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couthbbg · 7 months

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mitchy dyeing his hair pink would actually change the game i'm convinced

absolutely 100%. forget about better defense and offense from anyone not in the core. what the leafs need is for the little twink to dye his hair pink and become so distracting that every opposing player immediately forgets they’re playing professional hockey and just trails after him like hey what uh are ya doing later? Giving auston (incandescent with fury) a chance to score. 100 goal season for am34 at least. We’ve cracked it. Let’s get the leafs on the phone

#honestly the first time I saw that art I didn’t even really know who they were I just thought it was cute #and now. well #let’s just say if I think too long about Auston dying mitchy’s hair pink (with no gloves be he’s an idiot) I have to get up a do a lap

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saturnsfather · 7 months

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lost the pentacle necklace charm ive had for like. fifteen years or something at work. i think it mustve ended up in the trash as i was taking it out and now its just gone.

like of the two i had (the other is a fmab homunculus symbol) THATS the one that mattered. my mother gave that to me. just. ugh

#bullshit.txt #and i was excited to come home and draw too. bc i had a really good concept in my head #and now. well #ugh.

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dellinah · 1 year

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I recently lost my best friend to cancer, and words cannot describe how incredibly painful every waking hour has been since I got the news.

They say time heals all, and I can only hope that the memories that suffocate me now will soon become nostalgic treasures that will soothe my longing.

Right now, it fucking hurts tho

And grief is just a weird feeling. It's trying to face a reality that you cannot comprehend, much less accept; but it forces itself onto you regardless, bc there's no way back.

No way out.

This how it is now.

But really, in trying to process this new reality, it has dawned upon me just how... weird, it is.

Just how weird it all feels to me.

I still know his birthday by heart.

And when it comes around, I know I will think of what gift I should get him for a second - before remembering he's gone, and crying all over again over a wound that never truly healed.

I still know his favorite shows, and I know that he collected funko pops of them. There's a list on my phone with the ones he already had, so that I knew to look for new ones when shopping around.

The messages we sent are still on my phone. Still among the most recent ones, for now.

And when I click on them, the last words we ever exchanged (and will ever exchange) stare back at me. Just like they're any other ordinary message, unaware of the massive weight they carry to me.

As does his profile picture, a frozen image of what he will forever look like in my mind.

Spared the burden and the blessing of aging beyond his mid twenties.

The audio messages are still there, too.

His voice still calls me, by name, every time I hit play. Like an echo of what once was, a voice I will never hear again in this lifetime.

But the recordings remain.

And it hurts me so, so bad.

Yet, I play it over and over again.

Maybe hoping the words will be different at one point, like he's just recorded something new.

But by now, I know each audio by heart.

Over and over and over again.

I still know by heart all of the inside jokes that only he and I knew. And now, I have no one else to tell them to.

When I see a pair of blue pants, or finding nemo merch, or a news reporter wearing yellow; I'll have to keep it to myself from now on.

Because no one else in the world gets why that is funny to me.

Or why it was funny to us.

It's just, I didn't expect everything to vanish when you did.

But I didn't expect just how much what you left behind would hurt.

Your birthday. Our inside jokes. The recipe we always made together. The road where we'd drive at night almost every weekend. The shows we watched together that you'll never see the end of. The path we walked home after school as teens. Your favorite color. The book I borrowed and never gave back.

You are gone, but so much of you remains with me.

It's like a letter adressed to an empty house.

What do I do with it all now?

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kutiee · 1 year

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Firework seems to be heavily concept based, like following the storyline of their lore;; mv teasers were interesting

Wonder how the mv will look and the song will sound

#a;msg #🍒#i wonder how &t & enha’s universes are connected #bc uts extended mv explained it a bit #and now. well #dark blood concept trailer had a girl they were all trying to protect (?)#these mv teasers seem to have a similar theme #i am. so clueless #but i think they’re simultaneously switching between flashbacks of past (when the girl is there) and the present (where she’s absent)#ugh all this lore stuff is so confusing 😭

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lighthouseas · 8 months

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11 (and if so what song!!) + 20 + 42 + 53 !!

11 - are you listening to music right now

sadly no :(

20 - what is your favorite song at the moment

when i tell you this changes so much....maybe when i come around by green day? as of right now

42 - favorite book (s)

this is so embarrassing but i am actually such a terrible reader like. well i can read WELL but i get distracted easily and it takes me like 10 mins to read 1 page (why i read fanfiction so slowly lol) because i read ahead or don't process the information etc etc. so um. needless to say i don't have a favorite book rn 😭 anyway i will start reading more soon i promise....

53 - five things that make me happy

my cat, my best friend, bagels, lakes, and being warm and cozy

#i used to read soooo much #and now. well #oops.#ive been trying to be better i SWEARRRR #💌#mutuals 💫#spencer !!!#bee.txt

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redstonedust · 1 month

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i appreciate the attempts a lot of game devs are making with gender neutral character creation, and i appreciate that it's actually a very difficult task to implement that depending on the game's base code. but it's so funny to me when you hear an uproar because some game has "entirely removed the gender option from character creation!!!!!" so you go to check it out and its just like

#i swear ive seen this happen in like 3 games now #and every time i am a little baffled at how this is a big deal #but like. well. they DID make an attempt. u right.

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visenyaism · 29 days

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seven years ago in the name of tolerating free speech from all political perspectives my nasty ass evil university let an army of tiki torch wielding nazis shouting jews will not replace us march through grounds threatening the lives of students and community members with zero police presence. and today they retroactively changed campus policy around tents so they could send in the cops to bust up the gaza memorial vigil. genuinely fucking stomach turning

#admin and the cops do not give a fuck about protecting jewish students and they know it #worth saying that most of the activists in charlottesville who organized against unite the right are now pretty overwhelmingly pro-palestin #because i see a lot of people comparing the protests to unite the right which is. well it feels crazy to me #cw antisemitism

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rivetgoth · 3 months

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It's honestly crazy that discussion around testosterone HRT skews so much towards the beginning stages of it (to the point that you have dozens of guys thinking their transition is "failed" if they don't pass by like a year in lol) and what the initial changes of the first couple of months to years look like, like the classic laundry list of those early basic changes like bottom growth, voice drop, etc, when IMO literally none of that compares remotely to the depth and intensity of the long term total masculinization you start to experience like 3-5+ years in.

#also has made it increasingly difficult to relate to those early into their transition honestly #like not in a bitter way it’s just like hard to express how diff the experience is #of being like a year on T vs 5 😭#ETA I muted this post ages ago now but fwiw seeing transphobes pop up in the notes on occasion just to say cruel reactionary shit #you are clowns I cannot imagine seeing a post that is ONLY about discussing with folks about the reality of a medication #and choosing to make that your moment to get a schoolyard bully jab in about how you find it gross or something.#you are less well adjusted than most children. may the universe be kinder to you than you are to others.

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lesbian-disaster-academic · 7 months

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i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

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catmask · 11 months

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its true that romance amd friendship will not solve everything but. objectively speaking its very hard to get sad when you can say 'lets go get cake tomorrow okay' and someone will go get cake with you. like there is some good at least. you know

#i think this is why ive been so much more geniunely happy these last few years #like. i will never be going to bed alone. i will always have someone who wants me here #i will always have someone to say 'im sorry im not feeling very well now' and they will be concerned instead of being annoyed #at you as if those feelings are an inconvenience #scratchpost #txt

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kirnet · 6 months

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LOVE when a video game protag is called a title. The Warden, the Watcher, the Exile…. Yessss be defined by a concept greater than yourself that will ultimately overtake your life

#names like hawke and shep are all well and fun but it will never top THEEE title #ramblings #edit: adding this 18k notes in that this is abt dao poe and kotor 2 since people are not knowing that the exile is referring to #play it. play kotor 2 right now

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ruporas · 2 months

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dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!!#like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!!#also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?)#ruporas art

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hinata-boke · 2 months

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why is his smile so radiant

#my art #one piece #luffy #nami #zoro #OKAY JUST ONE MORE OP ART (FOR NOW)#original is from nichijou chapter 177 #i thought it fit them well #zoros deranged smile always cracks me up when it appears

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feelo-fick · 3 months

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why are you still here, then????

#trick question its because he cares about them so muchs 👍🫶#this is the second only clean thing i have #and the third is ummmmm! well im gonna save it for now because i kinda wanna make it better #anyways. actual tag time #dungeon meshi #chilchuck #chilchuck tims

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hoshioyoo · 8 months

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let me tell you a story…

#comic i did a while back #good omens #good omens fanart #aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #neil gaiman #aziracrow #might edit some lines for the zine #did i mention i’m making a gomens zine?#well now you know!#artists on tumblr

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egophiliac · 2 months

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bring back zooterkins, the best 17th-century swear word

I don't normally do Just Characters Swearing, but. ...this kind of wrote itself and then wouldn't leave my head. it comes from both a piece of character-writing advice that has always stuck with me, and also my conviction that Leona is 1000% funnier as a character if his dialogue has to stay G-rated. let Kalim say fuck, but don't let Leona say bastard.

(I'm sorry)

#art #twisted wonderland #(sort of atemporally somewhere between episodes 6 and 7?)#(i - i wanted that lilia joke okay)#long post #tumblr went 'you can post up to 30 images now :)' and i was like well okay then #anyway once again i'm sorry #i'd say i don't know why i did this but actually it is because i wanted kalim to scandalize everyone #i tried to keep it...you know...tasteful. a tasteful amount of fucks.#hey remember how the framing premise for the original birthday interviews was that yuu worked for the school paper #because i have never forgotten. in my head they are still getting up to all kinds of wacky reporting hijinks.

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