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mognamon · 1 year

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hangry

Tsunami didn't get her mcfries

Au things below

Nami is such a fun character

Righteously angry and impulsive to the point of aggression. Potently exuding and reflecting my impulsive desires, I relate to her a lot. She's quick to bite and too stubborn to regret.

Exploring how that personality would translate to a very different Tsunami, someone who had a traitor for a father and a list of detentions ripe to bite her in the back. This Tsunami is a penal soldier, someone who spent time in the electric eel prison (depicted in the image) and found freedom in war. She's still impulsive and raging but it's more prickly and rather passionate.

Here's a compilation of ideas:

She's loyal and believes fully in the propaganda. Prideful and will do anything to prove it. Maybe it's stubbornness or some hopeful part of her thinks being a perfect soldier will give her a lighter sentence.

Tsunami before getting detained lived life quite normally as normal as you can get in war. She wasn't allowed to be a soldier due to her father so she took to craftsmanship, repairing dented armor and such to support the war effort.

She's imprisoned for no particular reason or mb the queen felt like putting the traitor's kid in jail finally.

Still friends with Riptide but ykno he has a personality (he's a lil secretive guy with a liking for radical thoughts)

Her hatred for fate is still a thing as well, she wants to avoid going back to her fate, to prison where she belongs bc her father's crimes and his fate became hers. She hates destiny bc its thrust upon someone who never asked for it, she didn't ask to have to live a harsh horrible but that's what she got for being born to the wrong father.

Nami's too far down the class to ever have met or seen the royals up close so all her thoughts and opinions on them are rather influenced by what she's read or heard. Coming from the eel eating masses so her education of things that happen above is scarce at best, Riptide is her source of info since he got into the army.

The idea that the Queens and royals are so alienated from the common dragons that not even our pov characters would meet them or only see them from afar would be funny (sorry i fucking hate how like nearly every mc is related to royalty in the pyrrhian books like plssss plsss can we not).

Nami's arc of thinking before acting and being more calm is pretty alright, it's one of the most simplistic character arcs in this series. Her guilt though is the most interesting thing about her. Since she's a soldier rather than tackling the guilt of killing her father it's killing other soldiers and kind of moral quandary of war. Nami never really let herself think about her actions, always ends justify the means even if she has to throw away her morality for a chance at freedom its selfish but understandable. She has to fight to survive bc what else is there, if she stops being a soldier she'll just get killed or thrown in jail, at least if she keeps fighting for another day she'll still be alive. The overwhelming guilt of it all would probably mess her up really bad in the angry self hatred way turned intense gung ho redemption mayhaps

lots of unconnected thoughts this time around

Thanks for readin my ramble!

#wings of fire #wof #wof art #wof fanart #wof au #fanart #wof tsunami #art #wof seawing #seawing #dragon

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temporaryspace · 4 months

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man.. i’ve reached a point where i don’t even know what i’m feeling anymore. there’s a part of me that feels like , happily numb, but sort of in the way i typically feel when i try to bounce back from a really traumatic event and act unaffected by it, and there’s another part that feels constantly physically ill, so i know things are probably really bad. the problem is: i sit there and try to think about it, but i can’t figure out what. idk what the problem is or would be. a lot is happening, and a lot has happened. i think it’s a bit of everything that i keep trying to tell myself will work out okay. i think i kinda just struggle with uncertainty on like , big things. but i don’t think it’s just that. i think it’s the lingering feelings from being (albeit minorly) sexually assaulted, having to watch everyone i love deal with horrible shit (not including my biological mother, i don’t feel bad for her) and not being able to help or make them feel better, the fact my biological mother is in jail right now and keeps calling but not because she gives a fuck about me, the ensuring custody chaos with my little brother, the fact my dad is supposed to be helping me with surgery recovery, and how my body is just kinda . getting worse. i have an appointment with a neurologist and a bone doctor to figure out what’s wrong, and i think i’m a bit scared because my doctor kinda told me not to take MS off the table. i’m glad to be (hopefully) getting answers, but i’m just sort of nervous over all that. most of the things i could have are things where they’ll just tell me “oh, yeah, you have [thing] and there’s nothing we can do about it. yeahh, it’ll just keep getting worse. L lol”. idk. i think i’m more exhausted over the fact that i feel perfectly fine while also knowing that i don’t, ykno? consciously, everything is chill and i’m okay, but, subconsciously, i am very aware of the fact that there is a horrible storm brewing under me. i don’t even know where to start. i don’t know if there’s anything *to* do. i feel fine enough. i don’t really know how to answer when people ask if i’m okay because i feel fine!! but i also know that i am not okay, but i wouldn’t know where to go from there. i don’t wanna bother people if i had something to say for why i’m not, but i also don’t really have anything i want to talk about or that really makes sense for why i’m not, and that would only worry people further. i don’t know. i kinda hoped typing this out would help give me answers, but it hasn’t really. i still think it’s good to have this here, though, maybe i can read back and make it make sense. for now, i’m just kinda gonna keep on truckin. i’m gonna get a therapist when i come back. i’m not depressed like i was last month. it’s nice to know all that extreme panic and depression was just the bipolar irrational. i kinda felt like it was. i don’t need the pills anymore, for now at least. i think i should keep medication on hand for when i’m having to deal with both bipolar depression and situations outside of my control that can really easily lead me into OCD spirals. glad to have a bit of a plan for how to work through that kinda stuff and to have a friend there to help. i do really love and care for most of the people in my life. i have good friends and loved ones. it’s not like everything is hell or anything. i’m probably just overwhelmed and unable to process everything tbh

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blonde-and-cat-suc · 2 years

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*squints at the people excusing c@tr@dor@ because “shadow weaver wasn’t catras mother!”

.. you guys DO know parents don’t have to be biological to be bad, right. Adopters are similar to like,, normal parents, theres gonna be good, theres gonna be bad, theres gonna be inreedemable, either way, catra and shadow have such a pbvious, yet toxic parent-child dynamic that theres.. theres not many excuses you can make friend. And.. adoptive parents. are still. parents.

No bad talk on adoption, u guys r valid but with any group of people theres always gonna be some bad parts in them. Correct me if im wrong here but im pretty sure every group has some bad, its just usually thats a really small minority— /gen

anyways you’ve made me actually like the idea of catra and adora keeping a sibling dynamic over it turning into romantic and i’m unsure whether i should laugh or cry /nm

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AH I LOVE THIS ASK!

I also find it disgusting to base parenthood on the biological aspect ALONE, as a queer woman who will never have biological children of her own. i would be no less of a mother to my adoptive children--not if they're a different race, religion. any thing. there's so much more to it.

it's totally projecting, but that is why i am hardcore NOT calling shadow a "mentor". she's adopted BOTH adora and catra. probably changed their diapers and got them dressed in the morning. spoon fed them if they couldn't do it. and MAYBE she took care of them when they were sick (but probably not, because, ykno it's still shadow and the horde and all that jazz).

regardless, i can't unsee shadow being a hands on parent and raising both of them and ... i'm really glad i contributed to the sister!c//a propaganda in this fashion.

to be honest, i also laugh about it because god, they fucking kissed on screen. all someone had to do was make catra ... not adora's sister. don't even IMPLY it. to think that all of this wouldn't exist if the catra-shadow plot lines didn't have these overwhelming mother-daughter undertones.

#sister!c//a #anti c///a #anon! you're absolutely lovely!

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libralight · 3 years

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Do you have any advice for someone who is interest in astrology but doesn’t know where to start? I have co-star on my phone and really enjoy reading about my chart but I would like to go more in depth. All the information about it is a bit overwhelming though.

First thing I must say, I'm a novice myself and you are 400% correct on it all being very overwhelming! hahahaha. Buuuuuut, for me it was about finding reputable sources, like specific websites that are known to be used by Astrologers. ( https://www.astro-seek.com/ this was the website that really got me into it. When you do your full chart it also breaks down how the placements interact if you have say... Mercury Square Jupiter) I also started listening to some Astrology podcasts on my way to work, which has helped develop my more intuitive side when it comes to Astrology. Like, I'll be listening to an episode and then I'll start connecting something in my chart or a friends chart and have my mind blown all over again. ( https://theastrologypodcast.com/ - is great, although some of the guests have made me angry because they can be quite...elitist sometimes... but other guests are absolutely lovely. for a broad list: https://blog.feedspot.com/astrology_podcasts/ ) I also started with doing some of my friends full natal charts! That really helped to get my feet wet. Reading about someone else's chart and how their placements, Houses, Chiron, etc. all interact is very interesting. It's honestly a lot of reading and taking it in small bite sized pieces. There is still so much that I reference when I'm doing mood boards for peoples placements. I'll read the reference material and then sit on it and just feel how I feel about the placements and the general vibe it gives off and go from there. I personally remember and learn really well if I can say it out loud and can write it down. It helps me commit things to memory. So, depending on how you learn I'd do that. It's honestly just... a lot of studying and referencing. But also, not getting in your own head! I started these astro mood boards because I have a big artsy side... but when I first started I knew maybe... like... a little more than someone who only reads their sun sign horoscope in the paper, ykno? So, there have been a lot of moments where I really understand and can say 'wow, I know nothing about this, let me read about it'. So, not beating yourself up about not knowing everything all at once. It's such a broad topic. Especially if you want to focus on a specific tradition of Astrology (Hellenistic, Vedic, etc.) Now, I feel like I can confidently say that I'm nearing intermediate knowledge territory, instead of beginner. I'm far from any type of expert though! Hahahaha. I hope that helped in some way! Feel free to message me if you have more questions or need help figuring out a placement or something. I used to be a researcher and I love this kind of stuff (it's also probably why I excel at it)

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littlenymphie · 3 years

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hi athia! i’ve been very interested in getting into paganism and witchcraft and i wanted to know if you had any resources that you’d recommend to get information from. i’ve had such a hard time trying to find resources and i really don’t know where to start so i just wanted to ask you in case you might know any. hope you've had an amazing day! 🤍

hi nonnie, so sorry for the long wait. you caught me at a busy time with my uni transfer and school starting but better late than never, right?!! 💕

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ok, yes finding info about this is kinda hard because a) new wave spiritualism has kinda marketed witchcraft and spirituality and now you have people trying to sell you fake quartz and how you have to “balance” your chakras, b) there are SO many pagan practices, and some interlap, while others are closed or restricted, and c) people lie on the internet so you’re just like umm what???

i try to weed it out by a judge of character most of the time and if whatever said makes sense and resonates with me. i also try to see if they do have credentials and a rapport among the community like they’ve published books or have given out readings. most importantly they don’t preach like “this is the only way to practice witchcraft” ykno? however? when it comes to like a pagan religion, and they’re like a credited authority figure (priest or leader of some kind) then yes they can say “this is how you practice this witchcraft with this pagan religion in mind” and you should definitely follow what they say. however, i still see a red flag if they insist it must be to the T.

i hope i’m getting my message across. basically like find what resonates with you, see if that person who is giving out information has good rapport and respects other’s way of practicing and some experience under their belt.

all that said, i kind of have a small resource pool. right now i’m more drawn to tarot and astrology, so that’s what i’ve been researching about. that’s another thing. there’s so much to witchcraft it can get suuuuper overwhelming real fast. i suggest just to find what you’re drawn to and stick with it for a bit and just skim the rest, until you’re drawn to it too, and then use the tip to weed out the fake bitches <3

ok lets go to the actual resources fmsmmfsm

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TAROT READINGS

biddy tarot

labyrinthos

ASTROLOGY

astrofuture (app)

astrology: using the wisdom of the stars in your everyday life (book)

YOUTUBERS

chaotic witch aunt

harmony nice (more wiccan centric but still good source for general witchcraft)

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i hope these helped!!! these are the places i go to right now when i want info. i don’t really have a source for spells right now, i kind of just reblog posts or save pics when i stumble upon one that i like. i mean im still new so still searching for more resources for my witchcraft journey but rn not really a priority. thus, these are enough. maybe one day i’ll make a masterpost hehe. ☺️🕯💖

#answered *ˊᵕˋ)੭☏#🤍 anon #♡︎ grimoire ♡︎#athia talks witchcraft #long post #witchcraft #witchblr #magick #witches of tumblr #witch community

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spiritwinding · 4 years

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(your ooc post is very valid and tbh i feel you a lot, but kinda opposite maybe? i follow any/everyone i think is neat so i can watch them write and plot and stuff, but tend to not get the chance to interact so i lurk. but you're good!! i love seeing you on the dash. have a nice night/morning what have you. mwah)

ftrdtfygbhn youre so nice stop it

i used to do that!! but then i felt like it was. too much ykno? i do sometimes hop on blogs i dont follow that i like to read but i wanna keep my dash smaller to not get overwhelmed which is................ Hard given rp is abt building a community WSEDFVGB its a time

thank u!!! ur also good and so nice dfgvbhnj

#felt weird 2 answer on aesthetic post so #Anonymous #◜° ★ ▸ bass boosted caramelldansen remix ╱ ❪ ooc ❫#◜° ★ ▸ incoming transmission... ╱ ❪ asks ❫

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wolfwhiteflowers · 6 years

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s9 filming spoilers and speculations..... TWD RANTS

Timejump-capital /twd parade pics and Caryl-the skybound thing, & other-richonne. (this post is meh and confusing)

*twd spoilers, comic spoilers, anti C/E

k so writing this long weird speculation and thoughts-post. I wanna like move on from the show. Like as usual it’s on hiatus ykno? But the s8 finale messed me up so much. And I wonder a lot about Carol and the ships. Unanswered questions. I guess I’m saying I’m gonna rant a lot...or I go big in this post.

Now we’re getting filming spoilers. bits and pieces but s9 premiere is a big deal like because of the time jump. The time jump changes the story a lot right? So... just from spoilery things, I realized, it’s hitting me a lot that it’s so 50/50 on me for if I still like the show or not (with timejump, ships, different showrunner/writings, and who knows how TWD ends).

I really don’t like how 50/50 that is. So shock value way? Anyways, this hiatus I guess is gonna be a really big roller coaster ride. :\ I feel more doubtful than hopeful about s9. ....I just want Carol to be in character (the way i see it) and I want Carol (anyone) to interact with team family more. Idk if I can trust the writers during the hiatus with some bits of spoilers because some arcs start off frustrating and end well. It’s like I also have to wait till they film the finale to know if I wanna watch s9. or it’s like I wait till s10 for an arc to end. Idk I’m bummed that it’s at that point for me to decide to quit or not. sigh stories.

Yeah so this reminds me of s8, where the biggest change to the show happened with Carl’s death for me and the fandom. So I(and like most people too apparently...show is still going) keep watching TWD because Carl’s death doesn’t bother me that much, I feel the writing is still fine, and I see it as Rick’s show. So ..idk what im saying. I just think if they screw up Carol’s character and her interactions, then I feel it’s pointless to keep watching the show. I want charactery bonds, interesting arcs, and parallels. I know TWD can still be fine, but s8′s bad finale ep made me doubtful on the writing (or editing...there were good deleted scenes in s8 finale).

Time jump

Wow those pics of the cast at the capital and on horses. “twd parade” The pics also tells a lot or so what 9x01 will be like/time jump. It’s overwhelming. It got me excited and then I worry the show will suck and mess up my faves.

The time jump in 9x01 looked like not like Carl’s dream/5 years(?) where Rick had a cane, white hair, 6 yo Judy, and Negan gardening with TF. This time jump in s9 so far looked like one year went by. Also looked like the characters got one thing changed on them. Rick-short hair, Carol-hat, Jesus-manbun, etc.so it’s like it’s not that much of a time jump.

Oh man, I can’t help it but I want to compare TWD and The 100. (They’re different ofc, one’s pace is fast and more violent/survival-like. It’s also like it’s ok to watch more than one show even tho one is better or whatever. It’s frustrating tho T100 have way more interactions/girl power.) Both current survival-shows. Right now, The 100 just had a six year time jump(I think) and TWD in s9 there will be a time jump too. So The 100′s current season, I really liked how they did set up the time jump and informing us how the characters are doing and see the changes in them and their looks. Even their previous season, there was a good understanding foreshadowing to the time jump plot. ...TWD didn’t, I mean Idk why, it’s like easy writing they should’ve done..to keep fans interested to what’s next on the show. I noticed in The 100, is that there were flashbacks and bottled/centered episodes. It’s also quick but partly because The 100 have a short season too and the writers want to focus on the upcoming different plot.

Anyways, so now that I think it’s been like a year later in TWD story. My theories are like everywhere and changed. I’m also like being an annoying comic fan..wants to be exact way but it’s a show and they can remix stuff. Whatever, we all want good stories! It’s kinda following the comics like usual. ok. Time jump and whisperers are coming. Idk why, I’m really excited for ‘old man Rick’ hair cut and horses, when I’m like wtf Rick’s curls tho. lol Also just..9 seasons...and do I still like the show and will I like what’s next based on comics? (I actually figured AOW in s7-8 would be boring or come off different in the show. It’s all battle scenes and comics goes quicker..Idk I figured it would be boring but I think the war story on show and comics did alright. It wasn’t like a boring action movie that I see most of the time with action movies :P So I think this arc in s9 people will like this. More charactery stuff, well based from the comics. But we don’t have Carl and Maggie(for certain)?... Yeah usual tv flaws.)

So, I think it’s just one year later and that’s it. Also, I don’t mind seeing flashbacks and bottle episodes, as long it’s done well and entertaining. I think in s9 bottle episodes are needed.

kids

So since I think it’s one year later, then we probably get the same Judith girl in s8, as 3 yo?, Hershel Jr as -months old, and I don’t think there will be a Richonne-baby...unless Michonne got pregnant right after the war and Hershel Jr and Richonne-baby are about the same age.

Skybound mailbag/Caryl/ E&Z

I read some speculations and from C/E shippers, just to get more info on Carol. (I gotta stop that. I’ll know about Carol when I do and they’re really anti-Caryl. It’s annoying. ugh ship wars.) I realized from the spoilery pics and speculations, I just don’t want Carol with anyone or C/E in s9/s9A. I just want to know what’s up with Carol again. Unless Carol being with E is a very minor thing. Like in The 100 show where two times fans suddenly learn Bellamy has a gf. There was a time jump and the relationship’s build up and being canon was all offscreen. The relationship didn’t last or some other thing important was gonna happen. I just want to know what’s Carol’s thinking and feeling. Idk I just feel if C/E happens,I just feel like Idk Carol anymore. :\ Idk what Caryl is anymore. They’re best friends (crushes) right...and still is? I really don’t like in s8 finale where Carol didn’t talk to any TF member/Daryl about why she wants to stay at Kingdom. Just any moment to see TF knows too. Also, Idk if Daryl is staying at ASZ or Hilltop and does Rick knows Daryl doesn’t agree with his decision on Negan.

(lil post on twdzone. carol/and show stuff)

‘If C/E happens like a - a surprise ship in s9. I find it bad writing because they didn't set it up in s8 or should add more romantic tone in it and obviously put a C/E moment in the finale. But they didn't. So..bad writing. Or just idk maybe it's for plot reasons (E’s death). Maybe there will be a love triangle? It makes Carol out of character or strange for me. Who/What does Carol care about and why? Idk.

It’s also something that TWD has to do too...from s8 finale and time jump/season premiere it means s9 premier ep gotta be a very well written episode to explain to everything and well reasons. But man...the s8 finale was so wacky and frustrating. It made me lose hope on the writers. I did like s8B but wow finale wtf. And finale is important ep of the seasons..and also it was before the big time jump. sigh. //It reminds me something, it’s kind of TWD’s style or Gimple’s, that premieres are more important than finales. So I hope s9 premiere is good. So yeah if Caryl is just gonna be friends and also just gonna like nod at each other like they don't have that special (continuity) bond anymore. Then that show is over for me. It's also not Caryl’s connections too, I miss Carol’s connections with Team family so much! OMG just looking at Carol and Rick edits, I just sigh.. I know some don't like their relationship. But I like theirs and they got that history, interesting dynamic. I don't wanna see Carol and Rick like they're just acquaintances now. (um like remember their history and trying to save Sophia. etc.) I want Carol or anyone to interact and be team family. The show gotta focus on their main characters and interact them. Too many side characters...too many separations.’

Other

Once I thought about this idea, I’m like gaaah I really hope TWD does this. I really want and hope Rick have these moments to remember Carl by and to do it every season. I really like this idea I have where Rick could write a letter to Carl or talk to Carl’s grave in every season premier/finale. It’s something that merge the old TWD and the new TWD story...even though it’s Rick’s show, it’s still a father and son show.

Richonne!

I have some speculations and thoughts. I just wanna say that I hope Richonne in s9 is more interesting than comic R&A in the comics in the point of the story. Just be like on the show, power couple and all. I really like how in s8 finale, they were like co-leaders. Together. Idk I’m curious how Richonne will go in s9 and on. It’s seems real different than in the comics/R&A are doing.

So, in the comics, Andrea was like focusing on protecting Carl and co-leading etc. and then she dies at the end of Whisperer war. I find her death and end of her journey boring and disappointing. So Idk, I hope Michonne’s journey is interesting and I have no clue how this comic-Michonne and/or Andrea remix thing works out since Carol is using comic-Michonne’s too. %) Anyways, so I don’t think Michonne will die like comic-Andrea because tv-Carl got the death. After the Andrea’s death, Rick bonded and grieved with Mikey (Carl’s friend) while Carl is at Hilltop adulting. From the comics, I felt like Kirkman wished he had Rick and Andrea to have a child together but he didn’t so he got Mikey more into the story and w/Rick. So I’m like maybe we will get a Richonne-baby? But, then I also thought maybe Judith is like comic-Mikey. Grimes 2.0 grieving and missing Carl. So yeah.. I’m suspecting Richonne won’t have child together or at least in s9. From the twd parade pics, Idk, I don’t think there will be a baby. I really hope they do someday though.

Another thing is, I really want Judith to call Michonne “Mom” and Rick to point out to people that Michonne is his wife.

So yeah, roller coaster.

#*twd #twd speculations #carol peletier #caryl #richonne #twd s9 #the fumbling dead twd #twd writing

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estherroberts · 7 years

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and nothing ever does begin like nothing ever ends

chapter eight: abscission

fandom: ars paradoxica, his dark materials

words: 2315

rating: T

characters: esther roberts, bridget chambers, original characters

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series masterpost

September 6, 1938

they break taboo all the time now that they’re back at school and back together. in their dorm, at clubs, in the library, and always when they go out and about. it’s reckless, thrilling, stupid, sure. but it’s also the best feeling in the world. they can’t hold hands when they walk down the street without getting hassled, but they can switch daemons with no one the wiser.

galené sits on esther’s shoulders as they walk, and sure, it’s a little odd for esther without ritsa on her wrist, but feeling this constant and electrifying surge of— whatever the fuck it is, love and protectiveness and understanding— from bridget is enough to erase that entirely. she’s pretty sure bridget’s feeling the same, from the way she keeps stealing glances and biting her lip gleefully.

esther really wants to lean over and kiss bridget’s cheek, but she settles instead for kissing lené’s wings, and bridget’s face-splitting grin makes that just as good.

when they get to the cafe, bridget lets ritsa slide along her arms and tuck her face into her elbow as galené settles into esther’s lap.

“it still feels like we’re getting away with something,” bridget tells her, shaking her head.

“well, we kind of are. did you get a chance to—“

bridget lights up. “yes! i was in the library for hours the other day while you were taking your philosophy exams, and i convinced catherine to let me have a look at the witch-lore section.”

“there’s a witch-lore section!?!” esther’s sure her shock shows on her face.

“only the librarians know it exists, and only they have access to it,” she grimaces. “and it’s not like there’s much there anyway.” she stops again, sucking air in quickly through her mouth.

sometimes the sensation of switching is still intense enough to render them silent, so esther casually asks, “you alright?” as though she isn’t buzzing wildly herself.

“mhm.”

“so did you find… anything?”

“scraps.”

the waitress comes by and takes their order, and esther feels like she’s gonna bust out of her skin the whole time. “what did they say!” she asks as soon as the they finish ordering.

“it’s not what's normally thought of as a common practice, but there are several records of consensual switching occurring throughout history. it’s clearly not as taboo as everyone thinks it is, especially if we have proof that witches are keeping record of it.”

esther can tell there's something else there that she's not saying, so she sits forward in her chair.

"all those cases, though? one time incidences. no one else that i could find switched with the same frequency or for such extended periods."

"so...” this time, it’s esther who gets momentarily lost in the overwhelming feeling of her daemon safely tucked into her girlfriend’s arms. she takes a long breath, letting it wash over her. “so, what you’re saying is, we’re special.”

“no shit. i mean, obviously we need more data in order to reach any kind of solid conclusion—"

"as any good philosopher knows."

"uh huh. but it sure seems like we're outliers."

the waitress brings them their drinks and for a short while, they can only sip quietly, smirking at each other every once and awhile.

esther grabs bridget’s hand and squeezes twice, and bridget does the same back.

December 16, 1938

“JEAN AND RUDJURO ARE ON THE MARCH!” one of the girls from myrielle hall runs down and knocks on each door, starting a wave of ruckus that spreads throughout the dorm.

from their pushed-together bed in their room toward the end of the hall, esther groans.

“room inspection? the RA is coming?” bridget asks, rubbing her eyes.

“uh huh.”

“fuck me.”

“we don’t have time.”

bridget whacks esther gently and rolls off the bed onto the floor. “we have… so much to do.”

“so let’s get cracking!” esther hops to the ground and starts stripping the bed. “come on!!”

“mmmmmph.” bridget gets up slowly. “toss me the sheets.”

esther hurls them across the room and they smack bridget in the face. “wake up!!”

bridget giggles and picks them up, galené gathering up the pieces that drag. they toss them into their closet, and pull out the two sets of twin sheets. in revenge, and mostly to prove she's awake now, bridget throws one of them back at esther, who catches them deftly. somehow, she has already dragged her half of the bed back to the wall and is making it.

the sounds of jean walker’s room inspection outside grow closer. her power walk and gila monster daemon have been putting the fear of god into the hearts of myrielle hall girls for the last few years, and today is no different. the other girls in the hall are more worried about hiding illicit substances or organizing their stuff, but bridget and esther are doing their best to make their room look as normal and heterosexual as possible.

ritsa is trying to separate their desks by herself but, without limbs, is having a bit of trouble. “go help.” bridget gestures her own daemon in that direction, and starts making her own half of the bed. she looks over at esther, and smiles. “hey, ettie.”

“hey, bridge?” esther’s bed is made and she’s taken pity on the daemons, separating the desks herself.

bridget finishes making her bed and comes over to the desk to organize her side. “ever think about, ykno, separating our shit the night before a room inspection?”

esther looks up at her and grins. “now, my love, what fun would that be?”

bridget picks up ritsa and lets her coil around her wrist as she turns to grab the picture of the them with the two gay guys they’d met in a bar. after she hangs it up, she turns back to see esther grinning at their newly straightened room. actually, maybe she’s grinning at her daemon on bridget's wrist. yeah, it's definitely that.

bridget kisses ritsa gently just as jean walker throws the door open. immediately, bridget tucks her arms behind her back and esther slides into her desk chair, carefully keeping her own hands under the table and away from lené’s back.

“how’d we do, miss walker?” bridget asks, holding her breath as she waits for an answer.

jean squints at every inch of the room, taking a tentative step toward the cracked open closet before deciding better of it. “looks good. up to standard. but it’s hasty. be better prepared next quarter.” she stops again and looks at bridget, then at esther. "hands out, ladies."

reluctantly, bridget pulls her hands from behind her back, and esther pulls hers out from under the desk.

jean studies bridget's arms carefully and turns to esther. "miss roberts, isn't ritsa your daemon?"

"no, miss walker." she holds out her arms, and lené flies right into them. "galené is my daemon."

jean whips her gaze to bridget, trying to gauge her reaction.

bridget shrugs, doing her best to disguise the shiver that just ran down her spine, an involuntary reaction to the most intense confirmation of esther's love that there is.

"if you say so." jean leaves, shuts the door, and esther pulls galené closer to her, cackling.

bridget grins and lifts ritsa back to her face for a nuzzle.

May 31, 1939

"i think she’s bigger than this, lené.”

"bigger than us? than the school? the city?"

if a bee could look concerned, this one certainly does.

bridget sighs. "i don't know. all of it? she's just—“

"brilliant? powerful? destined for greatness?"

"yeah."

"we're so screwed."

bridget laughs a little, her eyes wild. "the snake isn't much better is she?"

"no," lené settles into bridget's lap and cuddles up. "you know, she’s so quiet cuz she's always plotting world domination or salvation. i can never figure out which one it is with them."

"i hope the latter." bridget takes a deep breath, which turn into a long sigh. "the truth is, lee, esther’s going to leave us and never look back. i can feel it in my bones."

"sometimes i think you're crazy for thinking that. but other times, it's like. she forgets a date, or she disappears for a few hours and comes back with a whole research paper written and edited. or she's sworn she's found a new method of observing Dust, for fuck's sake, on a day where she promised she'd do laundry."

"yep. i don’t— i feel like... was this happening the whole time? and we just didn't see it? or is this neglect as recent as it feels?"

"i don't know."

“what are we gonna do about that little philosopher of atomcraft, huh?”

suddenly, the door swings open and the aforementioned philosopher comes flying in. "I PASSED!" she crashes into bridget and lené and hugs both of them tight.

"you goon," bridget laughs, and she can feel her worries sliding off like the whipped topping off a pudding. "i told you it would be fine!"

"i can't believe our late night study sessions really did pay off."

"they always do! and hey, it can't be that hard to write an essay when your brain is the size of your ego," bridget smiles, kissing the top of ritsa's head and then, delicately, the inside of her girlfriend's wrist.

esther's eyes roll back in her head and bridget can't tell if she's exasperated or aroused. when esther pulls her closer by the waistband of her skirt and tells her she's being an idiot, she decides it's both.

November 26, 1950

esther can’t stop thinking— no, feeling, it’s definitely a feeling, that she should be holding galené. her arms ache in a sort of tender, sort of heavy, sort of way and she has to hold herself back from reaching out and pulling her ex’s daemon to her chest. she missed them. and, looking over at bridget, who hasn’t stopped rubbing her wrist, esther wonders if she feels this ache too.

there’s been a lull in the conversation, enough for her to say, “it’s weird.” she’s trying to laugh and nearly chokes instead, “we’re—“

“we’re sort of pretending this is okay.” bridget offers her a sad smile.

“i’m certainly not okay.”

“i’m not exactly okay either.”

esther hesitates. “i wish— i mean, i don’t think you trust me enough to— i don’t want to assume. but it’s not like we can just pick up where we left off, and the last time we saw each other…” her head still feels fuzzy, and even though she’s been mostly okay with conversations, she’s having trouble finding this one’s thread now. but what she's talking about is them holding each other’s daemons again, and she hopes bridget understands that.

“no, you’re right!” this time, it’s bridget who fails to laugh. “i don’t trust you. but i miss you, god, i miss you.” bridget studies her for a moment, and shakes her head. “i wish we could…” she lifts up her arm, grabbing tightly to the place on her wrist where ritsa used to curl, “but i think it'd be too painful.”

esther pushes herself up in the bed that looks like a hospital bed but isn’t, and holds out a hand. “probably.”

bridget lets down her arm and entwines her fingers with esther’s while lené, still buzzing, always buzzing, lands softly on the bedrail. she squeezes her hand, but just once, so esther knows she’s still upset. it’s not an ‘i love you’ but it’s half of one.

“you’re a fool,” the bee tells the snake.

ritsa, curled up on esther’s lap, flicks her tongue, neither agreeing nor disagreeing.

esther, however, nods. “hubris is… a bitch.”

this earns her a genuine chuckle from bridget. “ettie, please do try not to get yourself entangled in situations like this.”

“says the girl who agreed to work at my top secret and extremely dangerous organization.”

“hey, who else is going to keep you out of trouble?”

esther swallows, trying to push down the guilt that rises painfully in her throat. she has it on good authority that bridget barely left her side when she was in the coma, and, on top of that, she's visited every day since esther woke up. “you really don’t want to do that. give up your life for me.”

“excuse you, miss hubris! i have a responsibility to the sanctity of this alliance, which is to prevent the corruption of an institution with too much power, and maybe save a few lives in the process!”

“good luck with that,” esther attempts a smile and get hit with a wave of dizziness. “whoah.”

“are you alright?” bridget’s expression changes from jovial to concerned so quickly it breaks esther’s heart. “is there anything i can do?”

“i’m okay. thank you, bridget.”

ritsa slithers down esther’s arm and curls up on her wrist. it’s as good a signal to esther as any that they’re done here.

“you sure?” bridget pulls her hand back gently and clasps it with her other in her lap, but her eyes never let go of esther’s.

“yeah. i think i need to rest, though. catch you later?” it’s a lie. she won’t be able to rest anytime soon. she’s too busy thinking about how she’ll never be capable of returning all she owes her ex-girlfriend.

“you bet.” bridget and her daemon slip out of the room, each throwing one glance back as they go.

without galené’s buzzing, it’s completely silent in the room, and esther is left staring up at the ceiling. “ritsa?”

“yeah?” the small, pink snake shifts around to look at esther.

“they love us so much.”

“they do.”

“i can't—” esther’s voice breaks and she pulls ritsa up to her face. “i can't. i can't love her,” she swallows, “like that. or maybe at all, i don't know. i'm letting her down.”

“yeah,” ritsa tells her softly, ��you are.”

#ars paradoxica #his dark materials #ars hdm crossover #my writing

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for tht ask meme: is it ok if its irl people? (liek youtubers?) if so, then tyler scheid as a human ;0

im assuming u mean human as in like a human and borrower situation, if u mean something else lemme kno and i’ll make ya new headcanons lmao ANYWAY

would definitely notice super quick that there’s a borrower about. not necessarily by seeing them, maybe just by noticing that bits of food go missing/cracks in the walls/etc.

probably wouldn’t be above setting a trap to catch the borrower lmao

comes off as intimidating at first because of how big and quiet he is, but once you get to know him he’s chill af

casually forgets that borrowers are small?? “hey come see” and just leaves the room, making the borrower climb alll the way down from the counter and trek into the other room on their own. “here hold this” *casually drops pencil on borrower* “o shit sorry”

probably would be hesitant to show the borrower to mark/ethan/amy/kathryn bc he knows how excitable they can get and how it might be overwhelming

if the borrower does decide they wanna meet the others tho, he’ll be totally supportive and there to make sure the tiny doesn’t get overwhelmed and everything goes smoothly

if they decide to just continue living in secret, he’d also respect that, chat with them if he ever sees them about borrowing, and occasionally leave out treats or supplies for them where they’ll find em

also??? he gives the best hugs (with his hand ykno the whole ~borrower hug~ thing). the best. 10/10 hugs.

#g/t #gttylerfanclub #does he have a tag bc he should have a tag #HOPE YA LIKE IT ANON #Anonymous

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humssofpoveda-blog · 7 years

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so. Sylvanian Families. wow. frick. what a throwback. By: Yeda Porcalla

Meng, every toy store would have that glass case display with the great big house with the smol furniture and the different animal families lined up and doing their own do-s. I was hella crazy over going toy store to toy store and seeing how they would display their houses and all. (sadly, I never bought a pack of my own, so I would just get excited over mall displays. #SadLyf HAHAHAHA)

they are absolutely crazyadorable!!!! I got so overwhelmed and nostalgic upon having to search for these photos!! The craze is back on!! I mean, L O O K ! ! ! They’d have the cutest tiny furniture and different accessories and all!! and the clothes o. em!! I remember wanting to own that great big house along with the family van and decorate the entire thing!! I wanted to have a BBQ racoon dad watching over his twin boys by the pool with the mom wearing a cute apron by the kitchen --- you know, that entire picturesque family.

And that is where I’ve realized the faults into this collection’s branding. One of the reasons why I never really bought a Sylvanian family was because they were crazy impractically expensive!! I mean, ur 700 pesos could only buy you a family. That’s 35 cornettos meng!! Thankfully, already clothed and all, some packs generously have an accessory or two along with it but that’s it. And what’s in this set? So it’s your animal family of choice inclusive of a mom, a dad, and 2 kids. Usually a brother and a sister. How ideal, right? Well looking at it all now, it’s quite bothersome how we’ve had this influence of how families are supposed to be like at such a young age. (and as animals too? Yet another unrealistic expectation jk)

But ok. here’s the thing on why it’s all so iffy:

Gender roles pa more??!! Mom in an apron, sister in pink, brother in blue. Same goes for their accessories too. Not that it’s such an uncommon thing to expect from children’s toys but you understand why it’s so wrong. We’re brainwashing colors and expectations into children’s minds through dolls. It’s crazy!!!

Sylvanian families are supposed to portray the picture of an ideal family, and I guess that’s why every family set comes with 2 parents -- a mom and a dad. wow. Idk I just generally hate the lack of representation and diversity in things. Family’s a really sensitive topic for children who can’t have lifestyles as promising as the ones of these. I mean heck, the most diversity a set can get is having triplets. wowee. Sure maybe toy companies might (& sadly) never give in to having LGBT representation but would it kill to have a single parent with maybe like 5 children?

Life isn’t a picnic. lol. I mean, I really don’t want to be that cynical kid who grew up to face the bitterness of life but it’s these sort of things that make life even a greater let down, ykno? I mean, sori kids but there are realities beyond the adorable packagings and cute house decor. It’s just quite sad to have this happy expectations built up for them at such an early age because tbh this is really the kind of picture kids look up to when growing up.

Well, anyways. Rant over. I’m still forever looking forward to finally owning my own collection someday, but hopefully when the time does come, it’s gonna be one more realistically aligned with life. (even if it has to sacrifice the cute)

disclaimer: all photos retrieved from the official Sylvanian Families site

#porcalla #yeda porcalla

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