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meruz · 4 months

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another ask post

i mean i also read it because a friend whos rly into queer SFF fiction circles recced it but she did kinda lead with "the writer used to write hs fanfic...tasmyn..taz...?" to which i replied

of COURSE I read the locked tomb because i heard taz had written a book. of course. ill consume most any media made by a beloved homestuck bnf. thats also why i played undertale. and read like..snotgirl. and idk... watched the new dub of neon genesis evangelion.

if u made homestuck fanwork 10 years ago and havent even made it since chances are I still remember and I love you for it.

sdlkfhsg its funny you sensed that because that drawing did in fact start kinda more........ well, I'd be lying if I said my hands never wrought a drawing toeing over the pg-13 line LOL...

NOT to say i have a secret stash of porn or anything. in general im more interested in the implication of sexuality or mature themes over any explicit depiction. like everything i draw is so softcore itd almost feel silly to make a nsfw acc for anything.

but im not rly jumping to post anything on main either bc i get the sense i have a lot of kids in my social media following. it varies from site to site and fandom to fandom but the themes in my work often circle around childhood, coming of age etc and in general i like stories about kids so the fandoms i draw for have a lot of kids in them. even stuff like IT (stephen king) which is about kids but isn't necessarily for kids.. there were a lot of kids in that fandom lol.

actually thats why ive been censoring swears in comics lately because the tmnt fandom comes across to me as a little young...IDK I've had MULTIPLE people ask me what "sodomize" means because of the joke in this post and I'm like... I Cannot be the one to explain this to you. you have to look it up on your own klfsdhsdg like i wouldn't be doing this if i were doing a comic for mgs or even homestuck wherein the characters textually swear constantly LOL but sometimes u gotta change tacks depending on the faces u see in the crowd yknow.

i HAVE been thinking abt drawing nsfw of sunspot/richard rider/kobak from x-men red just because that comic seemed to be really asking for it. who knows.. if the need rly arises maybe my separate account policy will change.

its rly more a matter of the fact that i havent read/watched much of any other iterations... im sure id like most lol. I like most things related to my interests regardless of quality. i rly like the marvel ultimate alliance games for instance. sometimes seeing my fave guy is enough he doesnt have to be well written LOL. i dont exactly have a wealth of free time tho thats the real impediment.

i did watch the 2007 movie on new years eve and found it quite charming overall. and i have read about 30-40 issues between the mirage and idw comics. still feels like im barely scratching the surface but i liked em. i rly want to read all the sophie campbell stuff bc i think her work is interesting. jason aaron will be a mixed bag i think lmao. i say as the worlds biggest Wolverine and the X-Men (2011) fan.

hmm this is kinda hard bc i feel like i naturally draw very loose and the hard part for me is tightening it up. maybe some suggestions tho...

1) hand excercises. i think its easy to forget this when many artists sit in front of the computer all day but drawing is a physical activity u do with ur actual...bodys...muscles lol. if u feel urself tightening up it might help to strech (any google search for "artist hand excercises" should yield good results) or do a page of loose practice strokes like..big circles. long lines. scribbles. that kinda thing. whatever feels good for ur hand. this is also just good to do as a general warm up before u sit down for any drawing sesh.

2) draw further away from the canvas. as a general rule...when ur painting traditionally you do the big strokes with your whole arm outstreched and a long handled brush. and when you do the details its smaller wrist movements and a shorter handled brush. so it might help to take a step back or push back from ur chair a little.. or hold ur tablet a little further away. and hold your pen further away from the nib.

3) change mediums / brush types. some brushes and mediums are more suited to loose sketching and some more inclined towards detail work. so changing ur tool could help. also! i personally have this problem where sometimes if im using a brush i feel really familiar with the pressure to make a "good" "finished" "perfect" drawing is greater... if i want to force myself to loosen up ill switch to a tool i dont use as often so it feels like the pressure is off. a lot of times for me this is switching from digital to traditional. but sometimes its switching from a small pen to a big marker. or a smooth pen to a textured one. or a nice brush to a shitty dried up marker.

but also every body is different so i dont think these tips will work for everyone. u should listen to what ur body and mind tell u and how drawing feels to you

bro just sign up and set it up i dont think theres much to it... i dont rly think too much abt my itch.io store because its digital goods so u just upload the file and let it do its thing. no distribution work needed on ur part. youll notice i barely even advertise my itch unless i have smth new on there lol.. its easy. but good luck!!!

idk if im the best person to ask this im more a comic fan than i am a comic professional... a comic hobbist.

well. scott mcclouds understanding comics and making comics are good books on the craft. i think i had to buy them for a class in art school once.

other than that idk just keep at it. comics are really laborious i think for a lot of people the hardest part is sitting down and doing it.

i think a lot of people have a very instinctive understanding of how to read comics and what they look like so whatever you think seems like good way to tell the story you have in mind, its probably right. if u get stuck, study comics that have done something similar. most people in comics are relatively self taught and actually it can be problematic bc you can tell when a lot of comic artists are all copying the same like 5 old white guys LMAO. but on the flip side if you make sure to reference and study broadly your comics will almost assuredly feel unique.

sorry im responding to this anyways. this is just a really nice ask. i like when people reference my older work bc i feel like sometimes theyre subtly implying it wasnt very good LMAOOO. but its true! at least compared to the work i make now ^^ and the fact that im still making art is whats keeping me from being embarassed abt how much of my old art just floats around online lmao im never ashamed to be growing and learning. isnt that a nice thought <3

#ask #too much art talk in this one

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urfavtwat · 4 months

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so I have a friend who ghosted me twice and I know the easy answer to this is cut them off … yes but it’s not as easy because we did communicate and it just sucks that I had to find out she got engaged through rumors and we saw each other a few times then she ghosted bc she called off her own wedding so I gave her the spce she needed but you know it’s been two years she been dragging this same excuse instead of asking for help I offered but still she insisted that she suppress it anyways fast forward I find out she gets married through social media . I just want to know if I’m on the wrong for reacting and being frustrating with her . We spoke even before and she failed to update me and now that I confronted she keeps justifying her ghosting by say life happens it’s about practicality also the fact that everyone has a reason that’s not known to one another just to justify her not communicating with me and ghosting . What can I say to her ! Any thoughts and I just want to know if I’m

So, I’m going to make multiple points here and look at some of these points from a variety of angles but i will just say before anything as a disclaimer I’m seeing it as one guy with very little context. All things like this are entirely case by case and you would know this person better than me so anything i say just take with a pinch of salt.

I think whats best to really consider is a) the reason she ghosted you particularly. Was it you amongst many others or was it you because of a significance you play in complicating their emotions etc. b) how close you were.

The simple answer aside from cutting this person off is as an outsider looking in it doesn’t really look like she owes you anything. Whilst i risk sounding blunt saying this I’m a firm believer in the fact no one is owed or should expect anything. It’s decency to get an explanation and i would hope you would get one. I have been ghosted by people very close to my heart and the one thing that hurt was the lack of explanation, i just wake up and bam I’m blocked. But whilst its nice to get one by no means would anyone have to nor would they have to ask you for help.

Now context is paramount as if you are being blocked along with 50 people then that would suggest she just wants to be alone and maybe doesnt want to have to tell the whole world updates on her life. Getting married is a massive commitment which im sure is exhausting enough so maybe thinking to explain it to people you dont have to isnt the most appealing as it probably gets to a point where it becomes exhausting going through the motions of telling someone again.

By contrast again contextually dependant maybe she is blocking you specifically because you play that role in complicating emotions.

Additionally how did you approach the subject when you knew? If this person is struggling to stay afloat did you go to them with support and excitement of their news or did you immediately go with hostility and confront them? As if this was the case it could play support to why she struggles to communicate with you. These things go both ways and its definitely worth looking back on how you acted to see if you were the most approachable version of yourself.

Alternatively maybe you were approachable and understanding and supportive and maybe the reality of all this is that you deserve better and people who treat you to the same high regard in which you treat them.

Ive been in your position and i truly do understand how you feel and what i have discussed above is things i found years later when reflecting on the way i acted and by no means is intended to be intentionally challenging.

To summarise, people don’t owe you shit, know your worth, however if you truly feel mistreated as hard as it is and i know it is, it might be time to throw in the towel on this one.

I hope this had helped and provided some insight as an outsider looking in and i hope its maybe provided a new perspective to become either more understanding or to clarify emotions you already felt. I wish you all the best.

#anon #ask #an absolute novel sorry readers

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dexaroth · 9 months

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opinions on open world/creative/base building games

the one thing that always gets me about games that either are centered on or have elements pertaining to being able to build stuff like a base/house or a city or reshaping the world to your liking is that they always leave out some key elements that are practically quintessencial to engaging with the building at all

speaking from experience (and from playing acnh recently) those types of games either dont encourage the player enough to put effort into things or the things you can build end up having little to no practical purpose

the first game that comes to mind of the latter is vanilla minecraft. arguably infinite possibilities, but you're limited to the blocky style and you can quite easily beat the game and go on for irl/ in- game years without building a base at all. let alone homes or cities, since theres only you and villagers but they arent really company since theyre too busy hrrrnging their way with other villagers. theyre just a game element and i doubt anyone ever thought of them as genuine npcs. you can build castles, spaceships, anything! but theyll always be unnecessary compared to shutting yourself in a dirt hut - or villagers for that case. and even if you ignore that (and modding ands multiplayer for that case lol) then you still have to come up with the ideas for actual buildings yourself, AND then. even if you have everything in mind. building it is so painful, even with scaffolding. ive seen this opinion multiple times but minecraft simply doesnt benefit from its survival aspect. theres nothing thats worth digging all that ground and building that huge castle when it comes to time spent. its so cumbersome and unfun

the sims' house building id say is practically unparalleled - though it has plenty of limits (and furnishings behind paywalls of course) it still suffers because youre not an actual player. that house is for sims only, for people that arent you. and even if you could play there, you'd still be stuck in the game world that you cant influence like you can house lots.

while i havent played it, theres also technically house flipper but its one of those simulator games that dont have much in replayable/satisfying game loops to keep you going, and your house isnt the center point either. it also suffers from the no npc things. youre fixing houses, yet its all done through menus and no interaction (which id say works well for the game's workflow, but not belivability imo)

then theres something like terraria. it gets bonus points from having a housing system, but it still doesnt ask enough of the player and because of its genre ive always found it annoying to have to build their houses anyways. a huge majority of the good blocks are gated behind the end game, and by the time you get to build a nice house, you practically dont even need one. the enemies can also be countered somewhat easily and the npcs are, again, just that. shopkeepers that most of the time just die like boss fodder. ironically that always encouraged me to build their houses far away so they dont die.. not very helpful in creating a sense of community

the forest has a really good system and a lot of replayability, though there are barely any furnishings and everything is made out of logs. of course its not meant to be the end-all of building games and its focused on survival, but you have very good reasons to build a base, and you can get quite creative with them

and last but not least, the one that made me think about and write about this in the first place - new horizons. the creativity it allows is amazing. there are many screenshots that are incredible and barely look like the game at all. and even though there are literal hundreds of villagers and theyre more expressive than ever, they still fall flat. the islands, again, can be amazing. but almost everything is entirely cosmetic, the predefined paths and fences are very limited and so are the color choice for furnitures (though im guessing a lot if not all of these are limitations due to the console hardware/storage size). they have nicely introduced more custom design spaces and even a horizontal mirroring tool, but not an actual tiling editor.. even with the dlc they introduce stuff like wall partitions and room resizing, but the partitions can only use the main wallpaper and you cant resize the rooms in your house. and even though its nice to have a nice house, again.. outside multiplayer, theres not much purpose to them (SPECIALLY when i have to sit through loading screens to get to any of them. are you kidding me??). at best you can have a toilet to get rid of the fruit points, a kitchen for cooking and i guess a bedroom for going to dream towns.. or you could have a bed, an oven and a toilet in your room. you know. ugh

it has a lot of strengths with the kind of toy/dollhouse vibe(??) its going for, like how the house's insides are completely different from their outsides but it also means you cant have cute stuff like seeing your island from outside, seeing your villagers through windows, or just having an actual big house n stuff.

idk man.. they always seem to either lack a reason to build, or if they give you reasons to build theyre so weak you can often just not build at all. maybe im asking too much but is there ever gonna be a game that gives you a reason to build and keep going at the same time? :(

imagine if you still had villagers like acnh, but they had good dialogue and commented on your stuff/decisions, while also only moving in because you built a shop or a market or a city to live in. and the reason you built that is because your goal in-game is to be a chef or an adventurer or something, and you werent limited to an island or pre-made furniture.. something in-between the sims' cartoony realistic proportions and acnh's childish toy designs when it comes to aesthetics.. could you imagine

#dextxt #euoeueoergh

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fictionkinfessions · 1 year

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I keep thinking about my early time in Inazuma and I just.

I need to send such a heartfelt thank you to Ayaka and Thoma (and even though we didnt interact at the time, Ayato as well for also allowing it)

Now, I had something a bit different from canon early Inazuma's events.

The canon talk with Ayaka and the mini errands still happened, but they were just day one.

I was furious and damn near a manic episode over the previous encounter with Lumine, so I was incredibly rude to them both during our first meeting. So my first thank you HAS to be thanking Ayaka and Thoma for giving me familiar tasks to help me calm down (even if it wasnt the full intention). An additional quick thank you to Paimon for trying to run damage control and overall allowing her panic to show Ayaka and Thoma what was going on even though you didnt really get it yourself.

The big shift from canon is what happened when I came back from the tasks. I had calmed down. Cleared my head. I was feeling a bit better. Just better enough to apologize for my behavior and agree to help best I could. On the condition they just let me rest and process some shit for a few days or so.

To be honest I had nearly shut down from sheer exhaustion by the time we got back to the estate (because of my own wild emotions. Not the tasks Ayaka gave to me). So I think the toll my mind was taking was fairly evident in my apperance at that point.

The two of them were so kind. They didnt even ask what had happened or why I needed it. (I did explain a bit/vented to Thoma abt it later) They agreed so quickly and Thoma rushed me off to a guest room like I could pass out any second (I cant say I wouldnt have but I did think it was a little silly at the time)

I ended up being in a really deep depression for about a week. Could barely even leave my bed. Scared Paimon half to death (sorry Paimon)

Ayaka was a bit more distant during that time than Thoma. I think some of my initial rudeness got to her or maybe it was just how shy she was that the infamous traveler was in her house. Im not quite sure/dont remember. But I'm sure we got much closer afterwards when I was no longer depressed, and I think she gave Paimon a lot of reassurance during it all.

But Thoma was in and out of my room multiple times on a daily basis. He was SO nice and caring. Brought me 3 meals a day, let me vent all I needed, offered advice even though he didnt fully understand the situation, he would even remind me about some basic self care (not in a pushy way but gentle reminders for "if I found the energy"). He'd even play with Paimon to help get her energy out (she would get REALLY antsy when we weren't doing much)

He EVEN put up with my accidental slip of terrible coping mechanisms (wont say here. Its horrifically embarassing.)

I honestly don't think I would've survived my trip to Inazuma if it weren't for their kindness. I can never thank them enough. I don't even remember all of that week, nor everything about my continued relationships with Ayaka and Thoma, but I just cannot shake the deep seated need to thank them both for eternity. I can never thank them enough honestly. They practically saved my life. They gave me a safe space to process things. If they didnt let me stay with them I likely wouldve withered away within my teapot. They felt like some of the few people who not only knew EVERYTHING about my situation, but also knew how fucking traumatizing it all was, and knew exactly how I had gotten to the point I did.

God. I care about them both so much.

Ayaka, Thoma, seriously. Thank you both. So so so so so SO much. Your kindness was never forgotten, in that life nor in this one.

~Aether 🕯♟

🌷

#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #aetherkin #genshinimpactkin #chara love #memories issue #mod party cat

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itachi-uchiha-deserved-better · 2 years

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for the QUESTIONS FOR MUNS.

1, 9 and 4

(it is rly nice to see you around I missed you greatly, and seeing you on my dash today improved my day <3 )

1 - I think reblog karma is kind of a double edge sword. I think it's very helpful especially for newer members of the RP community who dont have established RP partners or who are trying to find their place in a mostly established group. My blog grew the way it did in large part because several popular blogs made a point to send me asks or starters after I'd send them something from a prompt post.

At the same time through, I think it can be taken to the point where there is an unhealthy expectation that if you send in a prompt or an ask, then by default whoever you sent that into MUST send you one back from the prompt/ask post you reblog. Which can lead to hurt feelings if other members of the group arent feeling it or dont have the spoons for another thread or if maybe they had to go offline and the reblog gets buried in their notifications. So in short i would say it's something i think big blogs should be cognizant of and try to engage in when they can but we also need to promote the idea that sending in an ask from a reblogged prompt doesnt mean your entitled to that blog sending anything back if that makes sense.

9- what makes me decide on new blogs to follow.....hrm....its hard to describe. There are a lot of little things that might turn me off from a blog (Interblog drama, poor formatting with small text since I'm on mobile 90% of the time and it's hard to read, replies that have a "reaction image" with each reply again because it makes things harder to read on mobile.)

Obviously I'm more drawn to blogs that have similar interests. So I follow a lot of Uchiha blogs, some Kakashi centric blogs, several Sakura blogs but not as many Neji or Hinata or Choji blogs just because I'm not as drawn to those characters.

It comes down to if I see multiple posts in a short period of time that I like enough to reblog then I'll often go ahead and follow that person.

4- itachi was absolutely my all time favorite muse to write. Granted I havent played with that many from the Narutoverse (mostly Itachi and occasionally Sakura). As for why I stopped writing him......

The last few months of my clinical rotations and the first few months as a practicing vet have been pretty rough on me. My stress levels were high and I always felt pretty low on spoons and on new ideas. I was dropping a lot of threads because I was losing the spark that made me enjoy what I was writing. I've recently picked up writing some drabbles privately just to get back into writing a bit, but I think a big part of it was just general burn out and life needing to take the forefront of my attention.

I may try to hop back on every now and again and maybe even do a thread or two if anyone is still interested in a washed up Itachi blog but I think I need to set some limits for myself so I dont wind up back feeling as burned out as I did.

I'm glad that I was able to brighten your day! I miss you and so many people from this community but I had to spend some time to get my shit in order.

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blueempty · 3 months

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I cant see shit when I take pictures facing the sun, its a miracle theyre often in focus

Had another late rise today. I hope I find the strength to wake up at 11am again soon. Today was good because I was not at jury duty. Thats all I can really ask for

I'm gonna start trying to learn one kanji a day on top of practicing my kana and numbers, and first one I picked is probably more complicated than I should have chosen, but I have a history with chinese characters so the complexity of the particular kanji isnt really a concern for me

Today I went with 願 (ねが ne ga), because I was going through my lessons again and like the first thing they teach you is introduce yourself! Say "onegaishimasu" and then I look up to read the kana and it says お願いします, and I'm like come on bro. So I learned that one. Maybe thats how I'll choose, I'll just go by whatever pops up next in my lessons lol. Its 19 strokes but I sat there and did it over and over for like 10 minutes and I think i got it. I actually like learning stroke order and stuff. I always preferred writing chinese over speaking it

I really need to get back to streaming, which i say all the time, but speedrunning and goofy challenge runs would be good for streams. Im trying to beat Onimusha without upgrading weapons or using healing items right now. The trick with that is if you kill enemies with an issen strike they always drop health souls, but issen are very hard to pull off. It forces you to really learn every enemies attack animations well, which is something I love doing

A big point of contention with me and my friends rn is they dont get how I can just sit and play Monster Hunter for multiple hours at a time. My brother has admitted many times now thay he is never paying attention when we play, he just auto pilots fights because he doesnt find enjoyment in fighting them once hes basically seen everything they can do. But like thats the fun, is learning how kill things faster and more efficiently. I can play for hours on end because its fun to react to something a monster did and cause it to fall out of the air mid jump because you knew your weapons hitboxes well enough to hit it backwards while it was above you. And then he points out thats the fun of fighting games and asks why i dont wanna play those anymore, and I'm like because I fucking hate other humans and the way their minds work lol. I want to abuse a poor helpless CPU player that cant even stand on two legs. The lizard men in Onimusha raise their little cleaver and I go haha idiot, and I instant kill their ass. Thats what sparks joy for me. Thats also why I've been playing games alone for two months I guess hehe

Anyways, thats not really me complaining exactly, I'm trying to be aware of my negativity you see, thats all to say that I love the slop Capcom puts in my trough. It's good slop. I'm also so fucking excited for Splatoon 3 Side Order (i guess) but more importantly HYDLIDE 3 COMES OUT TODAY YAHOOOO

Heres my kanji for today cuz the night sky hasnt been very photogenic around here. With and without guides

Live Long and Prosper

#skyposting #thoughtposting

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ftmkinki · 7 months

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No actual transphobia this is a kink blog and kink = improv! not real praxis

I do general yearning and horny shit here. Send me asks if you like but i might not answer them bc i might wanna keep reading them over and over lmao

Kink list

Key:

Giving = i prefer to do this to someone else. Not a hard requirement but a Strong preference

Receiving = i prefer to have this done to me. Not a hard requirement but a Strong preference

Giving and receiving = um... as on the tin. Equal enjoyment

Negotiate = always must be renegotiated when starting a new scene unless expressly told otherwise

[Term] only = hard boundary, I only do it this way

Any additional information is courtesy of my adhd... or to denote severity in multiple levels that's also a thing i added in

Likes/loves:

Possessiveness (giving and receiving. Babe for the duration of that scene you are my property and vice versa)

Light impact play (to reddness, hand preferred implements used too, giving)

Praise (giving and receiving)

Mild to moderate degradation (giving)

Objectification (giving and receiving)

Overstim (giving and receiving)

Edging/orgasm control (giving)

Rigging (practicing shibari ties to get better! Also giving)

Toy usage (giving preferred receiving also enjoyed [just less])

Body worship (HHHNNNNGGGGG) (giving and receiving)

Forced feminization, including detransition (giving and receiving) [warning: requires heads up] nothing else is ranked this way but this one is at the bottom for a reason and that reason being dysphoria is a bitch when blindsided

Meh/only sometimes:

Breathplay (giving only. Lissen we all know choking hot. But if you ask me to pretend to drown or waterboard you im out also im not choking you with any implaments other than tugging breifly on a collar/leash because i dont trust myself enough to not Hurt you hurt you that way. Its hands only and the occasional incidental choking)

Some petplay (giving, negotiate)

Strong Degradation (sometimes i will enjoy... not always tho. Giving only, negotiate)

Feet (it can be nice to have mine played with but i need to be in the mood for it. Receiving [esp as part of body worship, did i mention i like that?])

Harder impact play (to bruising giving only)

Hard boundaries:

I dont hit with specifically belts yes theyre fun but theyre also emotionally loaded for me please ask for a paddle or flogger or something else i personally think my hands do a good job

Extreme breathplay (i will absolutely not, under any circumstances, allow you to get to a point where you start turning fucking blue or even verge on passing out. I'm too nervous about long term consequences and brain damage for any of that)

Bloodplay/extreme sadism (i have never seriously injured someone and i don't plan on it)

Large age gaps/ageplay

Gross kinks (like wanting to do things that are seen as unhygienic and unclean such as scat or watersports or licking boots clean or something similar)

Severe degradation (like i wont call you slurs and completely attempt to destroy your self confidence in bed im not calling you worthless or anything like that thats too far for me)

Detransition info for you to use against me:

Bra size: 45DD/45E

Height: 5'5

Binder: medically cannot bind

Surgeries: hysto scheduled, pre everything

Hrt: 6 months

Bought a cute bra i might show pictures of it when it gets here if it makes me feel cute enough

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shigarak1slut · 3 years

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Hello! I saw your requests were open, and wanted to request something for Bakugou? I was thinking, there's hcs about why he doesn't want to hold your hand, in case he accidently sets off his quirk. But could you write something for if he did set o his quirk by accident, and he injured you holding his hand? Not enough to do serious damage, but it still really hurts? If you can't don't worry! Thank you for reading this! Love your writing btw, it either makes me super happy or I cry for days💀

Hii

I've never read this hc it's so sad

So I had to do it

Hope you like it

Dating bakugo was great . No dating bakugo was fantastic. This boy seemed like he knew how to do everything right all the time .

But even though you guys were dating for seven months now and you had all ready explored each other body multiple times he still insisted on not holding your hands.

"Come on Katsuki just hold my hand just for five minutes." You plead almost everyday but the answer was just a plain "No" from him or a "I dont like physical contact" .

The second one did seem like an excuse since he would all ways find a way to touch you. Shoulders touching ,you sitting on his lap , putting his head on your lap after hard days etc

And even though you guys were doing great it always bothered you how he denied holding your hand no matter the occasion . It made you feel unwanted.

One night just before you guys fell asleep overthinking got the best of you.

"Katsuki , do you like me ?"

You asked braiding your fingers together and looking at the ceiling.

"No I spend ten hours a day with you and sleep at your place because I have nothing else to do." He said sarcastically .

"I'm serious. Do you like me ?" You said again

He turned around to look at you but your eyes were still stuck on the ceiling. " Of course I like you dumbass why the fuck are you even asking that?" He said angrily

Why were you questioning his feelings for you ?

"Its- it's just that- Its just that you never hold my hand Katsuki." You said trying to gather all your courage.

"This shit again? I just dont want to,what does this have to do with me no liking you ?"

You sat on the bed and looked at him still lying there .

"Every other couple does, look at denki and Sinsou their hands are basically glued together. You never do it ." The last sentence came out more like a thought to yourself .

"For fucks sake , I dont want to hurt you, okay ? I would love to hold your hand but I still cant control my fucking explosions. What happens when I hold your hand ,get mad and explode ? " He said looking in your eyes .

You sat there speechless " Babe, that's why you dont hold my hand ? This is stupid, I know you wont hurt me."you said looking back at him

"How do you know that?"

"Because I trust you." You said, " I trust you enough to know that you would never hurt me baby." You extended your hand." Hold it."

Bakugo looked at you in disbelief

"Just do it."

He extended his hand to hold yours. You braided your fingers together.

"See ? Nothing happened and nothing will ever happen . Okay?"

"Okay"

This was the scene that played again and again on Katsukis Bagukou mind like a broken film while he was waiting outside of your room in the ER.

And to think how great this day started.You and him had decided prior this week to go shopping in the nearest mall from your house and you were having the time of your lives too. That was until Bakugo heard some not so nice comments from a group of boys next to you.

Look at her she could practically be a pornstar with this body

Im sure shell be good at it too

"The fuck did you just say ?"

How could you be so stupid to trust him ?How could he be so stupid to trust himself ?

He was shaking to the thought that he might have hurt you beyond repair.

He could not believe he did it.

The door opened and a doctor came out .Bakugo jumped off his seat. "How is she ? How is her hand ? Will she be okay ?"

"Hello Mr.Katsuki , I can assure you that your wife is in good condition. Her left hand has a second degree burn that will need some time to heal we provided her with some painkillers and she is resting well at the mom-

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST ASK ME?"

Your voice was heard through the entire hospital.

Katsuki run to your room where he saw a terrified nurse and you fuming from your anger.

"Y/N, is everything ok ?Did something happen ?" Katsuki stepped a little closer to you.

"This man right here has never hurt me in his entire life until today . He would never do it intentionally do you hear me ? So you can stop asking if the love of my life is abusing and maybe get the papers ready cause I want to leave, NOW."

The poor nurse run out of the room

"Can you believe her?"

Bakugo didnt answer he just fell into your arms holding you in a tight hug.

"I'm so sorry love. I cant believe I hurt you , I'll make it up for you okay ? If you want to break up I get it."

You were left speechless with the sudden change of behavior. He was never that touchy in public and he never expressed his feelings,through words at least.

"Katsuki Bakugo get it together. This was an accident okay ? You are not some type of dangerous monster you are my fiance and I would never leave you . Hit me with a thousand explosions and I'll still be here you hear me ? " You looked him in the eyes. "There is nothing you can do that can hurt me enough to stop loving you . Okay?"

"Okay"

"Perfect. Let's leave now before this shitheads try to keep me here forever. Wanna grab a burger on the way home ?"

"Whatever you want shitty woman."

"That's the spirit"

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300iqprower · 2 years

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Ya know after looking at Gil’s Bond CE, i’ve come to realize the entire Bond CE system perfectly represents how all of FGO’s talk of “it’s about winning with a team of your favorites” is bullshit that’s completely betrayed by its money-grubbing gacha mechanics. Stay with me here I promise this will loop back around to that point.

Bond CEs are completely useless on about 90% of all servants, and it’s because of design decisions that are made explicitly to prioritize gacha rolls. Firstly they’re only ever useful on support units or Heracles. Heracles is his own unique case of being one of two base game servants with a truly unique Bond CE, granting a whopping 3 Guts, which itself is only useful because of a design oversight on how Guts works (where if there is only one servant left, triggering Guts automatically ends the enemy turn. This is because the AI registers that moment of death as “no enemies left” causing the turn to pre-emptively end), and Georgios who has a unqiue effect of on death applying damage cut and invincible to all other allies. This is typically only used for suiciding two level 1s so you can solo, but it still works well enough played straight.

Aside form those two though all Bond CEs are one of two things: A gimmick, or a flat buff to the team. The former are always useless because of the low scaling they always have, which is but one of two crippling issues I’ll get into later, and the latter are only ever going to be useful for support units. Even then it’s practically random if the effect is going to be useful. Osakabehime has 15% NP gain instead of Quick Up despite being the first intended dedicated Quick Support, and for some god forsaken reason the 1star Berserker Asterios has Quick Up on his Bond CE. Casgil has NP Strength instead of Arts or NP gain up. Mozart has NP Strength instead of Arts or Critical. Ones like those arent always terrible but my point is that it’s rare for you to get something like Castamamo, who is a dedicated arts support who DOESNT need things like starting battery or passive star gen or the other typical support effects AND has a Bond CE that directly stacks with her main form of support.

That all on its own isn’t the real issue though. The real issue is the stats. Every Bond CE is, at max level of 80, 100atk/100hp. Every single one. The same as those crappy free CEs with like, +.0000000001% Mystic Code EXP. This AUTOMATICALLY MAKES EVERY SINGLE DPS’S BOND CE USELESS NO MATTER WHAT. It doesn’t matter if AUO’s gives 30% NP Damage up and small random crit buffs, because why would i EVER use that when I can give him an effective 20% NP damage up, 50% battery, and an extra 1000+ attack with Aerial Drive? It doesn’t matter if Super Orion gets 8 stars per turn and 15% crit up for the team when I’m going to be bringing crit support for him regardless and can give him a 948atk up Victor of the Moon with 10% Buster and 20% Crit up on the only DPS I’ll need for the fight. To say nothing of how I dont need to farm for countless hours to raise their bond for those CEs.

“But what if I missed the Aerial Drive event, and don’t have Victor of the Moon?” Exactly my point. You spend countless hours grinding with these servants just for a 3 star let alone how fucking long it’d take for an SSR’s bond ce, and what do you get? A stocking stuffer that’s obsolete compared to just about any matching effect 5 star CE that requires you to roll the gacha. Even if they all had Heracles level effects, they’re crippled by that lack of stats. And I can tell you exactly what the thought process behind those stats was. “They get them for free, so obviously just like the other free CEs, they have to have the absolute minimum stats.” Even though they require multiple hundred hours of dedication and are supposed to embody your bond with a servant, hence the name, they consider them “freebies” simply because you aren’t gambling over them.

They claim the game is about beating it with the servants you love, but the equivalent of their wedding rings are worthless in gameplay because as far as the developers are concerned, if you didn’t gamble for it then it shouldn't have value.

#fgo #Fate Grand Order #fuck fgo #nasu is a sellout #fgo meta #dont play gachas kids #yes i know im stating the patently obvious i do it so i dont go mad

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hereiamagainiguess · 3 years

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The Box in the Basement

It was Katsuki's turn to make dinner and Izuku couldn’t wait, Katsuki’s cooking was his favourite, besides maybe his mums. Even then, there were some things he just made better, not that he would ever admit that to Inko herself.

"Hey Kacchan, do we have any kettlebells?"

"In the basement, nerd,"

Izuku smiled to himself and stood up, putting his notebook and pen on the coffee table and stretched his arms out above his head until he heard the crack of his joints.

He slipped his house shoes on his feet and headed towards the basement door.

The two had been living together in this house for a year and a half now, and Izuku doesn't remember ever needing to go into the basement.

Not since they moved in and stored odd things in there that they wanted out of the way, anyway.

He descended the uneven steps to the heavy wooden door and pulled the latch before shuffling into the dusty room, flicking on the light and watching the bulb flicker to life.

As his eyes scanned the room to find what he came down for, his eyes lingered on an aged wooden box, hidden in the corner.

Huh. He didn't think he'd ever seen that before, it definitely wasn't his. Shaking his head, curiosity won over his restraint and he sat on the hardwood floor next to the box and studied it.

It was a dark mahogany with a smooth glaze, chipped in areas showing its age. The hinges and fittings were a dull brass, with identical studs over the lid.

Izuku ran a scarred hand over the metal with a curiosity as his fingers found the latch, flipping it open and peering inside.

Now, the box wasn't too big, it was your average sized chest.

Inside, Izuku saw a multitude of different things, including clothes from Katsuki's teenage years, some old All Might merch and some gifts he received from Izuku during their time at middle school.

It made him smile to know that he had kept those despite everything that happened between them.

To say Katsuki made fun of Izuku for being sentimental, this whole box seems to contain the blonde's own memories of the past.

Digging through it with a smile unearthed some picture frames, photos of Katsuki and his parents, with some of his extended family, and right at the bottom was a picture of him and Izuku as children, caught in a priceless moment of laughter.

His heart melted as he looked at the photo, a silly grin widened on his face as appraising eyes gazed at the photo. He would have to replace the frame, maybe see if he can convince the man upstairs to put it on the mantle with their UA memories.

He set the picture aside gently, continuing to dig through the box.

At the very bottom, was something he never thought he would see again, that he hadn’t laid eyes on since he was sure it was disposed of in middle school. His eyes widened at the sight of it, realisation coming to mind as he willed himself not to get emotional.

“Hero Analysis for the Future : 13”

He had carefully removed the signature from All Might and thrown the notebook out, counting it damaged beyond repair. Whatever hadn't been fried was damaged by the water from the koi pond.

It was in a plastic cover, almost preserving it, and with shaky hands, Izuku picked it up. He flicked through it, seeing his notes copied on new paper that was hastily shoved between each page in teen Katsuki's scratchy lettering.

Tears welled up in his eyes despite his efforts, as he turned the pages, seeing all the notes that could be recovered copied out onto nice lined paper.

He rubbed his eyes before flicking to the empty pages, when out fell an envelope, addressed to "Deku".

The handwriting was still what Katsuki's used to be when they were in UA.

He slipped his finger under the seal for the envelope and pulled out the sheets of paper, unfolding them and smoothing the creases.

"Deku

If you're reading this, it means I've found my goddamn balls to give you this back.

I saw it on my way home that day with the shitty fucking sludge villain, and something made me stop and take it with me.

I don't know, I dont fucking know why I burnt it in the first place, maybe subconsciously shitty younger me thought it'd be a setback to you.

In that moment I remembered how you looked when taking these dumb notes, how happy and invested you seem and it made me feel like an ass I guess.

Especially after your dumb ass saved me. Yeah, I can admit that now.

Because since then you've saved me many more times in multiple ways.

I wasn't used to feeling like I was wrong about anything, stupid right?

I just kept it for a while, but now in our second year I decided to do something with it, now we are talking again.

I salvaged what notes I could.

Is this weird? Maybe it's weird. Maybe you've already forgotten this.

But I don't think either of us will forget what I said that day.

For what it's worth, nerd, I'm glad you didn't listen to me.

I don't know what had crawled up my ass and died but no one deserves to hear that, especially not you.

I have had nightmares y'know, of you following through because of me.

I didn't know how to fix it, I was dumb. Hell, I still am.

I know now I never hated you, I didn't know how to feel things other than anger after a certain point and I took it out on you. Sometimes I'm no better than I was back then. But I know you’ll be patient with me even though I don’t deserve it.

Anyway, this is too much sap for this time of night.

I'm sorry.

I hope one day I can atone enough

I love you Izuku

-Kacchan,"

Izuku was fully crying by the end of this, barely registering the footsteps.

"Hey nerd? What's taking you so long? Dinner is ready,"

Katsuki walked up and saw a pile of crying nerd on the floor holding a letter.

"Oh,"

Izuku looked up and his eyes met crimson, wobbly smile shining through his sobs.

"Kacchan,"

He shifted nervously, keeping his eyes on the green haired hero., not knowing exactly what to say.

"I guess I never got the balls to give it to you, huh, " he smiled a little, clearly out of his depth.

He really hadn’t expected for Izuku to find any of that stuff.

A flash of familiar green light was all the warning he got before being tackled into a hug. Luckily for him, he managed to catch himself before he fell at the impact. He had plenty of practice with this particular circumstance.

"Kacchan," he sobbed into the blonde's shoulder, holding him tight.

He wrapped his arms around the shaking body gripping him, gently playing with the stray curls at the nape of his neck.

“I got you,”

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cryptocism · 3 years

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Hey I LOVE that you can just *see* Bart moving in every comic, like He Has Superspeed Folks- and you capture that so well!! And so I wanted to ask: ur thoughts on superspeed and just everyday life?? What is it like to be a speedster? Interacting with regular ppl, waiting for sliding doors or computers or water to come out of the faucet (showers must seem SO LONG). How does he do it all day, every day?? (Is Kon even fast enough to keep up?)

aa thank you!!! that is The Goal

and thats kind of a tough one i think! i’m a little of two minds about superspeed.

bc on the one hand its most often treated like a light switch. wherein a given speedster will appear to be processing everything at the same rate as everyone else, and then its only when superspeed is necessary that they tune in and zoom.

on the other had there’s the occasional comment (most often about bart) that implies that slowing down is a genuine effort. like in one of the impulse comics im pretty sure max says something like, “he gets bored waiting for the lights to turn on” which is!! a totally bonkers thing to think about for too long!! because it suggests 2 things: 1) bart is processing so fast that things like electricity which appear practically instantaneous is slow enough to be boring, and 2) it’s involuntary

and this is the rabbit hole i get stuck in! bc obviously superspeed affects more of barts life than just the moments he needs/purposely uses it, but also to constantly be processing the world at that rate nonstop would create very different characters than the speedsters we see. like they are way too well adjusted to regular living to be constantly moving at a brain speed of mach 10. regular conversation would be impossible bc everyone else would be speaking too slow to understand, and to seem like the only thing in motion while the world practically stands still around you sounds like a very existentially terrifying concept.

so i sort of operate under the semi-theory/headcanon that superspeed is.... kind of like adhd. at least in terms of mental processing speeds, physical speed is something most speedsters seem to have a handle on.

as in, if a given speedster is in a situation where theres multiple conversations happening at once, the speedster brain registers an overwhelming influx of information and automatically kicks into high gear - immediately rendering the speedster’s chances of actually understanding anything down to zero bc now everyone is speaking in slow motion. sort of like if the radio is playing and someone starts talking i immediately lose all auditory capabilities. or when a speedster gets really interested in something (hyperfixation) the world literally slows down around them and they completely lose track of time in whatever they’re doing. and distractions like 2 hour thought-chain daydreams are accomplished in under 20 seconds in the middle of a conversation. (also low key i think super speed would make executive dysfunction.... so much worse. bc as soon as any deadlines/responsibilities start to approach you could literally just give yourself more time to procrastinate. until ur brain and bod are moving faster than the speed of sound bc ur thesis is due in 15 minutes and u havent started yet)

anyway long answer but basically i think superspeed is definitely involuntary and inconvenient, but i dont think bart is constantly processing the world around him 20x faster than everyone else. (just... a lot of the time) and it would definitely be frustrating to deal with, and to communicate to people what its like, and to figure out strategies/accommodations for yourself (almost like its a metaphor for adhd or something)

#bart is arguably coded adhd in the impulse comics #and a lot of what ive talked about probably applies to him a lot more than barry or wally #but idk i think its interesting #and also provides more reasons why barts experience of super speed is different than his relatives #besides being literally born with the need for speed #anonymous #asks

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dyketubbo · 3 years

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i dont like how so many people in this fandom seem to think evil doesnt exist in stories or in real life. any time i see someone go to "no one is evil we're all people uwu" when talking about like. c!dream and whether he deserves a redemption arc or not i roll my eyes so hard they practically fall out of my skull. please. god. read some fucking books. play some video games. read a shitton of comics, webcomics or otherwise. go look at how real life works. look at real life politics every once in a while. look at various bad shit that happens in the real world that happens to supposedly good people. please. id love for you to look me in the eyes and tell me that in neither fact nor fiction that there are no people who are genuinely just fuckin scum of the earth like.

its okay if you like c!dream but oh my god he doesnt need a redemption arc just because you see him as a person who gets hurt too. sometimes, and i know this is crazy to think about, characters can have gotten hurt and still have been (and still are) too harmful for others for a narrative to be truly satisfying if theyre just allowed to be free and roaming around. c!dream literally tortured and abused c!tommy for what was canonically months for fun. he destroyed a country for fun. he actively called destruction beautiful and exciting, hes expressed a want to harm people further, he tried to kill tubbo just to hurt tommy because he doesnt even think of tubbo as a person or even a thing worth staying in this life any further because dream has no use for him. he considers skeppy to be a thing to use against bad. he literally has stated to want to control the server multiple times. he thinks people are only useful if theyre obedient and listen to him, he literally categorizes people by whether he finds them useful or not.

c!dream is a murderer, an abuser, a torturer, he dehumanizes others at will, he still shows signs of wanting to use the things people are attached to and manipulate them. he does not care about people he cannot use, people he doesnt find to be "fun". in c!dreams mind, if you are not fun or useful, you do not deserve to be treated as a person. in c!dreams mind if you are fun and useful but disobedient, you deserve to get hurt and even abused and tortured until you get in line and stop questioning him.

c!dream is not your sad little victim, he is not your righteous redemption arc, he doesnt even have an actual backstory so we have no reason to believe he has a sad one that would somehow magically make his actions okay, hes literally the biggest and main villain of the smp and has been even since season 1. hes evil, hes been evil, and there is no indication that he will stop once hes free. a redemption arc would only feel forced and serve to feel unfair to all of c!dreams victims (which is like, almost the entire server by this fuckin point). it is not necessary for him to have a redemption arc. stories do not need to redeem the big bad to be satisfying or good stories. c!dream dying would be more satisfying and complete the story more than a forced redemption arc (and yes it would be forced, because the only thing that makes him viable for redemption is being a victim to quackitys torture. otherwise he has no redeeming qualities because he willingly turned everything and everyone away so he could better use everyone around him).

you can feel bad for his current situation and still acknowledge that he'll only be worse once he gets out and that he likely will not change. and thats not bad writing, thats the art of consistency. because believe it or not, evil characters exist and so do people that may as well be evil. c!dream is evil, has been evil, and will continue to be evil. he does not need a redemption arc for the smp's story to be satisfying. death is satisfying enough.

#dream (character)#abuse tw #torture tw #manipulation tw #long post #dsmp #im just!! oh myyyyy god have you people ever interacted with media IN YOUR LIVESSS what the fuck are you ON #i dont understand how anyone could go through life and think theres no evil people in media (or even in real life)#how ignorant and blindly optimistic do you have to be holy shit #and i dont mean to be super mean or blunt bc this is just how i speak but My God #i wish many people in this fandom a very 'this is fiction and sometimes villains dying is more satisfying than keeping them alive'#mask mews #ask to tag #amaryllis analyzes

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shoot-the-oneshot · 3 years

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No Trespassing

@wayward-avenging “we could get arrested for this”

Jax Teller X Reader

“You, me, 7 o’clock.”

Were Jaxs vague words when he called you, you were spending the day shopping with Lyla, who resembled that of a cat who got the canary when she saw the blush spread across you cheeks.

Jax has been so busy with the club you only saw each other when you came and cooked for the guys at the club house and when he came home to exhausted to do anything but sleep. And lyla knew exactly what it felt like since she’s in the same boat with Opie.

so you both spent that extra time with each other, she’s the sister you never had. “Come on let’s find you something to wear for your hot date.” She giggles. Hair bouncing as she drags you through the mall.

seven sharp you were ready wearing black jeans, AC/DC T-shirt even a new red flannel tied around your hips. you played the part of 'biker chick' well. now all you needed was your knight on shiny dyna.

you still remember when you brought him home for the first time, the look on your dads face when he saw Jax said it all, he wasn’t a fan. untill he saw how Jax looked at you across the backyard at the BBQ while you were playing with your younger cousins. after he saw the practical heart eyes the 'big bad biker' was shooting at you he saw Jax for what he really was, a cuddly teddy bear, well with you anyways.

the deep rumble coming down the street brought you back to the present. like usual you waited untill he kocked five times on the door, even if all you wanted to do was run and jump in his arms as if you havent seen him for months, but no ever since he picked you up for your first date all those years ago and you accidentally made him stand there for five minutes because you were getting ready and never heard him, its beacome tradition almost. after the five raps you swing the door open reveailing Jax, a dozen red roses in his hands. that for a second made you question if youd forgotten your anniversary or something.

"hey darlin" stepping furthur into your house looking around like he doesnt live here, "Nice place you got here." going along with whatever game hes playing while you put your flowers in the vace you didnt notice was set out this morning.

"Thanks my boyfriend bought it."

"oh boyfriend huh? guess i better get you out of here before he shows." he smirks,

stepping into you when you turned around caging you to the counter while your hands hold onto his cutte. his lips brushing against your forehead when he asks if you’re ready to go.

You never got on a bike unless it was with Jax, you were kinda a control freak so riding with anyone else was a big no, but with him control was easier to give up, in multiple ways. plus he would have a fit if he saw you on a bike with any of the guys.

feeling the rumble and the cold leather of his cutte against your cheek was oddly relaxing as he rode through the streets. pulling onto a gravel drive stopping at a gate.

"are you gong to tell me where we are?" you asked as he grabbed bolt cutters from the saddle bag and cut the lock. the gate creaking as he forced it open far enough for the bike. a cheesy smile as jogs back.

"Nope"

the large no trespassing sign catching your eye as he drove farther up the drive. "you know we could get arrested for this right?" your voice raised so he could hear. you could feel him laughing as it finally hit you where he brought you.

an abandoned drive in, you didnt even know Charming had one of these back in the day. Jax pulled you to join him on the blanket he set out, setting you between his legs, arms wrapped tight around you.

"Look on the bright side, if we do get arrested we'd be spendin' alot of time together." he teases, letting out a grunt when you jabbed your elbow into his ribs, rolling your eyes.

"Hey! is that anyway to treat the man that broke the law to make you happy?"

"Breaking the law isn't a big deal for you Jax" he laughed, kissing your temple as he spoke "maybe not, but making you happy is."

as he finished his sentence your favorite movie started to play on the screen, and while there were boards missing it didnt dampen the moment. after the movie you both laid back and looked up at the stars, relishing in the rare silence here in Charming.

"I know i've been busy with the club and havent been around alot," he paused to take a beep breath. "that's not fair to you, im going to better, a better boyfriend or husband one day if you'd say yes."

before you could say anything blue and red flashing lights stole your attention"Come on!" Quickly pulling you up and back to the bike both of you laughing like teenagers running from a party that got busted. You knew the cops would let it go when they found out it was Jax that broke in but why not have some fun.

Wrapping your arms around his waist as he expertly dodged the police cars and drove down random streets to lose them. And while everyone might not leave a date tuning from the police pressed against an outlaw you know your relationship isn’t normal, but you wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Hope you all liked it dont forget my request are open so feel free to send any in. ❤️

#sons of anarchy imagine #soa imagine #jax teller x reader #jax teller imagine #jax imagine #juice ortiz imagine #happy lowman imagine #Jaxon teller imagine #will miller imagine

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heyitsyn · 4 years

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'Siri Am I Having a Stroke?’ Sofia the First

Soulmate!Daichi x Reader Soulmate!Tendou x Reader

a/n: lmao, yall finna know what kind of soulmate au this

when your soulmate gets hurt, you kinda get hurt too

the music your soulmate listens to or constantly sings is always playing in your head

request: Can I request a daichi, tendou, and aone soulmate au headcanon 🤲🏽😩 they're my faves, I wanted to add some more but there could be a limit? I'll request again next time ^^

a/n: sorry anon but ill only do daichi and tendou bc im not very familiar with aone :( but theres not really a limit so go ahead!!

requests open!!

so anyways

for most of your life, you thought you didnt even have a soulmate

there were no scars, no bruises,

nothing

this other half of yours was completely silent and you really thought that youd die forever

but, you

you were a wild chile and you were the type to go playing outside w your brothers and get a lot of cuts

maybe that was why you thought you didnt have a soulmate bc when your soulmate does get hurt, you wouldnt see it since youd think it was one of your own

now, daichi

he worried for you

new scars and bruises would appear on his arms overnight and he fussed over the fact that you would constantly getting hurt

were you in a toxic environment?

were these intentional?

but he would try and heal them, thinking that it would heal you too bc he didnt want you to be hurt

uwu daichi luv

he would even kiss them better bc his mom told him that kisses help them heal faster

then,

during middle school, daichi found his love for volleyball

he started training and being more active and that caused him a lot of bruises and pain

meanwhile w you,

youve mellowed out a bit

so when you entered middle school,

you were actually ecstatic to find that you had a soulmate bc you would find bruises on your hands and arms

you found out the afternoon of the first day of middle school

daichi was in the gym, practicing during lunch, and he hit a spike that bruised his fingers and he received a really powerful ball

you were sitting in class, completely bored out of your mind so you just doodled on your paper

then you flinched at the sudden pain and saw the formation of the beautiful mix of blue, purple,green, bruise

yall are in different schools btw

you shrieked and stood up, cutting off your teacher and surprising everyone in the room

‘my soulmate!’

they were like, ‘okay and?’

the entire day, you admired the colors, not even minding the hurt bc this was it!!

!!!!

your soulmate was real!!!

but daichi was worried that you were also going through the same pain and soreness from practice

and you were

after the shock and happiness of knowing you in fact do have a soulmate,

youve started getting annoyed

was this what he felt whenever you injured yourself during your younger years?

bc this waas annoying

you were constantly fatigued, tired, sore

even the mere action of getting up in the morning sucked and you actually fell down the stairs due to the soreness of your legs and you dropped your chopsticks due to the hurt in your fingers

youve concluded that your soulmate was either an athlete or in a toxic environment

during the walk to school, you raised your arms and watched a new bruise forming

it was a truly beautiful sight but the stiffness and hurt weighed it down

this was your only form of communication with your soulmate and you were sad bc you wanted to be there for him and help heal his bruises and scars

one of your friends suggested a crazy thought of hurting yourself to write a small message which you instantly turned down bc thats too crazy and you will not do that

as the years went on, you were starting to get more worried each day that you wont be meeting your soulmate soon

for almost 6 years, youve wandered over to every athletic club in your school or nearby schools to find if there was even a person who had the same bruises as you

ngl, some lied just bc they wanted you as their soulmate uwu

one of your classmates in seijoh, iwaizumi hajime, has understood your dilemma since he was one of the ones youve expressed this concern to

youve been classmates for 3 years and youve always been coincidentally sat next to each other so youre close

i really cant resist my mans

‘y/n, i really think your soulmate is a volleyball player’

you rolled your eyes as you continued taking out your bento

‘iwa, ive checked your team, multiple times, and none of them are my soulmate! ive even checked other schools too since my brothers have connections there. but still nothing’

he felt bad for you, truly

he already found his when yall started high school, almost immediately, and you were so jealous

‘but those bruises on your arm can only be from volleyball. the way its placed, its like receiving an intense ball while the fingers might be because he spikes the ball’

you sighed before leaning your chin on your hand

‘okay, great buddha iwa-chan. enlighten me as to why you think so’

his eye twitched at the ridiculous nickname

‘y/n, im a volleyball player. ive been playing since i was like 6 and im the ace. i have those same exact bruises’

‘WHAT! IWA-CHAN ARE YOU MY SOULMATE?!’

‘YOU IDIOT I ALREADY HAVE MINE!’

but you mulled it over for a few days

yea, it would make sense, right?

but it still doesnt add up that youve literally visited every single club around with the help of being iwa’s friend and going to their matches

however,

due to karasuno not having practice matches w seijoh or not advancing far enough to play against them, youve never really interacted with that team

besides, the times they actually played against each other, youve been busy due to having to do interships, part time jobs, and studying since it was your last year of high school

it was during the second interhigh that iwa finally got you to go watch them play

‘come on, y/n. shittykawa misses you and matsun and maki keep demanding your support’

‘iwa, what-’

so you found yourself at the stands, just watching the games until seijoh actually plays

then you saw the team, known as karasuno, enter the gym to start their warm-ups

your heart started beating really fast and you were kinda freaking out bc what was happening

‘siri am i having a stroke?’

daichi was feeling the same thing

he thought it was just the adrenaline of playing a game but in all of his years of play8ing volleyball, he hasnt felt this intense beating of his heart

he even had to lean on suga for support bc it felt like his heart was going to jump out of his chest

‘daichi, you okay?’

suga worriedly asked and placed a hand on his forehead to check his temp

daisuga rights yall

he didnt want to worry the team so he nodded, just waving it off

he was captain so he shouldnt worry the others

oikawa and iwa entered the stands and were confused as to why you were looking around with wide eyes like an owl

fukurodani vibes

‘y/n-chan, what’s wrong?’

oikawa asked and you looked at them, surprised and shocked

they were lowkey freaked out bc what was happening

‘oikawa-san, my heart-’

you mumbled and pointed to your chest

his smile wobbled bc you just started at him and it was starting to scare him a bit

since oikawa hasnt found his soulmate yet, he wasnt familiar with the feeling of being in the same vicinity as his other half

but iwa did

and he was smiling

‘you owe me so much, y/n’

‘IWA! I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO DIE!’

karasuno was going against johzenji and daichi wasnt exactly in his best game

to others, he looked like he was doing great but he wasnt feeling good and the beat of his heart was still very fast

this distraction caused him and tanaka to collide and everything went to hell

the entire time, your arms were crying and you were just sweating from the pain but you were also sweating w the possibility of your soulmate being either in johzenji or karasuno

but that was answered when daichi got hurt and you just collapsed, also falling unconscious

iwa, who returned from getting drinks, ran to your slumped form and oikawa, who was focused on the match and didnt notice, shrieked at your unconscious form

‘y/n? y/n, wake up’

everyone in the stands stared at your unconscious form and they started talking, eventually catching the attention of the karasuno team

suga, who was fussing over daichi, heard that a girl also fell unconscious

omg what if

oikawa was grinning at the sight of your bruised cheek bc you finally found your soulmate so you would shut up about it

iwa carried you to the nurse and you actually woke up as he placed you on the bed, conviently beside the karasuno captain

‘w-what-’

but he only smiled

‘congratulations, y/n’

bih what

congratulations for what

the nurse went over from beside daichi and she giggled at the meeting of soulmates

you sat up, wincing at the pain in your tooth

‘ow’

that caught daichi’s attention and he stared at you and your arms before looking at his

they were the exact same

‘i think,,,, i think we’re soulmates’

that made you quickly look at him and noticed the big bruise on his face that was like copy paste on you

‘oh god!’

you cowered and had your hands over your mouth in surprise

he froze, starting to feel insecure that he wasnt what you wanted

‘is something wrong-’

‘you’re HOT!!’

you shrieked unconsciously and when you finally realized it, you hurriedly pulled the blanket over your form

lmao gurl noooooo

daichi started laughing and he thought you were cute

straightforward

but cute

‘oi, come on. i want to see your pretty face’

yes police officer. this is the man who stole my uwus

you peaked your head out from your blanket cocoon and he smiled softly

‘i’m sawamura daichi, by the way. 3rd year’

‘l-l/n y/n. same y-year’

‘so? you expected me to be this?’

you shook your head

‘i mean, iwa told me you could be a volleyball player. but i didnt expect the universe to like me enough to give me a greek god as my soulmate’

im disowning y/n yall

he turned flustered and looked away to hide his blush

‘youre not too bad yourself, you know. youre actually more beautiful than i thought’

‘sir! dont say that to me i be catching feelings way too fast for that!’

i-i cannot w you

he laughed out loud before wincing, causing you to wince too

‘but are you okay, though? i mean,, it must hurt’

but you shook your head

‘i should be asking you that. does it hurt as much as it looks?’

‘nah, its bearable’

you continued talking about your childhood and you actually clarified that you were just rambunctious when you were younger so you got hurt pretty often

‘i really thought you needed to be saved or something’

you smirked

‘oh? my prince charming? knight-in-shining-armor? knight prince daichi?’

he stared at you, a blush creeping up again

‘are you always this bold?’

you shrugged

‘meh. im friends w oikawa tooru’

‘oh. makes sense’

lmao

you both completely forgot about the fact that his face literally got hurt and his tooth was gone bc you have been talking like two best friends who got separated

but you had to separate at some point too

the beautiful manager entered the clinic and asked if daichi was okay enough

‘yea, im fine. i can go now, i guess’

you nodded sadly

‘okay. bye, daichi’

he furrowed his eyebrows

‘but wait for me later, okay? ill treat you to something after i win this match’

from your bed, you crossed your arm with a smug smile

‘oh? youre confident, captain’

‘of course. ill win bc this victory is for you’

you bashfully smiled and chuckled

‘go hurry and win! i expect that date as soon as possible, captain!’

the deadchi memes are literally scaring the new fans and i feel really bad

bruh hes so cute for what

for his entire life, he had the sofia the first song stuck in his head

it was maybe bc his soulmate was in love w that show or just in love w the song

but either way, he constantly hears it and thinks about it

meanwhile you,

you constantly heard bye bye bye by nsync

of all things, it had to be a boy band

however, you were lucky bc for years it varied on what song would be playing

but for him, it continued to be sofia the first

this drived him to watch the show and he did see the appeal and soon, he started singing it too

omg its such a bop

you were triggered bc the song then switched over to sofia the first and you were like, ‘does he like it too?’

you would be going around the store, holding your mom’s hand, and singing it out loud, hoping to find your soulmate

but he never seemed to hear it

instead, hearing the song in your voice, instead of the show’s

he thought you had such a beautiful voice

then in elementary school, his bullying started and ngl, he was actually hurt by the words other kids said

he still had his cute smile on and acted like it didnt bother by teasing others but he was still sad

did nobody like him?

was he always going to look like a monster?

would you be revolted if you saw him?

then he heard this song in the radio ‘dear insecurity’ and he just couldnt help but keep listening to it

ofc you noticed and you were sad that he was listening to such sad song

he was insecure and you couldnt do anything about it

then you started looking up motivating songs and you started singing the one that you really liked

‘i see your monsters, i see your pain, tell me your problems, i’ll chase them away’

he heard your voice as he was hiding behind the school building and his tears instantly stopped, hearing a different song but he couldnt help but smile

he knew that song was for him

you were out there somewhere and a complete stranger to him but you were the only person who seemed to care

because under that teasing and cheerful personality, he was still human and he was very insecure about himself

but you were always there to encourage him, your voice instantly chasing all the fears away

when he started playing volleyball, he became famous for his efficient blocks and you could hear him singing different songs, all of them just under a minute

you concluded that they were his own songs

sometimes, you laughed bc they were funny songs and catchy so you would memorize it and sing it back to him

this was your only way of communicating back of forth and you were so lucky that you even got to hear your soulmate’s voice

then high school started, meaning your friends started meeting their soulmates one by one until you were the only one who didnt

your school, karasuno, had no one that had the same voice as your soulmate’s

some people even saw you as an extrovert and a people person since you started conversations with strangers easily but this was just your way of finding your other half

with no luck, you started singing your concerns

in no time, ‘thousand miles’ was playing on loop in tendou’s head and he was already feeling your antsy attitude

in retaliation, he starts singing ‘lucky’ by jason mraz and you always turned red, slightly happy that he was practically calling out to you

so even though you suffered through years being alone, you didnt give up on hope and continued your search

now, youd be asking, ‘why cant you or tendou just sing each other’s location?’

yes, young grasshopper, there is an explanation to that

you and tendou collectively agreed to let fate do its work and just wait for the time it happens bc if its meant to be, its meant to be

besides, tendou likes to tease you and he wants to make you wait for him so that the moment you do meet, it would become more special

in your last year of high school, you ended up helping kiyoko in being manager and you were so proud of these boys for making it to the finals

you were excitedly waving an orange flag in support of your team and you screamed with the others as they entered the court

you and yacchi ended up helping tanaka’s sister, saeko, and was setting up the plan for their cheers so you werent exactly focused on your soulmate

but tendou did keep hearing a fight song in your head

then they walked in

shiratorizawa made their presence known and you turned to look at them but locked eyes at the unique looking player

his red hair glinted against the bright lights of the gym and his smirk curled in such an attractive way that you were leaning forward to get a closer look

tendou noticed a stare at him and he saw your surprised yet flustered look

that eye contact made everything fall deaf in your ears and you just heard silence

no song, no cheer, just absolute silence

but you and tendou are practically the same so you thought for the worse that your soulmate has died bc of the silence

dread filled your stomach and you started singing sofia the first in instinct

your mouth moved with the words and you shut your eyes, trying to calm yourself down

his jaw dropped, hearing the familiar voice and song that correlated with your mouth’s movements

‘there you are, little birdie’

semi turned to tendou and saw him with a smile hes never seen before

it was so soft and genuine that he got a little scared

the entire game, you were all depressed bc it continued to be silent in your head

tendou was just teasing you a little bit and he didnt want to think or sing a song bc he wanted it to be a special cliche reunion after he crushes your team

but his famous song ruined it

it blared in your head and it got 2x bass boosted when he sang it out loud, completely disregarding the fact that everyone was listening

‘you!’

you shrieked and pointed to him

he was your soulmate

and he was alive

not dead

everyone, including all players, looked at confusion between you and him but he just waved at you

‘ill talk to you later, little birdie!’

great, he embarrassed you in front of everyone

but you didnt care bc omg he was your soulmate!!

‘omg universe and fate, you actually like me to give me such a handsome soulmate!’

now, youre actually cheering on both teams

one was your home school the other was your soulmate

however,

there could only be one winner

and that winner was karasuno

you noticed the defeated looks of your soulmate and his teammates and you almost bursted into tears

you quickly maneuvered yourself through the people and found the familiar spiky hair standing at the doorway, looking at the gym with a forlorn expression

the others noticed you there, especially ushijima who gave you a nod and a small smile

‘i trust you’ll take care of him’

you nodded shakily, raising a hand in salute

‘y-yes!’

you approached him and his teary eyes almost made you bolt into his arms but you calmed yourself

instead, you didnt say anything

but you did sing

‘come stop your crying, it will be alright. just take my hand, and hold it tight. i will protect you, from all around you. i will be here, dont you cry.’

tendou looked to his side and saw you there, not looking at him but also looking at the same direction he was previously

‘my name is tendou satori’

despite already hearing his voice, you still turned red and you looked at him, warmth and love present in your eyes

‘and i’m l/n y/n’

‘you have a beautiful voice’

‘and you are beautiful’

that ending for shiratorizawa physically and emotionally and mentally broke me

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Why do you like Jar Jar so much, if its ok to ask! I see so much hate for him and I am sort of indifferent about him myself.

I've touched base on it a little before but don't mind getting into it again! AND ITS TOTALLY OK TO ASK!! I love talking 🥺🥺

Okay so I grew up in a small town in Oklahoma outside of OKC. Like, the only thing that matters to most people there is OU Football (BOOMER SOONER), when the next tornado season is going to start (we lost two home to two of the biggest ones in the states history when I was growing up), and the kids sports. ALLLL the kids stuff. See, I played softball and cheered and all that junk. I think I was about 8-9 when this happened- still in elementary for sure- but I thought it would be okay to share my love of star wars (as big then as it is now) with some of my friends that came over after one of our many games. WELL I thought it went okay, until I went to school the next day and a lot of my little girlfriends decided to make fun of me about it, calling me a boy and weird and just terrible things. Hearing then make fun of something that me and my entire family loved really, really hurt me and so it was a bit of a struggle for a few days there. I was already going through enough at a young age so the added new discovery of friends being big assholes to a young girl just blows my mind. Well see, what these girls didn't bank on was me telling my mother, a very direct woman who takes no shit when it comes to their kids, and her going directly to the parents at our practice one day and asking them you know "wtf can we do about this situation to make it not a big deal.", with my passive dad in tow.

And I get and totally support some of the arguments these other moms said like "well kids dont have to like the same things!" and all that. But there is a fine line between not enjoying the same books and shows, and sending a little girl home crying everyday because you can't stop picking on her about it. And my mom said that multiple times, BUT as a lot of you could guess it made no difference. Eventually mom just gave up, told me to stay away from the little brats right in front of their parents, and we went home.

And now onto the Binkster love. I remember sitting with my dad later that night. And as I have said and shown a few people before, my dad is basically the living embodiment of Tech: little hyperfixated nerd man who gets awkward but caring. We were just watching the Phantom Menace together, and he always does the gungan voices to make us laugh. And it was just really nice to have that. And we talked about how JarJar was this weirdo outcast, even to the gungans, but he ended up being a very important part of the trilogy and to anakin and padme and a great friend. Despite some(most of the fandom) people not liking him, he's still there. And through all the scoffing he gets from Obi Wan, Qui-Gon, and basically everyone else in the galaxy, he still did what he could for his friends and never cared about the rude people he encountered. Anyway... cheesy and lame but that memory of being with my usually awkward and silent dad became one of the most important things to develop me as the person I am today. Thus, making JarJar important and a lifelong love was formed!

And for those of you wondering what happened to the mean and rude girls I was friends with, possibly hoping they ended up miserarble and sad. Nope! All 6 of us (known as the 6 pack(derogatory/affectionately) by teachers) grew up together, finished school, and had a a lot of ups and downs as friends. We all realized slowly that some of us like certain things while others don't, and thats okay! The girl who initially initiated the bullying actually came to visit me 2 years ago here in Orlando and the best time we had was going to HS to show her Galaxy's Edge

I genuinely just never, ever will make fun of something another person likes. Even if its not my own personal cup of tea. Why waste the energy? Im gonna siit here with my cup full of Gungan Swampwater and be happy!

#tw bullying

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