeable taunts.
The project would go by like everything else except for when Eddie calls in the morning right before you're leaving to head to school. "The van's not starting, can I bum a ride?"
It's easy to say yes and when you show up to Eddie's place ten minutes later, he's quick to duck into the passenger seat. The sky is grayer than normal and you wonder if before spring fully blossoms winter plans on giving you one more dreary day. As you pull into the parking lot of the school, you call out Eddie's name softly over the quiet crooning of your car's radio.
"What's up?" he returns, hand already clutching the handle to let himself out. He doesn't want to make you late and he knows he's cutting it close by needing the last minute ride.
"I agreed to stay back to work with Jason for the last bits of this project. I don't know how long it's going to take but, uh, if you need someone else to give you a ride, I understand."
Eddie shakes his head. "I don't have anything else today. Unfortunately no hot dates have come my way yet," he laughs. It pains him to make the joke but he makes it anyway but that's what friends do, right.
"If you're sure?"
"Yeah, dude, I'm sure," he laughs and then opens the door to peel himself form the car. Eddie gets his bag on his back and then starts for the front doors. You watch him for a moment and hope you didn't really imagine the flash of sadness through his eyes.
Eddie keeps his head down as he approaches the building and turns the corner for the first bathroom near the entrance the second he can. He throws himself into a stall and locks it behind himself. His head hits the door and he exhales shakily. He shouldn't wait, he knows. It would be easier to have someone else give me a ride home, but Eddie doesn't want anyone else to drive him home. He wants you to do it.
He wants to listen to Madonna on the radio and laugh at your terrible falsetto. He wants you, but it feels like it'll never happen. He'll be stuck always wanting and never having. And given this, the suffering is worth it. If he can't have it all, he can at least hold onto what he can have this way.
Eddie doesn't look at you much the rest of the day. Even at lunch, he laughs, but his eyes never fall onto you. The space between the two of you feels thick, like you could cut it with a knife it's so tangible. When you tell Eddie you and Jason will be in the library, Eddie only nods and keeps his gaze trained on the ground.
You want to ask then what is going on. But don't get the chance before Eddie stalks off in the direction of the drama room--where Eddie said he'd hang out while you and Jason worked-- and Jason approaches from behind you. You pray the final touches on this project are swift. The forty-five minutes it takes to get through your final revisions and final practice feels like an eternity.
You have to tell yourself that every thirty seconds that you glance at the clock will add another hour. But you can't help it. You want the seconds to go by faster so you can talk to Eddie, see if you can dig up what's really beneath the surface. Jason all but runs out of the library when you two declare that this is as good as it's going to get dealing with Hamlet.
When you knock on the drama door, though it's already cracked, you can see Eddie pouring over something in one of his binders, pencils a flurry in his hands. "Occupied," Eddie returns to the sound of your knock.
"Shit, didn't realize they'd converted this into a bathroom over the course of the day," you laugh.
Eddie snorts and then looks up. "Done already?"
"Jason can't hang," you tease, hoping it'll make Eddie laugh again but the sound is hollow against your ears.
The walk to your car is quiet between the two of you and you're noticing now as you step out from the awning of the school that it's raining. You and Eddie make quick work to get to your car and once inside you turn the heat just a little to help dry you two out a little faster.
"My place?" you offer. "Restocked on Mountain Dew."
"Oh, actually, I-I told Wayne I'd fix this thing around the house and-and I should probably get to that before he-he gets home," Eddie returns. It's a lie and it falls clumsily from his lips.
The rain pitters softly against the roof the car. "Bullshit, Eddie," you huff, but turn the key in the ignition. You throw the car into reverse and look behind you before you start reversing.
Your hand comes up and grips the back of Eddie's seat as you navigate the car out of the space and Eddie almost kreens into the touch. He almost gives in, but he reminds himself that you two are just friends.
"You don't get to call bullshit," Eddie returns softly. "It's-it's true."
"What do you have to fix?"
"A valve to the shower." If a shower is metaphor for a heart, but Eddie doesn't say that last part aloud. He just stares out of the window shield.
"Was it something I did today?" you ask, replaying the entire day in your head. It all started this morning. But all you'd done is given him a ride.
"It's-it's not you."
"Don't tell me it's you. You can't do that, Eds. It's cliche. I can handle the truth," you huff, taking the right onto the street carefully as you know it's prone to flooding in heavy rains.
"It's us," Eddie answers.
"What-what about us?" The question catches in your throat. Whatever Eddie said next would alter everything--better or worse, but things would change and all it would take was an utterance of Eddie's voice to change it. You don't know if you're more excited for the possibility or more anxious about this all shattering, but you need it change. In the moment as Eddie doesn't quite get his words out, you realize you need something to give even if it's earth shattering. "What about us?" you ask again.
"I want--" Oh Eddie can't say it. How does he put into words how he wants just to sit and do nothing with you. He wants to be the one you tell everything too, even if it's minor and seems trivial to the word--Eddie wants it. How does one articulate the desire to hold every piece of someone knowing they are falliable and it could all go wrong but wanting the honor of a chance anyway.
"I want everything," Eddie starts. It feels complete on its own but more knocks against his teeth. "I want to hold you hand and I want to tell you about the lyrics that are in my head and I want you to want me too. In every way possible and I know we've been friends for years. But holy shit, we just--we work and I am a cynic. Self proclaimed because I have Daddy issues and let's be honest, it's sort of just a result of what's happened and keeping everyone away makes it less likely for someone else to hurt me. But I want you to hurt me. Like, I want to know it's risky and not care if it blows up because at least I got the shot with you. I-I just want us to be more than what we are."
You laugh. You fucking laugh because you can't think of anything else to do as the tears well in your eyes. The rain blurs as the tears build and you pull over onto the shoulder of the road and drop your head onto the headrest. Eddie gets the car into park for you, realizing you haven't moved to do it yourself.
"You are so--" you laugh and then lift your head. "Eddie, I have literally been driving myself insane trying to read your signals. Because I couldn't tell if it was just how you were or if you wanted what I wanted too. I hate Mountain Dew, you know."
Eddie nods. "I know."
"But I don't want to hurt you," you state, stretching over the console.
Eddie closes his eyes at the feeling of your hand on his cheek--how your long digits hold his cheek so firmly.
"Look-look at me," you command.
Eddie follows it, eyes dripping in worry when they land on you. "Yeah?"
"I want you to teach me how to love you. I like you already. I want you already, but I-I don't know how to love you and I need you to teach me that. I want to learn that. I want to listen to all the lyrics and I want you to hate me when I try to talk sports to you, but you listen anyhow because you know I care. I want to get hideous sweaters together for Jeff's Christmas party and win goddamn it because you know everything is a competition with me. I want to teach you how to love me too. How-how does that sound?"
Eddie blinks, trying to clear the tears from his lashline but he smiles, hands coming up to your chin. "That sounds like a hell of a ride that I want to be on."
"Good," you exhale with a tuft of laughter. "Because I'm not getting off."
There's only inches between the two of you and you close the distance sealing your lips around Eddie's. You revel in the way he pushes into you, pushes every so gently into the kiss like he can't get in close enough. His hand slides to your cheek now and your stomach flips at the feeling of his calluses, bumping over your skin.
Eddie breaks away from the kiss first, "Prepared to be sick of me now," he laughs.
"Oh, I was sick of you years ago," you retort nipping at his plump bottom lip. "Just wait until you see how unbearable I can be."
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gaykey · 7 months
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I’ve mostly been a lurker, I just wanted to thank you for your posts these past couple of days. as a poc shawol it felt cathartic and comforting somehow that I wasn’t the only one completely shaken and feeling all embarrassed about how intensely I was reacting to this whole thing. Also wanted to say that it’s okay to feel conflicted about wanting to continue enjoying their updates. I’m a mess too after their apologies, especially when I feel like I’ll be betraying a huge part of myself if I unquestioningly jumped back into it all, even though I want to love them like I used to. infuriatingly, like key himself, I might randomly feel the urge to smack him or taemin upside the head in the future. It’s what I feel rn when their faces come up in my feed, and it’s so weird, it makes me so mad at myself, because they’re not my friends and I shouldn’t be feeling any of this! Maybe I should just applaud and wow them for the amazing artists that they are, and dial back on watching the rest of their content. I’m very glad they apologized, it did feel good, maybe, to see that. I don’t know anymore. I just need a lot and lot of time to settle into myself again. At least all this made me take a long hard look at all the behaviors I’ve unthinkingly picked up to emotionally regulate. I hate that a lot of the fandom are using similar conflicted feelings as an excuse to downplay what they did, and people’s reaction to their comments. to all the fans saying no one’s perfect, and poc like me are overreacting, I should get over myself now they’ve apologized- you’re absolutely right, no one’s perfect, and if I can’t find it in me to move past it, I suppose I wasn't a ‘true shawol’, and I should get the hell out when I can. I’m riding that emotional rollercoaster and feeling exhausted, so sorry for the long mindless rambling. maybe the best way for me to continue to be a shawol and not ignore what happened as a poc is to get some space, be there for myself and understand why I’ve formed whatever parasocial relationships I seem to have formed. I want to continue admiring them, because they and the fandom were the reason for a lot of changes in me. Maybe this will be another one of them. Please know you’re not alone in your feelings, and thank you so much for all your posts!
hello anon!
first of all, that's nice of you <3 i'm glad that my presence has brought you at least a little bit of comfort during this shit show. and no need to apologise for rambling. i do that a lot lol, sometimes you just gotta rant a bit and get it off your chest.
but isn't it weird how we feel all these conflicting emotions of guilt, and relief and anger and sadness and all sorts, over kpop men 😭
like, i get WHY of course, but, it's all a sign that maybe we should take a step back from all of this, like you said. and i've made the decision to do that.
mmm a lot of the fandom reaction is what has pissed me off the most too, twitter took years off my life. absolutely wild takes.
yep, i'll always continue to love them. i've supported them for literally half my life, but, it's time for a break.
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pansyboybloom · 3 months
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I think maybe my tone and language may out sent the wrong message because I agree with you and a lot of the points you are saying. We probably also are just in different spaces online and my use of the term "anti trans masculinity" was wrong and misconstrued.
When I say anti trans masculinity, I don't mean anti trans men. I mean anti masculinity in the context of being trans. Probably not the best term.
My "not immune to terf propaganda" was taken out of context. I'm saying that I've seen a lot of trans people online still propagate the idea of trans women are predatory and ugly for being masculine, and trans men are victims of grooming. Especially with poc trans people. Black trans women are almost immediately clocked as groomers, even by fellow trans women.
I've seen other transmascs fall into a pipeline of "feminine transboys are the only valid ones", with those transboys tell others that masculine features are disgusting. I've seen transmascs hold off from transitioning because they are scared to turn "ugly". Because feminine = attractive and masculine = ugly.
Also I talked about the uwu cunt boy fetish of trans men because it's become incredibly more popular, including in "trans friendly" spaces from what I have seen. I didn't mean to say that trans women aren't fetishized, they most definitely are. Trans people are very much seen as a kink to a lot of people.
While you are fair to call bs on my claim that transfems are ripped apart if they don't immediately transition, I have seen it. Though I definitely did word that statment wrong. I've seen trans women online post videos of them in makeup and wearing wigs, then a video of them out of that, and told in the comments that they "look prettier when passing", "you should only do content while passing", and "be glad you aren't a man anymore".
While we can agree to disagree about transmen experiencing a specific kind of bigotry (oppression wasn't a good word), I was talking about the very small communities of trans women saying that trans men are "betraying them", and how that isn't an excuse to turn around and be misogynistic to them. Even if a transfem is saying something slightly annoying, transmen will rip her apart.
I'm sorry that my anons came off the wrong way. Also not trying to immediately push off the blame to me being uneducated. I try my best to hold up my transfem friends and I do try call out fellow trans guys for being misogynistic.
once again giving the heads up that the schizo word/brain salad is making articulation hard and that my hand tremors are really bad today, so any tone or misspellings or anything is bc of that! just in case
thank you for your reply, i know my own was super long, so i appreciate you taking the time to read and digest that giant wall of words. i hope it didn't come across as aggressive, as that wasn't my intent (i hate to keep giving the same excuse, but I'm schizo spec and have a very hard time articulating myself)
i will agree that we are likely in different areas online-- I've actually made it my new year resolution to spend less (for lack of a better word) time in online spaces and more irl (PFLAG has been wonderful to me <3) so I'm a little behind on the attitudes on tumblr, so to speak, and was coming more from what I've seen in person and in literature (once again recommending whipping girl! it is a great place to start on transfeminist theory, though it is long. if that's something you're interested in, Julia Serano, the author, reads her audiobook and you can likely find it at your local library/on libby)
I apologize that i didn't realize the context of the terf comment! that's on me. I agree that a lot of trans people regurgitate the "trans women are predatory and ugly for being masculine, and trans men are victims of grooming". the amount of trans men i have seen (specifying trans men since that's the space i spend the most time in) who have detransitioned into 'dysphoric females' and buy into the sudden onset dyphoria theory so they can have more of a community with radfems.... shudders. I think this serves as an example of how the unique experiences trans men have can turn into bigotry. not excusing trans men who go full radfem's actions, bc they are hurtful and dangerous, but i see radfems twist a lot of young trans men's fears surrounding men developed by the sex binary and sex essentialism to convince them they are being groomed and have to stay women or will lose their whole community/safe space. i see this a LOT with young adult straight trans men who are so scared of being rejected by their lesbian radfem community that they turn on fellow trans people. as i said in the last ask, the idea that women are 'abandoning' their girlies to go be with the enemy is definitely dangerous when put to the extreme by communities like radfems. i wouldn't call it a systemic transmisandery (or similar word) issue as much as i would a symptom of misogyny, essentalism, & transphobia, but it should be something we as a community talk about, esp since these 'dysphoric females' genuinely hurt the rest of us. especially since, in my experience, these communities tend to be predominately white, so like you said, Black trans women get the brunt of the vileness. the whole community at large has failed Black trans women and fems, and transmisgoynoir is something that must become the forefront of community discussion.
okay back on track lol.
i misunderstood your point on the 'fem tboy is the only valid one' earlier, so sorry. trans men as a community most certainly do that to other trans men, but, just speaking as a gnc trans man, I've noticed that like, it comes less from a fear of masc-ness and instead from a fear of fatness/loss of conventional attractiveness and also this misunderstanding of gnc as a whole. not wanting to start t bc 'i'll get fat/i'll go bald/i'll have to stop wearing skirts' is a fear i see a LOT in pre t gnc trans men circles, especially the young ones, and i think that really shows how we as a community have failed young trans men. i think by showing love for fatness/bears, 'non conventionally attractive' men, be it balding, acne, whatever, and showing how to play with gender outside of fem/masc would solve that problem, or start to. but that's just coming from my perspective as a white, fat, gnc gay guy, so i cant speak for everyone and every trans kid.
and oh my god just adding onto the 'cuntboi' thing-- as a guy who wants phallo, the idea that we're all white thin sexually ambiguous bottoms who enjoy vaginal penetration makes me want to eat my pants. i think that affects all trans people-- femininity is synonymous with submission, sex, and fetish for a lot of people-- it def is frustrating when you see even other trans guys perpetuate it. i think it's less a hate of masculinity and more a fetishizing of femininity and using that fetish to fetishize trans men. it's like how autogynophilia is used all the time to denounce trans women but autoandrophilia is rarely mentioned for us, bc why would we want to be men during sex? we're all bottom-submissive cunt boys, we would never want to imagine and get off on being men during sex!! that's why im not the biggest believer in autoandrophilia being a modern internet problem as much as it could be.
As for your comment on trans women getting ripped apart for not passing: i personally think that is a product of effemimania, which is a term Julia Serano coined in Whipping Girl (i know, i know, this is like the 5th time I've mentioned it) to describe our cultural obsession with “male femininity,” specifically the manner in which such expressions are routinely sensationalized, rigorously policed, and pathologized, instead of any specific anti trans masculinity. Basically, it is spurred on by an obsession with what womanhood looks like and a near fetishistic need to watch trans women practice it the way you want them too to enforce control over them.
once agian, thanks for reaching out. i'm glad to know we could have a conversation, ya know? if you have any other questions, don't hesitate to reach out again
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machineheraldandy · 9 months
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“Cardboard flat” Xina Kwan was not cardboard flat, definitely not infact that’s why us fans love her so much and it is obvious this answer was aimed at her as a character because the question asked directly mentioned Xina Kwan.
She was a genius inventor that was smarter than Miguel who created/fixed Lyla, she was obsessed with retro things to the point she wanted her car even to be retro, she could stand up for herself and knew how to put Miguel in place, being able to insult him and Dana for things they’ve done and it’s not shown so much in a negative her carrying on way but a funny way of her messing with them for the hurt they caused. She studied aliens as well her entire life, trying to find out if they existed. She had complex emotions, even if Miguel’s love interest for a lot of time she didn’t even care about being with him, the most she wanted out of him was a sexual encounter in Mexico, she suffered human emotions like any character would, being conflicted about Miguel wanting to kill an alien life form even if it hurt her, and having survivors guilt when Dana had passed, looking past all her hatred for Dana to feel sorrow. She was so smart and gifted that even doom admired her and believed her to be amazing, with his last message to her being about how the state would treat her well and how she could have what she wanted from them due to how amazing she was for them. Showing her strength and ability to please even doom
And let’s not look past her childhood, where she helped shape Miguel to the way he was, helping him learn to stand up for himself, soon helping him want to go to court against Kron, helping him be nosey to listen in to what would happen, something someone that is cardboard wouldn’t do.
She had a sense of humour, guilts, strong emotions, the smarts not even Miguel had
Yes she had her flaws, any POC from old comic books do, there are times when the artist even forget she’s Asian and give her brown hairs and green eyes! Something that I hate about the comics, but she isn’t cardboard flat. And she deserved to not be “disposable.” She deserves to come back as a proper character that marvel doesn’t forget about, because without her, you wouldn’t have the Miguel that is in the 1992 comics, and without the miguel in the 1992 comics you wouldn’t have any of the comics with him in it, or any of the games with him in it, or any of the movies with him in it. Xina helped form and shape the man you love so much. (Let’s not pretend that parts of ATSV Miguel aren’t based off of 1992 when they are)
Also let’s not pretend you don’t like her cause she’s cardboard flat, or written badly. the opinion on Xina is because the idea of Miguel being with a woman is so disgusting to you because it’s too straight even though everyone that ships her with miguel, or ships Lyla with Miguel do it because they are queer and just enjoy Miguel with the people/things he canonly loves in ways
Like trust me I don’t ship Xina x Miguel because I’m a gross heterosexual that found them, I ship them in a lesbian way as a lesbian
And your excuse may be “but the marvel editorial settled on it!” But how can you use the same company who you are complaining about being racist and not knowing how to treat POC well, as a way to explain your feelings for not liking characters.
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I stopped watching the rookie and haven’t watched new Amsterdam in while because I got so fucking tired of how every show on made it seem like a woc couldn’t possible fall in love with a man of color which just got me so annoyed! Like sure I love Sharpwin they my otp but the fact they had Sharp break up with two perfect fine Asian men for no rzn and made the most lame bs excuse ever just to get her with the yt male lead got me so triggered couldn’t they just not set them up to fail or just for the plot if they wouldn’t wasn’t everrrrrr gonna make them happen in the first place so we some of us wouldn’t get excited to attached or get our hopes up about the ships! don’t get me wrong I love sharpwin but it was just so annoying especially as someone who is huge fan of her and my girl is always paired with the yt lead and in 90% she gets hate for it by yt fans of the show cough doctor who fans my poor queen the hate pain and suffering she’s endured bc of whovivians is unimaginable so yeah glad she’s loved in yt ship now
then there’s the rookie that I stopped at first I loved Chen and Bradford they 2 of my favs but I didn’t like how they seemed to just have my girl go from one old yt cop to the next then they had her date another 2 guy in uniform but didn’t even give them a chance and they were both moc I think so it was like nah let’s not give them a chance so she too can end up with the yt lead man again like she didnt start the show with being into the white male lead! That’s what I hate them not even giving woc a chance to find happiness or date or love with moc! look at Bobby and athena love that ship it wasnt just let’s have the black woman with the yt male lead it was build up it had romance it was a ship with substance like they didn’t break her and her moc up just bc they wanted her to end with the yt lead there was a whole story seasons before they happened all of that great writing great plot great storyline then just thinking every show has to have the woc end up with yt male lead bc thats what they think everyone wants it for some odd reason especially blackpeople god knows where they got that from but I’m sure it’s their thinking no one wanna watch a black/poc ship be happy in love and that people just want yt leads in all and every one of the ships bc that’s the only way anyone ever wanna watch enjoy the show that ship right or even root for the blackpoc ships characters as love interests or as in general their whole characters arcs! and it seems sadly right on some parts bc yts defently only ever wanna watch a show or ship if there’s at least one yt lead as part of the ship and as face of the show! Anyways im so fcvking tired of it! that’s why I ain’t getting my hopes up about popecleo in obx and that’s why they making jiara happened now bc that theory of theirs sadly has merit! I won’t even start on Bridgeton fcvk that whole show but ben polin edwina and ! that’s why I say Mr. Malcom’s List is far far far superior period drama then anything bridegerton could ever think of or ever do.!!
Heard something reverse went down in show resident it’s been a while since I watched was on s3-s4 I think and I stopped bc I saw a spoiler that I’m still not ready to face like my queen Emily whom I’ve watched every shows she’s been in d worded so I can’t get myself to watch but saw some clips here that it was reversed tho
there’s so many shows I could tag that did this sh*t if there’s any y’all feel so strongly about like me with the ones in the tag do share might have started that show but given up when all that shit went down who knows y’all could surprise me an it could be a show I aint seen
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I don’t get how one can hate someone and call them out (as you should) if they ever did something bad with actual proof and haven’t owned up to it yet have the audacity to body-shame them and calling them all these nasty names which has nothing to do with the “reason” why you hate them in the first place, just full on bullying them.
Yet are fans of people who are actually racist themselves and have yet to apologize. I personally think it’s a waste of time to do all that (aside from the calling someone out which one should if they still do it till this day) but that’s just me.
Because it’s faux outrage. They’re not really upset about the things they claim to be or they’d be going after the type of people who’ve done and said SO MUCH worse. They just need an excuse to be angry and found an easy one. But again, they don’t drag others for doing the exact same thing because they don’t actually care. They hated Alba before knowing about her pictures and the old tweets but that info was the gotcha they were looking for.
Yes, the cultural appropriation Alba has done and the things her friends have said are very problematic. But why are a bunch of nobodies being called out 24/7 when celebrities and politicians with much more power and influence aren’t getting any of the same treatment? No, I don’t think Alba and her friend’s actions are ok. I don’t think their actions should be excused because it only leads to the normalization of actions similar to theirs and that’s a problem, too. I think it’s important to remember these things happened. But there are people literally out there RIGHT NOW attempting to segregate schools again, referring to those with low paying jobs as “the help” (Which is extremely racist), and attack PoC and the LGBT+ community in much more serious ways and no one has uttered a peep about them. Why? Where is the same outrage for the rest of the people out there who are so much more well known by the public? I’ve seen some accounts use racist language and make body shaming comments themselves, probably without realizing it, but even so, it happened. So are these people really mad about racism or did they just find an easy excuse to hate with? Because they’re silent when it comes to other racists with much more power and influence. 🦎
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viscountessevie · 2 years
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I’m not going to excuse people getting threatening messages because that’s just fucking wrong, no matter what. But you very much shared an ask response on the main Bridgerton tag about Colin being confused and fucking Penelope’s belly button. Like okay, maybe it seems like a funny joke of him being a clueless virgin? But I have heard the fat joke countless times growing up, about a woman being so fat that a man might make that mistake. And hey, maybe you never experienced that but it’s really hurtful. It just comes off as incredibly fatphobic, so if you’re not actively trying to hurt people, please try harder?
Anon is talking about this post
[Shoutout to my friends for looking this over before I posted @sweetestviscount @sophiamariabeckett and @hptriviachamp & @jeanvanjer for the HR insight]
Hey there, thank you for sending this ask and letting me know in a civil manner! While they were not death threats aimed at me - I’m hoping I never get those - THIS is the way to broach things that are hurtful not call people disgusting names and hope they die. Under no circumstances should we ever try to justify death threats under the guise of moralising. That being said, I genuinely thank you for the way you wrote this, anon. 
I definitely hear you and understand your frustration on hearing countless fat jokes growing up. That must have been really shitty and I'm genuinely sorry about that. I promise you this blog is a safe space for those who wish to make it as such and, while I condemn Show!Penelope for her actions, I am actively anti-fatphobic and DO NOT tolerate it on here at all!
However, I would like to clarify the joke in the ask and the anon who sent it very much confirmed it too. You were somewhat right in your first guess:
Like okay, maybe it seems like a funny joke of him being a clueless virgin?
You may also have missed a related ask here where I explicitly stated this:
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To a certain extent, it is about his cluelessness as a virgin but mainly about the lack of his sexual prowess and so I assure you, the joke is 100% on Show!Colin and the way he is currently being written and nothing against Pen or her weight at all.
Like I said in the screenshot above, literally nothing wrong with being a virgin! It can be great and you aren't always clueless. Again, this is HR (Historical Romance) show and that comes with a certain standard. If they want to keep him a virgin, that's great - more rep for people like us! But he needs to be a Hot Virgin™ and if he was clueless, let Pen teach him or something! That's a solid trope.
While we are on the topic, I do want to defend Pen against the show and the way the showrunners clearly view her. Aside from the horrible things she's done to innocent people in the Ton, hate-criming the POCs and backstabbing those closest to her, it's very telling that Daphne and Kate got Regé Jean Page as Simon and Jonathan Bailey as Anthony respectively who do have a large number of people who find them hot (if they aren't your type, fine but you can't deny they are on the higher end of an objective attractiveness scale). They fit the standard of a typical Hot HR Hero and that's what their wives deserve!!
Why doesn't Pen get the same type of hero? Why isn't she written like Daph and Kate who also hit the standard of HR heroines? Yes, Penelope is framed sympathetically by the narrative after everything she's done but when you put together all the actions I listed above, she is also written as a villain that gets away with everything (so far - we don't know if she'll even apologise in S3). If this was any other show where she wasn't guaranteed Colin as her endgame, she would be a villain.
It's just really annoying to see the (1) one fat main character on the show not given the HR heroine treatment and given a boy next door looking man who is very close to doing brownface if that tan from Greece keeps up. Book Pen (pre-TVWLM weight loss) and Nicola deserved the HR treatment!! 
[I have said this a couple of times on my blog but Newts is cute; especially his S1 looks but it not exactly HR Hot but if he gets you going, that’s great! He’s just not it for the majority of us and that’s okay too.]
To close this off, again I do apologise that the original ask hurt you and may have brought up painful memories. That was neither Jett Anon's intention nor mine, I hope the clarification helped and my DMs are open if you do want to vent about this more.
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Okay this has bothered me for some time but I remember once seeing people (antis) on Twitter hating on Pepa because she is "a white woman." It made me sick!
😭 bruh there's nothing wrong with Pepa being white (or any of the other clearly white characters in the film that folks refuse to aknowledge as white because... idk it makes them feel more woke when the film they like has more """poc""" in it or something). White latin americans exist and they are many, and tbh I'd still feel more comfortable with a white latino than with an anglo that "looks like me" (i.e had a mexican great-grandmother or something). It's just gringos who hate when accurate despictions of latin american realities don't fit their idea of what "woke latino rep" looks like.
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That said, I do find it curious that Pepa is the only white one out of her siblings, and I can't help but wonder if the character designers and concept artists were just... a little put off by the idea of her children being "too mixed" somehow? Or idk maybe they just though she looked cool as a redhead and went with that design. Maybe they wanted to fill the white people quota so you got like... four white Madrigals in total. I'd honestly give them the benefit of the doubt because her design is honestly harmless and inoffensive, nothing worth worrying about imo.
I don't mean to say there isn't a racism problem in latin american and that white people here are more virtuous or whatever but sbsjsbdb they are OUR white people only we can talk shit abt them /hj. Gringos will just use "criticism" as an excuse to be xenophobic and racist because they don't know crap.
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cw: christian-facist upbringing and all the baggage that comes with it.
i suppose i can get a *bit* excessive when it comes to terfs. i can recognize we're both groups who are - in one way or another - pressured to conform in a way that can put us as individuals above the "other". however. when i chose to live my truth, i gave up that safety net. i threw away any chance of being one of the oppressors (in a way that let me keep my rights and a heel on the necks of others). and i never looked back. that choice led me to be homeless. i wound up in a cult and dating a black trans woman. she was abusive and manipulative. but she was a woman. and she taught more than i ever learned in my old life. i learned about her struggles. i'd leave our tent first so the cops wouldn't harm her. i was always there so to be a witness to any abuse (as i knew my testimony would be taken more seriously). i learned more in those few years than my entire time with my family and in the "education" system combined.
all this to say, when i see people turning on their own, it sickens me to my core. when i see queer or poc cop, it turns my stomach. when i see a terf it makes my blood boil. because at the end of the day, there is no valid justification to put your heel the necks of your own. there is no reality i will ever accept where harming your fellow women is anything but true cowardice. there are cis women harmed by terf ideology - especially women of color. even if you hate men to the extent that you include trans women and exclude trans men, if you're truly willing to let cis women become collateral in your vengeance, there is actively no valid excuse for what you are doing (trans people are their identity but i recognize it is necessary to meet bigots at their ideology level to at least understand their warped view on reality). one of my mentors is a gay Jewish woman. one who marched along side mlk. she fought for OUR rights. not just trans. not just queer. not just poc's. she fought for OUR rights. and it disgusts me to know there are people who benefit from her work who choose find allies with the people who sought her eradication. if you have any self-awareness and identify as a terf or gender critical. i implore you. think of the actual activists who have suffered assault fighting for OUR rights. the people who died against the very fascists you side with to keep some of us from having any rights.
we are all minorities fighting for what little we have. and we all deserve as much as the people in power. and to side with them for a chance to get a piece of the pie is despicable and cowardly.
if you're a queer in the usa, all of your rights are because of black trans people. and even if you're not. you have no right to erase poc trans people from our history. and doing so makes you as bad as any other group that would erase that history. and that makes you a despicable enemy.
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It is weird you guys talk about tumblr etiquette only to post copyright laws to make a very silly excuse as to why you should be allowed to derail someone else's post. Which no, that's not proper tumblr etiquette at all, that literally defeats the purpose. If someone brings up you are 39, it is to point out you are too old to be acting like a toddler that doesn't know to just look things up, and blame the fact you didn't know any better because "the americans" instead of just acknowledging these were mainly Black people from various countries. Oh, all of that was also not proper tumblr etiquette. Nor is blaming "both sides" just to take away blame on your part
I am slightly confused here because I didn't talk about tumblr etiquette nor post copyright laws and I am not 39 so I think you have mistaken me for my mutual @lady-phasma or sent the message to both of us.
When I blamed both sides I was actually being extremely generous and kind, because there is only one side laughing at death threats and that side is your side.
So. Since you are asking me and not the person that made the initial reblog (my mutual) I will just say that I personally wouldn't make such a reblog, never had and never will. However, making such a reblog does not mean that the person that made it "hates black people", which is literally what OP said. It is not the same thing. It was just hasty on her part, at most. Also, making such a reblod does not excuse death threats. I actually don't care if it's a joke, or if it's indirect, or whatever the hell you think it is. It's still a death threat. Followed by threatening people with hellfire. In arabic. And in all of this extremely amusing atmosphere OP had nothing to say apart from validating the death threats and then they throwed around racism accusations to intimidate me and silence me, which they definitely didn't achieve because I don't care.
The post has thousands of notes. Thousands. OP could have just 1) deactivated the reblogs, 2) specified in the initial post that this post is about POC, or even 3) asked my mutual to take it down instead of attacking her with the "why do you hate me" discourse that frankly is just manipulative. I can also assure you that my mutual is a very kind and respectful person who genuinely meant no harm and would have taken down the post immediately if such thing happened. But it didn't.
So I will keep in mind that posts about dark haired people (as I said the vast majority of white people are dark haired like myself but ok) are meant to be reblogged strictly in their particular context because I do not wish for people feeling inferior or discriminated against. I will also refrain from intervening in anything that doesn't make much sense in my context, because it will be considered open provocation. I do know better now. You however, need to also keep in mind that using "copypasta" (whatever the hell that is supposed to mean) death threats and laughing at them is considered disgusting behaviour by people that don't share the same context as you. And you should absolutely refrain from doing it, enabling it or finding it amusing, or validating it in any possible way. This is not OK. You also need to keep in mind that if you want to keep a post that has THOUSANDS of notes from "derailing" you have a lot of ways to actively achieve that and shouldn't expect the WORLD to know what you personally have in mind. The world does not revolve around you.
Also "39 yo is too old for acting like a toddler" is the definition of ageism. Not only my mutual didn't act like a toddler, she actually explained in a very polite and respectful manner that she meant no harm and also stopped me and other mutuals from dragging that person to hell and back (the person that made the death threats) earlier, when we absolutely should have. Well she didn't stop us for long, but she did try. But this is toddler behaviour to you. I didn't see anyone on your side giving a fuck about the disgusting reblogs this person made or trying to stop them. Did that happen? I seriously doubt it. All I saw is "omg the death threat is so funnyyy" bullshit.
Honestly this is really the last time I talk about this ridiculous subject. I am not your problem here. Get over it and move on, I definitely will. Any future ask will be deleted and the person that made it will be blocked.
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I totally agree with you saying Penelope is not a racist.
Have some of her ‘victims’ of gossip been poc? Yes but that’s down to casting alone, not purposely trying to make Pen a racist. She writes about anyone. I’ve seen some saying her calling kate a prickly beast is an obvious declaration of her racism and it’s just not. Many are creating these false realities to support their hate campaign against Nicola and Pen and it’s ridiculous. Fair enough not liking a character but they’re slandering Nicola and pulling her apart, a stranger who they know nothing about.
As a woc I do not think pen is a racist and I do not think Nicola is a racist. The whole anti nc needs to be closed down and they need to stop having the audacity to act shocked and offended when people call them out for bullying because that’s what they’re doing. Some need to realise that just because they’re a kanthony shipper it doesn’t automatically make them a good person or a voice for the whole fandom.
I’m both a kanthony and polin shipper and I’m just tired of them, really tired.
Again, I don’t think some people understand that racism is quite literally the form of discrimination where one targets another because of race. As in, if Penelope were racist she would have to specifically discriminate against Kate and Edwina because they’re brown.
 Not because they’re from India (xenophobia), not because they’re women (mysoginy) not because they’re not nobles (classism). Racism is discriminating them because they’re brown.
And since we’re on the subject you would be surprised about how many people get their racism and xenophobia confused. As a latina, I don’t usually get discriminated for racial reasons. Since most latinos are white passing. But depending on the specific country I say I’m from, discrimination can range from wild to very mild. And this happens for all cultures really. Because a brown person can say “ I was born and raised in Yorkshire” to a Londoner and face very little discrimination while another brown person can say “I was born and raised in India” and face A LOT of discrimination. It would have cero to do with being brown and everything to do with the culture they were raised in.  
So lesson of the day dear readers. Don’t get your racism and xenophobia confused.
So in that sense, I don’t think neither Nicola or Penelope are racist at all. Because that would mean she’s reluctant to be around brown people or black people, (or Asians, or Latinos). And does her best to undermine their efforts on and offscreen. Which I haven’t seen her do. 
 Again I reiterate, I don’t believe in racism, or xenophobia, or any other form of discrimination because in my world the only distinction that exists between people are people who act like jerks and people who don’t. Discrimination only follows that criteria.  
 I went to the boutique the other day and was received by two white attendants, one treated me so nicely I wanted to be her best friend forever, the other did look at the color of my skin and proceeded to ignore me and walk away whenever I needed something. I could have said this was because she was white. But the other girl also saw that I was latina and still was very friendly and nice to me. So my conclusion? One of them was just a jerk, it had nothing to do with being white.
You’re going to meet people in life who have every excuse to be racist and still treat you with kindness. You’re going to meet people in life who are just looking for an excuse to treat other people badly and will find it just to justify themselves, even knowing that the way they are treating others is 100% wrong. Their jerk behavior is on them and isn’t a reflection of the whole group of people they belong to. 
And yes, this happens in fandom too. People will use all sort of excuses to justify themselves when they’re being mean to strangers on the internet. It doesn’t matter if they’re advocating and defending against discrimination, being mean to a stranger in the internet, is still wrong, and any justification will not make them less of a jerk. 
So don’t measure everyone with the same yardstick just because they happen to share some traits in common, like race, gender, sexual orientation, nationality, or even religion. Jerks are Jerks and in my book that’s the only minority they will ever be a part of. 
and that’s the tea
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CLOWN CLOWN CLOWN, I HAD THE BEST IDEA IN THE WORLD
Lightcannon au, but Lux was raised as a Noxian
Like when lux was a baby she was kidnapped by noxus coz why not and before they kill her she shows she has magic and noxus is like new weapon pog? And raise her as like an assassin with Swain personally looking over her training coz like us noxus using a fucking Crownguard as a weapon that hates Demacia against Demacia, fucking hilarious, imagine what the Crownguards think when they find out there Luxanna was raised as a Noxian and fucking hates them
I don't know how Lux and Jinx meet but God just think about the fucking angst here, the Crownguards being thrown into a frenzy coz precious Luxanna has been kidnapped and with nobody asking for a ransom they think she's dead, whilst noxus over here is like Lux you gotta hate Demacia! Why? Coz your a mage, you where born there and we rescued you before they could kill you!
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I jest (like the clown I am) given my recent track record of stories featuring them.
Actual thoughts below since I rambled too long.
Think it's a pretty neat idea, especially depending on what kind of relationship you'd make Lux have with Swain. Personally, as I'm a sucker for found family and "Evil person has a small soft spot if you squint", I'd probably have Lux view Swain basically as her adopted dad who 'saved' her from a life of misery being a Mage which would make her fiercely loyal to his cause. It would make her excuse (or even praise) the less than 'moral' things he'd do.
On Swain's end it would be far harder to determine his feelings towards her, but I think there'd at least be some affection in that he has a loyal (powerful) force that he's raised from a young age. It might be gruff or hard to really tell the truth, but I always kinda like those characters. Full how he would act would depend on after research tho since I honestly don't know that much about Swain (besides him kicking my ass multiple times in PoC).
Also just love the idea of the two having quiet private talks sometimes, Swain idly playing with his birds while Lux voices her worries or just opinions as he offers cryptic comments that always seem to put her at ease. Feel like their relationship would be an important part of the fic because it would act as the main lynchpin for why Lux was so fiercely loyal (and also somewhat mirror Jinx's feelings for Silco).
As for how Jinx could be added, it depends on how AU you wanna make it, few off the top of my head:
-(Really AU) Jinx is a demon that Swain helps Lux summon after she pleads with him desiring to be more useful. Make her personality more of jokester to counter Lux's likely angst no nonsense one.
-(Post s1) Have Piltover catch Jinx and in an effort of increasing positive relations have Demacia offer to imprison her with them, far away from any Hextech and under heavy security. Lux could then end up breaking her out while rescuing some imprisoned Noxian operatives. Likely this would be the angstier option given how Jinx was by the end of s1 or it could have a Jinx that doesn't give a shit anymore and is just having fun at everyone else's expense (no 'chains' to bind her anymore).
Those are at least the two I can think up at the moment, I'd lean towards option one for the fun of it plus it gives me a chance to slip in monster girl Jinx again and personally I can only take so much angst and there's already plenty promised with the whole crownguard stuff.
If I ended up going with the more canon complaint I'd go with the "doesn't give a shit anymore" Jinx, again for the fun of it. The few times she does get serious could be key moments of Lux better understanding her as a person and growing closer.
Could also have a lot of fun building Lux's relationship with other notable Noxians too.
Katarina -Rival? Big sister? Battle companion?
Darius - Honestly be great to have him be the big brother stand in to replace Garen.
Draven - Annoyance
Would also look into neat little lore tidbits that Legends of Runeterra puts in, lots of Noxian characters there. If you throw say Vladimir in (having him work with Swain in Noxian conquest while neither actually trusts each other, a shaky alliance at most) you could bring in The Lady of Blood (Faris Noradi) and all the 'fun' stuff she does with corpses. Which could open up even more fun by having Lux interact/be friends?/rivals/begrudging allies with Ophelia Noradi (Crimson Aristocrat in game) and Clara (Crimson Discipline).
That's not even going into all those specifically under Swain in that game which Lux could interact with. Like Aurok Glinthorn, Arrel the Tracker, Captain Farron (Since he's originally from Zaun you could have him and Jinx end up as surprise friends if you go with a more canon focused Jinx), etc. Just looking through the Trifarian Legion in general could prove useful.
With Draven, you could have him taking Lux to the arena to show off or something which then opens up bringing in characters specific to that (Kato the Arm, Shiraza the Blade, etc). Also, for some reason I just imagine Draven and Jinx would get along. They'd go to the area together and drag Lux along.
This is just me quickly running through the wiki for Noxus region cards.
Lots of stuff you could do with the idea since it's like a neat character reversal, like how Poppy has a Noxus skin in lol.
idk, all this is just be spitballing :) I still think Lux's relationship with Swain would be an important core to the story, but that's just me.
Rambling too long lol.
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Lol my black history month’s going great 👌🏿😁
I just remembered some weird convo I had at work with a client. He goes “I’m so sorry if this is a stupid question—” pause, because I already know once you say that, it’s going to be stupid.
“—but, why are your knuckles so much darker than your hands?” 🤦🏿‍♀️ he REALLY got me there. If the emoji didn’t give it away, well by now I should let you know I’m a dark-skinned black girl.
So imagine my immediate embarrassment, discomfort and overall awkward reaction to this indeed stupid question. I actually looked down at my hand to see what he was talking about.
I promise you I stared at my hand for 10 seconds before collecting my answer because I didn’t even notice until he said that. I go, “you know what, I don’t know…” bc HOW THE HECK DO YOU ASK THAT?
I didn’t create myself sir?!! How am I supposed to conclude how my knuckles are darker than my hands. Then I wondered… isn’t everybody’s’? I continue with “I didn’t notice until you said that.”
Lol I was so shook that he had the audacity to ask that bc he wasn’t even a little bit worried that he could somewhat offend me, get called out, cancelled, looked at funny… nothing.
He had all the support he needed to ask that peacefully without getting hate bc everyone around him… looks like him. Not me. There’s only one other POC where I work, and he’s not black.
It was definitely a new low from the all sorts of questions I’ve been asked so far. As for black history month, the other POC and I haven’t had any mention of it at all this month.
I hardly think they care to consider any acknowledgement of the month at all. I wouldn’t be surprised. Perhaps I’ll hear a mention of it later in the month. However, it’s already halfway over.
I guess I’ll also point out that technically, more like literally, the other POC is African. His nationality is Moroccan. But I still think he’s considered Arab since that’s North Africa.
Tbh idk enough about him to know how he identifies. Plus he looks entirely Arabic to me, so I wouldn’t put it past him. Nonetheless, I sometimes feel like ppl test my patience too often.
It’s sometimes isolating having no confidant who gets what I experience or I can look to or talk with at times so they can understand my feelings. I don’t relate to a lot of the ppl I work with.
And that’s okay. For many reasons, I never would anyways. A lot of them are in different life stages than I am, or speak multiple languages, or own very nice things and have a family etc.
Do different things outside of work, believe different religions, drink, smoke weed, etc. so it’s hard to find a common ground with anyone, except for really simple things like food/clothes.
It pains me sometimes to be on such surface level convos when I’ve been here long enough to be past those things. It just feels like I’ll never get to a point where I’m comfortable with the full group.
And I have my days where it’s better, but I just hate being in the moment when i feel like I’m on the outside looking in. I’m not included and they don’t even try to relate to me or make convo.
You know when they walk past you just to start a convo with someone to the left or right of me. Or they speak in their language and forget i can’t comprehend or contribute.
Or when they always seem to not mention if they make outside plans with each other but leave me out bc we don’t have rapport like that. I tell myself I’m fine with it since I’m introverted anyways.
In a lot of ways, I genuinely don’t mind not being invited out because at least I don’t have to decline with a lame excuse and can remain in the comfort of my own home with my own company.
I can catch up on sleep, or shows, cook, or do laundry, or eat in silence. Do whatever I want. And not have to feel like I’m wasting my time by forcing myself to go somewhere “to socialize.”
I don’t have to be uncomfortable trying to fit in or act engaged in the conversation, or pretend like I can relate to anything they just said or even understand when they switch languages.
I can be myself and not have to mask like I do at work when I fake laugh at a really unfunny joke, or act super extroverted and social just to not seem like a party pooper or Debby downer.
Or force my smile in front of clients and coworkers so they don’t realize I’m having a really off day. I can wear my relaxing clothes, eat as many snacks as I want, sing as loud as I feel.
And sleep as late as I want. Or as early. But there’s always that feeling like I’m missing out on so much. The fomo. Just wanting to be invited. Included. Thought about. Considered. Something.
It’s so unfulfilling working at a place where you get little to no joy out of it bc not even the ppl can give you some peace of mind that at least if the job sucks, you have someone.
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FYI. I don’t smoke.
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